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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Larry Drummer on February 05, 2011, 01:02:00 AM
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It all started around 8 yrs ago. I picked up a free sleeve of promo Grizzley to give to a friend of mine that I thought might want it...(some friend I was huh). He turned me on to trying it, and I remember the head rush the first time made me dizzy and buzzed until I felt like I was about to puke... So later I tried it again, then again.
Later down the road, a golfing buddy of mine turned me on to Skoal Mint. I remember enjoying the taste of that after doing the Grizzley garbage. I was graduating to a 'cadillac dip'. Next thing I was buying it regularly. Even the pouches so I could take them in and out as I was traveling and making alot of stops. Then the pouches didn't do it for me anymore, and was too rough on my gums so I sticked with the Long Cut Skoal Mint.
I never thought I was addicted or hooked, because I haven't tried to stop. My wife of 5 years now, never like it but tollerated it to an extent. Then she began to tell me how my teeth were turning brown, and my breath stunk, and she didn't really ever want to seem to kiss me on the mouth. Along came our son, then a few years later our daughter. I was cool and happy go dippy!
She would ask me if I wanted to be around to see them graduate...the nerve of her to give me the guilt trip right? I would get mad at her for carring. And of course after you got mad, you wanted a fatty.
I would tell her I'll quit on New Years...Then on my birthday...then on my Son's birthday...the same ol' excuses.
Eventually, I would come to a point where I would wake up in the morning. Put one in, then jump in the shower...then pretty much have one in all day. Unless I was eating, or maybe an occasional 10 min. break. I managed to stretch a can over 2-3 days.
My gums would sometimes hurt and I'd use my tongue to move the dip over to the other side and that side would soon began hurting too. I would move the dip side to side to see which felt the most tollerable, then go with it.
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! I'm quitting (3 days now into it) I'm not gonna let this bitch own me. I'm not going to have my son watch me and mock spitting noises anymore. I'm not going to fill my cars and home with nasty ass spit cans, cups, bottles. I'm going to take back control and pray that I haven't done enough damage already to my teeth and gums.. The can will tell you right on it how it can give you cancer, tooth loss, gum disease, possible death? Wake up Larry fucking Drummer and smell the coffee. I think stumbeling across KTC with a dip in my mouth a couple of nights ago is going to prove to be my best move yet of 2011. I'm 38 yrs old and my days of dipping are done! Who's with me?
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It all started around 8 yrs ago. I picked up a free sleeve of promo Grizzley to give to a friend of mine that I thought might want it...(some friend I was huh). He turned me on to trying it, and I remember the head rush the first time made me dizzy and buzzed until I felt like I was about to puke... So later I tried it again, then again.
Later down the road, a golfing buddy of mine turned me on to Skoal Mint. I remember enjoying the taste of that after doing the Grizzley garbage. I was graduating to a 'cadillac dip'. Next thing I was buying it regularly. Even the pouches so I could take them in and out as I was traveling and making alot of stops. Then the pouches didn't do it for me anymore, and was too rough on my gums so I sticked with the Long Cut Skoal Mint.
I never thought I was addicted or hooked, because I haven't tried to stop. My wife of 5 years now, never like it but tollerated it to an extent. Then she began to tell me how my teeth were turning brown, and my breath stunk, and she didn't really ever want to seem to kiss me on the mouth. Along came our son, then a few years later our daughter. I was cool and happy go dippy!
She would ask me if I wanted to be around to see them graduate...the nerve of her to give me the guilt trip right? I would get mad at her for carring. And of course after you got mad, you wanted a fatty.
I would tell her I'll quit on New Years...Then on my birthday...then on my Son's birthday...the same ol' excuses.
Eventually, I would come to a point where I would wake up in the morning. Put one in, then jump in the shower...then pretty much have one in all day. Unless I was eating, or maybe an occasional 10 min. break. I managed to stretch a can over 2-3 days.
My gums would sometimes hurt and I'd use my tongue to move the dip over to the other side and that side would soon began hurting too. I would move the dip side to side to see which felt the most tollerable, then go with it.
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! I'm quitting (3 days now into it) I'm not gonna let this bitch own me. I'm not going to have my son watch me and mock spitting noises anymore. I'm not going to fill my cars and home with nasty ass spit cans, cups, bottles. I'm going to take back control and pray that I haven't done enough damage already to my teeth and gums.. The can will tell you right on it how it can give you cancer, tooth loss, gum disease, possible death? Wake up Larry fucking Drummer and smell the coffee. I think stumbeling across KTC with a dip in my mouth a couple of nights ago is going to prove to be my best move yet of 2011. I'm 38 yrs old and my days of dipping are done! Who's with me?
I'm 36 and I'm with you. I'm Skoal Long Cut Straight's bitch. I'm disgusted with myself and hope you are too.
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i just hit 90 days and i promise you can do it if you embrace the process!
I was @ 2 cans a day and had a 10 year habit of Copenhagen long cut. Funny thing is I now feel quit (FINALLY) and have started addressing many other issues in my life since I quit.
It was a spiritual process for me but well worth it and please hang in there brother!
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Nice first post Larry and welcome to the site. It was good to see you on chat last night also. That's a great way to meet and get to know the people on the site.
The can controlled us all for many years, but no more! We're bringing the nic bitch to her knees one day at a time.
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Welcome aboard. Good post. Post roll everyday and make a point to help others as they join the site. Job well done.
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Good stuff Larry, welcome to the quit with us
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Well done Larry. Sounds like a great beginning for your hall of fame speech. My story is similar to yours. Just remember the "why" in all of this. Remember the thoughts of leaving your wife and kids because the cancer finally got you. When the craves come, use that sword in the battle. I think of my son or daughter asking "Why Daddy?" when I have to tell them I'm dying because I was selfish. Because I liked dipping too much to stop so I could be there for them. Proud to be quit with you. And know that it does get so much better!
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glad you're here and honored to quit with you sir
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I with you, LD. You're right...this is the best move you've ever made.
Read the Kern Family story, read the Contract, read everything you can on this site. Post roll, keep your word, and live free.
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Bump. 'bang head'
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After being here for 500 days and seeing all of the stories, you should know: Addicts and Addiction do not change.
What makes you think that you are immune to caving when so many others have failed after drifting?
Why would you want to take the chance?
Roy Jester took the chance.
nocope took the chance
tchildy took the chance
chaos took the chance
xander24 took the chance
gelas took the chance
xrmatt took the chance
steveo took the chance
swj took the chance
rollnheavy took the chance
crazyaces took the chance
colonel no cope took the chance
snoborder took the chance
nomorecanman took the chance
wastepanel took the chance.
redrooster took the chance.
Ask them how it worked out.
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Even at 500 days she was still whispering in your ear. She was pulling tight on the rope. You were starting to listen. Addiction works in strange ways. Even after this long.
Glad you didn't listen. She was wearing a disguise called complacency. She almost tricked you into believing that you had this shit beaten. You did have it beaten yesterday, but today is a new battle, just like tomorrow will be.
Never turn your back on what got you here or where you came from, least you will forget who you are now.
Glad you came to your senses with the 503. I expect a 504 tomorrow.
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I quit with you Larry!
Never again, for any reason Brother!
Miles - 470