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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: jabr on September 14, 2014, 04:36:00 PM
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I've read all the WoW posts. I've read a lot of the Intro's.
What can I say? I'm just like a pretty high percent of the rest of y'all.
-Buddy gave me a dip in about 7th grade.
-By the time we were 16 and could drive, that was it. Been dipping on and off (very, VERY little off) ever since.
-Never really had to worry about hiding it. Ex wife didn't care. But I've got friends that have been hiding it from their families for years. That's really got to suck and I feel for them.
-My biggest problem in the last few years is snuff is just about everywhere I look. All 6 guys that work for me dip. Four of five coworkers on my level dip.
I've stopped before. Once for several months if not 1.5-2 yr. I think the problem was that I never grasped that the craving and triggers would never completely subside. I learned that here last week. And now I better understand what I'm up against, which simplifies it for me.
I quit on August 14. I ran out on the 13th after a field day and said, "that's it". Really no premeditation to it. I guess I'm not young anymore. I've got a lot of aches and pains that don't go away now. I think that has given me a glimpse of my own mortality. The snuff had to go!!
I survived til 25 before I found KTC. Posted roll every day since 28.
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Awesome job on the quit.
KTC will be the nail in the coffin of your addiction if you buy in all the way. It gets better. trust me. The craves do get far less in frequency and duration.
If you want some more reading, read your quit group from the beginning and december 2014, lots of wisdom dropped in that group early on.
Holler if you need anything!
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Congrats on the quit, and smart decision coming to KTC.
I did a similar thing — survived till about Day 70 on my own, stumbled onto KTC and joined. Glad I did because I'm not sure my quit would have made it the last couple weeks without this crew. When I joined, my thought process was similar to how you described yours the first time you stopped: thinking you could quit and eventually things would be fine, life would be easier and you wouldn't even crave it.
I figured by Day 70 I was "really quit" and I was even considering getting a cigar to celebrate my friend's job offer, thinking, "Well it's not dip or cigarettes!" Obviously I know cigars have tobacco and nicotine as well ... I don't know how I even tried justifying that to myself.
My point is: KTC will whip you into shape. Any hesitations you have, any "hopes" or "tries" or "maybes" — they'll knock 'em right out of your addict mouth. We're here to quit, not pussy around and talk about how much we miss putting cancer dirt in our mouths.
PM me if you need anything. I quit with you today, and EDD.
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awesome intro jabr. 30 year is absolutely spot on here. You have what it takes and KTC will keep you fueled up. Awesome job on your own, not many can do what you have done. Quit with ya today.
Mogul
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2nd floor, congratulations!
Bad ass April Ape support.
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2nd floor, congratulations!
Bad ass April Ape support.
Dude... Congrats on the two hundy!
Quit with you EDD ODAAT.
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2nd floor, congratulations!
Bad ass April Ape support.
Dude... Congrats on the two hundy!
Quit with you EDD ODAAT.
Congrats on finding the key to the 2nd floor! Keep on quitting.
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2nd floor, congratulations!
Bad ass April Ape support.
Dude... Congrats on the two hundy!
Quit with you EDD ODAAT.
Congrats on finding the key to the 2nd floor! Keep on quitting.
200!! Well done sir! Proud to quit with you!
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Nice 200 man! 'oh yeah'
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Congratulations Jabr. The May 2015 Misfits appreciate the time you take to support us in our quits.
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Damn, thanks for all the well wishes. I can't believe trigerhapy dug my Intro out of the pile.
I looked for it one day a few months ago. I really regret not adding to it as my quit progressed. There's so much I've forgotten. I want to try and post something in my Intro more consistently between 200 and 300. Maybe that will jog the memory a little because I definitely do not want to forget where I've bern.
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I really want to get some of this information recorded so I don't forget the early days. This post will serve as an updated Introduction.
Most everyone had stopped dipping before. I was no different. But this time, I probably hadn't seriously considered quitting until I actually quit. I found KTC at day 25. I had just spent a weekend at a football game with a good friend who was/is a hardcore dipper. By the time we'd driven home on Sunday, I was going out of my mind and was ready to punch my buddy. I was looking for any type of relief. I found KTC when I needed it most. I have this username I don't like because I just threw a profile together really quickly to join and get full access to the site. I posted day 25 on that Sunday night. I didn't come back until Wednesday. At that point, I started reading some more on the site, so I posted day 28, and I've been 100% ever since.
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I really want to get some of this information recorded so I don't forget the early days. This post will serve as an updated Introduction.
Most everyone had stopped dipping before. I was no different. But this time, I probably hadn't seriously considered quitting until I actually quit. I found KTC at day 25. I had just spent a weekend at a football game with a good friend who was/is a hardcore dipper. By the time we'd driven home on Sunday, I was going out of my mind and was ready to punch my buddy. I was looking for any type of relief. I found KTC when I needed it most. I have this username I don't like because I just threw a profile together really quickly to join and get full access to the site. I posted day 25 on that Sunday night. I didn't come back until Wednesday. At that point, I started reading some more on the site, so I posted day 28, and I've been 100% ever since.
Join us topic/10877677/ (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/10877677/)
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Just dropping this here so I'll have it.
My buddy woodytx asked me to post this in May. It's a text exchange between me and him from this weekend.
woodytx: We lost a member yesterday, went on a boy's trip of the worst kind which I have said from day 1 is a bad idea for new quitters. Now MIA
jabr: Damn, I was gonna ask you about that before I saw your text. I saw you got after him pretty hard. As you should. So he really dangled a wad of leaf tobacco over his mouth and some "fell" in?
woodytx: Yeah I could be wrong but it sounds like when my 7 yo lies to me, kind of obvious. Particularly after hiding out on a ski trip. Odds are he is buried in a bag of red man.
jabr: He was destined to fail. That shit is so addictive, quitting has to be your absolute top priority early on. At day 200, there are still some situations I'll avoid if I can get away with it. Just to lessen the danger.
jabr: (I know a dude) who has quit 5+ times since I quit. "Had a bad day", "went hunting", "was bored". Says he's not addicted. Dude is one of the smartest humans I know. But not on this one.
woodytx: (I canceled a trip) this month and another in May because I know that I cannot handle it.
jabr: Good for you. It doesn't make you a wuss. It means you're serious about quitting and you're mindful of triggers that might hurt your quit.
woodytx: Everywhere I saw that phrase "make quit your top priority" so I said okay, if that's what it takes then that's what we are doing
jabr: One more, then I'll leave your Sunday in peace. The bottom line is this takes a tremendous effort. One reason I feel so indebted to KTC is I never realized stuff like that. There's so many things that are just obvious now that I never knew. Then it just clicks. And I get to do it with guys like you and tons of others that are serious too.
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What's more important to you? Having fun for a few hours this weekend and caving and having to post up a day 1? Or skipping a trip here and there, staying quit, and living another 30 years?
It cannot be understated that your quit has to be top priority. It's that damn hard. And it's that damn important. And when you get to that day when you say, "whew, that was rough, but I think I can relax a little", you have reached the point where you better redouble your effort on quitting. Quitting may not require top billing in your life forever. But it may. That will vary among people.
If you get complacent, it's like the FCS team that's up a field goal on [insert your favorite regional power school because I'm not opening that can of worms] at halftime. They're jumping around, chest thumping, joyous at their performance in the first half. Then what happens? Big boys come out after halftime and the FCS team loses by 30. You've got to finish the game. Nicotine is just waiting for you to let up a little. She'll beat your ass in the ground before you even realize what hit you, and you'll wonder how the hell it happened.
Quit on, May.
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You know, I really didn't think about my ex wife or that marathon divorce when I quit dipping last summer. I was focused more on managing my job responsibilities, and that's what put the quit in motion.
But, as I've thought about it, I know I would've never quit if she hadn't left. There was a time in 2011 when I lost 20 lb in 2 weeks. I went 96 hours straight one time without sleeping. And, of course, I had a dip in most of that time.
During all that, I don't ever remember thinking or saying "I hope this shit kills me so I can have some relief". But I do remember thinking, "damn son, you've got to slow down on the snuff" and then thinking "screw it, I don't care if it kills me or not".
Those were some dark times. It was hard to keep perspective on things when it seems like everything you did turned to shit.
That's part of how I quit dip. Last summer was real stressful because we wereshorthanded. I felt like I was living on coffee and Copenhagen and finally said, "no job is worth killing yourself for and that shit is killing you". I put the can down one morning and here I am.
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300 days brother! Congratulations on 3rd floor!
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300 days brother! Congratulations on 3rd floor!
Congrats Brother. 300 is BA.
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You know, I really didn't think about my ex wife or that marathon divorce when I quit dipping last summer. I was focused more on managing my job responsibilities, and that's what put the quit in motion.
But, as I've thought about it, I know I would've never quit if she hadn't left. There was a time in 2011 when I lost 20 lb in 2 weeks. I went 96 hours straight one time without sleeping. And, of course, I had a dip in most of that time.
During all that, I don't ever remember thinking or saying "I hope this shit kills me so I can have some relief". But I do remember thinking, "damn son, you've got to slow down on the snuff" and then thinking "screw it, I don't care if it kills me or not".
Those were some dark times. It was hard to keep perspective on things when it seems like everything you did turned to shit.
That's part of how I quit dip. Last summer was real stressful because we wereshorthanded. I felt like I was living on coffee and Copenhagen and finally said, "no job is worth killing yourself for and that shit is killing you". I put the can down one morning and here I am.
Man, how did I miss this one from Jabr. This s is says it perfect. Don't forget the beers at home to come down from the Copenhagen and coffee-one thing leads to another. Then, just being a general dick to the people who cared most because I was disappointed with myself. Good to see I'm not alone!
Congrats on 300 days - keep it going.
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You know, I really didn't think about my ex wife or that marathon divorce when I quit dipping last summer. I was focused more on managing my job responsibilities, and that's what put the quit in motion.
But, as I've thought about it, I know I would've never quit if she hadn't left. There was a time in 2011 when I lost 20 lb in 2 weeks. I went 96 hours straight one time without sleeping. And, of course, I had a dip in most of that time.
During all that, I don't ever remember thinking or saying "I hope this shit kills me so I can have some relief". But I do remember thinking, "damn son, you've got to slow down on the snuff" and then thinking "screw it, I don't care if it kills me or not".
Those were some dark times. It was hard to keep perspective on things when it seems like everything you did turned to shit.
That's part of how I quit dip. Last summer was real stressful because we wereshorthanded. I felt like I was living on coffee and Copenhagen and finally said, "no job is worth killing yourself for and that shit is killing you". I put the can down one morning and here I am.
Man, how did I miss this one from Jabr. This s is says it perfect. Don't forget the beers at home to come down from the Copenhagen and coffee-one thing leads to another. Then, just being a general dick to the people who cared most because I was disappointed with myself. Good to see I'm not alone!
Congrats on 300 days - keep it going.
congrats on 300 bro! Awesome to watch you own this. Proud to be quit with you.
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Nice post!!! 300 is solid, proud to quit with you brother
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I'm just glad you're an SCQer and in my quit corner. Quit on Jabr and Go Hogs.
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Congratulations on your first of many trips around the sun bro. Keep up the good quit and rock on.
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Congratulations on your first of many trips around the sun bro. Keep up the good quit and rock on.
Congrats on a year Jabr! There's something magical about being quit for a year. Thanks for your support dude.
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Congratulations on your first of many trips around the sun bro. Keep up the good quit and rock on.
Congrats on a year Jabr! There's something magical about being quit for a year. Thanks for your support dude.
1 year man, congrats!!!
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Congratulations on your first of many trips around the sun bro. Keep up the good quit and rock on.
Congrats on a year Jabr! There's something magical about being quit for a year. Thanks for your support dude.
1 year man, congrats!!!
Congrats on the year, Jabr, and thanks for the support posts for the newbies. You're there day in and day out for us and it's not overlooked.
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And a touch over a month later, congrats on 400 Jabr! Keep it going and love your support of the newer quitters.
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And a touch over a month later, congrats on 400 Jabr! Keep it going and love your support of the newer quitters.
400! Congrats man!
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And a touch over a month later, congrats on 400 Jabr! Keep it going and love your support of the newer quitters.
400! Congrats man!
Congrats Jabr, 400 is huge!
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STUD
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Happy 400 to my quit brother!
ODAAT, EDD
Now get yourself straightened out, so you can lift that heavy weight! Haha
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Awesome half comma!!!
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Awesome half comma!!!
500 is awesome! Congratulations my brother!
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Congrats on 800, Jason!!
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Congrats on 800, Jason!!
Congrats on the 8th floor!
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Congrats on 800, Jason!!
Congrats on the 8th floor!
Congrats Jabr!
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Congrats on 800, Jason!!
Congrats on the 8th floor!
Congrats Jabr!
Congratulations on the 8th floor!
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Congrats on 1000 days man!