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Title: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 22, 2014, 11:53:00 AM
I was a slave to Skoal straight since I was in high school. I switched to pouches a few years back, telling myself they were "safer". Then I said I would quit on my 40th bday, but of course that came and went. Now my 41st is creeping up. I am on day 4 and it's been rough. But here I am standing strong. I can do this!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: rdad on October 22, 2014, 12:08:00 PM
You're damn right you can do this Gooch! If I did, you can. The secret is to learn how and why we post roll and do it everyday. Make friends that you can lean on. There is a lot of support here for you if you reach out for it. Welcome. I will be looking for your roll post in January 15'.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 22, 2014, 12:12:00 PM
I finally figured out how to post roll and just did it. I couldn't figure out how to cut and paste with my new phone
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Post by: starr_78 on October 22, 2014, 12:19:00 PM
Quote from: gooch44
I finally figured out how to post roll and just did it. I couldn't figure out how to cut and paste with my new phone
Good job Gooch! Proud to have you aboard with KTC. It is a really easy formula for quitting nicotine of all forms. Post roll everyday stating to the entire site and all of the members you are not going to use any form of nicotine for that day, and then stick by your word and do exactly that. We take this ODAAT (One Day At A Time) You can as well.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: brettlees on October 22, 2014, 12:22:00 PM
Plenty of time to figure out computer/phone intricacies, the important thing is that you are QUIT! nice job getting this far-- one day at at time from here on out, it really adds up. There will be rough patches, but being on day 4 you are through a critical part- your body is clean of the nicotine! and you've made it through 4 challenges! you can take whatever comes your way. Keep it up, make friends here (that's critical, they really help) and learn all you can about the addiction- that helps with motivation and you need to know the enemy. Proud to quit with you Gooch!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 22, 2014, 12:27:00 PM
Thanks to u all! I appreciate the encouragement. Day 3 was the hardest so far. I felt like punching a hole through the wall. Exercising has helped and I went with another members advice and got some fake chew. It kinda feels like cheating but it helped a lot yesterday.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: AppleJack on October 22, 2014, 12:34:00 PM
This is good stuff man!
The key to your survival is wrapping your head around the one day at a time mindset. Today has enough trouble of its own... Concentrate on it instead of looking too far ahead. Each day brings your true freedom into sharper and sharper focus. Everything you need to succeed is already mapped out for you... Follow the trail we've blazed.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: 30isEnuff on October 22, 2014, 01:23:00 PM
Quote from: gooch44
Thanks to u all! I appreciate the encouragement. Day 3 was the hardest so far. I felt like punching a hole through the wall. Exercising has helped and I went with another members advice and got some fake chew. It kinda feels like cheating but it helped a lot yesterday.
welcome goochie.
You made it to the quittin' school.
read up everyday. learn about the poison and what it really is.
we keep it simple here because it works.
Post roll EDD your feet hit the floor or after you piss.
Honor your word..your word is good right?
Wake and repeat...
We do it ODAAT and NAFAR, period
This site is powerful. The weapons are here for you to slay nictotine one day at a time, one minute at a time if need be.
Whatever it takes to "not" put the poison in your mouth Today.
It gets better and easier. I promise.
Glad you're here.
Cheers.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: OSAGE on October 22, 2014, 03:52:00 PM
Quote from: gooch44
Thanks to u all! I appreciate the encouragement. Day 3 was the hardest so far. I felt like punching a hole through the wall. Exercising has helped and I went with another members advice and got some fake chew. It kinda feels like cheating but it helped a lot yesterday.
Keep it up!! Read as much as you can on KTC. There is so much information and bad ass quitters. Use it.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Scowick65 on October 22, 2014, 03:55:00 PM
Quote from: osage
Quote from: gooch44
Thanks to u all! I appreciate the encouragement. Day 3 was the hardest so far. I felt like punching a hole through the wall. Exercising has helped and I went with another members advice and got some fake chew. It kinda feels like cheating but it helped a lot yesterday.
Keep it up!! Read as much as you can on KTC. There is so much information and bad ass quitters. Use it.
nice job!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Spence249 on October 22, 2014, 07:53:00 PM
Welcome to the nuthouse Gooch! There's alot here to help you quit, curb your craves or just pass the time. Welcome aboard!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Grizzlyhasclaws on October 22, 2014, 08:02:00 PM
Good job gooch. You are doing this!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Dagranger on October 22, 2014, 08:42:00 PM
Quote from: Scowick65
Quote from: osage
Quote from: gooch44
Thanks to u all! I appreciate the encouragement. Day 3 was the hardest so far. I felt like punching a hole through the wall. Exercising has helped and I went with another members advice and got some fake chew. It kinda feels like cheating but it helped a lot yesterday.
Keep it up!! Read as much as you can on KTC. There is so much information and bad ass quitters. Use it.
nice job!
Gooch you're getting lots of support here. Live up to attention you are getting by bringing it everyday. Post roll, then live up to it. If it helps I still fuck up posting roll, but every morning I'm posting roll before I do anything else.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: stevesince92 on October 22, 2014, 10:39:00 PM
Quote from: gooch44
Thanks to u all! I appreciate the encouragement. Day 3 was the hardest so far. I felt like punching a hole through the wall. Exercising has helped and I went with another members advice and got some fake chew. It kinda feels like cheating but it helped a lot yesterday.
Hey Gooch. Glad to have you on board. I've dipped about as long as you so I feel what you're going thru. I'm on day 11. It has gotten a little easier but it's still there in the back of my mind all the time. This site will really help you if you use it. I don't post as much as some of these guys but I read a lot. My advice from a guy at day 11 would be to keep your head in the game and be prepared for random craves. Seeds, gum, mints, and toothpicks are my tools. I have fake dip too but I too feel like it's cheating a little. I don't much like the taste of it either. Feel free to PM me if you want and we can exchange #s. Stay strong. You got this!!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: brettlees on October 23, 2014, 01:13:00 AM
It's pretty helpful to log your experiences in your Intro here. It ends up creating a good record of what you've been through for later, and helps others see what sort of help you might be ready for. Quit hard Gooch!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 23, 2014, 04:23:00 AM
I have to say some of the drama I'm seeing in this site is not really encouraging me to stay here. Good God, grow up. I'm here to quit, not see soap operas. And I will quit, but a lot of the posts I'm seeing are BS!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Sajax on October 23, 2014, 05:06:00 AM
Quote from: gooch44
I have to say some of the drama I'm seeing in this site is not really encouraging me to stay here. Good God, grow up. I'm here to quit, not see soap operas. And I will quit, but a lot of the posts I'm seeing are BS!
Any posts in particular? There are a few things that happen on this site that I didn't understand at first either, especially through the fog. I recommend reading Lipizzaner's HoF speech. It is linked in the latest post in my introduction (see signature). It cleared a lot of things up for me, and hopefully might for you as well. Beyond that I can't explain anything if you don't point out any post specifically.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Thumblewort on October 23, 2014, 10:50:00 AM
Gooch, every single one of us is fighting for our lives, so yes, some drama can ensue. The best thing to remember is once you post roll, you can take or leave whatever you want from the KTC. I quit with you today Gooch.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 23, 2014, 12:27:00 PM
No particular one (besides the Jake Frawley one). Just seemed like a lot of them I read had drama. Maybe just my perception but I'm not a fan of it. I will read that article though.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Mthomas3824 on October 23, 2014, 03:22:00 PM
Quote from: gooch44
No particular one (besides the Jake Frawley one). Just seemed like a lot of them I read had drama. Maybe just my perception but I'm not a fan of it. I will read that article though.
Gooch. I have some really bad new for you. Quitting...no matter how, "Manly" you are is Ghey. It's full of drama. You at times will hate it, other times you might rage and fight everyone here. What makes KTC special to me. We all are quitter and we all get the drama, rage, hurt and funks.

This is a place that is safe. It's like wanting to fight the bully but in a controlled environment so no one gets hurt.

I have been close to getting banned myself. Even though I never caved, people here pissed me off! However, when I couldn't justify or explain my hurt, rage or anger. I could come here and be a dick! Why is that valuable? My wife and kids didn't get the full impact of my quit.

This addiction is as serious as heroine. Watch a you tube video of someone fighting a heroin addiction...Yes nicotine is more dangerous because we don't give it the seriousness that it really is. It is very addictive.

To Quit...Gooch you are going to go to hell and back.

Get used to the Drama. Quitting nicotine is drama. In your real world, be tough and be you. Here, there is no shame in being real. This is where you come to relieve the pressure. "Drama as most call it." If you blew a gasket on the outside world to family and friends...they probably would hurt your quit by saying, "You were nicer when you chewed."

That is not true!!!!! You will be a man of integrity, loyalty and loved by your friends and family. KEEP THE DRAMA HERE AND VENT! Drama on the site isn't a bad thing. We just need to call out bullshit so the drama isn't fake.

Glad your here and use the site. Its simple and it works. Follow your vets. Vent we need to fight as much as vent. This is a place where fighting and venting...we get it and its safe to not make sense to us....
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 24, 2014, 02:57:00 AM
I've had a shitty day and am ready to go buy a can!!!!! I need help!!!!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 24, 2014, 03:21:00 AM
No one helping me!!! Fuck u all!! I'll be strong by myself. This is proof we don't need fucken support groups. We have all become a bunch of pussies!!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Cindy on October 24, 2014, 03:34:00 AM
Quote from: gooch44
No one helping me!!! Fuck u all!! I'll be strong by myself. This is proof we don't need fucken support groups. We have all become a bunch of pussies!!
I was reading your intro from the beginning and just saw this part. Don't listen to the bitch. Fight your way through the fog and when you have a bad crave know that it's your body rewiring itself and that YOU are making this happen. Even though it sucks. You're in charge. You choose to be miserable right now so that in the future you will be free from the poison
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Cindy on October 24, 2014, 03:38:00 AM
Quote from: Cindy
Quote from: gooch44
No one helping me!!! Fuck u all!! I'll be strong by myself. This is proof we don't need fucken support groups. We have all become a bunch of pussies!!
I was reading your intro from the beginning and just saw this part. Don't listen to the bitch. Fight your way through the fog and when you have a bad crave know that it's your body rewiring itself and that YOU are making this happen. Even though it sucks. You're in charge. You choose to be miserable right now so that in the future you will be free from the poison
Also in case of emergencies, in the "Quit Groups" section, 4 or 5 topics down in an Emergency cave prevention thread. When you need someone urgently post there. There are members who will be notified that you posted there and can help you
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Grady on October 24, 2014, 07:39:00 AM
Quote from: gooch44
No one helping me!!! Fuck u all!! I'll be strong by myself. This is proof we don't need fucken support groups. We have all become a bunch of pussies!!
You're damn right you'll be strong Gooch but you are wrong, we DO need support. And yes we were all pussy's when we allowed nicotine to CONTROL us. Your are not a pussy anymore Gooch because you're fighting this bitch. Your rage that you were feeling, that is the poison inside of you fighting to stay. That shit wants to be fed but you're not going to feed it Gooch. You are and will do anything to crush that poison, you'll get through this. You do whatever you have to do, within reason and legally, to fight this disgusting bitch. Do you have a heavy bag that you can beat until you can't lift your arms up anymore? Do you have some weights that you can lift? What about some running shoes to put on and go for a run?

Right now Gooch you can't understand or feel the happiness that the life of being nicotine free is. It is a feeling that you haven't felt in how long? 22? 23 years? Someday soon you'll walk or drive by a convenient store and you will notice that sign advertising that poison in the front window and you'll just smile and laugh. You might see some young punk with a lip full of shit in his lip and you'll just laugh. You might see some old timer with a cheek full of side chaw in and you'll just laugh. You might see some dumbass with that ring in his back pocket, guess what, you'll laugh. You might be standing close to someone that ALLOWS nicotine to control their life, you might see them putting that shit into their lip. Good chances are if you smell it you won't want to laugh, chances are you'll want to puke because you realize how very disgusting it is.

You got this Gooch. You are an addict, you will be an addict until the day that you die. You can and you will control this addiction, you will not allow it TO CONTROL YOU anymore.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Thumblewort on October 24, 2014, 09:02:00 AM
Quote from: gooch44
No one helping me!!! Fuck u all!! I'll be strong by myself. This is proof we don't need fucken support groups. We have all become a bunch of pussies!!
Do you have anyone's phone number? Did you use LIVE chat? Cindy had a good solution as well. For someone who doesn't like drama you are kinda close to starting some yourself - which is fine, rage on here.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: rdad on October 24, 2014, 11:45:00 AM
Gooch, check your inbox. I'm sure there are numbers waiting there for you. Build a network of numbers. That way you are close to help all the time. Its part of the formula of success.
Brotherhood (making friends) + Accountability (Posting Roll) = Success (Freedom from Nicotine)
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Grizzlyhasclaws on October 24, 2014, 12:28:00 PM
Quote from: rdad
Gooch, check your inbox. I'm sure there are numbers waiting there for you. Build a network of numbers. That way you are close to help all the time. Its part of the formula of success.
Brotherhood (making friends) + Accountability (Posting Roll) = Success (Freedom from Nicotine)
Gooch, did you make it through last night?
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 24, 2014, 02:24:00 PM
Thumblewort, you are right. I was being a hypocrite last night. I had too much to drink after a long ass week and lost control. It was the alcohol, stress, and extreme want of a dip that lead to me blowing up. Good news is I didn't cave and stayed strong. Bad news is I have a bad hangover. I apologize for the rant...that was dumb.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Done4Me on October 24, 2014, 04:45:00 PM
Quote from: gooch44
Thumblewort, you are right. I was being a hypocrite last night. I had too much to drink after a long ass week and lost control. It was the alcohol, stress, and extreme want of a dip that lead to me blowing up. Good news is I didn't cave and stayed strong. Bad news is I have a bad hangover. I apologize for the rant...that was dumb.
In worse news, you haven't posted roll today. What the fuck.

This guys is not serious. He will not be here long.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 24, 2014, 04:55:00 PM
Yes I did, but I think I did it wrong. My phone isn't the greatest when it comes to copying and pasting. But I did post sometime around 11:30. Btw, thx for the words of encouragement. Not serious? This is the longest I've gone without tobacco in 23 years. So I have one bad night after drinking and now I'm not serious? Please feel free not to post anymore on this thread.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: midwest04z on October 24, 2014, 05:37:00 PM
Quote from: gooch44
Yes I did, but I think I did it wrong. My phone isn't the greatest when it comes to copying and pasting. But I did post sometime around 11:30. Btw, thx for the words of encouragement. Not serious? This is the longest I've gone without tobacco in 23 years. So I have one bad night after drinking and now I'm not serious? Please feel free not to post anymore on this thread.
Gooch, I know you're raging hard right now and we are here to support each other...sometimes the support is in a loving ball coddling way and sometimes it is an in your face, sack up type of support. If you are having trouble posting roll, then get help, practice, what ever it take to make sure your name is on the roll call. It is the foundation of this site and the means by which your integrity is measured around here. Are you serious about quitting? How about taking some time off of alcohol? It has ended many quits early. We are here for you man...but you have to dive in to this completely. No half assed, yeah I posted roll but now its gone shit. Check back in on your group and learn to fix bumps etc. Quit with you gooch.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 24, 2014, 06:17:00 PM
I wasn't prepared to deal with the craves after drinking. Lesson learned. One day at a time and I'm still standing. And I don't lie. I posted roll earlier but I did it again after I was told it didn't show up. Still learning.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: 30isEnuff on October 25, 2014, 06:42:00 AM
Quote from: gooch44
I wasn't prepared to deal with the craves after drinking. Lesson learned. One day at a time and I'm still standing. And I don't lie. I posted roll earlier but I did it again after I was told it didn't show up. Still learning.
Quitting and learning and re-wiring go hand in hand. Your process of quit will grow stronger with each daily event of posting roll and taking nic off the table for Today.
I quit with You today. Just Today.
Fuck the craves. You're a quitter. Kick the craves to the curb ODAAT. One minute at a time when you need to. Exercise, water, gum, seeds, peanuts, candy, desk drawer. Desk drawer? Yeah. Place penis in desk drawer, slam = no more crave. LOL You got this brother. What ever it takes to "not" put the poison in our mouth for Today.
We are in this together.
Take what you need, give what you can, leave the bitchin' to the bitches.
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems.
Cheers.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Derk40 on October 25, 2014, 08:20:00 AM
Quote from: 30isEnuff
Quote from: gooch44
I wasn't prepared to deal with the craves after drinking. Lesson learned. One day at a time and I'm still standing. And I don't lie. I posted roll earlier but I did it again after I was told it didn't show up. Still learning.
Quitting and learning and re-wiring go hand in hand. Your process of quit will grow stronger with each daily event of posting roll and taking nic off the table for Today.
I quit with You today. Just Today.
Fuck the craves. You're a quitter. Kick the craves to the curb ODAAT. One minute at a time when you need to. Exercise, water, gum, seeds, peanuts, candy, desk drawer. Desk drawer? Yeah. Place penis in desk drawer, slam = no more crave. LOL You got this brother. What ever it takes to "not" put the poison in our mouth for Today.
We are in this together.
Take what you need, give what you can, leave the bitchin' to the bitches.
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems.
Cheers.
Drinking early on is a quit killer for many. It lessons inhibitions. Recommend staying off the sauce or significantly limiting it for a while. You can do this! QLF today.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 25, 2014, 11:03:00 AM
I was at a major fundraiser last night. Had a few drinks but didn't cave and I had lots of opportunities to do so. Many chewers in the room but I stood tall. Again....lesson learned
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: rdad on October 25, 2014, 01:08:00 PM
Quote from: gooch44
I was at a major fundraiser last night. Had a few drinks but didn't cave and I had lots of opportunities to do so. Many chewers in the room but I stood tall. Again....lesson learned
Good job gooch. Every test survived makes your quit stronger. keep it up. Beware the booze early on. Lowered defenses are quit killers. Be on your guard all the time.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: AppleJack on October 25, 2014, 01:17:00 PM
Quote from: rdad
Quote from: gooch44
I was at a major fundraiser last night. Had a few drinks but didn't cave and I had lots of opportunities to do so. Many chewers in the room but I stood tall. Again....lesson learned
Good job gooch. Every test survived makes your quit stronger. keep it up. Beware the booze early on. Lowered defenses are quit killers. Be on your guard all the time.
Not to harp but... Listen to our advice on the booze. It's VERY important to understand that it can become a replacement crutch to fill the seeming hole quitting is leaving in your life.

It's a dangerous vice this early in you quit.

Dude... You're killing this. Doing all the right things and being open about the pain of this. We get it! We've been through it too. Remember one thing ~ you're not alone. I'll repeat... Get involved and stay involved. All the support, motivation, and momentum you need to carry you along is found right here.

Rock it, man!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 25, 2014, 05:15:00 PM
Getting a little easier every day. I can't believe I've made it 7 days! A couple months ago I never would have thought I could make it this long without. The support has been great and I have a friend who quit 2 yrs ago so I've been able to lean on him. Have a great weekend everyone.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 26, 2014, 01:06:00 AM
Thank God for Smokey Mountain. Came in very handy tonight. 7 days!!!!!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Steakbomb18 on October 26, 2014, 09:33:00 AM
I love this quit that you've started. Starts off with a roller coaster of quit rage coupled with some self-realizations and a touch of humility. Now you've jumped in head first, full on quit and using this site to the max. You're journaling your quit on your intro, while supporting other newbies and vets alike on theirs. Gooch, this is how you quit like fuck. As my boy AppleJack says, get involved and stay involved. Keep it up and continue being a leader.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 26, 2014, 02:04:00 PM
It's been a whole week and it's great. Longest week I've had in a long time but I'm feeling great about this. I'm leaning heavily on this site and it's working. My mindset seems to have switched from constantly thinking how I'm going to get past a craving to I don't want to let myself and supporters down. Day 8 is all I'm concentrating on today.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Done4Me on October 26, 2014, 02:20:00 PM
Quote from: gooch44
It's been a whole week and it's great. Longest week I've had in a long time but I'm feeling great about this. I'm leaning heavily on this site and it's working. My mindset seems to have switched from constantly thinking how I'm going to get past a craving to I don't want to let myself and supporters down. Day 8 is all I'm concentrating on today.
Keep the focus, all your focus on your quit. You will continue to be in quit euphoria for ~30 days then you'll begin to have sporadic funks. Eight days is awesome. Keep it up.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: brettlees on October 26, 2014, 02:50:00 PM
You are getting some great advice here. Keep learning all you can to fight the addiction. And keep making new friends here to help you and to kick your ya know if you need that. Nice job logging what you go thru! Love it!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Thumblewort on October 26, 2014, 04:03:00 PM
Came back from an unexpected trip to see this, and it made my weekend. Kill it Gooch, kill the bitch dead.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 26, 2014, 08:16:00 PM
Day 8 ended up being VERY hard. Craved hard all damn day. A huge thank you to Raider for talking me off the ledge. Doing much better now.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Done4Me on October 26, 2014, 08:25:00 PM
Quote from: gooch44
Day 8 ended up being VERY hard. Craved hard all damn day. A huge thank you to Raider for talking me off the ledge. Doing much better now.
Gooch, I believe in you. Believe in yourself and power through this. It gets better.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: stevesince92 on October 26, 2014, 09:53:00 PM
Quote from: Done4Me
Quote from: gooch44
Day 8 ended up being VERY hard. Craved hard all damn day. A huge thank you to Raider for talking me off the ledge. Doing much better now.
Gooch, I believe in you. Believe in yourself and power through this. It gets better.
Done4 is right. It does get better. Keep it up. I'll quit with you tomorrow.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Raider on October 26, 2014, 10:13:00 PM
Quote from: stevesince92
Quote from: Done4Me
Quote from: gooch44
Day 8 ended up being VERY hard. Craved hard all damn day. A huge thank you to Raider for talking me off the ledge. Doing much better now.
Gooch, I believe in you. Believe in yourself and power through this. It gets better.
Done4 is right. It does get better. Keep it up. I'll quit with you tomorrow.
Just glad I was there when you made contact. You done good!!!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 27, 2014, 12:40:00 AM
Not sure why day 8 was harder than day 1 or 2 but it was. It was a long ass day but I'm still standing. If it wasn't for this site and the people on it, I would have caved by now...I know it.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: brettlees on October 27, 2014, 09:20:00 AM
Quote from: gooch44
Not sure why day 8 was harder than day 1 or 2 but it was. It was a long ass day but I'm still standing. If it wasn't for this site and the people on it, I would have caved by now...I know it.
Sounds familiar to me. If you read some of the intros of other quitters on the site, you will eventually find pieces of your own story all over. It's amazing how this danged addiction has so many tricks. Keep it up Gooch you're building a good quit!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 27, 2014, 11:24:00 AM
Worst night of sleep I've had in years. Lots of vivid dreams about chewing and other crap as well. Got on this site in middle of the night and was reading articles posted about cancer and now I'm just kinda depressed. Thinking how that could already be me but it hasn't shown up yet. Shitty day so far. But I posted roll and promise not to cave today.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Grizzlyhasclaws on October 27, 2014, 12:45:00 PM
Quote from: gooch44
Worst night of sleep I've had in years. Lots of vivid dreams about chewing and other crap as well. Got on this site in middle of the night and was reading articles posted about cancer and now I'm just kinda depressed. Thinking how that could already be me but it hasn't shown up yet. Shitty day so far. But I posted roll and promise not to cave today.
Did you see Shawshank Redemption? Remember when Andy crawls through the pipe? You'll be fine. Keep at it.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Skoal Monster on October 27, 2014, 01:04:00 PM
Quote from: grizzlyhasclaws
Quote from: gooch44
Worst night of sleep I've had in years. Lots of vivid dreams about chewing and other crap as well. Got on this site in middle of the night and was reading articles posted about cancer and now I'm just kinda depressed. Thinking how that could already be me but it hasn't shown up yet. Shitty day so far. But I posted roll and promise not to cave today.
Did you see Shawshank Redemption? Remember when Andy crawls through the pipe? You'll be fine. Keep at it.
Embrace the fact that your going to feel shitty until you don't. You can endure anything as long as you know it is temporary, this shit is temporary. I promise, keep grinding.

The sleep, headaches, depression, fear, shame, regret etc are all normal your on the right track, just keep putting one foot in front of the other- you got this.

sM
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 27, 2014, 01:07:00 PM
I know it's gonna be a grind just hard to ride this damn roller coaster all the time. I have a very busy day today so that should help. And Grizz, Shawshank is one of my top 5 movies so when u said that, I cracked a big smile. Thanks.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: txtaco1 on October 27, 2014, 01:10:00 PM
I'ma quit with you today Gooch. Quit hard like a mofo!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 27, 2014, 08:13:00 PM
Another member with same days quit with me caved last night. Frustrating to hear. As expected to day was better for me. Staying busy helps!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: starr_78 on October 27, 2014, 11:15:00 PM
Quote from: gooch44
Another member with same days quit with me caved last night. Frustrating to hear. As expected to day was better for me. Staying busy helps!
That is frustrating but remember to keep in mind that this quit is about you first. The poor bastard that caved refused to take ahold of their addition. You have a understanding of how your addiction affects you and you are doing what it takes to stay quit. Keep that in mind and keep being a badass. ODAAT
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 28, 2014, 03:43:00 PM
So "Movember" is coming up and I've never participated with growing a stache in order to raise awareness of men's health issues. But this year I'm going to. Although I'm only doing it to raise awareness of the nasty effects of chewing tobacco. Any time someone asks why I'm growing that fur on my upper lip, I'm going to tell them why and why it was so fucken stupid of me to do for over 20 years. This is my pledge to the group. Anyone who wants to join me, I would love it! Hope all is well with my Jan group. Keep up the good fight!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: AppleJack on October 28, 2014, 08:07:00 PM
Quote from: gooch44
So "Movember" is coming up and I've never participated with growing a stache in order to raise awareness of men's health issues. But this year I'm going to. Although I'm only doing it to raise awareness of the nasty effects of chewing tobacco. Any time someone asks why I'm growing that fur on my upper lip, I'm going to tell them why and why it was so fucken stupid of me to do for over 20 years. This is my pledge to the group. Anyone who wants to join me, I would love it! Hope all is well with my Jan group. Keep up the good fight!
I see you jumping all in and OWNING this.

Does my heart good. Quit is beautiful. It's painful but... The pain makes it even more awesome when I see a new guy OWN his quit.

Rock on m'man...
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: 30isEnuff on October 28, 2014, 08:09:00 PM
Quote from: AppleJack
Quote from: gooch44
So "Movember" is coming up and I've never participated with growing a stache in order to raise awareness of men's health issues. But this year I'm going to. Although I'm only doing it to raise awareness of the nasty effects of chewing tobacco. Any time someone asks why I'm growing that fur on my upper lip, I'm going to tell them why and why it was so fucken stupid of me to do for over 20 years. This is my pledge to the group. Anyone who wants to join me, I would love it! Hope all is well with my Jan group. Keep up the good fight!
I see you jumping all in and OWNING this.

Does my heart good. Quit is beautiful. It's painful but... The pain makes it even more awesome when I see a new guy OWN his quit.

Rock on m'man...
That Gooch is a bad ass quitter! Hell yeah!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 29, 2014, 02:40:00 AM
Holy shit! I swore I had thrown out all of my tins and got rid of everything. I got home from work tonight and found one in a drawer with some chew left in it. Small panic attack ensued, but I flushed that shit and threw the can away. Small victory to the start of my day 11...posting roll right now!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Raider on October 29, 2014, 07:54:00 AM
Quote from: gooch44
Holy shit! I swore I had thrown out all of my tins and got rid of everything. I got home from work tonight and found one in a drawer with some chew left in it. Small panic attack ensued, but I flushed that shit and threw the can away. Small victory to the start of my day 11...posting roll right now!
Nice job. This is quitting in action here. Checking all your stash locations is important. Damn proud to be quit with you today.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Danno30 on October 29, 2014, 09:57:00 AM
Gooch, I read threw your introduction. Thanks for reaching out in the PM. Let's do this.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on October 30, 2014, 03:42:00 AM
Day 11 harder than 10. For whatever reason I kept reaching for my tin at different times of the day when I usually had a chew. It was weird cuz I haven't really done that since the first 2 days. I guess just another way the nic fucks with u and your brain. Either way, I got thru it, had a nic free day and just posted roll for day 12. And I've now got a stache going for Movember for any of u who wanna join me :)
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: brettlees on October 30, 2014, 12:21:00 PM
Keep it going. It is a random roller coaster. You'll make it. Each new challenge is another crave beat down. Another victory. You have to reprogram your brain, and it takes time. Right now, you're teaching it that it can't get what it wants-- that you're no longer giving in. I had a long foggy period, and it helped to know that others did too. You're doing a good job at this, just keep building your quit defenses, strategies, and victories.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: AppleJack on October 30, 2014, 12:31:00 PM
Quote from: gooch44
Day 11 harder than 10. For whatever reason I kept reaching for my tin at different times of the day when I usually had a chew. It was weird cuz I haven't really done that since the first 2 days. I guess just another way the nic fucks with u and your brain. Either way, I got thru it, had a nic free day and just posted roll for day 12. And I've now got a stache going for Movember for any of u who wanna join me :)
In looking back on my first month or so... That first week or 2 were a bit of a breeze. I think it boiled down to the sheer momentum of the newness of REALLY doing this quit thang, finding this community, and adrenaline. After that wore off... Well, the fact that it was going to take some hard work set in. Breaking habits related to our addiction. Like Brett said... You'll have swings from low to high. It's normal, man. In fact... It's the REAL normal we all needed to relearn about. Nicotine messed up our perspective on it. You're winning each day... That's badass. That's freedom...
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on November 02, 2014, 10:24:00 PM
Well I'm over the 2 week hump. Getting easier and easier each day. But for anyone reading this who hasn't quit or who just quit, let me tell you, you will have much more success by using this site. And not just using it, but obsessing over and adhering to the principles. Thank you to all members of KTC for your help so far! I quit with you today!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: stevesince92 on November 02, 2014, 10:45:00 PM
Quote from: AppleJack
Quote from: gooch44
Day 11 harder than 10. For whatever reason I kept reaching for my tin at different times of the day when I usually had a chew. It was weird cuz I haven't really done that since the first 2 days. I guess just another way the nic fucks with u and your brain. Either way, I got thru it, had a nic free day and just posted roll for day 12. And I've now got a stache going for Movember for any of u who wanna join me :)
In looking back on my first month or so... That first week or 2 were a bit of a breeze. I think it boiled down to the sheer momentum of the newness of REALLY doing this quit thang, finding this community, and adrenaline. After that wore off... Well, the fact that it was going to take some hard work set in. Breaking habits related to our addiction. Like Brett said... You'll have swings from low to high. It's normal, man. In fact... It's the REAL normal we all needed to relearn about. Nicotine messed up our perspective on it. You're winning each day... That's badass. That's freedom...
Applejack, you nailed it. My first two weeks were a bunch easier than I thought it would be. I think adrenaline was a big part of it but this site has really helped me. I can tell now that the real test is starting. I'm 3 weeks in and have to keep telling myself that I never want to go through another quit. Aquadipper told me he got pretty foggy on days 20-30 so I'm just pushing on thru. I've gotta get this shit whipped. My gums look and feel 100% better 22 days in.
I quit with you guys.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: rdad on November 03, 2014, 12:11:00 PM
Quote from: Raider
Quote from: gooch44
Holy shit! I swore I had thrown out all of my tins and got rid of everything. I got home from work tonight and found one in a drawer with some chew left in it. Small panic attack ensued, but I flushed that shit and threw the can away. Small victory to the start of my day 11...posting roll right now!
Nice job. This is quitting in action here. Checking all your stash locations is important. Damn proud to be quit with you today.
Good job right there Gooch! I am coming up on a year this month and this weekend I found a FULL can in one of my old range bags. Had fun doing a Kill The Can dance on it. You are owning your quit! Keep going Brother!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Done4Me on November 04, 2014, 09:48:00 PM
Gooch - Do you recall getting all in my face on day 3? I love rage. You're killing it and I see you as a long termer. Hope you believe in yourself the way I do. Stay quit bro!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on November 05, 2014, 02:27:00 AM
Quote from: Done4Me
Gooch - Do you recall getting all in my face on day 3? I love rage. You're killing it and I see you as a long termer. Hope you believe in yourself the way I do. Stay quit bro!
Oh I remember it well. I remember saying to myself, "who the hell is this guy! He doesn't know me and already judging. Well F^K him!" Ha ha, you may not have known me personally, but you've seen the same types of posts from those who have caved and I fit the profile. Well I'm much "calmer" now...well today anyway. Thanks for the message, I appreciate it.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: jwright on November 05, 2014, 05:50:00 AM
Quote from: gooch44
Quote from: Done4Me
Gooch - Do you recall getting all in my face on day 3? I love rage. You're killing it and I see you as a long termer. Hope you believe in yourself the way I do. Stay quit bro!
Oh I remember it well. I remember saying to myself, "who the hell is this guy! He doesn't know me and already judging. Well F^K him!" Ha ha, you may not have known me personally, but you've seen the same types of posts from those who have caved and I fit the profile. Well I'm much "calmer" now...well today anyway. Thanks for the message, I appreciate it.
Gooch, good to read your thread man, glad you are staying strong! Stay in touch with your introduction... read it every day, remind yourself how shitty life is in the prison that nicotine had you in.

Keep posting, reach out for help, and quit one day at a time. We are with you!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on November 06, 2014, 04:00:00 AM
Quote from: jwright
Quote from: gooch44
Quote from: Done4Me
Gooch - Do you recall getting all in my face on day 3? I love rage. You're killing it and I see you as a long termer. Hope you believe in yourself the way I do. Stay quit bro!
Oh I remember it well. I remember saying to myself, "who the hell is this guy! He doesn't know me and already judging. Well F^K him!" Ha ha, you may not have known me personally, but you've seen the same types of posts from those who have caved and I fit the profile. Well I'm much "calmer" now...well today anyway. Thanks for the message, I appreciate it.
Gooch, good to read your thread man, glad you are staying strong! Stay in touch with your introduction... read it every day, remind yourself how shitty life is in the prison that nicotine had you in.

Keep posting, reach out for help, and quit one day at a time. We are with you!
ODAAT...I've been telling myself that for 19 days and it's working. Thanks for the kind words!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Scowick65 on November 06, 2014, 04:08:00 PM
Quote from: gooch44
Quote from: jwright
Quote from: gooch44
Quote from: Done4Me
Gooch - Do you recall getting all in my face on day 3? I love rage. You're killing it and I see you as a long termer. Hope you believe in yourself the way I do. Stay quit bro!
Oh I remember it well. I remember saying to myself, "who the hell is this guy! He doesn't know me and already judging. Well F^K him!" Ha ha, you may not have known me personally, but you've seen the same types of posts from those who have caved and I fit the profile. Well I'm much "calmer" now...well today anyway. Thanks for the message, I appreciate it.
Gooch, good to read your thread man, glad you are staying strong! Stay in touch with your introduction... read it every day, remind yourself how shitty life is in the prison that nicotine had you in.

Keep posting, reach out for help, and quit one day at a time. We are with you!
ODAAT...I've been telling myself that for 19 days and it's working. Thanks for the kind words!
A lot of good posts in here and a lot of good quitting. Well done!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on November 16, 2014, 11:22:00 PM
Just an all around crappy weekend. It's day 30 and the cravings have been more intense than on day 4. Thanks to the help of a whole bunch of you I was able to keep my promise all weekend. Here's to hoping for a better week.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Raider on November 17, 2014, 12:21:00 AM
Quote from: gooch44
Just an all around crappy weekend. It's day 30 and the cravings have been more intense than on day 4. Thanks to the help of a whole bunch of you I was able to keep my promise all weekend. Here's to hoping for a better week.
Proud of you for reaching out this weekend. Sucks what you had to deal with but adding nicotine wouldn't have solved anything. Nice job on staying clean.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on December 10, 2014, 12:36:00 PM
Here I am on day 53 and I was cruising along just fine. Then out of nowhere "BAM" I am back to raging like a son of a bitch, just like I was on day 3. I'm fighting through it but for those of you who are new, keep in mind to always keep your guard up. The craves can come find you when you least expect it. Stay close to the site and make friends so you can reach out to them. I quit with all of you today.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: NoMoreCopeBlack on December 10, 2014, 12:49:00 PM
Quote from: gooch44
Here I am on day 53 and I was cruising along just fine. Then out of nowhere "BAM" I am back to raging like a son of a bitch, just like I was on day 3. I'm fighting through it but for those of you who are new, keep in mind to always keep your guard up. The craves can come find you when you least expect it. Stay close to the site and make friends so you can reach out to them. I quit with all of you today.
Anger was always a trigger for me. I've had angrier times in this quit than I can even remember, maybe since puberty, and never came close to caving. SHELL shit.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Unfjosh on December 10, 2014, 02:07:00 PM
Read over your whole thread and glad to see you fighting and staying strong, I quit with you today.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on December 10, 2014, 03:25:00 PM
Quote from: Unfjosh
Read over your whole thread and glad to see you fighting and staying strong, I quit with you today.
Josh, glad to see you quit and welcome to ktc. If you read my whole thread then you saw how hard it is to get thru this. Please stay close to the site and seriously reach out to others in your quit group so you can support each other. You can hit me up to if you need anything.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Thumblewort on December 10, 2014, 05:02:00 PM
Quote from: gooch44
Quote from: Unfjosh
Read over your whole thread and glad to see you fighting and staying strong, I quit with you today.
Josh, glad to see you quit and welcome to ktc. If you read my whole thread then you saw how hard it is to get thru this. Please stay close to the site and seriously reach out to others in your quit group so you can support each other. You can hit me up to if you need anything.
Gooch is B1G , and therefore bad ass. I'll gopher quit anyday.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: Done4Me on December 10, 2014, 09:18:00 PM
Quote from: Thumblewort
Quote from: gooch44
Quote from: Unfjosh
Read over your whole thread and glad to see you fighting and staying strong, I quit with you today.
Josh, glad to see you quit and welcome to ktc. If you read my whole thread then you saw how hard it is to get thru this. Please stay close to the site and seriously reach out to others in your quit group so you can support each other. You can hit me up to if you need anything.
Gooch is B1G , and therefore bad ass. I'll gopher quit anyday.
Trivia question for Gooch. What do UMinn, NCSU, NY Jets have in common?
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on December 11, 2014, 02:29:00 AM
Quote from: Done4Me
Quote from: Thumblewort
Quote from: gooch44
Quote from: Unfjosh
Read over your whole thread and glad to see you fighting and staying strong, I quit with you today.
Josh, glad to see you quit and welcome to ktc. If you read my whole thread then you saw how hard it is to get thru this. Please stay close to the site and seriously reach out to others in your quit group so you can support each other. You can hit me up to if you need anything.
Gooch is B1G , and therefore bad ass. I'll gopher quit anyday.
Trivia question for Gooch. What do UMinn, NCSU, NY Jets have in common?
Lou Holtz coached all 3. But I admit that I cheated as I didn't know he coached the Jets
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on January 16, 2015, 01:30:00 PM
I haven't been very active lately due to just being busy with life. But as I hit 90 days quit today I was thinking of all of u who helped me out in those first couple weeks when I was having a very hard time. I want to thank all of u. Just as it takes a village to raise a child, it takes a community like ktc to quit this addiction.
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: soxfnnlansing on January 26, 2015, 02:18:00 AM
:Winner: 'clap' 'party2' Congrats on 100 Days Free 'party2' 'clap' :Winner:
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: gooch44 on January 27, 2015, 12:30:00 AM
I hit day 100 today and it's only because of this site and the fellow members who have helped me. If u have any doubts, read through my intro and see the shit I went thru. 23 years being a slave and there's no way I would have made it this far without KTC. For you new members, you need to know that. You can't go it alone!
Title: Re: Intro
Post by: 30isEnuff on January 27, 2015, 02:02:00 PM
Quote from: gooch44
I hit day 100 today and it's only because of this site and the fellow members who have helped me. If u have any doubts, read through my intro and see the shit I went thru. 23 years being a slave and there's no way I would have made it this far without KTC. For you new members, you need to know that. You can't go it alone!
Good Job Gooch!
Keep it real. ODAAT and NAFAR.