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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: smatroutsky on December 13, 2013, 12:29:00 PM
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I want to introduce myself and give everyone a portion of my background, at least the portion that pertains to my battle with nicotine addiction. I feel like posting roll everyday is good but I'm hoping to get a little more involved in the KTC community. I guess what I'm trying to say is I really don't truly feel I'm accountable to anyone because I haven't got to know any of my fellow quiters nor have I tried to put myself out there...so this is my attempt at that.
I've been chewing and smoking (smoking primarily when I was partying) since I was 14 and I am now 34. I've been dealing with this for over 20 years...how pathetic, but it's time to put this addiction to bed once and for all.
Like most of you I've stopped in the past, only to slowly have it creep back into my life. I actually stopped nicotine as an everyday habit for three years but never truly went longer than a month or two. I let it get to the point that it was acceptable to use when I was drinking, then vacations, and then vacations plus doing my hobbies. 8 months ago I made a conscious decision to start my can a day habit again, with the promise I would quit after my birthday in a month...God only knows how a person, with a 6 month old boy (i'm so damn selfish it actually just brought a tear to my eye),comes to a decision like that but I did. Anyway my birthday came and past, then it was elk hunting, then bird hunting, and then deer hunting. All promises I made to myself and my wife that I broke.
1o days ago I woke up and had my morning dip and had that familiar sting that you get from over doing it the day before and I said to myself this is just stupid. I dumped the remainder of my can in a bucket full of trimmings from a deer I processed the day before, found this website, and committed to do this thing for real.
I should share one last thing. I am a restaurant franchisee and my wife and I made the decision to sell our restaurant, move our small family (with my now 14 month old boy) three hours from both of our parents(who have been our child care this past year) and buy 3 other restaurants. We take over the 3 Monday morning. I probably should of picked a little less stressful time to quit but I'm so sick of this shit and i've learned lately that it's never a good time to quit. The good thing is different location, fresh faces, and new beginnings.
Sorry about the autobiography but I needed to do this for myself and I hope to find support from some people who have and/or currently going through the same thing.
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Hey boss, welcome! We're in the same quit group I'll pm you my number if you need anything. I'm beginning to see that a lot of us share similar stories. One of my closest friends was a cigar smoker on the golf course gave them up when he turned 40. My 40th is coming up in May he made me promise that I'd quit dipping when I turned 40.
The problem is that I wasn't dipping just on the golf course, it was damn near 24/7. I played in a tournament last weekend packed a lipper the entire time. Sunday after the round we were loading up to come home I put the last pouch in the can in it just hit me; I don't want to buy another fucking can. My mouth hurts and still I've got this damn thing in.
So, out it went Monday I found KTC posted roll for the 1st time. We can do this; we just have to post roll every day be true to our word. I really like that.
Jeff
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Welcome man! Dumping the can in deer trimmings was a nice touch. The trimmings are so repulsive I would probably throw up just thinking about putting in another dip after that. As I'm sure you've already heard, read read read. These guys are going to be your best resource and some of your closest friends for the next 100 days and beyond. Take the time to get to know some of them and get as many sets of digits as you can; when things get particularly tough, being able to call or text a brother can be the difference between caving and gutting it out. Check in the upper right hand for "Inbox (1)" where you will find my number. Welcome to the suck, brother.
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Hey boss, welcome! We're in the same quit group I'll pm you my number if you need anything. I'm beginning to see that a lot of us share similar stories. One of my closest friends was a cigar smoker on the golf course gave them up when he turned 40. My 40th is coming up in May he made me promise that I'd quit dipping when I turned 40.
The problem is that I wasn't dipping just on the golf course, it was damn near 24/7. I played in a tournament last weekend packed a lipper the entire time. Sunday after the round we were loading up to come home I put the last pouch in the can in it just hit me; I don't want to buy another fucking can. My mouth hurts and still I've got this damn thing in.
So, out it went Monday I found KTC posted roll for the 1st time. We can do this; we just have to post roll every day be true to our word. I really like that.
Jeff
It's funny how similar many of these stories are. Thanks for the support!
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Welcome man! Dumping the can in deer trimmings was a nice touch. The trimmings are so repulsive I would probably throw up just thinking about putting in another dip after that. As I'm sure you've already heard, read read read. These guys are going to be your best resource and some of your closest friends for the next 100 days and beyond. Take the time to get to know some of them and get as many sets of digits as you can; when things get particularly tough, being able to call or text a brother can be the difference between caving and gutting it out. Check in the upper right hand for "Inbox (1)" where you will find my number. Welcome to the suck, brother.
Yeah, I took one look in the bucket and knew I would not be scraping one out of there. Unlike the garbage which shamefully I have dug them out of in the past. Thanks for the tips, I will put them to good use
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Welcome man! Dumping the can in deer trimmings was a nice touch. The trimmings are so repulsive I would probably throw up just thinking about putting in another dip after that. As I'm sure you've already heard, read read read. These guys are going to be your best resource and some of your closest friends for the next 100 days and beyond. Take the time to get to know some of them and get as many sets of digits as you can; when things get particularly tough, being able to call or text a brother can be the difference between caving and gutting it out. Check in the upper right hand for "Inbox (1)" where you will find my number. Welcome to the suck, brother.
Yeah, I took one look in the bucket and knew I would not be scraping one out of there. Unlike the garbage which shamefully I have dug them out of in the past. Thanks for the tips, I will put them to good use
Welcome aboard smatrousky. If you need anything don't be afraid to ask
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Welcome! You'll find a lot of commonality with others here, and no matter what you might have done in service of you addiction, somebody elae has probably done it too. I"ve definitely done trash diving in my past for dips.
As you learn more about the addiction, it will make sense why "tomorrow" never comes as a day to quit dip, and the only good time to quit is now. Congratulations on finally taking the dive. I was like you with an ever distant quit in mind, never really coming through. For decades. So far, this is working for me here, and the support is critical. This one will stick if I just stay with program. First time I"ve ever felt that way.
You've got some kick-ass guys in your quit group who are helping each other in a big way, and the vets on the site are the experts among all at helping you stay quit, so you are in great hands. Make the most of it- all it takes now is your own determination one day at a time!
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Stories of our past are vary similar and you will find that the stories that we have quitting are even more similar. Getting to know your group and sharing numbers will increase your accountability. I think back at some of the sick things my addiction lead me to do and picking a dip out of deer trimmings wouldn't seem to bad. One example was picking up a spilt can from the truck floor mixed with dirt and dry cow shit. Lol, I'm so glad that's in my past!
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Welcome. I am proud of you already. A weak person would have used buying franchises as an excuse to keep using. You did not. You have whan it takes.
Remember
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems.
Well done. Welcom aboard.
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I want to introduce myself and give everyone a portion of my background, at least the portion that pertains to my battle with nicotine addiction. I feel like posting roll everyday is good but I'm hoping to get a little more involved in the KTC community. I guess what I'm trying to say is I really don't truly feel I'm accountable to anyone because I haven't got to know any of my fellow quiters nor have I tried to put myself out there...so this is my attempt at that.
I've been chewing and smoking (smoking primarily when I was partying) since I was 14 and I am now 34. I've been dealing with this for over 20 years...how pathetic, but it's time to put this addiction to bed once and for all.
Like most of you I've stopped in the past, only to slowly have it creep back into my life. I actually stopped nicotine as an everyday habit for three years but never truly went longer than a month or two. I let it get to the point that it was acceptable to use when I was drinking, then vacations, and then vacations plus doing my hobbies. 8 months ago I made a conscious decision to start my can a day habit again, with the promise I would quit after my birthday in a month...God only knows how a person, with a 6 month old boy (i'm so damn selfish it actually just brought a tear to my eye),comes to a decision like that but I did. Anyway my birthday came and past, then it was elk hunting, then bird hunting, and then deer hunting. All promises I made to myself and my wife that I broke.
1o days ago I woke up and had my morning dip and had that familiar sting that you get from over doing it the day before and I said to myself this is just stupid. I dumped the remainder of my can in a bucket full of trimmings from a deer I processed the day before, found this website, and committed to do this thing for real.
I should share one last thing. I am a restaurant franchisee and my wife and I made the decision to sell our restaurant, move our small family (with my now 14 month old boy) three hours from both of our parents(who have been our child care this past year) and buy 3 other restaurants. We take over the 3 Monday morning. I probably should of picked a little less stressful time to quit but I'm so sick of this shit and i've learned lately that it's never a good time to quit. The good thing is different location, fresh faces, and new beginnings.
Sorry about the autobiography but I needed to do this for myself and I hope to find support from some people who have and/or currently going through the same thing.
Wow.
I didn't know that Packers fans could be so normal :lol: All kidding aside, your story is very, very much like mine. I was always going to quit after the first of the year/first of the month/after the duck trip/after the deer hunt/after vacation/after the stressful xyz.
Follow the rules and use the tools and you'll be quit like fuck in no time. Before long you'll realize how much time you spent away from what matters most, all just to get your nic fix.
None Today For Any Reason
One Day At A Time
PM me if you need anything.
SKOL!!!!
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Smatrousky, is on day 77 and kicking the nic bitches ass ODAAT. There must be something in the water, because March has bread some true quitters.!! ;Ironman:
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Smatrousky, is on day 77 and kicking the nic bitches ass ODAAT. There must be something in the water, because March has bread some true quitters.!! ;Ironman:
I'll quit with anyone with "trout" in their name! :rolleyes:
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Smatrousky, is on day 77 and kicking the nic bitches ass ODAAT. There must be something in the water, because March has bread some true quitters.!! ;Ironman:
I'll quit with anyone with "trout" in their name! :rolleyes:
I am proud to quit with Grandpa Trout! He is one "special package" indeed!
LOL trout.....you Rock!
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Hey Grandpa Trout
Happy day 80!
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Direct your attention to a new HOF'er, Nice job on reaching 100 man. ODAAT with you any day brother.
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Great job!! Love to see you continue daily posting!!! ODAAT!!
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Great job!! Love to see you continue daily posting!!! ODAAT!!
Congrats Trout. Proud to be quitting with you in our March group. Here's to riding this train for a long time.
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Great job!! Love to see you continue daily posting!!! ODAAT!!
Congrats Trout. Proud to be quitting with you in our March group. Here's to riding this train for a long time.
Mr. Trout, congrats on the 100!
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Great job!! Love to see you continue daily posting!!! ODAAT!!
Congrats Trout. Proud to be quitting with you in our March group. Here's to riding this train for a long time.
Mr. Trout, congrats on the 100!
Congrats bro!!!!
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Great job!! Love to see you continue daily posting!!! ODAAT!!
Congrats Trout. Proud to be quitting with you in our March group. Here's to riding this train for a long time.
Mr. Trout, congrats on the 100!
Congrats bro!!!!
Yeah Grandpa Trout!!!!! Nice job!!!
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Great job!! Love to see you continue daily posting!!! ODAAT!!
Congrats Trout. Proud to be quitting with you in our March group. Here's to riding this train for a long time.
Mr. Trout, congrats on the 100!
Congrats bro!!!!
Yeah Grandpa Trout!!!!! Nice job!!!
Congrats Trout
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Great job!! Love to see you continue daily posting!!! ODAAT!!
Congrats Trout. Proud to be quitting with you in our March group. Here's to riding this train for a long time.
Mr. Trout, congrats on the 100!
Congrats bro!!!!
Yeah Grandpa Trout!!!!! Nice job!!!
Congrats Trout
Nice job!
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Great job!! Love to see you continue daily posting!!! ODAAT!!
Congrats Trout. Proud to be quitting with you in our March group. Here's to riding this train for a long time.
Mr. Trout, congrats on the 100!
Congrats bro!!!!
Yeah Grandpa Trout!!!!! Nice job!!!
Congrats Trout
Nice job!
Way to go Ironman! Congrats
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Great job!! Love to see you continue daily posting!!! ODAAT!!
Congrats Trout. Proud to be quitting with you in our March group. Here's to riding this train for a long time.
Mr. Trout, congrats on the 100!
Congrats bro!!!!
Yeah Grandpa Trout!!!!! Nice job!!!
Congrats Trout
Nice job!
Way to go Ironman! Congrats
Awesome trout. Looking forward to quitting with you some more.
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Great job!! Love to see you continue daily posting!!! ODAAT!!
Congrats Trout. Proud to be quitting with you in our March group. Here's to riding this train for a long time.
Mr. Trout, congrats on the 100!
Congrats bro!!!!
Yeah Grandpa Trout!!!!! Nice job!!!
Congrats Trout
Nice job!
Way to go Ironman! Congrats
Awesome trout. Looking forward to quitting with you some more.
Way to go Trouser! Stick around.
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Great job!! Love to see you continue daily posting!!! ODAAT!!
Congrats Trout. Proud to be quitting with you in our March group. Here's to riding this train for a long time.
Mr. Trout, congrats on the 100!
Congrats bro!!!!
Yeah Grandpa Trout!!!!! Nice job!!!
Congrats Trout
Nice job!
Way to go Ironman! Congrats
Awesome trout. Looking forward to quitting with you some more.
Way to go Trouser! Stick around.
Thanks for all the support! I look forward to strengthening my quit and hopefully helping many others.
Thanks again, I could of never made it this far without you all!
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Great work hitting 365 trout! Proud to quit with you.
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Great work hitting 365 trout! Proud to quit with you.
Dirty Old Man Penis Avatar.... Anything better.... I think not! QLF for 1 year
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Great work hitting 365 trout! Proud to quit with you.
Dirty Old Man Penis Avatar.... Anything better.... I think not! QLF for 1 year
Right on Troutsky! Ripped it all the way into the backing!
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Great work hitting 365 trout! Proud to quit with you.
Dirty Old Man Penis Avatar.... Anything better.... I think not! QLF for 1 year
Right on Troutsky! Ripped it all the way into the backing!
Congrats on the year! That is awesome!
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Great work hitting 365 trout! Proud to quit with you.
Dirty Old Man Penis Avatar.... Anything better.... I think not! QLF for 1 year
Right on Troutsky! Ripped it all the way into the backing!
Congrats on the year! That is awesome!
GRANDPA TROUT CONGRATS ON 365 DAYS OF QUIT!
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Great work hitting 365 trout! Proud to quit with you.
Dirty Old Man Penis Avatar.... Anything better.... I think not! QLF for 1 year
Right on Troutsky! Ripped it all the way into the backing!
Congrats on the year! That is awesome!
GRANDPA TROUT CONGRATS ON 365 DAYS OF QUIT!
Congrats grandpa! 1 year kicks ass!
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Great work hitting 365 trout! Proud to quit with you.
Dirty Old Man Penis Avatar.... Anything better.... I think not! QLF for 1 year
Right on Troutsky! Ripped it all the way into the backing!
Congrats on the year! That is awesome!
GRANDPA TROUT CONGRATS ON 365 DAYS OF QUIT!
Congrats grandpa! 1 year kicks ass!
Obviously couldn't of done it without KTC and my quit brothers
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Great work hitting 365 trout! Proud to quit with you.
Dirty Old Man Penis Avatar.... Anything better.... I think not! QLF for 1 year
Right on Troutsky! Ripped it all the way into the backing!
Congrats on the year! That is awesome!
GRANDPA TROUT CONGRATS ON 365 DAYS OF QUIT!
Congrats grandpa! 1 year kicks ass!
Obviously couldn't of done it without KTC and my quit brothers
Nice lap, Smat! Proud to quit with you.
Keep your dick n your shorts!
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Great work hitting 365 trout! Proud to quit with you.
Dirty Old Man Penis Avatar.... Anything better.... I think not! QLF for 1 year
Right on Troutsky! Ripped it all the way into the backing!
Congrats on the year! That is awesome!
GRANDPA TROUT CONGRATS ON 365 DAYS OF QUIT!
Congrats grandpa! 1 year kicks ass!
Obviously couldn't of done it without KTC and my quit brothers
Nice lap, Smat! Proud to quit with you.
Keep your dick n your shorts!
grats trout, sorry I missed you yesterday
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