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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: nomoregrizz on October 06, 2010, 05:25:00 AM
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Hello. I guess I should introduce myself. My name is Bob and I'm 39 years old. Im happily married to a wonderful woman and I have four great kids. I have been dipping on and off since I was about 12. I quit dipping steadily and started smoking when I was about 16. Although I would still occasionaly dip if the opportunity presented itself....I mostly smoked until about 9 months ago. I decided to follow in my wife's footsteps and quit smoking,she quit a pack a day habit cold turkey and never looked back, but I found myself using dip to cheat. At the time I worked 6 days a week and it was all good until my wife put 2 and 2 together and figured out why I was always such a dick on Sundays....I couldnt cheat and lie about it when she was with me. I came clean and told her I had been dipping to take the edge off of quitting smoking. She caved and told me whatever I wanted to do was fine with her. I knew she was dissapointed but it was still validation.....and I was soon back to a can a day habit. My dip of choice was Grizzly long cut Wintergreen.....I would get something different once in a while but 99% of the time I stuck with the grizz. I have to say I hadnt even thought about quitting lately until tonight. I couldnt sleep and was messing around on the web when I stumbled on your site while looking for a coupon to buy a roll of grizz in the morning.....ironic huh? After seeing all of the mouth cancer pictures and thinking of my late Father, We lost Dad 4 years ago this December,( who was a long time smoker and occasional long leaf chewer), to esophageal cancer. I decided enough was enough.....Im done. I dont want cancer......Im tired of the nasty ass Snapple bottle Ive been using to spit in.....Im sick of the funky taste in my mouth and the rank breath.....Im tired of the inside of my lip being raw (for some reason wintergreen will sometimes burn the hell out of my lip).....but the biggest thing is the disgust with myself and the sheer terror that one of these days a sore or an ulcer wont go away. I have to say that I do remember the few days of hell when I quit smoking (before I started cheating) and Im not looking forward to it at all. For some reason tobacco has been my white elephant since day 1. I have tried many time before but I just couldnt quit. This time feels different though.....Im not quitting for my wife or my kids or for any other reason....Im quitting because I want to quit. I WANT TO QUIT!!! Sorry.....I felt I needed to emphasize that....and it felt kind of good to say it actually. Im sure you have all heard all of this mindless ranting before.....and Im just as sure I wont be the last. Today is Wednesday, October 6th 2010......and at 4:45 AM this morning, I dumped my last two dips into the toilet......pissed on it, and flushed it. Life is going to suck for a few days. But I feel like I have my legs under me this time. Wish me luck.
Bob Meeks Jr.
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Good for you Bob. Welcome to the site.
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Bob - right choice and it sounds like for the right reasons. Welcome to the quit. You know for your experience that you can't have nic in any form. You need to get a plan together.
I would recommend that you find the fake stuff (mint snuff, hooch, smokey mountanin) have it on hand. if you can't find in store, then order online. Get some seeds, drink lots of water/juice, get gum and plan to exercise to burn off the stress,rage and craves.
I dipped for 30 years, I'm now 115 days free and free is the right word. It's so great to be away from the nic. There are times that I miss it. Yesterday in fact I saw the can wink at me while at Quick Trip. But I stared it down and won a small victory because I walked out still free. So it's a day by day decision. If you use this site and keep your word, you will rack up the days. It's hard, but the vets and this site make it much more doable.
Join in the Jan group, post up and keep on quitt'n
If you need a contact, email or PM me. I'll give you my number.
Quit, it's what all the cool kids are doing!
Rob
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Great move and welcome. Post roll and do it everyday.
I love the image of pissing on the last two dips and then flushing it down. Made me laugh this morning. :lol:
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Hey Bob! Good move brother!!!
We are here to help you and each other. You already know it's gonna be rough but you know it's gonna be worth it.
Good Luck and PM me if you need anything.
Brian
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Thank you for all of you support. It's only been about 7 hrs and Im already starting to feel jittery.....but confident.
Bob
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Welcome to the party. As you can see there is a ton of support here. If you need something ask someone and people will be more than willing to help out.
Spend time reading the information here.
STAY CLEAN
Greg
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good for you bob and welcome if you need anything let me know we are here for you.
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first small victory.....The wife sent me to the store to get some shampoo and shitpaper. I went through a register other than where they have the dip.....walked out still a free man. Man.....that was tough.
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first small victory.....The wife sent me to the store to get some shampoo and shitpaper. I went through a register other than where they have the dip.....walked out still a free man. Man.....that was tough.
Do you know why you were able to walk out without the dip? Because you are a Badass Quitter.....See you in the HOF
MOA
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first small victory.....The wife sent me to the store to get some shampoo and shitpaper. I went through a register other than where they have the dip.....walked out still a free man. Man.....that was tough.
Do you know why you were able to walk out without the dip? Because you are a Badass Quitter.....See you in the HOF
MOA
I agree that showed reslove but do yourself a favor early on. Do not tempt yourself like that. Avoid the C stores, bars, your old hang outs. Avoid the tobacco displays, tobacco stores, etc. It will make your life easier when the shit gets wierd.
Good job avoiding tempation! Wake up early and post your promise again tomorrow.
STAY QUIT
Greg
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Welcome bob! This site is awesome, lots of dudes in here to help with your quit. I also liked the fact that you pissed on the last two fatty's! Awesome!
All the info below, keep it with you, I'm a 16 day quitter and if I could do the first three days over, I'd stay at home! I just stared out my window or went for LONG walks while I was getting over the initial withdrawal. I know we all can't just take three days off....
again, welcome and PM if you need a # or anything else
tarpon
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Im actually lucky....Ive been off of work for about 2 1/2 months due to an injury. I Just settled the lawsuit and Im looking forward to my new career as a paid EMT. So for the last 3 days I have been able to take it easy and just kind of work through the funk. The seeds have helped.....Ive been watching a lot of tv. Doing my best to keep the jitters to a minnimum.....The seeds help a lot with that and the cravings too.
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Oh.....the funk....the suck....the shit.....whatever you want to call it. I literally feel like i could eat concertina wire and piss napalm!! Im not whining....just venting.....Im going to bed early tonight, I have a long busy day tomorrow...which is day four. Hopefully ill be a little calmer after the 72 hour soak. Im told it's the last 10 or so hours of the 72 hour soak that can really bring you to your knees....by 72 hour soak im referring to the time it takes the body to purge itself of all nicotine.....im in the final 11 hours of my 72 hour soak and im starting to get that hazy foggy feeling. Im just babbling now...LMAO. Im gojnna go gnaw on some seeds and watch tv.......and remember this 72 hour soak. I NEVER want to feel like this again.
NMG 'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head'
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Oh.....the funk....the suck....the shit.....whatever you want to call it. I literally feel like i could eat concertina wire and piss napalm!! Im not whining....just venting.....Im going to bed early tonight, I have a long busy day tomorrow...which is day four. Hopefully ill be a little calmer after the 72 hour soak. Im told it's the last 10 or so hours of the 72 hour soak that can really bring you to your knees....by 72 hour soak im referring to the time it takes the body to purge itself of all nicotine.....im in the final 11 hours of my 72 hour soak and im starting to get that hazy foggy feeling. Im just babbling now...LMAO. Im gojnna go gnaw on some seeds and watch tv.......and remember this 72 hour soak. I NEVER want to feel like this again.
NMG 'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head'
Right idea, Grizz. Don't ever, ever forget. Embrace this hell. Everybody here has gone through it, and everybody here has your back. Just keep on going no matter what each day throws at you. If you keep quitting each day, it will get better. Coming on here to rant, rave, talk, ask questions or read is never a bad idea.
I'm quit with you.
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Oh.....the funk....the suck....the shit.....whatever you want to call it. I literally feel like i could eat concertina wire and piss napalm!! Im not whining....just venting.....Im going to bed early tonight, I have a long busy day tomorrow...which is day four. Hopefully ill be a little calmer after the 72 hour soak. Im told it's the last 10 or so hours of the 72 hour soak that can really bring you to your knees....by 72 hour soak im referring to the time it takes the body to purge itself of all nicotine.....im in the final 11 hours of my 72 hour soak and im starting to get that hazy foggy feeling. Im just babbling now...LMAO. Im gojnna go gnaw on some seeds and watch tv.......and remember this 72 hour soak. I NEVER want to feel like this again.
           NMG 'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head'
Right idea, Grizz. Don't ever, ever forget. Embrace this hell. Everybody here has gone through it, and everybody here has your back. Just keep on going no matter what each day throws at you. If you keep quitting each day, it will get better. Coming on here to rant, rave, talk, ask questions or read is never a bad idea.
I'm quit with you.
Remember every miserable second. As you get farther away from your day one it may seem like things are easy. When that happens get back to this post and remember how bad you feel.
You NEVER have to live this again as long as you stay clean. Good job so far. Stick with it. Sing out if you need help. We are here for you...
STAY QUIT
Greg
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I' glad you posted that...helps me stay quit to read your description of the suck. It is probably part of the rationalization, but it's just like breaking up in a relationship...she may have driven you crazy, but all you can remember early on is the good times. Just remember this one was crazy enough to kill you. RUN!!!
Stay strong, stay quit...and you'll never go through this again.
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I got through the 72 hour soak......Im feeling better today. I just woke up and theres no jitters or headache. Its gonna be a good fuckin day!!!!!
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I got through the 72 hour soak......Im feeling better today. I just woke up and theres no jitters or headache. Its gonna be a good fuckin day!!!!!
Enjoy the good days when you have them, especially early on. Enjoy how this day feels and remember that ALL of your days can be like this if you just stay clean.
You still have some dues to pay, but knowing I was going to have good days kept me fighting. Nice work !! Your body is now Nicotine free !
STAY QUIT
Greg
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I got through the 72 hour soak......Im feeling better today. I just woke up and theres no jitters or headache. Its gonna be a good fuckin day!!!!!
Congrats NMG!!
Stay focused, stay commited, stay QUIT!!!
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That Fog is no shit uh. i was at work and kept babbling to myslef like i was a flipp'n drunk. haha but it got better, it gets better.
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OK...so I had my quit tested tonight for the first time. I went to the local firehouse's open house. My son is a junior firefighter there and I am joining as an EMT at the end of October. I was talking to one of the current EMT's about this and that when he looked around and saw that pretty much everyone had left except for the staff. So he breaks out this can of skoal mint and starts packing away....takes off the lid....holds the can out too me and says "you want a dip?". I swear I almost BOKED when I smelled the shit....I politely declined to him and explained that Im almost on the ninth day of my quit from that stuff. He congratulated me and said he had thought about quitting a few times......that was the end of the conversation. Before we left.....I wrote the site's name down and handed it too him....I told him that when he was ready there was a LOT of information and rescourses to help him with his quit, including veteran quitters that will support him. He thanked me and said that when he was ready he'd check it out.
Heres the deal.....Im a former U.S. Marine.....I've jumped out of perfectly good aircraft for the sheer fun of it.....I bungee jumped off of the New River Bridge in West Virginia.....Ive delivered 3 children outside of a hospital setting (one in a shopping mall elevator vestibule).....and I have NEVER felt as BADASS as I did tonight!!! Yesterday + 1. And a lot of encouragement from this board.....Thanks for the help.
NMG
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OK...so I had my quit tested tonight for the first time. I went to the local firehouse's open house. My son is a junior firefighter there and I am joining as an EMT at the end of October. I was talking to one of the current EMT's about this and that when he looked around and saw that pretty much everyone had left except for the staff. So he breaks out this can of skoal mint and starts packing away....takes off the lid....holds the can out too me and says "you want a dip?". I swear I almost BOKED when I smelled the shit....I politely declined to him and explained that Im almost on the ninth day of my quit from that stuff. He congratulated me and said he had thought about quitting a few times......that was the end of the conversation. Before we left.....I wrote the site's name down and handed it too him....I told him that when he was ready there was a LOT of information and rescourses to help him with his quit, including veteran quitters that will support him. He thanked me and said that when he was ready he'd check it out.
Heres the deal.....Im a former U.S. Marine.....I've jumped out of perfectly good aircraft for the sheer fun of it.....I bungee jumped off of the New River Bridge in West Virginia.....Ive delivered 3 children outside of a hospital setting (one in a shopping mall elevator vestibule).....and I have NEVER felt as BADASS as I did tonight!!! Yesterday + 1. And a lot of encouragement from this board.....Thanks for the help.
NMG
awesome story. good job. I feel comfortable in my quit, however I haven't had too many big tests yet and that scares me. I am still very nervous when drinking. I almost don't even want to go out drinking cause I don't trust myself yet. I don't drink often, but when I do, I can turn a couple beers into 8 or 10 pretty quickly and do things I later regret. I still have this inner fear I could blow this quit while drunk some night.
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OK...so I had my quit tested tonight for the first time. I went to the local firehouse's open house. My son is a junior firefighter there and I am joining as an EMT at the end of October. I was talking to one of the current EMT's about this and that when he looked around and saw that pretty much everyone had left except for the staff. So he breaks out this can of skoal mint and starts packing away....takes off the lid....holds the can out too me and says "you want a dip?". I swear I almost BOKED when I smelled the shit....I politely declined to him and explained that Im almost on the ninth day of my quit from that stuff. He congratulated me and said he had thought about quitting a few times......that was the end of the conversation. Before we left.....I wrote the site's name down and handed it too him....I told him that when he was ready there was a LOT of information and rescourses to help him with his quit, including veteran quitters that will support him. He thanked me and said that when he was ready he'd check it out.
Heres the deal.....Im a former U.S. Marine.....I've jumped out of perfectly good aircraft for the sheer fun of it.....I bungee jumped off of the New River Bridge in West Virginia.....Ive delivered 3 children outside of a hospital setting (one in a shopping mall elevator vestibule).....and I have NEVER felt as BADASS as I did tonight!!! Yesterday + 1. And a lot of encouragement from this board.....Thanks for the help.
NMG
Great job jarhead!
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OK...so I had my quit tested tonight for the first time. I went to the local firehouse's open house. My son is a junior firefighter there and I am joining as an EMT at the end of October. I was talking to one of the current EMT's about this and that when he looked around and saw that pretty much everyone had left except for the staff. So he breaks out this can of skoal mint and starts packing away....takes off the lid....holds the can out too me and says "you want a dip?". I swear I almost BOKED when I smelled the shit....I politely declined to him and explained that Im almost on the ninth day of my quit from that stuff. He congratulated me and said he had thought about quitting a few times......that was the end of the conversation. Before we left.....I wrote the site's name down and handed it too him....I told him that when he was ready there was a LOT of information and rescourses to help him with his quit, including veteran quitters that will support him. He thanked me and said that when he was ready he'd check it out.
Heres the deal.....Im a former U.S. Marine.....I've jumped out of perfectly good aircraft for the sheer fun of it.....I bungee jumped off of the New River Bridge in West Virginia.....Ive delivered 3 children outside of a hospital setting (one in a shopping mall elevator vestibule).....and I have NEVER felt as BADASS as I did tonight!!! Yesterday + 1. And a lot of encouragement from this board.....Thanks for the help.
NMG
NMG- You're the man!!!
Good job!
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OK...so I had my quit tested tonight for the first time. I went to the local firehouse's open house. My son is a junior firefighter there and I am joining as an EMT at the end of October. I was talking to one of the current EMT's about this and that when he looked around and saw that pretty much everyone had left except for the staff. So he breaks out this can of skoal mint and starts packing away....takes off the lid....holds the can out too me and says "you want a dip?". I swear I almost BOKED when I smelled the shit....I politely declined to him and explained that Im almost on the ninth day of my quit from that stuff. He congratulated me and said he had thought about quitting a few times......that was the end of the conversation. Before we left.....I wrote the site's name down and handed it too him....I told him that when he was ready there was a LOT of information and rescourses to help him with his quit, including veteran quitters that will support him. He thanked me and said that when he was ready he'd check it out.
Heres the deal.....Im a former U.S. Marine.....I've jumped out of perfectly good aircraft for the sheer fun of it.....I bungee jumped off of the New River Bridge in West Virginia.....Ive delivered 3 children outside of a hospital setting (one in a shopping mall elevator vestibule).....and I have NEVER felt as BADASS as I did tonight!!! Yesterday + 1. And a lot of encouragement from this board.....Thanks for the help.
         NMG
Great job jarhead!
Thanks LeatherNeck Semper Fi bro
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Congrats, Pyle. (J/K) Huge respect for you!!! Great job staying quit. I had that same experience on a golf course with my boss. It felt really f'ing cool to turn down a dip while he was loading his face...I felt totally bad-ass while he made some stupid joke about his attempt at quitting.
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OK...so I had my quit tested tonight for the first time. I went to the local firehouse's open house. My son is a junior firefighter there and I am joining as an EMT at the end of October. I was talking to one of the current EMT's about this and that when he looked around and saw that pretty much everyone had left except for the staff. So he breaks out this can of skoal mint and starts packing away....takes off the lid....holds the can out too me and says "you want a dip?". I swear I almost BOKED when I smelled the shit....I politely declined to him and explained that Im almost on the ninth day of my quit from that stuff. He congratulated me and said he had thought about quitting a few times......that was the end of the conversation. Before we left.....I wrote the site's name down and handed it too him....I told him that when he was ready there was a LOT of information and rescourses to help him with his quit, including veteran quitters that will support him. He thanked me and said that when he was ready he'd check it out.
Heres the deal.....Im a former U.S. Marine.....I've jumped out of perfectly good aircraft for the sheer fun of it.....I bungee jumped off of the New River Bridge in West Virginia.....Ive delivered 3 children outside of a hospital setting (one in a shopping mall elevator vestibule).....and I have NEVER felt as BADASS as I did tonight!!! Yesterday + 1. And a lot of encouragement from this board.....Thanks for the help.
NMG
That is an awesome story Grizz. Thanks! that Made my day!
AJT
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Congrats, Pyle. (J/K) Huge respect for you!!! Great job staying quit. I had that same experience on a golf course with my boss. It felt really f'ing cool to turn down a dip while he was loading his face...I felt totally bad-ass while he made some stupid joke about his attempt at quitting.
I hate when people do that. When I hear someone make a wise-crack about quitting...I usually say something like this...
"I know someone who used to make light of quitting like you just did....but he doesn't any more"
Really? Why?
"had his tongue and part of his face removed... He really struggles to say anything"
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Thanks AJT and Bean.....Im on day 10 today. I had some time to just sit and think yesterday and I realized something......most of my family members that have passed have died of either cancer or heart problems. Thats kind of scary when I consider that I had a habit that can cause BOTH of these evils. Its amazing what you start to think about after your head clears up. Have a GREAT day,
NMG
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10 days is HUGE, dude. I recall that when I got to Day 10, it finally started to sink in that this time was different.
I always thought I would be strong enough to quit, but at Day 10 I started to know I could do it.
Congrats!
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So there I am....getting ready to sit down with my wife to fill out some of my application for nursing school....(yes Im going to school to be a male nurse....Im also 6'1", 230 lbs and a former Marine...deal with it...LMFAO)...so we are sitting down at the table when I suddenly feel this LUMP on the inside of my mouth...thats right ladies.....I said a LUMP. I excused myself an went up stairs to the bathroom to see what the fuck is in my mouth.....if it aint food,seeds,beer or iced tea I have a SEVERE problem!!! So I look at this thing in the mirror and it's black as coal and about 1/8" across.....Im thinking "Man....I quit too damn late"......I start to fuck around with this thing when suddenly it POPS and all this blood comes oozing out.....kinda gross.....but now the lump is gone and so is the black color. It must have been a blood blister.....I probably bit the inside of my mouth when I was cracking the seed shells. Im gonna keep an eye on it but Im pretty sure Im out of the woods on this one......Im glad I quit when I did. It was shit like this that always worried me.....I was always afraid that someday an ulcer wouldnt heal up or Id start to see those telltale white spots where I packed my dip. Just thought Id share a holy shit moment.
NMG
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So there I am....getting ready to sit down with my wife to fill out some of my application for nursing school....(yes Im going to school to be a male nurse....Im also 6'1", 230 lbs and a former Marine...deal with it...LMFAO)...so we are sitting down at the table when I suddenly feel this LUMP on the inside of my mouth...thats right ladies.....I said a LUMP. I excused myself an went up stairs to the bathroom to see what the fuck is in my mouth.....if it aint food,seeds,beer or iced tea I have a SEVERE problem!!! So I look at this thing in the mirror and it's black as coal and about 1/8" across.....Im thinking "Man....I quit too damn late"......I start to fuck around with this thing when suddenly it POPS and all this blood comes oozing out.....kinda gross.....but now the lump is gone and so is the black color. It must have been a blood blister.....I probably bit the inside of my mouth when I was cracking the seed shells. Im gonna keep an eye on it but Im pretty sure Im out of the woods on this one......Im glad I quit when I did. It was shit like this that always worried me.....I was always afraid that someday an ulcer wouldnt heal up or Id start to see those telltale white spots where I packed my dip. Just thought Id share a holy shit moment.
NMG
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So there I am....getting ready to sit down with my wife to fill out some of my application for nursing school....(yes Im going to school to be a male nurse....Im also 6'1", 230 lbs and a former Marine...deal with it...LMFAO)...so we are sitting down at the table when I suddenly feel this LUMP on the inside of my mouth...thats right ladies.....I said a LUMP. I excused myself an went up stairs to the bathroom to see what the fuck is in my mouth.....if it aint food,seeds,beer or iced tea I have a SEVERE problem!!! So I look at this thing in the mirror and it's black as coal and about 1/8" across.....Im thinking "Man....I quit too damn late"......I start to fuck around with this thing when suddenly it POPS and all this blood comes oozing out.....kinda gross.....but now the lump is gone and so is the black color. It must have been a blood blister.....I probably bit the inside of my mouth when I was cracking the seed shells. Im gonna keep an eye on it but Im pretty sure Im out of the woods on this one......Im glad I quit when I did. It was shit like this that always worried me.....I was always afraid that someday an ulcer wouldnt heal up or Id start to see those telltale white spots where I packed my dip. Just thought Id share a holy shit moment.
NMG
That is some scary shit NMG!!
Glad to hear it appears to just be a blood blister.
And now that I know your dimensions I won't make fun of you being a male nurse... LOL!!
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So there I am....getting ready to sit down with my wife to fill out some of my application for nursing school....(yes Im going to school to be a male nurse....Im also 6'1", 230 lbs and a former Marine...deal with it...LMFAO)...so we are sitting down at the table when I suddenly feel this LUMP on the inside of my mouth...thats right ladies.....I said a LUMP. I excused myself an went up stairs to the bathroom to see what the fuck is in my mouth.....if it aint food,seeds,beer or iced tea I have a SEVERE problem!!! So I look at this thing in the mirror and it's black as coal and about 1/8" across.....Im thinking "Man....I quit too damn late"......I start to fuck around with this thing when suddenly it POPS and all this blood comes oozing out.....kinda gross.....but now the lump is gone and so is the black color. It must have been a blood blister.....I probably bit the inside of my mouth when I was cracking the seed shells. Im gonna keep an eye on it but Im pretty sure Im out of the woods on this one......Im glad I quit when I did. It was shit like this that always worried me.....I was always afraid that someday an ulcer wouldnt heal up or Id start to see those telltale white spots where I packed my dip. Just thought Id share a holy shit moment.
NMG
Definitely sounds like a blood blister... If it hasn't started healing in a couple of days you should go to the doc to get checked out.
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Incidently, was it on the roof of your mouth?
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Incidently, was it on the roof of your mouth?
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So there I am....getting ready to sit down with my wife to fill out some of my application for nursing school....(yes Im going to school to be a male nurse....Im also 6'1", 230 lbs and a former Marine...deal with it...LMFAO)...so we are sitting down at the table when I suddenly feel this LUMP on the inside of my mouth...thats right ladies.....I said a LUMP. I excused myself an went up stairs to the bathroom to see what the fuck is in my mouth.....if it aint food,seeds,beer or iced tea I have a SEVERE problem!!! So I look at this thing in the mirror and it's black as coal and about 1/8" across.....Im thinking "Man....I quit too damn late"......I start to fuck around with this thing when suddenly it POPS and all this blood comes oozing out.....kinda gross.....but now the lump is gone and so is the black color. It must have been a blood blister.....I probably bit the inside of my mouth when I was cracking the seed shells. Im gonna keep an eye on it but Im pretty sure Im out of the woods on this one......Im glad I quit when I did. It was shit like this that always worried me.....I was always afraid that someday an ulcer wouldnt heal up or Id start to see those telltale white spots where I packed my dip. Just thought Id share a holy shit moment.
           NMG
Well, your #1 problem is you being a puss for trying to convince people you're not one of the limp-wristed nurses... "Male Nurse!" Get over it!!!! Fuck 'em and NEVER explain yourself...but I do have to wonder...if you weren't a corpsman....and truly a marine...and wanting to go to nursing school....hmmmm....at least I had been an FMF corpsman....you though....gotta wonder.....
Seriously, there are all kinds of reasons for that lump...watch it over the next 2-3 days...if it comes back see if it starts getting smaller right away, likely absolutely no problem. If it stays the same size or gets bigger, get that fucker checked out immediately even though it is still unlikely to be anything significant. Don't assume anything, though.
Semper Fi
- CoachDoc
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So there I am....getting ready to sit down with my wife to fill out some of my application for nursing school....(yes Im going to school to be a male nurse....Im also 6'1", 230 lbs and a former Marine...deal with it...LMFAO)...so we are sitting down at the table when I suddenly feel this LUMP on the inside of my mouth...thats right ladies.....I said a LUMP. I excused myself an went up stairs to the bathroom to see what the fuck is in my mouth.....if it aint food,seeds,beer or iced tea I have a SEVERE problem!!! So I look at this thing in the mirror and it's black as coal and about 1/8" across.....Im thinking "Man....I quit too damn late"......I start to fuck around with this thing when suddenly it POPS and all this blood comes oozing out.....kinda gross.....but now the lump is gone and so is the black color. It must have been a blood blister.....I probably bit the inside of my mouth when I was cracking the seed shells. Im gonna keep an eye on it but Im pretty sure Im out of the woods on this one......Im glad I quit when I did. It was shit like this that always worried me.....I was always afraid that someday an ulcer wouldnt heal up or Id start to see those telltale white spots where I packed my dip. Just thought Id share a holy shit moment.
NMG
Well, your #1 problem is you being a puss for trying to convince people you're not one of the limp-wristed nurses... "Male Nurse!" Get over it!!!! Fuck 'em and NEVER explain yourself...but I do have to wonder...if you weren't a corpsman....and truly a marine...and wanting to go to nursing school....hmmmm....at least I had been an FMF corpsman....you though....gotta wonder.....
Seriously, there are all kinds of reasons for that lump...watch it over the next 2-3 days...if it comes back see if it starts getting smaller right away, likely absolutely no problem. If it stays the same size or gets bigger, get that fucker checked out immediately even though it is still unlikely to be anything significant. Don't assume anything, though.
Semper Fi
- CoachDoc
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LMAO.....Semper Fi Coach, and the lump didnt come back at all.....Theres still a tiny spot where it was but no more dark color or bubble or anything.
NMG
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great to hear that happen to me once, woke up from a nap and started tasting blood, looked in my mouth and a blood blister. you can rest easier now, keep the good fight up.
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Hey all my fellow quitters.....I have a question. Im on my 22nd day.....I rarely have cravings anymore......when I do they are minor enough that I can push right through them. So Imin class for EMT recertification last night......the class was 4 hours long and had two 15 min breaks plus a few "take 5's" while switching powerpoints. During those breaks I felt awkward as hell......like I had no clue what to do with this time. I mean.....I went to the john or whatever......but when I came back to class, there was hardly anyone there. I didt cave and have no intention of caving.......but to tell you the truth I kind of felt left out......kind of like how you felt when you were kept in for recess for doing something wrong. Its probably nothing.....just another mental thing to get over....but has anyone else felt like this in a social situation?
NMG
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Hey all my fellow quitters.....I have a question. Im on my 22nd day.....I rarely have cravings anymore......when I do they are minor enough that I can push right through them. So Imin class for EMT recertification last night......the class was 4 hours long and had two 15 min breaks plus a few "take 5's" while switching powerpoints. During those breaks I felt awkward as hell......like I had no clue what to do with this time. I mean.....I went to the john or whatever......but when I came back to class, there was hardly anyone there. I didt cave and have no intention of caving.......but to tell you the truth I kind of felt left out......kind of like how you felt when you were kept in for recess for doing something wrong. Its probably nothing.....just another mental thing to get over....but has anyone else felt like this in a social situation?
NMG
I always have a book with me. The best way to grow is to continue to learn and I have set a goal to read at least 1 non-fiction book a month.
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Hey all my fellow quitters.....I have a question. Im on my 22nd day.....I rarely have cravings anymore......when I do they are minor enough that I can push right through them. So Imin class for EMT recertification last night......the class was 4 hours long and had two 15 min breaks plus a few "take 5's" while switching powerpoints. During those breaks I felt awkward as hell......like I had no clue what to do with this time. I mean.....I went to the john or whatever......but when I came back to class, there was hardly anyone there. I didt cave and have no intention of caving.......but to tell you the truth I kind of felt left out......kind of like how you felt when you were kept in for recess for doing something wrong. Its probably nothing.....just another mental thing to get over....but has anyone else felt like this in a social situation?
           NMG
Next time you are in a situation like that and you go to the john, try masturbating....It will burn up more time so when you are done and come back people will be coming back as well and you will be ready to rock n roll.
Plus it helps fight off those cravings!
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Hey all my fellow quitters.....I have a question. Im on my 22nd day.....I rarely have cravings anymore......when I do they are minor enough that I can push right through them. So Imin class for EMT recertification last night......the class was 4 hours long and had two 15 min breaks plus a few "take 5's" while switching powerpoints. During those breaks I felt awkward as hell......like I had no clue what to do with this time. I mean.....I went to the john or whatever......but when I came back to class, there was hardly anyone there. I didt cave and have no intention of caving.......but to tell you the truth I kind of felt left out......kind of like how you felt when you were kept in for recess for doing something wrong. Its probably nothing.....just another mental thing to get over....but has anyone else felt like this in a social situation?
           NMG
Next time you are in a situation like that and you go to the john, try masturbating....It will burn up more time so when you are done and come back people will be coming back as well and you will be ready to rock n roll.
Plus it helps fight off those cravings!
The animal inside me agrees with davenc.... you can never go wrong with punching the clown.
The intellect in me agrees with ncheel.... have a book handy to read or prepare yourself for the next presentation in the class.
I know the scenerio that you are talking about. The way I choose to think of it is like this... If everyone went outside during break and stuck a dirty needle in their arm would you feel strange not doing it yourself? They are going outside to slowly kill themselves and you are being a man and gettin' your QUIT on !!!!!