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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Phil16 on December 27, 2012, 08:27:00 AM
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My name is John. I dipped my last yesterday at 815am. Last night I had an enormous headache, and it's worse this morning. Here goes day 2.
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Great job John. The first 3 days are the hardest but then it gets better. Remember how bad it is now and use it later in your quit when you have a crave to return. The nic bitch doesn't let go of her slaves very easily but your new found freedom from nicotine is so worth it. You can do it.
Go to the Welcome Center and read up on the hows and whys of what we do here and why it really works. Post your daily pledge and quit day in the April 2013 quit group, early each day.
Reach out to your April quit brothers, they are going through the same things you are each day. Exchange phone numbers so you can lean on each other during the tough times. PM me if you have any questions or whatever.
Welcome to KTC.
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Keep it going. There is light at the end of the tunnel. Every single one of us here has been down this road before. I started down this road a little over a month ago and I can tell you that this is the best thing I have ever done for myself or for anyone else. Just remember that although you may be doing it for other people besides yourself, you're ultimately doing it for yourself. PM me if you need anything, even if only to chat.
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Welcome to ktc Phil16. Congratulation's on making the best decision you could ever make. Like gr8white said, the first 3 day's are the hardest but, it does get getter. Just make sure you keep some sunflower seeds, gum, hard candy or fake chew with you as much as you can for when the craving's hit hardest. Stay on the site as much as possible as well, read all you can and then read some more, anything to keep your mind off that evil can. I quit with you today. If you need anything just pm me.
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I'm feeling pretty good. Ready to lay down and sleep. Appreciate the advice, I've noticed that reading through this site has been very good for me to grab ahold of courage and strategy. I am quit, like it is my Job. The reality is, that my quit is my only focus. New year, no chew. Thanks for all the support, and modeling. John
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Stay strong. Stay close to this site. Read it, you get a craving read it again.
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My name is John. I dipped my last yesterday at 815am. Last night I had an enormous headache, and it's worse this morning. Here goes day 2.
Welcome John! Stay strong, water and exercise will help the first couple of days. Read the site and get some numbers from your brothers. PM me if you need another number.
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My name is John. I dipped my last yesterday at 815am. Last night I had an enormous headache, and it's worse this morning. Here goes day 2.
Welcome John! Stay strong, water and exercise will help the first couple of days. Read the site and get some numbers from your brothers. PM me if you need another number.
do what ever it takes to get through the day. The nic will be out of your system soon. Exercise like a madman, for some reason it really helps. if you need help reach out, and stay involved. post first thing in the morning and keep your word. pm if you need anything. quit and loving it.
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I'm going to a hs basketball game. I'm just realizing the trigger of sporting events. We are going to eat, and then to the game...I have my gum packed! I am quit. New year-no chew!
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headache is totally normal. it'll pass. It is caused by your brain getting more oxygen than it is used to. Thats actually a good thing.
keep it up, it gets easier.
sM
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Good talking to you earlier - stay quit!
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Good talking to you earlier - stay quit!
If you two are taking, you have both discovered key 1 to success - brotherhood.
Accountability is the other key (no less important). That one is easy.
See both of you bad mamajamma's on roll tomorrow!
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Good talking to you earlier - stay quit!
She made three weak attempts at me. Stay quit we did, JW1977!
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Good talking to you earlier - stay quit!
She made three weak attempts at me. Stay quit we did, JW1977!
Damn straight bro - called and texted your way - checking in on you!
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Good talking to you earlier - stay quit!
She made three weak attempts at me. Stay quit we did, JW1977!
Damn straight bro - called and texted your way - checking in on you!
That right there is the damn nuts.
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Good talking to you earlier - stay quit!
She made three weak attempts at me. Stay quit we did, JW1977!
Damn straight bro - called and texted your way - checking in on you!
That right there is the damn nuts.
Apparently, today was a rough one - but when the troops fuckin rally, shit gets done. Glad to hear you stayed hard John. I won't let you down - I'm gonna stay quit!
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Day 6 was the first time I ran into a true crisis of quit. Honestly I had not really experienced a real powerful crave, but today it was more than a thought, it was an overwhelming sense of I DON'T Care about my quit, my life, my ktc brothers, my integrity, my wife, my sons, I just ddin't care about anything except getting that Copenhagen fix. Besides the physical urge, I had pretty good rational. (see how it works...when I don't care about anything, I started justifying my idolatry)
A difficult day at work, combined with a maddening scenario, which was out of my control lead me to a point where I was literally looking for me keys, and planning my LIE to cover for why I had to leave the office at 130pm, which had become so natural, I hardly noticed the rationalizing process. In the moment, I realized thanks to ktc that I was in the middle of a stress trigger. The rewriting process was in my hands, so I just did what I guess I always knew I should have been doing, but lacked the courage, I reached out.
1. I prayed...I can't tell you what I said, I just acknowledged that I was going to need HIS help.
2. I texted my accountability partner, telling him I was struggling.
3. I called an ktc brother
This all happened in the space of 38 seconds, and before I realized it was sharing with my ktc brother about the crave, and my drama. He said, "wow, that's tough. Doesn't sound like a very good reason to kill yourself.".
Crickets...
Exactly what I needed to hear. I realized through my brother that NO MATTER WHAT I am facing, nicotine is not an option. There is no lie my addict brain can spin that will make dipping a real solution. It's just a way to avoid the real issue, or numbing what I am needing to experience.
My quit is stronger today. WE BEAT IT DOWN! 6days quit, thanks to the brotherhood.
...john
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Day 6 was the first time I ran into a true crisis of quit. Honestly I had not really experienced a real powerful crave, but today it was more than a thought, it was an overwhelming sense of I DON'T Care about my quit, my life, my ktc brothers, my integrity, my wife, my sons, I just ddin't care about anything except getting that Copenhagen fix. Besides the physical urge, I had pretty good rational. (see how it works...when I don't care about anything, I started justifying my idolatry)
A difficult day at work, combined with a maddening scenario, which was out of my control lead me to a point where I was literally looking for me keys, and planning my LIE to cover for why I had to leave the office at 130pm, which had become so natural, I hardly noticed the rationalizing process. In the moment, I realized thanks to ktc that I was in the middle of a stress trigger. The rewriting process was in my hands, so I just did what I guess I always knew I should have been doing, but lacked the courage, I reached out.
1. I prayed...I can't tell you what I said, I just acknowledged that I was going to need HIS help.
2. I texted my accountability partner, telling him I was struggling.
3. I called an ktc brother
This all happened in the space of 38 seconds, and before I realized it was sharing with my ktc brother about the crave, and my drama. He said, "wow, that's tough. Doesn't sound like a very good reason to kill yourself.".
Crickets...
Exactly what I needed to hear. I realized through my brother that NO MATTER WHAT I am facing, nicotine is not an option. There is no lie my addict brain can spin that will make dipping a real solution. It's just a way to avoid the real issue, or numbing what I am needing to experience.
My quit is stronger today. WE BEAT IT DOWN! 6days quit, thanks to the brotherhood.
...john
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It does get easier as the days go by. There will still be bad days and you will have good days, but overall it will get better. My worst crave hit in the 70's, just about when I thought I was home free. Just remember you are an addict, no more, not even 1, not for any reason. Happy that you made it through a huge trigger like that and it will make you stronger. QLF with you today.
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Hmmmm. Thats pretty fucking impressive actually. Not that a quit brother talked you off the ledge as much as you reaching out. Shows you really do want to rid your life of this shit. Well done. Keep up the good work.
Just think though...had you not reached out and you did get that lip full of shit. What would have changed? Would your difficult day at work magically gotten better? Nope. Would that maddening scenario that was totally out of your control become un madddening and would you suddenly have been in total control over it? Nope.
Cope doesn't have that power, but sadly nicotine has fucked up your brain to the point where you THINK it does have that magic power. Your brain is pissed at you for not poisoning it anymore so its gonna try REAAAALLLYYY hard to get the poison train rolling again. That's all its doing, its cant make your life better or less stressful. Truth is by giving up nicotine you have zero to lose and everything to gain. You are not giving up anything "pleasurable", your saving your fucking life!!!
Chewings not some stress relieving hobby, its a fucking ADDICTION. What hobby do you know of that while your doing it you wish you weren't and when you aren't doing it, you wish you were? That's fucked up when you think about it. Nicotine is a FUCKING LIE, A SCAM, A WASTE, A FUCKING WALLET DRAINING ADDICTION THAT LINES THE POCKETS OF BIG TOBACCO AND TAKES YOU AS A SLAVE AND TRIES TO KILL YOU IN THE PROCESS. ITS COMPLETE 100% BULLSHIT!!!!!
Ok sorry, time to settle down. Got a little fired up there, might be the bud lights talking. Bottom line is I don't know you from a hole in the ground...but I'm rooting for you and I know for a fact you can kick this shit to the curb and live a life of freedom that will be better than you could possibly imagine. I'm living proof of it and I'm a fucking pussy. Quit on my brother. Use this site to get your freedom back. There's some heavy hitting bad ass mother fucking quitters on this site. Anytime you feel stuck, reach out and we will help you...I think you got proof of that today. Sorry so long but I'm FIRED UP for some reason. Quit on!!!!!
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Day 6 was the first time I ran into a true crisis of quit. Honestly I had not really experienced a real powerful crave, but today it was more than a thought, it was an overwhelming sense of I DON'T Care about my quit, my life, my ktc brothers, my integrity, my wife, my sons, I just ddin't care about anything except getting that Copenhagen fix. Besides the physical urge, I had pretty good rational. (see how it works...when I don't care about anything, I started justifying my idolatry)
A difficult day at work, combined with a maddening scenario, which was out of my control lead me to a point where I was literally looking for me keys, and planning my LIE to cover for why I had to leave the office at 130pm, which had become so natural, I hardly noticed the rationalizing process. In the moment, I realized thanks to ktc that I was in the middle of a stress trigger. The rewriting process was in my hands, so I just did what I guess I always knew I should have been doing, but lacked the courage, I reached out.Â
1. I prayed...I can't tell you what I said, I just acknowledged that I was going to need HIS help.
2. I texted my accountability partner, telling him I was struggling.
3. I called an ktc brother
This all happened in the space of 38 seconds, and before I realized it was sharing with my ktc brother about the crave, and my drama. He said, "wow, that's tough. Doesn't sound like a very good reason to kill yourself.".
Crickets...
Exactly what I needed to hear. I realized through my brother that NO MATTER WHAT I am facing, nicotine is not an option. There is no lie my addict brain can spin that will make dipping a real solution. It's just a way to avoid the real issue, or numbing what I am needing to experience.
My quit is stronger today. WE BEAT IT DOWN! 6days quit, thanks to the brotherhood.
...john
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That is exactly what makes this work! Next time you may be the brother receiving the call or text. Congrats on your success! Each battle we win leads to the victory in the war!
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Day 6 was the first time I ran into a true crisis of quit. Honestly I had not really experienced a real powerful crave, but today it was more than a thought, it was an overwhelming sense of I DON'T Care about my quit, my life, my ktc brothers, my integrity, my wife, my sons, I just ddin't care about anything except getting that Copenhagen fix. Besides the physical urge, I had pretty good rational. (see how it works...when I don't care about anything, I started justifying my idolatry)
A difficult day at work, combined with a maddening scenario, which was out of my control lead me to a point where I was literally looking for me keys, and planning my LIE to cover for why I had to leave the office at 130pm, which had become so natural, I hardly noticed the rationalizing process. In the moment, I realized thanks to ktc that I was in the middle of a stress trigger. The rewriting process was in my hands, so I just did what I guess I always knew I should have been doing, but lacked the courage, I reached out.Â
1. I prayed...I can't tell you what I said, I just acknowledged that I was going to need HIS help.
2. I texted my accountability partner, telling him I was struggling.
3. I called an ktc brother
This all happened in the space of 38 seconds, and before I realized it was sharing with my ktc brother about the crave, and my drama. He said, "wow, that's tough. Doesn't sound like a very good reason to kill yourself.".
Crickets...
Exactly what I needed to hear. I realized through my brother that NO MATTER WHAT I am facing, nicotine is not an option. There is no lie my addict brain can spin that will make dipping a real solution. It's just a way to avoid the real issue, or numbing what I am needing to experience.
My quit is stronger today. WE BEAT IT DOWN! 6days quit, thanks to the brotherhood.
...john
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That is exactly what makes this work! Next time you may be the brother receiving the call or text. Congrats on your success! Each battle we win leads to the victory in the war!
+1 for Phil16 ...good stuff. That's how it works.
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Day 6 was the first time I ran into a true crisis of quit. Honestly I had not really experienced a real powerful crave, but today it was more than a thought, it was an overwhelming sense of I DON'T Care about my quit, my life, my ktc brothers, my integrity, my wife, my sons, I just ddin't care about anything except getting that Copenhagen fix. Besides the physical urge, I had pretty good rational. (see how it works...when I don't care about anything, I started justifying my idolatry)
A difficult day at work, combined with a maddening scenario, which was out of my control lead me to a point where I was literally looking for me keys, and planning my LIE to cover for why I had to leave the office at 130pm, which had become so natural, I hardly noticed the rationalizing process. In the moment, I realized thanks to ktc that I was in the middle of a stress trigger. The rewriting process was in my hands, so I just did what I guess I always knew I should have been doing, but lacked the courage, I reached out.Â
1. I prayed...I can't tell you what I said, I just acknowledged that I was going to need HIS help.
2. I texted my accountability partner, telling him I was struggling.
3. I called an ktc brother
This all happened in the space of 38 seconds, and before I realized it was sharing with my ktc brother about the crave, and my drama. He said, "wow, that's tough. Doesn't sound like a very good reason to kill yourself.".
Crickets...
Exactly what I needed to hear. I realized through my brother that NO MATTER WHAT I am facing, nicotine is not an option. There is no lie my addict brain can spin that will make dipping a real solution. It's just a way to avoid the real issue, or numbing what I am needing to experience.
My quit is stronger today. WE BEAT IT DOWN! 6days quit, thanks to the brotherhood.
...john
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That is exactly what makes this work! Next time you may be the brother receiving the call or text. Congrats on your success! Each battle we win leads to the victory in the war!
+1 for Phil16 ...good stuff. That's how it works.
Perfect example on how the site works when used. Good job!
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Way to stay strong and have the sense to reach out! Nice job.
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Hmmmm. Thats pretty fucking impressive actually. Not that a quit brother talked you off the ledge as much as you reaching out. Shows you really do want to rid your life of this shit. Well done. Keep up the good work.
Just think though...had you not reached out and you did get that lip full of shit. What would have changed? Would your difficult day at work magically gotten better? Nope. Would that maddening scenario that was totally out of your control become un madddening and would you suddenly have been in total control over it? Nope.
Cope doesn't have that power, but sadly nicotine has fucked up your brain to the point where you THINK it does have that magic power. Your brain is pissed at you for not poisoning it anymore so its gonna try REAAAALLLYYY hard to get the poison train rolling again. That's all its doing, its cant make your life better or less stressful. Truth is by giving up nicotine you have zero to lose and everything to gain. You are not giving up anything "pleasurable", your saving your fucking life!!!
Chewings not some stress relieving hobby, its a fucking ADDICTION. What hobby do you know of that while your doing it you wish you weren't and when you aren't doing it, you wish you were? That's fucked up when you think about it. Nicotine is a FUCKING LIE, A SCAM, A WASTE, A FUCKING WALLET DRAINING ADDICTION THAT LINES THE POCKETS OF BIG TOBACCO AND TAKES YOU AS A SLAVE AND TRIES TO KILL YOU IN THE PROCESS. ITS COMPLETE 100% BULLSHIT!!!!!
Ok sorry, time to settle down. Got a little fired up there, might be the bud lights talking. Bottom line is I don't know you from a hole in the ground...but I'm rooting for you and I know for a fact you can kick this shit to the curb and live a life of freedom that will be better than you could possibly imagine. I'm living proof of it and I'm a fucking pussy. Quit on my brother. Use this site to get your freedom back. There's some heavy hitting bad ass mother fucking quitters on this site. Anytime you feel stuck, reach out and we will help you...I think you got proof of that today. Sorry so long but I'm FIRED UP for some reason. Quit on!!!!!
^^^^^^^This guy HATES tobacco^^^^^^^^
He spreads his tobacco hatred all over this beautiful site
He makes my quit stronger every time he speaks
Thanks Diesel
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You will be accepted if you do what is right. But if you refuse to do what is right, then watch out! Sin is crouching at the door, eager to control you. But you must subdue it and be its master.” (Genesis 4:7 NLT)
My quit is a literally a battle between what is right and the fact that my flesh and my mind are twisted and weak. I will not be controlled by an addiction, a lie, a perversion called Copenhagen! I defy you Copenhagen, for you have no power over me. I will subdue you and master you. I will bloody your wicked evil face with a ferocious power, relentless courage that comes from GOD and the men of KTC who have looked you in the eye and crushed your skull. Cope, you have no hope. You have been defeated, you have been crushed. Your reign is rapidly coming to an end.
Phil16
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I smell the smoke of a burned boat. Quit on brother!!
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I'm going to start rewriting the message my addict brain sends to my body when i have a crave. I'm training myself to respond to the crave as though I just heard an intruder in my home. As I jump out of bed, and run into the kitchen, I'll find my craving on the floor with a rope and knife heading towards my kids rooms. I will throw ever ounce of my strength into attacking the face of this intruder. I will put my knees into his chest, stick my left hand in his mouth and begin smashing his temple with my closed right fist until the paramedics arrive.
This rewiring is helpful in representing what nicotine is actually doing. My addiction is seeking to kill and destroy my family, leaving my wife and children defenseless.
Copenhagen, you have chosen the wrong home. You will die a slow painful death.
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Today marks day 15. I'm submitted to the plan. Post roll, mine the site for wisdom and strength, reach out to brothers, go to sleep nic free, wake, repeat. My mindset is starting to wrap around the fact that I will quit one day at a time for the rest of my life. Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift, that's why its called the present. My quit has a one day shelf life, it is renewed each morning and consummated throughout the day as each crave is beat to a bloody pulp.
Copenhagen, you have chosen the wrong home. You will die a slow and painful death.
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Today marks day 15. I'm submitted to the plan. Post roll, mine the site for wisdom and strength, reach out to brothers, go to sleep nic free, wake, repeat. My mindset is starting to wrap around the fact that I will quit one day at a time for the rest of my life. Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift, that's why its called the present. My quit has a one day shelf life, it is renewed each morning and consummated throughout the day as each crave is beat to a bloody pulp.
Copenhagen, you have chosen the wrong home. You will die a slow and painful death.
one day at a time and pretty soon your thought process will be different. I mean you just won't think about it as much. It get's so much better each day. just stay focused and reach out when times are tough. we're all here to support you.. Pm if you need anything..peace
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My quit is on day 22. Resolve is high. last week I bought a can of smokey mountain. I noticed that it was something i started scrambling for, and craving. I realized that it was not helping me, rather it was starting a new habit. Im going to move forward, and continue to embrace the suck-no pacifier. Cold turkey.
Copenhagen, you have chose the wrong home. You will die a slow and painful death.
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My quit is on day 22. Resolve is high. last week I bought a can of smokey mountain. I noticed that it was something i started scrambling for, and craving. I realized that it was not helping me, rather it was starting a new habit. Im going to move forward, and continue to embrace the suck-no pacifier. Cold turkey.
Copenhagen, you have chose the wrong home. You will die a slow and painful death.
Right on my brother. Keep the train moving. I felt the same way about fake. I thought it was helping me but realized after awhile it wasnt. 22 days is awesome. Keep it up. Need anything pm me anytime.
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Day 33. I'm so thankful to each of you my KTC brothers! Where would I be with out you? Your accountability and encouragement have saved me not only $35 plus dollars in Copenhagen purchases, you have helped me to claim freedom from an oppressor who had hung around my neck for 22 years. Since you all have supported me, and given me the confidence to know that I can quit, much has changed. It is incalculable. I find new purpose and confidence in daily interactions with friends and family. Thank you for the gift that today I can say I am quit, and I no longer am owned by the oppressor. This morning I watched the Australian open final. To be honest never been a huge tennis fan, but I was greatly impressed by the endurance and perseverance of Novak and the British dude. What a battle, a test of wills. I quit today. With the support of KTC, family and friends, I will break nicotines serve. I will out will and out gut my opponent/oppressor one day at a time. Each time it serves up a monster craving, I will return serve with confidence and courage, until the day that I breath my last, nicotine-free breath. Glory to GoD! May it be said of me, I have run the race and finished well. No turning back, no turning back.
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Today is day 50. Yesterday I went to the bank and got 4 fifty cent pieces. Today I handed them to to people in my life who have supported me over the last 50 days. It was a way to thank them, and also as a reminder that I need them in my life. What things have you done to honor those who have been supporting you through KTC or in your d2d world? I'd be curious to hear from vets and others who may have done something similar....
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Nice touch with the fifty cent pieces. I am going to give plagiarize this. We are not alone in our fight are we ?
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No, we are not. I find the more people I tell, the more I find how supportive people are. A huge fear I had before quitting was what people would think about if they ever found out I chewed. I was a major ninja dipper. I'm realizing that people are excited that I am getting healthier. My accountability partner bought me a steak at day 30 and a ladyi work, who I just recently told said she wanted to celebrate with me at day 100. I love the KTC accountability. It has empowered me to be much more bold and confident with how I view my own health and choices in general. I have found my self being more accountable win other areas of my life. I also realized something in this, my wife is not my accountability, never was and never should be. There are things she just doesn't need to know. She needs to know that I am nic free, period. She doesn't need the drama of my quit. I need to be healthy for her, period. No questions or struggling through with her.
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No, we are not. I find the more people I tell, the more I find how supportive people are. A huge fear I had before quitting was what people would think about if they ever found out I chewed. I was a major ninja dipper. I'm realizing that people are excited that I am getting healthier. My accountability partner bought me a steak at day 30 and a ladyi work, who I just recently told said she wanted to celebrate with me at day 100. I love the KTC accountability. It has empowered me to be much more bold and confident with how I view my own health and choices in general. I have found my self being more accountable win other areas of my life. I also realized something in this, my wife is not my accountability, never was and never should be. There are things she just doesn't need to know. She needs to know that I am nic free, period. She doesn't need the drama of my quit. I need to be healthy for her, period. No questions or struggling through with her.
Phil I was also a major ninja dipper and outside of KTC I'm a ninja quitter. My wife is the only person that knows of my addiction or my quit. For the first 50 - 60 days I held her hand every morning and made my personal promise to her just like I did when I posted roll. I tried to spare her from seeing the pain at first till I found that she wanted to help if she could. Anyone that can talk about the experience and pain of quitting with their spouse or partner I encourage it as long as they are willing. My quit has brought my wife and I closer together than any time in our 32 years of marriage.
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I agree with wt. My fiance has been a source of strength for me. She makes it a point to ask me everyday if I am nic free because she knows the pride I take with my reply. The begining was difficult for her though but you are past that. IMO share all aspects of your life.
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Maybe a more clear way to say it is, my wife is no longer my "only" source of accountability. Due to my ninja nature, I literally was lying to everyone in my life on a daily basis because I was living a certain lifestyle and projecting an image that was tobacco free, but was not living it. Of course no one in my life was going to keep accountable, because I wouldn't allow anyone the knowledge that I dipped for reasons of fear and pride. My experience in the last 53 days is this...every time I share my quit with someone, I find my quit getting stronger, and the support from others multiplies.
If your wife is your only source of accountability, you are building a narrow and volatile base of support. My quit has defiantly been a positive in our relationship.
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Todayis day 60. Last night I had a very vivid dip dream. I have decided to quit, nothing will deter me. Copenhagen, you are not welcome in this home. You will die a slow and painful death. Kill the can.
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Today is day 65. I am quit. The last time I really had a crisis of quit was on day 4. It was the day of a funeral for 3 children who died in a house fire. They were apart of our church, and they fire happened on dec. 22, 2012, my 35th birthday. 4 days later on dec. 26' 2012, I quit Copenhagen. Tomorrow we will bury a mother, father, 12 yo boy and 16 yo girl who were killed last Saturday in a single car accident. Though I did not know them, and they did not attend our church, the children went to our sons school. I also found out that the mothers sister is a long time friend of my parents. The reason is I am sharing this is because last night I went out and spent $20 dollars on Chinese food, and candy from the gas station. I fell asleep watching tv in the basement. While I have always struggled with overheating this was an extreme case, and since I have been quit, there have been a couple incidences similar. Burying my emotions is something I do quite often. Medicating those emotions with food or drugs or both is something I have also done in the past. Nicotine was my go to in those moments. I used to turn to Copenhagen whenever I was feeling sad or frustrated. I know we don't look ahead in our quit, but I'm anxious about how I will deal with this tragedy. I know one thing is for sure...Copenhagen will not make it better, or ease my pain. I give my word, that under no physical or emotional circumstances will I ingest nicotine in any form. If I feel a crave I will, 1. Pray. 2. Call omahaflyer, kcchief, and j2b. 3. Grab my can of jack links shredded beef jerky. You have my word and my plan.
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If I feel a crave I will, 1. Pray. 2. Call omahaflyer, kcchief, and j2b. QUOTE] Tough act to follow but I will do my best.
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Praise GOD, We made it! No nicotine and had an awesome day with my sons! Couldn't have done it with out all of you:)
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Praise GOD, We made it! No nicotine and had an awesome day with my sons! Couldn't have done it with out all of you:)
One thing I've noticed, as have you. Time with the family is a little different, isn't it? I use to bring my wife, two kids and a can of grizzly. Now i just bring the wife and kids. Stay quit brother, you have my #, don't be hesitate to use it.
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Good job !
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Great to live out the value of family over addiction. I am quit with you folks today. Glad you can say out loud what a difference chew can make and what a toll it takes as it robs us of time, money, health, and our self respect. Your words help me be quit today!
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Day 78: I'm setting a goal to coincide with my HOF day, which is April 4th, 2013. Here is my goal...weigh 285 lbs. since Christmas 2012, I have lost 22lbs while being quit for 78 days. Nicotine free for 100 days and lost 40 lbs in the same time. Today I weighed in at 305.
It may be just me, but I have noticed that my eating behaviors are much like craves. I'm in the process of retraining my brain with this simple statement.
"eating to comfort myself, actually makes me more miserable."
Keep repeating this statement over and over to myself will reprogram my brain to recognize the nicotine and food lies that have I been telling myself for years.
Here is the lie..."it will make me feel better."
As I am getting ready to close the book on day 78, I wonder what other lies I have aloud to become a part of my internal dialog?
How about you? What lie are you believing and telling yourself?
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Day 81: yesterdayafter school, we picked up the boys and took them to a water slide resort park about an hour from home. The boys were so excited to be going on a vacation. We hadn't been out of town on a weekend since Christmas. Incidentally the last time we were out of town, was my quit day, 12/26/2012. I'm realizing as I'm writing this that the last time I was "out of town" was the last time I had a Copenhagen. Being at this resort reminded me of the caves I experienced in my 2 years of stopping. For almost 2 years from sept. 23 2009- August of 2011 I stopped chewing Copenhagen. In those two years I bought 3 tins. Each time I bought one, we were on vacation, "out of town". I would sneak away to a gas station, purchase a can and then have several dips off by myself under the auspices of "going to the car" or "running to the store". The first time was in San Antonio, Texas at a conference with my wife. The second time was with our whole family in Grand Mesa, CO. The 3rd time was in march of 2011 in Omaha, NE at the waterslide resort there. My last cave was in august of 2011 in Chicago, IL at a ministry conference. For those of you that don't know I serve as a pastor at our church. A group of 2o pastors, staff, and leaders pulled into Chicago at about 4pm. We checked in at the hotel, and then went down to Wrigley Field for a stadium tour, and then watched the cubs play the nats. Great time was had by all. When we got back to our hotel, everyone crashed except me. For some reason, i couldnt sleep. My mind began to wander. My roommate was sleeping, and he wouldnt care if i slipped out, he most likely wouldnt even notice. Then a thought crossed my mind...i could go the the gas station, have a dip and no one would know. All the baseball, watching people drinking, and fresh air of the night conspired against me. I was alone, it was late, and On top of all the other environmental cues or triggers, i was in a very stressful season of ministry. That is when she slid her hand over my shoulder, down my chest, into my the front of my pants, started stroking me and whispering in a soft voice,
"It's ok, you deserve it. You've been working hard, being good no one will know, you are so good at hiding it, you can have me tonight. We can be together again. I won't tell. You are such a hard working, team player always thinking of others, you've given me up for two years, I want you back, I know you want me back. It will feel so good. You deserve some time away from the stress. I want to be with you. I want to kiss your lips, and then crawl inside your face, and then slide down your throat, into your stomach. Then you will finally have the rest, the peace, the pleasure you have been missing for the last two years...I want you. You want me. Let's just do it. No one will know. We'll be together again. I will never tell, and you are so smart and careful, no one will ever suspect we are together. Come on, let me inside..."
I went to the store with my Copenhagen hard-on and made love to her for the next two hours. That was it, she was back. The affair began in earnest. For the next 16 months we keep it up. Until 12/26/12.
Last night, I was parking the car after dropping my beautiful wife and two boys off at the door. As I was walking to the hotel, she came back and started whispering. I slapped her in the face and screamed at the top of my lungs, "you are not welcome in our home, copenhagen! Get behind me Satan, you fucking asshole! I know who you are, and by the blood of Jesus you have no power over me! HE has crushed your pathetic skull under HIS heel! Never again will you tear apart this family, you fucking prick! You will die a slow and painful death, motherfucker! Burn in hell Copenhagen, you fuck!"
I believe two things helped me to stay quit last night. 1. GOD. 2. The promise I made to My brothers in quit yesterday. Interestingly, on that hot summer night in Chicago, I had GoD. However, I did not have KTC. Some of you arrogant, and may I add ignorant religious people may say in your self righteous, prideful voice, "all you need is God.". If that is true, explain how David could sleep with Bathsheba, cover it up, and then premeditate the murder of her husband, who just happened to be his best friend. This all mind you from a man who the Bible says, was "after GOD'S heart"
Let me offer some scripture...
Genesis 2:18 "it is not good for man to be alone.". GOD said that when it was just Adam and HIM in the garden. If all we need is GOD, why would GOD say a crazy thing like that?
James 5:16 "confess your sins to each other, and pray for each other and you will be healed."
We need people in our lives if we are to be healthy. HE made sure of it.
For those of you that have read this far and are thinking that you are cured, think again.
I AM an addict, and for those of you who haven't come this realization...So are you.
I'm one whisper from jumping back in bed with the soul sucking prostitute we have come to know as smokeless tobacco.
But not today. If she comes back today, I will be a bit surprised after last night, but i will tell her in a calm, cool, voice "no thanks. My answer is the same as yesterday. I have a beautiful wife, two handsome and strong youngs sons, and an army of quit brothers who I promised that we were done. Have a nice day."
I quit with you today.
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Day 81: yesterdayafter school, we picked up the boys and took them to a water slide resort park about an hour from home. The boys were so excited to be going on a vacation. We hadn't been out of town on a weekend since Christmas. Incidentally the last time we were out of town, was my quit day, 12/26/2012. I'm realizing as I'm writing this that the last time I was "out of town" was the last time I had a Copenhagen. Being at this resort reminded me of the caves I experienced in my 2 years of stopping. For almost 2 years from sept. 23 2009- August of 2011 I stopped chewing Copenhagen. In those two years I bought 3 tins. Each time I bought one, we were on vacation, "out of town". I would sneak away to a gas station, purchase a can and then have several dips off by myself under the auspices of "going to the car" or "running to the store". The first time was in San Antonio, Texas at a conference with my wife. The second time was with our whole family in Grand Mesa, CO. The 3rd time was in march of 2011 in Omaha, NE at the waterslide resort there. My last cave was in august of 2011 in Chicago, IL at a ministry conference. For those of you that don't know I serve as a pastor at our church. A group of 2o pastors, staff, and leaders pulled into Chicago at about 4pm. We checked in at the hotel, and then went down to Wrigley Field for a stadium tour, and then watched the cubs play the nats. Great time was had by all. When we got back to our hotel, everyone crashed except me. For some reason, i couldnt sleep. My mind began to wander. My roommate was sleeping, and he wouldnt care if i slipped out, he most likely wouldnt even notice. Then a thought crossed my mind...i could go the the gas station, have a dip and no one would know. All the baseball, watching people drinking, and fresh air of the night conspired against me. I was alone, it was late, and On top of all the other environmental cues or triggers, i was in a very stressful season of ministry. That is when she slid her hand over my shoulder, down my chest, into my the front of my pants, started stroking me and whispering in a soft voice,
"It's ok, you deserve it. You've been working hard, being good no one will know, you are so good at hiding it, you can have me tonight. We can be together again. I won't tell. You are such a hard working, team player always thinking of others, you've given me up for two years, I want you back, I know you want me back. It will feel so good. You deserve some time away from the stress. I want to be with you. I want to kiss your lips, and then crawl inside your face, and then slide down your throat, into your stomach. Then you will finally have the rest, the peace, the pleasure you have been missing for the last two years...I want you. You want me. Let's just do it. No one will know. We'll be together again. I will never tell, and you are so smart and careful, no one will ever suspect we are together. Come on, let me inside..."
I went to the store with my Copenhagen hard-on and made love to her for the next two hours. That was it, she was back. The affair began in earnest. For the next 16 months we keep it up. Until 12/26/12.
Last night, I was parking the car after dropping my beautiful wife and two boys off at the door. As I was walking to the hotel, she came back and started whispering. I slapped her in the face and screamed at the top of my lungs, "you are not welcome in our home, copenhagen! Get behind me Satan, you fucking asshole! I know who you are, and by the blood of Jesus you have no power over me! HE has crushed your pathetic skull under HIS heel! Never again will you tear apart this family, you fucking prick! You will die a slow and painful death, motherfucker! Burn in hell Copenhagen, you fuck!"
I believe two things helped me to stay quit last night. 1. GOD. 2. The promise I made to My brothers in quit yesterday. Interestingly, on that hot summer night in Chicago, I had GoD. However, I did not have KTC. Some of you arrogant, and may I add ignorant religious people may say in your self righteous, prideful voice, "all you need is God.". If that is true, explain how David could sleep with Bathsheba, cover it up, and then premeditate the murder of her husband, who just happened to be his best friend. This all mind you from a man who the Bible says, was "after GOD'S heart"
Let me offer some scripture...
Genesis 2:18 "it is not good for man to be alone.". GOD said that when it was just Adam and HIM in the garden. If all we need is GOD, why would GOD say a crazy thing like that?
James 5:16 "confess your sins to each other, and pray for each other and you will be healed."
We need people in our lives if we are to be healthy. HE made sure of it.
For those of you that have read this far and are thinking that you are cured, think again.
I AM an addict, and for those of you who haven't come this realization...So are you.
I'm one whisper from jumping back in bed with the soul sucking prostitute we have come to know as smokeless tobacco.
But not today. If she comes back today, I will be a bit surprised after last night, but i will tell her in a calm, cool, voice "no thanks. My answer is the same as yesterday. I have a beautiful wife, two handsome and strong youngs sons, and an army of quit brothers who I promised that we were done. Have a nice day."
I quit with you today.
Thanks for posting phil16, I can relate to every word of that story. Vacation has ruined many quits in my past. Congrats on an awesome victory.
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Day 81: yesterdayafter school, we picked up the boys and took them to a water slide resort park about an hour from home. The boys were so excited to be going on a vacation. We hadn't been out of town on a weekend since Christmas. Incidentally the last time we were out of town, was my quit day, 12/26/2012. I'm realizing as I'm writing this that the last time I was "out of town" was the last time I had a Copenhagen. Being at this resort reminded me of the caves I experienced in my 2 years of stopping. For almost 2 years from sept. 23 2009- August of 2011 I stopped chewing Copenhagen. In those two years I bought 3 tins. Each time I bought one, we were on vacation, "out of town". I would sneak away to a gas station, purchase a can and then have several dips off by myself under the auspices of "going to the car" or "running to the store". The first time was in San Antonio, Texas at a conference with my wife. The second time was with our whole family in Grand Mesa, CO. The 3rd time was in march of 2011 in Omaha, NE at the waterslide resort there. My last cave was in august of 2011 in Chicago, IL at a ministry conference. For those of you that don't know I serve as a pastor at our church. A group of 2o pastors, staff, and leaders pulled into Chicago at about 4pm. We checked in at the hotel, and then went down to Wrigley Field for a stadium tour, and then watched the cubs play the nats. Great time was had by all. When we got back to our hotel, everyone crashed except me. For some reason, i couldnt sleep. My mind began to wander. My roommate was sleeping, and he wouldnt care if i slipped out, he most likely wouldnt even notice. Then a thought crossed my mind...i could go the the gas station, have a dip and no one would know. All the baseball, watching people drinking, and fresh air of the night conspired against me. I was alone, it was late, and On top of all the other environmental cues or triggers, i was in a very stressful season of ministry. That is when she slid her hand over my shoulder, down my chest, into my the front of my pants, started stroking me and whispering in a soft voice,
"It's ok, you deserve it. You've been working hard, being good no one will know, you are so good at hiding it, you can have me tonight. We can be together again. I won't tell. You are such a hard working, team player always thinking of others, you've given me up for two years, I want you back, I know you want me back. It will feel so good. You deserve some time away from the stress. I want to be with you. I want to kiss your lips, and then crawl inside your face, and then slide down your throat, into your stomach. Then you will finally have the rest, the peace, the pleasure you have been missing for the last two years...I want you. You want me. Let's just do it. No one will know. We'll be together again. I will never tell, and you are so smart and careful, no one will ever suspect we are together. Come on, let me inside..."
I went to the store with my Copenhagen hard-on and made love to her for the next two hours. That was it, she was back. The affair began in earnest. For the next 16 months we keep it up. Until 12/26/12.Â
Last night, I was parking the car after dropping my beautiful wife and two boys off at the door. As I was walking to the hotel, she came back and started whispering. I slapped her in the face and screamed at the top of my lungs, "you are not welcome in our home, copenhagen! Get behind me Satan, you fucking asshole! I know who you are, and by the blood of Jesus you have no power over me! HE has crushed your pathetic skull under HIS heel! Never again will you tear apart this family, you fucking prick! You will die a slow and painful death, motherfucker! Burn in hell Copenhagen, you fuck!"
I believe two things helped me to stay quit last night. 1. GOD. 2. The promise I made to My brothers in quit yesterday. Interestingly, on that hot summer night in Chicago, I had GoD. However, I did not have KTC. Some of you arrogant, and may I add ignorant religious people may say in your self righteous, prideful voice, "all you need is God.". If that is true, explain how David could sleep with Bathsheba, cover it up, and then premeditate the murder of her husband, who just happened to be his best friend. This all mind you from a man who the Bible says, was "after GOD'S heart"Â
Let me offer some scripture...
Genesis 2:18 "it is not good for man to be alone.". GOD said that when it was just Adam and HIM in the garden. If all we need is GOD, why would GOD say a crazy thing like that?
James 5:16 "confess your sins to each other, and pray for each other and you will be healed."
We need people in our lives if we are to be healthy. HE made sure of it.
For those of you that have read this far and are thinking that you are cured, think again.Â
I AM an addict, and for those of you who haven't come this realization...So are you.
I'm one whisper from jumping back in bed with the soul sucking prostitute we have come to know as smokeless tobacco.
But not today. If she comes back today, I will be a bit surprised after last night, but i will tell her in a calm, cool, voice "no thanks. My answer is the same as yesterday. I have a beautiful wife, two handsome and strong youngs sons, and an army of quit brothers who I promised that we were done. Have a nice day."
I quit with you today.
Thanks for posting phil16, I can relate to every word of that story. Vacation has ruined many quits in my past. Congrats on an awesome victory.
It is not good for man to be alone - so a "help mate " was created for him and out of him - That resonates for me - I am a man by myself but I am a better man because of my wife!
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Day 81: yesterdayafter school, we picked up the boys and took them to a water slide resort park about an hour from home. The boys were so excited to be going on a vacation. We hadn't been out of town on a weekend since Christmas. Incidentally the last time we were out of town, was my quit day, 12/26/2012. I'm realizing as I'm writing this that the last time I was "out of town" was the last time I had a Copenhagen. Being at this resort reminded me of the caves I experienced in my 2 years of stopping. For almost 2 years from sept. 23 2009- August of 2011 I stopped chewing Copenhagen. In those two years I bought 3 tins. Each time I bought one, we were on vacation, "out of town". I would sneak away to a gas station, purchase a can and then have several dips off by myself under the auspices of "going to the car" or "running to the store". The first time was in San Antonio, Texas at a conference with my wife. The second time was with our whole family in Grand Mesa, CO. The 3rd time was in march of 2011 in Omaha, NE at the waterslide resort there. My last cave was in august of 2011 in Chicago, IL at a ministry conference. For those of you that don't know I serve as a pastor at our church. A group of 2o pastors, staff, and leaders pulled into Chicago at about 4pm. We checked in at the hotel, and then went down to Wrigley Field for a stadium tour, and then watched the cubs play the nats. Great time was had by all. When we got back to our hotel, everyone crashed except me. For some reason, i couldnt sleep. My mind began to wander. My roommate was sleeping, and he wouldnt care if i slipped out, he most likely wouldnt even notice. Then a thought crossed my mind...i could go the the gas station, have a dip and no one would know. All the baseball, watching people drinking, and fresh air of the night conspired against me. I was alone, it was late, and On top of all the other environmental cues or triggers, i was in a very stressful season of ministry. That is when she slid her hand over my shoulder, down my chest, into my the front of my pants, started stroking me and whispering in a soft voice,
"It's ok, you deserve it. You've been working hard, being good no one will know, you are so good at hiding it, you can have me tonight. We can be together again. I won't tell. You are such a hard working, team player always thinking of others, you've given me up for two years, I want you back, I know you want me back. It will feel so good. You deserve some time away from the stress. I want to be with you. I want to kiss your lips, and then crawl inside your face, and then slide down your throat, into your stomach. Then you will finally have the rest, the peace, the pleasure you have been missing for the last two years...I want you. You want me. Let's just do it. No one will know. We'll be together again. I will never tell, and you are so smart and careful, no one will ever suspect we are together. Come on, let me inside..."
I went to the store with my Copenhagen hard-on and made love to her for the next two hours. That was it, she was back. The affair began in earnest. For the next 16 months we keep it up. Until 12/26/12.Â
Last night, I was parking the car after dropping my beautiful wife and two boys off at the door. As I was walking to the hotel, she came back and started whispering. I slapped her in the face and screamed at the top of my lungs, "you are not welcome in our home, copenhagen! Get behind me Satan, you fucking asshole! I know who you are, and by the blood of Jesus you have no power over me! HE has crushed your pathetic skull under HIS heel! Never again will you tear apart this family, you fucking prick! You will die a slow and painful death, motherfucker! Burn in hell Copenhagen, you fuck!"
I believe two things helped me to stay quit last night. 1. GOD. 2. The promise I made to My brothers in quit yesterday. Interestingly, on that hot summer night in Chicago, I had GoD. However, I did not have KTC. Some of you arrogant, and may I add ignorant religious people may say in your self righteous, prideful voice, "all you need is God.". If that is true, explain how David could sleep with Bathsheba, cover it up, and then premeditate the murder of her husband, who just happened to be his best friend. This all mind you from a man who the Bible says, was "after GOD'S heart"Â
Let me offer some scripture...
Genesis 2:18 "it is not good for man to be alone.". GOD said that when it was just Adam and HIM in the garden. If all we need is GOD, why would GOD say a crazy thing like that?
James 5:16 "confess your sins to each other, and pray for each other and you will be healed."
We need people in our lives if we are to be healthy. HE made sure of it.
For those of you that have read this far and are thinking that you are cured, think again.Â
I AM an addict, and for those of you who haven't come this realization...So are you.
I'm one whisper from jumping back in bed with the soul sucking prostitute we have come to know as smokeless tobacco.
But not today. If she comes back today, I will be a bit surprised after last night, but i will tell her in a calm, cool, voice "no thanks. My answer is the same as yesterday. I have a beautiful wife, two handsome and strong youngs sons, and an army of quit brothers who I promised that we were done. Have a nice day."
I quit with you today.
Thanks for posting phil16, I can relate to every word of that story. Vacation has ruined many quits in my past. Congrats on an awesome victory.
It is not good for man to be alone - so a "help mate " was created for him and out of him - That resonates for me - I am a man by myself but I am a better man because of my wife!
I believe Genesis 2:18 applies to the importance of accountability, relationships, and to the priority of community for us as human beings. It is not good to be alone. When it comes to my quit, I'm convinced that it is really our quit, a shared effort. For me quitting is a community effort. KTC is community. Thanks brothers and neighbors!
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Day 81: yesterdayafter school, we picked up the boys and took them to a water slide resort park about an hour from home. The boys were so excited to be going on a vacation. We hadn't been out of town on a weekend since Christmas. Incidentally the last time we were out of town, was my quit day, 12/26/2012. I'm realizing as I'm writing this that the last time I was "out of town" was the last time I had a Copenhagen. Being at this resort reminded me of the caves I experienced in my 2 years of stopping. For almost 2 years from sept. 23 2009- August of 2011 I stopped chewing Copenhagen. In those two years I bought 3 tins. Each time I bought one, we were on vacation, "out of town". I would sneak away to a gas station, purchase a can and then have several dips off by myself under the auspices of "going to the car" or "running to the store". The first time was in San Antonio, Texas at a conference with my wife. The second time was with our whole family in Grand Mesa, CO. The 3rd time was in march of 2011 in Omaha, NE at the waterslide resort there. My last cave was in august of 2011 in Chicago, IL at a ministry conference. For those of you that don't know I serve as a pastor at our church. A group of 2o pastors, staff, and leaders pulled into Chicago at about 4pm. We checked in at the hotel, and then went down to Wrigley Field for a stadium tour, and then watched the cubs play the nats. Great time was had by all. When we got back to our hotel, everyone crashed except me. For some reason, i couldnt sleep. My mind began to wander. My roommate was sleeping, and he wouldnt care if i slipped out, he most likely wouldnt even notice. Then a thought crossed my mind...i could go the the gas station, have a dip and no one would know. All the baseball, watching people drinking, and fresh air of the night conspired against me. I was alone, it was late, and On top of all the other environmental cues or triggers, i was in a very stressful season of ministry. That is when she slid her hand over my shoulder, down my chest, into my the front of my pants, started stroking me and whispering in a soft voice,
"It's ok, you deserve it. You've been working hard, being good no one will know, you are so good at hiding it, you can have me tonight. We can be together again. I won't tell. You are such a hard working, team player always thinking of others, you've given me up for two years, I want you back, I know you want me back. It will feel so good. You deserve some time away from the stress. I want to be with you. I want to kiss your lips, and then crawl inside your face, and then slide down your throat, into your stomach. Then you will finally have the rest, the peace, the pleasure you have been missing for the last two years...I want you. You want me. Let's just do it. No one will know. We'll be together again. I will never tell, and you are so smart and careful, no one will ever suspect we are together. Come on, let me inside..."
I went to the store with my Copenhagen hard-on and made love to her for the next two hours. That was it, she was back. The affair began in earnest. For the next 16 months we keep it up. Until 12/26/12.Â
Last night, I was parking the car after dropping my beautiful wife and two boys off at the door. As I was walking to the hotel, she came back and started whispering. I slapped her in the face and screamed at the top of my lungs, "you are not welcome in our home, copenhagen! Get behind me Satan, you fucking asshole! I know who you are, and by the blood of Jesus you have no power over me! HE has crushed your pathetic skull under HIS heel! Never again will you tear apart this family, you fucking prick! You will die a slow and painful death, motherfucker! Burn in hell Copenhagen, you fuck!"
I believe two things helped me to stay quit last night. 1. GOD. 2. The promise I made to My brothers in quit yesterday. Interestingly, on that hot summer night in Chicago, I had GoD. However, I did not have KTC. Some of you arrogant, and may I add ignorant religious people may say in your self righteous, prideful voice, "all you need is God.". If that is true, explain how David could sleep with Bathsheba, cover it up, and then premeditate the murder of her husband, who just happened to be his best friend. This all mind you from a man who the Bible says, was "after GOD'S heart"Â
Let me offer some scripture...
Genesis 2:18 "it is not good for man to be alone.". GOD said that when it was just Adam and HIM in the garden. If all we need is GOD, why would GOD say a crazy thing like that?
James 5:16 "confess your sins to each other, and pray for each other and you will be healed."
We need people in our lives if we are to be healthy. HE made sure of it.
For those of you that have read this far and are thinking that you are cured, think again.Â
I AM an addict, and for those of you who haven't come this realization...So are you.
I'm one whisper from jumping back in bed with the soul sucking prostitute we have come to know as smokeless tobacco.
But not today. If she comes back today, I will be a bit surprised after last night, but i will tell her in a calm, cool, voice "no thanks. My answer is the same as yesterday. I have a beautiful wife, two handsome and strong youngs sons, and an army of quit brothers who I promised that we were done. Have a nice day."
I quit with you today.
Thanks for posting phil16, I can relate to every word of that story. Vacation has ruined many quits in my past. Congrats on an awesome victory.
It is not good for man to be alone - so a "help mate " was created for him and out of him - That resonates for me - I am a man by myself but I am a better man because of my wife!
I believe Genesis 2:18 applies to the importance of accountability, relationships, and to the priority of community for us as human beings. It is not good to be alone. When it comes to my quit, I'm convinced that it is really our quit, a shared effort. For me quitting is a community effort. KTC is community. Thanks brothers and neighbors!
Phil, your a bad ass quitter brother and I am proud to be quit with you. I swear by KTC, I had an event last night that could have gone bad in a hurry. If I did not have KTC brothers to be accountable to I am sure it would have been a cave. Instead I just left. Great share and I really enjoyed reading it. Thank you.
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by the blood of Jesus
Wow, bringing out the precious blood of HIS divine son, that is one powerful weapon. Must have left a large mushroom cloud, good for you.
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Daily Lifter from Keith
03/17/13
Day 82
Once you start something, never look back. One of the great problems in life is self doubt. Too often, we second-guess ourselves to the point where we eventually don't do anything at all. You are where you are because someone believed in you.
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Lesson from legendary coach Grant Teaff: Three Steps to a Better Self - acknowledge the plan; accept the plan; activate the plan.
KTC is simple...acknowledge that nothing i have done previously has been effective. Accept the fact that I am powerless without external support and discipline. Quit every day by posting my promise.
Sobriety may not be easy, but it is simple.
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Keith's Daily Lifter
Our job, as a leader, is to help others remove the elephants in their lives. But, before we can do for others, we must be first willing to do for ourselves - face our own elephants. Is there an elephant you've been unwilling to face? True freedom is not found without, but always within. "The greatest challenge in leadership is not leading others; it's learning to lead one's self."
Amen
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Day 101-today I'm humbled and grateful for all of you BAQ's that supported me getting to 100 days nic free! The last 100 days have truly been life changing. Not only have I been able to eliminate nicotine for 100 consecutive days, I have added many new friends, a sense of confidence, and a humble understanding that I am one whisper away from jumping in bed with the nic mistress. However, if I follow the plan and stay humble, victory is available ODAAT!
Copenhagen, you have chosen the wrong home. You will die a slow and painful death.
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Day 101-today I'm humbled and grateful for all of you BAQ's that supported me getting to 100 days nic free! The last 100 days have truly been life changing. Not only have I been able to eliminate nicotine for 100 consecutive days, I have added many new friends, a sense of confidence, and a humble understanding that I am one whisper away from jumping in bed with the nic mistress. However, if I follow the plan and stay humble, victory is available ODAAT!
Copenhagen, you have chosen the wrong home. You will die a slow and painful death.
So proud of you man
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Day 101-today I'm humbled and grateful for all of you BAQ's that supported me getting to 100 days nic free! The last 100 days have truly been life changing. Not only have I been able to eliminate nicotine for 100 consecutive days, I have added many new friends, a sense of confidence, and a humble understanding that I am one whisper away from jumping in bed with the nic mistress. However, if I follow the plan and stay humble, victory is available ODAAT!
Copenhagen, you have chosen the wrong home. You will die a slow and painful death.
So proud of you man
Mr. Phil16,
I'll follow the plan with you! NAFAR Sir!! 'bang head'
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Great job.
'worship'
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Day 101-today I'm humbled and grateful for all of you BAQ's that supported me getting to 100 days nic free! The last 100 days have truly been life changing. Not only have I been able to eliminate nicotine for 100 consecutive days, I have added many new friends, a sense of confidence, and a humble understanding that I am one whisper away from jumping in bed with the nic mistress. However, if I follow the plan and stay humble, victory is available ODAAT!
Copenhagen, you have chosen the wrong home. You will die a slow and painful death.
So proud of you man
Mr. Phil16,
I'll follow the plan with you! NAFAR Sir!! 'bang head'
Well said brotha. Congrats on the HOF. Look forward to walking toward floor 2 with you.
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Day 101-today I'm humbled and grateful for all of you BAQ's that supported me getting to 100 days nic free! The last 100 days have truly been life changing. Not only have I been able to eliminate nicotine for 100 consecutive days, I have added many new friends, a sense of confidence, and a humble understanding that I am one whisper away from jumping in bed with the nic mistress. However, if I follow the plan and stay humble, victory is available ODAAT!
Copenhagen, you have chosen the wrong home. You will die a slow and painful death.
So proud of you man
Mr. Phil16,
I'll follow the plan with you! NAFAR Sir!! 'bang head'
Well said brotha. Congrats on the HOF. Look forward to walking toward floor 2 with you.
congrats on hof
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An unknown sage once wrote, "Sow a thought and you reap an act; sow an act and you reap a habit; sow a habit and you reap a character; sow a character and you reap a destiny." Character is the loudest voice we have. Nothing speaks louder than one's character.
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An unknown sage once wrote, "Sow a thought and you reap an act; sow an act and you reap a habit; sow a habit and you reap a character; sow a character and you reap a destiny." Character is the loudest voice we have. Nothing speaks louder than one's character.
That might make top five in my favorite quotes. Number one?
"We have forty million reasons for failure, but not a single excuse." - Rudyard Kipling
Those are quitters quotes, right there!!
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An unknown sage once wrote, "Sow a thought and you reap an act; sow an act and you reap a habit; sow a habit and you reap a character; sow a character and you reap a destiny." Character is the loudest voice we have. Nothing speaks louder than one's character.
That might make top five in my favorite quotes. Number one?
"We have forty million reasons for failure, but not a single excuse." - Rudyard Kipling
Those are quitters quotes, right there!!
Love it! We'll all make poor choices and "fail", but you will never be excused from your poor choices. We are accountable for every word, Thought and action. That is Bad news, since we have all screwed up. The good news: John1:17, Romans 8.
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Joe Ehrman is an NFL legend who was an all pro withe the Baltimore Colts. I recently heard him speak at a coaches seminar. He made the statement that the #1 problem in America is we have poorly defined what it means to be a man. He calls them cultural lies, that are used mostly by advertisers to basically say, if you are man you will do certain things. I wanted to share these three lies here as a reminder to myself and others that if you don't know what it means to be a man, big tobacco, beer, deodorant companies, pornograpers, clothing manufacturers, and many others will gladly defined your manhood b suggesting that their product equates to masculinity. If you know my story and have read my HOF, you know that I started chewing because I thought that's what tough, independent "men" did. I don't want anyone who reads my intro, especially my sons to ever believe what it means to be a man is dictated by a product you put in or on your body.
3 lies of masculinity perpetuated by our culture.
1. The lie of the ball field. Athletic performance and prowes equate to masculine status.
2. The lie of the bedroom. Sexual performance or prowess equate to masculine status.
3. The lie of the billfold. Financial earnings equate to masculine status.
After sharing this, he stopped, looked at the audience, and in an incredibly authentic and painful manner, implored everyone, "these things have nothing to do with being a man!"
Joe Ehrman's book is InsideOut Coaching
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Joe Ehrman is an NFL legend who was an all pro withe the Baltimore Colts. I recently heard him speak at a coaches seminar. He made the statement that the #1 problem in America is we have poorly defined what it means to be a man. He calls them cultural lies, that are used mostly by advertisers to basically say, if you are man you will do certain things. I wanted to share these three lies here as a reminder to myself and others that if you don't know what it means to be a man, big tobacco, beer, deodorant companies, pornograpers, clothing manufacturers, and many others will gladly defined your manhood b suggesting that their product equates to masculinity. If you know my story and have read my HOF, you know that I started chewing because I thought that's what tough, independent "men" did.
3 lies of masculinity perpetuated by our culture.
1. The lie of the ball field. Athletic performance and prowes equate to masculine status.
2. The lie of the bedroom. Sexual performance or prowess equate to masculine status.
3. The lie of the billfold. Financial earnings equate to masculine status.
After sharing this, he stopped, looked at the audience, and in an incredibly authentic and painful manner, implored everyone, "these things have nothing to do with being a man!"
Joe Ehrman's book is InsideOut Coaching
Thank God, I am 0 for three !
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Omaha, I'd say it this way...you are a real man. A real man is defined by how much he can receive and give love. You my friend, are a real man.
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I've noticed that my tendancy is to post positive stuff on my thread and kind of puff myself up as some super saint of quitting. Today is not one of those days. I usually employ a pull yourself up by your bootstraps type of attitude, but not today. Today, I could care less.
Today has been an emotional nightmare. The last 48 hours have been absolutely two of the darkest days of 2013. When I was using, this would been one of those days, when I would have loaded up a big chew and isolated myself from the rest of the world. Since nicotine is noT an option today, I'm left to ponder myself and wallow in self pitty. This is a dark day.
At the end of this day, I can honestly say my only contribution to society was that I stayed quit. I will remember day 157, as the day that I did nothing worthwhile, except kill the can.
Sincerely,
Eyore
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I've noticed that my tendancy is to post positive stuff on my thread and kind of puff myself up as some super saint of quitting. Today is not one of those days. I usually employ a pull yourself up by your bootstraps type of attitude, but not today. Today, I could care less.
Today has been an emotional nightmare. The last 48 hours have been absolutely two of the darkest days of 2013. When I was using, this would been one of those days, when I would have loaded up a big chew and isolated myself from the rest of the world. Since nicotine is noT an option today, I'm left to ponder myself and wallow in self pitty. This is a dark day.
At the end of this day, I can honestly say my only contribution to society was that I stayed quit. I will remember day 157, as the day that I did nothing worthwhile, except kill the can.
Sincerely,
Eyore
I don't know what's going on.... But the fact that you are still quit is enough! God bless you today!
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I've noticed that my tendancy is to post positive stuff on my thread and kind of puff myself up as some super saint of quitting. Today is not one of those days. I usually employ a pull yourself up by your bootstraps type of attitude, but not today. Today, I could care less.
Today has been an emotional nightmare. The last 48 hours have been absolutely two of the darkest days of 2013. When I was using, this would been one of those days, when I would have loaded up a big chew and isolated myself from the rest of the world. Since nicotine is noT an option today, I'm left to ponder myself and wallow in self pitty. This is a dark day.
At the end of this day, I can honestly say my only contribution to society was that I stayed quit. I will remember day 157, as the day that I did nothing worthwhile, except kill the can.Â
Sincerely,
Eyore
I don't know what's going on.... But the fact that you are still quit is enough! God bless you today!
There are some days we white knuckle just to get through. Remember this, no man is an island here. As soon as you turtle and try to go solo, bad things happen. It's critical to establish life lines early and keep them open and strong!!
Question- if you were having a bad day - why are you just now posting roll?? First thing brother!!!
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I've noticed that my tendancy is to post positive stuff on my thread and kind of puff myself up as some super saint of quitting. Today is not one of those days. I usually employ a pull yourself up by your bootstraps type of attitude, but not today. Today, I could care less.
Today has been an emotional nightmare. The last 48 hours have been absolutely two of the darkest days of 2013. When I was using, this would been one of those days, when I would have loaded up a big chew and isolated myself from the rest of the world. Since nicotine is noT an option today, I'm left to ponder myself and wallow in self pitty. This is a dark day.
At the end of this day, I can honestly say my only contribution to society was that I stayed quit. I will remember day 157, as the day that I did nothing worthwhile, except kill the can.Â
Sincerely,
Eyore
I don't know what's going on.... But the fact that you are still quit is enough! God bless you today!
There are some days we white knuckle just to get through. Remember this, no man is an island here. As soon as you turtle and try to go solo, bad things happen. It's critical to establish life lines early and keep them open and strong!!
Question- if you were having a bad day - why are you just now posting roll?? First thing brother!!!
Quitting right beside you man.
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I see "darkest days of 2013" and immediately I think of the shit that runs through my mind all the time when a crave hits. It might feel like it will never end, but tomorrow's new sun (after you actually beat it by going to sleep) will still be there. The old "tomorrow's a new day" bullshit. The problem is that addicts don't give a shit about the sun sometimes. If an addict's got his dip/liquor/beer/hash/booger sugar/rubber cement, he could give a shit about the sun. With or without, it helps with absolutely no darkness.
My point is that the fact that you stayed quit today (and you shared badassery with us) proves that the sun will come up for some of us because of witnessing it. My hope is that it comes up for you, too.
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Hope you're renewed today, John. As a newby I'm learning more about this nicotine quitting and some days just suck. Since you like to dwell more on the optimistic side look at it this way: you need some balance to keep afloat, and this was a kind of outcry in response to your usual give, give, give. I hope you plan some me time on the calendar and take days where you get rest, exercise, whatever you need to renew your spirit, and do it more often brother.
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I've noticed that my tendancy is to post positive stuff on my thread and kind of puff myself up as some super saint of quitting. Today is not one of those days. I usually employ a pull yourself up by your bootstraps type of attitude, but not today. Today, I could care less.
Today has been an emotional nightmare. The last 48 hours have been absolutely two of the darkest days of 2013. When I was using, this would been one of those days, when I would have loaded up a big chew and isolated myself from the rest of the world. Since nicotine is noT an option today, I'm left to ponder myself and wallow in self pitty. This is a dark day.
At the end of this day, I can honestly say my only contribution to society was that I stayed quit. I will remember day 157, as the day that I did nothing worthwhile, except kill the can.
Sincerely,
Eyore
Hope your trip went well. Does not sound like you came back rested and refreshed ! I am sure you have thought of this but in case you haven't. The evil one might be attacking you especially hard. Fight back the best way you know. I will ask for re-inforcements for you.
You are doing something right if you are being hit this hard. Stay strong, you can not be defeated !
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I've noticed that my tendancy is to post positive stuff on my thread and kind of puff myself up as some super saint of quitting. Today is not one of those days. I usually employ a pull yourself up by your bootstraps type of attitude, but not today. Today, I could care less.
Today has been an emotional nightmare. The last 48 hours have been absolutely two of the darkest days of 2013. When I was using, this would been one of those days, when I would have loaded up a big chew and isolated myself from the rest of the world. Since nicotine is noT an option today, I'm left to ponder myself and wallow in self pitty. This is a dark day.
At the end of this day, I can honestly say my only contribution to society was that I stayed quit. I will remember day 157, as the day that I did nothing worthwhile, except kill the can.Â
Sincerely,
Eyore
Hope your trip went well. Does not sound like you came back rested and refreshed ! I am sure you have thought of this but in case you haven't. The evil one might be attacking you especially hard. Fight back the best way you know. I will ask for re-inforcements for you.
You are doing something right if you are being hit this hard. Stay strong, you can not be defeated !
Sounds like you are in a full blown funk. Hang on for the next couple of days. Post roll first thing every morning, find some time to go hang out in chat. While you are there make sure to mention to anyone there how you are feeling. They will help, I promise. The chat crew has pulled me out of a couple of funks. It will take a couple days but push through and you will feel much better.
You are not alone don't try to be a cowboy here and do everything on your own.
You are right where I was around day 170ish, I could have said fuck it, but I didn't. I used the tools the site has given me and just put my head down and pushed through it. If you feel anything like I did there is no drive to stay quit, no drive to post roll, and a big desire to say fuck it! I can tell you that the light on the other side is much brighter and the view from the second floor is much better!
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I've noticed that my tendancy is to post positive stuff on my thread and kind of puff myself up as some super saint of quitting. Today is not one of those days. I usually employ a pull yourself up by your bootstraps type of attitude, but not today. Today, I could care less.
Today has been an emotional nightmare. The last 48 hours have been absolutely two of the darkest days of 2013. When I was using, this would been one of those days, when I would have loaded up a big chew and isolated myself from the rest of the world. Since nicotine is noT an option today, I'm left to ponder myself and wallow in self pitty. This is a dark day.
At the end of this day, I can honestly say my only contribution to society was that I stayed quit. I will remember day 157, as the day that I did nothing worthwhile, except kill the can.Â
Sincerely,
Eyore
Hope your trip went well. Does not sound like you came back rested and refreshed ! I am sure you have thought of this but in case you haven't. The evil one might be attacking you especially hard. Fight back the best way you know. I will ask for re-inforcements for you.
You are doing something right if you are being hit this hard. Stay strong, you can not be defeated !
Sounds like you are in a full blown funk. Hang on for the next couple of days. Post roll first thing every morning, find some time to go hang out in chat. While you are there make sure to mention to anyone there how you are feeling. They will help, I promise. The chat crew has pulled me out of a couple of funks. It will take a couple days but push through and you will feel much better.
You are not alone don't try to be a cowboy here and do everything on your own.
You are right where I was around day 170ish, I could have said fuck it, but I didn't. I used the tools the site has given me and just put my head down and pushed through it. If you feel anything like I did there is no drive to stay quit, no drive to post roll, and a big desire to say fuck it! I can tell you that the light on the other side is much brighter and the view from the second floor is much better!
Thanks for the encouragement. Today is a new day, and I am thankful for life, my wife, my sons, and the many wonderful friends I've been blessed with. Life is a quick trip. The reality is that one day, each of us will be face to face with our last day. I'm honored to quit with all of you today.
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My only brother is a 20plus year tobacco user, just like his big brother was. Today, I'm going to confront him, and offer KTC as a quit resource.
Looking for some help...what should my opening line be?
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My only brother is a 20plus year tobacco user, just like his big brother was. Today, I'm going to confront him, and offer KTC as a quit resource.Â
Looking for some help...what should my opening line be?
Do you love me and trust me.
Good luck. Need any help ask.
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My only brother is a 20plus year tobacco user, just like his big brother was. Today, I'm going to confront him, and offer KTC as a quit resource.
Looking for some help...what should my opening line be?
Do you want to be free? Just make sure he knows that it is possible, that's all you can do for now. Tell him that if he wants to smoke or dip that is HIS business, if he wants to quit, that is YOUR business, (and OUR business).
Good luck Phil, keep us posted.
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My only brother is a 20plus year tobacco user, just like his big brother was. Today, I'm going to confront him, and offer KTC as a quit resource.Â
Looking for some help...what should my opening line be?
Do you want to be free? Just make sure he knows that it is possible, that's all you can do for now. Tell him that if he wants to smoke or dip that is HIS business, if he wants to quit, that is YOUR business, (and OUR business).
Good luck Phil, keep us posted.
Phil,
that is a hard position. First I think you should tell him what you have gone through and your experience with the site here. Tellhim just about everything.
Then if he listens to you, then ask him to watch as you post roll (or at least show him what you do) and maybe maneuver around the site a little. Show him a couple of intro's, the words of wisdom and maybe a HOF speech. Show him the fun within the wildcard section. Just quickly.
Then try to gently make the proposal to him that he should quit for himself.
Remember we cannot force others but if we lead them here, maybe something will snap in their head so that they make that final decision on their own.
You can even have him write me a few questions that I would be more than willing to answer for him.
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My only brother is a 20plus year tobacco user, just like his big brother was. Today, I'm going to confront him, and offer KTC as a quit resource.Â
Looking for some help...what should my opening line be?
Do you want to be free? Just make sure he knows that it is possible, that's all you can do for now. Tell him that if he wants to smoke or dip that is HIS business, if he wants to quit, that is YOUR business, (and OUR business).
Good luck Phil, keep us posted.
Phil,
that is a hard position. First I think you should tell him what you have gone through and your experience with the site here. Tellhim just about everything.
Then if he listens to you, then ask him to watch as you post roll (or at least show him what you do) and maybe maneuver around the site a little. Show him a couple of intro's, the words of wisdom and maybe a HOF speech. Show him the fun within the wildcard section. Just quickly.
Then try to gently make the proposal to him that he should quit for himself.
Remember we cannot force others but if we lead them here, maybe something will snap in their head so that they make that final decision on their own.
You can even have him write me a few questions that I would be more than willing to answer for him.
First of all, glad to see a post from you phil. Good to see you doing better. I know i've not been around as long as these guys, but I try and help others anytime a get a chance. Really there will be a lot of openings for you.
I always say something like,,, I'm so glad I'm quit right now. That right there usually gets the ball rolling. Your his big brother phil, he will listen to you.
I've talked to my mom and dad who are in there 60's and smoking like a chimney. Dad has emphysema and heart trouble. They seemed to be very receptive, although they are still smoking away. Not much I can say at this point. They are slaves and can't see beyond that. Sometimes I think there is an age and time when it becomes to late,, maybe i'm wrong. Hope so...
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My only brother is a 20plus year tobacco user, just like his big brother was. Today, I'm going to confront him, and offer KTC as a quit resource.Â
Looking for some help...what should my opening line be?
Do you want to be free? Just make sure he knows that it is possible, that's all you can do for now. Tell him that if he wants to smoke or dip that is HIS business, if he wants to quit, that is YOUR business, (and OUR business).
Good luck Phil, keep us posted.
Phil,
that is a hard position. First I think you should tell him what you have gone through and your experience with the site here. Tellhim just about everything.
Then if he listens to you, then ask him to watch as you post roll (or at least show him what you do) and maybe maneuver around the site a little. Show him a couple of intro's, the words of wisdom and maybe a HOF speech. Show him the fun within the wildcard section. Just quickly.
Then try to gently make the proposal to him that he should quit for himself.
Remember we cannot force others but if we lead them here, maybe something will snap in their head so that they make that final decision on their own.
You can even have him write me a few questions that I would be more than willing to answer for him.
First of all, glad to see a post from you phil. Good to see you doing better. I know i've not been around as long as these guys, but I try and help others anytime a get a chance. Really there will be a lot of openings for you.
I always say something like,,, I'm so glad I'm quit right now. That right there usually gets the ball rolling. Your his big brother phil, he will listen to you.
I've talked to my mom and dad who are in there 60's and smoking like a chimney. Dad has emphysema and heart trouble. They seemed to be very receptive, although they are still smoking away. Not much I can say at this point. They are slaves and can't see beyond that. Sometimes I think there is an age and time when it becomes to late,, maybe i'm wrong. Hope so...
Feel like I blew my opportunity. I appreciate the insight from you guys. My brother is also an alcoholic, and I fear messing with nicotine, may mess with him negatively in other ways. Obviously, it is something he needs to acknowledge and move through, but it has to be his idea. He needs to own it. I'm spending this week at home with my family and parents. Lots of time to think. I'm sensitive to how my approach may affect my brother, and all that hesitation lead me to doNOTHIng. Sucks right now. I hate nicotine.
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My only brother is a 20plus year tobacco user, just like his big brother was. Today, I'm going to confront him, and offer KTC as a quit resource.Â
Looking for some help...what should my opening line be?
Do you want to be free? Just make sure he knows that it is possible, that's all you can do for now. Tell him that if he wants to smoke or dip that is HIS business, if he wants to quit, that is YOUR business, (and OUR business).
Good luck Phil, keep us posted.
Phil,
that is a hard position. First I think you should tell him what you have gone through and your experience with the site here. Tellhim just about everything.
Then if he listens to you, then ask him to watch as you post roll (or at least show him what you do) and maybe maneuver around the site a little. Show him a couple of intro's, the words of wisdom and maybe a HOF speech. Show him the fun within the wildcard section. Just quickly.
Then try to gently make the proposal to him that he should quit for himself.
Remember we cannot force others but if we lead them here, maybe something will snap in their head so that they make that final decision on their own.
You can even have him write me a few questions that I would be more than willing to answer for him.
First of all, glad to see a post from you phil. Good to see you doing better. I know i've not been around as long as these guys, but I try and help others anytime a get a chance. Really there will be a lot of openings for you.
I always say something like,,, I'm so glad I'm quit right now. That right there usually gets the ball rolling. Your his big brother phil, he will listen to you.
I've talked to my mom and dad who are in there 60's and smoking like a chimney. Dad has emphysema and heart trouble. They seemed to be very receptive, although they are still smoking away. Not much I can say at this point. They are slaves and can't see beyond that. Sometimes I think there is an age and time when it becomes to late,, maybe i'm wrong. Hope so...
Feel like I blew my opportunity. I appreciate the insight from you guys. My brother is also an alcoholic, and I fear messing with nicotine, may mess with him negatively in other ways. Obviously, it is something he needs to acknowledge and move through, but it has to be his idea. He needs to own it. I'm spending this week at home with my family and parents. Lots of time to think. I'm sensitive to how my approach may affect my brother, and all that hesitation lead me to doNOTHIng. Sucks right now. I hate nicotine.
Hey Phil,
just as an aside or advice, we had a great conversation in the chat room about stuff similar to this. The advice would be if your brother does quit the tobacco (or the alcohol, or whatever) it is to turn him on to something positive then to fill the void that is reamaining from what is taken away. That can be a way to help keep him from going too negative on the others.
Its a thought for all of us but was thinking since you had this here would be a good time and place to re-iterate it.
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John - thanks for taking time out of your vacation to meet me tonight. It is great to meet another fog cutter, and it is always amazing that while all of our stories are different, in so many ways they are the same. It was also great to meet your family - you could see the pride in your sons eyes as he talked about the $2.15 in your pocket (soon to be $2.16...). You are setting a great example for them.
Please look me up next time you are in kc. I will take you to a real BBQ place. Keep building the quit! You really have given me some things to think about tonight - I will keep in touch.
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John - thanks for taking time out of your vacation to meet me tonight. It is great to meet another fog cutter, and it is always amazing that while all of our stories are different, in so many ways they are the same. It was also great to meet your family - you could see the pride in your sons eyes as he talked about the $2.15 in your pocket (soon to be $2.16...). You are setting a great example for them.
Please look me up next time you are in kc. I will take you to a real BBQ place. Keep building the quit! You really have given me some things to think about tonight - I will keep in touch.
W2w-it was an honor meet you and hang out. You generosity is humbling, thank you. I will definitely call you the end of August. My wife n I will be at ksu for their opening game against ndsu.
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John - thanks for taking time out of your vacation to meet me tonight. It is great to meet another fog cutter, and it is always amazing that while all of our stories are different, in so many ways they are the same. It was also great to meet your family - you could see the pride in your sons eyes as he talked about the $2.15 in your pocket (soon to be $2.16...). You are setting a great example for them.
Please look me up next time you are in kc. I will take you to a real BBQ place. Keep building the quit! You really have given me some things to think about tonight - I will keep in touch.
W2w-it was an honor meet you and hang out. You generosity is humbling, thank you. I will definitely call you the end of August. My wife n I will be at ksu for their opening game against ndsu.
Stay calm, we will contact Seal team 6. These terrorists will stop at nothing to inflict torture on our people.
Kidnapping one of our own to subject him and his wife to the horrors known as K-state football. Oh the humanity ! :P
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John - thanks for taking time out of your vacation to meet me tonight. It is great to meet another fog cutter, and it is always amazing that while all of our stories are different, in so many ways they are the same. It was also great to meet your family - you could see the pride in your sons eyes as he talked about the $2.15 in your pocket (soon to be $2.16...). You are setting a great example for them.
Please look me up next time you are in kc. I will take you to a real BBQ place. Keep building the quit! You really have given me some things to think about tonight - I will keep in touch.
W2w-it was an honor meet you and hang out. You generosity is humbling, thank you. I will definitely call you the end of August. My wife n I will be at ksu for their opening game against ndsu.
Stay calm, we will contact Seal team 6. These terrorists will stop at nothing to inflict torture on our people.
Kidnapping one of our own to subject him and his wife to the horrors known as K-state football. Oh the humanity ! :P
Omahaflyer, Be warned...after we beat KAnsas State, we are coming for the Big Ten. Iowa has already backed out, and the Big Ten is trying to change their out of conference scheduling parameters to try and keep foolish athletic directors from scheduling the mighty bison. Look out Nebraska, we're coming for you next! Ok, so I'm ready for football to start, can ya tell? If I have to see one more golf tournament or NASCAR race, I may vomit.
So we have no chance against ksTate or nebraska, I just like to bark.
:)
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John - thanks for taking time out of your vacation to meet me tonight. It is great to meet another fog cutter, and it is always amazing that while all of our stories are different, in so many ways they are the same. It was also great to meet your family - you could see the pride in your sons eyes as he talked about the $2.15 in your pocket (soon to be $2.16...). You are setting a great example for them.
Please look me up next time you are in kc. I will take you to a real BBQ place. Keep building the quit! You really have given me some things to think about tonight - I will keep in touch.
W2w-it was an honor meet you and hang out. You generosity is humbling, thank you. I will definitely call you the end of August. My wife n I will be at ksu for their opening game against ndsu.
Stay calm, we will contact Seal team 6. These terrorists will stop at nothing to inflict torture on our people.
Kidnapping one of our own to subject him and his wife to the horrors known as K-state football. Oh the humanity ! :P
Omahaflyer, Be warned...after we beat KAnsas State, we are coming for the Big Ten. Iowa has already backed out, and the Big Ten is trying to change their out of conference scheduling parameters to try and keep foolish athletic directors from scheduling the mighty bison. Look out Nebraska, we're coming for you next! Ok, so I'm ready for football to start, can ya tell? If I have to see one more golf tournament or NASCAR race, I may vomit.
So we have no chance against ksTate or nebraska, I just like to bark.
:)
I was corn-fused, I thought you were traveling to root for the puple pussycats. As usual I stand corrected. Yes, Big Red is ducking the mighty Bisons !
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It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.
Teddy Roosevelt
Bully!
Lots of drama lately in regards to lines and such in April 13. Take our 26th president's word for what it's worth.
Here's my take...if you aren't in it for the long haul, you have nothing to say. Our enemy is not each other, our enemy is nicotine. Let's not forget that if you are reading these words, you are an addict. Whatever number u typed behind your name today, you are in the arena. You have chosen this battle. You will enter the arena everyday. Some days you may not feel like putting on the armor or picking up your weapon. But u do it. Odaat. Because if you choose to not put on the armor or grab hold of your weapon, you will die in the arena.
Unity brings power. We are unified against our enemy (nicotine). We are unified in our strategy (wake up, post your promise to not use nicotine for one day, live free from nicotine, go to bed with your integrity intact, wake up and repeat).
Since we are all in the same arena, battling the same enemy, using the same strategy, let's not get distracted by checking out each others armor and swinging motions. You may choose an axe or a trident, you may swing overhead or baseball style, your helmet may have a nose piece or it may not. You may have a small shield, or a large one. Whatever the case, let's not get to caught up in our specific tactics and weapon choices, when at anyone moment, an arrow could come in and strike a death blow.
I believe we should share tactics that are helpful in the daily, hand to hand combat, however I believe that engaging in long discourses over the benefits of tridents or battle axes can be counterproductive and dangerous.
Abe Lincoln Quoted Jesus when he said, a house divided cannot stand.
Stand United.
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It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.
Teddy Roosevelt
Bully!
Lots of drama lately in regards to lines and such in April 13. Take our 26th president's word for what it's worth.Â
Here's my take...if you aren't in it for the long haul, you have nothing to say. Our enemy is not each other, our enemy is nicotine. Let's not forget that if you are reading these words, you are an addict. Whatever number u typed behind your name today, you are in the arena. You have chosen this battle. You will enter the arena everyday. Some days you may not feel like putting on the armor or picking up your weapon. But u do it. Odaat. Because if you choose to not put on the armor or grab hold of your weapon, you will die in the arena.Â
Unity brings power. We are unified against our enemy (nicotine). We are unified in our strategy (wake up, post your promise to not use nicotine for one day, live free from nicotine, go to bed with your integrity intact, wake up and repeat).Â
Since we are all in the same arena, battling the same enemy, using the same strategy, let's not get distracted by checking out each others armor and swinging motions. You may choose an axe or a trident, you may swing overhead or baseball style, your helmet may have a nose piece or it may not. You may have a small shield, or a large one. Whatever the case, let's not get to caught up in our specific tactics and weapon choices, when at anyone moment, an arrow could come in and strike a death blow.
I believe we should share tactics that are helpful in the daily, hand to hand combat, however I believe that engaging in long discourses over the benefits of tridents or battle axes can be counterproductive and dangerous.
Abe Lincoln Quoted Jesus when he said, a house divided cannot stand.
Stand United.
What drama are you talking about? Oh yeah, that....well, J2B and Mjollnir said we all need to let it go, and some other ADMIN and MOD Squadders have implied that we need to let it go by posting in your group. Even Spartieron told me "dude, let it go." So....let it go dude, but I get what you're saying...sort of.
Quit Like Fuck.
p.s. Any of you fuckers in April 13 ever caves...I'll be here waiting for your ass. No, check that, April 12 will be here waiting for your ass. Hell, if I find out any of you have drifted I'm gonna light your ass up and call in the calvary. That's how much I care about the quit. Remember that....
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It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.
Teddy Roosevelt
Bully!
Lots of drama lately in regards to lines and such in April 13. Take our 26th president's word for what it's worth.Â
Here's my take...if you aren't in it for the long haul, you have nothing to say. Our enemy is not each other, our enemy is nicotine. Let's not forget that if you are reading these words, you are an addict. Whatever number u typed behind your name today, you are in the arena. You have chosen this battle. You will enter the arena everyday. Some days you may not feel like putting on the armor or picking up your weapon. But u do it. Odaat. Because if you choose to not put on the armor or grab hold of your weapon, you will die in the arena.Â
Unity brings power. We are unified against our enemy (nicotine). We are unified in our strategy (wake up, post your promise to not use nicotine for one day, live free from nicotine, go to bed with your integrity intact, wake up and repeat).Â
Since we are all in the same arena, battling the same enemy, using the same strategy, let's not get distracted by checking out each others armor and swinging motions. You may choose an axe or a trident, you may swing overhead or baseball style, your helmet may have a nose piece or it may not. You may have a small shield, or a large one. Whatever the case, let's not get to caught up in our specific tactics and weapon choices, when at anyone moment, an arrow could come in and strike a death blow.
I believe we should share tactics that are helpful in the daily, hand to hand combat, however I believe that engaging in long discourses over the benefits of tridents or battle axes can be counterproductive and dangerous.
Abe Lincoln Quoted Jesus when he said, a house divided cannot stand.
Stand United.
What drama are you talking about? Oh yeah, that....well, J2B and Mjollnir said we all need to let it go, and some other ADMIN and MOD Squadders have implied that we need to let it go by posting in your group. Even Spartieron told me "dude, let it go." So....let it go dude, but I get what you're saying...sort of.
Quit Like Fuck.
p.s. Any of you fuckers in April 13 ever caves...I'll be here waiting for your ass. No, check that, April 12 will be here waiting for your ass. Hell, if I find out any of you have drifted I'm gonna light your ass up and call in the calvary. That's how much I care about the quit. Remember that....
Good. We're clear then. Done. Quit on, Steve.
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It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.
Teddy Roosevelt
Bully!
Lots of drama lately in regards to lines and such in April 13. Take our 26th president's word for what it's worth.Â
Here's my take...if you aren't in it for the long haul, you have nothing to say. Our enemy is not each other, our enemy is nicotine. Let's not forget that if you are reading these words, you are an addict. Whatever number u typed behind your name today, you are in the arena. You have chosen this battle. You will enter the arena everyday. Some days you may not feel like putting on the armor or picking up your weapon. But u do it. Odaat. Because if you choose to not put on the armor or grab hold of your weapon, you will die in the arena.Â
Unity brings power. We are unified against our enemy (nicotine). We are unified in our strategy (wake up, post your promise to not use nicotine for one day, live free from nicotine, go to bed with your integrity intact, wake up and repeat).Â
Since we are all in the same arena, battling the same enemy, using the same strategy, let's not get distracted by checking out each others armor and swinging motions. You may choose an axe or a trident, you may swing overhead or baseball style, your helmet may have a nose piece or it may not. You may have a small shield, or a large one. Whatever the case, let's not get to caught up in our specific tactics and weapon choices, when at anyone moment, an arrow could come in and strike a death blow.
I believe we should share tactics that are helpful in the daily, hand to hand combat, however I believe that engaging in long discourses over the benefits of tridents or battle axes can be counterproductive and dangerous.
Abe Lincoln Quoted Jesus when he said, a house divided cannot stand.
Stand United.
What drama are you talking about? Oh yeah, that....well, J2B and Mjollnir said we all need to let it go, and some other ADMIN and MOD Squadders have implied that we need to let it go by posting in your group. Even Spartieron told me "dude, let it go." So....let it go dude, but I get what you're saying...sort of.
Quit Like Fuck.
p.s. Any of you fuckers in April 13 ever caves...I'll be here waiting for your ass. No, check that, April 12 will be here waiting for your ass. Hell, if I find out any of you have drifted I'm gonna light your ass up and call in the calvary. That's how much I care about the quit. Remember that....
Good. We're clear then. Done. Quit on, Steve.
The Quit is all important, the civil war is over in here. Long live KTC and the quit community for which it stands.
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John - congratulations on hitting another huge milestone. Next stop = 1 year. You have been a strong and consistent leader and your guidance has helped many of us more than you know. Enjoy your 300th day of freedom!
Go bisons! Go chiefs!
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Congrats on 300!!
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Today is 300, and I feel great. I worked on my seminary class paper on death. Very exciting! then I had lunch with my mentor/accountability partner. Worked some mor eon the paper, made an appt with a clinical therapist with whom I plan to share my story and get his thoughts on addiction. Tonight I'm sharing a devotion with our fca flag football league on winning that matters. My life is a dream and Im blessed. Grateful for all of u who have poured into my quit. If you are reading this and wondering if it's worth it, let me tell you this...you have been given the opportunity to choose. Life or death. Freedom or bondage. Health or destruction. The journey to freedom starts by recognizing you are enslaved to a processed weed. You are smarter than big tobacco, and you can choose life with the help of the men and women of this site.
As dr. Jones said to his son Indiana..."choose wisely, son."
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Today is 300, and I feel great. I worked on my seminary class paper on death. Very exciting! then I had lunch with my mentor/accountability partner. Worked some mor eon the paper, made an appt with a clinical therapist with whom I plan to share my story and get his thoughts on addiction. Tonight I'm sharing a devotion with our fca flag football league on winning that matters. My life is a dream and Im blessed. Grateful for all of u who have poured into my quit. If you are reading this and wondering if it's worth it, let me tell you this...you have been given the opportunity to choose. Life or death. Freedom or bondage. Health or destruction. The journey to freedom starts by recognizing you are enslaved to a processed weed. You are smarter than big tobacco, and you can choose life with the help of the men and women of this site.
As dr. Jones said to his son Indiana..."choose wisely, son."
Outstanding bro...
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On a day of giving thanks, I want to vent some hatred. I absolutely HATE big tobacco. Seriously, who sits around dreaming up different ways to entice young people into getting addicted to a substance that only leads to death. Don't misunderstand me, I'm not trying to shirk the individual responsibility that goes with personal choice. No one has ever held a gun to anyone's head in the history of the World as far as I know and forced them to dip snuff. We all have personal power in our ability to choose. HoWEVER...I'm not sure how people who work for big tobacco can sleep at night. Seriously, can they feel good about the fact that there personal, financial lively hood is based on the manipulation of weak minded addicts like us? Blows my mind. Profiting of the foolishness and destructive habits of others can't be a very sustaining motivation to get out of bed each morning. Actually, I feel sorry for them. I pity them. We'll i guess that's what I'm NOT THANKFUL for.
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On a day of giving thanks, I want to vent some hatred. I absolutely HATE big tobacco. Seriously, who sits around dreaming up different ways to entice young people into getting addicted to a substance that only leads to death. Don't misunderstand me, I'm not trying to shirk the individual responsibility that goes with personal choice. No one has ever held a gun to anyone's head in the history of the World as far as I know and forced them to dip snuff. We all have personal power in our ability to choose. HoWEVER...I'm not sure how people who work for big tobacco can sleep at night. Seriously, can they feel good about the fact that there personal, financial lively hood is based on the manipulation of weak minded addicts like us? Blows my mind. Profiting of the foolishness and destructive habits of others can't be a very sustaining motivation to get out of bed each morning. Actually, I feel sorry for them. I pity them. We'll i guess that's what I'm NOT THANKFUL for.
I am hating Big T and every lie they ever told with You today Phil16!
We were not born with the poison in our mouths.
ODAAT and NAFAR or anyone.
Cheers.
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A huge milestone today, I could say you were double dipping, but given the topic that seems pretty inappropriate!!! Congratulations on hitting both one year and your first true Christmas of freedom! You have been an inspiration and mentor, and guided me and many through some rough patches. Today, as you celebrate with your family, you'll be doing it through a clear mind free if the clutches if nicotine. Well done, john! Well done! See you at 366 tomorrow.
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A huge milestone today, I could say you were double dipping, but given the topic that seems pretty inappropriate!!! Congratulations on hitting both one year and your first true Christmas of freedom! You have been an inspiration and mentor, and guided me and many through some rough patches. Today, as you celebrate with your family, you'll be doing it through a clear mind free if the clutches if nicotine. Well done, john! Well done! See you at 366 tomorrow.
Merry Christmas!
I guess I've been so conditied and training myself to take it one day at a time, I never realized today would be the day. It occurred to me last week, pretty special. Thanks for the kind words, w2w. We stand hand in hand victorious over a formidable foe. Honored to be quit with u.
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A huge milestone today, I could say you were double dipping, but given the topic that seems pretty inappropriate!!! Congratulations on hitting both one year and your first true Christmas of freedom! You have been an inspiration and mentor, and guided me and many through some rough patches. Today, as you celebrate with your family, you'll be doing it through a clear mind free if the clutches if nicotine. Well done, john! Well done! See you at 366 tomorrow.
Merry Christmas!
I guess I've been so conditied and training myself to take it one day at a time, I never realized today would be the day. It occurred to me last week, pretty special. Thanks for the kind words, w2w. We stand hand in hand victorious over a formidable foe. Honored to be quit with u.
Thank you for your advice and guidance. Congrats on the milestone my friend.
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A huge milestone today, I could say you were double dipping, but given the topic that seems pretty inappropriate!!! Congratulations on hitting both one year and your first true Christmas of freedom! You have been an inspiration and mentor, and guided me and many through some rough patches. Today, as you celebrate with your family, you'll be doing it through a clear mind free if the clutches if nicotine. Well done, john! Well done! See you at 366 tomorrow.
Merry Christmas!
I guess I've been so conditied and training myself to take it one day at a time, I never realized today would be the day. It occurred to me last week, pretty special. Thanks for the kind words, w2w. We stand hand in hand victorious over a formidable foe. Honored to be quit with u.
Thank you for your advice and guidance. Congrats on the milestone my friend.
Day 365
What is the enemy?
Compromise
To stay nicotine free for 365 consecutive days has taken three things.
1. Compelling Vision-with the help of KTC, I've taken on a new vision of what my nicotine addiction is. Every time I have a nic thought, urge, compulsion, or crave I visualize it being an intruder entering my home. This intruder is planning to harm and molest my wife, children, and myself. Through this vision I'm able to orient myself to the truth that nicotine is a cold bloodier killer that is wanting to harm me and my loved ones. This vision compels me to take quick, decisive and violent action. I personally envision myself strangling th intruder with my bare hands, and dragging his body into the front yard, where I will call the non emergency line and request a squad car to come and retrieve the lifeless form from my property. I envision myself doing this in a manner as to not even wake my children.
"Nicotine, you have chosen the wrong home, your death will be slow and painful."
2. Core Values-honesty,community, and a committment to personal health and growth are values I hold very dear. My word and the relationships I have built have forged my quit. A radical commitment to living out these values illustrates my deepest convictions. Each of these values matter deeply at the core of my being.
3. Continual Vows-a mindset of daily improvement keeps me focused on the intensity necessary to defeat nic, and it keeps me from considering the compromise offered but the "just one one hurt" lie. Posting with my group everyday reminds me that I need to daily die to my own evil desires, and call on my higher power for help and support. This year I am making 3 daily commitments. One of those daily commitments is to post my promise with April13.
I would be deeply remiss if I did not mention a few people, who have been instrumental in my journey. J2B, Dethan, cbird, w2w, and omahaflyer have been instrumental for me in different ways to build my quit. Many others from april13 have been supportive, and I'm thankful to all of them. Wmcatty, thanks for the talk, and I certainly appreciate all you do on this site.
ODAAT