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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: francis on January 08, 2014, 03:40:00 PM
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I'm on day 8 of my quit. I posted roll for the first time on day 3. I am a nicotine addict. I've been chewing non stop for 18 years.I thought it got me through a lot. But in all reality it didn't get me through shit. That was the nicotine talking. I'm a fighting son of a bitch but I'm glad I signed on with ktc. I've been through this before without this program lost the fight...but I got back up and will not lose my life to this addiction. I'm ready to get my freedom back. For me my family!/(jan. 10th-day 10)...Its day 10 of my quit I'm fucking pist!!! It seems like everything triggers a crave. My basement is soaked from a water line breaking..my daughters mom is making threats about our custody situation.( I'm a great dad... am proud of my little girl). I just feel like beating the living shit out of somebody! I've got a lot of fight in me with nothing to take it out on!!!! Jan.15th 2014....day 15. Well it's been 5 days since I did a brief update. I'm irritable can not deal with conflict without feeling like I'm going to fucking lose it. I'm just trying to take this one day at a time. I miss my daughter feel guilty for how ive been acting towards my fiance when I have a crave episode. I'm exhausted tired. Haven't had good sleep since I quit. I am ready for some emotional relief I'm sick fucking tired of my mood swings that come out of nowhere.I don't wish this on anybody...anyways..just wanted to vent.- Francis out(Jan.22nd"14"-day 22- I had a rough weekend..a lot of anger that turned to rage. I said horrible things to my fiance. I shattered my phone against the wall. I went to the doctor on Monday. I told him what was going on with tears in my eyes. He gave me some good advice along with a couple prescriptions. I decided im going to try to get through this without the medicine. I don't want to rely on medication to function be happy in life. I will fight.(Feb.3rd...day 34)- I haven't updated here lately. I guess i feel like I'm in survival mode. One day at a time. I have been to yoga classes twice am going tonight. I started an inspirational journal this morning. I write down my goals stresses in life figure out a positive doable way to handle them. I think my brain is doing some major rewiring. The last time I came to my intro to update was on day 22. One of the medications I was prescribed back than was clonazepam. My mood swings rage got so bad that I decided to take it only as needed. ( my doctor fiance talked me into it.) I have only taken it twice since I got prescribed it it gave me the help I needed. I have been able to exercise, run, yoga, church, journal, have the love motivation that only a 7 year old little girl can give you (my daughter) the love of my beautiful Andrea to keep me from taking them daily. I don't want to get addicted to them..or have to rely on them every day...but have only taken them to help me at this stage of my quit. I have been mildly depressed here lately. Some days worse than others. My research tells me this is normal. Its where im supposed to be at don't fight it..be patient.; it's a process. Well..I suppose I'll sign off for now. I look forward for some more relief in the future. -francis out(June 3rd-day 154)- I am free. I was brain washed into thinking I needed chew/ nicotine. I now understand how it worked...I am not deprived of it. There is nothing to miss. I am me again;)
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Welcome to KTC Francis. After having posted roll for a few days, I assume you have started reading the materials in the Welcome Center. Familiarize yourself with as many aspects of this site and get involved in your quit group...it builds accountability. Now, look up at Inbox(1) and you will find a message from me. It contains my telephone number. Call me 24/7 when the urge to use nicotine gets strong and tempation starts to convince you that you can hande just one more dip...or call me if you have any questions or concerns. Congrats on the best decision of your life. Wayne
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Congrats on a great choice, Francis!!!
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I thought it got me through a lot. But in all reality it didn't get me through shit.
Francis,you are so correct. When we realize this we are on our way to killing this bitch! Good job!
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I'm on day 8 of my quit. I posted roll for the first time on day 3. I am a nicotine addict. I've been chewing non stop for 18 years.I thought it got me through a lot. But in all reality it didn't get me through shit. That was the nicotine talking. I'm a fighting son of a bitch but I'm glad I signed on with ktc. I've been through this before without this program lost the fight...but I got back up and will not loose my life to this addiction. I'm ready to get my freedom back. For me my family!
congrats on your new found freedom. This is the right place.
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I'm on day 8 of my quit. I posted roll for the first time on day 3. I am a nicotine addict. I've been chewing non stop for 18 years.I thought it got me through a lot. But in all reality it didn't get me through shit. That was the nicotine talking. I'm a fighting son of a bitch but I'm glad I signed on with ktc. I've been through this before without this program lost the fight...but I got back up and will not loose my life to this addiction. I'm ready to get my freedom back. For me my family!
Welcome. I will fight with you 24/7. When doubts and hurt enter your mind, come here for the support to stay quit for the day.
Fight on Quitter.
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I quit with you Franky ODAAT (one day at a time)
If you need anything, sent me a PM and I'll swap digits with you. Anything I can do to keep your lip free of carcinogenic poison, let me know.
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I quit with you Franky. I see you fighting for your life, and that's what it takes. A quitter like you gives me strength for my own, and i'm glad to be in it with you. Quit on, ODAAT.
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Got your message, Frankie. I appreciate the kind words.
But enough about me.
It's really simple: If you're truly committed to being rid of tobacco, you will be. Guaranteed. Day to day, month to month, year to year.
You're going to have to struggle. At times, it's going to suck worse than getting hit by a space shuttle. You might have to fight hard for a long time - for longer than some of your fellow April '14 quitters.
Oh, but by God, owning this shit is so sweet. I still relish being quit. After you've put in all the hard work and dedication for weeks and months, the real payback begins. You'll feel especially good about being a fucking god. You'll guard your quit like it's a pretty little baby bird that twitters softly and tickles your balls with its pretty little eyelashes.
(Do birds have eyelashes? Whatever.)
And then there's always this motivation: If you don't quit, it's going to kill you. The odds are not in your favor. Barring an accident or some other organic illness unrelated to tobacco, it will get you someday. Most likely from heart disease or some other cardiovascular horror, but perhaps as soon as a year from now, when oral cancer flattens you.
Do this: Post every day, without exception. Get to know your quit group. Forge bonds at KTC. Conjure up all the balls and resolve you can muster. Never leave this community.
And you'll win.
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Got your message, Frankie. I appreciate the kind words.
But enough about me.
It's really simple: If you're truly committed to being rid of tobacco, you will be. Guaranteed. Day to day, month to month, year to year.
You're going to have to struggle. At times, it's going to suck worse than getting hit by a space shuttle. You might have to fight hard for a long time - for longer than some of your fellow April '14 quitters.
Oh, but by God, owning this shit is so sweet. I still relish being quit. After you've put in all the hard work and dedication for weeks and months, the real payback begins. You'll feel especially good about being a fucking god. You'll guard your quit like it's a pretty little baby bird that twitters softly and tickles your balls with its pretty little eyelashes.
(Do birds have eyelashes? Whatever.)
And then there's always this motivation: If you don't quit, it's going to kill you. The odds are not in your favor. Barring an accident or some other organic illness unrelated to tobacco, it will get you someday. Most likely from heart disease or some other cardiovascular horror, but perhaps as soon as a year from now, when oral cancer flattens you.
Do this: Post every day, without exception. Get to know your quit group. Forge bonds at KTC. Conjure up all the balls and resolve you can muster. Never leave this community.
And you'll win.
-------^ F'in BOOM!!! Soak this stuff up Franky. Advice and wisdom like this don't come everyday. When you're having a tough day, come back and read this post. You WILL do this.
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Hey Francis! Congrats on 50 you Resolute Bastard!!!
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Ya-ba-da-ba-doooooo! Congrats on the Hundy and HOF!!! Great to be quit with you!
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Ya-ba-da-ba-doooooo! Congrats on the Hundy and HOF!!! Great to be quit with you!
Welcome aboard HOF'r
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Ya-ba-da-ba-doooooo! Congrats on the Hundy and HOF!!! Great to be quit with you!
Welcome aboard HOF'r
Congrats francis!
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Ya-ba-da-ba-doooooo! Congrats on the Hundy and HOF!!! Great to be quit with you!
Welcome aboard HOF'r
Congrats francis!
Congrats psycho...sorry I mean Francis!
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Ya-ba-da-ba-doooooo! Congrats on the Hundy and HOF!!! Great to be quit with you!
Welcome aboard HOF'r
Congrats francis!
Congrats psycho...sorry I mean Francis!
Congrats!!! 'Cheers'
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Thanks to everyone who gave me a shout out on my hof....you guys are awesome!!!