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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Napa on December 19, 2014, 02:49:00 PM
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The best thing about forums is it makes individuals realize how truly unoriginal they really are. I have sat on this site for a few days and have seemed to have read my story over and over. Started dipping skoal in middle school. Which turned into cope by high school. Growing up my interests were rodeo, baseball, and golf ( the Holy Trinity of smokeless tobacco sports ). I'm sure there were people that I ran with that did not dip, but I could not be % 100 sure on that.
After 23 years of being a slave to the stuff, I put it down and quit cold turkey. It was an eye opening experience on how truly addicted to nicotine I was. The fog and dizziness lasted for 2 months, with hard cravings for another couple of months after the fog lifted.
After the "new" of not dipping wore off, I tackled the issue of my degrading body. Cut out sodas, cut down on fried foods, and started running again. After three years off the nic I was in the best shape of my life and knew for a fact that I would never put that shit in my lip ever again. Then a 3 day fishing trip with way too much alcohol and a can was being passed around the boat. It looked tempting, but I said no. The next day I declined again, but another buddy was chewing Levi Garrett. I rationalized an answer I liked ( which is easy with a six pack already down ) and chewed the Levi.
When we got home, I didn't run to the store to complete my fall off the wagon. Actually the opposite happened. I walked around for a week worried that I had let it back into my life and I would soon be back on the cope. After a month I decided I had dogged it, maybe I could have one and it not draw me back?
Fast forward a year: the annual fishing trip is coming up in a month and I am already thinking about getting a chew of Levi from this dude when we start fishing. After fishing with my friend for a day, I find out he did not bring any Levi this trip, so I'm the guy that drives back to the store and buys the pouch.
That scene played out six years ago( two years longer than I lived without nic in my system) and I have had nicotine in my system from Levi to cope to gum ever since. I have chewed the gum, but I have always known I'm a cold turkey kind of a person. The gum was good for a break without having to deal with withdraws, but I knew it wasn't the end. I put the cope down two weeks ago, put the gum down last Friday, and now going one day at a time. I think I was reluctant to quit again due to the miserably long fog I endured on 2004, but the good lord has been a little nicer to me this time around. The first 3 days were brutal, but I have been able to function ok since Tuesday. I am no longer invincible, but now I am accountable. Thanks for this site guys
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Welcome aboard, Napa. Sounding strong, I'll quit with you today.
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Welcome aboard, Napa. Sounding strong, I'll quit with you today.
Welcome Napa. Not everyone's story is the same but we are all here for one reason: because we quit and want to stay quit. Keep reading everything you can on this site- other intros, hall of fame speeches, etc., Use the live chat and also use your intro to keep track of your progress- it also can be helpful to other folks.
You know how to stop, this site will teach you how to quit.
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The best thing about forums is it makes individuals realize how truly unoriginal they really are. I have sat on this site for a few days and have seemed to have read my story over and over. Started dipping skoal in middle school. Which turned into cope by high school. Growing up my interests were rodeo, baseball, and golf ( the Holy Trinity of smokeless tobacco sports ). I'm sure there were people that I ran with that did not dip, but I could not be % 100 sure on that.
After 23 years of being a slave to the stuff, I put it down and quit cold turkey. It was an eye opening experience on how truly addicted to nicotine I was. The fog and dizziness lasted for 2 months, with hard cravings for another couple of months after the fog lifted.
After the "new" of not dipping wore off, I tackled the issue of my degrading body. Cut out sodas, cut down on fried foods, and started running again. After three years off the nic I was in the best shape of my life and knew for a fact that I would never put that shit in my lip ever again. Then a 3 day fishing trip with way too much alcohol and a can was being passed around the boat. It looked tempting, but I said no. The next day I declined again, but another buddy was chewing Levi Garrett. I rationalized an answer I liked ( which is easy with a six pack already down ) and chewed the Levi.
When we got home, I didn't run to the store to complete my fall off the wagon. Actually the opposite happened. I walked around for a week worried that I had let it back into my life and I would soon be back on the cope. After a month I decided I had dogged it, maybe I could have one and it not draw me back?
Fast forward a year: the annual fishing trip is coming up in a month and I am already thinking about getting a chew of Levi from this dude when we start fishing. After fishing with my friend for a day, I find out he did not bring any Levi this trip, so I'm the guy that drives back to the store and buys the pouch.
That scene played out six years ago( two years longer than I lived without nic in my system) and I have had nicotine in my system from Levi to cope to gum ever since. I have chewed the gum, but I have always known I'm a cold turkey kind of a person. The gum was good for a break without having to deal with withdraws, but I knew it wasn't the end. I put the cope down two weeks ago, put the gum down last Friday, and now going one day at a time. I think I was reluctant to quit again due to the miserably long fog I endured on 2004, but the good lord has been a little nicer to me this time around. The first 3 days were brutal, but I have been able to function ok since Tuesday. I am no longer invincible, but now I am accountable. Thanks for this site guys
Welcome Slave to the house of nicotine addicts.
Thanks for sharing.
Stick around and your quit will stick.
The tools to defeat the nic bitch ODAAT are here.
Cheers.
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Welcome! You know how to stop, so quit for life with KTC! I'll quit with you NAPA.
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The best thing about forums is it makes individuals realize how truly unoriginal they really are. I have sat on this site for a few days and have seemed to have read my story over and over. Started dipping skoal in middle school. Which turned into cope by high school. Growing up my interests were rodeo, baseball, and golf ( the Holy Trinity of smokeless tobacco sports ). I'm sure there were people that I ran with that did not dip, but I could not be % 100 sure on that.
After 23 years of being a slave to the stuff, I put it down and quit cold turkey. It was an eye opening experience on how truly addicted to nicotine I was. The fog and dizziness lasted for 2 months, with hard cravings for another couple of months after the fog lifted.
After the "new" of not dipping wore off, I tackled the issue of my degrading body. Cut out sodas, cut down on fried foods, and started running again. After three years off the nic I was in the best shape of my life and knew for a fact that I would never put that shit in my lip ever again. Then a 3 day fishing trip with way too much alcohol and a can was being passed around the boat. It looked tempting, but I said no. The next day I declined again, but another buddy was chewing Levi Garrett. I rationalized an answer I liked ( which is easy with a six pack already down ) and chewed the Levi.
When we got home, I didn't run to the store to complete my fall off the wagon. Actually the opposite happened. I walked around for a week worried that I had let it back into my life and I would soon be back on the cope. After a month I decided I had dogged it, maybe I could have one and it not draw me back?
Fast forward a year: the annual fishing trip is coming up in a month and I am already thinking about getting a chew of Levi from this dude when we start fishing. After fishing with my friend for a day, I find out he did not bring any Levi this trip, so I'm the guy that drives back to the store and buys the pouch.
That scene played out six years ago( two years longer than I lived without nic in my system) and I have had nicotine in my system from Levi to cope to gum ever since. I have chewed the gum, but I have always known I'm a cold turkey kind of a person. The gum was good for a break without having to deal with withdraws, but I knew it wasn't the end. I put the cope down two weeks ago, put the gum down last Friday, and now going one day at a time. I think I was reluctant to quit again due to the miserably long fog I endured on 2004, but the good lord has been a little nicer to me this time around. The first 3 days were brutal, but I have been able to function ok since Tuesday. I am no longer invincible, but now I am accountable. Thanks for this site guys
Proud to quit with you Napa and great avatar! (PS you never quit before only stopped)
Build a network of support and you only get out of this site what you put in...
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Welcome Napa, thank you for sharing your intro.
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The best thing about forums is it makes individuals realize how truly unoriginal they really are. I have sat on this site for a few days and have seemed to have read my story over and over. Started dipping skoal in middle school. Which turned into cope by high school. Growing up my interests were rodeo, baseball, and golf ( the Holy Trinity of smokeless tobacco sports ). I'm sure there were people that I ran with that did not dip, but I could not be % 100 sure on that.
After 23 years of being a slave to the stuff, I put it down and quit cold turkey. It was an eye opening experience on how truly addicted to nicotine I was. The fog and dizziness lasted for 2 months, with hard cravings for another couple of months after the fog lifted.
After the "new" of not dipping wore off, I tackled the issue of my degrading body. Cut out sodas, cut down on fried foods, and started running again. After three years off the nic I was in the best shape of my life and knew for a fact that I would never put that shit in my lip ever again. Then a 3 day fishing trip with way too much alcohol and a can was being passed around the boat. It looked tempting, but I said no. The next day I declined again, but another buddy was chewing Levi Garrett. I rationalized an answer I liked ( which is easy with a six pack already down ) and chewed the Levi.
When we got home, I didn't run to the store to complete my fall off the wagon. Actually the opposite happened. I walked around for a week worried that I had let it back into my life and I would soon be back on the cope. After a month I decided I had dogged it, maybe I could have one and it not draw me back?
Fast forward a year: the annual fishing trip is coming up in a month and I am already thinking about getting a chew of Levi from this dude when we start fishing. After fishing with my friend for a day, I find out he did not bring any Levi this trip, so I'm the guy that drives back to the store and buys the pouch.
That scene played out six years ago( two years longer than I lived without nic in my system) and I have had nicotine in my system from Levi to cope to gum ever since. I have chewed the gum, but I have always known I'm a cold turkey kind of a person. The gum was good for a break without having to deal with withdraws, but I knew it wasn't the end. I put the cope down two weeks ago, put the gum down last Friday, and now going one day at a time. I think I was reluctant to quit again due to the miserably long fog I endured on 2004, but the good lord has been a little nicer to me this time around. The first 3 days were brutal, but I have been able to function ok since Tuesday. I am no longer invincible, but now I am accountable. Thanks for this site guys
You can always turn a cucumber into a pickle.... but you can never turn a pickle back into a cucumber.
There is no just one. Your an addict
Welcome aboard
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Good intro, Napa. Levi took me out several times with similar rationalization to what you described.
Post roll in March '15. They're a great group. Posting instructions are at top of each roll post.
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Congrats on the quit Napa! We quit one day at a time. Not a lifetime, not for a week, a year or a month. We just quit for today. Then we do the same thing tomorrow.
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Napa,
I'll add my welcome as well. You see us in you, and we see you in us. So we are the same....addicts. Glad you are here because this site works. My advice to you is never, ever miss a day of roll. It is the element of accountability that endures. I quit with you today.
ZillahCowboy.
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Napa,
I'll add my welcome as well. You see us in you, and we see you in us. So we are the same....addicts. Glad you are here because this site works. My advice to you is never, ever miss a day of roll. It is the element of accountability that endures. I quit with you today.
ZillahCowboy.
Napa - How's the quit going? Ping me if you need anything at all! Oh ya - watch out for Zillah! He's handy with a horse and a rope! You might just have to join us in Oregon or Washington for the St Paul or Ellensburg rodeo. Last year, Zillah and I flipped off the copenhagen tent together. It was a thing of beauty.
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The quit is going good Bronc, thanks for checking. The ability to keep ones head down and stay busy is a valuable tool early in the quit. I'm hitting day 19 today and finally feeling good. The fog lifted early on day 4, but the headaches continued until a few days ago. Have been running with my daughter and trying to get some projects finished up around the place before the cold months hit.
I have never been a guy who asked for help. I think that is the reason I could never fully close the door on nicotine. I have stopped before because I didn't want to dip anymore, but this is the first time that I see cope as failure, and I don't want to put failure in my mouth. I can't put into words why giving my word every morning to a bunch of people I have never met has such a profound impact on me, but I'm willing to bet that I'm not alone. The simple fact of pulling up the site on my computer and seeing everyone on here is a strength builder in itself.
Oregon is a long way from Texas, but you never know. Those Copenhagen tents at the Rodeos were a home away from home for me when I was younger. Even use to stay at the rep's house when I was at rodeos around Lubbock. Would love to give the sample tent the Bird right about now.
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Napa,
I'll add my welcome as well. You see us in you, and we see you in us. So we are the same....addicts. Glad you are here because this site works. My advice to you is never, ever miss a day of roll. It is the element of accountability that endures. I quit with you today.
ZillahCowboy.
Napa - How's the quit going? Ping me if you need anything at all! Oh ya - watch out for Zillah! He's handy with a horse and a rope! You might just have to join us in Oregon or Washington for the St Paul or Ellensburg rodeo. Last year, Zillah and I flipped off the copenhagen tent together. It was a thing of beauty.
Bronc,
That WAS fun last summer at the St. Paul Rodeo flipping off the Cope tent on camera. And we should do it again next 4th of July!! Mwahaha.
Napa,
Bronc and I are birds of a feather and we gladly support you and QLF with you any dang day. Get thee to a rodeo and we'll see you there...in spirit if not in person!!
ZC
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Napa,
You ever come back to Lubbock Rodeo, give me a call.... I'll make a "Fly By" with ya on the Cope tent. And we will send our northern buddies a picture. PM me anytime. Rawls day 43