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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: scottdot on October 15, 2012, 05:46:00 PM
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Hello all.
My name is Scott. I'm 27. Nicotine has controlled me since my sister bought me a pack of cigars when I was 18. I started off smoking those and then cigarettes and then about 7 years ago I switched to snuff to quit smoking. Since then, I've barely gone a day without.
I've tried to quit several times recently. I've barely made it to the 18 hour mark when twice I've ran out in the middle of the night to the 24 hour circle k to buy me a can.
I'm having my LAST dip, right now. I don't have any more. I will never buy another can.
I'm posting on this forum because while I realize I am quitting for me, I cannot quit without support (my family is no support, they think "weaning off" is the better way to quit and buy me cans of snuff just so I will have some around when I'm having a really bad craving.. so they will not know I am quitting this time).
I hope to find support here. This endeavor is going to take my blood, guts, sweat, and tears. This endeavor not only will save, but is, my life.
One step at a time. After I spit this out.. my goal is 12AM. My goal after that will be 12PM. Then 12 AM again. One day at a time.
Desperately in need of support,
-Scott
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I just wanted to add that I have bookmarked this topic and I hope it can become my lifeline as I become weak. I need to be reminded that I am weak to the addiction to nicotine but I am stronger.
When I am weak, I will come here. There will be no faking it and sneaking in a dip and not reporting it. THIS IS FOR REAL OR FOR NOTHING!
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Hello all.
My name is Scott. I'm 27. Nicotine has controlled me since my sister bought me a pack of cigars when I was 18. I started off smoking those and then cigarettes and then about 7 years ago I switched to snuff to quit smoking. Since then, I've barely gone a day without.
I've tried to quit several times recently. I've barely made it to the 18 hour mark when twice I've ran out in the middle of the night to the 24 hour circle k to buy me a can.
I'm having my LAST dip, right now. I don't have any more. I will never buy another can.
I'm posting on this forum because while I realize I am quitting for me, I cannot quit without support (my family is no support, they think "weaning off" is the better way to quit and buy me cans of snuff just so I will have some around when I'm having a really bad craving.. so they will not know I am quitting this time).
I hope to find support here. This endeavor is going to take my blood, guts, sweat, and tears. This endeavor not only will save, but is, my life.
One step at a time. After I spit this out.. my goal is 12AM. My goal after that will be 12PM. Then 12 AM again. One day at a time.
Desperately in need of support,
-Scott
Hi Scott -
we were all in your position. I see good and bad in what you are saying.
Good - One day at a time - that is what we do here and is one of the keys. We wake each morning and post roll. Posting roll is our word to our brothers on the site here that we will not use any nicotene for the day. Then we go to sleep and repeat the next day....
Good - your realization of needing support, and yes we all quit for ourselves so that if anything happens we do not have any excuse to go back. The support you will receive here is all based on you and what you open yourself to by asking and by telling it straight....
Bad - 'not telling your family that you are quitting' This is truely bad as they will not see you acting differently in the upcommig weeks,as we all have. You should tell them, they should watch you dump the last of what you have in the toilet. Have your wife read this: http://www.killthecan.org/community/spouse.asp (http://www.killthecan.org/community/spouse.asp), and read through the rest of the site.
It will test your mettle as it is a wild ride, but in this case the grass is greener on the other side.
Quit now and pm me if you have any further questions,.
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Thank you.
They will not abide by that. They won't want me having an intense craving and will just bring me more cans of dip!
If it comes to it, where I need them for support, I will show them that page and tell them very sternly that I am serious and I will be PO'd at them if they interfere with my plan.
My biggest problem is after about 18 hours.. fighting that feeling of intense euphoria I know I will get if I have "just one more dip".
I made it 40 hours ONE TIME and I felt like I was going to die (not literally, of course). I wish I was 40 hours in right now so I could tell that craving to take a hike.
Not giving in this time, nor ever again.
Thank you for your post!
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I am 20 minutes in. I have already gained these benefits:
Your blood pressure, pulse rate, and the temperature of your hands and feet will all return to normal.
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It will never get any easier for you to quit than it is right now. Stick with it and be proud of your decision.
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Scott,
No one here will tell you that this will be easy, we will all tell you we are here if you want our help. To get that support you have to do one thing, post roll each day with your quit group. You should also reach out to some of your brothers in the January 2013 group and trade numbers, talk and text! reach out to some vets too. Again, the best advice you will get here is post roll today (that's your promise not to use nicotine in any form today to your group and to yourself)
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You want support? Head on over Here (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=7170) and put your name on that list. That's step one.
Until I see your name on that list, I don't think you're serious. But once you put your name on that list, you'll get more support than you know what to do with.
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I see you posted roll, nice job! Come back in the morning and make your promise again at day two. See you there
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Thank you all so much! This is so promising to have people supporting me. I'm learning the board, how to navigate, how to roll call, and all of that good stuff.
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Hey Scott, like others have said, we've all been there. I quit 3 days ago, about to be 4 and I can tell you that the cravings are absolutely horrible. It's not easy and it seems like every little thing stresses you out and you're like "Man, I really just want a dip and it'll be ok" but it won't. Stay quit, stay strong, and do it for YOU.
No luck needed - just determination.
E: Welcome to the Jackwagins
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Thanks.. wishing you success too!
Well, I made my goal!! 12 AM! 6 hours nicotine free! And best of all it was 6 hours spent awake consciously NOT taking a dip. I am feeling very empowered and ready to take on tomorrow.
6 hours doesn't seem like much.. but I've spent countless 6 hour spans sucking on multiple wads of dip.
New goal is noon. I can do this!! I'm going to book mark my group and post roll when I wake up.
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Thanks.. wishing you success too!
Well, I made my goal!! 12 AM! 6 hours nicotine free! And best of all it was 6 hours spent awake consciously NOT taking a dip. I am feeling very empowered and ready to take on tomorrow.
6 hours doesn't seem like much.. but I've spent countless 6 hour spans sucking on multiple wads of dip.
New goal is noon. I can do this!! I'm going to book mark my group and post roll when I wake up.
Just remember Scott, when you post that word, do ANYTHING it takes. If the urges get too much, get into the site here and chat/let it out. Get the sugarfree lifesavers for your mouth....But keep and honor that word you gave.
Quit with you today as I have given my word too
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Going on 17 hours dip free. I have passed these quit tobacco time table marks:
8 hours - Remaining nicotine in your bloodstream will have fallen to 6.25% of normal peak daily levels, a 93.25% reduction.
12 hours - Your blood oxygen level will have increased to normal and carbon monoxide levels will have dropped to normal.
Booyahhh!
I have posted roll for today with my quit group. For today, no nicotine will enter my body. That is within my reach and I will conquer it!
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Mid-afternoon Jonesin' hard. Chewing some gum. Day 23. Thought these f'in urges would dial down by now. Less frequent, but just as strong. All between my ears.....
The Nic is a nasty bitch.
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Going on 17 hours dip free. I have passed these quit tobacco time table marks:
8 hours - Remaining nicotine in your bloodstream will have fallen to 6.25% of normal peak daily levels, a 93.25% reduction.
12 hours - Your blood oxygen level will have increased to normal and carbon monoxide levels will have dropped to normal.
Booyahhh!
I have posted roll for today with my quit group. For today, no nicotine will enter my body. That is within my reach and I will conquer it!
Right on Scott.
Take each victory for what it is: a victory!
There is NO reason - NONE - to put that shit in your face again.
You can do this.
If you need anything, you shoot me a PM. Anything. Advice, a phone number, clean hooker - anything. I live in Maine, btw, and I guess we have a nice lot of clean hookers. Whodathunkit?
:unsure:
Welcome to the freak show.
-Nolaq
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I am at 26 and a half hours. This is the second longest quit attempt I've ever done. Sounds lame but the rest would all end before 24 hours was up.
I guess this isn't a quit attempt, this is my quit success today. One day at a time, forever.
I'm fighting back a hard urge right now. Watching the clock. Foggy headed. I keep picturing how amazing it would feel to just pop in a dip right now.
But instead, I got on here and posted. Reading your replies have helped. This three minutes should be up sometime soon.
STAYING STRONG!
EDIT| I have passed this point:
24 Hours - Anxieties peak in intensity and within two weeks should return to near pre-cessation levels.
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Something that has helped me is quit watching that f'ing clock! It is the enemy of all that is good in my world. Go outside, watch tv, work on the truck, do yard work, do anything besides watch that f'ing clock. At night I would turn it upside down so I couldn't see it. All I needed to know was my alarm wasn't going off so fuck it.
I quit with you today, good job.
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You can do this brother. This is a war and it will be difficult but every worthwhile ting is hard to accomplish. I quit with you brother
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You got balls Scott?
Embrace this battle friend. When you're left standing on the other side of this fight looking down at the heathen liar nic bitch, you'll be steel. You are worth more. Remember that. You are fighting because you know you are worth more. You no longer are controlled by a chemical. You are free my friend. With each step you place on this Earth sense that you are free. Say it out loud "I QUIT". Let the fucking world know that you are back and you take no shit from anyone.
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I am 41 hours post dip. 1 hour past my previous longest quitting attempt!
I am in this, one day at a time. I will not dip for 13 more hours. Will worry about tomorrow when it gets here.
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I am 41 hours post dip. 1 hour past my previous longest quitting attempt!
I am in this, one day at a time. I will not dip for 13 more hours. Will worry about tomorrow when it gets here.
Just keep repeating the same steps that have made you successful these last 40 hours.
Quitting is like a high wire act. You've got to walk on this skinny little rope. When you first started 40 hours ago, you were 4 inches off the ground. Now you're 10 feet off the ground and shit will hurt if you fall.
We'll help you balance, but it's up to you to ask for help. Make some friends. It really helps the time pass, and makes it easier to ask for help. I've met some cool ass people here that have saved my ass many times. Just yesterday, I talked to a brother for an hour and it lifted a great weight from my shoulders. Words can't express the power of this site.
Think of all the things that led you back to the can those previous attempts, and don't do that. As humans, we learn from our mistakes. Repeating them is just stupid.
Get through today. You can do it. I'm very proud of you.
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I am 41 hours post dip. 1 hour past my previous longest quitting attempt!
I am in this, one day at a time. I will not dip for 13 more hours. Will worry about tomorrow when it gets here.
Just keep repeating the same steps that have made you successful these last 40 hours.
Quitting is like a high wire act. You've got to walk on this skinny little rope. When you first started 40 hours ago, you were 4 inches off the ground. Now you're 10 feet off the ground and shit will hurt if you fall.
We'll help you balance, but it's up to you to ask for help. Make some friends. It really helps the time pass, and makes it easier to ask for help. I've met some cool ass people here that have saved my ass many times. Just yesterday, I talked to a brother for an hour and it lifted a great weight from my shoulders. Words can't express the power of this site.
Think of all the things that led you back to the can those previous attempts, and don't do that. As humans, we learn from our mistakes. Repeating them is just stupid.
Get through today. You can do it. I'm very proud of you.
yes great job Scotdot
and good to see your name on that roll. So remember to honor that pledge for the day. Work on it hour by hour, get on the site here and read, go exercise, hop into chat and curse us all out. Do anything to keep the crap out of your body
Day 3 - getting close to the end of the major suck - so bear down, you CAN do this.
I quit with you today
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Keep it up Scott. You got this.
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thank you guys soooooooooooo much
right now i am fighting that urge so hard
the urge to break up the day, to be satisfied, knowing that the next dip is going to be so fucking euphoric it'll knock me on my ass and i'll be in complete bliss for the next hour
i need to write to convince myself that because of the shit i just said.. nicotine is so powerful
i will not be it's slave
i have a fellow brother i'm about to text with right now to get me through this
this site is my life line
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thank you guys soooooooooooo much
right now i am fighting that urge so hard
the urge to break up the day, to be satisfied, knowing that the next dip is going to be so fucking euphoric it'll knock me on my ass and i'll be in complete bliss for the next hour
i need to write to convince myself that because of the shit i just said.. nicotine is so powerful
i will not be it's slave
i have a fellow brother i'm about to text with right now to get me through this
this site is my life line
That next dip will not be euphoric.
It will be fucking horrible.
Trust me. I've been there.
If you have kids, it's like giving into a 3 year old throwing a fit at the store because you won't buy him a new toy. Sure, he'll shut up for now but he's going to be louder next time and knows that you will bend. Fucking do this, and be in control.
That "next dip" will feel shitty, so you'll throw in another and another. It's just not worth it.
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thank you guys soooooooooooo much
right now i am fighting that urge so hard
the urge to break up the day, to be satisfied, knowing that the next dip is going to be so fucking euphoric it'll knock me on my ass and i'll be in complete bliss for the next hour
i need to write to convince myself that because of the shit i just said.. nicotine is so powerful
i will not be it's slave
i have a fellow brother i'm about to text with right now to get me through this
this site is my life line
That next dip will not be euphoric.
It will be fucking horrible.
Trust me. I've been there.
If you have kids, it's like giving into a 3 year old throwing a fit at the store because you won't buy him a new toy. Sure, he'll shut up for now but he's going to be louder next time and knows that you will bend. Fucking do this, and be in control.
That "next dip" will feel shitty, so you'll throw in another and another. It's just not worth it.
The only thing nicotine does is releave the symptoms resulting in refraining from its use. "Euphoria" is only the sessation of withdrawal. It then starts all over again and she has you by the balls once more. Kick the bitch in the face. She is a liar.
Soon this will all pass. You can do this. One day at a time.
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Fought through it. Seemed the urge lasted literally hours today. I am feeling better now and stronger to fight. This was my most serious test yet and I beat it. CONFIDENCE.
Thank you guys so much for your words (cannot stress that enough).
I am ready to be tested further.
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Fought through it. Seemed the urge lasted literally hours today. I am feeling better now and stronger to fight. This was my most serious test yet and I beat it. CONFIDENCE.
Thank you guys so much for your words (cannot stress that enough).
I am ready to be tested further.
Fucking awesome.
Very proud of you man.
I'll give ya another hint that helps:
If you're struggling, I guarantee somebody in your group is as well. Post that right up in your group and you'll be surprised how many people respond in all sorts of creative, takes your mind off the crave ways.
Good job.
The sign of a good quitter is when he says "Thank you. May I have another." after biting his lip raw with craves.