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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: OkieBurner on January 08, 2014, 08:59:00 AM
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Well I guess I start at the beginning? I started dipping at the ripe age of 13. I got away with it cause my dad dipped and I could steal it from him and blame him if a errant spit cup was found. I dipped through high school, college, my wedding, and both my boys births. I stumbled on this site in September of last year when I first started thinking about quitting but after looking around and reading the forum rules I decided I wasn't ready to bring that level of commitment to the table so I bailed and didn't think much else about it. Fast forward to Sunday night and me and oldest (he's 5) are setting in the car in the grocery store parking lot and he tells me don't worry he'll keep his cup when he's done so I can spit in it. I don't why that was it, it's not like that's the first time he has said that but something clicked and I rolled the window down and dumped a brand new can of snuff out in the spot beside us and that was that. I'm done.
It's been three days now and I gotta say I feel better. I'm sleeping better and waking up easier in the morning. I feel like I have energy to burn when I get home from work I'm not just dragging ass anymore. I don't know if its because I quit or what but I'm choosing to believe it is! Anyway, That's my dip story up to now. I look forward to getting to know you guys.
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Hey Okieman, We addicts don't do so good when it comes to keeping ourselves on the straight an narrow. I mean, it took you a year of lying to yourself after you realized this shit might kill you to dump the shit out, right? The thing about postin roll is sure, you can lie to yourself and it don't mean shit but can you lie to 20,000 other addicts? That's a tough call, even for a douche bag addict like us. Check out the welcome tab and get yourself on roll in April'14. Do it now and don't look back. Step up, man. Give your boy and yourself something to be proud of every day 'cause if you don't it's just a bunch of words and more broken promises. Welcome to freedom!
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Well I guess I start at the beginning? I started dipping at the ripe age of 13. I got away with it cause my dad dipped and I could steal it from him and blame him if a errant spit cup was found. I dipped through high school, college, my wedding, and both my boys births. I stumbled on this site in September of last year when I first started thinking about quitting but after looking around and reading the forum rules I decided I wasn't ready to bring that level of commitment to the table so I bailed and didn't think much else about it. Fast forward to Sunday night and me and oldest (he's 5) are setting in the car in the grocery store parking lot and he tells me don't worry he'll keep his cup when he's done so I can spit in it. I don't why that was it, it's not like that's the first time he has said that but something clicked and I rolled the window down and dumped a brand new can of snuff out in the spot beside us and that was that. I'm done.
It's been three days now and I gotta say I feel better. I'm sleeping better and waking up easier in the morning. I feel like I have energy to burn when I get home from work I'm not just dragging ass anymore. I don't know if its because I quit or what but I'm choosing to believe it is! Anyway, That's my dip story up to now. I look forward to getting to know you guys.
Sounds like you have a good start. Don't underestimate the enemy here though. Nicotine is a crafty foe who can sneak up on you before you know it. Please make sure you learn to post roll in the April 14 group and become part of this site as soon as possible. Read more and more stories and posts and you will get the picture. Reach out to people in your group. They will help you on this road to being quit from dip!!! I quit with you today, but you have to post roll for us to know that you are quit!!!!
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"It's been three days now and I gotta say I feel better. I'm sleeping better and waking up easier in the morning. I feel like I have energy to burn when I get home from work I'm not just dragging ass anymore".
I want you to look at this statement you made and then realize that this is likely a false security.
Sure, nicotine takes about 72 hours to leave you body but guess what....your body is use to living on nicotine so it is about to fight you and fight you hard.
I am not trying to scare you or make things sound too hard to do, I just want you to be geared up and prepared.
The next 50-100 days are going to be difficult and you will have many bad days and a few good days. Use those good days to recharge your batteries and prepare for the next round of the fight. Quit one hour at a time, if that's too difficult, quit for one minute at a time.
When you think about it 100 days isn't very long but it can seem like forever when you are in the middle of it. You can do this and I will stand right beside you while you do it.
I need you to be successful so I know that I can stay successful in my quit.
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Only 1 post?
Have you read everything in the welcome center? if not please do
index.php?showforum=13 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13)
Also, you should be posting roll with your group which would be april 2014
index.php?showtopic=9259 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=9259)
You are off to a good start. Lets keep this train rollin.. There are some really fun quitters in your april group.. Get to know them, they will strengthen your quit
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Nice job posting roll man, you did it by the time I finished this post...
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Yeah sorry the roll call room so long I started trying to do it right after I made my intro but its a SOB trying to do it on a mobile. Gunna have to remember to do that before I leave the house in the morning from now on. Anywho thanks for the heads up on the fight that's coming. I'll definitely take and advice I can get though on what's to come.
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I started dipping at the ripe age of 13. I got away with it cause my dad dipped and I could steal it from him and blame him if a errant spit cup was found. I dipped through high school, college, my wedding, and both my boys births.
I could put my name on the top of this and call it my intro. My dad dipped cope and redman plug and that got my addiction started around the same age. Maybe even younger. 28 years later and I have two boys now...oldest is five. Just like you. Same story man.
Both my boys, 5 and 2, spit. They play outside, take a pause, spit, then play again. They even spit in the same fashion I do. With lips pressed together like they are spitting into a spitter. What a thing to teach your children. Makes me sad. My breaking point was when my 2 year old ate my Kodiak and got sick.
My point is you are not alone. We are all addicts here and our stories are all so similar. It was so refreshing for me to see all the dudes on this site that are 100, 300, 1000+ days quit that are just like me and you. If these guys can do it so can we.
Post roll and make your promise to quit. You are in the right place. Check your Inbox(1)
PB
38 days
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I started dipping at the ripe age of 13. I got away with it cause my dad dipped and I could steal it from him and blame him if a errant spit cup was found. I dipped through high school, college, my wedding, and both my boys births.
I could put my name on the top of this and call it my intro. My dad dipped cope and redman plug and that got my addiction started around the same age. Maybe even younger. 28 years later and I have two boys now...oldest is five. Just like you. Same story man.
Both my boys, 5 and 2, spit. They play outside, take a pause, spit, then play again. They even spit in the same fashion I do. With lips pressed together like they are spitting into a spitter. What a thing to teach your children. Makes me sad. My breaking point was when my 2 year old ate my Kodiak and got sick.
My point is you are not alone. We are all addicts here and our stories are all so similar. It was so refreshing for me to see all the dudes on this site that are 100, 300, 1000+ days quit that are just like me and you. If these guys can do it so can we.
Post roll and make your promise to quit. You are in the right place. Check your Inbox(1)
PB
38 days
We've all got these stories. Make each day a step towards being a better dad to those kids. In the long run, they'll forgive you for everything you've done to this point because they're so young. They might not forgive you, though, if you're dying of cancer when you're 50 because you were too selfish to quit the poison. Quit for you and let them see the benefits of having a dad that loves them more than some poison in a can.
I'm quitting with Okie and PB today.
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Welcome aboard Okie. Nice job of posting roll today too. I sent you a pm with my telephone number in it...call me when things get bad for you and the allure of tobacco is starting to call your name. We are all here to help. As PB said below, you are in the right place. Wayne
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Way to go Okie....Day 3 is behind you which technically means the nic is out of your system. Problem though is that it isn't out of your mind. And so the mind games that we're all familiar with begin. Keep strong on your quit. Post roll every morning, read heavily on this site, and reach out to any of us. We are here for you. Keep your quit on!!!
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Way to go Okie....Day 3 is behind you which technically means the nic is out of your system. Problem though is that it isn't out of your mind. And so the mind games that we're all familiar with begin. Keep strong on your quit. Post roll every morning, read heavily on this site, and reach out to any of us. We are here for you. Keep your quit on!!!
'oh yeah' so I feel like a rock star I haven't dipped for 8 days now never thought I would have made it this far. I do have to admit I got tested today. I went for an interview and the owner of this company put a big fat juicy dip in while he was talking to me. It was the same kind I gave up. He offered me some I said no thank you but my mind was like just take it don't be rude. He than ask you don't chew I said actually I quit 8 days ago. I got home and threw in a ton of seeds in my mouth. Moral is I didn't give in and I'm still nicotine free!!
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Way to go Okie....Day 3 is behind you which technically means the nic is out of your system. Problem though is that it isn't out of your mind. And so the mind games that we're all familiar with begin. Keep strong on your quit. Post roll every morning, read heavily on this site, and reach out to any of us. We are here for you. Keep your quit on!!!
'oh yeah' so I feel like a rock star I haven't dipped for 8 days now never thought I would have made it this far. I do have to admit I got tested today. I went for an interview and the owner of this company put a big fat juicy dip in while he was talking to me. It was the same kind I gave up. He offered me some I said no thank you but my mind was like just take it don't be rude. He than ask you don't chew I said actually I quit 8 days ago. I got home and threw in a ton of seeds in my mouth. Moral is I didn't give in and I'm still nicotine free!!
That is some bad ass quitting right there.
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Way to go Okie....Day 3 is behind you which technically means the nic is out of your system. Problem though is that it isn't out of your mind. And so the mind games that we're all familiar with begin. Keep strong on your quit. Post roll every morning, read heavily on this site, and reach out to any of us. We are here for you. Keep your quit on!!!
'oh yeah' so I feel like a rock star I haven't dipped for 8 days now never thought I would have made it this far. I do have to admit I got tested today. I went for an interview and the owner of this company put a big fat juicy dip in while he was talking to me. It was the same kind I gave up. He offered me some I said no thank you but my mind was like just take it don't be rude. He than ask you don't chew I said actually I quit 8 days ago. I got home and threw in a ton of seeds in my mouth. Moral is I didn't give in and I'm still nicotine free!!
Thanks for all the support! And that is awesome roman! I hope I'm just as strong when I get tempted! Oh yeah it's day four for me today and I still feel pretty good. Just a heads up you might go buy yourself some stock in wrigley's cause I'm chewing a pack a day of that stuff!
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Way to go Okie....Day 3 is behind you which technically means the nic is out of your system. Problem though is that it isn't out of your mind. And so the mind games that we're all familiar with begin. Keep strong on your quit. Post roll every morning, read heavily on this site, and reach out to any of us. We are here for you. Keep your quit on!!!
'oh yeah' so I feel like a rock star I haven't dipped for 8 days now never thought I would have made it this far. I do have to admit I got tested today. I went for an interview and the owner of this company put a big fat juicy dip in while he was talking to me. It was the same kind I gave up. He offered me some I said no thank you but my mind was like just take it don't be rude. He than ask you don't chew I said actually I quit 8 days ago. I got home and threw in a ton of seeds in my mouth. Moral is I didn't give in and I'm still nicotine free!!
Remember guys, the strong temptations, early in your quit, are pretty easy to fight because you are right in the middle of the battle and your heels are dug in deep.
As you get to the easier days coming up, pay special attention to you guard- as that's when she will get you.
Quit each hour before you quit each day.
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Well here we are on day 8. I gotta say this blows. I'll take the fog any day and kick its ass all over the place but this trying to talk myself into dipping is getting old. I came to the conclusion this morning that I could snag a can of smokey mountain or some other fake snuff and then it wouldn't be a big deal to go back to the regular stuff when I ran out of the fake because its easier to get to. I didn't get any fake snuff but still what kinda half baked idea is that? I mean come on man that shit kills! I could beat the daylights outta myself for ever starting, stupid know it all teenager.
Anyway my ramblings are over. I gotta get back to work I just need to write that out. Thanks for listening.
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Well here we are on day 8. I gotta say this blows. I'll take the fog any day and kick its ass all over the place but this trying to talk myself into dipping is getting old. I came to the conclusion this morning that I could snag a can of smokey mountain or some other fake snuff and then it wouldn't be a big deal to go back to the regular stuff when I ran out of the fake because its easier to get to. I didn't get any fake snuff but still what kinda half baked idea is that? I mean come on man that shit kills! I could beat the daylights outta myself for ever starting, stupid know it all teenager.
Anyway my ramblings are over. I gotta get back to work I just need to write that out. Thanks for listening.
Stay quit brother, it gets a little easier each day. Stay the course.
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Well here we are on day 8. I gotta say this blows. I'll take the fog any day and kick its ass all over the place but this trying to talk myself into dipping is getting old. I came to the conclusion this morning that I could snag a can of smokey mountain or some other fake snuff and then it wouldn't be a big deal to go back to the regular stuff when I ran out of the fake because its easier to get to. I didn't get any fake snuff but still what kinda half baked idea is that? I mean come on man that shit kills! I could beat the daylights outta myself for ever starting, stupid know it all teenager.
Anyway my ramblings are over. I gotta get back to work I just need to write that out. Thanks for listening.
Classic week 2. Out of the fog for the most part. Now you're thinking about all the good times you remember while dipping. Your mind is clearer now without the nic, so you're wondering why you're giving up all those "good times" you used to have.
(Imagine the big red X and the buzzer on Family Feud)
The good times you had were in spite of nic not because of it. All the laughs and jokes were because you weren't thinking about the poison seeping through your body at that very moment in time. The laughing was because you weren't thinking that someday you could end up having your tongue surgically removed and a permanent feeding tube put in. When you were joking with your buds with a dip in, you weren't thinking about telling your kids that you had terminal cancer and you would soon die from the selfishness of your ways.
No my friend. The nic wasn't the good times you used to have. You had good times in spite of nic. Now you have the tools to have good times free of nic slavery. You don't have to step out to sneak a dip and interrupt the actual good times going on. You don't need a dip. The NB will do nothing for you except bring you ever closer to the chamber with the live bullet in your game of Russian Roulette.
Stay quit, like the fog, this "rationalization" will too pass. Keep your promise today. Don't worry about anything before today or anything after today. Quit today and quit like your life depends on it.
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Well here we are on day 8. I gotta say this blows. I'll take the fog any day and kick its ass all over the place but this trying to talk myself into dipping is getting old. I came to the conclusion this morning that I could snag a can of smokey mountain or some other fake snuff and then it wouldn't be a big deal to go back to the regular stuff when I ran out of the fake because its easier to get to. I didn't get any fake snuff but still what kinda half baked idea is that? I mean come on man that shit kills! I could beat the daylights outta myself for ever starting, stupid know it all teenager.
Anyway my ramblings are over. I gotta get back to work I just need to write that out. Thanks for listening.
Classic week 2. Out of the fog for the most part. Now you're thinking about all the good times you remember while dipping. Your mind is clearer now without the nic, so you're wondering why you're giving up all those "good times" you used to have.
(Imagine the big red X and the buzzer on Family Feud)
The good times you had were in spite of nic not because of it. All the laughs and jokes were because you weren't thinking about the poison seeping through your body at that very moment in time. The laughing was because you weren't thinking that someday you could end up having your tongue surgically removed and a permanent feeding tube put in. When you were joking with your buds with a dip in, you weren't thinking about telling your kids that you had terminal cancer and you would soon die from the selfishness of your ways.
No my friend. The nic wasn't the good times you used to have. You had good times in spite of nic. Now you have the tools to have good times free of nic slavery. You don't have to step out to sneak a dip and interrupt the actual good times going on. You don't need a dip. The NB will do nothing for you except bring you ever closer to the chamber with the live bullet in your game of Russian Roulette.
Stay quit, like the fog, this "rationalization" will too pass. Keep your promise today. Don't worry about anything before today or anything after today. Quit today and quit like your life depends on it.
Okie...
Amen to what jzzyzag said...
Especially the last line..."...quit like your life depends on it." Because...actually, your life DOES depend on this quit. Scream it out if you have to: I will QLF...EDD !!! We're behind you all the way. See your Inbox...digits there if you need them.
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Amen to jzzzag. Now, if you will excuse me I have to get back to seeing if that young lady struggling with that zipper in his pic ever fixes it.
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Hang in there okie, I'm right there with you in the week 2 flashbacks. Without really knowing what's going on I've been finding myself fantasizing dip, but stop myself right when I start. If dip was so great, why did I want to quit with every passing day? Why did I hate the addiction so much? Because I was packing poison in my lips, and lots of it. Stop yourself when you start to fantasize it. Give yourself some credit, YOU created those good times, not dip. Removing dip isn't going to make the good times worse, it'll make them better.
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Hang in there okie, I'm right there with you in the week 2 flashbacks. Without really knowing what's going on I've been finding myself fantasizing dip, but stop myself right when I start. If dip was so great, why did I want to quit with every passing day? Why did I hate the addiction so much? Because I was packing poison in my lips, and lots of it. Stop yourself when you start to fantasize it. Give yourself some credit, YOU created those good times, not dip. Removing dip isn't going to make the good times worse, it'll make them better.
-----^ Boom. You've got this Okie, stick with it.
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Thanks for the support guys. Today is better than yesterday. With any luck tomorrow will be better than today. As for today I quit with all of you.
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Thanks for the support guys. Today is better than yesterday. With any luck tomorrow will be better than today. As for today I quit with all of you.
focus on today young apprentice.....
oh and BTW.....say hi in live chat the next time, you came in and out like a big fart in a gust of wind..... 'Crazy'
Be good, Be strong, Be quit
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Thanks for the support guys. Today is better than yesterday. With any luck tomorrow will be better than today. As for today I quit with all of you.
focus on today young apprentice.....
oh and BTW.....say hi in live chat the next time, you came in and out like a big fart in a gust of wind..... 'Crazy'
Be good, Be strong, Be quit
^------ We call that "crop dusting" where I'm from....
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Sorry about that. I thought I time to shoot the breeze but the boss came around the corner and changed my mind.
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Today I had my first real temptation. A guy at work who forgot about my quit offered me a open can of cope LC wintergreen today. I really wanted to reach in and grab a pinch but I just said no thanks and continued of with our conversation. I am going to get some fake stuff for a road trip im taking soon and then keep the left overs in my desk for days like today cause truth be told I'm not sure I could have turned it down if he insisted.
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Today I had my first real temptation. A guy at work who forgot about my quit offered me a open can of cope LC wintergreen today. I really wanted to reach in and grab a pinch but I just said no thanks and continued of with our conversation. I am going to get some fake stuff for a road trip im taking soon and then keep the left overs in my desk for days like today cause truth be told I'm not sure I could have turned it down if he insisted.
Great job bro. That was a big moment to turn it down right there. Kind of a milestone of sorts, congrats, you should be proud. I used to get nervous like that when in line at the gas station, afraid to look at the tins behind the counter. Now it's fun to stare those fuckers down.
As for fake I suggest Hooch, my fav.
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Today I had my first real temptation. A guy at work who forgot about my quit offered me a open can of cope LC wintergreen today. I really wanted to reach in and grab a pinch but I just said no thanks and continued of with our conversation. I am going to get some fake stuff for a road trip im taking soon and then keep the left overs in my desk for days like today cause truth be told I'm not sure I could have turned it down if he insisted.
Good work.
But if he kept insisting, you WOULD have kept saying NO.
Quit on...
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Today I had my first real temptation. A guy at work who forgot about my quit offered me a open can of cope LC wintergreen today. I really wanted to reach in and grab a pinch but I just said no thanks and continued of with our conversation. I am going to get some fake stuff for a road trip im taking soon and then keep the left overs in my desk for days like today cause truth be told I'm not sure I could have turned it down if he insisted.
Good work.
But if he kept insisting, you WOULD have kept saying NO.
Quit on...
Okie, you would have said NO again and again until he finally heard it and if he wasn't getting it then you would have walked away...far away. If at any point, you would call one of us right there. There are OPTIONS. Dipping is never an option. Guess what? I quit today! I'm gonna go to bed now and quit again. See u roll...resolute right? Bring it!
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Okie - WTF Brother, I see you have logged in but I can not find where you posted roll. Really hoping I just missed it, but thinking I have not. No response to PM? What going on? Are you on Day 62 or not? It is uncomfortably quiet in here?