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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: mgoody1 on July 21, 2015, 10:29:00 AM
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Hey all,
Just wanted to introduce myself. I joined up yesterday (day 1 of quit for me). I guess my quit group is October 2015. I like the idea of commiting on a daily basis by posting roll. Of course i think I've already made a few errors in my first 2 roll posts, lol, I'll get the hang of it.
Been dipping good ole' Grizzly since I was 16. I'll be 29 in November. I started with long cut and migrated to pouches. Not because i thought it was less harmful but because it allowed me to do it anywhere. And trust me, I always had 2 pouches in, ALWAYS. Usually 1 pouch on the bottom left and 1 pouch on the bottom right. I would save bottom front for when i was alone so i wouldn't look stupid in front of others. I'm sure we have all had similar routines.
Why am i ready to quit now? Well, I've recently started to face the facts, I'm going to get mouth cancer, period. That is how I'm going to leave this world. But maybe, just maybe, if i quit now, i might escape this determined future of mine.
I have a friend who has been battling cancer for the past 5 years. Started as testicular but has ended up everywhere from my understanding. He got more bad news last week, I guess they found more cancer growing. He didn't smoke or dip. I thought to myself, what right do i have to a cancer free life when I shove this shit in my mouth every hour of every day. I've been lying to myself, saying it won't happen to me.
So that was weighing on my mind and then last week I was listening to ESPN radio at work (That's all i ever listen to anymore) and they had the Jimmy V donation drive going on and a Baseball player, Curt Schilling, gave his testimony on dipping and fighting cancer and his whole battle. He said it's not a matter of if but when... That kinda struck a chord.
No kids yet but the wife and i have big plans for a family in the near future. Currently our lives are great and I don't want to be the reason shit hits the fan. The financial, emotional, and physical explosion a cancer diagnoses would put on our lives just freaks me out. All because of my selfish needs.
I can now see the future so clearly if i continue down this path. I have to try and change course and just pray it's not too late.
Wow, I tried to keep this intro short but i had a lot on my mind.
Wish me luck.
I've learned it's not about luck.
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Hey all,
Just wanted to introduce myself. I joined up yesterday (day 1 of quit for me). I guess my quit group is October 2015. I like the idea of commiting on a daily basis by posting roll. Of course i think I've already made a few errors in my first 2 roll posts, lol, I'll get the hang of it.
Been dipping good ole' Grizzly since I was 16. I'll be 29 in November. I started with long cut and migrated to pouches. Not because i thought it was less harmful but because it allowed me to do it anywhere. And trust me, I always had 2 pouches in, ALWAYS. Usually 1 pouch on the bottom left and 1 pouch on the bottom right. I would save bottom front for when i was alone so i wouldn't look stupid in front of others. I'm sure we have all had similar routines.
Why am i ready to quit now? Well, I've recently started to face the facts, I'm going to get mouth cancer, period. That is how I'm going to leave this world. But maybe, just maybe, if i quit now, i might escape this determined future of mine.
I have a friend who has been battling cancer for the past 5 years. Started as testicular but has ended up everywhere from my understanding. He got more bad news last week, I guess they found more cancer growing. He didn't smoke or dip. I thought to myself, what right do i have to a cancer free life when I shove this shit in my mouth every hour of every day. I've been lying to myself, saying it won't happen to me.
So that was weighing on my mind and then last week I was listening to ESPN radio at work (That's all i ever listen to anymore) and they had the Jimmy V donation drive going on and a Baseball player (can't remember his name now) gave his testimony on dipping and fighting cancer and his whole battle. He said it's not a matter of if but when... That kinda struck a chord.
No kids yet but the wife and i have big plans for a family in the near future. Currently our lives are great and I don't want to be the reason shit hits the fan. The financial, emotional, and physical explosion a cancer diagnoses would put on our lives just freaks me out. All because of my selfish needs.
I can now see the future so clearly if i continue down this path. I have to try and change course and just pray it's not too late.
Wow, I tried to keep this intro short but i had a lot on my mind.
Wish me luck.
Your intro was spot on until the very last sentence: "Wish me luck." Nothing about this process is about luck my man. You will put in work, hard work, every day. It isn't easy, but it's possible.
It sounds like you have a really good foundation for your quit, so grab that foundation drink some KTC kool-aid and get to quitting. I saw that you posted roll with us in October this morning which is great. Now keep your promise to yourself, your wife, and us, and refuse to let nicotine win today. There are thousands of guys and gals making the exact same promise to you today.
Quit on brotha.
King
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Welcome to the group. You will learn a lot from everybody around here. You will go through many phases over the next couple of weeks / months. Be assured that someone has already experienced the same feelings / thoughts that you currently are. Reach out, that is a key point that you will read often. It is very beneficial to have people that you can contact when you need to or want to. Embrace your quit, that is the way to best kick it in the nuts and make it a memory.
I quit with you,
Hogan
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Welcome to the group. I am new here as well. I can tell you that living life without this shit is possible. Easy.....never, but possible. I have quit more times that I can count and even had a quit that last 3 years. I am over it this time. I am tired of living the lies. I realized that is what it takes. It takes getting so made at the can that you hate it. Before now, I had a love/hate relationship. I could tell people that I hated dipping, but secretly I couldn't wait for the next chance I had to slip a pouch in. Now.....It is simple.......I hate everything about it. We, October group, can and will beat this. Together, one day at a time.
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Another reason to stay quit:
It really sucks to be a slave to a drug around which you organize every hour of your waking day, and which you desire more than people in your life.
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Congrats on the Hall today! Keep adding +1s!
'party2'
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Congrats on the Hall today! Keep adding +1s!
'party2'
Congratulations on the 1st floor! Doing great my friend! Quit on!