KillTheCan.org Accountability Forum
Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Jayhawk on June 04, 2013, 03:59:00 PM
-
I have been lurking and reading all the detail on this site. I have been a Copenhagen user off and on since the mid 90s. Probably 17 or 18 years. WOW, that looks real when you write it down!
This site has provided me with enough motivation and information to stop - cold turkey.
While watching a KC Royals baseball game on Tuesday, May 14th, I had my last dip around 9:30 pm. I haven't had one since.
I haven't felt the same since either. However, this site has helped me understand why I am feeling the way I feel. You know, dizzy, foggy, distracted, not able to focus, mean...
So, as I start this journey, I thought I would make it official and join up. Looking forward to quitting with you all.
Jayhawk
-
I have been lurking and reading all the detail on this site. I have been a Copenhagen user off and on since the mid 90s. Probably 17 or 18 years. WOW, that looks real when you write it down!
This site has provided me with enough motivation and information to stop - cold turkey.
While watching a KC Royals baseball game on Tuesday, May 14th, I had my last dip around 9:30 pm. I haven't had one since.
I haven't felt the same since either. However, this site has helped me understand why I am feeling the way I feel. You know, dizzy, foggy, distracted, not able to focus, mean...Â
So, as I start this journey, I thought I would make it official and join up. Looking forward to quitting with you all.
Jayhawk
Jsyhawk,
Welcome aboard, you will want to post in Roll Call For the Sept Quit HOF.
index.php?showtopic=8274 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=8274)
here is INFO on HOW to post in Roll Call.
index.php?showtopic=50 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
\
there are a lot of good people here.
Cold Turkey is the only way to do it. the faster you get the nic out of your system the faster you feel some what normal.
-
CONGRATS!!!! One day at a time...you follow along the site (don't miss roll, i have twice and it wasn't pretty!) you'll be fine. It's hard but it's not complicated. Quit on Bro!
-
Jayhawk
Remember the simple guidelines we live by: Accountability, Honesty and 1 day at a time. People that quit forever typically fail. Some days making it through 24 hours is a fight. We are here for you whenever you need us. Find the contract, read it everyday, if you still want to chew after that we cant help you. I quit with you today!
-
I have been lurking and reading all the detail on this site. I have been a Copenhagen user off and on since the mid 90s. Probably 17 or 18 years. WOW, that looks real when you write it down!
This site has provided me with enough motivation and information to stop - cold turkey.
While watching a KC Royals baseball game on Tuesday, May 14th, I had my last dip around 9:30 pm. I haven't had one since.
I haven't felt the same since either. However, this site has helped me understand why I am feeling the way I feel. You know, dizzy, foggy, distracted, not able to focus, mean...Â
So, as I start this journey, I thought I would make it official and join up. Looking forward to quitting with you all.
Jayhawk
Jsyhawk,
Welcome aboard, you will want to post in Roll Call For the Sept Quit HOF.
index.php?showtopic=8274 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=8274)
here is INFO on HOW to post in Roll Call.
index.php?showtopic=50 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
\
there are a lot of good people here.
Cold Turkey is the only way to do it. the faster you get the nic out of your system the faster you feel some what normal.
Actually, if your quit date was May 14th, you are an August Badass!
index.php?showtopic=8141 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=8141)
Out board is lively today but find the last roll on that thread and then follow the instructions for "how to post roll" above. Welcome!
-
I have been lurking and reading all the detail on this site. I have been a Copenhagen user off and on since the mid 90s. Probably 17 or 18 years. WOW, that looks real when you write it down!
This site has provided me with enough motivation and information to stop - cold turkey.
While watching a KC Royals baseball game on Tuesday, May 14th, I had my last dip around 9:30 pm. I haven't had one since.
I haven't felt the same since either. However, this site has helped me understand why I am feeling the way I feel. You know, dizzy, foggy, distracted, not able to focus, mean...
So, as I start this journey, I thought I would make it official and join up. Looking forward to quitting with you all.
Jayhawk
Welcome aboard.... keep reading and make sure you post roll, it's a very important part of this process. Grab some numbers, don't be afraid to use them, and engage as much as possible in the site. It helps solidify your quit! Pm if you need anything!
-
Welcome aboard Jayhawk,
LHG just beat me to it you are a in AUG group...bad ass quitters.
meet people get contact info hold yourself accountable we will hold you accountable.
PM me if you need anything
Post roll in the am
give us your promise
repeat
-
Welcome aboard Jayhawk,
LHG just beat me to it you are a in AUG group...bad ass quitters.
meet people get contact info hold yourself accountable we will hold you accountable.
PM me if you need anything
Post roll in the am
give us your promise
repeat
sorry, but what does "PM" mean?
-
Welcome aboard Jayhawk,
LHG just beat me to it you are a in AUG group...bad ass quitters.
meet people get contact info hold yourself accountable we will hold you accountable.
PM me if you need anything
Post roll in the am
give us your promise
repeat
sorry, but what does "PM" mean?
Personal Message
Check top right corner (Inbox)
Wt57, this may be your kinda guy....
-
Welcome Jayhawk, where you from? Lawrence? I am in the KC area if you ever need a kick in the balls.
-
Rock Chalk Jayhawk brother. Day 16 for me. Cant wait to watch Wiggins ball.
-
Rock Chalk Jayhawk brother. Day 16 for me. Cant wait to watch Wiggins ball.
Ahh Haa... Love it. Go KU. I would say day 16 or day 22, we are most likely feeling the same PHOG!!!! Appreciate your note - can't wait to see some hoops either.
-
Welcome aboard! There is a lot of quality quit going on lately in Kansas City. Glad you joined the team! Can you do anything about the royals? I'm holding out hope for the next chiefs season, but the royals keep on keepin on...
The fog will lift. And when it does, you won't believe how clear the sky will be. Keep it up man - you're doing great.
-
Welcome aboard! There is a lot of quality quit going on lately in Kansas City. Glad you joined the team! Can you do anything about the royals? I'm holding out hope for the next chiefs season, but the royals keep on keepin on...
The fog will lift. And when it does, you won't believe how clear the sky will be. Keep it up man - you're doing great.
Hell yeah there is alot of quality quit in KC. Worktowin is one of the best. KC quittin.
-
Welcome aboard! There is a lot of quality quit going on lately in Kansas City. Glad you joined the team! Can you do anything about the royals? I'm holding out hope for the next chiefs season, but the royals keep on keepin on...
The fog will lift. And when it does, you won't believe how clear the sky will be. Keep it up man - you're doing great.
Hell yeah there is alot of quality quit in KC. Worktowin is one of the best. KC quittin
Hey, I will follow two guys from Lee's Summit anytime. Looks like we have a lot in common. Looking forward to keeping in touch and pulling through this together. For KC Guy - I figure you and I are on the same schedule and Worktowin has paved the way.
You guys might have to coach me on how to post to the roll call tomorrow am, I don't think I did it right today.
Anyway - thanks. It is cool to see some guys who breathed the same air as I did - in more ways than one.
Late
-
Nice job posing roll this morning. I know it is a pain at first. Hey, if this were easy Phillip Morris wouldn't have so many Gulfstream jets! But posting roll, and the quit, does get easier. Hope the fog is beginning to break a bit. Ill speak for many on this site - we're glad you joined us. Reach out if you need anything at all, and keep on quitting!
-
Not much to add other than hell yea man posting roll is bad ass now keep your word. I quit with you man.
-
Lees Summit Quitters in the house. I quit with all of you anyday.
-
Many, many of you brothers on this site have encouraged me to go see my doctor. I took that step yesterday and was scared as hell. But, I got a good, clean bill of health and it may have been the best doctor's visit I have ever been through.
I explained I was 24 days into my quit - cold turkey. I also explained that the "fog" was brutal and I couldn't focus. The anxiety! Oh, shit. That part was just killing me.
Just seeing the doctor - telling him the brutal truth was tough, but has been the best thing I have done since my quit.
Thanks to all the brothers who encouraged me to go see the doc. It helped greatly.
-
Many, many of you brothers on this site have encouraged me to go see my doctor. I took that step yesterday and was scared as hell. But, I got a good, clean bill of health and it may have been the best doctor's visit I have ever been through.
I explained I was 24 days into my quit - cold turkey. I also explained that the "fog" was brutal and I couldn't focus. The anxiety! Oh, shit. That part was just killing me.
Just seeing the doctor - telling him the brutal truth was tough, but has been the best thing I have done since my quit.
Thanks to all the brothers who encouraged me to go see the doc. It helped greatly.
Glad you went, Happy your good health wise. Excited to quit with you!!!
-
Knowing you are cleared by the Dr is better than the anticipation that something is wrong...Now brother you can focus on your quit. Glad you are ok, quit with you today
-
Glad you took the step to kick nic out of your life. Now if you could just do something about that nasty Squawk addiction.
-
Glad you took the step to kick nic out of your life. Now if you could just do something about that nasty Squawk addiction.
Hey - Love those Catbackers too. Tell your baseball team to go get 'em and I'm pulling to see them in the CWS!
-
Many, many of you brothers on this site have encouraged me to go see my doctor. I took that step yesterday and was scared as hell. But, I got a good, clean bill of health and it may have been the best doctor's visit I have ever been through.
I explained I was 24 days into my quit - cold turkey. I also explained that the "fog" was brutal and I couldn't focus. The anxiety! Oh, shit. That part was just killing me.
Just seeing the doctor - telling him the brutal truth was tough, but has been the best thing I have done since my quit.
Thanks to all the brothers who encouraged me to go see the doc. It helped greatly.
Hey Jayhawk, nice work man.
I posted this in the August thread, but I want to put it here too just to make sure you see it.
Just a word of warning: about 20 years ago I "stopped" chewing due to some health issues I was having. I went to the doc, got a clean bill of health - what a relief - and then allowed the addiction to convince me that I could keep chewing because, well, "no harm done yet! Maybe I'm one of those people who doesn't get cancer, and I can chew as much as I want!" Soon I was full-on chewing again. 20 years later, here I am on day 153.
What an idiot I was. Dont let that happen to you, bro. Stay quit with your good health.
-
Is it bad that I can't remember exactly how many days I have been quit? Not sure - without counting them up - if it is 27, 28, or 29.
-
Is it bad that I can't remember exactly how many days I have been quit? Not sure - without counting them up - if it is 27, 28, or 29.
Don't feel bad Brother. Remembering what quit day your on is nothing, remembering that you posted roll this a.m. is everything. :D
Hell, I can't remember what day I'm on to save my life...unless I look it up and count. 'bang head'
Keeping posting and keeping your word every early a.m. and your quit daze will stack up quicker than you every believed possible....Nothing but better daze ahead for YOU...I promise YOU!!
Quit On Jay.
-
Is it bad that I can't remember exactly how many days I have been quit? Not sure - without counting them up - if it is 27, 28, or 29.
If you know the date you stopped using nicotine in any form, just go H E R E (http://www.killthecan.org/) and scroll to the bottom of the page and you will see a quit calculator. Just input the date you quit and it will calculate the days.
Welcome. Yell if you need anything.
-
You probably educated your doc too with you visit - a lot don't ask about smokeless or have a clue since they're trained about the dangers of smoking specifically.
Congrats on the clean bill of health!
-
Man, I feel you. I am recently through the fog and I promise, it does get better! You got this. The best advice out there is just to embrace it. Make it an experience that you owned.
My fog was just like you described - can't concentrate - especially at work. It was damn near impossible just to write an e-mail correctly. Don't worry, it will pass. You will be through it in no time.
Another pleasant part of the fog is sleeplessness. I still fight a little bit with this even after 40 days quit. Mine was so acute, I woke up at 2:00 and 4:00 am, every day, on the dot... you can set your watch by it. My mind was messing with me all the time.
But, somewhere as the days added up, the fog cleared up. The cravings really subsided and life got much better.
You got this... trust me, if I can make it through the fog - you can to. Just embrace the ride - don't forget how much it sucks and remember there are a bunch of people walking in your shoes right now. There are a bunch more who have been there.
This site has really been a big help to me. Stay on it - YOU GOT THIS NAILED MAN.
-
Man, I feel you. I am recently through the fog and I promise, it does get better! You got this. The best advice out there is just to embrace it. Make it an experience that you owned.
My fog was just like you described - can't concentrate - especially at work. It was damn near impossible just to write an e-mail correctly. Don't worry, it will pass. You will be through it in no time.
Another pleasant part of the fog is sleeplessness. I still fight a little bit with this even after 40 days quit. Mine was so acute, I woke up at 2:00 and 4:00 am, every day, on the dot... you can set your watch by it. My mind was messing with me all the time.
But, somewhere as the days added up, the fog cleared up. The cravings really subsided and life got much better.
You got this... trust me, if I can make it through the fog - you can to. Just embrace the ride - don't forget how much it sucks and remember there are a bunch of people walking in your shoes right now. There are a bunch more who have been there.
This site has really been a big help to me. Stay on it - YOU GOT THIS NAILED MAN.
I CAN'T USE THIS SITE WORTH A DAMN! This was supposed to be a post on Wolly's intro.
-
Man, I feel you. I am recently through the fog and I promise, it does get better! You got this. The best advice out there is just to embrace it. Make it an experience that you owned.
My fog was just like you described - can't concentrate - especially at work. It was damn near impossible just to write an e-mail correctly. Don't worry, it will pass. You will be through it in no time.
Another pleasant part of the fog is sleeplessness. I still fight a little bit with this even after 40 days quit. Mine was so acute, I woke up at 2:00 and 4:00 am, every day, on the dot... you can set your watch by it. My mind was messing with me all the time.
But, somewhere as the days added up, the fog cleared up. The cravings really subsided and life got much better.
You got this... trust me, if I can make it through the fog - you can to. Just embrace the ride - don't forget how much it sucks and remember there are a bunch of people walking in your shoes right now. There are a bunch more who have been there.Â
This site has really been a big help to me. Stay on it - YOU GOT THIS NAILED MAN.
I CAN'T USE THIS SITE WORTH A DAMN! This was supposed to be a post on Wolly's intro.
Sounds like you're still in a fog. 'Crazy'
Since I thought you started another thread I combine it with your old one.
-
Man, I feel you. I am recently through the fog and I promise, it does get better! You got this. The best advice out there is just to embrace it. Make it an experience that you owned.
My fog was just like you described - can't concentrate - especially at work. It was damn near impossible just to write an e-mail correctly. Don't worry, it will pass. You will be through it in no time.
Another pleasant part of the fog is sleeplessness. I still fight a little bit with this even after 40 days quit. Mine was so acute, I woke up at 2:00 and 4:00 am, every day, on the dot... you can set your watch by it. My mind was messing with me all the time.
But, somewhere as the days added up, the fog cleared up. The cravings really subsided and life got much better.
You got this... trust me, if I can make it through the fog - you can to. Just embrace the ride - don't forget how much it sucks and remember there are a bunch of people walking in your shoes right now. There are a bunch more who have been there.Â
This site has really been a big help to me. Stay on it - YOU GOT THIS NAILED MAN.
I CAN'T USE THIS SITE WORTH A DAMN! This was supposed to be a post on Wolly's intro.
Sounds like you're still in a fog. 'Crazy'
Since I thought you started another thread I combine it with your old one.
That fog is a bitch. You and I had an acute case I think. I wouldn't trade that experience for anything. It sucked so bad... There is no way I would ever want to relive that. I know it was a bitch for you too... It is such a relief to know that I won't ever have to relive that. Just post my promise every day and be glad the fog is gone! Nice work jayhawk.
-
Thanks again for the encouragement and support. It is hard for me to think that I should be leading a new quitter through this with just 40 some days quit. But, the more I think about it, especially the fog (as you and I really enjoyed) I need to encourage others - just like you did for me.
I still have more bouts with fog like symptoms than craves. I still wake up in the middle of the night - not sure what that shit is all about. I have had a couple of those really intense dreams - those are weird.
But still feeling better every day. Back to running again, that really has helped me out I think.
I mentioned to Wolly that the fog was just one long kick in the balls - seems the best way to describe it. I think I'm using that in my sig. block.
-
Thanks again for the encouragement and support. It is hard for me to think that I should be leading a new quitter through this with just 40 some days quit. But, the more I think about it, especially the fog (as you and I really enjoyed) I need to encourage others - just like you did for me.
I still have more bouts with fog like symptoms than craves. I still wake up in the middle of the night - not sure what that shit is all about. I have had a couple of those really intense dreams - those are weird.
But still feeling better every day. Back to running again, that really has helped me out I think.
I mentioned to Wolly that the fog was just one long kick in the balls - seems the best way to describe it. I think I'm using that in my sig. block.
Jay, I was just thinking today that it's so great there is always a fresh crop of people quit in their 20's, 30's, 40's and beyond. I'm not burnt out obviously, but I'm sure there will come times when I'm just too exhausted or temporarily cynical to help the new people. And when that happens, I think it will be the passion and excitement of those early in their quit and encouraging others that will help inspire me to throw in my support again.
Don't underestimate the value of what you are bringing to the table today.
-
Lovin the nic free life.
-
Lovin the nic free life.
Keep rocking this quit you bad ass!!! Keep rocking!!!
-
Lovin the nic free life.
Dude we gotta be nic free when we watch ANNDREW WIGGINS ball at the PHOG. Rock Chalk Fucking Jayhawk. Great job on your quit bro. We got this. Go Hawks.
-
Thanks again for the encouragement and support. It is hard for me to think that I should be leading a new quitter through this with just 40 some days quit. But, the more I think about it, especially the fog (as you and I really enjoyed) I need to encourage others - just like you did for me.
I still have more bouts with fog like symptoms than craves. I still wake up in the middle of the night - not sure what that shit is all about. I have had a couple of those really intense dreams - those are weird.
But still feeling better every day. Back to running again, that really has helped me out I think.Â
I mentioned to Wolly that the fog was just one long kick in the balls - seems the best way to describe it. I think I'm using that in my sig. block.
Jay, I was just thinking today that it's so great there is always a fresh crop of people quit in their 20's, 30's, 40's and beyond. I'm not burnt out obviously, but I'm sure there will come times when I'm just too exhausted or temporarily cynical to help the new people. And when that happens, I think it will be the passion and excitement of those early in their quit and encouraging others that will help inspire me to throw in my support again.
Don't underestimate the value of what you are bringing to the table today.
Take what you need. Leave the rest.
You guys are rocking this.
-
Still rocking it! Back from vacation - the first nic free vacation in god knows how long! The fog is past - and jawhawk the sky is so clear! Congratulations on navigating a path that takes courage, endurance, and humility to succeed. I look forward to quitting with you again tomorrow, one day at a time. Congratulations!
-
Thanks again for the encouragement and support. It is hard for me to think that I should be leading a new quitter through this with just 40 some days quit. But, the more I think about it, especially the fog (as you and I really enjoyed) I need to encourage others - just like you did for me.
I still have more bouts with fog like symptoms than craves. I still wake up in the middle of the night - not sure what that shit is all about. I have had a couple of those really intense dreams - those are weird.
But still feeling better every day. Back to running again, that really has helped me out I think.Â
I mentioned to Wolly that the fog was just one long kick in the balls - seems the best way to describe it. I think I'm using that in my sig. block.
Jay, I was just thinking today that it's so great there is always a fresh crop of people quit in their 20's, 30's, 40's and beyond. I'm not burnt out obviously, but I'm sure there will come times when I'm just too exhausted or temporarily cynical to help the new people. And when that happens, I think it will be the passion and excitement of those early in their quit and encouraging others that will help inspire me to throw in my support again.
Don't underestimate the value of what you are bringing to the table today.
Take what you need. Leave the rest.
You guys are rocking this.
Jay
You are just as important as a vet. A vet can give perspective and offer a certain wisdom that comes with time.
What you offer is priceless. A perspective of someone who is living it and making it to the other side. Damn, keep up the good work.
-
Thanks again for the encouragement and support. It is hard for me to think that I should be leading a new quitter through this with just 40 some days quit. But, the more I think about it, especially the fog (as you and I really enjoyed) I need to encourage others - just like you did for me.
I still have more bouts with fog like symptoms than craves. I still wake up in the middle of the night - not sure what that shit is all about. I have had a couple of those really intense dreams - those are weird.
But still feeling better every day. Back to running again, that really has helped me out I think.Â
I mentioned to Wolly that the fog was just one long kick in the balls - seems the best way to describe it. I think I'm using that in my sig. block.
Jay, I was just thinking today that it's so great there is always a fresh crop of people quit in their 20's, 30's, 40's and beyond. I'm not burnt out obviously, but I'm sure there will come times when I'm just too exhausted or temporarily cynical to help the new people. And when that happens, I think it will be the passion and excitement of those early in their quit and encouraging others that will help inspire me to throw in my support again.
Don't underestimate the value of what you are bringing to the table today.
Take what you need. Leave the rest.
You guys are rocking this.
Jay
You are just as important as a vet. A vet can give perspective and offer a certain wisdom that comes with time.
What you offer is priceless. A perspective of someone who is living it and making it to the other side. Damn, keep up the good work.
I second what he said ^^^^^.. Don't sale yourself short bro. We all have something to offer. You have a group that needs you man.
-
Getting some days under my belt now. 59 today, 60 tomorrow. No more fog. Sleeping again. Life is great. Don't forget the fog!!!! That sucked.
-
Getting some days under my belt now. 59 today, 60 tomorrow. No more fog. Sleeping again. Life is great. Don't forget the fog!!!! That sucked.
Nice work
Keep your head on a swivel - got a pre-Hall funk coming up
the bitch loves to attack when things are going well ....
course she loves to dog pile when the shit hits the fan too.
-
Getting some days under my belt now. 59 today, 60 tomorrow. No more fog. Sleeping again. Life is great. Don't forget the fog!!!! That sucked.
Nice work
Keep your head on a swivel - got a pre-Hall funk coming up
the bitch loves to attack when things are going well ....
course she loves to dog pile when the shit hits the fan too.
Great job Jayhawk. Keep choppin that wood man. 1 day at a time. Keep killin it. Rock Chalk.
-
Getting some days under my belt now. 59 today, 60 tomorrow. No more fog. Sleeping again. Life is great. Don't forget the fog!!!! That sucked.
Nice work
Keep your head on a swivel - got a pre-Hall funk coming up
the bitch loves to attack when things are going well ....
course she loves to dog pile when the shit hits the fan too.
Thanks CBird - I have been watching this and keeping what I read in mind:
Days 70 - 90 - Late term craves, the doldrums, the blahs, the blues. Some people end up feeling like they are right back at day 1. The fog, the haze, the craves. It can be a tough time. You need to let people in your group know this is happening. Time to circle the wagons to get through it. It usually only lasts a few days. - See more at: http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/what ... ebpmx.dpuf (http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/what.asp#sthash.vCJebpmx.dpuf)
So - a shout out to everyone, especially those in my group who are right here with me approaching this mark. Let's all keep this in the forefront... We are approaching a time when complacency is the enemy!
As I approach these next 20+ days, I will be dialed in on my quit.
-
Day 70. 70 days without dip. Feeling good. But, I will not forget the panic and anxiety that drove me to this site. I won't forget the bullshit fog I had to endure just to get away from the shit that I was - strike that, AM - addicted to - nicotine.
Never again for any reason.
-
Day 70. 70 days without dip. Feeling good. But, I will not forget the panic and anxiety that drove me to this site. I won't forget the bullshit fog I had to endure just to get away from the shit that I was - strike that, AM - addicted to - nicotine.
Never again for any reason.
Jayhawk, brother your a bad ass! I quit with you.
-
Just wanted to post here what I said in my roll call posting today. For posterity.
Had a vivid dream about caving last night. Immediately in my dream, my mind became fully aware (almost a shock like realization) that I just caved. And since I was part of KTC and posting my promise, that also means that I just broke my promise.
I lied.
I mislead people.
What I said I would do - I didn't do.
If someone were depending on me keeping my word, I let them down. Big time.
So, as I lay there half asleep, I began to panic because of the cave. I was going to have to come in, post roll day 1. I would have to explain myself. Most of all, I would have to face the guys who depend on me keeping my promise everyday. That thought really woke me up - literally, not figuratively.
The reason I write all of the above is to point out one simple fact. If this site (and posting roll and your promise) did not work - why did I feel so shitty about my cave and my character over a damn dream?
My dream proved something to me. I owe the people I post with the follow through that goes with the written promise. You guys have that for 70 some days in a row. I am not interested in coming back here and posting day 1.
My dream wasn't about nic. It wasn't about a cave. It wasn't about dip. My dream was about accountability and living up to my word. My dream was more about how deeply ingrained my commitment is to myself and others on KTC.
The dream was nothing. The realization that I let my brothers down is what woke me up feeling like I was in a nightmare.
Later.
-
Just wanted to post here what I said in my roll call posting today. For posterity.
Had a vivid dream about caving last night. Immediately in my dream, my mind became fully aware (almost a shock like realization) that I just caved. And since I was part of KTC and posting my promise, that also means that I just broke my promise.
I lied.
I mislead people.
What I said I would do - I didn't do.
If someone were depending on me keeping my word, I let them down. Big time.
So, as I lay there half asleep, I began to panic because of the cave. I was going to have to come in, post roll day 1. I would have to explain myself. Most of all, I would have to face the guys who depend on me keeping my promise everyday. That thought really woke me up - literally, not figuratively.
The reason I write all of the above is to point out one simple fact. If this site (and posting roll and your promise) did not work - why did I feel so shitty about my cave and my character over a damn dream?
My dream proved something to me. I owe the people I post with the follow through that goes with the written promise. You guys have that for 70 some days in a row. I am not interested in coming back here and posting day 1.
My dream wasn't about nic. It wasn't about a cave. It wasn't about dip. My dream was about accountability and living up to my word. My dream was more about how deeply ingrained my commitment is to myself and others on KTC.
The dream was nothing. The realization that I let my brothers down is what woke me up feeling like I was in a nightmare.
Later.
Good stuff here brother.
-
Just wanted to post here what I said in my roll call posting today. For posterity.Â
Had a vivid dream about caving last night. Immediately in my dream, my mind became fully aware (almost a shock like realization) that I just caved. And since I was part of KTC and posting my promise, that also means that I just broke my promise.
I lied.
I mislead people.
What I said I would do - I didn't do.
If someone were depending on me keeping my word, I let them down. Big time.
So, as I lay there half asleep, I began to panic because of the cave. I was going to have to come in, post roll day 1. I would have to explain myself. Most of all, I would have to face the guys who depend on me keeping my promise everyday. That thought really woke me up - literally, not figuratively.
The reason I write all of the above is to point out one simple fact. If this site (and posting roll and your promise) did not work - why did I feel so shitty about my cave and my character over a damn dream?
My dream proved something to me. I owe the people I post with the follow through that goes with the written promise. You guys have that for 70 some days in a row. I am not interested in coming back here and posting day 1.Â
My dream wasn't about nic. It wasn't about a cave. It wasn't about dip. My dream was about accountability and living up to my word. My dream was more about how deeply ingrained my commitment is to myself and others on KTC.Â
The dream was nothing. The realization that I let my brothers down is what woke me up feeling like I was in a nightmare.
Later.
Good stuff here brother.
I had a cave dream last night too. You dug deeper than i did and helped me understand it much better. Inspired Thank you bother. Proud to be Quit with you
-
Just wanted to post here what I said in my roll call posting today. For posterity.Â
Had a vivid dream about caving last night. Immediately in my dream, my mind became fully aware (almost a shock like realization) that I just caved. And since I was part of KTC and posting my promise, that also means that I just broke my promise.
I lied.
I mislead people.
What I said I would do - I didn't do.
If someone were depending on me keeping my word, I let them down. Big time.
So, as I lay there half asleep, I began to panic because of the cave. I was going to have to come in, post roll day 1. I would have to explain myself. Most of all, I would have to face the guys who depend on me keeping my promise everyday. That thought really woke me up - literally, not figuratively.
The reason I write all of the above is to point out one simple fact. If this site (and posting roll and your promise) did not work - why did I feel so shitty about my cave and my character over a damn dream?
My dream proved something to me. I owe the people I post with the follow through that goes with the written promise. You guys have that for 70 some days in a row. I am not interested in coming back here and posting day 1.Â
My dream wasn't about nic. It wasn't about a cave. It wasn't about dip. My dream was about accountability and living up to my word. My dream was more about how deeply ingrained my commitment is to myself and others on KTC.Â
The dream was nothing. The realization that I let my brothers down is what woke me up feeling like I was in a nightmare.
Later.
Good stuff here brother.
I had a cave dream last night too. You dug deeper than i did and helped me understand it much better. Inspired Thank you bother. Proud to be Quit with you
Great post jayhawk! One thing that those dreams always seem to miss is that kick to the balls fog you had for about a month. Isn't it interesting that that dreams only include the romantically wonderful feelings of using nicotine and none of the negatives ? Of course, once you wake up, those romantic feelings are all lies too.
Congratulations on another mileatone. And thanks for being a man of integrity and honor. I think I'll quit with you today!
-
Jayhawk - you need some anger in your thread - here you go...
---------------------
Worktowin -
As you have mentioned, I get more mad everyday about the time/money/life, et. fucking all that I have wasted because of nicotine.
Today, I was telling someone how long I had been quit and they mentioned how they admired it. As I thought about it, what I wanted to say is that you wouldn't admire all the wasted time and money and effort, etc., etc., etc., I have blown through. I certainly don't admire it.
Anyway - just wanted to vent to you because you had been talking about this and it hadn't hit home just yet for me - the anger. But now I think it is home to roost.
I see all these new guys everyday posting their day one. Some dudes have humbling, scary stories. And yet a new dude buys his first can at the same damn time somewhere.
So, anyway it does piss me off. I've noticed guys buying a can at the store, and I just want to grab them and say what the fuck are you doing dude? It don't look cool, you are wasting yourself and your resources.
You mentioned how you were angry - I'm getting it more and more. Too bad it took this long for me, I don't admire it!
Later
-Jayhawk
-
Day 80 tomorrow.
Couldn't have made it this far with out KTC, my posting roll, worktowin pulling for me; KC_Guy, Erussel (and the personal shit both of them owned while quitting) srans, and a bunch of other folks on this site.
Through all of this, I have learned something... 80 is good. 100 is better. But the best number of all is one more than yesterday. ODAAT.
Day 80 tomorrow. Someone else will be starting day one. I hope I can be as much of an encouragement as the folks who helped me.
-
Day 80 tomorrow.
Couldn't have made it this far with out KTC, my posting roll, worktowin pulling for me; KC_Guy, Erussel (and the personal shit both of them owned while quitting) srans, and a bunch of other folks on this site.
Through all of this, I have learned something... 80 is good. 100 is better. But the best number of all is one more than yesterday. ODAAT.
Day 80 tomorrow. Someone else will be starting day one. I hope I can be as much of an encouragement as the folks who helped me.
Congrats on the 80! See you again tomorrow!
STAY QUIT
Greg
-
Day 80 tomorrow.
Couldn't have made it this far with out KTC, my posting roll, worktowin pulling for me; KC_Guy, Erussel (and the personal shit both of them owned while quitting) srans, and a bunch of other folks on this site.
Through all of this, I have learned something... 80 is good. 100 is better. But the best number of all is one more than yesterday. ODAAT.
Day 80 tomorrow. Someone else will be starting day one. I hope I can be as much of an encouragement as the folks who helped me.
Keep stacking those +1's like KU does those wins. Damn proud you are an August Badass. Chooo Choooo that train is coming. One day at a time bro.
-
Day 80 tomorrow.
Couldn't have made it this far with out KTC, my posting roll, worktowin pulling for me; KC_Guy, Erussel (and the personal shit both of them owned while quitting) srans, and a bunch of other folks on this site.
Through all of this, I have learned something... 80 is good. 100 is better. But the best number of all is one more than yesterday. ODAAT.
Day 80 tomorrow. Someone else will be starting day one. I hope I can be as much of an encouragement as the folks who helped me.
Congrats on the 80! See you again tomorrow!
STAY QUIT
Greg
Jay hawk well said bro
Through all of this, I have learned something... 80 is good. 100 is better. But the best number of all is one more than yesterday. ODAAT.
Go make that your tag line that is so bad ass man!
-
Day 80 tomorrow.
Couldn't have made it this far with out KTC, my posting roll, worktowin pulling for me; KC_Guy, Erussel (and the personal shit both of them owned while quitting) srans, and a bunch of other folks on this site.
Through all of this, I have learned something... 80 is good. 100 is better. But the best number of all is one more than yesterday. ODAAT.
Day 80 tomorrow. Someone else will be starting day one. I hope I can be as much of an encouragement as the folks who helped me.
Congrats on the 80! See you again tomorrow!
STAY QUIT
Greg
Jay hawk well said bro
Through all of this, I have learned something... 80 is good. 100 is better. But the best number of all is one more than yesterday. ODAAT.
Go make that your tag line that is so bad ass man!
Agree with ^^^. I like that,, may have to use it one day. Great job.
-
Day 80 tomorrow.
Couldn't have made it this far with out KTC, my posting roll, worktowin pulling for me; KC_Guy, Erussel (and the personal shit both of them owned while quitting) srans, and a bunch of other folks on this site.
Through all of this, I have learned something... 80 is good. 100 is better. But the best number of all is one more than yesterday. ODAAT.
Day 80 tomorrow. Someone else will be starting day one. I hope I can be as much of an encouragement as the folks who helped me.
Freaking awesome job brother. Keep it up, I am running a little ways behind you but I have you in my sights.
That sounds creepy in a way...lol....
-
Day 90 tomorrow. To Worktowin - no, I didn't think you were crazy, I thought life would be better. But, just didn't know exactly how much better, or when it would get here!
I told someone at work (a dipper) that I was 80 some days quit. Their infinite wisdom was "oh you've got this. You are out of the woods." While seemingly supportive, the context of the conversation and the non-verbal part was very interesting. Here is what was actually said...
"Hey, I'm a dipper and let me give you some advice. It is ok to put down your guard now. You don't ever have to worry about caving again since you made 80 days. You have summarily beat this addiction and are no longer addicted."
Funny how that nic bitch sneaks around trying to find a weakness. But, I know better. I post everyday because no matter if it is 20 days, or 30 days, or 40 days, or 80 days, I quit one day at a time. I can't put my guard down if I post roll. I will worry about caving every day because I post roll. I haven't summarily beaten shit. I am addicted to nicotine and always will be.
90 days in tomorrow. Still vigilant about my quit.
-
Day 90 tomorrow. To Worktowin - no, I didn't think you were crazy, I thought life would be better. But, just didn't know exactly how much better, or when it would get here!
I told someone at work (a dipper) that I was 80 some days quit. Their infinite wisdom was "oh you've got this. You are out of the woods." While seemingly supportive, the context of the conversation and the non-verbal part was very interesting. Here is what was actually said...
"Hey, I'm a dipper and let me give you some advice. It is ok to put down your guard now. You don't ever have to worry about caving again since you made 80 days. You have summarily beat this addiction and are no longer addicted."
Funny how that nic bitch sneaks around trying to find a weakness. But, I know better. I post everyday because no matter if it is 20 days, or 30 days, or 40 days, or 80 days, I quit one day at a time. I can't put my guard down if I post roll. I will worry about caving every day because I post roll. I haven't summarily beaten shit. I am addicted to nicotine and always will be.
90 days in tomorrow. Still vigilant about my quit.
90 days?!?!? That train is getting ready to head to cowtown. Look forward to meeting you and kc guy next week for a burger and some beers to celebrate. Believe it or not, it keeps getting better jayhawk. Keep fueling that anger and keep in quittin!
-
Congrats buddy, what an example you are setting.
I quit with you.
-
Day 90 tomorrow. To Worktowin - no, I didn't think you were crazy, I thought life would be better. But, just didn't know exactly how much better, or when it would get here!Â
I told someone at work (a dipper) that I was 80 some days quit. Their infinite wisdom was "oh you've got this. You are out of the woods." While seemingly supportive, the context of the conversation and the non-verbal part was very interesting. Here is what was actually said...Â
"Hey, I'm a dipper and let me give you some advice. It is ok to put down your guard now. You don't ever have to worry about caving again since you made 80 days. You have summarily beat this addiction and are no longer addicted."
Funny how that nic bitch sneaks around trying to find a weakness. But, I know better. I post everyday because no matter if it is 20 days, or 30 days, or 40 days, or 80 days, I quit one day at a time. I can't put my guard down if I post roll. I will worry about caving every day because I post roll. I haven't summarily beaten shit. I am addicted to nicotine and always will be.
90 days in tomorrow. Still vigilant about my quit.
90 days?!?!? That train is getting ready to head to cowtown. Look forward to meeting you and kc guy next week for a burger and some beers to celebrate. Believe it or not, it keeps getting better jayhawk. Keep fueling that anger and keep in quittin!
Wow 90 days that's bad ass man I remember when you were tooling around here in Jun now look at you kickin ass and taking names and now the train is on the way to get you. Got your coin ordered yet its a big accomplishment be proud get your coin. I carry mine everywhere n when I get a crave now I take my coin out and twirl it in my fingers...n poof crave is gone. 90-100-5000 all start with posting roll and quitting EDD. quit with you today
-
Day 99 for a few more hours... An early congratulations on achieving something that many attempt but few achieve!
Tomorrow I will raise a glass of scotch in your honor, ok... I probably will tonight also! Congratulations jayhawk - I'm proud to be on your team.
It just gets better from here by the way...
-
Day 99 for a few more hours... An early congratulations on achieving something that many attempt but few achieve!
Tomorrow I will raise a glass of scotch in your honor, ok... I probably will tonight also! Congratulations jayhawk - I'm proud to be on your team.
It just gets better from here by the way...
Another August badass hitting the HALL. Rock Chalk buddy. You da man.
-
Day 99 for a few more hours... An early congratulations on achieving something that many attempt but few achieve!
Tomorrow I will raise a glass of scotch in your honor, ok... I probably will tonight also! Congratulations jayhawk - I'm proud to be on your team.
It just gets better from here by the way...
Another August badass hitting the HALL. Rock Chalk buddy. You da man.
Welcome on the train bro! I am proud to be quit with you and damn proud to have you in our group. Now get you ass signed up for 200 and let's you an I do this ODAAT 100 more days. I quit with you. Erussell 114
-
Day 99 for a few more hours... An early congratulations on achieving something that many attempt but few achieve!
Tomorrow I will raise a glass of scotch in your honor, ok... I probably will tonight also! Congratulations jayhawk - I'm proud to be on your team.
It just gets better from here by the way...
Another August badass hitting the HALL. Rock Chalk buddy. You da man.
Welcome on the train bro! I am proud to be quit with you and damn proud to have you in our group. Now get you ass signed up for 200 and let's you an I do this ODAAT 100 more days. I quit with you. Erussell 114
'worship'
Thats all I need to say today! Your a BADASS!
-
Day 99 for a few more hours... An early congratulations on achieving something that many attempt but few achieve!
Tomorrow I will raise a glass of scotch in your honor, ok... I probably will tonight also! Congratulations jayhawk - I'm proud to be on your team.
It just gets better from here by the way...
Another August badass hitting the HALL. Rock Chalk buddy. You da man.
Welcome on the train bro! I am proud to be quit with you and damn proud to have you in our group. Now get you ass signed up for 200 and let's you an I do this ODAAT 100 more days. I quit with you. Erussell 114
'worship'
Thats all I need to say today! Your a BADASS!
Great job.. 'Cheers' here's to you.
-
Day 99 for a few more hours... An early congratulations on achieving something that many attempt but few achieve!
Tomorrow I will raise a glass of scotch in your honor, ok... I probably will tonight also! Congratulations jayhawk - I'm proud to be on your team.
It just gets better from here by the way...
Another August badass hitting the HALL. Rock Chalk buddy. You da man.
Welcome on the train bro! I am proud to be quit with you and damn proud to have you in our group. Now get you ass signed up for 200 and let's you an I do this ODAAT 100 more days. I quit with you. Erussell 114
'worship'
Thats all I need to say today! Your a BADASS!
Great job.. 'Cheers' here's to you.
Thanks to all of you. I have said it before and will continue to say it - KTC and the support communication with folks on this site was critical to my 100 days. I couldn't have done it alone.
Thanks again to everyone who supported me. I am grateful and appreciate it.
-
Day 120. Haven't had craves since way back but, had one on Saturday. What a bitch. No problems, it passed quickly. Trigger was getting ready to go to coach my son's baseball game. Getting on that field made me feel like I needed dip. It passed and I haven't had one since. But - I have to tell you guys about it. 120 days in and that crave was still there in the back of my mind. It came out of the blue.
-
Day 120. Haven't had craves since way back but, had one on Saturday. What a bitch. No problems, it passed quickly. Trigger was getting ready to go to coach my son's baseball game. Getting on that field made me feel like I needed dip. It passed and I haven't had one since. But - I have to tell you guys about it. 120 days in and that crave was still there in the back of my mind. It came out of the blue.
Way to go Jay-Chicken!!!!!!!
-
Day 120. Haven't had craves since way back but, had one on Saturday. What a bitch. No problems, it passed quickly. Trigger was getting ready to go to coach my son's baseball game. Getting on that field made me feel like I needed dip. It passed and I haven't had one since. But - I have to tell you guys about it. 120 days in and that crave was still there in the back of my mind. It came out of the blue.
Way to go Jay-Chicken!!!!!!!
Dont mind the texas guy. He doesnt realize its a hawk and not a chicken. Congrats on overcoming the crave bro. Keep choppin that wood one da at a time. I quit with you.
-
Day 120. Haven't had craves since way back but, had one on Saturday. What a bitch. No problems, it passed quickly. Trigger was getting ready to go to coach my son's baseball game. Getting on that field made me feel like I needed dip. It passed and I haven't had one since. But - I have to tell you guys about it. 120 days in and that crave was still there in the back of my mind. It came out of the blue.
Way to go Jay-Chicken!!!!!!!
Dont mind the texas guy. He doesnt realize its a hawk and not a chicken. Congrats on overcoming the crave bro. Keep choppin that wood one da at a time. I quit with you.
Brother you got this. We are going to have craves for a long long time. That's why staying close to the site is so important for us. Your doing it right and your a bad ass. A total damn Bad Ass. I freaking quit with you!!!!!! Erussell 136.
-
Day 120. Haven't had craves since way back but, had one on Saturday. What a bitch. No problems, it passed quickly. Trigger was getting ready to go to coach my son's baseball game. Getting on that field made me feel like I needed dip. It passed and I haven't had one since. But - I have to tell you guys about it. 120 days in and that crave was still there in the back of my mind. It came out of the blue.
Way to go Jay-Chicken!!!!!!!
Dont mind the texas guy. He doesnt realize its a hawk and not a chicken. Congrats on overcoming the crave bro. Keep choppin that wood one da at a time. I quit with you.
That's correct Jay-Parrot...... :o
-
Day 150. I've been quiet lately - work, etc. Still as strong in my quit as ever. I am setting back watching some real bad ass quitters hitting the HOF this month in the October group and the HOF knocking on the door for the November group.
-
Day 150. I've been quiet lately - work, etc. Still as strong in my quit as ever. I am setting back watching some real bad ass quitters hitting the HOF this month in the October group and the HOF knocking on the door for the November group.
Half way to the 2nd floor buddy. 150 days is bad ass. Closing in on it myself. Did you hear Wiggins is on the cover of SI? Rock Chalk quitters.
-
Day 150. I've been quiet lately - work, etc. Still as strong in my quit as ever. I am setting back watching some real bad ass quitters hitting the HOF this month in the October group and the HOF knocking on the door for the November group.
Half way to the 2nd floor buddy. 150 days is bad ass. Closing in on it myself. Did you hear Wiggins is on the cover of SI? Rock Chalk quitters.
One fifty. Seriously, can you believe that 150 days ago you quit? And that you survived that fog? It almost seems unreal looking back.
Good to see you back!
-
Day 150. I've been quiet lately - work, etc. Still as strong in my quit as ever. I am setting back watching some real bad ass quitters hitting the HOF this month in the October group and the HOF knocking on the door for the November group.
Half way to the 2nd floor buddy. 150 days is bad ass. Closing in on it myself. Did you hear Wiggins is on the cover of SI? Rock Chalk quitters.
Trey Burke.
-
Day 150. I've been quiet lately - work, etc. Still as strong in my quit as ever. I am setting back watching some real bad ass quitters hitting the HOF this month in the October group and the HOF knocking on the door for the November group.
Half way to the 2nd floor buddy. 150 days is bad ass. Closing in on it myself. Did you hear Wiggins is on the cover of SI? Rock Chalk quitters.
Trey Burke.
2008 Mario Chalmers. NATIONAL CHAMPIONSHIP. Mich last championship? Refresh my memory. Maybe the 80's?
-
Hit 175 yesterday. Could only have done that with the help/support of my friends here. Just wanted to post an update - getting close to the second floor.
Feeling good but need to get back in shape. Quitting really strapped me down with some added lbs.! Oh well, it's worth it.
Seeing some serious quitters fighting the same suck that I had my bouts with. Praying for them and supporting them in breaking through that fog and getting a breath of fresh - new air.
-
Hit 175 yesterday. Could only have done that with the help/support of my friends here. Just wanted to post an update - getting close to the second floor.
Feeling good but need to get back in shape. Quitting really strapped me down with some added lbs.! Oh well, it's worth it.
Seeing some serious quitters fighting the same suck that I had my bouts with. Praying for them and supporting them in breaking through that fog and getting a breath of fresh - new air.
Dang bro. 175 days of being an August BadAss. Great job. Hoops season is about to fire up. Holla.
-
Congrats on 175!!! But it is just the beginning. Every day of freedomw, whether Day 1 or Day 175, is cause for celebration. And quitting each day is its own reward...but you knew that.
WELL DONE, BROTHER!!!
-
Congrats on 175!!! But it is just the beginning. Every day of freedomw, whether Day 1 or Day 175, is cause for celebration. And quitting each day is its own reward...but you knew that.
WELL DONE, BROTHER!!!
Sweet record!
-
Had another cave dream last night. Haven't thought about it in a while and BAM - out of the blue a dip dream.
I haven't been very active on the boards here lately, I wonder if my recent activity triggered the dream??
-
Day 195 in the books. Looking at two hundy. I promise again today I won't dip. I'm going to keep doing it that way.
Nothing really important to post - I just don't have any craves or desire for the shit. Seriously, the only times I think about it are when I post roll, or post some support to others. I have had some dreams about it - about a half dozen or so since May.
Maybe this is complacency. I'm not worried about a cave at all. But just to be sure, I will give you my word again today.
Here is to another day.
Later - Jayhawk
-
Day 195 in the books. Looking at two hundy. I promise again today I won't dip. I'm going to keep doing it that way.
Nothing really important to post - I just don't have any craves or desire for the shit. Seriously, the only times I think about it are when I post roll, or post some support to others. I have had some dreams about it - about a half dozen or so since May.
Maybe this is complacency. I'm not worried about a cave at all. But just to be sure, I will give you my word again today.
Here is to another day.
Later - Jayhawk
'clap'
Well done brother, you are nearing another milestone and I am glad that you do continue to post roll, and help newbies in here.
Thank you,
Pinched
-
Day 195 in the books. Looking at two hundy. I promise again today I won't dip. I'm going to keep doing it that way.
Nothing really important to post - I just don't have any craves or desire for the shit. Seriously, the only times I think about it are when I post roll, or post some support to others. I have had some dreams about it - about a half dozen or so since May.
Maybe this is complacency. I'm not worried about a cave at all. But just to be sure, I will give you my word again today.
Here is to another day.
Later - Jayhawk
Not complacency at all. It is winning. After the fight through the fog you are to a place where you can keep your word without feeling like you are digging to china with a teaspoon. Life keeps getting better one day at a time.
The view from the second floor is good by the way. Congratulations.
-
Day 195 in the books. Looking at two hundy. I promise again today I won't dip. I'm going to keep doing it that way.
Nothing really important to post - I just don't have any craves or desire for the shit. Seriously, the only times I think about it are when I post roll, or post some support to others. I have had some dreams about it - about a half dozen or so since May.
Maybe this is complacency. I'm not worried about a cave at all. But just to be sure, I will give you my word again today.
Here is to another day.
Later - Jayhawk
'clap'
Well done brother, you are nearing another milestone and I am glad that you do continue to post roll, and help newbies in here.
Thank you,
Pinched
yes, thanks for the great help to us newbies!
-
Day 195 in the books. Looking at two hundy. I promise again today I won't dip. I'm going to keep doing it that way.
Nothing really important to post - I just don't have any craves or desire for the shit. Seriously, the only times I think about it are when I post roll, or post some support to others. I have had some dreams about it - about a half dozen or so since May.
Maybe this is complacency. I'm not worried about a cave at all. But just to be sure, I will give you my word again today.
Here is to another day.
Later - Jayhawk
Not complacency at all. It is winning. After the fight through the fog you are to a place where you can keep your word without feeling like you are digging to china with a teaspoon. Life keeps getting better one day at a time.
The view from the second floor is good by the way. Congratulations.
Bravo Jayhawk. Proud to quit with you man. Rock Chalk.
-
Day 195 in the books. Looking at two hundy. I promise again today I won't dip. I'm going to keep doing it that way.
Nothing really important to post - I just don't have any craves or desire for the shit. Seriously, the only times I think about it are when I post roll, or post some support to others. I have had some dreams about it - about a half dozen or so since May.
Maybe this is complacency. I'm not worried about a cave at all. But just to be sure, I will give you my word again today.
Here is to another day.
Later - Jayhawk
Not complacency at all. It is winning. After the fight through the fog you are to a place where you can keep your word without feeling like you are digging to china with a teaspoon. Life keeps getting better one day at a time.
The view from the second floor is good by the way. Congratulations.
Bravo Jayhawk. Proud to quit with you man. Rock Chalk.
;)
-
Day 195 in the books. Looking at two hundy. I promise again today I won't dip. I'm going to keep doing it that way.
Nothing really important to post - I just don't have any craves or desire for the shit. Seriously, the only times I think about it are when I post roll, or post some support to others. I have had some dreams about it - about a half dozen or so since May.
Maybe this is complacency. I'm not worried about a cave at all. But just to be sure, I will give you my word again today.
Here is to another day.
Later - Jayhawk
Not complacency at all. It is winning. After the fight through the fog you are to a place where you can keep your word without feeling like you are digging to china with a teaspoon. Life keeps getting better one day at a time.
The view from the second floor is good by the way. Congratulations.
Bravo Jayhawk. Proud to quit with you man. Rock Chalk.
;)
Jayhawk! Getting close to putting another trophy in your case to keep your HOF company.
Its about to get easy. However, the easy comes because the cravings are the same but you are stronger.
I had a rage and breakdown between 250 - 280.
When everything on paper is better but you feel like shit again....Call me. Roam new enough head me off the pass before I kicked out all the walls.
The vets knew I was hurting when I didn't recognize it.
It is great to be quit. Always quit today but you are going to be recovering now that quitting is a habit.
-
Congratulations on hitting the second floor! These hundred days were a hell of a lot more fun than the first 100, right??!! The next 100 will be even better!
Enjoy this milestone day, and the freedom you have earned!
-
Congratulations on hitting the second floor! These hundred days were a hell of a lot more fun than the first 100, right??!! The next 100 will be even better!
Enjoy this milestone day, and the freedom you have earned!
Congrats on 200 bro. Tough loss for our "baby jays" last night. Quit on like the bad ass you are.
-
Congratulations on hitting the second floor! These hundred days were a hell of a lot more fun than the first 100, right??!! The next 100 will be even better!
Enjoy this milestone day, and the freedom you have earned!
Congrats on 200 bro. Tough loss for our "baby jays" last night. Quit on like the bad ass you are.
Man, how do you thank a group of strangers who saved your life? Not sure I can ever thank those who helped me enough. If any newbies read this...pay attention to the dudes on this site who posted roll and pm'd me.... Look at the support posted along the way. No way I could let these dudes down.
Thanks work2win and kc guy and everyone else who helped me along.
This 200 belongs to all of us.
-
Congratulations on hitting the second floor! These hundred days were a hell of a lot more fun than the first 100, right??!! The next 100 will be even better!
Enjoy this milestone day, and the freedom you have earned!
Congrats on 200 bro. Tough loss for our "baby jays" last night. Quit on like the bad ass you are.
Man, how do you thank a group of strangers who saved your life? Not sure I can ever thank those who helped me enough. If any newbies read this...pay attention to the dudes on this site who posted roll and pm'd me.... Look at the support posted along the way. No way I could let these dudes down.
Thanks work2win and kc guy and everyone else who helped me along.
This 200 belongs to all of us.
Man, how do you thank a group of strangers who saved your life?
You pay it forward and by the looks of it that's what you are going
Great job and keep it rolling EVERY DAMN DAY!
-
Congratulations on hitting the second floor! These hundred days were a hell of a lot more fun than the first 100, right??!! The next 100 will be even better!
Enjoy this milestone day, and the freedom you have earned!
Congrats on 200 bro. Tough loss for our "baby jays" last night. Quit on like the bad ass you are.
Man, how do you thank a group of strangers who saved your life? Not sure I can ever thank those who helped me enough. If any newbies read this...pay attention to the dudes on this site who posted roll and pm'd me.... Look at the support posted along the way. No way I could let these dudes down.
Thanks work2win and kc guy and everyone else who helped me along.
This 200 belongs to all of us.
Man, how do you thank a group of strangers who saved your life?
You pay it forward and by the looks of it that's what you are going
Great job and keep it rolling EVERY DAMN DAY!
Congrats Jayhawk and thanks for paying it forward, helping other quitters like me make it out too! Keep it going- very proud to quit like a Rock Frickin Chalk Jayhawk today!
-
Head down and posting roll. 220-something days behind me. I like seeing the number of days quit keep on growing. (That's not a dick joke either).
Nothing new to report. Life is good. This is much better than being under the influence of nic.
Only after about 200 days did I really, honestly see that the nic does have an influence on your body. Now that I am 200 days in, I am putting the puzzle pieces together. I don't have those anxiety bouts anymore - I didn't think that was related to nic - surely it was. My blood pressure is not 30,000 feet anymore - absolutely there is a connection to nic.
I'm just now finding that nic does way more than I (maybe we) thought it did. I'm just now starting to really feel normal.
Anyway - proud to be part of this website.
Thanks for all the support.
-
Head down and posting roll. 220-something days behind me. I like seeing the number of days quit keep on growing. (That's not a dick joke either).
Nothing new to report. Life is good. This is much better than being under the influence of nic.
Only after about 200 days did I really, honestly see that the nic does have an influence on your body. Now that I am 200 days in, I am putting the puzzle pieces together. I don't have those anxiety bouts anymore - I didn't think that was related to nic - surely it was. My blood pressure is not 30,000 feet anymore - absolutely there is a connection to nic.
I'm just now finding that nic does way more than I (maybe we) thought it did. I'm just now starting to really feel normal.
Anyway - proud to be part of this website.
Thanks for all the support.
Quit on brother. Quit on. 214 days of freedom here. Feels great. Proud to be quit with you.
-
251 days quit. Life couldn't be better. Not much else to report. I just don't feel anything about nicotine really. I noticed the other day that I was in and out of the convenience store (the one I always got my dip from) and I realized I haven't even thought about it. Maybe you can relate to the small talk at the counter... "I'll take these MAGNUM condoms in the 48 pack and a can of Copenhagen Snuff. No, not the green can, the one with the silver lid..."
Remember those conversations with the clerk? Ha. Still need the 48 Magnums, but just don't even think about the dip.
Jayhawk
-
251 days quit. Life couldn't be better. Not much else to report. I just don't feel anything about nicotine really. I noticed the other day that I was in and out of the convenience store (the one I always got my dip from) and I realized I haven't even thought about it. Maybe you can relate to the small talk at the counter... "I'll take these MAGNUM condoms in the 48 pack and a can of Copenhagen Snuff. No, not the green can, the one with the silver lid..."
Remember those conversations with the clerk? Ha. Still need the 48 Magnums, but just don't even think about the dip.
Jayhawk
Thanks. It really helps to hear what lies ahead. Quit with you again!
-
I am still quit. Here we are at 295. Life is still awesome and getting better every day. Went on my annual fishing trip Thursday - Sunday this past week. When I say everyone dips, I mean everyone - except me. I have paused in my quits in years past only to pick up the habit again during this annual camp. As I was driving to fishing camp, W2W sent me a simple text to see how I was doing. Little did he know, I had his numbers ready to go, along with KC_Guy just in case I needed some back up during fishing camp. I called W2W and left him a message letting him know I was solid. All was well. Thanks for looking in W2W.
I am amazed at the transformation I have made since finding KTC. I quit almost 300 days ago and the first month sucked. I wasn't nervous at all about this trip. I didn't have any craves at all. It was, AWESOME. I felt nothing about dip, or nic at all. NOTHING. I guarantee that the reason I was so confident was because I had the tools right at my fingertips if I needed them - KTC and all my quit bros.
I watched these guys at fishing camp from time to time dip, spit, run out for more, etc. All I thought was, what a waste of time and money. Here we are fishing and you have to stop what you are doing to go get dip... That is stupid. I myself didn't need it nor want it. And I had an awesome time.
Once or twice I thought about W2W and all the support he has given me and how this place has really helped me get to where I am. I can't even say that I didn't want to ruin the work so far because I just didn't want any dip. Sounds weird and hope you understand what I mean. I appreciate all of the support. It was that support that got me to where I am now. I guess what I mean is that I know it is there if I need it. And for now, that is enough. I know that part of what drives some folks is that they can't imagine telling their supporters they caved. Me either, but more deeply - I just don't have any craves for it. I barely noticed it. So, I just didn't think about it. W2W and some others were right at my fingertips ready to be dialed up if I needed. I'm glad I didn't have to call!
So anyway, if there is a nugget in this rant that anyone will read - and I hope the new guys can trust and appreciate this: At almost 300 days, your life will be much better. The suck goes away and life returns to some level of normal. I still understand and agree that you need to be vigilant every day going forward. I believe that. So, watch your back. Use the tools you have here. One day, you will be standing where I am and you will say I know how to deal with this.
Anyway - here I am staring at 300 days. One of the biggest triggers of my past came and went with zero fanfare. With the help of KTC and my supporters, I have the tools to deal with that trigger. I know I do because I just did it.
Keep quitting everyone. Quit one day at a time and use those tools. I can prove to you it works.
Late,
Jayhawk
-
I am still quit. Here we are at 295. Life is still awesome and getting better every day. Went on my annual fishing trip Thursday - Sunday this past week. When I say everyone dips, I mean everyone - except me. I have paused in my quits in years past only to pick up the habit again during this annual camp. As I was driving to fishing camp, W2W sent me a simple text to see how I was doing. Little did he know, I had his numbers ready to go, along with KC_Guy just in case I needed some back up during fishing camp. I called W2W and left him a message letting him know I was solid. All was well. Thanks for looking in W2W.
I am amazed at the transformation I have made since finding KTC. I quit almost 300 days ago and the first month sucked. I wasn't nervous at all about this trip. I didn't have any craves at all. It was, AWESOME. I felt nothing about dip, or nic at all. NOTHING. I guarantee that the reason I was so confident was because I had the tools right at my fingertips if I needed them - KTC and all my quit bros.
I watched these guys at fishing camp from time to time dip, spit, run out for more, etc. All I thought was, what a waste of time and money. Here we are fishing and you have to stop what you are doing to go get dip... That is stupid. I myself didn't need it nor want it. And I had an awesome time.
Once or twice I thought about W2W and all the support he has given me and how this place has really helped me get to where I am. I can't even say that I didn't want to ruin the work so far because I just didn't want any dip. Sounds weird and hope you understand what I mean. I appreciate all of the support. It was that support that got me to where I am now. I guess what I mean is that I know it is there if I need it. And for now, that is enough. I know that part of what drives some folks is that they can't imagine telling their supporters they caved. Me either, but more deeply - I just don't have any craves for it. I barely noticed it. So, I just didn't think about it. W2W and some others were right at my fingertips ready to be dialed up if I needed. I'm glad I didn't have to call!
So anyway, if there is a nugget in this rant that anyone will read - and I hope the new guys can trust and appreciate this: At almost 300 days, your life will be much better. The suck goes away and life returns to some level of normal. I still understand and agree that you need to be vigilant every day going forward. I believe that. So, watch your back. Use the tools you have here. One day, you will be standing where I am and you will say I know how to deal with this.
Anyway - here I am staring at 300 days. One of the biggest triggers of my past came and went with zero fanfare. With the help of KTC and my supporters, I have the tools to deal with that trigger. I know I do because I just did it.
Keep quitting everyone. Quit one day at a time and use those tools. I can prove to you it works.
Late,
Jayhawk
Great post jayhawk. What seemed impossible is not only possible, but better than imagined. Glad you had a good trip! The view from the third floor is pretty sweet.
-
I am still quit. Here we are at 295. Life is still awesome and getting better every day. Went on my annual fishing trip Thursday - Sunday this past week. When I say everyone dips, I mean everyone - except me. I have paused in my quits in years past only to pick up the habit again during this annual camp. As I was driving to fishing camp, W2W sent me a simple text to see how I was doing. Little did he know, I had his numbers ready to go, along with KC_Guy just in case I needed some back up during fishing camp. I called W2W and left him a message letting him know I was solid. All was well. Thanks for looking in W2W.
I am amazed at the transformation I have made since finding KTC. I quit almost 300 days ago and the first month sucked. I wasn't nervous at all about this trip. I didn't have any craves at all. It was, AWESOME. I felt nothing about dip, or nic at all. NOTHING. I guarantee that the reason I was so confident was because I had the tools right at my fingertips if I needed them - KTC and all my quit bros.
I watched these guys at fishing camp from time to time dip, spit, run out for more, etc. All I thought was, what a waste of time and money. Here we are fishing and you have to stop what you are doing to go get dip... That is stupid. I myself didn't need it nor want it. And I had an awesome time.Â
Once or twice I thought about W2W and all the support he has given me and how this place has really helped me get to where I am. I can't even say that I didn't want to ruin the work so far because I just didn't want any dip. Sounds weird and hope you understand what I mean. I appreciate all of the support. It was that support that got me to where I am now. I guess what I mean is that I know it is there if I need it. And for now, that is enough. I know that part of what drives some folks is that they can't imagine telling their supporters they caved. Me either, but more deeply - I just don't have any craves for it. I barely noticed it. So, I just didn't think about it. W2W and some others were right at my fingertips ready to be dialed up if I needed. I'm glad I didn't have to call!
So anyway, if there is a nugget in this rant that anyone will read - and I hope the new guys can trust and appreciate this: At almost 300 days, your life will be much better. The suck goes away and life returns to some level of normal. I still understand and agree that you need to be vigilant every day going forward. I believe that. So, watch your back. Use the tools you have here. One day, you will be standing where I am and you will say I know how to deal with this.Â
Anyway - here I am staring at 300 days. One of the biggest triggers of my past came and went with zero fanfare. With the help of KTC and my supporters, I have the tools to deal with that trigger. I know I do because I just did it.
Keep quitting everyone. Quit one day at a time and use those tools. I can prove to you it works.
Late,
Jayhawk
Great post jayhawk. What seemed impossible is not only possible, but better than imagined. Glad you had a good trip! The view from the third floor is pretty sweet.
Jayhawk! You came, you saw, you conquered. You are a quit bad ass. I wouldn't be surprised if one of your fishing buddies doesn't follow your lead and quit as well. You set the example. Quitting is not impossible. It can be done. One day at a time like you are doing bro.
Thank you for posting this victory story. Proud to be quit with you.
Let the Madness of March begin. Rock Chalk Quitters.
-
Floor #3! Congratulations! Look back at 100, look back at 200... Pretty amazing how much better the view is on 3! Enjoy today man - you've earned the freedom!
-
Floor #3! Congratulations! Look back at 100, look back at 200... Pretty amazing how much better the view is on 3! Enjoy today man - you've earned the freedom!
Way to go Jay! 'oh yeah'
-
Floor #3! Congratulations! Look back at 100, look back at 200... Pretty amazing how much better the view is on 3! Enjoy today man - you've earned the freedom!
Way to go Jay! 'oh yeah'
3 bills is NICE. Great job buddy.
-
Just wanted to drop in on day 366! More than one year. I know that I have not been active here since my 200 days... but, just wanted to let everyone know that I am solidly quit at 1-year. Thanks to everyone who helped me through this.
Told my wife last night that I still remember the 2 months of my life that were shit during the fog. NEVER AGAIN!!!
Lovin' life after 1 year.
-
Just wanted to drop in on day 366! More than one year. I know that I have not been active here since my 200 days... but, just wanted to let everyone know that I am solidly quit at 1-year. Thanks to everyone who helped me through this.
Told my wife last night that I still remember the 2 months of my life that were shit during the fog. NEVER AGAIN!!!
Lovin' life after 1 year.
Congrats! 366 is awesome, especially for a Jayhawk. This is my 100th day. Why don't you come post roll with me for a while.
-
Just wanted to drop in on day 366! More than one year. I know that I have not been active here since my 200 days... but, just wanted to let everyone know that I am solidly quit at 1-year. Thanks to everyone who helped me through this.
Told my wife last night that I still remember the 2 months of my life that were shit during the fog. NEVER AGAIN!!!
Lovin' life after 1 year.
Congrats! 366 is awesome, especially for a Jayhawk. This is my 100th day. Why don't you come post roll with me for a while.
Way to be and thanks for the post! Your "through the fog" support was critical for me.
-
Just wanted to drop in on day 366! More than one year. I know that I have not been active here since my 200 days... but, just wanted to let everyone know that I am solidly quit at 1-year. Thanks to everyone who helped me through this.
Told my wife last night that I still remember the 2 months of my life that were shit during the fog. NEVER AGAIN!!!
Lovin' life after 1 year.
Congrats! 366 is awesome, especially for a Jayhawk. This is my 100th day. Why don't you come post roll with me for a while.
Way to be and thanks for the post! Your "through the fog" support was critical for me.
Hey Jayhawk. Glad to see you still riding the quit train. I just said something to worktowin today about not hearing from you lately. Then bam I see this post. Proud to be quit with you brother.
-
Just wanted to drop in on day 366! More than one year. I know that I have not been active here since my 200 days... but, just wanted to let everyone know that I am solidly quit at 1-year. Thanks to everyone who helped me through this.
Told my wife last night that I still remember the 2 months of my life that were shit during the fog. NEVER AGAIN!!!
Lovin' life after 1 year.
Congrats! 366 is awesome, especially for a Jayhawk. This is my 100th day. Why don't you come post roll with me for a while.
Way to be and thanks for the post! Your "through the fog" support was critical for me.
Hey Jayhawk. Glad to see you still riding the quit train. I just said something to worktowin today about not hearing from you lately. Then bam I see this post. Proud to be quit with you brother.
Nice work J on the year+! You aughta stop in more for visits....qlf w you today
-
Rest In Peace Tony Gwynn. Tony Gwynn died today from oral cancer.
This is why we are here.
-
Rest In Peace Tony Gwynn. Tony Gwynn died today from oral cancer.
This is why we are here.
This is an important reminder/update. Thank you for posting. We all need to notice these things. Reminds me that I have to post every day for a long time, as insurance for this chance at having my life back.
-
Rest In Peace Tony Gwynn. Tony Gwynn died today from oral cancer.
This is why we are here.
This is an important reminder/update. Thank you for posting. We all need to notice these things. Reminds me that I have to post every day for a long time, as insurance for this chance at having my life back.
It's very sad to hear of Tony Gwynn's passing. I remember watching him play ball as I was growing up. Using and quitting tobacco is a life or death choice. I am proud to be quit with both of you guys. RIP Tony Gwynn.
-
Hello all. I am still quit! So fucking quit, I missed my one year by almost 100 days!!! A very close friend is talking about quitting and I have challenged him to so it tonight. As soon as I know his screen me, I'll post it. I mentioned KTC to him while I was still working on my first 100 days. He saw my progress and he wants in. I know you all who read this will give him 110% support.
-
Hello all. I am still quit! So fucking quit, I missed my one year by almost 100 days!!! A very close friend is talking about quitting and I have challenged him to so it tonight. As soon as I know his screen me, I'll post it. I mentioned KTC to him while I was still working on my first 100 days. He saw my progress and he wants in. I know you all who read this will give him 110% support.
Let me know mike. I'm in.
Glad to see you back brother.