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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Spartanron on January 02, 2013, 02:42:00 AM
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I am Ron, originally from Michigan, moved to Los Angeles in 2004. I am a 21+ year Dipper, started as a freshmen in College and spent the last 15 or so years at a tin a day habit. Earlier this year I went to the Doctor because I had been feeling lethargic. Was assigned a new doctor who gave me the normal lecture on quitting I would ignore. I did go on a low carb diet and agreed to try bupropin and let it build up inside of me with a targeted quit date of Oct 15, 2012. At the end of October (my target quit date came and went), I woke up in the middle of the night in a moment of clarity and thought things I had never thought before. Past relationship mistakes become clear to me (I am doing a flyover here, still really hurts to talk about) and I started to gain a new perspective on life. While on vacation on Nov 13 I got more internal clarity that my first love had always been chewing tobacco and it was time to put that tin I had with me into the toilet. I went to the nicorette gum and finally went nicotine free on 12/23. I have learned so much over the past three months and feel like its been an incredibly altering period of my life. KTC has been instrumental and the support and friendship I have gotten so far is treasured. Thanks so much for listening.
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It was good talking to you last night in chat. My first love was the nic bitch as it was for all of us. It almost cost me my marriage. By the grace of God and this site I am 4 years quit and still married. Quit with you one day at a time. PM me if you need anything. My phone number is available for the asking.
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I am Ron, originally from Michigan, moved to Los Angeles in 2004. I am a 21+ year Dipper, started as a freshmen in College and spent the last 15 or so years at a tin a day habit. Earlier this year I went to the Doctor because I had been feeling lethargic. Was assigned a new doctor who gave me the normal lecture on quitting I would ignore. I did go on a low carb diet and agreed to try bupropin and let it build up inside of me with a targeted quit date of Oct 15, 2012. At the end of October (my target quit date came and went), I woke up in the middle of the night in a moment of clarity and thought things I had never thought before. Past relationship mistakes become clear to me (I am doing a flyover here, still really hurts to talk about) and I started to gain a new perspective on life. While on vacation on Nov 13 I got more internal clarity that my first love had always been chewing tobacco and it was time to put that tin I had with me into the toilet. I went to the nicorette gum and finally went nicotine free on 12/23. I have learned so much over the past three months and feel like its been an incredibly altering period of my life. KTC has been instrumental and the support and friendship I have gotten so far is treasured. Thanks so much for listening.
Welcome Ron! Amazing what an addiction can do to you isn't it? Sounds like you have your head on straight about what needs to be done. I quit with you today.
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Quitting does put things in perspective. Allways good talking with you. Keep up the quit with all of us in april. If you need anything you know how to find me. Our talks have been very helpful in staying away from the shit.
NICK
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today sucks, i feel like my eyeballs are burning and cant stop thinking about dip. My work desk is definately a trigger, thats what I get for dipping here all the time. 'ba 'bang head' ng head'
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today sucks, i feel like my eyeballs are burning and cant stop thinking about dip. My work desk is definately a trigger, thats what I get for dipping here all the time. 'ba 'bang head' ng head'
Stay strong Spartonron, are you drinking logs of water? burning eyes could be dehydration. Any chance of working away from your desk for a couple days??? That may help.
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Rockin' intro Ron.
Man that knows where he's been and where he's going. Damn good to see.
Remember my little tip about the workout supplements. Drink lots of water. Drop and do as many push ups as you can when the trigger hits or maybe try a pair of hand grip trainers if you are at a desk. Do whatever to refocus the pain and suffering somewhere else.
You got this.
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today sucks, i feel like my eyeballs are burning and cant stop thinking about dip. My work desk is definately a trigger, thats what I get for dipping here all the time.  'ba 'bang head' ng head'
great way to kill a crave at the work desk. Open desk drawer, put your nuts in there, slam the drawer shut. With enough repetition your brain will be rewired and the work desk will make you cry instead of crave. shocker
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today sucks, i feel like my eyeballs are burning and cant stop thinking about dip. My work desk is definately a trigger, thats what I get for dipping here all the time.  'ba 'bang head' ng head'
great way to kill a crave at the work desk. Open desk drawer, put your nuts in there, slam the drawer shut. With enough repetition your brain will be rewired and the work desk will make you cry instead of crave. shocker
Day 208 - made it through a work day with no craves. I think this is a first. I just felt a need to memorialize this moment somewhere. Am I still an addict. Yes. Will I crave again. Yes. But there is something about a good day where the nic bitch has left me alone for a while.
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today sucks, i feel like my eyeballs are burning and cant stop thinking about dip. My work desk is definately a trigger, thats what I get for dipping here all the time.  'ba 'bang head' ng head'
great way to kill a crave at the work desk. Open desk drawer, put your nuts in there, slam the drawer shut. With enough repetition your brain will be rewired and the work desk will make you cry instead of crave. shocker
Day 208 - made it through a work day with no craves. I think this is a first. I just felt a need to memorialize this moment somewhere. Am I still an addict. Yes. Will I crave again. Yes. But there is something about a good day where the nic bitch has left me alone for a while.
Ron - glad you didn't have to slam nuts in a drawer to reach this milestone? Or maybe you did?
You've been the glue that held a bunch of fog cutters together, and it is good to see some good news on your update. You also always provide interesting answers to the question of the day... Hope Nick enjoys your cat!
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today sucks, i feel like my eyeballs are burning and cant stop thinking about dip. My work desk is definately a trigger, thats what I get for dipping here all the time.  'ba 'bang head' ng head'
great way to kill a crave at the work desk. Open desk drawer, put your nuts in there, slam the drawer shut. With enough repetition your brain will be rewired and the work desk will make you cry instead of crave. shocker
Day 208 - made it through a work day with no craves. I think this is a first. I just felt a need to memorialize this moment somewhere. Am I still an addict. Yes. Will I crave again. Yes. But there is something about a good day where the nic bitch has left me alone for a while.
Ron - glad you didn't have to slam nuts in a drawer to reach this milestone? Or maybe you did?
You've been the glue that held a bunch of fog cutters together, and it is good to see some good news on your update. You also always provide interesting answers to the question of the day... Hope Nick enjoys your cat!
Poor kitty...
good shit on 2nd floor-
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today sucks, i feel like my eyeballs are burning and cant stop thinking about dip. My work desk is definately a trigger, thats what I get for dipping here all the time.  'ba 'bang head' ng head'
great way to kill a crave at the work desk. Open desk drawer, put your nuts in there, slam the drawer shut. With enough repetition your brain will be rewired and the work desk will make you cry instead of crave. shocker
Day 208 - made it through a work day with no craves. I think this is a first. I just felt a need to memorialize this moment somewhere. Am I still an addict. Yes. Will I crave again. Yes. But there is something about a good day where the nic bitch has left me alone for a while.
Ron - glad you didn't have to slam nuts in a drawer to reach this milestone? Or maybe you did?
You've been the glue that held a bunch of fog cutters together, and it is good to see some good news on your update. You also always provide interesting answers to the question of the day... Hope Nick enjoys your cat!
Poor kitty...
good shit on 2nd floor-
I DON'T WANT YOUR DAMN CAT!!!
Have a good day.
NICK
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today sucks, i feel like my eyeballs are burning and cant stop thinking about dip. My work desk is definately a trigger, thats what I get for dipping here all the time.  'ba 'bang head' ng head'
great way to kill a crave at the work desk. Open desk drawer, put your nuts in there, slam the drawer shut. With enough repetition your brain will be rewired and the work desk will make you cry instead of crave. shocker
Day 208 - made it through a work day with no craves. I think this is a first. I just felt a need to memorialize this moment somewhere. Am I still an addict. Yes. Will I crave again. Yes. But there is something about a good day where the nic bitch has left me alone for a while.
Ron - glad you didn't have to slam nuts in a drawer to reach this milestone? Or maybe you did?
You've been the glue that held a bunch of fog cutters together, and it is good to see some good news on your update. You also always provide interesting answers to the question of the day... Hope Nick enjoys your cat!
Poor kitty...
good shit on 2nd floor-
I DON'T WANT YOUR DAMN CAT!!!
Have a good day.
NICK
Soft kitty
Warm Kitty
Little ball of fur
Happy Kitty
Sleepy Kiity
purr purr purr.......
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today sucks, i feel like my eyeballs are burning and cant stop thinking about dip. My work desk is definately a trigger, thats what I get for dipping here all the time.  'ba 'bang head' ng head'
great way to kill a crave at the work desk. Open desk drawer, put your nuts in there, slam the drawer shut. With enough repetition your brain will be rewired and the work desk will make you cry instead of crave. shocker
Day 208 - made it through a work day with no craves. I think this is a first. I just felt a need to memorialize this moment somewhere. Am I still an addict. Yes. Will I crave again. Yes. But there is something about a good day where the nic bitch has left me alone for a while.
Ron - glad you didn't have to slam nuts in a drawer to reach this milestone? Or maybe you did?
You've been the glue that held a bunch of fog cutters together, and it is good to see some good news on your update. You also always provide interesting answers to the question of the day... Hope Nick enjoys your cat!
Poor kitty...
good shit on 2nd floor-
I DON'T WANT YOUR DAMN CAT!!!
Have a good day.
NICK
Soft kitty
Warm Kitty
Little ball of fur
Happy Kitty
Sleepy Kiity
purr purr purr.......
Looks like Phil wants your cats. I wonder if you can ship them UPS?
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today sucks, i feel like my eyeballs are burning and cant stop thinking about dip. My work desk is definately a trigger, thats what I get for dipping here all the time.  'ba 'bang head' ng head'
great way to kill a crave at the work desk. Open desk drawer, put your nuts in there, slam the drawer shut. With enough repetition your brain will be rewired and the work desk will make you cry instead of crave. shocker
Day 208 - made it through a work day with no craves. I think this is a first. I just felt a need to memorialize this moment somewhere. Am I still an addict. Yes. Will I crave again. Yes. But there is something about a good day where the nic bitch has left me alone for a while.
Ron - glad you didn't have to slam nuts in a drawer to reach this milestone? Or maybe you did?
You've been the glue that held a bunch of fog cutters together, and it is good to see some good news on your update. You also always provide interesting answers to the question of the day... Hope Nick enjoys your cat!
Poor kitty...
good shit on 2nd floor-
I DON'T WANT YOUR DAMN CAT!!!
Have a good day.
NICK
Soft kitty
Warm Kitty
Little ball of fur
Happy Kitty
Sleepy Kiity
purr purr purr.......
Looks like Phil wants your cats. I wonder if you can ship them UPS?
phil wants a different kind of cat....
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today sucks, i feel like my eyeballs are burning and cant stop thinking about dip. My work desk is definately a trigger, thats what I get for dipping here all the time.  'ba 'bang head' ng head'
great way to kill a crave at the work desk. Open desk drawer, put your nuts in there, slam the drawer shut. With enough repetition your brain will be rewired and the work desk will make you cry instead of crave. shocker
Day 208 - made it through a work day with no craves. I think this is a first. I just felt a need to memorialize this moment somewhere. Am I still an addict. Yes. Will I crave again. Yes. But there is something about a good day where the nic bitch has left me alone for a while.
Ron - glad you didn't have to slam nuts in a drawer to reach this milestone? Or maybe you did?
You've been the glue that held a bunch of fog cutters together, and it is good to see some good news on your update. You also always provide interesting answers to the question of the day... Hope Nick enjoys your cat!
Poor kitty...
good shit on 2nd floor-
I DON'T WANT YOUR DAMN CAT!!!
Have a good day.
NICK
Soft kitty
Warm Kitty
Little ball of fur
Happy Kitty
Sleepy Kiity
purr purr purr.......
Looks like Phil wants your cats. I wonder if you can ship them UPS?
phil wants a different kind of cat....
Congrats on 200 brother.
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Closing in on one year and so many emotions. Still have the mind games, like the old one dip a year won't hurt. Before everyone attacks, I am not doing it, just on guard. About this time last year I was chomping away on nicorette and on my way to Michigan, no idea that i would soon be completely done with nicotine. Here is to a better 2014. 'zombie'
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Closing in on one year and so many emotions. Still have the mind games, like the old one dip a year won't hurt. Before everyone attacks, I am not doing it, just on guard. About this time last year I was chomping away on nicorette and on my way to Michigan, no idea that i would soon be completely done with nicotine. Here is to a better 2014. 'zombie'
Hell yes Spartanron! That is why we stay here, to remind ourselves to always keep our quit close.
keep adding those +1s!
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Closing in on one year and so many emotions. Still have the mind games, like the old one dip a year won't hurt. Before everyone attacks, I am not doing it, just on guard. About this time last year I was chomping away on nicorette and on my way to Michigan, no idea that i would soon be completely done with nicotine. Here is to a better 2014. 'zombie'
Hell yes Spartanron! That is why we stay here, to remind ourselves to always keep our quit close.
keep adding those +1s!
Man that's huge. Keep up the good work and lead the way!!
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Closing in on one year and so many emotions. Still have the mind games, like the old one dip a year won't hurt. Before everyone attacks, I am not doing it, just on guard. About this time last year I was chomping away on nicorette and on my way to Michigan, no idea that i would soon be completely done with nicotine. Here is to a better 2014. 'zombie'
Hell yes Spartanron! That is why we stay here, to remind ourselves to always keep our quit close.
keep adding those +1s!
Man that's huge. Keep up the good work and lead the way!!
Well done Ron. It has been great to march down this road with you. Thanks for being such a contributor to our group.
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Closing in on one year and so many emotions. Still have the mind games, like the old one dip a year won't hurt. Before everyone attacks, I am not doing it, just on guard. About this time last year I was chomping away on nicorette and on my way to Michigan, no idea that i would soon be completely done with nicotine. Here is to a better 2014. 'zombie'
Hell yes Spartanron! That is why we stay here, to remind ourselves to always keep our quit close.
keep adding those +1s!
Man that's huge. Keep up the good work and lead the way!!
I know what you mean with the mind games. Still happening here too. It dosnt help that I work with a bunch of dippers. I spread the word that freedom from addiction is possible every day. Keep on quitting. We will hit a year together.
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Closing in on one year and so many emotions. Still have the mind games, like the old one dip a year won't hurt. Before everyone attacks, I am not doing it, just on guard. About this time last year I was chomping away on nicorette and on my way to Michigan, no idea that i would soon be completely done with nicotine. Here is to a better 2014. 'zombie'
Hell yes Spartanron! That is why we stay here, to remind ourselves to always keep our quit close.
keep adding those +1s!
Man that's huge. Keep up the good work and lead the way!!
I know what you mean with the mind games. Still happening here too. It dosnt help that I work with a bunch of dippers. I spread the word that freedom from addiction is possible every day. Keep on quitting. We will hit a year together.
429 days in, I am starting to believe that dip will have no positive impact in my life. It will bring no pleasure or satisfaction, only disappointment and all that I have built here will be gone.
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Closing in on one year and so many emotions. Still have the mind games, like the old one dip a year won't hurt. Before everyone attacks, I am not doing it, just on guard. About this time last year I was chomping away on nicorette and on my way to Michigan, no idea that i would soon be completely done with nicotine. Here is to a better 2014. 'zombie'
Hell yes Spartanron! That is why we stay here, to remind ourselves to always keep our quit close.
keep adding those +1s!
Man that's huge. Keep up the good work and lead the way!!
I know what you mean with the mind games. Still happening here too. It dosnt help that I work with a bunch of dippers. I spread the word that freedom from addiction is possible every day. Keep on quitting. We will hit a year together.
429 days in, I am starting to believe that dip will have no positive impact in my life. It will bring no pleasure or satisfaction, only disappointment and all that I have built here will be gone.
There is a lot of value in staying active in KTC, whether on the boards, in chat, via text, etc... Learning the value of being quit and one day at a time is central to what I believe in. 'boob'
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Closing in on one year and so many emotions. Still have the mind games, like the old one dip a year won't hurt. Before everyone attacks, I am not doing it, just on guard. About this time last year I was chomping away on nicorette and on my way to Michigan, no idea that i would soon be completely done with nicotine. Here is to a better 2014. 'zombie'
Hell yes Spartanron! That is why we stay here, to remind ourselves to always keep our quit close.
keep adding those +1s!
Man that's huge. Keep up the good work and lead the way!!
I know what you mean with the mind games. Still happening here too. It dosnt help that I work with a bunch of dippers. I spread the word that freedom from addiction is possible every day. Keep on quitting. We will hit a year together.
429 days in, I am starting to believe that dip will have no positive impact in my life. It will bring no pleasure or satisfaction, only disappointment and all that I have built here will be gone.
There is a lot of value in staying active in KTC, whether on the boards, in chat, via text, etc... Learning the value of being quit and one day at a time is central to what I believe in. 'boob'
+1 = ODAAT = 'oh yeah' ...........right behind you Quit Brother
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Closing in on one year and so many emotions. Still have the mind games, like the old one dip a year won't hurt. Before everyone attacks, I am not doing it, just on guard. About this time last year I was chomping away on nicorette and on my way to Michigan, no idea that i would soon be completely done with nicotine. Here is to a better 2014. 'zombie'
Hell yes Spartanron! That is why we stay here, to remind ourselves to always keep our quit close.
keep adding those +1s!
Man that's huge. Keep up the good work and lead the way!!
I know what you mean with the mind games. Still happening here too. It dosnt help that I work with a bunch of dippers. I spread the word that freedom from addiction is possible every day. Keep on quitting. We will hit a year together.
429 days in, I am starting to believe that dip will have no positive impact in my life. It will bring no pleasure or satisfaction, only disappointment and all that I have built here will be gone.
There is a lot of value in staying active in KTC, whether on the boards, in chat, via text, etc... Learning the value of being quit and one day at a time is central to what I believe in. 'boob'
+1 = ODAAT = 'oh yeah' ...........right behind you Quit Brother
Had that same F'd up thought yesterday, but now we realize how our addicted mind works. On to one year brother.
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Congratulations on hitting 365 today Ron! And thanks for your leadership role with the April group. I read your first post this morning... It is amazing what a year of freedom can do.
Proud to be on you team today, and look forward to many more anniversaries.
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Congratulations on hitting 365 today Ron! And thanks for your leadership role with the April group. I read your first post this morning... It is amazing what a year of freedom can do.
Proud to be on you team today, and look forward to many more anniversaries.
Please accept my congrats on your year.
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Congratulations on hitting 365 today Ron! And thanks for your leadership role with the April group. I read your first post this morning... It is amazing what a year of freedom can do.
Proud to be on you team today, and look forward to many more anniversaries.
Please accept my congrats on your year.
Yes congrats and thank you for all you do!
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Congratulations on hitting 365 today Ron! And thanks for your leadership role with the April group. I read your first post this morning... It is amazing what a year of freedom can do.
Proud to be on you team today, and look forward to many more anniversaries.
Please accept my congrats on your year.
Yes congrats and thank you for all you do!
1 year of freedom and a new gig too. Been a good year. Glad to know you and congrats.
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Congratulations on hitting 365 today Ron! And thanks for your leadership role with the April group. I read your first post this morning... It is amazing what a year of freedom can do.
Proud to be on you team today, and look forward to many more anniversaries.
Please accept my congrats on your year.
Yes congrats and thank you for all you do!
1 year of freedom and a new gig too. Been a good year. Glad to know you and congrats.
Congrats on a year!
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Congratulations on hitting 365 today Ron! And thanks for your leadership role with the April group. I read your first post this morning... It is amazing what a year of freedom can do.
Proud to be on you team today, and look forward to many more anniversaries.
Please accept my congrats on your year.
Yes congrats and thank you for all you do!
1 year of freedom and a new gig too. Been a good year. Glad to know you and congrats.
Congrats on a year!
Congrats on 1 year. Glad we are still here together. Thanks for all you have done.
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Congratulations on hitting 365 today Ron! And thanks for your leadership role with the April group. I read your first post this morning... It is amazing what a year of freedom can do.
Proud to be on you team today, and look forward to many more anniversaries.
Please accept my congrats on your year.
Yes congrats and thank you for all you do!
1 year of freedom and a new gig too. Been a good year. Glad to know you and congrats.
Congrats on a year!
thanks guys, i really appreciate your support and the whole KTC community. No way I could have done this alone and without accountability. I quit for myself first, but have worked hard to build up a network of peers that I will not let down. Its such a big deal to have other quitters to rely on, that have been through the same battles with our addiction.
I am still incomplete as a person, but one battle at a time. I swear I will do the HOF speech when I have closed the circle and feel I have truly earned it.
FU Kodiak and Grizzly. One year, 1,400 bucks saved.
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ole SR is in a bad way, need to sleep. uggghhhh. Still quit, still plugging away
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ole SR is in a bad way, need to sleep. uggghhhh. Still quit, still plugging away
Hang in there big dog. Holler if you need anythin
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Congrats on 400 today. I seems a long ways from where we were thsi time last year.
NICK
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Congrats on 400 today. I seems a long ways from where we were thsi time last year.
NICK
Nice 400 buddy. Keep on trucking.
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Congrats on 400 today. I seems a long ways from where we were thsi time last year.
NICK
Nice 400 buddy. Keep on trucking.
4th floor is awesome, congrats!
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Congrats on 400 today. I seems a long ways from where we were thsi time last year.
NICK
Nice 400 buddy. Keep on trucking.
4th floor is awesome, congrats!
Congrats
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Congrats on 400 today. I seems a long ways from where we were thsi time last year.
NICK
Nice 400 buddy. Keep on trucking.
4th floor is awesome, congrats!
Congrats
Awesome job man.
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Congrats on 400 today. I seems a long ways from where we were thsi time last year.
NICK
Nice 400 buddy. Keep on trucking.
4th floor is awesome, congrats!
Congrats
Awesome job man.
:)
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Congrats on 400 today. I seems a long ways from where we were thsi time last year.
NICK
Nice 400 buddy. Keep on trucking.
4th floor is awesome, congrats!
Congrats
Awesome job man.
:)
Thanks everyone, certainly did not get here by myself, also not sure if I think Taylor Swift is hot or not, feeling loopy tonight
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Congratulations on 1,000 of winning SpartanRon. It is an honor to be on this ride with you, and appreciate all that you have done here. You are the man.
Enjoy the day. Go Royals!
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Congratulations on 1,000 of winning SpartanRon. It is an honor to be on this ride with you, and appreciate all that you have done here. You are the man.
Enjoy the day. Go Royals!
Congrats on your comma Ron.
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Congratulations on 1,000 of winning SpartanRon. It is an honor to be on this ride with you, and appreciate all that you have done here. You are the man.
Enjoy the day. Go Royals!
Congrats on your comma Ron.
thanks. Screw the Royals.
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Congratulations on 1,000 of winning SpartanRon. It is an honor to be on this ride with you, and appreciate all that you have done here. You are the man.
Enjoy the day. Go Royals!
Congrats on your comma Ron.
thanks. Screw the Royals.
Atta baby Ron!!! Congrats on 1000! What a journey and what an example you have been! Thank you
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Congratulations on 1,000 of winning SpartanRon. It is an honor to be on this ride with you, and appreciate all that you have done here. You are the man.
Enjoy the day. Go Royals!
Congrats on your comma Ron.
thanks. Screw the Royals.
Atta baby Ron!!! Congrats on 1000! What a journey and what an example you have been! Thank you
Awesome brother! Thanks for leading the way for so many! 'oh yeah'
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Congratulations on 1,000 of winning SpartanRon. It is an honor to be on this ride with you, and appreciate all that you have done here. You are the man.
Enjoy the day. Go Royals!
Congrats on your comma Ron.
thanks. Screw the Royals.
Atta baby Ron!!! Congrats on 1000! What a journey and what an example you have been! Thank you
Awesome brother! Thanks for leading the way for so many! 'oh yeah'
Big congrats on a great milestone!