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Title: P35
Post by: P35 on March 20, 2008, 08:15:00 AM
I'm 46 and have dipped Copencrapin since I was 18. For most of that time, it was a can a day. The last year, it has gradually gone up to 2 cans a day. That's because I could buy the two packs cheaper than 2 individual cans. I knew if I wasn't careful, I'd end up going thru both cans in a single day...and that's where I ended up.

Well my wife finally cornered me  made me go to the dentist last week on 3/13/08. The ONLY good thing about it was that the dentist was right across the street, which meant I didnt' have to spit my snuff out until right before, then I could brush my teeth  run over there.

When I finally got back there, he looked at my mouth  said he's sending me to the periodontist for a biopsy of the "precancerous blablabla..." I really heard nothing else he said. My whole body was numb and I was sick to my core. A sickness I can't even describe...the worst you can imagine. I completely flipped out. No sleep, no eating, nothing. Sweaty panick, thoughts running completely crazy.

Luckily, I went to church last Sunday  that helped reel my runaway emotions back in.

Of course, I haven't touched any tobacco since before that dentist visit. I'm headed to the periodontist in a couple of hours. Today 03/20/08 is day 8 of my quit. Man I don't want to go do this doctor appointment!
Title: Re: P35
Post by: 11X4 on March 20, 2008, 08:22:00 AM
Quote from: P35
I'm 46 and have dipped Copencrapin since I was 18.  For most of that time, it was a can a day.  The last year, it has gradually gone up to 2 cans a day.  That's because I could buy the two packs cheaper than 2 individual cans.  I knew if I wasn't careful, I'd end up going thru both cans in a single day...and that's where I ended up.

Well my wife finally cornered me  made me go to the dentist last week on 3/13/08.  The ONLY good thing about it was that the dentist was right across the street, which meant I didnt' have to spit my snuff out until right before, then I could brush my teeth  run over there.

When I finally got back there, he looked at my mouth  said he's sending me to the periodontist for a biopsy of the "precancerous blablabla..."  I really heard nothing else he said.  My whole body was numb and I was sick to my core.  A sickness I can't even describe...the worst you can imagine.  I completely flipped out.  No sleep, no eating, nothing.  Sweaty panick, thoughts running completely crazy.

Luckily, I went to church last Sunday  that helped reel my runaway emotions back in.

Of course, I haven't touched any tobacco since before that dentist visit.  I'm headed to the periodontist in a couple of hours.  Today 03/20/08 is day 8 of my quit. Man I don't want to go do this doctor appointment!
When you get the good news this morning that it's not precancerous blablabla, make sure you follow through with this decision. The nic bitch will likely try to lay some crap like "see it's nothing, let's have a dip to celebrate." Don't give in to it. Don't throw away 1 week, 7 days, or 168 hours of quitting! Post roll everyday and keep your word.

Welcome to the site and good luck at the doc's this morning. Let us know how you make out.
Title: Re: P35
Post by: P35 on March 20, 2008, 08:45:00 AM
No doubt. I'll get right back to yall. I've already thought about that a lot. After my initial panick, I've kind of thought it will all be OK, not cancerous. A week off snuff and my lips, teeth, gums, etc look incredibly good.

I have no idea how long it takes to get an answer, but I'll get back  keep yall informed. And yes, if I get good news, there's no way I'm trashing this last week of pure hell to go back to eating that dog crap.
Title: Re: P35
Post by: Buckfever36 on March 20, 2008, 09:02:00 AM
Quote from: P35
No doubt. I'll get right back to yall. I've already thought about that a lot. After my initial panick, I've kind of thought it will all be OK, not cancerous. A week off snuff and my lips, teeth, gums, etc look incredibly good.

I have no idea how long it takes to get an answer, but I'll get back  keep yall informed. And yes, if I get good news, there's no way I'm trashing this last week of pure hell to go back to eating that dog crap.
Hang tuff P35 and keep us undated, Your on your way now keep fighting the good fight. To Stay QUIT!
Title: Re: P35
Post by: Mark_Kirch on March 20, 2008, 10:43:00 AM
Quote from: P35

"precancerous blablabla..."
Similar story for me... but they didnt believe a biopsy was needed yet for me. Although my dentist was sending photos of my mouth to someone for a second opinion.

It took a day or two for me to get past the anger and face the facts of what I needed to do. So, here I am one week later... and at Day 2 of my quit.

You know what you need to do... so hang in there and do it.

My prayers will be with you in hopes all will turn out good.
:)
Title: Re: P35
Post by: P35 on March 21, 2008, 08:25:00 AM
Yea. I was really pissed too. I was mad that I put myself in this position. I was mad at the dentist for doing his job. I was just really mad. That was a long, terrible week. The whole week I thought I was doomed, I quit snuff immediately, the whole week was one big ugly blur.

I would really rather never go thru week one again. I think I'll just stay quit.
Title: Re: P35
Post by: Ready on March 21, 2008, 04:53:00 PM
Quote from: P35
Yea.  I was really pissed too.  I was mad that I put myself in this position.  I was mad at the dentist for doing his job.  I was just really mad.  That was a long, terrible week.  The whole week I thought I was doomed, I quit snuff immediately, the whole week was one big ugly blur.

I would really rather never go thru week one again.  I think I'll just stay quit.
"I think I'll just stay quit"

Good Idea. You have been through the worst part, have come out of the fog and now looks like your starting to think straight. Well done. Keep it up..

One day at a time. You can do anything for just one day. Before you know it, things will be so much better.
Title: Re: P35
Post by: P35 on March 28, 2008, 11:55:00 AM
They just called and the biopsy came back negative, so no cancer.

Nothing changes. Day 16 is underway. I'm thankful for the good results  I don't want to screw up this chance I've been given.

Thanks for your support  lets kick the nic.

As always, I think I'll just stay quit.
Title: Re: P35
Post by: redtrain14 on March 28, 2008, 12:07:00 PM
That is great news P35!
Title: Re: P35
Post by: packerbacker on March 28, 2008, 04:53:00 PM
Quote from: P35
They just called and the biopsy came back negative, so no cancer.

Nothing changes. Day 16 is underway. I'm thankful for the good results  I don't want to screw up this chance I've been given.

Thanks for your support  lets kick the nic.

As always, I think I'll just stay quit.
congrats, man...awesome news!!!
Title: Re: P35
Post by: satarch1 on March 29, 2008, 12:18:00 AM
Excellent news for today. One day at a time brother. We're doing this together. I am very happy for you. Good news is good news and worth celebrating.....let's have a beer sometime.
Title: Re: P35
Post by: P35 on March 31, 2008, 12:39:00 PM
Thanks for all the support. Let's keep up the good work.
Title: Re: P35
Post by: Mark_Kirch on March 31, 2008, 05:09:00 PM
Quote from: P35
They just called and the biopsy came back negative, so no cancer.

Nothing changes. Day 16 is underway. I'm thankful for the good results  I don't want to screw up this chance I've been given.

Thanks for your support  lets kick the nic.

As always, I think I'll just stay quit.
Great news man... great !

:)
Title: Re: P35
Post by: Cook on March 31, 2008, 05:26:00 PM
good news on the test results! happy to hear that. that was and still is my biggest fear...am i going to wake up with a sore in my mouth. the last few weeks before my quit i literally had nightmares where i would wake up in a sweat that i had only a few months to live due to dip. i sleep better now but still have concerns.
Title: Re: P35
Post by: Crosshair on March 31, 2008, 08:00:00 PM
Good news, man. Same thing happened to me causing my '94 quit attempt. Had a lipseal that freaked me out and had to have a biopsy done. I quit for 4 months that time. The point is, DO NOT LET YOUR RELIEF LULL YOU INTO COMPLACENCY, THE BITCH WILL TRY TO RETURN.
Title: Re: P35
Post by: P35 on June 16, 2008, 06:53:00 PM
Day 96, things are a whole lot brighter. I stopped by to reread some of this. Yall were a big help in a very tough time.

Thanks quit bros. Let's stay quit.
Title: Re: P35
Post by: visamoht on June 17, 2008, 11:05:00 AM
Quote from: P35
Day 96, things are a whole lot brighter. I stopped by to reread some of this. Yall were a big help in a very tough time.

Thanks quit bros. Let's stay quit.
How's that speech coming?
Title: Re: P35
Post by: P35 on June 17, 2008, 11:45:00 AM
Quote from: visamoht
Quote from: P35
Day 96, things are a whole lot brighter.  I stopped by to reread some of this.  Yall were a big help in a very tough time. 

Thanks quit bros.  Let's stay quit.
How's that speech coming?
I know...I'm feeling the pressure.


Haven't even started, work has SUCKED lately. Shipped our youngest son to college. We finished moving ourselves to San Antonio yesterday.


Now to write a speech. Fortunately, it's a speech related to kicking Copenhagen's ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so I really don't mind 'Sno'
Title: Re: P35
Post by: P35 on June 20, 2008, 08:59:00 AM
Quote from: P35
I'm 46 and have dipped Copencrapin since I was 18. For most of that time, it was a can a day. The last year, it has gradually gone up to 2 cans a day. That's because I could buy the two packs cheaper than 2 individual cans. I knew if I wasn't careful, I'd end up going thru both cans in a single day...and that's where I ended up.

Well my wife finally cornered me  made me go to the dentist last week on 3/13/08. The ONLY good thing about it was that the dentist was right across the street, which meant I didnt' have to spit my snuff out until right before, then I could brush my teeth  run over there.

When I finally got back there, he looked at my mouth  said he's sending me to the periodontist for a biopsy of the "precancerous blablabla..." I really heard nothing else he said. My whole body was numb and I was sick to my core. A sickness I can't even describe...the worst you can imagine. I completely flipped out. No sleep, no eating, nothing. Sweaty panick, thoughts running completely crazy.

Luckily, I went to church last Sunday  that helped reel my runaway emotions back in.

Of course, I haven't touched any tobacco since before that dentist visit. I'm headed to the periodontist in a couple of hours. Today 03/20/08 is day 8 of my quit. Man I don't want to go do this doctor appointment!
March 13, 2008 at 9:26 am, I spit Copenhagen out of my mouth for the last time.

That was ONE HUNDRED DAYS AGO.

Thanks to the help of my brothers and sisters here, I never have to put that crap in my mouth again.

Thank each one of you who came up big when I needed you and told me I could do it when I wasn't at all sure. You are my friends for life.

Thanks for showing me there's life after dip. I no longer drag the ball  chain with me everywhere I go. Freedom is a very good thing.

Thanks.
Title: Re: P35
Post by: Whodey on June 20, 2008, 09:18:00 AM
Quote from: P35
Quote from: P35
I'm 46 and have dipped Copencrapin since I was 18.  For most of that time, it was a can a day.  The last year, it has gradually gone up to 2 cans a day.  That's because I could buy the two packs cheaper than 2 individual cans.  I knew if I wasn't careful, I'd end up going thru both cans in a single day...and that's where I ended up.

Well my wife finally cornered me  made me go to the dentist last week on 3/13/08.  The ONLY good thing about it was that the dentist was right across the street, which meant I didnt' have to spit my snuff out until right before, then I could brush my teeth  run over there.

When I finally got back there, he looked at my mouth  said he's sending me to the periodontist for a biopsy of the "precancerous blablabla..."  I really heard nothing else he said.  My whole body was numb and I was sick to my core.  A sickness I can't even describe...the worst you can imagine.  I completely flipped out.  No sleep, no eating, nothing.  Sweaty panick, thoughts running completely crazy.

Luckily, I went to church last Sunday  that helped reel my runaway emotions back in.

Of course, I haven't touched any tobacco since before that dentist visit.  I'm headed to the periodontist in a couple of hours.  Today 03/20/08 is day 8 of my quit. Man I don't want to go do this doctor appointment!
March 13, 2008 at 9:26 am, I spit Copenhagen out of my mouth for the last time.

That was ONE HUNDRED DAYS AGO.

Thanks to the help of my brothers and sisters here, I never have to put that crap in my mouth again.

Thank each one of you who came up big when I needed you and told me I could do it when I wasn't at all sure. You are my friends for life.

Thanks for showing me there's life after dip. I no longer drag the ball  chain with me everywhere I go. Freedom is a very good thing.

Thanks.
atta baby!!!
Title: Re: P35
Post by: 11X4 on June 20, 2008, 10:20:00 AM
Quote from: WhoDey
Quote from: P35
Quote from: P35
I'm 46 and have dipped Copencrapin since I was 18.  For most of that time, it was a can a day.  The last year, it has gradually gone up to 2 cans a day.  That's because I could buy the two packs cheaper than 2 individual cans.  I knew if I wasn't careful, I'd end up going thru both cans in a single day...and that's where I ended up.

Well my wife finally cornered me  made me go to the dentist last week on 3/13/08.  The ONLY good thing about it was that the dentist was right across the street, which meant I didnt' have to spit my snuff out until right before, then I could brush my teeth  run over there.

When I finally got back there, he looked at my mouth  said he's sending me to the periodontist for a biopsy of the "precancerous blablabla..."  I really heard nothing else he said.  My whole body was numb and I was sick to my core.  A sickness I can't even describe...the worst you can imagine.  I completely flipped out.  No sleep, no eating, nothing.  Sweaty panick, thoughts running completely crazy.

Luckily, I went to church last Sunday  that helped reel my runaway emotions back in.

Of course, I haven't touched any tobacco since before that dentist visit.  I'm headed to the periodontist in a couple of hours.  Today 03/20/08 is day 8 of my quit. Man I don't want to go do this doctor appointment!
March 13, 2008 at 9:26 am, I spit Copenhagen out of my mouth for the last time.

That was ONE HUNDRED DAYS AGO.

Thanks to the help of my brothers and sisters here, I never have to put that crap in my mouth again.

Thank each one of you who came up big when I needed you and told me I could do it when I wasn't at all sure. You are my friends for life.

Thanks for showing me there's life after dip. I no longer drag the ball  chain with me everywhere I go. Freedom is a very good thing.

Thanks.
atta baby!!!
Thanks for showing us that it can be done! Congrats P35!
Title: Re: P35
Post by: redtrain14 on June 20, 2008, 04:40:00 PM
Quote from: 11X4
Quote from: WhoDey
Quote from: P35
Quote from: P35
I'm 46 and have dipped Copencrapin since I was 18.  For most of that time, it was a can a day.  The last year, it has gradually gone up to 2 cans a day.  That's because I could buy the two packs cheaper than 2 individual cans.  I knew if I wasn't careful, I'd end up going thru both cans in a single day...and that's where I ended up.

Well my wife finally cornered me  made me go to the dentist last week on 3/13/08.  The ONLY good thing about it was that the dentist was right across the street, which meant I didnt' have to spit my snuff out until right before, then I could brush my teeth  run over there.

When I finally got back there, he looked at my mouth  said he's sending me to the periodontist for a biopsy of the "precancerous blablabla..."  I really heard nothing else he said.  My whole body was numb and I was sick to my core.  A sickness I can't even describe...the worst you can imagine.  I completely flipped out.  No sleep, no eating, nothing.  Sweaty panick, thoughts running completely crazy.

Luckily, I went to church last Sunday  that helped reel my runaway emotions back in.

Of course, I haven't touched any tobacco since before that dentist visit.  I'm headed to the periodontist in a couple of hours.  Today 03/20/08 is day 8 of my quit. Man I don't want to go do this doctor appointment!
March 13, 2008 at 9:26 am, I spit Copenhagen out of my mouth for the last time.

That was ONE HUNDRED DAYS AGO.

Thanks to the help of my brothers and sisters here, I never have to put that crap in my mouth again.

Thank each one of you who came up big when I needed you and told me I could do it when I wasn't at all sure. You are my friends for life.

Thanks for showing me there's life after dip. I no longer drag the ball  chain with me everywhere I go. Freedom is a very good thing.

Thanks.
atta baby!!!
Thanks for showing us that it can be done! Congrats P35!
Way to go P35!
Title: Re: P35
Post by: mule on June 20, 2008, 04:41:00 PM
Quote from: redtrain14
Quote from: 11X4
Quote from: WhoDey
Quote from: P35
Quote from: P35
I'm 46 and have dipped Copencrapin since I was 18.  For most of that time, it was a can a day.  The last year, it has gradually gone up to 2 cans a day.  That's because I could buy the two packs cheaper than 2 individual cans.  I knew if I wasn't careful, I'd end up going thru both cans in a single day...and that's where I ended up.

Well my wife finally cornered me  made me go to the dentist last week on 3/13/08.  The ONLY good thing about it was that the dentist was right across the street, which meant I didnt' have to spit my snuff out until right before, then I could brush my teeth  run over there.

When I finally got back there, he looked at my mouth  said he's sending me to the periodontist for a biopsy of the "precancerous blablabla..."  I really heard nothing else he said.  My whole body was numb and I was sick to my core.  A sickness I can't even describe...the worst you can imagine.  I completely flipped out.  No sleep, no eating, nothing.  Sweaty panick, thoughts running completely crazy.

Luckily, I went to church last Sunday  that helped reel my runaway emotions back in.

Of course, I haven't touched any tobacco since before that dentist visit.  I'm headed to the periodontist in a couple of hours.  Today 03/20/08 is day 8 of my quit. Man I don't want to go do this doctor appointment!
March 13, 2008 at 9:26 am, I spit Copenhagen out of my mouth for the last time.

That was ONE HUNDRED DAYS AGO.

Thanks to the help of my brothers and sisters here, I never have to put that crap in my mouth again.

Thank each one of you who came up big when I needed you and told me I could do it when I wasn't at all sure. You are my friends for life.

Thanks for showing me there's life after dip. I no longer drag the ball  chain with me everywhere I go. Freedom is a very good thing.

Thanks.
atta baby!!!
Thanks for showing us that it can be done! Congrats P35!
Way to go P35!
Most Excellent....Wahooo!!!!
Title: Re: P35
Post by: P35 on June 20, 2008, 06:16:00 PM
Thanks for all your help. Let's keep kickin it's butt  help rescue some others!!


'Remshot'
Title: Re: P35
Post by: P35 on September 14, 2010, 08:49:00 AM
Quote from: mule21
Quote from: redtrain14
Quote from: 11X4
Quote from: WhoDey
Quote from: P35
Quote from: P35
I'm 46 and have dipped Copencrapin since I was 18.  For most of that time, it was a can a day.  The last year, it has gradually gone up to 2 cans a day.  That's because I could buy the two packs cheaper than 2 individual cans.  I knew if I wasn't careful, I'd end up going thru both cans in a single day...and that's where I ended up.

Well my wife finally cornered me  made me go to the dentist last week on 3/13/08.  The ONLY good thing about it was that the dentist was right across the street, which meant I didnt' have to spit my snuff out until right before, then I could brush my teeth  run over there.

When I finally got back there, he looked at my mouth  said he's sending me to the periodontist for a biopsy of the "precancerous blablabla..."  I really heard nothing else he said.  My whole body was numb and I was sick to my core.  A sickness I can't even describe...the worst you can imagine.  I completely flipped out.  No sleep, no eating, nothing.  Sweaty panick, thoughts running completely crazy.

Luckily, I went to church last Sunday  that helped reel my runaway emotions back in.

Of course, I haven't touched any tobacco since before that dentist visit.  I'm headed to the periodontist in a couple of hours.  Today 03/20/08 is day 8 of my quit. Man I don't want to go do this doctor appointment!
March 13, 2008 at 9:26 am, I spit Copenhagen out of my mouth for the last time.

That was ONE HUNDRED DAYS AGO.

Thanks to the help of my brothers and sisters here, I never have to put that crap in my mouth again.

Thank each one of you who came up big when I needed you and told me I could do it when I wasn't at all sure. You are my friends for life.

Thanks for showing me there's life after dip. I no longer drag the ball  chain with me everywhere I go. Freedom is a very good thing.

Thanks.
atta baby!!!
Thanks for showing us that it can be done! Congrats P35!
Way to go P35!
Most Excellent....Wahooo!!!!
Just for fun, I went back  reread some of this. Just wanted to thank all you guys for your help 916 days ago. Thanks  thanks for this site. Let's all stay quit.
Title: Re: P35
Post by: BlahBlah on September 14, 2010, 12:30:00 PM
Thanks for drawing attention to your intro, P35. I probably wouldn't have seen it otherwise. Glad you are healthy and things are going well. I'm sure most of us have felt scared of cancer at some point or another and to read your story feels good. Thanks again.
Title: Re: P35
Post by: Fort on September 14, 2010, 01:49:00 PM
I have to agree with BlahBlah, it is great to see the stories from the long timers here. Is there a place where these stories can be found?

I cant wait for my 916th day of being Nic Free. Thanks for the inspiration to make 31 days tomorrow.