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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: jrws on May 16, 2012, 12:56:00 PM
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I have been using tobacco most of my life. I never thought it would be an addiction for me. As I grew up a bit, several things got ahold of my mind, body, and soul and pulled me away from the track I really wanted to be on. And I would pick up tobacco and put it down, it never seemed to be in that class of "substances" that could enslave me that way. A little over a year ago, I started using nicotine almost every day. If I felt stressed out, I would go have a smoke or pop a snus in my lip. Pretty soon that was at least 5 times a day I "HAD" to have mine, if not more. I started doing things I didn't want to do. Now nicotine has me doing shit that is not what I want for myself or in my life, on the daily. There is a lot of variety in the severity of those things and their effect on my life, from the nominal to the stupid to the downright low-bottom asshole kind of shit: and if you add them all up, it is a staggering amount of loss. I am a slave to this poison. I know you can not control many things in life, but this is a plant. It has to be planted, grown, harvested, manufactured, packaged, delivered, purchased, and then USED before it is a factor in my life.
Yesterday I chose not to USE any tobacco or nicotine. Last night I slept for about two hours, starting when the birds started chirping. I woke up pretty much soaked through with sweat. Now I am tired and not clear and sharp or compassionate, and I really need to be all of that today. My balls probably smell like vinegar. I am restless and irritable. I keep thinking, now is not the time to quit: "Just have a little bit, and this crap will go away, and you can quit later." So I am adding to my list of things I do not want in my life:
I do not want to be a slave to nicotine.
I do not want to start my quit "later".
I do not want to hear that inner-addict's thought and think that is my ideal self trying to do the right thing.
It does not matter what rational arguments go through my head, because that is the addict in me trying to pull me off the rails again. I quit yesterday, and I am going to stay quit today. That is me.
Nice to meet you all.
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I have been using tobacco most of my life. I never thought it would be an addiction for me. As I grew up a bit, several things got ahold of my mind, body, and soul and pulled me away from the track I really wanted to be on. And I would pick up tobacco and put it down, it never seemed to be in that class of "substances" that could enslave me that way. A little over a year ago, I started using nicotine almost every day. If I felt stressed out, I would go have a smoke or pop a snus in my lip. Pretty soon that was at least 5 times a day I "HAD" to have mine, if not more. I started doing things I didn't want to do. Now nicotine has me doing shit that is not what I want for myself or in my life, on the daily. There is a lot of variety in the severity of those things and their effect on my life, from the nominal to the stupid to the downright low-bottom asshole kind of shit: and if you add them all up, it is a staggering amount of loss. I am a slave to this poison. I know you can not control many things in life, but this is a plant. It has to be planted, grown, harvested, manufactured, packaged, delivered, purchased, and then USED before it is a factor in my life.
Yesterday I chose not to USE any tobacco or nicotine. Last night I slept for about two hours, starting when the birds started chirping. I woke up pretty much soaked through with sweat. Now I am tired and not clear and sharp or compassionate, and I really need to be all of that today. My balls probably smell like vinegar. I am restless and irritable. I keep thinking, now is not the time to quit: "Just have a little bit, and this crap will go away, and you can quit later." So I am adding to my list of things I do not want in my life:
I do not want to be a slave to nicotine.
I do not want to start my quit "later".
I do not want to hear that inner-addict's thought and think that is my ideal self trying to do the right thing.
It does not matter what rational arguments go through my head, because that is the addict in me trying to pull me off the rails again. I quit yesterday, and I am going to stay quit today. That is me.
Nice to meet you all.
'chew2' 'welcome' 'oh yeah'
SOLD!!!
Ladies and Gentlemen I think we have a real quitter here! JRWS, If I had to put a team together and recruit newbies to fight. I would pick you after this post!
Nicely done. Keep posting, this helps quitters get quit crazy!!!
I am quit with you today.
You are breaking the shackles that bind your spirit. (Its going to hurt)
Why would anyone want to quit later? You saw the light and are fucking Quit NOW!!!
You can become the ideal self. Dismiss the evil call out of self doubt.
You're on the track, take it day by day. Know it is a lot of work but only worry about your work load today.
Any newbies out there. I have watched people come and people go. If newbies were stock. I would invest JRWS. (Buy now!) This stock has promises of great ROI.
His whole statement rings with "I am calling the shots and I want to quit"
My observation: He didn't quit because he was afraid to get cancer, or because his family, work or logic told him to. (All of which are great motivators and not to be discredited) At the core, he quit because HE didn't want to be a slave. HE didn't want to let it control him and HE realized HE didn't like it. That is the hint of why I invest in his quit. True quitters at the core quit simply because they realize they hate tobacco and don't want it in their life anymore.
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Hey jrws,
Congrats on your decision to quit. Admitting you're an addict is a major step in the right direction.
The first days of quitting suck. There's no way around that.
But, believe me, the freedom is incredible and you're life is worth the fight!
Get connected with the August 2012 Quitters; Stop by the chat room; Read everything
you can (killthecan.org).
Most importantly, post roll early each day, making your promise to the group that you
will not touch nic that day. Repeat the process the next day. You'll be amazed at how
quickly the quit days go by.
If you need anything, just shout!
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jrws
I'm with the rest of these sick minded addicts!! You got your shit together and if you do what they suggest you will stay quit. It is time for you to take control of your actions back from the bitch nicotine. life will get better, It may get worse before it does get better BUT IT WILL GET BETTER!!
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Okay bitches...this guy works with me.
JR's a good man and I can literally see his ass from where I sit.
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Okay bitches...this guy works with me.
JR's a good man and I can literally see his ass from where I sit.
'rem' You mean like this????
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Okay bitches...this guy works with me.
JR's a good man and I can literally see his ass from where I sit.
'rem' You mean like this????
Yeah, but I save my stinky farts for when he tries that crap.
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I have heard many helpful things today, and I wanna write them here on my desktop's sticky-notes thingy to remind me...
"In the midst of a crave, Forever is not possible...Today is possible." - Another addict
"Life is short and if you're looking for extension, you had best do well. 'Cause there's good deeds and then there's good intentions. They are as far apart as Heaven and Hell." - Ben Harper
"No more" - Souliman
"Nobody Quits Tomorrow; We Can Only Quit Today!" - Keddy signature
"Not Now, Not Today! I am a Quit Man Day by Day. - Mthomas3824 signature
Gratitude abounds.
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jrws
I'm with the rest of these sick minded addicts!! You got your shit together and if you do what they suggest you will stay quit. It is time for you to take control of your actions back from the bitch nicotine. life will get better, It may get worse before it does get better BUT IT WILL GET BETTER!!
Wt57 - Your avatar cracks me up.
It makes me remember (fondly), a goofy early dip experience when I was a tween. That memory makes me think (with some regret) of walking the rural roads of WA picking up discarded butts from the road shoulder and smoking them. Then that makes me remember (with disgust) my first dip experience - I think I was three years-old. A step-dad to be had me at a garage in MT and him and the mechanics thought it would be fun to give me lip of copenhagen.
The best tobacco ever did for me was maybe help me break the ice and get a good lay. I say maybe 'cuz isn't that really a crutch, how many lays did I miss because I didn't have that as an ice breaker. I know I missed an almost sure threesome with some beautiful med students in Sacramento when I lit up. They made it a point to tell me why they were ditching me and what I was missing.
So tobacco didn't really start off all that great for me. And it didn't suddenly become a bad thing. I guess that might be missing in my first intro post, and I want to put this all down so I can laugh about it later, or remember it again if I need to.
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Okay bitches...this guy works with me.
JR's a good man and I can literally see his ass from where I sit.
You follow ole Souliman's lead!
He's a bad ass quitter!!
'sos69'
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Day 3! Outstanding.
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I have heard many helpful things today, and I wanna write them here on my desktop's sticky-notes thingy to remind me...
"In the midst of a crave, Forever is not possible...Today is possible." - Another addict
"Life is short and if you're looking for extension, you had best do well. 'Cause there's good deeds and then there's good intentions. They are as far apart as Heaven and Hell." - Ben Harper
"No more" - Souliman
"Nobody Quits Tomorrow; We Can Only Quit Today!" - Keddy signature
"Not Now, Not Today! I am a Quit Man Day by Day. - Mthomas3824 signature
Gratitude abounds.
Cavers find a way to cave. Quitters find a way to quit. ~ 30yr addict
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Best quotes:
"In the midst of a crave, Forever is not possible...Today is possible." - Another addict
"Life is short and if you're looking for extension, you had best do well. 'Cause there's good deeds and then there's good intentions. They are as far apart as Heaven and Hell." - Ben Harper
"No more" - Souliman
"Nobody Quits Tomorrow; We Can Only Quit Today!" - Keddy signature
"Not Now, Not Today! I am a Quit Man Day by Day. - Mthomas3824 signature
"Cavers find a way to cave. Quitters find a way to quit." another addict
"Now I can walk through walls and my quit can talk to god. That's right. Crazy voodoo magic quit" Souliman
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Okay bitches...this guy works with me.
JR's a good man and I can literally see his ass from where I sit.
Why is he showing you his ass at work?
What the fuck do you guys do? :unsure:
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Okay bitches...this guy works with me.
JR's a good man and I can literally see his ass from where I sit.
Why is he showing you his ass at work?
What the fuck do you guys do? :unsure:
We're the synchronized swim team "Thunder and Lightning".
I've seen you in the stands before NOLAQ...with your "I HEART THUNDER" shirt on. We appreciate your support. Thanks.
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Okay bitches...this guy works with me.
JR's a good man and I can literally see his ass from where I sit.
Why is he showing you his ass at work?
What the fuck do you guys do? :unsure:
We're the synchronized swim team "Thunder and Lightning".
I've seen you in the stands before NOLAQ...with your "I HEART THUNDER" shirt on. We appreciate your support. Thanks.
Look for our half-time show in next year's Super Bowl. We didn't have our shit together to qualify for the Olympics, but the routine will be badass by next February.
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Artist in the Ambulance - Thrice
QUOTE
Late night, brakes lock, hear the tires squeal
Red light, can't stop so I spin the wheel
My world goes black before I feel an angel lift me up
And I open bloodshot eyes into fluorescent white
They flip the siren, hit the lights, close the doors and I am gone
Now I lay here owing my life to a stranger
And I realize that empty words are not enough
I'm left here with the question of just
What have I to show except the promises I never kept?
I lie here shaking on this bed, under the weight of my regrets
[Chorus:]
I hope that I will never let you down
I know that this can be more than just flashing lights and sound
Look around and you'll see that at times it feels like no one really cares
It gets me down but I'm still gonna try to do what's right, I know that there's
A difference between sleight of hand, and giving everything you have
There's a line drawn in the sand, I'm working up the will to cross it and
[Chorus]
Rhetoric can't raise the dead
I'm sick of always talking when there's no change
Rhetoric can't raise the dead
I'm sick of empty words, let's lead and not follow
Late night, brakes lock, hear the tires squeal
Red light, can't stop so I spin the wheel
My world goes black before I feel an angel steal me from the
Greedy jaws of death and chance, and pull me in with steady hands
They've given me a second chance, the artist in the ambulance
[Chorus]
Can we pick you off the ground, more than flashing lights and sound
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This Buddhist sutra has helped me turn the corner on many other problems in my life and has transformed me. I want to share it with my KTC brothers and sisters. It is helpful for me to remember that the only thing I have control over are my actions, and I think this sums that idea up succinctly.
The Five Remembrances
(from the Pali Canon)
I am of the nature to grow old;
There is no way to escape growing old.
I am of the nature to have ill health;
There is no way to escape having ill health.
I am of the nature to die;
There is no way to escape death.
All that is dear to me and everyone I love are of the nature of change;
There is no way to escape being separated from them.
My deeds are my closest companions;
I am the beneï¬ciary of my deeds;
My deeds are the ground on which I stand.
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Life is bloody hard. Insomnia is bloody hard. My wife is awesome. My job is hard and awesome. My head is just plain hard. 'bang head' Ok, now it is bloody.
I never get a day already spent back to "do-over" if I blew it or "replay" if it was awesome- and life is short. I gotta make it count, each day.
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Life is bloody hard. Insomnia is bloody hard. My wife is awesome. My job is hard and awesome. My head is just plain hard. 'bang head' Ok, now it is bloody.
I never get a day already spent back to "do-over" if I blew it or "replay" if it was awesome- and life is short. I gotta make it count, each day.
Jr awesom post! My head is hard also! My wife is also
Awesome!! Stay close, stay strong and stay quit 1 day at a time!
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(to someone from Vegas who quit the day i did, caved on day 40, and admitted it as many days later)
I only know two things about you, one is you joined the same day I did, I think. If that is true, I have no more experience with this than you, so I ask not talking down to you.
I do have a damn PHD in being a miserable addict. Lying, enslaved to some shit that makes a person feel and be "less than", risking your quality of life for no gain, and dumping the honor we all have within our reach for a self-delusion. I know that experience, and I think maybe you do too. This addict has made a mistress out of the most notorious drugs on earth, a "benign but deadly" one that they can still advertise on TV, and just about anything else I have emptied my mind for. Being an addict, and the soul-sucking that comes with it, is yours and mine forever, whatever form it takes. If you think I am blowing this out of proportion, that it its only a little dip, that it didn't happen that much, think of what it just had you do. I don't think if my wife caught me being unfaithful she would give a shit if I just put it in "a little", or if it was only a friend, or whatever. Whatever it was, it was stronger than me.
I never thought tobacco would be an addiction for me, and I am fucking surprised as hell at how hard it is to quit. With the strength of this group, the simplicity of posting roll when you wake up, honoring that act for the remaining day, having the humility to admit you are a full-fledged drug addict, and the courage to ask for/accept help when you need it- that is what, a four-step program? I know wet-brains and steal-from-mom methheads that make it through 12 step programs and come out on top. They work their program. I am working this one. With a little help from this group, I might make it today. Each day is an improvement over the last one, if only because I am a day farther from my last day of cheating myself this way.
If you have to make it more complicated: write an introduction, get some digits and text some other nicotine addict once a week whether you need to our not, read the whole intro site again if you have to, find a safe alternative, get into a sparring match with me, whatever. You don't have to do anything, but you gotta do better than you are doing.
I am not going to say kudos for sacking up and doing what you are supposed to do finally. I am gonna "anonymize" this and add it to my own intro page. I may need to use the sympathy I have for you to keep me from going down that road you did myself some day. After all, I am an addict, I can do what you did, easily, any day. _ jrws
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Cross-posting from a bitch-and-moan forum on day 85. Yeah I suck but so do you.
Eye of the hurricane; tropical paradise; surfing up a tsunami
Doing shit half-ass and calling it eighty-twenty.
Doing half-ass shit eighty percent of the time.
The rest of the time, doing tight work and watching it die on the vine.
Being so "transparent" you are fighting off your back round after round while the business end of business ground-and-pounds your ass.
Being so "agile" you have whiplash from the acute thrash being done each sprint.
Getting the save for your starter's shut-out play and then watching the rest of the rotation walk-in game winning runs the rest of the series.
Spending twenty percent of your time on a game-plan for the title shot and then finding out your are being usurped by some young punk with a more cutthroat agent, just like last time.
Spending the rest of your time training to grind out yet another fight on the undercard.
Breaking your damn hand grinding out a split-decision on that know-nothing lay-and-pray punk-ass bitch.
The difference between what your crew is expected to do, and what they are allowed to do.
Having a beer-belly and not drinking any fucking beer.
'bang head'
Oh well.
'flush'
The Supersonics are long gone but at least the Celtics ended up with Pierce. I left the Silicon Forest to be one of the New English, anyways. The talent here are mostly prudes but at least the local pros win championships for you.
'Sno'
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Shit I am mad at myself. 95 days ago I quit smoking and started posting roll on this site. I took it on faith from a man I know in real life, who has a lot of sack, that this site would help me quit smoking, even though most people here are here to quit chew. I needed to keep things simple at first so I just avoided saying that while my drug of choice of the day was nicotine, same as you, my preferred method of ingestion was burning cancer sticks and inhaling deeply. I was careful, and I can look back at my posts, and I can see that I never lied. I dipped pouched snused snorted snuffed patched chewed cigars redman applejack cope kodiak and I also smoked buttless cigarettes like a damn fiend. Lucky strikes, camels, chesterfields, american spirits, pall malls, nat shermans and anything I could roll or snap the filter off of. I tried several times to quit or cut back and it never worked until I came here and did what people told me. I can also say that I feel like I had a secret, and that sometimes I feel a bit like a phony.
Last night I was craving badly, and I went on chat and I was saved from my cave for a few by a few good folks. I also ended up reading woosel's intro and damned if that man doesn't just come right out and say the thing I was AFRAID to say to you all: that I smoked, and I need help to stay quit. I guess I wanted to "fit-in" and so I also alienated myself. Now I think staying quit is going to mean staying in the middle of this community of quitters for more than 100 days, and I want to clear the air and get this off my chest. I woke up this morning, still quit, no caves, and wrote this up in gratitude. I hope this doesn't jeopardize anything for me or my quit or my quit bros and sisters. I do hope someone new here reads this someday so he or she starts out with the truth and doesn't carry the burden of a secret so important to their addiction for a day, let alone 95. Even if we use handles and stay somewhat anonymous, this IS real life too and one should keep it real.
Thanks for reading,
jrws
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Jrws no worries you have nothing to hide. Weather you dip or smoke or how ever you got your nic fix we are all here to quit. Lots of people here smoke as well as dip so you should not feel the way you do. You are a great quitter and an honest person it has been my pleasure to get to know you more than your handle of Jrws. If you need anything you got my number brother im quit with you.
one more thing why do you hide all these awesome words in introductions this should be out for all to see and read. People should read your entire introduction page. Quit hiding this and post it in our August group.
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Jrws no worries you have nothing to hide. Weather you dip or smoke or how ever you got your nic fix we are all here to quit. Lots of people here smoke as well as dip so you should not feel the way you do. You are a great quitter and an honest person it has been my pleasure to get to know you more than your handle of Jrws. If you need anything you got my number brother im quit with you.
one more thing why do you hide all these awesome words in introductions this should be out for all to see and read. People should read your entire introduction page. Quit hiding this and post it in our August group.
Thanks brother. Yeah I posted it up there, on your advice, and I figure the intro page is good though too, since it doesn't get all lost in the mix. It is all about the congrats for the HOFs now on our board which is all good.Llike you man, GOOD JOB, with your quit and your fellowship, you are an understated role model. All right, have good weekend, I better go before the man love jokes start.
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100 days...congratulations bud. That's excellent shit right there.
Glad you're here man.
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Congrats on the HOF! The first milestone in your quit. Quit like fuck with you today!
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You know what - quitters that have built into any part of their quit plan something that involves fear of their wife/husband/spouse/fiance/girlfriend/mom/dad/kid are in a lot of trouble. It is one thing to be honest with your loved ones that you are going to quit, and it is another thing to allow them to support you, but if you think that them watching your roll here or hiding your keys or any other thing is going to help you quit are fooling yourself and hobbling your quit.
Grow up or get out.
Quit Like Fuck For Yourself.
jrws speaking a little religion -- couldn't agree more that it is all about the 2 of you... you and your quit. Everything else is a "feel good" or a "distraction". In the end... it's you and the QUIT, so make it strong for you.
Thanks for the ack, Smoke. Even my religion is selfish - I wrote this so that I would feel better about a two-faced, and now two-time caver and fake roll poster, falling victim to that "my fiance is gonna help me" shit. I am trying not to let this get under my skin but I just had to say something. If it helps someone else, fine. At least I feel a little better now.
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100 days...congratulations bud. That's excellent shit right there.
Glad you're here man.
Likewise bro. Keep it up and rock solid, no matter what.
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Congrats on the HOF! The first milestone in your quit. Quit like fuck with you today!
And I QLF with you AND without you. You are the balls Coach. Thanks.
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Congrats on the HOF! The first milestone in your quit. Quit like fuck with you today!
And I QLF with you AND without you. You are the balls Coach. Thanks.
Congrats man.
Very proud of you. Keep up the good work.
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Congrats on the HOF! The first milestone in your quit. Quit like fuck with you today!
And I QLF with you AND without you. You are the balls Coach. Thanks.
I am the balls. Not sure exactly what that means but it has a nice ring to it.
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Congrats on the HOF! The first milestone in your quit. Quit like fuck with you today!
And I QLF with you AND without you. You are the balls Coach. Thanks.
I am the balls. Not sure exactly what that means but it has a nice ring to it.
Well if you are up in Eastern Massachusetts and someone says you are wicked pissah, you can keep drinking. They just mean you are the balls. The New English say strange things in strange accents. (Being a West Coast kid, this all took some getting used to.)
'Crazy'
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Courtesy of NOLAQ (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=3449)
'oh yeah'
'I'm with stupid'
'clap'
'assman'
'chief'
'chain'
'bangin'
'Sing and Drink'
'sos'
'loot02'
'do it'
'Cheers'
'BanDog'
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"From fairest creatures we desire increase,
That thereby beauty's rose might never die,
But as the riper should by time decease,
His tender heir might bear his memory:
But thou contracted to thine own bright eyes,
Feed'st thy light's flame with self-substantial fuel,
Making a famine where abundance lies,
Thy self thy foe, to thy sweet self too cruel:
Thou that art now the world's fresh ornament,
And only herald to the gaudy spring,
Within thine own bud buriest thy content,
And, tender churl, mak'st waste in niggarding:
Pity the world, or else this glutton be,
To eat the world's due, by the grave and thee." - The Bard
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Day 123 - I meet with my good ol' head shrinker and after 90 minutes, I pretty much find myself on the edge of my cave. The cave seemed as imminent as it did 120 days ago.
Lucky for me, a young gun on his first 45 days had a reason to text me during that meeting- and he was able to take a call and save my dumbaass from my dumbass self. Of course, my dumbass only was smartened up enough long enough not to cave for my nicstress - I still was a dumbass and did not text him back when I said I would.
Sorry man. Mike17, I am calling you out for being a good quit brother today, and by name because I want to share how this guy (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showuser=15112), with a tiny bit of time quit, can have his ass saved by the wisdom, fire, and fight of a guy with half his days.
Numbers really aint much shit. It is the quality of the quit that matters.
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Day 123 - I meet with my good ol' head shrinker and after 90 minutes, I pretty much find myself on the edge of my cave. The cave seemed as imminent as it did 120 days ago.
Lucky for me, a young gun on his first 45 days had a reason to text me during that meeting- and he was able to take a call and save my dumbaass from my dumbass self. Of course, my dumbass only was smartened up enough long enough not to cave for my nicstress - I still was a dumbass and did not text him back when I said I would.
Sorry man. Mike17, I am calling you out for being a good quit brother today, and by name because I want to share how this guy (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showuser=15112), with a tiny bit of time quit, can have his ass saved by the wisdom, fire, and fight of a guy with half his days.
Numbers really aint much shit. It is the quality of the quit that matters.
Concentrate daily on improving the quality of your quit. I will stand with you and help how I can. PM for some digits.
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Day 123 - I meet with my good ol' head shrinker and after 90 minutes, I pretty much find myself on the edge of my cave. The cave seemed as imminent as it did 120 days ago.
Lucky for me, a young gun on his first 45 days had a reason to text me during that meeting- and he was able to take a call and save my dumbaass from my dumbass self. Of course, my dumbass only was smartened up enough long enough not to cave for my nicstress - I still was a dumbass and did not text him back when I said I would.
Sorry man. Mike17, I am calling you out for being a good quit brother today, and by name because I want to share how this guy (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showuser=15112), with a tiny bit of time quit, can have his ass saved by the wisdom, fire, and fight of a guy with half his days.
Numbers really aint much shit. It is the quality of the quit that matters.
Concentrate daily on improving the quality of your quit. I will stand with you and help how I can. PM for some digits.
The essence of Quit For Today....... Good post brother.
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Day 123 - I meet with my good ol' head shrinker and after 90 minutes, I pretty much find myself on the edge of my cave. The cave seemed as imminent as it did 120 days ago.
Lucky for me, a young gun on his first 45 days had a reason to text me during that meeting- and he was able to take a call and save my dumbaass from my dumbass self. Of course, my dumbass only was smartened up enough long enough not to cave for my nicstress - I still was a dumbass and did not text him back when I said I would.
Sorry man. Mike17, I am calling you out for being a good quit brother today, and by name because I want to share how this guy (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showuser=15112), with a tiny bit of time quit, can have his ass saved by the wisdom, fire, and fight of a guy with half his days.
Numbers really aint much shit. It is the quality of the quit that matters.
Concentrate daily on improving the quality of your quit. I will stand with you and help how I can. PM for some digits.
The essence of Quit For Today....... Good post brother.
Thanks to you both. BTW - 120 days ago I got married. Pretty much nothing unusual happened today that I can figure out, except this intense crave. It just goes to show me that just about anything can get this addict fixated on a fix.
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Happy birthday Jacob Allan Martin. You would have been 36 today if it weren't for those fucking chromosomes you were dealt.But then again, you might not have been the only man in the world fit to be my big brother. I am glad we got in that fight on the soccer field in fifth grade, and I am glad I was able to hold the toughest kid in Washington in a wrestling stalemate. We took Olympia and Lacey by storm, and owned those burghs. I fucking miss you. Rest in peace. Say hi to my little brother for me.
I am going to eat a huge fucking steak for you today.
'sos69'
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jrws - day 177 - i spent a few days away from here. some people who really give a shit pulled me back in. thanks guys. I would rather have you KTC on my back than that nic bitch
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Still day 177, from August 2012 and placed here for posterity:
This KTC stuff is for real. I have not been quitting with all my heart. I have wanted to drift away. Maybe I am a dumbshit for thinking it is not the nic bitch, and maybe I am a dumbshit for not realizing how contradictory the following statement is:
So many people have helped me stay free. CannondaleRob, woosel, Morgan1, Want2Quit, Eric71, woosel, Coach Steve, Souliman, the crockett, greg1292, Mike17, and the list goes on and on. If you are on my list, I feel some obligation to post on your board. It is a daily effort, one I hoped to take off that other list of things to do each day. At the same time, awesome quitters like SirDerek and Kstamp and BTH and all of the above; that genuinely intimidate me with all of the amazing, selfless things they do with the rest of their lives, make me ashamed to not spend some time here.
Even totally selfishly, I know that at some point, I will need KTC again, whether as a struggling quitter or a retread, and it is probably best to stay close to the folks who get it.
I have been tempted to quit my KTC quit. I tried to quit posting roll.
Some of you really cared enough to call me on it. It wasn't a posture, a part of me wants to give this up. The response has made me feel like I am with Family, for better or worse. I can leave, but at my own peril. I can stay, and be protected by people stronger than me alone. Genuine gratitude to anyone who has missed little ol' jrws - I am proud to be part of your community even if I have sucked at it at times.
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Still day 177, from August 2012 and placed here for posterity:
This KTC stuff is for real. I have not been quitting with all my heart. I have wanted to drift away. Maybe I am a dumbshit for thinking it is not the nic bitch, and maybe I am a dumbshit for not realizing how contradictory the following statement is:
So many people have helped me stay free. CannondaleRob, woosel, Morgan1, Want2Quit, Eric71, woosel, Coach Steve, Souliman, the crockett, greg1292, Mike17, and the list goes on and on. If you are on my list, I feel some obligation to post on your board. It is a daily effort, one I hoped to take off that other list of things to do each day. At the same time, awesome quitters like SirDerek and Kstamp and BTH and all of the above; that genuinely intimidate me with all of the amazing, selfless things they do with the rest of their lives, make me ashamed to not spend some time here.
Even totally selfishly, I know that at some point, I will need KTC again, whether as a struggling quitter or a retread, and it is probably best to stay close to the folks who get it.
I have been tempted to quit my KTC quit. I tried to quit posting roll.
Some of you really cared enough to call me on it. It wasn't a posture, a part of me wants to give this up. The response has made me feel like I am with Family, for better or worse. I can leave, but at my own peril. I can stay, and be protected by people stronger than me alone. Genuine gratitude to anyone who has missed little ol' jrws - I am proud to be part of your community even if I have sucked at it at times.
Your only obligation is to post roll in August 12 each day and stay quit. Nothing more, nothing less. WE are not YOU. We don't make your decisions for you.
Close the door. Do not leave it ajar or that sneaky bitch will find her way in. The good news is....once you close the door, the bitch can't figure out how to turn a knob. You'll still hear her clawing on the other side trying to get in, but that's as far as she'll get.
Nothing good can possibly come from letting that bitch back in your life.
Quit Like Fuck.
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Still day 177, from August 2012 and placed here for posterity:
This KTC stuff is for real. I have not been quitting with all my heart. I have wanted to drift away. Maybe I am a dumbshit for thinking it is not the nic bitch, and maybe I am a dumbshit for not realizing how contradictory the following statement is:
So many people have helped me stay free. CannondaleRob, woosel, Morgan1, Want2Quit, Eric71, woosel, Coach Steve, Souliman, the crockett, greg1292, Mike17, and the list goes on and on. If you are on my list, I feel some obligation to post on your board. It is a daily effort, one I hoped to take off that other list of things to do each day. At the same time, awesome quitters like SirDerek and Kstamp and BTH and all of the above; that genuinely intimidate me with all of the amazing, selfless things they do with the rest of their lives, make me ashamed to not spend some time here.
Even totally selfishly, I know that at some point, I will need KTC again, whether as a struggling quitter or a retread, and it is probably best to stay close to the folks who get it.
I have been tempted to quit my KTC quit. I tried to quit posting roll.
Some of you really cared enough to call me on it. It wasn't a posture, a part of me wants to give this up. The response has made me feel like I am with Family, for better or worse. I can leave, but at my own peril. I can stay, and be protected by people stronger than me alone. Genuine gratitude to anyone who has missed little ol' jrws - I am proud to be part of your community even if I have sucked at it at times.
Your only obligation is to post roll in August 12 each day and stay quit. Nothing more, nothing less. WE are not YOU. We don't make your decisions for you.
Close the door. Do not leave it ajar or that sneaky bitch will find her way in. The good news is....once you close the door, the bitch can't figure out how to turn a knob. You'll still hear her clawing on the other side trying to get in, but that's as far as she'll get.
Nothing good can possibly come from letting that bitch back in your life.
Quit Like Fuck.
:ph43r: Ninja quit? Nope. Gonna get back to QLF instead. Too many ways to hurt yourself toting around ninja gear. :ph43r:
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Still day 177, from August 2012 and placed here for posterity:
This KTC stuff is for real. I have not been quitting with all my heart. I have wanted to drift away. Maybe I am a dumbshit for thinking it is not the nic bitch, and maybe I am a dumbshit for not realizing how contradictory the following statement is:
So many people have helped me stay free. CannondaleRob, woosel, Morgan1, Want2Quit, Eric71, woosel, Coach Steve, Souliman, the crockett, greg1292, Mike17, and the list goes on and on. If you are on my list, I feel some obligation to post on your board. It is a daily effort, one I hoped to take off that other list of things to do each day. At the same time, awesome quitters like SirDerek and Kstamp and BTH and all of the above; that genuinely intimidate me with all of the amazing, selfless things they do with the rest of their lives, make me ashamed to not spend some time here.
Even totally selfishly, I know that at some point, I will need KTC again, whether as a struggling quitter or a retread, and it is probably best to stay close to the folks who get it.
I have been tempted to quit my KTC quit. I tried to quit posting roll.
Some of you really cared enough to call me on it. It wasn't a posture, a part of me wants to give this up. The response has made me feel like I am with Family, for better or worse. I can leave, but at my own peril. I can stay, and be protected by people stronger than me alone. Genuine gratitude to anyone who has missed little ol' jrws - I am proud to be part of your community even if I have sucked at it at times.
Your only obligation is to post roll in August 12 each day and stay quit. Nothing more, nothing less. WE are not YOU. We don't make your decisions for you.
Close the door. Do not leave it ajar or that sneaky bitch will find her way in. The good news is....once you close the door, the bitch can't figure out how to turn a knob. You'll still hear her clawing on the other side trying to get in, but that's as far as she'll get.
Nothing good can possibly come from letting that bitch back in your life.
Quit Like Fuck.
:ph43r: Ninja quit? Nope. Gonna get back to QLF instead. Too many ways to hurt yourself toting around ninja gear. :ph43r:
Seriously? Two weeks later? jrws - (you, dude), you suck at QLF/KTC/QSX - I am surprised you haven't been sacked from the site yet!
But trying again, on Day 190, to be better than the guy I was yesterday.
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Still day 177, from August 2012 and placed here for posterity:
This KTC stuff is for real. I have not been quitting with all my heart. I have wanted to drift away. Maybe I am a dumbshit for thinking it is not the nic bitch, and maybe I am a dumbshit for not realizing how contradictory the following statement is:
So many people have helped me stay free. CannondaleRob, woosel, Morgan1, Want2Quit, Eric71, woosel, Coach Steve, Souliman, the crockett, greg1292, Mike17, and the list goes on and on. If you are on my list, I feel some obligation to post on your board. It is a daily effort, one I hoped to take off that other list of things to do each day. At the same time, awesome quitters like SirDerek and Kstamp and BTH and all of the above; that genuinely intimidate me with all of the amazing, selfless things they do with the rest of their lives, make me ashamed to not spend some time here.
Even totally selfishly, I know that at some point, I will need KTC again, whether as a struggling quitter or a retread, and it is probably best to stay close to the folks who get it.
I have been tempted to quit my KTC quit. I tried to quit posting roll.
Some of you really cared enough to call me on it. It wasn't a posture, a part of me wants to give this up. The response has made me feel like I am with Family, for better or worse. I can leave, but at my own peril. I can stay, and be protected by people stronger than me alone. Genuine gratitude to anyone who has missed little ol' jrws - I am proud to be part of your community even if I have sucked at it at times.
Your only obligation is to post roll in August 12 each day and stay quit. Nothing more, nothing less. WE are not YOU. We don't make your decisions for you.
Close the door. Do not leave it ajar or that sneaky bitch will find her way in. The good news is....once you close the door, the bitch can't figure out how to turn a knob. You'll still hear her clawing on the other side trying to get in, but that's as far as she'll get.
Nothing good can possibly come from letting that bitch back in your life.
Quit Like Fuck.
:ph43r: Ninja quit? Nope. Gonna get back to QLF instead. Too many ways to hurt yourself toting around ninja gear. :ph43r:
Seriously? Two weeks later? jrws - (you, dude), you suck at QLF/KTC/QSX - I am surprised you haven't been sacked from the site yet!
But trying again, on Day 190, to be better than the guy I was yesterday.
Hey man - do your thing. But we want you here. We want you to remain quit - to remain part of the brotherhood that is here. Welcome back....again.
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I have been gone awhile... AGAIN. Yes there has been extenuating circumstances but I have also just plain quit like a pussy. Eight days ago I was in in ICU, and I am still getting over pneumonia. Yesterday I saw one of my neighbors who helped my family out a lot all these times I have been in the hospital - a guy I care about. He was smoking a butt. He has a beautiful little girl. I hate to say it, but I realized how much I sucked for dropping out here and not posting roll with my fellow addicts. One day this neighbor might be asking for a hand in quitting and I damn well better be QLF on that day I bring him over here.
I am renewing my pledge of accountability to post roll each day. I hope everyone in my quit group and the greater community will take me back in. It would be great to post a year here, and I can do that one post at a time.
Thanks Morgan1, Woosel, Coach Steve, Souliman, and the rest of you that kept reaching out to a lost soul.
- jrws 2/24/2012
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I have been gone awhile... AGAIN. Yes there has been extenuating circumstances but I have also just plain quit like a pussy. Eight days ago I was in in ICU, and I am still getting over pneumonia. Yesterday I saw one of my neighbors who helped my family out a lot all these times I have been in the hospital - a guy I care about. He was smoking a butt. He has a beautiful little girl. I hate to say it, but I realized how much I sucked for dropping out here and not posting roll with my fellow addicts. One day this neighbor might be asking for a hand in quitting and I damn well better be QLF on that day I bring him over here.
I am renewing my pledge of accountability to post roll each day. I hope everyone in my quit group and the greater community will take me back in. It would be great to post a year here, and I can do that one post at a time.
Thanks Morgan1, Woosel, Coach Steve, Souliman, and the rest of you that kept reaching out to a lost soul.
- jrws 2/24/2012
I for one am happy to see someone come back to the site without having to post a day 1! Do what you have to do to keep your quit strong. Welcome back, again....
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I have been gone awhile... AGAIN. Yes there has been extenuating circumstances but I have also just plain quit like a pussy. Eight days ago I was in in ICU, and I am still getting over pneumonia. Yesterday I saw one of my neighbors who helped my family out a lot all these times I have been in the hospital - a guy I care about. He was smoking a butt. He has a beautiful little girl. I hate to say it, but I realized how much I sucked for dropping out here and not posting roll with my fellow addicts. One day this neighbor might be asking for a hand in quitting and I damn well better be QLF on that day I bring him over here.
I am renewing my pledge of accountability to post roll each day. I hope everyone in my quit group and the greater community will take me back in. It would be great to post a year here, and I can do that one post at a time.
Thanks Morgan1, Woosel, Coach Steve, Souliman, and the rest of you that kept reaching out to a lost soul.
- jrws 2/24/2012
I for one am happy to see someone come back to the site without having to post a day 1! Do what you have to do to keep your quit strong. Welcome back, again....
I'm not going anywhere and neither are you. I'm proud you're here man. Keep fighting one day at a time.
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I have been gone awhile... AGAIN. Yes there has been extenuating circumstances but I have also just plain quit like a pussy. Eight days ago I was in in ICU, and I am still getting over pneumonia. Yesterday I saw one of my neighbors who helped my family out a lot all these times I have been in the hospital - a guy I care about. He was smoking a butt. He has a beautiful little girl. I hate to say it, but I realized how much I sucked for dropping out here and not posting roll with my fellow addicts. One day this neighbor might be asking for a hand in quitting and I damn well better be QLF on that day I bring him over here.
I am renewing my pledge of accountability to post roll each day. I hope everyone in my quit group and the greater community will take me back in. It would be great to post a year here, and I can do that one post at a time.
Thanks Morgan1, Woosel, Coach Steve, Souliman, and the rest of you that kept reaching out to a lost soul.
- jrws 2/24/2012
I for one am happy to see someone come back to the site without having to post a day 1! Do what you have to do to keep your quit strong. Welcome back, again....
I'm not going anywhere and neither are you. I'm proud you're here man. Keep fighting one day at a time.
Hey man, lets hope others read this as you have showed that you have in fact learned what this site is about, and realized it before it was too late.
I am certain the groups will shake your hand and enjoy your company again for many days to come, just watch as you may get a swift kick in the butt or slap across the back of the head.
Welcome back and glad it is not because of a day 1 (as Taz has said).
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I have been gone awhile... AGAIN. Yes there has been extenuating circumstances but I have also just plain quit like a pussy. Eight days ago I was in in ICU, and I am still getting over pneumonia. Yesterday I saw one of my neighbors who helped my family out a lot all these times I have been in the hospital - a guy I care about. He was smoking a butt. He has a beautiful little girl. I hate to say it, but I realized how much I sucked for dropping out here and not posting roll with my fellow addicts. One day this neighbor might be asking for a hand in quitting and I damn well better be QLF on that day I bring him over here.
I am renewing my pledge of accountability to post roll each day. I hope everyone in my quit group and the greater community will take me back in. It would be great to post a year here, and I can do that one post at a time.
Thanks Morgan1, Woosel, Coach Steve, Souliman, and the rest of you that kept reaching out to a lost soul.
- jrws 2/24/2012
I for one am happy to see someone come back to the site without having to post a day 1! Do what you have to do to keep your quit strong. Welcome back, again....
I'm not going anywhere and neither are you. I'm proud you're here man. Keep fighting one day at a time.
Hey man, lets hope others read this as you have showed that you have in fact learned what this site is about, and realized it before it was too late.
I am certain the groups will shake your hand and enjoy your company again for many days to come, just watch as you may get a swift kick in the butt or slap across the back of the head.
Welcome back and glad it is not because of a day 1 (as Taz has said).
x 4
I've been posting in August 12 every day just waiting for your ass to make it back here.
Quit Like Fuck.
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I have been gone awhile... AGAIN. Yes there has been extenuating circumstances but I have also just plain quit like a pussy. Eight days ago I was in in ICU, and I am still getting over pneumonia. Yesterday I saw one of my neighbors who helped my family out a lot all these times I have been in the hospital - a guy I care about. He was smoking a butt. He has a beautiful little girl. I hate to say it, but I realized how much I sucked for dropping out here and not posting roll with my fellow addicts. One day this neighbor might be asking for a hand in quitting and I damn well better be QLF on that day I bring him over here.
I am renewing my pledge of accountability to post roll each day. I hope everyone in my quit group and the greater community will take me back in. It would be great to post a year here, and I can do that one post at a time.
Thanks Morgan1, Woosel, Coach Steve, Souliman, and the rest of you that kept reaching out to a lost soul.
- jrws 2/24/2012
I for one am happy to see someone come back to the site without having to post a day 1! Do what you have to do to keep your quit strong. Welcome back, again....
I'm not going anywhere and neither are you. I'm proud you're here man. Keep fighting one day at a time.
Hey man, lets hope others read this as you have showed that you have in fact learned what this site is about, and realized it before it was too late.
I am certain the groups will shake your hand and enjoy your company again for many days to come, just watch as you may get a swift kick in the butt or slap across the back of the head.
Welcome back and glad it is not because of a day 1 (as Taz has said).
x 4
I've been posting in August 12 every day just waiting for your ass to make it back here.
Quit Like Fuck.
sniff I wanna buy you all lap dances.
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I have been gone awhile... AGAIN. Yes there has been extenuating circumstances but I have also just plain quit like a pussy. Eight days ago I was in in ICU, and I am still getting over pneumonia. Yesterday I saw one of my neighbors who helped my family out a lot all these times I have been in the hospital - a guy I care about. He was smoking a butt. He has a beautiful little girl. I hate to say it, but I realized how much I sucked for dropping out here and not posting roll with my fellow addicts. One day this neighbor might be asking for a hand in quitting and I damn well better be QLF on that day I bring him over here.
I am renewing my pledge of accountability to post roll each day. I hope everyone in my quit group and the greater community will take me back in. It would be great to post a year here, and I can do that one post at a time.
Thanks Morgan1, Woosel, Coach Steve, Souliman, and the rest of you that kept reaching out to a lost soul.
- jrws 2/24/2012
I for one am happy to see someone come back to the site without having to post a day 1! Do what you have to do to keep your quit strong. Welcome back, again....
I'm not going anywhere and neither are you. I'm proud you're here man. Keep fighting one day at a time.
Hey man, lets hope others read this as you have showed that you have in fact learned what this site is about, and realized it before it was too late.
I am certain the groups will shake your hand and enjoy your company again for many days to come, just watch as you may get a swift kick in the butt or slap across the back of the head.
Welcome back and glad it is not because of a day 1 (as Taz has said).
x 4
I've been posting in August 12 every day just waiting for your ass to make it back here.
Quit Like Fuck.
sniff I wanna buy you all lap dances.
I'm pretty all those other guys are ghey. So just send them dancers my way.
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I have been gone awhile... AGAIN. Yes there has been extenuating circumstances but I have also just plain quit like a pussy. Eight days ago I was in in ICU, and I am still getting over pneumonia. Yesterday I saw one of my neighbors who helped my family out a lot all these times I have been in the hospital - a guy I care about. He was smoking a butt. He has a beautiful little girl. I hate to say it, but I realized how much I sucked for dropping out here and not posting roll with my fellow addicts. One day this neighbor might be asking for a hand in quitting and I damn well better be QLF on that day I bring him over here.
I am renewing my pledge of accountability to post roll each day. I hope everyone in my quit group and the greater community will take me back in. It would be great to post a year here, and I can do that one post at a time.
Thanks Morgan1, Woosel, Coach Steve, Souliman, and the rest of you that kept reaching out to a lost soul.
- jrws 2/24/2012
I for one am happy to see someone come back to the site without having to post a day 1! Do what you have to do to keep your quit strong. Welcome back, again....
I'm not going anywhere and neither are you. I'm proud you're here man. Keep fighting one day at a time.
Hey man, lets hope others read this as you have showed that you have in fact learned what this site is about, and realized it before it was too late.
I am certain the groups will shake your hand and enjoy your company again for many days to come, just watch as you may get a swift kick in the butt or slap across the back of the head.
Welcome back and glad it is not because of a day 1 (as Taz has said).
x 4
I've been posting in August 12 every day just waiting for your ass to make it back here.
Quit Like Fuck.
sniff I wanna buy you all lap dances.
I'm pretty all those other guys are ghey. So just send them dancers my way.
'Kiss'
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I have been gone awhile... AGAIN. Yes there has been extenuating circumstances but I have also just plain quit like a pussy. Eight days ago I was in in ICU, and I am still getting over pneumonia. Yesterday I saw one of my neighbors who helped my family out a lot all these times I have been in the hospital - a guy I care about. He was smoking a butt. He has a beautiful little girl. I hate to say it, but I realized how much I sucked for dropping out here and not posting roll with my fellow addicts. One day this neighbor might be asking for a hand in quitting and I damn well better be QLF on that day I bring him over here.
I am renewing my pledge of accountability to post roll each day. I hope everyone in my quit group and the greater community will take me back in. It would be great to post a year here, and I can do that one post at a time.
Thanks Morgan1, Woosel, Coach Steve, Souliman, and the rest of you that kept reaching out to a lost soul.
- jrws 2/24/2012
I for one am happy to see someone come back to the site without having to post a day 1! Do what you have to do to keep your quit strong. Welcome back, again....
I'm not going anywhere and neither are you. I'm proud you're here man. Keep fighting one day at a time.
Hey man, lets hope others read this as you have showed that you have in fact learned what this site is about, and realized it before it was too late.
I am certain the groups will shake your hand and enjoy your company again for many days to come, just watch as you may get a swift kick in the butt or slap across the back of the head.
Welcome back and glad it is not because of a day 1 (as Taz has said).
x 4
I've been posting in August 12 every day just waiting for your ass to make it back here.
Quit Like Fuck.
sniff I wanna buy you all lap dances.
I'm pretty all those other guys are ghey. So just send them dancers my way.
'Kiss'
JRWS in the hizzy. Welcome back man. I missed your avatar. Stay close to the site and post up everyday bud - nothing but good can come from it. See you in Aug!
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I have been gone awhile... AGAIN. Yes there has been extenuating circumstances but I have also just plain quit like a pussy. Eight days ago I was in in ICU, and I am still getting over pneumonia. Yesterday I saw one of my neighbors who helped my family out a lot all these times I have been in the hospital - a guy I care about. He was smoking a butt. He has a beautiful little girl. I hate to say it, but I realized how much I sucked for dropping out here and not posting roll with my fellow addicts. One day this neighbor might be asking for a hand in quitting and I damn well better be QLF on that day I bring him over here.
I am renewing my pledge of accountability to post roll each day. I hope everyone in my quit group and the greater community will take me back in. It would be great to post a year here, and I can do that one post at a time.
Thanks Morgan1, Woosel, Coach Steve, Souliman, and the rest of you that kept reaching out to a lost soul.
- jrws 2/24/2012
I for one am happy to see someone come back to the site without having to post a day 1! Do what you have to do to keep your quit strong. Welcome back, again....
I'm not going anywhere and neither are you. I'm proud you're here man. Keep fighting one day at a time.
Hey man, lets hope others read this as you have showed that you have in fact learned what this site is about, and realized it before it was too late.
I am certain the groups will shake your hand and enjoy your company again for many days to come, just watch as you may get a swift kick in the butt or slap across the back of the head.
Welcome back and glad it is not because of a day 1 (as Taz has said).
x 4
I've been posting in August 12 every day just waiting for your ass to make it back here.
Quit Like Fuck.
sniff I wanna buy you all lap dances.
I'm pretty all those other guys are ghey. So just send them dancers my way.
'Kiss'
JRWS in the hizzy. Welcome back man. I missed your avatar. Stay close to the site and post up everyday bud - nothing but good can come from it. See you in Aug!
Welcome back!
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I have been gone awhile... AGAIN. Yes there has been extenuating circumstances but I have also just plain quit like a pussy. Eight days ago I was in in ICU, and I am still getting over pneumonia. Yesterday I saw one of my neighbors who helped my family out a lot all these times I have been in the hospital - a guy I care about. He was smoking a butt. He has a beautiful little girl. I hate to say it, but I realized how much I sucked for dropping out here and not posting roll with my fellow addicts. One day this neighbor might be asking for a hand in quitting and I damn well better be QLF on that day I bring him over here.
I am renewing my pledge of accountability to post roll each day. I hope everyone in my quit group and the greater community will take me back in. It would be great to post a year here, and I can do that one post at a time.
Thanks Morgan1, Woosel, Coach Steve, Souliman, and the rest of you that kept reaching out to a lost soul.
- jrws 2/24/2012
I for one am happy to see someone come back to the site without having to post a day 1! Do what you have to do to keep your quit strong. Welcome back, again....
I'm not going anywhere and neither are you. I'm proud you're here man. Keep fighting one day at a time.
Hey man, lets hope others read this as you have showed that you have in fact learned what this site is about, and realized it before it was too late.
I am certain the groups will shake your hand and enjoy your company again for many days to come, just watch as you may get a swift kick in the butt or slap across the back of the head.
Welcome back and glad it is not because of a day 1 (as Taz has said).
x 4
I've been posting in August 12 every day just waiting for your ass to make it back here.
Quit Like Fuck.
sniff I wanna buy you all lap dances.
I'm pretty all those other guys are ghey. So just send them dancers my way.
Sure Souli - do you prefer sailors or firemen?