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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Mthomas3824 on March 15, 2012, 02:08:00 PM
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
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Great choice and great post. Coming clean feels great. Freedom feels great. It is never too late to start being the person you want to be. Stay strong, stay quit.
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Mutty
Bra-fucking-vo. Congratulations.
This isn't going to be easy, but it is going to be simple. Make your promise by posting roll, keep it by not using nicotine, and repeat today, every today.
Soak this site up buddy, read, chat, chime in and give June your take. Let this place be your hide away from the suck.
If your quit follows mine, and most others, the poison will be outta you by Saturday, and you'll start clearing up and coming out of that fog around 7-10 days. But that wont be the end of it, you will hit a couple funks, but nothing worse than what you going thru these first few days.
Reach out if you need anything. And don't be bashful, exchange some numbers with your quit brothers, one day one of them may save your live, hell, one day you may save mine.
Keep it up.
dipp - 144
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You have the right mind set...you have all the groundwork for a truly epic quit. Now, do the rest of the work - get numbers, make contacts, build that support system that will be there as your safety net when things get hairy.
You need a number, mine is yours for the asking. Proud to have you aboard as a new brother.
CoachDoc
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You have the right mind set...you have all the groundwork for a truly epic quit. Now, do the rest of the work - get numbers, make contacts, build that support system that will be there as your safety net when things get hairy.
You need a number, mine is yours for the asking. Proud to have you aboard as a new brother.
CoachDoc
Thanks for the encouragement.
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You have the right mind set...you have all the groundwork for a truly epic quit. Now, do the rest of the work - get numbers, make contacts, build that support system that will be there as your safety net when things get hairy.
You need a number, mine is yours for the asking. Proud to have you aboard as a new brother.
CoachDoc
Thanks for the encouragement.
Great intro bro...I will quit with you today!!
Please let us know your weekend plans. Weekends are huge quit killers and this one is St Patty's day. For you I would recommend no beer and no dip buddies.
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You have the right mind set...you have all the groundwork for a truly epic quit. Now, do the rest of the work - get numbers, make contacts, build that support system that will be there as your safety net when things get hairy.
You need a number, mine is yours for the asking. Proud to have you aboard as a new brother.
CoachDoc
Thanks for the encouragement.
Great intro bro...I will quit with you today!!
Please let us know your weekend plans. Weekends are huge quit killers and this one is St Patty's day. For you I would recommend no beer and no dip buddies.
Plans? really none and my grandparents were Irish! No dip buddies and no beer either. I am going to put headphones on and probably walk and run like forrest gump. I am so afraid of gaining weight that when I get a strong craving, I lift weights, go running or play banjo. (that's why I have no friends in my Yankee town...I am learning how to play the banjo)
I'll probably be here a lot too. Yesterday, it was great therapy. I could relate so much to all the posts. It became funny, the cravings probably were there but I was distracted by reading and realizing that finally, finally there is a group of people that can understand and relate.
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You have the right mind set...you have all the groundwork for a truly epic quit. Now, do the rest of the work - get numbers, make contacts, build that support system that will be there as your safety net when things get hairy.
You need a number, mine is yours for the asking. Proud to have you aboard as a new brother.
CoachDoc
Thanks for the encouragement.
Great intro bro...I will quit with you today!!
Please let us know your weekend plans. Weekends are huge quit killers and this one is St Patty's day. For you I would recommend no beer and no dip buddies.
Plans? really none and my grandparents were Irish! No dip buddies and no beer either. I am going to put headphones on and probably walk and run like forrest gump. I am so afraid of gaining weight that when I get a strong craving, I lift weights, go running or play banjo. (that's why I have no friends in my Yankee town...I am learning how to play the banjo)
I'll probably be here a lot too. Yesterday, it was great therapy. I could relate so much to all the posts. It became funny, the cravings probably were there but I was distracted by reading and realizing that finally, finally there is a group of people that can understand and relate.
3 quit days but it has only been a total of 48 hours since my first quit. I'm in my office just staring at the computer. I feel so tired but can't sleep at work. The behavior of needing a dip has always been there but today I feel the true craving. I posted roll before I got hit with a ton of nic fits. Wow, I know I am detoxing.
Went in to chat. Didn't know what to say, just knew I needed to read and listen. Met some cool peeps there. Good therapy. Talking trash, gearing up with knowledge and understanding. Even seeing people come in who are "thinking" about quitting.
I am a church going sinner and addict. I say, "fuck" a lot but I go to church because I think church is a hospital for sinners. I go to get therapy and heal. I also know God answers prayers. My prayer was answered when I met dippshit in chat. He talked me off the roof immediately. He wouldn't accept that, "I'm quitting tomorrow". He talked me into quitting right then and there.
So now in day 3 Hell yes I'm foggy, I know what that feels like. It sucks but I am happy. I'm not alone, my battle may be individual but I know that I am part of a quit team. In order for a team to be good, we have to be men of integrity. We do what we say we are going to do. We may quit every day, but the value in quitting and racking up the days builds greater confidence and integrity.
I have broke it off with my Mistress. Nic and I had something I thought was special but it turned out that our relationship was founded upon lies. Nic was my little precious jewel. So there may be withdrawals from the mistress. However, I love my Integrity and Word more. For the last 3 days, I AM A MAN OF MY WORD! I Quit and there were no caves I climbed into. Feels fucking great to say that! I am no longer a hypocrite. Tobacco is evil. Pure and simple. I have danced with the devil way too long.
Foggy, Dazed, and jonesing today. But I am also very, very Happy. How can I be happy, irritated with no ability to function? Well that is my experience today. To my former mistress, "Nic kiss my ass! Not today....It's OVER" Sure you'll call me tomorrow...I would expect your pathetic ass to keep calling. We'll deal with tomorrow when it comes. For today, Goodbye and I'm hanging up now.
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Keep it up Bro. I quit with you today!
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Great Posts. Proud to be a June Quit brother with ya. Keep posting - they will help you and will also help so many others like myself. You will be a great quit brother to help us all kick the can to the curb one day at a time. Check your Inbox - sending my contact info.
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What an amazing post and confession. As I was reading your story, I could feel tears building up, because it sounds so much like my story, hell it sounds so much like ALL of our stories! M if you need anything feel free to send me a message, and I am more than willing to give you my cell. You and I are in the same boat, and on the ride of our lives. I too just quit. Hope to see you in the June 2012 section. Also, I quit with you today bro!
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Great post bro...reach out if you need anything!
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Day 5. So my mistress cornered me today. In Utah. March can be very warm or very cold...just wait a day. So we went from high 60's the last couple days to low 30's this morning.
I reached in my top drawer to get a ski hat out. In the hat was a can of the creature. Skoal mint pouches!!! I was going to flush it. If I did that, there would be a step to open the can. Something told me NOT to open the can. I tossed it. Took it to the same gas station that was my stop for chew. Put it in there can. I said out loud. It's over. NOT today!
There really is something to making a promise to the brotherhood of addicts. If you fuckers can do it and keep your word, then I can too. After all I'M an addict too. There is simple but superhuman strength here. Post roll and keep your word. Simple but when the mistress shows up, you have superhuman strength. (her tits seem to sag and she is missing teeth now)
I also have help lines. So when the fight get too tough, I have a few big brothers that have my back. Today is not easy, but I'm very happy. Happy with my choice, happy with everyone's successes and victories. Glad to work with Winners.
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Day 5. So my mistress cornered me today. In Utah. March can be very warm or very cold...just wait a day. So we went from high 60's the last couple days to low 30's this morning.
I reached in my top drawer to get a ski hat out. In the hat was a can of the creature. Skoal mint pouches!!! I was going to flush it. If I did that, there would be a step to open the can. Something told me NOT to open the can. I tossed it. Took it to the same gas station that was my stop for chew. Put it in there can. I said out loud. It's over. NOT today!
There really is something to making a promise to the brotherhood of addicts. If you fuckers can do it and keep your word, then I can too. After all I'M an addict too. There is simple but superhuman strength here. Post roll and keep your word. Simple but when the mistress shows up, you have superhuman strength. (her tits seem to sag and she is missing teeth now)
I also have help lines. So when the fight get too tough, I have a few big brothers that have my back. Today is not easy, but I'm very happy. Happy with my choice, happy with everyone's successes and victories. Glad to work with Winners.
Good job brother. Your right, it isn't easy right now, but it WILL get easier. You have to feel like crap for a while, but you can do it. I know you can. You just have to want it more than anything else, everyday. Stay quit brother.
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Stay the course and keep winning. It gets so much better and easier. I promise.
Freedom is a wonderful thing.
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Day 5. So my mistress cornered me today. In Utah. March can be very warm or very cold...just wait a day. So we went from high 60's the last couple days to low 30's this morning.
I reached in my top drawer to get a ski hat out. In the hat was a can of the creature. Skoal mint pouches!!! I was going to flush it. If I did that, there would be a step to open the can. Something told me NOT to open the can. I tossed it. Took it to the same gas station that was my stop for chew. Put it in there can. I said out loud. It's over. NOT today!
There really is something to making a promise to the brotherhood of addicts. If you fuckers can do it and keep your word, then I can too. After all I'M an addict too. There is simple but superhuman strength here. Post roll and keep your word. Simple but when the mistress shows up, you have superhuman strength. (her tits seem to sag and she is missing teeth now)
I also have help lines. So when the fight get too tough, I have a few big brothers that have my back. Today is not easy, but I'm very happy. Happy with my choice, happy with everyone's successes and victories. Glad to work with Winners.
Nice work!
It seems that when you can keep the nic bitch away all seems to get better!!
I keep finding old cans all over the dam place I cleaned out my truck and a few times since my first quit day and I still found another can this weekend!!!
Anyway one day at a time bro stay stong in your quit!
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Day 5. So my mistress cornered me today. In Utah. March can be very warm or very cold...just wait a day. So we went from high 60's the last couple days to low 30's this morning.Â
I reached in my top drawer to get a ski hat out. In the hat was a can of the creature. Skoal mint pouches!!! I was going to flush it. If I did that, there would be a step to open the can. Something told me NOT to open the can. I tossed it. Took it to the same gas station that was my stop for chew. Put it in there can. I said out loud. It's over. NOT today!Â
There really is something to making a promise to the brotherhood of addicts. If you fuckers can do it and keep your word, then I can too. After all I'M an addict too. There is simple but superhuman strength here. Post roll and keep your word. Simple but when the mistress shows up, you have superhuman strength. (her tits seem to sag and she is missing teeth now)
I also have help lines. So when the fight get too tough, I have a few big brothers that have my back. Today is not easy, but I'm very happy. Happy with my choice, happy with everyone's successes and victories. Glad to work with Winners.
Nice work!
It seems that when you can keep the nic bitch away all seems to get better!!
I keep finding old cans all over the dam place I cleaned out my truck and a few times since my first quit day and I still found another can this weekend!!!
Anyway one day at a time bro stay stong in your quit!
Day 7 today. One week of hell. One week of triumph! Of all the times I said I quit, I can't honestly remember a time that I really went a whole week without tobacco.
I crashed last night. I was so exhausted and feel asleep. Woke up this morning refreshed, recharged and feeling great!!! I can't explain how good it felt to get a good night sleep. I had no problem quitting today. I wanted to shout at the roof tops, "Hey I Quit today and it feels great!"
With all that and feeling the positive breakthrough. I realized three things:
1- If it walks, quacks and acts like a duck, its a duck. Tobacco is ANTI-AMERICAN! The can binds us into slavery. We give up our freedom. The tobacco promoters can say what they want but my eyes can see clearly now. There is a great promotion and deception of the evil creature. I'm an addict, you cleverly walked me into slavery. Ultimately I chose bondage, but today, I too chose to quit. I chose freedom!
2- Is it coincidence that all our stories begin in our early teens? I think I was late to the party at 17. Most of you were in 6th grade on average. Hey, "Let's flavor the creature with candy flavors." (cherry, apple, citris. Probably too bold but I'm sure they considered cotton candy in the board room) These fuckers got me. Will I stand by and let them bind my two boys or any American Son / Daughter for that matter? My friends, they aren't after out parents, they want to enslave our CHILDREN!!!!!
3- In the beginning of my quit, I was depressed and felt all the symptoms of quitting. I referred to my habit as my mistress. No more, the sheep's clothing has come off. This is a wolf! This is Evil, This is scary! This is the Evil Creature. If evil comes calling, run! Avoid it and circle the wagons. Evil can be beat. We beat this evil with unity and exposure. When the sun comes up, the darkness of night disappears. We can be the sun to the darkness of the tobacco industry.
Wow, I just wanted to quit. Now I want to wage war. I mean it. We need to campaign for our young men to choose freedom over slavery!!!! Kone 2012, What about cope 2012, or skoal 2012? This evil empire, steals away our children, mutilates them internally. Some will die, All are addicts!
I thought that too much focus or thinking about it wasn't good. (just get it out of your mind) Not with this subject. We must watch it and build reinforcements from its cunning craftiness. We must know our enemy and understand the strengths. Then, Protect yourself. Put on the Armor of truth and knowledge, stand side by side with your allies, with your bothers. Then pick up a weapon and stand post for our children's sake!!!
I slept great last night. Tobacco promoters whoever you are...how did you sleep? If you promote tobacco and read this, I can make you this promise... You will not sleep good tonight. Your conscience will not settle. You will justify and deny but you can't dismiss truth. So you will toss and turn. FUCK YOU. Worm! Until you change, I will fight you, I will expose you for who you are!!! The light is coming!
To my brothers in this, you made a promise to quit today. I am united with you. We worry about tomorrow when it comes. For today...You said, "i quit" and joined the war. Never surrender, if you're in trouble, call for reinforcements. If you cave, I HATE you. You are a pussy and a traitor. Sure you're human and can make mistakes, but for today, you are super human, we trust your word and need you to lead the battle. WIN or Fuck off. Your choice, slavery or war. The evil creature won't quit. You have to fight for freedom...protect yourself, family and friends...forever!
(If you think this is over the top or too dramatic...get back in check, you're in danger of the cave in your path! Wake the hell up, you are at war and should be on alert every second of the day.)
Post Roll
Quit every day
Repeat.
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Day 5. So my mistress cornered me today. In Utah. March can be very warm or very cold...just wait a day. So we went from high 60's the last couple days to low 30's this morning.Â
I reached in my top drawer to get a ski hat out. In the hat was a can of the creature. Skoal mint pouches!!! I was going to flush it. If I did that, there would be a step to open the can. Something told me NOT to open the can. I tossed it. Took it to the same gas station that was my stop for chew. Put it in there can. I said out loud. It's over. NOT today!Â
There really is something to making a promise to the brotherhood of addicts. If you fuckers can do it and keep your word, then I can too. After all I'M an addict too. There is simple but superhuman strength here. Post roll and keep your word. Simple but when the mistress shows up, you have superhuman strength. (her tits seem to sag and she is missing teeth now)
I also have help lines. So when the fight get too tough, I have a few big brothers that have my back. Today is not easy, but I'm very happy. Happy with my choice, happy with everyone's successes and victories. Glad to work with Winners.
Nice work!
It seems that when you can keep the nic bitch away all seems to get better!!
I keep finding old cans all over the dam place I cleaned out my truck and a few times since my first quit day and I still found another can this weekend!!!
Anyway one day at a time bro stay stong in your quit!
Day 7 today. One week of hell. One week of triumph! Of all the times I said I quit, I can't honestly remember a time that I really went a whole week without tobacco.
I crashed last night. I was so exhausted and feel asleep. Woke up this morning refreshed, recharged and feeling great!!! I can't explain how good it felt to get a good night sleep. I had no problem quitting today. I wanted to shout at the roof tops, "Hey I Quit today and it feels great!"
With all that and feeling the positive breakthrough. I realized three things:
1- If it walks, quacks and acts like a duck, its a duck. Tobacco is ANTI-AMERICAN! The can binds us into slavery. We give up our freedom. The tobacco promoters can say what they want but my eyes can see clearly now. There is a great promotion and deception of the evil creature. I'm an addict, you cleverly walked me into slavery. Ultimately I chose bondage, but today, I too chose to quit. I chose freedom!
2- Is it coincidence that all our stories begin in our early teens? I think I was late to the party at 17. Most of you were in 6th grade on average. Hey, "Let's flavor the creature with candy flavors." (cherry, apple, citris. Probably too bold but I'm sure they considered cotton candy in the board room) These fuckers got me. Will I stand by and let them bind my two boys or any American Son / Daughter for that matter? My friends, they aren't after out parents, they want to enslave our CHILDREN!!!!!
3- In the beginning of my quit, I was depressed and felt all the symptoms of quitting. I referred to my habit as my mistress. No more, the sheep's clothing has come off. This is a wolf! This is Evil, This is scary! This is the Evil Creature. If evil comes calling, run! Avoid it and circle the wagons. Evil can be beat. We beat this evil with unity and exposure. When the sun comes up, the darkness of night disappears. We can be the sun to the darkness of the tobacco industry.
Wow, I just wanted to quit. Now I want to wage war. I mean it. We need to campaign for our young men to choose freedom over slavery!!!! Kone 2012, What about cope 2012, or skoal 2012? This evil empire, steals away our children, mutilates them internally. Some will die, All are addicts!
I thought that too much focus or thinking about it wasn't good. (just get it out of your mind) Not with this subject. We must watch it and build reinforcements from its cunning craftiness. We must know our enemy and understand the strengths. Then, Protect yourself. Put on the Armor of truth and knowledge, stand side by side with your allies, with your bothers. Then pick up a weapon and stand post for our children's sake!!!
I slept great last night. Tobacco promoters whoever you are...how did you sleep? If you promote tobacco and read this, I can make you this promise... You will not sleep good tonight. Your conscience will not settle. You will justify and deny but you can't dismiss truth. So you will toss and turn. FUCK YOU. Worm! Until you change, I will fight you, I will expose you for who you are!!! The light is coming!
To my brothers in this, you made a promise to quit today. I am united with you. We worry about tomorrow when it comes. For today...You said, "i quit" and joined the war. Never surrender, if you're in trouble, call for reinforcements. If you cave, I HATE you. You are a pussy and a traitor. Sure you're human and can make mistakes, but for today, you are super human, we trust your word and need you to lead the battle. WIN or Fuck off. Your choice, slavery or war. The evil creature won't quit. You have to fight for freedom...protect yourself, family and friends...forever!
(If you think this is over the top or too dramatic...get back in check, you're in danger of the cave in your path! Wake the hell up, you are at war and should be on alert every second of the day.)
Post Roll
Quit every day
Repeat.
OUTSTANDING!!!
That is some great stuff everyone needs to read!
I am inspired and feel even more confident in my quit today thanks to you!
One day at a time brothers, one day at a time!
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Day 5. So my mistress cornered me today. In Utah. March can be very warm or very cold...just wait a day. So we went from high 60's the last couple days to low 30's this morning.Â
I reached in my top drawer to get a ski hat out. In the hat was a can of the creature. Skoal mint pouches!!! I was going to flush it. If I did that, there would be a step to open the can. Something told me NOT to open the can. I tossed it. Took it to the same gas station that was my stop for chew. Put it in there can. I said out loud. It's over. NOT today!Â
There really is something to making a promise to the brotherhood of addicts. If you fuckers can do it and keep your word, then I can too. After all I'M an addict too. There is simple but superhuman strength here. Post roll and keep your word. Simple but when the mistress shows up, you have superhuman strength. (her tits seem to sag and she is missing teeth now)
I also have help lines. So when the fight get too tough, I have a few big brothers that have my back. Today is not easy, but I'm very happy. Happy with my choice, happy with everyone's successes and victories. Glad to work with Winners.
Nice work!
It seems that when you can keep the nic bitch away all seems to get better!!
I keep finding old cans all over the dam place I cleaned out my truck and a few times since my first quit day and I still found another can this weekend!!!
Anyway one day at a time bro stay stong in your quit!
Day 7 today. One week of hell. One week of triumph! Of all the times I said I quit, I can't honestly remember a time that I really went a whole week without tobacco.
I crashed last night. I was so exhausted and feel asleep. Woke up this morning refreshed, recharged and feeling great!!! I can't explain how good it felt to get a good night sleep. I had no problem quitting today. I wanted to shout at the roof tops, "Hey I Quit today and it feels great!"
With all that and feeling the positive breakthrough. I realized three things:
1- If it walks, quacks and acts like a duck, its a duck. Tobacco is ANTI-AMERICAN! The can binds us into slavery. We give up our freedom. The tobacco promoters can say what they want but my eyes can see clearly now. There is a great promotion and deception of the evil creature. I'm an addict, you cleverly walked me into slavery. Ultimately I chose bondage, but today, I too chose to quit. I chose freedom!
2- Is it coincidence that all our stories begin in our early teens? I think I was late to the party at 17. Most of you were in 6th grade on average. Hey, "Let's flavor the creature with candy flavors." (cherry, apple, citris. Probably too bold but I'm sure they considered cotton candy in the board room) These fuckers got me. Will I stand by and let them bind my two boys or any American Son / Daughter for that matter? My friends, they aren't after out parents, they want to enslave our CHILDREN!!!!!
3- In the beginning of my quit, I was depressed and felt all the symptoms of quitting. I referred to my habit as my mistress. No more, the sheep's clothing has come off. This is a wolf! This is Evil, This is scary! This is the Evil Creature. If evil comes calling, run! Avoid it and circle the wagons. Evil can be beat. We beat this evil with unity and exposure. When the sun comes up, the darkness of night disappears. We can be the sun to the darkness of the tobacco industry.
Wow, I just wanted to quit. Now I want to wage war. I mean it. We need to campaign for our young men to choose freedom over slavery!!!! Kone 2012, What about cope 2012, or skoal 2012? This evil empire, steals away our children, mutilates them internally. Some will die, All are addicts!
I thought that too much focus or thinking about it wasn't good. (just get it out of your mind) Not with this subject. We must watch it and build reinforcements from its cunning craftiness. We must know our enemy and understand the strengths. Then, Protect yourself. Put on the Armor of truth and knowledge, stand side by side with your allies, with your bothers. Then pick up a weapon and stand post for our children's sake!!!
I slept great last night. Tobacco promoters whoever you are...how did you sleep? If you promote tobacco and read this, I can make you this promise... You will not sleep good tonight. Your conscience will not settle. You will justify and deny but you can't dismiss truth. So you will toss and turn. FUCK YOU. Worm! Until you change, I will fight you, I will expose you for who you are!!! The light is coming!
To my brothers in this, you made a promise to quit today. I am united with you. We worry about tomorrow when it comes. For today...You said, "i quit" and joined the war. Never surrender, if you're in trouble, call for reinforcements. If you cave, I HATE you. You are a pussy and a traitor. Sure you're human and can make mistakes, but for today, you are super human, we trust your word and need you to lead the battle. WIN or Fuck off. Your choice, slavery or war. The evil creature won't quit. You have to fight for freedom...protect yourself, family and friends...forever!
(If you think this is over the top or too dramatic...get back in check, you're in danger of the cave in your path! Wake the hell up, you are at war and should be on alert every second of the day.)
Post Roll
Quit every day
Repeat.
OUTSTANDING!!!
That is some great stuff everyone needs to read!
I am inspired and feel even more confident in my quit today thanks to you!
One day at a time brothers, one day at a time!
Gooo stuff.
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That is some great stuff everyone needs to read!
I am inspired and feel even more confident in my quit today thanks to you!
One day at a time brothers, one day at a time!
Grizz, you're a freaking man and I'm just trying to keep up with you and your resolve. I'm only at day 7. I have a lot more stripes to earn but I love to fight for a good cause. Kill The Can!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Man - I love this place. Talks of fighting, war, bitches...let's get it on. Got my piss hot and I'm motivated to quit with ya!!! Good Shit
And, if you don't like that then you can SUCKIT!!!
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Man - I love this place. Talks of fighting, war, bitches...let's get it on. Got my piss hot and I'm motivated to quit with ya!!! Good Shit
And, if you don't like that then you can SUCKIT!!!
Like ya style bro. I'll quit with ya today.
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I have decided to make this my journal. Before I go into the double digits of quit days, I want to look back.
Day 1 - Thinking about quitting. I had poison in my mouth and said, "I quit after this can" Started looking at sites online to gear up to quit - Dippshitt in chat, asked me some pointed questions. "do you have one in right now?" I just put in a couple pouches. He asked me to spit it out, to respect him. He even said please. At first I thought I could just say I spit it out, how would he know? He also asked me if I was a man of my word. Yes, I spit it out. I committed to quit just for that day. Threw everything out.
Gave my wife some information from the site. Told here that I quit today. I told her that I was quitting for me this time. She was awesome and very supportive. She believed me and was, "all in" to support me. I LOVE THAT WOMAN.
Day 2 - Very, Very depressed. After all the reading, I come to terms that I am an addict. Addicts are other people you feel bad for. I can't be that pathetic. Thoughts of taking a dip are great and also thoughts of cheating enter my mind. How would anyone know?....Realized that what I wanted was to be a man of my word. I needed to be quit, not cheat. Fighting sadness today.
Day 3 - Very foggy. Can't focus, just stare and eyes well up. This is hard; need a boost. Go into chat, do a ton of reading. Discovered that every quitter on Kill the Can is so much like me. Stories, Struggles, addicts. Go into chat, the group gets me laughing. Realizing that even though this is hard. It is worth it. Every experience is like a cleansing and a new discovery.
Day 4 - Great advice from group. Have a plan, its the weekend and this is a time that newbies usually cave. I played out scenarios and already had a strategy to just say no. - Found a can of skoal hidden in my ski hat. First thought to open it and flush it. I had a strong feeling not to open the can. I could have been empty, but I didn't open it. I drove it to the gas station that I used to buy tin from...Threw it in the garbage and said, (out loud) "not today. I quit."
Day 5 - Getting text from an old friend that wants to quit chewing grizzly. Who am I to give advice? I'm only on day 5. I tell him to go to Kill the can. I think this is the real deal. Insomnia, went to bed a 4:00AM and woke up at 6:00Am. Monday morning...Today is going to be a long day. Triggers, constant voices telling me to chew. Got support from chatting on KTC.
Day 6 - Wow I really had a good night sleep. I FEEL GREAT!!! Easy day to quit. Things seem to be going so well for me. Still going to the site and reading. It is great therapy. I missed my skoal all those days, my view on skoal is moving more from depression and heartache, to anger and fear of the poison.
Day 7 - Man I really want to cave today. I am even thinking I deserve to cave. Not bad, just a couple pouches and I will throw the can away. (at the gas station) If I do that, I start day one over. I could just say that I am quit. But then my quit isn't legit. No matter what I do, I want my integrity back. If I cave, I own it. If I stay quit, I own that too. I decide that no matter where this journey takes me. I will and must be honest. Not for anyone else's sake. For Me and My sake. The best thing an addict can do is stop blaming, excusing and deceiving. Take ownership and you will be healthier. I said I quit today. If I cave it can't be today because I gave my word.
Day 8 - Very calm today. Had another friend call me. He lives in TX. I told him that I quit the evil creature. He said not me! I love my grizzly mint. I'm not quitting. I told him that I wasn't telling him to quit. He was so defensive that I changed the subject. I realized that tobacco is so dangerous. It robs us of our time, money, energy, love, compassion etc. It takes from us with nothing returned...well false returns anyway. Yet I still have triggers. I didn't realize how everything in my life involved sneaking a dip. I have so many triggers. Back on Kill the Can for support.
Day 9 - Today, there seems to be a lot of energy with the brotherhood. I assume that we have taken on more casualties than expected. I am getting emails and txts. This private is strong today but realizes our enemy is dangerous. Willing to stand a post but still a newbie. Not sure what is expected of me but I am willing and able. I am QUIT. I have been quit for 9 days. My last dip was on March 14th around 2:00 MST. It was about a 30 second dip. Dippshit talked me into spiting it out only seconds after I put it in. I have be clean, sober and really feel like I am alive. I am an addict but not caving to my addiction. I am keeping my addiction at bay. Every day I quit and everyday I battle. But I'm getting good at it. I am a good soldier.
Goals: I need to earn more stripes, I want to encourage others to fight the enemy. I want that coin. I feel that carrying that coin around in my pocket will help keep me protected and focused from a tobacco ambush.
Tobacco is the evil creature. It's a parasite that robs the host of it nutrients. If you don't kill it, it can ultimately kill you! Kill The Can. It starts with you Mthomas3824.
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I have decided to make this my journal. Before I go into the double digits of quit days, I want to look back.Â
Day 1 - Thinking about quitting. I had poison in my mouth and said, "I quit after this can" Started looking at sites online to gear up to quit - Dippshitt in chat, asked me some pointed questions. "do you have one in right now?" I just put in a couple pouches. He asked me to spit it out, to respect him. He even said please. At first I thought I could just say I spit it out, how would he know? He also asked me if I was a man of my word. Yes, I spit it out. I committed to quit just for that day. Threw everything out.Â
Gave my wife some information from the site. Told here that I quit today. I told her that I was quitting for me this time. She was awesome and very supportive. She believed me and was, "all in" to support me. I LOVE THAT WOMAN.Â
Day 2 - Very, Very depressed. After all the reading, I come to terms that I am an addict. Addicts are other people you feel bad for. I can't be that pathetic. Thoughts of taking a dip are great and also thoughts of cheating enter my mind. How would anyone know?....Realized that what I wanted was to be a man of my word. I needed to be quit, not cheat. Fighting sadness today.Â
Day 3 - Very foggy. Can't focus, just stare and eyes well up. This is hard; need a boost. Go into chat, do a ton of reading. Discovered that every quitter on Kill the Can is so much like me. Stories, Struggles, addicts. Go into chat, the group gets me laughing. Realizing that even though this is hard. It is worth it. Every experience is like a cleansing and a new discovery.Â
Day 4 - Great advice from group. Have a plan, its the weekend and this is a time that newbies usually cave. I played out scenarios and already had a strategy to just say no. - Found a can of skoal hidden in my ski hat. First thought to open it and flush it. I had a strong feeling not to open the can. I could have been empty, but I didn't open it. I drove it to the gas station that I used to buy tin from...Threw it in the garbage and said, (out loud) "not today. I quit."Â
Day 5 - Getting text from an old friend that wants to quit chewing grizzly. Who am I to give advice? I'm only on day 5. I tell him to go to Kill the can. I think this is the real deal. Insomnia, went to bed a 4:00AM and woke up at 6:00Am. Monday morning...Today is going to be a long day. Triggers, constant voices telling me to chew. Got support from chatting on KTC.Â
Day 6 - Wow I really had a good night sleep. I FEEL GREAT!!! Easy day to quit. Things seem to be going so well for me. Still going to the site and reading. It is great therapy. I missed my skoal all those days, my view on skoal is moving more from depression and heartache, to anger and fear of the poison.Â
Day 7 - Man I really want to cave today. I am even thinking I deserve to cave. Not bad, just a couple pouches and I will throw the can away. (at the gas station) If I do that, I start day one over. I could just say that I am quit. But then my quit isn't legit. No matter what I do, I want my integrity back. If I cave, I own it. If I stay quit, I own that too. I decide that no matter where this journey takes me. I will and must be honest. Not for anyone else's sake. For Me and My sake. The best thing an addict can do is stop blaming, excusing and deceiving. Take ownership and you will be healthier. I said I quit today. If I cave it can't be today because I gave my word.Â
Day 8 - Very calm today. Had another friend call me. He lives in TX. I told him that I quit the evil creature. He said not me! I love my grizzly mint. I'm not quitting. I told him that I wasn't telling him to quit. He was so defensive that I changed the subject. I realized that tobacco is so dangerous. It robs us of our time, money, energy, love, compassion etc. It takes from us with nothing returned...well false returns anyway. Yet I still have triggers. I didn't realize how everything in my life involved sneaking a dip. I have so many triggers. Back on Kill the Can for support.Â
Day 9 - Today, there seems to be a lot of energy with the brotherhood. I assume that we have taken on more casualties than expected. I am getting emails and txts. This private is strong today but realizes our enemy is dangerous. Willing to stand a post but still a newbie. Not sure what is expected of me but I am willing and able. I am QUIT. I have been quit for 9 days. My last dip was on March 14th around 2:00 MST. It was about a 30 second dip. Dippshit talked me into spiting it out only seconds after I put it in. I have be clean, sober and really feel like I am alive. I am an addict but not caving to my addiction. I am keeping my addiction at bay. Every day I quit and everyday I battle. But I'm getting good at it. I am a good soldier.Â
Goals: I need to earn more stripes, I want to encourage others to fight the enemy. I want that coin. I feel that carrying that coin around in my pocket will help keep me protected and focused from a tobacco ambush. Â
Tobacco is the evil creature. It's a parasite that robs the host of it nutrients. If you don't kill it, it can ultimately kill you! Kill The Can. It starts with you Mthomas3824.
Brother, you rock.
Just keep doing whatever keeps you quit.
And know that, for what it's worth, I'm quit with you today.
-
I have decided to make this my journal. Before I go into the double digits of quit days, I want to look back.
Day 1 - Thinking about quitting. I had poison in my mouth and said, "I quit after this can" Started looking at sites online to gear up to quit - Dippshitt in chat, asked me some pointed questions. "do you have one in right now?" I just put in a couple pouches. He asked me to spit it out, to respect him. He even said please. At first I thought I could just say I spit it out, how would he know? He also asked me if I was a man of my word. Yes, I spit it out. I committed to quit just for that day. Threw everything out.
Gave my wife some information from the site. Told here that I quit today. I told her that I was quitting for me this time. She was awesome and very supportive. She believed me and was, "all in" to support me. I LOVE THAT WOMAN.
Day 2 - Very, Very depressed. After all the reading, I come to terms that I am an addict. Addicts are other people you feel bad for. I can't be that pathetic. Thoughts of taking a dip are great and also thoughts of cheating enter my mind. How would anyone know?....Realized that what I wanted was to be a man of my word. I needed to be quit, not cheat. Fighting sadness today.
Day 3 - Very foggy. Can't focus, just stare and eyes well up. This is hard; need a boost. Go into chat, do a ton of reading. Discovered that every quitter on Kill the Can is so much like me. Stories, Struggles, addicts. Go into chat, the group gets me laughing. Realizing that even though this is hard. It is worth it. Every experience is like a cleansing and a new discovery.
Day 4 - Great advice from group. Have a plan, its the weekend and this is a time that newbies usually cave. I played out scenarios and already had a strategy to just say no. - Found a can of skoal hidden in my ski hat. First thought to open it and flush it. I had a strong feeling not to open the can. I could have been empty, but I didn't open it. I drove it to the gas station that I used to buy tin from...Threw it in the garbage and said, (out loud) "not today. I quit."
Day 5 - Getting text from an old friend that wants to quit chewing grizzly. Who am I to give advice? I'm only on day 5. I tell him to go to Kill the can. I think this is the real deal. Insomnia, went to bed a 4:00AM and woke up at 6:00Am. Monday morning...Today is going to be a long day. Triggers, constant voices telling me to chew. Got support from chatting on KTC.
Day 6 - Wow I really had a good night sleep. I FEEL GREAT!!! Easy day to quit. Things seem to be going so well for me. Still going to the site and reading. It is great therapy. I missed my skoal all those days, my view on skoal is moving more from depression and heartache, to anger and fear of the poison.
Day 7 - Man I really want to cave today. I am even thinking I deserve to cave. Not bad, just a couple pouches and I will throw the can away. (at the gas station) If I do that, I start day one over. I could just say that I am quit. But then my quit isn't legit. No matter what I do, I want my integrity back. If I cave, I own it. If I stay quit, I own that too. I decide that no matter where this journey takes me. I will and must be honest. Not for anyone else's sake. For Me and My sake. The best thing an addict can do is stop blaming, excusing and deceiving. Take ownership and you will be healthier. I said I quit today. If I cave it can't be today because I gave my word.
Day 8 - Very calm today. Had another friend call me. He lives in TX. I told him that I quit the evil creature. He said not me! I love my grizzly mint. I'm not quitting. I told him that I wasn't telling him to quit. He was so defensive that I changed the subject. I realized that tobacco is so dangerous. It robs us of our time, money, energy, love, compassion etc. It takes from us with nothing returned...well false returns anyway. Yet I still have triggers. I didn't realize how everything in my life involved sneaking a dip. I have so many triggers. Back on Kill the Can for support.
Day 9 - Today, there seems to be a lot of energy with the brotherhood. I assume that we have taken on more casualties than expected. I am getting emails and txts. This private is strong today but realizes our enemy is dangerous. Willing to stand a post but still a newbie. Not sure what is expected of me but I am willing and able. I am QUIT. I have been quit for 9 days. My last dip was on March 14th around 2:00 MST. It was about a 30 second dip. Dippshit talked me into spiting it out only seconds after I put it in. I have be clean, sober and really feel like I am alive. I am an addict but not caving to my addiction. I am keeping my addiction at bay. Every day I quit and everyday I battle. But I'm getting good at it. I am a good soldier.
Goals: I need to earn more stripes, I want to encourage others to fight the enemy. I want that coin. I feel that carrying that coin around in my pocket will help keep me protected and focused from a tobacco ambush.
Tobacco is the evil creature. It's a parasite that robs the host of it nutrients. If you don't kill it, it can ultimately kill you! Kill The Can. It starts with you Mthomas3824.
Another outstanding use of this site!
Keep everyone on the site posted even if they dont read it, even if nobody reads it, these are your thoughts and releasing them on here is a much better way to keep from raging on those you dont want to rage on!
It will definetly help you in your quit to remind yourself what your doing this for and will keep your perspective clear!
Very inspiring I am happy to be quit with you today and everyday, never forget one day at a time brother!
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I have decided to make this my journal. Before I go into the double digits of quit days, I want to look back.Â
Day 1 - Thinking about quitting. I had poison in my mouth and said, "I quit after this can" Started looking at sites online to gear up to quit - Dippshitt in chat, asked me some pointed questions. "do you have one in right now?" I just put in a couple pouches. He asked me to spit it out, to respect him. He even said please. At first I thought I could just say I spit it out, how would he know? He also asked me if I was a man of my word. Yes, I spit it out. I committed to quit just for that day. Threw everything out.Â
Gave my wife some information from the site. Told here that I quit today. I told her that I was quitting for me this time. She was awesome and very supportive. She believed me and was, "all in" to support me. I LOVE THAT WOMAN.Â
Day 2 - Very, Very depressed. After all the reading, I come to terms that I am an addict. Addicts are other people you feel bad for. I can't be that pathetic. Thoughts of taking a dip are great and also thoughts of cheating enter my mind. How would anyone know?....Realized that what I wanted was to be a man of my word. I needed to be quit, not cheat. Fighting sadness today.Â
Day 3 - Very foggy. Can't focus, just stare and eyes well up. This is hard; need a boost. Go into chat, do a ton of reading. Discovered that every quitter on Kill the Can is so much like me. Stories, Struggles, addicts. Go into chat, the group gets me laughing. Realizing that even though this is hard. It is worth it. Every experience is like a cleansing and a new discovery.Â
Day 4 - Great advice from group. Have a plan, its the weekend and this is a time that newbies usually cave. I played out scenarios and already had a strategy to just say no. - Found a can of skoal hidden in my ski hat. First thought to open it and flush it. I had a strong feeling not to open the can. I could have been empty, but I didn't open it. I drove it to the gas station that I used to buy tin from...Threw it in the garbage and said, (out loud) "not today. I quit."Â
Day 5 - Getting text from an old friend that wants to quit chewing grizzly. Who am I to give advice? I'm only on day 5. I tell him to go to Kill the can. I think this is the real deal. Insomnia, went to bed a 4:00AM and woke up at 6:00Am. Monday morning...Today is going to be a long day. Triggers, constant voices telling me to chew. Got support from chatting on KTC.Â
Day 6 - Wow I really had a good night sleep. I FEEL GREAT!!! Easy day to quit. Things seem to be going so well for me. Still going to the site and reading. It is great therapy. I missed my skoal all those days, my view on skoal is moving more from depression and heartache, to anger and fear of the poison.Â
Day 7 - Man I really want to cave today. I am even thinking I deserve to cave. Not bad, just a couple pouches and I will throw the can away. (at the gas station) If I do that, I start day one over. I could just say that I am quit. But then my quit isn't legit. No matter what I do, I want my integrity back. If I cave, I own it. If I stay quit, I own that too. I decide that no matter where this journey takes me. I will and must be honest. Not for anyone else's sake. For Me and My sake. The best thing an addict can do is stop blaming, excusing and deceiving. Take ownership and you will be healthier. I said I quit today. If I cave it can't be today because I gave my word.Â
Day 8 - Very calm today. Had another friend call me. He lives in TX. I told him that I quit the evil creature. He said not me! I love my grizzly mint. I'm not quitting. I told him that I wasn't telling him to quit. He was so defensive that I changed the subject. I realized that tobacco is so dangerous. It robs us of our time, money, energy, love, compassion etc. It takes from us with nothing returned...well false returns anyway. Yet I still have triggers. I didn't realize how everything in my life involved sneaking a dip. I have so many triggers. Back on Kill the Can for support.Â
Day 9 - Today, there seems to be a lot of energy with the brotherhood. I assume that we have taken on more casualties than expected. I am getting emails and txts. This private is strong today but realizes our enemy is dangerous. Willing to stand a post but still a newbie. Not sure what is expected of me but I am willing and able. I am QUIT. I have been quit for 9 days. My last dip was on March 14th around 2:00 MST. It was about a 30 second dip. Dippshit talked me into spiting it out only seconds after I put it in. I have be clean, sober and really feel like I am alive. I am an addict but not caving to my addiction. I am keeping my addiction at bay. Every day I quit and everyday I battle. But I'm getting good at it. I am a good soldier.Â
Goals: I need to earn more stripes, I want to encourage others to fight the enemy. I want that coin. I feel that carrying that coin around in my pocket will help keep me protected and focused from a tobacco ambush. Â
Tobacco is the evil creature. It's a parasite that robs the host of it nutrients. If you don't kill it, it can ultimately kill you! Kill The Can. It starts with you Mthomas3824.
Brother, you rock.
Just keep doing whatever keeps you quit.
And know that, for what it's worth, I'm quit with you today.
Never forget these days. Remember every minute.
-
I have decided to make this my journal. Before I go into the double digits of quit days, I want to look back.
Day 1 - Thinking about quitting. I had poison in my mouth and said, "I quit after this can" Started looking at sites online to gear up to quit - Dippshitt in chat, asked me some pointed questions. "do you have one in right now?" I just put in a couple pouches. He asked me to spit it out, to respect him. He even said please. At first I thought I could just say I spit it out, how would he know? He also asked me if I was a man of my word. Yes, I spit it out. I committed to quit just for that day. Threw everything out.
Gave my wife some information from the site. Told here that I quit today. I told her that I was quitting for me this time. She was awesome and very supportive. She believed me and was, "all in" to support me. I LOVE THAT WOMAN.
Day 2 - Very, Very depressed. After all the reading, I come to terms that I am an addict. Addicts are other people you feel bad for. I can't be that pathetic. Thoughts of taking a dip are great and also thoughts of cheating enter my mind. How would anyone know?....Realized that what I wanted was to be a man of my word. I needed to be quit, not cheat. Fighting sadness today.
Day 3 - Very foggy. Can't focus, just stare and eyes well up. This is hard; need a boost. Go into chat, do a ton of reading. Discovered that every quitter on Kill the Can is so much like me. Stories, Struggles, addicts. Go into chat, the group gets me laughing. Realizing that even though this is hard. It is worth it. Every experience is like a cleansing and a new discovery.
Day 4 - Great advice from group. Have a plan, its the weekend and this is a time that newbies usually cave. I played out scenarios and already had a strategy to just say no. - Found a can of skoal hidden in my ski hat. First thought to open it and flush it. I had a strong feeling not to open the can. I could have been empty, but I didn't open it. I drove it to the gas station that I used to buy tin from...Threw it in the garbage and said, (out loud) "not today. I quit."
Day 5 - Getting text from an old friend that wants to quit chewing grizzly. Who am I to give advice? I'm only on day 5. I tell him to go to Kill the can. I think this is the real deal. Insomnia, went to bed a 4:00AM and woke up at 6:00Am. Monday morning...Today is going to be a long day. Triggers, constant voices telling me to chew. Got support from chatting on KTC.
Day 6 - Wow I really had a good night sleep. I FEEL GREAT!!! Easy day to quit. Things seem to be going so well for me. Still going to the site and reading. It is great therapy. I missed my skoal all those days, my view on skoal is moving more from depression and heartache, to anger and fear of the poison.
Day 7 - Man I really want to cave today. I am even thinking I deserve to cave. Not bad, just a couple pouches and I will throw the can away. (at the gas station) If I do that, I start day one over. I could just say that I am quit. But then my quit isn't legit. No matter what I do, I want my integrity back. If I cave, I own it. If I stay quit, I own that too. I decide that no matter where this journey takes me. I will and must be honest. Not for anyone else's sake. For Me and My sake. The best thing an addict can do is stop blaming, excusing and deceiving. Take ownership and you will be healthier. I said I quit today. If I cave it can't be today because I gave my word.
Day 8 - Very calm today. Had another friend call me. He lives in TX. I told him that I quit the evil creature. He said not me! I love my grizzly mint. I'm not quitting. I told him that I wasn't telling him to quit. He was so defensive that I changed the subject. I realized that tobacco is so dangerous. It robs us of our time, money, energy, love, compassion etc. It takes from us with nothing returned...well false returns anyway. Yet I still have triggers. I didn't realize how everything in my life involved sneaking a dip. I have so many triggers. Back on Kill the Can for support.
Day 9 - Today, there seems to be a lot of energy with the brotherhood. I assume that we have taken on more casualties than expected. I am getting emails and txts. This private is strong today but realizes our enemy is dangerous. Willing to stand a post but still a newbie. Not sure what is expected of me but I am willing and able. I am QUIT. I have been quit for 9 days. My last dip was on March 14th around 2:00 MST. It was about a 30 second dip. Dippshit talked me into spiting it out only seconds after I put it in. I have be clean, sober and really feel like I am alive. I am an addict but not caving to my addiction. I am keeping my addiction at bay. Every day I quit and everyday I battle. But I'm getting good at it. I am a good soldier.
Goals: I need to earn more stripes, I want to encourage others to fight the enemy. I want that coin. I feel that carrying that coin around in my pocket will help keep me protected and focused from a tobacco ambush.
Tobacco is the evil creature. It's a parasite that robs the host of it nutrients. If you don't kill it, it can ultimately kill you! Kill The Can. It starts with you Mthomas3824.
Outstanding, dude. Enjoyed reading this. You are winning the war, and serving as an inspiration to all of us. Proud to be quit with you today.
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Nice work
Keep one eye in the rearview mirror and the other looking forward for those nasty potholes-
need digitss- pm me
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Nice work
Keep one eye in the rearview mirror and the other looking forward for those nasty potholes-
need digitss- pm me
Day 10. Really feel like I have a handle on this. Doing great and the desire to chew is easy to fight.
Day 11. I can't even recall having a desire to chew. Really feel like I'm in control.
Day 12. The biggest mistake others ahead of me made was getting complacent. Even though it is simple, I hear my leadership stress over and over to post every day. Just like brushing my teeth every morning, I will post roll. Hell addicts like habits, this will become my new 5second habit. Even though it seems easy for me, I'm an addict and need to make sure I don't deceive myself. Need to always, always be accountable. I'm only 10% to my goal of the hall of fame. I expect there will be more battles. Right now, cruise control is on.
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Nice work
Keep one eye in the rearview mirror and the other looking forward for those nasty potholes-
need digitss- pm me
Day 10. Really feel like I have a handle on this. Doing great and the desire to chew is easy to fight.
Day 11. I can't even recall having a desire to chew. Really feel like I'm in control.
Day 12. The biggest mistake others ahead of me made was getting complacent. Even though it is simple, I hear my leadership stress over and over to post every day. Just like brushing my teeth every morning, I will post roll. Hell addicts like habits, this will become my new 5second habit. Even though it seems easy for me, I'm an addict and need to make sure I don't deceive myself. Need to always, always be accountable. I'm only 10% to my goal of the hall of fame. I expect there will be more battles. Right now, cruise control is on.
I'm with ya mthomas. But, I was on cruise control for a while then hit that 20's funk. Be prepared for it and expect it to come. I had read about it and was somewhat thinking that no way is it going to happen to me - this is getting easier each day. Well, it hit me smack in the face - hard. But, I had read about it and knew what it was which helped me to fight through. You are a great quitter and I'm glad to be in your group - I know you will make it through any funk. Just be prepared for them. Hopefully you don't hit one but if you do, get on here and read and rage out. That is what I did. You have my number, text/call whenever. We can and will do this one day at a time.
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Nice work
Keep one eye in the rearview mirror and the other looking forward for those nasty potholes-
need digitss- pm me
Day 10. Really feel like I have a handle on this. Doing great and the desire to chew is easy to fight.
Day 11. I can't even recall having a desire to chew. Really feel like I'm in control.
Day 12. The biggest mistake others ahead of me made was getting complacent. Even though it is simple, I hear my leadership stress over and over to post every day. Just like brushing my teeth every morning, I will post roll. Hell addicts like habits, this will become my new 5second habit. Even though it seems easy for me, I'm an addict and need to make sure I don't deceive myself. Need to always, always be accountable. I'm only 10% to my goal of the hall of fame. I expect there will be more battles. Right now, cruise control is on.
I'm with ya mthomas. But, I was on cruise control for a while then hit that 20's funk. Be prepared for it and expect it to come. I had read about it and was somewhat thinking that no way is it going to happen to me - this is getting easier each day. Well, it hit me smack in the face - hard. But, I had read about it and knew what it was which helped me to fight through. You are a great quitter and I'm glad to be in your group - I know you will make it through any funk. Just be prepared for them. Hopefully you don't hit one but if you do, get on here and read and rage out. That is what I did. You have my number, text/call whenever. We can and will do this one day at a time.
Thanks. Do you have examples of getting hit hard? Is it a strong urge that you can't keep in check, or is it more sneaky?
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Nice work
Keep one eye in the rearview mirror and the other looking forward for those nasty potholes-
need digitss- pm me
Day 10. Really feel like I have a handle on this. Doing great and the desire to chew is easy to fight.
Day 11. I can't even recall having a desire to chew. Really feel like I'm in control.
Day 12. The biggest mistake others ahead of me made was getting complacent. Even though it is simple, I hear my leadership stress over and over to post every day. Just like brushing my teeth every morning, I will post roll. Hell addicts like habits, this will become my new 5second habit. Even though it seems easy for me, I'm an addict and need to make sure I don't deceive myself. Need to always, always be accountable. I'm only 10% to my goal of the hall of fame. I expect there will be more battles. Right now, cruise control is on.
I'm with ya mthomas. But, I was on cruise control for a while then hit that 20's funk. Be prepared for it and expect it to come. I had read about it and was somewhat thinking that no way is it going to happen to me - this is getting easier each day. Well, it hit me smack in the face - hard. But, I had read about it and knew what it was which helped me to fight through. You are a great quitter and I'm glad to be in your group - I know you will make it through any funk. Just be prepared for them. Hopefully you don't hit one but if you do, get on here and read and rage out. That is what I did. You have my number, text/call whenever. We can and will do this one day at a time.
Thanks. Do you have examples of getting hit hard? Is it a strong urge that you can't keep in check, or is it more sneaky?
The nic bitch is always sneaky.....
Just be ready for whatever may come your way and when it seems like all the shit is hitting the fan get on here or text someone.......do something to keep your mind where you want it to be!
Stay strong bro, one day at a time!
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Hello, I have many names but here is my story.
I was born in the Americas. No one actually knows my birth date but it is believed I came into existence in 6000 B.C. In 1000 B.C. American Indians began using me as a cure-all. I would dress wounds, be a pain killer and I also was used to relieve tooth aches.
Christopher ColumbusÂ’ sailors brought me to Europe and my family flourished there. Again, it was believed that I could cure almost anything. I was credited for curing bad breath to cancer.
During the 1600Â’s I became so popular, I was used as money. In 1776, I became the collateral for the loans France gave Americans to finance the revolutionary war.
World War I and II gave me great exposure. In fact, R.J Reynolds began to market me in a cigarette brand called, “Camel”. From 1914 – 1950’s many companies began to fight for market share. Members of my family were being introduced to Men, women and children.
In 1964, the Surgeon GeneralÂ’s report came out. There soon became an all out war against me and my family members. They said I was dangerous? During the 1980Â’s my promoters were getting sued. I became politically incorrect during this time. In 1985 I was awarded the #1 killer of women beating out breast cancer. (Lung cancer)
In the 1980Â’s because of the political back lash, I was not popular. I was viewed now as a killer vs. a cure-all. I and my family had to go into hiding. Our marketing companies began to diversify and buy other companies like Nabisco, General Foods, and Kraft. Also, they started moving outside of America and introducing me to developing countries in Asia.
Now youÂ’re going to quit me? Every day you are going to quit me? Well you better be on your game! Rejecting me means you are at war with me. Your are a traitor to me and my family!!! I will fight you like a terrorist. You will not know when or where I may attack you but I will terrorize you. I will even haunt you in sleep.
You may put sanctions on me by not buying my product. I donÂ’t give a shit.
I am well funded with a great campaign. The companies that promote me realized for every quitter, there is another child coming of age. (A 6th grade boy) My promoters are going to market me to your children with subtlety and intrigue. My family will have flavors like, apple, cherry, mint, vanilla etc. All the flavors you might find in candy. There will be songs created to honor me. Yes I will recruit the very people you love and they will become my soldiers, my slaves. They will become addicts JUST LIKE YOU!
Al- Qaeda on 9/11 took credit for killing fewer than 7,000 people. My terrorist organization is credited for killing 3.5 million. Yes, I may be more subtle but I am more deadly. Imagine waking up tomorrow and hearing that all residents in Houston have been killed by a terrorist group. That is what I do every year in this world.
Bow down and worship me, I am Tobacco, I am nicotine, I am a parasite, I will rob you or your freedom and recruit your children. I am EVIL.
Once you use me, I am like the Hotel California, you can check out any time you like but you can never leave! You must post roll every single day, you must commit to fight me and you must always be on your guard. You must protect your children from me and If you think I am not like cocaine or harder drugs, good! I do better when I fly under the radar of concern.
My objective is to make you a slave. Give me your money, Give me your honor, give me your loyalty and give up your freedomÂ… I will give you a temporary buzz and health concernsÂ…ultimately Cancer.
Here is my rap sheet.
According to the statistics compiled by CDC, around 3 percent of the adult American population is involved in smokeless tobacco abuse on a regular basis.
Statistics also reveal that as many as 25 percent of these individuals take to smokeless tobacco abuse by 6th grade, while the remaining 75 percent follow the same by 9th grade.
Of the estimated 10 million individuals who abuse smokeless tobacco, approximately 3 million individuals are below 21 years of age.
The five largest tobacco manufactures in the United States spent a whopping $236.7 million on promoting their products in 2001. In 2005, the amount increased to $250.79 million, and it continues to soar even today.
World Health Organization (WHO) estimates suggest that the number of tobacco related deaths in the world will rise from 3.5 million today to a whopping 10 million in 2025.
Yours Truly,
Tobacco. (Dip, chew, Nic Bitch, Nicotine, Cope, Skoal, Rooster, Grizzley ect.)
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Hello, I have many names but here is my story.
I was born in the Americas. No one actually knows my birth date but it is believed I came into existence in 6000 B.C. In 1000 B.C. American Indians began using me as a cure-all. I would dress wounds, be a pain killer and I also was used to relieve tooth aches.
Christopher ColumbusÂ’ sailors brought me to Europe and my family flourished there. Again, it was believed that I could cure almost anything. I was credited for curing bad breath to cancer.
During the 1600Â’s I became so popular, I was used as money. In 1776, I became the collateral for the loans France gave Americans to finance the revolutionary war.
World War I and II gave me great exposure. In fact, R.J Reynolds began to market me in a cigarette brand called, “Camel”. From 1914 – 1950’s many companies began to fight for market share. Members of my family were being introduced to Men, women and children.
In 1964, the Surgeon GeneralÂ’s report came out. There soon became an all out war against me and my family members. They said I was dangerous? During the 1980Â’s my promoters were getting sued. I became politically incorrect during this time. In 1985 I was awarded the #1 killer of women beating out breast cancer. (Lung cancer)
In the 1980Â’s because of the political back lash, I was not popular. I was viewed now as a killer vs. a cure-all. I and my family had to go into hiding. Our marketing companies began to diversify and buy other companies like Nabisco, General Foods, and Kraft. Also, they started moving outside of America and introducing me to developing countries in Asia.
Now youÂ’re going to quit me? Every day you are going to quit me? Well you better be on your game! Rejecting me means you are at war with me. Your are a traitor to me and my family!!! I will fight you like a terrorist. You will not know when or where I may attack you but I will terrorize you. I will even haunt you in sleep.
You may put sanctions on me by not buying my product. I donÂ’t give a shit.
I am well funded with a great campaign. The companies that promote me realized for every quitter, there is another child coming of age. (A 6th grade boy) My promoters are going to market me to your children with subtlety and intrigue. My family will have flavors like, apple, cherry, mint, vanilla etc. All the flavors you might find in candy. There will be songs created to honor me. Yes I will recruit the very people you love and they will become my soldiers, my slaves. They will become addicts JUST LIKE YOU!
Al- Qaeda on 9/11 took credit for killing fewer than 7,000 people. My terrorist organization is credited for killing 3.5 million. Yes, I may be more subtle but I am more deadly. Imagine waking up tomorrow and hearing that all residents in Houston have been killed by a terrorist group. That is what I do every year in this world.
Bow down and worship me, I am Tobacco, I am nicotine, I am a parasite, I will rob you or your freedom and recruit your children. I am EVIL.
Once you use me, I am like the Hotel California, you can check out any time you like but you can never leave! You must post roll every single day, you must commit to fight me and you must always be on your guard. You must protect your children from me and If you think I am not like cocaine or harder drugs, good! I do better when I fly under the radar of concern.
My objective is to make you a slave. Give me your money, Give me your honor, give me your loyalty and give up your freedomÂ… I will give you a temporary buzz and health concernsÂ…ultimately Cancer.
Here is my rap sheet.
According to the statistics compiled by CDC, around 3 percent of the adult American population is involved in smokeless tobacco abuse on a regular basis.
Statistics also reveal that as many as 25 percent of these individuals take to smokeless tobacco abuse by 6th grade, while the remaining 75 percent follow the same by 9th grade.
Of the estimated 10 million individuals who abuse smokeless tobacco, approximately 3 million individuals are below 21 years of age.
The five largest tobacco manufactures in the United States spent a whopping $236.7 million on promoting their products in 2001. In 2005, the amount increased to $250.79 million, and it continues to soar even today.
World Health Organization (WHO) estimates suggest that the number of tobacco related deaths in the world will rise from 3.5 million today to a whopping 10 million in 2025.
Yours Truly,
Tobacco. (Dip, chew, Nic Bitch, Nicotine, Cope, Skoal, Rooster, Grizzley ect.)
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Hello, I have many names but here is my story.Â
I was born in the Americas. No one actually knows my birth date but it is believed I came into existence in 6000 B.C. In 1000 B.C. American Indians began using me as a cure-all. I would dress wounds, be a pain killer and I also was used to relieve tooth aches.
Christopher Columbus’ sailors brought me to Europe and my family flourished there. Again, it was believed that I could cure almost anything. I was credited for curing bad breath to cancer.
During the 1600Â’s I became so popular, I was used as money. In 1776, I became the collateral for the loans France gave Americans to finance the revolutionary war.Â
World War I and II gave me great exposure. In fact, R.J Reynolds began to market me in a cigarette brand called, “Camel”. From 1914 – 1950’s many companies began to fight for market share. Members of my family were being introduced to Men, women and children.
Â
In 1964, the Surgeon General’s report came out. There soon became an all out war against me and my family members. They said I was dangerous? During the 1980’s my promoters were getting sued. I became politically incorrect during this time. In 1985 I was awarded the #1 killer of women beating out breast cancer. (Lung cancer)
Â
In the 1980Â’s because of the political back lash, I was not popular. I was viewed now as a killer vs. a cure-all. I and my family had to go into hiding. Our marketing companies began to diversify and buy other companies like Nabisco, General Foods, and Kraft. Also, they started moving outside of America and introducing me to developing countries in Asia.Â
Now youÂ’re going to quit me? Every day you are going to quit me? Well you better be on your game! Rejecting me means you are at war with me. Your are a traitor to me and my family!!! I will fight you like a terrorist. You will not know when or where I may attack you but I will terrorize you. I will even haunt you in sleep.Â
You may put sanctions on me by not buying my product. I don’t give a shit.
I am well funded with a great campaign. The companies that promote me realized for every quitter, there is another child coming of age. (A 6th grade boy) My promoters are going to market me to your children with subtlety and intrigue. My family will have flavors like, apple, cherry, mint, vanilla etc. All the flavors you might find in candy. There will be songs created to honor me. Yes I will recruit the very people you love and they will become my soldiers, my slaves. They will become addicts JUST LIKE YOU!Â
Al- Qaeda on 9/11 took credit for killing fewer than 7,000 people. My terrorist organization is credited for killing 3.5 million. Yes, I may be more subtle but I am more deadly. Imagine waking up tomorrow and hearing that all residents in Houston have been killed by a terrorist group. That is what I do every year in this world.
Bow down and worship me, I am Tobacco, I am nicotine, I am a parasite, I will rob you or your freedom and recruit your children. I am EVIL.Â
Once you use me, I am like the Hotel California, you can check out any time you like but you can never leave! You must post roll every single day, you must commit to fight me and you must always be on your guard. You must protect your children from me and If you think I am not like cocaine or harder drugs, good! I do better when I fly under the radar of concern.
My objective is to make you a slave. Give me your money, Give me your honor, give me your loyalty and give up your freedom… I will give you a temporary buzz and health concerns…ultimately Cancer.
Â
Here is my rap sheet.Â
According to the statistics compiled by CDC, around 3 percent of the adult American population is involved in smokeless tobacco abuse on a regular basis.
Statistics also reveal that as many as 25 percent of these individuals take to smokeless tobacco abuse by 6th grade, while the remaining 75 percent follow the same by 9th grade.
Of the estimated 10 million individuals who abuse smokeless tobacco, approximately 3 million individuals are below 21 years of age.
The five largest tobacco manufactures in the United States spent a whopping $236.7 million on promoting their products in 2001. In 2005, the amount increased to $250.79 million, and it continues to soar even today.
World Health Organization (WHO) estimates suggest that the number of tobacco related deaths in the world will rise from 3.5 million today to a whopping 10 million in 2025.
Yours Truly,
Tobacco. (Dip, chew, Nic Bitch, Nicotine, Cope, Skoal, Rooster, Grizzley ect.)
'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
instant classic this should be in the words of wisdom somewhere all quitters past and present can see it.
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Hello, I have many names but here is my story.Â
I was born in the Americas. No one actually knows my birth date but it is believed I came into existence in 6000 B.C. In 1000 B.C. American Indians began using me as a cure-all. I would dress wounds, be a pain killer and I also was used to relieve tooth aches.
Christopher Columbus’ sailors brought me to Europe and my family flourished there. Again, it was believed that I could cure almost anything. I was credited for curing bad breath to cancer.
During the 1600Â’s I became so popular, I was used as money. In 1776, I became the collateral for the loans France gave Americans to finance the revolutionary war.Â
World War I and II gave me great exposure. In fact, R.J Reynolds began to market me in a cigarette brand called, “Camel”. From 1914 – 1950’s many companies began to fight for market share. Members of my family were being introduced to Men, women and children.
Â
In 1964, the Surgeon General’s report came out. There soon became an all out war against me and my family members. They said I was dangerous? During the 1980’s my promoters were getting sued. I became politically incorrect during this time. In 1985 I was awarded the #1 killer of women beating out breast cancer. (Lung cancer)
Â
In the 1980Â’s because of the political back lash, I was not popular. I was viewed now as a killer vs. a cure-all. I and my family had to go into hiding. Our marketing companies began to diversify and buy other companies like Nabisco, General Foods, and Kraft. Also, they started moving outside of America and introducing me to developing countries in Asia.Â
Now youÂ’re going to quit me? Every day you are going to quit me? Well you better be on your game! Rejecting me means you are at war with me. Your are a traitor to me and my family!!! I will fight you like a terrorist. You will not know when or where I may attack you but I will terrorize you. I will even haunt you in sleep.Â
You may put sanctions on me by not buying my product. I don’t give a shit.
I am well funded with a great campaign. The companies that promote me realized for every quitter, there is another child coming of age. (A 6th grade boy) My promoters are going to market me to your children with subtlety and intrigue. My family will have flavors like, apple, cherry, mint, vanilla etc. All the flavors you might find in candy. There will be songs created to honor me. Yes I will recruit the very people you love and they will become my soldiers, my slaves. They will become addicts JUST LIKE YOU!Â
Al- Qaeda on 9/11 took credit for killing fewer than 7,000 people. My terrorist organization is credited for killing 3.5 million. Yes, I may be more subtle but I am more deadly. Imagine waking up tomorrow and hearing that all residents in Houston have been killed by a terrorist group. That is what I do every year in this world.
Bow down and worship me, I am Tobacco, I am nicotine, I am a parasite, I will rob you or your freedom and recruit your children. I am EVIL.Â
Once you use me, I am like the Hotel California, you can check out any time you like but you can never leave! You must post roll every single day, you must commit to fight me and you must always be on your guard. You must protect your children from me and If you think I am not like cocaine or harder drugs, good! I do better when I fly under the radar of concern.
My objective is to make you a slave. Give me your money, Give me your honor, give me your loyalty and give up your freedom… I will give you a temporary buzz and health concerns…ultimately Cancer.
Â
Here is my rap sheet.Â
According to the statistics compiled by CDC, around 3 percent of the adult American population is involved in smokeless tobacco abuse on a regular basis.
Statistics also reveal that as many as 25 percent of these individuals take to smokeless tobacco abuse by 6th grade, while the remaining 75 percent follow the same by 9th grade.
Of the estimated 10 million individuals who abuse smokeless tobacco, approximately 3 million individuals are below 21 years of age.
The five largest tobacco manufactures in the United States spent a whopping $236.7 million on promoting their products in 2001. In 2005, the amount increased to $250.79 million, and it continues to soar even today.
World Health Organization (WHO) estimates suggest that the number of tobacco related deaths in the world will rise from 3.5 million today to a whopping 10 million in 2025.
Yours Truly,
Tobacco. (Dip, chew, Nic Bitch, Nicotine, Cope, Skoal, Rooster, Grizzley ect.)
'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
instant classic this should be in the words of wisdom somewhere all quitters past and present can see it.
Great, great read!!! Outstanding work. I quit with you today and everyday. Especially since you are so much smarter than me. Just keep writing and making me proud to be in the same house as you. We will win this war one battle at a time, one day at a time. Fuck Big Tobacco, Fuck Copenhagen, and Fuck the Nic Bitch!!! I'm QUIT with MThomas!!!
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Nice work
Keep one eye in the rearview mirror and the other looking forward for those nasty potholes-
need digitss- pm me
Day 10. Really feel like I have a handle on this. Doing great and the desire to chew is easy to fight.
Day 11. I can't even recall having a desire to chew. Really feel like I'm in control.
Day 12. The biggest mistake others ahead of me made was getting complacent. Even though it is simple, I hear my leadership stress over and over to post every day. Just like brushing my teeth every morning, I will post roll. Hell addicts like habits, this will become my new 5second habit. Even though it seems easy for me, I'm an addict and need to make sure I don't deceive myself. Need to always, always be accountable. I'm only 10% to my goal of the hall of fame. I expect there will be more battles. Right now, cruise control is on.
I'm with ya mthomas. But, I was on cruise control for a while then hit that 20's funk. Be prepared for it and expect it to come. I had read about it and was somewhat thinking that no way is it going to happen to me - this is getting easier each day. Well, it hit me smack in the face - hard. But, I had read about it and knew what it was which helped me to fight through. You are a great quitter and I'm glad to be in your group - I know you will make it through any funk. Just be prepared for them. Hopefully you don't hit one but if you do, get on here and read and rage out. That is what I did. You have my number, text/call whenever. We can and will do this one day at a time.
Thanks. Do you have examples of getting hit hard? Is it a strong urge that you can't keep in check, or is it more sneaky?
Was having a real shitty day, one of those days that I just felt grumpy and irritated by everyone and everything. Just a bad ass mood all together. Couldn't snap out of it. Nothing was funny, my wife irritated the fuck out of me for no reason at all, my pride and joy - my 4 kids were not a lot of fun to be around. Just a really bad attitude day. None of it was even due to a crave, just a funk of a mood. Guess that's why they call it a funk. What's weird about it is I didn't even know that I was starting a funk - just gradually progressed as the day went on. By night time I was posting on here and typing shit I normally wouldn't. It was then that I realized I was completely in the 20's funk. The next day was better but not much. When I was able to realize what was going on I could at least fight it better and not let it completely ruin another day. All in all it lasted for me probably 2 1/2 days. Maybe little less. Just be on guard. Never felt like I was even close to caving - just was a major dick to be around for a couple of days.
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Nice work
Keep one eye in the rearview mirror and the other looking forward for those nasty potholes-
need digitss- pm me
Day 10. Really feel like I have a handle on this. Doing great and the desire to chew is easy to fight.
Day 11. I can't even recall having a desire to chew. Really feel like I'm in control.
Day 12. The biggest mistake others ahead of me made was getting complacent. Even though it is simple, I hear my leadership stress over and over to post every day. Just like brushing my teeth every morning, I will post roll. Hell addicts like habits, this will become my new 5second habit. Even though it seems easy for me, I'm an addict and need to make sure I don't deceive myself. Need to always, always be accountable. I'm only 10% to my goal of the hall of fame. I expect there will be more battles. Right now, cruise control is on.
I'm with ya mthomas. But, I was on cruise control for a while then hit that 20's funk. Be prepared for it and expect it to come. I had read about it and was somewhat thinking that no way is it going to happen to me - this is getting easier each day. Well, it hit me smack in the face - hard. But, I had read about it and knew what it was which helped me to fight through. You are a great quitter and I'm glad to be in your group - I know you will make it through any funk. Just be prepared for them. Hopefully you don't hit one but if you do, get on here and read and rage out. That is what I did. You have my number, text/call whenever. We can and will do this one day at a time.
Thanks. Do you have examples of getting hit hard? Is it a strong urge that you can't keep in check, or is it more sneaky?
Was having a real shitty day, one of those days that I just felt grumpy and irritated by everyone and everything. Just a bad ass mood all together. Couldn't snap out of it. Nothing was funny, my wife irritated the fuck out of me for no reason at all, my pride and joy - my 4 kids were not a lot of fun to be around. Just a really bad attitude day. None of it was even due to a crave, just a funk of a mood. Guess that's why they call it a funk. What's weird about it is I didn't even know that I was starting a funk - just gradually progressed as the day went on. By night time I was posting on here and typing shit I normally wouldn't. It was then that I realized I was completely in the 20's funk. The next day was better but not much. When I was able to realize what was going on I could at least fight it better and not let it completely ruin another day. All in all it lasted for me probably 2 1/2 days. Maybe little less. Just be on guard. Never felt like I was even close to caving - just was a major dick to be around for a couple of days.
my 20's funk gave me the strongest test yet....there was a couple of days where i swear i could taste and smell the shit in my mouth.
For me it was like a dip dream while awake.....minutes felt like hours and hours felt like days it was a strong strong attack by the bitch......be ready!
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Hello, I have many names but here is my story.Â
I was born in the Americas. No one actually knows my birth date but it is believed I came into existence in 6000 B.C. In 1000 B.C. American Indians began using me as a cure-all. I would dress wounds, be a pain killer and I also was used to relieve tooth aches.
Christopher Columbus’ sailors brought me to Europe and my family flourished there. Again, it was believed that I could cure almost anything. I was credited for curing bad breath to cancer.
During the 1600Â’s I became so popular, I was used as money. In 1776, I became the collateral for the loans France gave Americans to finance the revolutionary war.Â
World War I and II gave me great exposure. In fact, R.J Reynolds began to market me in a cigarette brand called, “Camel”. From 1914 – 1950’s many companies began to fight for market share. Members of my family were being introduced to Men, women and children.
Â
In 1964, the Surgeon General’s report came out. There soon became an all out war against me and my family members. They said I was dangerous? During the 1980’s my promoters were getting sued. I became politically incorrect during this time. In 1985 I was awarded the #1 killer of women beating out breast cancer. (Lung cancer)
Â
In the 1980Â’s because of the political back lash, I was not popular. I was viewed now as a killer vs. a cure-all. I and my family had to go into hiding. Our marketing companies began to diversify and buy other companies like Nabisco, General Foods, and Kraft. Also, they started moving outside of America and introducing me to developing countries in Asia.Â
Now youÂ’re going to quit me? Every day you are going to quit me? Well you better be on your game! Rejecting me means you are at war with me. Your are a traitor to me and my family!!! I will fight you like a terrorist. You will not know when or where I may attack you but I will terrorize you. I will even haunt you in sleep.Â
You may put sanctions on me by not buying my product. I don’t give a shit.
I am well funded with a great campaign. The companies that promote me realized for every quitter, there is another child coming of age. (A 6th grade boy) My promoters are going to market me to your children with subtlety and intrigue. My family will have flavors like, apple, cherry, mint, vanilla etc. All the flavors you might find in candy. There will be songs created to honor me. Yes I will recruit the very people you love and they will become my soldiers, my slaves. They will become addicts JUST LIKE YOU!Â
Al- Qaeda on 9/11 took credit for killing fewer than 7,000 people. My terrorist organization is credited for killing 3.5 million. Yes, I may be more subtle but I am more deadly. Imagine waking up tomorrow and hearing that all residents in Houston have been killed by a terrorist group. That is what I do every year in this world.
Bow down and worship me, I am Tobacco, I am nicotine, I am a parasite, I will rob you or your freedom and recruit your children. I am EVIL.Â
Once you use me, I am like the Hotel California, you can check out any time you like but you can never leave! You must post roll every single day, you must commit to fight me and you must always be on your guard. You must protect your children from me and If you think I am not like cocaine or harder drugs, good! I do better when I fly under the radar of concern.
My objective is to make you a slave. Give me your money, Give me your honor, give me your loyalty and give up your freedom… I will give you a temporary buzz and health concerns…ultimately Cancer.
Â
Here is my rap sheet.Â
According to the statistics compiled by CDC, around 3 percent of the adult American population is involved in smokeless tobacco abuse on a regular basis.
Statistics also reveal that as many as 25 percent of these individuals take to smokeless tobacco abuse by 6th grade, while the remaining 75 percent follow the same by 9th grade.
Of the estimated 10 million individuals who abuse smokeless tobacco, approximately 3 million individuals are below 21 years of age.
The five largest tobacco manufactures in the United States spent a whopping $236.7 million on promoting their products in 2001. In 2005, the amount increased to $250.79 million, and it continues to soar even today.
World Health Organization (WHO) estimates suggest that the number of tobacco related deaths in the world will rise from 3.5 million today to a whopping 10 million in 2025.
Yours Truly,
Tobacco. (Dip, chew, Nic Bitch, Nicotine, Cope, Skoal, Rooster, Grizzley ect.)
'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
instant classic this should be in the words of wisdom somewhere all quitters past and present can see it.
Great, great read!!! Outstanding work. I quit with you today and everyday. Especially since you are so much smarter than me. Just keep writing and making me proud to be in the same house as you. We will win this war one battle at a time, one day at a time. Fuck Big Tobacco, Fuck Copenhagen, and Fuck the Nic Bitch!!! I'm QUIT with MThomas!!!
Outstanding.
Fuck all those bastards. All that shit that tried to kill you on a daily basis. Fuck the asshole in the corner office making a grand living off of marketing cancer in a can to kids.
I'd curb all those fuckers.
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Hello, I have many names but here is my story.Â
I was born in the Americas. No one actually knows my birth date but it is believed I came into existence in 6000 B.C. In 1000 B.C. American Indians began using me as a cure-all. I would dress wounds, be a pain killer and I also was used to relieve tooth aches.
Christopher Columbus’ sailors brought me to Europe and my family flourished there. Again, it was believed that I could cure almost anything. I was credited for curing bad breath to cancer.
During the 1600Â’s I became so popular, I was used as money. In 1776, I became the collateral for the loans France gave Americans to finance the revolutionary war.Â
World War I and II gave me great exposure. In fact, R.J Reynolds began to market me in a cigarette brand called, “Camel”. From 1914 – 1950’s many companies began to fight for market share. Members of my family were being introduced to Men, women and children.
Â
In 1964, the Surgeon General’s report came out. There soon became an all out war against me and my family members. They said I was dangerous? During the 1980’s my promoters were getting sued. I became politically incorrect during this time. In 1985 I was awarded the #1 killer of women beating out breast cancer. (Lung cancer)
Â
In the 1980Â’s because of the political back lash, I was not popular. I was viewed now as a killer vs. a cure-all. I and my family had to go into hiding. Our marketing companies began to diversify and buy other companies like Nabisco, General Foods, and Kraft. Also, they started moving outside of America and introducing me to developing countries in Asia.Â
Now youÂ’re going to quit me? Every day you are going to quit me? Well you better be on your game! Rejecting me means you are at war with me. Your are a traitor to me and my family!!! I will fight you like a terrorist. You will not know when or where I may attack you but I will terrorize you. I will even haunt you in sleep.Â
You may put sanctions on me by not buying my product. I don’t give a shit.
I am well funded with a great campaign. The companies that promote me realized for every quitter, there is another child coming of age. (A 6th grade boy) My promoters are going to market me to your children with subtlety and intrigue. My family will have flavors like, apple, cherry, mint, vanilla etc. All the flavors you might find in candy. There will be songs created to honor me. Yes I will recruit the very people you love and they will become my soldiers, my slaves. They will become addicts JUST LIKE YOU!Â
Al- Qaeda on 9/11 took credit for killing fewer than 7,000 people. My terrorist organization is credited for killing 3.5 million. Yes, I may be more subtle but I am more deadly. Imagine waking up tomorrow and hearing that all residents in Houston have been killed by a terrorist group. That is what I do every year in this world.
Bow down and worship me, I am Tobacco, I am nicotine, I am a parasite, I will rob you or your freedom and recruit your children. I am EVIL.Â
Once you use me, I am like the Hotel California, you can check out any time you like but you can never leave! You must post roll every single day, you must commit to fight me and you must always be on your guard. You must protect your children from me and If you think I am not like cocaine or harder drugs, good! I do better when I fly under the radar of concern.
My objective is to make you a slave. Give me your money, Give me your honor, give me your loyalty and give up your freedom… I will give you a temporary buzz and health concerns…ultimately Cancer.
Â
Here is my rap sheet.Â
According to the statistics compiled by CDC, around 3 percent of the adult American population is involved in smokeless tobacco abuse on a regular basis.
Statistics also reveal that as many as 25 percent of these individuals take to smokeless tobacco abuse by 6th grade, while the remaining 75 percent follow the same by 9th grade.
Of the estimated 10 million individuals who abuse smokeless tobacco, approximately 3 million individuals are below 21 years of age.
The five largest tobacco manufactures in the United States spent a whopping $236.7 million on promoting their products in 2001. In 2005, the amount increased to $250.79 million, and it continues to soar even today.
World Health Organization (WHO) estimates suggest that the number of tobacco related deaths in the world will rise from 3.5 million today to a whopping 10 million in 2025.
Yours Truly,
Tobacco. (Dip, chew, Nic Bitch, Nicotine, Cope, Skoal, Rooster, Grizzley ect.)
'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
instant classic this should be in the words of wisdom somewhere all quitters past and present can see it.
Great, great read!!! Outstanding work. I quit with you today and everyday. Especially since you are so much smarter than me. Just keep writing and making me proud to be in the same house as you. We will win this war one battle at a time, one day at a time. Fuck Big Tobacco, Fuck Copenhagen, and Fuck the Nic Bitch!!! I'm QUIT with MThomas!!!
Outstanding.
Fuck all those bastards. All that shit that tried to kill you on a daily basis. Fuck the asshole in the corner office making a grand living off of marketing cancer in a can to kids.
I'd curb all those fuckers.
Feels great to be quit with some badass quiters!
Great write up mthomas you get it and continue to enlighten and inspire!
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"...I am well funded with a great campaign. The companies that promote me realized for every quitter, there is another child coming of age. (A 6th grade boy) My promoters are going to market me to your children with subtlety and intrigue. My family will have flavors like, apple, cherry, mint, vanilla etc. All the flavors you might find in candy...."
True words. I once did some computer work at a company the did covert tobacco marketing to children. Pretty sick group...awesome post, BTW. Scott
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Nice work
Keep one eye in the rearview mirror and the other looking forward for those nasty potholes-
need digitss- pm me
Day 10. Really feel like I have a handle on this. Doing great and the desire to chew is easy to fight.
Day 11. I can't even recall having a desire to chew. Really feel like I'm in control.
Day 12. The biggest mistake others ahead of me made was getting complacent. Even though it is simple, I hear my leadership stress over and over to post every day. Just like brushing my teeth every morning, I will post roll. Hell addicts like habits, this will become my new 5second habit. Even though it seems easy for me, I'm an addict and need to make sure I don't deceive myself. Need to always, always be accountable. I'm only 10% to my goal of the hall of fame. I expect there will be more battles. Right now, cruise control is on.
I'm with ya mthomas. But, I was on cruise control for a while then hit that 20's funk. Be prepared for it and expect it to come. I had read about it and was somewhat thinking that no way is it going to happen to me - this is getting easier each day. Well, it hit me smack in the face - hard. But, I had read about it and knew what it was which helped me to fight through. You are a great quitter and I'm glad to be in your group - I know you will make it through any funk. Just be prepared for them. Hopefully you don't hit one but if you do, get on here and read and rage out. That is what I did. You have my number, text/call whenever. We can and will do this one day at a time.
Thanks. Do you have examples of getting hit hard? Is it a strong urge that you can't keep in check, or is it more sneaky?
Was having a real shitty day, one of those days that I just felt grumpy and irritated by everyone and everything. Just a bad ass mood all together. Couldn't snap out of it. Nothing was funny, my wife irritated the fuck out of me for no reason at all, my pride and joy - my 4 kids were not a lot of fun to be around. Just a really bad attitude day. None of it was even due to a crave, just a funk of a mood. Guess that's why they call it a funk. What's weird about it is I didn't even know that I was starting a funk - just gradually progressed as the day went on. By night time I was posting on here and typing shit I normally wouldn't. It was then that I realized I was completely in the 20's funk. The next day was better but not much. When I was able to realize what was going on I could at least fight it better and not let it completely ruin another day. All in all it lasted for me probably 2 1/2 days. Maybe little less. Just be on guard. Never felt like I was even close to caving - just was a major dick to be around for a couple of days.
my 20's funk gave me the strongest test yet....there was a couple of days where i swear i could taste and smell the shit in my mouth.
For me it was like a dip dream while awake.....minutes felt like hours and hours felt like days it was a strong strong attack by the bitch......be ready!
Thanks for the insight. Not looking forward to it but I have been warned. Now I can make a plan. I will make sure to always post roll at a minimum.
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Day 12. The biggest mistake others ahead of me made was getting complacent. Even though it is simple, I hear my leadership stress over and over to post every day. Just like brushing my teeth every morning, I will post roll. Hell addicts like habits, this will become my new 5second habit. Even though it seems easy for me, I'm an addict and need to make sure I don't deceive myself. Need to always, always be accountable. I'm only 10% to my goal of the hall of fame. I expect there will be more battles. Right now, cruise control is on.
I'm far from a vet or a leader here but will attest to the simple fact that you have written here - do not get complacent and continue to post roll daily. I posted Day 244 today and can tell you that I feel like my quit is going very easy. In fact, I haven't had a real "crave" since around Day 110. Another tidbit of information though is that while I'm only at 244 days my post count is over 4,000. I'm not saying that you must be a complete post whore (like I obviously am) but I'm thinking that the significant activity on KTC (I post in approximately 15 groups daily, comment on Intros, etc.) does correlate to success with the quit. Just my opinion. Not trying to give myself a slap on the ass but one thing I tell people is that you get out of it what you put into it. I was a complete and utter slave to the can for over 20 years with no chance of quitting for a single day, much less 244. I realize that if I commit to time here daily (maybe I spend a total of 20 minutes each day and possibly more if in Chat) I know that I am going to continue to feel like this quit is easy. People annoy the shit out of me when they say they do not have the time to do more than just post up and bolt. Please. It comes down to how bad does one want to stay quit. You have the right idea and are doing it right.
Stay the course.
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Day 13 Really confident on how easy this is. I have done so much reading. Tobacco companies estimate that (daily) 4,000 users quit or die. Their goal is to recruit (daily) 5,000 new tobacco users. They target 6th - 9th grade boys for chewing tobacco. Makes me sick.
Day 14 I am really angry and want to start an all out education war. I get home tonight. After I eat, I get really down and lose all motivation and desire. Sleep for a little bit, wake up and feel anxious and sweating. Not sure what happened but my attitude had taken a 180 degree turn. I just feel like doing nothing. I usually go to the gym to clear my mind. No desire, just lay there.
Day 15 Made sure to post roll first thing this morning. Other than that, I don't care much about today and the battle. Maybe I hit the funk? If I did, it is amazing how sudden it hit me. Just going to ride out this storm. I am sure its just a phase. Caving is not an option or even a desire. I'm just blah and high strung today. (Maybe to much information but I haven't gone #2 since Saturday. 3+ days is a long time for me. I'm a pretty regular guy.)
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Day 13 Really confident on how easy this is. I have done so much reading. Tobacco companies estimate that (daily) 4,000 users quit or die. Their goal is to recruit (daily) 5,000 new tobacco users. They target 6th - 9th grade boys for chewing tobacco. Makes me sick.
Day 14 I am really angry and want to start an all out education war. I get home tonight. After I eat, I get really down and lose all motivation and desire. Sleep for a little bit, wake up and feel anxious and sweating. Not sure what happened but my attitude had taken a 180 degree turn. I just feel like doing nothing. I usually go to the gym to clear my mind. No desire, just lay there.
Day 15 Made sure to post roll first thing this morning. Other than that, I don't care much about today and the battle. Maybe I hit the funk? If I did, it is amazing how sudden it hit me. Just going to ride out this storm. I am sure its just a phase. Caving is not an option or even a desire. I'm just blah and high strung today. (Maybe to much information but I haven't gone #2 since Saturday. 3+ days is a long time for me. I'm a pretty regular guy.)
Those funks will pass my Brother, hang tough.
Keep posting your thoughts here.
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I feel ya MT. Going through a little bit of that myself. Hang in man
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Day 13 Really confident on how easy this is. I have done so much reading. Tobacco companies estimate that (daily) 4,000 users quit or die. Their goal is to recruit (daily) 5,000 new tobacco users. They target 6th - 9th grade boys for chewing tobacco. Makes me sick.Â
Day 14 I am really angry and want to start an all out education war. I get home tonight. After I eat, I get really down and lose all motivation and desire. Sleep for a little bit, wake up and feel anxious and sweating. Not sure what happened but my attitude had taken a 180 degree turn. I just feel like doing nothing. I usually go to the gym to clear my mind. No desire, just lay there.Â
Day 15 Made sure to post roll first thing this morning. Other than that, I don't care much about today and the battle. Maybe I hit the funk? If I did, it is amazing how sudden it hit me. Just going to ride out this storm. I am sure its just a phase. Caving is not an option or even a desire. I'm just blah and high strung today. (Maybe to much information but I haven't gone #2 since Saturday. 3+ days is a long time for me. I'm a pretty regular guy.)
Those funks will pass my Brother, hang tough.
Keep posting your thoughts here.
I think a lot of us are there. You can do it, hang tough.
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Day 13 Really confident on how easy this is. I have done so much reading. Tobacco companies estimate that (daily) 4,000 users quit or die. Their goal is to recruit (daily) 5,000 new tobacco users. They target 6th - 9th grade boys for chewing tobacco. Makes me sick.Â
Day 14 I am really angry and want to start an all out education war. I get home tonight. After I eat, I get really down and lose all motivation and desire. Sleep for a little bit, wake up and feel anxious and sweating. Not sure what happened but my attitude had taken a 180 degree turn. I just feel like doing nothing. I usually go to the gym to clear my mind. No desire, just lay there. Â
Day 15 Made sure to post roll first thing this morning. Other than that, I don't care much about today and the battle. Maybe I hit the funk? If I did, it is amazing how sudden it hit me. Just going to ride out this storm. I am sure its just a phase. Caving is not an option or even a desire. I'm just blah and high strung today. (Maybe to much information but I haven't gone #2 since Saturday. 3+ days is a long time for me. I'm a pretty regular guy.)
Those funks will pass my Brother, hang tough.
Keep posting your thoughts here.
I think a lot of us are there. You can do it, hang tough.
Hey bro - I just posted in my intro and in our quit group. Day 33 is sucking balls for me right now. Have slept terribly the last couple nights, and today, feel the same way you described yourself. Driving to work the past 2 days I have really missed having a dip with coffee. Now, like you said, caving is NOT an option, but for some reason I have missed it more these past couple days than the entire quit so far.
This is not to discourage you for down the road issues, this is just to let you know that you are not alone. We are fighting this shit together and there are others going through the hurt right now. Typing it out is helping me cause I am starting to flip my attitude into more of a pissed off Fuck it attitude at the bitch. Gonna start punching back harder right now. Headed to the weight room - time to get it on and sweat this shit out.
Your not alone brother - we will get through this. Grind it out one day at a time.
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Great call. I am going to the gym after work tonight at all costs. No matter how I feel it is time to sweat it out! Thanks for helping me turn a corner on my attitude. Way to lead the charge and I'm right behind you...Watching your back. 'biggun'
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Day 13 Really confident on how easy this is. I have done so much reading. Tobacco companies estimate that (daily) 4,000 users quit or die. Their goal is to recruit (daily) 5,000 new tobacco users. They target 6th - 9th grade boys for chewing tobacco. Makes me sick.Â
Day 14 I am really angry and want to start an all out education war. I get home tonight. After I eat, I get really down and lose all motivation and desire. Sleep for a little bit, wake up and feel anxious and sweating. Not sure what happened but my attitude had taken a 180 degree turn. I just feel like doing nothing. I usually go to the gym to clear my mind. No desire, just lay there. Â
Day 15 Made sure to post roll first thing this morning. Other than that, I don't care much about today and the battle. Maybe I hit the funk? If I did, it is amazing how sudden it hit me. Just going to ride out this storm. I am sure its just a phase. Caving is not an option or even a desire. I'm just blah and high strung today. (Maybe to much information but I haven't gone #2 since Saturday. 3+ days is a long time for me. I'm a pretty regular guy.)
Those funks will pass my Brother, hang tough.
Keep posting your thoughts here.
I think a lot of us are there. You can do it, hang tough.
Hey bro - I just posted in my intro and in our quit group. Day 33 is sucking balls for me right now. Have slept terribly the last couple nights, and today, feel the same way you described yourself. Driving to work the past 2 days I have really missed having a dip with coffee. Now, like you said, caving is NOT an option, but for some reason I have missed it more these past couple days than the entire quit so far.
This is not to discourage you for down the road issues, this is just to let you know that you are not alone. We are fighting this shit together and there are others going through the hurt right now. Typing it out is helping me cause I am starting to flip my attitude into more of a pissed off Fuck it attitude at the bitch. Gonna start punching back harder right now. Headed to the weight room - time to get it on and sweat this shit out.
Your not alone brother - we will get through this. Grind it out one day at a time.
Stay focused just like you are these craves and urges and hyperness are so similiar to mine it all strangely sounds so familiar.....
You have the right plan go kick your own ass then that way you really calm yourself down and dont want to kick anyone elses ass!
Stray quit stay strong bro!!
Text me or PM if you need to vent or well whatever I can do to help!
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I think the last time I wrote a poem, I was in 6th grade. Here is my attempt years later....If there is a true writer in the group, please make this better. I just got thinking about the heavy recruiting going on to enslave the youth. Safe to say but 90% or more started between 12 and 18 yrs.
Snake oil
As a youth full of insecurity,
I was writing the script of who I wanted to be,
Looking, watching and searching for a sign,
A salesman came calling and I stood in line.
He was animated and confident; what I wanted to be,
I was interested, I was tempted and full of curiosity,
“Whatever ales ya, this will cure, it’s so easy, you’ll see
Just try it once, If you don’t like it, I’ll let you be”.
Just a pinch between my cheek and gumÂ….
Wow, IÂ’m dizzy, IÂ’m buzzing, I think this is fun?
Do I like it, do I hate it, no worries IÂ’m just numb
I am brave, I am strong, and this snake oil is number one!
I wanted fun, I wanted help, I yearned to winÂ…
Now with more wisdom, my life outlook is pretty grim.
The salesmanÂ’s pitch was served with a silver forked tongue,
I partook and became a slave to something less valuable than dung.
So in my 40Â’s what can I do now?
IÂ’m an addict, IÂ’m a loser and to the can I must bow.
Or I can fight, I can bleed, I can cry but I can be free!
I will stand with my brothers and quitÂ…I now believe!!!
Freedom isnÂ’t free, you must fight and exclaim,
I want to be free and IÂ’m done being ashamed.
Yes IÂ’m an addict; arenÂ’t we all are to some extent?
But we are children of God his blood was well spent!
It took me time to understand and now I know,
Tobacco is evil, the great lie, and itÂ’s just a false show.
It robs you of freedom, you lose your dignity
As I climb this mountain, I daily claim, "VICTORY"!!!
I look back to my youth, with a question unanswered,
I am still writing my script, of triumph, not so absurd
I am wise, I am a man, my eyes open, now see,
Who I am...a TRUE MAN WITH, INTEGRITY!!!
This is dedicated to the young and the free,
When the snake oils salesman comes, donÂ’t be like me.
Run, fight, kick and Scream, this is evil, avoid itÂ…and let it be.
The easiest way to battle the bitch is to always remain free.
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I think the last time I wrote a poem, I was in 6th grade. Here is my attempt years later....If there is a true writer in the group, please make this better. I just got thinking about the heavy recruiting going on to enslave the youth. Safe to say but 90% or more started between 12 and 18 yrs.
Snake oil
As a youth full of insecurity,
I was writing the script of who I wanted to be,
Looking, watching and searching for a sign,
A salesman came calling and I stood in line.
He was animated and confident; what I wanted to be,
I was interested, I was tempted and full of curiosity,
“Whatever ales ya, this will cure, it’s so easy, you’ll see
Just try it once, If you don’t like it, I’ll let you be”.
Just a pinch between my cheek and gumÂ….
Wow, IÂ’m dizzy, IÂ’m buzzing, I think this is fun?
Do I like it, do I hate it, no worries IÂ’m just numb
I am brave, I am strong, and this snake oil is number one!
I wanted fun, I wanted help, I yearned to winÂ…
Now with more wisdom, my life outlook is pretty grim.
The salesmanÂ’s pitch was served with a silver forked tongue,
I partook and became a slave to something less valuable than dung.
So in my 40Â’s what can I do now?
IÂ’m an addict, IÂ’m a loser and to the can I must bow.
Or I can fight, I can bleed, I can cry but I can be free!
I will stand with my brothers and quitÂ…I now believe!!!
Freedom isnÂ’t free, you must fight and exclaim,
I want to be free and IÂ’m done being ashamed.
Yes IÂ’m an addict; arenÂ’t we all are to some extent?
But we are children of God his blood was well spent!
It took me time to understand and now I know,
Tobacco is evil, the great lie, and itÂ’s just a false show.
It robs you of freedom, you lose your dignity
As I climb this mountain, I daily claim, "VICTORY"!!!
I look back to my youth, with a question unanswered,
I am still writing my script, of triumph, not so absurd
I am wise, I am a man, my eyes open, now see,
Who I am...a TRUE MAN WITH, INTEGRITY!!!
This is dedicated to the young and the free,
When the snake oils salesman comes, donÂ’t be like me.
Run, fight, kick and Scream, this is evil, avoid itÂ…and let it be.
The easiest way to battle the bitch is to always remain free.
Great message!
Good to not want to continue the bad choices of my youth!
Fucking snake oil.........
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I think the last time I wrote a poem, I was in 6th grade. Here is my attempt years later....If there is a true writer in the group, please make this better. I just got thinking about the heavy recruiting going on to enslave the youth. Safe to say but 90% or more started between 12 and 18 yrs.Â
Snake oil
As a youth full of insecurity,
I was writing the script of who I wanted to be,
Looking, watching and searching for a sign,
A salesman came calling and I stood in line.
He was animated and confident; what I wanted to be,
I was interested, I was tempted and full of curiosity,
“Whatever ales ya, this will cure, it’s so easy, you’ll see
Just try it once, If you don’t like it, I’ll let you be”.
Just a pinch between my cheek and gumÂ….
Wow, IÂ’m dizzy, IÂ’m buzzing, I think this is fun?
Do I like it, do I hate it, no worries IÂ’m just numb
I am brave, I am strong, and this snake oil is number one!
I wanted fun, I wanted help, I yearned to winÂ…
Now with more wisdom, my life outlook is pretty grim.
The salesmanÂ’s pitch was served with a silver forked tongue,
I partook and became a slave to something less valuable than dung.
So in my 40Â’s what can I do now?
IÂ’m an addict, IÂ’m a loser and to the can I must bow.
Or I can fight, I can bleed, I can cry but I can be free!
I will stand with my brothers and quitÂ…I now believe!!!
Freedom isnÂ’t free, you must fight and exclaim,
I want to be free and IÂ’m done being ashamed.
Yes IÂ’m an addict; arenÂ’t we all are to some extent?
But we are children of God his blood was well spent!
It took me time to understand and now I know,
Tobacco is evil, the great lie, and itÂ’s just a false show.
It robs you of freedom, you lose your dignity
As I climb this mountain, I daily claim, "VICTORY"!!!
I look back to my youth, with a question unanswered,
I am still writing my script, of triumph, not so absurd
I am wise, I am a man, my eyes open, now see,
Who I am...a TRUE MAN WITH, INTEGRITY!!!
This is dedicated to the young and the free,
When the snake oils salesman comes, donÂ’t be like me.
Run, fight, kick and Scream, this is evil, avoid itÂ…and let it be.
The easiest way to battle the bitch is to always remain free.
That is some good shit right there. Hope you don't mind but I copy and pasted it to Microsoft Word, printed it out and am keeping a copy of it. All credit to you though, would never try to steal someones thunder. You the man. Great to be quit with you. If you ever do cave I will hunt you down and kill you!!! Think about that the next time you are close to buying a can or bumming one off a friend. It is great to be quit with you and your writings are what I need - keep it up!
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I think the last time I wrote a poem, I was in 6th grade. Here is my attempt years later....If there is a true writer in the group, please make this better. I just got thinking about the heavy recruiting going on to enslave the youth. Safe to say but 90% or more started between 12 and 18 yrs.
Snake oil
As a youth full of insecurity,
I was writing the script of who I wanted to be,
Looking, watching and searching for a sign,
A salesman came calling and I stood in line.
He was animated and confident; what I wanted to be,
I was interested, I was tempted and full of curiosity,
“Whatever ales ya, this will cure, it’s so easy, you’ll see
Just try it once, If you don’t like it, I’ll let you be”.
Just a pinch between my cheek and gumÂ….
Wow, IÂ’m dizzy, IÂ’m buzzing, I think this is fun?
Do I like it, do I hate it, no worries IÂ’m just numb
I am brave, I am strong, and this snake oil is number one!
I wanted fun, I wanted help, I yearned to winÂ…
Now with more wisdom, my life outlook is pretty grim.
The salesmanÂ’s pitch was served with a silver forked tongue,
I partook and became a slave to something less valuable than dung.
So in my 40Â’s what can I do now?
IÂ’m an addict, IÂ’m a loser and to the can I must bow.
Or I can fight, I can bleed, I can cry but I can be free!
I will stand with my brothers and quitÂ…I now believe!!!
Freedom isnÂ’t free, you must fight and exclaim,
I want to be free and IÂ’m done being ashamed.
Yes IÂ’m an addict; arenÂ’t we all are to some extent?
But we are children of God his blood was well spent!
It took me time to understand and now I know,
Tobacco is evil, the great lie, and itÂ’s just a false show.
It robs you of freedom, you lose your dignity
As I climb this mountain, I daily claim, "VICTORY"!!!
I look back to my youth, with a question unanswered,
I am still writing my script, of triumph, not so absurd
I am wise, I am a man, my eyes open, now see,
Who I am...a TRUE MAN WITH, INTEGRITY!!!
This is dedicated to the young and the free,
When the snake oils salesman comes, donÂ’t be like me.
Run, fight, kick and Scream, this is evil, avoid itÂ…and let it be.
The easiest way to battle the bitch is to always remain free.
Great stuff. Keep up the quit and if you cave, I'm riding shotgun with Suck-it.
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I think the last time I wrote a poem, I was in 6th grade. Here is my attempt years later....If there is a true writer in the group, please make this better. I just got thinking about the heavy recruiting going on to enslave the youth. Safe to say but 90% or more started between 12 and 18 yrs.Â
Snake oil
As a youth full of insecurity,
I was writing the script of who I wanted to be,
Looking, watching and searching for a sign,
A salesman came calling and I stood in line.
He was animated and confident; what I wanted to be,
I was interested, I was tempted and full of curiosity,
“Whatever ales ya, this will cure, it’s so easy, you’ll see
Just try it once, If you don’t like it, I’ll let you be”.
Just a pinch between my cheek and gumÂ….
Wow, IÂ’m dizzy, IÂ’m buzzing, I think this is fun?
Do I like it, do I hate it, no worries IÂ’m just numb
I am brave, I am strong, and this snake oil is number one!
I wanted fun, I wanted help, I yearned to winÂ…
Now with more wisdom, my life outlook is pretty grim.
The salesmanÂ’s pitch was served with a silver forked tongue,
I partook and became a slave to something less valuable than dung.
So in my 40Â’s what can I do now?
IÂ’m an addict, IÂ’m a loser and to the can I must bow.
Or I can fight, I can bleed, I can cry but I can be free!
I will stand with my brothers and quitÂ…I now believe!!!
Freedom isnÂ’t free, you must fight and exclaim,
I want to be free and IÂ’m done being ashamed.
Yes IÂ’m an addict; arenÂ’t we all are to some extent?
But we are children of God his blood was well spent!
It took me time to understand and now I know,
Tobacco is evil, the great lie, and itÂ’s just a false show.
It robs you of freedom, you lose your dignity
As I climb this mountain, I daily claim, "VICTORY"!!!
I look back to my youth, with a question unanswered,
I am still writing my script, of triumph, not so absurd
I am wise, I am a man, my eyes open, now see,
Who I am...a TRUE MAN WITH, INTEGRITY!!!
This is dedicated to the young and the free,
When the snake oils salesman comes, donÂ’t be like me.
Run, fight, kick and Scream, this is evil, avoid itÂ…and let it be.
The easiest way to battle the bitch is to always remain free.
That is some good shit right there. Hope you don't mind but I copy and pasted it to Microsoft Word, printed it out and am keeping a copy of it. All credit to you though, would never try to steal someones thunder. You the man. Great to be quit with you. If you ever do cave I will hunt you down and kill you!!! Think about that the next time you are close to buying a can or bumming one off a friend. It is great to be quit with you and your writings are what I need - keep it up!
Cool no copy-write and not concerned about the glory. Use it, make it better just tell me it helps to stay quit and that's all I need.
Also, If I cave, I want you to come kill me. That is the compassionate thing to do. In fact, load up the whole June Platoon party bus style. Come to Salt Lake City and make the killing so bad that it is on National News.
My philosophy is to put it all on the line. MY WORD, MY REPUTATION, MY COMMITMENT. The higher you are, the more real the fall. So it causes soberness and safety measures to prevent the slightest slip up.
I am quit and just working daily to always back it up.
I'm going to get that damn coin and it will take me exactly 100 days to earn it.
Stay Quit! (Stay quit is almost like Jedi's saying, "May the force be with you" isn't it?)
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So I have heard about dip dreams. I haven't had any except the other night, I dreamed that I looked in the mirror and saw white spots on my tongue. My dad who has been dead for 6 years now handed me a flashlight and I looked closer at my tongue.
That's it. However, it spurs this question...
Once you quit tobacco, I am sure the risk of cancer goes down but am I more at risk since I used for so long? Is it possible to get oral cancer when you are quit? I haven't been able to find an answer to that question.
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You can get oral cancer anytime regardless of if you ever used or not. Cancer sucks. Best bet is to get screened at the dentist. Although I admit it's been about 9-10 months since my last dental visit B) , but she screened me then and things looked OK.
Another thing to worry about is throat and stomach cancer. And since I lost both my Dad and grandmother(his mom) to abdominal type cancers, I'm probably screwed.
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So I have heard about dip dreams. I haven't had any except the other night, I dreamed that I looked in the mirror and saw white spots on my tongue. My dad who has been dead for 6 years now handed me a flashlight and I looked closer at my tongue.
That's it. However, it spurs this question...
Once you quit tobacco, I am sure the risk of cancer goes down but am I more at risk since I used for so long? Is it possible to get oral cancer when you are quit? I haven't been able to find an answer to that question.
Those are some of the bad dreams......
The sad fact is it is possible to still get cancer even without chewing tobacco, now the fact that some of us have chewed for 28+ years certainly doesnt help.
The good fact is now we are quit and we will no longer have tobacco as the main possible cause of cancer or sores in our mouths, we can move forward with a very very limited chance of cancer in our mouths!
The dreams you had and unfortunately will have are the sneaky way the nic-bitch tries to get her hold back on you, stay strong and fight her off quickly and keep your mind moving forward!
Stay focused stay strong stay quit!
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Thanks. Kind of what I thought. No matter what, I am just glad to be quit.
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You can get oral cancer anytime regardless of if you ever used or not. Cancer sucks. Best bet is to get screened at the dentist. Although I admit it's been about 9-10 months since my last dental visit B) , but she screened me then and things looked OK.
Another thing to worry about is throat and stomach cancer. And since I lost both my Dad and grandmother(his mom) to abdominal type cancers, I'm probably screwed.
I'm right there with you, Kubrick. I come from a long line of genetically disadvantaged people who have shown the propensity to smoke, dip, and drink themselves to oblivion on one side, or get done in by a variety of cancers and cardiac maladies on the other. I know the idea that I wouldn't grow to an old age played into my fatalistic stupidity to start dipping when I was 20. "Fuck it" -- that was the idea, and the military culture that I dove into also supported smoking/dipping/drinking/cussing. What a wonderful turn of events.
No matter. I'm taking my fucking life back. Even if I wind up with throat, stomach, and brain cancer down the road while suffering from congestive heart failure, I'm going to muster what I have left of a face together to grin and tell the tobacco companies that I own this. This shit is mine. No more. I might even wheel my ass into a convenience store and give the Indian clerk a slap on the ass and a "GOOD HUSTLE, HAJII!".
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You can get oral cancer anytime regardless of if you ever used or not. Cancer sucks. Best bet is to get screened at the dentist. Although I admit it's been about 9-10 months since my last dental visit B) , but she screened me then and things looked OK.
Another thing to worry about is throat and stomach cancer. And since I lost both my Dad and grandmother(his mom) to abdominal type cancers, I'm probably screwed.
I'm right there with you, Kubrick. I come from a long line of genetically disadvantaged people who have shown the propensity to smoke, dip, and drink themselves to oblivion on one side, or get done in by a variety of cancers and cardiac maladies on the other. I know the idea that I wouldn't grow to an old age played into my fatalistic stupidity to start dipping when I was 20. "Fuck it" -- that was the idea, and the military culture that I dove into also supported smoking/dipping/drinking/cussing. What a wonderful turn of events.
No matter. I'm taking my fucking life back. Even if I wind up with throat, stomach, and brain cancer down the road while suffering from congestive heart failure, I'm going to muster what I have left of a face together to grin and tell the tobacco companies that I own this. This shit is mine. No more. I might even wheel my ass into a convenience store and give the Indian clerk a slap on the ass and a "GOOD HUSTLE, HAJII!".
Good stuff!!!!
I have had that thought so many times of just walking into the store where I used to buy my grizzly and just beat the hell outta the clerk .......
But then I remember they are just doing their job and it was my choice to buy it and chew it.......soooooo the clerk is safe.
NOW....
This does NOT take the tobacco companies off my hit list ..........
Anyway we are all better off and we choose to take our lives back and there is no turning back now!!!!
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You can get oral cancer anytime regardless of if you ever used or not. Cancer sucks. Best bet is to get screened at the dentist. Although I admit it's been about 9-10 months since my last dental visit B) , but she screened me then and things looked OK.
Another thing to worry about is throat and stomach cancer. And since I lost both my Dad and grandmother(his mom) to abdominal type cancers, I'm probably screwed.
I'm right there with you, Kubrick. I come from a long line of genetically disadvantaged people who have shown the propensity to smoke, dip, and drink themselves to oblivion on one side, or get done in by a variety of cancers and cardiac maladies on the other. I know the idea that I wouldn't grow to an old age played into my fatalistic stupidity to start dipping when I was 20. "Fuck it" -- that was the idea, and the military culture that I dove into also supported smoking/dipping/drinking/cussing. What a wonderful turn of events.
No matter. I'm taking my fucking life back. Even if I wind up with throat, stomach, and brain cancer down the road while suffering from congestive heart failure, I'm going to muster what I have left of a face together to grin and tell the tobacco companies that I own this. This shit is mine. No more. I might even wheel my ass into a convenience store and give the Indian clerk a slap on the ass and a "GOOD HUSTLE, HAJII!".
Good stuff!!!!
I have had that thought so many times of just walking into the store where I used to buy my grizzly and just beat the hell outta the clerk .......
But then I remember they are just doing their job and it was my choice to buy it and chew it.......soooooo the clerk is safe.
NOW....
This does NOT take the tobacco companies off my hit list ..........
Anyway we are all better off and we choose to take our lives back and there is no turning back now!!!!
Let me start off by saying 'I'm no doctor.'
However, I was very freaked out when I quit, and thought it would be just my luck to get cancer after I had quit. That is still a very real possibility. I read somewhere that it takes 15 years of quit before you get back to the same chance as a non user for developing it. But don't quote me on this.
What I can tell you is that quitting is the healthiest thing you can do for yourself. Typically quitting is going to lower your blood pressure, reduce your chance of heart disease, and make your erections harder (something to do with the increased blood flow by not having nicotine in your syetem.)
Don't worry about your past, you can't control it. Leave that to God. What you can control are your actions today. Once you're quit for about 30 days, go into the dentist and have him give you a Vizilite (http://www.webmd.com/oral-health/video/oral-cancer-screening-vizilite) screening. It should run you about $50 bucks, but will really help ease your mind. I have checkups every 6 months, and will continue to do so for the forseeable future.
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Okay, I started writing down Vizelite so I would remember to tell my dentist...and then read, "Make your erections harder". All the other benefits are good but I pride myself on being able to sport a good bone. I am really excited about that!!!
Harder boners. Gentlemen, this should get every man to quit the dip.
New meaning to "Quit Chub!"
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Day 16 - Having a really good day, things were easy. All of the sudden, I got a crave. Hit me fast, started to think that it was no big deal to go get a can. I was at work, quickly got on chat and confessed that I was in a weak moment. We chatted for a bit, long enough for the crave to lose its strength. Realized that I would have caved many times if I didn't find KTC.
Day 17 - 20: Nothing of significance, just on auto-pilot. I do notice that thoughts of poor self worth and hopelessness hit me. I think I might be bi-polar. Some day's I feel like I can conquer the world and other days I feel like a total loser. No matter how I feel, I want to have a 100% record of posting roll. That is as automatic as brushing my teeth.
Day 21 - Proud to be clean for 3 straight weeks! I can do this one day at a time. Proud to be a member of KTC.
Day 22 - Sleep. I recognize that I no longer try to stay up later than everyone in the house to get that last dip. I enjoy when I get tired and fall asleep. My sleep is more sound. I do have some depression because I don't want to get up in the morning. Thank the Lord that I have a job so I get out of bed and just get going.
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Day 16 - Having a really good day, things were easy. All of the sudden, I got a crave. Hit me fast, started to think that it was no big deal to go get a can. I was at work, quickly got on chat and confessed that I was in a weak moment. We chatted for a bit, long enough for the crave to lose its strength. Realized that I would have caved many times if I didn't find KTC.
Day 17 - 20: Nothing of significance, just on auto-pilot. I do notice that thoughts of poor self worth and hopelessness hit me. I think I might be bi-polar. Some day's I feel like I can conquer the world and other days I feel like a total loser. No matter how I feel, I want to have a 100% record of posting roll. That is as automatic as brushing my teeth.
Day 21 - Proud to be clean for 3 straight weeks! I can do this one day at a time. Proud to be a member of KTC.
Day 22 - Sleep. I recognize that I no longer try to stay up later than everyone in the house to get that last dip. I enjoy when I get tired and fall asleep. My sleep is more sound. I do have some depression because I don't want to get up in the morning. Thank the Lord that I have a job so I get out of bed and just get going.
I have had those thoughts myself of no self-worth or if I have somehow developed adult onset A.D.D. or possibly a little bit of bi-polar disorder!!!!
Rest assured you are curing yourself of nicotene addiction!!!
It seems so strange at first and if it werent for this site I would probably think I was seriously having many issues!!!
Stay strong and focused on your quit never slip into cruise control, mainly to not get complacent. You have a great quit going and have inspired many good quiters so please keep sharing all your experiences trials and tribualtions they will continue to help others!!!
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Day 16 - Having a really good day, things were easy. All of the sudden, I got a crave. Hit me fast, started to think that it was no big deal to go get a can. I was at work, quickly got on chat and confessed that I was in a weak moment. We chatted for a bit, long enough for the crave to lose its strength. Realized that I would have caved many times if I didn't find KTC.
Day 17 - 20: Nothing of significance, just on auto-pilot. I do notice that thoughts of poor self worth and hopelessness hit me. I think I might be bi-polar. Some day's I feel like I can conquer the world and other days I feel like a total loser. No matter how I feel, I want to have a 100% record of posting roll. That is as automatic as brushing my teeth.
Day 21 - Proud to be clean for 3 straight weeks! I can do this one day at a time. Proud to be a member of KTC.
Day 22 - Sleep. I recognize that I no longer try to stay up later than everyone in the house to get that last dip. I enjoy when I get tired and fall asleep. My sleep is more sound. I do have some depression because I don't want to get up in the morning. Thank the Lord that I have a job so I get out of bed and just get going.
Good stuff all the way around- big man bigger when he can admit he needs help- old Indian saying - alright, that was made up but it's fitting-
Here's something I found helpful in my twenties
BE ON YOUR GUARD (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5825)
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Day 16 - Having a really good day, things were easy. All of the sudden, I got a crave. Hit me fast, started to think that it was no big deal to go get a can. I was at work, quickly got on chat and confessed that I was in a weak moment. We chatted for a bit, long enough for the crave to lose its strength. Realized that I would have caved many times if I didn't find KTC.Â
Day 17 - 20: Nothing of significance, just on auto-pilot. I do notice that thoughts of poor self worth and hopelessness hit me. I think I might be bi-polar. Some day's I feel like I can conquer the world and other days I feel like a total loser. No matter how I feel, I want to have a 100% record of posting roll. That is as automatic as brushing my teeth.Â
Day 21 - Proud to be clean for 3 straight weeks! I can do this one day at a time. Proud to be a member of KTC.Â
Day 22 - Sleep. I recognize that I no longer try to stay up later than everyone in the house to get that last dip. I enjoy when I get tired and fall asleep. My sleep is more sound. I do have some depression because I don't want to get up in the morning. Thank the Lord that I have a job so I get out of bed and just get going.
Good stuff all the way around- big man bigger when he can admit he needs help- old Indian saying - alright, that was made up but it's fitting-
Here's something I found helpful in my twenties
BE ON YOUR GUARD (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5825)
Thanks guys. I read what to expect in your 20's. That is so helpful. It rings so familiar in my head. I will post roll and repeat. Sounds like that simple act is the armor of protection.
Too easy not to commit to do it.
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Day 16 - Having a really good day, things were easy. All of the sudden, I got a crave. Hit me fast, started to think that it was no big deal to go get a can. I was at work, quickly got on chat and confessed that I was in a weak moment. We chatted for a bit, long enough for the crave to lose its strength. Realized that I would have caved many times if I didn't find KTC.
Day 17 - 20: Nothing of significance, just on auto-pilot. I do notice that thoughts of poor self worth and hopelessness hit me. I think I might be bi-polar. Some day's I feel like I can conquer the world and other days I feel like a total loser. No matter how I feel, I want to have a 100% record of posting roll. That is as automatic as brushing my teeth.
Day 21 - Proud to be clean for 3 straight weeks! I can do this one day at a time. Proud to be a member of KTC.
Day 22 - Sleep. I recognize that I no longer try to stay up later than everyone in the house to get that last dip. I enjoy when I get tired and fall asleep. My sleep is more sound. I do have some depression because I don't want to get up in the morning. Thank the Lord that I have a job so I get out of bed and just get going.
Great job fighting through. You are neither bi-polar nor depressed - you are simply fighting a battle that is the toughest thing we have probably ever done. But, you are winning one day at a time. Every day is a new battle, new challenges, and new emotions. Wake up every day with the attitude of I will post roll and I will fight my ass off today no matter what is thrown at me. I've read about everyone of your posts and there is no doubt you are one of the best quitters I know. Keep up the great work. Keep fighting hard. My goal also is to never miss a day of roll. I challenge you and whoever else wants to jump in on it - first one to miss roll flies in and buys the beer for a night. Deal?
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Day 16 - Having a really good day, things were easy. All of the sudden, I got a crave. Hit me fast, started to think that it was no big deal to go get a can. I was at work, quickly got on chat and confessed that I was in a weak moment. We chatted for a bit, long enough for the crave to lose its strength. Realized that I would have caved many times if I didn't find KTC.Â
Day 17 - 20: Nothing of significance, just on auto-pilot. I do notice that thoughts of poor self worth and hopelessness hit me. I think I might be bi-polar. Some day's I feel like I can conquer the world and other days I feel like a total loser. No matter how I feel, I want to have a 100% record of posting roll. That is as automatic as brushing my teeth.Â
Day 21 - Proud to be clean for 3 straight weeks! I can do this one day at a time. Proud to be a member of KTC.Â
Day 22 - Sleep. I recognize that I no longer try to stay up later than everyone in the house to get that last dip. I enjoy when I get tired and fall asleep. My sleep is more sound. I do have some depression because I don't want to get up in the morning. Thank the Lord that I have a job so I get out of bed and just get going.
Great job fighting through. You are neither bi-polar nor depressed - you are simply fighting a battle that is the toughest thing we have probably ever done. But, you are winning one day at a time. Every day is a new battle, new challenges, and new emotions. Wake up every day with the attitude of I will post roll and I will fight my ass off today no matter what is thrown at me. I've read about everyone of your posts and there is no doubt you are one of the best quitters I know. Keep up the great work. Keep fighting hard. My goal also is to never miss a day of roll. I challenge you and whoever else wants to jump in on it - first one to miss roll flies in and buys the beer for a night. Deal?
You gotta deal. I see this as a win win.
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My friends on KTC. We all know that it hurts to quit. You may be in detox, in a fog, complacent, wondering if you are ever going to poop again...Whatever it is, you are in a Fight!!! A true battle that can be painful.
I woke up today on day 23. I had some craves and thought, damn I need to promise today but I'm tired of the fight. (What a piss poor attitude I had) Then, something snapped inside me. Right after I posted roll, I decided to fight today, to endure, and to grin in the fight. I'm going to enjoy my quit, love my quit and win. We are optimists, we are winning every day, we are real men choosing to control our addictions! The vets can lead me into battle any day of the week. I say lets go now and not make haste but expose the truth and resist the enemy with resolve that we will never, never, ever, surrender to the seductions of the harlot called Tobacco.
Why face this as difficult and hard? Sure we all know that, but where is the optimism? Embrace the Suck. Enjoy the battle! I look to Winston Churchill looking at Hitler and the real threat England faced from their enemy....(My grandparents lived in England during the war. He told me how Winston Churchill could have had every citizen stand a post with rolling pins even if the Germans had machine guns.)
I say stand up and treat tobacco as our own personal Hitler. Here is a few quotes Winston said that apply to our fight against tobacco.
Today I am going with two. "I like it when a man grins when he fights" and "If you're going through hell, keep going."
"A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty"
"You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life"
"Continuous effort - Not strength or intelligence - is the key to unlocking our potential"
"Difficulties Mastered are opportunities won"
"I am an optimist. It doesn't seem too much use being anything else."
"It is no use saying, 'we are doing our best.' You have got to succeed in doing what is necessary."
"Kites rise against the wind, not with it."
"Never, never, never, give up!"
"Nothing in life is so exhilarating as to be shot at without result."
"These are not dark days: these are great days - the greatest days our country has ever lived"
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My friends on KTC. We all know that it hurts to quit. You may be in detox, in a fog, complacent, wondering if you are ever going to poop again...Whatever it is, you are in a Fight!!! A true battle that can be painful.
I woke up today on day 23. I had some craves and thought, damn I need to promise today but I'm tired of the fight. (What a piss poor attitude I had) Then, something snapped inside me. Right after I posted roll, I decided to fight today, to endure, and to grin in the fight. I'm going to enjoy my quit, love my quit and win. We are optimists, we are winning every day, we are real men choosing to control our addictions! The vets can lead me into battle any day of the week. I say lets go now and not make haste but expose the truth and resist the enemy with resolve that we will never, never, ever, surrender to the seductions of the harlot called Tobacco.
Why face this as difficult and hard? Sure we all know that, but where is the optimism? Embrace the Suck. Enjoy the battle! I look to Winston Churchill looking at Hitler and the real threat England faced from their enemy....(My grandparents lived in England during the war. He told me how Winston Churchill could have had every citizen stand a post with rolling pins even if the Germans had machine guns.)
I say stand up and treat tobacco as our own personal Hitler. Here is a few quotes Winston said that apply to our fight against tobacco.
Today I am going with two. "I like it when a man grins when he fights" and "If you're going through hell, keep going."
"A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty"
"You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life"
"Continuous effort - Not strength or intelligence - is the key to unlocking our potential"
"Difficulties Mastered are opportunities won"
"I am an optimist. It doesn't seem too much use being anything else."
"It is no use saying, 'we are doing our best.' You have got to succeed in doing what is necessary."
"Kites rise against the wind, not with it."
"Never, never, never, give up!"
"Nothing in life is so exhilarating as to be shot at without result."
"These are not dark days: these are great days - the greatest days our country has ever lived"
DIDDO everything you said!!!
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My friends on KTC. We all know that it hurts to quit. You may be in detox, in a fog, complacent, wondering if you are ever going to poop again...Whatever it is, you are in a Fight!!! A true battle that can be painful.Â
I woke up today on day 23. I had some craves and thought, damn I need to promise today but I'm tired of the fight. (What a piss poor attitude I had) Then, something snapped inside me. Right after I posted roll, I decided to fight today, to endure, and to grin in the fight. I'm going to enjoy my quit, love my quit and win. We are optimists, we are winning every day, we are real men choosing to control our addictions! The vets can lead me into battle any day of the week. I say lets go now and not make haste but expose the truth and resist the enemy with resolve that we will never, never, ever, surrender to the seductions of the harlot called Tobacco.Â
Why face this as difficult and hard? Sure we all know that, but where is the optimism? Embrace the Suck. Enjoy the battle! I look to Winston Churchill looking at Hitler and the real threat England faced from their enemy....(My grandparents lived in England during the war. He told me how Winston Churchill could have had every citizen stand a post with rolling pins even if the Germans had machine guns.) Â
I say stand up and treat tobacco as our own personal Hitler. Here is a few quotes Winston said that apply to our fight against tobacco.
Today I am going with two. "I like it when a man grins when he fights" and "If you're going through hell, keep going."
"A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty"
"You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life"Â
"Continuous effort - Not strength or intelligence - is the key to unlocking our potential"
"Difficulties Mastered are opportunities won"
"I am an optimist. It doesn't seem too much use being anything else."
"It is no use saying, 'we are doing our best.' You have got to succeed in doing what is necessary."Â
"Kites rise against the wind, not with it."
"Never, never, never, give up!"
"Nothing in life is so exhilarating as to be shot at without result."
"These are not dark days: these are great days - the greatest days our country has ever lived"
DIDDO everything you said!!!
encouraging yes-
but why is this posted here and not in June?
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My friends on KTC. We all know that it hurts to quit. You may be in detox, in a fog, complacent, wondering if you are ever going to poop again...Whatever it is, you are in a Fight!!! A true battle that can be painful.Â
I woke up today on day 23. I had some craves and thought, damn I need to promise today but I'm tired of the fight. (What a piss poor attitude I had) Then, something snapped inside me. Right after I posted roll, I decided to fight today, to endure, and to grin in the fight. I'm going to enjoy my quit, love my quit and win. We are optimists, we are winning every day, we are real men choosing to control our addictions! The vets can lead me into battle any day of the week. I say lets go now and not make haste but expose the truth and resist the enemy with resolve that we will never, never, ever, surrender to the seductions of the harlot called Tobacco. Â
Why face this as difficult and hard? Sure we all know that, but where is the optimism? Embrace the Suck. Enjoy the battle! I look to Winston Churchill looking at Hitler and the real threat England faced from their enemy....(My grandparents lived in England during the war. He told me how Winston Churchill could have had every citizen stand a post with rolling pins even if the Germans had machine guns.) Â
I say stand up and treat tobacco as our own personal Hitler. Here is a few quotes Winston said that apply to our fight against tobacco.
Today I am going with two. "I like it when a man grins when he fights" and "If you're going through hell, keep going."
"A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty"
"You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life"Â
"Continuous effort - Not strength or intelligence - is the key to unlocking our potential"
"Difficulties Mastered are opportunities won"
"I am an optimist. It doesn't seem too much use being anything else."
"It is no use saying, 'we are doing our best.' You have got to succeed in doing what is necessary."Â
"Kites rise against the wind, not with it."
"Never, never, never, give up!"
"Nothing in life is so exhilarating as to be shot at without result."
"These are not dark days: these are great days - the greatest days our country has ever lived"
DIDDO everything you said!!!
encouraging yes-
but why is this posted here and not in June?
Now I feel like a dumb ass. I thought Quit groups were for posting role. Then I go in there and see that there is more than that.
I will post things like this in June going forward.
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My friends on KTC. We all know that it hurts to quit. You may be in detox, in a fog, complacent, wondering if you are ever going to poop again...Whatever it is, you are in a Fight!!! A true battle that can be painful.Â
I woke up today on day 23. I had some craves and thought, damn I need to promise today but I'm tired of the fight. (What a piss poor attitude I had) Then, something snapped inside me. Right after I posted roll, I decided to fight today, to endure, and to grin in the fight. I'm going to enjoy my quit, love my quit and win. We are optimists, we are winning every day, we are real men choosing to control our addictions! The vets can lead me into battle any day of the week. I say lets go now and not make haste but expose the truth and resist the enemy with resolve that we will never, never, ever, surrender to the seductions of the harlot called Tobacco. Â
Why face this as difficult and hard? Sure we all know that, but where is the optimism? Embrace the Suck. Enjoy the battle! I look to Winston Churchill looking at Hitler and the real threat England faced from their enemy....(My grandparents lived in England during the war. He told me how Winston Churchill could have had every citizen stand a post with rolling pins even if the Germans had machine guns.) Â
I say stand up and treat tobacco as our own personal Hitler. Here is a few quotes Winston said that apply to our fight against tobacco.
Today I am going with two. "I like it when a man grins when he fights" and "If you're going through hell, keep going."
"A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty"
"You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life"Â
"Continuous effort - Not strength or intelligence - is the key to unlocking our potential"
"Difficulties Mastered are opportunities won"
"I am an optimist. It doesn't seem too much use being anything else."
"It is no use saying, 'we are doing our best.' You have got to succeed in doing what is necessary."Â
"Kites rise against the wind, not with it."
"Never, never, never, give up!"
"Nothing in life is so exhilarating as to be shot at without result."
"These are not dark days: these are great days - the greatest days our country has ever lived"
DIDDO everything you said!!!
encouraging yes-
but why is this posted here and not in June?
Now I feel like a dumb ass. I thought Quit groups were for posting role. Then I go in there and see that there is more than that.
I will post things like this in June going forward.
That is good shit no matter where you post it. Turn the tables on the Nic Bitch like I did to the radio DJ's that wouldn't quit playing that Sugar Ray song "I Just Want to Fly." I told my girlfriend that I suspected that there was a conspiracy make me sick of that song. I turned the tables on the radio and was determined to like it more each time I heard it.
And guess what...that crap isn't on the radio anymore and now that girl is my wife. That is a Win - Win right there that's what that is.
Embrace the suck. Have fun in the fog. You'll only go through it once...live it up!!!
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My friends on KTC. We all know that it hurts to quit. You may be in detox, in a fog, complacent, wondering if you are ever going to poop again...Whatever it is, you are in a Fight!!! A true battle that can be painful.Â
I woke up today on day 23. I had some craves and thought, damn I need to promise today but I'm tired of the fight. (What a piss poor attitude I had) Then, something snapped inside me. Right after I posted roll, I decided to fight today, to endure, and to grin in the fight. I'm going to enjoy my quit, love my quit and win. We are optimists, we are winning every day, we are real men choosing to control our addictions! The vets can lead me into battle any day of the week. I say lets go now and not make haste but expose the truth and resist the enemy with resolve that we will never, never, ever, surrender to the seductions of the harlot called Tobacco. Â
Why face this as difficult and hard? Sure we all know that, but where is the optimism? Embrace the Suck. Enjoy the battle! I look to Winston Churchill looking at Hitler and the real threat England faced from their enemy....(My grandparents lived in England during the war. He told me how Winston Churchill could have had every citizen stand a post with rolling pins even if the Germans had machine guns.) Â
I say stand up and treat tobacco as our own personal Hitler. Here is a few quotes Winston said that apply to our fight against tobacco.
Today I am going with two. "I like it when a man grins when he fights" and "If you're going through hell, keep going."
"A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty"
"You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life"Â
"Continuous effort - Not strength or intelligence - is the key to unlocking our potential"
"Difficulties Mastered are opportunities won"
"I am an optimist. It doesn't seem too much use being anything else."
"It is no use saying, 'we are doing our best.' You have got to succeed in doing what is necessary."Â
"Kites rise against the wind, not with it."
"Never, never, never, give up!"
"Nothing in life is so exhilarating as to be shot at without result."
"These are not dark days: these are great days - the greatest days our country has ever lived"
DIDDO everything you said!!!
encouraging yes-
but why is this posted here and not in June?
Now I feel like a dumb ass. I thought Quit groups were for posting role. Then I go in there and see that there is more than that.
I will post things like this in June going forward.
That is good shit no matter where you post it. Turn the tables on the Nic Bitch like I did to the radio DJ's that wouldn't quit playing that Sugar Ray song "I Just Want to Fly." I told my girlfriend that I suspected that there was a conspiracy make me sick of that song. I turned the tables on the radio and was determined to like it more each time I heard it.
And guess what...that crap isn't on the radio anymore and now that girl is my wife. That is a Win - Win right there that's what that is.
Embrace the suck. Have fun in the fog. You'll only go through it once...live it up!!!
Good stuff as always!!
Very inspiring!
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My friends on KTC. We all know that it hurts to quit. You may be in detox, in a fog, complacent, wondering if you are ever going to poop again...Whatever it is, you are in a Fight!!! A true battle that can be painful.Â
I woke up today on day 23. I had some craves and thought, damn I need to promise today but I'm tired of the fight. (What a piss poor attitude I had) Then, something snapped inside me. Right after I posted roll, I decided to fight today, to endure, and to grin in the fight. I'm going to enjoy my quit, love my quit and win. We are optimists, we are winning every day, we are real men choosing to control our addictions! The vets can lead me into battle any day of the week. I say lets go now and not make haste but expose the truth and resist the enemy with resolve that we will never, never, ever, surrender to the seductions of the harlot called Tobacco. Â
Why face this as difficult and hard? Sure we all know that, but where is the optimism? Embrace the Suck. Enjoy the battle! I look to Winston Churchill looking at Hitler and the real threat England faced from their enemy....(My grandparents lived in England during the war. He told me how Winston Churchill could have had every citizen stand a post with rolling pins even if the Germans had machine guns.) Â
I say stand up and treat tobacco as our own personal Hitler. Here is a few quotes Winston said that apply to our fight against tobacco.
Today I am going with two. "I like it when a man grins when he fights" and "If you're going through hell, keep going."
"A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty"
"You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life"Â
"Continuous effort - Not strength or intelligence - is the key to unlocking our potential"
"Difficulties Mastered are opportunities won"
"I am an optimist. It doesn't seem too much use being anything else."
"It is no use saying, 'we are doing our best.' You have got to succeed in doing what is necessary."Â
"Kites rise against the wind, not with it."
"Never, never, never, give up!"
"Nothing in life is so exhilarating as to be shot at without result."
"These are not dark days: these are great days - the greatest days our country has ever lived"
DIDDO everything you said!!!
encouraging yes-
but why is this posted here and not in June?
Now I feel like a dumb ass. I thought Quit groups were for posting role. Then I go in there and see that there is more than that.
I will post things like this in June going forward.
That is good shit no matter where you post it. Turn the tables on the Nic Bitch like I did to the radio DJ's that wouldn't quit playing that Sugar Ray song "I Just Want to Fly." I told my girlfriend that I suspected that there was a conspiracy make me sick of that song. I turned the tables on the radio and was determined to like it more each time I heard it.
And guess what...that crap isn't on the radio anymore and now that girl is my wife. That is a Win - Win right there that's what that is.
Embrace the suck. Have fun in the fog. You'll only go through it once...live it up!!!
Good stuff as always!!
Very inspiring!
Great stuff. Always enjoy reading your posts. Thanks for the pick me up earlier today. Needed that. Made it through the day a lot easier. Let's keep this quit rolling!!!
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My friends on KTC. We all know that it hurts to quit. You may be in detox, in a fog, complacent, wondering if you are ever going to poop again...Whatever it is, you are in a Fight!!! A true battle that can be painful.Â
I woke up today on day 23. I had some craves and thought, damn I need to promise today but I'm tired of the fight. (What a piss poor attitude I had) Then, something snapped inside me. Right after I posted roll, I decided to fight today, to endure, and to grin in the fight. I'm going to enjoy my quit, love my quit and win. We are optimists, we are winning every day, we are real men choosing to control our addictions! The vets can lead me into battle any day of the week. I say lets go now and not make haste but expose the truth and resist the enemy with resolve that we will never, never, ever, surrender to the seductions of the harlot called Tobacco. Â
Why face this as difficult and hard? Sure we all know that, but where is the optimism? Embrace the Suck. Enjoy the battle! I look to Winston Churchill looking at Hitler and the real threat England faced from their enemy....(My grandparents lived in England during the war. He told me how Winston Churchill could have had every citizen stand a post with rolling pins even if the Germans had machine guns.) Â
I say stand up and treat tobacco as our own personal Hitler. Here is a few quotes Winston said that apply to our fight against tobacco.
Today I am going with two. "I like it when a man grins when he fights" and "If you're going through hell, keep going."
"A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty"
"You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life"Â
"Continuous effort - Not strength or intelligence - is the key to unlocking our potential"
"Difficulties Mastered are opportunities won"
"I am an optimist. It doesn't seem too much use being anything else."
"It is no use saying, 'we are doing our best.' You have got to succeed in doing what is necessary."Â
"Kites rise against the wind, not with it."
"Never, never, never, give up!"
"Nothing in life is so exhilarating as to be shot at without result."
"These are not dark days: these are great days - the greatest days our country has ever lived"
DIDDO everything you said!!!
encouraging yes-
but why is this posted here and not in June?
Now I feel like a dumb ass. I thought Quit groups were for posting role. Then I go in there and see that there is more than that.
I will post things like this in June going forward.
That is good shit no matter where you post it. Turn the tables on the Nic Bitch like I did to the radio DJ's that wouldn't quit playing that Sugar Ray song "I Just Want to Fly." I told my girlfriend that I suspected that there was a conspiracy make me sick of that song. I turned the tables on the radio and was determined to like it more each time I heard it.
And guess what...that crap isn't on the radio anymore and now that girl is my wife. That is a Win - Win right there that's what that is.
Embrace the suck. Have fun in the fog. You'll only go through it once...live it up!!!
Good stuff as always!!
Very inspiring!
Great stuff. Always enjoy reading your posts. Thanks for the pick me up earlier today. Needed that. Made it through the day a lot easier. Let's keep this quit rolling!!!
Mthomas, you add a lot to this site and I'm glad you're here. I know I'm not alone. I quit with you today, brother.
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Day 23, 24, 25, 26: Its all the same. Wake up post, crave, just say, "Not today" and go to bed.
Day 27: I hate tobacco, I hate everything about it. How ironic that I despise and crave the same thing. I logically know tobacco sucks, yet my mind remembers the pleasure. I have to force myself into remembering why I quit. That I was deceived and I became an addict. The pleasure feelings I had wasn't worth the financial, emotional and physical risks.
Day 28: Seemed like groundhog day again. Posted role, hum drum day. Went into chat, then back to work. All of the sudden, like getting hit with a ton of bricks....I realized how shitty I felt. Joints hurt, weight gained, don't care about anything. I am so bloated that all I want to do is lay around. All my working out and weight lost is going to shit because I am eating too much and have no desire or energy to work out.
I worked out so much because I could sneak a few dips. It was my alone time. Now that I don't need alone time I stay home and stuff my face!!!!!
I made a promise today but I didn't promise tomorrow. Strong urges to not post tomorrow. I only need to keep my word today. It is a dilemma because I don't want to surrender but I am tired of convincing myself that I am free when I am losing hope.
Sent out a couple PM's and jumped into chat. The SOB's on chat talked me off the roof. Did a good job making me laugh. Laughing is great therapy for me.
I realized that I am too invested to surrender. I have been too bold in my quit. I have posted too much and stated claims that If I surrender...I become that addicted hypocrite that is all hype but can't walk the talk.
I may feel like crap but that wouldn't compare to the way I would feel if I caved. My choices are tough but staying quit is the only choice that lets me have honor and dignity.
I will post role tomorrow. (What a literal internal battle I had though) Dawns on me that temptation is a part of being human. Overcoming it is how we become heroes.
I want to be a hero in my wife and children's eyes.
Thanks to everyone that worked with me on this. It works to reach out. I would rather admit when I am weak now vs confess I caved later. I owe someone a PM when they are weak. My brothers and KTC saved my integrity today.
Sincere thanks for being there, getting me to laugh and come back to the real enjoyment and party of being quit.
I AM QUIT!
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Day 23, 24, 25, 26: Its all the same. Wake up post, crave, just say, "Not today" and go to bed.
Day 27: I hate tobacco, I hate everything about it. How ironic that I despise and crave the same thing. I logically know tobacco sucks, yet my mind remembers the pleasure. I have to force myself into remembering why I quit. That I was deceived and I became an addict. The pleasure feelings I had wasn't worth the financial, emotional and physical risks.
Day 28: Seemed like groundhog day again. Posted role, hum drum day. Went into chat, then back to work. All of the sudden, like getting hit with a ton of bricks....I realized how shitty I felt. Joints hurt, weight gained, don't care about anything. I am so bloated that all I want to do is lay around. All my working out and weight lost is going to shit because I am eating too much and have no desire or energy to work out.
I worked out so much because I could sneak a few dips. It was my alone time. Now that I don't need alone time I stay home and stuff my face!!!!!
I made a promise today but I didn't promise tomorrow. Strong urges to not post tomorrow. I only need to keep my word today. It is a dilemma because I don't want to surrender but I am tired of convincing myself that I am free when I am losing hope.
Sent out a couple PM's and jumped into chat. The SOB's on chat talked me off the roof. Did a good job making me laugh. Laughing is great therapy for me.
I realized that I am too invested to surrender. I have been too bold in my quit. I have posted too much and stated claims that If I surrender...I become that addicted hypocrite that is all hype but can't walk the talk.
I may feel like crap but that wouldn't compare to the way I would feel if I caved. My choices are tough but staying quit is the only choice that lets me have honor and dignity.
I will post role tomorrow. (What a literal internal battle I had though) Dawns on me that temptation is a part of being human. Overcoming it is how we become heroes.
I want to be a hero in my wife and children's eyes.
Thanks to everyone that worked with me on this. It works to reach out. I would rather admit when I am weak now vs confess I caved later. I owe someone a PM when they are weak. My brothers and KTC saved my integrity today.
Sincere thanks for being there, getting me to laugh and come back to the real enjoyment and party of being quit.
I AM QUIT!
Strong stuff brother!!!
I am sure you know this but you have just made your quit stronger and your resolve stronger which will make you badass quit even sweeter!!!
Never hesitate to contact me for anything brother, you are an inspiring guy and very positive but you are normal in that your still going to have those urges even if the mere thought of that shit just turns your stomach!!!
Stay quit strong my friend!!
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Day 23, 24, 25, 26: Its all the same. Wake up post, crave, just say, "Not today" and go to bed.Â
Day 27: I hate tobacco, I hate everything about it. How ironic that I despise and crave the same thing. I logically know tobacco sucks, yet my mind remembers the pleasure. I have to force myself into remembering why I quit. That I was deceived and I became an addict. The pleasure feelings I had wasn't worth the financial, emotional and physical risks.  Â
Day 28: Seemed like groundhog day again. Posted role, hum drum day. Went into chat, then back to work. All of the sudden, like getting hit with a ton of bricks....I realized how shitty I felt. Joints hurt, weight gained, don't care about anything. I am so bloated that all I want to do is lay around. All my working out and weight lost is going to shit because I am eating too much and have no desire or energy to work out.Â
I worked out so much because I could sneak a few dips. It was my alone time. Now that I don't need alone time I stay home and stuff my face!!!!!Â
I made a promise today but I didn't promise tomorrow. Strong urges to not post tomorrow. I only need to keep my word today. It is a dilemma because I don't want to surrender but I am tired of convincing myself that I am free when I am losing hope.Â
Sent out a couple PM's and jumped into chat. The SOB's on chat talked me off the roof. Did a good job making me laugh. Laughing is great therapy for me.Â
I realized that I am too invested to surrender. I have been too bold in my quit. I have posted too much and stated claims that If I surrender...I become that addicted hypocrite that is all hype but can't walk the talk.Â
I may feel like crap but that wouldn't compare to the way I would feel if I caved. My choices are tough but staying quit is the only choice that lets me have honor and dignity. Â
I will post role tomorrow. (What a literal internal battle I had though) Dawns on me that temptation is a part of being human. Overcoming it is how we become heroes.
I want to be a hero in my wife and children's eyes.
Thanks to everyone that worked with me on this. It works to reach out. I would rather admit when I am weak now vs confess I caved later. I owe someone a PM when they are weak. My brothers and KTC saved my integrity today.Â
Sincere thanks for being there, getting me to laugh and come back to the real enjoyment and party of being quit.Â
I AM QUIT!
Strong stuff brother!!!
I am sure you know this but you have just made your quit stronger and your resolve stronger which will make you badass quit even sweeter!!!
Never hesitate to contact me for anything brother, you are an inspiring guy and very positive but you are normal in that your still going to have those urges even if the mere thought of that shit just turns your stomach!!!
Stay quit strong my friend!!
Great Job fighting through. Sounds like you are hitting the 20's funk. I remember trying to explain how I felt and it was tough but you pretty much summed it up perfectly. Hang in there, post all you want - what you write has helped so many and has helped me a ton. The more you post, the more you invest, the tougher it is to cave. And, if you were to cave you would not only go back to killing yourself, you would be hurting a lot of people on this site - members, brothers who are committed to fighting with you because you have helped us through. I will not let you down, I give you my word - and you will not let us down.
Love this quote "Pain Shared is Pain Divided." I think that quote explains this site and our quits - only the members of this site truly know what each other is going through and only the members can help each other make it through.
"Pain Shared is Pain Divided." Keep posting and continue to invest in your quit. You can do this, you will do this. I quit with you today and every day. Stay strong my brother!!!
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I worked out so much because I could sneak a few dips. It was my alone time. Now that I don't need alone time I stay home and stuff my face!!!!!
I made a promise today but I didn't promise tomorrow. Strong urges to not post tomorrow. I only need to keep my word today. It is a dilemma because I don't want to surrender but I am tired of convincing myself that I am free when I am losing hope.
Way to hang in there. I am only on day 20 but I completely feel the same way.
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Mthomas, sounds like the late '20's funk is whooping your ass. Stay strong, you are winning. I was in a dark place during mine, then one day I woke up and it was like the clouds parted and sun was out. Life was f-ing good again, and better than before. I saw the funk for what it was, even though when I was in it I didn't believe or understand that it was a funk.
Kick tobacco's ass, keep slogging through this, soon your eyes will see that you are out.
Also, if working out involved a gym or walking/running or an activity that you associated with tobacco, change it up. You need to get moving, brother, for your fitness, for your sanity, for your self esteem. Buy a kickass bike (you deserve it!), or something similar in a new activity that you've always wanted to try. THIS IS THE NEW FUCKING YOU.
Rock on.
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Mthomas, sounds like the late '20's funk is whooping your ass. Stay strong, you are winning. I was in a dark place during mine, then one day I woke up and it was like the clouds parted and sun was out. Life was f-ing good again, and better than before. I saw the funk for what it was, even though when I was in it I didn't believe or understand that it was a funk.
Kick tobacco's ass, keep slogging through this, soon your eyes will see that you are out.
Also, if working out involved a gym or walking/running or an activity that you associated with tobacco, change it up. You need to get moving, brother, for your fitness, for your sanity, for your self esteem. Buy a kickass bike (you deserve it!), or something similar in a new activity that you've always wanted to try. THIS IS THE NEW FUCKING YOU.
Rock on.
There are some days I just really, really, love this site. Great support and great words. The days I really, really hate this site is the days all you fuckers make me quit because of my word and commitment to you all. That hate is actually deep down love, tough ass love.
Keep up the great work boys.
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The days I really, really hate this site is the days all you fuckers make me quit because of my word and commitment to you all. That hate is actually deep down love, tough ass love.
Haters gonna hate, bitch. (http://i1.kym-cdn.com/photos/images/original/000/140/872/charles%20Bennett%20haters%20gonna%20hate.jpg)
Much love.
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Dirty 30 day
Well a month of being quit. How do I feel?
I feel like shit and it feels GREAT!
Embracing the suck.
March 14th was a day I was thinking about quitting. It wasnÂ’t planed I was just committed at 2:00 to trash the poison. I havenÂ’t had any nicotine since.
The first 10 days was like breaking up with a girlfriend. The next 10 days I was full of hatred to nicotine and anyone who promotes it. Then the roaring 20Â’s hit.
I tried to convince myself over and over that I was going to feel better. That getting the poison out of my brain would be freeing.
Day 28 (The addict resurfaces) Today was a day of reckoning. All of the sudden, I realized that nothing in my life got better from quitting tobacco. My job was the same, finances were the same, my day to day routine and stresses were the same.
I felt awful, bloated and fat. (IÂ’ve gained 12 pounds) My expectations were not being realized. In fact, the way I feel physically is very disappointing.
The Addicted Mindset overtook me. Things were better when you chewed. You handled stress, ate right, and had your “Me” time. You just felt better with dip.
You gave it a shot and look what you got, fatter, boring and you just canÂ’t function. You lost your desires.
Now IÂ’m conflicted. Like a devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other.
Angel: “don’t go back on your promise to you, family and KTC brothers”
Devil: “everyone told you it would get better and it hasn’t!”
Angel: “If you cave, after you get your fix, you will feel worse than you do right now”
Devil: “not true, you only promised you'd quit today. No promise tomorrow. When you wake up tomorrow you don’t need post role.”
Angel: “You need to own you’re quit or cave. PM and go into chat and tell brotherhood that you aren’t going to post tomorrow. Ask for permission”
Devil: “You already know what they are going to say. Don’t let people see you’re weak. You’re not week you just realize that you are tired of feeling like shit!”
I realize that I may still be rewiring and the clean mind is battling the addicted mind. I call for helpÂ…and help came!
I already knew what was going to be said. I expected a lot of sales pitches.
What I didnÂ’t expect - How the support made me feel. There was an overflow of support. My friends, who I have never met face to face, took time out of their day, their lives and tried to reason with an addict.
I felt valued, I felt like I was important to the team. I felt loved. I also realized that I valued and loved my fellow addicts. As hard as it is, I canÂ’t be a weak link. That just isnÂ’t in my DNA.
So I decided to post on day 29.
Now on Day 30, still quit and protecting it. I discovered what my fight is.
Life is Life with or without tobacco. It sucks because when things got stressful or tough, I dealt with it by putting poison in my mouth. When I relaxed, I took poison. My mind enjoyed the buzzÂ… I felt like I functioned better with it.
Now I have to function without it. It is new territory so of course it wonÂ’t feel right at the start.
It is hard because I expected my life to be easier. Heck, everyone said it would get easier.
FACT: Life is Life. You have good times and bad times. Tobacco has nothing to do with it. It is just like a security blanket or a way to escape life. As addicts, somewhere in our lives, we liked having a security blanket. So we stopped our progression to cope with life. We just held a blanket.
When I looked at my can of skoal and said, “I’m too old for this shit.” What I was really saying was, “it’s time to grow up.”
When we put down our, “blanket” I think we all regress back to a 5 year old kid realizing that it is time to be a big boy. It hurts because we now have to realize how to go on without our precious blanket.
Those who donÂ’t have a blanket support us for our decision but never really understand the difficulty of needing or wanting a blanket.
So the addict mind has been subdued and now the rational mind is in play. Life is Life. Quitting tobacco doesnÂ’t magically change your life. We are just handling life with a greater maturity now.
We quit because we want to be men.
A kid escapes his problems; A man faces them.
A kid excuses and blames; A man accepts and makes changes.
A kid caves to his addictions and desires; A man keeps himself in control.
A kid wants to be taken care of; A man wants to provide and be self sufficient.
A kid wants his security blanket; A man is secure and offers his security to family.
A kid needs to know his boundaries; A man follows principle but is free.
A kid cries and throws tantrums; A man sees complaining as a waste of time and works on solutions.
A kid allows fear to paralyze him; A man allows fear to motivate him.
A kid hides in weakness; A man stands taller on his knees and accepts support.
A kid gains 12 pounds and says its because he quit tobacco; A man understands that he also stopped eating right and quit going to the gym. A man accepts that he is changing habits. Tobacco didnÂ’t cause him to gain weightÂ…He is the one that chose to quit working out and stuffing his face for a month.
So, at day 30 and at the age of 41. Quitting tobacco is a transformation from childhood to manhood. The pain and hurt that is felt is the journey of saying good bye to the childhood and hello to being a man. It isnÂ’t easy but it is worth it.
That is what I think Embrace the Suck means: Time to Grow up and move on. Life doesnÂ’t magically change but you now donÂ’t need a blanket to function.
I challenge anyone reading this to commit right here and now. When your addicted mind is driving, get on KTC and talk to you teammates. That is a solid tool to protect your quit.
Oh and Fuck tobacco and its promoters! What a dirty waste and lie. I can't wait for tomorrow because I get the privilege to post role again. I embrace the suck and own my life.
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Dirty 30 day
Well a month of being quit. How do I feel?
I feel like shit and it feels GREAT!
Embracing the suck.
March 14th was a day I was thinking about quitting. It wasnÂ’t planed I was just committed at 2:00 to trash the poison. I havenÂ’t had any nicotine since.
The first 10 days was like breaking up with a girlfriend. The next 10 days I was full of hatred to nicotine and anyone who promotes it. Then the roaring 20Â’s hit.
I tried to convince myself over and over that I was going to feel better. That getting the poison out of my brain would be freeing.
Day 28 (The addict resurfaces) Today was a day of reckoning. All of the sudden, I realized that nothing in my life got better from quitting tobacco. My job was the same, finances were the same, my day to day routine and stresses were the same.
I felt awful, bloated and fat. (IÂ’ve gained 12 pounds) My expectations were not being realized. In fact, the way I feel physically is very disappointing.
The Addicted Mindset overtook me. Things were better when you chewed. You handled stress, ate right, and had your “Me” time. You just felt better with dip.
You gave it a shot and look what you got, fatter, boring and you just canÂ’t function. You lost your desires.
Now IÂ’m conflicted. Like a devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other.
Angel: “don’t go back on your promise to you, family and KTC brothers”
Devil: “everyone told you it would get better and it hasn’t!”
Angel: “If you cave, after you get your fix, you will feel worse than you do right now”
Devil: “not true, you only promised you'd quit today. No promise tomorrow. When you wake up tomorrow you don’t need post role.”
Angel: “You need to own you’re quit or cave. PM and go into chat and tell brotherhood that you aren’t going to post tomorrow. Ask for permission”
Devil: “You already know what they are going to say. Don’t let people see you’re weak. You’re not week you just realize that you are tired of feeling like shit!”
I realize that I may still be rewiring and the clean mind is battling the addicted mind. I call for helpÂ…and help came!
I already knew what was going to be said. I expected a lot of sales pitches.
What I didnÂ’t expect - How the support made me feel. There was an overflow of support. My friends, who I have never met face to face, took time out of their day, their lives and tried to reason with an addict.
I felt valued, I felt like I was important to the team. I felt loved. I also realized that I valued and loved my fellow addicts. As hard as it is, I canÂ’t be a weak link. That just isnÂ’t in my DNA.
So I decided to post on day 29.
Now on Day 30, still quit and protecting it. I discovered what my fight is.
Life is Life with or without tobacco. It sucks because when things got stressful or tough, I dealt with it by putting poison in my mouth. When I relaxed, I took poison. My mind enjoyed the buzzÂ… I felt like I functioned better with it.
Now I have to function without it. It is new territory so of course it wonÂ’t feel right at the start.
It is hard because I expected my life to be easier. Heck, everyone said it would get easier.
FACT: Life is Life. You have good times and bad times. Tobacco has nothing to do with it. It is just like a security blanket or a way to escape life. As addicts, somewhere in our lives, we liked having a security blanket. So we stopped our progression to cope with life. We just held a blanket.
When I looked at my can of skoal and said, “I’m too old for this shit.” What I was really saying was, “it’s time to grow up.”
When we put down our, “blanket” I think we all regress back to a 5 year old kid realizing that it is time to be a big boy. It hurts because we now have to realize how to go on without our precious blanket.
Those who donÂ’t have a blanket support us for our decision but never really understand the difficulty of needing or wanting a blanket.
So the addict mind has been subdued and now the rational mind is in play. Life is Life. Quitting tobacco doesnÂ’t magically change your life. We are just handling life with a greater maturity now.
We quit because we want to be men.
A kid escapes his problems; A man faces them.
A kid excuses and blames; A man accepts and makes changes.
A kid caves to his addictions and desires; A man keeps himself in control.
A kid wants to be taken care of; A man wants to provide and be self sufficient.
A kid wants his security blanket; A man is secure and offers his security to family.
A kid needs to know his boundaries; A man follows principle but is free.
A kid cries and throws tantrums; A man sees complaining as a waste of time and works on solutions.
A kid allows fear to paralyze him; A man allows fear to motivate him.
A kid hides in weakness; A man stands taller on his knees and accepts support.
A kid gains 12 pounds and says its because he quit tobacco; A man understands that he also stopped eating right and quit going to the gym. A man accepts that he is changing habits. Tobacco didnÂ’t cause him to gain weightÂ…He is the one that chose to quit working out and stuffing his face for a month.
So, at day 30 and at the age of 41. Quitting tobacco is a transformation from childhood to manhood. The pain and hurt that is felt is the journey of saying good bye to the childhood and hello to being a man. It isnÂ’t easy but it is worth it.
That is what I think Embrace the Suck means: Time to Grow up and move on. Life doesnÂ’t magically change but you now donÂ’t need a blanket to function.
I challenge anyone reading this to commit right here and now. When your addicted mind is driving, get on KTC and talk to you teammates. That is a solid tool to protect your quit.
Oh and Fuck tobacco and its promoters! What a dirty waste and lie. I can't wait for tomorrow because I get the privilege to post role again. I embrace the suck and own my life.
Outstanding!!!!
Great read and one I will read at least once a week!
Actually I might even put that on a card and carry it around with me to remind me how and why we all quit!!!
Truly Great stuff brother!!!
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Dirty 30 day
Well a month of being quit. How do I feel?Â
I feel like shit and it feels GREAT!
Â
Embracing the suck.
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March 14th was a day I was thinking about quitting. It wasn’t planed I was just committed at 2:00 to trash the poison. I haven’t had any nicotine since.
Â
The first 10 days was like breaking up with a girlfriend. The next 10 days I was full of hatred to nicotine and anyone who promotes it. Then the roaring 20’s hit.
I tried to convince myself over and over that I was going to feel better. That getting the poison out of my brain would be freeing.
Â
Day 28 (The addict resurfaces) Today was a day of reckoning. All of the sudden, I realized that nothing in my life got better from quitting tobacco. My job was the same, finances were the same, my day to day routine and stresses were the same.
Â
I felt awful, bloated and fat. (I’ve gained 12 pounds) My expectations were not being realized. In fact, the way I feel physically is very disappointing.
Â
The Addicted Mindset overtook me. Things were better when you chewed. You handled stress, ate right, and had your “Me” time. You just felt better with dip.
You gave it a shot and look what you got, fatter, boring and you just can’t function. You lost your desires.
Â
Now IÂ’m conflicted. Like a devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other.Â
Angel: “don’t go back on your promise to you, family and KTC brothers”
Devil: “everyone told you it would get better and it hasnÂ’t!”Â
Angel: “If you cave, after you get your fix, you will feel worse than you do right now”
Devil: “not true, you only promised you'd quit today. No promise tomorrow. When you wake up tomorrow you don’t need post role.”
Â
Angel: “You need to own youÂ’re quit or cave. PM and go into chat and tell brotherhood that you arenÂ’t going to post tomorrow. Ask for permission”Â
Devil: “You already know what they are going to say. Don’t let people see you’re weak. You’re not week you just realize that you are tired of feeling like shit!”
I realize that I may still be rewiring and the clean mind is battling the addicted mind. I call for help…and help came!
I already knew what was going to be said. I expected a lot of sales pitches.
Â
What I didn’t expect - How the support made me feel. There was an overflow of support. My friends, who I have never met face to face, took time out of their day, their lives and tried to reason with an addict.
Â
I felt valued, I felt like I was important to the team. I felt loved. I also realized that I valued and loved my fellow addicts. As hard as it is, I canÂ’t be a weak link. That just isnÂ’t in my DNA.Â
So I decided to post on day 29.Â
Now on Day 30, still quit and protecting it. I discovered what my fight is.
Life is Life with or without tobacco. It sucks because when things got stressful or tough, I dealt with it by putting poison in my mouth. When I relaxed, I took poison. My mind enjoyed the buzzÂ… I felt like I functioned better with it.Â
Now I have to function without it. It is new territory so of course it won’t feel right at the start.
 Â
It is hard because I expected my life to be easier. Heck, everyone said it would get easier.
Â
FACT: Life is Life. You have good times and bad times. Tobacco has nothing to do with it. It is just like a security blanket or a way to escape life. As addicts, somewhere in our lives, we liked having a security blanket. So we stopped our progression to cope with life. We just held a blanket.
Â
When I looked at my can of skoal and said, “IÂ’m too old for this shit.” What I was really saying was, “itÂ’s time to grow up.”Â
When we put down our, “blanket” I think we all regress back to a 5 year old kid realizing that it is time to be a big boy. It hurts because we now have to realize how to go on without our precious blanket.Â
Those who donÂ’t have a blanket support us for our decision but never really understand the difficulty of needing or wanting a blanket.
So the addict mind has been subdued and now the rational mind is in play. Life is Life. Quitting tobacco doesnÂ’t magically change your life. We are just handling life with a greater maturity now.Â
We quit because we want to be men.Â
A kid escapes his problems;Â A man faces them.
A kid excuses and blames; A man accepts and makes changes.
A kid caves to his addictions and desires; A man keeps himself in control.
A kid wants to be taken care of; A man wants to provide and be self sufficient.
A kid wants his security blanket; A man is secure and offers his security to family.
A kid needs to know his boundaries; A man follows principle but is free.Â
A kid cries and throws tantrums; A man sees complaining as a waste of time and works on solutions.
A kid allows fear to paralyze him; A man allows fear to motivate him.
A kid hides in weakness; A man stands taller on his knees and accepts support.Â
A kid gains 12 pounds and says its because he quit tobacco; A man understands that he also stopped eating right and quit going to the gym. A man accepts that he is changing habits. Tobacco didnÂ’t cause him to gain weightÂ…He is the one that chose to quit working out and stuffing his face for a month.Â
So, at day 30 and at the age of 41. Quitting tobacco is a transformation from childhood to manhood. The pain and hurt that is felt is the journey of saying good bye to the childhood and hello to being a man. It isn’t easy but it is worth it.
That is what I think Embrace the Suck means: Time to Grow up and move on. Life doesn’t magically change but you now don’t need a blanket to function.
  Â
I challenge anyone reading this to commit right here and now. When your addicted mind is driving, get on KTC and talk to you teammates. That is a solid tool to protect your quit.Â
Oh and Fuck tobacco and its promoters! What a dirty waste and lie. I can't wait for tomorrow because I get the privilege to post role again. I embrace the suck and own my life.
Outstanding!!!!
Great read and one I will read at least once a week!
Actually I might even put that on a card and carry it around with me to remind me how and why we all quit!!!
Truly Great stuff brother!!!
Great stuff. You still haven't seen the clouds part in your 20's funk. You will soon, and it will be obvious.
**This isn't about sucking it up (because you're a man) and quitting even though life sucks without tobacco.
--Life ROCKS without tobacco, brother, and you are still in your slump. When the clouds part on your funk (and you will KNOW when they do) , I want you to rewrite this, can't wait to see the difference.
Rock on.
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Dirty 30 day
.......
A kid gains 12 pounds and says its because he quit tobacco; A man understands that he also stopped eating right and quit going to the gym. A man accepts that he is changing habits. Tobacco didnÂ’t cause him to gain weightÂ…He is the one that chose to quit working out and stuffing his face for a month.Â
So, at day 30 and at the age of 41. Quitting tobacco is a transformation from childhood to manhood. The pain and hurt that is felt is the journey of saying good bye to the childhood and hello to being a man. It isn’t easy but it is worth it.
That is what I think Embrace the Suck means: Time to Grow up and move on. Life doesn’t magically change but you now don’t need a blanket to function.
  Â
I challenge anyone reading this to commit right here and now. When your addicted mind is driving, get on KTC and talk to you teammates. That is a solid tool to protect your quit.Â
Oh and Fuck tobacco and its promoters! What a dirty waste and lie. I can't wait for tomorrow because I get the privilege to post role again. I embrace the suck and own my life.
Are you calling me a kid?!!!??? Why I oughtta..........pow, right in the kisser.
That one REALLY HURTS MY FEELINGS you know.
Because I too, have gained 12 lbs, am 41, and need to grow the fuck up. Your right. I have been a kid (at least as far as tobacco use is concerned) for WAY too long.
Proud to be quit with you and thanks for the GREAT post.
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Dirty 30 day
.......
A kid gains 12 pounds and says its because he quit tobacco; A man understands that he also stopped eating right and quit going to the gym. A man accepts that he is changing habits. Tobacco didnÂ’t cause him to gain weightÂ…He is the one that chose to quit working out and stuffing his face for a month.Â
So, at day 30 and at the age of 41. Quitting tobacco is a transformation from childhood to manhood. The pain and hurt that is felt is the journey of saying good bye to the childhood and hello to being a man. It isn’t easy but it is worth it.
That is what I think Embrace the Suck means: Time to Grow up and move on. Life doesn’t magically change but you now don’t need a blanket to function.
  Â
I challenge anyone reading this to commit right here and now. When your addicted mind is driving, get on KTC and talk to you teammates. That is a solid tool to protect your quit.Â
Oh and Fuck tobacco and its promoters! What a dirty waste and lie.  I can't wait for tomorrow because I get the privilege to post role again. I embrace the suck and own my life.
Are you calling me a kid?!!!??? Why I oughtta..........pow, right in the kisser.
That one REALLY HURTS MY FEELINGS you know.
Because I too, have gained 12 lbs, am 41, and need to grow the fuck up. Your right. I have been a kid (at least as far as tobacco use is concerned) for WAY too long.
Proud to be quit with you and thanks for the GREAT post.
So true. A man doesn't imprison himself. I've been a fricking kid for 54 years, no more I'm starting to take control too. I'm looking anxious to post another day also.
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You did it again - an off the charts post and spot on. A very different perspective than what I would have wrote but much better and a lot deeper. Great job and proud to be quit with you. You are one fine quitter and always express this quit with some great words. Keep it up, I always look forward to reading your posts.
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Day 31
Really good day. I recognized that I didn't crave for poison today. Not once did I think about tobacco. I felt really good today. Wife took me to dinner to celebrate my 30 day mark. We talked about a lot of things and it was really nice to hang with her.
I was so pleased that I could look her in the eye and tell her that I haven't touched the evil poison. A good friend talked to me about quitting. I don't think he is ready to kill the can but I think the seed has been planted to quit. It will start to grow and we may see him on the site soon!
Day 32
I am so honored to be a member of KTC. I am full of gratitude for my life, my quit, and those who I am aligned with. It is a privilege to post roll.
Today, I reflected on why I am filled with Gratitude. I know there are many battles ahead in this war of addiction. Day 28-29 was very significant. I am embarrassed that I almost fell on my sword. That was truly the most difficult days of my quit. I made it! No cave and still quit.
Here in Utah, there was a cold rain. This morning, the dark clouds parted and beautiful, warm sun-rays gave the colors of the trees, plants, grass and flowers a fresh, vibrant look. The birds were chirping, the air was fresh and the day just felt like a new beginning of hope and optimism.
Actually, Day 28-29 was not a moment of weakness, but a moment of triumph! The storm with gloom and doom of my addiction pounded upon my soul. With my brothers here on KTC, they reinforced my house of quit. I had support to keep my house in order and weather the storm.
When I took the breath of fresh air this morning. I paused and realized that this feels good. Surviving the storm of cravings returns a overwhelming peace and calm. I am rejuvenated. I'm not warn out. I am stronger. I am alive!!!! My soul is warm, vibrant and fresh. I am filled with hope and optimism in my quit!
Earlier I said, Life is life...With or without tobacco. There is truth in that but it is partial. I think life is worth living without tobacco. Problems are there but you can handle them better without tobacco. Successes are there but you enjoy and appreciate them more without tobacco. Playing and partying is better when your brain is filled with rich clean fuel and oxygen.
Tobacco is a deceiver. It is a tool of the devil. It represents everything opposite to God and goodness.
My name is Mark Thomas, I love being quit today! I love life and my friendships. I value and put my alliances ahead of my addiction.
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Day 31
Really good day. I recognized that I didn't crave for poison today. Not once did I think about tobacco. I felt really good today. Wife took me to dinner to celebrate my 30 day mark. We talked about a lot of things and it was really nice to hang with her.
I was so pleased that I could look her in the eye and tell her that I haven't touched the evil poison. A good friend talked to me about quitting. I don't think he is ready to kill the can but I think the seed has been planted to quit. It will start to grow and we may see him on the site soon!
Day 32
I am so honored to be a member of KTC. I am full of gratitude for my life, my quit, and those who I am aligned with. It is a privilege to post roll.
Today, I reflected on why I am filled with Gratitude. I know there are many battles ahead in this war of addiction. Day 28-29 was very significant. I am embarrassed that I almost fell on my sword. That was truly the most difficult days of my quit. I made it! No cave and still quit.
Here in Utah, there was a cold rain. This morning, the dark clouds parted and beautiful, warm sun-rays gave the colors of the trees, plants, grass and flowers a fresh, vibrant look. The birds were chirping, the air was fresh and the day just felt like a new beginning of hope and optimism.
Actually, Day 28-29 was not a moment of weakness, but a moment of triumph! The storm with gloom and doom of my addiction pounded upon my soul. With my brothers here on KTC, they reinforced my house of quit. I had support to keep my house in order and weather the storm.
When I took the breath of fresh air this morning. I paused and realized that this feels good. Surviving the storm of cravings returns a overwhelming peace and calm. I am rejuvenated. I'm not warn out. I am stronger. I am alive!!!! My soul is warm, vibrant and fresh. I am filled with hope and optimism in my quit!
Earlier I said, Life is life...With or without tobacco. There is truth in that but it is partial. I think life is worth living without tobacco. Problems are there but you can handle them better without tobacco. Successes are there but you enjoy and appreciate them more without tobacco. Playing and partying is better when your brain is filled with rich clean fuel and oxygen.
Tobacco is a deceiver. It is a tool of the devil. It represents everything opposite to God and goodness.
My name is Mark Thomas, I love being quit today! I love life and my friendships. I value and put my alliances ahead of my addiction.
Day by day is the only way to attack it -- every day we don't cave, we win the battle but the war isn't over. Guess what, we get to start it all over again tomorrow; but that's tomorrow.
Right now, I am quit with you brother!
See you tomorrow!
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Day 31Â
Really good day. I recognized that I didn't crave for poison today. Not once did I think about tobacco. I felt really good today. Wife took me to dinner to celebrate my 30 day mark. We talked about a lot of things and it was really nice to hang with her.
I was so pleased that I could look her in the eye and tell her that I haven't touched the evil poison. A good friend talked to me about quitting. I don't think he is ready to kill the can but I think the seed has been planted to quit. It will start to grow and we may see him on the site soon!
Day 32
I am so honored to be a member of KTC. I am full of gratitude for my life, my quit, and those who I am aligned with. It is a privilege to post roll. Â
Today, I reflected on why I am filled with Gratitude. I know there are many battles ahead in this war of addiction. Day 28-29 was very significant. I am embarrassed that I almost fell on my sword. That was truly the most difficult days of my quit. I made it! No cave and still quit. Â
Here in Utah, there was a cold rain. This morning, the dark clouds parted and beautiful, warm sun-rays gave the colors of the trees, plants, grass and flowers a fresh, vibrant look. The birds were chirping, the air was fresh and the day just felt like a new beginning of hope and optimism. Â
Actually, Day 28-29 was not a moment of weakness, but a moment of triumph! The storm with gloom and doom of my addiction pounded upon my soul. With my brothers here on KTC, they reinforced my house of quit. I had support to keep my house in order and weather the storm.Â
When I took the breath of fresh air this morning. I paused and realized that this feels good. Surviving the storm of cravings returns a overwhelming peace and calm. I am rejuvenated. I'm not warn out. I am stronger. I am alive!!!! My soul is warm, vibrant and fresh. I am filled with hope and optimism in my quit!Â
Earlier I said, Life is life...With or without tobacco. There is truth in that but it is partial. I think life is worth living without tobacco.  Problems are there but you can handle them better without tobacco.  Successes are there but you enjoy and appreciate them more without tobacco.  Playing and partying is better when your brain is filled with rich clean fuel and oxygen.Â
Tobacco is a deceiver. It is a tool of the devil. It represents everything opposite to God and goodness.Â
My name is Mark Thomas, I love being quit today! I love life and my friendships. I value and put my alliances ahead of my addiction.
Day by day is the only way to attack it -- every day we don't cave, we win the battle but the war isn't over. Guess what, we get to start it all over again tomorrow; but that's tomorrow.
Right now, I am quit with you brother!
See you tomorrow!
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Very good post my friend!
I am happy to be in this battle with you today and everyday!
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Day 31Â
Really good day. I recognized that I didn't crave for poison today. Not once did I think about tobacco. I felt really good today. Wife took me to dinner to celebrate my 30 day mark. We talked about a lot of things and it was really nice to hang with her.
I was so pleased that I could look her in the eye and tell her that I haven't touched the evil poison. A good friend talked to me about quitting. I don't think he is ready to kill the can but I think the seed has been planted to quit. It will start to grow and we may see him on the site soon!
Day 32
I am so honored to be a member of KTC. I am full of gratitude for my life, my quit, and those who I am aligned with. It is a privilege to post roll.  Â
Today, I reflected on why I am filled with Gratitude. I know there are many battles ahead in this war of addiction. Day 28-29 was very significant. I am embarrassed that I almost fell on my sword. That was truly the most difficult days of my quit. I made it! No cave and still quit. Â
Here in Utah, there was a cold rain. This morning, the dark clouds parted and beautiful, warm sun-rays gave the colors of the trees, plants, grass and flowers a fresh, vibrant look. The birds were chirping, the air was fresh and the day just felt like a new beginning of hope and optimism. Â
Actually, Day 28-29 was not a moment of weakness, but a moment of triumph! The storm with gloom and doom of my addiction pounded upon my soul. With my brothers here on KTC, they reinforced my house of quit. I had support to keep my house in order and weather the storm.Â
When I took the breath of fresh air this morning. I paused and realized that this feels good. Surviving the storm of cravings returns a overwhelming peace and calm. I am rejuvenated. I'm not warn out. I am stronger. I am alive!!!! My soul is warm, vibrant and fresh. I am filled with hope and optimism in my quit!Â
Earlier I said, Life is life...With or without tobacco. There is truth in that but it is partial. I think life is worth living without tobacco.  Problems are there but you can handle them better without tobacco.  Successes are there but you enjoy and appreciate them more without tobacco.  Playing and partying is better when your brain is filled with rich clean fuel and oxygen.Â
Tobacco is a deceiver. It is a tool of the devil. It represents everything opposite to God and goodness.Â
My name is Mark Thomas, I love being quit today! I love life and my friendships. I value and put my alliances ahead of my addiction.
Day by day is the only way to attack it -- every day we don't cave, we win the battle but the war isn't over. Guess what, we get to start it all over again tomorrow; but that's tomorrow.
Right now, I am quit with you brother!
See you tomorrow!
'clap'
Very good post my friend!
I am happy to be in this battle with you today and everyday!
Smile. :) understanding what you are battling is paramount. Great, great job. You have quit for today. We shall worry about tomorrow when it arrives.
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Day 33: Noticed that I donÂ’t crave like I did. It doesnÂ’t hurt anymore. If I get a craving, it is so weak and easy to dismiss. I think itÂ’s time to get back to working out.
Day 34: No craving and I despise tobacco. I made it back to the gym today. I stay close to the site, chat and read a lot. As a addict, you can never be too confident. Love being quit.
Day 35: Second day in a row that I went to the gym. Now time to shed the weight I gained during the first month of my quit.
Day 36: All the pain, all the work, the weight gained and emotion of Tobacco was done. I was in a great place. The pain was over and I was just getting stronger and more resolved. Then the bitch found me today. My wife called me at work to warn me and ask me if I caved. (When my kids did good work, I posted it on the fridge) In a mocking manner, my son put a direct mailer addressed to me on the fridge. He thought I wasnÂ’t quit. (The American Tobacco company mailed me a big fold out of coupons for Grizzly chew)
There have been times when I told my family that I stopped chewing but I just kept it a better secret. This was the first time that I was innocent of being charged with dipping.
I was angry. I wasn't angry at my family for not trusting me. Hell, I have to earn back trust. I am angry that I kicked tobacco out of my house, out of my life, battled it for a month and then I get a mailer with discounts for grizzly chew!!!
How did tobacco get my name and address? I paid cash and never admitted to chewing. No sign ups etc!!! This leaves me to one of two conclusions. Website analytics or a “friend”.
Within the last month, I have done more web searches on tobacco. Are some marketing firms clever enough to get my name and address and include me on a mailer?
Is it possible that someone who knows me and chews wants me to fail and they put my name and address requesting mailings?
I am not depressed or feel sorry for myself, I want to fight!
I go to KTC, and two pitches are coming right down the strike zone and I swing. I read that someone has a trophy can and another person caved after being quit for 5 hours. I unleashed my rage and anger.
I wasnÂ’t mad at the personsÂ…they are addicts just like me. I am mad at how willingly vulnerable we allow ourselves to be at times. My words were harsh but it was because I declare war on anyone who uses, promotes, or profits from tobacco.
I donÂ’t hate the addict, I despise the addiction. I am angry that even when we do all the right things to strengthen our quit and resolve. Tobacco finds a way to sneak in.
I kicked tobacco out of my house, my home, my sanctuary and my life! Like a quiet snake, she found a way to interfere with the confidence, trust and victories I had gained in the last month. How cruel and evil to fuck with me and my family!
If tobacco could talk, this is how it went down:
Mark: Tobacco, I know you think that when I said that we were done, you probably laughed and thought I would be back.
Tobacco: Mark you will be back. You just started hanging out with a new group of people that have filled your mind with the belief that you can stay quit. Look on the site, they cave. DoesnÂ’t matter if it is in the 1st day or 1,000th dayÂ…they come back.
Mark: Tobacco you donÂ’t understand, I donÂ’t care about what you think. You are a deceiver and a liar. I got as far as a temporary buzz and less cash with you. You gave me nothing. I gave you my allegiance. For NOTHING!!!!! You are a liar and a fraud. So telling me that I will come backÂ….I donÂ’t believe that either.
Tobacco: CÂ’mon Mark. You never were this dramatic. You always made fun of drama. What has happened to you? If you want to end it, fine but why are you so hostile? We can part friends, right?
Mark: FUCK NO! Tobacco, I discovered your game. You are a narcissist. It is all about you. You want to be loved and worshiped. You want to be a god. You are cunning and crafty. You thought that you could tempt me with this direct mailer. You think you know me. You think I would cave because if my family doesnÂ’t believe me then I might as well make them right.?
Tobacco, I will credit that you are clever and a sneaky, slimy industry. However, you made one major miscalculation. It ultimately doesnÂ’t matter if my kids or wife think I chew or quit. I didnÂ’t quit for them. I quit for me. I know the truth, God knows the truth and one day when my trust bank is over flowing, you will never be able to put the seed of doubt in my family.
Tobacco: I let you talk now you listen to me. Do you think I really even give a shit about you? Do you think I need you more than you need me? I am here to help your sorry ass get through a day without being a psycho drama little bitch! You may think that your quit will be a world changing event. You might even think that this is your calling in life. Well itÂ…..
[Interrupted by Mark]
Mark: GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE! You walked into my house. (Uninvited and presumptuous.) You are trying to divide me from my family. You have been doing that all along. When I was chewing and now quit, you want to fuck with me and my family!!!!
I am a sober mind and not in your power. You missed judged me. Probably still do. I donÂ’t know what my calling is. I am but one person. You are a dark army.
However, I will never join your army and promote your lies. EVER! Every opportunity I have to shed light on your darkness, I WILL!!!
You might come to my house again, uninvited. When you do, I will come into your territory. I will fight you. You may direct mail the shit out of me. I will put your tatics on Facebook and youtube. I will warn everyone of your attempts to wreck my quit!!!!
I am no longer afraid of your army. I am sorry for the casualties you take.
You have big numbers but only 3% of the American population chew tobacco. I am part of the 97% percent now. So my army is actually bigger! You're a terrorist!!!
You are scary but not too big to fail. You are a failure. You want to be worshiped but you already lost. Now youÂ’re just childish and a poor loser.
Tobacco: FUCK YOU MARK, you might pause but youÂ’ll never quit.
Mark: Hey just donÂ’t be subtle about your actions. I sure as hell am not subtle about mine. Tobacco, I want you dead. Come find me, I dare you. The more you present yourself the more I expose the truth about you.
Fuck off you little bitch!!!!
Day 37: Another great day! Went to a court hearing during the day. Before my hearing, In the parking lot, I saw slaves out giving cancer sticks a blow job. Sad but enlightened me that tobacco is evil. It leads to so many problems.
That night was the high school announcement for student body officers. My son ran a great campaign and it Paid off! He is the 2012-2013 Student Body Historian for his school. I am a proud dad. My three kids are raising me. I always wanted them to be better than me. I claim victory there.
Day 38: It is so fun to be quit. I love it. I avoid tobacco. I donÂ’t associate with it. The only way tobacco has found me is through direct mailers. Other than that, I donÂ’t see it. I expect it will find me again but I am ready for a fight. I wonÂ’t seek it out, I am wiser than I look. To all my quit brothersÂ…..If tobacco wants to fight usÂ….Trust meÂ….We got this! We are winning.
Never ever entertain a cave. You may crave but don't entertain it. Get away. The best strategy when tobacco shows up is to retreat and get away. If you can't get away, don't play nice. It is not nice and is just trying to seduce you.
If the devil wants to dance, punch him in the mouth and run to your support. You will be safe.
I am still Nic and alcohol free. More resolved and happy to quit and have met my goal of posting roll every day. I never missed a day and yes I never caved in 38 days. DAMN I'M PROUD OF MY VICTORIES lately!!!!
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Day 33: Noticed that I donÂ’t crave like I did. It doesnÂ’t hurt anymore. If I get a craving, it is so weak and easy to dismiss. I think itÂ’s time to get back to working out.
Day 34: No craving and I despise tobacco. I made it back to the gym today. I stay close to the site, chat and read a lot. As a addict, you can never be too confident. Love being quit.
Day 35: Second day in a row that I went to the gym. Now time to shed the weight I gained during the first month of my quit.
Day 36: All the pain, all the work, the weight gained and emotion of Tobacco was done. I was in a great place. The pain was over and I was just getting stronger and more resolved. Then the bitch found me today. My wife called me at work to warn me and ask me if I caved. (When my kids did good work, I posted it on the fridge) In a mocking manner, my son put a direct mailer addressed to me on the fridge. He thought I wasnÂ’t quit. (The American Tobacco company mailed me a big fold out of coupons for Grizzly chew)
There have been times when I told my family that I stopped chewing but I just kept it a better secret. This was the first time that I was innocent of being charged with dipping.
I was angry. I wasn't angry at my family for not trusting me. Hell, I have to earn back trust. I am angry that I kicked tobacco out of my house, out of my life, battled it for a month and then I get a mailer with discounts for grizzly chew!!!
How did tobacco get my name and address? I paid cash and never admitted to chewing. No sign ups etc!!! This leaves me to one of two conclusions. Website analytics or a “friend”.
Within the last month, I have done more web searches on tobacco. Are some marketing firms clever enough to get my name and address and include me on a mailer?
Is it possible that someone who knows me and chews wants me to fail and they put my name and address requesting mailings?
I am not depressed or feel sorry for myself, I want to fight!
I go to KTC, and two pitches are coming right down the strike zone and I swing. I read that someone has a trophy can and another person caved after being quit for 5 hours. I unleashed my rage and anger.
I wasnÂ’t mad at the personsÂ…they are addicts just like me. I am mad at how willingly vulnerable we allow ourselves to be at times. My words were harsh but it was because I declare war on anyone who uses, promotes, or profits from tobacco.
I donÂ’t hate the addict, I despise the addiction. I am angry that even when we do all the right things to strengthen our quit and resolve. Tobacco finds a way to sneak in.
I kicked tobacco out of my house, my home, my sanctuary and my life! Like a quiet snake, she found a way to interfere with the confidence, trust and victories I had gained in the last month. How cruel and evil to fuck with me and my family!
If tobacco could talk, this is how it went down:
Mark: Tobacco, I know you think that when I said that we were done, you probably laughed and thought I would be back.
Tobacco: Mark you will be back. You just started hanging out with a new group of people that have filled your mind with the belief that you can stay quit. Look on the site, they cave. DoesnÂ’t matter if it is in the 1st day or 1,000th dayÂ…they come back.
Mark: Tobacco you donÂ’t understand, I donÂ’t care about what you think. You are a deceiver and a liar. I got as far as a temporary buzz and less cash with you. You gave me nothing. I gave you my allegiance. For NOTHING!!!!! You are a liar and a fraud. So telling me that I will come backÂ….I donÂ’t believe that either.
Tobacco: CÂ’mon Mark. You never were this dramatic. You always made fun of drama. What has happened to you? If you want to end it, fine but why are you so hostile? We can part friends, right?
Mark: FUCK NO! Tobacco, I discovered your game. You are a narcissist. It is all about you. You want to be loved and worshiped. You want to be a god. You are cunning and crafty. You thought that you could tempt me with this direct mailer. You think you know me. You think I would cave because if my family doesnÂ’t believe me then I might as well make them right.?
Tobacco, I will credit that you are clever and a sneaky, slimy industry. However, you made one major miscalculation. It ultimately doesnÂ’t matter if my kids or wife think I chew or quit. I didnÂ’t quit for them. I quit for me. I know the truth, God knows the truth and one day when my trust bank is over flowing, you will never be able to put the seed of doubt in my family.
Tobacco: I let you talk now you listen to me. Do you think I really even give a shit about you? Do you think I need you more than you need me? I am here to help your sorry ass get through a day without being a psycho drama little bitch! You may think that your quit will be a world changing event. You might even think that this is your calling in life. Well itÂ…..
[Interrupted by Mark]
Mark: GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE! You walked into my house. (Uninvited and presumptuous.) You are trying to divide me from my family. You have been doing that all along. When I was chewing and now quit, you want to fuck with me and my family!!!!
I am a sober mind and not in your power. You missed judged me. Probably still do. I donÂ’t know what my calling is. I am but one person. You are a dark army.
However, I will never join your army and promote your lies. EVER! Every opportunity I have to shed light on your darkness, I WILL!!!
You might come to my house again, uninvited. When you do, I will come into your territory. I will fight you. You may direct mail the shit out of me. I will put your tatics on Facebook and youtube. I will warn everyone of your attempts to wreck my quit!!!!
I am no longer afraid of your army. I am sorry for the casualties you take.
You have big numbers but only 3% of the American population chew tobacco. I am part of the 97% percent now. So my army is actually bigger! You're a terrorist!!!
You are scary but not too big to fail. You are a failure. You want to be worshiped but you already lost. Now youÂ’re just childish and a poor loser.
Tobacco: FUCK YOU MARK, you might pause but youÂ’ll never quit.
Mark: Hey just donÂ’t be subtle about your actions. I sure as hell am not subtle about mine. Tobacco, I want you dead. Come find me, I dare you. The more you present yourself the more I expose the truth about you.
Fuck off you little bitch!!!!
Day 37: Another great day! Went to a court hearing during the day. Before my hearing, In the parking lot, I saw slaves out giving cancer sticks a blow job. Sad but enlightened me that tobacco is evil. It leads to so many problems.
That night was the high school announcement for student body officers. My son ran a great campaign and it Paid off! He is the 2012-2013 Student Body Historian for his school. I am a proud dad. My three kids are raising me. I always wanted them to be better than me. I claim victory there.
Day 38: It is so fun to be quit. I love it. I avoid tobacco. I donÂ’t associate with it. The only way tobacco has found me is through direct mailers. Other than that, I donÂ’t see it. I expect it will find me again but I am ready for a fight. I wonÂ’t seek it out, I am wiser than I look. To all my quit brothersÂ…..If tobacco wants to fight usÂ….Trust meÂ….We got this! We are winning.
Never ever entertain a cave. You may crave but don't entertain it. Get away. The best strategy when tobacco shows up is to retreat and get away. If you can't get away, don't play nice. It is not nice and is just trying to seduce you.
If the devil wants to dance, punch him in the mouth and run to your support. You will be safe.
I am still Nic and alcohol free. More resolved and happy to quit and have met my goal of posting roll every day. I never missed a day and yes I never caved in 38 days. DAMN I'M PROUD OF MY VICTORIES lately!!!!
MT your therapy sessions are the best. I really enjoy your comments and your resolve. every since I first read anything from you I felt that connection you know what I mean, NOT IN ANY GAY WAY! This post is fantastic Wow it sucks doesnt it to have your own family not trust you. I know what that is like all to well. My wife just asked me how it was going, I told her that I feel great and was doing fantastic. I got that look like "can I really trust you" I've lied to her so many times over the past 32 yrs that I cant expect her to believe me. I hope after 32 more yrs pass that I will finally be able to look her in the eye and know that she believes me. Man your kid is great, he must give your quit even more power. stay strong and lets earn our families trust back one day at a time.
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Day 33: Noticed that I donÂ’t crave like I did. It doesnÂ’t hurt anymore. If I get a craving, it is so weak and easy to dismiss. I think itÂ’s time to get back to working out.
Day 34: No craving and I despise tobacco. I made it back to the gym today. I stay close to the site, chat and read a lot. As a addict, you can never be too confident. Love being quit.
Day 35: Second day in a row that I went to the gym. Now time to shed the weight I gained during the first month of my quit.
Day 36: All the pain, all the work, the weight gained and emotion of Tobacco was done. I was in a great place. The pain was over and I was just getting stronger and more resolved. Then the bitch found me today. My wife called me at work to warn me and ask me if I caved. (When my kids did good work, I posted it on the fridge) In a mocking manner, my son put a direct mailer addressed to me on the fridge. He thought I wasnÂ’t quit. (The American Tobacco company mailed me a big fold out of coupons for Grizzly chew)
There have been times when I told my family that I stopped chewing but I just kept it a better secret. This was the first time that I was innocent of being charged with dipping.
I was angry. I wasn't angry at my family for not trusting me. Hell, I have to earn back trust. I am angry that I kicked tobacco out of my house, out of my life, battled it for a month and then I get a mailer with discounts for grizzly chew!!!
How did tobacco get my name and address? I paid cash and never admitted to chewing. No sign ups etc!!! This leaves me to one of two conclusions. Website analytics or a “friend”.
Within the last month, I have done more web searches on tobacco. Are some marketing firms clever enough to get my name and address and include me on a mailer?
Is it possible that someone who knows me and chews wants me to fail and they put my name and address requesting mailings?
I am not depressed or feel sorry for myself, I want to fight!
I go to KTC, and two pitches are coming right down the strike zone and I swing. I read that someone has a trophy can and another person caved after being quit for 5 hours. I unleashed my rage and anger.
I wasnÂ’t mad at the personsÂ…they are addicts just like me. I am mad at how willingly vulnerable we allow ourselves to be at times. My words were harsh but it was because I declare war on anyone who uses, promotes, or profits from tobacco.
I donÂ’t hate the addict, I despise the addiction. I am angry that even when we do all the right things to strengthen our quit and resolve. Tobacco finds a way to sneak in.
I kicked tobacco out of my house, my home, my sanctuary and my life! Like a quiet snake, she found a way to interfere with the confidence, trust and victories I had gained in the last month. How cruel and evil to fuck with me and my family!
If tobacco could talk, this is how it went down:
Mark: Tobacco, I know you think that when I said that we were done, you probably laughed and thought I would be back.
Tobacco: Mark you will be back. You just started hanging out with a new group of people that have filled your mind with the belief that you can stay quit. Look on the site, they cave. DoesnÂ’t matter if it is in the 1st day or 1,000th dayÂ…they come back.
Mark: Tobacco you donÂ’t understand, I donÂ’t care about what you think. You are a deceiver and a liar. I got as far as a temporary buzz and less cash with you. You gave me nothing. I gave you my allegiance. For NOTHING!!!!! You are a liar and a fraud. So telling me that I will come backÂ….I donÂ’t believe that either.
Tobacco: CÂ’mon Mark. You never were this dramatic. You always made fun of drama. What has happened to you? If you want to end it, fine but why are you so hostile? We can part friends, right?
Mark: FUCK NO! Tobacco, I discovered your game. You are a narcissist. It is all about you. You want to be loved and worshiped. You want to be a god. You are cunning and crafty. You thought that you could tempt me with this direct mailer. You think you know me. You think I would cave because if my family doesnÂ’t believe me then I might as well make them right.?
Tobacco, I will credit that you are clever and a sneaky, slimy industry. However, you made one major miscalculation. It ultimately doesnÂ’t matter if my kids or wife think I chew or quit. I didnÂ’t quit for them. I quit for me. I know the truth, God knows the truth and one day when my trust bank is over flowing, you will never be able to put the seed of doubt in my family.
Tobacco: I let you talk now you listen to me. Do you think I really even give a shit about you? Do you think I need you more than you need me? I am here to help your sorry ass get through a day without being a psycho drama little bitch! You may think that your quit will be a world changing event. You might even think that this is your calling in life. Well itÂ…..
[Interrupted by Mark]
Mark: GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE! You walked into my house. (Uninvited and presumptuous.) You are trying to divide me from my family. You have been doing that all along. When I was chewing and now quit, you want to fuck with me and my family!!!!
I am a sober mind and not in your power. You missed judged me. Probably still do. I donÂ’t know what my calling is. I am but one person. You are a dark army.
However, I will never join your army and promote your lies. EVER! Every opportunity I have to shed light on your darkness, I WILL!!!
You might come to my house again, uninvited. When you do, I will come into your territory. I will fight you. You may direct mail the shit out of me. I will put your tatics on Facebook and youtube. I will warn everyone of your attempts to wreck my quit!!!!
I am no longer afraid of your army. I am sorry for the casualties you take.
You have big numbers but only 3% of the American population chew tobacco. I am part of the 97% percent now. So my army is actually bigger! You're a terrorist!!!
You are scary but not too big to fail. You are a failure. You want to be worshiped but you already lost. Now youÂ’re just childish and a poor loser.
Tobacco: FUCK YOU MARK, you might pause but youÂ’ll never quit.
Mark: Hey just donÂ’t be subtle about your actions. I sure as hell am not subtle about mine. Tobacco, I want you dead. Come find me, I dare you. The more you present yourself the more I expose the truth about you.
Fuck off you little bitch!!!!
Day 37: Another great day! Went to a court hearing during the day. Before my hearing, In the parking lot, I saw slaves out giving cancer sticks a blow job. Sad but enlightened me that tobacco is evil. It leads to so many problems.
That night was the high school announcement for student body officers. My son ran a great campaign and it Paid off! He is the 2012-2013 Student Body Historian for his school. I am a proud dad. My three kids are raising me. I always wanted them to be better than me. I claim victory there.
Day 38: It is so fun to be quit. I love it. I avoid tobacco. I donÂ’t associate with it. The only way tobacco has found me is through direct mailers. Other than that, I donÂ’t see it. I expect it will find me again but I am ready for a fight. I wonÂ’t seek it out, I am wiser than I look. To all my quit brothersÂ…..If tobacco wants to fight usÂ….Trust meÂ….We got this! We are winning.
Never ever entertain a cave. You may crave but don't entertain it. Get away. The best strategy when tobacco shows up is to retreat and get away. If you can't get away, don't play nice. It is not nice and is just trying to seduce you.
If the devil wants to dance, punch him in the mouth and run to your support. You will be safe.
I am still Nic and alcohol free. More resolved and happy to quit and have met my goal of posting roll every day. I never missed a day and yes I never caved in 38 days. DAMN I'M PROUD OF MY VICTORIES lately!!!!
Thanks for all your posts Mark. They hit home for me and many people. I'm proud to be quit with you today. Keep kicking tobaccos ass in all ways.
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Day 33: Noticed that I donÂ’t crave like I did. It doesnÂ’t hurt anymore. If I get a craving, it is so weak and easy to dismiss. I think itÂ’s time to get back to working out.Â
Day 34: No craving and I despise tobacco. I made it back to the gym today. I stay close to the site, chat and read a lot. As a addict, you can never be too confident. Love being quit.
Day 35: Second day in a row that I went to the gym. Now time to shed the weight I gained during the first month of my quit.
Day 36: All the pain, all the work, the weight gained and emotion of Tobacco was done. I was in a great place. The pain was over and I was just getting stronger and more resolved. Then the bitch found me today. My wife called me at work to warn me and ask me if I caved. (When my kids did good work, I posted it on the fridge) In a mocking manner, my son put a direct mailer addressed to me on the fridge. He thought I wasnÂ’t quit. (The American Tobacco company mailed me a big fold out of coupons for Grizzly chew)Â
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There have been times when I told my family that I stopped chewing but I just kept it a better secret. This was the first time that I was innocent of being charged with dipping.Â
I was angry. I wasn't angry at my family for not trusting me. Hell, I have to earn back trust. I am angry that I kicked tobacco out of my house, out of my life, battled it for a month and then I get a mailer with discounts for grizzly chew!!!Â
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How did tobacco get my name and address? I paid cash and never admitted to chewing. No sign ups etc!!! This leaves me to one of two conclusions. Website analytics or a “friend”.Â
Within the last month, I have done more web searches on tobacco. Are some marketing firms clever enough to get my name and address and include me on a mailer?Â
Is it possible that someone who knows me and chews wants me to fail and they put my name and address requesting mailings?Â
I am not depressed or feel sorry for myself, I want to fight!Â
I go to KTC, and two pitches are coming right down the strike zone and I swing. I read that someone has a trophy can and another person caved after being quit for 5 hours. I unleashed my rage and anger.Â
I wasn’t mad at the persons…they are addicts just like me. I am mad at how willingly vulnerable we allow ourselves to be at times. My words were harsh but it was because I declare war on anyone who uses, promotes, or profits from tobacco.
I donÂ’t hate the addict, I despise the addiction. I am angry that even when we do all the right things to strengthen our quit and resolve. Tobacco finds a way to sneak in.Â
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I kicked tobacco out of my house, my home, my sanctuary and my life! Like a quiet snake, she found a way to interfere with the confidence, trust and victories I had gained in the last month. How cruel and evil to fuck with me and my family!
If tobacco could talk, this is how it went down:Â Â
Mark:Â Tobacco, I know you think that when I said that we were done, you probably laughed and thought I would be back.
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Tobacco: Mark you will be back. You just started hanging out with a new group of people that have filled your mind with the belief that you can stay quit. Look on the site, they cave. Doesn’t matter if it is in the 1st day or 1,000th day…they come back.
Mark: Tobacco you don’t understand, I don’t care about what you think. You are a deceiver and a liar. I got as far as a temporary buzz and less cash with you. You gave me nothing. I gave you my allegiance. For NOTHING!!!!! You are a liar and a fraud. So telling me that I will come back….I don’t believe that either.
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Tobacco: CÂ’mon Mark. You never were this dramatic. You always made fun of drama. What has happened to you? If you want to end it, fine but why are you so hostile? We can part friends, right?Â
Mark: FUCK NO! Tobacco, I discovered your game. You are a narcissist. It is all about you. You want to be loved and worshiped. You want to be a god. You are cunning and crafty. You thought that you could tempt me with this direct mailer. You think you know me. You think I would cave because if my family doesn’t believe me then I might as well make them right.?
Tobacco, I will credit that you are clever and a sneaky, slimy industry. However, you made one major miscalculation. It ultimately doesn’t matter if my kids or wife think I chew or quit. I didn’t quit for them. I quit for me. I know the truth, God knows the truth and one day when my trust bank is over flowing, you will never be able to put the seed of doubt in my family.
Tobacco: I let you talk now you listen to me. Do you think I really even give a shit about you? Do you think I need you more than you need me? I am here to help your sorry ass get through a day without being a psycho drama little bitch! You may think that your quit will be a world changing event. You might even think that this is your calling in life. Well it…..
[Interrupted by Mark]
Mark: GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE! You walked into my house. (Uninvited and presumptuous.) You are trying to divide me from my family. You have been doing that all along. When I was chewing and now quit, you want to fuck with me and my family!!!!
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I am a sober mind and not in your power. You missed judged me. Probably still do. I don’t know what my calling is. I am but one person. You are a dark army.
However, I will never join your army and promote your lies. EVER! Every opportunity I have to shed light on your darkness, I WILL!!!
You might come to my house again, uninvited. When you do, I will come into your territory. I will fight you. You may direct mail the shit out of me. I will put your tatics on Facebook and youtube. I will warn everyone of your attempts to wreck my quit!!!!
I am no longer afraid of your army. I am sorry for the casualties you take.Â
You have big numbers but only 3% of the American population chew tobacco. I am part of the 97% percent now. So my army is actually bigger! You're a terrorist!!!
You are scary but not too big to fail. You are a failure. You want to be worshiped but you already lost. Now youÂ’re just childish and a poor loser.Â
Tobacco:Â FUCK YOU MARK, you might pause but youÂ’ll never quit.Â
Mark: Hey just donÂ’t be subtle about your actions. I sure as hell am not subtle about mine. Tobacco, I want you dead. Come find me, I dare you. The more you present yourself the more I expose the truth about you.Â
Fuck off you little bitch!!!!
Day 37: Another great day! Went to a court hearing during the day. Before my hearing, In the parking lot, I saw slaves out giving cancer sticks a blow job. Sad but enlightened me that tobacco is evil. It leads to so many problems.Â
That night was the high school announcement for student body officers. My son ran a great campaign and it Paid off! He is the 2012-2013 Student Body Historian for his school. I am a proud dad. My three kids are raising me. I always wanted them to be better than me. I claim victory there.
Day 38: It is so fun to be quit. I love it. I avoid tobacco. I donÂ’t associate with it. The only way tobacco has found me is through direct mailers. Other than that, I donÂ’t see it. I expect it will find me again but I am ready for a fight. I wonÂ’t seek it out, I am wiser than I look. To all my quit brothersÂ…..If tobacco wants to fight usÂ….Trust meÂ….We got this! We are winning.Â
Never ever entertain a cave. You may crave but don't entertain it. Get away. The best strategy when tobacco shows up is to retreat and get away. If you can't get away, don't play nice. It is not nice and is just trying to seduce you.Â
If the devil wants to dance, punch him in the mouth and run to your support. You will be safe.Â
I am still Nic and alcohol free. More resolved and happy to quit and have met my goal of posting roll every day. I never missed a day and yes I never caved in 38 days. DAMN I'M PROUD OF MY VICTORIES lately!!!!
Thanks for all your posts Mark. They hit home for me and many people. I'm proud to be quit with you today. Keep kicking tobaccos ass in all ways.
Thank you, but I have more gratitude for your and other posts. They strengthen my quit. Proud to be quit. We are one, we are nic free!
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Day 39: Really nice weather on a Saturday. Yard work, Home Depot runs. In the past, this would have been an all out dip day. Leave me alone and let me tinker around the house. I had no cravings. The thought crossed my mind but it was simple to focus on other things. It was fun to spend the day with my kid and work together. I really love his company and don't miss the secret relationship with the can.
Day 40: Wow 40 days. It went by fast but I kind of feel like I've been quit forever. Seems like I have seen more peeps joining KTC lately. Great, I hope they have and experience the freedom and pain that I have. Embrace the suck and we quit like fuck!
Day 41:
I woke up this morning and went to the gym @ 5:30AM. Got to work excited to be alive and make it a good day today. Posted roll and feel privileged to be quit. I don't miss tobacco. I detest everything tobacco related. I might crave being an addict, but my clear head thinks tobacco is such a crock of shit!
Chewing one can of skoal for 20 years.......... -$43,800.00
Staying quit for 42 days............................... +$250.10
Not letting my addiction rule me................... PRICELESS!!!!!!
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Day 39: Really nice weather on a Saturday. Yard work, Home Depot runs. In the past, this would have been an all out dip day. Leave me alone and let me tinker around the house. I had no cravings. The thought crossed my mind but it was simple to focus on other things. It was fun to spend the day with my kid and work together. I really love his company and don't miss the secret relationship with the can.
Day 40: Wow 40 days. It went by fast but I kind of feel like I've been quit forever. Seems like I have seen more peeps joining KTC lately. Great, I hope they have and experience the freedom and pain that I have. Embrace the suck and we quit like fuck!
Day 41:
I woke up this morning and went to the gym @ 5:30AM. Got to work excited to be alive and make it a good day today. Posted roll and feel privileged to be quit. I don't miss tobacco. I detest everything tobacco related. I might crave being an addict, but my clear head thinks tobacco is such a crock of shit!
Chewing one can of skoal for 20 years.......... -$43,800.00
Staying quit for 42 days............................... +$250.10
Not letting my addiction rule me................... PRICELESS!!!!!!
Congratulations on 40 and 41. Keep up the good work and battle every day to maintain that positive commitment. You are focused and kicking ass. Proud to be quit with ya.
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Day 39:  Really nice weather on a Saturday. Yard work, Home Depot runs. In the past, this would have been an all out dip day. Leave me alone and let me tinker around the house. I had no cravings. The thought crossed my mind but it was simple to focus on other things. It was fun to spend the day with my kid and work together. I really love his company and don't miss the secret relationship with the can.Â
Day 40:  Wow 40 days. It went by fast but I kind of feel like I've been quit forever. Seems like I have seen more peeps joining KTC lately. Great, I hope they have and experience the freedom and pain that I have. Embrace the suck and we quit like fuck!Â
Day 41: Â
I woke up this morning and went to the gym @ 5:30AM. Got to work excited to be alive and make it a good day today. Posted roll and feel privileged to be quit. I don't miss tobacco. I detest everything tobacco related. I might crave being an addict, but my clear head thinks tobacco is such a crock of shit!Â
Chewing one can of skoal for 20 years.......... -$43,800.00
Staying quit for 42 days............................... +$250.10
Not letting my addiction rule me................... PRICELESS!!!!!!
Congratulations on 40 and 41. Keep up the good work and battle every day to maintain that positive commitment. You are focused and kicking ass. Proud to be quit with ya.
Thanks. I am going to enjoy the mini vacation from the cravings. 20's sucked, 30's were fun. So far 40's are just fine. I imagine between now and 60....I am going to face another battle.
One day at a time though. I am really enjoying today.
Never let me pass you in quit days. If I do, you pay for my plane ticket, room and board to come up there. I get to video you in a dress, standing on a busy street corner with a sign that says, "Hello, I'm a coach and I am tobacco's bitch!"
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Day 39:  Really nice weather on a Saturday. Yard work, Home Depot runs. In the past, this would have been an all out dip day. Leave me alone and let me tinker around the house. I had no cravings. The thought crossed my mind but it was simple to focus on other things. It was fun to spend the day with my kid and work together.  I really love his company and don't miss the secret relationship with the can.Â
Day 40:  Wow 40 days. It went by fast but I kind of feel like I've been quit forever. Seems like I have seen more peeps joining KTC lately. Great, I hope they have and experience the freedom and pain that I have. Embrace the suck and we quit like fuck!Â
Day 41: Â
I woke up this morning and went to the gym @ 5:30AM. Got to work excited to be alive and make it a good day today. Posted roll and feel privileged to be quit. I don't miss tobacco. I detest everything tobacco related. I might crave being an addict, but my clear head thinks tobacco is such a crock of shit!Â
Chewing one can of skoal for 20 years.......... -$43,800.00
Staying quit for 42 days............................... +$250.10
Not letting my addiction rule me................... PRICELESS!!!!!!
Congratulations on 40 and 41. Keep up the good work and battle every day to maintain that positive commitment. You are focused and kicking ass. Proud to be quit with ya.
Thanks. I am going to enjoy the mini vacation from the cravings. 20's sucked, 30's were fun. So far 40's are just fine. I imagine between now and 60....I am going to face another battle.
One day at a time though. I am really enjoying today.
Never let me pass you in quit days. If I do, you pay for my plane ticket, room and board to come up there. I get to video you in a dress, standing on a busy street corner with a sign that says, "Hello, I'm a coach and I am tobacco's bitch!"
Ha - that's a deal.
I struggled through the 50's - don't know why and no scheduled funk talked about. Just my time to struggle I guess. Feeling better today though. Keep that positive attitude rolling - that is what it is all about. It is now a matter of mental toughness. Defeat the urge to cave by fighting every crave with a positive attitude. I think I was feeling a little sorry for myself and had to pull up my skirt, dig in, and take the fight to the bitch.
You can keep chasing but you will never catch me. No Day 1's for me!!!
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Day 39:  Really nice weather on a Saturday. Yard work, Home Depot runs. In the past, this would have been an all out dip day. Leave me alone and let me tinker around the house. I had no cravings. The thought crossed my mind but it was simple to focus on other things. It was fun to spend the day with my kid and work together.  I really love his company and don't miss the secret relationship with the can.Â
Day 40:  Wow 40 days. It went by fast but I kind of feel like I've been quit forever. Seems like I have seen more peeps joining KTC lately. Great, I hope they have and experience the freedom and pain that I have. Embrace the suck and we quit like fuck!Â
Day 41: Â
I woke up this morning and went to the gym @ 5:30AM. Got to work excited to be alive and make it a good day today. Posted roll and feel privileged to be quit. I don't miss tobacco. I detest everything tobacco related. I might crave being an addict, but my clear head thinks tobacco is such a crock of shit!Â
Chewing one can of skoal for 20 years.......... -$43,800.00
Staying quit for 42 days............................... +$250.10
Not letting my addiction rule me................... PRICELESS!!!!!!
Congratulations on 40 and 41. Keep up the good work and battle every day to maintain that positive commitment. You are focused and kicking ass. Proud to be quit with ya.
Thanks. I am going to enjoy the mini vacation from the cravings. 20's sucked, 30's were fun. So far 40's are just fine. I imagine between now and 60....I am going to face another battle.
One day at a time though. I am really enjoying today.
Never let me pass you in quit days. If I do, you pay for my plane ticket, room and board to come up there. I get to video you in a dress, standing on a busy street corner with a sign that says, "Hello, I'm a coach and I am tobacco's bitch!"
Ha - that's a deal.
I struggled through the 50's - don't know why and no scheduled funk talked about. Just my time to struggle I guess. Feeling better today though. Keep that positive attitude rolling - that is what it is all about. It is now a matter of mental toughness. Defeat the urge to cave by fighting every crave with a positive attitude. I think I was feeling a little sorry for myself and had to pull up my skirt, dig in, and take the fight to the bitch.
You can keep chasing but you will never catch me. No Day 1's for me!!!
good, you are my big brother and can warn me of upcoming bumps like you do. I don't even want to have the mindset of another day one for you or me. We go forward cause we quit like fuck! The bridge is burned and there is no going back.
I like to talk a big game because when temptation comes, I always think of the things I said and statements I made. I will not allow the humiliation of a fail. I do everything I am told to do on this site.
This must be how Muhammad Ali stayed a champion. You talk so much shit that you will not allow yourself to fail. You almost will success because defeat would be too painful. If I caved, I would definitely post a day one and I am sure get my ass kicked.
So I post every day and never cave, then I can keep talking shit to the cavers and never feel sorry for the weak minded.
AMERICA FUCK YEAH! (you every see the movie Team America?) You should its one messed up puppet show.
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Day 39:  Really nice weather on a Saturday. Yard work, Home Depot runs. In the past, this would have been an all out dip day. Leave me alone and let me tinker around the house. I had no cravings. The thought crossed my mind but it was simple to focus on other things. It was fun to spend the day with my kid and work together.  I really love his company and don't miss the secret relationship with the can.Â
Day 40:  Wow 40 days. It went by fast but I kind of feel like I've been quit forever. Seems like I have seen more peeps joining KTC lately. Great, I hope they have and experience the freedom and pain that I have. Embrace the suck and we quit like fuck!Â
Day 41: Â
I woke up this morning and went to the gym @ 5:30AM. Got to work excited to be alive and make it a good day today. Posted roll and feel privileged to be quit. I don't miss tobacco. I detest everything tobacco related. I might crave being an addict, but my clear head thinks tobacco is such a crock of shit!Â
Chewing one can of skoal for 20 years.......... -$43,800.00
Staying quit for 42 days............................... +$250.10
Not letting my addiction rule me................... PRICELESS!!!!!!
Congratulations on 40 and 41. Keep up the good work and battle every day to maintain that positive commitment. You are focused and kicking ass. Proud to be quit with ya.
Thanks. I am going to enjoy the mini vacation from the cravings. 20's sucked, 30's were fun. So far 40's are just fine. I imagine between now and 60....I am going to face another battle.
One day at a time though. I am really enjoying today.
Never let me pass you in quit days. If I do, you pay for my plane ticket, room and board to come up there. I get to video you in a dress, standing on a busy street corner with a sign that says, "Hello, I'm a coach and I am tobacco's bitch!"
Ha - that's a deal.
I struggled through the 50's - don't know why and no scheduled funk talked about. Just my time to struggle I guess. Feeling better today though. Keep that positive attitude rolling - that is what it is all about. It is now a matter of mental toughness. Defeat the urge to cave by fighting every crave with a positive attitude. I think I was feeling a little sorry for myself and had to pull up my skirt, dig in, and take the fight to the bitch.
You can keep chasing but you will never catch me. No Day 1's for me!!!
good, you are my big brother and can warn me of upcoming bumps like you do. I don't even want to have the mindset of another day one for you or me. We go forward cause we quit like fuck! The bridge is burned and there is no going back.
I like to talk a big game because when temptation comes, I always think of the things I said and statements I made. I will not allow the humiliation of a fail. I do everything I am told to do on this site.
This must be how Muhammad Ali stayed a champion. You talk so much shit that you will not allow yourself to fail. You almost will success because defeat would be too painful. If I caved, I would definitely post a day one and I am sure get my ass kicked.
So I post every day and never cave, then I can keep talking shit to the cavers and never feel sorry for the weak minded.
AMERICA FUCK YEAH! (you every see the movie Team America?) You should its one messed up puppet show.
You are dead on and I love the shit talking strategy. You actually have me rolling most nights. I agree with the strategy - talking shit is also going to save your life - hold you accountable to what you are preaching. I love it. But, you don't just talk shit - there are some good messages in your posts. You have a great way about you - trash talk yet humble. Great combination. I hope this isn't getting too ghey - just want you to know that what you are doing is helping many and you should have some confidence in yourself, you are owning your quit, fighting the bitch, and winning. People enjoy reading your posts, keep it up.
Stay Golden Pony Boy.
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Day 39:  Really nice weather on a Saturday. Yard work, Home Depot runs. In the past, this would have been an all out dip day. Leave me alone and let me tinker around the house. I had no cravings. The thought crossed my mind but it was simple to focus on other things. It was fun to spend the day with my kid and work together.  I really love his company and don't miss the secret relationship with the can.Â
Day 40:  Wow 40 days. It went by fast but I kind of feel like I've been quit forever. Seems like I have seen more peeps joining KTC lately. Great, I hope they have and experience the freedom and pain that I have. Embrace the suck and we quit like fuck!Â
Day 41: Â
I woke up this morning and went to the gym @ 5:30AM. Got to work excited to be alive and make it a good day today. Posted roll and feel privileged to be quit. I don't miss tobacco. I detest everything tobacco related. I might crave being an addict, but my clear head thinks tobacco is such a crock of shit!Â
Chewing one can of skoal for 20 years.......... -$43,800.00
Staying quit for 42 days............................... +$250.10
Not letting my addiction rule me................... PRICELESS!!!!!!
Congratulations on 40 and 41. Keep up the good work and battle every day to maintain that positive commitment. You are focused and kicking ass. Proud to be quit with ya.
Thanks. I am going to enjoy the mini vacation from the cravings. 20's sucked, 30's were fun. So far 40's are just fine. I imagine between now and 60....I am going to face another battle.
One day at a time though. I am really enjoying today.
Never let me pass you in quit days. If I do, you pay for my plane ticket, room and board to come up there. I get to video you in a dress, standing on a busy street corner with a sign that says, "Hello, I'm a coach and I am tobacco's bitch!"
Ha - that's a deal.
I struggled through the 50's - don't know why and no scheduled funk talked about. Just my time to struggle I guess. Feeling better today though. Keep that positive attitude rolling - that is what it is all about. It is now a matter of mental toughness. Defeat the urge to cave by fighting every crave with a positive attitude. I think I was feeling a little sorry for myself and had to pull up my skirt, dig in, and take the fight to the bitch.
You can keep chasing but you will never catch me. No Day 1's for me!!!
good, you are my big brother and can warn me of upcoming bumps like you do. I don't even want to have the mindset of another day one for you or me. We go forward cause we quit like fuck! The bridge is burned and there is no going back.
I like to talk a big game because when temptation comes, I always think of the things I said and statements I made. I will not allow the humiliation of a fail. I do everything I am told to do on this site.
This must be how Muhammad Ali stayed a champion. You talk so much shit that you will not allow yourself to fail. You almost will success because defeat would be too painful. If I caved, I would definitely post a day one and I am sure get my ass kicked.
So I post every day and never cave, then I can keep talking shit to the cavers and never feel sorry for the weak minded.
AMERICA FUCK YEAH! (you every see the movie Team America?) You should its one messed up puppet show.
You are dead on and I love the shit talking strategy. You actually have me rolling most nights. I agree with the strategy - talking shit is also going to save your life - hold you accountable to what you are preaching. I love it. But, you don't just talk shit - there are some good messages in your posts. You have a great way about you - trash talk yet humble. Great combination. I hope this isn't getting too ghey - just want you to know that what you are doing is helping many and you should have some confidence in yourself, you are owning your quit, fighting the bitch, and winning. People enjoy reading your posts, keep it up.
Stay Golden Pony Boy.
Great stuff guys!
I would have to agree with suckit this is an awesome page to read many times over.
Always good contenet and just like so many things about this site the guys going thru the quit have a great way of articulating what many are thinking and maybe not able to write!
Keep up the good work guys and hopefully these bad ass quiters will inspire more to throw their fucking cans away and join the fight!
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Day 39:  Really nice weather on a Saturday. Yard work, Home Depot runs. In the past, this would have been an all out dip day. Leave me alone and let me tinker around the house. I had no cravings. The thought crossed my mind but it was simple to focus on other things. It was fun to spend the day with my kid and work together.  I really love his company and don't miss the secret relationship with the can.Â
Day 40:  Wow 40 days. It went by fast but I kind of feel like I've been quit forever. Seems like I have seen more peeps joining KTC lately. Great, I hope they have and experience the freedom and pain that I have. Embrace the suck and we quit like fuck!Â
Day 41: Â
I woke up this morning and went to the gym @ 5:30AM. Got to work excited to be alive and make it a good day today. Posted roll and feel privileged to be quit. I don't miss tobacco. I detest everything tobacco related. I might crave being an addict, but my clear head thinks tobacco is such a crock of shit!Â
Chewing one can of skoal for 20 years.......... -$43,800.00
Staying quit for 42 days............................... +$250.10
Not letting my addiction rule me................... PRICELESS!!!!!!
Congratulations on 40 and 41. Keep up the good work and battle every day to maintain that positive commitment. You are focused and kicking ass. Proud to be quit with ya.
Thanks. I am going to enjoy the mini vacation from the cravings. 20's sucked, 30's were fun. So far 40's are just fine. I imagine between now and 60....I am going to face another battle.
One day at a time though. I am really enjoying today.
Never let me pass you in quit days. If I do, you pay for my plane ticket, room and board to come up there. I get to video you in a dress, standing on a busy street corner with a sign that says, "Hello, I'm a coach and I am tobacco's bitch!"
Ha - that's a deal.
I struggled through the 50's - don't know why and no scheduled funk talked about. Just my time to struggle I guess. Feeling better today though. Keep that positive attitude rolling - that is what it is all about. It is now a matter of mental toughness. Defeat the urge to cave by fighting every crave with a positive attitude. I think I was feeling a little sorry for myself and had to pull up my skirt, dig in, and take the fight to the bitch.
You can keep chasing but you will never catch me. No Day 1's for me!!!
good, you are my big brother and can warn me of upcoming bumps like you do. I don't even want to have the mindset of another day one for you or me. We go forward cause we quit like fuck! The bridge is burned and there is no going back.
I like to talk a big game because when temptation comes, I always think of the things I said and statements I made. I will not allow the humiliation of a fail. I do everything I am told to do on this site.
This must be how Muhammad Ali stayed a champion. You talk so much shit that you will not allow yourself to fail. You almost will success because defeat would be too painful. If I caved, I would definitely post a day one and I am sure get my ass kicked.
So I post every day and never cave, then I can keep talking shit to the cavers and never feel sorry for the weak minded.
AMERICA FUCK YEAH! (you every see the movie Team America?) You should its one messed up puppet show.
You are dead on and I love the shit talking strategy. You actually have me rolling most nights. I agree with the strategy - talking shit is also going to save your life - hold you accountable to what you are preaching. I love it. But, you don't just talk shit - there are some good messages in your posts. You have a great way about you - trash talk yet humble. Great combination. I hope this isn't getting too they - just want you to know that what you are doing is helping many and you should have some confidence in yourself, you are owning your quit, fighting the bitch, and winning. People enjoy reading your posts, keep it up.
Stay Golden Pony Boy.
I agree I love reading the mthomastherapy sessions, but I do have big issue!!! Going back he talks alot about his mistress; I had this hot chick by my side back about the time he was born or at least still in diapers. I'm sure shes the same bitch. I thought at the time she was my one and only. Well it turns out I was paying her for her services, does not that make her a whore?? I think MT was paying her too! Shit all of you guys were screwing the same bitch and we all got the same disease, ADDICTED
I don't know why every time I see Mthomastherapy I see masturbate in the middle of the title. Not ghey.
that isn't your middle name is it
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My name is Mark Thomas and I am an addict. It has been 44 day since I sucked the shit out of a slimy wad of carcinogen. I craved today and for some reason (addiction) I thought about buying a can of skoal. That thought was gone about as fast as it came.
I just read the confession of a cave. It was sad. I didn't have the heart to comment, I just shook my head.
Newbies All of us are addicts. I am going to attempt to save the vets some time and aggravation...dealing with the weak ass, lazy as fuck quitters. There is a big group in July. I almost feel that we have a surge in the desire to quit. However, with the surge, the broken record of missing roll emerges.
You must make posting roll a priority. Every damn day you wake up, you post roll. No excuses! You're a fucking addict and your excuses have no value. You do it or you're still a fuck up.
"Oh but I was busy." "I didn't have access to the internet" Do me a favor and stick that excuse up your ass. As Addicts I discovered something we all possess, we are creative!!!!
When you were out of dip. It didn't matter if you were broke, stranded, in church, in a hole or 80 miles from the nearest town. You got your chew...didn't you?!!!!!
So become an addict to posting roll. No excuse, be creative and determined if you have to but post roll.
Only here 44 days. Short time but it is apparent to see the pattern that leaves to caving. It doesn't matter the number of days. When someone gets lazy in posting roll, they are in danger of caving.
Here is an excerpt from the Kill the Can bible.
Mthomas3824
Chapter 5
Behold, posting roll was raised up on the KTC site that whosoever would post, would be protected and quit; and many did post and were freed from their addiction.
But few understood the meaning of posting roll, keeping their word and repeating daily; and this because of the hardness of their hearts.
But there were many who were so hardened that they would not post roll, there they perished to the everlasting cave and were lead into the bondage of addiction.
Now the reason they would not post roll is because they did not believe that would heal or control their addiction.
Oh my brethren, if you could be quit by merely posting roll, would ye not post roll quickly, or would you rather harden your hearts in unbelief, and be slothful, that ye would not post, that ye might perish into the cave of addiction?
If so, wo shall come upon you; but if so, then post roll every day and believe in the KTC method and live free!
Amen to those that don't post roll. We are in a war. The battle plan is simple. We chose to follow the plan or we die in battle. None of us, Not one of us needs to cave to our addiction. The plan saves lives. It is simple. Why do a few of you think it isn't important to post roll?
Is it just so simple that you wont believe? Does it need to be a covert operation with bells and whistles for you to believe in its effectiveness? It is by small and simple things that great things are accomplished my friends. Be committed to it and be free. Please. It breaks me up to see a cave. Promise never to miss a day posting roll.
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My name is Mark Thomas and I am an addict. It has been 44 day since I sucked the shit out of a slimy wad of carcinogen. I craved today and for some reason (addiction) I thought about buying a can of skoal. That thought was gone about as fast as it came.
I just read the confession of a cave. It was sad. I didn't have the heart to comment, I just shook my head.
Newbies All of us are addicts. I am going to attempt to save the vets some time and aggravation...dealing with the weak ass, lazy as fuck quitters. There is a big group in July. I almost feel that we have a surge in the desire to quit. However, with the surge, the broken record of missing roll emerges.
You must make posting roll a priority. Every damn day you wake up, you post roll. No excuses! You're a fucking addict and your excuses have no value. You do it or you're still a fuck up.
"Oh but I was busy." "I didn't have access to the internet" Do me a favor and stick that excuse up your ass. As Addicts I discovered something we all possess, we are creative!!!!
When you were out of dip. It didn't matter if you were broke, stranded, in church, in a hole or 80 miles from the nearest town. You got your chew...didn't you?!!!!!
So become an addict to posting roll. No excuse, be creative and determined if you have to but post roll.
Only here 44 days. Short time but it is apparent to see the pattern that leaves to caving. It doesn't matter the number of days. When someone gets lazy in posting roll, they are in danger of caving.
Here is an excerpt from the Kill the Can bible.
Mthomas3824
Chapter 5
Behold, posting roll was raised up on the KTC site that whosoever would post, would be protected and quit; and many did post and were freed from their addiction.
But few understood the meaning of posting roll, keeping their word and repeating daily; and this because of the hardness of their hearts.
But there were many who were so hardened that they would not post roll, there they perished to the everlasting cave and were lead into the bondage of addiction.
Now the reason they would not post roll is because they did not believe that would heal or control their addiction.
Oh my brethren, if you could be quit by merely posting roll, would ye not post roll quickly, or would you rather harden your hearts in unbelief, and be slothful, that ye would not post, that ye might perish into the cave of addiction?
If so, ye shall come upon you; but if so, then post roll every day and believe in the KTC method and live free!
Amen to those that don't post roll. We are in a war. The battle plan is simple. We chose to follow the plan or we die in battle. None of us, Not one of us needs to cave to our addiction. The plan saves lives. It is simple. Why do a few of you think it isn't important to post roll?
Is it just so simple that you wont believe? Does it need to be a covert operation with bells and whistles for you to believe in its effectiveness? It is by small and simple things that great things are accomplished my friends. Be committed to it and be free. Please. It breaks me up to see a cave. Promise never to miss a day posting roll.
Mark you are brilliant!!!!!!!!!!!!
Pay attention to this Man, If you don't do everything he says the bitch tobacco will have you back.
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BITCH TOBACCO!!
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My name is Mark Thomas and I am an addict. It has been 44 day since I sucked the shit out of a slimy wad of carcinogen. I craved today and for some reason (addiction) I thought about buying a can of skoal. That thought was gone about as fast as it came.Â
I just read the confession of a cave. It was sad. I didn't have the heart to comment, I just shook my head.Â
 Newbies All of us are addicts. I am going to attempt to save the vets some time and aggravation...dealing with the weak ass, lazy as fuck quitters. There is a big group in July. I almost feel that we have a surge in the desire to quit. However, with the surge, the broken record of missing roll emerges.Â
You must make posting roll a priority. Every damn day you wake up, you post roll. No excuses! You're a fucking addict and your excuses have no value. You do it or you're still a fuck up.Â
"Oh but I was busy." "I didn't have access to the internet" Do me a favor and stick that excuse up your ass. As Addicts I discovered something we all possess, we are creative!!!!
When you were out of dip. It didn't matter if you were broke, stranded, in church, in a hole or 80 miles from the nearest town. You got your chew...didn't you?!!!!!
So become an addict to posting roll. No excuse, be creative and determined if you have to but post roll.Â
Only here 44 days. Short time but it is apparent to see the pattern that leaves to caving. It doesn't matter the number of days. When someone gets lazy in posting roll, they are in danger of caving.
Here is an excerpt from the Kill the Can bible.
Mthomas3824
Chapter 5
Behold, posting roll was raised up on the KTC site that whosoever would post, would be protected and quit; and many did post and were freed from their addiction.
But few understood the meaning of posting roll, keeping their word and repeating daily; and this because of the hardness of their hearts.Â
But there were many who were so hardened that they would not post roll, there they perished to the everlasting cave and were lead into the bondage of addiction.Â
Now the reason they would not post roll is because they did not believe that would heal or control their addiction.Â
Oh my brethren, if you could be quit by merely posting roll, would ye not post roll quickly, or would you rather harden your hearts in unbelief, and be slothful, that ye would not post, that ye might perish into the cave of addiction?Â
If so, ye shall come upon you; but if so, then post roll every day and believe in the KTC method and live free!Â
Amen to those that don't post roll. We are in a war. The battle plan is simple. We chose to follow the plan or we die in battle. None of us, Not one of us needs to cave to our addiction. The plan saves lives. It is simple. Why do a few of you think it isn't important to post roll?Â
Is it just so simple that you wont believe? Does it need to be a covert operation with bells and whistles for you to believe in its effectiveness? It is by small and simple things that great things are accomplished my friends. Be committed to it and be free. Please. It breaks me up to see a cave. Promise never to miss a day posting roll.
Mark you are brilliant!!!!!!!!!!!!
Pay attention to this Man, If you don't do everything he says the bitch tobacco will have you back.
Fuck that nic-bitch!!!!!
I WILL NOT CAVE!!!!
I WILL NOT CAVE!!!!
I WILL NOT CAVE!!!!
Great stuff again bro!!!
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My name is Mark Thomas and I am an addict. It has been 44 day since I sucked the shit out of a slimy wad of carcinogen. I craved today and for some reason (addiction) I thought about buying a can of skoal. That thought was gone about as fast as it came.
I just read the confession of a cave. It was sad. I didn't have the heart to comment, I just shook my head.
Newbies All of us are addicts. I am going to attempt to save the vets some time and aggravation...dealing with the weak ass, lazy as fuck quitters. There is a big group in July. I almost feel that we have a surge in the desire to quit. However, with the surge, the broken record of missing roll emerges.
You must make posting roll a priority. Every damn day you wake up, you post roll. No excuses! You're a fucking addict and your excuses have no value. You do it or you're still a fuck up.
"Oh but I was busy." "I didn't have access to the internet" Do me a favor and stick that excuse up your ass. As Addicts I discovered something we all possess, we are creative!!!!
When you were out of dip. It didn't matter if you were broke, stranded, in church, in a hole or 80 miles from the nearest town. You got your chew...didn't you?!!!!!
So become an addict to posting roll. No excuse, be creative and determined if you have to but post roll.
Only here 44 days. Short time but it is apparent to see the pattern that leaves to caving. It doesn't matter the number of days. When someone gets lazy in posting roll, they are in danger of caving.
Here is an excerpt from the Kill the Can bible.
Mthomas3824
Chapter 5
Behold, posting roll was raised up on the KTC site that whosoever would post, would be protected and quit; and many did post and were freed from their addiction.
But few understood the meaning of posting roll, keeping their word and repeating daily; and this because of the hardness of their hearts.
But there were many who were so hardened that they would not post roll, there they perished to the everlasting cave and were lead into the bondage of addiction.
Now the reason they would not post roll is because they did not believe that would heal or control their addiction.
Oh my brethren, if you could be quit by merely posting roll, would ye not post roll quickly, or would you rather harden your hearts in unbelief, and be slothful, that ye would not post, that ye might perish into the cave of addiction?
If so, wo shall come upon you; but if so, then post roll every day and believe in the KTC method and live free!
Amen to those that don't post roll. We are in a war. The battle plan is simple. We chose to follow the plan or we die in battle. None of us, Not one of us needs to cave to our addiction. The plan saves lives. It is simple. Why do a few of you think it isn't important to post roll?
Is it just so simple that you wont believe? Does it need to be a covert operation with bells and whistles for you to believe in its effectiveness? It is by small and simple things that great things are accomplished my friends. Be committed to it and be free. Please. It breaks me up to see a cave. Promise never to miss a day posting roll.
Right on Mark!
'Finger' tobacco!
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Day 42, 43, 44
Having fun. Think I have it all figured out. Quitting is easy. I am strong and confident in my quit!
Day 45
It dawns on me. I have yet another "a ha" moment. I am not becoming a good poster child for the quit cause.
I could even be a cyber bully??? My hatred for tobacco must be controlled...just like my addiction. My hate for tobacco could be misunderstood as hate for a user????
What have I done? I love the addicts and I hate the addiction. I wrote something that I needed to take off because I said that anyone who uses tobacco is an enemy to me. That's just not true Thomas. That's not you.
Yes we need to have straight unadulterated talk to addicts but they must know that we love them. Here is something I read that is true. Probably good for raising children but all relationships.
Reprove at times with sharpness, afterword show and increase of love lest they esteem you an enemy
Some of the shit I said, I could be thought of an enemy. I forgot to show and increase of love? It is just a computer that I stare at and can say whatever I feel with out thought of the person reading it. I don't see the impact it may have. I just think they need it straight but if you can't read how your message is being received...The delivery may be left to interpretation without understanding.
The tobacco industry is still and enemy to me and my quit. However the addicts are part of my family now. I pray that they will QLF and I will straight talk but show an increase of love if I use sharp words.
I don't know if I alienated anyone and I hope I get the opportunity to mend and repair any damage. I truly, truly regret any bullying, or rude tactics. I don't regret being sharp when it was required but I hope my efforts were productive and positive.
Day 45 is a good day. A day I realize that my cockiness isn't good either. I love being quit and I hope to be a good example.
The weekend is upon my and my quit. Focusing on getting rid of the 15 lbs I gained in my journey of quit.
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Day 42, 43, 44
Having fun. Think I have it all figured out. Quitting is easy. I am strong and confident in my quit!
Day 45
It dawns on me. I have yet another "a ha" moment. I am not becoming a good poster child for the quit cause.
I could even be a cyber bully??? My hatred for tobacco must be controlled...just like my addiction. My hate for tobacco could be misunderstood as hate for a user????
What have I done? I love the addicts and I hate the addiction. I wrote something that I needed to take off because I said that anyone who uses tobacco is an enemy to me. That's just not true Thomas. That's not you.
Yes we need to have straight unadulterated talk to addicts but they must know that we love them. Here is something I read that is true. Probably good for raising children but all relationships.
Reprove at times with sharpness, afterword show and increase of love lest they esteem you an enemy
Some of the shit I said, I could be thought of an enemy. I forgot to show and increase of love? It is just a computer that I stare at and can say whatever I feel with out thought of the person reading it. I don't see the impact it may have. I just think they need it straight but if you can't read how your message is being received...The delivery may be left to interpretation without understanding.
The tobacco industry is still and enemy to me and my quit. However the addicts are part of my family now. I pray that they will QLF and I will straight talk but show an increase of love if I use sharp words.
I don't know if I alienated anyone and I hope I get the opportunity to mend and repair any damage. I truly, truly regret any bullying, or rude tactics. I don't regret being sharp when it was required but I hope my efforts were productive and positive.
Day 45 is a good day. A day I realize that my cockiness isn't good either. I love being quit and I hope to be a good example.
The weekend is upon my and my quit. Focusing on getting rid of the 15 lbs I gained in my journey of quit.
As usual, great post. Not feeling too chatty this morning but glad I woke up and posted roll first thing and decided to read a little - some nice craves rolling through this morning. Wife is gone for the day, home with kids and was really craving a chew with the morning coffee, sportscenter, and big comfy chair. I am such an addict...like I said, glad I got on here and started reading. Feel a lot better now.
PS - That was not glamorizing chew, that was letting you all know how my fucking addicted brain works and what the nic bitch was trying to trick me into.
QUIT LIKE FUCK
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Day 42, 43, 44
Having fun. Think I have it all figured out. Quitting is easy. I am strong and confident in my quit!Â
Day 45
It dawns on me. I have yet another "a ha" moment. I am not becoming a good poster child for the quit cause.Â
I could even be a cyber bully??? My hatred for tobacco must be controlled...just like my addiction. My hate for tobacco could be misunderstood as hate for a user????Â
What have I done? I love the addicts and I hate the addiction. I wrote something that I needed to take off because I said that anyone who uses tobacco is an enemy to me. That's just not true Thomas. That's not you.Â
Yes we need to have straight unadulterated talk to addicts but they must know that we love them. Here is something I read that is true. Probably good for raising children but all relationships.Â
Reprove at times with sharpness, afterword show and increase of love lest they esteem you an enemy
Some of the shit I said, I could be thought of an enemy. I forgot to show and increase of love? It is just a computer that I stare at and can say whatever I feel with out thought of the person reading it. I don't see the impact it may have. I just think they need it straight but if you can't read how your message is being received...The delivery may be left to interpretation without understanding.Â
The tobacco industry is still and enemy to me and my quit. However the addicts are part of my family now. I pray that they will QLF and I will straight talk but show an increase of love if I use sharp words.Â
I don't know if I alienated anyone and I hope I get the opportunity to mend and repair any damage. I truly, truly regret any bullying, or rude tactics. I don't regret being sharp when it was required but I hope my efforts were productive and positive.Â
Day 45 is a good day. A day I realize that my cockiness isn't good either. I love being quit and I hope to be a good example.Â
The weekend is upon my and my quit. Focusing on getting rid of the 15 lbs I gained in my journey of quit.
As usual, great post. Not feeling too chatty this morning but glad I woke up and posted roll first thing and decided to read a little - some nice craves rolling through this morning. Wife is gone for the day, home with kids and was really craving a chew with the morning coffee, sportscenter, and big comfy chair. I am such an addict...like I said, glad I got on here and started reading. Feel a lot better now.
PS - That was not glamorizing chew, that was letting you all know how my fucking addicted brain works and what the nic bitch was trying to trick me into.
QUIT LIKE FUCK
We addicts know those same thoughts every morning brother.....
Way to use the site to help get thru those rough patches and I sometmies send out a mass text to all the numbers I have when I am really craving that always reminds me how many others are having the same struggles I am having!
Stay strong bro!
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Day 45 is a good day. A day I realize that my cockiness isn't good either.Â
This may be taken out of context but don't be feeling bad about the size of your cock or your nut sack you've mentioned, the nut sac issue is probably related to the snip and the small cock, try (EXTEND). Dude you are really twisted, oh yea that's the bipolar kicking in I forgot. MT I love your support not in a (sexual way) but I still wouldn't turn my back on you.
'crackup'
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Day 46 Saturday
Why in the hell do I tell my wife how much I hate garage sales and once I year I get roped into have one at my house? Well I am quit so I have to play nice. I thought I would even contribute. "Shelly this banjo is a starter, I paid $300.00 for it. The case I paid $100.00. Sell the set for $100.00 or divide it up $50.00 each. That is a good deal for anyone but It is just collecting dust here. Don't go under $100.00, I could get that much on eBay or more." She asks me to go to the store and get some diet cokes. I come back and the Banjo is gone. "Cool how much did you sell it for." The guy talked me down to $40.00. "For the Banjo?" No, for the banjo and case. "Shelly he is going to sell it on eBay now." Well he was really nice. WHATEVER. GARAGE SALES ARE NOT FUN FOR ME.
It is a beautiful day. Mowing the lawn with my kid. Working hard and it is the second weekend in a row that I didn't feel the need, want or desire to chew. Yardwork used to go hand in hand with the nic slut.
Day 47 Sunday
I can see that I am sailing to 50 days! Get online and order my KTC Hat as my first marker to the HOF. Read in the bible. New Testament 2nd Peter, Chapter 2. Verse 19 - 21. I was thinking about tobacco I replaced pollutions with tobacco and likened it to quitting. I really felt a warning to not cave. Once you gain knowledge, you can never go back to ignorance. But as addicts, most of us will be like dogs returning to his own vomit or a sow, having been washed, returning to wallowing in the Meyer.
More than anything I have to prove that I will not be like a dog or pig. I must stay clear and clean from the poison of tobacco.
I feel stronger and more committed than ever.
I never replaced dipping with anything fake. Maybe that is why I gained so much weight. Thought I would watch the Jazz Spurs game and try sunflowers....What a bunch of shit. Seriously am I a fucking bird de-seading the damn things. I don't have a beak! Mabey shredded beef jerky or carrots but not a fan of sunflower seeds.
Day 48 Monday April 30th.
I had a dream last night. The dream was so vivid. I questioned the reality of it. I'm in a board meeting with Mitt Romeny, he asks me if I want to be there because I was dosing off. I said yes. He told me to go wake up and come back in 5 minutes. I left the room, went into a stall in the bathroom and began to put skoal pouches in my mouth. I went home and I am in bed with pouches in my lip. I hear my wife come. I panic and put the pouches back in the drawer and sit on the bed. She goes straight for my nightstand drawer!!! I try to hold her back but she somehow has the drawer open and holds the can in my face and said, "C'mon Mark!" I really thought you were serious this time. I wept. No words just wept.
When I woke up in the morning, I got ready for work and was in awe of how real that dream was. It had to be a dream because I don't work for Mitt Romney? Is it possible that I don't remember but went to the gas station and got a can???? Is that why it is so real? I went to my drawer afraid to open it...Finally I did and nothing there. I wake up my wife, "Shelly did I get out of bed last night?" She told me no. I said I had a vivid dream about chewing tobacco. She told me to relax that is what I was told on KTC to expect. (Why couldn't it have been a wet dream) That dream really rattled me.
I get into work, I have an email that my CEO wrote over the weekend. Loves and wants me to continue working but can not pay me until we get the final funding. He will give me stock for pay. Its generous but how long can I go or how long will I need to go without a pay check. Is the ship sinking or is it just timing? If it is timing, I just became worth more. If it is sinking, I just screwed myself.
14 yr old kid in our neighborhood was hit by a car. (a couple weeks ago) He was in a coma and more than likely not going to make it. Parents have been up at the hospital so we have been taking turns to feed them. I picked up some Sonny Bryan's BBQ and went to the hospital to offer our care and support.
He is out of a coma. He is more than likely going to live but not the same anymore. A long scar of stitches hold his head together. I can't believe I can be so worried about my career and think I have a trial. What would I do if this was my kid?????
I go work out. Hard. I went from 185 to 210 in my quit. Today I am happy because I am 206. Finally losing weight and not gaining!
My daughter asks me tons of questions about my journey and my addiction. She listens and gives me a big hug and tells me that she loves me. It was nice.
Day 49
I am at work but not productive. Just spending a ton of time on KTC. I am trying to be positive. Reading HOF speeches. (Excellent) emailing, chatting and just killing time. Read someones post who I respect says that they have the blues. I go to save the day and find myself realizing that I am blue too. All I can say is that I relate.
Does God hate me? Is God trying my faith, is Satan tempting me? I may be cynical here but what does it matter? I am free to choose and decide my course no one but me can stay quit or cave. I chose to be quit. If God hates me, I am still quit. If God is trying my faith, I am still quit. If Satan is tempting me, what a waste of time on his/her (Political correctness. Satan could be a fucking bitch!) part...I am quit!
It is getting close to 4:00 today. One hour until I leave work. I will probably go check out chat but with all the fog, funk, ups and downs. You know what....I AM PROUD TO BE QUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Why is this quit different than the past attempts??? First I want to end the cycle. I want to be done and move on. Second, when temptation comes, I expect it and know that all I have to say is, "Not For Me, NOT TODAY" the cravings usually leave as fast as they come now. Also, I have a better understanding of facts. The broken record of quit, start, quit, start, quit, start; can only keep skipping if you start.
I know without a doubt, If I were to cave, inevitably the day would come where I would quit...yet again. The pain of this has been so good for me to never think I want to start over. I only want to go forward. I love writing my thoughts because as I write, I feel the triumph of what I have accomplished!
Tomorrow is 50 days! The journey hasn't been easy but I have enjoyed the new discoveries, challenges, friendships, victories, etc.
I AM QUIT.
What if you lost your job?
What if you lost a child?
What if you lost your wife?
What if you were dying anyway?
Would you regress back to your can of filth and your can of lies?
NO!!!! That is nonsense. That is an out of control, addicted brain that would do that....
The can will not get me a job, bring back a child, wife or make dying any easier.
Tobacco is a crock of evil shit in a can. I don't have any need, reason or excuse to skip my record of life and start over.
I am going Forward!!!! Bring on the Blues, the Fog, the Funk....I am prepared and know it will pass and is only a phase.
Nicotine you are a dumb worthless bitch!
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Keep bringing it!
What if the nic bitch looses? What if you are a badass quitter? Houston, i think we have a quitter. Me likey. Keep up the great work. Nice 50.
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You suck. Any one of us would have paid $100 for that banjo. I feel betrayed. You have a fiddle to match the banjo? I'd be interested. KTC needs a classified section, but then I'd be afraid of it getting gheyed up.
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Great stuff as always!!!
Your doing great and the good thing is your staying quit and developing the resolve that it takes to get past those rough days and depressing days!
You said it perfectly knowledge is the big stopper now you know the truth and you know you can stay quit so going backwards just isnt you!!!
Kepp your badass quit going and I am truly proud to be quit with you bro!!!
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Great post and once again, proud to be quit with you. You are a bad ass quitter and you write pretty good too. Thanks for sharing - you are right, how can we feel so sorry for ourselves when there are so many less fortunate people in this world. A humble reminder that when life feels unfair and when quitting gets a little tough, to think about those who are less fortunate than we are - those whose days are truly numbered, or the parents who have lost a child - life could be a whole lot worse than this stupid addiction we are quitting.
Your posts are always full of great words and messages - this is what I took from this one. We are forunate, God has truly blessed us, and it's time to suck it up and quit feeling sorry for ourselves when the nic bitch is making life a little tough. Quit Like Fuck - I will enjoy the suck because I caused it - now I will defeat it.
I am truly sorry to hear about your job - I pray for you and your family that everything works out for the good.
Thank you for sharing - as always, very motivating.
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You suck. Any one of us would have paid $100 for that banjo. I feel betrayed. You have a fiddle to match the banjo? I'd be interested. KTC needs a classified section, but then I'd be afraid of it getting gheyed up.
'crackup'
The classifieds would have crazy categories like tranny's and sheep! WT would sell his sheep. Hell he would probably include the Velcro gloves.
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You suck. Any one of us would have paid $100 for that banjo. I feel betrayed. You have a fiddle to match the banjo? I'd be interested. KTC needs a classified section, but then I'd be afraid of it getting gheyed up.
'crackup'
The classifieds would have crazy categories like tranny's and sheep! WT would sell his sheep. Hell he would probably include the Velcro gloves.
I ain't sellin the sheep she is only for rent!! Get your own gloves, I do promise she won't talk.
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Day 50
It is so amazing to me that I recover from battles quickly. I feel great. Many well wishes for making it 50 days. I like the attention and celebration. I hope it is shared. I stay focused and quit but there is a cast of friends on kTC that went to battle with me.
I feel lucky. The air is fresh, I am free and I embraced the suck. Today was a good milestone to look back. I am happy. Improving and progressing is when Im the most happy.
I realized that I will never be cured of my addiction but I cherish a never ending journey of quit.
My a ha moment today....No nicotine buzz ever felt as good as I do today. I'm nic free and it is greater and more refreshing to not be bound and tied to addiction.
Quitting the KTC way really is a blast. Maybe because I am on a 50 day undefeated record with nicotine. Winning is difficult, but it is worth the work and I've got quit spirit!
I'll close my thoughts today and direct it to the loser, narcissist weed.
Hey little nic, SCOREBOARD!. 50 and 0 motherfucker!
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Winning is difficult, but it is worth the work and I've got quit spirit!
Worth the Pain (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRLXLbAgbxA) GREAT song. Check it out. It speaks exactly to what you just said.
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Day 50
It is so amazing to me that I recover from battles quickly. I feel great. Many well wishes for making it 50 days. I like the attention and celebration. I hope it is shared. I stay focused and quit but there is a cast of friends on kTC that went to battle with me.
I feel lucky. The air is fresh, I am free and I embraced the suck. Today was a good milestone to look back. I am happy. Improving and progressing is when Im the most happy.
I realized that I will never be cured of my addiction but I cherish a never ending journey of quit.
My a ha moment today....No nicotine buzz ever felt as good as I do today. I'm nic free and it is greater and more refreshing to not be bound and tied to addiction.
Quitting the KTC way really is a blast. Maybe because I am on a 50 day undefeated record with nicotine. Winning is difficult, but it is worth the work and I've got quit spirit!
I'll close my thoughts today and direct it to the loser, narcissist weed.
Hey little nic, SCOREBOARD!. 50 and 0 motherfucker!
Proud to be quit with you. We are definitely on our way. QLF everyday
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Day 50
It is so amazing to me that I recover from battles quickly. I feel great. Many well wishes for making it 50 days. I like the attention and celebration. I hope it is shared. I stay focused and quit but there is a cast of friends on kTC that went to battle with me.Â
I feel lucky. The air is fresh, I am free and I embraced the suck. Today was a good milestone to look back. I am happy. Improving and progressing is when Im the most happy.Â
I realized that I will never be cured of my addiction but I cherish a never ending journey of quit.
My a ha moment today....No nicotine buzz ever felt as good as I do today. I'm nic free and it is greater and more refreshing to not be bound and tied to addiction.Â
Quitting the KTC way really is a blast. Maybe because I am on a 50 day undefeated record with nicotine. Winning is difficult, but it is worth the work and I've got quit spirit!Â
I'll close my thoughts today and direct it to the loser, narcissist weed.Â
Hey little nic, SCOREBOARD!. 50 and 0 motherfucker!
Proud to be quit with you. We are definitely on our way. QLF everyday
Great stuff brother 50 more to go!!!
QLF!!!!
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Day 50
It is so amazing to me that I recover from battles quickly. I feel great. Many well wishes for making it 50 days. I like the attention and celebration. I hope it is shared. I stay focused and quit but there is a cast of friends on kTC that went to battle with me.Â
I feel lucky. The air is fresh, I am free and I embraced the suck. Today was a good milestone to look back. I am happy. Improving and progressing is when Im the most happy.Â
I realized that I will never be cured of my addiction but I cherish a never ending journey of quit.
My a ha moment today....No nicotine buzz ever felt as good as I do today. I'm nic free and it is greater and more refreshing to not be bound and tied to addiction.Â
Quitting the KTC way really is a blast. Maybe because I am on a 50 day undefeated record with nicotine. Winning is difficult, but it is worth the work and I've got quit spirit!Â
I'll close my thoughts today and direct it to the loser, narcissist weed.Â
Hey little nic, SCOREBOARD!. 50 and 0 motherfucker!
Proud to be quit with you. We are definitely on our way. QLF everyday
Great stuff brother 50 more to go!!!
QLF!!!!
Half a HOF !! Nicely done...
See you tomorrow
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Day 50
It is so amazing to me that I recover from battles quickly. I feel great. Many well wishes for making it 50 days. I like the attention and celebration. I hope it is shared. I stay focused and quit but there is a cast of friends on kTC that went to battle with me.Â
I feel lucky. The air is fresh, I am free and I embraced the suck. Today was a good milestone to look back. I am happy. Improving and progressing is when Im the most happy.Â
I realized that I will never be cured of my addiction but I cherish a never ending journey of quit.
My a ha moment today....No nicotine buzz ever felt as good as I do today. I'm nic free and it is greater and more refreshing to not be bound and tied to addiction.Â
Quitting the KTC way really is a blast. Maybe because I am on a 50 day undefeated record with nicotine. Winning is difficult, but it is worth the work and I've got quit spirit!Â
I'll close my thoughts today and direct it to the loser, narcissist weed.Â
Hey little nic, SCOREBOARD!. 50 and 0 motherfucker!
Proud to be quit with you. We are definitely on our way. QLF everyday
Great stuff brother 50 more to go!!!
QLF!!!!
Half a HOF !! Nicely done...
See you tomorrow
Nice work bro. Way to bring throw bricks at the nic bitch daily.
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Any sympathizers of Tobacco or Cavers. Move along and don't read
All Right, had a great weekend of quit. Didn't make too many public comments, just sat back and would read here and there over the weekend.
Here are my Days wrapped up in one cute package
Day 51 to Day 54
Still quit very little cravings and losing the weight I gained. Looking at some comments, this is my take......
Everyone of us counts. Everyone that makes the promise to quit matters. However, I have watched too many (one is too many in my book) people who cross the line and cave. It seems like they have the attitude that they can shrug it off. Its like they think "we'll get 'em next time champ." mentality.
Newsflash - You aren't in little league. This is an addiction and you are at war.
I hate everything tobacco related. I may crave but it has come to a point that if tobacco was a person, I would kill the motherfucker to save lives. I can't stomach the fact that people join KTC and act like their world just took at turn for the worse???? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU? You just chose to live free. Get your fucking head checked you sorry ass coward!!!!
I was pissing vinegar this weekend. Everything was irritating. My wife (Who has already earned a medal of honor in our war) asked me if I was thinking about caving, if this was too much to bare....That was all I needed. Hell no! Fuck No! You have got to be joking! I don't care what is in my future, I do not want to be a slave anymore. I may quit every day, but this war ain't over until I die or tobacco dies.
To the cowards, (Those that cave and laugh or shrug it off, those who cave and post roll like, "it will never happen again" and then fade away) Anyone who is offended at my harsh tones. GO FUCK YOURSELF!
This is not a game. Most of us are quitters a few of us are cavers. Fight Fight Fight.
War is not easy but you never go to war to lose. STAY QUIT.
If you have caved but will quit for good, come back. It is a hard pill to swallow but it is good for you. But when you quit, you quit. End of story and no going back.
I know this is already long but I stole from Patton and changed some words.
'army'
Quitters love to fight, traditionally. All real quitters love the sting and clash of battle. You are here today for your own self respect, because you would not want to be anywhere else. You are here because you are real men and all real men like to fight.
Quitters love a winner. Quitters will not tolerate a loser. Quitters despise cavers. Quitters play to win all of the time. I wouldn't give a hoot in hell for a man who caved and laughed. The very idea of losing is hateful to a quitter.
Battle is the most magnificent competition in which a human being can indulge. It brings out all that is best and it removes all that is base. Quitters pride themselves on being Quit Men and they ARE Quit Men. Remember that the enemy is not invincible; quite the opposite.
All through your KTC careers, you men have bitched about what you call posting roll. That, like everything else in this KTC, has a definite purpose. That purpose is alertness. Alertness must be bred into every soldier. I don't give a fuck for a man who's not always on his toes. A man must be alert at all times if he expects to stay quit. If you're not alert, sometime, a tobacco chewing son-of-an-asshole-bitch is going to sneak up behind you and beat you to death with a sockful of shit!"
The Army of KTC is a team. It lives, sleeps, eats, and fights as a team. This individual heroic stuff is pure horse shit. No one quitter can out quit another if they always stay quit. It is a team effort to stay quit. Â
"KTC men don't surrender. All of the real heroes are not storybook fighters, either. Every single man in this KTC Army plays a vital role. Don't ever let up. Don't ever think that your job is unimportant. Every man has a job to do and he must do it. Every man is a vital link in the great chain. What if every 20 day quit soldier suddenly decided that he didn't like the feel of the funk or wondered if he was ever going to take a shit again, turned yellow, and dumped a cat shit of poison in his lip? The cowardly bastard could say, "Hell, they won't miss me, just one man in Hundreds".
But, what if every man thought that way? Where in the hell would we be now? What would our loved ones, or even the world, be like? No, Goddamnit, quitters don't think like that. Every man does his job. Every man serves the whole. Every department, every unit, is important in the vast scheme of this war. From the newbie that just joined today to the oldest son of a bitch vet...WE ARE ONE!Â
"Each man must not think only of himself, but also of his buddy fighting beside him. We don't want yellow cowards in this KTC Army. They should be killed off like rats. If not, they will breed more cavers. The brave men will breed more brave men.
Â
We'll win this war, but we'll win it only by fighting and by showing the Nicontine’s that we've got more guts than they have; or ever will have. War is a bloody, killing business. You've got to spill their blood, or they will spill yours. Quit or Cave. If one of your men who has be standing by your side and in the heat of battle falls victim to nicotine…You’ll know what to do.
 Â
We are quitting constantly and we are not interested in holding onto anything, except the enemy's balls. We are going to twist his balls and kick the living shit out of him all of the time. Our basic plan of operation is to advance and to keep on advancing regardless of whether we have to go over, under, or through the enemy. We are going to go through him like crap through a goose; like shit through a tin horn!"
"From time to time there will be some complaints that we are pushing our people too hard. I don't give a good Goddamn about such complaints. I believe in the old and sound rule that an ounce of sweat will save a gallon of blood. The harder WE push, the more we kill the use of Nicotine. The more Tobacco we kill, the fewer of our men will be killed. Quitting means fewer casualties. I want you all to remember that."
Hopefully many years from now, there is one great thing that you men will all be able to say as you take your last breath. “I have fought a good fight, I have stayed quit and I was free the remainder of my days; I won the war! “
Ahh, I feel much better! See Ya!
-
Any sympathizers of Tobacco or Cavers. Move along and don't read
All Right, had a great weekend of quit. Didn't make too many public comments, just sat back and would read here and there over the weekend.
Here are my Days wrapped up in one cute package
Day 51 to Day 54
Still quit very little cravings and losing the weight I gained. Looking at some comments, this is my take......
Everyone of us counts. Everyone that makes the promise to quit matters. However, I have watched too many (one is too many in my book) people who cross the line and cave. It seems like they have the attitude that they can shrug it off. Its like they think "we'll get 'em next time champ." mentality.
Newsflash - You aren't in little league. This is an addiction and you are at war.
I hate everything tobacco related. I may crave but it has come to a point that if tobacco was a person, I would kill the motherfucker to save lives. I can't stomach the fact that people join KTC and act like their world just took at turn for the worse???? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU? You just chose to live free. Get your fucking head checked you sorry ass coward!!!!
I was pissing vinegar this weekend. Everything was irritating. My wife (Who has already earned a medal of honor in our war) asked me if I was thinking about caving, if this was too much to bare....That was all I needed. Hell no! Fuck No! You have got to be joking! I don't care what is in my future, I do not want to be a slave anymore. I may quit every day, but this war ain't over until I die or tobacco dies.
To the cowards, (Those that cave and laugh or shrug it off, those who cave and post roll like, "it will never happen again" and then fade away) Anyone who is offended at my harsh tones. GO FUCK YOURSELF!
This is not a game. Most of us are quitters a few of us are cavers. Fight Fight Fight.
War is not easy but you never go to war to lose. STAY QUIT.
If you have caved but will quit for good, come back. It is a hard pill to swallow but it is good for you. But when you quit, you quit. End of story and no going back.
I know this is already long but I stole from Patton and changed some words.
'army'
Quitters love to fight, traditionally. All real quitters love the sting and clash of battle. You are here today for your own self respect, because you would not want to be anywhere else. You are here because you are real men and all real men like to fight.
Quitters love a winner. Quitters will not tolerate a loser.  Quitters despise cavers. Quitters play to win all of the time. I wouldn't give a hoot in hell for a man who caved and laughed. The very idea of losing is hateful to a quitter.
Battle is the most magnificent competition in which a human being can indulge. It brings out all that is best and it removes all that is base. Quitters pride themselves on being Quit Men and they ARE Quit Men. Remember that the enemy is not invincible; quite the opposite.
All through your KTC careers, you men have bitched about what you call posting roll. That, like everything else in this KTC, has a definite purpose. That purpose is alertness. Alertness must be bred into every soldier. I don't give a fuck for a man who's not always on his toes. A man must be alert at all times if he expects to stay quit. If you're not alert, sometime, a tobacco chewing son-of-an-asshole-bitch is going to sneak up behind you and beat you to death with a sockful of shit!"
The Army of KTC is a team. It lives, sleeps, eats, and fights as a team. This individual heroic stuff is pure horse shit. No one quitter can out quit another if they always stay quit. It is a team effort to stay quit. Â
"KTC men don't surrender. All of the real heroes are not storybook fighters, either. Every single man in this KTC Army plays a vital role. Don't ever let up. Don't ever think that your job is unimportant. Every man has a job to do and he must do it. Every man is a vital link in the great chain. What if every 20 day quit soldier suddenly decided that he didn't like the feel of the funk or wondered if he was ever going to take a shit again, turned yellow, and dumped a cat shit of poison in his lip? The cowardly bastard could say, "Hell, they won't miss me, just one man in Hundreds".
But, what if every man thought that way? Where in the hell would we be now? What would our loved ones, or even the world, be like? No, Goddamnit, quitters don't think like that. Every man does his job. Every man serves the whole. Every department, every unit, is important in the vast scheme of this war. From the newbie that just joined today to the oldest son of a bitch vet...WE ARE ONE!Â
"Each man must not think only of himself, but also of his buddy fighting beside him. We don't want yellow cowards in this KTC Army. They should be killed off like rats. If not, they will breed more cavers. The brave men will breed more brave men.
Â
We'll win this war, but we'll win it only by fighting and by showing the Nicontine’s that we've got more guts than they have; or ever will have. War is a bloody, killing business. You've got to spill their blood, or they will spill yours. Quit or Cave. If one of your men who has be standing by your side and in the heat of battle falls victim to nicotine…You’ll know what to do.
 Â
We are quitting constantly and we are not interested in holding onto anything, except the enemy's balls. We are going to twist his balls and kick the living shit out of him all of the time. Our basic plan of operation is to advance and to keep on advancing regardless of whether we have to go over, under, or through the enemy. We are going to go through him like crap through a goose; like shit through a tin horn!"
"From time to time there will be some complaints that we are pushing our people too hard. I don't give a good Goddamn about such complaints. I believe in the old and sound rule that an ounce of sweat will save a gallon of blood. The harder WE push, the more we kill the use of Nicotine. The more Tobacco we kill, the fewer of our men will be killed. Quitting means fewer casualties. I want you all to remember that."
Hopefully many years from now, there is one great thing that you men will all be able to say as you take your last breath. “I have fought a good fight, I have stayed quit and I was free the remainder of my days; I won the war! “
Ahh, I feel much better! See Ya!
You are impressive. Hit it out of the park no little league for you.
-
Any sympathizers of Tobacco or Cavers. Move along and don't read
All Right, had a great weekend of quit. Didn't make too many public comments, just sat back and would read here and there over the weekend.Â
Here are my Days wrapped up in one cute package
Day 51 to Day 54
Still quit very little cravings and losing the weight I gained. Looking at some comments, this is my take......
Everyone of us counts. Everyone that makes the promise to quit matters. However, I have watched too many (one is too many in my book) people who cross the line and cave. It seems like they have the attitude that they can shrug it off. Its like they think "we'll get 'em next time champ." mentality.Â
Newsflash - You aren't in little league. This is an addiction and you are at war.Â
I hate everything tobacco related. I may crave but it has come to a point that if tobacco was a person, I would kill the motherfucker to save lives. I can't stomach the fact that people join KTC and act like their world just took at turn for the worse???? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU? You just chose to live free. Get your fucking head checked you sorry ass coward!!!!Â
I was pissing vinegar this weekend. Everything was irritating. My wife (Who has already earned a medal of honor in our war) asked me if I was thinking about caving, if this was too much to bare....That was all I needed. Hell no! Fuck No! You have got to be joking! I don't care what is in my future, I do not want to be a slave anymore. I may quit every day, but this war ain't over until I die or tobacco dies.Â
To the cowards, (Those that cave and laugh or shrug it off, those who cave and post roll like, "it will never happen again" and then fade away) Anyone who is offended at my harsh tones. GO FUCK YOURSELF!Â
This is not a game. Most of us are quitters a few of us are cavers. Fight Fight Fight.Â
War is not easy but you never go to war to lose. STAY QUIT.
If you have caved but will quit for good, come back. It is a hard pill to swallow but it is good for you. But when you quit, you quit. End of story and no going back. Â
I know this is already long but I stole from Patton and changed some words.
 'army'Â
Quitters love to fight, traditionally. All real quitters love the sting and clash of battle. You are here today for your own self respect, because you would not want to be anywhere else. You are here because you are real men and all real men like to fight.
Quitters love a winner. Quitters will not tolerate a loser.  Quitters despise cavers. Quitters play to win all of the time. I wouldn't give a hoot in hell for a man who caved and laughed. The very idea of losing is hateful to a quitter.
Battle is the most magnificent competition in which a human being can indulge. It brings out all that is best and it removes all that is base. Quitters pride themselves on being Quit Men and they ARE Quit Men. Remember that the enemy is not invincible; quite the opposite.
All through your KTC careers, you men have bitched about what you call posting roll. That, like everything else in this KTC, has a definite purpose. That purpose is alertness. Alertness must be bred into every soldier. I don't give a fuck for a man who's not always on his toes. A man must be alert at all times if he expects to stay quit. If you're not alert, sometime, a tobacco chewing son-of-an-asshole-bitch is going to sneak up behind you and beat you to death with a sockful of shit!"
The Army of KTC is a team. It lives, sleeps, eats, and fights as a team. This individual heroic stuff is pure horse shit. No one quitter can out quit another if they always stay quit. It is a team effort to stay quit. Â
"KTC men don't surrender. All of the real heroes are not storybook fighters, either. Every single man in this KTC Army plays a vital role. Don't ever let up. Don't ever think that your job is unimportant. Every man has a job to do and he must do it. Every man is a vital link in the great chain. What if every 20 day quit soldier suddenly decided that he didn't like the feel of the funk or wondered if he was ever going to take a shit again, turned yellow, and dumped a cat shit of poison in his lip? The cowardly bastard could say, "Hell, they won't miss me, just one man in Hundreds".
But, what if every man thought that way? Where in the hell would we be now? What would our loved ones, or even the world, be like? No, Goddamnit, quitters don't think like that. Every man does his job. Every man serves the whole. Every department, every unit, is important in the vast scheme of this war. From the newbie that just joined today to the oldest son of a bitch vet...WE ARE ONE!Â
"Each man must not think only of himself, but also of his buddy fighting beside him. We don't want yellow cowards in this KTC Army. They should be killed off like rats. If not, they will breed more cavers. The brave men will breed more brave men.
Â
We'll win this war, but we'll win it only by fighting and by showing the Nicontine’s that we've got more guts than they have; or ever will have. War is a bloody, killing business. You've got to spill their blood, or they will spill yours. Quit or Cave. If one of your men who has be standing by your side and in the heat of battle falls victim to nicotine…You’ll know what to do.
 Â
We are quitting constantly and we are not interested in holding onto anything, except the enemy's balls. We are going to twist his balls and kick the living shit out of him all of the time. Our basic plan of operation is to advance and to keep on advancing regardless of whether we have to go over, under, or through the enemy. We are going to go through him like crap through a goose; like shit through a tin horn!"
"From time to time there will be some complaints that we are pushing our people too hard. I don't give a good Goddamn about such complaints. I believe in the old and sound rule that an ounce of sweat will save a gallon of blood. The harder WE push, the more we kill the use of Nicotine. The more Tobacco we kill, the fewer of our men will be killed. Quitting means fewer casualties. I want you all to remember that."
Hopefully many years from now, there is one great thing that you men will all be able to say as you take your last breath. “I have fought a good fight, I have stayed quit and I was free the remainder of my days; I won the war! “
Ahh, I feel much better! See Ya!
You are impressive. Hit it out of the park no little league for you.
Great and inspiring read again! 'clap' 'clap'
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'worship' 'worship' 'worship' 'worship'
-
Any sympathizers of Tobacco or Cavers. Move along and don't read
All Right, had a great weekend of quit. Didn't make too many public comments, just sat back and would read here and there over the weekend.
Here are my Days wrapped up in one cute package
Day 51 to Day 54
Still quit very little cravings and losing the weight I gained. Looking at some comments, this is my take......
Everyone of us counts. Everyone that makes the promise to quit matters. However, I have watched too many (one is too many in my book) people who cross the line and cave. It seems like they have the attitude that they can shrug it off. Its like they think "we'll get 'em next time champ." mentality.
Newsflash - You aren't in little league. This is an addiction and you are at war.
I hate everything tobacco related. I may crave but it has come to a point that if tobacco was a person, I would kill the motherfucker to save lives. I can't stomach the fact that people join KTC and act like their world just took at turn for the worse???? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU? You just chose to live free. Get your fucking head checked you sorry ass coward!!!!
I was pissing vinegar this weekend. Everything was irritating. My wife (Who has already earned a medal of honor in our war) asked me if I was thinking about caving, if this was too much to bare....That was all I needed. Hell no! Fuck No! You have got to be joking! I don't care what is in my future, I do not want to be a slave anymore. I may quit every day, but this war ain't over until I die or tobacco dies.
To the cowards, (Those that cave and laugh or shrug it off, those who cave and post roll like, "it will never happen again" and then fade away) Anyone who is offended at my harsh tones. GO FUCK YOURSELF!
This is not a game. Most of us are quitters a few of us are cavers. Fight Fight Fight.
War is not easy but you never go to war to lose. STAY QUIT.
If you have caved but will quit for good, come back. It is a hard pill to swallow but it is good for you. But when you quit, you quit. End of story and no going back.
I know this is already long but I stole from Patton and changed some words.
'army'
Quitters love to fight, traditionally. All real quitters love the sting and clash of battle. You are here today for your own self respect, because you would not want to be anywhere else. You are here because you are real men and all real men like to fight.
Quitters love a winner. Quitters will not tolerate a loser.  Quitters despise cavers. Quitters play to win all of the time. I wouldn't give a hoot in hell for a man who caved and laughed. The very idea of losing is hateful to a quitter.
Battle is the most magnificent competition in which a human being can indulge. It brings out all that is best and it removes all that is base. Quitters pride themselves on being Quit Men and they ARE Quit Men. Remember that the enemy is not invincible; quite the opposite.
All through your KTC careers, you men have bitched about what you call posting roll. That, like everything else in this KTC, has a definite purpose. That purpose is alertness. Alertness must be bred into every soldier. I don't give a fuck for a man who's not always on his toes. A man must be alert at all times if he expects to stay quit. If you're not alert, sometime, a tobacco chewing son-of-an-asshole-bitch is going to sneak up behind you and beat you to death with a sockful of shit!"
The Army of KTC is a team. It lives, sleeps, eats, and fights as a team. This individual heroic stuff is pure horse shit. No one quitter can out quit another if they always stay quit. It is a team effort to stay quit. Â
"KTC men don't surrender. All of the real heroes are not storybook fighters, either. Every single man in this KTC Army plays a vital role. Don't ever let up. Don't ever think that your job is unimportant. Every man has a job to do and he must do it. Every man is a vital link in the great chain. What if every 20 day quit soldier suddenly decided that he didn't like the feel of the funk or wondered if he was ever going to take a shit again, turned yellow, and dumped a cat shit of poison in his lip? The cowardly bastard could say, "Hell, they won't miss me, just one man in Hundreds".
But, what if every man thought that way? Where in the hell would we be now? What would our loved ones, or even the world, be like? No, Goddamnit, quitters don't think like that. Every man does his job. Every man serves the whole. Every department, every unit, is important in the vast scheme of this war. From the newbie that just joined today to the oldest son of a bitch vet...WE ARE ONE!Â
"Each man must not think only of himself, but also of his buddy fighting beside him. We don't want yellow cowards in this KTC Army. They should be killed off like rats. If not, they will breed more cavers. The brave men will breed more brave men.
Â
We'll win this war, but we'll win it only by fighting and by showing the Nicontine’s that we've got more guts than they have; or ever will have. War is a bloody, killing business. You've got to spill their blood, or they will spill yours. Quit or Cave. If one of your men who has be standing by your side and in the heat of battle falls victim to nicotine…You’ll know what to do.
 Â
We are quitting constantly and we are not interested in holding onto anything, except the enemy's balls. We are going to twist his balls and kick the living shit out of him all of the time. Our basic plan of operation is to advance and to keep on advancing regardless of whether we have to go over, under, or through the enemy. We are going to go through him like crap through a goose; like shit through a tin horn!"
"From time to time there will be some complaints that we are pushing our people too hard. I don't give a good Goddamn about such complaints. I believe in the old and sound rule that an ounce of sweat will save a gallon of blood. The harder WE push, the more we kill the use of Nicotine. The more Tobacco we kill, the fewer of our men will be killed. Quitting means fewer casualties. I want you all to remember that."
Hopefully many years from now, there is one great thing that you men will all be able to say as you take your last breath. “I have fought a good fight, I have stayed quit and I was free the remainder of my days; I won the war! “
Ahh, I feel much better! See Ya!
Your posts are inspiring, Keep em coming!!!!
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Day 55-59
It has been relatively easy to control my addicted mind lately. Triggers aren't too bad. I am sure that I have more challenges. Had another dip dream but it wasn't traumatic like the first one. In fact I don't recall too much about the dream, just that skoal was there.
I really, really like the quit life. I don't regret quitting cold turkey, I only wish I had done this sooner. But that is all in the past and I am free. My life, I love it! My life is a melting pot of victories and failures and mostly mundane things. I LOVE IT ALL.
I realize that controlling my addiction to nicotine, I am full of gratitude, I appreciate my relationships more and I no longer worship a false god. It has me full of desire to be a better person. The things I am afraid of. I still fear but I am more prepared to face them head on vs. go hide in a cave and get a fix so that I can be paralyzed to inaction and let the world kick my ass. NO MORE! I AM A QUIT MAN.
So on day 59 I am memorizing this poem. When temptation calls, and it does, I will recite and remind myself that no buzz will ever compare to staying quit. To all those that may read this and have a battle. Simplify the fight and say, "Not Now, Not Today, I will STAY QUIT"
Stay Quit
When things go wrong as they sometimes will;
When the road youÂ’re trudging seems all uphill;
When the funds are low, and the debts are high;
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh;
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but just stay quit.
Success is failure turned inside out;
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
And you can never tell how close you are;
It may be near when it seems afar.
So, stick to the fight when youÂ’re hardest hit -
ItÂ’s when things go wrong that you must stay quit.
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Day 55-59
It has been relatively easy to control my addicted mind lately. Triggers aren't too bad. I am sure that I have more challenges. Had another dip dream but it wasn't traumatic like the first one. In fact I don't recall too much about the dream, just that skoal was there.
I really, really like the quit life. I don't regret quitting cold turkey, I only wish I had done this sooner. But that is all in the past and I am free. My life, I love it! My life is a melting pot of victories and failures and mostly mundane things. I LOVE IT ALL.
I realize that controlling my addiction to nicotine, I am full of gratitude, I appreciate my relationships more and I no longer worship a false god. It has me full of desire to be a better person. The things I am afraid of. I still fear but I am more prepared to face them head on vs. go hide in a cave and get a fix so that I can be paralyzed to inaction and let the world kick my ass. NO MORE! I AM A QUIT MAN.
So on day 59 I am memorizing this poem. When temptation calls, and it does, I will recite and remind myself that no buzz will ever compare to staying quit. To all those that may read this and have a battle. Simplify the fight and say, "Not Now, Not Today, I will STAY QUIT"
Stay Quit
When things go wrong as they sometimes will;
When the road youÂ’re trudging seems all uphill;
When the funds are low, and the debts are high;
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh;
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but just stay quit.
Success is failure turned inside out;
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
And you can never tell how close you are;
It may be near when it seems afar.
So, stick to the fight when youÂ’re hardest hit -
ItÂ’s when things go wrong that you must stay quit.
Great inspiring stuff brother!!!
You have a truly badass quit going and I am honored to be quit with you!
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Day 55-59
It has been relatively easy to control my addicted mind lately. Triggers aren't too bad. I am sure that I have more challenges. Had another dip dream but it wasn't traumatic like the first one. In fact I don't recall too much about the dream, just that skoal was there.Â
I really, really like the quit life. I don't regret quitting cold turkey, I only wish I had done this sooner. But that is all in the past and I am free. My life, I love it! My life is a melting pot of victories and failures and mostly mundane things. I LOVE IT ALL.Â
I realize that controlling my addiction to nicotine, I am full of gratitude, I appreciate my relationships more and I no longer worship a false god. It has me full of desire to be a better person. The things I am afraid of. I still fear but I am more prepared to face them head on vs. go hide in a cave and get a fix so that I can be paralyzed to inaction and let the world kick my ass. NO MORE! I AM A QUIT MAN.Â
So on day 59 I am memorizing this poem. When temptation calls, and it does, I will recite and remind myself that no buzz will ever compare to staying quit. To all those that may read this and have a battle. Simplify the fight and say, "Not Now, Not Today, I will STAY QUIT"Â
Stay Quit
When things go wrong as they sometimes will;
When the road youÂ’re trudging seems all uphill;
When the funds are low, and the debts are high;
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh;
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but just stay quit.
Success is failure turned inside out;
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
And you can never tell how close you are;
It may be near when it seems afar.
So, stick to the fight when youÂ’re hardest hit -
ItÂ’s when things go wrong that you must stay quit.
Great inspiring stuff brother!!!
You have a truly badass quit going and I am honored to be quit with you!
Awesome poem - I will print this one off and keep with me at all times. Thanks for sharing.
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Day 55-59
It has been relatively easy to control my addicted mind lately. Triggers aren't too bad. I am sure that I have more challenges. Had another dip dream but it wasn't traumatic like the first one. In fact I don't recall too much about the dream, just that skoal was there.Â
I really, really like the quit life. I don't regret quitting cold turkey, I only wish I had done this sooner. But that is all in the past and I am free. My life, I love it! My life is a melting pot of victories and failures and mostly mundane things. I LOVE IT ALL.Â
I realize that controlling my addiction to nicotine, I am full of gratitude, I appreciate my relationships more and I no longer worship a false god. It has me full of desire to be a better person. The things I am afraid of. I still fear but I am more prepared to face them head on vs. go hide in a cave and get a fix so that I can be paralyzed to inaction and let the world kick my ass. NO MORE! I AM A QUIT MAN.Â
So on day 59 I am memorizing this poem. When temptation calls, and it does, I will recite and remind myself that no buzz will ever compare to staying quit. To all those that may read this and have a battle. Simplify the fight and say, "Not Now, Not Today, I will STAY QUIT"Â
Stay Quit
When things go wrong as they sometimes will;
When the road youÂ’re trudging seems all uphill;
When the funds are low, and the debts are high;
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh;
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but just stay quit.
Success is failure turned inside out;
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
And you can never tell how close you are;
It may be near when it seems afar.
So, stick to the fight when youÂ’re hardest hit -
ItÂ’s when things go wrong that you must stay quit.
Great inspiring stuff brother!!!
You have a truly badass quit going and I am honored to be quit with you!
Awesome poem - I will print this one off and keep with me at all times. Thanks for sharing.
I agree with suck-it and I will keep it with me also. Damn your good!
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Day 60 – The test - My first road trip. I have made this 4 hour trip many times and loved to listen to music, day dream and fill my mouth with so much poison. I had some vets tell me that my period of quit time is when my brain is rewiring.
All the sites, music, gas stations along the way. Everything was a trigger. I felt that the trip wasnÂ’t going right. Something was wrong. Oh thatÂ’s right I donÂ’t have a dip in. Wait, I have been nic free for so long, I canÂ’t believe the power of the mind. Physically I donÂ’t need it but it kept creeping into my mind.
One factor I left out. Before I left, I invited my family to go. Everyone was too busy. Nothing I love more than being on the road by myself, but this was different. I didn’t feel ready to be alone. No bother, I can go and keep my quit brothers close. My wife said, “I have never seen you look that sad when we say we can’t go to Saint George.” I answered, “Really? Well I am not sad, I am just feeling like I am not ready to be alone but I need to stay strong and I have my quit brothers."
My son came to me and said, “Dad my schedule just cleared up and I would love to go with you.” Cool! It really is neat when a father looks to his son and his son looks to his father. That kid was my wingman. I could have still caved if I wanted to but this little reminder in my front seat was my hero and I didn’t want to disappoint.
What a blast rewiring my brain. I taught my son how to hunt toads at night. Sounds really insignificant writing it down but it was a priceless moment. I wasn't trying to get away from him so that I could put a pinch between my cheek and gum. I was enjoying the excitement of a father and son on an adventure. He was hunting Toads and I was rewiring my brain.
What a great day. I didnÂ’t have much access to the site but did get a call that we had a couple casualties. It reminded me of my wrestling team in high school. Sometimes we would lose a meet but I won my match. So I hated losing as a team but I did my job for the victory. That was how I felt with the news. Quitting is very much like wrestling. It is an individual sport, and each individual has to make his or her own contribution for the team to have success. Even so, I won my match today!!!
Day 61 – Drove back with a happy and thankful spirit. It is Mothers day today. I can talk freely about my addiction with my family. My wife loves me and I made a great decision to choose her to be the mother of my kids. I have such a good life. Tobacco is a crock of shit. It did nothing but detract from things I love. It puts blinders on and alienates you from love. It lowers your IQ and self worth but most importantly you lose site and gratitude for what you have and can accomplish. The buzz just numbs ones desire to have personal victories. I fucking paid for that for 22 years! It wasn’t forced, I bought the lie. Not Now Not Today! I see tobacco and know the truth. Evil. This is pure anti-American, freedom robbing, evil.
Day 62 Just a quit day. As an official LakersÂ’ Hater, I loved watching OKC wipe their ass with Gasol and that #24 guy. Westbrook posted up Blake and # 24 thinks he can fix it? Westbrook Schooled that #24.
Day 63 – I still see the damn broken record of people not posting roll. Those who are strongly encouraging their brother to post and the brother explaining why he won’t or doesn't need to. This time I read and it looks like some will post all week but not on weekends? I seriously don’t get why simple and important things are difficult for some to do.
I have kids so I know it is hard to get them to do what is good for them. I wash clothes and all they have to do is put the clothes away. They would rather live out of their clothes basket and not put them away. No matter how much I yell and complain, I canÂ’t get my kids to buy into that concept. So I look at it like if my kids want to live that way, what is it hurting me? ItÂ’s just a difference of opinion.
Now when my son thought he could be late on curfew. I had a different attitude. Fist time he was late we talked about it. The second time he was punished for it and the Third time, I threw him out of the house. “If you think I make rules just for the fun of it you’re wrong. There is logic behind it. If you think you can flippantly come and go as you please and expect me to pay your way, you’re wrong! Because you can’t make it home on time, you are a big boy now and can make your own rules to live by. Congratulations son, I thought you would be prepared for the real world a couple years from now. Looks like you are ready now. Bye, Bye.” Wife is crying, "where is he going to go? How is he going to get by without us? Is he going to be okay?" Me: "He’s fine. Let him sweat it out he may be stubborn but he is also smart. Let it ride, his choice."
My son has never missed curfew again. Addicts are children at times. They donÂ’t know what is best and they think they know everything. DonÂ’t plead with them to follow the rules. Kick them out. We need to let them discover the value and respect the program. If they really want to quit, theyÂ’ll come back. So if the douches want to prove that they can quit without us. Great! They are quit. If they need the site, they will make sure to post roll if you take the privilege away from them. All bark and no bite on posting roll creates the broken record you see. EITHER IT IS NOT A BIG DEAL OR IT IS. If they refuse to post, donÂ’t beat them up about it. They wonÂ’t listen. If it is a big enough issue. Kick them out of the group and let them find a group that will allow them to join.
Day 64 – I changed my avatar. It is of Cale Sanderson. Cale Sanderson Wrestled for Iowa State. Cale is the only wrestler that had an undefeated record in college. Not even Dan Gable has that record. His college record was an impressive 159-0. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n-i4pIa1SG0 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n-i4pIa1SG0)
So I’m adopting this as my avatar. My goal is to keep my undefeated record on KTC. If I wake up one day and I have a 159 – 0 record with tobacco; I might change my avatar at that time. My vision is to train, stay alert and never surrender. Every day is a match. I can’t look past the match at hand. Sure I have many more matches to get to 159. In order to remain undefeated, I must only worry and concentrate on my match today.
I was always serious about my quit. I listened to the vets, I followed orders, I got training, I ran drill and exercises I also committed a little extra by quitting alcohol. I thought it was a sacrifice but its not. I am stronger for it! I know that the only way nicotine can beat me is if I allow it to. I am on guard now and confident that I wonÂ’t allow nicotine to beat me.
Weighed in this morning. Lost 5 of the 20lbs gained in my quit. Keep that up too. Be a quitter and a loser Thomas!
How about that? I am bragging when I say, I'm a loser and a quitter. Who ever thought those two words increases self esteem?
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Day 60 – The test - My first road trip. I have made this 4 hour trip many times and loved to listen to music, day dream and fill my mouth with so much poison. I had some vets tell me that my period of quit time is when my brain is rewiring.
All the sites, music, gas stations along the way. Everything was a trigger. I felt that the trip wasnÂ’t going right. Something was wrong. Oh thatÂ’s right I donÂ’t have a dip in. Wait, I have been nic free for so long, I canÂ’t believe the power of the mind. Physically I donÂ’t need it but it kept creeping into my mind.
One factor I left out. Before I left, I invited my family to go. Everyone was too busy. Nothing I love more than being on the road by myself, but this was different. I didn’t feel ready to be alone. No bother, I can go and keep my quit brothers close. My wife said, “I have never seen you look that sad when we say we can’t go to Saint George.” I answered, “Really? Well I am not sad, I am just feeling like I am not ready to be alone but I need to stay strong and I have my quit brothers."
My son came to me and said, “Dad my schedule just cleared up and I would love to go with you.” Cool! It really is neat when a father looks to his son and his son looks to his father. That kid was my wingman. I could have still caved if I wanted to but this little reminder in my front seat was my hero and I didn’t want to disappoint.
What a blast rewiring my brain. I taught my son how to hunt toads at night. Sounds really insignificant writing it down but it was a priceless moment. I wasn't trying to get away from him so that I could put a pinch between my cheek and gum. I was enjoying the excitement of a father and son on an adventure. He was hunting Toads and I was rewiring my brain.
What a great day. I didnÂ’t have much access to the site but did get a call that we had a couple casualties. It reminded me of my wrestling team in high school. Sometimes we would lose a meet but I won my match. So I hated losing as a team but I did my job for the victory. That was how I felt with the news. Quitting is very much like wrestling. It is an individual sport, and each individual has to make his or her own contribution for the team to have success. Even so, I won my match today!!!
Day 61 – Drove back with a happy and thankful spirit. It is Mothers day today. I can talk freely about my addiction with my family. My wife loves me and I made a great decision to choose her to be the mother of my kids. I have such a good life. Tobacco is a crock of shit. It did nothing but detract from things I love. It puts blinders on and alienates you from love. It lowers your IQ and self worth but most importantly you lose site and gratitude for what you have and can accomplish. The buzz just numbs ones desire to have personal victories. I fucking paid for that for 22 years! It wasn’t forced, I bought the lie. Not Now Not Today! I see tobacco and know the truth. Evil. This is pure anti-American, freedom robbing, evil.
Day 62 Just a quit day. As an official LakersÂ’ Hater, I loved watching OKC wipe their ass with Gasol and that #24 guy. Westbrook posted up Blake and # 24 thinks he can fix it? Westbrook Schooled that #24.
Day 63 – I still see the damn broken record of people not posting roll. Those who are strongly encouraging their brother to post and the brother explaining why he won’t or doesn't need to. This time I read and it looks like some will post all week but not on weekends? I seriously don’t get why simple and important things are difficult for some to do.
I have kids so I know it is hard to get them to do what is good for them. I wash clothes and all they have to do is put the clothes away. They would rather live out of their clothes basket and not put them away. No matter how much I yell and complain, I canÂ’t get my kids to buy into that concept. So I look at it like if my kids want to live that way, what is it hurting me? ItÂ’s just a difference of opinion.
Now when my son thought he could be late on curfew. I had a different attitude. Fist time he was late we talked about it. The second time he was punished for it and the Third time, I threw him out of the house. “If you think I make rules just for the fun of it you’re wrong. There is logic behind it. If you think you can flippantly come and go as you please and expect me to pay your way, you’re wrong! Because you can’t make it home on time, you are a big boy now and can make your own rules to live by. Congratulations son, I thought you would be prepared for the real world a couple years from now. Looks like you are ready now. Bye, Bye.” Wife is crying, "where is he going to go? How is he going to get by without us? Is he going to be okay?" Me: "He’s fine. Let him sweat it out he may be stubborn but he is also smart. Let it ride, his choice."
My son has never missed curfew again. Addicts are children at times. They donÂ’t know what is best and they think they know everything. DonÂ’t plead with them to follow the rules. Kick them out. We need to let them discover the value and respect the program. If they really want to quit, theyÂ’ll come back. So if the douches want to prove that they can quit without us. Great! They are quit. If they need the site, they will make sure to post roll if you take the privilege away from them. All bark and no bite on posting roll creates the broken record you see. EITHER IT IS NOT A BIG DEAL OR IT IS. If they refuse to post, donÂ’t beat them up about it. They wonÂ’t listen. If it is a big enough issue. Kick them out of the group and let them find a group that will allow them to join.
Day 64 – I changed my avatar. It is of Cale Sanderson. Cale Sanderson Wrestled for Iowa State. Cale is the only wrestler that had an undefeated record in college. Not even Dan Gable has that record. His college record was an impressive 159-0. So I’m adopting this as my avatar. My goal is to keep my undefeated record on KTC. If I wake up one day and I have a 159 – 0 record with tobacco; I might change my avatar at that time. For now, my vision is to train, stay alert and never surrender. Every day is a match. I can’t look past the match at hand. Sure I have many more matches to get to 159. In order to remain undefeated, I must only worry and concentrate on my match today.
I was always serious about my quit. I listened to the vets, I followed orders, I got training, I ran drill and exercises I also committed a little extra by quitting alcohol. I thought it was a sacrifice but its not. I am stronger for it! I know that the only way nicotine can beat me is if I allow it to. I am on guard now and confident that I wonÂ’t allow nicotine to beat me.
Weighed in this morning. Lost 5 of the 20lbs gained in my quit. Keep that up too. Be a quitter and a loser Thomas!
How about that? I am bragging when I say, I'm a loser and a quitter. Who ever thought those two words increases self esteem?
MThomas you are awesome!! So did the kid ever lick the toads butt??
It is an honor to be quit with you. You are truely an inspiration.
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Day 60 – The test - My first road trip. I have made this 4 hour trip many times and loved to listen to music, day dream and fill my mouth with so much poison. I had some vets tell me that my period of quit time is when my brain is rewiring.Â
All the sites, music, gas stations along the way. Everything was a trigger. I felt that the trip wasnÂ’t going right. Something was wrong. Oh thatÂ’s right I donÂ’t have a dip in. Wait, I have been nic free for so long, I canÂ’t believe the power of the mind. Physically I donÂ’t need it but it kept creeping into my mind.Â
One factor I left out. Before I left, I invited my family to go. Everyone was too busy. Nothing I love more than being on the road by myself, but this was different. I didn’t feel ready to be alone. No bother, I can go and keep my quit brothers close. My wife said, “I have never seen you look that sad when we say we can’t go to Saint George.” I answered, “Really? Well I am not sad, I am just feeling like I am not ready to be alone but I need to stay strong and I have my quit brothers."
My son came to me and said, “Dad my schedule just cleared up and I would love to go with you.” Cool! It really is neat when a father looks to his son and his son looks to his father. That kid was my wingman. I could have still caved if I wanted to but this little reminder in my front seat was my hero and I didnÂ’t want to disappoint.Â
What a blast rewiring my brain. I taught my son how to hunt toads at night. Sounds really insignificant writing it down but it was a priceless moment. I wasn't trying to get away from him so that I could put a pinch between my cheek and gum. I was enjoying the excitement of a father and son on an adventure. He was hunting Toads and I was rewiring my brain.Â
What a great day. I didn’t have much access to the site but did get a call that we had a couple casualties. It reminded me of my wrestling team in high school. Sometimes we would lose a meet but I won my match. So I hated losing as a team but I did my job for the victory. That was how I felt with the news. Quitting is very much like wrestling. It is an individual sport, and each individual has to make his or her own contribution for the team to have success. Even so, I won my match today!!!
Day 61 – Drove back with a happy and thankful spirit. It is Mothers day today. I can talk freely about my addiction with my family. My wife loves me and I made a great decision to choose her to be the mother of my kids. I have such a good life. Tobacco is a crock of shit. It did nothing but detract from things I love. It puts blinders on and alienates you from love. It lowers your IQ and self worth but most importantly you lose site and gratitude for what you have and can accomplish. The buzz just numbs ones desire to have personal victories. I fucking paid for that for 22 years! It wasnÂ’t forced, I bought the lie. Not Now Not Today! I see tobacco and know the truth. Evil. This is pure anti-American, freedom robbing, evil.Â
Day 62 Just a quit day. As an official LakersÂ’ Hater, I loved watching OKC wipe their ass with Gasol and that #24 guy. Westbrook posted up Blake and # 24 thinks he can fix it? Westbrook Schooled that #24.Â
Day 63 – I still see the damn broken record of people not posting roll. Those who are strongly encouraging their brother to post and the brother explaining why he won’t or doesn't need to. This time I read and it looks like some will post all week but not on weekends? I seriously don’t get why simple and important things are difficult for some to do.
I have kids so I know it is hard to get them to do what is good for them. I wash clothes and all they have to do is put the clothes away. They would rather live out of their clothes basket and not put them away. No matter how much I yell and complain, I can’t get my kids to buy into that concept. So I look at it like if my kids want to live that way, what is it hurting me? It’s just a difference of opinion.
Now when my son thought he could be late on curfew. I had a different attitude. Fist time he was late we talked about it. The second time he was punished for it and the Third time, I threw him out of the house. “If you think I make rules just for the fun of it youÂ’re wrong. There is logic behind it. If you think you can flippantly come and go as you please and expect me to pay your way, youÂ’re wrong! Because you canÂ’t make it home on time, you are a big boy now and can make your own rules to live by. Congratulations son, I thought you would be prepared for the real world a couple years from now. Looks like you are ready now. Bye, Bye.” Wife is crying, "where is he going to go? How is he going to get by without us? Is he going to be okay?" Me: "HeÂ’s fine. Let him sweat it out he may be stubborn but he is also smart. Let it ride, his choice."Â
My son has never missed curfew again. Addicts are children at times. They don’t know what is best and they think they know everything. Don’t plead with them to follow the rules. Kick them out. We need to let them discover the value and respect the program. If they really want to quit, they’ll come back. So if the douches want to prove that they can quit without us. Great! They are quit. If they need the site, they will make sure to post roll if you take the privilege away from them. All bark and no bite on posting roll creates the broken record you see. EITHER IT IS NOT A BIG DEAL OR IT IS. If they refuse to post, don’t beat them up about it. They won’t listen. If it is a big enough issue. Kick them out of the group and let them find a group that will allow them to join.
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Day 64 – I changed my avatar. It is of Cale Sanderson. Cale Sanderson Wrestled for Iowa State. Cale is the only wrestler that had an undefeated record in college. Not even Dan Gable has that record. His college record was an impressive 159-0. So I’m adopting this as my avatar. My goal is to keep my undefeated record on KTC. If I wake up one day and I have a 159 – 0 record with tobacco; I might change my avatar at that time. For now, my vision is to train, stay alert and never surrender. Every day is a match. I can’t look past the match at hand. Sure I have many more matches to get to 159. In order to remain undefeated, I must only worry and concentrate on my match today.
I was always serious about my quit. I listened to the vets, I followed orders, I got training, I ran drill and exercises I also committed a little extra by quitting alcohol. I thought it was a sacrifice but its not. I am stronger for it! I know that the only way nicotine can beat me is if I allow it to. I am on guard now and confident that I wonÂ’t allow nicotine to beat me.Â
Weighed in this morning. Lost 5 of the 20lbs gained in my quit. Keep that up too. Be a quitter and a loser Thomas!Â
How about that? I am bragging when I say, I'm a loser and a quitter. Who ever thought those two words increases self esteem?
MThomas you are awesome!! So did the kid ever lick the toads butt??
It is an honor to be quit with you. You are truely an inspiration.
Gotta love the daily log!
Also the Cael Sanderson avatar and story are fantastic!
Great stuff from an inspiring bad ass quiter!!!
Quit on Quiter!
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That is great. I am glad it is going well for you.
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Gooo stuff.
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Day 65 It is a pretty uneventful day. No drama on my favorite reality TV show. (KTC) In fact it was probably the most quiet day I recall since I joined. WT and I traded emails. Love our emails. We get really philosophical and gain more insight and revelation to our quits.
Today through emails, my thoughts brought me to addiction. I am so much more grateful for successes and failures without tobacco. Tobacco was a conduit that changed me. I became a liar, a sneak, an excuse maker, a loner, insecure, paranoid, selfish, and worshiped a false god. 22 years of deceiving and lying to mostly myself but the lies bled into every single facet of my life.
My quit is exhilarating because my quit on the surface is controlling my addiction by not partaking nicotine or alcohol. Underneath or inside my quit is my reunion with who I once was. I have become a man of my word! I am honest with my fellow man. If my wife goes to my car, I no longer panic that she may uncover the lies I kept.
Chewing tobacco was more stressful because I was always trying to cover my tracks. Now I don't have to, in fact it is fun to invite people to come along and make new tracks with me.
I have Christian values. I didn't when I chewed tobacco. Something as simple as the 10 commandments....My love for my addiction deceived me.
1. Though shalt have no other gods before me. (Guilty. Tobacco)
2. Graven images? (Guilty. Seeing the can made my mouth water)
3. Lords name in vain? (Guilty. I testified that Jesus is the Christ while denying his power and lack of faith to heal me.)
4. Sabbath day holy (Broke that many times to get my fix. Never made it a holy day for 22 years!!!)
5. Honor your father and your mother (Guilty. I dishonored them with dip)
6. Though salt not murder (Guilty. I have never taken anyone's life but my addiction killed my spirit!)
7. Thou shalt not commit adultery (Guilty. Adultery isn't all about sex. It is about putting someone/something ahead of your spouse. Tobacco was my mistress.)
8. Thou shalt not steal (Guilty. I stole time and money from my family so that I could feed this addiction)
9. Thou shalt not bare false witness against thy neighbor (Guilty. I had a neighbor that came across as "Holier than thou". [very Ned Flanders] I would always mock him by telling people he was in the closet)
10. Thou shalt not covet (Guilty. I coveted people who seemed to be able to drink and chew in front of their wives. "If I could just be open about this")
After 22 years, I am reuniting with the young man who wasn't an addict. I missed him and want him to stay. I think he is a pretty cool guy that most people would like. So Quit I Am...An honest man who is building his integrity.
I am so glad I have you guys and KTC. You all saved my life. Both spiritual and physical.
Day 66 Screw the chew! My call with suck-it has really got me upset. If someone put a gun to their head and was going to pull the trigger, what would you do? If you know that tobacco is poison and a killer and you see someone going to take it, what do you do? I guess if someone really wants to kill themselves, you won't be able to stop them. Some time, some where they may pull the trigger when you aren't there. I guess all a quitter can do for his fellow dippers is be the example and plant the seed of quit. "Testify how quit has changed your life, hand out KTC cards in the gas station when someone buys a can."
Is that too involved? With your fellow man. I think it is a responsibility to share the insight and knowledge we have gained by quitting this shit. We can't force them to be free but we can tell them the option is available and precious.
Back to work....
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Day 65 It is a pretty uneventful day. No drama on my favorite reality TV show. (KTC) In fact it was probably the most quiet day I recall since I joined. WT and I traded emails. Love our emails. We get really philosophical and gain more insight and revelation to our quits.Â
Today through emails, my thoughts brought me to addiction. I am so much more grateful for successes and failures without tobacco. Tobacco was a conduit that changed me. I became a liar, a sneak, an excuse maker, a loner, insecure, paranoid, selfish, and worshiped a false god. 22 years of deceiving and lying to mostly myself but the lies bled into every single facet of my life.Â
My quit is exhilarating because my quit on the surface is controlling my addiction by not partaking nicotine or alcohol. Underneath or inside my quit is my reunion with who I once was. I have become a man of my word! I am honest with my fellow man. If my wife goes to my car, I no longer panic that she may uncover the lies I kept.
Chewing tobacco was more stressful because I was always trying to cover my tracks. Now I don't have to, in fact it is fun to invite people to come along and make new tracks with me.Â
I have Christian values. I didn't when I chewed tobacco. Something as simple as the 10 commandments....My love for my addiction deceived me.
1. Though shalt have no other gods before me. (Guilty. Tobacco)
2. Graven images? (Guilty. Seeing the can made my mouth water)
3. Lords name in vain? (Guilty. I testified that Jesus is the Christ while denying his power and lack of faith to heal me.)Â
4. Sabbath day holy (Broke that many times to get my fix. Never made it a holy day for 22 years!!!)
5. Honor your father and your mother (Guilty. I dishonored them with dip)
6. Though salt not murder (Guilty. I have never taken anyone's life but my addiction killed my spirit!)
7. Thou shalt not commit adultery (Guilty. Adultery isn't all about sex. It is about putting someone/something ahead of your spouse. Tobacco was my mistress.)Â
8. Thou shalt not steal (Guilty. I stole time and money from my family so that I could feed this addiction)
9. Thou shalt not bare false witness against thy neighbor (Guilty. I had a neighbor that came across as "Holier than thou". [very Ned Flanders] I would always mock him by telling people he was in the closet)
10. Thou shalt not covet (Guilty. I coveted people who seemed to be able to drink and chew in front of their wives. "If I could just be open about this")Â
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After 22 years, I am reuniting with the young man who wasn't an addict. I missed him and want him to stay. I think he is a pretty cool guy that most people would like. So Quit I Am...An honest man who is building his integrity.Â
I am so glad I have you guys and KTC. You all saved my life. Both spiritual and physical.Â
Day 66 Screw the chew! My call with suck-it has really got me upset. If someone put a gun to their head and was going to pull the trigger, what would you do? If you know that tobacco is poison and a killer and you see someone going to take it, what do you do? I guess if someone really wants to kill themselves, you won't be able to stop them. Some time, some where they may pull the trigger when you aren't there. I guess all a quitter can do for his fellow dippers is be the example and plant the seed of quit. "Testify how quit has changed your life, hand out KTC cards in the gas station when someone buys a can."Â
Is that too involved? With your fellow man. I think it is a responsibility to share the insight and knowledge we have gained by quitting this shit. We can't force them to be free but we can tell them the option is available and precious.Â
Back to work....
I WISH I HAD SAID THAT!!!
There is nothing else to say.
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Well said, and I agree with you. We have a responsibility to share the insight we have learned since taking our lives back. It's our responsibility to lend a hand to a brother that's struggling - but you also nailed it, you can't force anything. All we can do is plant seeds of hope with that guy at the gas station, or the guy in the car next to you at the stop light you hand a card through the window. The battle rages all around us, stay strong and stay armed. You never ever know when you'll LITERALLY save someone's life.
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Day 65 It is a pretty uneventful day. No drama on my favorite reality TV show. (KTC) In fact it was probably the most quiet day I recall since I joined. WT and I traded emails. Love our emails. We get really philosophical and gain more insight and revelation to our quits.Â
Today through emails, my thoughts brought me to addiction. I am so much more grateful for successes and failures without tobacco. Tobacco was a conduit that changed me. I became a liar, a sneak, an excuse maker, a loner, insecure, paranoid, selfish, and worshiped a false god. 22 years of deceiving and lying to mostly myself but the lies bled into every single facet of my life.Â
My quit is exhilarating because my quit on the surface is controlling my addiction by not partaking nicotine or alcohol. Underneath or inside my quit is my reunion with who I once was. I have become a man of my word! I am honest with my fellow man. If my wife goes to my car, I no longer panic that she may uncover the lies I kept.
Chewing tobacco was more stressful because I was always trying to cover my tracks. Now I don't have to, in fact it is fun to invite people to come along and make new tracks with me.Â
I have Christian values. I didn't when I chewed tobacco. Something as simple as the 10 commandments....My love for my addiction deceived me.
1. Though shalt have no other gods before me. (Guilty. Tobacco)
2.  Graven images? (Guilty. Seeing the can made my mouth water)
3. Lords name in vain? (Guilty. I testified that Jesus is the Christ while denying his power and lack of faith to heal me.)Â
4.  Sabbath day holy (Broke that many times to get my fix. Never made it a holy day for 22 years!!!)
5.  Honor your father and your mother (Guilty. I dishonored them with dip)
6.  Though salt not murder (Guilty. I have never taken anyone's life but my addiction killed my spirit!)
7.  Thou shalt not commit adultery (Guilty. Adultery isn't all about sex. It is about putting someone/something ahead of your spouse. Tobacco was my mistress.)Â
8. Thou shalt not steal (Guilty. I stole time and money from my family so that I could feed this addiction)
9. Thou shalt not bare false witness against thy neighbor (Guilty. I had a neighbor that came across as "Holier than thou". [very Ned Flanders] I would always mock him by telling people he was in the closet)
10. Thou shalt not covet (Guilty. I coveted people who seemed to be able to drink and chew in front of their wives. "If I could just be open about this")Â
 Â
After 22 years, I am reuniting with the young man who wasn't an addict. I missed him and want him to stay. I think he is a pretty cool guy that most people would like. So Quit I Am...An honest man who is building his integrity.Â
I am so glad I have you guys and KTC. You all saved my life. Both spiritual and physical.Â
Day 66 Screw the chew! My call with suck-it has really got me upset. If someone put a gun to their head and was going to pull the trigger, what would you do? If you know that tobacco is poison and a killer and you see someone going to take it, what do you do? I guess if someone really wants to kill themselves, you won't be able to stop them. Some time, some where they may pull the trigger when you aren't there. I guess all a quitter can do for his fellow dippers is be the example and plant the seed of quit. "Testify how quit has changed your life, hand out KTC cards in the gas station when someone buys a can."Â
Is that too involved? With your fellow man. I think it is a responsibility to share the insight and knowledge we have gained by quitting this shit. We can't force them to be free but we can tell them the option is available and precious.Â
Back to work....
I WISH I HAD SAID THAT!!!
There is nothing else to say.
Well said!!!!
'worship'
'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
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Day 65 It is a pretty uneventful day. No drama on my favorite reality TV show. (KTC) In fact it was probably the most quiet day I recall since I joined. WT and I traded emails. Love our emails. We get really philosophical and gain more insight and revelation to our quits.Â
Today through emails, my thoughts brought me to addiction. I am so much more grateful for successes and failures without tobacco. Tobacco was a conduit that changed me. I became a liar, a sneak, an excuse maker, a loner, insecure, paranoid, selfish, and worshiped a false god. 22 years of deceiving and lying to mostly myself but the lies bled into every single facet of my life.Â
My quit is exhilarating because my quit on the surface is controlling my addiction by not partaking nicotine or alcohol. Underneath or inside my quit is my reunion with who I once was. I have become a man of my word! I am honest with my fellow man. If my wife goes to my car, I no longer panic that she may uncover the lies I kept.
Chewing tobacco was more stressful because I was always trying to cover my tracks. Now I don't have to, in fact it is fun to invite people to come along and make new tracks with me.Â
I have Christian values. I didn't when I chewed tobacco. Something as simple as the 10 commandments....My love for my addiction deceived me.
1. Though shalt have no other gods before me. (Guilty. Tobacco)
2.  Graven images? (Guilty. Seeing the can made my mouth water)
3. Lords name in vain? (Guilty. I testified that Jesus is the Christ while denying his power and lack of faith to heal me.)Â
4.  Sabbath day holy (Broke that many times to get my fix. Never made it a holy day for 22 years!!!)
5.  Honor your father and your mother (Guilty. I dishonored them with dip)
6.  Though salt not murder (Guilty. I have never taken anyone's life but my addiction killed my spirit!)
7.  Thou shalt not commit adultery (Guilty. Adultery isn't all about sex. It is about putting someone/something ahead of your spouse. Tobacco was my mistress.)Â
8. Thou shalt not steal (Guilty. I stole time and money from my family so that I could feed this addiction)
9. Thou shalt not bare false witness against thy neighbor (Guilty. I had a neighbor that came across as "Holier than thou". [very Ned Flanders] I would always mock him by telling people he was in the closet)
10. Thou shalt not covet (Guilty. I coveted people who seemed to be able to drink and chew in front of their wives. "If I could just be open about this")Â
 Â
After 22 years, I am reuniting with the young man who wasn't an addict. I missed him and want him to stay. I think he is a pretty cool guy that most people would like. So Quit I Am...An honest man who is building his integrity.Â
I am so glad I have you guys and KTC. You all saved my life. Both spiritual and physical.Â
Day 66 Screw the chew! My call with suck-it has really got me upset. If someone put a gun to their head and was going to pull the trigger, what would you do? If you know that tobacco is poison and a killer and you see someone going to take it, what do you do? I guess if someone really wants to kill themselves, you won't be able to stop them. Some time, some where they may pull the trigger when you aren't there. I guess all a quitter can do for his fellow dippers is be the example and plant the seed of quit. "Testify how quit has changed your life, hand out KTC cards in the gas station when someone buys a can."Â
Is that too involved? With your fellow man. I think it is a responsibility to share the insight and knowledge we have gained by quitting this shit. We can't force them to be free but we can tell them the option is available and precious.Â
Back to work....
I WISH I HAD SAID THAT!!!
There is nothing else to say.
Well said!!!!
'worship'
'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
Great post - glad I could get on here and read. Just a quick thank you for having my back through the past 3 weeks going on 4. This has been a trying time - but you and others have been there and have helped me stay quit. Thanks for posting for me when I couldn't get to a computer. I plan to write up a big official thanks when this trip is officially over but felt like saying thanks right now since I could get to a computer.
Keep on keeping on...QLF and Grizzly's new one PLF.
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Day 65 It is a pretty uneventful day. No drama on my favorite reality TV show. (KTC) In fact it was probably the most quiet day I recall since I joined. WT and I traded emails. Love our emails. We get really philosophical and gain more insight and revelation to our quits.
Today through emails, my thoughts brought me to addiction. I am so much more grateful for successes and failures without tobacco. Tobacco was a conduit that changed me. I became a liar, a sneak, an excuse maker, a loner, insecure, paranoid, selfish, and worshiped a false god. 22 years of deceiving and lying to mostly myself but the lies bled into every single facet of my life.
My quit is exhilarating because my quit on the surface is controlling my addiction by not partaking nicotine or alcohol. Underneath or inside my quit is my reunion with who I once was. I have become a man of my word! I am honest with my fellow man. If my wife goes to my car, I no longer panic that she may uncover the lies I kept.
Chewing tobacco was more stressful because I was always trying to cover my tracks. Now I don't have to, in fact it is fun to invite people to come along and make new tracks with me.
I have Christian values. I didn't when I chewed tobacco. Something as simple as the 10 commandments....My love for my addiction deceived me.
1. Though shalt have no other gods before me. (Guilty. Tobacco)
2. Graven images? (Guilty. Seeing the can made my mouth water)
3. Lords name in vain? (Guilty. I testified that Jesus is the Christ while denying his power and lack of faith to heal me.)
4. Sabbath day holy (Broke that many times to get my fix. Never made it a holy day for 22 years!!!)
5. Honor your father and your mother (Guilty. I dishonored them with dip)
6. Though salt not murder (Guilty. I have never taken anyone's life but my addiction killed my spirit!)
7. Thou shalt not commit adultery (Guilty. Adultery isn't all about sex. It is about putting someone/something ahead of your spouse. Tobacco was my mistress.)
8. Thou shalt not steal (Guilty. I stole time and money from my family so that I could feed this addiction)
9. Thou shalt not bare false witness against thy neighbor (Guilty. I had a neighbor that came across as "Holier than thou". [very Ned Flanders] I would always mock him by telling people he was in the closet)
10. Thou shalt not covet (Guilty. I coveted people who seemed to be able to drink and chew in front of their wives. "If I could just be open about this")
After 22 years, I am reuniting with the young man who wasn't an addict. I missed him and want him to stay. I think he is a pretty cool guy that most people would like. So Quit I Am...An honest man who is building his integrity.
I am so glad I have you guys and KTC. You all saved my life. Both spiritual and physical.
Day 66 Screw the chew! My call with suck-it has really got me upset. If someone put a gun to their head and was going to pull the trigger, what would you do? If you know that tobacco is poison and a killer and you see someone going to take it, what do you do? I guess if someone really wants to kill themselves, you won't be able to stop them. Some time, some where they may pull the trigger when you aren't there. I guess all a quitter can do for his fellow dippers is be the example and plant the seed of quit. "Testify how quit has changed your life, hand out KTC cards in the gas station when someone buys a can."
Is that too involved? With your fellow man. I think it is a responsibility to share the insight and knowledge we have gained by quitting this shit. We can't force them to be free but we can tell them the option is available and precious.
Back to work....
Powerful stuff man. You are an inspiration.. Great words..
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Day 65 It is a pretty uneventful day. No drama on my favorite reality TV show. (KTC) In fact it was probably the most quiet day I recall since I joined. WT and I traded emails. Love our emails. We get really philosophical and gain more insight and revelation to our quits.Â
Today through emails, my thoughts brought me to addiction. I am so much more grateful for successes and failures without tobacco. Tobacco was a conduit that changed me. I became a liar, a sneak, an excuse maker, a loner, insecure, paranoid, selfish, and worshiped a false god. 22 years of deceiving and lying to mostly myself but the lies bled into every single facet of my life.Â
My quit is exhilarating because my quit on the surface is controlling my addiction by not partaking nicotine or alcohol. Underneath or inside my quit is my reunion with who I once was. I have become a man of my word! I am honest with my fellow man. If my wife goes to my car, I no longer panic that she may uncover the lies I kept.
Chewing tobacco was more stressful because I was always trying to cover my tracks. Now I don't have to, in fact it is fun to invite people to come along and make new tracks with me.Â
I have Christian values. I didn't when I chewed tobacco. Something as simple as the 10 commandments....My love for my addiction deceived me.
1. Though shalt have no other gods before me. (Guilty. Tobacco)
2. Graven images? (Guilty. Seeing the can made my mouth water)
3. Lords name in vain? (Guilty. I testified that Jesus is the Christ while denying his power and lack of faith to heal me.)Â
4. Sabbath day holy (Broke that many times to get my fix. Never made it a holy day for 22 years!!!)
5. Honor your father and your mother (Guilty. I dishonored them with dip)
6. Though salt not murder (Guilty. I have never taken anyone's life but my addiction killed my spirit!)
7. Thou shalt not commit adultery (Guilty. Adultery isn't all about sex. It is about putting someone/something ahead of your spouse. Tobacco was my mistress.)Â
8. Thou shalt not steal (Guilty. I stole time and money from my family so that I could feed this addiction)
9. Thou shalt not bare false witness against thy neighbor (Guilty. I had a neighbor that came across as "Holier than thou". [very Ned Flanders] I would always mock him by telling people he was in the closet)
10. Thou shalt not covet (Guilty. I coveted people who seemed to be able to drink and chew in front of their wives. "If I could just be open about this")Â
 Â
After 22 years, I am reuniting with the young man who wasn't an addict. I missed him and want him to stay. I think he is a pretty cool guy that most people would like. So Quit I Am...An honest man who is building his integrity.Â
I am so glad I have you guys and KTC. You all saved my life. Both spiritual and physical.Â
Day 66 Screw the chew! My call with suck-it has really got me upset. If someone put a gun to their head and was going to pull the trigger, what would you do? If you know that tobacco is poison and a killer and you see someone going to take it, what do you do? I guess if someone really wants to kill themselves, you won't be able to stop them. Some time, some where they may pull the trigger when you aren't there. I guess all a quitter can do for his fellow dippers is be the example and plant the seed of quit. "Testify how quit has changed your life, hand out KTC cards in the gas station when someone buys a can."Â
Is that too involved? With your fellow man. I think it is a responsibility to share the insight and knowledge we have gained by quitting this shit. We can't force them to be free but we can tell them the option is available and precious.Â
Back to work....
Powerful stuff man. You are an inspiration.. Great words..
That's goo shit right there!
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Day 66 - 73
My Addicted Mind Takes me back to being foggy and funky!!!
I let some days go by because I wanted my journal entry to be positive. As I got thinking today. This journey should be about the reality of quitting tobacco.
The last few days have been difficult. Not in abstaining from nicotine. I haven't desired to cave. It has been a battle with my attitude. I feel like I went back to feeling like I did in my 20's. I have been so foggy and funky!
One day turned into two then into today being about 8 days. Seems like I have been in a funk for a long time. I have tried to will myself out of it. Yesterday, I felt good but when I went on KTC, I found that I was more agitated. I got off the site and just started freaking out.
Got a voice-mail from Suck-it, talked to Stitch and WT. Talked about it. I don't know if misery loves company, but it seems like a lot of us are experiencing the same thing at the same time. For some reason even though I hate the feelings I have, it was comforting to have brothers feeling the same thing.
So this is where I am at today. I don't have one shred, not one bit of empathy, sympathy or compassion for Nicotine and the tobacco industry. I am disgusted and embarrassed that I gave them any power or authority over me.
I visit youtube and watch these addicts demonstrate how to dip with the towers of tin behind them. They have a damn shrine built to tobacco and to hear them talk and brag about an addiction??? Wow I am so glad I got out of that. I would much rather be foggy or funky, especially knowing that it is temporary than to be an absolute idiot addict that worships a false god and promotes it!
I am quit today. Got some responses from the addicts on youtube. I left a few words of encouragement to quit. They were like this...."Hey, I was really saddened to see your love for chewing tobacco. I have been an addict for 22 years and just quit. I hope you wont have to wait as long as I did to realize that the money, the buzz, the health risk etc aren't worth it. Tobacco, hurt me, it never helped me. You can quit."
The responses I got:
"Fuck You"
"Congratulations on quitting but if you don't want to see addicts, don't watch. I love being addicted. Dip to Win"
"Just another troll trying to hate"
Quitting tobacco allows us to develop and mature. Once we are nicotine free. Our clear minds can rewire. So not being use to it....I think we will be foggy and funky. It sure as hell beats a poisoned mind.
Thank the Lord I am quit!
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Day 66 - 73
My Addicted Mind Takes me back to being foggy and funky!!!
I let some days go by because I wanted my journal entry to be positive. As I got thinking today. This journey should be about the reality of quitting tobacco.
The last few days have been difficult. Not in abstaining from nicotine. I haven't desired to cave. It has been a battle with my attitude. I feel like I went back to feeling like I did in my 20's. I have been so foggy and funky!
One day turned into two then into today being about 8 days. Seems like I have been in a funk for a long time. I have tried to will myself out of it. Yesterday, I felt good but when I went on KTC, I found that I was more agitated. I got off the site and just started freaking out.
Got a voice-mail from Suck-it, talked to Stitch and WT. Talked about it. I don't know if misery loves company, but it seems like a lot of us are experiencing the same thing at the same time. For some reason even though I hate the feelings I have, it was comforting to have brothers feeling the same thing. Â
So this is where I am at today. I don't have one shred, not one bit of empathy, sympathy or compassion for Nicotine and the tobacco industry. I am disgusted and embarrassed that I gave them any power or authority over me.
I visit youtube and watch these addicts demonstrate how to dip with the towers of tin behind them. They have a damn shrine built to tobacco and to hear them talk and brag about an addiction??? Wow I am so glad I got out of that. I would much rather be foggy or funky, especially knowing that it is temporary than to be an absolute idiot addict that worships a false god and promotes it!
I am quit today. Got some responses from the addicts on youtube. I left a few words of encouragement to quit. They were like this...."Hey, I was really saddened to see your love for chewing tobacco. I have been an addict for 22 years and just quit. I hope you wont have to wait as long as I did to realize that the money, the buzz, the health risk etc aren't worth it. Tobacco, hurt me, it never helped me. You can quit."
The responses I got:Â
"Fuck You"
"Congratulations on quitting but if you don't want to see addicts, don't watch. I love being addicted. Dip to Win"
"Just another troll trying to hate"
Quitting tobacco allows us to develop and mature. Once we are nicotine free. Our clear minds can rewire. So not being use to it....I think we will be foggy and funky. It sure as hell beats a poisoned mind.Â
Thank the Lord I am quit!
The funk and fog do seem to be worse right about that time and you may even start to have this very down and depressed feeling.....don't lose your determination and resolve to quit!!!!
Those times do pass and eventually you get that great freedom feeling back and its even better and stronger than before, plus you quit resolve will have increased!
I get some days where I feel like crap and well just sort of bite everyones head off and well it happens, sometimes even the best of us have bad days....
I will tell you to keep yourself positive and think positive! That has been my saving grace as well as the best medicine for some of the idiots that on those bad days surround me!
Stay strong in your quit brother, you might not totally realize this but you are kicking nic's ass like there was no tomorrow!
Your giving Nic a Cael Sanderson type ass beating!
QUIT on QUITER!!!!!
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Mt
Keep writing and keep reaching out. While you fight your fight you continue to motivate me in mine. So know the fog is not only worth it to keep you free from the nic bitch but many others on ktc.
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MThomas.. You are one strong dude! I love your thoughts and comments. I've told you before that I believe that the rewiring process is possibly harder than quitting nicotine, at least it seems that way to me. Just so many years have passed that we've lived with nicotine in our systems to be without it is just so foreign. Most of us have never known even a portion of our adult life without nicotine. The rewiring takes effort like quitting nicotine takes effort. It isn't a passive process.
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Day 66 - 73
My Addicted Mind Takes me back to being foggy and funky!!!
I let some days go by because I wanted my journal entry to be positive. As I got thinking today. This journey should be about the reality of quitting tobacco.
The last few days have been difficult. Not in abstaining from nicotine. I haven't desired to cave. It has been a battle with my attitude. I feel like I went back to feeling like I did in my 20's. I have been so foggy and funky!
One day turned into two then into today being about 8 days. Seems like I have been in a funk for a long time. I have tried to will myself out of it. Yesterday, I felt good but when I went on KTC, I found that I was more agitated. I got off the site and just started freaking out.
Got a voice-mail from Suck-it, talked to Stitch and WT. Talked about it. I don't know if misery loves company, but it seems like a lot of us are experiencing the same thing at the same time. For some reason even though I hate the feelings I have, it was comforting to have brothers feeling the same thing.
So this is where I am at today. I don't have one shred, not one bit of empathy, sympathy or compassion for Nicotine and the tobacco industry. I am disgusted and embarrassed that I gave them any power or authority over me.
I visit youtube and watch these addicts demonstrate how to dip with the towers of tin behind them. They have a damn shrine built to tobacco and to hear them talk and brag about an addiction??? Wow I am so glad I got out of that. I would much rather be foggy or funky, especially knowing that it is temporary than to be an absolute idiot addict that worships a false god and promotes it!
I am quit today. Got some responses from the addicts on youtube. I left a few words of encouragement to quit. They were like this...."Hey, I was really saddened to see your love for chewing tobacco. I have been an addict for 22 years and just quit. I hope you wont have to wait as long as I did to realize that the money, the buzz, the health risk etc aren't worth it. Tobacco, hurt me, it never helped me. You can quit."
The responses I got:
"Fuck You"
"Congratulations on quitting but if you don't want to see addicts, don't watch. I love being addicted. Dip to Win"
"Just another troll trying to hate"
Quitting tobacco allows us to develop and mature. Once we are nicotine free. Our clear minds can rewire. So not being use to it....I think we will be foggy and funky. It sure as hell beats a poisoned mind.
Thank the Lord I am quit!
MThomas
You posts are true gold man. You are an inspiration. I am going to PM you my number, if the fog gets too heavy man I am here if you need it. Thanks for what you do man.
Buddy Mac
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MThomas.. You are one strong dude! I love your thoughts and comments. I've told you before that I believe that the rewiring process is possibly harder than quitting nicotine, at least it seems that way to me. Just so many years have passed that we've lived with nicotine in our systems to be without it is just so foreign. Most of us have never known even a portion of our adult life without nicotine. The rewiring takes effort like quitting nicotine takes effort. It isn't a passive process.
I agree with that wt, it was one of the hardest things for me to discover and truly embrace in my quit. The hardest thing for me about quitting wasn't not using nicotine. It was the rewiring process. Learning how to mow the lawn, how to clean my car, heck how to be home alone and not dip. I had to learn how a man deals with emotions. He doesn't run to a can and finger bang it till he's dizzy. That's BS. That whole rewiring process scared the crap out of me. It opened my eyes to the power of that poison. It cemented my resolve to fight everything nicotine related until the day I die. I hate it with every fiber of my body. Nicotine did just fine, hiding in the shadows of my life but those days are over. I have the power, I will make my own decisions. Damn it feels good to be quit. Damn it feels good to read awesome threads like this and so many others here at KTC every night.
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I am with you MT - quit on brother
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Day 74 – 83
On Memorial Day, my son, (17 yr old) and I had it out. Here is a kid that lives off the dole. Everything he has, I have provided to him. All I wanted was a little respect in my house. He wasnÂ’t giving it and was just being a dink. So I blew my top.
His comment to me was, “Are you having a nic rage?” Because of that comment, my cravings intensified. I had thoughts like, “If I’m going to be accused of it, I might as well be doing it.” I also had thoughts like, “with a son like this, I need nicotine to keep me from killing him.”
I was at the gas station filled up my tank, went inside to get a diet coke. While waiting in line, behind the counter is a wall of tins. So many varietiesÂ…my mouth starts to salivate and I can see myself ordering a can.
While making my mind up about getting a can of chew, my friends and family enter my mind. I posted roll? Am I a man of my word? Suddenly, I realize that just one is going to suck. I will have to eat crow. I will look like an idiot with all my tough talk to throw in the towel now. It isnÂ’t worth it. My quit instantly becomes solid again!
Why would I go this many days to piss it away? For what? What does the tobacco industry give me???
One minute, I hate my promise and vow for the day. “Screw KTC and my new brothers. How did I get myself in this dilemma?” Then, in a moment, I am so glad and honored that I post roll every day. I can do this, I can quit for good. I don’t want anything to do with the tobacco industry. What a dirty business and a sham. Talk about snake oil.
My son can ask me if I am nic raging, it doesnÂ’t matter, I quit.
Why do I post roll every day? Because it is a simple way to keep my quit protected. My mind wonÂ’t always be sound and clear in thoughts. That post, that simple promise, gives me the opportunity to pause and think about the choice of caving. I have to weigh it out in my mind. So impulsive thinking is paused long enough to allow logic and reason to intervene.
I may curse KTC and the brotherhood at times but it is always followed up with, “Thanks for being there with me.”
So now into my 83rd day of this, I am still undefeated!!! I couldnÂ’t have sported a record like this without a great coaching staff (KTC and the brotherhood) To my dirty nicotine addictionÂ…Scoreboard!
LetÂ’s all win our matches today!
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Day 74 – 83
On Memorial Day, my son, (17 yr old) and I had it out. Here is a kid that lives off the dole. Everything he has, I have provided to him. All I wanted was a little respect in my house. He wasnÂ’t giving it and was just being a dink. So I blew my top.
His comment to me was, “Are you having a nic rage?” Because of that comment, my cravings intensified. I had thoughts like, “If I’m going to be accused of it, I might as well be doing it.” I also had thoughts like, “with a son like this, I need nicotine to keep me from killing him.”
I was at the gas station filled up my tank, went inside to get a diet coke. While waiting in line, behind the counter is a wall of tins. So many varietiesÂ…my mouth starts to salivate and I can see myself ordering a can.
While making my mind up about getting a can of chew, my friends and family enter my mind. I posted roll? Am I a man of my word? Suddenly, I realize that just one is going to suck. I will have to eat crow. I will look like an idiot with all my tough talk to throw in the towel now. It isnÂ’t worth it. My quit instantly becomes solid again!
Why would I go this many days to piss it away? For what? What does the tobacco industry give me???
One minute, I hate my promise and vow for the day. “Screw KTC and my new brothers. How did I get myself in this dilemma?” Then, in a moment, I am so glad and honored that I post roll every day. I can do this, I can quit for good. I don’t want anything to do with the tobacco industry. What a dirty business and a sham. Talk about snake oil.
My son can ask me if I am nic raging, it doesnÂ’t matter, I quit.
Why do I post roll every day? Because it is a simple way to keep my quit protected. My mind wonÂ’t always be sound and clear in thoughts. That post, that simple promise, gives me the opportunity to pause and think about the choice of caving. I have to weigh it out in my mind. So impulsive thinking is paused long enough to allow logic and reason to intervene.
I may curse KTC and the brotherhood at times but it is always followed up with, “Thanks for being there with me.”
So now into my 83rd day of this, I am still undefeated!!! I couldnÂ’t have sported a record like this without a great coaching staff (KTC and the brotherhood) To my dirty nicotine addictionÂ…Scoreboard!
LetÂ’s all win our matches today!
I say great job of letting the little KTC voices keep you from buying the can brother!!!
I had often times refered to my cans of Grizzly as my medicine, as far as the medicine to keep from killing some of the idiots around me.....sorry to say but family included.....
Well I say now that I have become more tolerant of some of the dumb shit and the comments like the one your son made are great medicine for quit! That is yet another reminder of the struggle to get this far.
Some times people even those closest to us will make those comments and strangely they can and usually are accurate now does that make it easier to hear....NOPE!!!!!
Just know this your quit is strong and know that he sees that, it should all be good by now there is usually nothing more than the hope of a stinging smack for statement like that even from your son.
Now keep on kicking nicotene's ass one great day at a time!!!
...also your son was probably just giving you some shit and testing the waters so to speak ;)
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You are a winner all the way around. As far as the 17 yr old, mostly his actions are typical teenage boy shit!!
" behind the counter is a wall of tins. So many varietiesÂ…my mouth starts to salivate" I really don't think you thought that long about buying a can. I know you to well your thoughts might have drifted for a minute but you love your new found freedom to much. I think that all of us have been there, and those thoughts are getting shorter all of the time., and that promise to these total strangers makes the difference. ( I still don't understand that)
We can all look at that scoreboard every morning and see that we have won another day. Instead of the total losers we used to be now we are winners everyday. I'm proud of you, all the other KTC brothers and I'm proud of myself everyday. (that is really something new)
Your words always lift me up!
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That a boy!!! Kicking the shit out of the nic bitch. You are strong - stronger than you give yourself credit. It is great to hear you say that KTC and the brotherhood helped save your quit that day because I have had several days where your posts, pm's, texts, and phone calls have saved mine. The brotherhood is strong and getting stronger everyday.
Great job - very proud to be quit with you.
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I was at the gas station filled up my tank, went inside to get a diet coke. While waiting in line, behind the counter is a wall of tins. So many varieties…my mouth starts to salivate and I can see myself ordering a can.
Great story.
Any you guys ever look at that wall 'o tins now and fantasize pulling out your .45 or a Mossberg for a little close-in target practice? I can see it in slow-motion, Matrix-style, with debris everywhere and the counter clerks diving for cover . . .
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Day 85
Today is the 6th anniversary of my dads sudden death. He died in a roll over car accident. I thought today would be a difficult day since I always mourned and remembered him with a dip in my mouth.
I expected cravings like no other. My Dad was a ninja smoker and I was a ninja dipper. So I always thought a dip was kind of a tribute. I expected the cravings and was preparing for the worst.
Not So Today, I really had an a ha moment. All the new and old quitters reading this. Quitting may be hard, it may take determination and effort.
Why do I love being quit? The work is rewarding and the burden of my quit is light.
I compared it to all the work, determination and deception I had to put into getting my nicotine fix.
It is 10 times harder to be an out of control addict. It dawned on me. People think it is just too hard and too taxing to be quit so they cave and dip. Today, I recalled how hard and taxing it was to dip....
Remembering all your hiding places for tin, the excuses to leave a party, the need to drive to nowhere and dip. The need to pull over and throw away your bottle of spit before you get home. The worry of getting caught and having to explain. Picking up the wrong soda can and drinking your own spittoon of crap. Staying up late and losing sleep because you can't sleep until you dip. Opening a can and then forgetting it is opened and packing it to throw it all over the room. Scrambling to clean it up before anyone sees it all over. Worrying that it is not clean enough and you may have some evidence overlooked. Having your wife act strange and wonder if she is on to you dipping. Making sure that I used my secret debit card so that my 8 and 12 dollar purchases at the gas station didn't raise a red flag when my wife balanced the checking account. When she was paying bills, worrying that I may have used the wrong card for purchases. Always covering my tracks and paranoid that I didn't do a good enough job. Falling asleep with a dip in my mouth and having a chew stain on my pillow case. Putting it in my car until I could get it washed without anyone noticing. Living on the edge of getting caught in my lies. Willing to do whatever it took to dip and pay the price if I got caught.
Yeah when I think of the life I lived as an out of control addict. Quitting tobacco is a lighter burden and easy in comparison. I love being quit!
God Speed dad but I will no longer remember you for our sneaking out to get a nic fix. I will no longer remember you with a tribute dip. You are more than that to me. I will remember you as my father and as my best friend.
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Day 85
Today is the 6th anniversary of my dads sudden death. He died in a roll over car accident. I thought today would be a difficult day since I always mourned and remembered him with a dip in my mouth.Â
I expected cravings like no other. My Dad was a ninja smoker and I was a ninja dipper. So I always thought a dip was kind of a tribute. I expected the cravings and was preparing for the worst.Â
Not So Today, I really had an a ha moment. All the new and old quitters reading this. Quitting may be hard, it may take determination and effort.Â
Why do I love being quit? The work is rewarding and the burden of my quit is light.Â
I compared it to all the work, determination and deception I had to put into getting my nicotine fix.Â
It is 10 times harder to be an out of control addict. It dawned on me. People think it is just too hard and too taxing to be quit so they cave and dip. Today, I recalled how hard and taxing it was to dip....
Remembering all your hiding places for tin, the excuses to leave a party, the need to drive to nowhere and dip. The need to pull over and throw away your bottle of spit before you get home. The worry of getting caught and having to explain. Picking up the wrong soda can and drinking your own spittoon of crap. Staying up late and losing sleep because you can't sleep until you dip. Opening a can and then forgetting it is opened and packing it to throw it all over the room. Scrambling to clean it up before anyone sees it all over. Worrying that it is not clean enough and you may have some evidence overlooked. Having your wife act strange and wonder if she is on to you dipping. Making sure that I used my secret debit card so that my 8 and 12 dollar purchases at the gas station didn't raise a red flag when my wife balanced the checking account. When she was paying bills, worrying that I may have used the wrong card for purchases. Always covering my tracks and paranoid that I didn't do a good enough job. Falling asleep with a dip in my mouth and having a chew stain on my pillow case. Putting it in my car until I could get it washed without anyone noticing. Living on the edge of getting caught in my lies. Willing to do whatever it took to dip and pay the price if I got caught.  Â
Yeah when I think of the life I lived as an out of control addict. Quitting tobacco is a lighter burden and easy in comparison. I love being quit!Â
God Speed dad but I will no longer remember you for our sneaking out to get a nic fix. I will no longer remember you with a tribute dip. You are more than that to me. I will remember you as my father and as my best friend.
You own this stuff. Epic.
To quote your very first post,
I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
You are back, bro. Rock on.
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MT you said to me that I'm too serious. As I read this I'm sad but also laughing with tears in my eyes at the things you said because you are so right! It was harder to be a ninja dipper than it is to be quit. And the rewards of being quit. Where as the guilt and flustration for being a slave to the shit. Your best friend is proud of you, always was and always will be, you are a great son and always was even when you were an ass. Now you are a great father and always will be even when your son might be an ass. That is life! Your quit is such an inspiration to me and hope that I return some of the help to you that you dish out to all of us on a regular basis.
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Day 85
Today is the 6th anniversary of my dads sudden death. He died in a roll over car accident. I thought today would be a difficult day since I always mourned and remembered him with a dip in my mouth.Â
I expected cravings like no other. My Dad was a ninja smoker and I was a ninja dipper. So I always thought a dip was kind of a tribute. I expected the cravings and was preparing for the worst.Â
Not So Today, I really had an a ha moment. All the new and old quitters reading this. Quitting may be hard, it may take determination and effort.Â
Why do I love being quit? The work is rewarding and the burden of my quit is light.Â
I compared it to all the work, determination and deception I had to put into getting my nicotine fix.Â
It is 10 times harder to be an out of control addict. It dawned on me. People think it is just too hard and too taxing to be quit so they cave and dip. Today, I recalled how hard and taxing it was to dip....
Remembering all your hiding places for tin, the excuses to leave a party, the need to drive to nowhere and dip. The need to pull over and throw away your bottle of spit before you get home. The worry of getting caught and having to explain. Picking up the wrong soda can and drinking your own spittoon of crap. Staying up late and losing sleep because you can't sleep until you dip. Opening a can and then forgetting it is opened and packing it to throw it all over the room. Scrambling to clean it up before anyone sees it all over. Worrying that it is not clean enough and you may have some evidence overlooked. Having your wife act strange and wonder if she is on to you dipping. Making sure that I used my secret debit card so that my 8 and 12 dollar purchases at the gas station didn't raise a red flag when my wife balanced the checking account. When she was paying bills, worrying that I may have used the wrong card for purchases. Always covering my tracks and paranoid that I didn't do a good enough job. Falling asleep with a dip in my mouth and having a chew stain on my pillow case. Putting it in my car until I could get it washed without anyone noticing. Living on the edge of getting caught in my lies. Willing to do whatever it took to dip and pay the price if I got caught.  Â
Yeah when I think of the life I lived as an out of control addict. Quitting tobacco is a lighter burden and easy in comparison. I love being quit!Â
God Speed dad but I will no longer remember you for our sneaking out to get a nic fix. I will no longer remember you with a tribute dip. You are more than that to me. I will remember you as my father and as my best friend.
You own this stuff. Epic.
To quote your very first post,
I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
You are back, bro. Rock on.
Thanks, Its great to be back and healthier too.
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MT you said to me that I'm too serious. As I read this I'm sad but also laughing with tears in my eyes at the things you said because you are so right! It was harder to be a ninja dipper than it is to be quit. And the rewards of being quit. Where as the guilt and flustration for being a slave to the shit. Your best friend is proud of you, always was and always will be, you are a great son and always was even when you were an ass. Now you are a great father and always will be even when your son might be an ass. That is life! Your quit is such an inspiration to me and hope that I return some of the help to you that you dish out to all of us on a regular basis.
WT we share in victories and bare each others burdens. That's what brothers do.
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Another great post ..........you are Yoda...
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Day 85
Today is the 6th anniversary of my dads sudden death. He died in a roll over car accident. I thought today would be a difficult day since I always mourned and remembered him with a dip in my mouth.Â
I expected cravings like no other. My Dad was a ninja smoker and I was a ninja dipper. So I always thought a dip was kind of a tribute. I expected the cravings and was preparing for the worst.Â
Not So Today, I really had an a ha moment. All the new and old quitters reading this. Quitting may be hard, it may take determination and effort.Â
Why do I love being quit? The work is rewarding and the burden of my quit is light.Â
I compared it to all the work, determination and deception I had to put into getting my nicotine fix.Â
It is 10 times harder to be an out of control addict. It dawned on me. People think it is just too hard and too taxing to be quit so they cave and dip. Today, I recalled how hard and taxing it was to dip....
Remembering all your hiding places for tin, the excuses to leave a party, the need to drive to nowhere and dip. The need to pull over and throw away your bottle of spit before you get home. The worry of getting caught and having to explain. Picking up the wrong soda can and drinking your own spittoon of crap. Staying up late and losing sleep because you can't sleep until you dip. Opening a can and then forgetting it is opened and packing it to throw it all over the room. Scrambling to clean it up before anyone sees it all over. Worrying that it is not clean enough and you may have some evidence overlooked. Having your wife act strange and wonder if she is on to you dipping. Making sure that I used my secret debit card so that my 8 and 12 dollar purchases at the gas station didn't raise a red flag when my wife balanced the checking account. When she was paying bills, worrying that I may have used the wrong card for purchases. Always covering my tracks and paranoid that I didn't do a good enough job. Falling asleep with a dip in my mouth and having a chew stain on my pillow case. Putting it in my car until I could get it washed without anyone noticing. Living on the edge of getting caught in my lies. Willing to do whatever it took to dip and pay the price if I got caught.  Â
Yeah when I think of the life I lived as an out of control addict. Quitting tobacco is a lighter burden and easy in comparison. I love being quit!Â
God Speed dad but I will no longer remember you for our sneaking out to get a nic fix. I will no longer remember you with a tribute dip. You are more than that to me. I will remember you as my father and as my best friend.
You own this stuff. Epic.
To quote your very first post,
I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
You are back, bro. Rock on.
Thanks, Its great to be back and healthier too.
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Great post brother!
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I was at the gas station filled up my tank, went inside to get a diet coke. While waiting in line, behind the counter is a wall of tins. So many varieties…my mouth starts to salivate and I can see myself ordering a can.
Great story.
Any you guys ever look at that wall 'o tins now and fantasize pulling out your .45 or a Mossberg for a little close-in target practice? I can see it in slow-motion, Matrix-style, with debris everywhere and the counter clerks diving for cover . . .
I always thought how fun it would me to get guns an shoot the shit out of tobacco cans! My problem is I don't want a damn penny to go to that evil empire of killers.
So riddle me this, how can I live ou my dream of shooting cans matrixx style without giving tobacco my money? (I don't want to risk jail time either).
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I was at the gas station filled up my tank, went inside to get a diet coke. While waiting in line, behind the counter is a wall of tins. So many varieties…my mouth starts to salivate and I can see myself ordering a can.
Great story.
Any you guys ever look at that wall 'o tins now and fantasize pulling out your .45 or a Mossberg for a little close-in target practice? I can see it in slow-motion, Matrix-style, with debris everywhere and the counter clerks diving for cover . . .
I always thought how fun it would me to get guns an shoot the shit out of tobacco cans! My problem is I don't want a damn penny to go to that evil empire of killers.
So riddle me this, how can I live ou my dream of shooting cans matrixx style without giving tobacco my money? (I don't want to risk jail time either).
easy.....you shoot the tins of that fucking blond headed retard (yes - I said RETARD) on youtube with a wall of tins behind him
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I was at the gas station filled up my tank, went inside to get a diet coke. While waiting in line, behind the counter is a wall of tins. So many varieties…my mouth starts to salivate and I can see myself ordering a can.
Great story.
Any you guys ever look at that wall 'o tins now and fantasize pulling out your .45 or a Mossberg for a little close-in target practice? I can see it in slow-motion, Matrix-style, with debris everywhere and the counter clerks diving for cover . . .
I always thought how fun it would me to get guns an shoot the shit out of tobacco cans! My problem is I don't want a damn penny to go to that evil empire of killers.
So riddle me this, how can I live ou my dream of shooting cans matrixx style without giving tobacco my money? (I don't want to risk jail time either).
easy.....you shoot the tins of that fucking blond headed retard (yes - I said RETARD) on youtube with a wall of tins behind him
yes - this fuckstick.......what a fucking moron
DIPSHIT FUCKSTICK (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6o86zlZP5AU)
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Day 86 - 94
Well two observations over the last few days. My quit is simple and effective now.
My confidence has grown in my ability, desire, knowledge and need to control my addiction to nicotine.
I am so full of gratitude for the friendships I have made on this site. Some people are faceless, I only know you by your avatars. However, there is a brotherhood of having each others back that I really needed and appreciate in this fight.
So in the last few days, really there where only two events that caused triggers. One was my trip to Lake Powell. Before my quit, I cherished and loved sleeping on top of the houseboat, looking at the bright stars and dipping my ass off into the night.
This trip, I was still sleeping on the houseboat looking at the stars but I recruited a few of the teenagers to come up top. We had some really deep conversations, looked at constellations and I got to listen and realize how exciting and scary it is for the young graduates to start thinking about what their dreams and goals were. They didn't know about my battle to overcome this addiction. My thoughts were, relationships kick the shit out of solitary confinement to chew.
My daughters friends were so awesome and if this is a representation of the future generation....we are in good hands. I really am glad that I spent time with the kids vs. a can of shit. It was a better trade!
The other trigger would be my birthday. Nothing more to say except that the triggers aren't hard. You get them you just move on. No labor fighting it or worrying about it. You promised to quit today and the choice is made today. Tomorrow we worry about when it comes. It is simple and has kept me quit.
The vets were right. Fight it every day and it gets easier. Some days, it was hard to believe but today, I am living what they said. I am a witness from experiences. It gets easier.
Just stay consistent. Post roll, keep your word, win your match today and repeat.
It is so simple. I am not afraid of the battle anymore. I know I will have them but the opponent is so easy, I just never want to take it for granted. KTC will keep me from being too cocky or stupid.
BTW, Thank you for the B-day wishes. Text from wedgie and WT. Good thoughts and motivation. Suck-it thanks for keeping me 100% on posting roll. Stitch, I am glad to also quit alcohol with you.
The burden of being nic free is light. I would never want to let my addiction control me again. That life is miserable and fraudulent.
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Right on! Freedom is awesome!
You keep posting roll every day.
Proud to be quit with you.
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Day 86 - 94
Well two observations over the last few days. My quit is simple and effective now.
My confidence has grown in my ability, desire, knowledge and need to control my addiction to nicotine.
I am so full of gratitude for the friendships I have made on this site. Some people are faceless, I only know you by your avatars. However, there is a brotherhood of having each others back that I really needed and appreciate in this fight.
So in the last few days, really there where only two events that caused triggers. One was my trip to Lake Powell. Before my quit, I cherished and loved sleeping on top of the houseboat, looking at the bright stars and dipping my ass off into the night.
This trip, I was still sleeping on the houseboat looking at the stars but I recruited a few of the teenagers to come up top. We had some really deep conversations, looked at constellations and I got to listen and realize how exciting and scary it is for the young graduates to start thinking about what their dreams and goals were. They didn't know about my battle to overcome this addiction. My thoughts were, relationships kick the shit out of solitary confinement to chew.
My daughters friends were so awesome and if this is a representation of the future generation....we are in good hands. I really am glad that I spent time with the kids vs. a can of shit. It was a better trade!
The other trigger would be my birthday. Nothing more to say except that the triggers aren't hard. You get them you just move on. No labor fighting it or worrying about it. You promised to quit today and the choice is made today. Tomorrow we worry about when it comes. It is simple and has kept me quit.
The vets were right. Fight it every day and it gets easier. Some days, it was hard to believe but today, I am living what they said. I am a witness from experiences. It gets easier.
Just stay consistent. Post roll, keep your word, win your match today and repeat.
KTC will keep me from being too cocky or stupid.
BTW, Thank you for the B-day wishes. Text from wedgie and WT. Good thoughts and motivation. Suck-it thanks for keeping me 100% on posting roll. Stitch, I am glad to also quit alcohol with you.
The burden of being nic free is light. I would never want to let my addiction control me again. That life is miserable and fraudulent.
It is so simple. I am not afraid of the battle anymore. I know I will have them but the opponent is so easy, I just never want to take it for granted.
Really like how this is worded- so simple, but so effective.
Welcome Back!!
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MT good to have ya back. I agree 100% about the friendship part the brotherhood here is awesome. As for the trigger, thanks I really hadn't thought much about it. They are becoming annoying rather than troublesome. Each day and each success is just another reward for us to cherish and store up as another victory in this war that we threw ourselves into. Thank for being the example I need in my life.
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Day 86 - 94
Well two observations over the last few days. My quit is simple and effective now.Â
My confidence has grown in my ability, desire, knowledge and need to control my addiction to nicotine.Â
I am so full of gratitude for the friendships I have made on this site. Some people are faceless, I only know you by your avatars. However, there is a brotherhood of having each others back that I really needed and appreciate in this fight.Â
So in the last few days, really there where only two events that caused triggers. One was my trip to Lake Powell. Before my quit, I cherished and loved sleeping on top of the houseboat, looking at the bright stars and dipping my ass off into the night.Â
This trip, I was still sleeping on the houseboat looking at the stars but I recruited a few of the teenagers to come up top. We had some really deep conversations, looked at constellations and I got to listen and realize how exciting and scary it is for the young graduates to start thinking about what their dreams and goals were. They didn't know about my battle to overcome this addiction. My thoughts were, relationships kick the shit out of solitary confinement to chew.
My daughters friends were so awesome and if this is a representation of the future generation....we are in good hands. I really am glad that I spent time with the kids vs. a can of shit. It was a better trade!Â
The other trigger would be my birthday. Nothing more to say except that the triggers aren't hard. You get them you just move on. No labor fighting it or worrying about it. You promised to quit today and the choice is made today. Tomorrow we worry about when it comes. It is simple and has kept me quit.Â
The vets were right. Fight it every day and it gets easier. Some days, it was hard to believe but today, I am living what they said. I am a witness from experiences. It gets easier.Â
Just stay consistent. Post roll, keep your word, win your match today and repeat.Â
 KTC will keep me from being too cocky or stupid.Â
BTW, Thank you for the B-day wishes. Text from wedgie and WT. Good thoughts and motivation. Suck-it thanks for keeping me 100% on posting roll. Stitch, I am glad to also quit alcohol with you.Â
The burden of being nic free is light. I would never want to let my addiction control me again. That life is miserable and fraudulent.
It is so simple. I am not afraid of the battle anymore. I know I will have them but the opponent is so easy, I just never want to take it for granted.
Really like how this is worded- so simple, but so effective.
Welcome Back!!
He always does this in an awesome way!
Good to see you back and I hope you had a fantastic trip brother!
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Day 86 - 94
Well two observations over the last few days. My quit is simple and effective now.
My confidence has grown in my ability, desire, knowledge and need to control my addiction to nicotine.
I am so full of gratitude for the friendships I have made on this site. Some people are faceless, I only know you by your avatars. However, there is a brotherhood of having each others back that I really needed and appreciate in this fight.
So in the last few days, really there where only two events that caused triggers. One was my trip to Lake Powell. Before my quit, I cherished and loved sleeping on top of the houseboat, looking at the bright stars and dipping my ass off into the night.
This trip, I was still sleeping on the houseboat looking at the stars but I recruited a few of the teenagers to come up top. We had some really deep conversations, looked at constellations and I got to listen and realize how exciting and scary it is for the young graduates to start thinking about what their dreams and goals were. They didn't know about my battle to overcome this addiction. My thoughts were, relationships kick the shit out of solitary confinement to chew.
My daughters friends were so awesome and if this is a representation of the future generation....we are in good hands. I really am glad that I spent time with the kids vs. a can of shit. It was a better trade!
The other trigger would be my birthday. Nothing more to say except that the triggers aren't hard. You get them you just move on. No labor fighting it or worrying about it. You promised to quit today and the choice is made today. Tomorrow we worry about when it comes. It is simple and has kept me quit.
The vets were right. Fight it every day and it gets easier. Some days, it was hard to believe but today, I am living what they said. I am a witness from experiences. It gets easier.
Just stay consistent. Post roll, keep your word, win your match today and repeat.
It is so simple. I am not afraid of the battle anymore. I know I will have them but the opponent is so easy, I just never want to take it for granted. KTC will keep me from being too cocky or stupid.
BTW, Thank you for the B-day wishes. Text from wedgie and WT. Good thoughts and motivation. Suck-it thanks for keeping me 100% on posting roll. Stitch, I am glad to also quit alcohol with you.
The burden of being nic free is light. I would never want to let my addiction control me again. That life is miserable and fraudulent.
Great to have you back. Place got a little quiet with you gone. Wake the house up!!! Great post and thanks for sharing. You the man
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Day 95 - 97
Good to be back on KTC and survived another weekend. I am so close to the HOF now. It seems like I have been quit forever but the 97 days has been quick. Once I get into the triple digits of quit days, I am only going to write in this journal on days that are significant.
So this weekend was actually a joy to be quit. I felt like I got to give back in support. For those that texted and called me for support. Thank you for trusting me. I am not a professional but I hope my coaching and cheer-leading was helpful. I am so inspired and proud that you won your matches on your own. I was just loving the opportunity to be a coach and cheerleader. (I always wanted to be a coach for a living)
Anyway, here is a story that I will relate to tobacco. At Lake Powell they had a sling shot. (The kind you see at basketball games that they shoot shirts to the crowd)
Well my youngest son caught a lizard. The boys would put the lizard in the pouch and launch it into the lake. They did this a few times and then my boy thought the lizard had enough. He swam the lizard back to where he found it an let it go. He got back in the lake and swam back. When he got to the other side of the shore, they noticed that the lizard was on Scotty's back. So the lizard must have jumped on his back but they took that as the lizard wanted to play some more. So they launched the lizard a few more times into the lake.
Finally when Scotty retrieved the lizard, the lizard was missing a leg. So all the kids told Scotty to put the lizard out of his misery. Scotty walked the lizard up a sandy hill to a large rock. Set the lizard on the rock and then picked up another rock in his had.
Without thought, without hesitation he slammed the rock on the lizard and killed it. The boys and girls where in shock. Some yelled at Scotty but his job was to kill the lizard and he executed it without ceremony or thought....He just did it.
I am sharing this story because with some of my conversations this weekend, and some of the post that I have read, I think Scotty presents a good example in fighting cravings. You don't hesitate. Once you make a decision, you execute the objective.
Whats the point in letting a lizard suffer any longer when it has already been decided to kill it.
Whats the point in entertaining a craving when it was already decided that you are quit? The longer you entertain a craving, the more difficult that craving becomes. You already made the choice to quit so execute your quit today. Let temptations lie or kill it.
In Lake Powell, there are many tall canyon walls. We found a great spot with many levels to cliff dive. Nice deep water and with depth meters, you can jump safely without fear of hitting rocks.
I stood on a cliff. I have done it before but I was nervous this time. I knew that I would jump and be okay. Yet I didn't jump. I just kept staring at the water. The longer I looked, the more I second guessed and the harder it was to leap off the cliff. My same son climbed up on the cliff. He said, "Dad are you going to jump?" I said, "Yeah, just building up the nerve to." He said, "If you are going to do it, then do it. If you think too long, you will second guess yourself into being a chicken." He then said, I don't over-think because I am not a chicken I came up here to jump into the water so that's just what you do"...and then he jumped.
He splashed in the water, came up and said, see dad you just do it and you will be fine. That kid is 14 and I just turned 42. So I stared again but over thought. I finally jumped and when I hit the water, I came up realizing that jumping wasn't hard. It was the thinking and indecisiveness that made it hard.
Morale of the story, You already decided to quit. The decision is made, if you over think, entertain, or regret that you quit during a crave you just made your quit difficult. If you quit and post roll, no craving should get you because the decision has already been made. Your are nic free today period! If you got yourself in a mess where you have over thought it. Let someone come to the cliff with you and jump first. The craving will go away and you will see the ease in beating the addicted mind.
In short
When you have a craving, don't entertain it. Like the lizard on the rock, quickly put it out of its misery. Its already going to die, you don't need a production or ceremony just kill the craving.
Once you post roll and quit for the day, don't over-think it. You quit today, that's it. You don't need to worry about a craving. If it comes, there is no point to think about it because you quit today. Who cares about tomorrow. Like jumping the cliff. Its fun and an adrenaline rush. Don't waste your time in thinking about jumping. Just leap and enjoy the fun of your quit and triumphs over addiction.
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"Killin' The Lizard" . . . . I like that!
Believe it or not, at Day 602 today, the nicBitch whispered in my ear. I saw a guy dipping and thought for just a moment, "man a dip would be nice right now."
A couple of seconds later my KTC-Brain engaged and whispered, "that's a lie and you know it. Is killing yourself nice?"
I gave the nicBitch the finger (literally) and moved on. I like stompin on that Lizard!
Keep strong, MT, the best part of being quit is still ahead.
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"Killin' The Lizard" . . . . I like that!
Believe it or not, at Day 602 today, the nicBitch whispered in my ear. I saw a guy dipping and thought for just a moment, "man a dip would be nice right now."
A couple of seconds later my KTC-Brain engaged and whispered, "that's a lie and you know it. Is killing yourself nice?"
I gave the nicBitch the finger (literally) and moved on. I like stompin on that Lizard!
Keep strong, MT, the best part of being quit is still ahead.
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Thanks for sharing. It is so fun to hear about victories. Also an eye opener and reminder that even after a couple years, the cravings can hit you. Wow, proud to follow your lead. Everything you vets told me is true.
The quit life. It gets easier and is so sweet!
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Day 95 - 97
Like jumping the cliff. Its fun and an adrenaline rush. Don't waste your time in thinking about jumping. Just leap and enjoy the fun of your quit and triumphs over addiction.
... just make sure to jump feet first off these cliffs!!
Epic stuff, as always.
Stay strong, you are almost to your first milestone.
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MT!!!
First it was kissin the toads ass. Now killin a lizard, what are you teaching that kid?
Seriously, I love what you say and how your stories always relate so well. I'll always be looking for a big rock when I have a crave!!
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Chrismas Eve Day 99
So tomorrow is the first real mile marker day of my quit. I have my HOF speech in a draft. It might be a shock but it isnÂ’t a book. I guess Mthomastherapy covered most of my thoughts on the first hundred days. One thing that isn't in my speech is the thanks and appreciation you give when you win. Behind every goal, there is a cast that was with you all the way and you couldn't do it without them.
How do you mention everyone that had an impact on your quit? It becomes a worry of, “who am I forgetting or who am I missing” vs. focusing your heartfelt thanks to those you do mention. So I am using my final double digit day to express gratitude.
DippShit First person I met on KTC. I was dipping and went into chat. Said I was going to quit but failed so many times. He told me if I really wanted to quit, no need to wait. Flush it and post. He was the ignition to my desire to quit.
Chat FU Forbes, Timeless, Tarp etc. Chat saved my bacon many times. Laughing out loud at some of the conversations and stories. Watching new quitters come in and be excited to see a new quitter. Amazed that the conversations always ended up talking about Trannies, Fapping, My multiple wives (Not true) Politics, legalization of pot. Fights, rages and comedy. The entertainment kept my quit from getting dull and boring. It was a fun and therapeutic.
Coach Steve and the house of April Thank you for being the craziest bunch of quitters. When I felt sorry for myself, hurt or struggled. Laughter seemed to be the best cure for me. I would read Coach's plays and just drop my jaw in shock and then bust up laughing. I would re-read and yep that is what he wrote. I loved the drama, nic rages, comedy and sorrow. I didn't have my can, but you guys gave me a reality tv show.
Grizzly and May Grizzly was the constant encouragement of my quit. Always built me up. Rgross taught me the value of hating the tobacco industry and being very determined and like a stealth in my quit. Rgross built me up to a point where I didn't hope I knew...No big deal to quit, we got this. I was having a bad day and Jonathonrivers sent a message, “I like your style. I quit with you today.”
Beloved June Platoon The no nonsense of quit. Just a group that seemed to post roll and go to work on quit. Not much chatter for audience but many PMÂ’s of significance. Suck-it, what a great coach and mentor. Always blazed the trail and had me prepared and on guard for the next fog, funk etc. Stitch22 inspiring me to double down and swear off alcohol. SWJ his stories and writing abilityÂ…so fun to take a break and enjoy his thoughts and humor. Tbenny, Raiderx, ntartick, mcasalinova, Copenope, Weatherman, Carumba, PCpowder.
The So Cal Choir of Flaming Gheyness Gonzo, Stunt32, GoldenDomer, Froman and Stitch. Thanks for staying Ghey for me.
July WT, the only KTC brother to meet face to face. Text, talks and bad ass support. Loved your nic rages, philosophy and stories. Kept me sane. Dag was with you the day you spit it out! Now 86 days! A goof but serious about his quit. Laughed when he had been here a day and called Tarpon in chat “Tampon”. Ktharp, hockplaya, Yote, Buddy Mac, Wedgie, JohnK
August and September Joemello, Redflight, Circle T, Cubsball, P23, Rez, kjsylva82, 30isEnuff, Morgan1, gooch, Want2Quit, Roadblock, Ballplayer76, jrws
To the founders and Vets of KTC Thank you for the education, the ass kicking, the motivation, the forum to be who am I and focus about quitting. I love the kool aid. You care so much for our lives and your time was valued by me. I hope I keep earning your respect so that you know that my life was worth saving. Wastpanel your avatar still frightens me!
Could have Beens Your example taught me what to watch for and not do. I made sure to post roll, not get drunk, and make an exception or excuse to dip.
Tobacco Industry and nicotine You had me by the balls. You were killing my soul. Thank you for being a good opponent at first. For making it suck. For seducing and calling me. You have become disgusting to me and I loathe you. Thank you for being who your are so that my decision and work to quit you is never second guessed. YOU SUCK you Little Bitch!
Here is one last curtain call to those that influenced me at tough crossroads. Sometimes I hated that I answered to you but deep down I always respected and wanted to keep your trust in me and my quit.
Thanks!
Wt57, rgross298, Keddy, Suck-It, Grizzly25, Cubsball13, Miles, raiderx, DennyX, Buddy Mac,
GBPid, razd611, Scowick65, carumba10, Souliman, Greg5280, dgonseaux, TonySelle, CBird65, rangy96, SWJ, ntartick, raiderx, Miles, Aglawyer, D2maine, jonathanrivers, tsmith17, zaaa96, klinger1986, MikeA,
CoachDoc, Bean, Froman, Gonzo, Goldendomer, SWJ, Wastepanel, Tarpon, Pville, Rocketman, Klark, Moondawggy, 30yr addict, noonelikesaquitter, cbird and KTC UNITED!
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Pure class! I have a feeling there will be a long line thanking you for your support for years to come.
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Smile. Well done friend.
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Outstanding my friend!
You have been a great a awesome inspiration.
I am so honored to be quit with you keep up the amazing quit brother, you have been and will continue to be a true bad ass quiter!!!!!!
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Even though we do not talk much, you are one of the people I look up to on this site. You are an inspiration and I have much respect for your thoughts and words. Congrats man on a great milestone!!
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Thank You Bro. You have kept me sane, if thats possible.
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You got me through my first breakdown, first craving, he'll even my first post. I know I am the newbie here but I want to say congratulations and stay strong. Thank you for being theret for me you are a real badass!
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You have my respect
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Huge big time congrats MT. I know 100 days is only a milestone on the path, but it's still a big deal. You have helped me along the way, and I know you have helped several others in July alone. I'm sure there are just as many in August and September and will be many more in the months to come.
So thank you for your trust, time, confidence, and most of all, friendship.
~Mark
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Very proud of you man.
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Well done man, well done..
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Grats MT,
I only joined a few days ago, but after my intro post it took a matter of minutes before you offered your help to me in any way, shape or form. You didn't have to but you did. I know I haven't called upon you in a time of need yet, but if I hit that spot I know you will be there to help.
You're a lifeline. You're a badass.
Congrats on your 100.
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MThomas - Congrats, u the man and I will post you on my Christmas eve!! 'boob' 'boob'
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Congrats on 100 MT. I appreciate you reaching out and being there at the beginning of my quit. I know I am not the only one who appreciates that and I know there will be many more. I look forward to staying quit with you.
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Congrats on the big 100
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Congrats bro, keep up the good work. Remeber 100 days is just the beginning of your journey. KTC has given you the tools, go forward and kick ass brother.
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Well brother - you did it. First big milestone and you should be very proud. A huge thank you to you. If it wasn't for your friendship, help and support I would have been in trouble several times in my quit. You have always been there when called on and even timely calls out of the blue that were well needed. Your posts are inspiring and motivation for all. Keep up the good work. No need to tell you that the fight goes on and there is the post HOF funk headed your way in about 15 days - I know, I am such a downer. But, be prepared and continue to fight. Again, words I don't need to tell you.
Perfect timing to hit the Hall and hit another vacation. I hope this is your wife treating you to a big quit celebration. Enjoy brother you have truly earned it.
Have fun on vacation and holler at me if you need a thing.
Congrats
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Congrats.
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Awesome MT !
Great stories and analogies. Some have really hit home. I swear you have been reading my mind with a few of them. You have been a pillar of strength for many on the site.
Keep it up.
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If I recall your foggy days, your first intro post was erroneously done in my intro. I now consider that a great honor and it is a cherished part of my thread. Way to go dude. congrats on the C-note worth of quit.
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If I recall your foggy days, your first intro post was erroneously done in my intro. I now consider that a great honor and it is a cherished part of my thread. Way to go dude. congrats on the C-note worth of quit.
Wow. I just went Back through your intro. First I am glad I did. You are brilliant. Good read to help me be strong.
Second, I'm a dickhead! Fortunately I think you gave me some latitude for being the new ghey kid. Thanks for not busting my balls early. If that has become something you now like in your intro, I will try to keep improving so that it never is something you want removed.
Thanks for the props. The HOF is a great trophy to put in the case but I don't want one prize collecting dust. I want to fill that case with more trophys. Next title, 200!
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Nice quit you have there!
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Day 112
So I am back from vacation. While the country went through a heat wave, I was lucky to be in Oceanside California. Beach was great, Ocean was fun and it seemed like the temperatures were in the 70's. I was just glad to take a break. I am quit. I never had any triggers or cravings. Made a lot of stops into gas stations. (We drove) I would look behind the counter and notice the nicotine packaged nicely and always on sale. Yet it wasn't difficult to pass up. It wasn't seductive and I wasn't interested. Still noticed it. I didn't want to go back. I loved pulling out change and seeing my KTC coin. I cherish what it means to me.
Seemed like there were a few cavers on KTC. Some have been here for a very, very long time. Thanks for reminding me that I am an addict. I know that even though my quit is easy, I need to always protect it.
Some newbies caved. Thanks, I know this isn't easy work and my undefeated record is a statement of what it takes to succeed.
To both the old and..young pull your head out of your asses and fight today. Once you quit, you are at war! As long as nicotine is around, you are in a battle. There never is going back to ignorance. Once you learn truth, you live in it or you defy it.
Grow up and stay quit. Defy your quit and you are worse off than the ones that never quit or nver started.
You chose to quit so
Do it and Be it!
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Day 112
So I am back from vacation. While the country went through a heat wave, I was lucky to be in Oceanside California. Beach was great, Ocean was fun and it seemed like the temperatures were in the 70's. I was just glad to take a break. I am quit. I never had any triggers or cravings. Made a lot of stops into gas stations. (We drove) I would look behind the counter and notice the nicotine packaged nicely and always on sale. Yet it wasn't difficult to pass up. It wasn't seductive and I wasn't interested. Still noticed it. I didn't want to go back. I loved pulling out change and seeing my KTC coin. I cherish what it means to me.
Seemed like there were a few cavers on KTC. Some have been here for a very, very long time. Thanks for reminding me that I am an addict. I know that even though my quit is easy, I need to always protect it.
Some newbies caved. Thanks, I know this isn't easy work and my undefeated record is a statement of what it takes to succeed.
To both the old and..young pull your head out of your asses and fight today. Once you quit, you are at war! As long as nicotine is around, you are in a battle. There never is going back to ignorance. Once you learn truth, you live in it or you defy it.
Grow up and stay quit. Defy your quit and you are worse off than the ones that never quit or nver started.
You chose to quit so
Do it and Be it!
Nice to hear your story - trying to follow in your footsteps.......
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Day 112
So I am back from vacation. While the country went through a heat wave, I was lucky to be in Oceanside California. Beach was great, Ocean was fun and it seemed like the temperatures were in the 70's. I was just glad to take a break. I am quit. I never had any triggers or cravings. Made a lot of stops into gas stations. (We drove) I would look behind the counter and notice the nicotine packaged nicely and always on sale. Yet it wasn't difficult to pass up. It wasn't seductive and I wasn't interested. Still noticed it. I didn't want to go back. I loved pulling out change and seeing my KTC coin. I cherish what it means to me.
Seemed like there were a few cavers on KTC. Some have been here for a very, very long time. Thanks for reminding me that I am an addict. I know that even though my quit is easy, I need to always protect it.Â
Some newbies caved. Thanks, I know this isn't easy work and my undefeated record is a statement of what it takes to succeed.Â
To both the old and..young pull your head out of your asses and fight today. Once you quit, you are at war! As long as nicotine is around, you are in a battle. There never is going back to ignorance. Once you learn truth, you live in it or you defy it. Â
Grow up and stay quit. Defy your quit and you are worse off than the ones that never quit or nver started.Â
You chose to quit so
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Do it and Be it!
Nice to hear your story - trying to follow in your footsteps.......
Sorry - not Trying - I am.....
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Day 112
So I am back from vacation. While the country went through a heat wave, I was lucky to be in Oceanside California. Beach was great, Ocean was fun and it seemed like the temperatures were in the 70's. I was just glad to take a break. I am quit. I never had any triggers or cravings. Made a lot of stops into gas stations. (We drove) I would look behind the counter and notice the nicotine packaged nicely and always on sale. Yet it wasn't difficult to pass up. It wasn't seductive and I wasn't interested. Still noticed it. I didn't want to go back. I loved pulling out change and seeing my KTC coin. I cherish what it means to me.
Seemed like there were a few cavers on KTC. Some have been here for a very, very long time. Thanks for reminding me that I am an addict. I know that even though my quit is easy, I need to always protect it.Â
Some newbies caved. Thanks, I know this isn't easy work and my undefeated record is a statement of what it takes to succeed.Â
To both the old and..young pull your head out of your asses and fight today. Once you quit, you are at war! As long as nicotine is around, you are in a battle. There never is going back to ignorance. Once you learn truth, you live in it or you defy it. Â
Grow up and stay quit. Defy your quit and you are worse off than the ones that never quit or nver started.Â
You chose to quit so
  Â
Do it and Be it!
Nice to hear your story - trying to follow in your footsteps.......
Sorry - not Trying - I am.....
If you look close tinman there are a whole bunch of tracks around MT many of us are following him, others are walking side by side with him and there are thousands that have left their tracks before, for him to follow. Sometimes we follow, sometimes we lead but most of the time we walk side by side! This is a lesson to be learned none of us are alone in this battle. I'm 93 -0 what a example MT is!
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Day 112
So I am back from vacation. While the country went through a heat wave, I was lucky to be in Oceanside California. Beach was great, Ocean was fun and it seemed like the temperatures were in the 70's. I was just glad to take a break. I am quit. I never had any triggers or cravings. Made a lot of stops into gas stations. (We drove) I would look behind the counter and notice the nicotine packaged nicely and always on sale. Yet it wasn't difficult to pass up. It wasn't seductive and I wasn't interested. Still noticed it. I didn't want to go back. I loved pulling out change and seeing my KTC coin. I cherish what it means to me.
Seemed like there were a few cavers on KTC. Some have been here for a very, very long time. Thanks for reminding me that I am an addict. I know that even though my quit is easy, I need to always protect it.Â
Some newbies caved. Thanks, I know this isn't easy work and my undefeated record is a statement of what it takes to succeed.Â
To both the old and..young pull your head out of your asses and fight today. Once you quit, you are at war! As long as nicotine is around, you are in a battle. There never is going back to ignorance. Once you learn truth, you live in it or you defy it. Â
Grow up and stay quit. Defy your quit and you are worse off than the ones that never quit or nver started.Â
You chose to quit so
  Â
Do it and Be it!
Nice to hear your story - trying to follow in your footsteps.......
Sorry - not Trying - I am.....
If you look close tinman there are a whole bunch of tracks around MT many of us are following him, others are walking side by side with him and there are thousands that have left their tracks before, for him to follow. Sometimes we follow, sometimes we lead but most of the time we walk side by side! This is a lesson to be learned none of us are alone in this battle. I'm 93 -0 what a example MT is!
Sniff. Sniff. Stop it wt you are making me cry
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Day 127
Oh you addicts!!!! How slow to remember and quick to forget your desire to quit.
So I go on vacation and come back. Yes we had some cavers. It seems like more lately than I recall in my short past. I was taken back when I found out today that one of the newbies that I really like surrendered to nicotine. His quit and determination inspired me. I remember calling him out and saying that he wasn't going to make it. That he wasn't quitting for him. His name is Patrick and I said, make it a couple weeks and I will stop calling you Patty. He was such a bad ass that I publicly apologized to his group and admitted that I was wrong....It saddens me to be proven right.
I am sad and mourn the loss. However, my war is still waged and nicotine just lit this fire in me.
After 911, I was in Florida. Our driver was from Israel and 911 was a huge topic at the time. He basically was saying America now understands what terrorism is. He also said, America will learn soon that you never can negotiate with a terrorist. If you give in, they just want more and more. He said the only way to negotiate with a terrorist is if they kill one of yours, you must kill 5 of theirs. That stuck with me.
So The Terrorist organization just killed one of mine. Now I am going to take back 5 of hers today. I think it can be done if I have help from you all. We have 12 hours to get 5 people to flush the poison and post day 1 today! There has to be one person each of us knows that we can and should call to let them know the rewards of controlling our addiction and quitting....whomever just came to mind, will you please pick up the phone without hesitation and call them now and share your quit and experience with them.? Lead them to the site and help them win back their freedom!
Never forget you wanted to quit and you posted day 1. It is a battle at times but winning the battle is so rewarding. Don't forget that if you cave, you will want to quit again. I have seen it over and over. Just stay quit.
Never be like a dog and return to your own vomit! Why spit it out to lament about how hard it is not to have just one. NEVER, EVER again. I wake and post roll to remind me that I want to be quit, that I want to steer clear of the evil creature and that I want to keep my word to you all. Aren't you all like that?
I am growing tired of the stupidity of caving. Wake the fuck up and stand guard. Protect your freedom like you would protect your family!!! Quitting isn't easy but it is a simple process. Never, Never, Never, ever surrender to nicotine. I would rather crave than cave. I would take the pain over the buzz any day of the week. I am FREE and I can beat my addiction with a proven strategy and so can YOU!
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Thank you MT for your inspiration!
I am very proud to be quit with you!
I too, would rather crave than cave.
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Day 127
Oh you addicts!!!! How slow to remember and quick to forget your desire to quit.
I too have been hurt deeply by nicotines grip on a couple of newbies: first gaidenfocus who called me dickface after I challenged his commitment. He later came admitted his error and began posting, now he has quit even coming online! Next my good friend grizzlydipper18 he still responds to my text but that fire needed to quit isn't there yet! The bitch will win him back again if he doesn't wake up.
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MT - Great to be back on line and reading your posts. Keep up the good fight and continue to motivate others along the way. Looking forward to UNLV - right around the corner. See ya there and Go Gophers!!!
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MT - Great to be back on line and reading your posts. Keep up the good fight and continue to motivate others along the way. Looking forward to UNLV - right around the corner. See ya there and Go Gophers!!!
Looking forward to seeing the gophers beat down Unlv. I've got to order my shirt and hoody!
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Day 127
Oh you addicts!!!! How slow to remember and quick to forget your desire to quit.
So I go on vacation and come back. Yes we had some cavers. It seems like more lately than I recall in my short past. I was taken back when I found out today that one of the newbies that I really like surrendered to nicotine. His quit and determination inspired me. I remember calling him out and saying that he wasn't going to make it. That he wasn't quitting for him. His name is Patrick and I said, make it a couple weeks and I will stop calling you Patty. He was such a bad ass that I publicly apologized to his group and admitted that I was wrong....It saddens me to be proven right.
I am sad and mourn the loss. However, my war is still waged and nicotine just lit this fire in me.
After 911, I was in Florida. Our driver was from Israel and 911 was a huge topic at the time. He basically was saying America now understands what terrorism is. He also said, America will learn soon that you never can negotiate with a terrorist. If you give in, they just want more and more. He said the only way to negotiate with a terrorist is if they kill one of yours, you must kill 5 of theirs. That stuck with me.
So The Terrorist organization just killed one of mine. Now I am going to take back 5 of hers today. I think it can be done if I have help from you all. We have 12 hours to get 5 people to flush the poison and post day 1 today! There has to be one person each of us knows that we can and should call to let them know the rewards of controlling our addiction and quitting....whomever just came to mind, will you please pick up the phone without hesitation and call them now and share your quit and experience with them.? Lead them to the site and help them win back their freedom!
Never forget you wanted to quit and you posted day 1. It is a battle at times but winning the battle is so rewarding. Don't forget that if you cave, you will want to quit again. I have seen it over and over. Just stay quit.
Never be like a dog and return to your own vomit! Why spit it out to lament about how hard it is not to have just one. NEVER, EVER again. I wake and post roll to remind me that I want to be quit, that I want to steer clear of the evil creature and that I want to keep my word to you all. Aren't you all like that?
I am growing tired of the stupidity of caving. Wake the fuck up and stand guard. Protect your freedom like you would protect your family!!! Quitting isn't easy but it is a simple process. Never, Never, Never, ever surrender to nicotine. I would rather crave than cave. I would take the pain over the buzz any day of the week. I am FREE and I can beat my addiction with a proven strategy and so can YOU!
Outstanding post. As usual. Didn't know patty caved. I think I called him Patricia. Oh well....
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Day 127
Oh you addicts!!!! How slow to remember and quick to forget your desire to quit.
So I go on vacation and come back. Yes we had some cavers. It seems like more lately than I recall in my short past. I was taken back when I found out today that one of the newbies that I really like surrendered to nicotine. His quit and determination inspired me. I remember calling him out and saying that he wasn't going to make it. That he wasn't quitting for him. His name is Patrick and I said, make it a couple weeks and I will stop calling you Patty. He was such a bad ass that I publicly apologized to his group and admitted that I was wrong....It saddens me to be proven right.  Â
I am sad and mourn the loss. However, my war is still waged and nicotine just lit this fire in me.Â
After 911, I was in Florida. Our driver was from Israel and 911 was a huge topic at the time. He basically was saying America now understands what terrorism is. He also said, America will learn soon that you never can negotiate with a terrorist. If you give in, they just want more and more. He said the only way to negotiate with a terrorist is if they kill one of yours, you must kill 5 of theirs. That stuck with me.Â
So The Terrorist organization just killed one of mine. Now I am going to take back 5 of hers today. I think it can be done if I have help from you all. We have 12 hours to get 5 people to flush the poison and post day 1 today! There has to be one person each of us knows that we can and should call to let them know the rewards of controlling our addiction and quitting....whomever just came to mind, will you please pick up the phone without hesitation and call them now and share your quit and experience with them.? Lead them to the site and help them win back their freedom!
Never forget you wanted to quit and you posted day 1. It is a battle at times but winning the battle is so rewarding. Don't forget that if you cave, you will want to quit again. I have seen it over and over. Just stay quit.Â
Never be like a dog and return to your own vomit! Why spit it out to lament about how hard it is not to have just one. NEVER, EVER again. I wake and post roll to remind me that I want to be quit, that I want to steer clear of the evil creature and that I want to keep my word to you all. Aren't you all like that?
I am growing tired of the stupidity of caving. Wake the fuck up and stand guard. Protect your freedom like you would protect your family!!! Quitting isn't easy but it is a simple process. Never, Never, Never, ever surrender to nicotine. I would rather crave than cave. I would take the pain over the buzz any day of the week. I am FREE and I can beat my addiction with a proven strategy and so can YOU!
Outstanding post. As usual. Didn't know patty caved. I think I called him Patricia. Oh well....
Damn, good post. Should put it in a more prominent place.
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Disclaimer: If you don't like Mormons or religious talk, don't read. I am not here to offend but this is my journal bitch and these are my thoughts.
Take what you need and leave the rest. Right? Right.
Day 132 – This is the right place. “All is well, All is well!”
For those of you who fell asleep during US History class in high school here is a little refresher on Utah History. In Utah we have the 4th of July celebrated with parades and fireworks. Then on the 24th of July, we celebrate again with parades and fireworks.
July 24th, 1847 was the day that the first Mormon Pioneers entered the salt lake valley to settle it. Brigham Young was ill with Rocky Mountain Fever and lay in the back of the wagon. The company turned his wagon around and he looked over the Salt Lake Valley. He recognized a Mountain Peak from a dream and said, “Gentlemen, this is the Right Place, drive on.” Now the Mormon settlers have just walked from Nauvoo, Ill to the Salt lake Valley. It was a Desert! The land was barren with sage brush and the soil was hard. Farmers didn’t look on this land with lust and excitement. Actually some thought it would be better to keep going west. Nonetheless, they stopped and settled.
The conflicts that lead Mormons to Utah can be documented back to October 27, 1838. The governor of Missouri, Lilburn Boggs issued Executive Order 44. (The Mormon Extermination Order) It would be 137 years before the extermination order was finally rescinded. That began militia going from door to door and expelling Mormons from their lands and home. Their property wasnÂ’t sold; it was seized as payment to fund the extermination of the Mormons. They were pushed northward into Illinois, where the Mormons settled Nauvoo. The Mormons ability to prosper was their downfall. They would gain voting rights and as a peculiar people, they raised concern about voting powers of those that were non Mormon. So paranoia raised conflicts. Once again, mobs assembled and conflicts arose. That led to deaths, tar and feathering, raping etc. The Mormons called on the federal government for protection of their rights as Americans but it couldnÂ’t or wouldnÂ’t be provided.
It became apparent that the Mormons had to leave Nauvoo to be able to practice their religious beliefs. Brigham Young lead the Mormons exodus to Salt Lake. On what is called, “The trail of hope.” Brigham young noticed that the morale of the saints was low. He went to William Clayton. “William I would like you to right a Hymn that instills hope to the saints. I want a song that lifts the sprits and lets our dear saints know, all is well." This hymn became an anthem to the nineteenth-century pioneers.
Come, Come Ye Saints
Come, come, ye saints, no toil nor labor fear;
But with joy wend your way.
Though hard to you this journey may appear,
Grace shall be as your day.
Tis better far for us to strive
Our useless cares from us to drive;
Do this, and joy your hearts will swell -
All is well! All is well!
Why should we mourn or think our lot is hard?
'Tis not so; all is right.
Why should we think to earn a great reward
If we now shun the fight?
Gird up your loins; fresh courage take.
Our God will never us forsake;
And soon we'll have this tale to tell-
All is well! All is well!
And should we die before our journey's through,
Happy day! All is well!
We then are free from toil and sorrow, too;
With the just we shall dwell!
But if our lives are spared again
To see the Saints their rest obtain,
Oh, how we'll make this chorus swell-
All is well! All is well!
As Utah begins its celebration of the Pioneers settling the Salt Lake Valley, I enjoy looking at this valley and seeing a Rose Blossom in a desert. I liken this celebration to my new celebration.
On March 14th, 2012. After being oppressed by tobacco, I arrived at KTC. This is the Right Place! Even in America, there can be injustice and you must get to a place where you can be free and flourish. The Salt Lake Valley to the Mormon Pioneers - I liken to Me and KTC. This is the Right place!
ALL IS WELL, ALL IS WELL.
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Disclaimer: If you don't like Mormons or religious talk, don't read. I am not here to offend but this is my journal bitch and these are my thoughts.
Take what you need and leave the rest. Right? Right.
Day 132 – This is the right place. “All is well, All is well!”
For those of you who fell asleep during US History class in high school here is a little refresher on Utah History. In Utah we have the 4th of July celebrated with parades and fireworks. Then on the 24th of July, we celebrate again with parades and fireworks.
July 24th, 1847 was the day that the first Mormon Pioneers entered the salt lake valley to settle it. Brigham Young was ill with Rocky Mountain Fever and lay in the back of the wagon. The company turned his wagon around and he looked over the Salt Lake Valley. He recognized a Mountain Peak from a dream and said, “Gentlemen, this is the Right Place, drive on.” Now the Mormon settlers have just walked from Nauvoo, Ill to the Salt lake Valley. It was a Desert! The land was barren with sage brush and the soil was hard. Farmers didn’t look on this land with lust and excitement. Actually some thought it would be better to keep going west. Nonetheless, they stopped and settled.
The conflicts that lead Mormons to Utah can be documented back to October 27, 1838. The governor of Missouri, Lilburn Boggs issued Executive Order 44. (The Mormon Extermination Order) It would be 137 years before the extermination order was finally rescinded. That began militia going from door to door and expelling Mormons from their lands and home. Their property wasnÂ’t sold; it was seized as payment to fund the extermination of the Mormons. They were pushed northward into Illinois, where the Mormons settled Nauvoo. The Mormons ability to prosper was their downfall. They would gain voting rights and as a peculiar people, they raised concern about voting powers of those that were non Mormon. So paranoia raised conflicts. Once again, mobs assembled and conflicts arose. That led to deaths, tar and feathering, raping etc. The Mormons called on the federal government for protection of their rights as Americans but it couldnÂ’t or wouldnÂ’t be provided.
It became apparent that the Mormons had to leave Nauvoo to be able to practice their religious beliefs. Brigham Young lead the Mormons exodus to Salt Lake. On what is called, “The trail of hope.” Brigham young noticed that the morale of the saints was low. He went to William Clayton. “William I would like you to right a Hymn that instills hope to the saints. I want a song that lifts the sprits and lets our dear saints know, all is well." This hymn became an anthem to the nineteenth-century pioneers.
Come, Come Ye Saints
Come, come, ye saints, no toil nor labor fear;
But with joy wend your way.
Though hard to you this journey may appear,
Grace shall be as your day.
Tis better far for us to strive
Our useless cares from us to drive;
Do this, and joy your hearts will swell -
All is well! All is well!
Why should we mourn or think our lot is hard?
'Tis not so; all is right.
Why should we think to earn a great reward
If we now shun the fight?
Gird up your loins; fresh courage take.
Our God will never us forsake;
And soon we'll have this tale to tell-
All is well! All is well!
And should we die before our journey's through,
Happy day! All is well!
We then are free from toil and sorrow, too;
With the just we shall dwell!
But if our lives are spared again
To see the Saints their rest obtain,
Oh, how we'll make this chorus swell-
All is well! All is well!
As Utah begins its celebration of the Pioneers settling the Salt Lake Valley, I enjoy looking at this valley and seeing a Rose Blossom in a desert. I liken this celebration to my new celebration.
On March 14th, 2012. After being oppressed by tobacco, I arrived at KTC. This is the Right Place! Even in America, there can be injustice and you must get to a place where you can be free and flourish. The Salt Lake Valley to the Mormon Pioneers - I liken to Me and KTC. This is the Right place!
ALL IS WELL, ALL IS WELL.
You sir, are one unique individual. I enjoy reading all of your posts on any subject....
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Read your original post and just wanted to say congrats on quitting keep it up
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Disclaimer: If you don't like Mormons or religious talk, don't read. I am not here to offend but this is my journal bitch and these are my thoughts.Â
Take what you need and leave the rest. Right? Right.Â
Day 132 – This is the right place. “All is well, All is well!”
For those of you who fell asleep during US History class in high school here is a little refresher on Utah History. In Utah we have the 4th of July celebrated with parades and fireworks. Then on the 24th of July, we celebrate again with parades and fireworks.Â
July 24th, 1847 was the day that the first Mormon Pioneers entered the salt lake valley to settle it. Brigham Young was ill with Rocky Mountain Fever and lay in the back of the wagon. The company turned his wagon around and he looked over the Salt Lake Valley. He recognized a Mountain Peak from a dream and said, “Gentlemen, this is the Right Place, drive on.” Now the Mormon settlers have just walked from Nauvoo, Ill to the Salt lake Valley. It was a Desert! The land was barren with sage brush and the soil was hard. Farmers didn’t look on this land with lust and excitement. Actually some thought it would be better to keep going west. Nonetheless, they stopped and settled.
The conflicts that lead Mormons to Utah can be documented back to October 27, 1838. The governor of Missouri, Lilburn Boggs issued Executive Order 44. (The Mormon Extermination Order) It would be 137 years before the extermination order was finally rescinded. That began militia going from door to door and expelling Mormons from their lands and home. Their property wasn’t sold; it was seized as payment to fund the extermination of the Mormons. They were pushed northward into Illinois, where the Mormons settled Nauvoo. The Mormons ability to prosper was their downfall. They would gain voting rights and as a peculiar people, they raised concern about voting powers of those that were non Mormon. So paranoia raised conflicts. Once again, mobs assembled and conflicts arose. That led to deaths, tar and feathering, raping etc. The Mormons called on the federal government for protection of their rights as Americans but it couldn’t or wouldn’t be provided.
It became apparent that the Mormons had to leave Nauvoo to be able to practice their religious beliefs. Brigham Young lead the Mormons exodus to Salt Lake. On what is called, “The trail of hope.” Brigham young noticed that the morale of the saints was low. He went to William Clayton. “William I would like you to right a Hymn that instills hope to the saints. I want a song that lifts the sprits and lets our dear saints know, all is well." This hymn became an anthem to the nineteenth-century pioneers.Â
Come, Come Ye Saints
Come, come, ye saints, no toil nor labor fear;
But with joy wend your way.
Though hard to you this journey may appear,
Grace shall be as your day.
Tis better far for us to strive
Our useless cares from us to drive;
Do this, and joy your hearts will swell -
All is well! All is well!
Why should we mourn or think our lot is hard?
'Tis not so; all is right.
Why should we think to earn a great reward
If we now shun the fight?
Gird up your loins; fresh courage take.
Our God will never us forsake;
And soon we'll have this tale to tell-
All is well! All is well!
And should we die before our journey's through,
Happy day! All is well!
We then are free from toil and sorrow, too;
With the just we shall dwell!
But if our lives are spared again
To see the Saints their rest obtain,
Oh, how we'll make this chorus swell-
All is well! All is well!
As Utah begins its celebration of the Pioneers settling the Salt Lake Valley, I enjoy looking at this valley and seeing a Rose Blossom in a desert. I liken this celebration to my new celebration.
On March 14th, 2012. After being oppressed by tobacco, I arrived at KTC. This is the Right Place! Even in America, there can be injustice and you must get to a place where you can be free and flourish. The Salt Lake Valley to the Mormon Pioneers - I liken to Me and KTC. This is the Right place! Â
ALL IS WELL, ALL IS WELL.
You sir, are one unique individual. I enjoy reading all of your posts on any subject....
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Good stuff brother!
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Day 136
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?Actually who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightening about shrinking so other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We were born to manifest the Glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some; it’s in all, everyone. And as we let our own light shine we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Nelson Mandela, 1994 Inaugural Speech
I loved reading this today!
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Day 136
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?Actually who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightening about shrinking so other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We were born to manifest the Glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some; it’s in all, everyone. And as we let our own light shine we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Nelson Mandela, 1994 Inaugural Speech
I loved reading this today!
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Very powerful
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Day 136
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?Actually who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightening about shrinking so other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We were born to manifest the Glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some; it’s in all, everyone. And as we let our own light shine we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Nelson Mandela, 1994 Inaugural Speech
I loved reading this today!
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Very powerful
That is bad ass.
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Day 148
Really?
As I approach my 150 day marker, I thought it was time for an update. Do I still have triggers and do I ever think to cave? Yeah but I am experienced enough to know that it passes and is easy to say, “Not Today.”
I had an experience on KTC where the thought crossed my mind to cave…just to prove a point. I really thought I would go out put a dip in my mouth and then post on KTC and say, “Look, see what you did?”
I just sat back took a deep breath and remembered I didnÂ’t quit to prove anything except that I was finally done admitting and surrendering to a worthless addiction.
KTC taught me not to be impulsive and make decisions on a whim of emotion. “Call first for permission to cave” by trying that, it taught me how to pause before acting. So now the impulse to cave isn’t acted upon until I pause and remember why I quit.
This is for me, no one else. My quit benefits everyone but I quit for me.
When I quit, I had a wave a bad things hit me. Mostly my trials in quit were financial. My company didnÂ’t get the funds released and so we all had to put our paychecks on hold. Week after week and my savings dwindled, my credit grew and I was up a creek without a paddle.
Oh I thought about dipping. Made my calls to ask for permission. "Pause" How is dipping going get me my paycheck? I will buzz, spend money on shit and still have the same problems. There is no point? That pause and call to ask for permission allowed me to be logical in a time where I usually would have just been impulsive to my addiction.
So we got our funding, I meet with our CFO and my money with interest will be paid to me. I saved money by not paying for tobacco; we were frugal in our spending etc. I am better off quit and facing a challenge without dipping. My house flooded. Thousands of dollars damage. I came home, "just another day and we will figure it out"Â…Insurance covers it! I get a home remodel and my premium doesnÂ’t go up!
When I was in my second funk I posted about how life is just life with or without dip. Rgross challenged me to revisit after I came out of my funk. Well Rgross, I think that life is going to be good and bad with or without dip. However without dip, I really feel alive! My life is better without dip. I am living!!!! I don't put my head in the sand and say, "poor me, I need a dip to deal with my problems." What a joke I ever thought that dip helped me handle things....
To all those that are really battling. I feel you. I donÂ’t think you are pussies. Quitting everyday proves what a bad ass you are. Just revisit your commitment and why you are quit. I think some struggle unnecessarily because they still wish they could dip and not have the issues that come with it.
You must get to a point where you never want to dip because it is stupid and you are better than humping a can of tobacco. Never hope or believe you can have freedom in your vice. Always have faith and work for freedom from your vice.
The only regret I have when I spit out my last dip....Should have done it sooner.
Stay quit!
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Day 148
Really?
As I approach my 150 day marker, I thought it was time for an update. Do I still have triggers and do I ever think to cave? Yeah but I am experienced enough to know that it passes and is easy to say, “Not Today.”
I had an experience on KTC where the thought crossed my mind to cave…just to prove a point. I really thought I would go out put a dip in my mouth and then post on KTC and say, “Look, see what you did?”
I just sat back took a deep breath and remembered I didnÂ’t quit to prove anything except that I was finally done admitting and surrendering to a worthless addiction.
KTC taught me not to be impulsive and make decisions on a whim of emotion. “Call first for permission to cave” by trying that, it taught me how to pause before acting. So now the impulse to cave isn’t acted upon until I pause and remember why I quit.
This is for me, no one else. My quit benefits everyone but I quit for me.
When I quit, I had a wave a bad things hit me. Mostly my trials in quit were financial. My company didnÂ’t get the funds released and so we all had to put our paychecks on hold. Week after week and my savings dwindled, my credit grew and I was up a creek without a paddle.
Oh I thought about dipping. Made my calls to ask for permission. "Pause" How is dipping going get me my paycheck? I will buzz, spend money on shit and still have the same problems. There is no point? That pause and call to ask for permission allowed me to be logical in a time where I usually would have just been impulsive to my addiction.
So we got our funding, I meet with our CFO and my money with interest will be paid to me. I saved money by not paying for tobacco; we were frugal in our spending etc. I am better off quit and facing a challenge without dipping. My house flooded. Thousands of dollars damage. I came home, "just another day and we will figure it out"Â…Insurance covers it! I get a home remodel and my premium doesnÂ’t go up!
When I was in my second funk I posted about how life is just life with or without dip. Rgross challenged me to revisit after I came out of my funk. Well Rgross, I think that life is going to be good and bad with or without dip. However without dip, I really feel alive! My life is better without dip. I am living!!!! I don't put my head in the sand and say, "poor me, I need a dip to deal with my problems." What a joke I ever thought that dip helped me handle things....
To all those that are really battling. I feel you. I donÂ’t think you are pussies. Quitting everyday proves what a bad ass you are. Just revisit your commitment and why you are quit. I think some struggle unnecessarily because they still wish they could dip and not have the issues that come with it.
You must get to a point where you never want to dip because it is stupid and you are better than humping a can of tobacco. Never hope or believe you can have freedom in your vice. Always have faith and work for freedom from your vice.
The only regret I have when I spit out my last dip....Should have done it sooner.
Stay quit!
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As always great post brother
The way you have really reprogramed yourself to think is what drinking the KTC kool-aid is all about!
Keep up the awesome quit and never lose the focus, the nic bitch is a sneaky sneaky bitch, but no match for Cael Sanderson type resolve!
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Day 148
Really?Â
As I approach my 150 day marker, I thought it was time for an update. Do I still have triggers and do I ever think to cave? Yeah but I am experienced enough to know that it passes and is easy to say, “Not Today.”
I had an experience on KTC where the thought crossed my mind to cave…just to prove a point. I really thought I would go out put a dip in my mouth and then post on KTC and say, “Look, see what you did?”
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I just sat back took a deep breath and remembered I didnÂ’t quit to prove anything except that I was finally done admitting and surrendering to a worthless addiction.
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KTC taught me not to be impulsive and make decisions on a whim of emotion. “Call first for permission to cave” by trying that, it taught me how to pause before acting. So now the impulse to cave isnÂ’t acted upon until I pause and remember why I quit.Â
This is for me, no one else. My quit benefits everyone but I quit for me.Â
When I quit, I had a wave a bad things hit me. Mostly my trials in quit were financial. My company didn’t get the funds released and so we all had to put our paychecks on hold. Week after week and my savings dwindled, my credit grew and I was up a creek without a paddle.
Oh I thought about dipping. Made my calls to ask for permission. "Pause" How is dipping going get me my paycheck? I will buzz, spend money on shit and still have the same problems. There is no point? That pause and call to ask for permission allowed me to be logical in a time where I usually would have just been impulsive to my addiction.
So we got our funding, I meet with our CFO and my money with interest will be paid to me. I saved money by not paying for tobacco; we were frugal in our spending etc. I am better off quit and facing a challenge without dipping. My house flooded. Thousands of dollars damage. I came home, "just another day and we will figure it out"Â…Insurance covers it! I get a home remodel and my premium doesnÂ’t go up!Â
When I was in my second funk I posted about how life is just life with or without dip. Rgross challenged me to revisit after I came out of my funk. Well Rgross, I think that life is going to be good and bad with or without dip. However without dip, I really feel alive! My life is better without dip. I am living!!!! I don't put my head in the sand and say, "poor me, I need a dip to deal with my problems." What a joke I ever thought that dip helped me handle things....
To all those that are really battling. I feel you. I don’t think you are pussies. Quitting everyday proves what a bad ass you are. Just revisit your commitment and why you are quit. I think some struggle unnecessarily because they still wish they could dip and not have the issues that come with it.
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You must get to a point where you never want to dip because it is stupid and you are better than humping a can of tobacco. Never hope or believe you can have freedom in your vice. Always have faith and work for freedom from your vice.Â
The only regret I have when I spit out my last dip....Should have done it sooner.Â
Stay quit!
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As always great post brother
The way you have really reprogramed yourself to think is what drinking the KTC kool-aid is all about!
Keep up the awesome quit and never lose the focus, the nic bitch is a sneaky sneaky bitch, but no match for Cael Sanderson type resolve!
Smile.
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Day 157 The Great Vice not just mine but all of us
Rant and Politics today! I read an article today that just makes so much sense to me.
Okay a general election is coming and either Barak Obama or Mitt Romney will be the next president of the United States.
Are you ever going to have a candidate that you align with 100%?
I just donated to the Romney campaign. Why? Obama failed. Plain and simple. If he was a CEO and met with the board to review his success of turning a company around, the board members would realized they hired an amateur in a time that called for turn around leadership.
Don't get me wrong, no matter who is president over the next 4 years, so much change and hope is needed, I don't know how faithful I will be that we can slow down our escalating issues. That being said, we have a better chance to fire Obama and bring in a Man who has proven experience to lead and turn failings into success.
I believe as Americans, we have become overly dependent on the Government to solve our problems and hold them responsible for our success and failures. I am not a doomsdayer person. I always bet on a recovery. The end of the world can only happen once so I just play the odds of recovery.
However, we can't sit idle and let it happen. We must stop the madness.
Stop Condemning success and wealth! I never got a job from a poor man. Wealth and success = more jobs. Saying we need more jobs and we should punish the rich is insane. Yes we have bad apples but it isn't because of success and wealth it is because of PRIDE!
The central feature of pride is enmity—enmity toward God and enmity toward our fellowmen. Enmity means “hatred toward, hostility to, or a state of opposition.”
Enmity toward our fellowmen. We are tempted daily to elevate ourselves above others and diminish them.
The proud make every man their adversary by pitting their intellects, opinions, works, wealth, talents, or any other worldly measuring device against others. In the words of C. S. Lewis: “Pride gets no pleasure out of having something, only out of having more of it than the next man. … It is the comparison that makes you proud: the pleasure of being above the rest. Once the element of competition has gone, pride has gone.” (Mere Christianity, New York: Macmillan, 1952, pp. 109–10.)
Pride is a sin that can readily be seen in others but is rarely admitted in ourselves. Most of us consider pride to be a sin of those on the top, such as the rich and the learned, looking down at the rest of us. There is, however, a far more common ailment among us—and that is pride from the bottom looking up. It is manifest in so many ways, such as faultfinding, gossiping, backbiting, murmuring, living beyond our means, envying, coveting, withholding gratitude and praise that might lift another, and being unforgiving and jealous.
Selfishness is one of the more common faces of pride. “How everything affects me” is the center of all that matters—self-conceit, self-pity, worldly self-fulfillment, self-gratification, and self-seeking.
Pride results in secret combinations which are built up to get power, gain, and glory of the world. This fruit of the sin of pride, namely secret combinations, brings down free nations!
Another face of pride is contention. Arguments, fights, unrighteous dominion, generation gaps, divorces, spouse abuse, riots, and disturbances all fall into this category of pride.
Contention in our families drives the Spirit of love and support away. It also drives many of our family members away. Contention ranges from a hostile spoken word to worldwide conflicts. The scriptures tell us that “only by pride cometh contention.” (Prov. 13:10; see also Prov. 28:25.)
When pride has a hold on our hearts, we lose our independence of the world and deliver our freedoms to the bondage of menÂ’s judgment.
No matter who the next President will be, there are rugged days ahead. It is time for every man who wishes to do his duty to get himself prepared–physically, spiritually, and psychologically–for the task which may come at any time, as suddenly as the whirlwind.
Time and Time again, Obama has divided us and uses Pride to do it.
I am voting for Romney but that's not all. I will look in the mirror and pray that I rid myself of my vices. Pride is the universal sin, the great vice. I quit nicotine thinking that was my great vice...Pride bleeds into all vices! Americans need to stand with strong backs and shoulders to support our constitution. We are the light on the hill. We must rid ourselves of Pride. In short, you can start by voting for Romeny and hold your chins up, while keeping your nose down.
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Never confuse something as smart as quitting with something as stupid as politics.
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Never confuse something as smart as quitting with something as stupid as politics.
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Oh that's good...and true.
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Never confuse something as smart as quitting with something as stupid as politics.
'crackup'
Oh that's good...and true.
All quitting aside, thank God someone else sees that our nation, like any other capital venture, needs to be run like a business. Part of the reason I voted for Ross Perot back in the day.
I cannot wait for the day when all the political bitching goes away. Personally, I think I will try to run a campaign via the internet. I won't ask for funding. I'll do it on YouTube and get paid for people watching my campaign ads. Want to talk about paradigm thinking, how about getting paid for running a campaign instead of asking your constituents for a monetary contribution.
They'd bust my ass out for being an addict to nicotine and surfing porn so I'd be gone in the beat of a heart but it sure would be a fun ride to poke fun at how much better a common sense, business approach would be opposed to the political animal we have now.
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Never confuse something as smart as quitting with something as stupid as politics.
'crackup'
Oh that's good...and true.
All quitting aside, thank God someone else sees that our nation, like any other capital venture, needs to be run like a business. Part of the reason I voted for Ross Perot back in the day.
I cannot wait for the day when all the political bitching goes away. Personally, I think I will try to run a campaign via the internet. I won't ask for funding. I'll do it on YouTube and get paid for people watching my campaign ads. Want to talk about paradigm thinking, how about getting paid for running a campaign instead of asking your constituents for a monetary contribution.
They'd bust my ass out for being an addict to nicotine and surfing porn so I'd be gone in the beat of a heart but it sure would be a fun ride to poke fun at how much better a common sense, business approach would be opposed to the political animal we have now.
Agree! THE ONLY Thing I can think that I have in common with. The current occupant of the White House is we are nicotine addicts. Absolutely nothing else!
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Day 162
Nothing about dip. This is about sex with my wife.....
Have you ever been making sweet, sweet love to your wife to have one of your kids walk in on it?
It was 3:00 AM. For some reason my wife and I got into doing the freaky deeky. All my kids rooms are downstairs. So I am doing a good job boning. Someone turns the lights on in our room!
I freeze. (Like if I hold still, I am invisible) My son say's, "Oh I am sorry, sorry!" Turns off the lights and runs off.
My wife is terrified and tells me to go talk to him? I don't know what to say. Oh the kid is 12 years old when this happens. So I put on my clothes and walk out of the room.
My son had a glass a milk and was heading down the stairs, back to his room. He is trying not talk to me so I said, "Blake hey Blake." He has this look like, lets not talk but I was told by Mrs Thomas to have a talk with him. He said, reluctantly, "yeah dad" and I didn't know what to say.....So I say, "Well you caught your mom and dad making love...do you have any questions?" He said, "No, I came up to get a drink and use the bathroom, I heard mom making noises so I thought she was having a bad dream. I turned on the lights to wake her up."
"So are you okay", I said. He replied, "yeah I am fine but I think I will use the downstairs bathroom from now on."
I said okay and went to bed. Told my wife and she said, "You told him we were making love????" I said yeah what did you want me to say? She said, "Well I don't know but making love?" I told her I would work extra hours to pay for the counseling.
How common is it for children to catch mom and dad trying to perfectly park the boner?
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One hundred sixty one days and counting.
I don't really think of dipping. My cravings...not hard to pass on.
Most of the time, I think that if I didn't come to KTC and post roll then I wouldn't even think about dipping. In fact, my quit has become, well, boring. It is a daily routine. Just like brushing my teeth. I don't look in the mirror with excitement and say, "I brushed my teeth!" Posting roll...the excitement is routine now and I don't scream, "I'm quit." It is just who I am.
I recognized my danger is a new craving. A craving of take it or leave it. No big deal now. The thought crosses my mind that it would be no big deal to have one. What will one dip hurt?
Our addicted minds can trick us into thinking we are cured. The quit gets easy, life is better. We forget....and nicotine can trick us into one is no big deal. I am so glad to read the failures of those who were at my point in quit and had just one.
My quit has had many phases. Right now, I love life but am still in danger because I feel like I am cured. Posting roll reminds me that I am an addict.
Please text our brothers that are missing and ask if we can post roll for them. I don't think any of us think we will cave but complacency is a dangerous attitude when you are at war!
Stay focused and keep in touch with the platoon. I need help with follow up on missing roll. Remember we had 31 commit to post every day to 200. Our roll post since that commitment has been impressive with 92% of us posting daily.
I honestly think we lost a brother and we still are fighting to get 30 to the second floor.
Thanks for reading, and thanks for your daily promise to me. I value it and I won't cave today because I gave my word and I am a man of my word.
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Day 162
Nothing about dip. This is about sex with my wife.....
Have you ever been making sweet, sweet love to your wife to have one of your kids walk in on it?
It was 3:00 AM. For some reason my wife and I got into doing the freaky deeky. All my kids rooms are downstairs. So I am doing a good job boning. Someone turns the lights on in our room!
I freeze. (Like if I hold still, I am invisible) My son say's, "Oh I am sorry, sorry!" Turns off the lights and runs off.
My wife is terrified and tells me to go talk to him? I don't know what to say. Oh the kid is 12 years old when this happens. So I put on my clothes and walk out of the room.
My son had a glass a milk and was heading down the stairs, back to his room. He is trying not talk to me so I said, "Blake hey Blake." He has this look like, lets not talk but I was told by Mrs Thomas to have a talk with him. He said, reluctantly, "yeah dad" and I didn't know what to say.....So I say, "Well you caught your mom and dad making love...do you have any questions?" He said, "No, I came up to get a drink and use the bathroom, I heard mom making noises so I thought she was having a bad dream. I turned on the lights to wake her up."
"So are you okay", I said. He replied, "yeah I am fine but I think I will use the downstairs bathroom from now on."
I said okay and went to bed. Told my wife and she said, "You told him we were making love????" I said yeah what did you want me to say? She said, "Well I don't know but making love?" I told her I would work extra hours to pay for the counseling.
How common is it for children to catch mom and dad trying to perfectly park the boner?
Bumped to keep in order.
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Day 162
Nothing about dip. This is about sex with my wife.....
Have you ever been making sweet, sweet love to your wife to have one of your kids walk in on it?Â
It was 3:00 AM. For some reason my wife and I got into doing the freaky deeky. All my kids rooms are downstairs. So I am doing a good job boning. Someone turns the lights on in our room!
I freeze. (Like if I hold still, I am invisible) My son say's, "Oh I am sorry, sorry!" Turns off the lights and runs off.Â
My wife is terrified and tells me to go talk to him? I don't know what to say. Oh the kid is 12 years old when this happens. So I put on my clothes and walk out of the room.
My son had a glass a milk and was heading down the stairs, back to his room. He is trying not talk to me so I said, "Blake hey Blake." He has this look like, lets not talk but I was told by Mrs Thomas to have a talk with him. He said, reluctantly, "yeah dad" and I didn't know what to say.....So I say, "Well you caught your mom and dad making love...do you have any questions?" He said, "No, I came up to get a drink and use the bathroom, I heard mom making noises so I thought she was having a bad dream. I turned on the lights to wake her up."Â
"So are you okay", I said. He replied, "yeah I am fine but I think I will use the downstairs bathroom from now on."
I said okay and went to bed. Told my wife and she said, "You told him we were making love????" I said yeah what did you want me to say? She said, "Well I don't know but making love?" I told her I would work extra hours to pay for the counseling.Â
How common is it for children to catch mom and dad trying to perfectly park the boner?
Bumped to keep in order.
its called locking the door, we found that out after vacation one year when our oldest was 3 ish.
if the door is not locked, oh well nothing is happening
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Day 162
Nothing about dip. This is about sex with my wife.....
Have you ever been making sweet, sweet love to your wife to have one of your kids walk in on it?Â
It was 3:00 AM. For some reason my wife and I got into doing the freaky deeky. All my kids rooms are downstairs. So I am doing a good job boning. Someone turns the lights on in our room!
I freeze. (Like if I hold still, I am invisible) My son say's, "Oh I am sorry, sorry!" Turns off the lights and runs off.Â
My wife is terrified and tells me to go talk to him? I don't know what to say. Oh the kid is 12 years old when this happens. So I put on my clothes and walk out of the room.
My son had a glass a milk and was heading down the stairs, back to his room. He is trying not talk to me so I said, "Blake hey Blake." He has this look like, lets not talk but I was told by Mrs Thomas to have a talk with him. He said, reluctantly, "yeah dad" and I didn't know what to say.....So I say, "Well you caught your mom and dad making love...do you have any questions?" He said, "No, I came up to get a drink and use the bathroom, I heard mom making noises so I thought she was having a bad dream. I turned on the lights to wake her up."Â
"So are you okay", I said. He replied, "yeah I am fine but I think I will use the downstairs bathroom from now on."
I said okay and went to bed. Told my wife and she said, "You told him we were making love????" I said yeah what did you want me to say? She said, "Well I don't know but making love?" I told her I would work extra hours to pay for the counseling.Â
How common is it for children to catch mom and dad trying to perfectly park the boner?
Bumped to keep in order.
its called locking the door, we found that out after vacation one year when our oldest was 3 ish.
if the door is not locked, oh well nothing is happening
What you no like doing the freeky deeky with a little peeky? lol Definitely lock those doors before you commence boning...
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Day 162
Nothing about dip. This is about sex with my wife.....
Have you ever been making sweet, sweet love to your wife to have one of your kids walk in on it?Â
It was 3:00 AM. For some reason my wife and I got into doing the freaky deeky. All my kids rooms are downstairs. So I am doing a good job boning. Someone turns the lights on in our room!
I freeze. (Like if I hold still, I am invisible) My son say's, "Oh I am sorry, sorry!" Turns off the lights and runs off.Â
My wife is terrified and tells me to go talk to him? I don't know what to say. Oh the kid is 12 years old when this happens. So I put on my clothes and walk out of the room.
My son had a glass a milk and was heading down the stairs, back to his room. He is trying not talk to me so I said, "Blake hey Blake." He has this look like, lets not talk but I was told by Mrs Thomas to have a talk with him. He said, reluctantly, "yeah dad" and I didn't know what to say.....So I say, "Well you caught your mom and dad making love...do you have any questions?" He said, "No, I came up to get a drink and use the bathroom, I heard mom making noises so I thought she was having a bad dream. I turned on the lights to wake her up."Â
"So are you okay", I said. He replied, "yeah I am fine but I think I will use the downstairs bathroom from now on."
I said okay and went to bed. Told my wife and she said, "You told him we were making love????" I said yeah what did you want me to say? She said, "Well I don't know but making love?" I told her I would work extra hours to pay for the counseling.Â
How common is it for children to catch mom and dad trying to perfectly park the boner?
Bumped to keep in order.
its called locking the door, we found that out after vacation one year when our oldest was 3 ish.
if the door is not locked, oh well nothing is happening
What you no like doing the freeky deeky with a little peeky? lol Definitely lock those doors before you commence boning...
'crackup'
Holy crap that's hilarious!!! I've never walked in on it, but I've been walked in on, and either way, it's awkward as fuck!
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Day 162
Nothing about dip. This is about sex with my wife.....
Have you ever been making sweet, sweet love to your wife to have one of your kids walk in on it?Â
It was 3:00 AM. For some reason my wife and I got into doing the freaky deeky. All my kids rooms are downstairs. So I am doing a good job boning. Someone turns the lights on in our room!
I freeze. (Like if I hold still, I am invisible) My son say's, "Oh I am sorry, sorry!" Turns off the lights and runs off.Â
My wife is terrified and tells me to go talk to him? I don't know what to say. Oh the kid is 12 years old when this happens. So I put on my clothes and walk out of the room.
My son had a glass a milk and was heading down the stairs, back to his room. He is trying not talk to me so I said, "Blake hey Blake." He has this look like, lets not talk but I was told by Mrs Thomas to have a talk with him. He said, reluctantly, "yeah dad" and I didn't know what to say.....So I say, "Well you caught your mom and dad making love...do you have any questions?" He said, "No, I came up to get a drink and use the bathroom, I heard mom making noises so I thought she was having a bad dream. I turned on the lights to wake her up."Â
"So are you okay", I said. He replied, "yeah I am fine but I think I will use the downstairs bathroom from now on."
I said okay and went to bed. Told my wife and she said, "You told him we were making love????" I said yeah what did you want me to say? She said, "Well I don't know but making love?" I told her I would work extra hours to pay for the counseling.Â
How common is it for children to catch mom and dad trying to perfectly park the boner?
Bumped to keep in order.
its called locking the door, we found that out after vacation one year when our oldest was 3 ish.
if the door is not locked, oh well nothing is happening
What you no like doing the freeky deeky with a little peeky? lol Definitely lock those doors before you commence boning...
'crackup'
Holy crap that's hilarious!!! I've never walked in on it, but I've been walked in on, and either way, it's awkward as fuck!
Just tell him you were just wrestling and you were about to get your back points when he turned on the lights. 'boob' (It happens, gotta learn sometime.)
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Day 162
Nothing about dip. This is about sex with my wife.....
Have you ever been making sweet, sweet love to your wife to have one of your kids walk in on it?Â
It was 3:00 AM. For some reason my wife and I got into doing the freaky deaky. All my kids rooms are downstairs. So I am doing a good job boning. Someone turns the lights on in our room!
I freeze. (Like if I hold still, I am invisible) My son Say's, "Oh I am sorry, sorry!" Turns off the lights and runs off.Â
My wife is terrified and tells me to go talk to him? I don't know what to say. Oh the kid is 12 years old when this happens. So I put on my clothes and walk out of the room.
My son had a glass a milk and was heading down the stairs, back to his room. He is trying not talk to me so I said, "Blake hey Blake." He has this look like, lets not talk but I was told by Mrs Thomas to have a talk with him. He said, reluctantly, "yeah dad" and I didn't know what to say.....So I say, "Well you caught your mom and dad making love...do you have any questions?" He said, "No, I came up to get a drink and use the bathroom, I heard mom making noises so I thought she was having a bad dream. I turned on the lights to wake her up."Â
"So are you okay", I said. He replied, "yeah I am fine but I think I will use the downstairs bathroom from now on."
I said okay and went to bed. Told my wife and she said, "You told him we were making love????" I said yeah what did you want me to say? She said, "Well I don't know but making love?" I told her I would work extra hours to pay for the counseling.Â
How common is it for children to catch mom and dad trying to perfectly park the boner?
Bumped to keep in order.
its called locking the door, we found that out after vacation one year when our oldest was 3 ish.
if the door is not locked, oh well nothing is happening
What you no like doing the freaky deaky with a little peeky? lol Definitely lock those doors before you commence boning...
'crackup'
Holy crap that's hilarious!!! I've never walked in on it, but I've been walked in on, and either way, it's awkward as fuck!
Just tell him you were just wrestling and you were about to get your back points when he turned on the lights. 'boob' (It happens, gotta learn sometime.)
'do it' 'rem' 'crackup' 'chew2' 'bj' 'Kiss' 'Y'
LMAO MT you made my day!!
Does Mrs Thomas know that you told all of us she's a screamer!!!!
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How common is it for children to catch mom and dad trying to perfectly park the boner?
That's a funny as shit story, Mark. I give you big props for having the balls to tell it.
This also solidifies my habit of locking the door during said adventures.
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How common is it for children to catch mom and dad trying to perfectly park the boner?
That's a funny as shit story, Mark. I give you big props for having the balls to tell it.
This also solidifies my habit of locking the door during said adventures.
Empty Nest HaHa!!
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Day 162
Nothing about dip. This is about sex with my wife.....
Have you ever been making sweet, sweet love to your wife to have one of your kids walk in on it?Â
It was 3:00 AM. For some reason my wife and I got into doing the freaky deaky. All my kids rooms are downstairs. So I am doing a good job boning. Someone turns the lights on in our room!
I freeze. (Like if I hold still, I am invisible) My son Say's, "Oh I am sorry, sorry!" Turns off the lights and runs off.Â
My wife is terrified and tells me to go talk to him? I don't know what to say. Oh the kid is 12 years old when this happens. So I put on my clothes and walk out of the room.
My son had a glass a milk and was heading down the stairs, back to his room. He is trying not talk to me so I said, "Blake hey Blake." He has this look like, lets not talk but I was told by Mrs Thomas to have a talk with him. He said, reluctantly, "yeah dad" and I didn't know what to say.....So I say, "Well you caught your mom and dad making love...do you have any questions?" He said, "No, I came up to get a drink and use the bathroom, I heard mom making noises so I thought she was having a bad dream. I turned on the lights to wake her up."Â
"So are you okay", I said. He replied, "yeah I am fine but I think I will use the downstairs bathroom from now on."
I said okay and went to bed. Told my wife and she said, "You told him we were making love????" I said yeah what did you want me to say? She said, "Well I don't know but making love?" I told her I would work extra hours to pay for the counseling.Â
How common is it for children to catch mom and dad trying to perfectly park the boner?
Bumped to keep in order.
its called locking the door, we found that out after vacation one year when our oldest was 3 ish.
if the door is not locked, oh well nothing is happening
What you no like doing the freaky deaky with a little peeky? lol Definitely lock those doors before you commence boning...
'crackup'
Holy crap that's hilarious!!! I've never walked in on it, but I've been walked in on, and either way, it's awkward as fuck!
Just tell him you were just wrestling and you were about to get your back points when he turned on the lights. 'boob' (It happens, gotta learn sometime.)
'do it' 'rem' 'crackup' 'chew2' 'bj' 'Kiss' 'Y'
LMAO MT you made my day!!
Does Mrs Thomas know that you told all of us she's a screamer!!!!
Nope and she doesn't need to know either. So we lock the door now. However, it seems like when the door is locked the kids know and we get a lot of knocks at the door.
Since they are teenagers now, we moved the sport to mornings vs. nights, they tend to sleep in and leave us alone.
'bang head'
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Day 162
Nothing about dip. This is about sex with my wife.....
Have you ever been making sweet, sweet love to your wife to have one of your kids walk in on it?Â
It was 3:00 AM. For some reason my wife and I got into doing the freaky deaky. All my kids rooms are downstairs. So I am doing a good job boning. Someone turns the lights on in our room!
I freeze. (Like if I hold still, I am invisible) My son Say's, "Oh I am sorry, sorry!" Turns off the lights and runs off.Â
My wife is terrified and tells me to go talk to him? I don't know what to say. Oh the kid is 12 years old when this happens. So I put on my clothes and walk out of the room.
My son had a glass a milk and was heading down the stairs, back to his room. He is trying not talk to me so I said, "Blake hey Blake." He has this look like, lets not talk but I was told by Mrs Thomas to have a talk with him. He said, reluctantly, "yeah dad" and I didn't know what to say.....So I say, "Well you caught your mom and dad making love...do you have any questions?" He said, "No, I came up to get a drink and use the bathroom, I heard mom making noises so I thought she was having a bad dream. I turned on the lights to wake her up."Â
"So are you okay", I said. He replied, "yeah I am fine but I think I will use the downstairs bathroom from now on."
I said okay and went to bed. Told my wife and she said, "You told him we were making love????" I said yeah what did you want me to say? She said, "Well I don't know but making love?" I told her I would work extra hours to pay for the counseling.Â
How common is it for children to catch mom and dad trying to perfectly park the boner?
Bumped to keep in order.
its called locking the door, we found that out after vacation one year when our oldest was 3 ish.
if the door is not locked, oh well nothing is happening
What you no like doing the freaky deaky with a little peeky? lol Definitely lock those doors before you commence boning...
'crackup'
Holy crap that's hilarious!!! I've never walked in on it, but I've been walked in on, and either way, it's awkward as fuck!
Just tell him you were just wrestling and you were about to get your back points when he turned on the lights. 'boob' (It happens, gotta learn sometime.)
'do it' 'rem' 'crackup' 'chew2' 'bj' 'Kiss' 'Y'
LMAO MT you made my day!!
Does Mrs Thomas know that you told all of us she's a screamer!!!!
Nope and she doesn't need to know either. So we lock the door now. However, it seems like when the door is locked the kids know and we get a lot of knocks at the door.
Since they are teenagers now, we moved the sport to mornings vs. nights, they tend to sleep in and leave us alone.
'bang head'
Pure classic MT. I, for once, have nothing to say. Maybe I should moan...
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Day 167 For some reason, the 160's has been really slow. Feel like I should be closing out the 170's....and I am not even there. My quit today is fun but I can't make any sense out of it. Kind of like this.....Quit Party (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9bZkp7q19f0&feature=relmfu)
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Day 162
Nothing about dip. This is about sex with my wife.....
Have you ever been making sweet, sweet love to your wife to have one of your kids walk in on it?Â
It was 3:00 AM. For some reason my wife and I got into doing the freaky deaky. All my kids rooms are downstairs. So I am doing a good job boning. Someone turns the lights on in our room!
I freeze. (Like if I hold still, I am invisible) My son Say's, "Oh I am sorry, sorry!" Turns off the lights and runs off.Â
My wife is terrified and tells me to go talk to him? I don't know what to say. Oh the kid is 12 years old when this happens. So I put on my clothes and walk out of the room.
My son had a glass a milk and was heading down the stairs, back to his room. He is trying not talk to me so I said, "Blake hey Blake." He has this look like, lets not talk but I was told by Mrs Thomas to have a talk with him. He said, reluctantly, "yeah dad" and I didn't know what to say.....So I say, "Well you caught your mom and dad making love...do you have any questions?" He said, "No, I came up to get a drink and use the bathroom, I heard mom making noises so I thought she was having a bad dream. I turned on the lights to wake her up."Â
"So are you okay", I said. He replied, "yeah I am fine but I think I will use the downstairs bathroom from now on."
I said okay and went to bed. Told my wife and she said, "You told him we were making love????" I said yeah what did you want me to say? She said, "Well I don't know but making love?" I told her I would work extra hours to pay for the counseling.Â
How common is it for children to catch mom and dad trying to perfectly park the boner?
Bumped to keep in order.
its called locking the door, we found that out after vacation one year when our oldest was 3 ish.
if the door is not locked, oh well nothing is happening
What you no like doing the freaky deaky with a little peeky? lol Definitely lock those doors before you commence boning...
'crackup'
Holy crap that's hilarious!!! I've never walked in on it, but I've been walked in on, and either way, it's awkward as fuck!
Just tell him you were just wrestling and you were about to get your back points when he turned on the lights. 'boob' (It happens, gotta learn sometime.)
'do it' 'rem' 'crackup' 'chew2' 'bj' 'Kiss' 'Y'
LMAO MT you made my day!!
Does Mrs Thomas know that you told all of us she's a screamer!!!!
Nope and she doesn't need to know either. So we lock the door now. However, it seems like when the door is locked the kids know and we get a lot of knocks at the door.
Since they are teenagers now, we moved the sport to mornings vs. nights, they tend to sleep in and leave us alone.
'bang head'
Pure classic MT. I, for once, have nothing to say. Maybe I should moan...
ummmm i got nothing ... freaking hilarious man
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Day 162
Nothing about dip. This is about sex with my wife.....
Have you ever been making sweet, sweet love to your wife to have one of your kids walk in on it?Â
It was 3:00 AM. For some reason my wife and I got into doing the freaky deaky. All my kids rooms are downstairs. So I am doing a good job boning. Someone turns the lights on in our room!
I freeze. (Like if I hold still, I am invisible) My son Say's, "Oh I am sorry, sorry!" Turns off the lights and runs off.Â
My wife is terrified and tells me to go talk to him? I don't know what to say. Oh the kid is 12 years old when this happens. So I put on my clothes and walk out of the room.
My son had a glass a milk and was heading down the stairs, back to his room. He is trying not talk to me so I said, "Blake hey Blake." He has this look like, lets not talk but I was told by Mrs Thomas to have a talk with him. He said, reluctantly, "yeah dad" and I didn't know what to say.....So I say, "Well you caught your mom and dad making love...do you have any questions?" He said, "No, I came up to get a drink and use the bathroom, I heard mom making noises so I thought she was having a bad dream. I turned on the lights to wake her up."Â
"So are you okay", I said. He replied, "yeah I am fine but I think I will use the downstairs bathroom from now on."
I said okay and went to bed. Told my wife and she said, "You told him we were making love????" I said yeah what did you want me to say? She said, "Well I don't know but making love?" I told her I would work extra hours to pay for the counseling.Â
How common is it for children to catch mom and dad trying to perfectly park the boner?
Bumped to keep in order.
its called locking the door, we found that out after vacation one year when our oldest was 3 ish.
if the door is not locked, oh well nothing is happening
What you no like doing the freaky deaky with a little peeky? lol Definitely lock those doors before you commence boning...
'crackup'
Holy crap that's hilarious!!! I've never walked in on it, but I've been walked in on, and either way, it's awkward as fuck!
Just tell him you were just wrestling and you were about to get your back points when he turned on the lights. 'boob' (It happens, gotta learn sometime.)
'do it' 'rem' 'crackup' 'chew2' 'bj' 'Kiss' 'Y'
LMAO MT you made my day!!
Does Mrs Thomas know that you told all of us she's a screamer!!!!
Nope and she doesn't need to know either. So we lock the door now. However, it seems like when the door is locked the kids know and we get a lot of knocks at the door.
Since they are teenagers now, we moved the sport to mornings vs. nights, they tend to sleep in and leave us alone.
'bang head'
Pure classic MT. I, for once, have nothing to say. Maybe I should moan...
ummmm i got nothing ... freaking hilarious man
That was great!!!!
I like the part where you say you froze....kind of like when you go walking around and happen to walk right up to a rabbit who is down in the grass just eating not even noticing you were near them until ....its to late! They freeze and it looks like thier eyes are going to buldge right out of thier heads!!!!
Anyway keep on keeping on with the Mrs's brother!
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Day 162
Nothing about dip. This is about sex with my wife.....
Have you ever been making sweet, sweet love to your wife to have one of your kids walk in on it?Â
It was 3:00 AM. For some reason my wife and I got into doing the freaky deaky. All my kids rooms are downstairs. So I am doing a good job boning. Someone turns the lights on in our room!
I freeze. (Like if I hold still, I am invisible) My son Say's, "Oh I am sorry, sorry!" Turns off the lights and runs off.Â
My wife is terrified and tells me to go talk to him? I don't know what to say. Oh the kid is 12 years old when this happens. So I put on my clothes and walk out of the room.
My son had a glass a milk and was heading down the stairs, back to his room. He is trying not talk to me so I said, "Blake hey Blake." He has this look like, lets not talk but I was told by Mrs Thomas to have a talk with him. He said, reluctantly, "yeah dad" and I didn't know what to say.....So I say, "Well you caught your mom and dad making love...do you have any questions?" He said, "No, I came up to get a drink and use the bathroom, I heard mom making noises so I thought she was having a bad dream. I turned on the lights to wake her up."Â
"So are you okay", I said. He replied, "yeah I am fine but I think I will use the downstairs bathroom from now on."
I said okay and went to bed. Told my wife and she said, "You told him we were making love????" I said yeah what did you want me to say? She said, "Well I don't know but making love?" I told her I would work extra hours to pay for the counseling.Â
How common is it for children to catch mom and dad trying to perfectly park the boner?
Bumped to keep in order.
its called locking the door, we found that out after vacation one year when our oldest was 3 ish.
if the door is not locked, oh well nothing is happening
What you no like doing the freaky deaky with a little peeky? lol Definitely lock those doors before you commence boning...
'crackup'
Holy crap that's hilarious!!! I've never walked in on it, but I've been walked in on, and either way, it's awkward as fuck!
Just tell him you were just wrestling and you were about to get your back points when he turned on the lights. 'boob' (It happens, gotta learn sometime.)
'do it' 'rem' 'crackup' 'chew2' 'bj' 'Kiss' 'Y'
LMAO MT you made my day!!
Does Mrs Thomas know that you told all of us she's a screamer!!!!
Nope and she doesn't need to know either. So we lock the door now. However, it seems like when the door is locked the kids know and we get a lot of knocks at the door.
Since they are teenagers now, we moved the sport to mornings vs. nights, they tend to sleep in and leave us alone.
'bang head'
Pure classic MT. I, for once, have nothing to say. Maybe I should moan...
ummmm i got nothing ... freaking hilarious man
That was great!!!!
I like the part where you say you froze....kind of like when you go walking around and happen to walk right up to a rabbit who is down in the grass just eating not even noticing you were near them until ....its to late! They freeze and it looks like thier eyes are going to buldge right out of thier heads!!!!
Anyway keep on keeping on with the Mrs's brother!
Once again........yet another reason to make family dinners awkward!!!
I will be thinking of this thread at every Thanksgiving dinner from here on out!
'eat'
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Day 162
Nothing about dip. This is about sex with my wife.....
Have you ever been making sweet, sweet love to your wife to have one of your kids walk in on it?Â
It was 3:00 AM. For some reason my wife and I got into doing the freaky deaky. All my kids rooms are downstairs. So I am doing a good job boning. Someone turns the lights on in our room!
I freeze. (Like if I hold still, I am invisible) My son Say's, "Oh I am sorry, sorry!" Turns off the lights and runs off.Â
My wife is terrified and tells me to go talk to him? I don't know what to say. Oh the kid is 12 years old when this happens. So I put on my clothes and walk out of the room.
My son had a glass a milk and was heading down the stairs, back to his room. He is trying not talk to me so I said, "Blake hey Blake." He has this look like, lets not talk but I was told by Mrs Thomas to have a talk with him. He said, reluctantly, "yeah dad" and I didn't know what to say.....So I say, "Well you caught your mom and dad making love...do you have any questions?" He said, "No, I came up to get a drink and use the bathroom, I heard mom making noises so I thought she was having a bad dream. I turned on the lights to wake her up."Â
"So are you okay", I said. He replied, "yeah I am fine but I think I will use the downstairs bathroom from now on."
I said okay and went to bed. Told my wife and she said, "You told him we were making love????" I said yeah what did you want me to say? She said, "Well I don't know but making love?" I told her I would work extra hours to pay for the counseling.Â
How common is it for children to catch mom and dad trying to perfectly park the boner?
Bumped to keep in order.
its called locking the door, we found that out after vacation one year when our oldest was 3 ish.
if the door is not locked, oh well nothing is happening
What you no like doing the freaky deaky with a little peeky? lol Definitely lock those doors before you commence boning...
'crackup'
Holy crap that's hilarious!!! I've never walked in on it, but I've been walked in on, and either way, it's awkward as fuck!
Just tell him you were just wrestling and you were about to get your back points when he turned on the lights. 'boob' (It happens, gotta learn sometime.)
'do it' 'rem' 'crackup' 'chew2' 'bj' 'Kiss' 'Y'
LMAO MT you made my day!!
Does Mrs Thomas know that you told all of us she's a screamer!!!!
Nope and she doesn't need to know either. So we lock the door now. However, it seems like when the door is locked the kids know and we get a lot of knocks at the door.
Since they are teenagers now, we moved the sport to mornings vs. nights, they tend to sleep in and leave us alone.
'bang head'
Pure classic MT. I, for once, have nothing to say. Maybe I should moan...
ummmm i got nothing ... freaking hilarious man
That was great!!!!
I like the part where you say you froze....kind of like when you go walking around and happen to walk right up to a rabbit who is down in the grass just eating not even noticing you were near them until ....its to late! They freeze and it looks like thier eyes are going to buldge right out of thier heads!!!!
Anyway keep on keeping on with the Mrs's brother!
Once again........yet another reason to make family dinners awkward!!!
I will be thinking of this thread at every Thanksgiving dinner from here on out!
'eat'
I can see it now.
Ten years later....... MT and son are fishing and son says hey dad you remember when.......................
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Day 162
Nothing about dip. This is about sex with my wife.....
Have you ever been making sweet, sweet love to your wife to have one of your kids walk in on it?Â
It was 3:00 AM. For some reason my wife and I got into doing the freaky deaky. All my kids rooms are downstairs. So I am doing a good job boning. Someone turns the lights on in our room!
I freeze. (Like if I hold still, I am invisible) My son Say's, "Oh I am sorry, sorry!" Turns off the lights and runs off.Â
My wife is terrified and tells me to go talk to him? I don't know what to say. Oh the kid is 12 years old when this happens. So I put on my clothes and walk out of the room.
My son had a glass a milk and was heading down the stairs, back to his room. He is trying not talk to me so I said, "Blake hey Blake." He has this look like, lets not talk but I was told by Mrs Thomas to have a talk with him. He said, reluctantly, "yeah dad" and I didn't know what to say.....So I say, "Well you caught your mom and dad making love...do you have any questions?" He said, "No, I came up to get a drink and use the bathroom, I heard mom making noises so I thought she was having a bad dream. I turned on the lights to wake her up."Â
"So are you okay", I said. He replied, "yeah I am fine but I think I will use the downstairs bathroom from now on."
I said okay and went to bed. Told my wife and she said, "You told him we were making love????" I said yeah what did you want me to say? She said, "Well I don't know but making love?" I told her I would work extra hours to pay for the counseling.Â
How common is it for children to catch mom and dad trying to perfectly park the boner?
Bumped to keep in order.
its called locking the door, we found that out after vacation one year when our oldest was 3 ish.
if the door is not locked, oh well nothing is happening
What you no like doing the freaky deaky with a little peeky? lol Definitely lock those doors before you commence boning...
'crackup'
Holy crap that's hilarious!!! I've never walked in on it, but I've been walked in on, and either way, it's awkward as fuck!
Just tell him you were just wrestling and you were about to get your back points when he turned on the lights. 'boob' (It happens, gotta learn sometime.)
'do it' 'rem' 'crackup' 'chew2' 'bj' 'Kiss' 'Y'
LMAO MT you made my day!!
Does Mrs Thomas know that you told all of us she's a screamer!!!!
Nope and she doesn't need to know either. So we lock the door now. However, it seems like when the door is locked the kids know and we get a lot of knocks at the door.
Since they are teenagers now, we moved the sport to mornings vs. nights, they tend to sleep in and leave us alone.
'bang head'
Pure classic MT. I, for once, have nothing to say. Maybe I should moan...
ummmm i got nothing ... freaking hilarious man
That was great!!!!
I like the part where you say you froze....kind of like when you go walking around and happen to walk right up to a rabbit who is down in the grass just eating not even noticing you were near them until ....its to late! They freeze and it looks like thier eyes are going to buldge right out of thier heads!!!!
Anyway keep on keeping on with the Mrs's brother!
Once again........yet another reason to make family dinners awkward!!!
I will be thinking of this thread at every Thanksgiving dinner from here on out!
'eat'
I can see it now.
Ten years later....... MT and son are fishing and son says hey dad you remember when.......................
Thank god... I am sitting here reading some Hemingway and that fucker has one of his characters get a pack of Chesterfields and I am thinking, damn, I bet they were really good then. So now the nic bitch has got my brain, and after diarrhea posts all over the pinned group's threads with no relief, I come across this. Well written. You out did Hemingway and made my day today. Big effin smile.
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177 days nicotine free and alcohol free
I rarely very rarely feel the burden of craves for nicotine. Don't get me wrong, on occasion the thought crosses my mind to dip but it is pretty easy to dismiss and not a battle like it once was. However I realized that even though I have the formula to quit nicotine and have been quit for 177 days and it seems easy. I had a moment of self disgust and loathing today.
I am an addict!
When I quit Nicotine, I quit alcohol. I knew that If I quit nic, it would be easy and probable that I would increase drinking to compensate for my quit of nic and that was a dangerous thought. Then I went and posted roll on KTP. I didn't think I had a porn addiction but looked at the pic's of the day on this site and it ended with me seeing vaginas and boobs on my ipad. So I caved and started a day one again. Fortunately, I now have over 20 days quit on porn.
Yeah good for me, I quit nic, alcohol and porn. You know what. I am disgusted. I looked down at a doughnut I was eating today and I felt the same as I did when I saw my final can of chew. "Why am I eating this? I don't want it, I don't need it but here I am stuffing my fat fucking face!"
When I quit chewing tobacco, I weighed 182 pounds. Today, 177 days later, I weigh 212 pounds. I gained 30 pounds! I keep saying that I am going to go to the gym but I don't. I am going to control when and what I eat but I don't....
I am an addict!!!
To truly treat our addictions we can't replace one bad habit with another. So for a moment I felt great but now I face the reality that I simply replace one addiction with another.
For me the long term battle about staying quit is figuring out how to bridal my addiction not to seek pleasure that destroys. Since we all have addiction in common. Ask yourself, "Since I quit tobacco, have I increased my Drinking Alcohol, Looking at Porn, Gambling, over eating and gaining weight?" If so, how do we move our addiction to productive and good things?
Fuck the Billion Dollar Tobacco Industry! I hate them because I became addicted to their product and risked cancer for the stupid pleasure of a buzz.
Fuck the Billion Dollar Alcohol Industry! Alcohol abuse is a root cause of many ruined marriages, job loss and absent fathers.
Fuck the Billion Dollar Porn Industry! Most of the "Models" in porn are currently or have suffered abuse. Our fantasies if we looked at them for the reality they are will draw the conclusion that looking at titties and vaginas perpetuates the abuse and you are contributing to the problem. Also, if you have a wife, you are hurting her self worth and esteem by participating in that practice.
Food is necessary but as much as I like Ice Cream, Doughnuts, soda and Cereal. I have to control it!
All this garbage is at our finger tips and everywhere we go. So Addiction comes in all formats and we as addicts need to display more self control than ever.
Nicotine, Alcohol, Porn and Pop are all vices I quit. All those variable pleasure triggers now is laser focused on food. My war isn't over. I am 212 lbs. I am going to put my efforts, rage and passion into working out. I will report back when I weigh 202.
Even making that statement scares me like committing to quit dip. Guys quitting chew becomes easy, just replace your addiction with good things or your vices will change but you still will not be free.
This is how I feel after being quit for 177 days. I am free from nicotine and the burden of being quit and off nicotine is AWESOME! However, today I acknowledge that I am not free. My addiction latched on to food consumption and I am getting my ass kicked!
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177 days nicotine free and alcohol free
I rarely very rarely feel the burden of craves for nicotine. Don't get me wrong, on occasion the thought crosses my mind to dip but it is pretty easy to dismiss and not a battle like it once was. However I realized that even though I have the formula to quit nicotine and have been quit for 177 days and it seems easy. I had a moment of self disgust and loathing today.
I am an addict!
When I quit Nicotine, I quit alcohol. I knew that If I quit nic, it would be easy and probable that I would increase drinking to compensate for my quit of nic and that was a dangerous thought. Then I went and posted roll on KTP. I didn't think I had a porn addiction but looked at the pic's of the day on this site and it ended with me seeing vaginas and boobs on my ipad. So I caved and started a day one again. Fortunately, I now have over 20 days quit on porn.
Yeah good for me, I quit nic, alcohol and porn. You know what. I am disgusted. I looked down at a doughnut I was eating today and I felt the same as I did when I saw my final can of chew. "Why am I eating this? I don't want it, I don't need it but here I am stuffing my fat fucking face!"
When I quit chewing tobacco, I weighed 182 pounds. Today, 177 days later, I weigh 212 pounds. I gained 30 pounds! I keep saying that I am going to go to the gym but I don't. I am going to control when and what I eat but I don't....
I am an addict!!!
To truly treat our addictions we can't replace one bad habit with another. So for a moment I felt great but now I face the reality that I simply replace one addiction with another.
For me the long term battle about staying quit is figuring out how to bridal my addiction not to seek pleasure that destroys. Since we all have addiction in common. Ask yourself, "Since I quit tobacco, have I increased my Drinking Alcohol, Looking at Porn, Gambling, over eating and gaining weight?" If so, how do we move our addiction to productive and good things?
Fuck the Billion Dollar Tobacco Industry! I hate them because I became addicted to their product and risked cancer for the stupid pleasure of a buzz.
Fuck the Billion Dollar Alcohol Industry! Alcohol abuse is a root cause of many ruined marriages, job loss and absent fathers.
Fuck the Billion Dollar Porn Industry! Most of the "Models" in porn are currently or have suffered abuse. Our fantasies if we looked at them for the reality they are will draw the conclusion that looking at titties and vaginas perpetuates the abuse and you are contributing to the problem. Also, if you have a wife, you are hurting her self worth and esteem by participating in that practice.
Food is necessary but as much as I like Ice Cream, Doughnuts, soda and Cereal. I have to control it!
All this garbage is at our finger tips and everywhere we go. So Addiction comes in all formats and we as addicts need to display more self control than ever.
Nicotine, Alcohol, Porn and Pop are all vices I quit. All those variable pleasure triggers now is laser focused on food. My war isn't over. I am 212 lbs. I am going to put my efforts, rage and passion into working out. I will report back when I weigh 202.
Even making that statement scares me like committing to quit dip. Guys quitting chew becomes easy, just replace your addiction with good things or your vices will change but you still will not be free.
This is how I feel after being quit for 177 days. I am free from nicotine and the burden of being quit and off nicotine is AWESOME! However, today I acknowledge that I am not free. My addiction latched on to food consumption and I am getting my ass kicked!
Great post bud. I echo your sentiments on all subjects covered. Like you, I have put on a ton of weight since I quit dipping. Between 15-20 lbs in 101 days. I am constantly cramming food in my face and I consume more alcohol than I ever did when I was dipping. It's funny b/c although my battle with nic has been a winning one thus far, I have flat out lost control in other areas. My self esteem isn't at it's highest point ever and I feel a lot of frustration towards my behavior and my refusal thus far to really change much even though I recognize it. Almost every day I find a reason not to excercise and to drink beer instead. I have begun posting just this week in the alcohol slowdown group and it has kept me from drinking for 3 days so far. It hasn't been easy. Last night I cursed myself for posting there when I realized the Cowboy/Giant game was on. I was furious. Why? Because I couldn't drink? Stupid. The sun still comes up the next day. Like you I am going to work very hard towards changing the way I am living my life. Thanks for the inspiration!
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177 days nicotine free and alcohol free
I rarely very rarely feel the burden of craves for nicotine. Don't get me wrong, on occasion the thought crosses my mind to dip but it is pretty easy to dismiss and not a battle like it once was. However I realized that even though I have the formula to quit nicotine and have been quit for 177 days and it seems easy. I had a moment of self disgust and loathing today.
I am an addict!
When I quit Nicotine, I quit alcohol. I knew that If I quit nic, it would be easy and probable that I would increase drinking to compensate for my quit of nic and that was a dangerous thought. Then I went and posted roll on KTP. I didn't think I had a porn addiction but looked at the pic's of the day on this site and it ended with me seeing vaginas and boobs on my ipad. So I caved and started a day one again. Fortunately, I now have over 20 days quit on porn.
Yeah good for me, I quit nic, alcohol and porn. You know what. I am disgusted. I looked down at a doughnut I was eating today and I felt the same as I did when I saw my final can of chew. "Why am I eating this? I don't want it, I don't need it but here I am stuffing my fat fucking face!"Â
When I quit chewing tobacco, I weighed 182 pounds. Today, 177 days later, I weigh 212 pounds. I gained 30 pounds! I keep saying that I am going to go to the gym but I don't. I am going to control when and what I eat but I don't....
I am an addict!!!
To truly treat our addictions we can't replace one bad habit with another. So for a moment I felt great but now I face the reality that I simply replace one addiction with another.Â
For me the long term battle about staying quit is figuring out how to bridal my addiction not to seek pleasure that destroys. Since we all have addiction in common. Ask yourself, "Since I quit tobacco, have I increased my Drinking Alcohol, Looking at Porn, Gambling, over eating and gaining weight?" If so, how do we move our addiction to productive and good things?
Fuck the Billion Dollar Tobacco Industry! I hate them because I became addicted to their product and risked cancer for the stupid pleasure of a buzz.Â
Fuck the Billion Dollar Alcohol Industry! Alcohol abuse is a root cause of many ruined marriages, job loss and absent fathers.Â
Fuck the Billion Dollar Porn Industry! Most of the "Models" in porn are currently or have suffered abuse. Our fantasies if we looked at them for the reality they are will draw the conclusion that looking at titties and vaginas perpetuates the abuse and you are contributing to the problem. Also, if you have a wife, you are hurting her self worth and esteem by participating in that practice.
Food is necessary but as much as I like Ice Cream, Doughnuts, soda and Cereal. I have to control it!Â
All this garbage is at our finger tips and everywhere we go. So Addiction comes in all formats and we as addicts need to display more self control than ever.Â
Nicotine, Alcohol, Porn and Pop are all vices I quit. All those variable pleasure triggers now is laser focused on food. My war isn't over. I am 212 lbs. I am going to put my efforts, rage and passion into working out. I will report back when I weigh 202.Â
Even making that statement scares me like committing to quit dip. Guys quitting chew becomes easy, just replace your addiction with good things or your vices will change but you still will not be free.
This is how I feel after being quit for 177 days. I am free from nicotine and the burden of being quit and off nicotine is AWESOME! However, today I acknowledge that I am not free. My addiction latched on to food consumption and I am getting my ass kicked!
Great post bud. I echo your sentiments on all subjects covered. Like you, I have put on a ton of weight since I quit dipping. Between 15-20 lbs in 101 days. I am constantly cramming food in my face and I consume more alcohol than I ever did when I was dipping. It's funny b/c although my battle with nic has been a winning one thus far, I have flat out lost control in other areas. My self esteem isn't at it's highest point ever and I feel a lot of frustration towards my behavior and my refusal thus far to really change much even though I recognize it. Almost every day I find a reason not to excercise and to drink beer instead. I have begun posting just this week in the alcohol slowdown group and it has kept me from drinking for 3 days so far. It hasn't been easy. Last night I cursed myself for posting there when I realized the Cowboy/Giant game was on. I was furious. Why? Because I couldn't drink? Stupid. The sun still comes up the next day. Like you I am going to work very hard towards changing the way I am living my life. Thanks for the inspiration!
Mthomas I remember 2 or 3 months ago you told me when the nicotine was under control other things would fall into place. I agree that when the nicotine is manageable there are other thing to work on. I have lost control or given control to the bitch for so long now learning to live nic free is a whole life makeover! I posted this yesterday in general discussion.
At day 158 I've been contemplating some experiences on KTC. My experience of quitting dip is only a portion of my time here. I have met some wonderful people, enjoyed some great times dealing with addiction, I've learned so much about myself, I've started pulling out of my secret life. Some of the non-nic forums have helped me face other issues which needed to be addressed along with quitting dip. This is a life altering experience!
Thank you!!
So now we recognize the areas we have to work on. They will take the same determination as quitting dip!
So the battles go on
-
177 days nicotine free and alcohol free
I rarely very rarely feel the burden of craves for nicotine. Don't get me wrong, on occasion the thought crosses my mind to dip but it is pretty easy to dismiss and not a battle like it once was. However I realized that even though I have the formula to quit nicotine and have been quit for 177 days and it seems easy. I had a moment of self disgust and loathing today.
I am an addict!
When I quit Nicotine, I quit alcohol. I knew that If I quit nic, it would be easy and probable that I would increase drinking to compensate for my quit of nic and that was a dangerous thought. Then I went and posted roll on KTP. I didn't think I had a porn addiction but looked at the pic's of the day on this site and it ended with me seeing vaginas and boobs on my ipad. So I caved and started a day one again. Fortunately, I now have over 20 days quit on porn.
Yeah good for me, I quit nic, alcohol and porn. You know what. I am disgusted. I looked down at a doughnut I was eating today and I felt the same as I did when I saw my final can of chew. "Why am I eating this? I don't want it, I don't need it but here I am stuffing my fat fucking face!"Â
When I quit chewing tobacco, I weighed 182 pounds. Today, 177 days later, I weigh 212 pounds. I gained 30 pounds! I keep saying that I am going to go to the gym but I don't. I am going to control when and what I eat but I don't....
I am an addict!!!
To truly treat our addictions we can't replace one bad habit with another. So for a moment I felt great but now I face the reality that I simply replace one addiction with another.Â
For me the long term battle about staying quit is figuring out how to bridal my addiction not to seek pleasure that destroys. Since we all have addiction in common. Ask yourself, "Since I quit tobacco, have I increased my Drinking Alcohol, Looking at Porn, Gambling, over eating and gaining weight?" If so, how do we move our addiction to productive and good things?
Fuck the Billion Dollar Tobacco Industry! I hate them because I became addicted to their product and risked cancer for the stupid pleasure of a buzz.Â
Fuck the Billion Dollar Alcohol Industry! Alcohol abuse is a root cause of many ruined marriages, job loss and absent fathers.Â
Fuck the Billion Dollar Porn Industry! Most of the "Models" in porn are currently or have suffered abuse. Our fantasies if we looked at them for the reality they are will draw the conclusion that looking at titties and vaginas perpetuates the abuse and you are contributing to the problem. Also, if you have a wife, you are hurting her self worth and esteem by participating in that practice.
Food is necessary but as much as I like Ice Cream, Doughnuts, soda and Cereal. I have to control it!Â
All this garbage is at our finger tips and everywhere we go. So Addiction comes in all formats and we as addicts need to display more self control than ever.Â
Nicotine, Alcohol, Porn and Pop are all vices I quit. All those variable pleasure triggers now is laser focused on food. My war isn't over. I am 212 lbs. I am going to put my efforts, rage and passion into working out. I will report back when I weigh 202.Â
Even making that statement scares me like committing to quit dip. Guys quitting chew becomes easy, just replace your addiction with good things or your vices will change but you still will not be free.
This is how I feel after being quit for 177 days. I am free from nicotine and the burden of being quit and off nicotine is AWESOME! However, today I acknowledge that I am not free. My addiction latched on to food consumption and I am getting my ass kicked!
Great post bud. I echo your sentiments on all subjects covered. Like you, I have put on a ton of weight since I quit dipping. Between 15-20 lbs in 101 days. I am constantly cramming food in my face and I consume more alcohol than I ever did when I was dipping. It's funny b/c although my battle with nic has been a winning one thus far, I have flat out lost control in other areas. My self esteem isn't at it's highest point ever and I feel a lot of frustration towards my behavior and my refusal thus far to really change much even though I recognize it. Almost every day I find a reason not to excercise and to drink beer instead. I have begun posting just this week in the alcohol slowdown group and it has kept me from drinking for 3 days so far. It hasn't been easy. Last night I cursed myself for posting there when I realized the Cowboy/Giant game was on. I was furious. Why? Because I couldn't drink? Stupid. The sun still comes up the next day. Like you I am going to work very hard towards changing the way I am living my life. Thanks for the inspiration!
Mthomas I remember 2 or 3 months ago you told me when the nicotine was under control other things would fall into place. I agree that when the nicotine is manageable there are other thing to work on. I have lost control or given control to the bitch for so long now learning to live nic free is a whole life makeover! I posted this yesterday in general discussion.
At day 158 I've been contemplating some experiences on KTC. My experience of quitting dip is only a portion of my time here. I have met some wonderful people, enjoyed some great times dealing with addiction, I've learned so much about myself, I've started pulling out of my secret life. Some of the non-nic forums have helped me face other issues which needed to be addressed along with quitting dip. This is a life altering experience!
Thank you!!
So now we recognize the areas we have to work on. They will take the same determination as quitting dip!
So the battles go on
Good Good Stuff brothers. Being able to look at yourself honestly, is life changing. Our stories are so similar to each other that it is eerie. Thanks for posting MT. The fight goes on...indeed WT, indeed. Im glad you phags are around here. :wub:
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177 days nicotine free and alcohol free
I rarely very rarely feel the burden of craves for nicotine. Don't get me wrong, on occasion the thought crosses my mind to dip but it is pretty easy to dismiss and not a battle like it once was. However I realized that even though I have the formula to quit nicotine and have been quit for 177 days and it seems easy. I had a moment of self disgust and loathing today.
I am an addict!
When I quit Nicotine, I quit alcohol. I knew that If I quit nic, it would be easy and probable that I would increase drinking to compensate for my quit of nic and that was a dangerous thought. Then I went and posted roll on KTP. I didn't think I had a porn addiction but looked at the pic's of the day on this site and it ended with me seeing vaginas and boobs on my ipad. So I caved and started a day one again. Fortunately, I now have over 20 days quit on porn.
Yeah good for me, I quit nic, alcohol and porn. You know what. I am disgusted. I looked down at a doughnut I was eating today and I felt the same as I did when I saw my final can of chew. "Why am I eating this? I don't want it, I don't need it but here I am stuffing my fat fucking face!"Â
When I quit chewing tobacco, I weighed 182 pounds. Today, 177 days later, I weigh 212 pounds. I gained 30 pounds! I keep saying that I am going to go to the gym but I don't. I am going to control when and what I eat but I don't....
I am an addict!!!
To truly treat our addictions we can't replace one bad habit with another. So for a moment I felt great but now I face the reality that I simply replace one addiction with another.Â
For me the long term battle about staying quit is figuring out how to bridal my addiction not to seek pleasure that destroys. Since we all have addiction in common. Ask yourself, "Since I quit tobacco, have I increased my Drinking Alcohol, Looking at Porn, Gambling, over eating and gaining weight?" If so, how do we move our addiction to productive and good things?
Fuck the Billion Dollar Tobacco Industry! I hate them because I became addicted to their product and risked cancer for the stupid pleasure of a buzz.Â
Fuck the Billion Dollar Alcohol Industry! Alcohol abuse is a root cause of many ruined marriages, job loss and absent fathers.Â
Fuck the Billion Dollar Porn Industry! Most of the "Models" in porn are currently or have suffered abuse. Our fantasies if we looked at them for the reality they are will draw the conclusion that looking at titties and vaginas perpetuates the abuse and you are contributing to the problem. Also, if you have a wife, you are hurting her self worth and esteem by participating in that practice.
Food is necessary but as much as I like Ice Cream, Doughnuts, soda and Cereal. I have to control it!Â
All this garbage is at our finger tips and everywhere we go. So Addiction comes in all formats and we as addicts need to display more self control than ever.Â
Nicotine, Alcohol, Porn and Pop are all vices I quit. All those variable pleasure triggers now is laser focused on food. My war isn't over. I am 212 lbs. I am going to put my efforts, rage and passion into working out. I will report back when I weigh 202.Â
Even making that statement scares me like committing to quit dip. Guys quitting chew becomes easy, just replace your addiction with good things or your vices will change but you still will not be free.
This is how I feel after being quit for 177 days. I am free from nicotine and the burden of being quit and off nicotine is AWESOME! However, today I acknowledge that I am not free. My addiction latched on to food consumption and I am getting my ass kicked!
Great post bud. I echo your sentiments on all subjects covered. Like you, I have put on a ton of weight since I quit dipping. Between 15-20 lbs in 101 days. I am constantly cramming food in my face and I consume more alcohol than I ever did when I was dipping. It's funny b/c although my battle with nic has been a winning one thus far, I have flat out lost control in other areas. My self esteem isn't at it's highest point ever and I feel a lot of frustration towards my behavior and my refusal thus far to really change much even though I recognize it. Almost every day I find a reason not to excercise and to drink beer instead. I have begun posting just this week in the alcohol slowdown group and it has kept me from drinking for 3 days so far. It hasn't been easy. Last night I cursed myself for posting there when I realized the Cowboy/Giant game was on. I was furious. Why? Because I couldn't drink? Stupid. The sun still comes up the next day. Like you I am going to work very hard towards changing the way I am living my life. Thanks for the inspiration!
Mthomas I remember 2 or 3 months ago you told me when the nicotine was under control other things would fall into place. I agree that when the nicotine is manageable there are other thing to work on. I have lost control or given control to the bitch for so long now learning to live nic free is a whole life makeover! I posted this yesterday in general discussion.
At day 158 I've been contemplating some experiences on KTC. My experience of quitting dip is only a portion of my time here. I have met some wonderful people, enjoyed some great times dealing with addiction, I've learned so much about myself, I've started pulling out of my secret life. Some of the non-nic forums have helped me face other issues which needed to be addressed along with quitting dip. This is a life altering experience!
Thank you!!
So now we recognize the areas we have to work on. They will take the same determination as quitting dip!
So the battles go on
Good Good Stuff brothers. Being able to look at yourself honestly, is life changing. Our stories are so similar to each other that it is eerie. Thanks for posting MT. The fight goes on...indeed WT, indeed. Im glad you phags are around here. :wub:
True that. May we alway fight and battle together. I will stay quit and gay with you all!
Eric71. Thanks for the call. I am ready and feeling excited about the workouts. Thanks for helping me.
-
177 days nicotine free and alcohol free
I rarely very rarely feel the burden of craves for nicotine. Don't get me wrong, on occasion the thought crosses my mind to dip but it is pretty easy to dismiss and not a battle like it once was. However I realized that even though I have the formula to quit nicotine and have been quit for 177 days and it seems easy. I had a moment of self disgust and loathing today.
I am an addict!
When I quit Nicotine, I quit alcohol. I knew that If I quit nic, it would be easy and probable that I would increase drinking to compensate for my quit of nic and that was a dangerous thought. Then I went and posted roll on KTP. I didn't think I had a porn addiction but looked at the pic's of the day on this site and it ended with me seeing vaginas and boobs on my ipad. So I caved and started a day one again. Fortunately, I now have over 20 days quit on porn.
Yeah good for me, I quit nic, alcohol and porn. You know what. I am disgusted. I looked down at a doughnut I was eating today and I felt the same as I did when I saw my final can of chew. "Why am I eating this? I don't want it, I don't need it but here I am stuffing my fat fucking face!"Â
When I quit chewing tobacco, I weighed 182 pounds. Today, 177 days later, I weigh 212 pounds. I gained 30 pounds! I keep saying that I am going to go to the gym but I don't. I am going to control when and what I eat but I don't....
I am an addict!!!
To truly treat our addictions we can't replace one bad habit with another. So for a moment I felt great but now I face the reality that I simply replace one addiction with another.Â
For me the long term battle about staying quit is figuring out how to bridal my addiction not to seek pleasure that destroys. Since we all have addiction in common. Ask yourself, "Since I quit tobacco, have I increased my Drinking Alcohol, Looking at Porn, Gambling, over eating and gaining weight?" If so, how do we move our addiction to productive and good things?
Fuck the Billion Dollar Tobacco Industry! I hate them because I became addicted to their product and risked cancer for the stupid pleasure of a buzz.Â
Fuck the Billion Dollar Alcohol Industry! Alcohol abuse is a root cause of many ruined marriages, job loss and absent fathers.Â
Fuck the Billion Dollar Porn Industry! Most of the "Models" in porn are currently or have suffered abuse. Our fantasies if we looked at them for the reality they are will draw the conclusion that looking at titties and vaginas perpetuates the abuse and you are contributing to the problem. Also, if you have a wife, you are hurting her self worth and esteem by participating in that practice.
Food is necessary but as much as I like Ice Cream, Doughnuts, soda and Cereal. I have to control it!Â
All this garbage is at our finger tips and everywhere we go. So Addiction comes in all formats and we as addicts need to display more self control than ever.Â
Nicotine, Alcohol, Porn and Pop are all vices I quit. All those variable pleasure triggers now is laser focused on food. My war isn't over. I am 212 lbs. I am going to put my efforts, rage and passion into working out. I will report back when I weigh 202.Â
Even making that statement scares me like committing to quit dip. Guys quitting chew becomes easy, just replace your addiction with good things or your vices will change but you still will not be free.
This is how I feel after being quit for 177 days. I am free from nicotine and the burden of being quit and off nicotine is AWESOME! However, today I acknowledge that I am not free. My addiction latched on to food consumption and I am getting my ass kicked!
Great post bud. I echo your sentiments on all subjects covered. Like you, I have put on a ton of weight since I quit dipping. Between 15-20 lbs in 101 days. I am constantly cramming food in my face and I consume more alcohol than I ever did when I was dipping. It's funny b/c although my battle with nic has been a winning one thus far, I have flat out lost control in other areas. My self esteem isn't at it's highest point ever and I feel a lot of frustration towards my behavior and my refusal thus far to really change much even though I recognize it. Almost every day I find a reason not to excercise and to drink beer instead. I have begun posting just this week in the alcohol slowdown group and it has kept me from drinking for 3 days so far. It hasn't been easy. Last night I cursed myself for posting there when I realized the Cowboy/Giant game was on. I was furious. Why? Because I couldn't drink? Stupid. The sun still comes up the next day. Like you I am going to work very hard towards changing the way I am living my life. Thanks for the inspiration!
Mthomas I remember 2 or 3 months ago you told me when the nicotine was under control other things would fall into place. I agree that when the nicotine is manageable there are other thing to work on. I have lost control or given control to the bitch for so long now learning to live nic free is a whole life makeover! I posted this yesterday in general discussion.
At day 158 I've been contemplating some experiences on KTC. My experience of quitting dip is only a portion of my time here. I have met some wonderful people, enjoyed some great times dealing with addiction, I've learned so much about myself, I've started pulling out of my secret life. Some of the non-nic forums have helped me face other issues which needed to be addressed along with quitting dip. This is a life altering experience!
Thank you!!
So now we recognize the areas we have to work on. They will take the same determination as quitting dip!
So the battles go on
Good Good Stuff brothers. Being able to look at yourself honestly, is life changing. Our stories are so similar to each other that it is eerie. Thanks for posting MT. The fight goes on...indeed WT, indeed. Im glad you phags are around here. :wub:
True that. May we alway fight and battle together. I will stay quit and gay with you all!
Eric71. Thanks for the call. I am ready and feeling excited about the workouts. Thanks for helping me.
Glad we talked, only wish I'd had the chance to read your initial post before we spoke. I feel a couple of the comments I made, although tongue in cheek, were on the verge of inappropriate. That being said, for addicts to gain a handle on addiction, they often temporarily resort to another pleasure trigger. The key takeaway from that is "temporarily". We then have to strategically eliminate that pleasure, if it is unhealthy, by reinforcing a positive behavior, like working out. It is by doing this, and establishing this as a new trigger, that we can then go to work on the elimination of a problem like overeating. I do not think you have a problem, I think you have a compensation that became a habit and now you no longer need as much compensation but are finding it hard to break the habit of indulgent eating. It is a cycle, it is an addiction. It is fixable and what we outlined last night over the phone is a step toward the direction you want your life to go. I am here with you every step of the way and will do everything in my power to ensure your success.
Always proud to be quit with the likes of you!
-
177 days nicotine free and alcohol free
I rarely very rarely feel the burden of craves for nicotine. Don't get me wrong, on occasion the thought crosses my mind to dip but it is pretty easy to dismiss and not a battle like it once was. However I realized that even though I have the formula to quit nicotine and have been quit for 177 days and it seems easy. I had a moment of self disgust and loathing today.
I am an addict!
When I quit Nicotine, I quit alcohol. I knew that If I quit nic, it would be easy and probable that I would increase drinking to compensate for my quit of nic and that was a dangerous thought. Then I went and posted roll on KTP. I didn't think I had a porn addiction but looked at the pic's of the day on this site and it ended with me seeing vaginas and boobs on my ipad. So I caved and started a day one again. Fortunately, I now have over 20 days quit on porn.
Yeah good for me, I quit nic, alcohol and porn. You know what. I am disgusted. I looked down at a doughnut I was eating today and I felt the same as I did when I saw my final can of chew. "Why am I eating this? I don't want it, I don't need it but here I am stuffing my fat fucking face!"Â
When I quit chewing tobacco, I weighed 182 pounds. Today, 177 days later, I weigh 212 pounds. I gained 30 pounds! I keep saying that I am going to go to the gym but I don't. I am going to control when and what I eat but I don't....
I am an addict!!!
To truly treat our addictions we can't replace one bad habit with another. So for a moment I felt great but now I face the reality that I simply replace one addiction with another.Â
For me the long term battle about staying quit is figuring out how to bridal my addiction not to seek pleasure that destroys. Since we all have addiction in common. Ask yourself, "Since I quit tobacco, have I increased my Drinking Alcohol, Looking at Porn, Gambling, over eating and gaining weight?" If so, how do we move our addiction to productive and good things?
Fuck the Billion Dollar Tobacco Industry! I hate them because I became addicted to their product and risked cancer for the stupid pleasure of a buzz.Â
Fuck the Billion Dollar Alcohol Industry! Alcohol abuse is a root cause of many ruined marriages, job loss and absent fathers.Â
Fuck the Billion Dollar Porn Industry! Most of the "Models" in porn are currently or have suffered abuse. Our fantasies if we looked at them for the reality they are will draw the conclusion that looking at titties and vaginas perpetuates the abuse and you are contributing to the problem. Also, if you have a wife, you are hurting her self worth and esteem by participating in that practice.
Food is necessary but as much as I like Ice Cream, Doughnuts, soda and Cereal. I have to control it!Â
All this garbage is at our finger tips and everywhere we go. So Addiction comes in all formats and we as addicts need to display more self control than ever.Â
Nicotine, Alcohol, Porn and Pop are all vices I quit. All those variable pleasure triggers now is laser focused on food. My war isn't over. I am 212 lbs. I am going to put my efforts, rage and passion into working out. I will report back when I weigh 202.Â
Even making that statement scares me like committing to quit dip. Guys quitting chew becomes easy, just replace your addiction with good things or your vices will change but you still will not be free.
This is how I feel after being quit for 177 days. I am free from nicotine and the burden of being quit and off nicotine is AWESOME! However, today I acknowledge that I am not free. My addiction latched on to food consumption and I am getting my ass kicked!
Great post bud. I echo your sentiments on all subjects covered. Like you, I have put on a ton of weight since I quit dipping. Between 15-20 lbs in 101 days. I am constantly cramming food in my face and I consume more alcohol than I ever did when I was dipping. It's funny b/c although my battle with nic has been a winning one thus far, I have flat out lost control in other areas. My self esteem isn't at it's highest point ever and I feel a lot of frustration towards my behavior and my refusal thus far to really change much even though I recognize it. Almost every day I find a reason not to excercise and to drink beer instead. I have begun posting just this week in the alcohol slowdown group and it has kept me from drinking for 3 days so far. It hasn't been easy. Last night I cursed myself for posting there when I realized the Cowboy/Giant game was on. I was furious. Why? Because I couldn't drink? Stupid. The sun still comes up the next day. Like you I am going to work very hard towards changing the way I am living my life. Thanks for the inspiration!
Mthomas I remember 2 or 3 months ago you told me when the nicotine was under control other things would fall into place. I agree that when the nicotine is manageable there are other thing to work on. I have lost control or given control to the bitch for so long now learning to live nic free is a whole life makeover! I posted this yesterday in general discussion.
At day 158 I've been contemplating some experiences on KTC. My experience of quitting dip is only a portion of my time here. I have met some wonderful people, enjoyed some great times dealing with addiction, I've learned so much about myself, I've started pulling out of my secret life. Some of the non-nic forums have helped me face other issues which needed to be addressed along with quitting dip. This is a life altering experience!
Thank you!!
So now we recognize the areas we have to work on. They will take the same determination as quitting dip!
So the battles go on
Good Good Stuff brothers. Being able to look at yourself honestly, is life changing. Our stories are so similar to each other that it is eerie. Thanks for posting MT. The fight goes on...indeed WT, indeed. Im glad you phags are around here. :wub:
True that. May we alway fight and battle together. I will stay quit and gay with you all!
Eric71. Thanks for the call. I am ready and feeling excited about the workouts. Thanks for helping me.
Glad we talked, only wish I'd had the chance to read your initial post before we spoke. I feel a couple of the comments I made, although tongue in cheek, were on the verge of inappropriate. That being said, for addicts to gain a handle on addiction, they often temporarily resort to another pleasure trigger. The key takeaway from that is "temporarily". We then have to strategically eliminate that pleasure, if it is unhealthy, by reinforcing a positive behavior, like working out. It is by doing this, and establishing this as a new trigger, that we can then go to work on the elimination of a problem like overeating. I do not think you have a problem, I think you have a compensation that became a habit and now you no longer need as much compensation but are finding it hard to break the habit of indulgent eating. It is a cycle, it is an addiction. It is fixable and what we outlined last night over the phone is a step toward the direction you want your life to go. I am here with you every step of the way and will do everything in my power to ensure your success.
Always proud to be quit with the likes of you!
This whole process has made me reevaluate my entire life and it is clear to me now that I am addicted to many many things. Caffene, sugars and fats, tv and internet sites (social and adult), nicotine, endorphins, adrenalin, sodium and alcohol. All of these thing provide my body with a rush. Some will always be with me because they are biproducts of a heathier lifestyle (endorphins, adrenalin) others belong to a lifestyle that is not working to get me where I want to be in the end which is a happier, heathier person and will continue to battle them daily.
-
177 days nicotine free and alcohol free
I rarely very rarely feel the burden of craves for nicotine. Don't get me wrong, on occasion the thought crosses my mind to dip but it is pretty easy to dismiss and not a battle like it once was. However I realized that even though I have the formula to quit nicotine and have been quit for 177 days and it seems easy. I had a moment of self disgust and loathing today.
I am an addict!
When I quit Nicotine, I quit alcohol. I knew that If I quit nic, it would be easy and probable that I would increase drinking to compensate for my quit of nic and that was a dangerous thought. Then I went and posted roll on KTP. I didn't think I had a porn addiction but looked at the pic's of the day on this site and it ended with me seeing vaginas and boobs on my ipad. So I caved and started a day one again. Fortunately, I now have over 20 days quit on porn.
Yeah good for me, I quit nic, alcohol and porn. You know what. I am disgusted. I looked down at a doughnut I was eating today and I felt the same as I did when I saw my final can of chew. "Why am I eating this? I don't want it, I don't need it but here I am stuffing my fat fucking face!"Â
When I quit chewing tobacco, I weighed 182 pounds. Today, 177 days later, I weigh 212 pounds. I gained 30 pounds! I keep saying that I am going to go to the gym but I don't. I am going to control when and what I eat but I don't....
I am an addict!!!
To truly treat our addictions we can't replace one bad habit with another. So for a moment I felt great but now I face the reality that I simply replace one addiction with another.Â
For me the long term battle about staying quit is figuring out how to bridal my addiction not to seek pleasure that destroys. Since we all have addiction in common. Ask yourself, "Since I quit tobacco, have I increased my Drinking Alcohol, Looking at Porn, Gambling, over eating and gaining weight?" If so, how do we move our addiction to productive and good things?
Fuck the Billion Dollar Tobacco Industry! I hate them because I became addicted to their product and risked cancer for the stupid pleasure of a buzz.Â
Fuck the Billion Dollar Alcohol Industry! Alcohol abuse is a root cause of many ruined marriages, job loss and absent fathers.Â
Fuck the Billion Dollar Porn Industry! Most of the "Models" in porn are currently or have suffered abuse. Our fantasies if we looked at them for the reality they are will draw the conclusion that looking at titties and vaginas perpetuates the abuse and you are contributing to the problem. Also, if you have a wife, you are hurting her self worth and esteem by participating in that practice.
Food is necessary but as much as I like Ice Cream, Doughnuts, soda and Cereal. I have to control it!Â
All this garbage is at our finger tips and everywhere we go. So Addiction comes in all formats and we as addicts need to display more self control than ever.Â
Nicotine, Alcohol, Porn and Pop are all vices I quit. All those variable pleasure triggers now is laser focused on food. My war isn't over. I am 212 lbs. I am going to put my efforts, rage and passion into working out. I will report back when I weigh 202.Â
Even making that statement scares me like committing to quit dip. Guys quitting chew becomes easy, just replace your addiction with good things or your vices will change but you still will not be free.
This is how I feel after being quit for 177 days. I am free from nicotine and the burden of being quit and off nicotine is AWESOME! However, today I acknowledge that I am not free. My addiction latched on to food consumption and I am getting my ass kicked!
Great post bud. I echo your sentiments on all subjects covered. Like you, I have put on a ton of weight since I quit dipping. Between 15-20 lbs in 101 days. I am constantly cramming food in my face and I consume more alcohol than I ever did when I was dipping. It's funny b/c although my battle with nic has been a winning one thus far, I have flat out lost control in other areas. My self esteem isn't at it's highest point ever and I feel a lot of frustration towards my behavior and my refusal thus far to really change much even though I recognize it. Almost every day I find a reason not to excercise and to drink beer instead. I have begun posting just this week in the alcohol slowdown group and it has kept me from drinking for 3 days so far. It hasn't been easy. Last night I cursed myself for posting there when I realized the Cowboy/Giant game was on. I was furious. Why? Because I couldn't drink? Stupid. The sun still comes up the next day. Like you I am going to work very hard towards changing the way I am living my life. Thanks for the inspiration!
Mthomas I remember 2 or 3 months ago you told me when the nicotine was under control other things would fall into place. I agree that when the nicotine is manageable there are other thing to work on. I have lost control or given control to the bitch for so long now learning to live nic free is a whole life makeover! I posted this yesterday in general discussion.
At day 158 I've been contemplating some experiences on KTC. My experience of quitting dip is only a portion of my time here. I have met some wonderful people, enjoyed some great times dealing with addiction, I've learned so much about myself, I've started pulling out of my secret life. Some of the non-nic forums have helped me face other issues which needed to be addressed along with quitting dip. This is a life altering experience!
Thank you!!
So now we recognize the areas we have to work on. They will take the same determination as quitting dip!
So the battles go on
Good Good Stuff brothers. Being able to look at yourself honestly, is life changing. Our stories are so similar to each other that it is eerie. Thanks for posting MT. The fight goes on...indeed WT, indeed. Im glad you phags are around here. :wub:
True that. May we alway fight and battle together. I will stay quit and gay with you all!
Eric71. Thanks for the call. I am ready and feeling excited about the workouts. Thanks for helping me.
Glad we talked, only wish I'd had the chance to read your initial post before we spoke. I feel a couple of the comments I made, although tongue in cheek, were on the verge of inappropriate. That being said, for addicts to gain a handle on addiction, they often temporarily resort to another pleasure trigger. The key takeaway from that is "temporarily". We then have to strategically eliminate that pleasure, if it is unhealthy, by reinforcing a positive behavior, like working out. It is by doing this, and establishing this as a new trigger, that we can then go to work on the elimination of a problem like overeating. I do not think you have a problem, I think you have a compensation that became a habit and now you no longer need as much compensation but are finding it hard to break the habit of indulgent eating. It is a cycle, it is an addiction. It is fixable and what we outlined last night over the phone is a step toward the direction you want your life to go. I am here with you every step of the way and will do everything in my power to ensure your success.
Always proud to be quit with the likes of you!
This whole process has made me reevaluate my entire life and it is clear to me now that I am addicted to many many things. Caffene, sugars and fats, tv and internet sites (social and adult), nicotine, endorphins, adrenalin, sodium and alcohol. All of these thing provide my body with a rush. Some will always be with me because they are biproducts of a heathier lifestyle (endorphins, adrenalin) others belong to a lifestyle that is not working to get me where I want to be in the end which is a happier, heathier person and will continue to battle them daily.
-
177 days nicotine free and alcohol free
I rarely very rarely feel the burden of craves for nicotine. Don't get me wrong, on occasion the thought crosses my mind to dip but it is pretty easy to dismiss and not a battle like it once was. However I realized that even though I have the formula to quit nicotine and have been quit for 177 days and it seems easy. I had a moment of self disgust and loathing today.
I am an addict!
When I quit Nicotine, I quit alcohol. I knew that If I quit nic, it would be easy and probable that I would increase drinking to compensate for my quit of nic and that was a dangerous thought. Then I went and posted roll on KTP. I didn't think I had a porn addiction but looked at the pic's of the day on this site and it ended with me seeing vaginas and boobs on my ipad. So I caved and started a day one again. Fortunately, I now have over 20 days quit on porn.
Yeah good for me, I quit nic, alcohol and porn. You know what. I am disgusted. I looked down at a doughnut I was eating today and I felt the same as I did when I saw my final can of chew. "Why am I eating this? I don't want it, I don't need it but here I am stuffing my fat fucking face!"Â
When I quit chewing tobacco, I weighed 182 pounds. Today, 177 days later, I weigh 212 pounds. I gained 30 pounds! I keep saying that I am going to go to the gym but I don't. I am going to control when and what I eat but I don't....
I am an addict!!!
To truly treat our addictions we can't replace one bad habit with another. So for a moment I felt great but now I face the reality that I simply replace one addiction with another.Â
For me the long term battle about staying quit is figuring out how to bridal my addiction not to seek pleasure that destroys. Since we all have addiction in common. Ask yourself, "Since I quit tobacco, have I increased my Drinking Alcohol, Looking at Porn, Gambling, over eating and gaining weight?" If so, how do we move our addiction to productive and good things?
Fuck the Billion Dollar Tobacco Industry! I hate them because I became addicted to their product and risked cancer for the stupid pleasure of a buzz.Â
Fuck the Billion Dollar Alcohol Industry! Alcohol abuse is a root cause of many ruined marriages, job loss and absent fathers.Â
Fuck the Billion Dollar Porn Industry! Most of the "Models" in porn are currently or have suffered abuse. Our fantasies if we looked at them for the reality they are will draw the conclusion that looking at titties and vaginas perpetuates the abuse and you are contributing to the problem. Also, if you have a wife, you are hurting her self worth and esteem by participating in that practice.
Food is necessary but as much as I like Ice Cream, Doughnuts, soda and Cereal. I have to control it!Â
All this garbage is at our finger tips and everywhere we go. So Addiction comes in all formats and we as addicts need to display more self control than ever.Â
Nicotine, Alcohol, Porn and Pop are all vices I quit. All those variable pleasure triggers now is laser focused on food. My war isn't over. I am 212 lbs. I am going to put my efforts, rage and passion into working out. I will report back when I weigh 202.Â
Even making that statement scares me like committing to quit dip. Guys quitting chew becomes easy, just replace your addiction with good things or your vices will change but you still will not be free.
This is how I feel after being quit for 177 days. I am free from nicotine and the burden of being quit and off nicotine is AWESOME! However, today I acknowledge that I am not free. My addiction latched on to food consumption and I am getting my ass kicked!
Great post bud. I echo your sentiments on all subjects covered. Like you, I have put on a ton of weight since I quit dipping. Between 15-20 lbs in 101 days. I am constantly cramming food in my face and I consume more alcohol than I ever did when I was dipping. It's funny b/c although my battle with nic has been a winning one thus far, I have flat out lost control in other areas. My self esteem isn't at it's highest point ever and I feel a lot of frustration towards my behavior and my refusal thus far to really change much even though I recognize it. Almost every day I find a reason not to excercise and to drink beer instead. I have begun posting just this week in the alcohol slowdown group and it has kept me from drinking for 3 days so far. It hasn't been easy. Last night I cursed myself for posting there when I realized the Cowboy/Giant game was on. I was furious. Why? Because I couldn't drink? Stupid. The sun still comes up the next day. Like you I am going to work very hard towards changing the way I am living my life. Thanks for the inspiration!
Mthomas I remember 2 or 3 months ago you told me when the nicotine was under control other things would fall into place. I agree that when the nicotine is manageable there are other thing to work on. I have lost control or given control to the bitch for so long now learning to live nic free is a whole life makeover! I posted this yesterday in general discussion.
At day 158 I've been contemplating some experiences on KTC. My experience of quitting dip is only a portion of my time here. I have met some wonderful people, enjoyed some great times dealing with addiction, I've learned so much about myself, I've started pulling out of my secret life. Some of the non-nic forums have helped me face other issues which needed to be addressed along with quitting dip. This is a life altering experience!
Thank you!!
So now we recognize the areas we have to work on. They will take the same determination as quitting dip!
So the battles go on
Good Good Stuff brothers. Being able to look at yourself honestly, is life changing. Our stories are so similar to each other that it is eerie. Thanks for posting MT. The fight goes on...indeed WT, indeed. Im glad you phags are around here. :wub:
True that. May we alway fight and battle together. I will stay quit and gay with you all!
Eric71. Thanks for the call. I am ready and feeling excited about the workouts. Thanks for helping me.
Glad we talked, only wish I'd had the chance to read your initial post before we spoke. I feel a couple of the comments I made, although tongue in cheek, were on the verge of inappropriate. That being said, for addicts to gain a handle on addiction, they often temporarily resort to another pleasure trigger. The key takeaway from that is "temporarily". We then have to strategically eliminate that pleasure, if it is unhealthy, by reinforcing a positive behavior, like working out. It is by doing this, and establishing this as a new trigger, that we can then go to work on the elimination of a problem like overeating. I do not think you have a problem, I think you have a compensation that became a habit and now you no longer need as much compensation but are finding it hard to break the habit of indulgent eating. It is a cycle, it is an addiction. It is fixable and what we outlined last night over the phone is a step toward the direction you want your life to go. I am here with you every step of the way and will do everything in my power to ensure your success.
Always proud to be quit with the likes of you!
This whole process has made me reevaluate my entire life and it is clear to me now that I am addicted to many many things. Caffene, sugars and fats, tv and internet sites (social and adult), nicotine, endorphins, adrenalin, sodium and alcohol. All of these thing provide my body with a rush. Some will always be with me because they are biproducts of a heathier lifestyle (endorphins, adrenalin) others belong to a lifestyle that is not working to get me where I want to be in the end which is a happier, heathier person and will continue to battle them daily.
Great stuff guys!
The original post by mthomas was and is spot on, I say keep bettering yourself!
My life makeover has been good and bad but when I look back it is all good just with some very tough trials that I needed to go thru to get better and be better!
Thanks mthomas for putting into words what many of us think but dont have the means or writing ability to say!
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Mark,
I have been running at least 1 mile a day since getting to Phoenix. When I return home, I may or may not be shipped out again. But, let's get together for lunch and plan a good work out regime. Even if it's just down in the basement, or going for a run, I am with you. Shit, get a mountain bike and go biking with me. Whatever you want. Exercise comes in many ways, so let's get going!!! I get back at the beginning of October. We can even have a biggest loser contest to get a good jump on it. We could even wrestle if ya want, but I'm not wearing no f'ing leotard and head gear!!! 'exercise'
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Mark,
I have been running at least 1 mile a day since getting to Phoenix. When I return home, I may or may not be shipped out again. But, let's get together for lunch and plan a good work out regime. Even if it's just down in the basement, or going for a run, I am with you. Shit, get a mountain bike and go biking with me. Whatever you want. Exercise comes in many ways, so let's get going!!! I get back at the beginning of October. We can even have a biggest loser contest to get a good jump on it. We could even wrestle if ya want, but I'm not wearing no f'ing leotard and head gear!!! 'exercise'
oh I want pictures.... 'Bond'
'crackup'
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Mark,
I have been running at least 1 mile a day since getting to Phoenix. When I return home, I may or may not be shipped out again. But, let's get together for lunch and plan a good work out regime. Even if it's just down in the basement, or going for a run, I am with you. Shit, get a mountain bike and go biking with me. Whatever you want. Exercise comes in many ways, so let's get going!!! I get back at the beginning of October. We can even have a biggest loser contest to get a good jump on it. We could even wrestle if ya want, but I'm not wearing no f'ing leotard and head gear!!! 'exercise'
oh I want pictures.... 'Bond'
'crackup'
I want pictures too! I heard mark wrestles in the nude! That's what Blake said!! Now both of you wearing nothing! LMAO
See Day 162 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=6167&st=15)
:ph43r: (Blake) 'nhl2'
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Mark,
I have been running at least 1 mile a day since getting to Phoenix. When I return home, I may or may not be shipped out again. But, let's get together for lunch and plan a good work out regime. Even if it's just down in the basement, or going for a run, I am with you. Shit, get a mountain bike and go biking with me. Whatever you want. Exercise comes in many ways, so let's get going!!! I get back at the beginning of October. We can even have a biggest loser contest to get a good jump on it. We could even wrestle if ya want, but I'm not wearing no f'ing leotard and head gear!!! 'exercise'
oh I want pictures.... 'Bond'
'crackup'
I want pictures too! I heard mark wrestles in the nude! That's what Blake said!! Now both of you wearing nothing! LMAO
See Day 162 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=6167&st=15)
:ph43r: (Blake) 'nhl2'
I wrastle in the nude, but only for charity events. The only wrestling I can do now is thumb wrestling. I'm in for the gym, mountain biking. I orderd the forklift to get my fat ass of the couch. Eric has me doing 3workouts this week an next Saturday Scotty an I are going to hike lone peak.
When you are in town, let's be like rocky in Russia. Pulling up a net of heavy rocks, choping wood and shit, raping cattle, and climbing a mountain peak!
Let's get addicted to our health!
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Day 201
Without you guys I would have caved like a little bitch this week!!!! Thanks for your texts of support, calls, and staying in my head. I needed it. I thought I was an all star quitter....I am just an addict. You guys that texted me and kept me on task. You are my all stars. You carried me and I can't thank you enough.
Work got crazy with the mine expo in Vegas. I had to prepare and ship our goods, fly in early to set it up a large exhibit, work the 3 day show and then tear it down. It was a shit ton of work and a success. Much like my two hernia surgeries. It was painful but glad I did it.
So now being back a day, I reflect on my quit. My 200 days was yesterday and I have been thinking a lot. Is my quit to a point where I shouldn't post because it makes me think about dipping?????
Vegas was my real true test of being in the elements, alone and having all the shit thrown in my face. From Alcohol, cigarettes and while sitting outside the Venitian, some poor girl was soliciting me to take her to my room. I was disturbed that I would even look like someone you could approach and offer sex to, let alone people I knew offering me alcohol and nicotine. I admire the people that have put up with it being around you daily.
I have tons of stories of temptation, justifying a cave, then getting a text or a call at the very moment I may fall....wow, its almost like my KTC friends could sense that a call or text was what I needed.
So Las Vegas sucks and I am glad that the next mining convention is four years away. Hopefully we will have grown to a point where I send employees to set up and tear down and I only need to be there for the show.
To all that have it around you, please know that I respect your battle. Caving still is not an action that gets any justification. I passed 200 days and it gets better and temptations are few and far but there are going to be some longing calls to seduce you back to the nic bitch. However, after the battle, it feels great to post 201 vs. 1. I prefer the feelings of 201 over day 1.
Stay in the fight and win your match today. We worry about tomorrow when it comes....
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Way to stay strong and not be lured back to the dark side....
That nic bitch is a sneaky stinking hoe and she will keep whispering to you .... thats why this site is the best when those things happen and they do you can always reach out to a quit brother and keep the sneaky bitch from getting her hooks back into you!
I have reached 238 days and there is still temptation out there for me but now I have some serious weapons to use against the bitch, things like resolve and determination along with what this site brings which is pride! Pride in giving my promise and keeping it, not letting anything get in the way of my quit!
Keep on keeping on brother and remember you have my number use it when needed!
Grizzly25...out
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Way to stay strong and not be lured back to the dark side....
That nic bitch is a sneaky stinking hoe and she will keep whispering to you .... thats why this site is the best when those things happen and they do you can always reach out to a quit brother and keep the sneaky bitch from getting her hooks back into you!
I have reached 238 days and there is still temptation out there for me but now I have some serious weapons to use against the bitch, things like resolve and determination along with what this site brings which is pride! Pride in giving my promise and keeping it, not letting anything get in the way of my quit!
Keep on keeping on brother and remember you have my number use it when needed!
Grizzly25...out
Just spoke with Froman and texting WT. I am back to basic. Post roll, keep my word only worry about today and repeat. That has kept me quit through a shit storm of craving.
Hell if it works, why change it up.
This works.
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Way to stay strong and not be lured back to the dark side....
That nic bitch is a sneaky stinking hoe and she will keep whispering to you .... thats why this site is the best when those things happen and they do you can always reach out to a quit brother and keep the sneaky bitch from getting her hooks back into you!
I have reached 238 days and there is still temptation out there for me but now I have some serious weapons to use against the bitch, things like resolve and determination along with what this site brings which is pride! Pride in giving my promise and keeping it, not letting anything get in the way of my quit!
Keep on keeping on brother and remember you have my number use it when needed!
Grizzly25...out
Just spoke with Froman and texting WT. I am back to basic. Post roll, keep my word only worry about today and repeat. That has kept me quit through a shit storm of craving.
Hell if it works, why change it up.
This works.
Glad to have you as a quit brother MT and proud as hell of you making it through the time of trial in the city of sin.
QLAFM
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Thanks for the reminder MT, day 2 or day 200 we need to use the tools given, post roll every day with your word to quit, and reaching out when you need to.
Quit with you every day and proud of you man.
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Day 203
The following is dialogue between mthomas and Mrs. Thomas.
Mthomas: You know KTC is like therapy and rehab but there comes a time where you need to leave the hospital and live your life.
Mrs Thomas: What the hell are you talking about?
Mthomas: I am talking about KTC. I have spent a lot of time on the site but I think I am ready to leave. Time to live my life outside of the site.
Mrs Thomas: First that is a bad analogy for KTC. Second, it sounds like you are preparing to cave and want to hide from your brothers.
Mthomas: Not true. I just need to leave the hospital. When I post daily, I think about tobacco. I want to get to a point where I can wake up and never think about nicotine. KTC makes me think about tobacco.
Mrs Thomas: Hmm
Mthomas: You don't see my point?
Mrs Thomas: Aren't you the one who tells me, "If it ain't broke don't fix it?" You have been quit for 200 days. Seems like nothing is broke and you want to break it.
Mthomas: Maybe I just got bored but I want to see if I can do it on my own now.
Mrs Thomas: What is marriage? It is a commitment to each other. I'm here for you and you are here for me. We both make mistakes but usually at different times. I have always been here for you and you for me. KTC is a promise. Your supporters are there for you and you are there for them. If I were you, just keep positing roll. If you are bored, just post roll and leave the site but never abandon the brothers that count on you because they haven't bailed on you. Right?
Mthomas: Right. You know your stuff.
Mrs Thomas: You are an addict. Nicotine is going to be in your mind daily. Either you post and say, I am quit...or you don't post and temptation comes to seduce you without your "Armor" as you call it.
So thinking about our conversation, Froman calls me and bam, it hits me. I wanted to cave but I wanted to do it honorably. There is no honor in a cave. No matter what, when you cave you feel like shit.
I am posting roll to 365 days and will keep my 100% posting record because. I am quit and I love my Freedom
Nicotine found a back door open in my mind. Thanks to all those that cared enough to help me stay quit. To my KTC brotherhood. You are my armor and shield to fight my addiction. I appreciate the support and I am sorry for thinking to bail on you. I have a second wind and I am back!!!!
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bro Thomas, you post roll everyday because you "DECIDE" to post roll. YOU decide to be quit each today. I quit with you TODAY sir.
Let's not worry about tomorrow cause it isn't real.
Let's not worry about yesterday cause it is gone.
Let's focus on the present because it is a GIFT.
Stay quit bro Thomas, your life depends on it.
Proud to be quit with YOU TODAY! 'bang head'
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bro Thomas, you post roll everyday because you "DECIDE" to post roll. YOU decide to be quit each today. I quit with you TODAY sir.
Let's not worry about tomorrow cause it isn't real.
Let's not worry about yesterday cause it is gone.
Let's focus on the present because it is a GIFT.
Stay quit bro Thomas, your life depends on it.
Proud to be quit with YOU TODAY! 'bang head'
That's some good stuff. Quit for today Friends.
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bro Thomas, you post roll everyday because you "DECIDE" to post roll. YOU decide to be quit each today. I quit with you TODAY sir.
Let's not worry about tomorrow cause it isn't real.
Let's not worry about yesterday cause it is gone.
Let's focus on the present because it is a GIFT.
Stay quit bro Thomas, your life depends on it.
Proud to be quit with YOU TODAY! 'bang head'
That's some good stuff. Quit for today Friends.
I'm Coachmorris and I am a caver! I was less that two months away from reaching 1000 days quit. I quit with another fellow coach in here CoachDoc who is a tremendous mentor and supporter, better than I ever was. Btdogboy I let ya down brother!
Here's what happened, I quit, I got strong, I felt good like I beat this bitch. I started to fade away from posting roll call cause I didn't need that anymore I beat this devil, it no longer owns me. BITCHES pay attention it owns you for the rest of your life, your never free and in the blink of an eye it can dig it's horns right back into you!Â
There is no harmless dip, no just this time, no - nobody will know or I don't have to say anything! Look at me, I've been away, been strong, been quit and then took a dip in a moment of pure ignorance,(anger)(self loathing) like it was a habit that I've been doing all along and once in the mouth it hit me like a brick WTF!Â
So here I am, not as strong as I thought I was, not as independent in my quit like I thought I was and starting over from freakin scratch - just pissed away 900+ days of pure quit!
Hopefully my mistake, my ignorance, my endless addiction that follows me like a tethered badge of dishonor can help you in your quit.
Stay in here no matter how strong you feel, post roll and own your quit. I didn't and look at me
Coachmorris
Coach...my brother...my dumb-ass, ignorant, brother....
Got a plan? How's it different from your original - or is it the same as your opriginal, just different after the first 100 days? You still got digits? Get new ones with the new class...you will more than likely always have June 2010 to contact, but you need to form those new bonds and ties with your new quit class...they need to support you and they will need your support and experience....and by experience, I also mean your experience in failing to stay quit.
You've got this...own it...
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I'm Coachmorris and I am a caver! I was less that two months away from reaching 1000 days quit. I quit with another fellow coach in here CoachDoc who is a tremendous mentor and supporter, better than I ever was. Btdogboy I let ya down brother!
Here's what happened, I quit, I got strong, I felt good like I beat this bitch. I started to fade away from posting roll call cause I didn't need that anymore I beat this devil, it no longer owns me. BITCHES pay attention it owns you for the rest of your life, your never free and in the blink of an eye it can dig it's horns right back into you!Â
There is no harmless dip, no just this time, no - nobody will know or I don't have to say anything! Look at me, I've been away, been strong, been quit and then took a dip in a moment of pure ignorance,(anger)(self loathing) like it was a habit that I've been doing all along and once in the mouth it hit me like a brick WTF!Â
So here I am, not as strong as I thought I was, not as independent in my quit like I thought I was and starting over from freakin scratch - just pissed away 900+ days of pure quit!
Hopefully my mistake, my ignorance, my endless addiction that follows me like a tethered badge of dishonor can help you in your quit.
Stay in here no matter how strong you feel, post roll and own your quit. I didn't and look at me
Coachmorris
Coach...my brother...my dumb-ass, ignorant, brother....
Got a plan? How's it different from your original - or is it the same as your opriginal, just different after the first 100 days? You still got digits? Get new ones with the new class...you will more than likely always have June 2010 to contact, but you need to form those new bonds and ties with your new quit class...they need to support you and they will need your support and experience....and by experience, I also mean your experience in failing to stay quit.
You've got this...own it...
Hey Mark,
Thought I would share a conversation that was floating around in January right now. Thought it was fitting. Stay quit!!! Never again, for any reason!!
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I'm Coachmorris and I am a caver! I was less that two months away from reaching 1000 days quit. I quit with another fellow coach in here CoachDoc who is a tremendous mentor and supporter, better than I ever was. Btdogboy I let ya down brother!
Here's what happened, I quit, I got strong, I felt good like I beat this bitch. I started to fade away from posting roll call cause I didn't need that anymore I beat this devil, it no longer owns me. BITCHES pay attention it owns you for the rest of your life, your never free and in the blink of an eye it can dig it's horns right back into you!Â
There is no harmless dip, no just this time, no - nobody will know or I don't have to say anything! Look at me, I've been away, been strong, been quit and then took a dip in a moment of pure ignorance,(anger)(self loathing) like it was a habit that I've been doing all along and once in the mouth it hit me like a brick WTF!Â
So here I am, not as strong as I thought I was, not as independent in my quit like I thought I was and starting over from freakin scratch - just pissed away 900+ days of pure quit!
Hopefully my mistake, my ignorance, my endless addiction that follows me like a tethered badge of dishonor can help you in your quit.
Stay in here no matter how strong you feel, post roll and own your quit. I didn't and look at me
Coachmorris
Coach...my brother...my dumb-ass, ignorant, brother....
Got a plan? How's it different from your original - or is it the same as your opriginal, just different after the first 100 days? You still got digits? Get new ones with the new class...you will more than likely always have June 2010 to contact, but you need to form those new bonds and ties with your new quit class...they need to support you and they will need your support and experience....and by experience, I also mean your experience in failing to stay quit.
You've got this...own it...
Hey Mark,
Thought I would share a conversation that was floating around in January right now. Thought it was fitting. Stay quit!!! Never again, for any reason!!
Thanks for sharing. I must learn from others. I never want to post a day one again. Post roll, keep your word and repeat. Simple, boring but I brush my teeth when I wake up in the morning.
It doesn't give me a woody but I know its good for me. Posting roll. Simple. Just do it!
I got it. The back door in my head is now closed. Little nicky is a bitch and not welcome to sneak into my brain anymore. If she tries, I will kill her.
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Day 203
The following is dialogue between mthomas and Mrs. Thomas.
Mthomas: You know KTC is like therapy and rehab but there comes a time where you need to leave the hospital and live your life.
Mrs Thomas: What the hell are you talking about?
Mthomas: I am talking about KTC. I have spent a lot of time on the site but I think I am ready to leave. Time to live my life outside of the site.
Mrs Thomas: First that is a bad analogy for KTC. Second, it sounds like you are preparing to cave and want to hide from your brothers.
Mthomas: Not true. I just need to leave the hospital. When I post daily, I think about tobacco. I want to get to a point where I can wake up and never think about nicotine. KTC makes me think about tobacco.
Mrs Thomas: Hmm
Mthomas: You don't see my point?
Mrs Thomas: Aren't you the one who tells me, "If it ain't broke don't fix it?" You have been quit for 200 days. Seems like nothing is broke and you want to break it.
Mthomas: Maybe I just got bored but I want to see if I can do it on my own now.
Mrs Thomas: What is marriage? It is a commitment to each other. I'm here for you and you are here for me. We both make mistakes but usually at different times. I have always been here for you and you for me. KTC is a promise. Your supporters are there for you and you are there for them. If I were you, just keep positing roll. If you are bored, just post roll and leave the site but never abandon the brothers that count on you because they haven't bailed on you. Right?
Mthomas: Right. You know your stuff.
Mrs Thomas: You are an addict. Nicotine is going to be in your mind daily. Either you post and say, I am quit...or you don't post and temptation comes to seduce you without your "Armor" as you call it.
So thinking about our conversation, Froman calls me and bam, it hits me. I wanted to cave but I wanted to do it honorably. There is no honor in a cave. No matter what, when you cave you feel like shit.
I am posting roll to 365 days and will keep my 100% posting record because. I am quit and I love my Freedom
Nicotine found a back door open in my mind. Thanks to all those that cared enough to help me stay quit. To my KTC brotherhood. You are my armor and shield to fight my addiction. I appreciate the support and I am sorry for thinking to bail on you. I have a second wind and I am back!!!!
Hey man,
I think about tobacco every day. I need to be reminded that I am an addict. It keeps me sharp. I'm never going to be blindsided by nic. She won't be able to sneak up on me. I am glad you have decided to stay brother. We can still live our lives. Posting roll takes no time at all. I post roll right after midnight every day, then I forget about tobacco altogether that whole day, but if I am even remotely tempted by it, I think about my roll post/promise and it helps to kill the whole trigger. If I wasn't posted up, that situation would be more difficult for me to deal with. Posting roll reminds me that I am an addict, it helps to quell any temptations I have during the day, but it does not take away from me living my life to the fullest. If anything, it allows me to live my life in a less stressful way. Using nic is not even an option when I know I have posted roll.
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Day 203
The following is dialogue between mthomas and Mrs. Thomas.Â
Mthomas: You know KTC is like therapy and rehab but there comes a time where you need to leave the hospital and live your life.Â
Mrs Thomas: What the hell are you talking about?Â
Mthomas: I am talking about KTC. I have spent a lot of time on the site but I think I am ready to leave. Time to live my life outside of the site.Â
Mrs Thomas: First that is a bad analogy for KTC. Second, it sounds like you are preparing to cave and want to hide from your brothers.Â
Mthomas: Not true. I just need to leave the hospital. When I post daily, I think about tobacco. I want to get to a point where I can wake up and never think about nicotine. KTC makes me think about tobacco.Â
Mrs Thomas: Hmm
Mthomas:Â You don't see my point?Â
Mrs Thomas: Aren't you the one who tells me, "If it ain't broke don't fix it?" You have been quit for 200 days. Seems like nothing is broke and you want to break it.Â
Mthomas: Maybe I just got bored but I want to see if I can do it on my own now.Â
Mrs Thomas: What is marriage? It is a commitment to each other. I'm here for you and you are here for me. We both make mistakes but usually at different times. I have always been here for you and you for me. KTC is a promise. Your supporters are there for you and you are there for them. If I were you, just keep positing roll. If you are bored, just post roll and leave the site but never abandon the brothers that count on you because they haven't bailed on you. Right?Â
Mthomas: Right. You know your stuff.Â
Mrs Thomas: You are an addict. Nicotine is going to be in your mind daily. Either you post and say, I am quit...or you don't post and temptation comes to seduce you without your "Armor" as you call it.Â
So thinking about our conversation, Froman calls me and bam, it hits me. I wanted to cave but I wanted to do it honorably. There is no honor in a cave. No matter what, when you cave you feel like shit.Â
I am posting roll to 365 days and will keep my 100% posting record because.  I am quit and I love my Freedom
Nicotine found a back door open in my mind. Thanks to all those that cared enough to help me stay quit. To my KTC brotherhood. You are my armor and shield to fight my addiction. I appreciate the support and I am sorry for thinking to bail on you. I have a second wind and I am back!!!!
Hey man,
I think about tobacco every day. I need to be reminded that I am an addict. It keeps me sharp. I'm never going to be blindsided by nic. She won't be able to sneak up on me. I am glad you have decided to stay brother. We can still live our lives. Posting roll takes no time at all. I post roll right after midnight every day, then I forget about tobacco altogether that whole day, but if I am even remotely tempted by it, I think about my roll post/promise and it helps to kill the whole trigger. If I wasn't posted up, that situation would be more difficult for me to deal with. Posting roll reminds me that I am an addict, it helps to quell any temptations I have during the day, but it does not take away from me living my life to the fullest. If anything, it allows me to live my life in a less stressful way. Using nic is not even an option when I know I have posted roll.
Well you sir are now my Mentor so I will follow your lead and post. No reason to stop. Thanks for the thoughts.
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Day 203
The following is dialogue between mthomas and Mrs. Thomas.Â
Mthomas: You know KTC is like therapy and rehab but there comes a time where you need to leave the hospital and live your life.Â
Mrs Thomas: What the hell are you talking about?Â
Mthomas: I am talking about KTC. I have spent a lot of time on the site but I think I am ready to leave. Time to live my life outside of the site.Â
Mrs Thomas: First that is a bad analogy for KTC. Second, it sounds like you are preparing to cave and want to hide from your brothers.Â
Mthomas: Not true. I just need to leave the hospital. When I post daily, I think about tobacco. I want to get to a point where I can wake up and never think about nicotine. KTC makes me think about tobacco.Â
Mrs Thomas: Hmm
Mthomas:Â You don't see my point?Â
Mrs Thomas: Aren't you the one who tells me, "If it ain't broke don't fix it?" You have been quit for 200 days. Seems like nothing is broke and you want to break it.Â
Mthomas: Maybe I just got bored but I want to see if I can do it on my own now.Â
Mrs Thomas: What is marriage? It is a commitment to each other. I'm here for you and you are here for me. We both make mistakes but usually at different times. I have always been here for you and you for me. KTC is a promise. Your supporters are there for you and you are there for them. If I were you, just keep positing roll. If you are bored, just post roll and leave the site but never abandon the brothers that count on you because they haven't bailed on you. Right?Â
Mthomas: Right. You know your stuff.Â
Mrs Thomas: You are an addict. Nicotine is going to be in your mind daily. Either you post and say, I am quit...or you don't post and temptation comes to seduce you without your "Armor" as you call it.Â
So thinking about our conversation, Froman calls me and bam, it hits me. I wanted to cave but I wanted to do it honorably. There is no honor in a cave. No matter what, when you cave you feel like shit.Â
I am posting roll to 365 days and will keep my 100% posting record because.   I am quit and I love my Freedom
Nicotine found a back door open in my mind. Thanks to all those that cared enough to help me stay quit. To my KTC brotherhood. You are my armor and shield to fight my addiction. I appreciate the support and I am sorry for thinking to bail on you. I have a second wind and I am back!!!!
Hey man,
I think about tobacco every day. I need to be reminded that I am an addict. It keeps me sharp. I'm never going to be blindsided by nic. She won't be able to sneak up on me. I am glad you have decided to stay brother. We can still live our lives. Posting roll takes no time at all. I post roll right after midnight every day, then I forget about tobacco altogether that whole day, but if I am even remotely tempted by it, I think about my roll post/promise and it helps to kill the whole trigger. If I wasn't posted up, that situation would be more difficult for me to deal with. Posting roll reminds me that I am an addict, it helps to quell any temptations I have during the day, but it does not take away from me living my life to the fullest. If anything, it allows me to live my life in a less stressful way. Using nic is not even an option when I know I have posted roll.
Well you sir are now my Mentor so I will follow your lead and post. No reason to stop. Thanks for the thoughts.
I also think about tobacco on a daily basis. That is whether or not I spend a lot of time on KTC on any given day.
I'm not Catholic, but I view the daily thought of tobacco as my penance for 16 years of use. Except now...when I think of tobacco, I proudly remind myself that I am quit today and I also reflect on how much better my life is without the death weed.
p.s. You should listen to your wife, she sounds like a very smart person.
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Day 203
The following is dialogue between mthomas and Mrs. Thomas.Â
Mthomas: You know KTC is like therapy and rehab but there comes a time where you need to leave the hospital and live your life.Â
Mrs Thomas: What the hell are you talking about?Â
Mthomas: I am talking about KTC. I have spent a lot of time on the site but I think I am ready to leave. Time to live my life outside of the site.Â
Mrs Thomas: First that is a bad analogy for KTC. Second, it sounds like you are preparing to cave and want to hide from your brothers.Â
Mthomas: Not true. I just need to leave the hospital. When I post daily, I think about tobacco. I want to get to a point where I can wake up and never think about nicotine. KTC makes me think about tobacco.Â
Mrs Thomas: Hmm
Mthomas:Â You don't see my point?Â
Mrs Thomas: Aren't you the one who tells me, "If it ain't broke don't fix it?" You have been quit for 200 days. Seems like nothing is broke and you want to break it.Â
Mthomas: Maybe I just got bored but I want to see if I can do it on my own now.Â
Mrs Thomas: What is marriage? It is a commitment to each other. I'm here for you and you are here for me. We both make mistakes but usually at different times. I have always been here for you and you for me. KTC is a promise. Your supporters are there for you and you are there for them. If I were you, just keep positing roll. If you are bored, just post roll and leave the site but never abandon the brothers that count on you because they haven't bailed on you. Right?Â
Mthomas: Right. You know your stuff.Â
Mrs Thomas: You are an addict. Nicotine is going to be in your mind daily. Either you post and say, I am quit...or you don't post and temptation comes to seduce you without your "Armor" as you call it.Â
So thinking about our conversation, Froman calls me and bam, it hits me. I wanted to cave but I wanted to do it honorably. There is no honor in a cave. No matter what, when you cave you feel like shit.Â
I am posting roll to 365 days and will keep my 100% posting record because.   I am quit and I love my Freedom
Nicotine found a back door open in my mind. Thanks to all those that cared enough to help me stay quit. To my KTC brotherhood. You are my armor and shield to fight my addiction. I appreciate the support and I am sorry for thinking to bail on you. I have a second wind and I am back!!!!
Hey man,
I think about tobacco every day. I need to be reminded that I am an addict. It keeps me sharp. I'm never going to be blindsided by nic. She won't be able to sneak up on me. I am glad you have decided to stay brother. We can still live our lives. Posting roll takes no time at all. I post roll right after midnight every day, then I forget about tobacco altogether that whole day, but if I am even remotely tempted by it, I think about my roll post/promise and it helps to kill the whole trigger. If I wasn't posted up, that situation would be more difficult for me to deal with. Posting roll reminds me that I am an addict, it helps to quell any temptations I have during the day, but it does not take away from me living my life to the fullest. If anything, it allows me to live my life in a less stressful way. Using nic is not even an option when I know I have posted roll.
Well you sir are now my Mentor so I will follow your lead and post. No reason to stop. Thanks for the thoughts.
I also think about tobacco on a daily basis. That is whether or not I spend a lot of time on KTC on any given day.
I'm not Catholic, but I view the daily thought of tobacco as my penance for 16 years of use. Except now...when I think of tobacco, I proudly remind myself that I am quit today and I also reflect on how much better my life is without the death weed.
p.s. You should listen to your wife, she sounds like a very smart person.
Absolutely right. I am a blessed man to have her. I'm also very fortunate to have the brotherhood of KTC. I can let myself down but I can't let the brotherhood down.
Yep, I am sold. Posting roll keeps me quit. If it isn't broke...don't fix it. 205 days quit. Weight is coming down too. I finally weigh less than my days quit!
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Day 203
The following is dialogue between mthomas and Mrs. Thomas.Â
Mthomas: You know KTC is like therapy and rehab but there comes a time where you need to leave the hospital and live your life.Â
Mrs Thomas: What the hell are you talking about?Â
Mthomas: I am talking about KTC. I have spent a lot of time on the site but I think I am ready to leave. Time to live my life outside of the site.Â
Mrs Thomas: First that is a bad analogy for KTC. Second, it sounds like you are preparing to cave and want to hide from your brothers.Â
Mthomas: Not true. I just need to leave the hospital. When I post daily, I think about tobacco. I want to get to a point where I can wake up and never think about nicotine. KTC makes me think about tobacco.Â
Mrs Thomas: Hmm
Mthomas:Â You don't see my point?Â
Mrs Thomas: Aren't you the one who tells me, "If it ain't broke don't fix it?" You have been quit for 200 days. Seems like nothing is broke and you want to break it.Â
Mthomas: Maybe I just got bored but I want to see if I can do it on my own now.Â
Mrs Thomas: What is marriage? It is a commitment to each other. I'm here for you and you are here for me. We both make mistakes but usually at different times. I have always been here for you and you for me. KTC is a promise. Your supporters are there for you and you are there for them. If I were you, just keep positing roll. If you are bored, just post roll and leave the site but never abandon the brothers that count on you because they haven't bailed on you. Right?Â
Mthomas: Right. You know your stuff.Â
Mrs Thomas: You are an addict. Nicotine is going to be in your mind daily. Either you post and say, I am quit...or you don't post and temptation comes to seduce you without your "Armor" as you call it.Â
So thinking about our conversation, Froman calls me and bam, it hits me. I wanted to cave but I wanted to do it honorably. There is no honor in a cave. No matter what, when you cave you feel like shit.Â
I am posting roll to 365 days and will keep my 100% posting record because.   I am quit and I love my Freedom
Nicotine found a back door open in my mind. Thanks to all those that cared enough to help me stay quit. To my KTC brotherhood. You are my armor and shield to fight my addiction. I appreciate the support and I am sorry for thinking to bail on you. I have a second wind and I am back!!!!
Hey man,
I think about tobacco every day. I need to be reminded that I am an addict. It keeps me sharp. I'm never going to be blindsided by nic. She won't be able to sneak up on me. I am glad you have decided to stay brother. We can still live our lives. Posting roll takes no time at all. I post roll right after midnight every day, then I forget about tobacco altogether that whole day, but if I am even remotely tempted by it, I think about my roll post/promise and it helps to kill the whole trigger. If I wasn't posted up, that situation would be more difficult for me to deal with. Posting roll reminds me that I am an addict, it helps to quell any temptations I have during the day, but it does not take away from me living my life to the fullest. If anything, it allows me to live my life in a less stressful way. Using nic is not even an option when I know I have posted roll.
Well you sir are now my Mentor so I will follow your lead and post. No reason to stop. Thanks for the thoughts.
I also think about tobacco on a daily basis. That is whether or not I spend a lot of time on KTC on any given day.
I'm not Catholic, but I view the daily thought of tobacco as my penance for 16 years of use. Except now...when I think of tobacco, I proudly remind myself that I am quit today and I also reflect on how much better my life is without the death weed.
p.s. You should listen to your wife, she sounds like a very smart person.
Absolutely right. I am a blessed man to have her. I'm also very fortunate to have the brotherhood of KTC. I can let myself down but I can't let the brotherhood down.
Yep, I am sold. Posting roll keeps me quit. If it isn't broke...don't fix it. 205 days quit. Weight is coming down too. I finally weigh less than my days quit!
Things tend to get somewhat better after you hit the second floor but its very wise to just keep on keeping on by that I mean posting roll! We are all just a bunch of addicts that came together to get quit and stay that way, now I know if I were to stop posting roll my life would get way to comfortable and that sneaky nic bitch would surely try to sneak her shitty hooks back into me and ......BULLSHIT NOT GONNA HAPPEN!!!!!!
....why.....
I post roll everyday and want to keep it that way!
Keep the quit strong brother and never let the intensity of quit leave your mind cause once that happens the shitty nic bitch will come a whispering and try to lure you back!
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Day 203
The following is dialogue between mthomas and Mrs. Thomas.Â
Mthomas: You know KTC is like therapy and rehab but there comes a time where you need to leave the hospital and live your life.Â
Mrs Thomas: What the hell are you talking about?Â
Mthomas: I am talking about KTC. I have spent a lot of time on the site but I think I am ready to leave. Time to live my life outside of the site.Â
Mrs Thomas: First that is a bad analogy for KTC. Second, it sounds like you are preparing to cave and want to hide from your brothers.Â
Mthomas: Not true. I just need to leave the hospital. When I post daily, I think about tobacco. I want to get to a point where I can wake up and never think about nicotine. KTC makes me think about tobacco.Â
Mrs Thomas: Hmm
Mthomas:Â You don't see my point?Â
Mrs Thomas: Aren't you the one who tells me, "If it ain't broke don't fix it?" You have been quit for 200 days. Seems like nothing is broke and you want to break it.Â
Mthomas: Maybe I just got bored but I want to see if I can do it on my own now.Â
Mrs Thomas: What is marriage? It is a commitment to each other. I'm here for you and you are here for me. We both make mistakes but usually at different times. I have always been here for you and you for me. KTC is a promise. Your supporters are there for you and you are there for them. If I were you, just keep positing roll. If you are bored, just post roll and leave the site but never abandon the brothers that count on you because they haven't bailed on you. Right?Â
Mthomas: Right. You know your stuff.Â
Mrs Thomas: You are an addict. Nicotine is going to be in your mind daily. Either you post and say, I am quit...or you don't post and temptation comes to seduce you without your "Armor" as you call it.Â
So thinking about our conversation, Froman calls me and bam, it hits me. I wanted to cave but I wanted to do it honorably. There is no honor in a cave. No matter what, when you cave you feel like shit.Â
I am posting roll to 365 days and will keep my 100% posting record because.   I am quit and I love my Freedom
Nicotine found a back door open in my mind. Thanks to all those that cared enough to help me stay quit. To my KTC brotherhood. You are my armor and shield to fight my addiction. I appreciate the support and I am sorry for thinking to bail on you. I have a second wind and I am back!!!!
Hey man,
I think about tobacco every day. I need to be reminded that I am an addict. It keeps me sharp. I'm never going to be blindsided by nic. She won't be able to sneak up on me. I am glad you have decided to stay brother. We can still live our lives. Posting roll takes no time at all. I post roll right after midnight every day, then I forget about tobacco altogether that whole day, but if I am even remotely tempted by it, I think about my roll post/promise and it helps to kill the whole trigger. If I wasn't posted up, that situation would be more difficult for me to deal with. Posting roll reminds me that I am an addict, it helps to quell any temptations I have during the day, but it does not take away from me living my life to the fullest. If anything, it allows me to live my life in a less stressful way. Using nic is not even an option when I know I have posted roll.
Well you sir are now my Mentor so I will follow your lead and post. No reason to stop. Thanks for the thoughts.
I also think about tobacco on a daily basis. That is whether or not I spend a lot of time on KTC on any given day.
I'm not Catholic, but I view the daily thought of tobacco as my penance for 16 years of use. Except now...when I think of tobacco, I proudly remind myself that I am quit today and I also reflect on how much better my life is without the death weed.
p.s. You should listen to your wife, she sounds like a very smart person.
Absolutely right. I am a blessed man to have her. I'm also very fortunate to have the brotherhood of KTC. I can let myself down but I can't let the brotherhood down.
Yep, I am sold. Posting roll keeps me quit. If it isn't broke...don't fix it. 205 days quit. Weight is coming down too. I finally weigh less than my days quit!
Things tend to get somewhat better after you hit the second floor but its very wise to just keep on keeping on by that I mean posting roll! We are all just a bunch of addicts that came together to get quit and stay that way, now I know if I were to stop posting roll my life would get way to comfortable and that sneaky nic bitch would surely try to sneak her shitty hooks back into me and ......BULLSHIT NOT GONNA HAPPEN!!!!!!
....why.....
I post roll everyday and want to keep it that way!
Keep the quit strong brother and never let the intensity of quit leave your mind cause once that happens the shitty nic bitch will come a whispering and try to lure you back!
:)
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Day 251
It has been a while. I am still quit and loving it! For those who are quitting and worried about all the weight you might be gaining....this post might be for you.
March 14th, 2012 I was on this site for the first time, with a dip in my mouth and looking for help, dippshit asked nicely for me to spit out my dip to show respect for the quitters on chat. I obliged. My biggest fear in spitting out the dip for good....No it wasn't cancer... It was my fear that the 40lbs I lost since July the previous year would come back. I felt that the only way I was able to lose the weight was because tobacco replaced food. (I tripled my nicotine use.)
Dippshit told me that I may gain weight but to quit first and the weight would come back off. From March until September....I gained 30 LBS!
Since September, I have lost 23lbs with little effort. Truly, it probably takes effort but it doesn't feel like it because I learned how to focus on a purpose and DO IT!
I have about 7 lbs more to go until I am back at my weight when I quit. Looking at pictures, I actually look better today than I did in March. I think it is because one picture is of a Man enslaved to nicotine. Today that same man is free from its addictive chains. Nicotine is no longer my excuse to fail, hide, blame or accept less than what I earned or deserve. I set my course because I am free. I honestly can see the difference between the two pictures of the same person.
If you gained weight, don't let it get in the way of you being 100% focused on your quit. There is a time and place for every mission and goal you have. Control your addiction to nicotine first. Once you have self mastery on that front, other goals are easier to accomplish.
Quitting is hard, damn hard. When you do that, losing weight and going to the gym doesn't seem to be that bad...in fact, I kind of like it.
Quit first and foremost!
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Day 251
It has been a while. I am still quit and loving it! For those who are quitting and worried about all the weight you might be gaining....this post might be for you.
March 14th, 2012 I was on this site for the first time, with a dip in my mouth and looking for help, dippshit asked nicely for me to spit out my dip to show respect for the quitters on chat. I obliged. My biggest fear in spitting out the dip for good....No it wasn't cancer... It was my fear that the 40lbs I lost since July the previous year would come back. I felt that the only way I was able to lose the weight was because tobacco replaced food. (I tripled my nicotine use.)
Dippshit told me that I may gain weight but to quit first and the weight would come back off. From March until September....I gained 30 LBS!
Since September, I have lost 23lbs with little effort. Truly, it probably takes effort but it doesn't feel like it because I learned how to focus on a purpose and DO IT!
I have about 7 lbs more to go until I am back at my weight when I quit. Looking at pictures, I actually look better today than I did in March. I think it is because one picture is of a Man enslaved to nicotine. Today that same man is free from its addictive chains. Nicotine is no longer my excuse to fail, hide, blame or accept less than what I earned or deserve. I set my course because I am free. I honestly can see the difference between the two pictures of the same person.
If you gained weight, don't let it get in the way of you being 100% focused on your quit. There is a time and place for every mission and goal you have. Control your addiction to nicotine first. Once you have self mastery on that front, other goals are easier to accomplish.
Quitting is hard, damn hard. When you do that, losing weight and going to the gym doesn't seem to be that bad...in fact, I kind of like it.
Quit first and foremost!
just a thank you as am in the process of going through what you have exactly explained. I too had gained 25-30 lbs in my 100 days from day 1 to the HOF, and I made a vow that when I hit that 100 I would work on getting the weight back off. Well I had a late start and getting to 5 lbs off, but know there is much more....
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Day 251
It has been a while. I am still quit and loving it! For those who are quitting and worried about all the weight you might be gaining....this post might be for you.Â
March 14th, 2012 I was on this site for the first time, with a dip in my mouth and looking for help, dippshit asked nicely for me to spit out my dip to show respect for the quitters on chat. I obliged. My biggest fear in spitting out the dip for good....No it wasn't cancer... It was my fear that the 40lbs I lost since July the previous year would come back. I felt that the only way I was able to lose the weight was because tobacco replaced food. (I tripled my nicotine use.)Â
Dippshit told me that I may gain weight but to quit first and the weight would come back off. From March until September....I gained 30 LBS!Â
Since September, I have lost 23lbs with little effort. Truly, it probably takes effort but it doesn't feel like it because I learned how to focus on a purpose and DO IT!Â
I have about 7 lbs more to go until I am back at my weight when I quit. Looking at pictures, I actually look better today than I did in March. I think it is because one picture is of a Man enslaved to nicotine. Today that same man is free from its addictive chains. Nicotine is no longer my excuse to fail, hide, blame or accept less than what I earned or deserve. I set my course because I am free. I honestly can see the difference between the two pictures of the same person. Â
If you gained weight, don't let it get in the way of you being 100% focused on your quit. There is a time and place for every mission and goal you have. Control your addiction to nicotine first. Once you have self mastery on that front, other goals are easier to accomplish.Â
Quitting is hard, damn hard. When you do that, losing weight and going to the gym doesn't seem to be that bad...in fact, I kind of like it.Â
Quit first and foremost!
just a thank you as am in the process of going through what you have exactly explained. I too had gained 25-30 lbs in my 100 days from day 1 to the HOF, and I made a vow that when I hit that 100 I would work on getting the weight back off. Well I had a late start and getting to 5 lbs off, but know there is much more....
Bravo, Brother....QLAFM
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Day 251
It has been a while. I am still quit and loving it! For those who are quitting and worried about all the weight you might be gaining....this post might be for you.
March 14th, 2012 I was on this site for the first time, with a dip in my mouth and looking for help, dippshit asked nicely for me to spit out my dip to show respect for the quitters on chat. I obliged. My biggest fear in spitting out the dip for good....No it wasn't cancer... It was my fear that the 40lbs I lost since July the previous year would come back. I felt that the only way I was able to lose the weight was because tobacco replaced food. (I tripled my nicotine use.)
Dippshit told me that I may gain weight but to quit first and the weight would come back off. From March until September....I gained 30 LBS!
Since September, I have lost 23lbs with little effort. Truly, it probably takes effort but it doesn't feel like it because I learned how to focus on a purpose and DO IT!
I have about 7 lbs more to go until I am back at my weight when I quit. Looking at pictures, I actually look better today than I did in March. I think it is because one picture is of a Man enslaved to nicotine. Today that same man is free from its addictive chains. Nicotine is no longer my excuse to fail, hide, blame or accept less than what I earned or deserve. I set my course because I am free. I honestly can see the difference between the two pictures of the same person.
If you gained weight, don't let it get in the way of you being 100% focused on your quit. There is a time and place for every mission and goal you have. Control your addiction to nicotine first. Once you have self mastery on that front, other goals are easier to accomplish.
Quitting is hard, damn hard. When you do that, losing weight and going to the gym doesn't seem to be that bad...in fact, I kind of like it.
Quit first and foremost!
Mthomas, I love you man, full homo
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Day 251
It has been a while. I am still quit and loving it! For those who are quitting and worried about all the weight you might be gaining....this post might be for you.Â
March 14th, 2012 I was on this site for the first time, with a dip in my mouth and looking for help, dippshit asked nicely for me to spit out my dip to show respect for the quitters on chat. I obliged. My biggest fear in spitting out the dip for good....No it wasn't cancer... It was my fear that the 40lbs I lost since July the previous year would come back. I felt that the only way I was able to lose the weight was because tobacco replaced food. (I tripled my nicotine use.) Â
Dippshit told me that I may gain weight but to quit first and the weight would come back off. From March until September....I gained 30 LBS!Â
Since September, I have lost 23lbs with little effort. Truly, it probably takes effort but it doesn't feel like it because I learned how to focus on a purpose and DO IT!Â
I have about 7 lbs more to go until I am back at my weight when I quit. Looking at pictures, I actually look better today than I did in March. I think it is because one picture is of a Man enslaved to nicotine. Today that same man is free from its addictive chains. Nicotine is no longer my excuse to fail, hide, blame or accept less than what I earned or deserve. I set my course because I am free. I honestly can see the difference between the two pictures of the same person.  Â
If you gained weight, don't let it get in the way of you being 100% focused on your quit. There is a time and place for every mission and goal you have. Control your addiction to nicotine first. Once you have self mastery on that front, other goals are easier to accomplish.Â
Quitting is hard, damn hard. When you do that, losing weight and going to the gym doesn't seem to be that bad...in fact, I kind of like it.Â
Quit first and foremost!
just a thank you as am in the process of going through what you have exactly explained. I too had gained 25-30 lbs in my 100 days from day 1 to the HOF, and I made a vow that when I hit that 100 I would work on getting the weight back off. Well I had a late start and getting to 5 lbs off, but know there is much more....
Bravo, Brother....QLAFM
ya I need to face that one too. I haven't been exercising. maybe that's why I've been a bitch lately.. Thanks for the kickstart..
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YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Day 259
Today is a great day. First and foremost, I quit today. Second, I got on the scale. My weight is back to my Day 1 post. What a great feeling.
Anyone battling today (Especially those pre - 100 days quit) Stay in the fight and win it!
You may wonder why fight the triggers, is it possible to be quit for life? Blah Blah Blah!
IT IS AND IT IS GREAT!!!!
I have had so many successes that I attribute to quitting nicotine and freeing my mind from that poison. Now it hasn't been all sunshine and puppy dogs. I have had some tough days but the experiences without nicotine was better. You see I delt with my issues vs. finding an escape or reason to hump my can of tobacco.
I still have 10 more pounds to go but I am back where I left off and I am dip free. I also saved 1,600 dollars that I used to purchase guns.
It is better to be quit. Trust me. 'fat'
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YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Day 259
Today is a great day. First and foremost, I quit today. Second, I got on the scale. My weight is back to my Day 1 post. What a great feeling.
Anyone battling today (Especially those pre - 100 days quit) Stay in the fight and win it!
You may wonder why fight the triggers, is it possible to be quit for life? Blah Blah Blah!
IT IS AND IT IS GREAT!!!!
I have had so many successes that I attribute to quitting nicotine and freeing my mind from that poison. Now it hasn't been all sunshine and puppy dogs. I have had some tough days but the experiences without nicotine was better. You see I delt with my issues vs. finding an escape or reason to hump my can of tobacco.
I still have 10 more pounds to go but I am back where I left off and I am dip free. I also saved 1,600 dollars that I used to purchase guns.
It is better to be quit. Trust me. 'fat'
'clap' 'clap' 'clap'
Awesome victory, keep piling those voctories up brother!
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Day 260
I don't intend to create any drama. My intent is to post this so no one assumes I faded away or planned a cave.
This is my official resignation letter from KTC. The principles taught here are the correct principles for me to control my addiction. Pretty simple really:
- Quit only for today
- Post Roll
- Keep your word
- Get involve by asking for support and giving support
- If tomorrow becomes today....repeat.
That is the wisdom and simplicity of quit. It was hell, It was a battle and now I am tasting and loving the sweetness of being free from that vice. Yes I hate nicotine, I hate the tobacco industry in America and I never, ever will empathize or hold that industry blameless for my addiction and other peoples cancer! They are an ugly, rotten group of slugs. (Spare me the soda, and McDonald's comparison too.) Compare them to a terrorist organization and tell me why you don't hold them accountable for their actions!
I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles. The only way I will every post roll here is if I cave so I hope you never have to see a post of day 1 here from me.
The grass is growing under my feet and its time to move on. Most people don't like change. I love change and new experiences. It is just my time to change.
The principles here are correct and if you follow them with exactness, you can not and will not fall victim to nicotine ever again!
However, some of you dogs and pigs of quitting will ultimately return to your vomit or wallow in the mire yet again. That is as much a fact as we all are human. However, any quitter who believes and follows these principles will remain free from this vice for the rest of their life.
Who are you and what do you believe? The principles are taught, preached and encouraged over and over and over here. You have your agency to post roll and repeat or to ignore and surrender to the evil in a can.
So those brothers that are in my phone, I am not deleting or abandoning you. My phone is open for support 24/7.
I love KTC and thank her for being here for me when I needed a Mentor to get me through the suck. I embraced the suck and posted roll 100% That is how I stayed quit.
For those that think or say that this is a planned cave. I don't care. This is my quit and I have owned it since day 1 I will continue to own it.
Stay quit.
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Day 203
The following is dialogue between mthomas and Mrs. Thomas.
Mthomas: You know KTC is like therapy and rehab but there comes a time where you need to leave the hospital and live your life.
Mrs Thomas: What the hell are you talking about?
Mthomas: I am talking about KTC. I have spent a lot of time on the site but I think I am ready to leave. Time to live my life outside of the site.
Mrs Thomas: First that is a bad analogy for KTC. Second, it sounds like you are preparing to cave and want to hide from your brothers.
Mthomas: Not true. I just need to leave the hospital. When I post daily, I think about tobacco. I want to get to a point where I can wake up and never think about nicotine. KTC makes me think about tobacco.
Mrs Thomas: Hmm
Mthomas: You don't see my point?
Mrs Thomas: Aren't you the one who tells me, "If it ain't broke don't fix it?" You have been quit for 200 days. Seems like nothing is broke and you want to break it.
Mthomas: Maybe I just got bored but I want to see if I can do it on my own now.
Mrs Thomas: What is marriage? It is a commitment to each other. I'm here for you and you are here for me. We both make mistakes but usually at different times. I have always been here for you and you for me. KTC is a promise. Your supporters are there for you and you are there for them. If I were you, just keep positing roll. If you are bored, just post roll and leave the site but never abandon the brothers that count on you because they haven't bailed on you. Right?
Mthomas: Right. You know your stuff.
Mrs Thomas: You are an addict. Nicotine is going to be in your mind daily. Either you post and say, I am quit...or you don't post and temptation comes to seduce you without your "Armor" as you call it.
So thinking about our conversation, Froman calls me and bam, it hits me. I wanted to cave but I wanted to do it honorably. There is no honor in a cave. No matter what, when you cave you feel like shit.
I am posting roll to 365 days and will keep my 100% posting record because. I am quit and I love my Freedom
Nicotine found a back door open in my mind. Thanks to all those that cared enough to help me stay quit. To my KTC brotherhood. You are my armor and shield to fight my addiction. I appreciate the support and I am sorry for thinking to bail on you. I have a second wind and I am back!!!!
Hmmmm
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Day 260
I don't intend to create any drama. My intent is to post this so no one assumes I faded away or planned a cave.Â
This is my official resignation letter from KTC. The principles taught here are the correct principles for me to control my addiction. Pretty simple really:
- Quit only for today
- Post Roll
- Keep your word
- Get involve by asking for support and giving support
- If tomorrow becomes today....repeat.Â
That is the wisdom and simplicity of quit. It was hell, It was a battle and now I am tasting and loving the sweetness of being free from that vice. Yes I hate nicotine, I hate the tobacco industry in America and I never, ever will empathize or hold that industry blameless for my addiction and other peoples cancer! They are an ugly, rotten group of slugs. (Spare me the soda, and McDonald's comparison too.) Compare them to a terrorist organization and tell me why you don't hold them accountable for their actions! Â
I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles. The only way I will every post roll here is if I cave so I hope you never have to see a post of day 1 here from me.Â
The grass is growing under my feet and its time to move on. Most people don't like change. I love change and new experiences. It is just my time to change.Â
The principles here are correct and if you follow them with exactness, you can not and will not fall victim to nicotine ever again!Â
However, some of you dogs and pigs of quitting will ultimately return to your vomit or wallow in the mire yet again. That is as much a fact as we all are human. However, any quitter who believes and follows these principles will remain free from this vice for the rest of their life.Â
Who are you and what do you believe? The principles are taught, preached and encouraged over and over and over here. You have your agency to post roll and repeat or to ignore and surrender to the evil in a can.Â
So those brothers that are in my phone, I am not deleting or abandoning you. My phone is open for support 24/7.Â
I love KTC and thank her for being here for me when I needed a Mentor to get me through the suck. I embraced the suck and posted roll 100% That is how I stayed quit.Â
For those that think or say that this is a planned cave. I don't care. This is my quit and I have owned it since day 1 I will continue to own it.Â
Stay quit.
I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles.
I said I wasn't going to post here but this isn't the only roll out there.
That's all. I am not going back on the principles taught here. It is too dangerous.
I will post roll
I will keep my word and
I will repeat when tomorrow becomes today.
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Day 260
I don't intend to create any drama. My intent is to post this so no one assumes I faded away or planned a cave.Â
This is my official resignation letter from KTC. The principles taught here are the correct principles for me to control my addiction. Pretty simple really:
- Quit only for today
- Post Roll
- Keep your word
- Get involve by asking for support and giving support
- If tomorrow becomes today....repeat.Â
That is the wisdom and simplicity of quit. It was hell, It was a battle and now I am tasting and loving the sweetness of being free from that vice. Yes I hate nicotine, I hate the tobacco industry in America and I never, ever will empathize or hold that industry blameless for my addiction and other peoples cancer! They are an ugly, rotten group of slugs. (Spare me the soda, and McDonald's comparison too.) Compare them to a terrorist organization and tell me why you don't hold them accountable for their actions!  Â
I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles. The only way I will every post roll here is if I cave so I hope you never have to see a post of day 1 here from me.Â
The grass is growing under my feet and its time to move on. Most people don't like change. I love change and new experiences. It is just my time to change.Â
The principles here are correct and if you follow them with exactness, you can not and will not fall victim to nicotine ever again!Â
However, some of you dogs and pigs of quitting will ultimately return to your vomit or wallow in the mire yet again. That is as much a fact as we all are human. However, any quitter who believes and follows these principles will remain free from this vice for the rest of their life.Â
Who are you and what do you believe? The principles are taught, preached and encouraged over and over and over here. You have your agency to post roll and repeat or to ignore and surrender to the evil in a can.Â
So those brothers that are in my phone, I am not deleting or abandoning you. My phone is open for support 24/7.Â
I love KTC and thank her for being here for me when I needed a Mentor to get me through the suck. I embraced the suck and posted roll 100% That is how I stayed quit. Â
For those that think or say that this is a planned cave. I don't care. This is my quit and I have owned it since day 1 I will continue to own it.Â
Stay quit.
I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles.
I said I wasn't going to post here but this isn't the only roll out there.
That's all. I am not going back on the principles taught here. It is too dangerous.
I will post roll
I will keep my word and
I will repeat when tomorrow becomes today.
Day 2-6-0 huh. You are going through that period around day 250 + or -. I went through it. wans't very pleasant.
I think you should spend some time rethinking your decision.
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Was around day 225 here. The feeling of wanting go take your ball and go home comes and goes. Each time being separated by more time than the last. Its normal. Its healthy. It passes. Dont let yourself get in the way of yourself. Take what you need and leave the rest. Or take your ball and go home. We both know the right answer. You dont make the change you did in the span of 24 hours with normal brain function. Take some time to think about it.
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I got it just under day 300, here's a post from then of mine
Holiday prayers for Tom, Jenny ,and their kids. I used to think quitting was hard, the alternative is clearly harder. Knowing this story, I could never look into my little girls eyes and tell them that I choose cancer over them. I will never put that shit in my mouth again. I am a generally nasty guy. I believe the ends justify the means, I've been in plenty of fist fights thanks to my silver tounge, I've broken bones and have scars like evil knievel. I dont like kittens or bunnies or walks on the beach. I don't cry. When I read Hey Dad....and know he isnt there for her because of a stupid round can of cancer ? the same stupid fucking can that I used and you used. That I thought I could never give up. ? I cry like a fucking baby. I'm ashamed of this shitty addiction. I'm angry at myself for ever trying it. Im pissed off at anybody who fails to quit because I'm tormented about the fact they are killing themselves. I hate the try and maybe and luck . I fucking hate big Pharm with their idiotic patches and gum and lozenges. They claim it increases quit rates and is shown effective in a double blind study. DUH!! That study would work exactly how? If you give me a placebo I will know inside 2 hrs. I will be in a raging nic fit. So guess what I do? I know I didn't get the drug so fuck off study Im outtie to the 7-11. If I did get the drug well no sweat I guess. So the group recieving the drugs while safe from withdrawl remains addicted. the other group relapses due to withdrawl. So now the widdle druggy wuggy patchy watchy is proven successful. Horse pucky. What a sham. That and nic gum and those fucking anal suppository lozenges have a high rate of abuse. So we keep BUYING MORE!!! So ridiculous I can hardly stand it. Assuming you use them correctly and wean down as directed you wind up in a state of withdrawl anyhow!!!! So what exactly is the point. The result is the same.
Fucking mood swings STILL, temper all fucked up. Anxiety coming and going like a new york subway train. I still take some adderall to deal with the ADD but I am now suspicious that it is prolonging or preventing my nicotine addled melon from healing. All the receptors that were so happy to release or inhibit serotonin reuptake because of nicotine are now managed by Adderall. Cross addiction you may ask? perhaps. I did stop popping ativan like tic tacs and the Adderall helps kinda keep shit together and clear while it lasts. Or maybe thats just another addict rationalization. Some days and weeks are easy , some are rocky. I read that it can take 2 years to get past the physical and cognitive damage this shit did. Maybe this is like the post Hof funk and as you hit a year things get odd. Two caving dreams this week, one was a cig and the other was Kodiak. I would actually drive to a new store or chew plug before I would stick the bear in my mouth so this was really bizarre. . For you newbies I am bitching a tad, but it is without a doubt easier than at day 1 or even than day 100, hell it is even easier than yesterday. BUT I STILL QUIT ONE DAY AT A TIME. BLue claw taught me that. roughly 330 days in a row he taught me. Blue I think I'm startin to get it. !!
Thanks for the opportunity to vent
Ust are a bunch of goat molesting souless profit vampires. They have to keep making addicts faster than they kill them. They're good at both so we need to keep fighting.
sM
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Day 260
I don't intend to create any drama. My intent is to post this so no one assumes I faded away or planned a cave.Â
This is my official resignation letter from KTC. The principles taught here are the correct principles for me to control my addiction. Pretty simple really:
- Quit only for today
- Post Roll
- Keep your word
- Get involve by asking for support and giving support
- If tomorrow becomes today....repeat.Â
That is the wisdom and simplicity of quit. It was hell, It was a battle and now I am tasting and loving the sweetness of being free from that vice. Yes I hate nicotine, I hate the tobacco industry in America and I never, ever will empathize or hold that industry blameless for my addiction and other peoples cancer! They are an ugly, rotten group of slugs. (Spare me the soda, and McDonald's comparison too.) Compare them to a terrorist organization and tell me why you don't hold them accountable for their actions!  Â
I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles. The only way I will every post roll here is if I cave so I hope you never have to see a post of day 1 here from me.Â
The grass is growing under my feet and its time to move on. Most people don't like change. I love change and new experiences. It is just my time to change.Â
The principles here are correct and if you follow them with exactness, you can not and will not fall victim to nicotine ever again!Â
However, some of you dogs and pigs of quitting will ultimately return to your vomit or wallow in the mire yet again. That is as much a fact as we all are human. However, any quitter who believes and follows these principles will remain free from this vice for the rest of their life.Â
Who are you and what do you believe? The principles are taught, preached and encouraged over and over and over here. You have your agency to post roll and repeat or to ignore and surrender to the evil in a can.Â
So those brothers that are in my phone, I am not deleting or abandoning you. My phone is open for support 24/7.Â
I love KTC and thank her for being here for me when I needed a Mentor to get me through the suck. I embraced the suck and posted roll 100% That is how I stayed quit. Â
For those that think or say that this is a planned cave. I don't care. This is my quit and I have owned it since day 1 I will continue to own it.Â
Stay quit.
I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles.
I said I wasn't going to post here but this isn't the only roll out there.
That's all. I am not going back on the principles taught here. It is too dangerous.
I will post roll
I will keep my word and
I will repeat when tomorrow becomes today.
What other roll is out there? I feel pretty good too and like change, maybe I'll. Join you and leave too.
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WTF is this horse shit? Get your fucking head on straight for fucks sake. There are a shit load of guys that look up to you here and you'd consider leaving? WTF is that? Turning your back on the people and place that helped you quit and kicking dirt in the faces of those that look up to you? That seems cowardice to me when you know full well we'll always be addicts.
I've read your post four times and still don't understand WTF you're trying to say. Do me a favor and grab your scrotum. If God didn't want you to be able to do that he would have made your arms much shorter. Now squeeze them until tears flow freely down your cheeks. Perfect, now go help some other schlep from nicotine's grasp like the Titan of quit that you are and like the guys that helped you.
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Day 203
The following is dialogue between mthomas and Mrs. Thomas.
Mthomas: You know KTC is like therapy and rehab but there comes a time where you need to leave the hospital and live your life.
Mrs Thomas: What the hell are you talking about?
Mthomas: I am talking about KTC. I have spent a lot of time on the site but I think I am ready to leave. Time to live my life outside of the site.
Mrs Thomas: First that is a bad analogy for KTC. Second, it sounds like you are preparing to cave and want to hide from your brothers.
Mthomas: Not true. I just need to leave the hospital. When I post daily, I think about tobacco. I want to get to a point where I can wake up and never think about nicotine. KTC makes me think about tobacco.
Mrs Thomas: Hmm
Mthomas: You don't see my point?
Mrs Thomas: Aren't you the one who tells me, "If it ain't broke don't fix it?" You have been quit for 200 days. Seems like nothing is broke and you want to break it.
Mthomas: Maybe I just got bored but I want to see if I can do it on my own now.
Mrs Thomas: What is marriage? It is a commitment to each other. I'm here for you and you are here for me. We both make mistakes but usually at different times. I have always been here for you and you for me. KTC is a promise. Your supporters are there for you and you are there for them. If I were you, just keep positing roll. If you are bored, just post roll and leave the site but never abandon the brothers that count on you because they haven't bailed on you. Right?
Mthomas: Right. You know your stuff.
Mrs Thomas: You are an addict. Nicotine is going to be in your mind daily. Either you post and say, I am quit...or you don't post and temptation comes to seduce you without your "Armor" as you call it.
So thinking about our conversation, Froman calls me and bam, it hits me. I wanted to cave but I wanted to do it honorably. There is no honor in a cave. No matter what, when you cave you feel like shit.
I am posting roll to 365 days and will keep my 100% posting record because. I am quit and I love my Freedom
Nicotine found a back door open in my mind. Thanks to all those that cared enough to help me stay quit. To my KTC brotherhood. You are my armor and shield to fight my addiction. I appreciate the support and I am sorry for thinking to bail on you. I have a second wind and I am back!!!!
bump
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WTF is this horse shit? Get your fucking head on straight for fucks sake. There are a shit load of guys that look up to you here and you'd consider leaving? WTF is that? Turning your back on the people and place that helped you quit and kicking dirt in the faces of those that look up to you? That seems cowardice to me when you know full well we'll always be addicts.
I've read your post four times and still don't understand WTF you're trying to say. Do me a favor and grab your scrotum. If God didn't want you to be able to do that he would have made your arms much shorter. Now squeeze them until tears flow freely down your cheeks. Perfect, now go help some other schlep from nicotine's grasp like the Titan of quit that you are and like the guys that helped you.
nothing to add. Well said!
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How in the Hell do you go from THIS:
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Day 259
Today is a great day. First and foremost, I quit today. Second, I got on the scale. My weight is back to my Day 1 post. What a great feeling.Â
Anyone battling today (Especially those pre - 100 days quit) Stay in the fight and win it!Â
You may wonder why fight the triggers, is it possible to be quit for life? Blah Blah Blah!Â
IT IS AND IT IS GREAT!!!!
I have had so many successes that I attribute to quitting nicotine and freeing my mind from that poison. Now it hasn't been all sunshine and puppy dogs. I have had some tough days but the experiences without nicotine was better. You see I delt with my issues vs. finding an escape or reason to hump my can of tobacco.Â
I still have 10 more pounds to go but I am back where I left off and I am dip free. I also saved 1,600 dollars that I used to purchase guns.
It is better to be quit. Trust me.  'fat'
To THIS:Day 260
I don't intend to create any drama. My intent is to post this so no one assumes I faded away or planned a cave.Â
This is my official resignation letter from KTC. The principles taught here are the correct principles for me to control my addiction. Pretty simple really:
- Quit only for today
- Post Roll
- Keep your word
- Get involve by asking for support and giving support
- If tomorrow becomes today....repeat.Â
That is the wisdom and simplicity of quit. It was hell, It was a battle and now I am tasting and loving the sweetness of being free from that vice. Yes I hate nicotine, I hate the tobacco industry in America and I never, ever will empathize or hold that industry blameless for my addiction and other peoples cancer! They are an ugly, rotten group of slugs. (Spare me the soda, and McDonald's comparison too.) Compare them to a terrorist organization and tell me why you don't hold them accountable for their actions! Â
I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles. The only way I will every post roll here is if I cave so I hope you never have to see a post of day 1 here from me.Â
The grass is growing under my feet and its time to move on. Most people don't like change. I love change and new experiences. It is just my time to change.Â
The principles here are correct and if you follow them with exactness, you can not and will not fall victim to nicotine ever again!Â
However, some of you dogs and pigs of quitting will ultimately return to your vomit or wallow in the mire yet again. That is as much a fact as we all are human. However, any quitter who believes and follows these principles will remain free from this vice for the rest of their life.Â
Who are you and what do you believe? The principles are taught, preached and encouraged over and over and over here. You have your agency to post roll and repeat or to ignore and surrender to the evil in a can.Â
So those brothers that are in my phone, I am not deleting or abandoning you. My phone is open for support 24/7.Â
I love KTC and thank her for being here for me when I needed a Mentor to get me through the suck. I embraced the suck and posted roll 100% That is how I stayed quit.Â
For those that think or say that this is a planned cave. I don't care. This is my quit and I have owned it since day 1 I will continue to own it.Â
Stay quit.
In ONE day? :huh:
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How in the Hell do you go from THIS:YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Day 259
Today is a great day. First and foremost, I quit today. Second, I got on the scale. My weight is back to my Day 1 post. What a great feeling.Â
Anyone battling today (Especially those pre - 100 days quit) Stay in the fight and win it!Â
You may wonder why fight the triggers, is it possible to be quit for life? Blah Blah Blah!Â
IT IS AND IT IS GREAT!!!!
I have had so many successes that I attribute to quitting nicotine and freeing my mind from that poison. Now it hasn't been all sunshine and puppy dogs. I have had some tough days but the experiences without nicotine was better. You see I delt with my issues vs. finding an escape or reason to hump my can of tobacco.Â
I still have 10 more pounds to go but I am back where I left off and I am dip free. I also saved 1,600 dollars that I used to purchase guns.
It is better to be quit. Trust me.  'fat'
To THIS:Day 260
I don't intend to create any drama. My intent is to post this so no one assumes I faded away or planned a cave.Â
This is my official resignation letter from KTC. The principles taught here are the correct principles for me to control my addiction. Pretty simple really:
- Quit only for today
- Post Roll
- Keep your word
- Get involve by asking for support and giving support
- If tomorrow becomes today....repeat.Â
That is the wisdom and simplicity of quit. It was hell, It was a battle and now I am tasting and loving the sweetness of being free from that vice. Yes I hate nicotine, I hate the tobacco industry in America and I never, ever will empathize or hold that industry blameless for my addiction and other peoples cancer! They are an ugly, rotten group of slugs. (Spare me the soda, and McDonald's comparison too.) Compare them to a terrorist organization and tell me why you don't hold them accountable for their actions!  Â
I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles. The only way I will every post roll here is if I cave so I hope you never have to see a post of day 1 here from me.Â
The grass is growing under my feet and its time to move on. Most people don't like change. I love change and new experiences. It is just my time to change.Â
The principles here are correct and if you follow them with exactness, you can not and will not fall victim to nicotine ever again!Â
However, some of you dogs and pigs of quitting will ultimately return to your vomit or wallow in the mire yet again. That is as much a fact as we all are human. However, any quitter who believes and follows these principles will remain free from this vice for the rest of their life.Â
Who are you and what do you believe? The principles are taught, preached and encouraged over and over and over here. You have your agency to post roll and repeat or to ignore and surrender to the evil in a can.Â
So those brothers that are in my phone, I am not deleting or abandoning you. My phone is open for support 24/7.Â
I love KTC and thank her for being here for me when I needed a Mentor to get me through the suck. I embraced the suck and posted roll 100% That is how I stayed quit. Â
For those that think or say that this is a planned cave. I don't care. This is my quit and I have owned it since day 1 I will continue to own it.Â
Stay quit.
In ONE day? :huh:
1 word
tnuC
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It wasn't even 24 hours. He posted something in Suggestions a mere few hours before dropping the deuce.
One more word.
Class.
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Pause.
Go read this thread from your very first post.
Reflect.
Stay quit.
You can do this.
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How in the Hell do you go from THIS:YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Day 259
Today is a great day. First and foremost, I quit today. Second, I got on the scale. My weight is back to my Day 1 post. What a great feeling.Â
Anyone battling today (Especially those pre - 100 days quit) Stay in the fight and win it!Â
You may wonder why fight the triggers, is it possible to be quit for life? Blah Blah Blah!Â
IT IS AND IT IS GREAT!!!!
I have had so many successes that I attribute to quitting nicotine and freeing my mind from that poison. Now it hasn't been all sunshine and puppy dogs. I have had some tough days but the experiences without nicotine was better. You see I delt with my issues vs. finding an escape or reason to hump my can of tobacco.Â
I still have 10 more pounds to go but I am back where I left off and I am dip free. I also saved 1,600 dollars that I used to purchase guns.
It is better to be quit. Trust me.  'fat'
To THIS:Day 260
I don't intend to create any drama. My intent is to post this so no one assumes I faded away or planned a cave.Â
This is my official resignation letter from KTC. The principles taught here are the correct principles for me to control my addiction. Pretty simple really:
- Quit only for today
- Post Roll
- Keep your word
- Get involve by asking for support and giving support
- If tomorrow becomes today....repeat.Â
That is the wisdom and simplicity of quit. It was hell, It was a battle and now I am tasting and loving the sweetness of being free from that vice. Yes I hate nicotine, I hate the tobacco industry in America and I never, ever will empathize or hold that industry blameless for my addiction and other peoples cancer! They are an ugly, rotten group of slugs. (Spare me the soda, and McDonald's comparison too.) Compare them to a terrorist organization and tell me why you don't hold them accountable for their actions!  Â
I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles. The only way I will every post roll here is if I cave so I hope you never have to see a post of day 1 here from me.Â
The grass is growing under my feet and its time to move on. Most people don't like change. I love change and new experiences. It is just my time to change.Â
The principles here are correct and if you follow them with exactness, you can not and will not fall victim to nicotine ever again!Â
However, some of you dogs and pigs of quitting will ultimately return to your vomit or wallow in the mire yet again. That is as much a fact as we all are human. However, any quitter who believes and follows these principles will remain free from this vice for the rest of their life.Â
Who are you and what do you believe? The principles are taught, preached and encouraged over and over and over here. You have your agency to post roll and repeat or to ignore and surrender to the evil in a can.Â
So those brothers that are in my phone, I am not deleting or abandoning you. My phone is open for support 24/7.Â
I love KTC and thank her for being here for me when I needed a Mentor to get me through the suck. I embraced the suck and posted roll 100% That is how I stayed quit. Â
For those that think or say that this is a planned cave. I don't care. This is my quit and I have owned it since day 1 I will continue to own it.Â
Stay quit.
In ONE day? :huh:
1 word
tnuC
I think he is posting with ”The Quit”. basically I read ”Fuck you”.
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How in the Hell do you go from THIS:YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Day 259
Today is a great day. First and foremost, I quit today. Second, I got on the scale. My weight is back to my Day 1 post. What a great feeling.Â
Anyone battling today (Especially those pre - 100 days quit) Stay in the fight and win it!Â
You may wonder why fight the triggers, is it possible to be quit for life? Blah Blah Blah!Â
IT IS AND IT IS GREAT!!!!
I have had so many successes that I attribute to quitting nicotine and freeing my mind from that poison. Now it hasn't been all sunshine and puppy dogs. I have had some tough days but the experiences without nicotine was better. You see I delt with my issues vs. finding an escape or reason to hump my can of tobacco.Â
I still have 10 more pounds to go but I am back where I left off and I am dip free. I also saved 1,600 dollars that I used to purchase guns.
It is better to be quit. Trust me.  'fat'
To THIS:Day 260
I don't intend to create any drama. My intent is to post this so no one assumes I faded away or planned a cave.Â
This is my official resignation letter from KTC. The principles taught here are the correct principles for me to control my addiction. Pretty simple really:
- Quit only for today
- Post Roll
- Keep your word
- Get involve by asking for support and giving support
- If tomorrow becomes today....repeat.Â
That is the wisdom and simplicity of quit. It was hell, It was a battle and now I am tasting and loving the sweetness of being free from that vice. Yes I hate nicotine, I hate the tobacco industry in America and I never, ever will empathize or hold that industry blameless for my addiction and other peoples cancer! They are an ugly, rotten group of slugs. (Spare me the soda, and McDonald's comparison too.) Compare them to a terrorist organization and tell me why you don't hold them accountable for their actions!  Â
I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles. The only way I will every post roll here is if I cave so I hope you never have to see a post of day 1 here from me.Â
The grass is growing under my feet and its time to move on. Most people don't like change. I love change and new experiences. It is just my time to change.Â
The principles here are correct and if you follow them with exactness, you can not and will not fall victim to nicotine ever again!Â
However, some of you dogs and pigs of quitting will ultimately return to your vomit or wallow in the mire yet again. That is as much a fact as we all are human. However, any quitter who believes and follows these principles will remain free from this vice for the rest of their life.Â
Who are you and what do you believe? The principles are taught, preached and encouraged over and over and over here. You have your agency to post roll and repeat or to ignore and surrender to the evil in a can.Â
So those brothers that are in my phone, I am not deleting or abandoning you. My phone is open for support 24/7.Â
I love KTC and thank her for being here for me when I needed a Mentor to get me through the suck. I embraced the suck and posted roll 100% That is how I stayed quit. Â
For those that think or say that this is a planned cave. I don't care. This is my quit and I have owned it since day 1 I will continue to own it.Â
Stay quit.
In ONE day? :huh:
1 word
tnuC
I think he is posting with ”The Quit”. basically I read ”Fuck you”.
I would say I support you in anyway if it helps your quit.. But, then I read the word "HOPE" in your post.. To me this means you haven't accepted reality yet, and you still have some dark matter. If you were ready you would've said " You will NEVER see me post a day 1 again" read your own words, They have doubt interlaced. Be careful bro.. 'finger point'
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How in the Hell do you go from THIS:YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Day 259
Today is a great day. First and foremost, I quit today. Second, I got on the scale. My weight is back to my Day 1 post. What a great feeling.Â
Anyone battling today (Especially those pre - 100 days quit) Stay in the fight and win it!Â
You may wonder why fight the triggers, is it possible to be quit for life? Blah Blah Blah!Â
IT IS AND IT IS GREAT!!!!
I have had so many successes that I attribute to quitting nicotine and freeing my mind from that poison. Now it hasn't been all sunshine and puppy dogs. I have had some tough days but the experiences without nicotine was better. You see I delt with my issues vs. finding an escape or reason to hump my can of tobacco.Â
I still have 10 more pounds to go but I am back where I left off and I am dip free. I also saved 1,600 dollars that I used to purchase guns.
It is better to be quit. Trust me.  'fat'
To THIS:Day 260
I don't intend to create any drama. My intent is to post this so no one assumes I faded away or planned a cave.Â
This is my official resignation letter from KTC. The principles taught here are the correct principles for me to control my addiction. Pretty simple really:
- Quit only for today
- Post Roll
- Keep your word
- Get involve by asking for support and giving support
- If tomorrow becomes today....repeat.Â
That is the wisdom and simplicity of quit. It was hell, It was a battle and now I am tasting and loving the sweetness of being free from that vice. Yes I hate nicotine, I hate the tobacco industry in America and I never, ever will empathize or hold that industry blameless for my addiction and other peoples cancer! They are an ugly, rotten group of slugs. (Spare me the soda, and McDonald's comparison too.) Compare them to a terrorist organization and tell me why you don't hold them accountable for their actions!  Â
I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles. The only way I will every post roll here is if I cave so I hope you never have to see a post of day 1 here from me.Â
The grass is growing under my feet and its time to move on. Most people don't like change. I love change and new experiences. It is just my time to change.Â
The principles here are correct and if you follow them with exactness, you can not and will not fall victim to nicotine ever again!Â
However, some of you dogs and pigs of quitting will ultimately return to your vomit or wallow in the mire yet again. That is as much a fact as we all are human. However, any quitter who believes and follows these principles will remain free from this vice for the rest of their life.Â
Who are you and what do you believe? The principles are taught, preached and encouraged over and over and over here. You have your agency to post roll and repeat or to ignore and surrender to the evil in a can.Â
So those brothers that are in my phone, I am not deleting or abandoning you. My phone is open for support 24/7.Â
I love KTC and thank her for being here for me when I needed a Mentor to get me through the suck. I embraced the suck and posted roll 100% That is how I stayed quit. Â
For those that think or say that this is a planned cave. I don't care. This is my quit and I have owned it since day 1 I will continue to own it.Â
Stay quit.
In ONE day? :huh:
1 word
tnuC
I think he is posting with ”The Quit”. basically I read ”Fuck you”.
I would say I support you in anyway if it helps your quit.. But, then I read the word "HOPE" in your post.. To me this means you haven't accepted reality yet, and you still have some dark matter. If you were ready you would've said " You will NEVER see me post a day 1 again" read your own words, They have doubt interlaced. Be careful bro.. 'finger point'
*sloooow clap*
Fuggin awesome when they get it. Hope is not a word that belongs in any post, for any reason on this board. In fact, there should be a word filter for it and a sharp stick in the eye coming out of your monitor if you even think it.
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How in the Hell do you go from THIS:YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Day 259
Today is a great day. First and foremost, I quit today. Second, I got on the scale. My weight is back to my Day 1 post. What a great feeling.Â
Anyone battling today (Especially those pre - 100 days quit) Stay in the fight and win it!Â
You may wonder why fight the triggers, is it possible to be quit for life? Blah Blah Blah!Â
IT IS AND IT IS GREAT!!!!
I have had so many successes that I attribute to quitting nicotine and freeing my mind from that poison. Now it hasn't been all sunshine and puppy dogs. I have had some tough days but the experiences without nicotine was better. You see I delt with my issues vs. finding an escape or reason to hump my can of tobacco.Â
I still have 10 more pounds to go but I am back where I left off and I am dip free. I also saved 1,600 dollars that I used to purchase guns.
It is better to be quit. Trust me.  'fat'
To THIS:Day 260
I don't intend to create any drama. My intent is to post this so no one assumes I faded away or planned a cave.Â
This is my official resignation letter from KTC. The principles taught here are the correct principles for me to control my addiction. Pretty simple really:
- Quit only for today
- Post Roll
- Keep your word
- Get involve by asking for support and giving support
- If tomorrow becomes today....repeat.Â
That is the wisdom and simplicity of quit. It was hell, It was a battle and now I am tasting and loving the sweetness of being free from that vice. Yes I hate nicotine, I hate the tobacco industry in America and I never, ever will empathize or hold that industry blameless for my addiction and other peoples cancer! They are an ugly, rotten group of slugs. (Spare me the soda, and McDonald's comparison too.) Compare them to a terrorist organization and tell me why you don't hold them accountable for their actions!  Â
I am and always will be an addict so I will continue to apply these principles. The only way I will every post roll here is if I cave so I hope you never have to see a post of day 1 here from me.Â
The grass is growing under my feet and its time to move on. Most people don't like change. I love change and new experiences. It is just my time to change.Â
The principles here are correct and if you follow them with exactness, you can not and will not fall victim to nicotine ever again!Â
However, some of you dogs and pigs of quitting will ultimately return to your vomit or wallow in the mire yet again. That is as much a fact as we all are human. However, any quitter who believes and follows these principles will remain free from this vice for the rest of their life.Â
Who are you and what do you believe? The principles are taught, preached and encouraged over and over and over here. You have your agency to post roll and repeat or to ignore and surrender to the evil in a can.Â
So those brothers that are in my phone, I am not deleting or abandoning you. My phone is open for support 24/7.Â
I love KTC and thank her for being here for me when I needed a Mentor to get me through the suck. I embraced the suck and posted roll 100% That is how I stayed quit. Â
For those that think or say that this is a planned cave. I don't care. This is my quit and I have owned it since day 1 I will continue to own it.Â
Stay quit.
In ONE day? :huh:
1 word
tnuC
I think he is posting with ”The Quit”. basically I read ”Fuck you”.
I would say I support you in anyway if it helps your quit.. But, then I read the word "HOPE" in your post.. To me this means you haven't accepted reality yet, and you still have some dark matter. If you were ready you would've said " You will NEVER see me post a day 1 again" read your own words, They have doubt interlaced. Be careful bro.. 'finger point'
*sloooow clap*
Fuggin awesome when they get it. Hope is not a word that belongs in any post, for any reason on this board. In fact, there should be a word filter for it and a sharp stick in the eye coming out of your monitor if you even think it.
Mthomastherapy, you DO NOT get it...
You say, "The principles here are correct and if you follow them with exactness, you can not and will not fall victim to nicotine ever again!"
By your own admission, you are already saying that you will FAIL...because you are not following the principles of this site.
Since you are saying that you "hope" to never post another day of roll here, then I will keep within the context of your thought process regarding this quit and wish you "Good Luck" with that.
- CoachDoc
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First of all,
I appreciate all the nice texts and encouragement from my quit brothers and sister. They know who they are.
To those that pound themselves on the chest and think you are a hero. Lets Do this. Its go time!
....Clearing throat.....LOOT you are a fucking comedy!!!!
Pull your head out of your ass, spit out the foreskin you are chewing on. Is tunC your clever way of spelling Cunt? LOOT (in case you read backwords....tooL.) your support is weak ass shit! No I am not going to PM you. I don't care enough to keep this between you and me. You want to show off your support for SWJ? Your support sucks ass.
If you care about other peoples quit. Stop pounding your chest and selling to us what a great supporter you are. Just be real about helping and supporting. Who the fuck are you to tell people to take their ball and go home? Like that is some sort of reverse psychology to get someone to prove to you that they want to be here.
That tatic works on your little league baseball team you dumb, small minded little bitch! Do me a favor and go get your strap on and fuck yourself...DICKLESS.
For those that didn't appreciate the language, I had to write like this so dickbreath could understand.
Next: Coach doc, Kana, Mjollnir
I disagree. Respect your thinking but disagree. I can only quit today. I have no idea what tomorrow brings. I hope I am quit for life. As each day goes by I will have faith that I am quit for life. Faith will become so strong that I might feel like I know I am quit for life....however none of will be able to say we are quit for life until we die. No one has a crystal ball. Some of the greatest among us have fallen. (Aquaman - Fuck you loser, can humping son of a bitch!) You did good for the site but you caved. Never came back, still using. You are a fallen angel.
So I hope I never post a day 1 gentlemen.
Along the same lines, I get a PM that delivers the fact that people are going to do what they want to do. So some people just wont post roll.....back up with the comment...."But that doesn't keep us from trying"
Very easily could be a mis statement. I'll give you that. However, Try isn't in our vocabulary right admins and moderators? You teach correct principles of quit. Reach out and offer support. If you can only lead a horse to water but they have to drink...then you are doing something. I don't see try in there. Support and they can choose to use it or not.
So curse me for saying HOPE. I curse the support here for saying TRY.
Finally,
2 words
FUCKING tooL
I am quit, I am here, and I am here not for anything else but that I had a few texts telling me that my actions impacted their quit. I would fall on my words and eat them if it can have a positive impact and keep a fellow quitter from surrendering and humping the evil in a can.
I apologize to any that I hurt on fighting the nic demons. I am strong and I am 262 days quit. I am posting but I am taking what I need. Support and allies in quit. I leave the rest. I will encourage new quitters.
LOOT take your ball and go home. JV is done. THE VARSITY TEAM'S taking the field.
'Finger' 'arse' 'FU' 'loot03' :rustaf1:
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Uh...werent you leaving to go play in another sandbox?
Cookoo cookoo
Talk about mood swings
Sheesh
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well. hmmm. pretty damn good rant. That's not to say that I agree with what you said, but pretty good rant, nonetheless. I think there are many of us on this site that would STRONGLY disagree with your opinion of LooTs support. I happen to value it quite highly. Mthomas, this is QSXtreme. That means you are more likely to get tough love than sweet nothings in your ear. It's a technique that works for many, but it is not for everyone.
SWJ.....SWJ used this site a while before I got here. He drifted then caved. He came back, and now he is missing Roll quite frequently. It's true we can't force anyone to post roll, can't force them to stay quit, but we can call them out when we see them being careless with their quit- especially when they have already failed because of carelessness. It's actually our obligation to call them out. Just the same as if your little brother was playing with fire, you wouldn't sit idly by and let him get burnt.
Your illustration of the greatest among us that have fallen actually underscores the need to stay vigilant. I cannot imagine why swj would not spend 2 minutes of his day to post roll. I cannot think of a reason that would hold any water. The only conclusion that I can draw is that he is drifting. I know that is dangerous, and, strangely enough, I think he knows that it's dangerous as well.
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So I hope I never post a day 1 gentlemen.
You still don't get it.
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Along the same lines, I get a PM that delivers the fact that people are going to do what they want to do. So some people just wont post roll.....back up with the comment...."But that doesn't keep us from trying"
Since that was me, let me explain.
You still don't get it.
MT, you're hurting right now man. Call it a funk, whatever. You're hurting and a bunch of us are identifying that. We're your life line. Right. Now.
You keep pushing back, and it is classic addict thinking. You need to breathe brother. Breathe.
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And I would like to explain my comment on "one day at a time".
Many years ago, when I was sober only a week or so I was terrified that I would be struck drunk. Sound stupid? It is, but in the mind of an almost dead drunk who just dried out, anything like that was possible.
People were saying "one day at a time" and I could not wrap my mind around that because I never wanted to be where I was again. And I was scared. Real scared. One of the older guys, who had a couple of years told me something that gave me solice, and I kept it and I use it in my nicotine quit.
That piece of solice was that I never had to be drunk again, and it was my choice. He asked me one simple question after telling me that. "What did I need to do to get drunk?" The answer was easy. Drink. Just one. Because one is too many, and a thousand aren't enough.
AA is based on a spiritual foundation and I found/find such things a little spooky. Asking god to keep me from getting drunk infered that I could just be struck drunk if I did not adhere to the principles. It may sound crazy, but at the time, I was a nut case.
My sobriety was and is based on my own will. My quit is based on my own will. It is strenghtned by the people on this site who I have developed relationships with.
I feel it is my responsibility to lay on the table all the tools at my disposal, regardless of how others may feel about them. Many do disagree with my "you never have to do that again", but some have taken it to heart. It would be wrong of me, and anyone else on this site to deny anyone of their personal experience in quitting.
As for you, welcome to the real tough part. Having problems? That is what we are all here for. I know a little about how this all works and after a time, it isn't just about the drug anymore, it is about how you handle life on life's terms without the help of, well, anything.
Bitch all you want, when the dust settles, be here, be calm. Let us help you if we can.
David.
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Uh...werent you leaving to go play in another sandbox?
Cookoo cookoo
Talk about mood swings
Sheesh
Tool,
'Finger'
'loot03'
I was asked to reconsider my decision. I did.
You called me a cunt, mocked me, and are nothing but disrespectful. This sandbox is just fine for me. I realized the majority of quitters here are what makes it great. You don't know tough love. You are a dick.
Dicks like you are why they say, "leave the rest." You keep telling people to leave, gtfo etc. did it ever dawn on you that you might be the problem that people don't want to deal with your cyber tough guy shit? Support? Tough love? Just a crock of shit.
Question for you. If you really were concerned about SWJ posting roll and being quit, why didn't you text or call him? Why was it a shit storm in June? Was it really about SWJ or could it be another motivation? Call or text him next time. He always responds....unless your a dick. I doubt he would take your call. Tell you what, spend your time in other groups. June sandbox doesn't care for your support. It is counter productive.
You curse someone who is quit for not posting but accept a caver who did so much good for the site but won't post a day one and quit again? Badger aquaman and get him to post a day one. Please don't excuse his cave and hold him in high regard. Cavers come back and quit. I respect that, i think we all understand that. Aquaman...That is just weird?
How do you justify treating quiters with an undefeated records on this program with So much disrespect and aqua is honored by you?
Please explain that.
Sheesh
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Along the same lines, I get a PM that delivers the fact that people are going to do what they want to do. So some people just wont post roll.....back up with the comment...."But that doesn't keep us from trying"
Since that was me, let me explain.
You still don't get it.
MT, you're hurting right now man. Call it a funk, whatever. You're hurting and a bunch of us are identifying that. We're your life line. Right. Now.
You keep pushing back, and it is classic addict thinking. You need to breathe brother. Breathe.
Quit 263 days and counting. I know it isn't ever done or over.
Funk, hurting, hell I haven't been quit this many days I a row for a long time.
I hate nicotine, I post daily and the 30 lbs I put on are gone.
I hurt? If I am, I can't identify why.
I just think loot needs to get his head on straight and quit encouraging addicts to leave.
His mentality is not what I got from KTC but if you back him? That's what would hurt.
He needs to be reprimanded. He is a piss poor example and representative of KTC.
If he's not and his treatment of quitters is okay with KTC, then I do need to go.
My goals and KTC objectives will never align. Addicts don't only need to quit, they need to gain confidence and self respect. Loot doesn't see that equation. Most do. I think he can learn but not until you guys stop backing him when he fucks up. Support him, sure. Reprimand his action yes.
I am done until tooL opens his yapper and says something stupid. Truce until he throws a punch again..
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Along the same lines, I get a PM that delivers the fact that people are going to do what they want to do. So some people just wont post roll.....back up with the comment...."But that doesn't keep us from trying"
Since that was me, let me explain.
You still don't get it.
MT, you're hurting right now man. Call it a funk, whatever. You're hurting and a bunch of us are identifying that. We're your life line. Right. Now.
You keep pushing back, and it is classic addict thinking. You need to breathe brother. Breathe.
Quit 263 days and counting. I know it isn't ever done or over.
Funk, hurting, hell I haven't been quit this many days I a row for a long time.
I hate nicotine, I post daily and the 30 lbs I put on are gone.
I hurt? If I am, I can't identify why.
I just think loot needs to get his head on straight and quit encouraging addicts to leave.
His mentality is not what I got from KTC but if you back him? That's what would hurt.
He needs to be reprimanded. He is a piss poor example and representative of KTC.
If he's not and his treatment of quitters is okay with KTC, then I do need to go.
My goals and KTC objectives will never align. Addicts don't only need to quit, they need to gain confidence and self respect. Loot doesn't see that equation. Most do. I think he can learn but not until you guys stop backing him when he fucks up. Support him, sure. Reprimand his action yes.
I am done until tooL opens his yapper and says something stupid. Truce until he throws a punch again..
Just stay quit. Post roll, fuck the rest of the bullshit in the threads. It is not important, only the quit is. Quit with you all day brother. Thanks for the text yesterday...QLAFM
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MT.... You may not agree with everything Loot does or says, you my not understand his ways or motives, But I will ask you to step back and see two things.
1. They work and are nothing but best intentions.
2. Your quit is stronger because of them.
Personally I want you to stick around just to know you are quit. I don't care if you like me or not, you can dispise me with a passion, this is not a popularity contest for us. Deep inside I know this place and its system work and I really think you do to.
Nic is the fight. Quit is the prize. Keep your eye on the prize.
Trees ................ :blink: ...................Forest
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While it is common knowledge that Loot wears baby blue spandex pants, a cape, and a lone ranger mask while he parades around the neighborhood, He is not infact a superhero. He is a quitter just like you and just like me. He is one hell of a quitter however.
I owe alot of my success to Loot. His words, to me, his texts, and his phone calls. Saved my ass on more than one occasion. I wouldn't be here without Loot and guys like him. Anyone I ever helped owes Loot
Ever wonder why a perfect stranger like Loot would reach out to others for years on end to help them overcome this shit? Ever wonder what kind of toll that takes on a guy when he sees so many he wants to help fall by the wayside. That's fucking special. That deserves spandex and a cape. Thats fucking work my friend, and it is work that has literally saved lives. This guy IS a fucking super hero.
Loot's no internet Troll, Loot is a backbone of this site. The folks that helped you quit , including me were helped by Loot. But keep in mind Mt, nobody's perfect, you don't get to hold Loot to a higher standard, Loot's job is thankless, but you should thank Loot anyway.
I posted this in a reply to a pm today, and I think it is something you should think about.
Be the change you wish to see in the world, or in this case the site. STOP trying to tear it down MT, instead try to make it better, ( here). If you want things to be different, then set that example here. Teach the newbs the way you think is right.
Creating a ruckus and trying to divide this house is unproductive.
For the record- I am the original keyboard gorilla, I am a troll of epic proportions, well versed in internet wizardry, I cannot be banned.......from any site. I would gladly give up my color to be held to a lower standard to defend this house.
And I stand shoulder to shoulder with Loot, and the rest of the Admin on this one.
sM
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MT, let me ask, have you helped a new quitter or any quitter today? Have you reached out to one of the guys on day 2 who used to spend his Saturday's with a turd in the entire day who wants to rip someone's head off? Do you remember that feeling?
Did you ever think this site was created by someone or a group? Many people who wanted to do good for others? It did not magically appear, Loot and others spent a lot of time building this so you and I could get help. Loot is not here to see if someone will get mad, he wants to see people stay clean. You taking shots at him about posting clean is childish, you bring up other situations that honestly have nothing to do with you or many of us.
If you don't want to help someone else, perfectly fine, I got no issue with anyone who posts roll for accountability then leaves. But if you want to stay longer than that why don't you do something other than complain about others.
Here's a thought, how about you forge a bond with someone outside of your group, someone who someday could help you out of the funk you are in. How about you stop blaming others, do something constructive or if you can't do that, just don't say anything. There are a whole bunch of quitter between day 1 and 6,750 who could use some support getting through the next hour. It's been about you here long enough, go make it about someone else.
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MT, let me ask, have you helped a new quitter or any quitter today? Have you reached out to one of the guys on day 2 who used to spend his Saturday's with a turd in the entire day who wants to rip someone's head off? Do you remember that feeling?
Did you ever think this site was created by someone or a group? Many people who wanted to do good for others? It did not magically appear, Loot and others spent a lot of time building this so you and I could get help. Loot is not here to see if someone will get mad, he wants to see people stay clean. You taking shots at him about posting clean is childish, you bring up other situations that honestly have nothing to do with you or many of us.
If you don't want to help someone else, perfectly fine, I got no issue with anyone who posts roll for accountability then leaves. But if you want to stay longer than that why don't you do something other than complain about others.
Here's a thought, how about you forge a bond with someone outside of your group, someone who someday could help you out of the funk you are in. How about you stop blaming others, do something constructive or if you can't do that, just don't say anything. There are a whole bunch of quitter between day 1 and 6,750 who could use some support getting through the next hour. It's been about you here long enough, go make it about someone else.
Loots a prick, mthomas is selfish...blah blah blah, everyone shut up and let's get back to quitting. I think this kinda crap in the intro threads just polutes and could hurt a fresh quit
Yea I says it
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MT, let me ask, have you helped a new quitter or any quitter today? Have you reached out to one of the guys on day 2 who used to spend his Saturday's with a turd in the entire day who wants to rip someone's head off? Do you remember that feeling?Â
Did you ever think this site was created by someone or a group? Many people who wanted to do good for others? It did not magically appear, Loot and others spent a lot of time building this so you and I could get help. Loot is not here to see if someone will get mad, he wants to see people stay clean. You taking shots at him about posting clean is childish, you bring up other situations that honestly have nothing to do with you or many of us.Â
If you don't want to help someone else, perfectly fine, I got no issue with anyone who posts roll for accountability then leaves. But if you want to stay longer than that why don't you do something other than complain about others.
Here's a thought, how about you forge a bond with someone outside of your group, someone who someday could help you out of the funk you are in. How about you stop blaming others, do something constructive or if you can't do that, just don't say anything. There are a whole bunch of quitter between day 1 and 6,750 who could use some support getting through the next hour. It's been about you here long enough, go make it about someone else.
Loots a prick, mthomas is selfish...blah blah blah, everyone shut up and let's get back to quitting. I think this kinda crap in the intro threads just polutes and could hurt a fresh quit
Yea I says it
Bruce
Ding ding ding, we have a winner.
Roam and I met for dinner tonight. Bruce we talked about you. You can't help but like Bruce.
I can quit chew but I can't quit you Bruce.
Brokeback Mountain 2. Coming to a theater near you.
Staring Bruce, MT and Roam. "it ain't ghey if it's a 3 way".
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MT, let me ask, have you helped a new quitter or any quitter today? Have you reached out to one of the guys on day 2 who used to spend his Saturday's with a turd in the entire day who wants to rip someone's head off? Do you remember that feeling?Â
Did you ever think this site was created by someone or a group? Many people who wanted to do good for others? It did not magically appear, Loot and others spent a lot of time building this so you and I could get help. Loot is not here to see if someone will get mad, he wants to see people stay clean. You taking shots at him about posting clean is childish, you bring up other situations that honestly have nothing to do with you or many of us.Â
If you don't want to help someone else, perfectly fine, I got no issue with anyone who posts roll for accountability then leaves. But if you want to stay longer than that why don't you do something other than complain about others.
Here's a thought, how about you forge a bond with someone outside of your group, someone who someday could help you out of the funk you are in. How about you stop blaming others, do something constructive or if you can't do that, just don't say anything. There are a whole bunch of quitter between day 1 and 6,750 who could use some support getting through the next hour. It's been about you here long enough, go make it about someone else.
Loots a prick, mthomas is selfish...blah blah blah, everyone shut up and let's get back to quitting. I think this kinda crap in the intro threads just polutes and could hurt a fresh quit
Yea I says it
Bruce
Ding ding ding, we have a winner.
Roam and I met for dinner tonight. Bruce we talked about you. You can't help but like Bruce.
I can quit chew but I can't quit you Bruce.
Brokeback Mountain 2. Coming to a theater near you.
Staring Bruce, MT and Roam. "it ain't ghey if it's a 3 way".
I was not going to post here as it is evident that this needs to die for the good of the quitters both current and prospective. However, the hypocrisy in your last post pushed me over the edge.
Mthomas: You are not a casual bystander in this - you own at least part of the blame. Don't try to pass it off as otherwise. All of your comments posted in the past couple of days were about YOU having a dispute with an admin. They were about how YOU were pissed off. They were not tempered with any regard for how it would affect other people's quit. The same morning that you pretend to take the high road here, you spread more discord in other threads.
Move on if you must, but if you stay focus on helping others quit and stay that way. Staying and continuing to cause division is not an option.
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I am quit today.
I may be hurting right now because I have to live life without returning to the vomit of nic, porn and overeating. I understand that I'm in a rage!
I realize that because people out there helped me to realize it. NOLAQ planted the seed, many that cared enough to let me know I was out of line but tolerated my personal battle to break through the hurting and no addiction to fall back on. Then Roamcountry encouraged that seed to grow.
That's what is great about this site and why I love KTC. I desire and I want to be better. Quitting nicotine is hard. Quit nicotine and after the hall, add to it KTP.
My walk isn't easy. It's a road less traveled but those I walk with, I want to be like.
I am not selfish very often. I ask for tolerance because I can't help others until I can get past this by helping myself.
What do I need, I need to feel valued. Mocking me, calling me a cunt, telling me to go. I ask with hat in hand....do you know how much that hurts me? If other great quitters get treated like this, I would guess they aren't here to say that it wasn't tough love, it is cruel.
I have three older teenagers. All 3 respond differently to motivation, discipline, positive or negative reinforcement.
I'm not trying to tear this house down. I'm shouting that there is some clutter here and we should keep a cleaner house!
I see that I will not have the last word here.
I think KTC can do better.
I think I can do better.
I need to feel better but I don't know how. No nic, no porn. I don't want to feel numb. Once I get past this, I will be grateful for the suck.
My house is glass. So is yours. We are all hypocrites.
I am trying to clean my house and be more organized. I invite you mods and admins to tiddy up the KTC house and get a dust pan. Dirt under the carpet, just sweep it up.
It may be hard be we are quitters and embrace the suck. Right?
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I am quit today.
I may be hurting right now because I have to live life without returning to the vomit of nic, porn and overeating. I understand that I'm in a rage!
I realize that because people out there helped me to realize it. NOLAQ planted the seed, many that cared enough to let me know I was out of line but tolerated my personal battle to break through the hurting and no addiction to fall back on. Then Roamcountry encouraged that seed to grow.
That's what is great about this site and why I love KTC. I desire and I want to be better. Quitting nicotine is hard. Quit nicotine and after the hall, add to it KTP.
My walk isn't easy. It's a road less traveled but those I walk with, I want to be like.
I am not selfish very often. I ask for tolerance because I can't help others until I can get past this by helping myself.
What do I need, I need to feel valued. Mocking me, calling me a cunt, telling me to go. I ask with hat in hand....do you know how much that hurts me? If other great quitters get treated like this, I would guess they aren't here to say that it wasn't tough love, it is cruel.
I have three older teenagers. All 3 respond differently to motivation, discipline, positive or negative reinforcement.
I'm not trying to tear this house down. I'm shouting that there is some clutter here and we should keep a cleaner house!
I see that I will not have the last word here.
I think KTC can do better.
I think I can do better.
I need to feel better but I don't know how. No nic, no porn. I don't want to feel numb. Once I get past this, I will be grateful for the suck.
My house is glass. So is yours. We are all hypocrites.
I am trying to clean my house and be more organized. I invite you mods and admins to tiddy up the KTC house and get a dust pan. Dirt under the carpet, just sweep it up.
It may be hard be we are quitters and embrace the suck. Right?
Houses like the people come in all shapes and sizes,
I can completely understand the feeling however if you look at all of the sucessful ventures, businesses and such throughout the world, you will see that the great strength comes from the diversity that is allowed to exist within the neighborhood.
So yes, there will always be those, 'across the tracks', and the 'red light districts', and as I have seen throughout my days here at KTC is the mentality of take what you can and leave the rest.....I think this can fit this situation in absolute, as it is more of a life lesson and not just involving the quit of nicotene.
So as I build my house, I want the strengths from all around, that may not mean to let any of the 'undesirables' inside of my house, but by certainly having it around it always keeps me aware of what it out there.
Be strong my friend and I quit today with you, and ask me when we wake and I will tell you the same thing.
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I am quit today.
I may be hurting right now because I have to live life without returning to the vomit of nic, porn and overeating. I understand that I'm in a rage!Â
I realize that because people out there helped me to realize it. NOLAQ planted the seed, many that cared enough to let me know I was out of line but tolerated my personal battle to break through the hurting and no addiction to fall back on. Then Roamcountry encouraged that seed to grow.Â
That's what is great about this site and why I love KTC. I desire and I want to be better. Quitting nicotine is hard. Quit nicotine and after the hall, add to it KTP.Â
My walk isn't easy. It's a road less traveled but those I walk with, I want to be like.Â
I am not selfish very often. I ask for tolerance because I can't help others until I can get past this by helping myself.Â
What do I need, I need to feel valued. Mocking me, calling me a cunt, telling me to go. I ask with hat in hand....do you know how much that hurts me? If other great quitters get treated like this, I would guess they aren't here to say that it wasn't tough love, it is cruel.Â
I have three older teenagers. All 3 respond differently to motivation, discipline, positive or negative reinforcement.Â
I'm not trying to tear this house down. I'm shouting that there is some clutter here and we should keep a cleaner house!Â
I see that I will not have the last word here.Â
I think KTC can do better.Â
I think I can do better.Â
I need to feel better but I don't know how. No nic, no porn. I don't want to feel numb. Once I get past this, I will be grateful for the suck.
My house is glass. So is yours. We are all hypocrites.Â
I am trying to clean my house and be more organized. I invite you mods and admins to tiddy up the KTC house and get a dust pan. Dirt under the carpet, just sweep it up.Â
It may be hard be we are quitters and embrace the suck. Right?
Houses like the people come in all shapes and sizes,
I can completely understand the feeling however if you look at all of the sucessful ventures, businesses and such throughout the world, you will see that the great strength comes from the diversity that is allowed to exist within the neighborhood.
So yes, there will always be those, 'across the tracks', and the 'red light districts', and as I have seen throughout my days here at KTC is the mentality of take what you can and leave the rest.....I think this can fit this situation in absolute, as it is more of a life lesson and not just involving the quit of nicotene.
So as I build my house, I want the strengths from all around, that may not mean to let any of the 'undesirables' inside of my house, but by certainly having it around it always keeps me aware of what it out there.
Be strong my friend and I quit today with you, and ask me when we wake and I will tell you the same thing.
Well said D. (As always). I quit with both of you BADASSES. Today, and everyday. QLAFM
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I am quit today.
I may be hurting right now because I have to live life without returning to the vomit of nic, porn and overeating. I understand that I'm in a rage!Â
I realize that because people out there helped me to realize it. NOLAQ planted the seed, many that cared enough to let me know I was out of line but tolerated my personal battle to break through the hurting and no addiction to fall back on. Then Roamcountry encouraged that seed to grow.Â
That's what is great about this site and why I love KTC. I desire and I want to be better. Quitting nicotine is hard. Quit nicotine and after the hall, add to it KTP.Â
My walk isn't easy. It's a road less traveled but those I walk with, I want to be like.Â
I am not selfish very often. I ask for tolerance because I can't help others until I can get past this by helping myself.Â
What do I need, I need to feel valued. Mocking me, calling me a cunt, telling me to go. I ask with hat in hand....do you know how much that hurts me? If other great quitters get treated like this, I would guess they aren't here to say that it wasn't tough love, it is cruel.Â
I have three older teenagers. All 3 respond differently to motivation, discipline, positive or negative reinforcement.Â
I'm not trying to tear this house down. I'm shouting that there is some clutter here and we should keep a cleaner house!Â
I see that I will not have the last word here.Â
I think KTC can do better.Â
I think I can do better.Â
I need to feel better but I don't know how. No nic, no porn. I don't want to feel numb. Once I get past this, I will be grateful for the suck.
My house is glass. So is yours. We are all hypocrites.Â
I am trying to clean my house and be more organized. I invite you mods and admins to tiddy up the KTC house and get a dust pan. Dirt under the carpet, just sweep it up.Â
It may be hard be we are quitters and embrace the suck. Right?
Houses like the people come in all shapes and sizes,
I can completely understand the feeling however if you look at all of the sucessful ventures, businesses and such throughout the world, you will see that the great strength comes from the diversity that is allowed to exist within the neighborhood.
So yes, there will always be those, 'across the tracks', and the 'red light districts', and as I have seen throughout my days here at KTC is the mentality of take what you can and leave the rest.....I think this can fit this situation in absolute, as it is more of a life lesson and not just involving the quit of nicotene.
So as I build my house, I want the strengths from all around, that may not mean to let any of the 'undesirables' inside of my house, but by certainly having it around it always keeps me aware of what it out there.
Be strong my friend and I quit today with you, and ask me when we wake and I will tell you the same thing.
Well said D. (As always). I quit with both of you BADASSES. Today, and everyday. QLAFM
Do better? Perfection is a pursuit, not a goal. Yes, there is always room for improvement. The question is, in a society like this, "What can I contribute?".
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day 267
Many text today from quitters. With the exception of one. We all are finding that we aren't doing well. I've been in a place like this before. You know what I'm not going to do. Go back to that can of poison. Not today. I may be in pain. It's not physical pain, it's worse. It's a pain of grief, feeling lost, thinking I'm going in the right direction but standing in place.
I want to break through this pain, then again, maybe I don't.
Maybe I fear the greatness in me an don't want to climb too high because the higher you go, the greater the fall, or fail. Then again, maybe I want to keep climbing to see if there is a limit I can go. I bet the views up there are spectacular, then again, maybe I'm afraid of heights.
I don't fight a craving for nicotine. I really don't crave it. What I fight now is a need to feel comfort. Like the times I felt when I was alone to my thoughts with a dip in.
I think about dipping just to ease my pain, my loneliness. Then again, I think of the day that I looked at my new bought can of skoal and realized the control and power it had over me.
So I decide to that I would rather fight through this pain, or live with it. Even this is better than where I was on day 1. I am still undefeated with nicotine. Some wins were ugly but They were wins. Well hell, enough thinking, I'm going to the gym. I may be gay but I'm still quit. For today, winning that match is all I need to call it a good day.
I'm still kicking your ass nic bitch. Score is 267 - 0. I'm not the only undefeated dumbass here. In fact being undefeated actually exposes my intelligence. I once was blinded by your lies. Now I see and never want to lose my sight on living in reality again. Bring on the pain! Once I find joy, I'll have more value for it because I know pain. I still win if I stay quit.
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day 267
Many text today from quitters. With the exception of one. We all are finding that we aren't doing well. I've been in a place like this before. You know what I'm not going to do. Go back to that can of poison. Not today. I may be in pain. It's not physical pain, it's worse. It's a pain of grief, feeling lost, thinking I'm going in the right direction but standing in place.
I want to break through this pain, then again, maybe I don't.
Maybe I fear the greatness in me an don't want to climb too high because the higher you go, the greater the fall, or fail. Then again, maybe I want to keep climbing to see if there is a limit I can go. I bet the views up there are spectacular, then again, maybe I'm afraid of heights.
I don't fight a craving for nicotine. I really don't crave it. What I fight now is a need to feel comfort. Like the times I felt when I was alone to my thoughts with a dip in.
I think about dipping just to ease my pain, my loneliness. Then again, I think of the day that I looked at my new bought can of skoal and realized the control and power it had over me.
So I decide to that I would rather fight through this pain, or live with it. Even this is better than where I was on day 1. I am still undefeated with nicotine. Some wins were ugly but They were wins. Well hell, enough thinking, I'm going to the gym. I may be gay but I'm still quit. For today, winning that match is all I need to call it a good day.
I'm still kicking your ass nic bitch. Score is 267 - 0. I'm not the only undefeated dumbass here. In fact being undefeated actually exposes my intelligence. I once was blinded by your lies. Now I see and never want to lose my sight on living in reality again. Bring on the pain! Once I find joy, I'll have more value for it because I know pain. I still win if I stay quit.
Every single day is a win. I know I will never stop fighting and neither will you.
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day 267
Many text today from quitters. With the exception of one. We all are finding that we aren't doing well. I've been in a place like this before. You know what I'm not going to do. Go back to that can of poison. Not today. I may be in pain. It's not physical pain, it's worse. It's a pain of grief, feeling lost, thinking I'm going in the right direction but standing in place.Â
I want to break through this pain, then again, maybe I don't.
Maybe I fear the greatness in me an don't want to climb too high because the higher you go, the greater the fall, or fail. Then again, maybe I want to keep climbing to see if there is a limit I can go. I bet the views up there are spectacular, then again, maybe I'm afraid of heights.
I don't fight a craving for nicotine. I really don't crave it. What I fight now is a need to feel comfort. Like the times I felt when I was alone to my thoughts with a dip in.Â
I think about dipping just to ease my pain, my loneliness. Then again, I think of the day that I looked at my new bought can of skoal and realized the control and power it had over me.Â
So I decide to that I would rather fight through this pain, or live with it. Even this is better than where I was on day 1. I am still undefeated with nicotine. Some wins were ugly but They were wins. Well hell, enough thinking, I'm going to the gym. I may be gay but I'm still quit. For today, winning that match is all I need to call it a good day.Â
I'm still kicking your ass nic bitch. Score is 267 - 0. I'm not the only undefeated dumbass here. In fact being undefeated actually exposes my intelligence. I once was blinded by your lies. Now I see and never want to lose my sight on living in reality again. Bring on the pain! Once I find joy, I'll have more value for it because I know pain. I still win if I stay quit.
Every single day is a win. I know I will never stop fighting and neither will you.
1640-0 with the help and motivation of quitters like you Mark. Thanks for all you do for me and others here.
QLAFM
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day 267
Many text today from quitters. With the exception of one. We all are finding that we aren't doing well. I've been in a place like this before. You know what I'm not going to do. Go back to that can of poison. Not today. I may be in pain. It's not physical pain, it's worse. It's a pain of grief, feeling lost, thinking I'm going in the right direction but standing in place.Â
I want to break through this pain, then again, maybe I don't.
Maybe I fear the greatness in me an don't want to climb too high because the higher you go, the greater the fall, or fail. Then again, maybe I want to keep climbing to see if there is a limit I can go. I bet the views up there are spectacular, then again, maybe I'm afraid of heights.
I don't fight a craving for nicotine. I really don't crave it. What I fight now is a need to feel comfort. Like the times I felt when I was alone to my thoughts with a dip in.Â
I think about dipping just to ease my pain, my loneliness. Then again, I think of the day that I looked at my new bought can of skoal and realized the control and power it had over me.Â
So I decide to that I would rather fight through this pain, or live with it. Even this is better than where I was on day 1. I am still undefeated with nicotine. Some wins were ugly but They were wins. Well hell, enough thinking, I'm going to the gym. I may be gay but I'm still quit. For today, winning that match is all I need to call it a good day.Â
I'm still kicking your ass nic bitch. Score is 267 - 0. I'm not the only undefeated dumbass here. In fact being undefeated actually exposes my intelligence. I once was blinded by your lies. Now I see and never want to lose my sight on living in reality again. Bring on the pain! Once I find joy, I'll have more value for it because I know pain. I still win if I stay quit.
Every single day is a win. I know I will never stop fighting and neither will you.
1640-0 with the help and motivation of quitters like you Mark. Thanks for all you do for me and others here.
QLAFM
It will get better.
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day 267
Many text today from quitters. With the exception of one. We all are finding that we aren't doing well. I've been in a place like this before. You know what I'm not going to do. Go back to that can of poison. Not today. I may be in pain. It's not physical pain, it's worse. It's a pain of grief, feeling lost, thinking I'm going in the right direction but standing in place.Â
I want to break through this pain, then again, maybe I don't.
Maybe I fear the greatness in me an don't want to climb too high because the higher you go, the greater the fall, or fail. Then again, maybe I want to keep climbing to see if there is a limit I can go. I bet the views up there are spectacular, then again, maybe I'm afraid of heights.
I don't fight a craving for nicotine. I really don't crave it. What I fight now is a need to feel comfort. Like the times I felt when I was alone to my thoughts with a dip in.Â
I think about dipping just to ease my pain, my loneliness. Then again, I think of the day that I looked at my new bought can of skoal and realized the control and power it had over me.Â
So I decide to that I would rather fight through this pain, or live with it. Even this is better than where I was on day 1. I am still undefeated with nicotine. Some wins were ugly but They were wins. Well hell, enough thinking, I'm going to the gym. I may be gay but I'm still quit. For today, winning that match is all I need to call it a good day.Â
I'm still kicking your ass nic bitch. Score is 267 - 0. I'm not the only undefeated dumbass here. In fact being undefeated actually exposes my intelligence. I once was blinded by your lies. Now I see and never want to lose my sight on living in reality again. Bring on the pain! Once I find joy, I'll have more value for it because I know pain. I still win if I stay quit.
Every single day is a win. I know I will never stop fighting and neither will you.
1640-0 with the help and motivation of quitters like you Mark. Thanks for all you do for me and others here.
QLAFM
It will get better.
I felt the same way about the same time. Ready is correct, it gets better. A big FU nic from Scodaddy!
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day 267
Many text today from quitters. With the exception of one. We all are finding that we aren't doing well. I've been in a place like this before. You know what I'm not going to do. Go back to that can of poison. Not today. I may be in pain. It's not physical pain, it's worse. It's a pain of grief, feeling lost, thinking I'm going in the right direction but standing in place.Â
I want to break through this pain, then again, maybe I don't.
Maybe I fear the greatness in me an don't want to climb too high because the higher you go, the greater the fall, or fail. Then again, maybe I want to keep climbing to see if there is a limit I can go. I bet the views up there are spectacular, then again, maybe I'm afraid of heights.
I don't fight a craving for nicotine. I really don't crave it. What I fight now is a need to feel comfort. Like the times I felt when I was alone to my thoughts with a dip in.Â
I think about dipping just to ease my pain, my loneliness. Then again, I think of the day that I looked at my new bought can of skoal and realized the control and power it had over me.Â
So I decide to that I would rather fight through this pain, or live with it. Even this is better than where I was on day 1. I am still undefeated with nicotine. Some wins were ugly but They were wins. Well hell, enough thinking, I'm going to the gym. I may be gay but I'm still quit. For today, winning that match is all I need to call it a good day.Â
I'm still kicking your ass nic bitch. Score is 267 - 0. I'm not the only undefeated dumbass here. In fact being undefeated actually exposes my intelligence. I once was blinded by your lies. Now I see and never want to lose my sight on living in reality again. Bring on the pain! Once I find joy, I'll have more value for it because I know pain. I still win if I stay quit.
Every single day is a win. I know I will never stop fighting and neither will you.
1640-0 with the help and motivation of quitters like you Mark. Thanks for all you do for me and others here.
QLAFM
It will get better.
I felt the same way about the same time. Ready is correct, it gets better. A big FU nic from Scodaddy!
Just stay quit !! I went through differnt stages of funk as my quit progressed and the one thing I held onto was the words 'it gets better".
I did not know how or why when I was told these things but I trusted those who had walked the path before me and you know what. It does get better !!
Fight to stay clean and never give back the freedom you fought so hard to gain.
STAY QUIT
Greg
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Day 274
Still quit and glad to be quit with all of you. However, I sometimes slump into feelings of being a 42 year old average man. Then I see something like this.........
Click here for the dork show. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P0rLOHlZGBo)
I'm feeling better and doing great! I'm not average, I'm a ass kicking quitter!
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295 days of quit-sanity.
Went and saw, "The Hobbit" on new years day. What kind a garbage is that?
First, JRR Tolken is mad. Second, the show was about dwarfs. Why didn't they call it, "The Drarfs" ?
To each their own and I know some of you dorks play dress up and go watch that shit while following along in your books....whatever.
Me, I fell asleep and paid for a nice nap.
I think I will stay ghey this year and keep on quitting. UST can still kiss my ass. Still undefeated with you. 295-0 I hate you for what you did to me and for your ability to seduce children into humping your cans.
What a crock of shit! Anyone quitting and fighting hard today. Remember why you wanted to quit and just don't surrender! Fight today! No caving, no excuses, just quit.
Plenty of bad asses here have blazed a quit trail and can prepare you for your fight. I love the fight now because a bastard like me learned how to win again and winning is fun!
Beating an addiction is not easy but it can and is done daily.
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Day 296
Little Nicky:
It has been 296 days since I broke up with you. I know now more than ever that our 21 year relationship was nothing special. At the time I thought that you and I were soul mates. Most people wouldnÂ’t understand our need for each other so I kept you a secret from most. I loved you, I adored you, and I thought I needed you.
When I realized that I gave so much to our special relationship, I began to think that I had outgrown you. You began to be immature, dangerous and not as special anymore. Yet I still loved you. I didnÂ’t know why. I would sneak around and want one on one time with you. I finally started asking, I give so much to make our relationship work, what do you do for us?
The more I thought about it, the more I realizedÂ…you contributed zero to me. Oh about those times I was stressed and I thought you calmed me down. It was a lie. You didnÂ’t calm me down; I took a time out with you. However, the stress was multiplied! Sneaking around with you, worried I might get caught or get exposed with mouth cancer. Why didnÂ’t I think that dip created more stress vs. relieved it?
Well, quitting you was not easy because triggers reminded me of things I liked to do. I like to be alone at times, I like to celebrate victories and chill with friends, I like long drives on the road. Newsflash: I still do those things without you and it is so much better.
So will we ever get back together? No we wonÂ’t. What is the point? Being away from you for almost a year has not made me grow fond of you. I actually have become more disgusted with you and for the life of me canÂ’t imagine why I adored you for so long.
Little Nicky, my life with you was a lie. Great lies are mixed with partial truths. My life overall has been good. ThatÂ’s true. The lie is that I thought you had something to do with the good in my life. You didnÂ’t. You created, stirred and encouraged a lot of problems for me.
I promise daily on roll or text and repeat. I know that a constant reminder that you are an evil, seductive and narcissistic whore keeps me from ever being hypnotized or feeling pity for you. You are a cruel murderer that makes her victims die a slow painful death. (Physically, Mentally and Spiritually) You have no feelings for the families that suffer and watch your kills. If anything you smile and know you will have a child take the place of your kill and you never tire of replacing your kills.
You are worthless to me today and forever. I said goodbye on March 14, 2012. Today I wish you would die. No love lost and no remorse for ending it. IT IS FINALLY OVER. Bitch!
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Day 296
Little Nicky:
It has been 296 days since I broke up with you. I know now more than ever that our 21 year relationship was nothing special. At the time I thought that you and I were soul mates. Most people wouldnÂ’t understand our need for each other so I kept you a secret from most. I loved you, I adored you, and I thought I needed you.
When I realized that I gave so much to our special relationship, I began to think that I had outgrown you. You began to be immature, dangerous and not as special anymore. Yet I still loved you. I didnÂ’t know why. I would sneak around and want one on one time with you. I finally started asking, I give so much to make our relationship work, what do you do for us?
The more I thought about it, the more I realizedÂ…you contributed zero to me. Oh about those times I was stressed and I thought you calmed me down. It was a lie. You didnÂ’t calm me down; I took a time out with you. However, the stress was multiplied! Sneaking around with you, worried I might get caught or get exposed with mouth cancer. Why didnÂ’t I think that dip created more stress vs. relieved it?
Well, quitting you was not easy because triggers reminded me of things I liked to do. I like to be alone at times, I like to celebrate victories and chill with friends, I like long drives on the road. Newsflash: I still do those things without you and it is so much better.
So will we ever get back together? No we wonÂ’t. What is the point? Being away from you for almost a year has not made me grow fond of you. I actually have become more disgusted with you and for the life of me canÂ’t imagine why I adored you for so long.
Little Nicky, my life with you was a lie. Great lies are mixed with partial truths. My life overall has been good. ThatÂ’s true. The lie is that I thought you had something to do with the good in my life. You didnÂ’t. You created, stirred and encouraged a lot of problems for me.
I promise daily on roll or text and repeat. I know that a constant reminder that you are an evil, seductive and narcissistic whore keeps me from ever being hypnotized or feeling pity for you. You are a cruel murderer that makes her victims die a slow painful death. (Physically, Mentally and Spiritually) You have no feelings for the families that suffer and watch your kills. If anything you smile and know you will have a child take the place of your kill and you never tire of replacing your kills.
You are worthless to me today and forever. I said goodbye on March 14, 2012. Today I wish you would die. No love lost and no remorse for ending it. IT IS FINALLY OVER. Bitch!
This was the kick in the ass I needed today. Thank you man.
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Day 296
Little Nicky:Â
It has been 296 days since I broke up with you. I know now more than ever that our 21 year relationship was nothing special. At the time I thought that you and I were soul mates. Most people wouldn’t understand our need for each other so I kept you a secret from most. I loved you, I adored you, and I thought I needed you.
When I realized that I gave so much to our special relationship, I began to think that I had outgrown you. You began to be immature, dangerous and not as special anymore. Yet I still loved you. I didn’t know why. I would sneak around and want one on one time with you. I finally started asking, I give so much to make our relationship work, what do you do for us?
The more I thought about it, the more I realized…you contributed zero to me. Oh about those times I was stressed and I thought you calmed me down. It was a lie. You didn’t calm me down; I took a time out with you. However, the stress was multiplied! Sneaking around with you, worried I might get caught or get exposed with mouth cancer. Why didn’t I think that dip created more stress vs. relieved it?
Well, quitting you was not easy because triggers reminded me of things I liked to do. I like to be alone at times, I like to celebrate victories and chill with friends, I like long drives on the road. Newsflash: I still do those things without you and it is so much better.
 Â
So will we ever get back together? No we wonÂ’t. What is the point? Being away from you for almost a year has not made me grow fond of you. I actually have become more disgusted with you and for the life of me canÂ’t imagine why I adored you for so long.Â
Little Nicky, my life with you was a lie. Great lies are mixed with partial truths. My life overall has been good. That’s true. The lie is that I thought you had something to do with the good in my life. You didn’t. You created, stirred and encouraged a lot of problems for me.
I promise daily on roll or text and repeat. I know that a constant reminder that you are an evil, seductive and narcissistic whore keeps me from ever being hypnotized or feeling pity for you. You are a cruel murderer that makes her victims die a slow painful death. (Physically, Mentally and Spiritually) You have no feelings for the families that suffer and watch your kills. If anything you smile and know you will have a child take the place of your kill and you never tire of replacing your kills.Â
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You are worthless to me today and forever. I said goodbye on March 14, 2012. Today I wish you would die. No love lost and no remorse for ending it. IT IS FINALLY OVER. Bitch!
This was the kick in the ass I needed today. Thank you man.
Man That was Good Thanks!!!!!!!
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Day 296
Little Nicky:Â
It has been 296 days since I broke up with you. I know now more than ever that our 21 year relationship was nothing special. At the time I thought that you and I were soul mates. Most people wouldn’t understand our need for each other so I kept you a secret from most. I loved you, I adored you, and I thought I needed you.
When I realized that I gave so much to our special relationship, I began to think that I had outgrown you. You began to be immature, dangerous and not as special anymore. Yet I still loved you. I didn’t know why. I would sneak around and want one on one time with you. I finally started asking, I give so much to make our relationship work, what do you do for us?
The more I thought about it, the more I realized…you contributed zero to me. Oh about those times I was stressed and I thought you calmed me down. It was a lie. You didn’t calm me down; I took a time out with you. However, the stress was multiplied! Sneaking around with you, worried I might get caught or get exposed with mouth cancer. Why didn’t I think that dip created more stress vs. relieved it?
Well, quitting you was not easy because triggers reminded me of things I liked to do. I like to be alone at times, I like to celebrate victories and chill with friends, I like long drives on the road. Newsflash: I still do those things without you and it is so much better.
  Â
So will we ever get back together? No we wonÂ’t. What is the point? Being away from you for almost a year has not made me grow fond of you. I actually have become more disgusted with you and for the life of me canÂ’t imagine why I adored you for so long.Â
Little Nicky, my life with you was a lie. Great lies are mixed with partial truths. My life overall has been good. That’s true. The lie is that I thought you had something to do with the good in my life. You didn’t. You created, stirred and encouraged a lot of problems for me.
I promise daily on roll or text and repeat. I know that a constant reminder that you are an evil, seductive and narcissistic whore keeps me from ever being hypnotized or feeling pity for you. You are a cruel murderer that makes her victims die a slow painful death. (Physically, Mentally and Spiritually) You have no feelings for the families that suffer and watch your kills. If anything you smile and know you will have a child take the place of your kill and you never tire of replacing your kills. Â
Â
You are worthless to me today and forever. I said goodbye on March 14, 2012. Today I wish you would die. No love lost and no remorse for ending it. IT IS FINALLY OVER. Bitch!
This was the kick in the ass I needed today. Thank you man.
Man That was Good Thanks!!!!!!!
It feels good to kick her in the teeth every day... Good post, brother!
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Day 296
Little Nicky:Â
It has been 296 days since I broke up with you. I know now more than ever that our 21 year relationship was nothing special. At the time I thought that you and I were soul mates. Most people wouldn’t understand our need for each other so I kept you a secret from most. I loved you, I adored you, and I thought I needed you.
When I realized that I gave so much to our special relationship, I began to think that I had outgrown you. You began to be immature, dangerous and not as special anymore. Yet I still loved you. I didn’t know why. I would sneak around and want one on one time with you. I finally started asking, I give so much to make our relationship work, what do you do for us?
The more I thought about it, the more I realized…you contributed zero to me. Oh about those times I was stressed and I thought you calmed me down. It was a lie. You didn’t calm me down; I took a time out with you. However, the stress was multiplied! Sneaking around with you, worried I might get caught or get exposed with mouth cancer. Why didn’t I think that dip created more stress vs. relieved it?
Well, quitting you was not easy because triggers reminded me of things I liked to do. I like to be alone at times, I like to celebrate victories and chill with friends, I like long drives on the road. Newsflash: I still do those things without you and it is so much better.
  Â
So will we ever get back together? No we wonÂ’t. What is the point? Being away from you for almost a year has not made me grow fond of you. I actually have become more disgusted with you and for the life of me canÂ’t imagine why I adored you for so long.Â
Little Nicky, my life with you was a lie. Great lies are mixed with partial truths. My life overall has been good. That’s true. The lie is that I thought you had something to do with the good in my life. You didn’t. You created, stirred and encouraged a lot of problems for me.
I promise daily on roll or text and repeat. I know that a constant reminder that you are an evil, seductive and narcissistic whore keeps me from ever being hypnotized or feeling pity for you. You are a cruel murderer that makes her victims die a slow painful death. (Physically, Mentally and Spiritually) You have no feelings for the families that suffer and watch your kills. If anything you smile and know you will have a child take the place of your kill and you never tire of replacing your kills. Â
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You are worthless to me today and forever. I said goodbye on March 14, 2012. Today I wish you would die. No love lost and no remorse for ending it. IT IS FINALLY OVER. Bitch!
This was the kick in the ass I needed today. Thank you man.
Man That was Good Thanks!!!!!!!
It feels good to kick her in the teeth every day... Good post, brother!
Fuck her!
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Day 300!
I love my freedom gentlemen and ladies.
There is a new group for 2012 HOFamers. If you made it to the Hall in 2012. Please come post with us!
This is a roll that will help me keep my word because those that are there are still posting daily and I owe it to them to keep my word.
Love to see 2012 HOF posts. It is like moving from High School to College. Put on the red sports coat and come post and join the upperclassmen. You are no longer a rookie.
Move your tassel and take your quit to the next level and roll!
See what company you stand with. Great group of winners......
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Day 300!
I love my freedom gentlemen and ladies.
There is a new group for 2012 HOFamers. If you made it to the Hall in 2012. Please come post with us!
This is a roll that will help me keep my word because those that are there are still posting daily and I owe it to them to keep my word.
Love to see 2012 HOF posts. It is like moving from High School to College. Put on the red sports coat and come post and join the upperclassmen. You are no longer a rookie.
Move your tassel and take your quit to the next level and roll!
See what company you stand with. Great group of winners......
'worship'
Very proud of you man. Very proud.
Now keep it up.
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Day 300!
I love my freedom gentlemen and ladies.Â
There is a new group for 2012 HOFamers. If you made it to the Hall in 2012. Please come post with us!
This is a roll that will help me keep my word because those that are there are still posting daily and I owe it to them to keep my word.Â
Love to see 2012 HOF posts. It is like moving from High School to College. Put on the red sports coat and come post and join the upperclassmen. You are no longer a rookie.Â
Move your tassel and take your quit to the next level and roll!
See what company you stand with. Great group of winners......
'worship'
Very proud of you man. Very proud.
Now keep it up.
Congrats on the 300 MT! Very proud of you and the fact that this site has led me to find a person I can hang my hat on in a pinch.
High character yields high results!
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Day 300!
I love my freedom gentlemen and ladies.
There is a new group for 2012 HOFamers. If you made it to the Hall in 2012. Please come post with us!
This is a roll that will help me keep my word because those that are there are still posting daily and I owe it to them to keep my word.
Love to see 2012 HOF posts. It is like moving from High School to College. Put on the red sports coat and come post and join the upperclassmen. You are no longer a rookie.
Move your tassel and take your quit to the next level and roll!
See what company you stand with. Great group of winners......
300. Very nice. Congrats!!!
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Day 300!
I love my freedom gentlemen and ladies.Â
There is a new group for 2012 HOFamers. If you made it to the Hall in 2012. Please come post with us!
This is a roll that will help me keep my word because those that are there are still posting daily and I owe it to them to keep my word.Â
Love to see 2012 HOF posts. It is like moving from High School to College. Put on the red sports coat and come post and join the upperclassmen. You are no longer a rookie.Â
Move your tassel and take your quit to the next level and roll!
See what company you stand with. Great group of winners......
300. Very nice. Congrats!!!
HOF x3 ... Nicely Done!
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Day 300!
I love my freedom gentlemen and ladies.Â
There is a new group for 2012 HOFamers. If you made it to the Hall in 2012. Please come post with us!
This is a roll that will help me keep my word because those that are there are still posting daily and I owe it to them to keep my word.Â
Love to see 2012 HOF posts. It is like moving from High School to College. Put on the red sports coat and come post and join the upperclassmen. You are no longer a rookie.Â
Move your tassel and take your quit to the next level and roll!
See what company you stand with. Great group of winners......
300. Very nice. Congrats!!!
HOF x3 ... Nicely Done!
Nice 300 MT! Proud to be quit with you today.
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Day 300!
I love my freedom gentlemen and ladies.Â
There is a new group for 2012 HOFamers. If you made it to the Hall in 2012. Please come post with us!
This is a roll that will help me keep my word because those that are there are still posting daily and I owe it to them to keep my word.Â
Love to see 2012 HOF posts. It is like moving from High School to College. Put on the red sports coat and come post and join the upperclassmen. You are no longer a rookie.Â
Move your tassel and take your quit to the next level and roll!
See what company you stand with. Great group of winners......
300. Very nice. Congrats!!!
HOF x3 ... Nicely Done!
Nice 300 MT! Proud to be quit with you today.
congrats mthomas! makes my day seeing you all positive n shit!!! quit
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Day 300!
I love my freedom gentlemen and ladies.Â
There is a new group for 2012 HOFamers. If you made it to the Hall in 2012. Please come post with us!
This is a roll that will help me keep my word because those that are there are still posting daily and I owe it to them to keep my word.Â
Love to see 2012 HOF posts. It is like moving from High School to College. Put on the red sports coat and come post and join the upperclassmen. You are no longer a rookie.Â
Move your tassel and take your quit to the next level and roll!
See what company you stand with. Great group of winners......
300. Very nice. Congrats!!!
HOF x3 ... Nicely Done!
Nice 300 MT! Proud to be quit with you today.
congrats mthomas! makes my day seeing you all positive n shit!!! quit
300-0! Nice work!
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Day 300!
I love my freedom gentlemen and ladies.Â
There is a new group for 2012 HOFamers. If you made it to the Hall in 2012. Please come post with us!
This is a roll that will help me keep my word because those that are there are still posting daily and I owe it to them to keep my word.Â
Love to see 2012 HOF posts. It is like moving from High School to College. Put on the red sports coat and come post and join the upperclassmen. You are no longer a rookie.Â
Move your tassel and take your quit to the next level and roll!
See what company you stand with. Great group of winners......
300. Very nice. Congrats!!!
HOF x3 ... Nicely Done!
Nice 300 MT! Proud to be quit with you today.
congrats mthomas! makes my day seeing you all positive n shit!!! quit
300-0! Nice work!
Congrats!
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Day 300!
I love my freedom gentlemen and ladies.Â
There is a new group for 2012 HOFamers. If you made it to the Hall in 2012. Please come post with us!
This is a roll that will help me keep my word because those that are there are still posting daily and I owe it to them to keep my word.Â
Love to see 2012 HOF posts. It is like moving from High School to College. Put on the red sports coat and come post and join the upperclassmen. You are no longer a rookie.Â
Move your tassel and take your quit to the next level and roll!
See what company you stand with. Great group of winners......
300. Very nice. Congrats!!!
HOF x3 ... Nicely Done!
Nice 300 MT! Proud to be quit with you today.
congrats mthomas! makes my day seeing you all positive n shit!!! quit
300-0! Nice work!
Congrats!
Nice work powering thru the funk bro. 300 is an awesome milestone. Enjoy it...you paid for it. As did a few others :D
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Day 300!
I love my freedom gentlemen and ladies.Â
There is a new group for 2012 HOFamers. If you made it to the Hall in 2012. Please come post with us!
This is a roll that will help me keep my word because those that are there are still posting daily and I owe it to them to keep my word.Â
Love to see 2012 HOF posts. It is like moving from High School to College. Put on the red sports coat and come post and join the upperclassmen. You are no longer a rookie.Â
Move your tassel and take your quit to the next level and roll!
See what company you stand with. Great group of winners......
300. Very nice. Congrats!!!
HOF x3 ... Nicely Done!
Nice 300 MT! Proud to be quit with you today.
congrats mthomas! makes my day seeing you all positive n shit!!! quit
300-0! Nice work!
Congrats!
Nice work powering thru the funk bro. 300 is an awesome milestone. Enjoy it...you paid for it. As did a few others :D
I know, I know. 'Crazy' My quit = Lost then found then lost then found. I realize it is all just phases.
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Day 300!
I love my freedom gentlemen and ladies.Â
There is a new group for 2012 HOFamers. If you made it to the Hall in 2012. Please come post with us!
This is a roll that will help me keep my word because those that are there are still posting daily and I owe it to them to keep my word.Â
Love to see 2012 HOF posts. It is like moving from High School to College. Put on the red sports coat and come post and join the upperclassmen. You are no longer a rookie.Â
Move your tassel and take your quit to the next level and roll!
See what company you stand with. Great group of winners......
300. Very nice. Congrats!!!
HOF x3 ... Nicely Done!
Nice 300 MT! Proud to be quit with you today.
congrats mthomas! makes my day seeing you all positive n shit!!! quit
300-0! Nice work!
Congrats!
Nice work powering thru the funk bro. 300 is an awesome milestone. Enjoy it...you paid for it. As did a few others :D
I know, I know. 'Crazy' My quit = Lost then found then lost then found. I realize it is all just phases.
TIFFS6.75
You are in good company friend. Fortunately there are only a few people around here that like to hold grudges.
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Day 300!
I love my freedom gentlemen and ladies.Â
There is a new group for 2012 HOFamers. If you made it to the Hall in 2012. Please come post with us!
This is a roll that will help me keep my word because those that are there are still posting daily and I owe it to them to keep my word.Â
Love to see 2012 HOF posts. It is like moving from High School to College. Put on the red sports coat and come post and join the upperclassmen. You are no longer a rookie.Â
Move your tassel and take your quit to the next level and roll!
See what company you stand with. Great group of winners......
300. Very nice. Congrats!!!
HOF x3 ... Nicely Done!
Nice 300 MT! Proud to be quit with you today.
congrats mthomas! makes my day seeing you all positive n shit!!! quit
300-0! Nice work!
Congrats!
Nice work powering thru the funk bro. 300 is an awesome milestone. Enjoy it...you paid for it. As did a few others :D
I know, I know. 'Crazy' My quit = Lost then found then lost then found. I realize it is all just phases.
TIFFS6.75
You are in good company friend. Fortunately there are only a few people around here that like to hold grudges.
I hope no one holds a grudge against me. I have earned a few but I like to let go of past events and move on. If I want it I should give it. Wars pass and one time friends can become friends again...at last.
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I hope no one holds a grudge against me. I have earned a few but I like to let go of past events and move on. If I want it I should give it. Wars pass and one time friends can become friends again...at last.
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I hope no one holds a grudge against me. I have earned a few but I like to let go of past events and move on. If I want it I should give it. Wars pass and one time friends can become friends again...at last.
None from over here bro. We all pitch a bitch from time to time. It's part of the point of the place. Yous all like family...and just like family, too much of you makes LOOT a little pissy sometimes too. It's all good.
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Congrats.....!!!!
I really enjoy reading your posts.
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Day 307
Skoal Monster said it and I want to adopt it. "You quit, so go live your life."
I get it, we are addicts. Our cross to bare will be that even though we know the nic bitch is evil, she can be very subtle and get us thinking about how much we miss and could use her in our lives.
This just reminds me of the film, "a beautiful mind". The professor is a genius with one flaw that could ultimately destroy him. What is real to him doesn't exist in reality.
Nicotine is just that for us. Its a lie and a flaw that is pointless.
If you get to a point where you glamorize, miss or crave one can hump, call or text a brother. Don't fight alone. If you don't have anyone to call, text, etc. Get into chat and you will have help. Ultimately get numbers of people you think could help you and give your number to people you can help!!!!
I am growing impatient of too many people entertaining and missing nicotine. When the lie comes, and it comes to me too...get mad! Remind yourself that you quit and she is nothing but a cold blooded killer. A terrorist that destroys lives, relationships and growth. When a tobacco humper gets its fix it is because they aren't in the frame mind of success. They are in the frame of escape. News flash, you can't escape your reality. Nicotine damns progress in your life.
Be a winner and stay quit. Use the tools you are taught not to cave. Tobacco sickens me now. Everyone of us came here to quit because we had a moment of truth and fact that this bitch needed to be terminated from our lives.
If you sympathize with your enemy, you will lose. You must always know that nicotine and Us Tobacco is your enemy! If you find yourself in the same room with her....Go for the kill or run so you don't die!
Finally never compare UST and Mcdonalds as on the same page and excuse the behavior of both.
The topic is US Tobacco, they lie and market to children. They give their product out for free because they know it is highly addictive. Get a kid hooked and he will use for 21 years! (MY Expreience)
Its okay to hate a weed and industry that knowingly kills and markets a substance that is illegal to underage kids.
If you don't have a number to call for support. PM me. I love to fight the nic bitch. I'll battle with anyone to dismiss her from your mind. It becomes fun to kick her ass. 307 to ZERO. See you tomorrow nic bitch. Today I am loving my quit.
Fuck Those Guys and any who sympathizes with them!!!!
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Day 307
Skoal Monster said it and I want to adopt it. "You quit, so go live your life."
I get it, we are addicts. Our cross to bare will be that even though we know the nic bitch is evil, she can be very subtle and get us thinking about how much we miss and could use her in our lives.
This just reminds me of the film, "a beautiful mind". The professor is a genius with one flaw that could ultimately destroy him. What is real to him doesn't exist in reality.
Nicotine is just that for us. Its a lie and a flaw that is pointless.
If you get to a point where you glamorize, miss or crave one can hump, call or text a brother. Don't fight alone. If you don't have anyone to call, text, etc. Get into chat and you will have help. Ultimately get numbers of people you think could help you and give your number to people you can help!!!!
I am growing impatient of too many people entertaining and missing nicotine. When the lie comes, and it comes to me too...get mad! Remind yourself that you quit and she is nothing but a cold blooded killer. A terrorist that destroys lives, relationships and growth. When a tobacco humper gets its fix it is because they aren't in the frame mind of success. They are in the frame of escape. News flash, you can't escape your reality. Nicotine damns progress in your life.
Be a winner and stay quit. Use the tools you are taught not to cave. Tobacco sickens me now. Everyone of us came here to quit because we had a moment of truth and fact that this bitch needed to be terminated from our lives.
If you sympathize with your enemy, you will lose. You must always know that nicotine and Us Tobacco is your enemy! If you find yourself in the same room with her....Go for the kill or run so you don't die!
Finally never compare UST and Mcdonalds as on the same page and excuse the behavior of both.
The topic is US Tobacco, they lie and market to children. They give their product out for free because they know it is highly addictive. Get a kid hooked and he will use for 21 years! (MY Expreience)
Its okay to hate a weed and industry that knowingly kills and markets a substance that is illegal to underage kids.
If you don't have a number to call for support. PM me. I love to fight the nic bitch. I'll battle with anyone to dismiss her from your mind. It becomes fun to kick her ass. 307 to ZERO. See you tomorrow nic bitch. Today I am loving my quit.
Fuck Those Guys and any who sympathizes with them!!!!
'clap' 'clap' Right on brother Thomas!
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Day 307
Skoal Monster said it and I want to adopt it. "You quit, so go live your life."
I get it, we are addicts. Our cross to bare will be that even though we know the nic bitch is evil, she can be very subtle and get us thinking about how much we miss and could use her in our lives.
This just reminds me of the film, "a beautiful mind". The professor is a genius with one flaw that could ultimately destroy him. What is real to him doesn't exist in reality.
Nicotine is just that for us. Its a lie and a flaw that is pointless. Â
If you get to a point where you glamorize, miss or crave one can hump, call or text a brother. Don't fight alone. If you don't have anyone to call, text, etc. Get into chat and you will have help. Ultimately get numbers of people you think could help you and give your number to people you can help!!!!Â
I am growing impatient of too many people entertaining and missing nicotine. When the lie comes, and it comes to me too...get mad! Remind yourself that you quit and she is nothing but a cold blooded killer. A terrorist that destroys lives, relationships and growth. When a tobacco humper gets its fix it is because they aren't in the frame mind of success. They are in the frame of escape. News flash, you can't escape your reality. Nicotine damns progress in your life.Â
Be a winner and stay quit. Use the tools you are taught not to cave. Tobacco sickens me now. Everyone of us came here to quit because we had a moment of truth and fact that this bitch needed to be terminated from our lives.Â
If you sympathize with your enemy, you will lose. You must always know that nicotine and Us Tobacco is your enemy! If you find yourself in the same room with her....Go for the kill or run so you don't die!Â
Finally never compare UST and Mcdonalds as on the same page and excuse the behavior of both.Â
The topic is US Tobacco, they lie and market to children. They give their product out for free because they know it is highly addictive. Get a kid hooked and he will use for 21 years! (MY Expreience)Â
Its okay to hate a weed and industry that knowingly kills and markets a substance that is illegal to underage kids.Â
If you don't have a number to call for support. PM me. I love to fight the nic bitch. I'll battle with anyone to dismiss her from your mind. It becomes fun to kick her ass. 307 to ZERO. See you tomorrow nic bitch. Today I am loving my quit.Â
   Fuck Those Guys and any who sympathizes with them!!!!
'clap' 'clap' Right on brother Thomas!
Just hit me right in the sack at the right time. No need for complacency when your life is at stake. Thanks MT!
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Day 307
Skoal Monster said it and I want to adopt it. "You quit, so go live your life."
I get it, we are addicts. Our cross to bare will be that even though we know the nic bitch is evil, she can be very subtle and get us thinking about how much we miss and could use her in our lives.
This just reminds me of the film, "a beautiful mind". The professor is a genius with one flaw that could ultimately destroy him. What is real to him doesn't exist in reality.
Nicotine is just that for us. Its a lie and a flaw that is pointless. Â
If you get to a point where you glamorize, miss or crave one can hump, call or text a brother. Don't fight alone. If you don't have anyone to call, text, etc. Get into chat and you will have help. Ultimately get numbers of people you think could help you and give your number to people you can help!!!!Â
I am growing impatient of too many people entertaining and missing nicotine. When the lie comes, and it comes to me too...get mad! Remind yourself that you quit and she is nothing but a cold blooded killer. A terrorist that destroys lives, relationships and growth. When a tobacco humper gets its fix it is because they aren't in the frame mind of success. They are in the frame of escape. News flash, you can't escape your reality. Nicotine damns progress in your life.Â
Be a winner and stay quit. Use the tools you are taught not to cave. Tobacco sickens me now. Everyone of us came here to quit because we had a moment of truth and fact that this bitch needed to be terminated from our lives.Â
If you sympathize with your enemy, you will lose. You must always know that nicotine and Us Tobacco is your enemy! If you find yourself in the same room with her....Go for the kill or run so you don't die!Â
Finally never compare UST and Mcdonalds as on the same page and excuse the behavior of both.Â
The topic is US Tobacco, they lie and market to children. They give their product out for free because they know it is highly addictive. Get a kid hooked and he will use for 21 years! (MY Expreience)Â
Its okay to hate a weed and industry that knowingly kills and markets a substance that is illegal to underage kids.Â
If you don't have a number to call for support. PM me. I love to fight the nic bitch. I'll battle with anyone to dismiss her from your mind. It becomes fun to kick her ass. 307 to ZERO. See you tomorrow nic bitch. Today I am loving my quit.Â
   Fuck Those Guys and any who sympathizes with them!!!!
'clap' 'clap' Right on brother Thomas!
Just hit me right in the sack at the right time. No need for complacency when your life is at stake. Thanks MT!
quit with you all day long brother!!
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Day 307
Skoal Monster said it and I want to adopt it. "You quit, so go live your life."
I get it, we are addicts. Our cross to bare will be that even though we know the nic bitch is evil, she can be very subtle and get us thinking about how much we miss and could use her in our lives.
This just reminds me of the film, "a beautiful mind". The professor is a genius with one flaw that could ultimately destroy him. What is real to him doesn't exist in reality.
Nicotine is just that for us. Its a lie and a flaw that is pointless. Â
If you get to a point where you glamorize, miss or crave one can hump, call or text a brother. Don't fight alone. If you don't have anyone to call, text, etc. Get into chat and you will have help. Ultimately get numbers of people you think could help you and give your number to people you can help!!!!Â
I am growing impatient of too many people entertaining and missing nicotine. When the lie comes, and it comes to me too...get mad! Remind yourself that you quit and she is nothing but a cold blooded killer. A terrorist that destroys lives, relationships and growth. When a tobacco humper gets its fix it is because they aren't in the frame mind of success. They are in the frame of escape. News flash, you can't escape your reality. Nicotine damns progress in your life.Â
Be a winner and stay quit. Use the tools you are taught not to cave. Tobacco sickens me now. Everyone of us came here to quit because we had a moment of truth and fact that this bitch needed to be terminated from our lives.Â
If you sympathize with your enemy, you will lose. You must always know that nicotine and Us Tobacco is your enemy! If you find yourself in the same room with her....Go for the kill or run so you don't die!Â
Finally never compare UST and Mcdonalds as on the same page and excuse the behavior of both.Â
The topic is US Tobacco, they lie and market to children. They give their product out for free because they know it is highly addictive. Get a kid hooked and he will use for 21 years! (MY Expreience)Â
Its okay to hate a weed and industry that knowingly kills and markets a substance that is illegal to underage kids.Â
If you don't have a number to call for support. PM me. I love to fight the nic bitch. I'll battle with anyone to dismiss her from your mind. It becomes fun to kick her ass. 307 to ZERO. See you tomorrow nic bitch. Today I am loving my quit.Â
   Fuck Those Guys and any who sympathizes with them!!!!
'clap' 'clap' Right on brother Thomas!
Just hit me right in the sack at the right time. No need for complacency when your life is at stake. Thanks MT!
quit with you all day long brother!!
MT, you are a wise man that I have learned so much from. This post is no different. As I read my mind wondered and asked why we would ever have any thoughts of nicotine (other than total hatred)?
What came to my mind was: Stockholm syndrome People suffering from Stockholm syndrome come to identify with and even care for their captors in a desperate, usually unconscious act of self-preservation. It occurs in the most psychologically traumatic situations, often hostage situations or kidnappings, and its effects usually do not end when the crisis ends. In the most classic cases, victims continue to defend and care about their captors even after they escape captivity. Symptoms of Stockholm syndrome have also been identified in the slave/master relationship.
Does any of that sound familiar? I agree fuck the captor!
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Day 307
Skoal Monster said it and I want to adopt it. "You quit, so go live your life."
I get it, we are addicts. Our cross to bare will be that even though we know the nic bitch is evil, she can be very subtle and get us thinking about how much we miss and could use her in our lives.
This just reminds me of the film, "a beautiful mind". The professor is a genius with one flaw that could ultimately destroy him. What is real to him doesn't exist in reality.
Nicotine is just that for us. Its a lie and a flaw that is pointless. Â
If you get to a point where you glamorize, miss or crave one can hump, call or text a brother. Don't fight alone. If you don't have anyone to call, text, etc. Get into chat and you will have help. Ultimately get numbers of people you think could help you and give your number to people you can help!!!!Â
I am growing impatient of too many people entertaining and missing nicotine. When the lie comes, and it comes to me too...get mad! Remind yourself that you quit and she is nothing but a cold blooded killer. A terrorist that destroys lives, relationships and growth. When a tobacco humper gets its fix it is because they aren't in the frame mind of success. They are in the frame of escape. News flash, you can't escape your reality. Nicotine damns progress in your life.Â
Be a winner and stay quit. Use the tools you are taught not to cave. Tobacco sickens me now. Everyone of us came here to quit because we had a moment of truth and fact that this bitch needed to be terminated from our lives.Â
If you sympathize with your enemy, you will lose. You must always know that nicotine and Us Tobacco is your enemy! If you find yourself in the same room with her....Go for the kill or run so you don't die!Â
Finally never compare UST and Mcdonalds as on the same page and excuse the behavior of both.Â
The topic is US Tobacco, they lie and market to children. They give their product out for free because they know it is highly addictive. Get a kid hooked and he will use for 21 years! (MY Expreience)Â
Its okay to hate a weed and industry that knowingly kills and markets a substance that is illegal to underage kids.Â
If you don't have a number to call for support. PM me. I love to fight the nic bitch. I'll battle with anyone to dismiss her from your mind. It becomes fun to kick her ass. 307 to ZERO. See you tomorrow nic bitch. Today I am loving my quit.Â
   Fuck Those Guys and any who sympathizes with them!!!!
'clap' 'clap' Right on brother Thomas!
Just hit me right in the sack at the right time. No need for complacency when your life is at stake. Thanks MT!
quit with you all day long brother!!
MT, you are a wise man that I have learned so much from. This post is no different. As I read my mind wondered and asked why we would ever have any thoughts of nicotine (other than total hatred)?
What came to my mind was: Stockholm syndrome People suffering from Stockholm syndrome come to identify with and even care for their captors in a desperate, usually unconscious act of self-preservation. It occurs in the most psychologically traumatic situations, often hostage situations or kidnappings, and its effects usually do not end when the crisis ends. In the most classic cases, victims continue to defend and care about their captors even after they escape captivity. Symptoms of Stockholm syndrome have also been identified in the slave/master relationship.
Does any of that sound familiar? I agree fuck the captor!
Great Stuff!!!! Let's keep FIGHTING!!
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Day 307
Skoal Monster said it and I want to adopt it. "You quit, so go live your life."
I get it, we are addicts. Our cross to bare will be that even though we know the nic bitch is evil, she can be very subtle and get us thinking about how much we miss and could use her in our lives.
This just reminds me of the film, "a beautiful mind". The professor is a genius with one flaw that could ultimately destroy him. What is real to him doesn't exist in reality.
Nicotine is just that for us. Its a lie and a flaw that is pointless. Â
If you get to a point where you glamorize, miss or crave one can hump, call or text a brother. Don't fight alone. If you don't have anyone to call, text, etc. Get into chat and you will have help. Ultimately get numbers of people you think could help you and give your number to people you can help!!!!Â
I am growing impatient of too many people entertaining and missing nicotine. When the lie comes, and it comes to me too...get mad! Remind yourself that you quit and she is nothing but a cold blooded killer. A terrorist that destroys lives, relationships and growth. When a tobacco humper gets its fix it is because they aren't in the frame mind of success. They are in the frame of escape. News flash, you can't escape your reality. Nicotine damns progress in your life.Â
Be a winner and stay quit. Use the tools you are taught not to cave. Tobacco sickens me now. Everyone of us came here to quit because we had a moment of truth and fact that this bitch needed to be terminated from our lives.Â
If you sympathize with your enemy, you will lose. You must always know that nicotine and Us Tobacco is your enemy! If you find yourself in the same room with her....Go for the kill or run so you don't die!Â
Finally never compare UST and Mcdonalds as on the same page and excuse the behavior of both.Â
The topic is US Tobacco, they lie and market to children. They give their product out for free because they know it is highly addictive. Get a kid hooked and he will use for 21 years! (MY Expreience)Â
Its okay to hate a weed and industry that knowingly kills and markets a substance that is illegal to underage kids.Â
If you don't have a number to call for support. PM me. I love to fight the nic bitch. I'll battle with anyone to dismiss her from your mind. It becomes fun to kick her ass. 307 to ZERO. See you tomorrow nic bitch. Today I am loving my quit.Â
   Fuck Those Guys and any who sympathizes with them!!!!
'clap' 'clap' Right on brother Thomas!
Just hit me right in the sack at the right time. No need for complacency when your life is at stake. Thanks MT!
quit with you all day long brother!!
MT, you are a wise man that I have learned so much from. This post is no different. As I read my mind wondered and asked why we would ever have any thoughts of nicotine (other than total hatred)?
What came to my mind was: Stockholm syndrome People suffering from Stockholm syndrome come to identify with and even care for their captors in a desperate, usually unconscious act of self-preservation. It occurs in the most psychologically traumatic situations, often hostage situations or kidnappings, and its effects usually do not end when the crisis ends. In the most classic cases, victims continue to defend and care about their captors even after they escape captivity. Symptoms of Stockholm syndrome have also been identified in the slave/master relationship.
Does any of that sound familiar? I agree fuck the captor!
Great Stuff!!!! Let's keep FIGHTING!!
I quit with all of you and nic can kiss my 'arse'
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Day 317
Topic on my mind today...Anxiety: A lot of worry and concern about anxiety but shouldn't we have a dose of stress and anxiety? To grow, improve and develop, shouldn't we expect some pain and discomfort.
Strength training - find me one personal trainer that never gets exhausted or sore from workouts and that trainers strength will remain the same or decline.
Your body needs potassium to function but too much and it will poison and stop your heart.
Point: Expect to have anxiety. Just means you are out of your comfort level. When you aren't comfortable your body works to adapt and manage the discomfort...which increases your strength! As your strength increases, your quit gets easier. I don't think the cravings are less, I think you become stronger than the crave (Thoughts on that concept?)
If you feel stressed and a little anxious...you are growing stronger! Embrace it.
If you don't have some stress and anxiety, think about pushing yourself a little more.
Quitting nicotine is monumental! For people that have 1,2 or 3+ decades. Why wouldn't this cause anxiety, stress, loneliness etc. I was 36 when my dad died. Self sufficient and never needed money since I was 21. Yet when he died, I felt like I was on my own and didn't have anything to fall back on if I failed. Today, I don't sweat that because it was a made up stress and worry but I went through it. Embracing that worry got me to work to get to a point of confidence that I can solve my own problems. Loved my dad but I was already on my two feet when he passed. I grew and gained strength from that anxiety and stress.
Nicotine is dead to us now. Expect to be stressed and anxious wondering how to cope without somewhere to turn. It is like being new at something. Sure stress and anxiety will be your guide but Skoal Monster said it, "You quit, now go live your life" In other words, "You're free and go learn how to live free." Your first day on the Job, I bet was stressful and you were anxious.
KTC is a great place to mange your stress and anxiety. It is a training facility to quit first, then grow in strength, then learn to live free. I love the DoJo because many are in the phase of learning to live free and sharing there.
You have support, you are not alone and you can get stronger and manage the anxiety and stress. Stay the course, caving because you are stressed or anxious is just like walking back to your jail cell, opening the cell and letting your captor rape you of your freedom. That sounds a lot more stressful, laced with less worth and adding more sorrow to me.
I am stressed and anxious but I am free. I'll take it!
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That is some good shit mthomas. You are a philosopher man. I dig your metaphors. Proud to be quit with you. I refuse to walk back to my prison cell.
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Day 330 - If quitting was easy, we would call it, "Your Mom"
"Faith without works is dead."
What does my belief in a higher power have to do with my ability to quit?
God didn't remove any suck, pain, guilt or sorrow from me. I am still an addict. A prayer to take this addiction away was not my answer.
However, I have faith that I am quit. My faith is so strong that I am quit, I work every day to protect it. Day after day, my work builds my faith and it grows to a point where I am sure one day, I will know I am quit.
God, lead me to the wise on addictions. People I never met and have been fortunate to meet have been the ministers and angels to help me on the journey.
Yeah I am giving you here on KTC props.
My prayers where answered. God did not remove my addiction. I learned that I am just vulnerable to addictions and that is what makes me imperfect. However, God did not abandon me. He just allowed me to work through this so that I would understand and value my journey.
I have greater faith in my quit today because I have hurt and worked my ass off. I am grateful that God didn't remove my addiction. I am grateful that he showed me the way to overcome my vulnerability to addiction.
I wanted a free ride but looking back, working for my freedom from nicotine gives me a deeper understanding and appreciation for others who are quitting today. Yeah its hard, but it is so worth the Journey.
I am quit today and my faith that I am quit for life is easier to comprehend on 330 than it was on 28. Holy crap, it does get easier.
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Day 330 - If quitting was easy, we would call it, "Your Mom"
"Faith without works is dead."
What does my belief in a higher power have to do with my ability to quit?
God didn't remove any suck, pain, guilt or sorrow from me. I am still an addict. A prayer to take this addiction away was not my answer.
However, I have faith that I am quit. My faith is so strong that I am quit, I work every day to protect it. Day after day, my work builds my faith and it grows to a point where I am sure one day, I will know I am quit.
God, lead me to the wise on addictions. People I never met and have been fortunate to meet have been the ministers and angels to help me on the journey.
Yeah I am giving you here on KTC props.
My prayers where answered. God did not remove my addiction. I learned that I am just vulnerable to addictions and that is what makes me imperfect. However, God did not abandon me. He just allowed me to work through this so that I would understand and value my journey.
I have greater faith in my quit today because I have hurt and worked my ass off. I am grateful that God didn't remove my addiction. I am grateful that he showed me the way to overcome my vulnerability to addiction.
I wanted a free ride but looking back, working for my freedom from nicotine gives me a deeper understanding and appreciation for others who are quitting today. Yeah its hard, but it is so worth the Journey.
I am quit today and my faith that I am quit for life is easier to comprehend on 330 than it was on 28. Holy crap, it does get easier.
Great post (and love the first line).
I will disagree with one thing though:
Holy crap, it does get easier.
It didn't get easier. You got stronger.
I'm fucking proud of you man.
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Day 330 - If quitting was easy, we would call it, "Your Mom"
"Faith without works is dead."
What does my belief in a higher power have to do with my ability to quit?Â
God didn't remove any suck, pain, guilt or sorrow from me. I am still an addict. A prayer to take this addiction away was not my answer.Â
However, I have faith that I am quit. My faith is so strong that I am quit, I work every day to protect it. Day after day, my work builds my faith and it grows to a point where I am sure one day, I will know I am quit.Â
God, lead me to the wise on addictions. People I never met and have been fortunate to meet have been the ministers and angels to help me on the journey.Â
Yeah I am giving you here on KTC props.Â
My prayers where answered. God did not remove my addiction. I learned that I am just vulnerable to addictions and that is what makes me imperfect. However, God did not abandon me. He just allowed me to work through this so that I would understand and value my journey.Â
I have greater faith in my quit today because I have hurt and worked my ass off. I am grateful that God didn't remove my addiction. I am grateful that he showed me the way to overcome my vulnerability to addiction.Â
I wanted a free ride but looking back, working for my freedom from nicotine gives me a deeper understanding and appreciation for others who are quitting today. Yeah its hard, but it is so worth the Journey.Â
I am quit today and my faith that I am quit for life is easier to comprehend on 330 than it was on 28. Holy crap, it does get easier.
Great post (and love the first line).
I will disagree with one thing though:
Holy crap, it does get easier.
It didn't get easier. You got stronger.
I'm fucking proud of you man.
I am too Mthomas!!!!! You words ring so true!
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Day 330 - If quitting was easy, we would call it, "Your Mom"
"Faith without works is dead."
What does my belief in a higher power have to do with my ability to quit?Â
God didn't remove any suck, pain, guilt or sorrow from me. I am still an addict. A prayer to take this addiction away was not my answer.Â
However, I have faith that I am quit. My faith is so strong that I am quit, I work every day to protect it. Day after day, my work builds my faith and it grows to a point where I am sure one day, I will know I am quit.Â
God, lead me to the wise on addictions. People I never met and have been fortunate to meet have been the ministers and angels to help me on the journey.Â
Yeah I am giving you here on KTC props.Â
My prayers where answered. God did not remove my addiction. I learned that I am just vulnerable to addictions and that is what makes me imperfect. However, God did not abandon me. He just allowed me to work through this so that I would understand and value my journey.Â
I have greater faith in my quit today because I have hurt and worked my ass off. I am grateful that God didn't remove my addiction. I am grateful that he showed me the way to overcome my vulnerability to addiction.Â
I wanted a free ride but looking back, working for my freedom from nicotine gives me a deeper understanding and appreciation for others who are quitting today. Yeah its hard, but it is so worth the Journey.Â
I am quit today and my faith that I am quit for life is easier to comprehend on 330 than it was on 28. Holy crap, it does get easier.
Great post (and love the first line).
I will disagree with one thing though:
Holy crap, it does get easier.
It didn't get easier. You got stronger.
I'm fucking proud of you man.
I'm not sure waste, it must be easier because I'm still a weak puss and everyday feels easier. I thank God also for leading me to you addicts that have helped me everyday to stay quit. There have been so many days I just wished The Lord would remove the pain but looking back I also am glad for that suck as a reminder. I really thought at day 50 or so I understood "embrace the suck" but I was just beginning to understand, now not only do I understand I appreciate it!
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Day 330 - If quitting was easy, we would call it, "Your Mom"
"Faith without works is dead."
What does my belief in a higher power have to do with my ability to quit?Â
God didn't remove any suck, pain, guilt or sorrow from me. I am still an addict. A prayer to take this addiction away was not my answer.Â
However, I have faith that I am quit. My faith is so strong that I am quit, I work every day to protect it. Day after day, my work builds my faith and it grows to a point where I am sure one day, I will know I am quit.Â
God, lead me to the wise on addictions. People I never met and have been fortunate to meet have been the ministers and angels to help me on the journey.Â
Yeah I am giving you here on KTC props.Â
My prayers where answered. God did not remove my addiction. I learned that I am just vulnerable to addictions and that is what makes me imperfect. However, God did not abandon me. He just allowed me to work through this so that I would understand and value my journey.Â
I have greater faith in my quit today because I have hurt and worked my ass off. I am grateful that God didn't remove my addiction. I am grateful that he showed me the way to overcome my vulnerability to addiction.Â
I wanted a free ride but looking back, working for my freedom from nicotine gives me a deeper understanding and appreciation for others who are quitting today. Yeah its hard, but it is so worth the Journey.Â
I am quit today and my faith that I am quit for life is easier to comprehend on 330 than it was on 28. Holy crap, it does get easier.
Great post (and love the first line).
I will disagree with one thing though:
Holy crap, it does get easier.
It didn't get easier. You got stronger.
I'm fucking proud of you man.
I'm not sure waste, it must be easier because I'm still a weak puss and everyday feels easier. I thank God also for leading me to you addicts that have helped me everyday to stay quit. There have been so many days I just wished The Lord would remove the pain but looking back I also am glad for that suck as a reminder. I really thought at day 50 or so I understood "embrace the suck" but I was just beginning to understand, now not only do I understand I appreciate it!
Well said MT, glad to have found people like yourself here as well.
QLAFM
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Day 330 - If quitting was easy, we would call it, "Your Mom"
"Faith without works is dead."
What does my belief in a higher power have to do with my ability to quit?Â
God didn't remove any suck, pain, guilt or sorrow from me. I am still an addict. A prayer to take this addiction away was not my answer.Â
However, I have faith that I am quit. My faith is so strong that I am quit, I work every day to protect it. Day after day, my work builds my faith and it grows to a point where I am sure one day, I will know I am quit.Â
God, lead me to the wise on addictions. People I never met and have been fortunate to meet have been the ministers and angels to help me on the journey.Â
Yeah I am giving you here on KTC props.Â
My prayers where answered. God did not remove my addiction. I learned that I am just vulnerable to addictions and that is what makes me imperfect. However, God did not abandon me. He just allowed me to work through this so that I would understand and value my journey.Â
I have greater faith in my quit today because I have hurt and worked my ass off. I am grateful that God didn't remove my addiction. I am grateful that he showed me the way to overcome my vulnerability to addiction.Â
I wanted a free ride but looking back, working for my freedom from nicotine gives me a deeper understanding and appreciation for others who are quitting today. Yeah its hard, but it is so worth the Journey.Â
I am quit today and my faith that I am quit for life is easier to comprehend on 330 than it was on 28. Holy crap, it does get easier.
Great post (and love the first line).
I will disagree with one thing though:
Holy crap, it does get easier.
It didn't get easier. You got stronger.
I'm fucking proud of you man.
I'm not sure waste, it must be easier because I'm still a weak puss and everyday feels easier. I thank God also for leading me to you addicts that have helped me everyday to stay quit. There have been so many days I just wished The Lord would remove the pain but looking back I also am glad for that suck as a reminder. I really thought at day 50 or so I understood "embrace the suck" but I was just beginning to understand, now not only do I understand I appreciate it!
Well said MT, glad to have found people like yourself here as well.
QLAFM
I am in the same boat per se MT. While I am not religious, I have faith and hope for a better future and you all are a big part of it. Together we can stand taller and do so much more than standing alone. Proud to be a brother in Him and in our quits today.
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Day 330 - If quitting was easy, we would call it, "Your Mom"
"Faith without works is dead."
What does my belief in a higher power have to do with my ability to quit?Â
God didn't remove any suck, pain, guilt or sorrow from me. I am still an addict. A prayer to take this addiction away was not my answer.Â
However, I have faith that I am quit. My faith is so strong that I am quit, I work every day to protect it. Day after day, my work builds my faith and it grows to a point where I am sure one day, I will know I am quit.Â
God, lead me to the wise on addictions. People I never met and have been fortunate to meet have been the ministers and angels to help me on the journey.Â
Yeah I am giving you here on KTC props.Â
My prayers where answered. God did not remove my addiction. I learned that I am just vulnerable to addictions and that is what makes me imperfect. However, God did not abandon me. He just allowed me to work through this so that I would understand and value my journey.Â
I have greater faith in my quit today because I have hurt and worked my ass off. I am grateful that God didn't remove my addiction. I am grateful that he showed me the way to overcome my vulnerability to addiction.Â
I wanted a free ride but looking back, working for my freedom from nicotine gives me a deeper understanding and appreciation for others who are quitting today. Yeah its hard, but it is so worth the Journey.Â
I am quit today and my faith that I am quit for life is easier to comprehend on 330 than it was on 28. Holy crap, it does get easier.
Great post (and love the first line).
I will disagree with one thing though:
Holy crap, it does get easier.
It didn't get easier. You got stronger.
I'm fucking proud of you man.
I'm not sure waste, it must be easier because I'm still a weak puss and everyday feels easier. I thank God also for leading me to you addicts that have helped me everyday to stay quit. There have been so many days I just wished The Lord would remove the pain but looking back I also am glad for that suck as a reminder. I really thought at day 50 or so I understood "embrace the suck" but I was just beginning to understand, now not only do I understand I appreciate it!
Well said MT, glad to have found people like yourself here as well.
QLAFM
I am in the same boat per se MT. While I am not religious, I have faith and hope for a better future and you all are a big part of it. Together we can stand taller and do so much more than standing alone. Proud to be a brother in Him and in our quits today.
You are correct, God did not remove your addiction. Like mine it is still there. But with your prayers and asking for help, he guided you to a place with the tools, here and in your mind that allowed you to corner your addiction into a place it is managable.
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Day 330 - If quitting was easy, we would call it, "Your Mom"
"Faith without works is dead."
What does my belief in a higher power have to do with my ability to quit?Â
God didn't remove any suck, pain, guilt or sorrow from me. I am still an addict. A prayer to take this addiction away was not my answer.Â
However, I have faith that I am quit. My faith is so strong that I am quit, I work every day to protect it. Day after day, my work builds my faith and it grows to a point where I am sure one day, I will know I am quit.Â
God, lead me to the wise on addictions. People I never met and have been fortunate to meet have been the ministers and angels to help me on the journey.Â
Yeah I am giving you here on KTC props.Â
My prayers where answered. God did not remove my addiction. I learned that I am just vulnerable to addictions and that is what makes me imperfect. However, God did not abandon me. He just allowed me to work through this so that I would understand and value my journey.Â
I have greater faith in my quit today because I have hurt and worked my ass off. I am grateful that God didn't remove my addiction. I am grateful that he showed me the way to overcome my vulnerability to addiction.Â
I wanted a free ride but looking back, working for my freedom from nicotine gives me a deeper understanding and appreciation for others who are quitting today. Yeah its hard, but it is so worth the Journey.Â
I am quit today and my faith that I am quit for life is easier to comprehend on 330 than it was on 28. Holy crap, it does get easier.
Great post (and love the first line).
I will disagree with one thing though:
Holy crap, it does get easier.
It didn't get easier. You got stronger.
I'm fucking proud of you man.
I'm not sure waste, it must be easier because I'm still a weak puss and everyday feels easier. I thank God also for leading me to you addicts that have helped me everyday to stay quit. There have been so many days I just wished The Lord would remove the pain but looking back I also am glad for that suck as a reminder. I really thought at day 50 or so I understood "embrace the suck" but I was just beginning to understand, now not only do I understand I appreciate it!
Well said MT, glad to have found people like yourself here as well.
QLAFM
I am in the same boat per se MT. While I am not religious, I have faith and hope for a better future and you all are a big part of it. Together we can stand taller and do so much more than standing alone. Proud to be a brother in Him and in our quits today.
You are correct, God did not remove your addiction. Like mine it is still there. But with your prayers and asking for help, he guided you to a place with the tools, here and in your mind that allowed you to corner your addiction into a place it is managable.
Logged over 300 days. Sometimes I raged and other times I laughed, cried and even questioned. Always loved all you quitters and your comments. Thanks.
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Day 344
My title for the company I work is Director of HR. About 9 months ago, I hire a transactional attorney. The second day he was with us, I took him to lunch to get to know him a little better.
Interesting: He told me that he wouldn't be micro managed and if his work was done at 4:30, he wouldn't stay until 5:00 for face time. That was what bugged him about his last job. His boss would walk the halls at 4:30 to see who was still in the office and who was gone.
I told him a couple things, first as a small company there is always something to do. He should leave at five but leaving early only means he isn't applying himself. I also asked if he needed to be micro managed because we hired him with the understanding that he would get the work done. Bottom line we don't have time to look over his shoulder. If he feels micro managed here, then it must be that someone feels he isn't getting the work done. In short, get the work done and no one questions the hours you spend here.
Well he was always late to work. Rolled in around 9:30 - 10:00. When he went to lunch his lunches were longer than an hour and most days, he left before 5:00. One time during staff meeting, I noticed he was on facebook???
So our CEO sat him down and had 3 conversations with him about performance and a measurable was that he is always late to work. By the 3rd conversation, the CEO finally said, if you are late again, I might just terminate your employment with us.
2 days later the CEO is walking into the office after a morning meeting. As he is walking in, (10:00 AM) he sees this attorney walking in at the same time. "looks like you're late again" He said. The Attorney looked at him, shrugged his shoulders and kept walking to the elevator. The CEO loses it and said, you have nothing to say? I have talked to you about a small thing over and over. Your tardiness problem really bleeds to an attitude problem. "I pay you too much to be talking about this without getting results, I think I will fire you today." Well I didn't know about this until the end of the day. The CEO and this Attorney's doors where closed. When the CEO left, he called me and told me to fire him. I walked into our General Counsels office and there was the other attorney. (White as a ghost) "Mark, I am glad you are here, "attorney" is worried he is getting fired today." I asked the attorney to come to my office so that we can talk.
I sat him down and terminated his employment. The panic the shock and the disbelief was evident on his face. "You are terminated for low performance levels. Starting with your inability to be to work on time."
He said, "I am always on time." I didn't respond because to get to his office he has to walk past mine. I am sure I had a look on my face, expressing, "Really?, you expect me to agree?" Since I didn't respond but looked at him he continued and said, "well I may be tardy once a week." Still not true. He was probably on time once a week.
I was amazed. I felt bad for this man. An attorney, married with children and full of opportunity, growth and stock with this company. He went from a transactional attorney making 20k per month to filing unemployment.
Why didn't he get it?
What's your point Thomas?
I had a quitter text me and say that tobacco use is all around him at work.
Funny but something as simple as being on time led to this cats termination.
People that dip tobacco today may have the world by the tail. I picture the same shock, surprise etc when a tobacco user is diagnose with lip, mouth, throat or lung cancer.
"I have cancer? Why me? I really wasn't that bad. My life was a 20k month life. Now with cancer, my future looks grim and I am on unemployment."
Sure many people will feel bad for you. You will feel like a victim. Its only human and natural. However, deep down we all know....This was a result of your actions.
Moral of the story:
Don't chew tobacco. If you do and shrug your shoulders when someone tells you to quit...Don't be a pre-madona dumb ass. Cancer doesn't respect anyone, anywhere. Tobacco deaths are across the board. No respect for any religion, creed, color or national origin.
That attorney is mad and a victim but I am sure he thinks, If I would have just been on time.....
Lets be the quitter that never caves and finds ourselves say, "If I only would have quit this shit when I posted day one on KTC."
If someone gets cancer, it is tragic, horrible and ugly. If someone knowingly gets cancer from tobacco use, it is tragic, horrible, ugly, preventable and dumb.
Love KTC and the Elite quitters here. Just like being to work on times takes a little focus, discipline and effort. It shows you care about your job. Quitting nicotine takes a little focus, discipline and effort but is shows you care about your life.
Post roll. Its as easy as being on time to work.
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What a bad ass story that is... I FREAKIN LOVE IT!!! Thank you for that Mark.
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Day 344
My title for the company I work is Director of HR. About 9 months ago, I hire a transactional attorney. The second day he was with us, I took him to lunch to get to know him a little better.
Interesting: He told me that he wouldn't be micro managed and if his work was done at 4:30, he wouldn't stay until 5:00 for face time. That was what bugged him about his last job. His boss would walk the halls at 4:30 to see who was still in the office and who was gone.
I told him a couple things, first as a small company there is always something to do. He should leave at five but leaving early only means he isn't applying himself. I also asked if he needed to be micro managed because we hired him with the understanding that he would get the work done. Bottom line we don't have time to look over his shoulder. If he feels micro managed here, then it must be that someone feels he isn't getting the work done. In short, get the work done and no one questions the hours you spend here.
Well he was always late to work. Rolled in around 9:30 - 10:00. When he went to lunch his lunches were longer than an hour and most days, he left before 5:00. One time during staff meeting, I noticed he was on facebook???
So our CEO sat him down and had 3 conversations with him about performance and a measurable was that he is always late to work. By the 3rd conversation, the CEO finally said, if you are late again, I might just terminate your employment with us.
2 days later the CEO is walking into the office after a morning meeting. As he is walking in, (10:00 AM) he sees this attorney walking in at the same time. "looks like you're late again" He said. The Attorney looked at him, shrugged his shoulders and kept walking to the elevator. The CEO loses it and said, you have nothing to say? I have talked to you about a small thing over and over. Your tardiness problem really bleeds to an attitude problem. "I pay you too much to be talking about this without getting results, I think I will fire you today." Well I didn't know about this until the end of the day. The CEO and this Attorney's doors where closed. When the CEO left, he called me and told me to fire him. I walked into our General Counsels office and there was the other attorney. (White as a ghost) "Mark, I am glad you are here, "attorney" is worried he is getting fired today." I asked the attorney to come to my office so that we can talk.
I sat him down and terminated his employment. The panic the shock and the disbelief was evident on his face. "You are terminated for low performance levels. Starting with your inability to be to work on time."
He said, "I am always on time." I didn't respond because to get to his office he has to walk past mine. I am sure I had a look on my face, expressing, "Really?, you expect me to agree?" Since I didn't respond but looked at him he continued and said, "well I may be tardy once a week." Still not true. He was probably on time once a week.
I was amazed. I felt bad for this man. An attorney, married with children and full of opportunity, growth and stock with this company. He went from a transactional attorney making 20k per month to filing unemployment.
Why didn't he get it?
What's your point Thomas?
I had a quitter text me and say that tobacco use is all around him at work.
Funny but something as simple as being on time led to this cats termination.
People that dip tobacco today may have the world by the tail. I picture the same shock, surprise etc when a tobacco user is diagnose with lip, mouth, throat or lung cancer.
"I have cancer? Why me? I really wasn't that bad. My life was a 20k month life. Now with cancer, my future looks grim and I am on unemployment."
Sure many people will feel bad for you. You will feel like a victim. Its only human and natural. However, deep down we all know....This was a result of your actions.
Moral of the story:
Don't chew tobacco. If you do and shrug your shoulders when someone tells you to quit...Don't be a pre-madona dumb ass. Cancer doesn't respect anyone, anywhere. Tobacco deaths are across the board. No respect for any religion, creed, color or national origin.
That attorney is mad and a victim but I am sure he thinks, If I would have just been on time.....
Lets be the quitter that never caves and finds ourselves say, "If I only would have quit this shit when I posted day one on KTC."
If someone gets cancer, it is tragic, horrible and ugly. If someone knowingly gets cancer from tobacco use, it is tragic, horrible, ugly, preventable and dumb.
Love KTC and the Elite quitters here. Just like being to work on times takes a little focus, discipline and effort. It shows you care about your job. Quitting nicotine takes a little focus, discipline and effort but is shows you care about your life.
Post roll. Its as easy as being on time to work.
Never hire transsexual attorneys. Except for maybe coach Steve and gmann.... :ph43r:
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Day 344
My title for the company I work is Director of HR. About 9 months ago, I hire a transactional attorney. The second day he was with us, I took him to lunch to get to know him a little better.Â
Interesting: He told me that he wouldn't be micro managed and if his work was done at 4:30, he wouldn't stay until 5:00 for face time. That was what bugged him about his last job. His boss would walk the halls at 4:30 to see who was still in the office and who was gone.Â
I told him a couple things, first as a small company there is always something to do. He should leave at five but leaving early only means he isn't applying himself. I also asked if he needed to be micro managed because we hired him with the understanding that he would get the work done. Bottom line we don't have time to look over his shoulder. If he feels micro managed here, then it must be that someone feels he isn't getting the work done. In short, get the work done and no one questions the hours you spend here. Â
Well he was always late to work. Rolled in around 9:30 - 10:00. When he went to lunch his lunches were longer than an hour and most days, he left before 5:00. One time during staff meeting, I noticed he was on facebook???Â
So our CEO sat him down and had 3 conversations with him about performance and a measurable was that he is always late to work. By the 3rd conversation, the CEO finally said, if you are late again, I might just terminate your employment with us.Â
2 days later the CEO is walking into the office after a morning meeting. As he is walking in, (10:00 AM) he sees this attorney walking in at the same time. "looks like you're late again" He said. The Attorney looked at him, shrugged his shoulders and kept walking to the elevator. The CEO loses it and said, you have nothing to say? I have talked to you about a small thing over and over. Your tardiness problem really bleeds to an attitude problem. "I pay you too much to be talking about this without getting results, I think I will fire you today." Well I didn't know about this until the end of the day. The CEO and this Attorney's doors where closed. When the CEO left, he called me and told me to fire him. I walked into our General Counsels office and there was the other attorney. (White as a ghost) "Mark, I am glad you are here, "attorney" is worried he is getting fired today." I asked the attorney to come to my office so that we can talk.Â
I sat him down and terminated his employment. The panic the shock and the disbelief was evident on his face. "You are terminated for low performance levels. Starting with your inability to be to work on time."Â
He said, "I am always on time." I didn't respond because to get to his office he has to walk past mine. I am sure I had a look on my face, expressing, "Really?, you expect me to agree?" Since I didn't respond but looked at him he continued and said, "well I may be tardy once a week." Still not true. He was probably on time once a week.Â
I was amazed. I felt bad for this man. An attorney, married with children and full of opportunity, growth and stock with this company. He went from a transactional attorney making 20k per month to filing unemployment.Â
Why didn't he get it?Â
What's your point Thomas?
I had a quitter text me and say that tobacco use is all around him at work.Â
Funny but something as simple as being on time led to this cats termination.Â
People that dip tobacco today may have the world by the tail. I picture the same shock, surprise etc when a tobacco user is diagnose with lip, mouth, throat or lung cancer.Â
"I have cancer? Why me? I really wasn't that bad. My life was a 20k month life. Now with cancer, my future looks grim and I am on unemployment."Â
Sure many people will feel bad for you. You will feel like a victim. Its only human and natural. However, deep down we all know....This was a result of your actions.Â
Moral of the story:Â
Don't chew tobacco. If you do and shrug your shoulders when someone tells you to quit...Don't be a pre-madona dumb ass. Cancer doesn't respect anyone, anywhere. Tobacco deaths are across the board. No respect for any religion, creed, color or national origin.Â
That attorney is mad and a victim but I am sure he thinks, If I would have just been on time.....
Lets be the quitter that never caves and finds ourselves say, "If I only would have quit this shit when I posted day one on KTC."
If someone gets cancer, it is tragic, horrible and ugly. If someone knowingly gets cancer from tobacco use, it is tragic, horrible, ugly, preventable and dumb.Â
Love KTC and the Elite quitters here. Just like being to work on times takes a little focus, discipline and effort. It shows you care about your job. Quitting nicotine takes a little focus, discipline and effort but is shows you care about your life.Â
Post roll. Its as easy as being on time to work.
Never hire transsexual attorneys. Except for maybe coach Steve and gmann.... :ph43r:
BTW vage, Is it true that some people can have both sex organs? I always thought it was like mermaids and Unicorns.
I was told that they totally exist. Now for the real question, are both organs functional and can they have a mutual orgasm.
Hell if some foggy jack wagon reads this, that should keep them occupied for about a day. 'crackup'
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Day 344
My title for the company I work is Director of HR. About 9 months ago, I hire a transactional attorney. The second day he was with us, I took him to lunch to get to know him a little better.Â
Interesting: He told me that he wouldn't be micro managed and if his work was done at 4:30, he wouldn't stay until 5:00 for face time. That was what bugged him about his last job. His boss would walk the halls at 4:30 to see who was still in the office and who was gone.Â
I told him a couple things, first as a small company there is always something to do. He should leave at five but leaving early only means he isn't applying himself. I also asked if he needed to be micro managed because we hired him with the understanding that he would get the work done. Bottom line we don't have time to look over his shoulder. If he feels micro managed here, then it must be that someone feels he isn't getting the work done. In short, get the work done and no one questions the hours you spend here.  Â
Well he was always late to work. Rolled in around 9:30 - 10:00. When he went to lunch his lunches were longer than an hour and most days, he left before 5:00. One time during staff meeting, I noticed he was on facebook???Â
So our CEO sat him down and had 3 conversations with him about performance and a measurable was that he is always late to work. By the 3rd conversation, the CEO finally said, if you are late again, I might just terminate your employment with us.Â
2 days later the CEO is walking into the office after a morning meeting. As he is walking in, (10:00 AM) he sees this attorney walking in at the same time. "looks like you're late again" He said. The Attorney looked at him, shrugged his shoulders and kept walking to the elevator. The CEO loses it and said, you have nothing to say? I have talked to you about a small thing over and over. Your tardiness problem really bleeds to an attitude problem. "I pay you too much to be talking about this without getting results, I think I will fire you today." Well I didn't know about this until the end of the day. The CEO and this Attorney's doors where closed. When the CEO left, he called me and told me to fire him. I walked into our General Counsels office and there was the other attorney. (White as a ghost) "Mark, I am glad you are here, "attorney" is worried he is getting fired today." I asked the attorney to come to my office so that we can talk.Â
I sat him down and terminated his employment. The panic the shock and the disbelief was evident on his face. "You are terminated for low performance levels. Starting with your inability to be to work on time."Â
He said, "I am always on time." I didn't respond because to get to his office he has to walk past mine. I am sure I had a look on my face, expressing, "Really?, you expect me to agree?" Since I didn't respond but looked at him he continued and said, "well I may be tardy once a week." Still not true. He was probably on time once a week.Â
I was amazed. I felt bad for this man. An attorney, married with children and full of opportunity, growth and stock with this company. He went from a transactional attorney making 20k per month to filing unemployment.Â
Why didn't he get it?Â
What's your point Thomas?
I had a quitter text me and say that tobacco use is all around him at work.Â
Funny but something as simple as being on time led to this cats termination.Â
People that dip tobacco today may have the world by the tail. I picture the same shock, surprise etc when a tobacco user is diagnose with lip, mouth, throat or lung cancer.Â
"I have cancer? Why me? I really wasn't that bad. My life was a 20k month life. Now with cancer, my future looks grim and I am on unemployment."Â
Sure many people will feel bad for you. You will feel like a victim. Its only human and natural. However, deep down we all know....This was a result of your actions.Â
Moral of the story:Â
Don't chew tobacco. If you do and shrug your shoulders when someone tells you to quit...Don't be a pre-madona dumb ass. Cancer doesn't respect anyone, anywhere. Tobacco deaths are across the board. No respect for any religion, creed, color or national origin.Â
That attorney is mad and a victim but I am sure he thinks, If I would have just been on time.....
Lets be the quitter that never caves and finds ourselves say, "If I only would have quit this shit when I posted day one on KTC."
If someone gets cancer, it is tragic, horrible and ugly. If someone knowingly gets cancer from tobacco use, it is tragic, horrible, ugly, preventable and dumb.Â
Love KTC and the Elite quitters here. Just like being to work on times takes a little focus, discipline and effort. It shows you care about your job. Quitting nicotine takes a little focus, discipline and effort but is shows you care about your life.Â
Post roll. Its as easy as being on time to work.
Never hire transsexual attorneys. Except for maybe coach Steve and gmann.... :ph43r:
BTW vage, Is it true that some people can have both sex organs? I always thought it was like mermaids and Unicorns.
I was told that they totally exist. Now for the real question, are both organs functional and can they have a mutual orgasm.
Hell if some foggy jack wagon reads this, that should keep them occupied for about a day. 'crackup'
Moral of the story, don't be an arrogant prick. Nicotine knows no distnction. Just because you feel above the rules means nothing when the reaper comes calling.
Don't be the arrogant prick that prank calls his number. *87 will retrieve any number, don't let it be yours that he calls.
FUCK UST, QLAFM!
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Day 344
My title for the company I work is Director of HR. About 9 months ago, I hire a transactional attorney. The second day he was with us, I took him to lunch to get to know him a little better.Â
Interesting: He told me that he wouldn't be micro managed and if his work was done at 4:30, he wouldn't stay until 5:00 for face time. That was what bugged him about his last job. His boss would walk the halls at 4:30 to see who was still in the office and who was gone.Â
I told him a couple things, first as a small company there is always something to do. He should leave at five but leaving early only means he isn't applying himself. I also asked if he needed to be micro managed because we hired him with the understanding that he would get the work done. Bottom line we don't have time to look over his shoulder. If he feels micro managed here, then it must be that someone feels he isn't getting the work done. In short, get the work done and no one questions the hours you spend here.  Â
Well he was always late to work. Rolled in around 9:30 - 10:00. When he went to lunch his lunches were longer than an hour and most days, he left before 5:00. One time during staff meeting, I noticed he was on facebook???Â
So our CEO sat him down and had 3 conversations with him about performance and a measurable was that he is always late to work. By the 3rd conversation, the CEO finally said, if you are late again, I might just terminate your employment with us.Â
2 days later the CEO is walking into the office after a morning meeting. As he is walking in, (10:00 AM) he sees this attorney walking in at the same time. "looks like you're late again" He said. The Attorney looked at him, shrugged his shoulders and kept walking to the elevator. The CEO loses it and said, you have nothing to say? I have talked to you about a small thing over and over. Your tardiness problem really bleeds to an attitude problem. "I pay you too much to be talking about this without getting results, I think I will fire you today." Well I didn't know about this until the end of the day. The CEO and this Attorney's doors where closed. When the CEO left, he called me and told me to fire him. I walked into our General Counsels office and there was the other attorney. (White as a ghost) "Mark, I am glad you are here, "attorney" is worried he is getting fired today." I asked the attorney to come to my office so that we can talk.Â
I sat him down and terminated his employment. The panic the shock and the disbelief was evident on his face. "You are terminated for low performance levels. Starting with your inability to be to work on time."Â
He said, "I am always on time." I didn't respond because to get to his office he has to walk past mine. I am sure I had a look on my face, expressing, "Really?, you expect me to agree?" Since I didn't respond but looked at him he continued and said, "well I may be tardy once a week." Still not true. He was probably on time once a week.Â
I was amazed. I felt bad for this man. An attorney, married with children and full of opportunity, growth and stock with this company. He went from a transactional attorney making 20k per month to filing unemployment.Â
Why didn't he get it?Â
What's your point Thomas?
I had a quitter text me and say that tobacco use is all around him at work.Â
Funny but something as simple as being on time led to this cats termination.Â
People that dip tobacco today may have the world by the tail. I picture the same shock, surprise etc when a tobacco user is diagnose with lip, mouth, throat or lung cancer.Â
"I have cancer? Why me? I really wasn't that bad. My life was a 20k month life. Now with cancer, my future looks grim and I am on unemployment."Â
Sure many people will feel bad for you. You will feel like a victim. Its only human and natural. However, deep down we all know....This was a result of your actions.Â
Moral of the story:Â
Don't chew tobacco. If you do and shrug your shoulders when someone tells you to quit...Don't be a pre-madona dumb ass. Cancer doesn't respect anyone, anywhere. Tobacco deaths are across the board. No respect for any religion, creed, color or national origin.Â
That attorney is mad and a victim but I am sure he thinks, If I would have just been on time.....
Lets be the quitter that never caves and finds ourselves say, "If I only would have quit this shit when I posted day one on KTC."
If someone gets cancer, it is tragic, horrible and ugly. If someone knowingly gets cancer from tobacco use, it is tragic, horrible, ugly, preventable and dumb.Â
Love KTC and the Elite quitters here. Just like being to work on times takes a little focus, discipline and effort. It shows you care about your job. Quitting nicotine takes a little focus, discipline and effort but is shows you care about your life.Â
Post roll. Its as easy as being on time to work.
Never hire transsexual attorneys. Except for maybe coach Steve and gmann.... :ph43r:
BTW vage, Is it true that some people can have both sex organs? I always thought it was like mermaids and Unicorns.
I was told that they totally exist. Now for the real question, are both organs functional and can they have a mutual orgasm.
Hell if some foggy jack wagon reads this, that should keep them occupied for about a day. 'crackup'
Moral of the story, don't be an arrogant prick. Nicotine knows no distnction. Just because you feel above the rules means nothing when the reaper comes calling.
Don't be the arrogant prick that prank calls his number. *87 will retrieve any number, don't let it be yours that he calls.
FUCK UST, QLAFM!
Love this.....POW
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Day 351
Storms may assemble and my spirit to quit may be down but never, never have I looked back and ever regretted that I kept my promise for this day or that day.
I always look back and realize keeping my promise is Awesome and worth it!!!
If nic enters my mind today, I will daydream about this.....
Utah Winters (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OpVJn68pJYk)
utah summers (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USftTyK0WuE)
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Day 351
Storms may assemble and my spirit to quit may be down but never, never have I looked back and ever regretted that I kept my promise for this day or that day.
I always look back and realize keeping my promise is Awesome and worth it!!!
If nic enters my mind today, I will daydream about this.....
Utah Winters (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OpVJn68pJYk)
utah summers (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USftTyK0WuE)
Whas wrong widja? Depressed again or just getting tired of quitting?
It can get dis-spiriting to live in a quit day to day. It can be tiresome. It can get boring.
However, find some perspective. Try this. In 14 days you will have come full circle. 2 weeks to making a full rotation around that big fuckin yellow thing you see in the sky sometimes. You've made it thru 4 seasons. You've faced all the triggers that entails. And guess what...you kicked them all in the ass.
It's not fall in your quit...it's spring sugar. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, get back in the game and continue kicking ass.
It's all in your head. Adopt a PMA (positive mental attitude). You have to will yourself to do it. Be in total control of your thoughts, your actions, and the consequences of both.
2 weeks bro. 2 weeks and you you are back the next best "1" you've ever posted. Concentrate on it. Make that your goal. And when you get to that one...move that goal post. That's how us dumbass addicts have to work for a long, long time.
You will get to the point where you don't have to and each of those "milestones" are just another line in the sand. It's coming...and it's a damned great place to be. When your addiction truly holds no power over you....as long as you are cognizant of the fact that yes, you are indeed, still an addict.
It gets better bro. You still got a couple of hurdles to jump. Day 400 is likely to bring a round of fuck-its. Know it's coming and embrace it with all you have when it gets here...and throw some vulgarities in LOOT's direction when you gotta.
2 weeks bro. It's a beautiful thing. Recognize it. Bask in the glow. And when it gets here, celebrate it, and move on. It's all we can do. When it seems like the wind is out of your sails, turn around and appreciate the addicts behind you blowing like hell to keep you going.
2 weeks.
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Day 351
Storms may assemble and my spirit to quit may be down but never, never have I looked back and ever regretted that I kept my promise for this day or that day.Â
I always look back and realize keeping my promise is Awesome and worth it!!!
If nic enters my mind today, I will daydream about this.....
Utah Winters (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OpVJn68pJYk)
utah summers (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USftTyK0WuE)
Whas wrong widja? Depressed again or just getting tired of quitting?
It can get dis-spiriting to live in a quit day to day. It can be tiresome. It can get boring.
However, find some perspective. Try this. In 14 days you will have come full circle. 2 weeks to making a full rotation around that big fuckin yellow thing you see in the sky sometimes. You've made it thru 4 seasons. You've faced all the triggers that entails. And guess what...you kicked them all in the ass.
It's not fall in your quit...it's spring sugar. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, get back in the game and continue kicking ass.
It's all in your head. Adopt a PMA (positive mental attitude). You have to will yourself to do it. Be in total control of your thoughts, your actions, and the consequences of both.
2 weeks bro. 2 weeks and you you are back the next best "1" you've ever posted. Concentrate on it. Make that your goal. And when you get to that one...move that goal post. That's how us dumbass addicts have to work for a long, long time.
You will get to the point where you don't have to and each of those "milestones" are just another line in the sand. It's coming...and it's a damned great place to be. When your addiction truly holds no power over you....as long as you are cognizant of the fact that yes, you are indeed, still an addict.
It gets better bro. You still got a couple of hurdles to jump. Day 400 is likely to bring a round of fuck-its. Know it's coming and embrace it with all you have when it gets here...and throw some vulgarities in LOOT's direction when you gotta.
2 weeks bro. It's a beautiful thing. Recognize it. Bask in the glow. And when it gets here, celebrate it, and move on. It's all we can do. When it seems like the wind is out of your sails, turn around and appreciate the addicts behind you blowing like hell to keep you going.
2 weeks.
2 weeks...... say it with me........ 2........ WEEKS!!
But wait, that ain't how we roll. +1 and I'll see you here tomorrow.
You got ole loot to come down and get almost biblical. You cannot buy support like that, my friend. It can't be done.
I quit with you..... but just for today.
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Day 351
Storms may assemble and my spirit to quit may be down but never, never have I looked back and ever regretted that I kept my promise for this day or that day.Â
I always look back and realize keeping my promise is Awesome and worth it!!!
If nic enters my mind today, I will daydream about this.....
Utah Winters (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OpVJn68pJYk)
utah summers (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USftTyK0WuE)
Whas wrong widja? Depressed again or just getting tired of quitting?
It can get dis-spiriting to live in a quit day to day. It can be tiresome. It can get boring.
However, find some perspective. Try this. In 14 days you will have come full circle. 2 weeks to making a full rotation around that big fuckin yellow thing you see in the sky sometimes. You've made it thru 4 seasons. You've faced all the triggers that entails. And guess what...you kicked them all in the ass.
It's not fall in your quit...it's spring sugar. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, get back in the game and continue kicking ass.
It's all in your head. Adopt a PMA (positive mental attitude). You have to will yourself to do it. Be in total control of your thoughts, your actions, and the consequences of both.
2 weeks bro. 2 weeks and you you are back the next best "1" you've ever posted. Concentrate on it. Make that your goal. And when you get to that one...move that goal post. That's how us dumbass addicts have to work for a long, long time.
You will get to the point where you don't have to and each of those "milestones" are just another line in the sand. It's coming...and it's a damned great place to be. When your addiction truly holds no power over you....as long as you are cognizant of the fact that yes, you are indeed, still an addict.
It gets better bro. You still got a couple of hurdles to jump. Day 400 is likely to bring a round of fuck-its. Know it's coming and embrace it with all you have when it gets here...and throw some vulgarities in LOOT's direction when you gotta.
2 weeks bro. It's a beautiful thing. Recognize it. Bask in the glow. And when it gets here, celebrate it, and move on. It's all we can do. When it seems like the wind is out of your sails, turn around and appreciate the addicts behind you blowing like hell to keep you going.
2 weeks.
I've read a lot of things here but that was awesome!
Thanks for taking a moment. You're right, I have to get my head back to PMA. Lately it has been, "so what if I quit". Not that I want to go and indulge in a can humping fest but bored of quitting might be it.
I quit almost a year. I am determined even in boredom. You guys always knew what to say and do to not let the boredom get to me.
I'll work on PMA.
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Day 351
Storms may assemble and my spirit to quit may be down but never, never have I looked back and ever regretted that I kept my promise for this day or that day.Â
I always look back and realize keeping my promise is Awesome and worth it!!!
If nic enters my mind today, I will daydream about this.....
Utah Winters (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OpVJn68pJYk)
utah summers (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USftTyK0WuE)
Whas wrong widja? Depressed again or just getting tired of quitting?
It can get dis-spiriting to live in a quit day to day. It can be tiresome. It can get boring.
However, find some perspective. Try this. In 14 days you will have come full circle. 2 weeks to making a full rotation around that big fuckin yellow thing you see in the sky sometimes. You've made it thru 4 seasons. You've faced all the triggers that entails. And guess what...you kicked them all in the ass.
It's not fall in your quit...it's spring sugar. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, get back in the game and continue kicking ass.
It's all in your head. Adopt a PMA (positive mental attitude). You have to will yourself to do it. Be in total control of your thoughts, your actions, and the consequences of both.
2 weeks bro. 2 weeks and you you are back the next best "1" you've ever posted. Concentrate on it. Make that your goal. And when you get to that one...move that goal post. That's how us dumbass addicts have to work for a long, long time.
You will get to the point where you don't have to and each of those "milestones" are just another line in the sand. It's coming...and it's a damned great place to be. When your addiction truly holds no power over you....as long as you are cognizant of the fact that yes, you are indeed, still an addict.
It gets better bro. You still got a couple of hurdles to jump. Day 400 is likely to bring a round of fuck-its. Know it's coming and embrace it with all you have when it gets here...and throw some vulgarities in LOOT's direction when you gotta.
2 weeks bro. It's a beautiful thing. Recognize it. Bask in the glow. And when it gets here, celebrate it, and move on. It's all we can do. When it seems like the wind is out of your sails, turn around and appreciate the addicts behind you blowing like hell to keep you going.
2 weeks.
I've read a lot of things here but that was awesome!
Thanks for taking a moment. You're right, I have to get my head back to PMA. Lately it has been, "so what if I quit". Not that I want to go and indulge in a can humping fest but bored of quitting might be it.
I quit almost a year. I am determined even in boredom. You guys always knew what to say and do to not let the boredom get to me.
I'll work on PMA.
"So what if I quit"...been there, bunches of times. However, a little perspective. Quitting nicotine should be the crowning accomplishment. On top of all others. No need to share it with others unless you want...but when you think of this quit thing...puff your chest out, stand up straight and tall, head high, because there is nothing that can compare to the mountain you ascended. You are doing what millions of Americans pray for every night, yet get up and feed the beast first thing.
Yous a quitter MT. A damned fine quitter. Let us rejoice and be glad in it.
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Two Weeks by All that Remains (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gGtW4AFyLyM)
"swear LOOT never gave up on you"
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I have been down a little bit here lately and I came to a realization when chatting with a friend today that changed my tune a little.
130 days ago i would have told you that there was NO WAY I would be able to quit chewing and (in my addicted mindset) truly believed it!! 'crackup'
Now 129 days clean and overcoming something that I never in a million years thought I could do.....Now what????? Its not like MJ or Kobe, they can try and win another championship the next year. We have already won our World Series by SOOOOOOO many runs that The bitch took her nasty ass home forever!! 'Finger' What is the next big challenge?? Today for me was not chewing fake while taking an hour long drive! Mission Accomplished!! Find more battles to take on in your life. Not only continue to kick Nic's Ass, Lets kick some other things ass that you could be doing better in your life.
What that is is up to you!!!
Me....No Fake on the way home tonight from work!! Time to break that habit too! 'Remshot'
Quit with you Quitter!!
J
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I have been down a little bit here lately and I came to a realization when chatting with a friend today that changed my tune a little.
130 days ago i would have told you that there was NO WAY I would be able to quit chewing and (in my addicted mindset) truly believed it!! 'crackup'
Now 129 days clean and overcoming something that I never in a million years thought I could do.....Now what????? Its not like MJ or Kobe, they can try and win another championship the next year. We have already won our World Series by SOOOOOOO many runs that The bitch took her nasty ass home forever!! 'Finger' What is the next big challenge?? Today for me was not chewing fake while taking an hour long drive! Mission Accomplished!! Find more battles to take on in your life. Not only continue to kick Nic's Ass, Lets kick some other things ass that you could be doing better in your life.
What that is is up to you!!!
Me....No Fake on the way home tonight from work!! Time to break that habit too! 'Remshot'
Quit with you Quitter!!
J
Day 125 funk train running right on time....
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Day 351
Storms may assemble and my spirit to quit may be down but never, never have I looked back and ever regretted that I kept my promise for this day or that day.Â
I always look back and realize keeping my promise is Awesome and worth it!!!
If nic enters my mind today, I will daydream about this.....
Utah Winters (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OpVJn68pJYk)
utah summers (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USftTyK0WuE)
Whas wrong widja? Depressed again or just getting tired of quitting?
It can get dis-spiriting to live in a quit day to day. It can be tiresome. It can get boring.
However, find some perspective. Try this. In 14 days you will have come full circle. 2 weeks to making a full rotation around that big fuckin yellow thing you see in the sky sometimes. You've made it thru 4 seasons. You've faced all the triggers that entails. And guess what...you kicked them all in the ass.
It's not fall in your quit...it's spring sugar. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, get back in the game and continue kicking ass.
It's all in your head. Adopt a PMA (positive mental attitude). You have to will yourself to do it. Be in total control of your thoughts, your actions, and the consequences of both.
2 weeks bro. 2 weeks and you you are back the next best "1" you've ever posted. Concentrate on it. Make that your goal. And when you get to that one...move that goal post. That's how us dumbass addicts have to work for a long, long time.
You will get to the point where you don't have to and each of those "milestones" are just another line in the sand. It's coming...and it's a damned great place to be. When your addiction truly holds no power over you....as long as you are cognizant of the fact that yes, you are indeed, still an addict.
It gets better bro. You still got a couple of hurdles to jump. Day 400 is likely to bring a round of fuck-its. Know it's coming and embrace it with all you have when it gets here...and throw some vulgarities in LOOT's direction when you gotta.
2 weeks bro. It's a beautiful thing. Recognize it. Bask in the glow. And when it gets here, celebrate it, and move on. It's all we can do. When it seems like the wind is out of your sails, turn around and appreciate the addicts behind you blowing like hell to keep you going.
2 weeks.
I've read a lot of things here but that was awesome!
Thanks for taking a moment. You're right, I have to get my head back to PMA. Lately it has been, "so what if I quit". Not that I want to go and indulge in a can humping fest but bored of quitting might be it.
I quit almost a year. I am determined even in boredom. You guys always knew what to say and do to not let the boredom get to me.
I'll work on PMA.
"So what if I quit"...been there, bunches of times. However, a little perspective. Quitting nicotine should be the crowning accomplishment. On top of all others. No need to share it with others unless you want...but when you think of this quit thing...puff your chest out, stand up straight and tall, head high, because there is nothing that can compare to the mountain you ascended. You are doing what millions of Americans pray for every night, yet get up and feed the beast first thing.
Yous a quitter MT. A damned fine quitter. Let us rejoice and be glad in it.
Right on. Got a pm as well. Pumped, this is big and it makes a difference. I really do enjoy kicking nic ass! It's more fun than drinking a can of spit thinking it was a diet coke.
I'm good, ordered my one year chip. Let's roll!
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Day 351
Storms may assemble and my spirit to quit may be down but never, never have I looked back and ever regretted that I kept my promise for this day or that day.�
I always look back and realize keeping my promise is Awesome and worth it!!!
If nic enters my mind today, I will daydream about this.....
Utah Winters (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OpVJn68pJYk)
utah summers (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USftTyK0WuE)
Whas wrong widja? Depressed again or just getting tired of quitting?
It can get dis-spiriting to live in a quit day to day. It can be tiresome. It can get boring.
However, find some perspective. Try this. In 14 days you will have come full circle. 2 weeks to making a full rotation around that big fuckin yellow thing you see in the sky sometimes. You've made it thru 4 seasons. You've faced all the triggers that entails. And guess what...you kicked them all in the ass.
It's not fall in your quit...it's spring sugar. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, get back in the game and continue kicking ass.
It's all in your head. Adopt a PMA (positive mental attitude). You have to will yourself to do it. Be in total control of your thoughts, your actions, and the consequences of both.
2 weeks bro. 2 weeks and you you are back the next best "1" you've ever posted. Concentrate on it. Make that your goal. And when you get to that one...move that goal post. That's how us dumbass addicts have to work for a long, long time.
You will get to the point where you don't have to and each of those "milestones" are just another line in the sand. It's coming...and it's a damned great place to be. When your addiction truly holds no power over you....as long as you are cognizant of the fact that yes, you are indeed, still an addict.
It gets better bro. You still got a couple of hurdles to jump. Day 400 is likely to bring a round of fuck-its. Know it's coming and embrace it with all you have when it gets here...and throw some vulgarities in LOOT's direction when you gotta.
2 weeks bro. It's a beautiful thing. Recognize it. Bask in the glow. And when it gets here, celebrate it, and move on. It's all we can do. When it seems like the wind is out of your sails, turn around and appreciate the addicts behind you blowing like hell to keep you going.
2 weeks.
I've read a lot of things here but that was awesome!
Thanks for taking a moment. You're right, I have to get my head back to PMA. Lately it has been, "so what if I quit". Not that I want to go and indulge in a can humping fest but bored of quitting might be it.
I quit almost a year. I am determined even in boredom. You guys always knew what to say and do to not let the boredom get to me.
I'll work on PMA.
"So what if I quit"...been there, bunches of times. However, a little perspective. Quitting nicotine should be the crowning accomplishment. On top of all others. No need to share it with others unless you want...but when you think of this quit thing...puff your chest out, stand up straight and tall, head high, because there is nothing that can compare to the mountain you ascended. You are doing what millions of Americans pray for every night, yet get up and feed the beast first thing.
Yous a quitter MT. A damned fine quitter. Let us rejoice and be glad in it.
Right on. Got a pm as well. Pumped, this is big and it makes a difference. I really do enjoy kicking nic ass! It's more fun than drinking a can of spit thinking it was a diet coke.
I'm good, ordered my one year chip. Let's roll!
No time in life for complacency MT. You've got too much going right for you to dwell on a doldrums period. Too much positive going on. I've seen you battle through some rough spots here lately and you should be damn proud you still came out on top. Did you stop to consider that maybe, just maybe, this doldrums feeling is a more subtle attempt by the bitch to get you back in her arms? Whatever bitch that may be, and you know what I mean, don't let HER thoughts minimize YOUR quits. You got it going on and she knows it and it hurts.
Fight and Win, NO Exceptions!
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I have been down a little bit here lately and I came to a realization when chatting with a friend today that changed my tune a little.Â
130 days ago i would have told you that there was NO WAY I would be able to quit chewing and (in my addicted mindset) truly believed it!! 'crackup'
Now 129 days clean and overcoming something that I never in a million years thought I could do.....Now what????? Its not like MJ or Kobe, they can try and win another championship the next year. We have already won our World Series by SOOOOOOO many runs that The bitch took her nasty ass home forever!! 'Finger' What is the next big challenge?? Today for me was not chewing fake while taking an hour long drive! Mission Accomplished!! Find more battles to take on in your life. Not only continue to kick Nic's Ass, Lets kick some other things ass that you could be doing better in your life.Â
What that is is up to you!!!
Me....No Fake on the way home tonight from work!! Time to break that habit too! 'Remshot'
Quit with you Quitter!!Â
J
Day 125 funk train running right on time....
Yep. Post-HOF funk was the absolute worst one for me. The "what now?" almost took over. Gathered some support and muscled through. Never again..... for any reason.
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Day 365
It feels like forever and just yesterday that I put down my fix and became a man.
What a war I have waged on nicotine. The un-winnable war and yet I have been nicotine free for 365 days. Why did I quit now when I failed so many times before coming to KTC?
One, I needed a personal trainer to teach me. KTC did that. They were the coach and put together the program for me to be successful. Still, I had to do the work and keep my word. Why did I do it this time? I gained knowledge and strength.
What I know now that I didnÂ’t. I would quit out of fear. Fear of getting caught. Fear of getting ill. I would quit for a reward. My wife will love me more for quitting; God will bless me and my home. Sometimes I quit because it was my duty. I want to be a good father that leads by example. Then again I would quit because I wanted to have a better image of self and others. Dipping is just stupid!
One year later, why have I gone this long? I have quit for all those reasons but my quit means more than that. I donÂ’t stay quit out of Fear, Reward, Image or Duty. I stay quit because I value it.
All those reasons did lead me to quitting for good. Wins and losses are stepping stones to success. Failure is a result of surrendering where nothing is gained, earned or learned.
Now, my quit graduated to a stage where I it truly is valuable to me and my family. Like inertia, keeping my quit in motion is simple and worth the effort to quit every damn day!
Going back to can humping is just so childish and dumb. I don’t see any value in dipping. NONE! When I get a thought to dip, I simply ask myself if it is worth it. My answer is simply, “don’t be stupid!”
Now quitting nicotine every day is a very light burden to carry for a lifetime addict.
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Day 365
It feels like forever and just yesterday that I put down my fix and became a man.
What a war I have waged on nicotine. The un-winnable war and yet I have been nicotine free for 365 days. Why did I quit now when I failed so many times before coming to KTC?
One, I needed a personal trainer to teach me. KTC did that. They were the coach and put together the program for me to be successful. Still, I had to do the work and keep my word. Why did I do it this time? I gained knowledge and strength.
What I know now that I didnÂ’t. I would quit out of fear. Fear of getting caught. Fear of getting ill. I would quit for a reward. My wife will love me more for quitting; God will bless me and my home. Sometimes I quit because it was my duty. I want to be a good father that leads by example. Then again I would quit because I wanted to have a better image of self and others. Dipping is just stupid!
One year later, why have I gone this long? I have quit for all those reasons but my quit means more than that. I donÂ’t stay quit out of Fear, Reward, Image or Duty. I stay quit because I value it.
All those reasons did lead me to quitting for good. Wins and losses are stepping stones to success. Failure is a result of surrendering where nothing is gained, earned or learned.
Now, my quit graduated to a stage where I it truly is valuable to me and my family. Like inertia, keeping my quit in motion is simple and worth the effort to quit every damn day!
Going back to can humping is just so childish and dumb. I don’t see any value in dipping. NONE! When I get a thought to dip, I simply ask myself if it is worth it. My answer is simply, “don’t be stupid!”
Now quitting nicotine every day is a very light burden to carry for a lifetime addict.
Amazing!!! I quit with you today, thank you for sharing!
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Day 365
It feels like forever and just yesterday that I put down my fix and became a man.Â
What a war I have waged on nicotine. The un-winnable war and yet I have been nicotine free for 365 days. Why did I quit now when I failed so many times before coming to KTC?
Â
One, I needed a personal trainer to teach me. KTC did that. They were the coach and put together the program for me to be successful. Still, I had to do the work and keep my word. Why did I do it this time? I gained knowledge and strength.Â
What I know now that I didn’t. I would quit out of fear. Fear of getting caught. Fear of getting ill. I would quit for a reward. My wife will love me more for quitting; God will bless me and my home. Sometimes I quit because it was my duty. I want to be a good father that leads by example. Then again I would quit because I wanted to have a better image of self and others. Dipping is just stupid!
One year later, why have I gone this long? I have quit for all those reasons but my quit means more than that. I don’t stay quit out of Fear, Reward, Image or Duty. I stay quit because I value it.
Â
All those reasons did lead me to quitting for good. Wins and losses are stepping stones to success. Failure is a result of surrendering where nothing is gained, earned or learned.
Now, my quit graduated to a stage where I it truly is valuable to me and my family. Like inertia, keeping my quit in motion is simple and worth the effort to quit every damn day!Â
Going back to can humping is just so childish and dumb. I don’t see any value in dipping. NONE! When I get a thought to dip, I simply ask myself if it is worth it. My answer is simply, “don’t be stupid!”
Â
Now quitting nicotine every day is a very light burden to carry for a lifetime addict.
Amazing!!! I quit with you today, thank you for sharing!
So proud of you man
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Day 365
It feels like forever and just yesterday that I put down my fix and became a man.Â
What a war I have waged on nicotine. The un-winnable war and yet I have been nicotine free for 365 days. Why did I quit now when I failed so many times before coming to KTC?
Â
One, I needed a personal trainer to teach me. KTC did that. They were the coach and put together the program for me to be successful. Still, I had to do the work and keep my word. Why did I do it this time? I gained knowledge and strength.Â
What I know now that I didn’t. I would quit out of fear. Fear of getting caught. Fear of getting ill. I would quit for a reward. My wife will love me more for quitting; God will bless me and my home. Sometimes I quit because it was my duty. I want to be a good father that leads by example. Then again I would quit because I wanted to have a better image of self and others. Dipping is just stupid!
One year later, why have I gone this long? I have quit for all those reasons but my quit means more than that. I don’t stay quit out of Fear, Reward, Image or Duty. I stay quit because I value it.
Â
All those reasons did lead me to quitting for good. Wins and losses are stepping stones to success. Failure is a result of surrendering where nothing is gained, earned or learned.
Now, my quit graduated to a stage where I it truly is valuable to me and my family. Like inertia, keeping my quit in motion is simple and worth the effort to quit every damn day!Â
Going back to can humping is just so childish and dumb. I don’t see any value in dipping. NONE!  When I get a thought to dip, I simply ask myself if it is worth it. My answer is simply, “don’t be stupid!”
Â
Now quitting nicotine every day is a very light burden to carry for a lifetime addict.
Amazing!!! I quit with you today, thank you for sharing!
So proud of you man
Congratulations Brother...Very proud of you!
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Day 365
It feels like forever and just yesterday that I put down my fix and became a man.Â
What a war I have waged on nicotine. The un-winnable war and yet I have been nicotine free for 365 days. Why did I quit now when I failed so many times before coming to KTC?
Â
One, I needed a personal trainer to teach me. KTC did that. They were the coach and put together the program for me to be successful. Still, I had to do the work and keep my word. Why did I do it this time? I gained knowledge and strength.Â
What I know now that I didn’t. I would quit out of fear. Fear of getting caught. Fear of getting ill. I would quit for a reward. My wife will love me more for quitting; God will bless me and my home. Sometimes I quit because it was my duty. I want to be a good father that leads by example. Then again I would quit because I wanted to have a better image of self and others. Dipping is just stupid!
One year later, why have I gone this long? I have quit for all those reasons but my quit means more than that. I don’t stay quit out of Fear, Reward, Image or Duty. I stay quit because I value it.
Â
All those reasons did lead me to quitting for good. Wins and losses are stepping stones to success. Failure is a result of surrendering where nothing is gained, earned or learned.
Now, my quit graduated to a stage where I it truly is valuable to me and my family. Like inertia, keeping my quit in motion is simple and worth the effort to quit every damn day!Â
Going back to can humping is just so childish and dumb. I don’t see any value in dipping. NONE!  When I get a thought to dip, I simply ask myself if it is worth it. My answer is simply, “don’t be stupid!”
Â
Now quitting nicotine every day is a very light burden to carry for a lifetime addict.
Amazing!!! I quit with you today, thank you for sharing!
So proud of you man
Congratulations Brother...Very proud of you!
Today and always MT, quit with you and proud to know you. Thanks for everything.
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Day 365
It feels like forever and just yesterday that I put down my fix and became a man.Â
What a war I have waged on nicotine. The un-winnable war and yet I have been nicotine free for 365 days. Why did I quit now when I failed so many times before coming to KTC?
Â
One, I needed a personal trainer to teach me. KTC did that. They were the coach and put together the program for me to be successful. Still, I had to do the work and keep my word. Why did I do it this time? I gained knowledge and strength.Â
What I know now that I didn’t. I would quit out of fear. Fear of getting caught. Fear of getting ill. I would quit for a reward. My wife will love me more for quitting; God will bless me and my home. Sometimes I quit because it was my duty. I want to be a good father that leads by example. Then again I would quit because I wanted to have a better image of self and others. Dipping is just stupid!
One year later, why have I gone this long? I have quit for all those reasons but my quit means more than that. I don’t stay quit out of Fear, Reward, Image or Duty. I stay quit because I value it.
Â
All those reasons did lead me to quitting for good. Wins and losses are stepping stones to success. Failure is a result of surrendering where nothing is gained, earned or learned.
Now, my quit graduated to a stage where I it truly is valuable to me and my family. Like inertia, keeping my quit in motion is simple and worth the effort to quit every damn day!Â
Going back to can humping is just so childish and dumb. I don’t see any value in dipping. NONE! When I get a thought to dip, I simply ask myself if it is worth it. My answer is simply, “don’t be stupid!”
Â
Now quitting nicotine every day is a very light burden to carry for a lifetime addict.
Amazing!!! I quit with you today, thank you for sharing!
So proud of you man
Congratulations Brother...Very proud of you!
Great job !!! Quit with you today and everyday.
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Day 365
It feels like forever and just yesterday that I put down my fix and became a man.Â
What a war I have waged on nicotine. The un-winnable war and yet I have been nicotine free for 365 days. Why did I quit now when I failed so many times before coming to KTC?
Â
One, I needed a personal trainer to teach me. KTC did that. They were the coach and put together the program for me to be successful. Still, I had to do the work and keep my word. Why did I do it this time? I gained knowledge and strength.Â
What I know now that I didn’t. I would quit out of fear. Fear of getting caught. Fear of getting ill. I would quit for a reward. My wife will love me more for quitting; God will bless me and my home. Sometimes I quit because it was my duty. I want to be a good father that leads by example. Then again I would quit because I wanted to have a better image of self and others. Dipping is just stupid!
One year later, why have I gone this long? I have quit for all those reasons but my quit means more than that. I don’t stay quit out of Fear, Reward, Image or Duty. I stay quit because I value it.
Â
All those reasons did lead me to quitting for good. Wins and losses are stepping stones to success. Failure is a result of surrendering where nothing is gained, earned or learned.
Now, my quit graduated to a stage where I it truly is valuable to me and my family. Like inertia, keeping my quit in motion is simple and worth the effort to quit every damn day!Â
Going back to can humping is just so childish and dumb. I don’t see any value in dipping. NONE!  When I get a thought to dip, I simply ask myself if it is worth it. My answer is simply, “don’t be stupid!”
Â
Now quitting nicotine every day is a very light burden to carry for a lifetime addict.
Amazing!!! I quit with you today, thank you for sharing!
So proud of you man
Congratulations Brother...Very proud of you!
Great job !!! Quit with you today and everyday.
goo on you
goo on you
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Day 365
It feels like forever and just yesterday that I put down my fix and became a man.Â
What a war I have waged on nicotine. The un-winnable war and yet I have been nicotine free for 365 days. Why did I quit now when I failed so many times before coming to KTC?
Â
One, I needed a personal trainer to teach me. KTC did that. They were the coach and put together the program for me to be successful. Still, I had to do the work and keep my word. Why did I do it this time? I gained knowledge and strength.Â
What I know now that I didn’t. I would quit out of fear. Fear of getting caught. Fear of getting ill. I would quit for a reward. My wife will love me more for quitting; God will bless me and my home. Sometimes I quit because it was my duty. I want to be a good father that leads by example. Then again I would quit because I wanted to have a better image of self and others. Dipping is just stupid!
One year later, why have I gone this long? I have quit for all those reasons but my quit means more than that. I don’t stay quit out of Fear, Reward, Image or Duty. I stay quit because I value it.
Â
All those reasons did lead me to quitting for good. Wins and losses are stepping stones to success. Failure is a result of surrendering where nothing is gained, earned or learned.
Now, my quit graduated to a stage where I it truly is valuable to me and my family. Like inertia, keeping my quit in motion is simple and worth the effort to quit every damn day!Â
Going back to can humping is just so childish and dumb. I don’t see any value in dipping. NONE!  When I get a thought to dip, I simply ask myself if it is worth it. My answer is simply, “don’t be stupid!”
Â
Now quitting nicotine every day is a very light burden to carry for a lifetime addict.
Amazing!!! I quit with you today, thank you for sharing!
So proud of you man
Congratulations Brother...Very proud of you!
Great job !!! Quit with you today and everyday.
goo on you
goo on you
Congrats on 1 year. Great job!
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One year is a great milestone. You should be very proud. Keep up the great work. Thanks for all the support you have provided to me in my quit. Your insight into various components of quitting resonates with many on this site.
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
You have come a long way Mthomas.
You set out with a plan 1 year ago.
You articulated your rationale right here in this first intro post and you carried it out to a tee.
Well done man. I look forward to standing where you are today.
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Congrats on one year Mthomas. Thank you for your posts all over KTC over the past year, more than one of them has helped me.
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Day 365
It feels like forever and just yesterday that I put down my fix and became a man.Â
What a war I have waged on nicotine. The un-winnable war and yet I have been nicotine free for 365 days. Why did I quit now when I failed so many times before coming to KTC?
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One, I needed a personal trainer to teach me. KTC did that. They were the coach and put together the program for me to be successful. Still, I had to do the work and keep my word. Why did I do it this time? I gained knowledge and strength.Â
What I know now that I didn’t. I would quit out of fear. Fear of getting caught. Fear of getting ill. I would quit for a reward. My wife will love me more for quitting; God will bless me and my home. Sometimes I quit because it was my duty. I want to be a good father that leads by example. Then again I would quit because I wanted to have a better image of self and others. Dipping is just stupid!
One year later, why have I gone this long? I have quit for all those reasons but my quit means more than that. I don’t stay quit out of Fear, Reward, Image or Duty. I stay quit because I value it.
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All those reasons did lead me to quitting for good. Wins and losses are stepping stones to success. Failure is a result of surrendering where nothing is gained, earned or learned.
Now, my quit graduated to a stage where I it truly is valuable to me and my family. Like inertia, keeping my quit in motion is simple and worth the effort to quit every damn day!Â
Going back to can humping is just so childish and dumb. I don’t see any value in dipping. NONE!  When I get a thought to dip, I simply ask myself if it is worth it. My answer is simply, “don’t be stupid!”
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Now quitting nicotine every day is a very light burden to carry for a lifetime addict.
Amazing!!! I quit with you today, thank you for sharing!
So proud of you man
Congratulations Brother...Very proud of you!
Great job !!! Quit with you today and everyday.
goo on you
goo on you
Congrats on 1 year. Great job!
Congrats MT.....Outstanding!!!
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Thanks all. I got a text today that asked me how it felt to be past the one year mark.
I feel successful and at peace with my addiction. I don't feel angst or panic. I don't feel like I am losing. I really feel like I got this!
I know that I still need to avoid nicotine like the plague it is.
If it is being promoted, I will leave the area. Not interested in even trying to reason with a using nicotine addict. I am an addict and I have seen enough caves to know that I can still fail if I don't stay alert.
So how does it feel?
I think this is what "normal" must feel like. I am glad that I am back to normal and learned that I don't need to suck UST off to survive.
UST and its cult following can kiss my ass! 'Finger'
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Thanks all. I got a text today that asked me how it felt to be past the one year mark.
I feel successful and at peace with my addiction. I don't feel angst or panic. I don't feel like I am losing. I really feel like I got this!
I know that I still need to avoid nicotine like the plague it is.
If it is being promoted, I will leave the area. Not interested in even trying to reason with a using nicotine addict. I am an addict and I have seen enough caves to know that I can still fail if I don't stay alert.
So how does it feel?
I think this is what "normal" must feel like. I am glad that I am back to normal and learned that I don't need to suck UST off to survive.
UST and its cult following can kiss my ass! 'Finger'
Perfectly said Brother!
You're a Rock Star of Quit and I admire your big balls!! 'bang head'
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Thanks all. I got a text today that asked me how it felt to be past the one year mark.Â
I feel successful and at peace with my addiction. I don't feel angst or panic. I don't feel like I am losing. I really feel like I got this!Â
I know that I still need to avoid nicotine like the plague it is.
If it is being promoted, I will leave the area. Not interested in even trying to reason with a using nicotine addict. I am an addict and I have seen enough caves to know that I can still fail if I don't stay alert.Â
So how does it feel?Â
I think this is what "normal" must feel like. I am glad that I am back to normal and learned that I don't need to suck UST off to survive.Â
UST and its cult following can kiss my ass! 'Finger'
Perfectly said Brother!
You're a Rock Star of Quit and I admire your big balls!! 'bang head'
Nice year brother!! Happy Birthday!
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Day 370
So my son was going to St. George for the weekend and wanted to borrow some of my golf clubs. He goes through my bag and there were two cans of skoal.
This troubled me on two fronts. First It has been over 370 days since I golfed! I used to go at least once a week.
Second when my wife told me my son found them, I immediately had a sick feeling like I had been caught! What a great time for this. Some will say the nic bitch is sneaky.
Other times, she is just desperate and does something stupid.
I don't miss that sick feeling I got when I was caught and pathetic. Just to remember that has me more determined to stay quit.
Yeah I am so glad that is in the past. Anyone hurting, you will be glad you quit, just stay on course and win your match today!!!!
The bitch is pathetic. You are not! Stay quit today and every today!
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Day 370
So my son was going to St. George for the weekend and wanted to borrow some of my golf clubs. He goes through my bag and there were two cans of skoal.
This troubled me on two fronts. First It has been over 370 days since I golfed! I used to go at least once a week.
Second when my wife told me my son found them, I immediately had a sick feeling like I had been caught! What a great time for this. Some will say the nic bitch is sneaky.
Other times, she is just desperate and does something stupid.
I don't miss that sick feeling I got when I was caught and pathetic. Just to remember that has me more determined to stay quit.
Yeah I am so glad that is in the past. Anyone hurting, you will be glad you quit, just stay on course and win your match today!!!!
The bitch is pathetic. You are not! Stay quit today and every today!
Are you living a parallel life to me?
I wrote this in September:
Today, I had a pretty shitty moment despite the fact that I am becoming more and more centered.
My oldest's friend came over to play, and they found my old hiding spot of cans. I thought I had cleaned them all out. I even had gone so far as to show Mrs. Panel it in case she suspected I had started again a few months ago.
Anyways, they had magnets and managed to attract a can. Then another. Then another.
There were 4 all together, and the boys thought this shit was cool.
They decided to hide them places, and use the magnets to pick them up.
Imagine my surprise to walk downstairs and find 3 kids playing Skoal cans.
I gave all of them the trapjaw "You don't want to do this" speech, and told them how bad it was to quit. I explained to each of them that I had started because it made my head feel funny and I liked it. Before I knew it, I didn't want to do it anymore but didn't really know how to stop (but mostly just afraid). I told them that my body pretty much hated me for a long ass time, and that there are still days where my jaw is sore or my mind tells me it sounds good. Then I told them my day count, and that I remember that so I know that it is no longer an option in my life.
It pretty much sucked.
I haven't been that ashamed of it in a long time, and I remember why I explained it off in the past as "adult stuff". Shit is hard to explain, and takes a toll on you when you see curious non-understanding eyes.
The whore knows your weaknesses, and she will hit you square in the nuts when she gets a chance hoping to crack your armor.
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Day 370
So my son was going to St. George for the weekend and wanted to borrow some of my golf clubs. He goes through my bag and there were two cans of skoal.Â
This troubled me on two fronts. First It has been over 370 days since I golfed! I used to go at least once a week.Â
Second when my wife told me my son found them, I immediately had a sick feeling like I had been caught! What a great time for this. Some will say the nic bitch is sneaky.Â
Other times, she is just desperate and does something stupid.Â
I don't miss that sick feeling I got when I was caught and pathetic. Just to remember that has me more determined to stay quit.
Yeah I am so glad that is in the past. Anyone hurting, you will be glad you quit, just stay on course and win your match today!!!!Â
The bitch is pathetic. You are not! Stay quit today and every today!
Are you living a parallel life to me?
I wrote this in September:
Today, I had a pretty shitty moment despite the fact that I am becoming more and more centered.
My oldest's friend came over to play, and they found my old hiding spot of cans. I thought I had cleaned them all out. I even had gone so far as to show Mrs. Panel it in case she suspected I had started again a few months ago.
Anyways, they had magnets and managed to attract a can. Then another. Then another.
There were 4 all together, and the boys thought this shit was cool.
They decided to hide them places, and use the magnets to pick them up.
Imagine my surprise to walk downstairs and find 3 kids playing Skoal cans.
I gave all of them the trapjaw "You don't want to do this" speech, and told them how bad it was to quit. I explained to each of them that I had started because it made my head feel funny and I liked it. Before I knew it, I didn't want to do it anymore but didn't really know how to stop (but mostly just afraid). I told them that my body pretty much hated me for a long ass time, and that there are still days where my jaw is sore or my mind tells me it sounds good. Then I told them my day count, and that I remember that so I know that it is no longer an option in my life.
It pretty much sucked.
I haven't been that ashamed of it in a long time, and I remember why I explained it off in the past as "adult stuff". Shit is hard to explain, and takes a toll on you when you see curious non-understanding eyes.
The whore knows your weaknesses, and she will hit you square in the nuts when she gets a chance hoping to crack your armor.
I sometimes wonder if we are all so similar because of the addiction or if we are similar because we are human.
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Day 370
So my son was going to St. George for the weekend and wanted to borrow some of my golf clubs. He goes through my bag and there were two cans of skoal.Â
This troubled me on two fronts. First It has been over 370 days since I golfed! I used to go at least once a week.Â
Second when my wife told me my son found them, I immediately had a sick feeling like I had been caught! What a great time for this. Some will say the nic bitch is sneaky.Â
Other times, she is just desperate and does something stupid. Â
I don't miss that sick feeling I got when I was caught and pathetic. Just to remember that has me more determined to stay quit.
Yeah I am so glad that is in the past. Anyone hurting, you will be glad you quit, just stay on course and win your match today!!!! Â
The bitch is pathetic. You are not! Stay quit today and every today!
Are you living a parallel life to me?
I wrote this in September:
Today, I had a pretty shitty moment despite the fact that I am becoming more and more centered.
My oldest's friend came over to play, and they found my old hiding spot of cans. I thought I had cleaned them all out. I even had gone so far as to show Mrs. Panel it in case she suspected I had started again a few months ago.
Anyways, they had magnets and managed to attract a can. Then another. Then another.
There were 4 all together, and the boys thought this shit was cool.
They decided to hide them places, and use the magnets to pick them up.
Imagine my surprise to walk downstairs and find 3 kids playing Skoal cans.
I gave all of them the trapjaw "You don't want to do this" speech, and told them how bad it was to quit. I explained to each of them that I had started because it made my head feel funny and I liked it. Before I knew it, I didn't want to do it anymore but didn't really know how to stop (but mostly just afraid). I told them that my body pretty much hated me for a long ass time, and that there are still days where my jaw is sore or my mind tells me it sounds good. Then I told them my day count, and that I remember that so I know that it is no longer an option in my life.
It pretty much sucked.
I haven't been that ashamed of it in a long time, and I remember why I explained it off in the past as "adult stuff". Shit is hard to explain, and takes a toll on you when you see curious non-understanding eyes.
The whore knows your weaknesses, and she will hit you square in the nuts when she gets a chance hoping to crack your armor.
I sometimes wonder if we are all so similar because of the addiction or if we are similar because we are human.
Very good observation! Both are right in my view. As addicts we have experiences and observations that are unique to us. A person that hasn't dealt with addiction would have a very difficult time understanding us. My wife still struggles to understand how I'm still tempted after a year.
On the other hand we humans live lives that are often in parallel. We face temptation and curiosity about possible varied paths we can take in life. As we know some of those paths are spring loaded and very difficult to reverse. It's human nature to be curious and explore. Not listening to the warnings of others is part of living.
We addicts had warnings all around us but did we heed the warnings? Hell No! The real question that I search for is: why are we addicts alike (we all ignored warnings)! Why do some humans heed the warnings and avoid the pitfalls?
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Day 370
So my son was going to St. George for the weekend and wanted to borrow some of my golf clubs. He goes through my bag and there were two cans of skoal.Â
This troubled me on two fronts. First It has been over 370 days since I golfed! I used to go at least once a week.Â
Second when my wife told me my son found them, I immediately had a sick feeling like I had been caught! What a great time for this. Some will say the nic bitch is sneaky.Â
Other times, she is just desperate and does something stupid. Â
I don't miss that sick feeling I got when I was caught and pathetic. Just to remember that has me more determined to stay quit.
Yeah I am so glad that is in the past. Anyone hurting, you will be glad you quit, just stay on course and win your match today!!!! Â
The bitch is pathetic. You are not! Stay quit today and every today!
Are you living a parallel life to me?
I wrote this in September:
Today, I had a pretty shitty moment despite the fact that I am becoming more and more centered.
My oldest's friend came over to play, and they found my old hiding spot of cans. I thought I had cleaned them all out. I even had gone so far as to show Mrs. Panel it in case she suspected I had started again a few months ago.
Anyways, they had magnets and managed to attract a can. Then another. Then another.
There were 4 all together, and the boys thought this shit was cool.
They decided to hide them places, and use the magnets to pick them up.
Imagine my surprise to walk downstairs and find 3 kids playing Skoal cans.
I gave all of them the trapjaw "You don't want to do this" speech, and told them how bad it was to quit. I explained to each of them that I had started because it made my head feel funny and I liked it. Before I knew it, I didn't want to do it anymore but didn't really know how to stop (but mostly just afraid). I told them that my body pretty much hated me for a long ass time, and that there are still days where my jaw is sore or my mind tells me it sounds good. Then I told them my day count, and that I remember that so I know that it is no longer an option in my life.
It pretty much sucked.
I haven't been that ashamed of it in a long time, and I remember why I explained it off in the past as "adult stuff". Shit is hard to explain, and takes a toll on you when you see curious non-understanding eyes.
The whore knows your weaknesses, and she will hit you square in the nuts when she gets a chance hoping to crack your armor.
I sometimes wonder if we are all so similar because of the addiction or if we are similar because we are human.
Very good observation! Both are right in my view. As addicts we have experiences and observations that are unique to us. A person that hasn't dealt with addiction would have a very difficult time understanding us. My wife still struggles to understand how I'm still tempted after a year.
On the other hand we humans live lives that are often in parallel. We face temptation and curiosity about possible varied paths we can take in life. As we know some of those paths are spring loaded and very difficult to reverse. It's human nature to be curious and explore. Not listening to the warnings of others is part of living.
We addicts had warnings all around us but did we heed the warnings? Hell No! The real question that I search for is: why are we addicts alike (we all ignored warnings)! Why do some humans heed the warnings and avoid the pitfalls?
Why ask why. Just fucking quit...that's my motto now. I spend too much time dwelling on questions I can answer and it fucks with me. Perhaps I am a simpleton.
I do agree we are alike because of our addiction and common race, which is human. My brain hurts trying to figure out why. WT, when you crack the code for that let me know...I'm very curious.
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Today is 400 days nicotine free!!!!
Nicotine and the call for tobacco is so easy to fight and win now. I rarely think about it. Don't get me wrong, I get a crave usually in a gas station with tin on display but it is so easy to say, "Not today".
Why when it was so hard a year ago, is it so easy now?
1st - I am a trained quitter. I know how this works....I am stronger.
2nd - I value being quit. To cave is pointless. I wan't to stay undefeated.
400 days ago, I felt like I broke up with my high school sweetheart. Now, I find tobacco smokers and chewers to be, well pathetic. It is an obvious poison that they "need" to make it through stress? To party and celebrate or to relax?
I was once pathetic but I now am free.
I love the war! I will never swear an allegiance to tobacco. The nic-bitch can kiss my ass.
The days of suck, drama, pain and hurt are past. Now I just enjoy being a quitter and I enjoy new quitters willing to go to war every damn day! Keep going and value your quit more than the crave.
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Today is 400 days nicotine free!!!!
Nicotine and the call for tobacco is so easy to fight and win now. I rarely think about it. Don't get me wrong, I get a crave usually in a gas station with tin on display but it is so easy to say, "Not today".
Why when it was so hard a year ago, is it so easy now?
1st - I am a trained quitter. I know how this works....I am stronger.
2nd - I value being quit. To cave is pointless. I wan't to stay undefeated.
400 days ago, I felt like I broke up with my high school sweetheart. Now, I find tobacco smokers and chewers to be, well pathetic. It is an obvious poison that they "need" to make it through stress? To party and celebrate or to relax?
I was once pathetic but I now am free.
I love the war! I will never swear an allegiance to tobacco. The nic-bitch can kiss my ass.
The days of suck, drama, pain and hurt are past. Now I just enjoy being a quitter and I enjoy new quitters willing to go to war every damn day! Keep going and value your quit more than the crave.
BAD ASS!!!!
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Today is 400 days nicotine free!!!!
Nicotine and the call for tobacco is so easy to fight and win now. I rarely think about it. Don't get me wrong, I get a crave usually in a gas station with tin on display but it is so easy to say, "Not today".Â
Why when it was so hard a year ago, is it so easy now?Â
1st - I am a trained quitter. I know how this works....I am stronger.Â
2nd - I value being quit. To cave is pointless. I wan't to stay undefeated. Â
400 days ago, I felt like I broke up with my high school sweetheart. Now, I find tobacco smokers and chewers to be, well pathetic. It is an obvious poison that they "need" to make it through stress? To party and celebrate or to relax?Â
I was once pathetic but I now am free.
I love the war! I will never swear an allegiance to tobacco. The nic-bitch can kiss my ass.Â
The days of suck, drama, pain and hurt are past. Now I just enjoy being a quitter and I enjoy new quitters willing to go to war every damn day! Keep going and value your quit more than the crave.
BAD ASS!!!!
great job!
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Today is 400 days nicotine free!!!!
Nicotine and the call for tobacco is so easy to fight and win now. I rarely think about it. Don't get me wrong, I get a crave usually in a gas station with tin on display but it is so easy to say, "Not today".Â
Why when it was so hard a year ago, is it so easy now?Â
1st - I am a trained quitter. I know how this works....I am stronger.Â
2nd - I value being quit. To cave is pointless. I wan't to stay undefeated. Â
400 days ago, I felt like I broke up with my high school sweetheart. Now, I find tobacco smokers and chewers to be, well pathetic. It is an obvious poison that they "need" to make it through stress? To party and celebrate or to relax?Â
I was once pathetic but I now am free.
I love the war! I will never swear an allegiance to tobacco. The nic-bitch can kiss my ass. Â
The days of suck, drama, pain and hurt are past. Now I just enjoy being a quitter and I enjoy new quitters willing to go to war every damn day! Keep going and value your quit more than the crave.
BAD ASS!!!!
great job!
Congrats!!BAD ASS INDEED
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Today is 400 days nicotine free!!!!
Nicotine and the call for tobacco is so easy to fight and win now. I rarely think about it. Don't get me wrong, I get a crave usually in a gas station with tin on display but it is so easy to say, "Not today".Â
Why when it was so hard a year ago, is it so easy now?Â
1st - I am a trained quitter. I know how this works....I am stronger.Â
2nd - I value being quit. To cave is pointless. I wan't to stay undefeated. Â
400 days ago, I felt like I broke up with my high school sweetheart. Now, I find tobacco smokers and chewers to be, well pathetic. It is an obvious poison that they "need" to make it through stress? To party and celebrate or to relax?Â
I was once pathetic but I now am free.
I love the war! I will never swear an allegiance to tobacco. The nic-bitch can kiss my ass. Â
The days of suck, drama, pain and hurt are past. Now I just enjoy being a quitter and I enjoy new quitters willing to go to war every damn day! Keep going and value your quit more than the crave.
BAD ASS!!!!
great job!
Congrats!!BAD ASS INDEED
I'm quit with you everyday Mt. You inspire me regularly.
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Today is 400 days nicotine free!!!!
Nicotine and the call for tobacco is so easy to fight and win now. I rarely think about it. Don't get me wrong, I get a crave usually in a gas station with tin on display but it is so easy to say, "Not today".Â
Why when it was so hard a year ago, is it so easy now?Â
1st - I am a trained quitter. I know how this works....I am stronger.Â
2nd - I value being quit. To cave is pointless. I wan't to stay undefeated. Â
400 days ago, I felt like I broke up with my high school sweetheart. Now, I find tobacco smokers and chewers to be, well pathetic. It is an obvious poison that they "need" to make it through stress? To party and celebrate or to relax?Â
I was once pathetic but I now am free.
I love the war! I will never swear an allegiance to tobacco. The nic-bitch can kiss my ass. Â
The days of suck, drama, pain and hurt are past. Now I just enjoy being a quitter and I enjoy new quitters willing to go to war every damn day! Keep going and value your quit more than the crave.
BAD ASS!!!!
great job!
Congrats!!BAD ASS INDEED
I'm quit with you everyday Mt. You inspire me regularly.
Great work brother keep on kicking nic's ass one day at a time, somedays she needs the big boot but most days just a simple nope does the trick!
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Today is 400 days nicotine free!!!!
Nicotine and the call for tobacco is so easy to fight and win now. I rarely think about it. Don't get me wrong, I get a crave usually in a gas station with tin on display but it is so easy to say, "Not today".Â
Why when it was so hard a year ago, is it so easy now?Â
1st - I am a trained quitter. I know how this works....I am stronger.Â
2nd - I value being quit. To cave is pointless. I wan't to stay undefeated. Â
400 days ago, I felt like I broke up with my high school sweetheart. Now, I find tobacco smokers and chewers to be, well pathetic. It is an obvious poison that they "need" to make it through stress? To party and celebrate or to relax?Â
I was once pathetic but I now am free.
I love the war! I will never swear an allegiance to tobacco. The nic-bitch can kiss my ass. Â
The days of suck, drama, pain and hurt are past. Now I just enjoy being a quitter and I enjoy new quitters willing to go to war every damn day! Keep going and value your quit more than the crave.
BAD ASS!!!!
great job!
Congrats!!BAD ASS INDEED
I'm quit with you everyday Mt. You inspire me regularly.
Great work brother keep on kicking nic's ass one day at a time, somedays she needs the big boot but most days just a simple nope does the trick!
Well Done Sir!!!
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Today is 400 days nicotine free!!!!
Nicotine and the call for tobacco is so easy to fight and win now. I rarely think about it. Don't get me wrong, I get a crave usually in a gas station with tin on display but it is so easy to say, "Not today".Â
Why when it was so hard a year ago, is it so easy now?Â
1st - I am a trained quitter. I know how this works....I am stronger.Â
2nd - I value being quit. To cave is pointless. I wan't to stay undefeated. Â
400 days ago, I felt like I broke up with my high school sweetheart. Now, I find tobacco smokers and chewers to be, well pathetic. It is an obvious poison that they "need" to make it through stress? To party and celebrate or to relax?Â
I was once pathetic but I now am free.
I love the war! I will never swear an allegiance to tobacco. The nic-bitch can kiss my ass. Â
The days of suck, drama, pain and hurt are past. Now I just enjoy being a quitter and I enjoy new quitters willing to go to war every damn day! Keep going and value your quit more than the crave.
BAD ASS!!!!
great job!
Congrats!!BAD ASS INDEED
I'm quit with you everyday Mt. You inspire me regularly.
Great work brother keep on kicking nic's ass one day at a time, somedays she needs the big boot but most days just a simple nope does the trick!
Well Done Sir!!!
I was just 4 days quit when you hit the hof... Maybe it was just the wrestling singlet avatar but you helped me through the suck. Congrats on the well earned 4th floor!
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Today is 400 days nicotine free!!!!
Nicotine and the call for tobacco is so easy to fight and win now. I rarely think about it. Don't get me wrong, I get a crave usually in a gas station with tin on display but it is so easy to say, "Not today".Â
Why when it was so hard a year ago, is it so easy now?Â
1st - I am a trained quitter. I know how this works....I am stronger.Â
2nd - I value being quit. To cave is pointless. I wan't to stay undefeated. Â
400 days ago, I felt like I broke up with my high school sweetheart. Now, I find tobacco smokers and chewers to be, well pathetic. It is an obvious poison that they "need" to make it through stress? To party and celebrate or to relax?Â
I was once pathetic but I now am free.
I love the war! I will never swear an allegiance to tobacco. The nic-bitch can kiss my ass. Â
The days of suck, drama, pain and hurt are past. Now I just enjoy being a quitter and I enjoy new quitters willing to go to war every damn day! Keep going and value your quit more than the crave.
BAD ASS!!!!
great job!
Congrats!!BAD ASS INDEED
I'm quit with you everyday Mt. You inspire me regularly.
Great work brother keep on kicking nic's ass one day at a time, somedays she needs the big boot but most days just a simple nope does the trick!
Well Done Sir!!!
I was just 4 days quit when you hit the hof... Maybe it was just the wrestling singlet avatar but you helped me through the suck. Congrats on the well earned 4th floor!
Belated congrats Mark! Thanks for all your help and support along the way. Time for setting another goal, one day at a time. Always be quit with you and the rest of us who take our lives and families seriously.
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Day 422
Mother's day is around the corner. I just ordered and have flowers being delivered.
You all should get your Mother tested this year. 'crackup'
Quitting Tobacco is easy but I realize that other addictions are lurking. Life is a fight, keep fighting.
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Day 422
Mother's day is around the corner. I just ordered and have flowers being delivered.
You all should get your Mother tested this year. 'crackup'
Quitting Tobacco is easy but I realize that other addictions are lurking. Life is a fight, keep fighting.
What are you testing for?
Lets pick some good addictions and go for them.
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Today is 450 days in a row that I quit
If you are new in this battle, do the plan, build support and never, never surrender to nicotine today. When it's today, fight no worries about tomorrow just today.
Day after day, it adds up. The burden of my quit is a piece of cake today. Keep fighting and keep quitting. You will prefer a quit life!!!
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Four Hundred Sixty Days nic free.
"Now remember, Things look bad and it looks like you're not gonna make it, then you gotta get mean. I mean plumb, mad-dog mean. 'cause if you lose your head and you give up then you neither win or live.
That's just the way it is."
Stay quit, it gets easier until one day you will look back and love the journey...and wonder why you didn't start this quit sooner.
I am proud to be a quitter. Thank you kTC, I no longer have the nicotine parasite infecting me and making my body, mind and spirit sick! I am now on track to be healthy and wise.
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Four Hundred Sixty Days nic free.
"Now remember, Things look bad and it looks like you're not gonna make it, then you gotta get mean. I mean plumb, mad-dog mean. 'cause if you lose your head and you give up then you neither win or live.
That's just the way it is."
Stay quit, it gets easier until one day you will look back and love the journey...and wonder why you didn't start this quit sooner.
I am proud to be a quitter. Thank you kTC, I no longer have the nicotine parasite infecting me and making my body, mind and spirit sick! I am now on track to be healthy and wise.
I'm proud to be a quitter with you as well Mark! Glad to see you active in here again as your journey can easily inspire new and veteran quitters alike.
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Four Hundred Sixty Days nic free.Â
"Now remember, Things look bad and it looks like you're not gonna make it, then you gotta get mean. I mean plumb, mad-dog mean. 'cause if you lose your head and you give up then you neither win or live.
That's just the way it is."
Stay quit, it gets easier until one day you will look back and love the journey...and wonder why you didn't start this quit sooner.
I am proud to be a quitter. Thank you kTC, I no longer have the nicotine parasite infecting me and making my body, mind and spirit sick! I am now on track to be healthy and wise.
I'm proud to be a quitter with you as well Mark! Glad to see you active in here again as your journey can easily inspire new and veteran quitters alike.
I quit with You Mark and You too Eric.
you guys inspire! :)
Quit on! 'bang head'
ODAAT and NAFAR
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Day 467
Well it has been over a year since I made it 100 days and got my first "Trophy" that let me know..nicotine is beatable. I was cleaning out my nightstand drawer and came across a card.
The front of the card said, "Checklist"
Below it, "kick ass" and "Take Names" was checked off.
Inside the card, it said, "Way to Go!"
With short notes from my wife and kids celebrating my 100 days of freedom.
I have 3 more trophy's in my case and set another milestone goal to add my 5th floor trophy in the case.
That card reminded me that once I put my mistress nicotine in front of them, now you can't put a value. No money or price can equal my joy to be a leader in my home and for my family.
Quit on, the bitch is beatable and the rewards are priceless and endless. Fight today!
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Day 467
Well it has been over a year since I made it 100 days and got my first "Trophy" that let me know..nicotine is beatable. I was cleaning out my nightstand drawer and came across a card.
The front of the card said, "Checklist"
Below it, "kick ass" and "Take Names" was checked off.
Inside the card, it said, "Way to Go!"
With short notes from my wife and kids celebrating my 100 days of freedom.
I have 3 more trophy's in my case and set another milestone goal to add my 5th floor trophy in the case.
That card reminded me that once I put my mistress nicotine in front of them, now you can't put a value. No money or price can equal my joy to be a leader in my home and for my family.
Quit on, the bitch is beatable and the rewards are priceless and endless. Fight today!
Just read this and your HOF speech. Really beautiful stuff. Your wife and kids are lucky.
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Day 467
Well it has been over a year since I made it 100 days and got my first "Trophy" that let me know..nicotine is beatable. I was cleaning out my nightstand drawer and came across a card.Â
The front of the card said, "Checklist"
Below it, "kick ass" and "Take Names" was checked off.Â
Inside the card, it said, "Way to Go!"
With short notes from my wife and kids celebrating my 100 days of freedom.Â
I have 3 more trophy's in my case and set another milestone goal to add my 5th floor trophy in the case.Â
That card reminded me that once I put my mistress nicotine in front of them, now you can't put a value. No money or price can equal my joy to be a leader in my home and for my family.Â
Quit on, the bitch is beatable and the rewards are priceless and endless. Fight today!
Just read this and your HOF speech. Really beautiful stuff. Your wife and kids are lucky.
Proud of you as always Mark, half comma on the horizon!
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Day 467
Well it has been over a year since I made it 100 days and got my first "Trophy" that let me know..nicotine is beatable. I was cleaning out my nightstand drawer and came across a card.Â
The front of the card said, "Checklist"
Below it, "kick ass" and "Take Names" was checked off.Â
Inside the card, it said, "Way to Go!"
With short notes from my wife and kids celebrating my 100 days of freedom.Â
I have 3 more trophy's in my case and set another milestone goal to add my 5th floor trophy in the case.Â
That card reminded me that once I put my mistress nicotine in front of them, now you can't put a value. No money or price can equal my joy to be a leader in my home and for my family.Â
Quit on, the bitch is beatable and the rewards are priceless and endless. Fight today!
Just read this and your HOF speech. Really beautiful stuff. Your wife and kids are lucky.
Proud of you as always Mark, half comma on the horizon!
:)
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Day 467
Well it has been over a year since I made it 100 days and got my first "Trophy" that let me know..nicotine is beatable. I was cleaning out my nightstand drawer and came across a card.Â
The front of the card said, "Checklist"
Below it, "kick ass" and "Take Names" was checked off.Â
Inside the card, it said, "Way to Go!"
With short notes from my wife and kids celebrating my 100 days of freedom.Â
I have 3 more trophy's in my case and set another milestone goal to add my 5th floor trophy in the case.Â
That card reminded me that once I put my mistress nicotine in front of them, now you can't put a value. No money or price can equal my joy to be a leader in my home and for my family.Â
Quit on, the bitch is beatable and the rewards are priceless and endless. Fight today!
Just read this and your HOF speech. Really beautiful stuff. Your wife and kids are lucky.
Proud of you as always Mark, half comma on the horizon!
:)
what he said ^^^^ Awesome!
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Day 467
Well it has been over a year since I made it 100 days and got my first "Trophy" that let me know..nicotine is beatable. I was cleaning out my nightstand drawer and came across a card.Â
The front of the card said, "Checklist"
Below it, "kick ass" and "Take Names" was checked off.Â
Inside the card, it said, "Way to Go!"
With short notes from my wife and kids celebrating my 100 days of freedom.Â
I have 3 more trophy's in my case and set another milestone goal to add my 5th floor trophy in the case.Â
That card reminded me that once I put my mistress nicotine in front of them, now you can't put a value. No money or price can equal my joy to be a leader in my home and for my family.Â
Quit on, the bitch is beatable and the rewards are priceless and endless. Fight today!
Just read this and your HOF speech. Really beautiful stuff. Your wife and kids are lucky.
Proud of you as always Mark, half comma on the horizon!
:)
what he said ^^^^ Awesome!
Thanks, this was a must insert for me to put in the journal. For some reason, when the seduction begins, it is easy for me to forget and I am slow to remember how good and great it feels to be a man of your word.
I am trying to keep the tools sharp and this was a moment where I sharpened my blades and am ready to protect my freedom. We are quit so now we all must secure our freedom.
Thanks to all of you for watching my back and warning me when it seems like I get lost. If it wasn't for you addicts, I would still be using...even if I wanted to quit. You all turned the power on my side and she is beatable. Actually a predictable foe is always beatable because the strategy never has to change.
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Day 470
I have spent a lot of time on the site because I feel a need to stay close for a bit. I am an emotional wreck and my funk isn't induced by my battle with nicotine, (that has been a piece of cake) It has been my feeling like nicotine, alcohol, prescription drugs, illegal drugs "Addiction" is just taking over and winning.
My sensitivity to failure is because I feel like I can't control your quit which then becomes inner self discovery that I can't control mine????
I see people here every damn day quitting and staying in the fight. Then seeing someone surrender wondering why they didn't stay with the plan. Seeing things for what they are. You can only offer help and what you can give may be rejected but you offer it anyway. Call out the addicted mind bullshit then move on to help the true and humble addict that can't do this alone but is willing to do anything to quit.
Suddenly victories are shared. HOF, One years, 500 days, a thousand and come back cavers who return (clean out the wound and follow the plan) with a better understanding.
Then I feel excited...this is great, I needed to see and feel that victory! This is a great stuff. Today, I think, "I'm lucky to be an addict." Did I just say that? Yeah and I think I truly mean it.
In Cmark's words. Religious people are afraid to go to hell. Spiritual people have already been there and chose not to go back. My addiction opens my eyes to humility and faith. I don't know if I would understand those words if I didn't know the exact opposite feeling.
Now I take a deep breath knowing that my beautiful sister may not live for long because of her addictions. I love my little sister and wish she would get better but I can't convince her of anything right now.
In all this, I feel blessed. I am calm in what others would think is turmoil but life is good.
Are we spirits having a human experience or humans having a spiritual experience?
Today this is what my brain is like. Mellow but unique. Felling alone, but at peace and even a desert is beautiful is beautiful and tranquil to reflect on freedom.
Click for a moment of reflection (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cgovv8jWETM)
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Day 470
I have spent a lot of time on the site because I feel a need to stay close for a bit. I am an emotional wreck and my funk isn't induced by my battle with nicotine, (that has been a piece of cake) It has been my feeling like nicotine, alcohol, prescription drugs, illegal drugs "Addiction" is just taking over and winning.
My sensitivity to failure is because I feel like I can't control your quit which then becomes inner self discovery that I can't control mine????
I see people here every damn day quitting and staying in the fight. Then seeing someone surrender wondering why they didn't stay with the plan. Seeing things for what they are. You can only offer help and what you can give may be rejected but you offer it anyway. Call out the addicted mind bullshit then move on to help the true and humble addict that can't do this alone but is willing to do anything to quit.
Suddenly victories are shared. HOF, One years, 500 days, a thousand and come back cavers who return (clean out the wound and follow the plan) with a better understanding.
Then I feel excited...this is great, I needed to see and feel that victory! This is a great stuff. Today, I think, "I'm lucky to be an addict." Did I just say that? Yeah and I think I truly mean it.
In Cmark's words. Religious people are afraid to go to hell. Spiritual people have already been there and chose not to go back. My addiction opens my eyes to humility and faith. I don't know if I would understand those words if I didn't know the exact opposite feeling.
Now I take a deep breath knowing that my beautiful sister may not live for long because of her addictions. I love my little sister and wish she would get better but I can't convince her of anything right now.
In all this, I feel blessed. I am calm in what others would think is turmoil but life is good.
Are we spirits having a human experience or humans having a spiritual experience?
Today this is what my brain is like. Mellow but unique. Felling alone, but at peace and even a desert is beautiful is beautiful and tranquil to reflect on freedom.
Click for a moment of reflection (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cgovv8jWETM)
That is solid..Some serious quit wisdom in here today. Thanks
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Day 470
I have spent a lot of time on the site because I feel a need to stay close for a bit. I am an emotional wreck and my funk isn't induced by my battle with nicotine, (that has been a piece of cake) It has been my feeling like nicotine, alcohol, prescription drugs, illegal drugs "Addiction" is just taking over and winning.
My sensitivity to failure is because I feel like I can't control your quit which then becomes inner self discovery that I can't control mine????
I see people here every damn day quitting and staying in the fight. Then seeing someone surrender wondering why they didn't stay with the plan. Seeing things for what they are. You can only offer help and what you can give may be rejected but you offer it anyway. Call out the addicted mind bullshit then move on to help the true and humble addict that can't do this alone but is willing to do anything to quit.
Suddenly victories are shared. HOF, One years, 500 days, a thousand and come back cavers who return (clean out the wound and follow the plan) with a better understanding.
Then I feel excited...this is great, I needed to see and feel that victory! This is a great stuff. Today, I think, "I'm lucky to be an addict." Did I just say that? Yeah and I think I truly mean it.
In Cmark's words. Religious people are afraid to go to hell. Spiritual people have already been there and chose not to go back. My addiction opens my eyes to humility and faith. I don't know if I would understand those words if I didn't know the exact opposite feeling.
Now I take a deep breath knowing that my beautiful sister may not live for long because of her addictions. I love my little sister and wish she would get better but I can't convince her of anything right now.
In all this, I feel blessed. I am calm in what others would think is turmoil but life is good.
Are we spirits having a human experience or humans having a spiritual experience?
Today this is what my brain is like. Mellow but unique. Felling alone, but at peace and even a desert is beautiful is beautiful and tranquil to reflect on freedom.
Click for a moment of reflection (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cgovv8jWETM)
'clap'
kind of like that every damn day thing
I find peace at no longer battling the 'fear of quitting' but directing the fight 'point blank at the enemy' and you are 100% correct about the frustration when a KTC member,after tasting the freedom, returns as a caver.
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Day 470
I have spent a lot of time on the site because I feel a need to stay close for a bit. I am an emotional wreck and my funk isn't induced by my battle with nicotine, (that has been a piece of cake) It has been my feeling like nicotine, alcohol, prescription drugs, illegal drugs "Addiction" is just taking over and winning.
My sensitivity to failure is because I feel like I can't control your quit which then becomes inner self discovery that I can't control mine????
I see people here every damn day quitting and staying in the fight. Then seeing someone surrender wondering why they didn't stay with the plan. Seeing things for what they are. You can only offer help and what you can give may be rejected but you offer it anyway. Call out the addicted mind bullshit then move on to help the true and humble addict that can't do this alone but is willing to do anything to quit.
Suddenly victories are shared. HOF, One years, 500 days, a thousand and come back cavers who return (clean out the wound and follow the plan) with a better understanding.
Then I feel excited...this is great, I needed to see and feel that victory! This is a great stuff. Today, I think, "I'm lucky to be an addict." Did I just say that? Yeah and I think I truly mean it.
In Cmark's words. Religious people are afraid to go to hell. Spiritual people have already been there and chose not to go back. My addiction opens my eyes to humility and faith. I don't know if I would understand those words if I didn't know the exact opposite feeling.
Now I take a deep breath knowing that my beautiful sister may not live for long because of her addictions. I love my little sister and wish she would get better but I can't convince her of anything right now.
In all this, I feel blessed. I am calm in what others would think is turmoil but life is good.
Are we spirits having a human experience or humans having a spiritual experience?
Today this is what my brain is like. Mellow but unique. Felling alone, but at peace and even a desert is beautiful is beautiful and tranquil to reflect on freedom.
Click for a moment of reflection (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cgovv8jWETM)
You are an empathetic individual who is getting healthier and stronger daily. Sometimes, that just hurts.
Today, I'll abide with you.
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Double post
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Day 470
I have spent a lot of time on the site because I feel a need to stay close for a bit. I am an emotional wreck and my funk isn't induced by my battle with nicotine, (that has been a piece of cake) It has been my feeling like nicotine, alcohol, prescription drugs, illegal drugs "Addiction" is just taking over and winning.Â
My sensitivity to failure is because I feel like I can't control your quit which then becomes inner self discovery that I can't control mine????Â
I see people here every damn day quitting and staying in the fight. Then seeing someone surrender wondering why they didn't stay with the plan. Seeing things for what they are. You can only offer help and what you can give may be rejected but you offer it anyway. Call out the addicted mind bullshit then move on to help the true and humble addict that can't do this alone but is willing to do anything to quit.Â
Suddenly victories are shared. HOF, One years, 500 days, a thousand and come back cavers who return (clean out the wound and follow the plan) with a better understanding.Â
Then I feel excited...this is great, I needed to see and feel that victory! This is a great stuff. Today, I think, "I'm lucky to be an addict." Did I just say that? Yeah and I think I truly mean it.Â
In Cmark's words. Religious people are afraid to go to hell. Spiritual people have already been there and chose not to go back. My addiction opens my eyes to humility and faith. I don't know if I would understand those words if I didn't know the exact opposite feeling.Â
Now I take a deep breath knowing that my beautiful sister may not live for long because of her addictions. I love my little sister and wish she would get better but I can't convince her of anything right now.
In all this, I feel blessed. I am calm in what others would think is turmoil but life is good.Â
Are we spirits having a human experience or humans having a spiritual experience?Â
Today this is what my brain is like. Mellow but unique. Felling alone, but at peace and even a desert is beautiful is beautiful and tranquil to reflect on freedom.Â
  Click for a moment of reflection (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cgovv8jWETM)
You are an empathetic individual who is getting healthier and stronger daily. Sometimes, that just hurts.
Today, I'll abide with you.
Sometimes being able to hold your head up and be calm in the midst of turmoil is the best example of strength. Well done sir!
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Day 470
I have spent a lot of time on the site because I feel a need to stay close for a bit. I am an emotional wreck and my funk isn't induced by my battle with nicotine, (that has been a piece of cake) It has been my feeling like nicotine, alcohol, prescription drugs, illegal drugs "Addiction" is just taking over and winning.Â
My sensitivity to failure is because I feel like I can't control your quit which then becomes inner self discovery that I can't control mine???? Â
I see people here every damn day quitting and staying in the fight. Then seeing someone surrender wondering why they didn't stay with the plan. Seeing things for what they are. You can only offer help and what you can give may be rejected but you offer it anyway. Call out the addicted mind bullshit then move on to help the true and humble addict that can't do this alone but is willing to do anything to quit. Â
Suddenly victories are shared. HOF, One years, 500 days, a thousand and come back cavers who return (clean out the wound and follow the plan) with a better understanding.Â
Then I feel excited...this is great, I needed to see and feel that victory! This is a great stuff. Today, I think, "I'm lucky to be an addict." Did I just say that? Yeah and I think I truly mean it.Â
In Cmark's words. Religious people are afraid to go to hell. Spiritual people have already been there and chose not to go back. My addiction opens my eyes to humility and faith. I don't know if I would understand those words if I didn't know the exact opposite feeling. Â
Now I take a deep breath knowing that my beautiful sister may not live for long because of her addictions. I love my little sister and wish she would get better but I can't convince her of anything right now.
In all this, I feel blessed. I am calm in what others would think is turmoil but life is good.Â
Are we spirits having a human experience or humans having a spiritual experience?Â
Today this is what my brain is like. Mellow but unique. Felling alone, but at peace and even a desert is beautiful is beautiful and tranquil to reflect on freedom. Â
  Click for a moment of reflection (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cgovv8jWETM)
You are an empathetic individual who is getting healthier and stronger daily. Sometimes, that just hurts.
Today, I'll abide with you.
Sometimes being able to hold your head up and be calm in the midst of turmoil is the best example of strength. Well done sir!
Thank you.
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Day 470
I have spent a lot of time on the site because I feel a need to stay close for a bit. I am an emotional wreck and my funk isn't induced by my battle with nicotine, (that has been a piece of cake) It has been my feeling like nicotine, alcohol, prescription drugs, illegal drugs "Addiction" is just taking over and winning.Â
My sensitivity to failure is because I feel like I can't control your quit which then becomes inner self discovery that I can't control mine???? Â
I see people here every damn day quitting and staying in the fight. Then seeing someone surrender wondering why they didn't stay with the plan. Seeing things for what they are. You can only offer help and what you can give may be rejected but you offer it anyway. Call out the addicted mind bullshit then move on to help the true and humble addict that can't do this alone but is willing to do anything to quit. Â
Suddenly victories are shared. HOF, One years, 500 days, a thousand and come back cavers who return (clean out the wound and follow the plan) with a better understanding.Â
Then I feel excited...this is great, I needed to see and feel that victory! This is a great stuff. Today, I think, "I'm lucky to be an addict." Did I just say that? Yeah and I think I truly mean it.Â
In Cmark's words. Religious people are afraid to go to hell. Spiritual people have already been there and chose not to go back. My addiction opens my eyes to humility and faith. I don't know if I would understand those words if I didn't know the exact opposite feeling. Â
Now I take a deep breath knowing that my beautiful sister may not live for long because of her addictions. I love my little sister and wish she would get better but I can't convince her of anything right now.
In all this, I feel blessed. I am calm in what others would think is turmoil but life is good.Â
Are we spirits having a human experience or humans having a spiritual experience?Â
Today this is what my brain is like. Mellow but unique. Felling alone, but at peace and even a desert is beautiful is beautiful and tranquil to reflect on freedom. Â
  Click for a moment of reflection (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cgovv8jWETM)
You are an empathetic individual who is getting healthier and stronger daily. Sometimes, that just hurts.
Today, I'll abide with you.
Sometimes being able to hold your head up and be calm in the midst of turmoil is the best example of strength. Well done sir!
Thank you.
X 2.... ^^^^^^^
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Day 470
I have spent a lot of time on the site because I feel a need to stay close for a bit.� I am an emotional wreck and my funk isn't induced by my battle with nicotine, (that has been a piece of cake)� It has been my feeling like nicotine, alcohol, prescription drugs, illegal drugs "Addiction" is just taking over and winning.�
My sensitivity to failure is because I feel like I can't control your quit which then becomes inner self discovery that I can't control mine????��
I see people here every damn day quitting and staying in the fight.� Then seeing someone surrender wondering why they didn't stay with the plan.� Seeing things for what they are.� You can only offer help and what you can give may be rejected but you offer it anyway.� Call out the addicted mind bullshit then move on to help the true and humble addict that can't do this alone but is willing to do anything to quit.��
Suddenly victories are shared.� HOF, One years, 500 days, a thousand and come back cavers who return (clean out the wound and follow the plan) with a better understanding.�
Then I feel excited...this is great, I needed to see and feel that victory!� This is a great stuff.� Today, I think, "I'm lucky to be an addict."� Did I just say that?� Yeah and I think I truly mean it.�
In Cmark's words.� Religious people are afraid to go to hell.� Spiritual people have already been there and chose not to go back.� My addiction opens my eyes to humility and faith.� I don't know if I would understand those words if I didn't know the exact opposite feeling.��
Now I take a deep breath knowing that my beautiful sister may not live for long because of her addictions.� I love my little sister and wish she would get better but I can't convince her of anything right now.
In all this, I feel blessed.� I am calm in what others would think is turmoil but life is good.�
Are we spirits having a human experience or humans having a spiritual experience?�
Today this is what my brain is like.� Mellow but unique. Felling alone, but at peace and even a desert is beautiful is beautiful and tranquil to reflect on freedom.��
� � Click for a moment of reflection (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cgovv8jWETM)
You are an empathetic individual who is getting healthier and stronger daily. Sometimes, that just hurts.
Today, I'll abide with you.
Sometimes being able to hold your head up and be calm in the midst of turmoil is the best example of strength. Well done sir!
Thank you.
X 2.... ^^^^^^^
If you need anything Mark, you've have my digits and are in my thoughts
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500 Days Today
I don't understand "prevent defense" in football. My team plays a great game with bitz and energy on defense. Then when they are up deep in the 4 quarter and still can lose the game; they go into "safe and soft" mode.
Why? They were playing brilliantly and then changed it because why? For most the game, they played to win, then they switch and play not to lose.
Defense is needed and good with nicotine. However, I don't play "prevent defense" with the nic bitch. I never, ever want to give up one yard to that bitch. (No matter the score at the time. I want her dead and if she is on her feet facing me, I go bat shit crazy and knock her out!)
I only suggest to you that nicotine is your enemy; a killer, liar and a subtle destructor of your spirit and physical well being. Hopefully, most the time you are on offense and scoring points but if you are on defense, don't play "not to lose" Defend your quit with passion! Prevent? Trust your team and knock the bitch down and take your ball back.
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500 Days Today
I don't understand "prevent defense" in football. My team plays a great game with bitz and energy on defense. Then when they are up deep in the 4 quarter and still can lose the game; they go into "safe and soft" mode.
Why? They were playing brilliantly and then changed it because why? For most the game, they played to win, then they switch and play not to lose.
Defense is needed and good with nicotine. However, I don't play "prevent defense" with the nic bitch. I never, ever want to give up one yard to that bitch. (No matter the score at the time. I want her dead and if she is on her feet facing me, I go bat shit crazy and knock her out!)
I only suggest to you that nicotine is your enemy; a killer, liar and a subtle destructor of your spirit and physical well being. Hopefully, most the time you are on offense and scoring points but if you are on defense, don't play "not to lose" Defend your quit with passion! Prevent? Trust your team and knock the bitch down and take your ball back.
True that !!!
Own it or be owned.
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500 Days Today
I don't understand "prevent defense" in football. My team plays a great game with bitz and energy on defense. Then when they are up deep in the 4 quarter and still can lose the game; they go into "safe and soft" mode.Â
Why? They were playing brilliantly and then changed it because why? For most the game, they played to win, then they switch and play not to lose.Â
Defense is needed and good with nicotine. However, I don't play "prevent defense" with the nic bitch. I never, ever want to give up one yard to that bitch. (No matter the score at the time. I want her dead and if she is on her feet facing me, I go bat shit crazy and knock her out!)Â
I only suggest to you that nicotine is your enemy; a killer, liar and a subtle destructor of your spirit and physical well being. Hopefully, most the time you are on offense and scoring points but if you are on defense, don't play "not to lose" Defend your quit with passion! Prevent? Trust your team and knock the bitch down and take your ball back.
True that !!!
Own it or be owned.
x2
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500 Days Today
I don't understand "prevent defense" in football. My team plays a great game with bitz and energy on defense. Then when they are up deep in the 4 quarter and still can lose the game; they go into "safe and soft" mode.Â
Why? They were playing brilliantly and then changed it because why? For most the game, they played to win, then they switch and play not to lose.Â
Defense is needed and good with nicotine. However, I don't play "prevent defense" with the nic bitch. I never, ever want to give up one yard to that bitch. (No matter the score at the time. I want her dead and if she is on her feet facing me, I go bat shit crazy and knock her out!) Â
I only suggest to you that nicotine is your enemy; a killer, liar and a subtle destructor of your spirit and physical well being. Hopefully, most the time you are on offense and scoring points but if you are on defense, don't play "not to lose" Defend your quit with passion! Prevent? Trust your team and knock the bitch down and take your ball back.
True that !!!
Own it or be owned.
x2
46 defense on the bitch all day long, no matter the time, situation, or score! Congrats MT on the half comma!
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500 Days Today
I don't understand "prevent defense" in football. My team plays a great game with bitz and energy on defense. Then when they are up deep in the 4 quarter and still can lose the game; they go into "safe and soft" mode.ÂÂ
Why? They were playing brilliantly and then changed it because why? For most the game, they played to win, then they switch and play not to lose.ÂÂ
Defense is needed and good with nicotine. However, I don't play "prevent defense" with the nic bitch. I never, ever want to give up one yard to that bitch. (No matter the score at the time. I want her dead and if she is on her feet facing me, I go bat shit crazy and knock her out!) Â
I only suggest to you that nicotine is your enemy; a killer, liar and a subtle destructor of your spirit and physical well being. Hopefully, most the time you are on offense and scoring points but if you are on defense, don't play "not to lose" Defend your quit with passion! Prevent? Trust your team and knock the bitch down and take your ball back.
True that !!!
Own it or be owned.
x2
46 defense on the bitch all day long, no matter the time, situation, or score! Congrats MT on the half comma!
:wub:
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500 Days Today
I don't understand "prevent defense" in football. My team plays a great game with bitz and energy on defense. Then when they are up deep in the 4 quarter and still can lose the game; they go into "safe and soft" mode.ÂÂ
Why? They were playing brilliantly and then changed it because why? For most the game, they played to win, then they switch and play not to lose.ÂÂ
Defense is needed and good with nicotine. However, I don't play "prevent defense" with the nic bitch. I never, ever want to give up one yard to that bitch. (No matter the score at the time. I want her dead and if she is on her feet facing me, I go bat shit crazy and knock her out!) Â
I only suggest to you that nicotine is your enemy; a killer, liar and a subtle destructor of your spirit and physical well being. Hopefully, most the time you are on offense and scoring points but if you are on defense, don't play "not to lose" Defend your quit with passion! Prevent? Trust your team and knock the bitch down and take your ball back.
True that !!!
Own it or be owned.
x2
46 defense on the bitch all day long, no matter the time, situation, or score! Congrats MT on the half comma!
:wub:
well done Mthomas, keep kicking ass and writing poetry, your quit has inspired me since I stumbled upon it, God speed to your sis and family
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500 Days Today
I don't understand "prevent defense" in football. My team plays a great game with bitz and energy on defense. Then when they are up deep in the 4 quarter and still can lose the game; they go into "safe and soft" mode.ÂÂ
Why? They were playing brilliantly and then changed it because why? For most the game, they played to win, then they switch and play not to lose.ÂÂ
Defense is needed and good with nicotine. However, I don't play "prevent defense" with the nic bitch. I never, ever want to give up one yard to that bitch. (No matter the score at the time. I want her dead and if she is on her feet facing me, I go bat shit crazy and knock her out!) Â
I only suggest to you that nicotine is your enemy; a killer, liar and a subtle destructor of your spirit and physical well being. Hopefully, most the time you are on offense and scoring points but if you are on defense, don't play "not to lose" Defend your quit with passion! Prevent? Trust your team and knock the bitch down and take your ball back.
True that !!!
Own it or be owned.
x2
46 defense on the bitch all day long, no matter the time, situation, or score! Congrats MT on the half comma!
:wub:
well done Mthomas, keep kicking ass and writing poetry, your quit has inspired me since I stumbled upon it, God speed to your sis and family
Great job brother!
Good luck to you and yours I always pray for the best for those who have gone into this battle with me!
Your quit and resolve has strengthened mine!
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500 Days Today
I don't understand "prevent defense" in football. My team plays a great game with bitz and energy on defense. Then when they are up deep in the 4 quarter and still can lose the game; they go into "safe and soft" mode.ÂÂ
Why? They were playing brilliantly and then changed it because why? For most the game, they played to win, then they switch and play not to lose.ÂÂ
Defense is needed and good with nicotine. However, I don't play "prevent defense" with the nic bitch. I never, ever want to give up one yard to that bitch. (No matter the score at the time. I want her dead and if she is on her feet facing me, I go bat shit crazy and knock her out!) Â
I only suggest to you that nicotine is your enemy; a killer, liar and a subtle destructor of your spirit and physical well being. Hopefully, most the time you are on offense and scoring points but if you are on defense, don't play "not to lose" Defend your quit with passion! Prevent? Trust your team and knock the bitch down and take your ball back.
True that !!!
Own it or be owned.
x2
46 defense on the bitch all day long, no matter the time, situation, or score! Congrats MT on the half comma!
:wub:
well done Mthomas, keep kicking ass and writing poetry, your quit has inspired me since I stumbled upon it, God speed to your sis and family
Great job brother!
Good luck to you and yours I always pray for the best for those who have gone into this battle with me!
Your quit and resolve has strengthened mine!
perfect
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Day 506
Addiction woes. You know, I once was really hyper about getting rid of all my addictions. I quit nicotine and still am undefeated! Then I lost all the weight I gained from my quit...only to gain it back. I would attempt to quit other things and had a couple relapses but for the most part, other vices simply weren't appealing to me anymore.
Quitting nicotine...I all the sudden desired to become a better person. Now the question is "What makes a person better?" I have quit or just lost interest in other vices but now what?
I'm worried that I have just become a boring person or I am bored.
Am I happier for quitting Nicotine. Hell yes I am! I made great friends and finally felt the power over vice and tasted what winning was like again.
Just a part of the whole process of recovery. If I live longer for quitting, what am I living for? What is my purpose? Not sure I like being bored or too serious about my life.
Just putting this in my journal so that I can answer this thought when the answer comes.
Still quitting even though I am as interesting as a rock right now. 'crackup'
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Day 506
Addiction woes. You know, I once was really hyper about getting rid of all my addictions. I quit nicotine and still am undefeated! Then I lost all the weight I gained from my quit...only to gain it back. I would attempt to quit other things and had a couple relapses but for the most part, other vices simply weren't appealing to me anymore.
Quitting nicotine...I all the sudden desired to become a better person. Now the question is "What makes a person better?" I have quit or just lost interest in other vices but now what?
I'm worried that I have just become a boring person or I am bored.
Am I happier for quitting Nicotine. Hell yes I am! I made great friends and finally felt the power over vice and tasted what winning was like again.
Just a part of the whole process of recovery. If I live longer for quitting, what am I living for? What is my purpose? Not sure I like being bored or too serious about my life.
Just putting this in my journal so that I can answer this thought when the answer comes.
Still quitting even though I am as interesting as a rock right now. 'crackup'
I can relate to this so much. Love this post bro. Glad to be quit with you.
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Day 506
Addiction woes. You know, I once was really hyper about getting rid of all my addictions. I quit nicotine and still am undefeated! Then I lost all the weight I gained from my quit...only to gain it back. I would attempt to quit other things and had a couple relapses but for the most part, other vices simply weren't appealing to me anymore.
Quitting nicotine...I all the sudden desired to become a better person. Now the question is "What makes a person better?" I have quit or just lost interest in other vices but now what?Â
I'm worried that I have just become a boring person or I am bored. Â
Am I happier for quitting Nicotine. Hell yes I am! I made great friends and finally felt the power over vice and tasted what winning was like again.
Just a part of the whole process of recovery. If I live longer for quitting, what am I living for? What is my purpose? Not sure I like being bored or too serious about my life.Â
Just putting this in my journal so that I can answer this thought when the answer comes.Â
Still quitting even though I am as interesting as a rock right now.  'crackup'
Oh man, I always like ROCKS (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ytlgnk7mye8) SFW
'crackup'
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Day 506
Addiction woes. You know, I once was really hyper about getting rid of all my addictions. I quit nicotine and still am undefeated! Then I lost all the weight I gained from my quit...only to gain it back. I would attempt to quit other things and had a couple relapses but for the most part, other vices simply weren't appealing to me anymore.
Quitting nicotine...I all the sudden desired to become a better person. Now the question is "What makes a person better?" I have quit or just lost interest in other vices but now what?
I'm worried that I have just become a boring person or I am bored.
Am I happier for quitting Nicotine. Hell yes I am! I made great friends and finally felt the power over vice and tasted what winning was like again.
Just a part of the whole process of recovery. If I live longer for quitting, what am I living for? What is my purpose? Not sure I like being bored or too serious about my life.
Just putting this in my journal so that I can answer this thought when the answer comes.
Still quitting even though I am as interesting as a rock right now. 'crackup'
You were never "interesting" or "special" when using nicotine or any other addiction/ self-destructive vice. Maybe you thought you were but you were just like millions of other addicts with brown spittle on your chin.
You were just as boring/bored with a wad of death in your mouth as you are without one.
I think you need to discover an active hobby to immerse yourself in- you can only derive meaning and purpose from something that you assign meaning and purpose to.
Never take life too seriously; no one gets out alive! Have fun.
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528
So I have a thought to get a can put a dip in and throw the can away. The last time I had one of those was just before I hit 400.
lessons realized
The longer I quit, the cravings are farther apart. Also, I am still an addict. KTC teaches addicts not to be impulsive. I sat back sent out a couple text and that was enough time to care enough about my quit not to cave.
It gets easy probably too easy. I am actually glad I had a craving so that I am humble to admit I am still addicted but hate tobacco.
To any newbie that thinks this is impossible. Relax and only worry and fight today. Have faith that it gets better but only if you remain undefeated.
I have 528 wins and Zero losses with you bastards educating and cheering me on.
Thanks,
I am an addict but I am a quit addict which is very special to me and my family.
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528
So I have a thought to get a can put a dip in and throw the can away. The last time I had one of those was just before I hit 400.
lessons realized
The longer I quit, the cravings are farther apart. Also, I am still an addict. KTC teaches addicts not to be impulsive. I sat back sent out a couple text and that was enough time to care enough about my quit not to cave.
It gets easy probably too easy. I am actually glad I had a craving so that I am humble to admit I am still addicted but hate tobacco.
To any newbie that thinks this is impossible. Relax and only worry and fight today. Have faith that it gets better but only if you remain undefeated.
I have 528 wins and Zero losses with you bastards educating and cheering me on.
Thanks,
I am an addict but I am a quit addict which is very special to me and my family.
Had an out of the blue crave yesterday......for a cigarette, WTF?!, haven't smoked since i was 23 or 24. Just weird how craves seem to hit around the hof marks and in different ways. Quit with you today MT 'archer'
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528
So I have a thought to get a can put a dip in and throw the can away. The last time I had one of those was just before I hit 400.Â
lessons realizedÂ
The longer I quit, the cravings are farther apart. Also, I am still an addict. KTC teaches addicts not to be impulsive. I sat back sent out a couple text and that was enough time to care enough about my quit not to cave.Â
It gets easy probably too easy. I am actually glad I had a craving so that I am humble to admit I am still addicted but hate tobacco.Â
To any newbie that thinks this is impossible. Relax and only worry and fight today. Have faith that it gets better but only if you remain undefeated.Â
I have 528 wins and Zero losses with you bastards educating and cheering me on.Â
Thanks,
I am an addict but I am a quit addict which is very special to me and my family.
Had an out of the blue crave yesterday......for a cigarette, WTF?!, haven't smoked since i was 23 or 24. Just weird how craves seem to hit around the hof marks and in different ways. Quit with you today MT 'archer'
I'm quit with you too. So glad that we've traveled this quit journey. Cravings don't leave us but they get easier to deal with after each success. It's good to know also that our family members recognize when we struggle.
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528
So I have a thought to get a can put a dip in and throw the can away. The last time I had one of those was just before I hit 400.Â
lessons realizedÂ
The longer I quit, the cravings are farther apart. Also, I am still an addict. KTC teaches addicts not to be impulsive. I sat back sent out a couple text and that was enough time to care enough about my quit not to cave.Â
It gets easy probably too easy. I am actually glad I had a craving so that I am humble to admit I am still addicted but hate tobacco.Â
To any newbie that thinks this is impossible. Relax and only worry and fight today. Have faith that it gets better but only if you remain undefeated.Â
I have 528 wins and Zero losses with you bastards educating and cheering me on.Â
Thanks,
I am an addict but I am a quit addict which is very special to me and my family.
Had an out of the blue crave yesterday......for a cigarette, WTF?!, haven't smoked since i was 23 or 24. Just weird how craves seem to hit around the hof marks and in different ways. Quit with you today MT 'archer'
I'm quit with you too. So glad that we've traveled this quit journey. Cravings don't leave us but they get easier to deal with after each success. It's good to know also that our family members recognize when we struggle.
Smelled a cigar on the golf course today.....smelled so good.....i hate that bitch...509...QLAFM
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Welcome to the 6th floor. To all of the newbs reading this... MT is one of the great leaders on this site. But 600 days ago he was in the same shoes you are in today. Because, as addicts, we are all different... And yet the same. 600 days ago is a world away from where MT is today.
Enjoy your freedom - and thanks for all that you don on this site to help others.
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Welcome to the 6th floor. To all of the newbs reading this... MT is one of the great leaders on this site. But 600 days ago he was in the same shoes you are in today. Because, as addicts, we are all different... And yet the same. 600 days ago is a world away from where MT is today.
Enjoy your freedom - and thanks for all that you don on this site to help others.
Day 601
Amount of money I saved by quittintg nasty nicotine for the past 600 days.....$3,666.00
Having your wife and kids congratulate me on staying quit for 600 Days...
PRICELESS!!!!
Stick with the plan. I am so glad I have and quit again with KTC today. Oh and the tobacco mistress. Don't let her seduce you. When you take her skirt off, there is a big floppy penis waiting for you. She deceives don't entertain her for a second!
Those that entertain her and think about fond memories will go back to humping the can. Remember why you quit. You wanted too! I hate the nic-bitch and welcome any opportunity I can get to cut her heart out and watch her bleed. I am here to support but humble enough to admit, I am still an addict.
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Welcome to the 6th floor. To all of the newbs reading this... MT is one of the great leaders on this site. But 600 days ago he was in the same shoes you are in today. Because, as addicts, we are all different... And yet the same. 600 days ago is a world away from where MT is today.
Enjoy your freedom - and thanks for all that you don on this site to help others.
Day 601
Amount of money I saved by quittintg nasty nicotine for the past 600 days.....$3,666.00
Having your wife and kids congratulate me on staying quit for 600 Days...
PRICELESS!!!!
Stick with the plan. I am so glad I have and quit again with KTC today. Oh and the tobacco mistress. Don't let her seduce you. When you take her skirt off, there is a big floppy penis waiting for you. She deceives don't entertain her for a second!
Those that entertain her and think about fond memories will go back to humping the can. Remember why you quit. You wanted too! I hate the nic-bitch and welcome any opportunity I can get to cut her heart out and watch her bleed. I am here to support but humble enough to admit, I am still an addict.
Congrats brother, well done and better yet thanks for sticking around to inspire the rest of us as well.
-
Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Welcome to the 6th floor. To all of the newbs reading this... MT is one of the great leaders on this site. But 600 days ago he was in the same shoes you are in today. Because, as addicts, we are all different... And yet the same. 600 days ago is a world away from where MT is today.
Enjoy your freedom - and thanks for all that you don on this site to help others.
Day 601
Amount of money I saved by quittintg nasty nicotine for the past 600 days.....$3,666.00
Having your wife and kids congratulate me on staying quit for 600 Days...
PRICELESS!!!!
Stick with the plan. I am so glad I have and quit again with KTC today. Oh and the tobacco mistress. Don't let her seduce you. When you take her skirt off, there is a big floppy penis waiting for you. She deceives don't entertain her for a second!
Those that entertain her and think about fond memories will go back to humping the can. Remember why you quit. You wanted too! I hate the nic-bitch and welcome any opportunity I can get to cut her heart out and watch her bleed. I am here to support but humble enough to admit, I am still an addict.
Congrats brother, well done and better yet thanks for sticking around to inspire the rest of us as well.
To be honest. I stay here for me. I never want to forget the suck I went through to free myself.
I am not here for you. I am here because YOU and KTC inspire me, teach me, and keep me free from this shitty weed!
Just got pissed again. Anyone that is dancing with nicotine....Knock him out!!!!! The most costly lie. They get kids. Kids that want to be men....Enslave kids before they become men?
What a crock of shit tobacco and UST is! What a sneaky terrorist organization!
Save our children from bondage and Quit this shit!!!!!! Do it now and quit everyday you wake!
I love addicts, quit addicts that is.
-
Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Welcome to the 6th floor. To all of the newbs reading this... MT is one of the great leaders on this site. But 600 days ago he was in the same shoes you are in today. Because, as addicts, we are all different... And yet the same. 600 days ago is a world away from where MT is today.
Enjoy your freedom - and thanks for all that you don on this site to help others.
Day 601
Amount of money I saved by quittintg nasty nicotine for the past 600 days.....$3,666.00
Having your wife and kids congratulate me on staying quit for 600 Days...
PRICELESS!!!!
Stick with the plan. I am so glad I have and quit again with KTC today. Oh and the tobacco mistress. Don't let her seduce you. When you take her skirt off, there is a big floppy penis waiting for you. She deceives don't entertain her for a second!
Those that entertain her and think about fond memories will go back to humping the can. Remember why you quit. You wanted too! I hate the nic-bitch and welcome any opportunity I can get to cut her heart out and watch her bleed. I am here to support but humble enough to admit, I am still an addict.
Congrats brother, well done and better yet thanks for sticking around to inspire the rest of us as well.
To be honest. I stay here for me. I never want to forget the suck I went through to free myself.
I am not here for you. I am here because YOU and KTC inspire me, teach me, and keep me free from this shitty weed!
Just got pissed again. Anyone that is dancing with nicotine....Knock him out!!!!! The most costly lie. They get kids. Kids that want to be men....Enslave kids before they become men?
What a crock of shit tobacco and UST is! What a sneaky terrorist organization!
Save our children from bondage and Quit this shit!!!!!! Do it now and quit everyday you wake!
I love addicts, quit addicts that is.
The reason we're here is similar; we're addicts! Sure we draw inspiration from the group to keep the poison out of our bodies. However No one can accomplish that task for us we must do it alone. However while you come forth and share your experiences and pain I gain strength from your quit and others even though that's not your intention. The great thing about KTC is that we can use it as much or as little as we need it to gain our own freedom. At times I try to take those baby steps to walk the path of freedom alone and am so glad that when I feel wobbly I have this group to reach out to before I fall.
You may not be here for us but you have over the past 600 days helped many other addicts realize that they can quit if they really want to, I'm one of those that has been inspired by you and appreciate it.
Thank You Mark!
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Welcome to the 6th floor. To all of the newbs reading this... MT is one of the great leaders on this site. But 600 days ago he was in the same shoes you are in today. Because, as addicts, we are all different... And yet the same. 600 days ago is a world away from where MT is today.
Enjoy your freedom - and thanks for all that you don on this site to help others.
Day 601
Amount of money I saved by quittintg nasty nicotine for the past 600 days.....$3,666.00
Having your wife and kids congratulate me on staying quit for 600 Days...
PRICELESS!!!!
Stick with the plan. I am so glad I have and quit again with KTC today. Oh and the tobacco mistress. Don't let her seduce you. When you take her skirt off, there is a big floppy penis waiting for you. She deceives don't entertain her for a second!
Those that entertain her and think about fond memories will go back to humping the can. Remember why you quit. You wanted too! I hate the nic-bitch and welcome any opportunity I can get to cut her heart out and watch her bleed. I am here to support but humble enough to admit, I am still an addict.
Congrats brother, well done and better yet thanks for sticking around to inspire the rest of us as well.
To be honest. I stay here for me. I never want to forget the suck I went through to free myself.
I am not here for you. I am here because YOU and KTC inspire me, teach me, and keep me free from this shitty weed!
Just got pissed again. Anyone that is dancing with nicotine....Knock him out!!!!! The most costly lie. They get kids. Kids that want to be men....Enslave kids before they become men?
What a crock of shit tobacco and UST is! What a sneaky terrorist organization!
Save our children from bondage and Quit this shit!!!!!! Do it now and quit everyday you wake!
I love addicts, quit addicts that is.
The reason we're here is similar; we're addicts! Sure we draw inspiration from the group to keep the poison out of our bodies. However No one can accomplish that task for us we must do it alone. However while you come forth and share your experiences and pain I gain strength from your quit and others even though that's not your intention. The great thing about KTC is that we can use it as much or as little as we need it to gain our own freedom. At times I try to take those baby steps to walk the path of freedom alone and am so glad that when I feel wobbly I have this group to reach out to before I fall.
You may not be here for us but you have over the past 600 days helped many other addicts realize that they can quit if they really want to, I'm one of those that has been inspired by you and appreciate it.
Thank You Mark!
Congrats on the milestone Mark. I am here because you are here. Your words to me early in my quit and here and there along the way have been the difference. It was great to have someone a few hundred days ahead of me showing me the ropes and showing how to conquer this fierce addiction. Keep it up Mark, this is only the beginging.
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Welcome to the 6th floor. To all of the newbs reading this... MT is one of the great leaders on this site. But 600 days ago he was in the same shoes you are in today. Because, as addicts, we are all different... And yet the same. 600 days ago is a world away from where MT is today.
Enjoy your freedom - and thanks for all that you don on this site to help others.
Day 601
Amount of money I saved by quittintg nasty nicotine for the past 600 days.....$3,666.00
Having your wife and kids congratulate me on staying quit for 600 Days...
PRICELESS!!!!
Stick with the plan. I am so glad I have and quit again with KTC today. Oh and the tobacco mistress. Don't let her seduce you. When you take her skirt off, there is a big floppy penis waiting for you. She deceives don't entertain her for a second!
Those that entertain her and think about fond memories will go back to humping the can. Remember why you quit. You wanted too! I hate the nic-bitch and welcome any opportunity I can get to cut her heart out and watch her bleed. I am here to support but humble enough to admit, I am still an addict.
Congrats brother, well done and better yet thanks for sticking around to inspire the rest of us as well.
To be honest. I stay here for me. I never want to forget the suck I went through to free myself.
I am not here for you. I am here because YOU and KTC inspire me, teach me, and keep me free from this shitty weed!
Just got pissed again. Anyone that is dancing with nicotine....Knock him out!!!!! The most costly lie. They get kids. Kids that want to be men....Enslave kids before they become men?
What a crock of shit tobacco and UST is! What a sneaky terrorist organization!
Save our children from bondage and Quit this shit!!!!!! Do it now and quit everyday you wake!
I love addicts, quit addicts that is.
The reason we're here is similar; we're addicts! Sure we draw inspiration from the group to keep the poison out of our bodies. However No one can accomplish that task for us we must do it alone. However while you come forth and share your experiences and pain I gain strength from your quit and others even though that's not your intention. The great thing about KTC is that we can use it as much or as little as we need it to gain our own freedom. At times I try to take those baby steps to walk the path of freedom alone and am so glad that when I feel wobbly I have this group to reach out to before I fall.
You may not be here for us but you have over the past 600 days helped many other addicts realize that they can quit if they really want to, I'm one of those that has been inspired by you and appreciate it.
Thank You Mark!
Congrats on the milestone Mark. I am here because you are here. Your words to me early in my quit and here and there along the way have been the difference. It was great to have someone a few hundred days ahead of me showing me the ropes and showing how to conquer this fierce addiction. Keep it up Mark, this is only the beginging.
'oh yeah' nice work!
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Welcome to the 6th floor. To all of the newbs reading this... MT is one of the great leaders on this site. But 600 days ago he was in the same shoes you are in today. Because, as addicts, we are all different... And yet the same. 600 days ago is a world away from where MT is today.
Enjoy your freedom - and thanks for all that you don on this site to help others.
Day 601
Amount of money I saved by quittintg nasty nicotine for the past 600 days.....$3,666.00
Having your wife and kids congratulate me on staying quit for 600 Days...
PRICELESS!!!!
Stick with the plan. I am so glad I have and quit again with KTC today. Oh and the tobacco mistress. Don't let her seduce you. When you take her skirt off, there is a big floppy penis waiting for you. She deceives don't entertain her for a second!
Those that entertain her and think about fond memories will go back to humping the can. Remember why you quit. You wanted too! I hate the nic-bitch and welcome any opportunity I can get to cut her heart out and watch her bleed. I am here to support but humble enough to admit, I am still an addict.
Congrats brother, well done and better yet thanks for sticking around to inspire the rest of us as well.
To be honest. I stay here for me. I never want to forget the suck I went through to free myself.
I am not here for you. I am here because YOU and KTC inspire me, teach me, and keep me free from this shitty weed!
Just got pissed again. Anyone that is dancing with nicotine....Knock him out!!!!! The most costly lie. They get kids. Kids that want to be men....Enslave kids before they become men?
What a crock of shit tobacco and UST is! What a sneaky terrorist organization!
Save our children from bondage and Quit this shit!!!!!! Do it now and quit everyday you wake!
I love addicts, quit addicts that is.
The reason we're here is similar; we're addicts! Sure we draw inspiration from the group to keep the poison out of our bodies. However No one can accomplish that task for us we must do it alone. However while you come forth and share your experiences and pain I gain strength from your quit and others even though that's not your intention. The great thing about KTC is that we can use it as much or as little as we need it to gain our own freedom. At times I try to take those baby steps to walk the path of freedom alone and am so glad that when I feel wobbly I have this group to reach out to before I fall.
You may not be here for us but you have over the past 600 days helped many other addicts realize that they can quit if they really want to, I'm one of those that has been inspired by you and appreciate it.
Thank You Mark!
Congrats on the milestone Mark. I am here because you are here. Your words to me early in my quit and here and there along the way have been the difference. It was great to have someone a few hundred days ahead of me showing me the ropes and showing how to conquer this fierce addiction. Keep it up Mark, this is only the beginging.
'oh yeah' nice work!
Nice work - keep leading!
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Day 604
First a thank you for the props. Jayhawk, it was nice to be asked to keep leading. However, I am and addict and I would be a hypocrite if I gave all you the impression that I have my shit all figured out. I DON'T.
Nicotine is easy to quit now. I closed the door on that one. I don't like her, I don't fantasize about her. When I get a craving, it usually is a little irony that I crave because I can't stand tobacco now. The little crave reminds me I am a nicotine addict.
So today is 604 days. I had an a-ha moment and today is like the day I flushed my can for good. I realized that I have quit nicotine but I found another mistress. This mistress caused the same behaviors I had when dipping.
The mistress takes on many forms. The Nicotine mistress doesn't do it for me much now. My fight is addiction and before I let addiction ruin me, family, friendships, my mind and body, I have to quit another vice for good.
So I am going to go back to the beginning and quit alcohol now. I realized that I am an alcoholic. I don't drink because I like the taste. I drink because I thought I liked being comfortably numb.
So I accept that I have been a good leader in quitting nicotine but it might have been easy for me because I replaced that bitch with a whore. I quit alcohol today but the shape changing mistress is ADDICTION.
Well like I said with nicotine 604 days ago, "I'm off to hell but I'll be back".
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604 days is impressive for anything. However, what has impressed me the most about you is that you stick around and that you help daily. I cannot imagine the number of quitters (successful or unsuccessful) that you have helped over the past 604 days, nor does the # matter.
You come back every damn day and do it again.
I look forward to more from you and thank you for being that guy for 604 days.
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604 days is impressive for anything. However, what has impressed me the most about you is that you stick around and that you help daily. I cannot imagine the number of quitters (successful or unsuccessful) that you have helped over the past 604 days, nor does the # matter.
You come back every damn day and do it again.
I look forward to more from you and thank you for being that guy for 604 days.
605 Nicotine Day 2 Alcohol.
I am so amped up right now. I know some people can handle liquor and thats fine. I just realized that Alcohol and I don't get along. Believe me, I tried to make it work but we just can't be friends. I'm ready to do this shit again!
3 things you need to be happy.
Always have someone to love.
Always have something to do.
Always have something to look forward to.
I love my wife, I have to quit alcohol and nicotine for good. I look forward to thanksgiving this year...thats my favorite holiday.
I may have 99 problems, but I woke up happy today. I have those three things today because I am quit!
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It's good to see your winning avatar back! That otter was getting fat and lazy like me.
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604 days is impressive for anything. However, what has impressed me the most about you is that you stick around and that you help daily. I cannot imagine the number of quitters (successful or unsuccessful) that you have helped over the past 604 days, nor does the # matter.
You come back every damn day and do it again.
I look forward to more from you and thank you for being that guy for 604 days.
605 Nicotine Day 2 Alcohol.
I am so amped up right now. I know some people can handle liquor and thats fine. I just realized that Alcohol and I don't get along. Believe me, I tried to make it work but we just can't be friends. I'm ready to do this shit again!
3 things you need to be happy.
Always have someone to love.
Always have something to do.
Always have something to look forward to.
I love my wife, I have to quit alcohol and nicotine for good. I look forward to thanksgiving this year...thats my favorite holiday.
I may have 99 problems, but I woke up happy today. I have those three things today because I am quit!
This is just amazing. 605 days!!!. You are a role model for people like me. I love the outlook you have on your life and it is a model and inspiration. Thank you for being around.
Praddy
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'army'
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616 nicotine / 14 alcohol
Addiction is predictable and yet I am still surprised at caving. KTC's plan is foolproof!
Are you a man of your word? Post roll, keep your word and make it through today.
If you follow the plan, you can not lose. So thoughts of a dip because you've done so well and deserve it etc. or just one will take the edge off your fight...It doesn't make sense to me. Why even come near that shit? It's poison. Yes you get cravings but you know how to win. Just win!
All too often we see addicts go back to nicotine like a dog that eats its vomit or a man that violates parole to go back to his cell.
Sad but predictable. Some never look back and never glamorize the nasty harlot. They go forward and work not only being quit but on recovering from years of slavery, bondage and abuse.
Addiction is who we are. It never ends but stay quit long enough and you will see that you are grateful and blessed to be an addict. I am fortunate to be a recovering addict. I have more insight on life. I've been to hell and don't want to go back.
Non-addicts steer clear of hell but they can't appreciate heaven as much because they don't know the opposite of heaven. I appreciate so much more because of my experience.
Its great to be an addict in recovery. Fucking AWESOME.
Remember 616 days later and I think addiction is a blessing. 14 days alcohol free and I am finally recovering from vices. KTC is a great tool for success...if we only learn and follow.
-- thank you this perspective from further free of the chains really helps
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623 Nicotine / 21 Alcohol
What if I caved and posted a day 1? Its not going to happen because I talked too much shit to drop my guard and let nicotine beat me. Lets just say I did though.
I would catch hell because I trash talked in my war. I would never, never, never surrender to nicotine but what if I lost a battle? KTC didn't fail me. They stood with me in my fights and coached me to my victories and success. I would come back and take the heat because I am to blame and I took out a huge withdrawal on the trust of the site I love so much. I would know that I would need to make many deposits back into the trust account.
What about those 3 questions? I don't think I need to write a book. (surprise) There isn't anything that is profound or eloquent that makes an excuse acceptable to the non-using addicts. I can't even comprehend a scenario where I cave but if I did.....
What happened: I made a decision to chew tobacco and I humped the shit out of that can then I realize I was on bottom and was the one getting screwed.
How did this happen: I didn't post or I broke my promise to the brothers. (Didn't follow the daily treatment to stay quit.)
What are you going to do differently: Post daily, Keep my word, and repeat. I will not forget, ignore or decide I don't need my daily KTC treatment and armor.
Never again will I act on impulse but I will pause and remember this moment and stick to the plan. The craving will come and fade but posting roll and keeping my promise will happen every "Today".
I would hear the complaints and the hurt I caused others quit and I would make as much restitution as I could. I would donate my gun fund (savings from chew) to KTC for shitting on the site. I would own it because I don't want to be an excuse making always caving addict, I want to take ownership for my addiction and always stay in recovery.
But if I caved....I wouldn't be Mad at the way KTC responded. I would be happy they were mad because they care about me and my success. Love or Hate me you care but ignore me and there isn't a care.
Bring the heat and bring the love for quitters! Site DRAMA IS THERAPY and entertaining. No one who posts a 2nd day one needed to fail. They choose to fail.
So if they quit and chose to fail. Why does this Day 1 have any value of trust?
Cavers need to convert to the quit or get the fuck out of the sanctuary. IMO
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623 Nicotine / 21 Alcohol
What if I caved and posted a day 1? Its not going to happen because I talked too much shit to drop my guard and let nicotine beat me. Lets just say I did though.Â
I would catch hell because I trash talked in my war. I would never, never, never surrender to nicotine but what if I lost a battle? KTC didn't fail me. They stood with me in my fights and coached me to my victories and success. I would come back and take the heat because I am to blame and I took out a huge withdrawal on the trust of the site I love so much. I would know that I would need to make many deposits back into the trust account.
What about those 3 questions? I don't think I need to write a book. (surprise) There isn't anything that is profound or eloquent that makes an excuse acceptable to the non-using addicts. I can't even comprehend a scenario where I cave but if I did.....
What happened: I made a decision to chew tobacco and I humped the shit out of that can then I realize I was on bottom and was the one getting screwed.Â
How did this happen: I didn't post or I broke my promise to the brothers. (Didn't follow the daily treatment to stay quit.)
What are you going to do differently: Post daily, Keep my word, and repeat. I will not forget, ignore or decide I don't need my daily KTC treatment and armor.Â
Never again will I act on impulse but I will pause and remember this moment and stick to the plan. The craving will come and fade but posting roll and keeping my promise will happen every "Today".
I would hear the complaints and the hurt I caused others quit and I would make as much restitution as I could. I would donate my gun fund (savings from chew) to KTC for shitting on the site. I would own it because I don't want to be an excuse making always caving addict, I want to take ownership for my addiction and always stay in recovery.
But if I caved....I wouldn't be Mad at the way KTC responded. I would be happy they were mad because they care about me and my success. Love or Hate me you care but ignore me and there isn't a care.Â
Bring the heat and bring the love for quitters! Site DRAMA IS THERAPY and entertaining. No one who posts a 2nd day one needed to fail. They choose to fail.
So if they quit and chose to fail. Why does this Day 1 have any value of trust?Â
Cavers need to convert to the quit or get the fuck out of the sanctuary. IMO
'clap' Love it .....thank you Sir,once again for being you. Thanks for sharing this. Honored to be QUIT with you .
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623 Nicotine / 21 Alcohol
What if I caved and posted a day 1? Its not going to happen because I talked too much shit to drop my guard and let nicotine beat me. Lets just say I did though.Â
I would catch hell because I trash talked in my war. I would never, never, never surrender to nicotine but what if I lost a battle? KTC didn't fail me. They stood with me in my fights and coached me to my victories and success. I would come back and take the heat because I am to blame and I took out a huge withdrawal on the trust of the site I love so much. I would know that I would need to make many deposits back into the trust account.
What about those 3 questions? I don't think I need to write a book. (surprise) There isn't anything that is profound or eloquent that makes an excuse acceptable to the non-using addicts. I can't even comprehend a scenario where I cave but if I did.....
What happened: I made a decision to chew tobacco and I humped the shit out of that can then I realize I was on bottom and was the one getting screwed.Â
How did this happen: I didn't post or I broke my promise to the brothers. (Didn't follow the daily treatment to stay quit.)
What are you going to do differently: Post daily, Keep my word, and repeat. I will not forget, ignore or decide I don't need my daily KTC treatment and armor.Â
Never again will I act on impulse but I will pause and remember this moment and stick to the plan. The craving will come and fade but posting roll and keeping my promise will happen every "Today".
I would hear the complaints and the hurt I caused others quit and I would make as much restitution as I could. I would donate my gun fund (savings from chew) to KTC for shitting on the site. I would own it because I don't want to be an excuse making always caving addict, I want to take ownership for my addiction and always stay in recovery.
But if I caved....I wouldn't be Mad at the way KTC responded. I would be happy they were mad because they care about me and my success. Love or Hate me you care but ignore me and there isn't a care.Â
Bring the heat and bring the love for quitters! Site DRAMA IS THERAPY and entertaining. No one who posts a 2nd day one needed to fail. They choose to fail.
So if they quit and chose to fail. Why does this Day 1 have any value of trust?Â
Cavers need to convert to the quit or get the fuck out of the sanctuary. IMO
'clap' Love it .....thank you Sir,once again for being you. Thanks for sharing this. Honored to be QUIT with you .
A quit is not just a decision. It is a series of actions that result in a quit. Glad to see you understand that man.
We have a far way to fall my friend. If I fail, that means that all 7000+ of my posts, tens of thousands of texts sent, and all the other words I've spoken about the Ktc are complete bullshit. That's a heavy load, but it also creates a web of accountability that keeps me quit.
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623 Nicotine / 21 Alcohol
What if I caved and posted a day 1? Its not going to happen because I talked too much shit to drop my guard and let nicotine beat me. Lets just say I did though.Â
I would catch hell because I trash talked in my war. I would never, never, never surrender to nicotine but what if I lost a battle? KTC didn't fail me. They stood with me in my fights and coached me to my victories and success. I would come back and take the heat because I am to blame and I took out a huge withdrawal on the trust of the site I love so much. I would know that I would need to make many deposits back into the trust account.
What about those 3 questions? I don't think I need to write a book. (surprise) There isn't anything that is profound or eloquent that makes an excuse acceptable to the non-using addicts. I can't even comprehend a scenario where I cave but if I did.....
What happened: I made a decision to chew tobacco and I humped the shit out of that can then I realize I was on bottom and was the one getting screwed.Â
How did this happen: I didn't post or I broke my promise to the brothers. (Didn't follow the daily treatment to stay quit.)
What are you going to do differently: Post daily, Keep my word, and repeat. I will not forget, ignore or decide I don't need my daily KTC treatment and armor.Â
Never again will I act on impulse but I will pause and remember this moment and stick to the plan. The craving will come and fade but posting roll and keeping my promise will happen every "Today".
I would hear the complaints and the hurt I caused others quit and I would make as much restitution as I could. I would donate my gun fund (savings from chew) to KTC for shitting on the site. I would own it because I don't want to be an excuse making always caving addict, I want to take ownership for my addiction and always stay in recovery.
But if I caved....I wouldn't be Mad at the way KTC responded. I would be happy they were mad because they care about me and my success. Love or Hate me you care but ignore me and there isn't a care.Â
Bring the heat and bring the love for quitters! Site DRAMA IS THERAPY and entertaining. No one who posts a 2nd day one needed to fail. They choose to fail.
So if they quit and chose to fail. Why does this Day 1 have any value of trust?Â
Cavers need to convert to the quit or get the fuck out of the sanctuary. IMO
'clap' Love it .....thank you Sir,once again for being you. Thanks for sharing this. Honored to be QUIT with you .
A quit is not just a decision. It is a series of actions that result in a quit. Glad to see you understand that man.
We have a far way to fall my friend. If I fail, that means that all 7000+ of my posts, tens of thousands of texts sent, and all the other words I've spoken about the Ktc are complete bullshit. That's a heavy load, but it also creates a web of accountability that keeps me quit.
Thats some crazy hump day pre-Thanksgiving holiday Jedi quit right there.
Love it, love KTC, love my quit!
Like Yoda says... Do or Do not, there is no try. Which will you be today?
'jedisith'
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623 Nicotine / 21 Alcohol
What if I caved and posted a day 1? Its not going to happen because I talked too much shit to drop my guard and let nicotine beat me. Lets just say I did though.Â
I would catch hell because I trash talked in my war. I would never, never, never surrender to nicotine but what if I lost a battle? KTC didn't fail me. They stood with me in my fights and coached me to my victories and success. I would come back and take the heat because I am to blame and I took out a huge withdrawal on the trust of the site I love so much. I would know that I would need to make many deposits back into the trust account.
What about those 3 questions? I don't think I need to write a book. (surprise) There isn't anything that is profound or eloquent that makes an excuse acceptable to the non-using addicts. I can't even comprehend a scenario where I cave but if I did.....
What happened: I made a decision to chew tobacco and I humped the shit out of that can then I realize I was on bottom and was the one getting screwed.Â
How did this happen: I didn't post or I broke my promise to the brothers. (Didn't follow the daily treatment to stay quit.)
What are you going to do differently: Post daily, Keep my word, and repeat. I will not forget, ignore or decide I don't need my daily KTC treatment and armor.Â
Never again will I act on impulse but I will pause and remember this moment and stick to the plan. The craving will come and fade but posting roll and keeping my promise will happen every "Today".
I would hear the complaints and the hurt I caused others quit and I would make as much restitution as I could. I would donate my gun fund (savings from chew) to KTC for shitting on the site. I would own it because I don't want to be an excuse making always caving addict, I want to take ownership for my addiction and always stay in recovery.
But if I caved....I wouldn't be Mad at the way KTC responded. I would be happy they were mad because they care about me and my success. Love or Hate me you care but ignore me and there isn't a care.Â
Bring the heat and bring the love for quitters! Site DRAMA IS THERAPY and entertaining. No one who posts a 2nd day one needed to fail. They choose to fail.
So if they quit and chose to fail. Why does this Day 1 have any value of trust?Â
Cavers need to convert to the quit or get the fuck out of the sanctuary. IMO
'clap' Love it .....thank you Sir,once again for being you. Thanks for sharing this. Honored to be QUIT with you .
A quit is not just a decision. It is a series of actions that result in a quit. Glad to see you understand that man.
We have a far way to fall my friend. If I fail, that means that all 7000+ of my posts, tens of thousands of texts sent, and all the other words I've spoken about the Ktc are complete bullshit. That's a heavy load, but it also creates a web of accountability that keeps me quit.
Thats some crazy hump day pre-Thanksgiving holiday Jedi quit right there.
Love it, love KTC, love my quit!
Like Yoda says... Do or Do not, there is no try. Which will you be today?
'jedisith'
My Friend, this is one of the best posts I have seen in awhile. It lays out the process perfectly both for those of us to see and use to protect ourself moving forward, and to those who do return and have to post another day 1.
But for me, I just keep the addition on what I have laid before. I quit next to you with my armor fighting all the way.
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623 Nicotine / 21 Alcohol
What if I caved and posted a day 1? Its not going to happen because I talked too much shit to drop my guard and let nicotine beat me. Lets just say I did though.Â
I would catch hell because I trash talked in my war. I would never, never, never surrender to nicotine but what if I lost a battle? KTC didn't fail me. They stood with me in my fights and coached me to my victories and success. I would come back and take the heat because I am to blame and I took out a huge withdrawal on the trust of the site I love so much. I would know that I would need to make many deposits back into the trust account.
What about those 3 questions? I don't think I need to write a book. (surprise) There isn't anything that is profound or eloquent that makes an excuse acceptable to the non-using addicts. I can't even comprehend a scenario where I cave but if I did.....
What happened: I made a decision to chew tobacco and I humped the shit out of that can then I realize I was on bottom and was the one getting screwed.Â
How did this happen: I didn't post or I broke my promise to the brothers. (Didn't follow the daily treatment to stay quit.)
What are you going to do differently: Post daily, Keep my word, and repeat. I will not forget, ignore or decide I don't need my daily KTC treatment and armor.Â
Never again will I act on impulse but I will pause and remember this moment and stick to the plan. The craving will come and fade but posting roll and keeping my promise will happen every "Today".
I would hear the complaints and the hurt I caused others quit and I would make as much restitution as I could. I would donate my gun fund (savings from chew) to KTC for shitting on the site. I would own it because I don't want to be an excuse making always caving addict, I want to take ownership for my addiction and always stay in recovery.
But if I caved....I wouldn't be Mad at the way KTC responded. I would be happy they were mad because they care about me and my success. Love or Hate me you care but ignore me and there isn't a care.Â
Bring the heat and bring the love for quitters! Site DRAMA IS THERAPY and entertaining. No one who posts a 2nd day one needed to fail. They choose to fail.
So if they quit and chose to fail. Why does this Day 1 have any value of trust?Â
Cavers need to convert to the quit or get the fuck out of the sanctuary. IMO
'clap' Love it .....thank you Sir,once again for being you. Thanks for sharing this. Honored to be QUIT with you .
A quit is not just a decision. It is a series of actions that result in a quit. Glad to see you understand that man.
We have a far way to fall my friend. If I fail, that means that all 7000+ of my posts, tens of thousands of texts sent, and all the other words I've spoken about the Ktc are complete bullshit. That's a heavy load, but it also creates a web of accountability that keeps me quit.
Thats some crazy hump day pre-Thanksgiving holiday Jedi quit right there.
Love it, love KTC, love my quit!
Like Yoda says... Do or Do not, there is no try. Which will you be today?
'jedisith'
My Friend, this is one of the best posts I have seen in awhile. It lays out the process perfectly both for those of us to see and use to protect ourself moving forward, and to those who do return and have to post another day 1.
But for me, I just keep the addition on what I have laid before. I quit next to you with my armor fighting all the way.
Well said MT! Quit is far more than just taking 3 minutes to post your screen name to some cyberlog. Real quitters work to build their quit every day.
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623 Nicotine / 21 Alcohol
What if I caved and posted a day 1? Its not going to happen because I talked too much shit to drop my guard and let nicotine beat me. Lets just say I did though.Â
I would catch hell because I trash talked in my war. I would never, never, never surrender to nicotine but what if I lost a battle? KTC didn't fail me. They stood with me in my fights and coached me to my victories and success. I would come back and take the heat because I am to blame and I took out a huge withdrawal on the trust of the site I love so much. I would know that I would need to make many deposits back into the trust account.
What about those 3 questions? I don't think I need to write a book. (surprise) There isn't anything that is profound or eloquent that makes an excuse acceptable to the non-using addicts. I can't even comprehend a scenario where I cave but if I did.....
What happened: I made a decision to chew tobacco and I humped the shit out of that can then I realize I was on bottom and was the one getting screwed.Â
How did this happen: I didn't post or I broke my promise to the brothers. (Didn't follow the daily treatment to stay quit.)
What are you going to do differently: Post daily, Keep my word, and repeat. I will not forget, ignore or decide I don't need my daily KTC treatment and armor.Â
Never again will I act on impulse but I will pause and remember this moment and stick to the plan. The craving will come and fade but posting roll and keeping my promise will happen every "Today".
I would hear the complaints and the hurt I caused others quit and I would make as much restitution as I could. I would donate my gun fund (savings from chew) to KTC for shitting on the site. I would own it because I don't want to be an excuse making always caving addict, I want to take ownership for my addiction and always stay in recovery.
But if I caved....I wouldn't be Mad at the way KTC responded. I would be happy they were mad because they care about me and my success. Love or Hate me you care but ignore me and there isn't a care.Â
Bring the heat and bring the love for quitters! Site DRAMA IS THERAPY and entertaining. No one who posts a 2nd day one needed to fail. They choose to fail.
So if they quit and chose to fail. Why does this Day 1 have any value of trust?Â
Cavers need to convert to the quit or get the fuck out of the sanctuary. IMO
'clap' Love it .....thank you Sir,once again for being you. Thanks for sharing this. Honored to be QUIT with you .
A quit is not just a decision. It is a series of actions that result in a quit. Glad to see you understand that man.
We have a far way to fall my friend. If I fail, that means that all 7000+ of my posts, tens of thousands of texts sent, and all the other words I've spoken about the Ktc are complete bullshit. That's a heavy load, but it also creates a web of accountability that keeps me quit.
Thats some crazy hump day pre-Thanksgiving holiday Jedi quit right there.
Love it, love KTC, love my quit!
Like Yoda says... Do or Do not, there is no try. Which will you be today?
'jedisith'
My Friend, this is one of the best posts I have seen in awhile. It lays out the process perfectly both for those of us to see and use to protect ourself moving forward, and to those who do return and have to post another day 1.
But for me, I just keep the addition on what I have laid before. I quit next to you with my armor fighting all the way.
Well said MT! Quit is far more than just taking 3 minutes to post your screen name to some cyberlog. Real quitters work to build their quit every day.
Agree, this thread is a perfect read for new quitters that see a caver getting his ass kicked. The brotherhood is real, we grow close quitting together and honestly care about each other. We actually become like brothers and sisters. Weird but many of us develop those BFF relationships. The concept that we are addicts for life takes time to sink in but is essential in order to keep that quit guard in place.
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Day 629 Nicotine, 27 alcohol
Never thought I would say this...."I'm am blessed to be a nicotine addict and an alcoholic."
I don't concern myself with debating the good or bad of alcohol. I have just come to understand that alcohol and I can not be friends. Oh I've tried but we just don't work well together. Not only can't we be friends but we should be enemies.
Alcohol was and still is a friend of my Uncle. Even after losing control of his truck and rolling it onto my dad, crushing his head and ejecting him from the car.
Alcohol is still aiding my sister to fall deeper and deeper in anorexia and prescription meds. She now is having seizures.
Alcohol ruined many of my uncles marriages. When drinking, they chose poorly and broke marriage covenants. Damaging the trust and value of family bonds.
So some people can enjoy a beer at the game. I now realize I can enjoy the game without beer.
I love being able to wake up and crush the skull of nicotine every morning. Now my strength is building with alcohol! I am having many "a-ha" moments.
Why is my addiction a blessing? The meetings and the other addicts I have met have taught me the value of Honesty, Hope and Accountability. Being quit and sober, my cynicism and negative outlook is being replaced with appreciation and optimism.
Yes I am a nicotine addict and an alcoholic. I am officially quit and sober every today. Overcoming this addiction helps take the chains and blinders off to appreciate and work for the things in life that are the most precious and of the greatest worth. Being quit and sober is a key ingredient to seeing and understanding what is truly valuable in my life.
Never, Never, Never, Ever Surrender to Addiction. Even failure and victories can be a stepping stone to success but never surrender. Keep hope alive in your quit and fight today!
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Day 629 Nicotine, 27 alcohol
Never thought I would say this...."I'm am blessed to be a nicotine addict and an alcoholic."
I don't concern myself with debating the good or bad of alcohol. I have just come to understand that alcohol and I can not be friends. Oh I've tried but we just don't work well together. Not only can't we be friends but we should be enemies.
Alcohol was and still is a friend of my Uncle. Even after losing control of his truck and rolling it onto my dad, crushing his head and ejecting him from the car.
Alcohol is still aiding my sister to fall deeper and deeper in anorexia and prescription meds. She now is having seizures.
Alcohol ruined many of my uncles marriages. When drinking, they chose poorly and broke marriage covenants. Damaging the trust and value of family bonds.
So some people can enjoy a beer at the game. I now realize I can enjoy the game without beer.
I love being able to wake up and crush the skull of nicotine every morning. Now my strength is building with alcohol! I am having many "a-ha" moments.
Why is my addiction a blessing? The meetings and the other addicts I have met have taught me the value of Honesty, Hope and Accountability. Being quit and sober, my cynicism and negative outlook is being replaced with appreciation and optimism.
Yes I am a nicotine addict and an alcoholic. I am officially quit and sober every today. Overcoming this addiction helps take the chains and blinders off to appreciate and work for the things in life that are the most precious and of the greatest worth. Being quit and sober is a key ingredient to seeing and understanding what is truly valuable in my life.
Never, Never, Never, Ever Surrender to Addiction. Even failure and victories can be a stepping stone to success but never surrender. Keep hope alive in your quit and fight today!
Keep up that fight, keep helping others. You are great at it, and we are all in this together!
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Day 629 Nicotine, 27 alcohol
Never thought I would say this...."I'm am blessed to be a nicotine addict and an alcoholic."Â
I don't concern myself with debating the good or bad of alcohol. I have just come to understand that alcohol and I can not be friends. Oh I've tried but we just don't work well together. Not only can't we be friends but we should be enemies.Â
Alcohol was and still is a friend of my Uncle. Even after losing control of his truck and rolling it onto my dad, crushing his head and ejecting him from the car.Â
Alcohol is still aiding my sister to fall deeper and deeper in anorexia and prescription meds. She now is having seizures.
Alcohol ruined many of my uncles marriages. When drinking, they chose poorly and broke marriage covenants. Damaging the trust and value of family bonds. Â
So some people can enjoy a beer at the game. I now realize I can enjoy the game without beer.Â
I love being able to wake up and crush the skull of nicotine every morning. Now my strength is building with alcohol! I am having many "a-ha" moments. Â
Why is my addiction a blessing? The meetings and the other addicts I have met have taught me the value of Honesty, Hope and Accountability. Being quit and sober, my cynicism and negative outlook is being replaced with appreciation and optimism.Â
Yes I am a nicotine addict and an alcoholic. I am officially quit and sober every today. Overcoming this addiction helps take the chains and blinders off to appreciate and work for the things in life that are the most precious and of the greatest worth. Being quit and sober is a key ingredient to seeing and understanding what is truly valuable in my life.
Never, Never, Never, Ever Surrender to Addiction. Even failure and victories can be a stepping stone to success but never surrender. Keep hope alive in your quit and fight today!
Keep up that fight, keep helping others. You are great at it, and we are all in this together!
Dude - I will follow you.
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Day 629 Nicotine, 27 alcohol
Never thought I would say this...."I'm am blessed to be a nicotine addict and an alcoholic."Â
I don't concern myself with debating the good or bad of alcohol. I have just come to understand that alcohol and I can not be friends. Oh I've tried but we just don't work well together. Not only can't we be friends but we should be enemies.Â
Alcohol was and still is a friend of my Uncle. Even after losing control of his truck and rolling it onto my dad, crushing his head and ejecting him from the car.Â
Alcohol is still aiding my sister to fall deeper and deeper in anorexia and prescription meds. She now is having seizures.
Alcohol ruined many of my uncles marriages. When drinking, they chose poorly and broke marriage covenants. Damaging the trust and value of family bonds.  Â
So some people can enjoy a beer at the game. I now realize I can enjoy the game without beer.Â
I love being able to wake up and crush the skull of nicotine every morning. Now my strength is building with alcohol! I am having many "a-ha" moments. Â
Why is my addiction a blessing? The meetings and the other addicts I have met have taught me the value of Honesty, Hope and Accountability. Being quit and sober, my cynicism and negative outlook is being replaced with appreciation and optimism.Â
Yes I am a nicotine addict and an alcoholic. I am officially quit and sober every today. Overcoming this addiction helps take the chains and blinders off to appreciate and work for the things in life that are the most precious and of the greatest worth. Being quit and sober is a key ingredient to seeing and understanding what is truly valuable in my life.
Never, Never, Never, Ever Surrender to Addiction. Even failure and victories can be a stepping stone to success but never surrender. Keep hope alive in your quit and fight today!
Keep up that fight, keep helping others. You are great at it, and we are all in this together!
Dude - I will follow you.
I quit with the Dude today.
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Love this new ad against Nicotine (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cu6YZGL38SE)
Day 708 Nicotine, 106 Alcohol
I used to dip tobacco because I needed it to handle all the stress and worries in my life. I used to dip tobacco because I liked having a secret and my own rebellion. I used to dip tobacco at work, at play, at the gym, road trips and boredom. I would get up early and shower with a dip. I would stay up later than my teenagers just so I could ninja dip in peace. I would hide, sneak, lie and mislead. I liken the nic bitch to a mistress that you want to hide but wont leave.
About 250+ days into my nicotine quit, I started to binge drink. (I was hurting and refused to dip.) It first started as a fun buzz on the weekends, alone after everyone went to sleep. Then it became nightly just to help me sleep. It graduated to the point where I was drinking during lunch and in the office. It finally dawned on me that I was back to the former behaviors I had when dipping! Good Hell.
Now that I am quit and sober...
I now know a new freedom and happiness
The fears that I stressed over...they aren't so scary and a confident faith is replacing those fears.
This is a war and it is worth the sacrifices and battles. I am Free! The burden of being quit and sober is so easy compared to the sham and desire to abuse numbing substances.
Seriously, I no longer fear getting pulled over by police. I no longer fear cancer or disapointing my wife and kids because I lied to them. I no longer have to fear that I didn't clean out my chache and cookies or stress that my wife got the cable bill before me. (What a pain in the ass now looking back)
In fact I sleep well and have less stress in honesty and recovery.
I value my quit and sobriety and will protect it. Recovery is my path to staying free from vice. Being a using addict is a horrible way to live. When you crave, have triggers or are just hurting for no reason. Take the pain and pay the price for victory. It is far better than surrendering to the addiction.
It's true as said by a Vet I respect, "You are not here by accident".
Stay Strong by staying close! Never forget....YOU ARE NOT HERE BY ACCIDENT. You need us to quit and we need you to quit. Nothing wrong with support. Ever tried to cut your own hair? It looks better when you get help.
Your quit will have and hold more value if you support and get support.
I fucking love today. I posted roll and will keep my promise.
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I fucking love today. I posted roll and will keep my promise.
This is by far one of my favorite quotes!
Congrats on day 708, you are always here with a hand out ready to pull another quitter from the bowels of addiction and I thank you for trudging me through it early in my quitness.
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I fucking love today. I posted roll and will keep my promise.
This is by far one of my favorite quotes!
Congrats on day 708, you are always here with a hand out ready to pull another quitter from the bowels of addiction and I thank you for trudging me through it early in my quitness.
That is some great stuff right there. A total life triumph! Congrats.
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I fucking love today. I posted roll and will keep my promise.
This is by far one of my favorite quotes!
Congrats on day 708, you are always here with a hand out ready to pull another quitter from the bowels of addiction and I thank you for trudging me through it early in my quitness.
That is some great stuff right there. A total life triumph! Congrats.
+ infinity knives :ph43r:
Great work today Mark.
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I fucking love today. I posted roll and will keep my promise.
This is by far one of my favorite quotes!
Congrats on day 708, you are always here with a hand out ready to pull another quitter from the bowels of addiction and I thank you for trudging me through it early in my quitness.
That is some great stuff right there. A total life triumph! Congrats.
+ infinity knives :ph43r:
Great work today Mark.
amen mthomas
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I fucking love today. I posted roll and will keep my promise.
This is by far one of my favorite quotes!
Congrats on day 708, you are always here with a hand out ready to pull another quitter from the bowels of addiction and I thank you for trudging me through it early in my quitness.
That is some great stuff right there. A total life triumph! Congrats.
+ infinity knives :ph43r:
Great work today Mark.
amen mthomas
Freedom. It's a wonderful thing; something I didn't realize I had lost until I became quit and found it. Quit for today and be free. Thanks for posting this Mthomas.
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I fucking love today. I posted roll and will keep my promise.
This is by far one of my favorite quotes!
Congrats on day 708, you are always here with a hand out ready to pull another quitter from the bowels of addiction and I thank you for trudging me through it early in my quitness.
That is some great stuff right there. A total life triumph! Congrats.
+ infinity knives :ph43r:
Great work today Mark.
amen mthomas
Freedom. It's a wonderful thing; something I didn't realize I had lost until I became quit and found it. Quit for today and be free. Thanks for posting this Mthomas.
As usual Mark, spot on observations! Proud to be a brother in quit with you!
QLAFM!
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I fucking love today. I posted roll and will keep my promise.
This is by far one of my favorite quotes!
Congrats on day 708, you are always here with a hand out ready to pull another quitter from the bowels of addiction and I thank you for trudging me through it early in my quitness.
That is some great stuff right there. A total life triumph! Congrats.
+ infinity knives :ph43r:
Great work today Mark.
amen mthomas
Freedom. It's a wonderful thing; something I didn't realize I had lost until I became quit and found it. Quit for today and be free. Thanks for posting this Mthomas.
As usual Mark, spot on observations! Proud to be a brother in quit with you!
QLAFM!
Day 708 and this guy still post roll in support section of us new fuck quit groups, look up Dedication in the dictionary and it probably says something like this
Dedication, See Committment -----, go to - Page one --- See Mthomastherapy, --to be a badass quitter of Nicotine--
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I fucking love today. I posted roll and will keep my promise.
This is by far one of my favorite quotes!
Congrats on day 708, you are always here with a hand out ready to pull another quitter from the bowels of addiction and I thank you for trudging me through it early in my quitness.
That is some great stuff right there. A total life triumph! Congrats.
+ infinity knives :ph43r:
Great work today Mark.
amen mthomas
Freedom. It's a wonderful thing; something I didn't realize I had lost until I became quit and found it. Quit for today and be free. Thanks for posting this Mthomas.
As usual Mark, spot on observations! Proud to be a brother in quit with you!
QLAFM!
Day 708 and this guy still post roll in support section of us new fuck quit groups, look up Dedication in the dictionary and it probably says something like this
Dedication, See Committment -----, go to - Page one --- See Mthomastherapy, --to be a badass quitter of Nicotine--
Wow what a nice compliment. Thank you.
Early in my quit, I likened KTC to a hospital. They will teach me how to quit but eventually you will get better and need to leave the hospital. I can't "hide" from the real world forever. Get your training and then go.
My mindset evolved. "If it aint broke, don't fix it" KTC is not a hospital. It is a treatment. Like someone with diabetes, they have to take insulin shots. No cure but they can live a good life while treating a disease.
My treatment is posting roll. It really isn't bad ass, its just common sense. When I am weak, I spend more time here. When I am strong, I may post roll and dash. When I am loving it, I know I need to be her so the ones embracing the suck don't surrender. I need a daily shot of quit and thats all.
I'm only a bad ass because I know a good leader follows at times for the greater success of the mission. I am an addict and I follow the vets. Almost 2 years quit.
One day, one promise Repeated. Like brushing teeth, its just a good practice.
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I fucking love today. I posted roll and will keep my promise.
This is by far one of my favorite quotes!
Congrats on day 708, you are always here with a hand out ready to pull another quitter from the bowels of addiction and I thank you for trudging me through it early in my quitness.
That is some great stuff right there. A total life triumph! Congrats.
+ infinity knives :ph43r:
Great work today Mark.
amen mthomas
Freedom. It's a wonderful thing; something I didn't realize I had lost until I became quit and found it. Quit for today and be free. Thanks for posting this Mthomas.
As usual Mark, spot on observations! Proud to be a brother in quit with you!
QLAFM!
Day 708 and this guy still post roll in support section of us new fuck quit groups, look up Dedication in the dictionary and it probably says something like this
Dedication, See Committment -----, go to - Page one --- See Mthomastherapy, --to be a badass quitter of Nicotine--
Wow what a nice compliment. Thank you.
Early in my quit, I likened KTC to a hospital. They will teach me how to quit but eventually you will get better and need to leave the hospital. I can't "hide" from the real world forever. Get your training and then go.
My mindset evolved. "If it aint broke, don't fix it" KTC is not a hospital. It is a treatment. Like someone with diabetes, they have to take insulin shots. No cure but they can live a good life while treating a disease.
My treatment is posting roll. It really isn't bad ass, its just common sense. When I am weak, I spend more time here. When I am strong, I may post roll and dash. When I am loving it, I know I need to be her so the ones embracing the suck don't surrender. I need a daily shot of quit and thats all.
I'm only a bad ass because I know a good leader follows at times for the greater success of the mission. I am an addict and I follow the vets. Almost 2 years quit.
One day, one promise Repeated. Like brushing teeth, its just a good practice.
'BanDog'
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I fucking love today. I posted roll and will keep my promise.
This is by far one of my favorite quotes!
Congrats on day 708, you are always here with a hand out ready to pull another quitter from the bowels of addiction and I thank you for trudging me through it early in my quitness.
That is some great stuff right there. A total life triumph! Congrats.
+ infinity knives :ph43r:
Great work today Mark.
amen mthomas
Freedom. It's a wonderful thing; something I didn't realize I had lost until I became quit and found it. Quit for today and be free. Thanks for posting this Mthomas.
As usual Mark, spot on observations! Proud to be a brother in quit with you!
QLAFM!
Day 708 and this guy still post roll in support section of us new fuck quit groups, look up Dedication in the dictionary and it probably says something like this
Dedication, See Committment -----, go to - Page one --- See Mthomastherapy, --to be a badass quitter of Nicotine--
Wow what a nice compliment. Thank you.
Early in my quit, I likened KTC to a hospital. They will teach me how to quit but eventually you will get better and need to leave the hospital. I can't "hide" from the real world forever. Get your training and then go.
My mindset evolved. "If it aint broke, don't fix it" KTC is not a hospital. It is a treatment. Like someone with diabetes, they have to take insulin shots. No cure but they can live a good life while treating a disease.
My treatment is posting roll. It really isn't bad ass, its just common sense. When I am weak, I spend more time here. When I am strong, I may post roll and dash. When I am loving it, I know I need to be her so the ones embracing the suck don't surrender. I need a daily shot of quit and thats all.
I'm only a bad ass because I know a good leader follows at times for the greater success of the mission. I am an addict and I follow the vets. Almost 2 years quit.
One day, one promise Repeated. Like brushing teeth, its just a good practice.
'BanDog'
You the Man!
I am as always honored to be quit with you and all those before and after us!
Quit on Quiter!
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Mark 2 weeks after you posted this I found KTC. I spent 4 days reading everything I could. I knew I wanted to quit but honestly didn't think I could. Not only that I knew that if I failed again I was giving up, I wasn't going to continue the life of slavery. I believe it was the evening of March 31 I started at the beginning of your intro and read this. I felt a intense connection, your post and so many others gave me my first glimpse of hope leading me to jumping in with both feet and quitting. I remember early in my quit telling you that you were my inspiration to quit and even though I'm older I looked up to you like a older brother. Now I realize we were both new and shakey at best. You were also the first fellow quitter I talked to and met.
Your quit has and still inspires me and so many others. I thank you for being a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and a friend who cares. I know today is just another day but, two years later you can look your kids and your wife in the eye and they know you will be honest to them. That's part of that serenity. We've probably seen more growth in these two years than any other time in our lives.
Congratulation on today's win, remember it's the PRESENT! 2 Years later
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Mark 2 weeks after you posted this I found KTC. I spent 4 days reading everything I could. I knew I wanted to quit but honestly didn't think I could. Not only that I knew that if I failed again I was giving up, I wasn't going to continue the life of slavery. I believe it was the evening of March 31 I started at the beginning of your intro and read this. I felt a intense connection, your post and so many others gave me my first glimpse of hope leading me to jumping in with both feet and quitting. I remember early in my quit telling you that you were my inspiration to quit and even though I'm older I looked up to you like a older brother. Now I realize we were both new and shakey at best. You were also the first fellow quitter I talked to and met.
Your quit has and still inspires me and so many others. I thank you for being a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and a friend who cares. I know today is just another day but, two years later you can look your kids and your wife in the eye and they know you will be honest to them. That's part of that serenity. We've probably seen more growth in these two years than any other time in our lives.
Congratulation on today's win, remember it's the PRESENT! 2 Years later
Day 730 or Year 2
Happy Birthday Quit!
1. Admit that you can't quit nicotine without help. (Honesty)
2. Search and ask for help (Humility)
3. Find KTC (You are not here by accident)
4. Do what you're told with faith no question or changes. (Post roll, keep your word, repeat)
5. Ask for support and give support. (Participate)
6. Return back to 1 and start over.
Never in the beginning of my quit did I think I would be quit 2 years. The future was so vast, I thought I would slip up. I have stuck with KTC and haven't lost. I post roll, keep my word and repeat. It all starts today. Yesterday is over, Tomorrow is only a dream but today is a gift. That's why it's call the present. Quit for today and live today quit. (Nothing but totally Ghey for you all :wub: )
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Mark 2 weeks after you posted this I found KTC. I spent 4 days reading everything I could. I knew I wanted to quit but honestly didn't think I could. Not only that I knew that if I failed again I was giving up, I wasn't going to continue the life of slavery. I believe it was the evening of March 31 I started at the beginning of your intro and read this. I felt a intense connection, your post and so many others gave me my first glimpse of hope leading me to jumping in with both feet and quitting. I remember early in my quit telling you that you were my inspiration to quit and even though I'm older I looked up to you like a older brother. Now I realize we were both new and shakey at best. You were also the first fellow quitter I talked to and met.
Your quit has and still inspires me and so many others. I thank you for being a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and a friend who cares. I know today is just another day but, two years later you can look your kids and your wife in the eye and they know you will be honest to them. That's part of that serenity. We've probably seen more growth in these two years than any other time in our lives.
Congratulation on today's win, remember it's the PRESENT! 2 Years later
Day 730 or Year 2
Happy Birthday Quit!
1. Admit that you can't quit nicotine without help. (Honesty)
2. Search and ask for help (Humility)
3. Find KTC (You are not here by accident)
4. Do what you're told with faith no question or changes. (Post roll, keep your word, repeat)
5. Ask for support and give support. (Participate)
6. Return back to 1 and start over.
Never in the beginning of my quit did I think I would be quit 2 years. The future was so vast, I thought I would slip up. I have stuck with KTC and haven't lost. I post roll, keep my word and repeat. It all starts today. Yesterday is over, Tomorrow is only a dream but today is a gift. That's why it's call the present. Quit for today and live today quit. (Nothing but totally Ghey for you all :wub: )
Two Years! Congrats! You are one of the Kings of Inspiration for me. Thank you so much for what you do here! 'clap' 'clap'
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Mark 2 weeks after you posted this I found KTC. I spent 4 days reading everything I could. I knew I wanted to quit but honestly didn't think I could. Not only that I knew that if I failed again I was giving up, I wasn't going to continue the life of slavery. I believe it was the evening of March 31 I started at the beginning of your intro and read this. I felt a intense connection, your post and so many others gave me my first glimpse of hope leading me to jumping in with both feet and quitting. I remember early in my quit telling you that you were my inspiration to quit and even though I'm older I looked up to you like a older brother. Now I realize we were both new and shakey at best. You were also the first fellow quitter I talked to and met.
Your quit has and still inspires me and so many others. I thank you for being a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and a friend who cares. I know today is just another day but, two years later you can look your kids and your wife in the eye and they know you will be honest to them. That's part of that serenity. We've probably seen more growth in these two years than any other time in our lives.
Congratulation on today's win, remember it's the PRESENT! 2 Years later
Day 730 or Year 2
Happy Birthday Quit!
1. Admit that you can't quit nicotine without help. (Honesty)
2. Search and ask for help (Humility)
3. Find KTC (You are not here by accident)
4. Do what you're told with faith no question or changes. (Post roll, keep your word, repeat)
5. Ask for support and give support. (Participate)
6. Return back to 1 and start over.
Never in the beginning of my quit did I think I would be quit 2 years. The future was so vast, I thought I would slip up. I have stuck with KTC and haven't lost. I post roll, keep my word and repeat. It all starts today. Yesterday is over, Tomorrow is only a dream but today is a gift. That's why it's call the present. Quit for today and live today quit. (Nothing but totally Ghey for you all :wub: )
Two Years! Congrats! You are one of the Kings of Inspiration for me. Thank you so much for what you do here! 'clap' 'clap'
Congrats on 2 years! Reading your post the trying to make the purchase at the C-store without the kids noticing really struck home. I remember acting like I was making a stop for the kids... telling them to go pick out some candy as I ran to the front to make a quick purchase of some copenhagen... that is pretty whack. It is crazy the things we do when we are enslaved owned by a can of dirt. Freedom is a great thing. Proud to be quit with you today!
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Mark 2 weeks after you posted this I found KTC. I spent 4 days reading everything I could. I knew I wanted to quit but honestly didn't think I could. Not only that I knew that if I failed again I was giving up, I wasn't going to continue the life of slavery. I believe it was the evening of March 31 I started at the beginning of your intro and read this. I felt a intense connection, your post and so many others gave me my first glimpse of hope leading me to jumping in with both feet and quitting. I remember early in my quit telling you that you were my inspiration to quit and even though I'm older I looked up to you like a older brother. Now I realize we were both new and shakey at best. You were also the first fellow quitter I talked to and met.
Your quit has and still inspires me and so many others. I thank you for being a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and a friend who cares. I know today is just another day but, two years later you can look your kids and your wife in the eye and they know you will be honest to them. That's part of that serenity. We've probably seen more growth in these two years than any other time in our lives.
Congratulation on today's win, remember it's the PRESENT! 2 Years later
Day 730 or Year 2
Happy Birthday Quit!
1. Admit that you can't quit nicotine without help. (Honesty)
2. Search and ask for help (Humility)
3. Find KTC (You are not here by accident)
4. Do what you're told with faith no question or changes. (Post roll, keep your word, repeat)
5. Ask for support and give support. (Participate)
6. Return back to 1 and start over.
Never in the beginning of my quit did I think I would be quit 2 years. The future was so vast, I thought I would slip up. I have stuck with KTC and haven't lost. I post roll, keep my word and repeat. It all starts today. Yesterday is over, Tomorrow is only a dream but today is a gift. That's why it's call the present. Quit for today and live today quit. (Nothing but totally Ghey for you all :wub: )
Two Years! Congrats! You are one of the Kings of Inspiration for me. Thank you so much for what you do here! 'clap' 'clap'
Congrats MT...keep doing what you are doing. You inspire a lot of us everyday single day.
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Mark 2 weeks after you posted this I found KTC. I spent 4 days reading everything I could. I knew I wanted to quit but honestly didn't think I could. Not only that I knew that if I failed again I was giving up, I wasn't going to continue the life of slavery. I believe it was the evening of March 31 I started at the beginning of your intro and read this. I felt a intense connection, your post and so many others gave me my first glimpse of hope leading me to jumping in with both feet and quitting. I remember early in my quit telling you that you were my inspiration to quit and even though I'm older I looked up to you like a older brother. Now I realize we were both new and shakey at best. You were also the first fellow quitter I talked to and met.
Your quit has and still inspires me and so many others. I thank you for being a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and a friend who cares. I know today is just another day but, two years later you can look your kids and your wife in the eye and they know you will be honest to them. That's part of that serenity. We've probably seen more growth in these two years than any other time in our lives.
Congratulation on today's win, remember it's the PRESENT! 2 Years later
Day 730 or Year 2
Happy Birthday Quit!
1. Admit that you can't quit nicotine without help. (Honesty)
2. Search and ask for help (Humility)
3. Find KTC (You are not here by accident)
4. Do what you're told with faith no question or changes. (Post roll, keep your word, repeat)
5. Ask for support and give support. (Participate)
6. Return back to 1 and start over.
Never in the beginning of my quit did I think I would be quit 2 years. The future was so vast, I thought I would slip up. I have stuck with KTC and haven't lost. I post roll, keep my word and repeat. It all starts today. Yesterday is over, Tomorrow is only a dream but today is a gift. That's why it's call the present. Quit for today and live today quit. (Nothing but totally Ghey for you all :wub: )
Two Years! Congrats! You are one of the Kings of Inspiration for me. Thank you so much for what you do here! 'clap' 'clap'
Congrats MT...keep doing what you are doing. You inspire a lot of us everyday single day.
'BanDog'
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Mark 2 weeks after you posted this I found KTC. I spent 4 days reading everything I could. I knew I wanted to quit but honestly didn't think I could. Not only that I knew that if I failed again I was giving up, I wasn't going to continue the life of slavery. I believe it was the evening of March 31 I started at the beginning of your intro and read this. I felt a intense connection, your post and so many others gave me my first glimpse of hope leading me to jumping in with both feet and quitting. I remember early in my quit telling you that you were my inspiration to quit and even though I'm older I looked up to you like a older brother. Now I realize we were both new and shakey at best. You were also the first fellow quitter I talked to and met.
Your quit has and still inspires me and so many others. I thank you for being a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and a friend who cares. I know today is just another day but, two years later you can look your kids and your wife in the eye and they know you will be honest to them. That's part of that serenity. We've probably seen more growth in these two years than any other time in our lives.
Congratulation on today's win, remember it's the PRESENT! 2 Years later
Day 730 or Year 2
Happy Birthday Quit!
1. Admit that you can't quit nicotine without help. (Honesty)
2. Search and ask for help (Humility)
3. Find KTC (You are not here by accident)
4. Do what you're told with faith no question or changes. (Post roll, keep your word, repeat)
5. Ask for support and give support. (Participate)
6. Return back to 1 and start over.
Never in the beginning of my quit did I think I would be quit 2 years. The future was so vast, I thought I would slip up. I have stuck with KTC and haven't lost. I post roll, keep my word and repeat. It all starts today. Yesterday is over, Tomorrow is only a dream but today is a gift. That's why it's call the present. Quit for today and live today quit. (Nothing but totally Ghey for you all :wub: )
Two Years! Congrats! You are one of the Kings of Inspiration for me. Thank you so much for what you do here! 'clap' 'clap'
Congrats MT...keep doing what you are doing. You inspire a lot of us everyday single day.
'BanDog'
Nice 2 years MThomas!
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Mark 2 weeks after you posted this I found KTC. I spent 4 days reading everything I could. I knew I wanted to quit but honestly didn't think I could. Not only that I knew that if I failed again I was giving up, I wasn't going to continue the life of slavery. I believe it was the evening of March 31 I started at the beginning of your intro and read this. I felt a intense connection, your post and so many others gave me my first glimpse of hope leading me to jumping in with both feet and quitting. I remember early in my quit telling you that you were my inspiration to quit and even though I'm older I looked up to you like a older brother. Now I realize we were both new and shakey at best. You were also the first fellow quitter I talked to and met.
Your quit has and still inspires me and so many others. I thank you for being a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and a friend who cares. I know today is just another day but, two years later you can look your kids and your wife in the eye and they know you will be honest to them. That's part of that serenity. We've probably seen more growth in these two years than any other time in our lives.
Congratulation on today's win, remember it's the PRESENT! 2 Years later
Day 730 or Year 2
Happy Birthday Quit!
1. Admit that you can't quit nicotine without help. (Honesty)
2. Search and ask for help (Humility)
3. Find KTC (You are not here by accident)
4. Do what you're told with faith no question or changes. (Post roll, keep your word, repeat)
5. Ask for support and give support. (Participate)
6. Return back to 1 and start over.
Never in the beginning of my quit did I think I would be quit 2 years. The future was so vast, I thought I would slip up. I have stuck with KTC and haven't lost. I post roll, keep my word and repeat. It all starts today. Yesterday is over, Tomorrow is only a dream but today is a gift. That's why it's call the present. Quit for today and live today quit. (Nothing but totally Ghey for you all :wub: )
Two Years! Congrats! You are one of the Kings of Inspiration for me. Thank you so much for what you do here! 'clap' 'clap'
Congrats MT...keep doing what you are doing. You inspire a lot of us everyday single day.
'BanDog'
Nice 2 years MThomas!
Congrats MT! 'oh yeah'
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Mark 2 weeks after you posted this I found KTC. I spent 4 days reading everything I could. I knew I wanted to quit but honestly didn't think I could. Not only that I knew that if I failed again I was giving up, I wasn't going to continue the life of slavery. I believe it was the evening of March 31 I started at the beginning of your intro and read this. I felt a intense connection, your post and so many others gave me my first glimpse of hope leading me to jumping in with both feet and quitting. I remember early in my quit telling you that you were my inspiration to quit and even though I'm older I looked up to you like a older brother. Now I realize we were both new and shakey at best. You were also the first fellow quitter I talked to and met.
Your quit has and still inspires me and so many others. I thank you for being a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and a friend who cares. I know today is just another day but, two years later you can look your kids and your wife in the eye and they know you will be honest to them. That's part of that serenity. We've probably seen more growth in these two years than any other time in our lives.
Congratulation on today's win, remember it's the PRESENT! 2 Years later
Day 730 or Year 2
Happy Birthday Quit!
1. Admit that you can't quit nicotine without help. (Honesty)
2. Search and ask for help (Humility)
3. Find KTC (You are not here by accident)
4. Do what you're told with faith no question or changes. (Post roll, keep your word, repeat)
5. Ask for support and give support. (Participate)
6. Return back to 1 and start over.
Never in the beginning of my quit did I think I would be quit 2 years. The future was so vast, I thought I would slip up. I have stuck with KTC and haven't lost. I post roll, keep my word and repeat. It all starts today. Yesterday is over, Tomorrow is only a dream but today is a gift. That's why it's call the present. Quit for today and live today quit. (Nothing but totally Ghey for you all :wub: )
Two Years! Congrats! You are one of the Kings of Inspiration for me. Thank you so much for what you do here! 'clap' 'clap'
Congrats MT...keep doing what you are doing. You inspire a lot of us everyday single day.
'BanDog'
Nice 2 years MThomas!
Congrats MT! 'oh yeah'
Nice job bro!
Very glad you stuck around.
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Mark 2 weeks after you posted this I found KTC. I spent 4 days reading everything I could. I knew I wanted to quit but honestly didn't think I could. Not only that I knew that if I failed again I was giving up, I wasn't going to continue the life of slavery. I believe it was the evening of March 31 I started at the beginning of your intro and read this. I felt a intense connection, your post and so many others gave me my first glimpse of hope leading me to jumping in with both feet and quitting. I remember early in my quit telling you that you were my inspiration to quit and even though I'm older I looked up to you like a older brother. Now I realize we were both new and shakey at best. You were also the first fellow quitter I talked to and met.
Your quit has and still inspires me and so many others. I thank you for being a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and a friend who cares. I know today is just another day but, two years later you can look your kids and your wife in the eye and they know you will be honest to them. That's part of that serenity. We've probably seen more growth in these two years than any other time in our lives.
Congratulation on today's win, remember it's the PRESENT! 2 Years later
Day 730 or Year 2
Happy Birthday Quit!
1. Admit that you can't quit nicotine without help. (Honesty)
2. Search and ask for help (Humility)
3. Find KTC (You are not here by accident)
4. Do what you're told with faith no question or changes. (Post roll, keep your word, repeat)
5. Ask for support and give support. (Participate)
6. Return back to 1 and start over.
Never in the beginning of my quit did I think I would be quit 2 years. The future was so vast, I thought I would slip up. I have stuck with KTC and haven't lost. I post roll, keep my word and repeat. It all starts today. Yesterday is over, Tomorrow is only a dream but today is a gift. That's why it's call the present. Quit for today and live today quit. (Nothing but totally Ghey for you all :wub: )
Two Years! Congrats! You are one of the Kings of Inspiration for me. Thank you so much for what you do here! 'clap' 'clap'
Congrats MT...keep doing what you are doing. You inspire a lot of us everyday single day.
'BanDog'
Nice 2 years MThomas!
Congrats MT! 'oh yeah'
Nice job bro!
Very glad you stuck around.
Goo stuff. Congrats.
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Mark 2 weeks after you posted this I found KTC. I spent 4 days reading everything I could. I knew I wanted to quit but honestly didn't think I could. Not only that I knew that if I failed again I was giving up, I wasn't going to continue the life of slavery. I believe it was the evening of March 31 I started at the beginning of your intro and read this. I felt a intense connection, your post and so many others gave me my first glimpse of hope leading me to jumping in with both feet and quitting. I remember early in my quit telling you that you were my inspiration to quit and even though I'm older I looked up to you like a older brother. Now I realize we were both new and shakey at best. You were also the first fellow quitter I talked to and met.
Your quit has and still inspires me and so many others. I thank you for being a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and a friend who cares. I know today is just another day but, two years later you can look your kids and your wife in the eye and they know you will be honest to them. That's part of that serenity. We've probably seen more growth in these two years than any other time in our lives.
Congratulation on today's win, remember it's the PRESENT! 2 Years later
Day 730 or Year 2
Happy Birthday Quit!
1. Admit that you can't quit nicotine without help. (Honesty)
2. Search and ask for help (Humility)
3. Find KTC (You are not here by accident)
4. Do what you're told with faith no question or changes. (Post roll, keep your word, repeat)
5. Ask for support and give support. (Participate)
6. Return back to 1 and start over.
Never in the beginning of my quit did I think I would be quit 2 years. The future was so vast, I thought I would slip up. I have stuck with KTC and haven't lost. I post roll, keep my word and repeat. It all starts today. Yesterday is over, Tomorrow is only a dream but today is a gift. That's why it's call the present. Quit for today and live today quit. (Nothing but totally Ghey for you all :wub: )
Two Years! Congrats! You are one of the Kings of Inspiration for me. Thank you so much for what you do here! 'clap' 'clap'
Congrats MT...keep doing what you are doing. You inspire a lot of us everyday single day.
'BanDog'
Nice 2 years MThomas!
Congrats MT! 'oh yeah'
Nice job bro!
Very glad you stuck around.
Goo stuff. Congrats.
Slow clap...
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Mark 2 weeks after you posted this I found KTC. I spent 4 days reading everything I could. I knew I wanted to quit but honestly didn't think I could. Not only that I knew that if I failed again I was giving up, I wasn't going to continue the life of slavery. I believe it was the evening of March 31 I started at the beginning of your intro and read this. I felt a intense connection, your post and so many others gave me my first glimpse of hope leading me to jumping in with both feet and quitting. I remember early in my quit telling you that you were my inspiration to quit and even though I'm older I looked up to you like a older brother. Now I realize we were both new and shakey at best. You were also the first fellow quitter I talked to and met.
Your quit has and still inspires me and so many others. I thank you for being a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and a friend who cares. I know today is just another day but, two years later you can look your kids and your wife in the eye and they know you will be honest to them. That's part of that serenity. We've probably seen more growth in these two years than any other time in our lives.
Congratulation on today's win, remember it's the PRESENT! 2 Years later
Day 730 or Year 2
Happy Birthday Quit!
1. Admit that you can't quit nicotine without help. (Honesty)
2. Search and ask for help (Humility)
3. Find KTC (You are not here by accident)
4. Do what you're told with faith no question or changes. (Post roll, keep your word, repeat)
5. Ask for support and give support. (Participate)
6. Return back to 1 and start over.
Never in the beginning of my quit did I think I would be quit 2 years. The future was so vast, I thought I would slip up. I have stuck with KTC and haven't lost. I post roll, keep my word and repeat. It all starts today. Yesterday is over, Tomorrow is only a dream but today is a gift. That's why it's call the present. Quit for today and live today quit. (Nothing but totally Ghey for you all :wub: )
Two Years! Congrats! You are one of the Kings of Inspiration for me. Thank you so much for what you do here! 'clap' 'clap'
Congrats MT...keep doing what you are doing. You inspire a lot of us everyday single day.
'BanDog'
Nice 2 years MThomas!
Congrats MT! 'oh yeah'
Nice job bro!
Very glad you stuck around.
Goo stuff. Congrats.
Slow clap...
fist pump!
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Mark 2 weeks after you posted this I found KTC. I spent 4 days reading everything I could. I knew I wanted to quit but honestly didn't think I could. Not only that I knew that if I failed again I was giving up, I wasn't going to continue the life of slavery. I believe it was the evening of March 31 I started at the beginning of your intro and read this. I felt a intense connection, your post and so many others gave me my first glimpse of hope leading me to jumping in with both feet and quitting. I remember early in my quit telling you that you were my inspiration to quit and even though I'm older I looked up to you like a older brother. Now I realize we were both new and shakey at best. You were also the first fellow quitter I talked to and met.
Your quit has and still inspires me and so many others. I thank you for being a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and a friend who cares. I know today is just another day but, two years later you can look your kids and your wife in the eye and they know you will be honest to them. That's part of that serenity. We've probably seen more growth in these two years than any other time in our lives.
Congratulation on today's win, remember it's the PRESENT! 2 Years later
Day 730 or Year 2
Happy Birthday Quit!
1. Admit that you can't quit nicotine without help. (Honesty)
2. Search and ask for help (Humility)
3. Find KTC (You are not here by accident)
4. Do what you're told with faith no question or changes. (Post roll, keep your word, repeat)
5. Ask for support and give support. (Participate)
6. Return back to 1 and start over.
Never in the beginning of my quit did I think I would be quit 2 years. The future was so vast, I thought I would slip up. I have stuck with KTC and haven't lost. I post roll, keep my word and repeat. It all starts today. Yesterday is over, Tomorrow is only a dream but today is a gift. That's why it's call the present. Quit for today and live today quit. (Nothing but totally Ghey for you all :wub: )
Two Years! Congrats! You are one of the Kings of Inspiration for me. Thank you so much for what you do here! 'clap' 'clap'
Congrats MT...keep doing what you are doing. You inspire a lot of us everyday single day.
'BanDog'
Nice 2 years MThomas!
Congrats MT! 'oh yeah'
Nice job bro!
Very glad you stuck around.
Goo stuff. Congrats.
Slow clap...
fist pump!
Thanks for helping me enjoy today. It's been great, the pm's, texts and here. Feel good to share victories. ? We are not alone in our quits! ?
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Mark 2 weeks after you posted this I found KTC. I spent 4 days reading everything I could. I knew I wanted to quit but honestly didn't think I could. Not only that I knew that if I failed again I was giving up, I wasn't going to continue the life of slavery. I believe it was the evening of March 31 I started at the beginning of your intro and read this. I felt a intense connection, your post and so many others gave me my first glimpse of hope leading me to jumping in with both feet and quitting. I remember early in my quit telling you that you were my inspiration to quit and even though I'm older I looked up to you like a older brother. Now I realize we were both new and shakey at best. You were also the first fellow quitter I talked to and met.
Your quit has and still inspires me and so many others. I thank you for being a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and a friend who cares. I know today is just another day but, two years later you can look your kids and your wife in the eye and they know you will be honest to them. That's part of that serenity. We've probably seen more growth in these two years than any other time in our lives.
Congratulation on today's win, remember it's the PRESENT! 2 Years later
Day 730 or Year 2
Happy Birthday Quit!
1. Admit that you can't quit nicotine without help. (Honesty)
2. Search and ask for help (Humility)
3. Find KTC (You are not here by accident)
4. Do what you're told with faith no question or changes. (Post roll, keep your word, repeat)
5. Ask for support and give support. (Participate)
6. Return back to 1 and start over.
Never in the beginning of my quit did I think I would be quit 2 years. The future was so vast, I thought I would slip up. I have stuck with KTC and haven't lost. I post roll, keep my word and repeat. It all starts today. Yesterday is over, Tomorrow is only a dream but today is a gift. That's why it's call the present. Quit for today and live today quit. (Nothing but totally Ghey for you all :wub: )
Two Years! Congrats! You are one of the Kings of Inspiration for me. Thank you so much for what you do here! 'clap' 'clap'
Congrats MT...keep doing what you are doing. You inspire a lot of us everyday single day.
'BanDog'
Nice 2 years MThomas!
Congrats MT! 'oh yeah'
Nice job bro!
Very glad you stuck around.
Goo stuff. Congrats.
Slow clap...
fist pump!
Thanks for helping me enjoy today. It's been great, the pm's, texts and here. Feel good to share victories. ? We are not alone in our quits! ?
congrats Mark, albeit a day late! Keep up the quality work you do in here! Proud to call you my brother in quit!
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Mark 2 weeks after you posted this I found KTC. I spent 4 days reading everything I could. I knew I wanted to quit but honestly didn't think I could. Not only that I knew that if I failed again I was giving up, I wasn't going to continue the life of slavery. I believe it was the evening of March 31 I started at the beginning of your intro and read this. I felt a intense connection, your post and so many others gave me my first glimpse of hope leading me to jumping in with both feet and quitting. I remember early in my quit telling you that you were my inspiration to quit and even though I'm older I looked up to you like a older brother. Now I realize we were both new and shakey at best. You were also the first fellow quitter I talked to and met.
Your quit has and still inspires me and so many others. I thank you for being a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and a friend who cares. I know today is just another day but, two years later you can look your kids and your wife in the eye and they know you will be honest to them. That's part of that serenity. We've probably seen more growth in these two years than any other time in our lives.
Congratulation on today's win, remember it's the PRESENT! 2 Years later
Day 730 or Year 2
Happy Birthday Quit!
1. Admit that you can't quit nicotine without help. (Honesty)
2. Search and ask for help (Humility)
3. Find KTC (You are not here by accident)
4. Do what you're told with faith no question or changes. (Post roll, keep your word, repeat)
5. Ask for support and give support. (Participate)
6. Return back to 1 and start over.
Never in the beginning of my quit did I think I would be quit 2 years. The future was so vast, I thought I would slip up. I have stuck with KTC and haven't lost. I post roll, keep my word and repeat. It all starts today. Yesterday is over, Tomorrow is only a dream but today is a gift. That's why it's call the present. Quit for today and live today quit. (Nothing but totally Ghey for you all :wub: )
Two Years! Congrats! You are one of the Kings of Inspiration for me. Thank you so much for what you do here! 'clap' 'clap'
Congrats MT...keep doing what you are doing. You inspire a lot of us everyday single day.
'BanDog'
Nice 2 years MThomas!
Congrats MT! 'oh yeah'
Nice job bro!
Very glad you stuck around.
Goo stuff. Congrats.
Slow clap...
fist pump!
Thanks for helping me enjoy today. It's been great, the pm's, texts and here. Feel good to share victories. ? We are not alone in our quits! ?
congrats Mark, albeit a day late! Keep up the quality work you do in here! Proud to call you my brother in quit!
JUST AWESOME!!!!
Stay quit and stay inspirational!
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
Mark 2 weeks after you posted this I found KTC. I spent 4 days reading everything I could. I knew I wanted to quit but honestly didn't think I could. Not only that I knew that if I failed again I was giving up, I wasn't going to continue the life of slavery. I believe it was the evening of March 31 I started at the beginning of your intro and read this. I felt a intense connection, your post and so many others gave me my first glimpse of hope leading me to jumping in with both feet and quitting. I remember early in my quit telling you that you were my inspiration to quit and even though I'm older I looked up to you like a older brother. Now I realize we were both new and shakey at best. You were also the first fellow quitter I talked to and met.
Your quit has and still inspires me and so many others. I thank you for being a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and a friend who cares. I know today is just another day but, two years later you can look your kids and your wife in the eye and they know you will be honest to them. That's part of that serenity. We've probably seen more growth in these two years than any other time in our lives.
Congratulation on today's win, remember it's the PRESENT! 2 Years later
Day 730 or Year 2
Happy Birthday Quit!
1. Admit that you can't quit nicotine without help. (Honesty)
2. Search and ask for help (Humility)
3. Find KTC (You are not here by accident)
4. Do what you're told with faith no question or changes. (Post roll, keep your word, repeat)
5. Ask for support and give support. (Participate)
6. Return back to 1 and start over.
Never in the beginning of my quit did I think I would be quit 2 years. The future was so vast, I thought I would slip up. I have stuck with KTC and haven't lost. I post roll, keep my word and repeat. It all starts today. Yesterday is over, Tomorrow is only a dream but today is a gift. That's why it's call the present. Quit for today and live today quit. (Nothing but totally Ghey for you all :wub: )
Two Years! Congrats! You are one of the Kings of Inspiration for me. Thank you so much for what you do here! 'clap' 'clap'
Congrats MT...keep doing what you are doing. You inspire a lot of us everyday single day.
'BanDog'
Nice 2 years MThomas!
Congrats MT! 'oh yeah'
Nice job bro!
Very glad you stuck around.
Goo stuff. Congrats.
Slow clap...
fist pump!
Thanks for helping me enjoy today. It's been great, the pm's, texts and here. Feel good to share victories. ? We are not alone in our quits! ?
congrats Mark, albeit a day late! Keep up the quality work you do in here! Proud to call you my brother in quit!
JUST AWESOME!!!!
Stay quit and stay inspirational!
Great stuff. Nice work.
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744 days Quit
Man for the longest time my quit has been easy. Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun. I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related.
I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated. Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit.
Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.
Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal. I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing. I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...
This was a powerful craving. I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave. (request denied) they get me laughing and the crave retreats.
I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything. It would be easier to track. 'Crazy' My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight. She said, "did you promise today". I answered yes. Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow." Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess. Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today.
Woke up today and texted the gheys. Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment. Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar. A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved? 'Crazy' Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit. Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work.
I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place. 'bang head' Well, it does get easier but it never ends. You must treat your addiction everyday.
If there are any 100+ day quitters. Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine") Those thoughts are absolute bullshit! Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison. Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe. You are not in control of craving. You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic. If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave. I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret.
I know I would regret it. So today I already made the choice to quit. We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day.
I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood. I am weak but the weak don't cave. The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit.
I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day!
KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit. Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow. 'Finger'
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KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit. Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow. 'Finger'
I absolutely love this statement right here! You are a rock among quitters...dick!
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744 days Quit
Man for the longest time my quit has been easy. Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun. I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related.
I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated. Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit.
Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.
Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal. I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing. I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...
This was a powerful craving. I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave. (request denied) they get me laughing and the crave retreats.
I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything. It would be easier to track. 'Crazy' My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight. She said, "did you promise today". I answered yes. Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow." Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess. Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today.
Woke up today and texted the gheys. Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment. Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar. A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved? 'Crazy' Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit. Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work.
I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place. 'bang head' Well, it does get easier but it never ends. You must treat your addiction everyday.
If there are any 100+ day quitters. Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine") Those thoughts are absolute bullshit! Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison. Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe. You are not in control of craving. You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic. If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave. I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret.
I know I would regret it. So today I already made the choice to quit. We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day.
I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood. I am weak but the weak don't cave. The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit.
I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day!
KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit. Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow. 'Finger'
Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.
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744 days Quit
Man for the longest time my quit has been easy. Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun. I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related.Â
I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated. Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit.Â
Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.
Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal. I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing. I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...
This was a powerful craving. I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave. (request denied) they get me laughing and the crave retreats.Â
I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything. It would be easier to track. 'Crazy' My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight. She said, "did you promise today". I answered yes. Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow." Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess. Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today.Â
Woke up today and texted the gheys. Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment. Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar. A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved? 'Crazy' Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit. Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work.Â
I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place. 'bang head' Well, it does get easier but it never ends. You must treat your addiction everyday.Â
If there are any 100+ day quitters. Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine") Those thoughts are absolute bullshit! Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison. Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe. You are not in control of craving. You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic. If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave. I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret.Â
I know I would regret it. So today I already made the choice to quit. We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day.Â
I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood. I am weak but the weak don't cave. The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit.Â
I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day!Â
KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit. Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow. 'Finger'
Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.
Good stuff as always.
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744 days Quit
Man for the longest time my quit has been easy. Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun. I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related.Â
I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated. Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit.Â
Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.
Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal. I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing. I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...
This was a powerful craving. I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave. (request denied) they get me laughing and the crave retreats.Â
I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything. It would be easier to track.  'Crazy'  My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight. She said, "did you promise today". I answered yes. Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow." Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess. Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today.Â
Woke up today and texted the gheys. Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment. Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar. A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?  'Crazy' Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit. Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work.Â
I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.  'bang head' Well, it does get easier but it never ends. You must treat your addiction everyday.Â
If there are any 100+ day quitters. Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine") Those thoughts are absolute bullshit! Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison. Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe. You are not in control of craving. You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic. If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave. I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret.Â
I know I would regret it. So today I already made the choice to quit. We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day.Â
I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood. I am weak but the weak don't cave. The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit.Â
I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day! Â
KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit. Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.  'Finger'
Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.
Good stuff as always.
'Finger' you too bro! :wub:
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744 days Quit
Man for the longest time my quit has been easy. Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun. I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related.Â
I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated. Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit.Â
Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.
Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal. I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing. I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...
This was a powerful craving. I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave. (request denied) they get me laughing and the crave retreats.Â
I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything. It would be easier to track.  'Crazy'  My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight. She said, "did you promise today". I answered yes. Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow." Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess. Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today.Â
Woke up today and texted the gheys. Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment. Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar. A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?  'Crazy' Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit. Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work.Â
I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.  'bang head' Well, it does get easier but it never ends. You must treat your addiction everyday.Â
If there are any 100+ day quitters. Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine") Those thoughts are absolute bullshit! Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison. Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe. You are not in control of craving. You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic. If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave. I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret.Â
I know I would regret it. So today I already made the choice to quit. We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day.Â
I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood. I am weak but the weak don't cave. The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit.Â
I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day! Â
KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit. Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.  'Finger'
Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.
Good stuff as always.
'Finger' you too bro! :wub:
I knew I should have stopped by yesterday to see you. Probably would have if it weren't raining so hard. We decided to head home early. It's good that your sister is giving you good advise.
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744 days Quit
Man for the longest time my quit has been easy. Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun. I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related.Â
I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated. Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit.Â
Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.
Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal. I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing. I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...
This was a powerful craving. I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave. (request denied) they get me laughing and the crave retreats.Â
I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything. It would be easier to track.  'Crazy'  My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight. She said, "did you promise today". I answered yes. Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow." Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess. Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today.Â
Woke up today and texted the gheys. Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment. Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar. A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?  'Crazy' Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit. Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work.Â
I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.  'bang head' Well, it does get easier but it never ends. You must treat your addiction everyday.Â
If there are any 100+ day quitters. Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine") Those thoughts are absolute bullshit! Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison. Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe. You are not in control of craving. You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic. If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave. I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret.Â
I know I would regret it. So today I already made the choice to quit. We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day.Â
I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood. I am weak but the weak don't cave. The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit.Â
I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day! Â
KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit. Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.  'Finger'
Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.
Good stuff as always.
'Finger' you too bro! :wub:
I knew I should have stopped by yesterday to see you. Probably would have if it weren't raining so hard. We decided to head home early. It's good that your sister is giving you good advise.
Preach it brotha Mark. Good stuff man.
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744 days Quit
Man for the longest time my quit has been easy. Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun. I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related.Â
I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated. Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit.Â
Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.
Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal. I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing. I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...
This was a powerful craving. I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave. (request denied) they get me laughing and the crave retreats.Â
I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything. It would be easier to track.  'Crazy'  My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight. She said, "did you promise today". I answered yes. Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow." Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess. Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today.Â
Woke up today and texted the gheys. Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment. Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar. A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?  'Crazy' Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit. Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work.Â
I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.  'bang head' Well, it does get easier but it never ends. You must treat your addiction everyday.Â
If there are any 100+ day quitters. Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine") Those thoughts are absolute bullshit! Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison. Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe. You are not in control of craving. You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic. If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave. I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret.Â
I know I would regret it. So today I already made the choice to quit. We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day.Â
I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood. I am weak but the weak don't cave. The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit.Â
I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day! Â
KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit. Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.  'Finger'
Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.
Good stuff as always.
'Finger' you too bro! :wub:
I knew I should have stopped by yesterday to see you. Probably would have if it weren't raining so hard. We decided to head home early. It's good that your sister is giving you good advise.
Preach it brotha Mark. Good stuff man.
:wub:
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744 days Quit
Man for the longest time my quit has been easy. Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun. I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related.Â
I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated. Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit.Â
Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.
Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal. I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing. I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...
This was a powerful craving. I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave. (request denied) they get me laughing and the crave retreats.Â
I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything. It would be easier to track.  'Crazy'  My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight. She said, "did you promise today". I answered yes. Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow." Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess. Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today.Â
Woke up today and texted the gheys. Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment. Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar. A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?  'Crazy' Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit. Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work.Â
I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.  'bang head' Well, it does get easier but it never ends. You must treat your addiction everyday.Â
If there are any 100+ day quitters. Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine") Those thoughts are absolute bullshit! Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison. Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe. You are not in control of craving. You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic. If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave. I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret.Â
I know I would regret it. So today I already made the choice to quit. We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day.Â
I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood. I am weak but the weak don't cave. The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit.Â
I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day! Â
KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit. Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.  'Finger'
Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.
Good stuff as always.
'Finger' you too bro! :wub:
I knew I should have stopped by yesterday to see you. Probably would have if it weren't raining so hard. We decided to head home early. It's good that your sister is giving you good advise.
Preach it brotha Mark. Good stuff man.
:wub:
Someday I hope I can be half as ghey as you guys. QLF ODAAT NAFAR
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744 days Quit
Man for the longest time my quit has been easy. Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun. I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related.Â
I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated. Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit.Â
Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.
Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal. I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing. I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...
This was a powerful craving. I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave. (request denied) they get me laughing and the crave retreats.Â
I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything. It would be easier to track.  'Crazy'  My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight. She said, "did you promise today". I answered yes. Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow." Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess. Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today.Â
Woke up today and texted the gheys. Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment. Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar. A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?  'Crazy' Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit. Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work.Â
I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.  'bang head' Well, it does get easier but it never ends. You must treat your addiction everyday.Â
If there are any 100+ day quitters. Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine") Those thoughts are absolute bullshit! Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison. Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe. You are not in control of craving. You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic. If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave. I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret.Â
I know I would regret it. So today I already made the choice to quit. We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day.Â
I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood. I am weak but the weak don't cave. The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit.Â
I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day! Â
KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit. Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.  'Finger'
Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.
Good stuff as always.
'Finger' you too bro! :wub:
I knew I should have stopped by yesterday to see you. Probably would have if it weren't raining so hard. We decided to head home early. It's good that your sister is giving you good advise.
Preach it brotha Mark. Good stuff man.
:wub:
Someday I hope I can be half as ghey as you guys. QLF ODAAT NAFAR
Every damn day brother!!!
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744 days Quit
Man for the longest time my quit has been easy. Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun. I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related.Â
I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated. Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit.Â
Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.
Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal. I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing. I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...
This was a powerful craving. I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave. (request denied) they get me laughing and the crave retreats.Â
I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything. It would be easier to track.  'Crazy'  My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight. She said, "did you promise today". I answered yes. Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow." Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess. Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today.Â
Woke up today and texted the gheys. Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment. Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar. A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?  'Crazy' Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit. Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work.Â
I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.  'bang head' Well, it does get easier but it never ends. You must treat your addiction everyday.Â
If there are any 100+ day quitters. Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine") Those thoughts are absolute bullshit! Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison. Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe. You are not in control of craving. You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic. If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave. I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret.Â
I know I would regret it. So today I already made the choice to quit. We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day.Â
I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood. I am weak but the weak don't cave. The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit.Â
I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day! Â
KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit. Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.  'Finger'
Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.
Good stuff as always.
'Finger' you too bro! :wub:
I knew I should have stopped by yesterday to see you. Probably would have if it weren't raining so hard. We decided to head home early. It's good that your sister is giving you good advise.
Preach it brotha Mark. Good stuff man.
:wub:
Someday I hope I can be half as ghey as you guys. QLF ODAAT NAFAR
Every damn day brother!!!
Man of course I know you know this but you've got this quit. I know you do. Thanks for all of your support for us lowly tobacco and alky addicts today!! Hang in there man!!!!
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744 days Quit
Man for the longest time my quit has been easy. Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun. I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related.Â
I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated. Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit.Â
Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.
Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal. I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing. I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...
This was a powerful craving. I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave. (request denied) they get me laughing and the crave retreats.Â
I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything. It would be easier to track.  'Crazy'  My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight. She said, "did you promise today". I answered yes. Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow." Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess. Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today.Â
Woke up today and texted the gheys. Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment. Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar. A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?  'Crazy' Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit. Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work.Â
I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.  'bang head' Well, it does get easier but it never ends. You must treat your addiction everyday.Â
If there are any 100+ day quitters. Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine") Those thoughts are absolute bullshit! Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison. Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe. You are not in control of craving. You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic. If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave. I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret.Â
I know I would regret it. So today I already made the choice to quit. We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day.Â
I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood. I am weak but the weak don't cave. The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit.Â
I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day! Â
KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit. Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.  'Finger'
Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.
Good stuff as always.
'Finger' you too bro! :wub:
I knew I should have stopped by yesterday to see you. Probably would have if it weren't raining so hard. We decided to head home early. It's good that your sister is giving you good advise.
Preach it brotha Mark. Good stuff man.
:wub:
Someday I hope I can be half as ghey as you guys. QLF ODAAT NAFAR
Every damn day brother!!!
Man of course I know you know this but you've got this quit. I know you do. Thanks for all of your support for us lowly tobacco and alky addicts today!! Hang in there man!!!!
The cravings are gone and my quit is simple again. I passed yet another test and hate nicotine more than ever!!!!!
So glad I have the freedom to chose vs being shackled by a bully and submitting to her call.
Now with a few notches on my belt, I can say from experience....the burden of being quit is sooooo much simpler and easier than the burden of feeding my addiction.
Thanks for the support. Sometimes you give and sometimes you take from this site. Either way, you become a stronger, wiser, and more humble quitter.
With a KTC record of 748 wins to 0 losses, KTC can take a weak man and empower him with a power and strength to go undefeated!
Thanks for the support. I am happy to be quit and I don't hate you guys anymore.
'winker'
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744 days Quit
Man for the longest time my quit has been easy. Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun. I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related.Â
I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated. Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit.Â
Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.
Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal. I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing. I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...
This was a powerful craving. I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave. (request denied) they get me laughing and the crave retreats.Â
I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything. It would be easier to track.  'Crazy'  My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight. She said, "did you promise today". I answered yes. Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow." Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess. Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today.Â
Woke up today and texted the gheys. Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment. Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar. A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?  'Crazy' Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit. Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work.Â
I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.  'bang head' Well, it does get easier but it never ends. You must treat your addiction everyday.Â
If there are any 100+ day quitters. Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine") Those thoughts are absolute bullshit! Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison. Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe. You are not in control of craving. You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic. If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave. I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret.Â
I know I would regret it. So today I already made the choice to quit. We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day.Â
I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood. I am weak but the weak don't cave. The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit.Â
I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day! Â
KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit. Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.  'Finger'
Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.
Good stuff as always.
'Finger' you too bro! :wub:
I knew I should have stopped by yesterday to see you. Probably would have if it weren't raining so hard. We decided to head home early. It's good that your sister is giving you good advise.
Preach it brotha Mark. Good stuff man.
:wub:
Someday I hope I can be half as ghey as you guys. QLF ODAAT NAFAR
Every damn day brother!!!
Man of course I know you know this but you've got this quit. I know you do. Thanks for all of your support for us lowly tobacco and alky addicts today!! Hang in there man!!!!
The cravings are gone and my quit is simple again. I passed yet another test and hate nicotine more than ever!!!!!
So glad I have the freedom to chose vs being shackled by a bully and submitting to her call.
Now with a few notches on my belt, I can say from experience....the burden of being quit is sooooo much simpler and easier than the burden of feeding my addiction.
Thanks for the support. Sometimes you give and sometimes you take from this site. Either way, you become a stronger, wiser, and more humble quitter.
With a KTC record of 748 wins to 0 losses, KTC can take a weak man and empower him with a power and strength to go undefeated!
Thanks for the support. I am happy to be quit and I don't hate you guys anymore.
'winker'
Thanks for the support. I am happy to be quit and I don't hate you guys anymore
Wow, I hadn't thought about that before but it's true. The bitch and our addicted minds that tried to to protect the position of using connected our friends here with pain. After the attempt to separate us from accountability failed we developed those brotherhood accountability bonds which have lead to true appreciation and love with some compassion thrown in.
Quit on! Oh yea I'm glad the Mrs. Returned home finding you still having honor.
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Day 771 Nicotine, 8 Alcohol
My son did a 17 second clip: If Disney made, "Breaking Bad". It's on youtube and just broke 1 million views.
Please check it out and if you like it, share. Aaron Paul, "Jesse", shared on his twitter account.
If you saw Frozen and love breaking bad, it will get at least a smile. Bitch! DarthBlaker (http://youtu.be/dHHJGEeCLSo)
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Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)
I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.
In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.
One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.
Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.
Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.
Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.
Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.
I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.
I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.
SAME HERE BROTHER, TRYING TO CUT WEIGHT JUST TO MAKE HEAVYWEIGHT, IT WAS BETWEEN PLASTICS, AND DIP, AND BECAUSE WE WERE WRESTLERS WE WERE ACTUALLY ALLOWED TO WALK AROUND SCHOOL, WITH SPIT CUPS IN HAND AND I WENT TO A HUGE HIGH SCHOOL LIKE A MINI CAMPUS EVEN BACK IN THE LATE 80'S. AMAZING TO LOOK BACK AND THINK THAT WAS ENCOURAGED
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This is a public service announcement. Warning, this does have th F word in it. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sgfQ9o2-9BM)
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This is a public service announcement. Warning, this does have th F word in it. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sgfQ9o2-9BM)
that was weird and funny
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This is a public service announcement. Warning, this does have th F word in it. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sgfQ9o2-9BM)
that was weird and funny
OMG...starting tomorrow. I smiled but didn't laugh until that line
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This is a public service announcement. Warning, this does have th F word in it. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sgfQ9o2-9BM)
that was weird and funny
OMG...starting tomorrow. I smiled but didn't laugh until that line
Post of the day! Funny "until tomorrow"
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This is a public service announcement. Warning, this does have th F word in it. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sgfQ9o2-9BM)
that was weird and funny
OMG...starting tomorrow. I smiled but didn't laugh until that line
Post of the day! Funny "until tomorrow"
'chief'
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800 days of quit, and still showing up to dispense support, advice, insight-- thanks and Congrats!! Keep the recovery going strong with all of us!
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800 days of quit, and still showing up to dispense support, advice, insight-- thanks and Congrats!! Keep the recovery going strong with all of us!
Nice!
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800 days of quit, and still showing up to dispense support, advice, insight-- thanks and Congrats!! Keep the recovery going strong with all of us!
Nice!
WOW that is beautiful keep on kickin ass and takin names
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800 days of quit, and still showing up to dispense support, advice, insight-- thanks and Congrats!! Keep the recovery going strong with all of us!
Nice!
WOW that is beautiful keep on kickin ass and takin names
Awesome! Thanks for being such a positive motivator and educator. You are a great quit mentor.
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800 days of quit, and still showing up to dispense support, advice, insight-- thanks and Congrats!! Keep the recovery going strong with all of us!
Nice!
WOW that is beautiful keep on kickin ass and takin names
Awesome! Thanks for being such a positive motivator and educator. You are a great quit mentor.
'Cheers' nice 8hundo Mark! Way to be a quitter!
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800 days of quit, and still showing up to dispense support, advice, insight-- thanks and Congrats!! Keep the recovery going strong with all of us!
Nice!
WOW that is beautiful keep on kickin ass and takin names
Awesome! Thanks for being such a positive motivator and educator. You are a great quit mentor.
'Cheers' nice 8hundo Mark! Way to be a quitter!
Congrats and most of all, thanks for supporting the new quitters.
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Today is a good day to quit for the 800th Time!!!!
Ladies and Gentlemen, in this corner and representing KTC; with a record of 800 wins, Zero losses, He's a 5'10" tall. (6' with an erect penis) 222 lbs, and hailing from the shadows of the Rocky Mountains. He's Quit, he's Ghey; He a stormin Mormon from Utah. He's been called Mr. Dumbass, MT, Muttley, The Royal Dousche, Fucktard, Chocolate Thunder, and Quitter but he never has been called late for Dinner! Let's give it up for a 2012 HOFamer, MMMMM Thomas omas....omas... 'oh yeah'
'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'band' 'band' 'wave' 'wave' 'wave' 'party' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'chew2' 'chew2'
and in this corner representing US Tobacco and using addicts, she's a bitch, a world terrorist, a liar, a thief, a home wrecker a face deforming slut, she's sneaky, she's cunning and she kills the human spirit and body. Let's here it for the nic bitch....
'FU' 'FU' 'FU' 'Finger' 'Finger' 'Finger'
Anyone care to guess who wins today? I quit and give you my word. The bitch is knocked out in the first round!!!!
Thanks for the props and support. We fight individually but need a team to do it. I love the KTC Team.
Nothing funner than self promotion. LOL. Big deal I back it up. Stay Ghey!
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800 days of quit, and still showing up to dispense support, advice, insight-- thanks and Congrats!! Keep the recovery going strong with all of us!
Nice!
WOW that is beautiful keep on kickin ass and takin names
Awesome! Thanks for being such a positive motivator and educator. You are a great quit mentor.
'Cheers' nice 8hundo Mark! Way to be a quitter!
Congrats and most of all, thanks for supporting the new quitters.
Pretty Damn awesome Mark. Keep it up and thanks for all the support! You rock and UST can suck it!
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800 days of quit, and still showing up to dispense support, advice, insight-- thanks and Congrats!! Keep the recovery going strong with all of us!
Nice!
WOW that is beautiful keep on kickin ass and takin names
Awesome! Thanks for being such a positive motivator and educator. You are a great quit mentor.
'Cheers' nice 8hundo Mark! Way to be a quitter!
Congrats and most of all, thanks for supporting the new quitters.
Pretty Damn awesome Mark. Keep it up and thanks for all the support! You rock and UST can suck it!
'BanDog'
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800 days of quit, and still showing up to dispense support, advice, insight-- thanks and Congrats!! Keep the recovery going strong with all of us!
Nice!
WOW that is beautiful keep on kickin ass and takin names
Awesome! Thanks for being such a positive motivator and educator. You are a great quit mentor.
'Cheers' nice 8hundo Mark! Way to be a quitter!
Congrats and most of all, thanks for supporting the new quitters.
Pretty Damn awesome Mark. Keep it up and thanks for all the support! You rock and UST can suck it!
'BanDog'
8 bills = STRONG.
Keep knocking the bottom out of the bitch.
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800 days of quit, and still showing up to dispense support, advice, insight-- thanks and Congrats!! Keep the recovery going strong with all of us!
Nice!
WOW that is beautiful keep on kickin ass and takin names
Awesome! Thanks for being such a positive motivator and educator. You are a great quit mentor.
'Cheers' nice 8hundo Mark! Way to be a quitter!
Congrats and most of all, thanks for supporting the new quitters.
Pretty Damn awesome Mark. Keep it up and thanks for all the support! You rock and UST can suck it!
'BanDog'
8 bills = STRONG.
Keep knocking the bottom out of the bitch.
Keep on Keeping on brother!!!
oh yeah....
'BanDog'
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800 days of quit, and still showing up to dispense support, advice, insight-- thanks and Congrats!! Keep the recovery going strong with all of us!
Nice!
WOW that is beautiful keep on kickin ass and takin names
Awesome! Thanks for being such a positive motivator and educator. You are a great quit mentor.
'Cheers' nice 8hundo Mark! Way to be a quitter!
Congrats and most of all, thanks for supporting the new quitters.
Pretty Damn awesome Mark. Keep it up and thanks for all the support! You rock and UST can suck it!
'BanDog'
8 bills = STRONG.
Keep knocking the bottom out of the bitch.
Keep on Keeping on brother!!!
oh yeah....
'BanDog'
Well Done my friend!!!
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800 days of quit, and still showing up to dispense support, advice, insight-- thanks and Congrats!! Keep the recovery going strong with all of us!
Nice!
WOW that is beautiful keep on kickin ass and takin names
Awesome! Thanks for being such a positive motivator and educator. You are a great quit mentor.
'Cheers' nice 8hundo Mark! Way to be a quitter!
Congrats and most of all, thanks for supporting the new quitters.
Pretty Damn awesome Mark. Keep it up and thanks for all the support! You rock and UST can suck it!
'BanDog'
8 bills = STRONG.
Keep knocking the bottom out of the bitch.
Keep on Keeping on brother!!!
oh yeah....
'BanDog'
Well Done my friend!!!
Niiiiiiice!
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800 days of quit, and still showing up to dispense support, advice, insight-- thanks and Congrats!! Keep the recovery going strong with all of us!
Nice!
WOW that is beautiful keep on kickin ass and takin names
Awesome! Thanks for being such a positive motivator and educator. You are a great quit mentor.
'Cheers' nice 8hundo Mark! Way to be a quitter!
Congrats and most of all, thanks for supporting the new quitters.
Pretty Damn awesome Mark. Keep it up and thanks for all the support! You rock and UST can suck it!
'BanDog'
8 bills = STRONG.
Keep knocking the bottom out of the bitch.
Keep on Keeping on brother!!!
oh yeah....
'BanDog'
Well Done my friend!!!
Niiiiiiice!
Congrats on 8th floor!
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800 days of quit, and still showing up to dispense support, advice, insight-- thanks and Congrats!! Keep the recovery going strong with all of us!
Nice!
WOW that is beautiful keep on kickin ass and takin names
Awesome! Thanks for being such a positive motivator and educator. You are a great quit mentor.
'Cheers' nice 8hundo Mark! Way to be a quitter!
Congrats and most of all, thanks for supporting the new quitters.
Pretty Damn awesome Mark. Keep it up and thanks for all the support! You rock and UST can suck it!
'BanDog'
8 bills = STRONG.
Keep knocking the bottom out of the bitch.
Keep on Keeping on brother!!!
oh yeah....
'BanDog'
Well Done my friend!!!
Niiiiiiice!
Congrats on 8th floor!
Very impressive. Glad your a part of this site.
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800 days of quit, and still showing up to dispense support, advice, insight-- thanks and Congrats!! Keep the recovery going strong with all of us!
Nice!
WOW that is beautiful keep on kickin ass and takin names
Awesome! Thanks for being such a positive motivator and educator. You are a great quit mentor.
'Cheers' nice 8hundo Mark! Way to be a quitter!
Congrats and most of all, thanks for supporting the new quitters.
Pretty Damn awesome Mark. Keep it up and thanks for all the support! You rock and UST can suck it!
'BanDog'
8 bills = STRONG.
Keep knocking the bottom out of the bitch.
Keep on Keeping on brother!!!
oh yeah....
'BanDog'
Well Done my friend!!!
Niiiiiiice!
Congrats on 8th floor!
Very impressive. Glad your a part of this site.
800 days. A true pillar of quit. Congrats and thank you for continuing to support others on this site. Well done
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Throw Back Thursday!!!!
814 days today and still quitting by posting roll, being a man of my word, repeating! For those of you that have a week in....Read this. This was my day 7. Its great to look back on a difficult yet rewarding journey to have my choice back!
Day 7 today. One week of hell. One week of triumph! Of all the times I said I quit, I can't honestly remember a time that I really went a whole week without tobacco.
I crashed last night. I was so exhausted and feel asleep. Woke up this morning refreshed, recharged and feeling great!!! I can't explain how good it felt to get a good night sleep. I had no problem quitting today. I wanted to shout at the roof tops, "Hey I Quit today and it feels great!"
With all that and feeling the positive breakthrough. I realized three things:
1- If it walks, quacks and acts like a duck, its a duck. Tobacco is ANTI-AMERICAN! The can binds us into slavery. We give up our freedom. The tobacco promoters can say what they want but my eyes can see clearly now. There is a great promotion and deception of the evil creature. I'm an addict, you cleverly walked me into slavery. Ultimately I chose bondage, but today, I too chose to quit. I chose freedom!
2- Is it coincidence that all our stories begin in our early teens? I think I was late to the party at 17. Most of you were in 6th grade on average. Hey, "Let's flavor the creature with candy flavors." (cherry, apple, citris. Probably too bold but I'm sure they considered cotton candy in the board room) These fuckers got me. Will I stand by and let them bind my two boys or any American Son / Daughter for that matter? My friends, they aren't after out parents, they want to enslave our CHILDREN!!!!!
3- In the beginning of my quit, I was depressed and felt all the symptoms of quitting. I referred to my habit as my mistress. No more, the sheep's clothing has come off. This is a wolf! This is Evil, This is scary! This is the Evil Creature. If evil comes calling, run! Avoid it and circle the wagons. Evil can be beat. We beat this evil with unity and exposure. When the sun comes up, the darkness of night disappears. We can be the sun to the darkness of the tobacco industry.
Wow, I just wanted to quit. Now I want to wage war. I mean it. We need to campaign for our young men to choose freedom over slavery!!!! Kone 2012, What about cope 2012, or skoal 2012? This evil empire, steals away our children, mutilates them internally. Some will die, All are addicts!
I thought that too much focus or thinking about it wasn't good. (just get it out of your mind) Not with this subject. We must watch it and build reinforcements from its cunning craftiness. We must know our enemy and understand the strengths. Then, Protect yourself. Put on the Armor of truth and knowledge, stand side by side with your allies, with your bothers. Then pick up a weapon and stand post for our children's sake!!!
I slept great last night. Tobacco promoters whoever you are...how did you sleep? If you promote tobacco and read this, I can make you this promise... You will not sleep good tonight. Your conscience will not settle. You will justify and deny but you can't dismiss truth. So you will toss and turn. FUCK YOU. Worm! Until you change, I will fight you, I will expose you for who you are!!! The light is coming!
To my brothers in this, you made a promise to quit today. I am united with you. We worry about tomorrow when it comes. For today...You said, "i quit" and joined the war. Never surrender, if you're in trouble, call for reinforcements. If you cave, I HATE you. You are a pussy and a traitor. Sure you're human and can make mistakes, but for today, you are super human, we trust your word and need you to lead the battle. WIN or Fuck off. Your choice, slavery or war. The evil creature won't quit. You have to fight for freedom...protect yourself, family and friends...forever!
(If you think this is over the top or too dramatic...get back in check, you're in danger of the cave in your path! Wake the hell up, you are at war and should be on alert every second of the day.)
Post Roll
Quit every day
Repeat.
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800 days of quit, and still showing up to dispense support, advice, insight-- thanks and Congrats!! Keep the recovery going strong with all of us!
Nice!
WOW that is beautiful keep on kickin ass and takin names
Awesome! Thanks for being such a positive motivator and educator. You are a great quit mentor.
'Cheers' nice 8hundo Mark! Way to be a quitter!
Congrats and most of all, thanks for supporting the new quitters.
Pretty Damn awesome Mark. Keep it up and thanks for all the support! You rock and UST can suck it!
'BanDog'
8 bills = STRONG.
Keep knocking the bottom out of the bitch.
Keep on Keeping on brother!!!
oh yeah....
'BanDog'
Well Done my friend!!!
Niiiiiiice!
Congrats on 8th floor!
Very impressive. Glad your a part of this site.
800 days. A true pillar of quit. Congrats and thank you for continuing to support others on this site. Well done
Proud of you for 800 Days!!!!!!!
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Throw Back Thursday!!!!
814 days today and still quitting by posting roll, being a man of my word, repeating! For those of you that have a week in....Read this. This was my day 7. Its great to look back on a difficult yet rewarding journey to have my choice back!
Day 7 today. One week of hell. One week of triumph! Of all the times I said I quit, I can't honestly remember a time that I really went a whole week without tobacco.
I crashed last night. I was so exhausted and feel asleep. Woke up this morning refreshed, recharged and feeling great!!! I can't explain how good it felt to get a good night sleep. I had no problem quitting today. I wanted to shout at the roof tops, "Hey I Quit today and it feels great!"
With all that and feeling the positive breakthrough. I realized three things:
1- If it walks, quacks and acts like a duck, its a duck. Tobacco is ANTI-AMERICAN! The can binds us into slavery. We give up our freedom. The tobacco promoters can say what they want but my eyes can see clearly now. There is a great promotion and deception of the evil creature. I'm an addict, you cleverly walked me into slavery. Ultimately I chose bondage, but today, I too chose to quit. I chose freedom!
2- Is it coincidence that all our stories begin in our early teens? I think I was late to the party at 17. Most of you were in 6th grade on average. Hey, "Let's flavor the creature with candy flavors." (cherry, apple, citris. Probably too bold but I'm sure they considered cotton candy in the board room) These fuckers got me. Will I stand by and let them bind my two boys or any American Son / Daughter for that matter? My friends, they aren't after out parents, they want to enslave our CHILDREN!!!!!
3- In the beginning of my quit, I was depressed and felt all the symptoms of quitting. I referred to my habit as my mistress. No more, the sheep's clothing has come off. This is a wolf! This is Evil, This is scary! This is the Evil Creature. If evil comes calling, run! Avoid it and circle the wagons. Evil can be beat. We beat this evil with unity and exposure. When the sun comes up, the darkness of night disappears. We can be the sun to the darkness of the tobacco industry.
Wow, I just wanted to quit. Now I want to wage war. I mean it. We need to campaign for our young men to choose freedom over slavery!!!! Kone 2012, What about cope 2012, or skoal 2012? This evil empire, steals away our children, mutilates them internally. Some will die, All are addicts!
I thought that too much focus or thinking about it wasn't good. (just get it out of your mind) Not with this subject. We must watch it and build reinforcements from its cunning craftiness. We must know our enemy and understand the strengths. Then, Protect yourself. Put on the Armor of truth and knowledge, stand side by side with your allies, with your bothers. Then pick up a weapon and stand post for our children's sake!!!
I slept great last night. Tobacco promoters whoever you are...how did you sleep? If you promote tobacco and read this, I can make you this promise... You will not sleep good tonight. Your conscience will not settle. You will justify and deny but you can't dismiss truth. So you will toss and turn. FUCK YOU. Worm! Until you change, I will fight you, I will expose you for who you are!!! The light is coming!
To my brothers in this, you made a promise to quit today. I am united with you. We worry about tomorrow when it comes. For today...You said, "i quit" and joined the war. Never surrender, if you're in trouble, call for reinforcements. If you cave, I HATE you. You are a pussy and a traitor. Sure you're human and can make mistakes, but for today, you are super human, we trust your word and need you to lead the battle. WIN or Fuck off. Your choice, slavery or war. The evil creature won't quit. You have to fight for freedom...protect yourself, family and friends...forever!
(If you think this is over the top or too dramatic...get back in check, you're in danger of the cave in your path! Wake the hell up, you are at war and should be on alert every second of the day.)
Post Roll
Quit every day
Repeat.
Thanks for reposting this. It's amazing how similar everyone is on this site in their actions and thoughts. Some of us however, may not be the best at expressing those thoughts in text. You took alot of words out of my mouth that I never would have been able to type myself, but surely thought about. Thank you.
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Throw Back Thursday!!!!
814 days today and still quitting by posting roll, being a man of my word, repeating! For those of you that have a week in....Read this. This was my day 7. Its great to look back on a difficult yet rewarding journey to have my choice back!
Day 7 today. One week of hell. One week of triumph! Of all the times I said I quit, I can't honestly remember a time that I really went a whole week without tobacco.
I crashed last night. I was so exhausted and feel asleep. Woke up this morning refreshed, recharged and feeling great!!! I can't explain how good it felt to get a good night sleep. I had no problem quitting today. I wanted to shout at the roof tops, "Hey I Quit today and it feels great!"
With all that and feeling the positive breakthrough. I realized three things:
1- If it walks, quacks and acts like a duck, its a duck. Tobacco is ANTI-AMERICAN! The can binds us into slavery. We give up our freedom. The tobacco promoters can say what they want but my eyes can see clearly now. There is a great promotion and deception of the evil creature. I'm an addict, you cleverly walked me into slavery. Ultimately I chose bondage, but today, I too chose to quit. I chose freedom!
2- Is it coincidence that all our stories begin in our early teens? I think I was late to the party at 17. Most of you were in 6th grade on average. Hey, "Let's flavor the creature with candy flavors." (cherry, apple, citris. Probably too bold but I'm sure they considered cotton candy in the board room) These fuckers got me. Will I stand by and let them bind my two boys or any American Son / Daughter for that matter? My friends, they aren't after out parents, they want to enslave our CHILDREN!!!!!
3- In the beginning of my quit, I was depressed and felt all the symptoms of quitting. I referred to my habit as my mistress. No more, the sheep's clothing has come off. This is a wolf! This is Evil, This is scary! This is the Evil Creature. If evil comes calling, run! Avoid it and circle the wagons. Evil can be beat. We beat this evil with unity and exposure. When the sun comes up, the darkness of night disappears. We can be the sun to the darkness of the tobacco industry.
Wow, I just wanted to quit. Now I want to wage war. I mean it. We need to campaign for our young men to choose freedom over slavery!!!! Kone 2012, What about cope 2012, or skoal 2012? This evil empire, steals away our children, mutilates them internally. Some will die, All are addicts!
I thought that too much focus or thinking about it wasn't good. (just get it out of your mind) Not with this subject. We must watch it and build reinforcements from its cunning craftiness. We must know our enemy and understand the strengths. Then, Protect yourself. Put on the Armor of truth and knowledge, stand side by side with your allies, with your bothers. Then pick up a weapon and stand post for our children's sake!!!
I slept great last night. Tobacco promoters whoever you are...how did you sleep? If you promote tobacco and read this, I can make you this promise... You will not sleep good tonight. Your conscience will not settle. You will justify and deny but you can't dismiss truth. So you will toss and turn. FUCK YOU. Worm! Until you change, I will fight you, I will expose you for who you are!!! The light is coming!
To my brothers in this, you made a promise to quit today. I am united with you. We worry about tomorrow when it comes. For today...You said, "i quit" and joined the war. Never surrender, if you're in trouble, call for reinforcements. If you cave, I HATE you. You are a pussy and a traitor. Sure you're human and can make mistakes, but for today, you are super human, we trust your word and need you to lead the battle. WIN or Fuck off. Your choice, slavery or war. The evil creature won't quit. You have to fight for freedom...protect yourself, family and friends...forever!
(If you think this is over the top or too dramatic...get back in check, you're in danger of the cave in your path! Wake the hell up, you are at war and should be on alert every second of the day.)
Post Roll
Quit every day
Repeat.
Thanks for reposting this. It's amazing how similar everyone is on this site in their actions and thoughts. Some of us however, may not be the best at expressing those thoughts in text. You took alot of words out of my mouth that I never would have been able to type myself, but surely thought about. Thank you.
At 795 days quit.....i still get #quitwood with posts like this......Mthomas is a badass fucking quitter....
My day 7 was no where near as inspirational - but for all the newbies....here it is....I'll be your huckleberry
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So - i am clearly no vet, but have found a few things that have helped out as i start my second week. First, decided to whiten the teeth (went with Rembrandt), just another small signal to Nic that I plan to never go back. Second, went back to flossing everyday - think I did it only before the dreaded dentist visit which i only made every year or 2. I figure if I keep my house (mouth) clean, i won't want to get it dirty (shitty with turd) Third, have picked up the Shaun White Stride winter mint gum. Burns like crazy at first, but the best part is that a piece of gum can literally last up to an hour or more.
Day 7 - still quit......digging it.......
am stressing a bit tho - have to face my biggest trigger tomorrow - an airplane ride. Figured I would quit nic my week at home for Spring Break - but I travel every singe week and am on 2 or 4 flights per week......this is the trigger I need to kick in the face....
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I do still feel the same
FUCK THE BITCH
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Day 900
I love being quit. Quitting has become easy and routine. Today, I am advancing my quit. I am going to get back to 193LBS and loose all the weight I gained during my journey to freedom. That's all, when I get my comma, I will also celebrate a fitness goal. You have my word. Nic free, alcohol free and healthy choices for the next 100 days.
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Day 900
I love being quit. Quitting has become easy and routine. Today, I am advancing my quit. I am going to get back to 193LBS and loose all the weight I gained during my journey to freedom. That's all, when I get my comma, I will also celebrate a fitness goal. You have my word. Nic free, alcohol free and healthy choices for the next 100 days.
Joining you on your 100 day challenge my friend. Congratulations and welcome to 900! A big, big number ahead....
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Day 900
I love being quit. Quitting has become easy and routine. Today, I am advancing my quit. I am going to get back to 193LBS and loose all the weight I gained during my journey to freedom. That's all, when I get my comma, I will also celebrate a fitness goal. You have my word. Nic free, alcohol free and healthy choices for the next 100 days.
Joining you on your 100 day challenge my friend. Congratulations and welcome to 900! A big, big number ahead....
I'll quit with these guys any day that ends with a "y"!!! No nic today.
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Day 900
I love being quit. Quitting has become easy and routine. Today, I am advancing my quit. I am going to get back to 193LBS and loose all the weight I gained during my journey to freedom. That's all, when I get my comma, I will also celebrate a fitness goal. You have my word. Nic free, alcohol free and healthy choices for the next 100 days.
Joining you on your 100 day challenge my friend. Congratulations and welcome to 900! A big, big number ahead....
I'll quit with these guys any day that ends with a "y"!!! No nic today.
Well done my friend.
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Day 900
I love being quit. Quitting has become easy and routine. Today, I am advancing my quit. I am going to get back to 193LBS and loose all the weight I gained during my journey to freedom. That's all, when I get my comma, I will also celebrate a fitness goal. You have my word. Nic free, alcohol free and healthy choices for the next 100 days.
Joining you on your 100 day challenge my friend. Congratulations and welcome to 900! A big, big number ahead....
I'll quit with these guys any day that ends with a "y"!!! No nic today.
Well done my friend.
congrats on 9xhof. Badass, friend. well done.
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Day 900
I love being quit. Quitting has become easy and routine. Today, I am advancing my quit. I am going to get back to 193LBS and loose all the weight I gained during my journey to freedom. That's all, when I get my comma, I will also celebrate a fitness goal. You have my word. Nic free, alcohol free and healthy choices for the next 100 days.
Joining you on your 100 day challenge my friend. Congratulations and welcome to 900! A big, big number ahead....
I'll quit with these guys any day that ends with a "y"!!! No nic today.
Well done my friend.
congrats on 9xhof. Badass, friend. well done.
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Day 900
I love being quit. Quitting has become easy and routine. Today, I am advancing my quit. I am going to get back to 193LBS and loose all the weight I gained during my journey to freedom. That's all, when I get my comma, I will also celebrate a fitness goal. You have my word. Nic free, alcohol free and healthy choices for the next 100 days.
Joining you on your 100 day challenge my friend. Congratulations and welcome to 900! A big, big number ahead....
I'll quit with these guys any day that ends with a "y"!!! No nic today.
Well done my friend.
congrats on 9xhof. Badass, friend. well done.
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That is very nice. 900 is an awesome number. I happen to like it. This just fueled my quit today.
Congrats! Keep rockin your quit.
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Day 900
I love being quit. Quitting has become easy and routine. Today, I am advancing my quit. I am going to get back to 193LBS and loose all the weight I gained during my journey to freedom. That's all, when I get my comma, I will also celebrate a fitness goal. You have my word. Nic free, alcohol free and healthy choices for the next 100 days.
Joining you on your 100 day challenge my friend. Congratulations and welcome to 900! A big, big number ahead....
I'll quit with these guys any day that ends with a "y"!!! No nic today.
Well done my friend.
congrats on 9xhof. Badass, friend. well done.
:jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy:
That is very nice. 900 is an awesome number. I happen to like it. This just fueled my quit today.
Congrats! Keep rockin your quit.
9 floors Is amazing. Only 100 to your comma. Pretty exciting! So glad you are active here after so long!
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Day 900
I love being quit. Quitting has become easy and routine. Today, I am advancing my quit. I am going to get back to 193LBS and loose all the weight I gained during my journey to freedom. That's all, when I get my comma, I will also celebrate a fitness goal. You have my word. Nic free, alcohol free and healthy choices for the next 100 days.
Congrats Mark! If you need any help or ideas on the fitness quest, give me a ring, QLAFM with you all day!
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Day 900
I love being quit. Quitting has become easy and routine. Today, I am advancing my quit. I am going to get back to 193LBS and loose all the weight I gained during my journey to freedom. That's all, when I get my comma, I will also celebrate a fitness goal. You have my word. Nic free, alcohol free and healthy choices for the next 100 days.
Congrats Mark! If you need any help or ideas on the fitness quest, give me a ring, QLAFM with you all day!
Congrats Mark, and I echo what Eric said, you have a couple of guys here to help with another path in this journey.
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Day 900
I love being quit. Quitting has become easy and routine. Today, I am advancing my quit. I am going to get back to 193LBS and loose all the weight I gained during my journey to freedom. That's all, when I get my comma, I will also celebrate a fitness goal. You have my word. Nic free, alcohol free and healthy choices for the next 100 days.
Joining you on your 100 day challenge my friend. Congratulations and welcome to 900! A big, big number ahead....
I'll quit with these guys any day that ends with a "y"!!! No nic today.
Well done my friend.
congrats on 9xhof. Badass, friend. well done.
:jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy:
That is very nice. 900 is an awesome number. I happen to like it. This just fueled my quit today.
Congrats! Keep rockin your quit.
9 floors Is amazing. Only 100 to your comma. Pretty exciting! So glad you are active here after so long!
Missed your day but belated congratulations. I wouldn't be here and quit without you and your encouragement. Another of those life changing events in my life was meeting you as a fellow quitter on KTC. Thank You! I also am going to join you in the healthier living and weight loss.
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Day 900
I love being quit. Quitting has become easy and routine. Today, I am advancing my quit. I am going to get back to 193LBS and loose all the weight I gained during my journey to freedom. That's all, when I get my comma, I will also celebrate a fitness goal. You have my word. Nic free, alcohol free and healthy choices for the next 100 days.
Joining you on your 100 day challenge my friend. Congratulations and welcome to 900! A big, big number ahead....
I'll quit with these guys any day that ends with a "y"!!! No nic today.
Well done my friend.
congrats on 9xhof. Badass, friend. well done.
:jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy: :jan13trophy:
That is very nice. 900 is an awesome number. I happen to like it. This just fueled my quit today.
Congrats! Keep rockin your quit.
9 floors Is amazing. Only 100 to your comma. Pretty exciting! So glad you are active here after so long!
Missed your day but belated congratulations. I wouldn't be here and quit without you and your encouragement. Another of those life changing events in my life was meeting you as a fellow quitter on KTC. Thank You! I also am going to join you in the healthier living and weight loss.
Thanks all. I could say the same.
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Day 904
I feel like I am quitting all over again...and its fun to step up the game. Only 96 days left to reach my goal. (at 1,000 days I will be the same weight I was when I quit) I read Body for Life and I accept the 12 week challenge.
Wow, the cravings for just one burger, or ice cream before I go to bed. I have stayed the course. Like in the past. I hate turning it down...for the moment but when I wake up in the morning...It feels awesome to know I am still on target and I didn't cave to a craving!
Everyday counts. Yes I am sore, I am doing this and it sucks. I will embrace the suck so that I can reach my goals.
I guess I love pain and reward. I love the journey to improve. I haven't been this excited for a while. My quit is so amp'd up now! I am quit, I am sober and am eating to reward my mind, body and spirit! Weight training and eating right sure helps attitude.
Screw the Chew. Screw the fast food lifestyle, (for me) Screw alcohol, and to hell with any group that profits of human natures baser instincts. (Porn) What good does staring at crotches do anyway? Go get a woman you love. You should love her mind, body and spirit. Welcome to grazing and eating six meals, eating food that counts and weight training.
I love being a better person, a better dad and a contributor. I looked in the mirror. Done complaining. Change begins with me and I am the only thing I can change. Off my damn soap box but I am ready to battle!
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Day 904
I feel like I am quitting all over again...and its fun to step up the game. Only 96 days left to reach my goal. (at 1,000 days I will be the same weight I was when I quit) I read Body for Life and I accept the 12 week challenge.
Wow, the cravings for just one burger, or ice cream before I go to bed. I have stayed the course. Like in the past. I hate turning it down...for the moment but when I wake up in the morning...It feels awesome to know I am still on target and I didn't cave to a craving!
Everyday counts. Yes I am sore, I am doing this and it sucks. I will embrace the suck so that I can reach my goals.
I guess I love pain and reward. I love the journey to improve. I haven't been this excited for a while. My quit is so amp'd up now! I am quit, I am sober and am eating to reward my mind, body and spirit! Weight training and eating right sure helps attitude.
Screw the Chew. Screw the fast food lifestyle, (for me) Screw alcohol, and to hell with any group that profits of human natures baser instincts. (Porn) What good does staring at crotches do anyway? Go get a woman you love. You should love her mind, body and spirit. Welcome to grazing and eating six meals, eating food that counts and weight training.
I love being a better person, a better dad and a contributor. I looked in the mirror. Done complaining. Change begins with me and I am the only thing I can change. Off my damn soap box but I am ready to battle!
:wub: http://www.picgifs.com/ (http://www.picgifs.com/) smileys/s ;)
Keep on keeping on my brother!
Quitness continues to be greatness!
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Day 904
I feel like I am quitting all over again...and its fun to step up the game. Only 96 days left to reach my goal. (at 1,000 days I will be the same weight I was when I quit) I read Body for Life and I accept the 12 week challenge.
Wow, the cravings for just one burger, or ice cream before I go to bed. I have stayed the course. Like in the past. I hate turning it down...for the moment but when I wake up in the morning...It feels awesome to know I am still on target and I didn't cave to a craving!
Everyday counts. Yes I am sore, I am doing this and it sucks. I will embrace the suck so that I can reach my goals.
I guess I love pain and reward. I love the journey to improve. I haven't been this excited for a while. My quit is so amp'd up now! I am quit, I am sober and am eating to reward my mind, body and spirit! Weight training and eating right sure helps attitude.
Screw the Chew. Screw the fast food lifestyle, (for me) Screw alcohol, and to hell with any group that profits of human natures baser instincts. (Porn) What good does staring at crotches do anyway? Go get a woman you love. You should love her mind, body and spirit. Welcome to grazing and eating six meals, eating food that counts and weight training.
I love being a better person, a better dad and a contributor. I looked in the mirror. Done complaining. Change begins with me and I am the only thing I can change. Off my damn soap box but I am ready to battle!
:wub: http://www.picgifs.com/ (http://www.picgifs.com/) smileys/s ;)
Keep on keeping on my brother!
Quitness continues to be greatness!
Day 919
Since quitting nicotine, taking my blinders off and having my own type of Shawshank redemption...I have one enemy. Nicotine. I never want to look back, I never want to financially, emotionally or in anyway support, USTobacco and any organization that supports or profits from their existence.
In the back of my mind, I like to think I have addiction licked. Yet last night, I have a dream. For some reason, I'm 44 and dreaming about a sleepover and my sleeping bag. I have two cans that I am trying to hide from the brotherhood. The fear of getting caught, the desire to sneak a dip and actually caving feels way too real for my comfort level.
Woke up to find that it was a dream. This is probably only my third dip dream but they all (here is some drama) pretty traumatic. Yet now that I have my wits back and know it was a dream, I am thankful for it.
This is why I post roll, why I text and chat with fellow quit brothers. I want to stay quit. So many HOFamers say that posting roll is the only time they think about dipping so they stop. I dare say that isn't the only time they think about dip.
If it ain't broke, don't fix it. Keep posting, keep your word and repeat. Sometimes the best solutions to a problem are really simple.
Nicotine can still kiss my ass. I am quit and still undefeated bitch! 'Finger' (Thanks to you gheys)
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Day 904
I feel like I am quitting all over again...and its fun to step up the game. Only 96 days left to reach my goal. (at 1,000 days I will be the same weight I was when I quit) I read Body for Life and I accept the 12 week challenge.
Wow, the cravings for just one burger, or ice cream before I go to bed. I have stayed the course. Like in the past. I hate turning it down...for the moment but when I wake up in the morning...It feels awesome to know I am still on target and I didn't cave to a craving!
Everyday counts. Yes I am sore, I am doing this and it sucks. I will embrace the suck so that I can reach my goals.
I guess I love pain and reward. I love the journey to improve. I haven't been this excited for a while. My quit is so amp'd up now! I am quit, I am sober and am eating to reward my mind, body and spirit! Weight training and eating right sure helps attitude.
Screw the Chew. Screw the fast food lifestyle, (for me) Screw alcohol, and to hell with any group that profits of human natures baser instincts. (Porn) What good does staring at crotches do anyway? Go get a woman you love. You should love her mind, body and spirit. Welcome to grazing and eating six meals, eating food that counts and weight training.
I love being a better person, a better dad and a contributor. I looked in the mirror. Done complaining. Change begins with me and I am the only thing I can change. Off my damn soap box but I am ready to battle!
:wub: http://www.picgifs.com/ (http://www.picgifs.com/) smileys/s ;)
Keep on keeping on my brother!
Quitness continues to be greatness!
Day 919
Since quitting nicotine, taking my blinders off and having my own type of Shawshank redemption...I have one enemy. Nicotine. I never want to look back, I never want to financially, emotionally or in anyway support, USTobacco and any organization that supports or profits from their existence.
In the back of my mind, I like to think I have addiction licked. Yet last night, I have a dream. For some reason, I'm 44 and dreaming about a sleepover and my sleeping bag. I have two cans that I am trying to hide from the brotherhood. The fear of getting caught, the desire to sneak a dip and actually caving feels way too real for my comfort level.
Woke up to find that it was a dream. This is probably only my third dip dream but they all (here is some drama) pretty traumatic. Yet now that I have my wits back and know it was a dream, I am thankful for it.
This is why I post roll, why I text and chat with fellow quit brothers. I want to stay quit. So many HOFamers say that posting roll is the only time they think about dipping so they stop. I dare say that isn't the only time they think about dip.
If it ain't broke, don't fix it. Keep posting, keep your word and repeat. Sometimes the best solutions to a problem are really simple.
Nicotine can still kiss my ass. I am quit and still undefeated bitch! 'Finger' (Thanks to you gheys)
Word to your mother.
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Day 954
Mod's and admin team. Thank you for keeping this site a sanctuary for real quitters. Thank You.
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Day 954
Mod's and admin team. Thank you for keeping this site a sanctuary for real quitters. Thank You.
I agree. Thank you
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Mark I want to first congratulate you on your comma but secondly I want to thank you for being not only a solid quit brother and example but a awesome friend for the past 980 days (you were among the first to contact me). Because of our common situation as addicts it is easy to relate and form this brotherhood relationship. For any addict seeking a way to quit, this brotherhood makes quitting not only possible but kinda enjoyable if you over look the pain. Thank You and quit on!
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Mark I want to first congratulate you on your comma but secondly I want to thank you for being not only a solid quit brother and example but a awesome friend for the past 980 days (you were among the first to contact me). Because of our common situation as addicts it is easy to relate and form this brotherhood relationship. For any addict seeking a way to quit, this brotherhood makes quitting not only possible but kinda enjoyable if you over look the pain. Thank You and quit on!
WOW.Congratulations on a huge milestone today. You help a lot of us more than you know, and are one of the leaders here that consistently seems to say just the right thing at just the right time. Enjoy freedom, brother!
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Mark I want to first congratulate you on your comma but secondly I want to thank you for being not only a solid quit brother and example but a awesome friend for the past 980 days (you were among the first to contact me). Because of our common situation as addicts it is easy to relate and form this brotherhood relationship. For any addict seeking a way to quit, this brotherhood makes quitting not only possible but kinda enjoyable if you over look the pain. Thank You and quit on!
WOW.Congratulations on a huge milestone today. You help a lot of us more than you know, and are one of the leaders here that consistently seems to say just the right thing at just the right time. Enjoy freedom, brother!
DAY 1,000
Being quit and never starting again has been a highlight of accomplishments. I don't make money off promoting a quit life. (even though I have saved money) I am not famous for living a quit life. My quit isn't a possession that I must keep locked in a safe and never share. I don't fear that sharing and showing off my quit will cause it to be stolen. Quite the opposite.
My quit is a result of personal accountability to you and others. My quit is one of the greatest accomplishments in over a decade. My quit...Ironically isn't mine to keep, it is mine to share. I didn't get here alone, nor would I want to be quit alone. My quit is something I value and the more I share it, the greater the worth becomes.
Stay active, keep your word and share your success! Sharing your quit will increase its worth and value to you. It has for me.
I'm a nicotine addict but I retired that habit 1,000 days ago. My quit is yours and this day is ours to celebrate. I congratulate all you quitters and so thankful to meet a bunch of Ghey's that I would suffer (for a moment) to remain accountable to my promise.
The burden of being quit is soooo much better than the burden of dipping.
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The burden of being quit is soooo much better than the burden of dipping.
So true. Congrats on a thousand.
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Mark I want to first congratulate you on your comma but secondly I want to thank you for being not only a solid quit brother and example but a awesome friend for the past 980 days (you were among the first to contact me). Because of our common situation as addicts it is easy to relate and form this brotherhood relationship. For any addict seeking a way to quit, this brotherhood makes quitting not only possible but kinda enjoyable if you over look the pain. Thank You and quit on!
WOW.Congratulations on a huge milestone today. You help a lot of us more than you know, and are one of the leaders here that consistently seems to say just the right thing at just the right time. Enjoy freedom, brother!
DAY 1,000
Being quit and never starting again has been a highlight of accomplishments. I don't make money off promoting a quit life. (even though I have saved money) I am not famous for living a quit life. My quit isn't a possession that I must keep locked in a safe and never share. I don't fear that sharing and showing off my quit will cause it to be stolen. Quite the opposite.
My quit is a result of personal accountability to you and others. My quit is one of the greatest accomplishments in over a decade. My quit...Ironically isn't mine to keep, it is mine to share. I didn't get here alone, nor would I want to be quit alone. My quit is something I value and the more I share it, the greater the worth becomes.
Stay active, keep your word and share your success! Sharing your quit will increase its worth and value to you. It has for me.
I'm a nicotine addict but I retired that habit 1,000 days ago. My quit is yours and this day is ours to celebrate. I congratulate all you quitters and so thankful to meet a bunch of Ghey's that I would suffer (for a moment) to remain accountable to my promise.
The burden of being quit is soooo much better than the burden of dipping.
Nice quitting, gheyboy. And thanks for all the help you dish out along the way!
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Mark I want to first congratulate you on your comma but secondly I want to thank you for being not only a solid quit brother and example but a awesome friend for the past 980 days (you were among the first to contact me). Because of our common situation as addicts it is easy to relate and form this brotherhood relationship. For any addict seeking a way to quit, this brotherhood makes quitting not only possible but kinda enjoyable if you over look the pain. Thank You and quit on!
WOW.Congratulations on a huge milestone today. You help a lot of us more than you know, and are one of the leaders here that consistently seems to say just the right thing at just the right time. Enjoy freedom, brother!
DAY 1,000
Being quit and never starting again has been a highlight of accomplishments. I don't make money off promoting a quit life. (even though I have saved money) I am not famous for living a quit life. My quit isn't a possession that I must keep locked in a safe and never share. I don't fear that sharing and showing off my quit will cause it to be stolen. Quite the opposite.
My quit is a result of personal accountability to you and others. My quit is one of the greatest accomplishments in over a decade. My quit...Ironically isn't mine to keep, it is mine to share. I didn't get here alone, nor would I want to be quit alone. My quit is something I value and the more I share it, the greater the worth becomes.
Stay active, keep your word and share your success! Sharing your quit will increase its worth and value to you. It has for me.
I'm a nicotine addict but I retired that habit 1,000 days ago. My quit is yours and this day is ours to celebrate. I congratulate all you quitters and so thankful to meet a bunch of Ghey's that I would suffer (for a moment) to remain accountable to my promise.
The burden of being quit is soooo much better than the burden of dipping.
Nice quitting, gheyboy. And thanks for all the help you dish out along the way!
Congrats Mthomas! You should be proud. What a great day. And I agree, quitting alone would suck.
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Mark I want to first congratulate you on your comma but secondly I want to thank you for being not only a solid quit brother and example but a awesome friend for the past 980 days (you were among the first to contact me). Because of our common situation as addicts it is easy to relate and form this brotherhood relationship. For any addict seeking a way to quit, this brotherhood makes quitting not only possible but kinda enjoyable if you over look the pain. Thank You and quit on!
WOW.Congratulations on a huge milestone today. You help a lot of us more than you know, and are one of the leaders here that consistently seems to say just the right thing at just the right time. Enjoy freedom, brother!
DAY 1,000
Being quit and never starting again has been a highlight of accomplishments. I don't make money off promoting a quit life. (even though I have saved money) I am not famous for living a quit life. My quit isn't a possession that I must keep locked in a safe and never share. I don't fear that sharing and showing off my quit will cause it to be stolen. Quite the opposite.
My quit is a result of personal accountability to you and others. My quit is one of the greatest accomplishments in over a decade. My quit...Ironically isn't mine to keep, it is mine to share. I didn't get here alone, nor would I want to be quit alone. My quit is something I value and the more I share it, the greater the worth becomes.
Stay active, keep your word and share your success! Sharing your quit will increase its worth and value to you. It has for me.
I'm a nicotine addict but I retired that habit 1,000 days ago. My quit is yours and this day is ours to celebrate. I congratulate all you quitters and so thankful to meet a bunch of Ghey's that I would suffer (for a moment) to remain accountable to my promise.
The burden of being quit is soooo much better than the burden of dipping.
Nice quitting, gheyboy. And thanks for all the help you dish out along the way!
Congrats Mthomas! You should be proud. What a great day. And I agree, quitting alone would suck.
Glad to have you in my corner bro! Congrats on this milestone!
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Mark I want to first congratulate you on your comma but secondly I want to thank you for being not only a solid quit brother and example but a awesome friend for the past 980 days (you were among the first to contact me). Because of our common situation as addicts it is easy to relate and form this brotherhood relationship. For any addict seeking a way to quit, this brotherhood makes quitting not only possible but kinda enjoyable if you over look the pain. Thank You and quit on!
WOW.Congratulations on a huge milestone today. You help a lot of us more than you know, and are one of the leaders here that consistently seems to say just the right thing at just the right time. Enjoy freedom, brother!
DAY 1,000
Being quit and never starting again has been a highlight of accomplishments. I don't make money off promoting a quit life. (even though I have saved money) I am not famous for living a quit life. My quit isn't a possession that I must keep locked in a safe and never share. I don't fear that sharing and showing off my quit will cause it to be stolen. Quite the opposite.
My quit is a result of personal accountability to you and others. My quit is one of the greatest accomplishments in over a decade. My quit...Ironically isn't mine to keep, it is mine to share. I didn't get here alone, nor would I want to be quit alone. My quit is something I value and the more I share it, the greater the worth becomes.
Stay active, keep your word and share your success! Sharing your quit will increase its worth and value to you. It has for me.
I'm a nicotine addict but I retired that habit 1,000 days ago. My quit is yours and this day is ours to celebrate. I congratulate all you quitters and so thankful to meet a bunch of Ghey's that I would suffer (for a moment) to remain accountable to my promise.
The burden of being quit is soooo much better than the burden of dipping.
Nice quitting, gheyboy. And thanks for all the help you dish out along the way!
Congrats Mthomas! You should be proud. What a great day. And I agree, quitting alone would suck.
Glad to have you in my corner bro! Congrats on this milestone!
'worship'
1000 days is epic. Thanks for paving the way Mark. You definitely were perfectly positioned to help show show me the way when I was deep in the trenches. Thanks for giving back. Celebrate the milestone with pride. Stay the course.
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Mark I want to first congratulate you on your comma but secondly I want to thank you for being not only a solid quit brother and example but a awesome friend for the past 980 days (you were among the first to contact me). Because of our common situation as addicts it is easy to relate and form this brotherhood relationship. For any addict seeking a way to quit, this brotherhood makes quitting not only possible but kinda enjoyable if you over look the pain. Thank You and quit on!
WOW.Congratulations on a huge milestone today. You help a lot of us more than you know, and are one of the leaders here that consistently seems to say just the right thing at just the right time. Enjoy freedom, brother!
DAY 1,000
Being quit and never starting again has been a highlight of accomplishments. I don't make money off promoting a quit life. (even though I have saved money) I am not famous for living a quit life. My quit isn't a possession that I must keep locked in a safe and never share. I don't fear that sharing and showing off my quit will cause it to be stolen. Quite the opposite.
My quit is a result of personal accountability to you and others. My quit is one of the greatest accomplishments in over a decade. My quit...Ironically isn't mine to keep, it is mine to share. I didn't get here alone, nor would I want to be quit alone. My quit is something I value and the more I share it, the greater the worth becomes.
Stay active, keep your word and share your success! Sharing your quit will increase its worth and value to you. It has for me.
I'm a nicotine addict but I retired that habit 1,000 days ago. My quit is yours and this day is ours to celebrate. I congratulate all you quitters and so thankful to meet a bunch of Ghey's that I would suffer (for a moment) to remain accountable to my promise.
The burden of being quit is soooo much better than the burden of dipping.
Nice quitting, gheyboy. And thanks for all the help you dish out along the way!
Congrats Mthomas! You should be proud. What a great day. And I agree, quitting alone would suck.
Glad to have you in my corner bro! Congrats on this milestone!
'worship'
1000 days is epic. Thanks for paving the way Mark. You definitely were perfectly positioned to help show show me the way when I was deep in the trenches. Thanks for giving back. Celebrate the milestone with pride. Stay the course.
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Mark I want to first congratulate you on your comma but secondly I want to thank you for being not only a solid quit brother and example but a awesome friend for the past 980 days (you were among the first to contact me). Because of our common situation as addicts it is easy to relate and form this brotherhood relationship. For any addict seeking a way to quit, this brotherhood makes quitting not only possible but kinda enjoyable if you over look the pain. Thank You and quit on!
WOW.Congratulations on a huge milestone today. You help a lot of us more than you know, and are one of the leaders here that consistently seems to say just the right thing at just the right time. Enjoy freedom, brother!
DAY 1,000
Being quit and never starting again has been a highlight of accomplishments. I don't make money off promoting a quit life. (even though I have saved money) I am not famous for living a quit life. My quit isn't a possession that I must keep locked in a safe and never share. I don't fear that sharing and showing off my quit will cause it to be stolen. Quite the opposite.
My quit is a result of personal accountability to you and others. My quit is one of the greatest accomplishments in over a decade. My quit...Ironically isn't mine to keep, it is mine to share. I didn't get here alone, nor would I want to be quit alone. My quit is something I value and the more I share it, the greater the worth becomes.
Stay active, keep your word and share your success! Sharing your quit will increase its worth and value to you. It has for me.
I'm a nicotine addict but I retired that habit 1,000 days ago. My quit is yours and this day is ours to celebrate. I congratulate all you quitters and so thankful to meet a bunch of Ghey's that I would suffer (for a moment) to remain accountable to my promise.
The burden of being quit is soooo much better than the burden of dipping.
Nice quitting, gheyboy. And thanks for all the help you dish out along the way!
Congrats Mthomas! You should be proud. What a great day. And I agree, quitting alone would suck.
Glad to have you in my corner bro! Congrats on this milestone!
'worship'
1000 days is epic. Thanks for paving the way Mark. You definitely were perfectly positioned to help show show me the way when I was deep in the trenches. Thanks for giving back. Celebrate the milestone with pride. Stay the course.
Awesome! Congrats mthomas!
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Mark I want to first congratulate you on your comma but secondly I want to thank you for being not only a solid quit brother and example but a awesome friend for the past 980 days (you were among the first to contact me). Because of our common situation as addicts it is easy to relate and form this brotherhood relationship. For any addict seeking a way to quit, this brotherhood makes quitting not only possible but kinda enjoyable if you over look the pain. Thank You and quit on!
WOW.Congratulations on a huge milestone today. You help a lot of us more than you know, and are one of the leaders here that consistently seems to say just the right thing at just the right time. Enjoy freedom, brother!
DAY 1,000
Being quit and never starting again has been a highlight of accomplishments. I don't make money off promoting a quit life. (even though I have saved money) I am not famous for living a quit life. My quit isn't a possession that I must keep locked in a safe and never share. I don't fear that sharing and showing off my quit will cause it to be stolen. Quite the opposite.
My quit is a result of personal accountability to you and others. My quit is one of the greatest accomplishments in over a decade. My quit...Ironically isn't mine to keep, it is mine to share. I didn't get here alone, nor would I want to be quit alone. My quit is something I value and the more I share it, the greater the worth becomes.
Stay active, keep your word and share your success! Sharing your quit will increase its worth and value to you. It has for me.
I'm a nicotine addict but I retired that habit 1,000 days ago. My quit is yours and this day is ours to celebrate. I congratulate all you quitters and so thankful to meet a bunch of Ghey's that I would suffer (for a moment) to remain accountable to my promise.
The burden of being quit is soooo much better than the burden of dipping.
Nice quitting, gheyboy. And thanks for all the help you dish out along the way!
Congrats Mthomas! You should be proud. What a great day. And I agree, quitting alone would suck.
Glad to have you in my corner bro! Congrats on this milestone!
'worship'
1000 days is epic. Thanks for paving the way Mark. You definitely were perfectly positioned to help show show me the way when I was deep in the trenches. Thanks for giving back. Celebrate the milestone with pride. Stay the course.
Awesome! Congrats mthomas!
Congrats on the comma brother!
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Thanks, All I can say is keep it simple. Quit and keep your word every today. Thinking about your future is dangerous and lamenting your past is moot. Stay quit in the present and your future will be better.
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Thanks, All I can say is keep it simple. Quit and keep your word every today. Thinking about your future is dangerous and lamenting your past is moot. Stay quit in the present and your future will be better.
Sage words from a quitter and not a stopper.
Quitters rock, cavers cave!
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Three years of quit today- and dozens if not hundreds helped along the ghey way! Congrats MT you're a quitstar!
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Three years of quit today- and dozens if not hundreds helped along the ghey way! Congrats MT you're a quitstar!
It doesn't seem possible that it's been 3 years. So much has transpired in our lives over this time, hopefully most for the good. When I joined KTC and you were one of the first to contact me I was amazed at the brotherhood but even more so I was pleasantly surprised to find another "Mormon" addict to travel this journey with, not because I didn't think there were any other Mormon addicts out there but because I didn't think I'd run into them on this forum. It was you that led me to the 12 step meetings which have solidified my quit and led me to repairing so many things that I used my addiction to avoid facing. Brettlees is so right, the numbers that you have helped on this path is probably in the hundreds. Paying forward this experience leads to personal strength in quitting and you are a prime example of super power. Thank You and congratulations.
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Three years of quit today- and dozens if not hundreds helped along the ghey way! Congrats MT you're a quitstar!
It doesn't seem possible that it's been 3 years. So much has transpired in our lives over this time, hopefully most for the good. When I joined KTC and you were one of the first to contact me I was amazed at the brotherhood but even more so I was pleasantly surprised to find another "Mormon" addict to travel this journey with, not because I didn't think there were any other Mormon addicts out there but because I didn't think I'd run into them on this forum. It was you that led me to the 12 step meetings which have solidified my quit and led me to repairing so many things that I used my addiction to avoid facing. Brettlees is so right, the numbers that you have helped on this path is probably in the hundreds. Paying forward this experience leads to personal strength in quitting and you are a prime example of super power. Thank You and congratulations.
3 years of freedom! Thanks for being a part of my daily accountability and paving the way for those who needed your help. You ghey, but you da man.
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Three years of quit today- and dozens if not hundreds helped along the ghey way! Congrats MT you're a quitstar!
It doesn't seem possible that it's been 3 years. So much has transpired in our lives over this time, hopefully most for the good. When I joined KTC and you were one of the first to contact me I was amazed at the brotherhood but even more so I was pleasantly surprised to find another "Mormon" addict to travel this journey with, not because I didn't think there were any other Mormon addicts out there but because I didn't think I'd run into them on this forum. It was you that led me to the 12 step meetings which have solidified my quit and led me to repairing so many things that I used my addiction to avoid facing. Brettlees is so right, the numbers that you have helped on this path is probably in the hundreds. Paying forward this experience leads to personal strength in quitting and you are a prime example of super power. Thank You and congratulations.
3 years of freedom! Thanks for being a part of my daily accountability and paving the way for those who needed your help. You ghey, but you da man.
MT - Congrats on 3 yrs of quit!! I appreciate the help and support you have given me in my efforts. Celebrate today!!!
CJ
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Three years of quit today- and dozens if not hundreds helped along the ghey way! Congrats MT you're a quitstar!
It doesn't seem possible that it's been 3 years. So much has transpired in our lives over this time, hopefully most for the good. When I joined KTC and you were one of the first to contact me I was amazed at the brotherhood but even more so I was pleasantly surprised to find another "Mormon" addict to travel this journey with, not because I didn't think there were any other Mormon addicts out there but because I didn't think I'd run into them on this forum. It was you that led me to the 12 step meetings which have solidified my quit and led me to repairing so many things that I used my addiction to avoid facing. Brettlees is so right, the numbers that you have helped on this path is probably in the hundreds. Paying forward this experience leads to personal strength in quitting and you are a prime example of super power. Thank You and congratulations.
3 years of freedom! Thanks for being a part of my daily accountability and paving the way for those who needed your help. You ghey, but you da man.
MT - Congrats on 3 yrs of quit!! I appreciate the help and support you have given me in my efforts. Celebrate today!!!
CJ
BOOYAH. Outstanding work my friend!
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Three years of quit today- and dozens if not hundreds helped along the ghey way! Congrats MT you're a quitstar!
It doesn't seem possible that it's been 3 years. So much has transpired in our lives over this time, hopefully most for the good. When I joined KTC and you were one of the first to contact me I was amazed at the brotherhood but even more so I was pleasantly surprised to find another "Mormon" addict to travel this journey with, not because I didn't think there were any other Mormon addicts out there but because I didn't think I'd run into them on this forum. It was you that led me to the 12 step meetings which have solidified my quit and led me to repairing so many things that I used my addiction to avoid facing. Brettlees is so right, the numbers that you have helped on this path is probably in the hundreds. Paying forward this experience leads to personal strength in quitting and you are a prime example of super power. Thank You and congratulations.
3 years of freedom! Thanks for being a part of my daily accountability and paving the way for those who needed your help. You ghey, but you da man.
MT - Congrats on 3 yrs of quit!! I appreciate the help and support you have given me in my efforts. Celebrate today!!!
CJ
BOOYAH. Outstanding work my friend!
Congrats on 3 years quit bud.
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Congrats on 1000 days, today is day 4 for me and with guys like you I know it's possible for me to get there too. Thanks for the inspiration, I'm really going to kill the nic bitch today in your honor!!!! 'Remshot'
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Congrats on 1000 days, today is day 4 for me and with guys like you I know it's possible for me to get there too. Thanks for the inspiration, I'm really going to kill the nic bitch today in your honor!!!! 'Remshot'
Always been proud of what you've done here man. You're one helluva quitter.
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Day 1097 (3 years and 2 days)
3 years. Really? 3 quit birthdays and I never had one...not one? One day at a time works. How hard it is to quit, I never want to be in that hell of my first 300 days. Supporting a company that creates weapons of mass destruction? I can't believe how blind I was. Freedom? Freedom is not being controlled by nicotine. Yeah I am quit and will support any other quitter.
If you support nicotine or sympathize with USTobacco...keep quitting daily. You are blinded by their lies. UST doesn't give a shit about you; there is no reason to give a shit about them.
Keep it legal but as for me and my house...we will not support that terrorist organization.
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Day 1097 (3 years and 2 days)
3 years. Really? 3 quit birthdays and I never had one...not one? One day at a time works. How hard it is to quit, I never want to be in that hell of my first 300 days. Supporting a company that creates weapons of mass destruction? I can't believe how blind I was. Freedom? Freedom is not being controlled by nicotine. Yeah I am quit and will support any other quitter.
If you support nicotine or sympathize with USTobacco...keep quitting daily. You are blinded by their lies. UST doesn't give a shit about you; there is no reason to give a shit about them.
Keep it legal but as for me and my house...we will not support that terrorist organization.
Hell Yes! this is why you're still one of the baddest assed quitters!
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1,200 days nic free
Got a text from some quit brothers wondering if I was still good. Hell yes I am still good! I loved the texts too. Quitters care and we need the accountability regardless if you're on day one or day 1200. So to those brothers...Thank you and I love your gheyness.
Here in Utah, our legislatures want to copy Hawaii and raise the age limit purchase nicotine to 21. Now I hate UST. I hate the lies, I hate the control and influence nicotine had on me. UST in my opinion is one of the most dangerous terrorist organizations in the world and they are homegrown. They are responsible for the deaths of 3 mil people world wide per year!!!!
That being said, I laugh that lawmakers think that raising the age limit will lower the use of nicotine. I mean seriously? The age requirement when I was young was 18. I didn't wait until I was 18 to have my first dip.
Why do people think laws will fix addiction? That is an honest question on my part. Maybe it does but for me and my house, Legal or illegal, we don't need a law to tell us what to do and not do when it comes to nicotine. Education and choice. With the help of my brothers I quit when I wanted to quit for me. My choice. It is my choice daily to stay quit. Law or no law, I quit because I have a brain.
I don't hate the user but I hate the product.
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12th floor! Shit we must look like ants from up there.
Congratulations man!!!
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Congrats on 1200 Mark! Quit with you EDD.
CJ
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Congrats on 1200 Mark! Quit with you EDD.
CJ
Yah, Nice work Ghey Boy 'wave' !
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Congrats on 1200 Mark! Quit with you EDD.
CJ
Yah, Nice work Ghey Boy 'wave' !
Atta Boy!!!
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Read your intro just a bit ago and now I'm seeing that you hit the 1200 mark!! Congrats on that brother! I'm on day 2 and pray that one day I can make to the ("12th floor"?). I loved how you called tobacco a mistress. That's exactly how I felt! Greatful for you're example. I'm joining you for the next 1200!
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Congrats on the 13th floor Mark! Amazing!
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Congrats on the 13th floor Mark! Amazing!
Mark - thanks for all of your support of us newbies!
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Congrats on the 13th floor Mark! Amazing!
Mark - thanks for all of your support of us newbies!
roflmao roflmao
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Do It!
1,303 - Man it hasn't been all sunshine and rainbows but is has been a great experience. I pause and looked backed today when I first quit on 3/14/2012...I didn't think I could make it a month. Then the month past...Got to 50...then at 80...I couldn't do it forever why keep going today? Because I made a promise...Got to 100...It wasn't over. Day after day, it didn't get easier. Seemed like it did but I just got stronger? How? I followed the KTC plan without putting my own twist to it. I just did it their way....then a 500 days. So simple I am cured...yet I realized I wasn't cured, I was quit. Started drinking heavily and if I stopped drinking, I ate heavily...Gained weight or hated myself because I couldn't stop drinking until I didn't have anything left to drink...Depression.
Go to meetings, and realize I quit tobacco but didn't control my addiction, it still controlled me. Temptation sets in - "Well when I dipped, I didn't eat and always worked out because I was a ninja and it was a good place to dip in peace....NO can't go back, I have to go forward. I quit that crap, now I need to deal with my crap."
Do It!
If you want to quit starting over, don't surrender. Just DO IT!
Well not only am I 1303 days quit on nicotine, I am 189 days on alcohol and 10lbs lighter. Something is beginning to click and managing stress, issues or whatever other excuse I make besides the truth that I am just an addict...is something I seem to be managing.
Am I stronger (Not of myself) I boast of the strength I received from my fellow addicts at KTC and My God. Me of myself and only accountable to me??? I am weak and breakable. With you and God, I am unbreakable.
DO It! Today, then we'll see you tomorrow and we can decide then if we do it again. Just for today, Do It! so your tomorrow is brighter.
I swore I was at war with nicotine until I died or the industry died. I have not given one red penny to that terrorist organization nor paid any taxes because I bought UStobacco products. No shirts or promos. Give me swag? Stuff that shit up your ass. I am your enemy.
I have won every battle with nicotine. Every battle! Yet the war is on and sometimes feel impossible. My kids will not join - Win! So I can't beat them of myself but I can keep them from terrorizing me and my family. Every kid they recruit...I will educate every kid I coach. The war still Rages!
Are you with UStobacco and going to cave? Stand up and fight with them or against them but don't stand on the sidelines...Do It!
Stay quit and win your battles!
Yeah today is a good day. Quit with me and make today a great day for all of us.
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Do It!
1,303 - Man it hasn't been all sunshine and rainbows but is has been a great experience. I pause and looked backed today when I first quit on 3/14/2012...I didn't think I could make it a month. Then the month past...Got to 50...then at 80...I couldn't do it forever why keep going today? Because I made a promise...Got to 100...It wasn't over. Day after day, it didn't get easier. Seemed like it did but I just got stronger? How? I followed the KTC plan without putting my own twist to it. I just did it their way....then a 500 days. So simple I am cured...yet I realized I wasn't cured, I was quit. Started drinking heavily and if I stopped drinking, I ate heavily...Gained weight or hated myself because I couldn't stop drinking until I didn't have anything left to drink...Depression.
Go to meetings, and realize I quit tobacco but didn't control my addiction, it still controlled me. Temptation sets in - "Well when I dipped, I didn't eat and always worked out because I was a ninja and it was a good place to dip in peace....NO can't go back, I have to go forward. I quit that crap, now I need to deal with my crap."
Do It!
If you want to quit starting over, don't surrender. Just DO IT!
Well not only am I 1303 days quit on nicotine, I am 189 days on alcohol and 10lbs lighter. Something is beginning to click and managing stress, issues or whatever other excuse I make besides the truth that I am just an addict...is something I seem to be managing.
Am I stronger (Not of myself) I boast of the strength I received from my fellow addicts at KTC and My God. Me of myself and only accountable to me??? I am weak and breakable. With you and God, I am unbreakable.
DO It! Today, then we'll see you tomorrow and we can decide then if we do it again. Just for today, Do It! so your tomorrow is brighter.
I swore I was at war with nicotine until I died or the industry died. I have not given one red penny to that terrorist organization nor paid any taxes because I bought UStobacco products. No shirts or promos. Give me swag? Stuff that shit up your ass. I am your enemy.
I have won every battle with nicotine. Every battle! Yet the war is on and sometimes feel impossible. My kids will not join - Win! So I can't beat them of myself but I can keep them from terrorizing me and my family. Every kid they recruit...I will educate every kid I coach. The war still Rages!
Are you with UStobacco and going to cave? Stand up and fight with them or against them but don't stand on the sidelines...Do It!
Stay quit and win your battles!
Yeah today is a good day. Quit with me and make today a great day for all of us.
Damn straight I'll quit with you brother! Glad to hear you're winning the wrestling matches, all over the place. Keep it going bro!