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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: rtpope on February 06, 2014, 10:39:00 PM
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My story is probably similar to most....I turn 27 on Sunday. I've been dipping since I was 13. My starting story is interesting. I grew up on my family's tobacco farm. Hate that fact or not, it put food on 5 families' tables. My Grandfather (who is 80 today and been chewing since 12...he has the toothless mouth to prove it) pulled me out of school one day at 10:00 to help hand prime a field that had standing water. To the non-farmer, mature tobacco in a field of standing water will become diseased or drown fairly quickly. Also, wet tobacco leaves will transfer nicotine through skin very effectively. After working with wet tobacco the entire day, I awoke the next morning with "tobacco poisoning" which is a great way of saying the nic bitch is making you throw up everything you have ever eaten. I went to fuss at my grandfather for getting me sick when he said "if you started chewing you wouldn't get sick." That was my green light to find my bff, Skoal Cherry. It was love at first dip. I soon went from one dip a day to one can a day in about 3 months. I soon learned that if I put half a dip in one side of my lip and another half dip on the other side, I could dip anytime, anywhere and never get caught. I dipped through school, through church, every where. I've been dipping nonstop, every day since. I now work in wealth management and hate wearing a suit and having to hide my dip can so that it doesn't look like I'm smuggling a TV in pocket. I'm tired of waking up in the middle of the night and sneaking a dip so my wife doesn't know how addicted I am. I'm tired of my car smelling like rotten ass from old spit bottles. I'm tired of putting dip stains on legal documents at work. I'm tired of peeling layer after layer of skin from my lip and gums every morning. I'm sick and tired of planning when I stop to get to gas so that I can buy my 5 can sleeves just as I'm dipping the last can of the previous sleeve. I'm tired of not being able to snack with everybody else because I just put in a dip. I'm tired of having panic attacks when I go to bed if I don't know exactly where my can is so I can take a dip as soon as my eyes open. I'm tired of throwing out a 2 hour old dip just to put another right in. I'm tired of people looking at me like I'm totally disgusting when I spit. I'm tired of dip being my identity. I'm tired of dipping. I'm ready to be done.
I have contemplated quitting for quite some time. About 6 months ago I stumbled onto KTC. I thought about quitting and immediately freaked out. I know I'm preaching to the choir, but when every moment of every day involves dip, putting it down is scary as shit. Last week, I decided it was time to get started on my quit journey. I put myself on a schedule, each dip can only last 45 min and you only dip every 2.5 hours. That equates to 5 dips a day. My plan was to "get used to that" and then go down again from 5/day to 4/day. I've stayed the course so far and have been pleasantly surprised at how well I've done. However, I've had a headache for a week. I've been unable to focus most of the day. I'm restless. I'm dealing with cravings. Now I'm thinking....why not just nut up and quit. Why not go ahead and get the shitty part of this out of the way. Why not start now and start feeling better sooner. The last week has taught me that I am stronger than I thought I was. I am able to live without a dip in my lip. F you nic bitch. I'm giving you the finger and telling you to shove off as I start the rest of my life.
PS - to the guys I was talking to in the chat room a couple nights ago....I told you I would be back.
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rtpope you show a lot of promise for a young guy so here is my 2 cents.
It seems like you have this place figured out but just in case here is the deal with KTC, we are basically a cold turkey program, we don't utilize nicotine replacement therapy such as nicorette gum.
We come in each day and promise to our brothers that we will remain quit for the rest of the day, the next day we come and do the same thing. How we do that is by posting roll call, we do that every day and it should be done early in the day, it is a promise not a status report after you've made it through the day.
People come in here and bust balls, they go in the chat and talk about the issues they are having, they call fellow quit group members and ask for help. We remain quit one day at a time.
We have milestones, the biggest and the first is reaching 100 days quit without NRT, this is called the Hall of Fame, the time when you reach HOF is your quit group so if you quit today you would be in the May 2014 group.
When in your group you post roll call, this is your promise to quit today, tomorrow you come in and repeat. Remember, we are addicts, we are junkies to nicotine, it takes a strong will and assistance to stay quit.
Here is the welcome center
index.php?showforum=13 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13)
Here is how to post roll call
index.php?showtopic=50 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
Here is the May quit group
index.php?showtopic=9408 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=9408)
Welcome to our group, if you buy into the program it can save your life.
Stay quit my friend.
Bigwhitebeast
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rtpope you show a lot of promise for a young guy so here is my 2 cents.
It seems like you have this place figured out but just in case here is the deal with KTC, we are basically a cold turkey program, we don't utilize nicotine replacement therapy such as nicorette gum.
We come in each day and promise to our brothers that we will remain quit for the rest of the day, the next day we come and do the same thing. How we do that is by posting roll call, we do that every day and it should be done early in the day, it is a promise not a status report after you've made it through the day.
People come in here and bust balls, they go in the chat and talk about the issues they are having, they call fellow quit group members and ask for help. We remain quit one day at a time.
We have milestones, the biggest and the first is reaching 100 days quit without NRT, this is called the Hall of Fame, the time when you reach HOF is your quit group so if you quit today you would be in the May 2014 group.
When in your group you post roll call, this is your promise to quit today, tomorrow you come in and repeat. Remember, we are addicts, we are junkies to nicotine, it takes a strong will and assistance to stay quit.
Here is the welcome center
index.php?showforum=13 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13)
Here is how to post roll call
index.php?showtopic=50 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
Here is the May quit group
index.php?showtopic=9408 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=9408)
Welcome to our group, if you buy into the program it can save your life.
Stay quit my friend.
Bigwhitebeast
B.W.B. was already a Bad Assed Quitter when I got my head our of my ass day 1, and he has pretty much explained KTC to you like you were a first grader so do as he says... I had my moments as dumb as hell Nicotine Douche Bag: dipping while chawing, smoking a stogie and a pipe..., but the whole tobacco farming thing is just begging for an addiction to the nic bitch like a mother fucker. KTC works. Just read everything here and copy the formula. Sucks like the worst thing you ever have done, but it gets better eventually. Quit Like Fuck all day and worry about tomorrow in the morning. PM me if you need anything. Love the fed up sound of your intro BTW; sounded like you are fed up with being a slave.
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rtpope you show a lot of promise for a young guy so here is my 2 cents.
It seems like you have this place figured out but just in case here is the deal with KTC, we are basically a cold turkey program, we don't utilize nicotine replacement therapy such as nicorette gum.
We come in each day and promise to our brothers that we will remain quit for the rest of the day, the next day we come and do the same thing. How we do that is by posting roll call, we do that every day and it should be done early in the day, it is a promise not a status report after you've made it through the day.
People come in here and bust balls, they go in the chat and talk about the issues they are having, they call fellow quit group members and ask for help. We remain quit one day at a time.
We have milestones, the biggest and the first is reaching 100 days quit without NRT, this is called the Hall of Fame, the time when you reach HOF is your quit group so if you quit today you would be in the May 2014 group.
When in your group you post roll call, this is your promise to quit today, tomorrow you come in and repeat. Remember, we are addicts, we are junkies to nicotine, it takes a strong will and assistance to stay quit.
Here is the welcome center
index.php?showforum=13 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13)
Here is how to post roll call
index.php?showtopic=50 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
Here is the May quit group
index.php?showtopic=9408 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=9408)
Welcome to our group, if you buy into the program it can save your life.
Stay quit my friend.
Bigwhitebeast
B.W.B. was already a Bad Assed Quitter when I got my head our of my ass day 1, and he has pretty much explained KTC to you like you were a first grader so do as he says... I had my moments as dumb as hell Nicotine Douche Bag: dipping while chawing, smoking a stogie and a pipe..., but the whole tobacco farming thing is just begging for an addiction to the nic bitch like a mother fucker. KTC works. Just read everything here and copy the formula. Sucks like the worst thing you ever have done, but it gets better eventually. Quit Like Fuck all day and worry about tomorrow in the morning. PM me if you need anything. Love the fed up sound of your intro BTW; sounded like you are fed up with being a slave.
Post roll first thing. That's how we quit brother. It's that simple. Post roll and honor your word. The rest will take care if itself. Just keep the shit out if your mouth. That's it.
Post roll now.
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rtpope you show a lot of promise for a young guy so here is my 2 cents.
It seems like you have this place figured out but just in case here is the deal with KTC, we are basically a cold turkey program, we don't utilize nicotine replacement therapy such as nicorette gum.
We come in each day and promise to our brothers that we will remain quit for the rest of the day, the next day we come and do the same thing. How we do that is by posting roll call, we do that every day and it should be done early in the day, it is a promise not a status report after you've made it through the day.
People come in here and bust balls, they go in the chat and talk about the issues they are having, they call fellow quit group members and ask for help. We remain quit one day at a time.
We have milestones, the biggest and the first is reaching 100 days quit without NRT, this is called the Hall of Fame, the time when you reach HOF is your quit group so if you quit today you would be in the May 2014 group.
When in your group you post roll call, this is your promise to quit today, tomorrow you come in and repeat. Remember, we are addicts, we are junkies to nicotine, it takes a strong will and assistance to stay quit.
Here is the welcome center
index.php?showforum=13 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13)
Here is how to post roll call
index.php?showtopic=50 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
Here is the May quit group
index.php?showtopic=9408 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=9408)
Welcome to our group, if you buy into the program it can save your life.
Stay quit my friend.
Bigwhitebeast
B.W.B. was already a Bad Assed Quitter when I got my head our of my ass day 1, and he has pretty much explained KTC to you like you were a first grader so do as he says... I had my moments as dumb as hell Nicotine Douche Bag: dipping while chawing, smoking a stogie and a pipe..., but the whole tobacco farming thing is just begging for an addiction to the nic bitch like a mother fucker. KTC works. Just read everything here and copy the formula. Sucks like the worst thing you ever have done, but it gets better eventually. Quit Like Fuck all day and worry about tomorrow in the morning. PM me if you need anything. Love the fed up sound of your intro BTW; sounded like you are fed up with being a slave.
Post roll first thing. That's how we quit brother. It's that simple. Post roll and honor your word. The rest will take care if itself. Just keep the shit out if your mouth. That's it.
Post roll now.
Lots of great guidance given already...
my two cents...at KTC we specialize in "Quit Management".
We do this ODAAT. (one day at a time)
Do or Do Not...There is no try.
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems.
We are all addicts of nicotine.
You gotta reeeeaaaalllllyyyyyy want to "be quit" to "be quit".
Quit on.
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PS - to the guys I was talking to in the chat room a couple nights ago....I told you I would be back.
Love that you're back, and it takes some balls to make the decision to be quit.
However, I've seen enough guys come flying in here with silly putty swinging between their legs screaming the same stuff. Stick around, and prove to us those things are real.
Who knows...maybe you'll grow a third.
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PS - to the guys I was talking to in the chat room a couple nights ago....I told you I would be back.
Love that you're back, and it takes some balls to make the decision to be quit.
However, I've seen enough guys come flying in here with silly putty swinging between their legs screaming the same stuff. Stick around, and prove to us those things are real.
Who knows...maybe you'll grow a third.
While you don't know it yet, or maybe you do...you're in for the fight of your life. The next few days will challenge your resolve. You've drawn the line great, now do whatever it takes to not step over it. Today. The line will be there tomorrow as well and worry about it tomorrow. Each day you stay on your side of the line is a victory. Each day that line gets just a little bit blurrier. Until one day you cant see it and you can walk whereever the fuck you want to. True Freedom.
Whatever it takes, never again for any reason. WITNAFAR in tarps collection of important acronyms; that also includes FUGMANN and 30HASV.
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rtpope you show a lot of promise for a young guy so here is my 2 cents.
It seems like you have this place figured out but just in case here is the deal with KTC, we are basically a cold turkey program, we don't utilize nicotine replacement therapy such as nicorette gum.
We come in each day and promise to our brothers that we will remain quit for the rest of the day, the next day we come and do the same thing. How we do that is by posting roll call, we do that every day and it should be done early in the day, it is a promise not a status report after you've made it through the day.
People come in here and bust balls, they go in the chat and talk about the issues they are having, they call fellow quit group members and ask for help. We remain quit one day at a time.
We have milestones, the biggest and the first is reaching 100 days quit without NRT, this is called the Hall of Fame, the time when you reach HOF is your quit group so if you quit today you would be in the May 2014 group.
When in your group you post roll call, this is your promise to quit today, tomorrow you come in and repeat. Remember, we are addicts, we are junkies to nicotine, it takes a strong will and assistance to stay quit.
Here is the welcome center
index.php?showforum=13 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13)
Here is how to post roll call
index.php?showtopic=50 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
Here is the May quit group
index.php?showtopic=9408 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=9408)
Welcome to our group, if you buy into the program it can save your life.
Stay quit my friend.
Bigwhitebeast
B.W.B. was already a Bad Assed Quitter when I got my head our of my ass day 1, and he has pretty much explained KTC to you like you were a first grader so do as he says... I had my moments as dumb as hell Nicotine Douche Bag: dipping while chawing, smoking a stogie and a pipe..., but the whole tobacco farming thing is just begging for an addiction to the nic bitch like a mother fucker. KTC works. Just read everything here and copy the formula. Sucks like the worst thing you ever have done, but it gets better eventually. Quit Like Fuck all day and worry about tomorrow in the morning. PM me if you need anything. Love the fed up sound of your intro BTW; sounded like you are fed up with being a slave.
Post roll first thing. That's how we quit brother. It's that simple. Post roll and honor your word. The rest will take care if itself. Just keep the shit out if your mouth. That's it.
Post roll now.
Lots of great guidance given already...
my two cents...at KTC we specialize in "Quit Management".
We do this ODAAT. (one day at a time)
Do or Do Not...There is no try.
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems.
We are all addicts of nicotine.
You gotta reeeeaaaalllllyyyyyy want to "be quit" to "be quit".
Quit on.
Already tons of great info and advice from some real vets and tough quitters! I just want to welcome you and offer my support as well. The first couple of weekends were really tough for me....lots of triggers....avoidance of these things while your quit is young is not a bad strategy.
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Welcome to KTC rtpope. You have been given some sound advice from some of the strongest quitters on this site...please take it to heart if you are as serious about your quit as you say you are. The first few weeks are the hardest, but you can do it with determination and support from us. I have sent you a personal message with my telephone number on it. Call me when you need to 24/7. Like everyone else on here, I am here to help you in any way I can. Nice job of taking control of your life back. Wayne
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I just read this and thought to myself, "Yup... That's me". The story details are different but the general gist is the same. Your mind is in the right place young bro. Take it a step further and cultivate some hate. Nicotine robbed us all of sooo many things. Hate that! Nurture it and let it fuel the first part of your quit. It'll give you some momentum. Because... It's gonna suck for awhile. Then... It won't. I wish I could give you a time frame but everyone is different. Stick around... Stick with us. We know how to deal with everything you're going to think and feel. Shoot me a message and my number is yours. I'll help any way I can. Welcome to freedom man... It's pretty damn cool.
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Each day that line gets just a little bit blurrier. Until one day you cant see it and you can walk whereever the fuck you want to.Â
I love this ^^^^^^ so much Tarpon. Said perfectly. What we are all working toward! 'oh yeah'
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Nice job posting roll. That's your promise to not use nicotine today. Live up to it.
Its going to suck. No way around it. It gets better. Every day. Then...you will be free. You will be a new and better man. I promise.
PB
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Holy cow!! Half a day! I'm super anxious, very fidgety, having trouble focusing, seem to have slightly blurred vision and have moments where I can actually taste Copenhagen. My goal is to make it to 5:00 without snapping so that I can go home and run, yell, scream, do what ever to get over the hump.
Thank you everyone for the support and comments. We're going to beat this bitch!!!
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Holy cow!! Half a day! I'm super anxious, very fidgety, having trouble focusing, seem to have slightly blurred vision and have moments where I can actually taste Copenhagen. My goal is to make it to 5:00 without snapping so that I can go home and run, yell, scream, do what ever to get over the hump.
Thank you everyone for the support and comments. We're going to beat this bitch!!!
What is your plan to stay quit his weekend? If you dot have one I suggest getting one
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Holy cow!! Half a day! I'm super anxious, very fidgety, having trouble focusing, seem to have slightly blurred vision and have moments where I can actually taste Copenhagen. My goal is to make it to 5:00 without snapping so that I can go home and run, yell, scream, do what ever to get over the hump.
Thank you everyone for the support and comments. We're going to beat this bitch!!!
You can punch this bitch in the gunt today. Just today. The crap is leaving your system You're winning. Quitting like a man! Embrace the suck, come towards the light. You got this, proud of you!
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Holy cow!! Half a day! I'm super anxious, very fidgety, having trouble focusing, seem to have slightly blurred vision and have moments where I can actually taste Copenhagen. My goal is to make it to 5:00 without snapping so that I can go home and run, yell, scream, do what ever to get over the hump.
Thank you everyone for the support and comments. We're going to beat this bitch!!!
You can punch this bitch in the gunt today. Just today. The crap is leaving your system You're winning. Quitting like a man! Embrace the suck, come towards the light. You got this, proud of you!
Keep pushing. One problem + nicotine = Two problems. You can do it!
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Holy cow!! Half a day! I'm super anxious, very fidgety, having trouble focusing, seem to have slightly blurred vision and have moments where I can actually taste Copenhagen. My goal is to make it to 5:00 without snapping so that I can go home and run, yell, scream, do what ever to get over the hump.
Thank you everyone for the support and comments. We're going to beat this bitch!!!
What is your plan to stay quit his weekend? If you dot have one I suggest getting one
First of all....lemme just say congrats to me! I've not had nic of any kind for 21 hours....that is almost a day. And I'm still in control and doing well.
My head is hurting and I'm still fidgety, but I'm nervous bc the overall suckitude so far isn't the near death experience I was expecting.
My plan for this weekend: I'm an umpire and have workouts with my other dipping umpires. I plan on eating the shit out of seeds and dipping the shit out of this smokey mountain Wintergreen.
After this, I have my grandfather's bday party....just seeing my family will be great. Sunday is my bday and will be with my wife and family all day. Again, burn up the chewing gum, seeds, and smokey mtn.
Alright guys....I've kicked the nic bitch in the teeth so far today. I'm proud to have quit with you guys today.
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Holy cow!! Half a day! I'm super anxious, very fidgety, having trouble focusing, seem to have slightly blurred vision and have moments where I can actually taste Copenhagen. My goal is to make it to 5:00 without snapping so that I can go home and run, yell, scream, do what ever to get over the hump.
Thank you everyone for the support and comments. We're going to beat this bitch!!!
What is your plan to stay quit his weekend? If you dot have one I suggest getting one
First of all....lemme just say congrats to me! I've not had nic of any kind for 21 hours....that is almost a day. And I'm still in control and doing well.
My head is hurting and I'm still fidgety, but I'm nervous bc the overall suckitude so far isn't the near death experience I was expecting.
My plan for this weekend: I'm an umpire and have workouts with my other dipping umpires. I plan on eating the shit out of seeds and dipping the shit out of this smokey mountain Wintergreen.
After this, I have my grandfather's bday party....just seeing my family will be great. Sunday is my bday and will be with my wife and family all day. Again, burn up the chewing gum, seeds, and smokey mtn.
Alright guys....I've kicked the nic bitch in the teeth so far today. I'm proud to have quit with you guys today.
you just remember, we are here. If things get too edgy jump on here and read, read, read. Jump into the live chat and yell at us, curse us out.
you can do this.
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Holy cow!! Half a day! I'm super anxious, very fidgety, having trouble focusing, seem to have slightly blurred vision and have moments where I can actually taste Copenhagen. My goal is to make it to 5:00 without snapping so that I can go home and run, yell, scream, do what ever to get over the hump.
Thank you everyone for the support and comments. We're going to beat this bitch!!!
What is your plan to stay quit his weekend? If you dot have one I suggest getting one
First of all....lemme just say congrats to me! I've not had nic of any kind for 21 hours....that is almost a day. And I'm still in control and doing well.
My head is hurting and I'm still fidgety, but I'm nervous bc the overall suckitude so far isn't the near death experience I was expecting.
My plan for this weekend: I'm an umpire and have workouts with my other dipping umpires. I plan on eating the shit out of seeds and dipping the shit out of this smokey mountain Wintergreen.
After this, I have my grandfather's bday party....just seeing my family will be great. Sunday is my bday and will be with my wife and family all day. Again, burn up the chewing gum, seeds, and smokey mtn.
Alright guys....I've kicked the nic bitch in the teeth so far today. I'm proud to have quit with you guys today.
you just remember, we are here. If things get too edgy jump on here and read, read, read. Jump into the live chat and yell at us, curse us out.
you can do this.
Part of that weekend plan better include coming here and posting roll. It is the only thing some days that kept me clean. Posting roll is done EDD! - That includes weekends.
Do you have any phone #'s? Sending a text can be the lifeline you need at an inopportune time. If you need one, pm me and it is yours.
BTW, Congrats on quitting and seeing it through today!
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Finally finished all the shit on my to do list today. My head is fucking , I'm fucking dizzy and I'm ill as a dam snake. BUT I'M QLF!
Day 2 is gradually getting worse....I assume tomorrow is more of the same?
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Finally finished all the shit on my to do list today. My head is fucking , I'm fucking dizzy and I'm ill as a dam snake. BUT I'M QLF!
Day 2 is gradually getting worse....I assume tomorrow is more of the same?
rtpope, the nic will be out of your system tomorrow. Then your brain can begin the healing process. You have done your brain and body a huge fovor by making it two days. Make it another tomorrow. Keep stacking up one day at a time and the worm will turn. Be patient. Don't worry about the future. Concentrate on the now. You can do this. If I am, you can too! ;Ironman:
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Finally finished all the shit on my to do list today. My head is fucking , I'm fucking dizzy and I'm ill as a dam snake. BUT I'M QLF!
Day 2 is gradually getting worse....I assume tomorrow is more of the same?
I know it's rough man. Suck it in, embrace it. Remember this day. Day 2 tells me you can damn sure make it 3. It's so worth it my friend. I recommend you read got 2 happen intro today. Really good read. He was really efficient in documenting his efforts every step of the way. Look at where he started and where he's at today. This is only one of many. Read intros of individuals that have been here for 100's or even 1000's of days. You'll See that all this is worth it.
I also recommend reading all the information on this site. Start here http://www.killthecan.org/additional-resources/ (http://www.killthecan.org/additional-resources/). http://www.killthecan.org/facts-figures ... r-stories/ (http://www.killthecan.org/facts-figures/cancer-quitter-stories/)
I also recommend hof speeches. Start with mine. It may help you. It's right in my signature line.
Learn your enemy it knows you. Knowledge is power. You want your life back it's going to cost you. You want your freedom your going to have to take it. There is no doubt in my mind you can do this. If I did it you can damn sure do it. Your story is no different then mine. Your no different then 1000's that have come here and taken their lives back. Look to your inbox and you'll find my digits my friend.
One day at a time and you can have back a lot of what the poison has stolen. Never again for any reason and you can keep it. What better way to spend a Saturday evening. Glad to be quit with you.
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And now the fog settles in.. An outer body experience. You will sleep for 6 hours only to look at the clock and realize it has only been 30 minutes. Go buy toilet paper because you will be on the shitter a lot. Your legs will twitch, your gums will be sore. It's the process of healing. You're winning, it gets better. I promise. We know what you're going thru. QLF ODAAT.
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And now the fog settles in.. An outer body experience. You will sleep for 6 hours only to look at the clock and realize it has only been 30 minutes. Go buy toilet paper because you will be on the shitter a lot. Your legs will twitch, your gums will be sore. It's the process of healing. You're winning, it gets better. I promise. We know what you're going thru. QLF ODAAT.
Got some cranberry juice form the health food store not that sugary crap at walmart.
Drink it and lots of water. It will help flush out the toxins and make you feel better. Though there is no quick fix. The suffering just let's you know your still alive and reminds you of what those shitty toxins have been doing to you all of these years.
Never Again!!!
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And now the fog settles in.. An outer body experience. You will sleep for 6 hours only to look at the clock and realize it has only been 30 minutes. Go buy toilet paper because you will be on the shitter a lot. Your legs will twitch, your gums will be sore. It's the process of healing. You're winning, it gets better. I promise. We know what you're going thru. QLF ODAAT.
..and the chest pains. Anyone else have chest pains early in their quit? Day 4~5 I thought I was having a damn heart attack. Shortness of breath, etc. And I'm no Mr. Universe, but in pretty decent shape for 52. Must have been my body revolting from no nic and saying "Give me my poison you motherf***er!" But those pains went away after 48 hours. Scared the bejeezus out of me though! So, rtpope...as these vets are pointing out....get ready for all manner of wacky physical symptoms. The cool thing is they will subside and then it's just a question of managing the mind games! ;-) Take care and quit on!
ZC
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And now the fog settles in.. An outer body experience. You will sleep for 6 hours only to look at the clock and realize it has only been 30 minutes. Go buy toilet paper because you will be on the shitter a lot. Your legs will twitch, your gums will be sore. It's the process of healing. You're winning, it gets better. I promise.  We know what you're going thru. QLF ODAAT.
..and the chest pains. Anyone else have chest pains early in their quit? Day 4~5 I thought I was having a damn heart attack. Shortness of breath, etc. And I'm no Mr. Universe, but in pretty decent shape for 52. Must have been my body revolting from no nic and saying "Give me my poison you motherf***er!" But those pains went away after 48 hours. Scared the bejeezus out of me though! So, rtpope...as these vets are pointing out....get ready for all manner of wacky physical symptoms. The cool thing is they will subside and then it's just a question of managing the mind games! ;-) Take care and quit on!
ZC
Yup. I had the chest pains also. Working out helped that for me.
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Happy Birthday, RT!
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Happy Birthday, RT!
Thank you!
Today has been pretty good so far. I am a little anxious, but hanging in there pretty good. I have had a ringing in my ears all day though. Anyone remember that?
My wife is taking me out for dinner and I can't wait it get in the truck without sneaking a dip when we leave.
Also, smokey mtn fake dip is working extremely well for me. When I'm chewing it I feel rather calm and in control. Is that weird or is it something about your brain being tricked?
Thanks for quitting with me today. It is my pleasure to qlf with you today.
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Happy Birthday, RT!
Thank you!
Today has been pretty good so far. I am a little anxious, but hanging in there pretty good. I have had a ringing in my ears all day though. Anyone remember that?
My wife is taking me out for dinner and I can't wait it get in the truck without sneaking a dip when we leave.
Also, smokey mtn fake dip is working extremely well for me. When I'm chewing it I feel rather calm and in control. Is that weird or is it something about your brain being tricked?
Thanks for quitting with me today. It is my pleasure to qlf with you today.
Don't know about brain trickery, but SM has been vital for me.
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Happy Birthday, RT!
Thank you!
Today has been pretty good so far. I am a little anxious, but hanging in there pretty good. I have had a ringing in my ears all day though. Anyone remember that?
My wife is taking me out for dinner and I can't wait it get in the truck without sneaking a dip when we leave.
Also, smokey mtn fake dip is working extremely well for me. When I'm chewing it I feel rather calm and in control. Is that weird or is it something about your brain being tricked?
Thanks for quitting with me today. It is my pleasure to qlf with you today.
Don't know about brain trickery, but SM has been vital for me.
And the fog is officially here!!! I took the wrong exit coming to work this morning..same road I've driven for 3 years.
I'm barely able to hold my attention on a conversation. I have to think really hard about what I'm typing. Today is hard.
Does the fog lift all at once or did it get better each day until it wasn't there?
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Happy Birthday, RT!
Thank you!
Today has been pretty good so far. I am a little anxious, but hanging in there pretty good. I have had a ringing in my ears all day though. Anyone remember that?
My wife is taking me out for dinner and I can't wait it get in the truck without sneaking a dip when we leave.
Also, smokey mtn fake dip is working extremely well for me. When I'm chewing it I feel rather calm and in control. Is that weird or is it something about your brain being tricked?
Thanks for quitting with me today. It is my pleasure to qlf with you today.
Don't know about brain trickery, but SM has been vital for me.
And the fog is officially here!!! I took the wrong exit coming to work this morning..same road I've driven for 3 years.
I'm barely able to hold my attention on a conversation. I have to think really hard about what I'm typing. Today is hard.
Does the fog lift all at once or did it get better each day until it wasn't there?
Unfortunately, we're all wired differently. Your fog is uniquely yours. Mine evaporated over a couple days, just got better and better. Taking wrong exit after 3 years? Classic!
RT, you've got this. No looking back now. Cool thing is that a couple new guys signed in today, you're no longer the young 'un! With you every damn day!
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Its been several days since I've posted anything...so here's whats been goin on in my quit.
Had my first dip dream last night. Very vivid. I could feel the can of death in my hand, I could taste the poison, even feel the spit on my lips. Very weird. I woke up in a panic not bc I caved, but bc I would have to post day 1 again and I a determined to only have 1 day 1.
My wife and I had a pretty fight 2/13 that spilled over to yesterday (Happy Vday for me). I only craved one really bad time, but threw in some SM and dealt with it pretty easily. Wife and I made up (multiple times) last night so V-day wasn't all bad.
After years of lying to my parents about my addiction, I finally came clean that I have one and that I'm fighting every day to beat it. They were very supportive and told me they knew all about my addiction. Apparently my ninja dipping skills weren't as good as I thought??
I woke up this morning to no TP in the house and had to take a huge shit. I had just made up with my wife bc I was kind of an ass so I just went to the store and bought more. The only check out lane open was the tobacco aisle. I starred down Skoal Cherry, Wintergreen, Straight and all of my favorite Copenhagens and waited for the girl to ask what else she could get me. I smiled (very dramatically) as I said no thanks. No body but us addicts will get how good that makes you feel.
Quit on quitters
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" I starred down Skoal Cherry, Wintergreen, Straight and all of my favorite Copenhagens"
I hate the poison this morning. I'll hate it for lunch. I'll hate it when dinner arrives. I'll enjoy hating it so much today that tomorrow I'll post roll and start over hating it. I don't care if it's in a red can, green can, blue can, or any other color you can think of. I hate It if it's in a weed, pipe, tampon or piece of candy. Screw the poison and whoever promotes it. They can take those racks of poison and burn them down,, it would not bother me in the least.
This^^^^^mindset is what will make quitting easier. Find it in yourself to begin hating it. The poison only ever filled the void it created. It seriously tastes like monkey turds, looks like dirt and smells like death. Your favorite copenhagens had you bound tied and gagged. They don't deserve your want and admiration. I know it's early in your quit, find that hate bro,,, it will help you. Good job on your quit so far. Your mindset will change in time. Believe me. Quit with you today.
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" I starred down Skoal Cherry, Wintergreen, Straight and all of my favorite Copenhagens"Â
I hate the poison this morning. I'll hate it for lunch. I'll hate it when dinner arrives. I'll enjoy hating it so much today that tomorrow I'll post roll and start over hating it. I don't care if it's in a red can, green can, blue can, or any other color you can think of. I hate It if it's in a weed, pipe, tampon or piece of candy. Screw the poison and whoever promotes it. They can take those racks of poison and burn them down,, it would not bother me in the least.Â
This^^^^^mindset is what will make quitting easier. Find it in yourself to begin hating it. The poison only ever filled the void it created. It seriously tastes like monkey turds, looks like dirt and smells like death. Your favorite copenhagens had you bound tied and gagged. They don't deserve your want and admiration. I know it's early in your quit, find that hate bro,,, it will help you. Good job on your quit so far. Your mindset will change in time. Believe me. Quit with you today.
Way to stay quit. Next time you are in there give them one of these for me,,,, 'Finger' . Then back your way out of the store with one of these,,,, 'Finger'
Quit on!
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I'm on day 12. I have been doing extremely well...very few craves, very little assholeishness, very little pissed off for no reason since day 4 until today. I had one of those ass kicking shitty days at work that have me stressed and pissed to the core. You would think that I would want nicotine as that is how I have coped with these days in the past, and I have had a few craves today (thank God for Smokey Mtn) but I do remember that dipping never made the stress go away, was just always the first step as I started getting shit done.
Fuck you nic bitch - I don't need you. This is me giving you the finger on the worst day of work I've had in 6 months. Quitting like fuck, every damn day.
FYI - I'm such a fucking perfectionist that I've had to erase the better parts of my rants because the profanity didn't make sense.
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I'm on day 12. I have been doing extremely well...very few caves, very little assholeishness, very little pissed off for no reason since day 4 until today. I had one of those ass kicking shitty days at work that have me stressed and pissed to the core. You would think that I would want nicotine as that is how I have coped with these days in the past, and I have had a few craves today (thank God for Smokey Mtn) but I do remember that dipping never made the stress go away, was just always the first step as I started getting shit done.
Fuck you nic bitch - I don't need you. This is me giving you the finger on the worst day of work I've had in 6 months. Quitting like fuck, every damn day.
FYI - I'm such a fucking perfectionist that I've had to erase the better parts of my rants because the profanity didn't make sense.
I'm with this guy, he gets it and fights...Fucking A, bubba, throat punch the nic bitch.
You're winning!
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I guess it is time for another update on my quit journey.
I'm on day 18. I've been in a funk most of today. I took the advice of my group texting buddies and took a walk, spent some time outside and then went for a jog. The funk or the blues or whatever this shit is has been the worse part of the last couple weeks (after the SUCK).
I am a baseball umpire. I worked a double header on Saturday and a double header on Sunday. Both sets of games were college games (some of my first) which is a little nerve racking. For the first time ever during a baseball game, I stuffed my face with seeds instead of the poison. I was always ninja dipping and could never fully appreciate how well seeds went with baseball.
I had the perfect storm brewing in the locker room Sunday. My partner was dipping Skoal Mint (thankfully a flavor I never cared for). He went to grab some lunch and left his half full can of poison on the bench staring at me. My first thought was fuck you asshole...I told you I was 17 days into my quit. I went through a lot of fucked up thoughts until I finally put the can in his bag and packed my lip with some Hooch. During my moments of temptation, the fact that I had promised you guys I wouldn't use nic today came to my mind. There's something to this posting roll thing!!
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I guess it is time for another update on my quit journey.
I'm on day 18. I've been in a funk most of today. I took the advice of my group texting buddies and took a walk, spent some time outside and then went for a jog. The funk or the blues or whatever this shit is has been the worse part of the last couple weeks (after the SUCK).
I am a baseball umpire. I worked a double header on Saturday and a double header on Sunday. Both sets of games were college games (some of my first) which is a little nerve racking. For the first time ever during a baseball game, I stuffed my face with seeds instead of the poison. I was always ninja dipping and could never fully appreciate how well seeds went with baseball.
I had the perfect storm brewing in the locker room Sunday. My partner was dipping Skoal Mint (thankfully a flavor I never cared for). He went to grab some lunch and left his half full can of poison on the bench staring at me. My first thought was fuck you asshole...I told you I was 17 days into my quit. I went through a lot of fucked up thoughts until I finally put the can in his bag and packed my lip with some Hooch. During my moments of temptation, the fact that I had promised you guys I wouldn't use nic today came to my mind. There's something to this posting roll thing!!
Isn't it so odd that all of these people you have never met have so much influence on your decisions? Pretty freaking powerful! You will still be tested as days go on. Keep that attitude and remember your promise. You'll be just fine. It only has power if you allow it!
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I guess it is time for another update on my quit journey.
I'm on day 18. I've been in a funk most of today. I took the advice of my group texting buddies and took a walk, spent some time outside and then went for a jog. The funk or the blues or whatever this shit is has been the worse part of the last couple weeks (after the SUCK).
I am a baseball umpire. I worked a double header on Saturday and a double header on Sunday. Both sets of games were college games (some of my first) which is a little nerve racking. For the first time ever during a baseball game, I stuffed my face with seeds instead of the poison. I was always ninja dipping and could never fully appreciate how well seeds went with baseball.
I had the perfect storm brewing in the locker room Sunday. My partner was dipping Skoal Mint (thankfully a flavor I never cared for). He went to grab some lunch and left his half full can of poison on the bench staring at me. My first thought was fuck you asshole...I told you I was 17 days into my quit. I went through a lot of fucked up thoughts until I finally put the can in his bag and packed my lip with some Hooch. During my moments of temptation, the fact that I had promised you guys I wouldn't use nic today came to my mind. There's something to this posting roll thing!!
Isn't it so odd that all of these people you have never met have so much influence on your decisions? Pretty freaking powerful! You will still be tested as days go on. Keep that attitude and remember your promise. You'll be just fine. It only has power if you allow it!
You say there is something to this posting roll. I say there is something to this rtpope. He's shaping up to be one bad mutha. Your keeping your word and fighting for your life brother. For this your reward will be your dignity and freedom for now. It may not seem like much right now, but it's worth more than silver or gold.
I never experienced the mullygrubs/sadnes/depression until quitting. It went as fast as it came. Just keep your head pointed toward the door and make you're way. You're going to like what's on the other side. Your winning bro,, keep it up! Quit with you.
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I guess it is time for another update on my quit journey.
I'm on day 18. I've been in a funk most of today. I took the advice of my group texting buddies and took a walk, spent some time outside and then went for a jog. The funk or the blues or whatever this shit is has been the worse part of the last couple weeks (after the SUCK).
I am a baseball umpire. I worked a double header on Saturday and a double header on Sunday. Both sets of games were college games (some of my first) which is a little nerve racking. For the first time ever during a baseball game, I stuffed my face with seeds instead of the poison. I was always ninja dipping and could never fully appreciate how well seeds went with baseball.
I had the perfect storm brewing in the locker room Sunday. My partner was dipping Skoal Mint (thankfully a flavor I never cared for). He went to grab some lunch and left his half full can of poison on the bench staring at me. My first thought was fuck you asshole...I told you I was 17 days into my quit. I went through a lot of fucked up thoughts until I finally put the can in his bag and packed my lip with some Hooch. During my moments of temptation, the fact that I had promised you guys I wouldn't use nic today came to my mind. There's something to this posting roll thing!!
Isn't it so odd that all of these people you have never met have so much influence on your decisions? Pretty freaking powerful! You will still be tested as days go on. Keep that attitude and remember your promise. You'll be just fine. It only has power if you allow it!
You say there is something to this posting roll. I say there is something to this rtpope. He's shaping up to be one bad mutha. Your keeping your word and fighting for your life brother. For this your reward will be your dignity and freedom for now. It may not seem like much right now, but it's worth more than silver or gold.
I never experienced the mullygrubs/sadnes/depression until quitting. It went as fast as it came. Just keep your head pointed toward the door and make you're way. You're going to like what's on the other side. Your winning bro,, keep it up! Quit with you.
Good win, good post. Tell your partner next time he leaves that shit out like that you're gonna piss on it.
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I guess it is time for another update on my quit journey.
I'm on day 18. I've been in a funk most of today. I took the advice of my group texting buddies and took a walk, spent some time outside and then went for a jog. The funk or the blues or whatever this shit is has been the worse part of the last couple weeks (after the SUCK).
I am a baseball umpire. I worked a double header on Saturday and a double header on Sunday. Both sets of games were college games (some of my first) which is a little nerve racking. For the first time ever during a baseball game, I stuffed my face with seeds instead of the poison. I was always ninja dipping and could never fully appreciate how well seeds went with baseball.
I had the perfect storm brewing in the locker room Sunday. My partner was dipping Skoal Mint (thankfully a flavor I never cared for). He went to grab some lunch and left his half full can of poison on the bench staring at me. My first thought was fuck you asshole...I told you I was 17 days into my quit. I went through a lot of fucked up thoughts until I finally put the can in his bag and packed my lip with some Hooch. During my moments of temptation, the fact that I had promised you guys I wouldn't use nic today came to my mind. There's something to this posting roll thing!!
Isn't it so odd that all of these people you have never met have so much influence on your decisions? Pretty freaking powerful! You will still be tested as days go on. Keep that attitude and remember your promise. You'll be just fine. It only has power if you allow it!
You say there is something to this posting roll. I say there is something to this rtpope. He's shaping up to be one bad mutha. Your keeping your word and fighting for your life brother. For this your reward will be your dignity and freedom for now. It may not seem like much right now, but it's worth more than silver or gold.
I never experienced the mullygrubs/sadnes/depression until quitting. It went as fast as it came. Just keep your head pointed toward the door and make you're way. You're going to like what's on the other side. Your winning bro,, keep it up! Quit with you.
Good win, good post. Tell your partner next time he leaves that shit out like that you're gonna piss on it.
^^^^^^He did say it was kinda dry....
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This shaping up to be a good quit you have going on here- nice victories and approach! Keep logging it so you have a record of what you go thru, the brain tends to forget discomfort after a while and you never want to go through some of this again. At the same time tho, pay attention to the victories and share them and celebrate them with all of us- your wins make all of our quits stronger! Glad to be quitting with you!
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I'm am idiot. When I decided to quit, I did not go through every possible place where I may have put a can of poison to make sure I threw it all out. I usually enjoy the majority of my lunch break in my car this time of year so that I can listen to sports radio talking about NC State/ACC basketball (ACC basketball is better than any other conference - we have 60 yrs of kicking your ass if we you want to argue). Yesterday, while listening to the analysis of my alma mater, NCSCU, losing by 1 in OT to our arch nemesis, UNC-CHeat, I found an old can of Skoal Mint Xtra in my center console. This can was at least 6 months old. I put it back as soon as I found it. When I got in the car after work and started driving home, I immediately thought about it. After a couple minutes thinking about how I could dip this dry, old dip to convince myself I didn't like it anymore, I finally decided that slug.go, Krusty, Grizclaws, RaliPaul Aggie would not accept that explanation for my use of dip and poured the can into an old drink cup (filled with water).
I was proud of myself for putting the dip into the cup of water so that it was unusable . I was even prouder for thinking beyond the pinch. I have read enough to know that a pinch at this point will not taste good, will produce feelings of guilt, shame and embarrassment and depression. I'm not going to beckon those negative consequences for something that I do not need. Fuck you nicotine, I'll continue to put you in irretrievable places. I'll flush the fuck out of you. I'll dump you in a heart beat. I'll spit upon you nic bitch. Fuck You, I don't need you. I am starting to hate you. Not quite to the level of srans, but getting there. I'm starting to understand how much you lied to me and how much you have cost me. I missed 4-5 min of my Grandfather's funeral so that I could slip out to the bathroom and put in a dip. Fuck you nic bitch. My grandfather was the best man that ever walked this earth (argue with me, I dare you, I'll fight you) and during the remembrance of his life, I was stuffing my face with poison.....FUCK....no longer will I be that shitty of a person.
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I'm am idiot. When I decided to quit, I did not go through every possible place where I may have put a can of poison to make sure I threw it all out. I usually enjoy the majority of my lunch break in my car this time of year so that I can listen to sports radio talking about NC State/ACC basketball (ACC basketball is better than any other conference - we have 60 yrs of kicking your ass if we you want to argue). Yesterday, while listening to the analysis of my alma mater, NCSCU, losing by 1 in OT to our arch nemesis, UNC-CHeat, I found an old can of Skoal Mint Xtra in my center console. This can was at least 6 months old. I put it back as soon as I found it. When I got in the car after work and started driving home, I immediately thought about it. After a couple minutes thinking about how I could dip this dry, old dip to convince myself I didn't like it anymore, I finally decided that slug.go, Krusty, Grizclaws, RaliPaul Aggie would not accept that explanation for my use of dip and poured the can into an old drink cup (filled with water).
I was proud of myself for putting the dip into the cup of water so that it was unusable . I was even prouder for thinking beyond the pinch. I have read enough to know that a pinch at this point will not taste good, will produce feelings of guilt, shame and embarrassment and depression. I'm not going to beckon those negative consequences for something that I do not need. Fuck you nicotine, I'll continue to put you in irretrievable places. I'll flush the fuck out of you. I'll dump you in a heart beat. I'll spit upon you nic bitch. Fuck You, I don't need you. I am starting to hate you. Not quite to the level of srans, but getting there. I'm starting to understand how much you lied to me and how much you have cost me. I missed 4-5 min of my Grandfather's funeral so that I could slip out to the bathroom and put in a dip. Fuck you nic bitch. My grandfather was the best man that ever walked this earth (argue with me, I dare you, I'll fight you) and during the remembrance of his life, I was stuffing my face with poison.....FUCK....no longer will I be that shitty of a person.
Hate will take you far. Never forget your loses due to the Bitch. Good post.
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I'm am idiot. When I decided to quit, I did not go through every possible place where I may have put a can of poison to make sure I threw it all out. I usually enjoy the majority of my lunch break in my car this time of year so that I can listen to sports radio talking about NC State/ACC basketball (ACC basketball is better than any other conference - we have 60 yrs of kicking your ass if we you want to argue). Yesterday, while listening to the analysis of my alma mater, NCSCU, losing by 1 in OT to our arch nemesis, UNC-CHeat, I found an old can of Skoal Mint Xtra in my center console. This can was at least 6 months old. I put it back as soon as I found it. When I got in the car after work and started driving home, I immediately thought about it. After a couple minutes thinking about how I could dip this dry, old dip to convince myself I didn't like it anymore, I finally decided that slug.go, Krusty, Grizclaws, RaliPaul Aggie would not accept that explanation for my use of dip and poured the can into an old drink cup (filled with water).Â
I was proud of myself for putting the dip into the cup of water so that it was unusable . I was even prouder for thinking beyond the pinch. I have read enough to know that a pinch at this point will not taste good, will produce feelings of guilt, shame and embarrassment and depression. I'm not going to beckon those negative consequences for something that I do not need. Fuck you nicotine, I'll continue to put you in irretrievable places. I'll flush the fuck out of you. I'll dump you in a heart beat. I'll spit upon you nic bitch. Fuck You, I don't need you. I am starting to hate you. Not quite to the level of srans, but getting there. I'm starting to understand how much you lied to me and how much you have cost me. I missed 4-5 min of my Grandfather's funeral so that I could slip out to the bathroom and put in a dip. Fuck you nic bitch. My grandfather was the best man that ever walked this earth (argue with me, I dare you, I'll fight you) and during the remembrance of his life, I was stuffing my face with poison.....FUCK....no longer will I be that shitty of a person.
Hate will take you far. Never forget your loses due to the Bitch. Good post.
Proud of you RT! Thanks for saving me a 5 hour drive just so I could kick you in the nuts. :D
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I'm am idiot. When I decided to quit, I did not go through every possible place where I may have put a can of poison to make sure I threw it all out. I usually enjoy the majority of my lunch break in my car this time of year so that I can listen to sports radio talking about NC State/ACC basketball (ACC basketball is better than any other conference - we have 60 yrs of kicking your ass if we you want to argue). Yesterday, while listening to the analysis of my alma mater, NCSCU, losing by 1 in OT to our arch nemesis, UNC-CHeat, I found an old can of Skoal Mint Xtra in my center console. This can was at least 6 months old. I put it back as soon as I found it. When I got in the car after work and started driving home, I immediately thought about it. After a couple minutes thinking about how I could dip this dry, old dip to convince myself I didn't like it anymore, I finally decided that slug.go, Krusty, Grizclaws, RaliPaul Aggie would not accept that explanation for my use of dip and poured the can into an old drink cup (filled with water).Â
I was proud of myself for putting the dip into the cup of water so that it was unusable . I was even prouder for thinking beyond the pinch. I have read enough to know that a pinch at this point will not taste good, will produce feelings of guilt, shame and embarrassment and depression. I'm not going to beckon those negative consequences for something that I do not need. Fuck you nicotine, I'll continue to put you in irretrievable places. I'll flush the fuck out of you. I'll dump you in a heart beat. I'll spit upon you nic bitch. Fuck You, I don't need you. I am starting to hate you. Not quite to the level of srans, but getting there. I'm starting to understand how much you lied to me and how much you have cost me. I missed 4-5 min of my Grandfather's funeral so that I could slip out to the bathroom and put in a dip. Fuck you nic bitch. My grandfather was the best man that ever walked this earth (argue with me, I dare you, I'll fight you) and during the remembrance of his life, I was stuffing my face with poison.....FUCK....no longer will I be that shitty of a person.
Hate will take you far. Never forget your loses due to the Bitch. Good post.
Proud of you RT! Thanks for saving me a 5 hour drive just so I could kick you in the nuts. :D
Well done RT. I think I found an old tin of copenhagen about 60 days in... felt the blood leave my face and got a knot in my gut. I went straight to the head and flushed it. Just like you did.
That is how you do it! Big victory for you. Keep at it today. Quit!
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I'm am idiot. When I decided to quit, I did not go through every possible place where I may have put a can of poison to make sure I threw it all out. I usually enjoy the majority of my lunch break in my car this time of year so that I can listen to sports radio talking about NC State/ACC basketball (ACC basketball is better than any other conference - we have 60 yrs of kicking your ass if we you want to argue). Yesterday, while listening to the analysis of my alma mater, NCSCU, losing by 1 in OT to our arch nemesis, UNC-CHeat, I found an old can of Skoal Mint Xtra in my center console. This can was at least 6 months old. I put it back as soon as I found it. When I got in the car after work and started driving home, I immediately thought about it. After a couple minutes thinking about how I could dip this dry, old dip to convince myself I didn't like it anymore, I finally decided that slug.go, Krusty, Grizclaws, RaliPaul Aggie would not accept that explanation for my use of dip and poured the can into an old drink cup (filled with water).Â
I was proud of myself for putting the dip into the cup of water so that it was unusable . I was even prouder for thinking beyond the pinch. I have read enough to know that a pinch at this point will not taste good, will produce feelings of guilt, shame and embarrassment and depression. I'm not going to beckon those negative consequences for something that I do not need. Fuck you nicotine, I'll continue to put you in irretrievable places. I'll flush the fuck out of you. I'll dump you in a heart beat. I'll spit upon you nic bitch. Fuck You, I don't need you. I am starting to hate you. Not quite to the level of srans, but getting there. I'm starting to understand how much you lied to me and how much you have cost me. I missed 4-5 min of my Grandfather's funeral so that I could slip out to the bathroom and put in a dip. Fuck you nic bitch. My grandfather was the best man that ever walked this earth (argue with me, I dare you, I'll fight you) and during the remembrance of his life, I was stuffing my face with poison.....FUCK....no longer will I be that shitty of a person.
Hate will take you far. Never forget your loses due to the Bitch. Good post.
Proud of you RT! Thanks for saving me a 5 hour drive just so I could kick you in the nuts. :D
Well done RT. I think I found an old tin of copenhagen about 60 days in... felt the blood leave my face and got a knot in my gut. I went straight to the head and flushed it. Just like you did.
That is how you do it! Big victory for you. Keep at it today. Quit!
Nice job. Every time you slam a door an angel gets its wings...
Keep slamming them on the nic bitch.
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I'm am idiot. When I decided to quit, I did not go through every possible place where I may have put a can of poison to make sure I threw it all out. I usually enjoy the majority of my lunch break in my car this time of year so that I can listen to sports radio talking about NC State/ACC basketball (ACC basketball is better than any other conference - we have 60 yrs of kicking your ass if we you want to argue). Yesterday, while listening to the analysis of my alma mater, NCSCU, losing by 1 in OT to our arch nemesis, UNC-CHeat, I found an old can of Skoal Mint Xtra in my center console. This can was at least 6 months old. I put it back as soon as I found it. When I got in the car after work and started driving home, I immediately thought about it. After a couple minutes thinking about how I could dip this dry, old dip to convince myself I didn't like it anymore, I finally decided that slug.go, Krusty, Grizclaws, RaliPaul Aggie would not accept that explanation for my use of dip and poured the can into an old drink cup (filled with water).Â
I was proud of myself for putting the dip into the cup of water so that it was unusable . I was even prouder for thinking beyond the pinch. I have read enough to know that a pinch at this point will not taste good, will produce feelings of guilt, shame and embarrassment and depression. I'm not going to beckon those negative consequences for something that I do not need. Fuck you nicotine, I'll continue to put you in irretrievable places. I'll flush the fuck out of you. I'll dump you in a heart beat. I'll spit upon you nic bitch. Fuck You, I don't need you. I am starting to hate you. Not quite to the level of srans, but getting there. I'm starting to understand how much you lied to me and how much you have cost me. I missed 4-5 min of my Grandfather's funeral so that I could slip out to the bathroom and put in a dip. Fuck you nic bitch. My grandfather was the best man that ever walked this earth (argue with me, I dare you, I'll fight you) and during the remembrance of his life, I was stuffing my face with poison.....FUCK....no longer will I be that shitty of a person.
Hate will take you far. Never forget your loses due to the Bitch. Good post.
Proud of you RT! Thanks for saving me a 5 hour drive just so I could kick you in the nuts. :D
Well done RT. I think I found an old tin of copenhagen about 60 days in... felt the blood leave my face and got a knot in my gut. I went straight to the head and flushed it. Just like you did.
That is how you do it! Big victory for you. Keep at it today. Quit!
Nice job. Every time you slam a door an angel gets its wings...
Keep slamming them on the nic bitch.
Very good! Hate for the chew will help a lot! That's a good victory there!
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I'm am idiot. When I decided to quit, I did not go through every possible place where I may have put a can of poison to make sure I threw it all out. I usually enjoy the majority of my lunch break in my car this time of year so that I can listen to sports radio talking about NC State/ACC basketball (ACC basketball is better than any other conference - we have 60 yrs of kicking your ass if we you want to argue). Yesterday, while listening to the analysis of my alma mater, NCSCU, losing by 1 in OT to our arch nemesis, UNC-CHeat, I found an old can of Skoal Mint Xtra in my center console. This can was at least 6 months old. I put it back as soon as I found it. When I got in the car after work and started driving home, I immediately thought about it. After a couple minutes thinking about how I could dip this dry, old dip to convince myself I didn't like it anymore, I finally decided that slug.go, Krusty, Grizclaws, RaliPaul Aggie would not accept that explanation for my use of dip and poured the can into an old drink cup (filled with water).
I was proud of myself for putting the dip into the cup of water so that it was unusable . I was even prouder for thinking beyond the pinch. I have read enough to know that a pinch at this point will not taste good, will produce feelings of guilt, shame and embarrassment and depression. I'm not going to beckon those negative consequences for something that I do not need. Fuck you nicotine, I'll continue to put you in irretrievable places. I'll flush the fuck out of you. I'll dump you in a heart beat. I'll spit upon you nic bitch. Fuck You, I don't need you. I am starting to hate you. Not quite to the level of srans, but getting there. I'm starting to understand how much you lied to me and how much you have cost me. I missed 4-5 min of my Grandfather's funeral so that I could slip out to the bathroom and put in a dip. Fuck you nic bitch. My grandfather was the best man that ever walked this earth (argue with me, I dare you, I'll fight you) and during the remembrance of his life, I was stuffing my face with poison.....FUCK....no longer will I be that shitty of a person.
'worship' 'worship' 'worship'.
Excellent. I read this 3 times I liked it so much.
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Time for another update. Not too much going on these days in that quitting has become part of my every day routine. It is weird to stand in line at the c store, staring at the can of poison and think "I can't believe I'm not buying one or five of those cans." Quitting has taken over a lot of my energy, which is good, I remain focused.
The not so good part at day 27 is I'm starting to get the sores in my mouth. I've noticed that when I wake up in the morning, there is less dead skin inside my lip, but I've got like 5 or 6 little ulcers coming in. The next few days with these things is going to suck. I'm embracing how much this sucks as my mouth is healing. I read somewhere that as your mouth heals, your taste buds can change, waiting for that to happen.
Keep on quitting fellow quitters. I'm with you ODAAT.
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Day 35 - Five weeks!!! People used to ask me if I ever wanted to quit dipping or if I ever going to quit. These two questions are vastly different. I wanted to quit, but didn't feel like I could. I did not think I would ever quit dipping. As I've said before, I'm a newly wed and a Certified Financial Planner (work as a Trust officer for a bank). Soon after my wedding, I wanted to take out a life insurance policy from my buddy so that if I died, my wife would be provided for. He asked me if I could go 4 days without dip so I could get a non-tobacco rate. My response was "if I could go 4 days I would never go back...hell if I could go 4 hours I would be pumped." That is how I remember thinking about dip. I did just have to have it, I would not be able to live without it. I remember being drunk and sticking a can in the pocket of a chair and not remembering where I put my almost full can before I went to bed. I was too drunk to drive to the store to get another and was too paranoid to go to bed without having my Cope on the nightstand waiting for me when the alarm went off...how freaking sad is that??
Lately I've been having some really weird thoughts. I think about dip and at times still want that shit. My mind races to taking a pinch, the smell, the texture, the feeling on my finger.... I then think "well I can't do it now, I've come too far and I couldn't tell my group I failed in my quit." So then my brain says "well, it will happen again...." The messed up part is I consciously think "I can't do it today because I posted roll." I hope I live another 60 years (87 is a long life..) and it seems I will have to post roll another 60 years at this point.
I hope at some point....and hopefully soon...the thought of a dip makes my stomach turn and disgusts me. For the time being, I will continue to give you my word EDD and QLF so that I can keep it. I no longer lie to myself. I no longer shy away from being an addict; I embrace it. I have to focus on today and just win the day. There is no tomorrow without today - just win the day.
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Day 35 - Five weeks!!! People used to ask me if I ever wanted to quit dipping or if I ever going to quit. These two questions are vastly different. I wanted to quit, but didn't feel like I could. I did not think I would ever quit dipping. As I've said before, I'm a newly wed and a Certified Financial Planner (work as a Trust officer for a bank). Soon after my wedding, I wanted to take out a life insurance policy from my buddy so that if I died, my wife would be provided for. He asked me if I could go 4 days without dip so I could get a non-tobacco rate. My response was "if I could go 4 days I would never go back...hell if I could go 4 hours I would be pumped." That is how I remember thinking about dip. I did just have to have it, I would not be able to live without it. I remember being drunk and sticking a can in the pocket of a chair and not remembering where I put my almost full can before I went to bed. I was too drunk to drive to the store to get another and was too paranoid to go to bed without having my Cope on the nightstand waiting for me when the alarm went off...how freaking sad is that??
Lately I've been having some really weird thoughts. I think about dip and at times still want that shit. My mind races to taking a pinch, the smell, the texture, the feeling on my finger.... I then think "well I can't do it now, I've come too far and I couldn't tell my group I failed in my quit." So then my brain says "well, it will happen again...." The messed up part is I consciously think "I can't do it today because I posted roll." I hope I live another 60 years (87 is a long life..) and it seems I will have to post roll another 60 years at this point.
I hope at some point....and hopefully soon...the thought of a dip makes my stomach turn and disgusts me. For the time being, I will continue to give you my word EDD and QLF so that I can keep it. I no longer lie to myself. I no longer shy away from being an addict; I embrace it. I have to focus on today and just win the day. There is no tomorrow without today - just win the day.
powerful words, RT.
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Day 35 - Five weeks!!! People used to ask me if I ever wanted to quit dipping or if I ever going to quit. These two questions are vastly different. I wanted to quit, but didn't feel like I could. I did not think I would ever quit dipping. As I've said before, I'm a newly wed and a Certified Financial Planner (work as a Trust officer for a bank). Soon after my wedding, I wanted to take out a life insurance policy from my buddy so that if I died, my wife would be provided for. He asked me if I could go 4 days without dip so I could get a non-tobacco rate. My response was "if I could go 4 days I would never go back...hell if I could go 4 hours I would be pumped." That is how I remember thinking about dip. I did just have to have it, I would not be able to live without it. I remember being drunk and sticking a can in the pocket of a chair and not remembering where I put my almost full can before I went to bed. I was too drunk to drive to the store to get another and was too paranoid to go to bed without having my Cope on the nightstand waiting for me when the alarm went off...how freaking sad is that??
Lately I've been having some really weird thoughts. I think about dip and at times still want that shit. My mind races to taking a pinch, the smell, the texture, the feeling on my finger.... I then think "well I can't do it now, I've come too far and I couldn't tell my group I failed in my quit." So then my brain says "well, it will happen again...." The messed up part is I consciously think "I can't do it today because I posted roll." I hope I live another 60 years (87 is a long life..) and it seems I will have to post roll another 60 years at this point.
I hope at some point....and hopefully soon...the thought of a dip makes my stomach turn and disgusts me. For the time being, I will continue to give you my word EDD and QLF so that I can keep it. I no longer lie to myself. I no longer shy away from being an addict; I embrace it. I have to focus on today and just win the day. There is no tomorrow without today - just win the day.
You put it perfectly. People who have made it to your point and beyond are an inspiration to people like me who are on day 13.
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Day 42 - Six Weeks!!!!!! In school, 6 weeks was the grading period. So far I'm at 100% on posting roll. I only average 2 posts/day which is probably a C. I am inconsistent in live chat. I read intros at least 2 and more like 5 times/day. Overall, I'm quitting with everything I have, but the grade sheet probably doesn't reflect that. I don't know if it does or not....
I was in chat tonight and sow as Chewie. Of course I feel like I'm in the presence of a rock star. There was a guy in there who caved after 10 hours. We were all encouraging him to do better. I said "I can't cave today, I promised my quit group I wouldn't use today." Chewie then quoted me and called me a FUCKING STUD.
I know that as a website dominated by men it is more likely that we get tough love instead of encouragement. I am more likely to give tough words and Sarcasm instead of encouragement. Chewie made my night. I feel like I'm getting what the point of this site is and am taking my life back ODAAT by making my promise to the Mayhem every morning.
I'm the weird guy that has to create a ritual out of things. I do not like to do things just out of routine without thinking about why I'm doing it. Every morning I shower before posting roll. While I'm showering, I think about whether or not I'm going to commit to not using today. Because I've given my commitment thought, I know the answer to my craves when they come throughout the day.
Take away points: Vets, be encouraging - it makes an impact. New guys - think about the commitment you are making when you post roll.
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Day 42 - Six Weeks!!!!!! In school, 6 weeks was the grading period. So far I'm at 100% on posting roll. I only average 2 posts/day which is probably a C. I am inconsistent in live chat. I read intros at least 2 and more like 5 times/day. Overall, I'm quitting with everything I have, but the grade sheet probably doesn't reflect that. I don't know if it does or not....
I was in chat tonight and sow as Chewie. Of course I feel like I'm in the presence of a rock star. There was a guy in there who caved after 10 hours. We were all encouraging him to do better. I said "I can't cave today, I promised my quit group I wouldn't use today." Chewie then quoted me and called me a FUCKING STUD.
I know that as a website dominated by men it is more likely that we get tough love instead of encouragement. I am more likely to give tough words and Sarcasm instead of encouragement. Chewie made my night. I feel like I'm getting what the point of this site is and am taking my life back ODAAT by making my promise to the Mayhem every morning.
I'm the weird guy that has to create a ritual out of things. I do not like to do things just out of routine without thinking about why I'm doing it. Every morning I shower before posting roll. While I'm showering, I think about whether or not I'm going to commit to not using today. Because I've given my commitment thought, I know the answer to my craves when they come throughout the day.
Take away points: Vets, be encouraging - it makes an impact. New guys - think about the commitment you are making when you post roll.
I'm inclined to side with the respected vet on this one, RT -- you ARE a stud. You're owning this quit, but not to the point of losing your perspective about the challenges of it, particularly if you were to go it alone.
Don't look now, but it seems as though you've cleanly swapped out one daily routine (that happened to be toxic) for a new one that gets you thinking about your quit from the outset of each day. Between that, your 100% posting "grade", the occasional trip to chat room, the accountability group, and your regular quit journal entries, I'd submit that you've gleaned some valuable info from the guys that came long before us. Well done, RT -- keep it up, and see you on roll in the AM!
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Day 42 - Six Weeks!!!!!! In school, 6 weeks was the grading period. So far I'm at 100% on posting roll. I only average 2 posts/day which is probably a C. I am inconsistent in live chat. I read intros at least 2 and more like 5 times/day. Overall, I'm quitting with everything I have, but the grade sheet probably doesn't reflect that. I don't know if it does or not....
I was in chat tonight and sow as Chewie. Of course I feel like I'm in the presence of a rock star. There was a guy in there who caved after 10 hours. We were all encouraging him to do better. I said "I can't cave today, I promised my quit group I wouldn't use today." Chewie then quoted me and called me a FUCKING STUD.Â
I know that as a website dominated by men it is more likely that we get tough love instead of encouragement. I am more likely to give tough words and Sarcasm instead of encouragement. Chewie made my night. I feel like I'm getting what the point of this site is and am taking my life back ODAAT by making my promise to the Mayhem every morning.Â
I'm the weird guy that has to create a ritual out of things. I do not like to do things just out of routine without thinking about why I'm doing it. Every morning I shower before posting roll. While I'm showering, I think about whether or not I'm going to commit to not using today. Because I've given my commitment thought, I know the answer to my craves when they come throughout the day.
Take away points: Vets, be encouraging - it makes an impact. New guys - think about the commitment you are making when you post roll.
I'm inclined to side with the respected vet on this one, RT -- you ARE a stud. You're owning this quit, but not to the point of losing your perspective about the challenges of it, particularly if you were to go it alone.
Don't look now, but it seems as though you've cleanly swapped out one daily routine (that happened to be toxic) for a new one that gets you thinking about your quit from the outset of each day. Between that, your 100% posting "grade", the occasional trip to chat room, the accountability group, and your regular quit journal entries, I'd submit that you've gleaned some valuable info from the guys that came long before us. Well done, RT -- keep it up, and see you on roll in the AM!
Way to go Pope. You are winning!
Dude, if you keep your word and continue to post...you are the stud of all studs.
Quit with you.
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Hey man, I don't know if things have changed that much in the lat 600 days or what. In October 12 (my group) when I posted roll I gave my word to my brothers and sisters that I was going to post roll with them through 100 days. I knew they had my back and I had theirs. Not everyone in the group had that mindset but if you can get yourself there you improve your odds. I came to KTC to quit, not to give it a try. Don't get me wrong I still quit every day and there were times when it was hour to hour - hell even second to second sometimes. That doesn't mean you can't commit yourself supporting your group (which is really just making your own quit stronger). This is tough enough with all the tools available, use them, make yourself more accountable than you already are. Even at 42 days (which kicks ass) I'd bet there are a few tools you haven't utilized all the way. How many of the guys who post in your intro do you pm, you have digits for all you fellow quitters, supporters? Don't worry about getting an A+ just keep that nicotine out of your piehole - that equals a 100% victory!
There is always room to improve - keep up the good work and congrats on 42 days!
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Hey man, I don't know if things have changed that much in the lat 600 days or what. In October 12 (my group) when I posted roll I gave my word to my brothers and sisters that I was going to post roll with them through 100 days. I knew they had my back and I had theirs. Not everyone in the group had that mindset but if you can get yourself there you improve your odds. I came to KTC to quit, not to give it a try. Don't get me wrong I still quit every day and there were times when it was hour to hour - hell even second to second sometimes. That doesn't mean you can't commit yourself supporting your group (which is really just making your own quit stronger). This is tough enough with all the tools available, use them, make yourself more accountable than you already are. Even at 42 days (which kicks ass) I'd bet there are a few tools you haven't utilized all the way. How many of the guys who post in your intro do you pm, you have digits for all you fellow quitters, supporters? Don't worry about getting an A+ just keep that nicotine out of your piehole - that equals a 100% victory!
There is always room to improve - keep up the good work and congrats on 42 days!
Hey man, I don't know if things have changed that much in the lat 600 days or what. In October 12 (my group) when I posted roll I gave my word to my brothers and sisters that I was going to post roll with them through 100 days. I knew they had my back and I had theirs. Not everyone in the group had that mindset but if you can get yourself there you improve your odds. I came to KTC to quit, not to give it a try.
^^^^^Allow me to clarify a piece of my intro. I'm committed to posting roll every day. What I mean by "thinking about the commitment I'm about to make" is that I consciously think about what I'm about to do as opposed to meaninglessly cutting and pasting. I hope nobody gets the wrong idea of thinking that not posting roll is ever acceptable. I do hope you think about the daily commitment you are making as you post roll and do not become so complacent that it becomes a meaningless task; just another to do before heading out the door...
Another way to think about it; posting roll is a kind of sacred. Approach sacred things with reverence. That doesn't mean you can't have fun with it, but don't become so nonchalant that the meaning goes away.
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Day 49 - 7 weeks of quit!!! 50 days ago, I decided that my great idea of gradually reducing my dipping to a point where it would be easy to quit was bullshit. I had dealt with an annoying headache all week long and was very anxious. I realized that I was going through the shittiest part of withdrawal, only to redo it with every dip.
When I posted day 1, I fully expected to stay quit that day. I was not sure how long I would be quit, but I knew that I could do it for one day. On day 2, I did the same. Same goes for day 3, 4, etc. Here I am at 49 and the thought of staying quit forever is way too big for me fathom, but it doesn't scare me like it did 49 days ago. I guess I've learned to embrace that no matter how big a number I want to throw out, it comes one day at a time.
I've mentioned before that I'm a baseball umpire. I worked a game last night with another young guy who dips. As I was changing he saw my can of Smokey Mtn and asked what kind of dip it was. When I told him it was my "fake dip" he was intrigued. I told him I was 48 days quit and I could see hope well up in him. I gave him a dip of Smokey and told him about KTC. He said "I've slowed down since my Uncle was diagnosed with stomach cancer from dipping." I now know it is the addiction that makes that statement seem okay to him. 50 days ago, I would hear something like that either panic for a couple of days or try like hell to forget it as fast as possible.
I've learned a lot about myself over the last 7 weeks and look forward to the next 7 weeks!! I'm almost halfway to the hall...I'm going to make it. ODAAT.
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Day 49 - 7 weeks of quit!!! 50 days ago, I decided that my great idea of gradually reducing my dipping to a point where it would be easy to quit was bullshit. I had dealt with an annoying headache all week long and was very anxious. I realized that I was going through the shittiest part of withdrawal, only to redo it with every dip.
When I posted day 1, I fully expected to stay quit that day. I was not sure how long I would be quit, but I knew that I could do it for one day. On day 2, I did the same. Same goes for day 3, 4, etc. Here I am at 49 and the thought of staying quit forever is way too big for me fathom, but it doesn't scare me like it did 49 days ago. I guess I've learned to embrace that no matter how big a number I want to throw out, it comes one day at a time.Â
I've mentioned before that I'm a baseball umpire. I worked a game last night with another young guy who dips. As I was changing he saw my can of Smokey Mtn and asked what kind of dip it was. When I told him it was my "fake dip" he was intrigued. I told him I was 48 days quit and I could see hope well up in him. I gave him a dip of Smokey and told him about KTC. He said "I've slowed down since my Uncle was diagnosed with stomach cancer from dipping." I now know it is the addiction that makes that statement seem okay to him. 50 days ago, I would hear something like that either panic for a couple of days or try like hell to forget it as fast as possible.
I've learned a lot about myself over the last 7 weeks and look forward to the next 7 weeks!! I'm almost halfway to the hall...I'm going to make it. ODAAT.
What a huge difference in life just 7 clean weeks can make. Congrats! Keep going!
I hope you ump some SF Giants games this year. I'm not liking our starting staff so far _ I think they're gonna need a little help.
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Day 49 - 7 weeks of quit!!! 50 days ago, I decided that my great idea of gradually reducing my dipping to a point where it would be easy to quit was bullshit. I had dealt with an annoying headache all week long and was very anxious. I realized that I was going through the shittiest part of withdrawal, only to redo it with every dip.
When I posted day 1, I fully expected to stay quit that day. I was not sure how long I would be quit, but I knew that I could do it for one day. On day 2, I did the same. Same goes for day 3, 4, etc. Here I am at 49 and the thought of staying quit forever is way too big for me fathom, but it doesn't scare me like it did 49 days ago. I guess I've learned to embrace that no matter how big a number I want to throw out, it comes one day at a time.
I've mentioned before that I'm a baseball umpire. I worked a game last night with another young guy who dips. As I was changing he saw my can of Smokey Mtn and asked what kind of dip it was. When I told him it was my "fake dip" he was intrigued. I told him I was 48 days quit and I could see hope well up in him. I gave him a dip of Smokey and told him about KTC. He said "I've slowed down since my Uncle was diagnosed with stomach cancer from dipping." I now know it is the addiction that makes that statement seem okay to him. 50 days ago, I would hear something like that either panic for a couple of days or try like hell to forget it as fast as possible.
I've learned a lot about myself over the last 7 weeks and look forward to the next 7 weeks!! I'm almost halfway to the hall...I'm going to make it. ODAAT.
Bad ass post Pope
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Day 49 - 7 weeks of quit!!! 50 days ago, I decided that my great idea of gradually reducing my dipping to a point where it would be easy to quit was bullshit. I had dealt with an annoying headache all week long and was very anxious. I realized that I was going through the shittiest part of withdrawal, only to redo it with every dip.
When I posted day 1, I fully expected to stay quit that day. I was not sure how long I would be quit, but I knew that I could do it for one day. On day 2, I did the same. Same goes for day 3, 4, etc. Here I am at 49 and the thought of staying quit forever is way too big for me fathom, but it doesn't scare me like it did 49 days ago. I guess I've learned to embrace that no matter how big a number I want to throw out, it comes one day at a time.Â
I've mentioned before that I'm a baseball umpire. I worked a game last night with another young guy who dips. As I was changing he saw my can of Smokey Mtn and asked what kind of dip it was. When I told him it was my "fake dip" he was intrigued. I told him I was 48 days quit and I could see hope well up in him. I gave him a dip of Smokey and told him about KTC. He said "I've slowed down since my Uncle was diagnosed with stomach cancer from dipping." I now know it is the addiction that makes that statement seem okay to him. 50 days ago, I would hear something like that either panic for a couple of days or try like hell to forget it as fast as possible.
I've learned a lot about myself over the last 7 weeks and look forward to the next 7 weeks!! I'm almost halfway to the hall...I'm going to make it. ODAAT.
Bad ass post Pope
Way to go Pope.
Glad to have a 50 center to share with. Great post.
Quit with you.
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Day 49 - 7 weeks of quit!!! 50 days ago, I decided that my great idea of gradually reducing my dipping to a point where it would be easy to quit was bullshit. I had dealt with an annoying headache all week long and was very anxious. I realized that I was going through the shittiest part of withdrawal, only to redo it with every dip.
When I posted day 1, I fully expected to stay quit that day. I was not sure how long I would be quit, but I knew that I could do it for one day. On day 2, I did the same. Same goes for day 3, 4, etc. Here I am at 49 and the thought of staying quit forever is way too big for me fathom, but it doesn't scare me like it did 49 days ago. I guess I've learned to embrace that no matter how big a number I want to throw out, it comes one day at a time.Â
I've mentioned before that I'm a baseball umpire. I worked a game last night with another young guy who dips. As I was changing he saw my can of Smokey Mtn and asked what kind of dip it was. When I told him it was my "fake dip" he was intrigued. I told him I was 48 days quit and I could see hope well up in him. I gave him a dip of Smokey and told him about KTC. He said "I've slowed down since my Uncle was diagnosed with stomach cancer from dipping." I now know it is the addiction that makes that statement seem okay to him. 50 days ago, I would hear something like that either panic for a couple of days or try like hell to forget it as fast as possible.
I've learned a lot about myself over the last 7 weeks and look forward to the next 7 weeks!! I'm almost halfway to the hall...I'm going to make it. ODAAT.
Bad ass post Pope
Way to go Pope.
Glad to have a 50 center to share with. Great post.
Quit with you.
Good post, Dude. Congrats on 50 days.
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Day 49 - 7 weeks of quit!!! 50 days ago, I decided that my great idea of gradually reducing my dipping to a point where it would be easy to quit was bullshit. I had dealt with an annoying headache all week long and was very anxious. I realized that I was going through the shittiest part of withdrawal, only to redo it with every dip.
When I posted day 1, I fully expected to stay quit that day. I was not sure how long I would be quit, but I knew that I could do it for one day. On day 2, I did the same. Same goes for day 3, 4, etc. Here I am at 49 and the thought of staying quit forever is way too big for me fathom, but it doesn't scare me like it did 49 days ago. I guess I've learned to embrace that no matter how big a number I want to throw out, it comes one day at a time.Â
I've mentioned before that I'm a baseball umpire. I worked a game last night with another young guy who dips. As I was changing he saw my can of Smokey Mtn and asked what kind of dip it was. When I told him it was my "fake dip" he was intrigued. I told him I was 48 days quit and I could see hope well up in him. I gave him a dip of Smokey and told him about KTC. He said "I've slowed down since my Uncle was diagnosed with stomach cancer from dipping." I now know it is the addiction that makes that statement seem okay to him. 50 days ago, I would hear something like that either panic for a couple of days or try like hell to forget it as fast as possible.
I've learned a lot about myself over the last 7 weeks and look forward to the next 7 weeks!! I'm almost halfway to the hall...I'm going to make it. ODAAT.
Bad ass post Pope
Way to go Pope.
Glad to have a 50 center to share with. Great post.
Quit with you.
Good post, Dude. Congrats on 50 days.
Nice pope. NAFAR.
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Day 49 - 7 weeks of quit!!! 50 days ago, I decided that my great idea of gradually reducing my dipping to a point where it would be easy to quit was bullshit. I had dealt with an annoying headache all week long and was very anxious. I realized that I was going through the shittiest part of withdrawal, only to redo it with every dip.
When I posted day 1, I fully expected to stay quit that day. I was not sure how long I would be quit, but I knew that I could do it for one day. On day 2, I did the same. Same goes for day 3, 4, etc. Here I am at 49 and the thought of staying quit forever is way too big for me fathom, but it doesn't scare me like it did 49 days ago. I guess I've learned to embrace that no matter how big a number I want to throw out, it comes one day at a time.Â
I've mentioned before that I'm a baseball umpire. I worked a game last night with another young guy who dips. As I was changing he saw my can of Smokey Mtn and asked what kind of dip it was. When I told him it was my "fake dip" he was intrigued. I told him I was 48 days quit and I could see hope well up in him. I gave him a dip of Smokey and told him about KTC. He said "I've slowed down since my Uncle was diagnosed with stomach cancer from dipping." I now know it is the addiction that makes that statement seem okay to him. 50 days ago, I would hear something like that either panic for a couple of days or try like hell to forget it as fast as possible.
I've learned a lot about myself over the last 7 weeks and look forward to the next 7 weeks!! I'm almost halfway to the hall...I'm going to make it. ODAAT.
Bad ass post Pope
Way to go Pope.
Glad to have a 50 center to share with. Great post.
Quit with you.
Good post, Dude. Congrats on 50 days.
Nice pope. NAFAR.
THAT is how we quit. Very nice
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Day 49 - 7 weeks of quit!!! 50 days ago, I decided that my great idea of gradually reducing my dipping to a point where it would be easy to quit was bullshit. I had dealt with an annoying headache all week long and was very anxious. I realized that I was going through the shittiest part of withdrawal, only to redo it with every dip.
When I posted day 1, I fully expected to stay quit that day. I was not sure how long I would be quit, but I knew that I could do it for one day. On day 2, I did the same. Same goes for day 3, 4, etc. Here I am at 49 and the thought of staying quit forever is way too big for me fathom, but it doesn't scare me like it did 49 days ago. I guess I've learned to embrace that no matter how big a number I want to throw out, it comes one day at a time.Â
I've mentioned before that I'm a baseball umpire. I worked a game last night with another young guy who dips. As I was changing he saw my can of Smokey Mtn and asked what kind of dip it was. When I told him it was my "fake dip" he was intrigued. I told him I was 48 days quit and I could see hope well up in him. I gave him a dip of Smokey and told him about KTC. He said "I've slowed down since my Uncle was diagnosed with stomach cancer from dipping." I now know it is the addiction that makes that statement seem okay to him. 50 days ago, I would hear something like that either panic for a couple of days or try like hell to forget it as fast as possible.
I've learned a lot about myself over the last 7 weeks and look forward to the next 7 weeks!! I'm almost halfway to the hall...I'm going to make it. ODAAT.
Bad ass post Pope
Way to go Pope.
Glad to have a 50 center to share with. Great post.
Quit with you.
Good post, Dude. Congrats on 50 days.
Nice pope. NAFAR.
THAT is how we quit. Very nice
Awesome Post!!!
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Day 49 - 7 weeks of quit!!! 50 days ago, I decided that my great idea of gradually reducing my dipping to a point where it would be easy to quit was bullshit. I had dealt with an annoying headache all week long and was very anxious. I realized that I was going through the shittiest part of withdrawal, only to redo it with every dip.
When I posted day 1, I fully expected to stay quit that day. I was not sure how long I would be quit, but I knew that I could do it for one day. On day 2, I did the same. Same goes for day 3, 4, etc. Here I am at 49 and the thought of staying quit forever is way too big for me fathom, but it doesn't scare me like it did 49 days ago. I guess I've learned to embrace that no matter how big a number I want to throw out, it comes one day at a time.Â
I've mentioned before that I'm a baseball umpire. I worked a game last night with another young guy who dips. As I was changing he saw my can of Smokey Mtn and asked what kind of dip it was. When I told him it was my "fake dip" he was intrigued. I told him I was 48 days quit and I could see hope well up in him. I gave him a dip of Smokey and told him about KTC. He said "I've slowed down since my Uncle was diagnosed with stomach cancer from dipping." I now know it is the addiction that makes that statement seem okay to him. 50 days ago, I would hear something like that either panic for a couple of days or try like hell to forget it as fast as possible.
I've learned a lot about myself over the last 7 weeks and look forward to the next 7 weeks!! I'm almost halfway to the hall...I'm going to make it. ODAAT.
Bad ass post Pope
Way to go Pope.
Glad to have a 50 center to share with. Great post.
Quit with you.
Good post, Dude. Congrats on 50 days.
Nice pope. NAFAR.
THAT is how we quit. Very nice
Awesome Post!!!
Good for you, RT.
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It has been a while since I had time to post an update. In fact...it's been a while since I've had time to spend reading up on all the goings on of my KTC brothers or properly welcome our new comers.
My last post was on day 49, I'm now on day 68. Around day 63 or 64 I hit a funk that was just awful. I was in a bad mood, was extremely irritable and very emotional. I did a little reading and ironically it was the mysterious James Gordon's post that helped me remember "the 60's funk." This funk only lasted a couple of days and didn't leave me feeling as completely dazed as the first week like some have suggested...
It is hard for me to think that in a couple of days I'll be at day 70, 10 weeks!! Dipping was more than just something I did, it was part of my identity; it was part of my character. To think that it has been almost 10 weeks since I've had a dip is amazing. I'm thankful to have this site to keep me accountable as well as my texting group. I wanted to quit for a long time, but never thought I was strong enough to do it. I'm still not strong enough, but with the help of my KTC brothers, I can quit for a day.
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It has been a while since I had time to post an update. In fact...it's been a while since I've had time to spend reading up on all the goings on of my KTC brothers or properly welcome our new comers.
My last post was on day 49, I'm now on day 68. Around day 63 or 64 I hit a funk that was just awful. I was in a bad mood, was extremely irritable and very emotional. I did a little reading and ironically it was the mysterious James Gordon's post that helped me remember "the 60's funk." This funk only lasted a couple of days and didn't leave me feeling as completely dazed as the first week like some have suggested...
It is hard for me to think that in a couple of days I'll be at day 70, 10 weeks!! Dipping was more than just something I did, it was part of my identity; it was part of my character. To think that it has been almost 10 weeks since I've had a dip is amazing. I'm thankful to have this site to keep me accountable as well as my texting group. I wanted to quit for a long time, but never thought I was strong enough to do it. I'm still not strong enough, but with the help of my KTC brothers, I can quit for a day.
Great attitude. It's going to get better and better the farther you go. NAFAR.
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It has been a while since I had time to post an update. In fact...it's been a while since I've had time to spend reading up on all the goings on of my KTC brothers or properly welcome our new comers.
My last post was on day 49, I'm now on day 68. Around day 63 or 64 I hit a funk that was just awful. I was in a bad mood, was extremely irritable and very emotional. I did a little reading and ironically it was the mysterious James Gordon's post that helped me remember "the 60's funk." This funk only lasted a couple of days and didn't leave me feeling as completely dazed as the first week like some have suggested...
It is hard for me to think that in a couple of days I'll be at day 70, 10 weeks!! Dipping was more than just something I did, it was part of my identity; it was part of my character. To think that it has been almost 10 weeks since I've had a dip is amazing. I'm thankful to have this site to keep me accountable as well as my texting group. I wanted to quit for a long time, but never thought I was strong enough to do it. I'm still not strong enough, but with the help of my KTC brothers, I can quit for a day.
Great attitude. It's going to get better and better the farther you go. NAFAR.
You are doing great rtpope! I hope you sail painlessly into the Hall. I had a really really bad time for 4 straight days around day 80. It fucking sucked ass. But I came out of it stronger and I feel I finally reached and closed that door. Keep your quit close and your tools sharp and you will be fine. Like LOOT says, "forewarned is foreskinned" Quitting definitely gets easier with each daily promise. By now we have the knowledge and the tools . There is no reason or excuse for failure. Proud to be your brother!
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It has been a while since I had time to post an update. In fact...it's been a while since I've had time to spend reading up on all the goings on of my KTC brothers or properly welcome our new comers.
My last post was on day 49, I'm now on day 68. Around day 63 or 64 I hit a funk that was just awful. I was in a bad mood, was extremely irritable and very emotional. I did a little reading and ironically it was the mysterious James Gordon's post that helped me remember "the 60's funk." This funk only lasted a couple of days and didn't leave me feeling as completely dazed as the first week like some have suggested...
It is hard for me to think that in a couple of days I'll be at day 70, 10 weeks!! Dipping was more than just something I did, it was part of my identity; it was part of my character. To think that it has been almost 10 weeks since I've had a dip is amazing. I'm thankful to have this site to keep me accountable as well as my texting group. I wanted to quit for a long time, but never thought I was strong enough to do it. I'm still not strong enough, but with the help of my KTC brothers, I can quit for a day.
Great attitude. It's going to get better and better the farther you go. NAFAR.
You are doing great rtpope! I hope you sail painlessly into the Hall. I had a really really bad time for 4 straight days around day 80. It fucking sucked ass. But I came out of it stronger and I feel I finally reached and closed that door. Keep your quit close and your tools sharp and you will be fine. Like LOOT says, "forewarned is foreskinned" Quitting definitely gets easier with each daily promise. By now we have the knowledge and the tools . There is no reason or excuse for failure. Proud to be your brother!
Way to own your quit pope! Congrats on the 70 mark! Glad to accomplish it with you, bro.
Quit on!
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It has been a while since I have written anything here.....honestly, after a small funk in the 60's, the days got pretty easy. I'm on day 88 today and the cravings I've had the last couple of days have been out of this world. I can taste my old Copenhagen....I smell Skoal Cherry...I can feel the wad of dog shit in my mouth and my brain has the gumption to tell me how much I miss holding that dog shit in my mouth.....
I don't know what is wrong with me, but each time I have a fucked up thought about wanting dip, I just keep telling myself I quit and remind myself why I quit. Caving isn't an option...just have to power through each day, ODAAT, NAFAR.....QLFEDD, unless you are a Mayhem Quitter, then it is QLFE14D or every full Gordon...
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It has been a while since I have written anything here.....honestly, after a small funk in the 60's, the days got pretty easy. I'm on day 88 today and the cravings I've had the last couple of days have been out of this world. I can taste my old Copenhagen....I smell Skoal Cherry...I can feel the wad of dog shit in my mouth and my brain has the gumption to tell me how much I miss holding that dog shit in my mouth.....
I don't know what is wrong with me, but each time I have a fucked up thought about wanting dip, I just keep telling myself I quit and remind myself why I quit. Caving isn't an option...just have to power through each day, ODAAT, NAFAR.....QLFEDD, unless you are a Mayhem Quitter, then it is QLFE14D or every full Gordon...
Hey, pope, hang in there bro. Before you know it you and I will be sittin on that train drinking a cold one. That is just the nic whore whispering sweet nothing in your ear. Kick her in the twat and go on!
May the Gordon be with you!
QLFE14D-622!
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It has been a while since I have written anything here.....honestly, after a small funk in the 60's, the days got pretty easy. I'm on day 88 today and the cravings I've had the last couple of days have been out of this world. I can taste my old Copenhagen....I smell Skoal Cherry...I can feel the wad of dog shit in my mouth and my brain has the gumption to tell me how much I miss holding that dog shit in my mouth.....
I don't know what is wrong with me, but each time I have a fucked up thought about wanting dip, I just keep telling myself I quit and remind myself why I quit. Caving isn't an option...just have to power through each day, ODAAT, NAFAR.....QLFEDD, unless you are a Mayhem Quitter, then it is QLFE14D or every full Gordon...
Hey, pope, hang in there bro. Before you know it you and I will be sittin on that train drinking a cold one. That is just the nic whore whispering sweet nothing in your ear. Kick her in the twat and go on!
May the Gordon be with you!
QLFE14D-622!
If you go to my intro you'll see I had the same experience around that same time. Just so you know, I'm now at 126 and truthfully, its still gnawing at me but at a reduced level from day 90. I kept posting roll and committing daily and have made it to here.
Probably not what you wanted to hear but I'm told it will get better and I keep hoping.
AA
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It has been a while since I have written anything here.....honestly, after a small funk in the 60's, the days got pretty easy. I'm on day 88 today and the cravings I've had the last couple of days have been out of this world. I can taste my old Copenhagen....I smell Skoal Cherry...I can feel the wad of dog shit in my mouth and my brain has the gumption to tell me how much I miss holding that dog shit in my mouth.....
I don't know what is wrong with me, but each time I have a fucked up thought about wanting dip, I just keep telling myself I quit and remind myself why I quit. Caving isn't an option...just have to power through each day, ODAAT, NAFAR.....QLFEDD, unless you are a Mayhem Quitter, then it is QLFE14D or every full Gordon...
Hey, pope, hang in there bro. Before you know it you and I will be sittin on that train drinking a cold one. That is just the nic whore whispering sweet nothing in your ear. Kick her in the twat and go on!
May the Gordon be with you!
QLFE14D-622!
If you go to my intro you'll see I had the same experience around that same time. Just so you know, I'm now at 126 and truthfully, its still gnawing at me but at a reduced level from day 90. I kept posting roll and committing daily and have made it to here.
Probably not what you wanted to hear but I'm told it will get better and I keep hoping.
AA
Fight brother! You are getting through the 80's funk. Keep it up. You are winning.
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It has been a while since I have written anything here.....honestly, after a small funk in the 60's, the days got pretty easy. I'm on day 88 today and the cravings I've had the last couple of days have been out of this world. I can taste my old Copenhagen....I smell Skoal Cherry...I can feel the wad of dog shit in my mouth and my brain has the gumption to tell me how much I miss holding that dog shit in my mouth.....
I don't know what is wrong with me, but each time I have a fucked up thought about wanting dip, I just keep telling myself I quit and remind myself why I quit. Caving isn't an option...just have to power through each day, ODAAT, NAFAR.....QLFEDD, unless you are a Mayhem Quitter, then it is QLFE14D or every full Gordon...
Hey, pope, hang in there bro. Before you know it you and I will be sittin on that train drinking a cold one. That is just the nic whore whispering sweet nothing in your ear. Kick her in the twat and go on!
May the Gordon be with you!
QLFE14D-622!
If you go to my intro you'll see I had the same experience around that same time. Just so you know, I'm now at 126 and truthfully, its still gnawing at me but at a reduced level from day 90. I kept posting roll and committing daily and have made it to here.
Probably not what you wanted to hear but I'm told it will get better and I keep hoping.
AA
Fight brother! You are getting through the 80's funk. Keep it up. You are winning.
Hang in there Pope! I know exactly how you feel -- some phenomenal days, and some challenging ones -- but nothing like the suck of the first couple weeks. Just like everyone told us then: never forget The Suck, since it helps remind us that the future rough patches are nothing compared to posting a "Day 1" all over again. Quitting is hard because it's worth it.
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It has been a while since I have written anything here.....honestly, after a small funk in the 60's, the days got pretty easy. I'm on day 88 today and the cravings I've had the last couple of days have been out of this world. I can taste my old Copenhagen....I smell Skoal Cherry...I can feel the wad of dog shit in my mouth and my brain has the gumption to tell me how much I miss holding that dog shit in my mouth.....
I don't know what is wrong with me, but each time I have a fucked up thought about wanting dip, I just keep telling myself I quit and remind myself why I quit. Caving isn't an option...just have to power through each day, ODAAT, NAFAR.....QLFEDD, unless you are a Mayhem Quitter, then it is QLFE14D or every full Gordon...
Hey, pope, hang in there bro. Before you know it you and I will be sittin on that train drinking a cold one. That is just the nic whore whispering sweet nothing in your ear. Kick her in the twat and go on!
May the Gordon be with you!
QLFE14D-622!
If you go to my intro you'll see I had the same experience around that same time. Just so you know, I'm now at 126 and truthfully, its still gnawing at me but at a reduced level from day 90. I kept posting roll and committing daily and have made it to here.
Probably not what you wanted to hear but I'm told it will get better and I keep hoping.
AA
Fight brother! You are getting through the 80's funk. Keep it up. You are winning.
these guys are right. I had it too. Hang tight, you'll get through it. I got through mine. You've spent all this time preparing and practicing with the tools that will help you stay quit, and they are working for you. Nice job using this one, posting and getting support-- mark today down as Victory, Rtpope. Nicbitch: 0 (1 attempt)
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It has been a while since I have written anything here.....honestly, after a small funk in the 60's, the days got pretty easy. I'm on day 88 today and the cravings I've had the last couple of days have been out of this world. I can taste my old Copenhagen....I smell Skoal Cherry...I can feel the wad of dog shit in my mouth and my brain has the gumption to tell me how much I miss holding that dog shit in my mouth.....
I don't know what is wrong with me, but each time I have a fucked up thought about wanting dip, I just keep telling myself I quit and remind myself why I quit. Caving isn't an option...just have to power through each day, ODAAT, NAFAR.....QLFEDD, unless you are a Mayhem Quitter, then it is QLFE14D or every full Gordon...
Hey, pope, hang in there bro. Before you know it you and I will be sittin on that train drinking a cold one. That is just the nic whore whispering sweet nothing in your ear. Kick her in the twat and go on!
May the Gordon be with you!
QLFE14D-622!
If you go to my intro you'll see I had the same experience around that same time. Just so you know, I'm now at 126 and truthfully, its still gnawing at me but at a reduced level from day 90. I kept posting roll and committing daily and have made it to here.
Probably not what you wanted to hear but I'm told it will get better and I keep hoping.
AA
Fight brother! You are getting through the 80's funk. Keep it up. You are winning.
89 days of pure quit! You are doing it RTP! Well done.
Remember... You are NOT missing a damn thing. Copenhagen and Skoal Cherry did nothing but take from you. The "good ole times" is a BS myth.... You were a slave. You were owned! You are finally seeing life as it should be.
Keep at it today bro. Proud to be quit with you today.
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It has been a while since I have written anything here.....honestly, after a small funk in the 60's, the days got pretty easy. I'm on day 88 today and the cravings I've had the last couple of days have been out of this world. I can taste my old Copenhagen....I smell Skoal Cherry...I can feel the wad of dog shit in my mouth and my brain has the gumption to tell me how much I miss holding that dog shit in my mouth.....
I don't know what is wrong with me, but each time I have a fucked up thought about wanting dip, I just keep telling myself I quit and remind myself why I quit. Caving isn't an option...just have to power through each day, ODAAT, NAFAR.....QLFEDD, unless you are a Mayhem Quitter, then it is QLFE14D or every full Gordon...
Hey, pope, hang in there bro. Before you know it you and I will be sittin on that train drinking a cold one. That is just the nic whore whispering sweet nothing in your ear. Kick her in the twat and go on!
May the Gordon be with you!
QLFE14D-622!
If you go to my intro you'll see I had the same experience around that same time. Just so you know, I'm now at 126 and truthfully, its still gnawing at me but at a reduced level from day 90. I kept posting roll and committing daily and have made it to here.
Probably not what you wanted to hear but I'm told it will get better and I keep hoping.
AA
Fight brother! You are getting through the 80's funk. Keep it up. You are winning.
89 days of pure quit! You are doing it RTP! Well done.
Remember... You are NOT missing a damn thing. Copenhagen and Skoal Cherry did nothing but take from you. The "good ole times" is a BS myth.... You were a slave. You were owned! You are finally seeing life as it should be.
Keep at it today bro. Proud to be quit with you today.
Thanks guys!!! I figured I'm not the only one going the through a funk....today was stressful as fuck. I had some big cravings today, but I have the tools to deal with it. Tomorrow will be better, and if not, it will be another day I choose to be quit.
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It has been a while since I have written anything here.....honestly, after a small funk in the 60's, the days got pretty easy. I'm on day 88 today and the cravings I've had the last couple of days have been out of this world. I can taste my old Copenhagen....I smell Skoal Cherry...I can feel the wad of dog shit in my mouth and my brain has the gumption to tell me how much I miss holding that dog shit in my mouth.....
I don't know what is wrong with me, but each time I have a fucked up thought about wanting dip, I just keep telling myself I quit and remind myself why I quit. Caving isn't an option...just have to power through each day, ODAAT, NAFAR.....QLFEDD, unless you are a Mayhem Quitter, then it is QLFE14D or every full Gordon...
Hey, pope, hang in there bro. Before you know it you and I will be sittin on that train drinking a cold one. That is just the nic whore whispering sweet nothing in your ear. Kick her in the twat and go on!
May the Gordon be with you!
QLFE14D-622!
If you go to my intro you'll see I had the same experience around that same time. Just so you know, I'm now at 126 and truthfully, its still gnawing at me but at a reduced level from day 90. I kept posting roll and committing daily and have made it to here.
Probably not what you wanted to hear but I'm told it will get better and I keep hoping.
AA
Fight brother! You are getting through the 80's funk. Keep it up. You are winning.
89 days of pure quit! You are doing it RTP! Well done.
Remember... You are NOT missing a damn thing. Copenhagen and Skoal Cherry did nothing but take from you. The "good ole times" is a BS myth.... You were a slave. You were owned! You are finally seeing life as it should be.
Keep at it today bro. Proud to be quit with you today.
Thanks guys!!! I figured I'm not the only one going the through a funk....today was stressful as fuck. I had some big cravings today, but I have the tools to deal with it. Tomorrow will be better, and if not, it will be another day I choose to be quit.
You got a +1 today brother. Tough times still ahead with craves BUT stick with it and everything will swing. I just spent my first full vacation with the wife last week and didn't crave once until I got back to work. So, this does work, give it time and everything will swing to become a more positive experience. I know it sucks right now. I know you can do this because I have and I will continue to quit EDD.
Proud to be quit with you today as today is all we can promise one another!
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100!!! Outfuckingstanding!! Do it agin!!!
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100!!! Outfuckingstanding!! Do it agin!!!
Way to go pope! Good quit! see you at +1
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Congrats on 100 says the guy at 13 days. +1 rinse/repeat.
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100!!! Outfuckingstanding!! Do it agin!!!
Way to go pope! Good quit! see you at +1
'BanDog'
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Congrats, Pope. Well done.
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100!!! Outfuckingstanding!! Do it agin!!!
Way to go pope! Good quit! see you at +1
'BanDog'
Great job Pope. Proud to quit with you.
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100!!! Outfuckingstanding!! Do it agin!!!
Way to go pope! Good quit! see you at +1
'BanDog'
Great job Pope. Proud to quit with you.
Great job brother! welcome to the HOF! Keep it going today! I'm proud to be quit with you all day long!
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100!!! Outfuckingstanding!! Do it agin!!!
Way to go pope! Good quit! see you at +1
'BanDog'
Great job Pope. Proud to quit with you.
Great job brother! welcome to the HOF! Keep it going today! I'm proud to be quit with you all day long!
100 days....feels good boys...I'll see you all in roll in the am!!!!!
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100!!! Outfuckingstanding!! Do it agin!!!
Way to go pope! Good quit! see you at +1
'BanDog'
Great job Pope. Proud to quit with you.
Great job brother! welcome to the HOF! Keep it going today! I'm proud to be quit with you all day long!
100 days....feels good boys...I'll see you all in roll in the am!!!!!
Hey nice job! +1 tomorrow is a great idea too!
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I haven't posted anything meaningful here in a while and I have a few minutes while my umpiring clothes dry and I have to hang them up, so....
Aggieheismanziel is part of a text group that I was added to probably 14 days into my quit. The other members of this group are Slug.go (known badass), Krusty (saved my ass already), myself (not as badass, but a 100% poster and admitted addict) and Grizzlyhasclaws (Absolute badass that just reached the 2nd floor). Aggie sent us a text today and confessed that he had caved. When I read it, it felt like I had been punched in the gut. I knew that he hadn't been participating in the group texts lately, but he had just moved and work was keeping him busy.....so, I didn't worry about it
I considered caving often early in my quit. The days were so damn hard. Not having my fix was so damn hard. Not having a lip full of shit was hard. Not spitting was hard. Every time I thought of caving, I thought about having to send that text message to these guys (before they had become even more bad ass) and tell them I failed. The thought of doing that just crushed me. I couldn't imagine facing these guys after letting them down.
Aggie's reason was that he was drunk by a pool and was offered a cigarette. I went on a bachelor party 2 weekends ago with all of my dipping buddies. I knew I would be tanked the entire weekend and would have ample opportunities to cave. I made a quit plan, told my text group about it and then was held accountable by Krusty while I was shit hammered. The cab driver took my room key to figure out where I was staying kind of drunk.
Long story short - build a fucking network and invest in your immediate peers. Don't let a guy go long without checking in. Don't think that your quit only matters to you. Others are depending on you. Don't be a selfish asshole, give a damn about somebody else and their quit.
Aggie apologized to our group and I do appreciate that he was man enough to come back and admit he screwed up. I wish he would have come to us before he caved, maybe I would still be behind his day count.....
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I haven't posted anything meaningful here in a while and I have a few minutes while my umpiring clothes dry and I have to hang them up, so....
Aggieheismanziel is part of a text group that I was added to probably 14 days into my quit. The other members of this group are Slug.go (known badass), Krusty (saved my ass already), myself (not as badass, but a 100% poster and admitted addict) and Grizzlyhasclaws (Absolute badass that just reached the 2nd floor). Aggie sent us a text today and confessed that he had caved. When I read it, it felt like I had been punched in the gut. I knew that he hadn't been participating in the group texts lately, but he had just moved and work was keeping him busy.....so, I didn't worry about it
I considered caving often early in my quit. The days were so damn hard. Not having my fix was so damn hard. Not having a lip full of shit was hard. Not spitting was hard. Every time I thought of caving, I thought about having to send that text message to these guys (before they had become even more bad ass) and tell them I failed. The thought of doing that just crushed me. I couldn't imagine facing these guys after letting them down.
Aggie's reason was that he was drunk by a pool and was offered a cigarette. I went on a bachelor party 2 weekends ago with all of my dipping buddies. I knew I would be tanked the entire weekend and would have ample opportunities to cave. I made a quit plan, told my text group about it and then was held accountable by Krusty while I was shit hammered. The cab driver took my room key to figure out where I was staying kind of drunk.
Long story short - build a fucking network and invest in your immediate peers. Don't let a guy go long without checking in. Don't think that your quit only matters to you. Others are depending on you. Don't be a selfish asshole, give a damn about somebody else and their quit.
Aggie apologized to our group and I do appreciate that he was man enough to come back and admit he screwed up. I wish he would have come to us before he caved, maybe I would still be behind his day count.....
Nice, pope. I feel your pain.
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I haven't posted anything meaningful here in a while and I have a few minutes while my umpiring clothes dry and I have to hang them up, so....
Aggieheismanziel is part of a text group that I was added to probably 14 days into my quit. The other members of this group are Slug.go (known badass), Krusty (saved my ass already), myself (not as badass, but a 100% poster and admitted addict) and Grizzlyhasclaws (Absolute badass that just reached the 2nd floor). Aggie sent us a text today and confessed that he had caved. When I read it, it felt like I had been punched in the gut. I knew that he hadn't been participating in the group texts lately, but he had just moved and work was keeping him busy.....so, I didn't worry about it
I considered caving often early in my quit. The days were so damn hard. Not having my fix was so damn hard. Not having a lip full of shit was hard. Not spitting was hard. Every time I thought of caving, I thought about having to send that text message to these guys (before they had become even more bad ass) and tell them I failed. The thought of doing that just crushed me. I couldn't imagine facing these guys after letting them down.
Aggie's reason was that he was drunk by a pool and was offered a cigarette. I went on a bachelor party 2 weekends ago with all of my dipping buddies. I knew I would be tanked the entire weekend and would have ample opportunities to cave. I made a quit plan, told my text group about it and then was held accountable by Krusty while I was shit hammered. The cab driver took my room key to figure out where I was staying kind of drunk.
Long story short - build a fucking network and invest in your immediate peers. Don't let a guy go long without checking in. Don't think that your quit only matters to you. Others are depending on you. Don't be a selfish asshole, give a damn about somebody else and their quit.
Aggie apologized to our group and I do appreciate that he was man enough to come back and admit he screwed up. I wish he would have come to us before he caved, maybe I would still be behind his day count.....
Nice, pope. I feel your pain.
After the (deserved) drama in May the past 24 hours, it's refreshing to read your perspective and see you doubling down on your resolve, Pope. You get it, and you demonstrate it every damn day. Good on ya', and I got your back all day, any day. Proud to quit alongside you.
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myself (not as badass, but a 100% poster and admitted addict)
Every time I thought of caving, I thought about having to send that text message to these guys (before they had become even more bad ass) and tell them I failed. The thought of doing that just crushed me. I couldn't imagine facing these guys after letting them down.
I knew I would be tanked the entire weekend and would have ample opportunities to cave. I made a quit plan, told my text group about it and then was held accountable by Krusty while I was shit hammered.
Long story short - build a fucking network and invest in your immediate peers. Don't let a guy go long without checking in. Don't think that your quit only matters to you. Others are depending on you. Don't be a selfish asshole, give a damn about somebody else and their quit.
rtpope, Look at the first thing in the quote I pulled out where it says, "not as badass." You follow this with 100% poster and all those other things I extracted from the post. Listen dude, if that shit isn't badass then I don't know what is. From my point-of-view, that's about as badass as it gets.
Basically, you just gave a sermon. You mention:
- the crushing thought of going against your word
- fear of breaking trust
- building a quit plan
- being accountable and holding your quit brothers accountable.
This is how you quit. Right there. Newbies read this thread and read what the pope just preached. He is a badass muthaF'n quitter (forgive me Pope for my foul tongue).
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I haven't posted anything meaningful here in a while and I have a few minutes while my umpiring clothes dry and I have to hang them up, so....
Aggieheismanziel is part of a text group that I was added to probably 14 days into my quit. The other members of this group are Slug.go (known badass), Krusty (saved my ass already), myself (not as badass, but a 100% poster and admitted addict) and Grizzlyhasclaws (Absolute badass that just reached the 2nd floor). Aggie sent us a text today and confessed that he had caved. When I read it, it felt like I had been punched in the gut. I knew that he hadn't been participating in the group texts lately, but he had just moved and work was keeping him busy.....so, I didn't worry about it
I considered caving often early in my quit. The days were so damn hard. Not having my fix was so damn hard. Not having a lip full of shit was hard. Not spitting was hard. Every time I thought of caving, I thought about having to send that text message to these guys (before they had become even more bad ass) and tell them I failed. The thought of doing that just crushed me. I couldn't imagine facing these guys after letting them down.
Aggie's reason was that he was drunk by a pool and was offered a cigarette. I went on a bachelor party 2 weekends ago with all of my dipping buddies. I knew I would be tanked the entire weekend and would have ample opportunities to cave. I made a quit plan, told my text group about it and then was held accountable by Krusty while I was shit hammered. The cab driver took my room key to figure out where I was staying kind of drunk.
Long story short - build a fucking network and invest in your immediate peers. Don't let a guy go long without checking in. Don't think that your quit only matters to you. Others are depending on you. Don't be a selfish asshole, give a damn about somebody else and their quit.
Aggie apologized to our group and I do appreciate that he was man enough to come back and admit he screwed up. I wish he would have come to us before he caved, maybe I would still be behind his day count.....
That's a damed good post Blue! You totally get it. The fallen ones hurt us all but those of us that remain trudging along have to keep leaning on each other. You are my brother. We are quit together. (That's a badass little text group you got there!) This quitting is quite the crucible where only the strong and serious remain. You are one of them.
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I haven't posted anything meaningful here in a while and I have a few minutes while my umpiring clothes dry and I have to hang them up, so....
Aggieheismanziel is part of a text group that I was added to probably 14 days into my quit. The other members of this group are Slug.go (known badass), Krusty (saved my ass already), myself (not as badass, but a 100% poster and admitted addict) and Grizzlyhasclaws (Absolute badass that just reached the 2nd floor). Aggie sent us a text today and confessed that he had caved. When I read it, it felt like I had been punched in the gut. I knew that he hadn't been participating in the group texts lately, but he had just moved and work was keeping him busy.....so, I didn't worry about it
I considered caving often early in my quit. The days were so damn hard. Not having my fix was so damn hard. Not having a lip full of shit was hard. Not spitting was hard. Every time I thought of caving, I thought about having to send that text message to these guys (before they had become even more bad ass) and tell them I failed. The thought of doing that just crushed me. I couldn't imagine facing these guys after letting them down.
Aggie's reason was that he was drunk by a pool and was offered a cigarette. I went on a bachelor party 2 weekends ago with all of my dipping buddies. I knew I would be tanked the entire weekend and would have ample opportunities to cave. I made a quit plan, told my text group about it and then was held accountable by Krusty while I was shit hammered. The cab driver took my room key to figure out where I was staying kind of drunk.
Long story short - build a fucking network and invest in your immediate peers. Don't let a guy go long without checking in. Don't think that your quit only matters to you. Others are depending on you. Don't be a selfish asshole, give a damn about somebody else and their quit.
Aggie apologized to our group and I do appreciate that he was man enough to come back and admit he screwed up. I wish he would have come to us before he caved, maybe I would still be behind his day count.....
Nice, pope. I feel your pain.
After the (deserved) drama in May the past 24 hours, it's refreshing to read your perspective and see you doubling down on your resolve, Pope. You get it, and you demonstrate it every damn day. Good on ya', and I got your back all day, any day. Proud to quit alongside you.
You hit the nail on the head, pope. It sucks that this whole ordeal has had to happen, but I am sure there will be more from May, and we'll have to deal with that as well. Stay strong, because we all quit with you.
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Damn pope. I can't believe your supporting aggie today on roll. You sir are a true brother. I hope he has explained more to you than he has to the rest of us. Either way, you are gentleman and I am proud to quit with you.
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Damn pope. I can't believe your supporting aggie today on roll. You sir are a true brother. I hope he has explained more to you than he has to the rest of us. Either way, you are gentleman and I am proud to quit with you.
He has explained a little more to me than everyone else, but my support of him is solid. I will support him until he misses 1 day of posting-100% is the price of admission. He knows how much his cave hurt me and everyone in May. However, He is an addict after all and if he's willing to nut up and go balls deep in this quit, I'll stand right beside him.
Besides, how big a set do you need to post a day 3 after the shit storm of day 2?
The reason Aggie is on everybody's shit list is bc it hurts to see a brother fail. We've seen the beating he took for it. Now it is time to circle the wagons, get his answers this evening and QLF.
Aug better watch the duck out, I've got a vested interest and reason to be in their group every day checking them out...
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Keep going buddy!
There is nothing better than looking back on day 1 from the the morning of day 2 and saying "yesterday, I kicked your ass!" and it gets sweeter each morning you accomplish this!
Im on day day 17!
You can do this! we all can do this!!!!
STAY QUIT!
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Keep going buddy!
There is nothing better than looking back on day 1 from the the morning of day 2 and saying "yesterday, I kicked your ass!" and it gets sweeter each morning you accomplish this!
Im on day day 17!
You can do this! we all can do this!!!!
STAY QUIT!
huh?
Lunar, dude, great enthusiasm but are you lost?
Not sure that made any sense to post here for pope.
Oh well. Quit like fuck with you.
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Keep going buddy!
There is nothing better than looking back on day 1 from the the morning of day 2 and saying "yesterday, I kicked your ass!" and it gets sweeter each morning you accomplish this!
Im on day day 17!
You can do this! we all can do this!!!!
STAY QUIT!
huh?
Lunar, dude, great enthusiasm but are you lost?
Not sure that made any sense to post here for pope.
Oh well. Quit like fuck with you.
Day 7 = fog still...
But yes, keep kicking ass and QLF mr. Luny-bin :-)
Edit: day 17, not 7....I'm just scratching my head. Kicking day 103s ass is even better
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Keep going buddy!
There is nothing better than looking back on day 1 from the the morning of day 2 and saying "yesterday, I kicked your ass!" and it gets sweeter each morning you accomplish this!
Im on day day 17!
You can do this! we all can do this!!!!
STAY QUIT!
huh?
Lunar, dude, great enthusiasm but are you lost?
Not sure that made any sense to post here for pope.
Oh well. Quit like fuck with you.
Day 7 = fog still...
But yes, keep kicking ass and QLF mr. Luny-bin :-)
Edit: day 17, not 7....I'm just scratching my head. Kicking day 103s ass is even better
I'm still trying to get the hang of this.
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Damn pope. I can't believe your supporting aggie today on roll. You sir are a true brother. I hope he has explained more to you than he has to the rest of us. Either way, you are gentleman and I am proud to quit with you.
He has explained a little more to me than everyone else, but my support of him is solid. I will support him until he misses 1 day of posting-100% is the price of admission. He knows how much his cave hurt me and everyone in May. However, He is an addict after all and if he's willing to nut up and go balls deep in this quit, I'll stand right beside him.
Besides, how big a set do you need to post a day 3 after the shit storm of day 2?
The reason Aggie is on everybody's shit list is bc it hurts to see a brother fail. We've seen the beating he took for it. Now it is time to circle the wagons, get his answers this evening and QLF.
Aug better watch the duck out, I've got a vested interest and reason to be in their group every day checking them out...
well done RT - and you got it exactly right.
When we see one fail, we should not coddle, we should not pat on the back. Instead we need to slap him (or her) in the face and spell it out for them. The 100% posting is a perfect way to start for someone who wants to gain the support back from others.
Aggie also has a pm from me to which I hope he reads and understands what is supposed to happen here to learn how to get the poison out of our life.
just keep that right foot (unless you are a leftie), ready to start kicking some a** if he lets up just once more.
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Today is day 117. My quit is so much stronger today than it was 2 weeks ago. I'm starting to get it much, much more than i used to get it. For the majority of my first 100 days, I thought the quit groups were kind of like a church sanctuary; a holy, reverent place to observe the sacred ritual of posting roll and to occasionally pass along information that was relevant to the "congregation."
I've come to learn, that like a real church, it is the people that make the experience work. Sure, we post roll religiously, with a sacredness that ensures our word means something and with a reverence for what we are promising. However, posting roll isn't all it is about. Like church, fellowship is part of the experience. Getting to know your fellow quitters and forging bonds with perfect strangers.
To the newer folks that are reading this...spend some time hanging out in your quit groups. Be the brave one that posts a random topic for discussion. I put a quote from Major League on our roll this morning and started a lively discussion that lasted all day. This is how brotherhood is formed...this is how relationships build...this is how accountability is born.
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Today is day 117. My quit is so much stronger today than it was 2 weeks ago. I'm starting to get it much, much more than i used to get it. For the majority of my first 100 days, I thought the quit groups were kind of like a church sanctuary; a holy, reverent place to observe the sacred ritual of posting roll and to occasionally pass along information that was relevant to the "congregation."
I've come to learn, that like a real church, it is the people that make the experience work. Sure, we post roll religiously, with a sacredness that ensures our word means something and with a reverence for what we are promising. However, posting roll isn't all it is about. Like church, fellowship is part of the experience. Getting to know your fellow quitters and forging bonds with perfect strangers.
To the newer folks that are reading this...spend some time hanging out in your quit groups. Be the brave one that posts a random topic for discussion. I put a quote from Major League on our roll this morning and started a lively discussion that lasted all day. This is how brotherhood is formed...this is how relationships build...this is how accountability is born.
Gotta admit I admire May's brotherhood. It's some severely messed up weird shit in a foreign language movie kind of way where you can't figure out how to turn on the subtitles but that's not the point. You may not get it but watching it, you can tell May has a good thing going on. Most of all I agree with Pope's last paragraph. Strive for commonality, not differences. That's what builds a team. August has some work to do but in the last week, we've made good strides. Thanks for the lesson May!
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Today is day 117. My quit is so much stronger today than it was 2 weeks ago. I'm starting to get it much, much more than i used to get it. For the majority of my first 100 days, I thought the quit groups were kind of like a church sanctuary; a holy, reverent place to observe the sacred ritual of posting roll and to occasionally pass along information that was relevant to the "congregation."
I've come to learn, that like a real church, it is the people that make the experience work. Sure, we post roll religiously, with a sacredness that ensures our word means something and with a reverence for what we are promising. However, posting roll isn't all it is about. Like church, fellowship is part of the experience. Getting to know your fellow quitters and forging bonds with perfect strangers.
To the newer folks that are reading this...spend some time hanging out in your quit groups. Be the brave one that posts a random topic for discussion. I put a quote from Major League on our roll this morning and started a lively discussion that lasted all day. This is how brotherhood is formed...this is how relationships build...this is how accountability is born.
Gotta admit I admire May's brotherhood. It's some severely messed up weird shit in a foreign language movie kind of way where you can't figure out how to turn on the subtitles but that's not the point. You may not get it but watching it, you can tell May has a good thing going on. Most of all I agree with Pope's last paragraph. Strive for commonality, not differences. That's what builds a team. August has some work to do but in the last week, we've made good strides. Thanks for the lesson May!
I hope August starts to get it. It takes a while for some ppl to start to understand the seriousness of this shit. You have some good folks in August...stay diligent with your efforts to create discussion. There has been a lot of fun shit that got a lot of folks in May involved. Admittedly, it was JamesGordon and Aggie that got my head out of my ass....
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I had a weird epiphany yesterday followed by two of the most real dip dreams I've ever had. I was at an umpiring buddy's house hanging out by his pool, eating some awesome snacks and drinking beer. I was about 6 or 7 beers in when my buddy's son (who is about my age) rolls up to the pool with his wife. My buddy's son had a wad of lip dirt right in the front of his mouth, proudly showing the world that he is in fact a slave of the nic bitch.
I was buzzed up and started having mild cravings, nothing new, so I popped in some gum and went on about my business of pool side lounging. As my wife was driving me home, she asked how I felt when I saw the guy with a wad in his lip. I thought about and I had mixed emotions. The sane, rational part of me was so grateful that I am no longer slowly killing myself. I'm so glad to not be controlled by a chemical. I owe that feeling to KTC. Before finding this site, I was resigned to the fact that I would never quit and may die of cancer. I was 27 when I quit....what bullshit to think that something has so much control over me that I'm okay with it killing me.....
There was one part of me that for some fucked up reason missed being the disgusting guy that showed up to places with a wad in my lip. I for some reason missed doing the "mmm hmmm hmmm...(spit a stream of shit juice)...yea...." As a kid, all of my male role models chewed or dipped. Tobacco was synonymous with manhood. As I spent 13 years as a slave, dipping became my identity. Of course I identified with other things, but dipping was the ever constant piece of my identity. As a baseball umpire, dipping fit. As an outdoorsman, dipping fit. As a "good ole boy," dipping fit.
This realization opened the door for my wife (who has been so supportive) to say "If you started dipping again, I would be very disappointed and upset, but I would understand." I immediately told her that she can't crack the door for me to ever dip again. I've shut the door and add a nail to it daily when I post roll. Of course she doesn't get that, but then she's not really supposed to...
I guess thinking about the identity "crisis" and knowing my wife wouldn't kill me led my subconscious mind to think about having a dip while golfing and drinking with my boys. Every dip dream has ended basically the same way. I think how I'm going to tell Slug.go, Krusty, Aggie, RaliPaul, Grizzlyhasclaws and now Done4Me what happened. I get panicky as I realize there are no good reasons why I ended up with shit in my lip. I woke up in a dead sweat and feeling pissed, ashamed and worthless. When I realized it was just a dream, I felt a relief that only you guys will understand.
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I had a weird epiphany yesterday followed by two of the most real dip dreams I've ever had. I was at an umpiring buddy's house hanging out by his pool, eating some awesome snacks and drinking beer. I was about 6 or 7 beers in when my buddy's son (who is about my age) rolls up to the pool with his wife. My buddy's son had a wad of lip dirt right in the front of his mouth, proudly showing the world that he is in fact a slave of the nic bitch.
I was buzzed up and started having mild cravings, nothing new, so I popped in some gum and went on about my business of pool side lounging. As my wife was driving me home, she asked how I felt when I saw the guy with a wad in his lip. I thought about and I had mixed emotions. The sane, rational part of me was so grateful that I am no longer slowly killing myself. I'm so glad to not be controlled by a chemical. I owe that feeling to KTC. Before finding this site, I was resigned to the fact that I would never quit and may die of cancer. I was 27 when I quit....what bullshit to think that something has so much control over me that I'm okay with it killing me.....
There was one part of me that for some fucked up reason missed being the disgusting guy that showed up to places with a wad in my lip. I for some reason missed doing the "mmm hmmm hmmm...(spit a stream of shit juice)...yea...." As a kid, all of my male role models chewed or dipped. Tobacco was synonymous with manhood. As I spent 13 years as a slave, dipping became my identity. Of course I identified with other things, but dipping was the ever constant piece of my identity. As a baseball umpire, dipping fit. As an outdoorsman, dipping fit. As a "good ole boy," dipping fit.
This realization opened the door for my wife (who has been so supportive) to say "If you started dipping again, I would be very disappointed and upset, but I would understand." I immediately told her that she can't crack the door for me to ever dip again. I've shut the door and add a nail to it daily when I post roll. Of course she doesn't get that, but then she's not really supposed to...
I guess thinking about the identity "crisis" and knowing my wife wouldn't kill me led my subconscious mind to think about having a dip while golfing and drinking with my boys. Every dip dream has ended basically the same way. I think how I'm going to tell Slug.go, Krusty, Aggie, RaliPaul, Grizzlyhasclaws and now Done4Me what happened. I get panicky as I realize there are no good reasons why I ended up with shit in my lip. I woke up in a dead sweat and feeling pissed, ashamed and worthless. When I realized it was just a dream, I felt a relief that only you guys will understand.
Great post. Proud to quit with you.
My wife is very supportive and encouraging. But she doesn't understand the addiction. Nor does she fully understand the health risk.
Until 222 days ago when I found killthecan, I didn't understand either. It's wonderful to be armed and educated. It's like being awake after spending 23 years in a coma.
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I had a weird epiphany yesterday followed by two of the most real dip dreams I've ever had. I was at an umpiring buddy's house hanging out by his pool, eating some awesome snacks and drinking beer. I was about 6 or 7 beers in when my buddy's son (who is about my age) rolls up to the pool with his wife. My buddy's son had a wad of lip dirt right in the front of his mouth, proudly showing the world that he is in fact a slave of the nic bitch.
I was buzzed up and started having mild cravings, nothing new, so I popped in some gum and went on about my business of pool side lounging. As my wife was driving me home, she asked how I felt when I saw the guy with a wad in his lip. I thought about and I had mixed emotions. The sane, rational part of me was so grateful that I am no longer slowly killing myself. I'm so glad to not be controlled by a chemical. I owe that feeling to KTC. Before finding this site, I was resigned to the fact that I would never quit and may die of cancer. I was 27 when I quit....what bullshit to think that something has so much control over me that I'm okay with it killing me.....
There was one part of me that for some fucked up reason missed being the disgusting guy that showed up to places with a wad in my lip. I for some reason missed doing the "mmm hmmm hmmm...(spit a stream of shit juice)...yea...." As a kid, all of my male role models chewed or dipped. Tobacco was synonymous with manhood. As I spent 13 years as a slave, dipping became my identity. Of course I identified with other things, but dipping was the ever constant piece of my identity. As a baseball umpire, dipping fit. As an outdoorsman, dipping fit. As a "good ole boy," dipping fit.
This realization opened the door for my wife (who has been so supportive) to say "If you started dipping again, I would be very disappointed and upset, but I would understand." I immediately told her that she can't crack the door for me to ever dip again. I've shut the door and add a nail to it daily when I post roll. Of course she doesn't get that, but then she's not really supposed to...
I guess thinking about the identity "crisis" and knowing my wife wouldn't kill me led my subconscious mind to think about having a dip while golfing and drinking with my boys. Every dip dream has ended basically the same way. I think how I'm going to tell Slug.go, Krusty, Aggie, RaliPaul, Grizzlyhasclaws and now Done4Me what happened. I get panicky as I realize there are no good reasons why I ended up with shit in my lip. I woke up in a dead sweat and feeling pissed, ashamed and worthless. When I realized it was just a dream, I felt a relief that only you guys will understand.
Great post. Proud to quit with you.
My wife is very supportive and encouraging. But she doesn't understand the addiction. Nor does she fully understand the health risk.
Until 222 days ago when I found killthecan, I didn't understand either. It's wonderful to be armed and educated. It's like being awake after spending 23 years in a coma.
Thanks for posting this RTP. Strikes a chord even though I'm a few months behind you. Proud to quit with quitters like you EDD.
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I had a weird epiphany yesterday followed by two of the most real dip dreams I've ever had. I was at an umpiring buddy's house hanging out by his pool, eating some awesome snacks and drinking beer. I was about 6 or 7 beers in when my buddy's son (who is about my age) rolls up to the pool with his wife. My buddy's son had a wad of lip dirt right in the front of his mouth, proudly showing the world that he is in fact a slave of the nic bitch.
I was buzzed up and started having mild cravings, nothing new, so I popped in some gum and went on about my business of pool side lounging. As my wife was driving me home, she asked how I felt when I saw the guy with a wad in his lip. I thought about and I had mixed emotions. The sane, rational part of me was so grateful that I am no longer slowly killing myself. I'm so glad to not be controlled by a chemical. I owe that feeling to KTC. Before finding this site, I was resigned to the fact that I would never quit and may die of cancer. I was 27 when I quit....what bullshit to think that something has so much control over me that I'm okay with it killing me.....
There was one part of me that for some fucked up reason missed being the disgusting guy that showed up to places with a wad in my lip. I for some reason missed doing the "mmm hmmm hmmm...(spit a stream of shit juice)...yea...." As a kid, all of my male role models chewed or dipped. Tobacco was synonymous with manhood. As I spent 13 years as a slave, dipping became my identity. Of course I identified with other things, but dipping was the ever constant piece of my identity. As a baseball umpire, dipping fit. As an outdoorsman, dipping fit. As a "good ole boy," dipping fit.
This realization opened the door for my wife (who has been so supportive) to say "If you started dipping again, I would be very disappointed and upset, but I would understand." I immediately told her that she can't crack the door for me to ever dip again. I've shut the door and add a nail to it daily when I post roll. Of course she doesn't get that, but then she's not really supposed to...
I guess thinking about the identity "crisis" and knowing my wife wouldn't kill me led my subconscious mind to think about having a dip while golfing and drinking with my boys. Every dip dream has ended basically the same way. I think how I'm going to tell Slug.go, Krusty, Aggie, RaliPaul, Grizzlyhasclaws and now Done4Me what happened. I get panicky as I realize there are no good reasons why I ended up with shit in my lip. I woke up in a dead sweat and feeling pissed, ashamed and worthless. When I realized it was just a dream, I felt a relief that only you guys will understand.
Great post. Proud to quit with you.
My wife is very supportive and encouraging. But she doesn't understand the addiction. Nor does she fully understand the health risk.
Until 222 days ago when I found killthecan, I didn't understand either. It's wonderful to be armed and educated. It's like being awake after spending 23 years in a coma.
Thanks for posting this RTP. Strikes a chord even though I'm a few months behind you. Proud to quit with quitters like you EDD.
Great post brother. You are winning and the dreams are signs of healing. You will never let your quit brother of May down.
Quit with you every damn day!
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I had a weird epiphany yesterday followed by two of the most real dip dreams I've ever had. I was at an umpiring buddy's house hanging out by his pool, eating some awesome snacks and drinking beer. I was about 6 or 7 beers in when my buddy's son (who is about my age) rolls up to the pool with his wife. My buddy's son had a wad of lip dirt right in the front of his mouth, proudly showing the world that he is in fact a slave of the nic bitch.
I was buzzed up and started having mild cravings, nothing new, so I popped in some gum and went on about my business of pool side lounging. As my wife was driving me home, she asked how I felt when I saw the guy with a wad in his lip. I thought about and I had mixed emotions. The sane, rational part of me was so grateful that I am no longer slowly killing myself. I'm so glad to not be controlled by a chemical. I owe that feeling to KTC. Before finding this site, I was resigned to the fact that I would never quit and may die of cancer. I was 27 when I quit....what bullshit to think that something has so much control over me that I'm okay with it killing me.....
There was one part of me that for some fucked up reason missed being the disgusting guy that showed up to places with a wad in my lip. I for some reason missed doing the "mmm hmmm hmmm...(spit a stream of shit juice)...yea...." As a kid, all of my male role models chewed or dipped. Tobacco was synonymous with manhood. As I spent 13 years as a slave, dipping became my identity. Of course I identified with other things, but dipping was the ever constant piece of my identity. As a baseball umpire, dipping fit. As an outdoorsman, dipping fit. As a "good ole boy," dipping fit.
This realization opened the door for my wife (who has been so supportive) to say "If you started dipping again, I would be very disappointed and upset, but I would understand." I immediately told her that she can't crack the door for me to ever dip again. I've shut the door and add a nail to it daily when I post roll. Of course she doesn't get that, but then she's not really supposed to...
I guess thinking about the identity "crisis" and knowing my wife wouldn't kill me led my subconscious mind to think about having a dip while golfing and drinking with my boys. Every dip dream has ended basically the same way. I think how I'm going to tell Slug.go, Krusty, Aggie, RaliPaul, Grizzlyhasclaws and now Done4Me what happened. I get panicky as I realize there are no good reasons why I ended up with shit in my lip. I woke up in a dead sweat and feeling pissed, ashamed and worthless. When I realized it was just a dream, I felt a relief that only you guys will understand.
Great post. Proud to quit with you.
My wife is very supportive and encouraging. But she doesn't understand the addiction. Nor does she fully understand the health risk.
Until 222 days ago when I found killthecan, I didn't understand either. It's wonderful to be armed and educated. It's like being awake after spending 23 years in a coma.
Thanks for posting this RTP. Strikes a chord even though I'm a few months behind you. Proud to quit with quitters like you EDD.
Great post brother. You are winning and the dreams are signs of healing. You will never let your quit brother of May down.
Quit with you every damn day!
RTP - You are a fine example of +1s to the younger quitters like myself. Sounds like you have a fine wife who now knows to never go there again. Quit with you today.
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Today is day 155 for me. Life is starting to get a little more normal from a dipping perspective. I'm not sure if I'm past the "normal hard spots" or not, but I do know that I can stay quit each day by putting much, much less thought into it than on day 1. It's really weird how the brain and body work. During the first few weeks of my quit, I felt like it took every fiber of my being to remain nic free. Now I feel like it would take an earth shattering force to break my resolve. I'm not bragging, nor am I getting cocky - just pointing out that my quit is getting more automatic. Not having to fight through every minute is amazing.
I found out on Monday that the child we have been expecting in Dec is a boy. I have 2 nieces and they are amazing. I would have been satisfied with a girl, but I am beyond super duper excited about my boy. All week long i keep thinking of things that I can't wait to introduce to my son. We're going to play wiffle ball, baseball, basketball, football, golf, tennis, go fishing, duck hunting, deer hunting, drive go-carts, drive 4-wheelers - basically do all the fun shit i grew up doing. Then I thought what I wasn't going to teach him....the first thing on the list was that tobacco was okay and manly. My Dad never dipped or chewed, but the rest of the males in my family did. Chewing was romanticized so much that I couldn't help but fall into the trap. Read my first post and you will understand the full story...
Knowing that I will not contribute to a desire for my boy to poison himself is amazing. I don't know how to describe that thought other than to say that I may fail in so many ways as a parent, but I will have gotten that one part right. I quit for me because I was killing myself. I now have so much more to stay quit for. I guess I'm just saying that I'm counting my blessings and being quit is one of them. I have so many of you guys to thank for that so I'll just say thanks to anyone who is reading this because your involvement in KTC makes my quit stronger.
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Pope,
Thanks for posting in your intro and bumping it up and congrats on the upcoming son! I just read it and have some thoughts I'd like to share.
First of all, this intro is chock full of badass quit. Secondly, great job documenting your quit.
Your statement to stop and think about the commitment you are making each day was a great point that I think everyone on KTC needs to be reminded of on occasion. Roll shouldn't just be posting a number and your name, it needs some backbone and a little contemplation will help give it that extra meaning.
There are a lot of similarities between the beginning of your quit and mine from the Bachelor party/wedding situation and a text group of numbnuts saving your ass right down to the rage/funk I had today in my early 60s. Fuck nicotine, there is no fucking way I ever let that bitch win. I quit with you today.
Edit: you may not realize this, but you had a real life gordon visit in your intro when mr. Lunar stopped in and started dropping gordonian knowledge up in here.
PS. my old lady gave up smoking a couple weeks after I cunt punched the nic bitch, and in some of our fun double nic rages she's gotten her panties all twisted up about how there is no good fake cigarette alternative, compared with fake chew. Well today I realized I need to replenish my stash because it was a rough day and I want my toolbox full the next time. We'll I went ahead and ordered some new fake shit addressed to none other than James Gordon so I'll be able to pick it up from the mail room without having to have our dumb ass e-cig conversation again.
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Love reading your intro Pope... Congrats on the upcoming son...
Proud to be quit with you for the rest of our lives brother!
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Love reading your intro Pope... Congrats on the upcoming son...
Proud to be quit with you for the rest of our lives brother!
Grats, brother pope! Every man should have a son.
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I had a minor flashback to week 1 of quitting today. I remembered tearing into a pack of gum like the answers to all the world's problems were inside. I remember having to mentally fight my ass off minute by minute ti stay quit. On day 181 I'm not cured, but quitting isn't as hard....thank God for that
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Congrats on being just shy of 6 months of QUIT and with the news of a baby boy on the way. Your intro has been inspiring. I'll QUIT with you any day. Keep up the good QUIT- it's something you'll never regret.
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Congrats on being just shy of 6 months of QUIT and with the news of a baby boy on the way. Your intro has been inspiring. I'll QUIT with you any day. Keep up the good QUIT- it's something you'll never regret.
Lives being impacted !!! This is what it's about
Accountability + Brotherhood = Success
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Thoroughly enjoyed reading through your story on here rtpope.
Congratulations on your future son, and congratulations on making it this far in your quit.
Tomorrow marks an important milestone for you. Although an important day, it is not the last. Your quit will continue many more days beyond it.
Truly inspiring, and I am proud to be quit with you every day.
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Let me get the door for you, Preacher! Welcome to the 2nd floor. Nice job brother.
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Let me get the door for you, Preacher! Welcome to the 2nd floor. Nice job brother.
Keep up the great QUIT! Congrats!
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Let me get the door for you, Preacher! Welcome to the 2nd floor. Nice job brother.
Keep up the great QUIT! Congrats!
Congrats Pope, way to go on the 2nd floor. You are one badass dude.
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Let me get the door for you, Preacher! Welcome to the 2nd floor. Nice job brother.
Keep up the great QUIT! Congrats!
Congrats Pope, way to go on the 2nd floor. You are one badass dude.
Congrats on 2-hundy, Pope! Look forward to the next Mayhemian milestone!
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Let me get the door for you, Preacher! Welcome to the 2nd floor. Nice job brother.
Keep up the great QUIT! Congrats!
Congrats Pope, way to go on the 2nd floor. You are one badass dude.
Congrats on 2-hundy, Pope! Look forward to the next Mayhemian milestone!
Awesome Pope! Thanks for helping me stay quit.
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Let me get the door for you, Preacher! Welcome to the 2nd floor. Nice job brother.
Keep up the great QUIT! Congrats!
Congrats Pope, way to go on the 2nd floor. You are one badass dude.
Congrats on 2-hundy, Pope! Look forward to the next Mayhemian milestone!
Awesome Pope! Thanks for helping me stay quit.
Nice job! Strong quit getting stronger all the time!
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Let me get the door for you, Preacher! Welcome to the 2nd floor. Nice job brother.
Keep up the great QUIT! Congrats!
Congrats Pope, way to go on the 2nd floor. You are one badass dude.
Congrats on 2-hundy, Pope! Look forward to the next Mayhemian milestone!
Awesome Pope! Thanks for helping me stay quit.
Nice job! Strong quit getting stronger all the time!
200 is badassery Pope, enjoy your day!
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Let me get the door for you, Preacher! Welcome to the 2nd floor. Nice job brother.
Keep up the great QUIT! Congrats!
Congrats Pope, way to go on the 2nd floor. You are one badass dude.
Congrats on 2-hundy, Pope! Look forward to the next Mayhemian milestone!
Awesome Pope! Thanks for helping me stay quit.
Nice job! Strong quit getting stronger all the time!
200 is badassery Pope, enjoy your day!
Keep on doing the +1s Pope. You're killing it.
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Let me get the door for you, Preacher! Welcome to the 2nd floor. Nice job brother.
Keep up the great QUIT! Congrats!
Congrats Pope, way to go on the 2nd floor. You are one badass dude.
Congrats on 2-hundy, Pope! Look forward to the next Mayhemian milestone!
Awesome Pope! Thanks for helping me stay quit.
Nice job! Strong quit getting stronger all the time!
200 is badassery Pope, enjoy your day!
Keep on doing the +1s Pope. You're killing it.
Well done rtpope! Quit with you all day long!
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Let me get the door for you, Preacher! Welcome to the 2nd floor. Nice job brother.
Keep up the great QUIT! Congrats!
Congrats Pope, way to go on the 2nd floor. You are one badass dude.
Congrats on 2-hundy, Pope! Look forward to the next Mayhemian milestone!
Awesome Pope! Thanks for helping me stay quit.
Nice job! Strong quit getting stronger all the time!
200 is badassery Pope, enjoy your day!
Keep on doing the +1s Pope. You're killing it.
Well done rtpope! Quit with you all day long!
Well done
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Let me get the door for you, Preacher! Welcome to the 2nd floor. Nice job brother.
Keep up the great QUIT! Congrats!
Congrats Pope, way to go on the 2nd floor. You are one badass dude.
Congrats on 2-hundy, Pope! Look forward to the next Mayhemian milestone!
Awesome Pope! Thanks for helping me stay quit.
Nice job! Strong quit getting stronger all the time!
200 is badassery Pope, enjoy your day!
Keep on doing the +1s Pope. You're killing it.
Well done rtpope! Quit with you all day long!
Well done
Great job pope
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Let me get the door for you, Preacher! Welcome to the 2nd floor. Nice job brother.
Keep up the great QUIT! Congrats!
Congrats Pope, way to go on the 2nd floor. You are one badass dude.
Congrats on 2-hundy, Pope! Look forward to the next Mayhemian milestone!
Awesome Pope! Thanks for helping me stay quit.
Nice job! Strong quit getting stronger all the time!
200 is badassery Pope, enjoy your day!
Keep on doing the +1s Pope. You're killing it.
Well done rtpope! Quit with you all day long!
Well done
Great job pope
Damn proud to quit with you today and everyday, bro.
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Today is day 237. I was reading the stuff over in January 15 and it hit me...I'm quit. I'm truly free from this pain in the ass, slowly killing me addiction. I'm so happy to be quit. About a year after I started chewing I was at Boy Scout camp and didn't take any dip. I figured a week without dip wasn't that big a deal. I remember having cold sweats, stomach pains and all kinds of bad shit. After that, I was petrified of not having dip around because I didn't want to experience that level of pain/discomfort/miserablenes ever again. When I quit it wasn't that bad....I dealt with craves, headaches, irritability, foggy feelings and other weird reactions, but I made it!!
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Today is day 237. I was reading the stuff over in January 15 and it hit me...I'm quit. I'm truly free from this pain in the ass, slowly killing me addiction. I'm so happy to be quit. About a year after I started chewing I was at Boy Scout camp and didn't take any dip. I figured a week without dip wasn't that big a deal. I remember having cold sweats, stomach pains and all kinds of bad shit. After that, I was petrified of not having dip around because I didn't want to experience that level of pain/discomfort/miserablenes ever again. When I quit it wasn't that bad....I dealt with craves, headaches, irritability, foggy feelings and other weird reactions, but I made it!!
Congrats Ryan. Helluva addiction to beat. You are killing it!
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Today is day 237. I was reading the stuff over in January 15 and it hit me...I'm quit. I'm truly free from this pain in the ass, slowly killing me addiction. I'm so happy to be quit. About a year after I started chewing I was at Boy Scout camp and didn't take any dip. I figured a week without dip wasn't that big a deal. I remember having cold sweats, stomach pains and all kinds of bad shit. After that, I was petrified of not having dip around because I didn't want to experience that level of pain/discomfort/miserablenes ever again. When I quit it wasn't that bad....I dealt with craves, headaches, irritability, foggy feelings and other weird reactions, but I made it!!
Congrats Ryan. Helluva addiction to beat. You are killing it!
Hell yes!
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Today is day 237. I was reading the stuff over in January 15 and it hit me...I'm quit. I'm truly free from this pain in the ass, slowly killing me addiction. I'm so happy to be quit. About a year after I started chewing I was at Boy Scout camp and didn't take any dip. I figured a week without dip wasn't that big a deal. I remember having cold sweats, stomach pains and all kinds of bad shit. After that, I was petrified of not having dip around because I didn't want to experience that level of pain/discomfort/miserablenes ever again. When I quit it wasn't that bad....I dealt with craves, headaches, irritability, foggy feelings and other weird reactions, but I made it!!
Congrats Ryan. Helluva addiction to beat. You are killing it!
Hell yes!
Proud to be a mayniac with you brother.
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You got this bro....I am turning 27 November been dipping for 10 years and it has been a week today since I quit it has been hard but I did and feel better than ever not having that dirt in my mouth... keep posting roll with me and kill the nic bitch!!!
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Today is day 237. I was reading the stuff over in January 15 and it hit me...I'm quit. I'm truly free from this pain in the ass, slowly killing me addiction. I'm so happy to be quit. About a year after I started chewing I was at Boy Scout camp and didn't take any dip. I figured a week without dip wasn't that big a deal. I remember having cold sweats, stomach pains and all kinds of bad shit. After that, I was petrified of not having dip around because I didn't want to experience that level of pain/discomfort/miserablenes ever again. When I quit it wasn't that bad....I dealt with craves, headaches, irritability, foggy feelings and other weird reactions, but I made it!!
Congrats Ryan. Helluva addiction to beat. You are killing it!
Hell yes!
Proud to be a mayniac with you brother.
Keep killing it Rtpope. Enjoy reading your intro page. Keep up the good work
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Today is day 237. I was reading the stuff over in January 15 and it hit me...I'm quit. I'm truly free from this pain in the ass, slowly killing me addiction. I'm so happy to be quit. About a year after I started chewing I was at Boy Scout camp and didn't take any dip. I figured a week without dip wasn't that big a deal. I remember having cold sweats, stomach pains and all kinds of bad shit. After that, I was petrified of not having dip around because I didn't want to experience that level of pain/discomfort/miserablenes ever again. When I quit it wasn't that bad....I dealt with craves, headaches, irritability, foggy feelings and other weird reactions, but I made it!!
Congrats Ryan. Helluva addiction to beat. You are killing it!
Hell yes!
Proud to be a mayniac with you brother.
Keep killing it Rtpope. Enjoy reading your intro page. Keep up the good work
With you every step of the way, Preacher!
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Congrats on 250 Rtpope. Awesome work brother!
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Congrat 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' s on the baby boy!!!!
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Congrat 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' s on the baby boy!!!!
Congrats Pops!!
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Congrat 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' s on the baby boy!!!!
Congrats Pops!!
Congrats pope on the new addition!!!!
'Sing and Drink' 'wave' 'wave' 'Sing and Drink'
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Congrat 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' s on the baby boy!!!!
Congrats Pops!!
Congrats pope on the new addition!!!!
'Sing and Drink' 'wave' 'wave' 'Sing and Drink'
I'm really happy for you, Ryan. Enjoy this time...it is some of the best of your life.
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Congrat 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' s on the baby boy!!!!
Congrats Pops!!
Congrats pope on the new addition!!!!
'Sing and Drink' 'wave' 'wave' 'Sing and Drink'
I'm really happy for you, Ryan. Enjoy this time...it is some of the best of your life.
'welcome'
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Congrat 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' s on the baby boy!!!!
Congrats Pops!!
Congrats pope on the new addition!!!!
'Sing and Drink' 'wave' 'wave' 'Sing and Drink'
I'm really happy for you, Ryan. Enjoy this time...it is some of the best of your life.
'welcome'
That's awesome Ryan. These are good days. Having a kid changes everything. For the better. Congrats to you and the missus.
'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'Have a beer' 'Have a beer' 'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'wave' 'wave'
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Congrat 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' s on the baby boy!!!!
Congrats Pops!!
Congrats pope on the new addition!!!!
'Sing and Drink' 'wave' 'wave' 'Sing and Drink'
I'm really happy for you, Ryan. Enjoy this time...it is some of the best of your life.
'welcome'
That's awesome Ryan. These are good days. Having a kid changes everything. For the better. Congrats to you and the missus.
'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'Have a beer' 'Have a beer' 'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'wave' 'wave'
Congrats again to you, Miss Pope your families, Billy Ray -- wonderful news, made even better by the fact that you're nic-free to appreciate it all. Enjoy!!
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Congrat 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' s on the baby boy!!!!
Congrats Pops!!
Congrats pope on the new addition!!!!
'Sing and Drink' 'wave' 'wave' 'Sing and Drink'
I'm really happy for you, Ryan. Enjoy this time...it is some of the best of your life.
'welcome'
That's awesome Ryan. These are good days. Having a kid changes everything. For the better. Congrats to you and the missus.
'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'Have a beer' 'Have a beer' 'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'Cheers' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'BanDog' 'wave' 'wave'
Congrats again to you, Miss Pope your families, Billy Ray -- wonderful news, made even better by the fact that you're nic-free to appreciate it all. Enjoy!!
Been a while since I've read your intro. Bad ass quit.
Congrats Pope. You'll be a great dad.
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Welcome to the 3rd floor, brother. The view up here is a bit clearer. Proud to quit with you EDD. 'oh yeah'
Hope you are enjoying that new little boy. They are a hell of a lot of fun once they stop shitting their pants.
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Welcome to the 3rd floor, brother. The view up here is a bit clearer. Proud to quit with you EDD. 'oh yeah'
Hope you are enjoying that new little boy. They are a hell of a lot of fun once they stop shitting their pants.
Congrats Pope!! My wife said the same thing about me BTW Doc ...
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Welcome to the 3rd floor, brother. The view up here is a bit clearer. Proud to quit with you EDD. 'oh yeah'
Hope you are enjoying that new little boy. They are a hell of a lot of fun once they stop shitting their pants.
Congrats Pope!! My wife said the same thing about me BTW Doc ...
CONGRATS POPE ON 300!
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Welcome to the 3rd floor, brother. The view up here is a bit clearer. Proud to quit with you EDD. 'oh yeah'
Hope you are enjoying that new little boy. They are a hell of a lot of fun once they stop shitting their pants.
Congrats Pope!! My wife said the same thing about me BTW Doc ...
CONGRATS POPE ON 300!
Awesome 300!!
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Welcome to the 3rd floor, brother. The view up here is a bit clearer. Proud to quit with you EDD. 'oh yeah'
Hope you are enjoying that new little boy. They are a hell of a lot of fun once they stop shitting their pants.
Congrats Pope!! My wife said the same thing about me BTW Doc ...
CONGRATS POPE ON 300!
Awesome 300!!
Thanks for being here Pope. Congrats on 300 'boob'
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Welcome to the 3rd floor, brother. The view up here is a bit clearer. Proud to quit with you EDD. 'oh yeah'
Hope you are enjoying that new little boy. They are a hell of a lot of fun once they stop shitting their pants.
Congrats Pope!! My wife said the same thing about me BTW Doc ...
CONGRATS POPE ON 300!
Awesome 300!!
Thanks for being here Pope. Congrats on 300 'boob'
Nice 3-handy, Billy-Ray -- congrats!!
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Welcome to the 3rd floor, brother. The view up here is a bit clearer. Proud to quit with you EDD. 'oh yeah'
Hope you are enjoying that new little boy. They are a hell of a lot of fun once they stop shitting their pants.
Congrats Pope!! My wife said the same thing about me BTW Doc ...
CONGRATS POPE ON 300!
Awesome 300!!
Thanks for being here Pope. Congrats on 300 'boob'
Nice 3-handy, Billy-Ray -- congrats!!
Atta Boy!!!
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Today is 304. I haven't added anything here as a documentary on my quit in a while. Here's my thought of the day.
This community has saved my life. I have a friend, practically a brother that quit dipping in March, just after my 2/7/14 quit date. His name is Clint. Clint and I grew up in the same town, played tee ball thru hs ball together. We were college roommates. He was dipping as long as I was and almost as often. He is stoked to be quit.Â
When I went on the bachelor party in May around day 95 of my quit, he was hammered with me. He found someone smoking a cigarette and bummed one. I texted Krusty who talked me off the cave ledge. The next day I asked him about it and his response was "prolly shouldn't have done it, but at least it wasn't dip." I gave him a hard time but had to realize that without the education of this site, he didn't know any better.
Yesterday, I met Clint and 6 of our friends at the mall for an annual drunken Christmas shopping trip. After spending way too much money and drinking way too much beer they planned their next stop. Clint immediately asked the waitress where the closest tobacco shop was. He went to painstaking efforts to convince everyone that the day needed to be consummated with a cigar. I was leaving the group any way to get home to my wife and kid so I didn't have to deal with his dumbass smoking a hog dick in front of me.
Without this site, I would have the same mind set. I would have gone with them to smoke a cigar. I wouldn't feel like I caved bc it isn't dip. I would then find more and more reasons to smoke a cigar. That occasional cigar would be enough to make be think I could have a pinch every once in a while. It would allow me to maintain a romanticized view of tobacco. Clint will be finger banging a can within 6 months. I hope I'm wrong, but I've seen 3 stoppages of at least 3 months end for Clint. I'm thankful for this place. I'm thankful for each and every one of you. I'm thankful for the truth I've found here. I'm thankful for the strength, accountability, brotherhood and relationships I've gained here
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Today is 304. I haven't added anything here as a documentary on my quit in a while. Here's my thought of the day.
This community has saved my life. I have a friend, practically a brother that quit dipping in March, just after my 2/7/14 quit date. His name is Clint. Clint and I grew up in the same town, played tee ball thru hs ball together. We were college roommates. He was dipping as long as I was and almost as often. He is stoked to be quit.Â
When I went on the bachelor party in May around day 95 of my quit, he was hammered with me. He found someone smoking a cigarette and bummed one. I texted Krusty who talked me off the cave ledge. The next day I asked him about it and his response was "prolly shouldn't have done it, but at least it wasn't dip." I gave him a hard time but had to realize that without the education of this site, he didn't know any better.
Yesterday, I met Clint and 6 of our friends at the mall for an annual drunken Christmas shopping trip. After spending way too much money and drinking way too much beer they planned their next stop. Clint immediately asked the waitress where the closest tobacco shop was. He went to painstaking efforts to convince everyone that the day needed to be consummated with a cigar. I was leaving the group any way to get home to my wife and kid so I didn't have to deal with his dumbass smoking a hog dick in front of me.
Without this site, I would have the same mind set. I would have gone with them to smoke a cigar. I wouldn't feel like I caved bc it isn't dip. I would then find more and more reasons to smoke a cigar. That occasional cigar would be enough to make be think I could have a pinch every once in a while. It would allow me to maintain a romanticized view of tobacco. Clint will be finger banging a can within 6 months. I hope I'm wrong, but I've seen 3 stoppages of at least 3 months end for Clint. I'm thankful for this place. I'm thankful for each and every one of you. I'm thankful for the truth I've found here. I'm thankful for the strength, accountability, brotherhood and relationships I've gained here
Sounds like Clint needs a certain quit site link shared with him. Stay after him, but don't get discouraged. He'll only do it when he's good and ready, as we all know.
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Today is 304. I haven't added anything here as a documentary on my quit in a while. Here's my thought of the day.
This community has saved my life. I have a friend, practically a brother that quit dipping in March, just after my 2/7/14 quit date. His name is Clint. Clint and I grew up in the same town, played tee ball thru hs ball together. We were college roommates. He was dipping as long as I was and almost as often. He is stoked to be quit.Â
When I went on the bachelor party in May around day 95 of my quit, he was hammered with me. He found someone smoking a cigarette and bummed one. I texted Krusty who talked me off the cave ledge. The next day I asked him about it and his response was "prolly shouldn't have done it, but at least it wasn't dip." I gave him a hard time but had to realize that without the education of this site, he didn't know any better.
Yesterday, I met Clint and 6 of our friends at the mall for an annual drunken Christmas shopping trip. After spending way too much money and drinking way too much beer they planned their next stop. Clint immediately asked the waitress where the closest tobacco shop was. He went to painstaking efforts to convince everyone that the day needed to be consummated with a cigar. I was leaving the group any way to get home to my wife and kid so I didn't have to deal with his dumbass smoking a hog dick in front of me.
Without this site, I would have the same mind set. I would have gone with them to smoke a cigar. I wouldn't feel like I caved bc it isn't dip. I would then find more and more reasons to smoke a cigar. That occasional cigar would be enough to make be think I could have a pinch every once in a while. It would allow me to maintain a romanticized view of tobacco. Clint will be finger banging a can within 6 months. I hope I'm wrong, but I've seen 3 stoppages of at least 3 months end for Clint. I'm thankful for this place. I'm thankful for each and every one of you. I'm thankful for the truth I've found here. I'm thankful for the strength, accountability, brotherhood and relationships I've gained here
Sounds like Clint needs a certain quit site link shared with him. Stay after him, but don't get discouraged. He'll only do it when he's good and ready, as we all know.
Nice 304! We can never have just 1. Ever! That means anything with nicotine. That is the road to nowhere. Nice job holding the line with your friends. Proud to be quit with you all day!
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Today is 304. I haven't added anything here as a documentary on my quit in a while. Here's my thought of the day.
This community has saved my life. I have a friend, practically a brother that quit dipping in March, just after my 2/7/14 quit date. His name is Clint. Clint and I grew up in the same town, played tee ball thru hs ball together. We were college roommates. He was dipping as long as I was and almost as often. He is stoked to be quit.Â
When I went on the bachelor party in May around day 95 of my quit, he was hammered with me. He found someone smoking a cigarette and bummed one. I texted Krusty who talked me off the cave ledge. The next day I asked him about it and his response was "prolly shouldn't have done it, but at least it wasn't dip." I gave him a hard time but had to realize that without the education of this site, he didn't know any better.
Yesterday, I met Clint and 6 of our friends at the mall for an annual drunken Christmas shopping trip. After spending way too much money and drinking way too much beer they planned their next stop. Clint immediately asked the waitress where the closest tobacco shop was. He went to painstaking efforts to convince everyone that the day needed to be consummated with a cigar. I was leaving the group any way to get home to my wife and kid so I didn't have to deal with his dumbass smoking a hog dick in front of me.
Without this site, I would have the same mind set. I would have gone with them to smoke a cigar. I wouldn't feel like I caved bc it isn't dip. I would then find more and more reasons to smoke a cigar. That occasional cigar would be enough to make be think I could have a pinch every once in a while. It would allow me to maintain a romanticized view of tobacco. Clint will be finger banging a can within 6 months. I hope I'm wrong, but I've seen 3 stoppages of at least 3 months end for Clint. I'm thankful for this place. I'm thankful for each and every one of you. I'm thankful for the truth I've found here. I'm thankful for the strength, accountability, brotherhood and relationships I've gained here
Sounds like Clint needs a certain quit site link shared with him. Stay after him, but don't get discouraged. He'll only do it when he's good and ready, as we all know.
Nice 304! We can never have just 1. Ever! That means anything with nicotine. That is the road to nowhere. Nice job holding the line with your friends. Proud to be quit with you all day!
Good stuff pope. It feels good to be clean. We can't save the world.
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Today is 304. I haven't added anything here as a documentary on my quit in a while. Here's my thought of the day.
This community has saved my life. I have a friend, practically a brother that quit dipping in March, just after my 2/7/14 quit date. His name is Clint. Clint and I grew up in the same town, played tee ball thru hs ball together. We were college roommates. He was dipping as long as I was and almost as often. He is stoked to be quit.Â
When I went on the bachelor party in May around day 95 of my quit, he was hammered with me. He found someone smoking a cigarette and bummed one. I texted Krusty who talked me off the cave ledge. The next day I asked him about it and his response was "prolly shouldn't have done it, but at least it wasn't dip." I gave him a hard time but had to realize that without the education of this site, he didn't know any better.
Yesterday, I met Clint and 6 of our friends at the mall for an annual drunken Christmas shopping trip. After spending way too much money and drinking way too much beer they planned their next stop. Clint immediately asked the waitress where the closest tobacco shop was. He went to painstaking efforts to convince everyone that the day needed to be consummated with a cigar. I was leaving the group any way to get home to my wife and kid so I didn't have to deal with his dumbass smoking a hog dick in front of me.
Without this site, I would have the same mind set. I would have gone with them to smoke a cigar. I wouldn't feel like I caved bc it isn't dip. I would then find more and more reasons to smoke a cigar. That occasional cigar would be enough to make be think I could have a pinch every once in a while. It would allow me to maintain a romanticized view of tobacco. Clint will be finger banging a can within 6 months. I hope I'm wrong, but I've seen 3 stoppages of at least 3 months end for Clint. I'm thankful for this place. I'm thankful for each and every one of you. I'm thankful for the truth I've found here. I'm thankful for the strength, accountability, brotherhood and relationships I've gained here
Thanks for sharing, Preacher. I'm thankful to quit with you.
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Today is 304. I haven't added anything here as a documentary on my quit in a while. Here's my thought of the day.
This community has saved my life. I have a friend, practically a brother that quit dipping in March, just after my 2/7/14 quit date. His name is Clint. Clint and I grew up in the same town, played tee ball thru hs ball together. We were college roommates. He was dipping as long as I was and almost as often. He is stoked to be quit.Â
When I went on the bachelor party in May around day 95 of my quit, he was hammered with me. He found someone smoking a cigarette and bummed one. I texted Krusty who talked me off the cave ledge. The next day I asked him about it and his response was "prolly shouldn't have done it, but at least it wasn't dip." I gave him a hard time but had to realize that without the education of this site, he didn't know any better.
Yesterday, I met Clint and 6 of our friends at the mall for an annual drunken Christmas shopping trip. After spending way too much money and drinking way too much beer they planned their next stop. Clint immediately asked the waitress where the closest tobacco shop was. He went to painstaking efforts to convince everyone that the day needed to be consummated with a cigar. I was leaving the group any way to get home to my wife and kid so I didn't have to deal with his dumbass smoking a hog dick in front of me.
Without this site, I would have the same mind set. I would have gone with them to smoke a cigar. I wouldn't feel like I caved bc it isn't dip. I would then find more and more reasons to smoke a cigar. That occasional cigar would be enough to make be think I could have a pinch every once in a while. It would allow me to maintain a romanticized view of tobacco. Clint will be finger banging a can within 6 months. I hope I'm wrong, but I've seen 3 stoppages of at least 3 months end for Clint. I'm thankful for this place. I'm thankful for each and every one of you. I'm thankful for the truth I've found here. I'm thankful for the strength, accountability, brotherhood and relationships I've gained here
Thanks for sharing, Preacher. I'm thankful to quit with you.
Ditto bro. We were both dumbasses for way too long. Congrats on 3rd floor!
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Today is 304. I haven't added anything here as a documentary on my quit in a while. Here's my thought of the day.
This community has saved my life. I have a friend, practically a brother that quit dipping in March, just after my 2/7/14 quit date. His name is Clint. Clint and I grew up in the same town, played tee ball thru hs ball together. We were college roommates. He was dipping as long as I was and almost as often. He is stoked to be quit.Â
When I went on the bachelor party in May around day 95 of my quit, he was hammered with me. He found someone smoking a cigarette and bummed one. I texted Krusty who talked me off the cave ledge. The next day I asked him about it and his response was "prolly shouldn't have done it, but at least it wasn't dip." I gave him a hard time but had to realize that without the education of this site, he didn't know any better.
Yesterday, I met Clint and 6 of our friends at the mall for an annual drunken Christmas shopping trip. After spending way too much money and drinking way too much beer they planned their next stop. Clint immediately asked the waitress where the closest tobacco shop was. He went to painstaking efforts to convince everyone that the day needed to be consummated with a cigar. I was leaving the group any way to get home to my wife and kid so I didn't have to deal with his dumbass smoking a hog dick in front of me.
Without this site, I would have the same mind set. I would have gone with them to smoke a cigar. I wouldn't feel like I caved bc it isn't dip. I would then find more and more reasons to smoke a cigar. That occasional cigar would be enough to make be think I could have a pinch every once in a while. It would allow me to maintain a romanticized view of tobacco. Clint will be finger banging a can within 6 months. I hope I'm wrong, but I've seen 3 stoppages of at least 3 months end for Clint. I'm thankful for this place. I'm thankful for each and every one of you. I'm thankful for the truth I've found here. I'm thankful for the strength, accountability, brotherhood and relationships I've gained here
Thanks for sharing, Preacher. I'm thankful to quit with you.
Ditto bro. We were both dumbasses for way too long. Congrats on 3rd floor!
Good stuff rtpope! Glad you share this! Quit on.
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Congratulations on the year of quit my friend. I have been honored to share this last year with you and look forward to many more to come. Thanks for helping keep my quit on solid ground.
Here's to you, Preacher! 'Cheers'
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Congratulations on the year of quit my friend. I have been honored to share this last year with you and look forward to many more to come. Thanks for helping keep my quit on solid ground.
Here's to you, Preacher! 'Cheers'
Pope/Preacher/Billy Joe/Bobby/Sue - Whatever the name, you are an awesome guy who got smart at half my age. Congrats on a full year! Oh and by the way, your involvement in May in an inspiration to the rest of us and to May 15 as well. Of that I am certain.
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Congratulations on the year of quit my friend. I have been honored to share this last year with you and look forward to many more to come. Thanks for helping keep my quit on solid ground.
Here's to you, Preacher! 'Cheers'
Pope/Preacher/Billy Joe/Bobby/Sue - Whatever the name, you are an awesome guy who got smart at half my age. Congrats on a full year! Oh and by the way, your involvement in May in an inspiration to the rest of us and to May 15 as well. Of that I am certain.
Way to go Pope! Agreed, your work in May '15 is over and above, and will guide them in the right direction! Thanks for being there in ALL of our quits!
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Congratulations on the year of quit my friend. I have been honored to share this last year with you and look forward to many more to come. Thanks for helping keep my quit on solid ground.
Here's to you, Preacher! 'Cheers'
Pope/Preacher/Billy Joe/Bobby/Sue - Whatever the name, you are an awesome guy who got smart at half my age. Congrats on a full year! Oh and by the way, your involvement in May in an inspiration to the rest of us and to May 15 as well. Of that I am certain.
Way to go Pope! Agreed, your work in May '15 is over and above, and will guide them in the right direction! Thanks for being there in ALL of our quits!
Congrats on 365 RTPope! Plain ol' awesomeness
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Congratulations on the year of quit my friend. I have been honored to share this last year with you and look forward to many more to come. Thanks for helping keep my quit on solid ground.
Here's to you, Preacher! 'Cheers'
Pope/Preacher/Billy Joe/Bobby/Sue - Whatever the name, you are an awesome guy who got smart at half my age. Congrats on a full year! Oh and by the way, your involvement in May in an inspiration to the rest of us and to May 15 as well. Of that I am certain.
Way to go Pope! Agreed, your work in May '15 is over and above, and will guide them in the right direction! Thanks for being there in ALL of our quits!
Congrats on 365 RTPope! Plain ol' awesomeness
24/7, 365 days.... Pope brings the quit! Congrats buddy!
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Congratulations on the year of quit my friend. I have been honored to share this last year with you and look forward to many more to come. Thanks for helping keep my quit on solid ground.
Here's to you, Preacher! 'Cheers'
Pope/Preacher/Billy Joe/Bobby/Sue - Whatever the name, you are an awesome guy who got smart at half my age. Congrats on a full year! Oh and by the way, your involvement in May in an inspiration to the rest of us and to May 15 as well. Of that I am certain.
Way to go Pope! Agreed, your work in May '15 is over and above, and will guide them in the right direction! Thanks for being there in ALL of our quits!
Congrats on 365 RTPope! Plain ol' awesomeness
24/7, 365 days.... Pope brings the quit! Congrats buddy!
Congrats man and great work paying it forward in May!
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Congratulations on the year of quit my friend. I have been honored to share this last year with you and look forward to many more to come. Thanks for helping keep my quit on solid ground.
Here's to you, Preacher! 'Cheers'
Pope/Preacher/Billy Joe/Bobby/Sue - Whatever the name, you are an awesome guy who got smart at half my age. Congrats on a full year! Oh and by the way, your involvement in May in an inspiration to the rest of us and to May 15 as well. Of that I am certain.
Way to go Pope! Agreed, your work in May '15 is over and above, and will guide them in the right direction! Thanks for being there in ALL of our quits!
Congrats on 365 RTPope! Plain ol' awesomeness
24/7, 365 days.... Pope brings the quit! Congrats buddy!
Congrats man and great work paying it forward in May!
'Have a beer' 'wave' congrats buddy!!!!
365 is a great day! Be sure to protect the 364 before it though.
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Congratulations on the year of quit my friend. I have been honored to share this last year with you and look forward to many more to come. Thanks for helping keep my quit on solid ground.
Here's to you, Preacher! 'Cheers'
Pope/Preacher/Billy Joe/Bobby/Sue - Whatever the name, you are an awesome guy who got smart at half my age. Congrats on a full year! Oh and by the way, your involvement in May in an inspiration to the rest of us and to May 15 as well. Of that I am certain.
Way to go Pope! Agreed, your work in May '15 is over and above, and will guide them in the right direction! Thanks for being there in ALL of our quits!
Congrats on 365 RTPope! Plain ol' awesomeness
24/7, 365 days.... Pope brings the quit! Congrats buddy!
Congrats man and great work paying it forward in May!
'Have a beer' 'wave' congrats buddy!!!!
365 is a great day! Be sure to protect the 364 before it though.
Congrats pope! 'worship'
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Congratulations on the year of quit my friend. I have been honored to share this last year with you and look forward to many more to come. Thanks for helping keep my quit on solid ground.
Here's to you, Preacher! 'Cheers'
Pope/Preacher/Billy Joe/Bobby/Sue - Whatever the name, you are an awesome guy who got smart at half my age. Congrats on a full year! Oh and by the way, your involvement in May in an inspiration to the rest of us and to May 15 as well. Of that I am certain.
Way to go Pope! Agreed, your work in May '15 is over and above, and will guide them in the right direction! Thanks for being there in ALL of our quits!
Congrats on 365 RTPope! Plain ol' awesomeness
24/7, 365 days.... Pope brings the quit! Congrats buddy!
Congrats man and great work paying it forward in May!
'Have a beer' 'wave' congrats buddy!!!!
365 is a great day! Be sure to protect the 364 before it though.
Congrats pope! 'worship'
Congrats on 1 yr. proud to be quit with you today!
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Congratulations on the year of quit my friend. I have been honored to share this last year with you and look forward to many more to come. Thanks for helping keep my quit on solid ground.
Here's to you, Preacher! 'Cheers'
Pope/Preacher/Billy Joe/Bobby/Sue - Whatever the name, you are an awesome guy who got smart at half my age. Congrats on a full year! Oh and by the way, your involvement in May in an inspiration to the rest of us and to May 15 as well. Of that I am certain.
Way to go Pope! Agreed, your work in May '15 is over and above, and will guide them in the right direction! Thanks for being there in ALL of our quits!
Congrats on 365 RTPope! Plain ol' awesomeness
24/7, 365 days.... Pope brings the quit! Congrats buddy!
Congrats man and great work paying it forward in May!
'Have a beer' 'wave' congrats buddy!!!!
365 is a great day! Be sure to protect the 364 before it though.
Congrats pope! 'worship'
Congrats on 1 yr. proud to be quit with you today!
Props man, and thanks for what you're doing in May. That's how quitting is done.
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Congratulations on the year of quit my friend. I have been honored to share this last year with you and look forward to many more to come. Thanks for helping keep my quit on solid ground.
Here's to you, Preacher! 'Cheers'
Pope/Preacher/Billy Joe/Bobby/Sue - Whatever the name, you are an awesome guy who got smart at half my age. Congrats on a full year! Oh and by the way, your involvement in May in an inspiration to the rest of us and to May 15 as well. Of that I am certain.
Way to go Pope! Agreed, your work in May '15 is over and above, and will guide them in the right direction! Thanks for being there in ALL of our quits!
Congrats on 365 RTPope! Plain ol' awesomeness
24/7, 365 days.... Pope brings the quit! Congrats buddy!
Congrats man and great work paying it forward in May!
'Have a beer' 'wave' congrats buddy!!!!
365 is a great day! Be sure to protect the 364 before it though.
Congrats pope! 'worship'
Congrats on 1 yr. proud to be quit with you today!
Props man, and thanks for what you're doing in May. That's how quitting is done.
Congrats to a badass bro!
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Congratulations on the year of quit my friend. I have been honored to share this last year with you and look forward to many more to come. Thanks for helping keep my quit on solid ground.
Here's to you, Preacher! 'Cheers'
Pope/Preacher/Billy Joe/Bobby/Sue - Whatever the name, you are an awesome guy who got smart at half my age. Congrats on a full year! Oh and by the way, your involvement in May in an inspiration to the rest of us and to May 15 as well. Of that I am certain.
Way to go Pope! Agreed, your work in May '15 is over and above, and will guide them in the right direction! Thanks for being there in ALL of our quits!
Congrats on 365 RTPope! Plain ol' awesomeness
24/7, 365 days.... Pope brings the quit! Congrats buddy!
Congrats man and great work paying it forward in May!
'Have a beer' 'wave' congrats buddy!!!!
365 is a great day! Be sure to protect the 364 before it though.
Congrats pope! 'worship'
Congrats on 1 yr. proud to be quit with you today!
Props man, and thanks for what you're doing in May. That's how quitting is done.
Congrats to a badass bro!
Keep telling the Nic Bitch to bite the curb one day at a time!
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Happy Birthday to a man way too wise for his years.
'worship' 'wave' 'party2' 'party2' 'wave' 'worship'
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Happy Birthday to a man way too wise for his years.
'worship' 'wave' 'party2' 'party2' 'wave' 'worship'
'boob' 'boob' 'boob'
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Happy Birthday to a man way too wise for his years.
'worship' 'wave' 'party2' 'party2' 'wave' 'worship'
'boob' 'boob' 'boob'
Happy Birthday! And a belated congrats on once around the sun, bro.
Thanks for paying it forward!
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Happy Birthday to a man way too wise for his years.
'worship' 'wave' 'party2' 'party2' 'wave' 'worship'
'boob' 'boob' 'boob'
Happy Birthday! And a belated congrats on once around the sun, bro.
Thanks for paying it forward!
oooooooooohhhhhh I love a birthday party! 'party2'
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RTpope- really enjoyed your HOF post. Great read for beginners and OTQs.
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Nice 4hundy, Preacher! Proud to keep on quitting for you EDD! Enjoy the day.
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Nice 4hundy, Preacher! Proud to keep on quitting for you EDD! Enjoy the day.
What Doc said. Awesome job on the 4 double oh.... !!
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Nice 4hundy, Preacher! Proud to keep on quitting for you EDD! Enjoy the day.
What Doc said. Awesome job on the 4 double oh.... !!
Atta boy!!!
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Nice 4hundy, Preacher! Proud to keep on quitting for you EDD! Enjoy the day.
What Doc said. Awesome job on the 4 double oh.... !!
Atta boy!!!
Thanks guys!
I left work at 1:00 to work a NCAA DIII game. 15 innings, a bench clearing shoving match, couple heated arguments, lots of whackers and an ejection later I finally got out of there!!! What a day! All done without a dip.....who knew that could happen 401 days ago?
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Nice 4hundy, Preacher! Proud to keep on quitting for you EDD! Enjoy the day.
What Doc said. Awesome job on the 4 double oh.... !!
Atta boy!!!
Thanks guys!
I left work at 1:00 to work a NCAA DIII game. 15 innings, a bench clearing shoving match, couple heated arguments, lots of whackers and an ejection later I finally got out of there!!! What a day! All done without a dip.....who knew that could happen 401 days ago?
Nice 500 Pope, and on Fathers Day to boot!
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Nice 4hundy, Preacher! Proud to keep on quitting for you EDD! Enjoy the day.
What Doc said. Awesome job on the 4 double oh.... !!
Atta boy!!!
Thanks guys!
I left work at 1:00 to work a NCAA DIII game. 15 innings, a bench clearing shoving match, couple heated arguments, lots of whackers and an ejection later I finally got out of there!!! What a day! All done without a dip.....who knew that could happen 401 days ago?
Nice 500 Pope, and on Fathers Day to boot!
Half a comma, awesome! Proud to be quit with you!
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Nice 4hundy, Preacher! Proud to keep on quitting for you EDD! Enjoy the day.
What Doc said. Awesome job on the 4 double oh.... !!
Atta boy!!!
Thanks guys!
I left work at 1:00 to work a NCAA DIII game. 15 innings, a bench clearing shoving match, couple heated arguments, lots of whackers and an ejection later I finally got out of there!!! What a day! All done without a dip.....who knew that could happen 401 days ago?
Nice 500 Pope, and on Fathers Day to boot!
Half a comma, awesome! Proud to be quit with you!
Fifth floor, congratulations man!!!
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800 days of freedom. Feels nice. That's all....quit on
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800 days of freedom. Feels nice. That's all....quit on
Congrats on the 8th floor!!!
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Well done on the comma.
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Well done on the comma.
Well hot damn, that boy finally got him a dangle! Congratulations my friend!
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Well done on the comma.
Well hot damn, that boy finally got him a dangle! Congratulations my friend!
Nice!
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Well done on the comma.
Well hot damn, that boy finally got him a dangle! Congratulations my friend!
Does this number make my dangle look big?
Thanks for the shout outs!
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Well done on the comma.
Well hot damn, that boy finally got him a dangle! Congratulations my friend!
Does this number make my dangle look big?
Thanks for the shout outs!
BIG congrats Pope! badass Mayhem monster!
'oh yeah'