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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: bleeckerdogs on January 19, 2013, 10:46:00 AM
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I am on day 5 of my quit and I bought a can onf smokey mountain wintergreen.
Am I sabotaging my quit chewing fake chew?
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nope, not sabotaging your quit.. anything without nicotine and tobacco is permissible.
Click on the WELCOME CENTER above to read about the program here... then head on over to April 2013 found here : index.php?showtopic=7622 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=7622) and post rollcall.
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Are you posting roll bleekerdogs
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Dip that shit. Saved me for the first month of my quit. After that, I didn't need or want it. Some guys still dip it after a long time. No nic of any kind....that's the rule. You can stuff your face full of fake, coffee grinds and tea leaves if you'd like.
Stay quit and start posting.
Diplessinjax
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Smokey mountain isn't sabotaging your quit but not posting roll is!! If you don't post roll I'll be accepting bets on your failure. Sorry for being a prick but that's my job and I'm good at it. Posting roll everyday and keeping your word will
Lead to success. If you truly want to quit do everything you can to succeed and it will still suck worse than anything you've ever done!!
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Anyone heard anything further from this guy?
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Anyone heard anything further from this guy?
Maybe he sabotaged his own quit...and his life. Hope not.
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Boy you guys are tough, Sorry about not posting but I took me most of yesterday to figure out how. I will continue to do so. My quit is just like yours I am sure, IT FUCKING BLOWS. I actually had a dream last night that I was chewing. Woke up pissed off and had to make sure it was just in my head. I was always the guy that waited for the kids and wife to go to sleep then stay up and dipped most of the night. I am now on day 8 and cant get enough sleep, what the hell is going on with me.
I appreciate you guys staying after me, I will post daily. I need you guys to keep the quit real. I hid my habit from the family for so long I cant get the support from them that I need. Seems like I work in a fucking fairy tale where I am the only person thats ever been addicted to anything. They all think it should be so easy to quit such a disgusting habit.
Smokey Mountain got me through the weekend!
Keep the quit real! Day 8 No fucking dip today!!!
Thanks
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I'm sorry to all you fuckers that work at US Tobacco. I am sorry becuase I feel like I single handedly kept you in business for the last 26 years and I don't chew anymore. I will not chew today, tommorrow or any day in the future. I am finnaly getting excited about not chewing, does that mean its easy, Hells no! I hope you all find work somewhere else when the they finally have to close the doors because bleeckerdogs QUIT. KTC - thanks you guys/gals rock. Keep the quit real!
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I'm sorry to all you fuckers that work at US Tobacco. I am sorry becuase I feel like I single handedly kept you in business for the last 26 years and I don't chew anymore. I will not chew today, tommorrow or any day in the future. I am finnaly getting excited about not chewing, does that mean its easy, Hells no! I hope you all find work somewhere else when the they finally have to close the doors because bleeckerdogs QUIT. KTC - thanks you guys/gals rock. Keep the quit real!
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Bleek - Congrats on a great choice. I did the same thing hiding it from my family. When I told my wife I quit, she couldn't believe it was that big of a deal. She thought that I had only occassionally dipped. I didn't want to tell here how much I dipped (pretty much all day) or for how long (20+ years). I was embarrased to face my problem and tell her her how much it owned me and how deceitful I had been. So I didn't...at first. I have since fully disclosed everything. Not to my kids, but they were too young to know anything anyway (3 and 1).
Lies and deceit are trademarks of the life of an addict. The first person an addict deceives is him/herself. This site was especially important for me because THIS is where I came for support. To fully disclose how hard it was for me would be to fully disclose what a shit-bag I had been to my wife and family. I wasn't ready to do that...at first. As my quit grew, so did my confidence. Now she knows everything.
But that is history. The only thing that matters is today...and we're both quit!!!
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I'm sorry to all you fuckers that work at US Tobacco. I am sorry becuase I feel like I single handedly kept you in business for the last 26 years and I don't chew anymore. I will not chew today, tommorrow or any day in the future. I am finnaly getting excited about not chewing, does that mean its easy, Hells no! I hope you all find work somewhere else when the they finally have to close the doors because bleeckerdogs QUIT. KTC - thanks you guys/gals rock. Keep the quit real!
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'clap' bleeckerdogs,
Keep the door closed to the nic bitch daily.
Post roll '40'
Keep your word 'hit it'
Wake and Repeat '40'
You can do this One day at a time!
Nicotine makes nothing better.
Remember: One problem + nicotine = 2 problems
Cheers! 'bang head'
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I'm sorry to all you fuckers that work at US Tobacco. I am sorry becuase I feel like I single handedly kept you in business for the last 26 years and I don't chew anymore. I will not chew today, tommorrow or any day in the future. I am finnaly getting excited about not chewing, does that mean its easy, Hells no! I hope you all find work somewhere else when the they finally have to close the doors because bleeckerdogs QUIT. KTC - thanks you guys/gals rock. Keep the quit real!
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'clap' bleeckerdogs,
Keep the door closed to the nic bitch daily.
Post roll '40'
Keep your word 'hit it'
Wake and Repeat '40'
You can do this One day at a time!
Nicotine makes nothing better.
Remember: One problem + nicotine = 2 problems
Cheers! 'bang head'
I like this guy. Excellent intro, sir!
Never again...... for any reason!!
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Dude....I'm also diggin' yer style....
Quit with ya for today. Let's do the same thing tommorrow dammit....
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We ainy tough...we care. If we didn't we wouldn't give a flying fuck what happened to you.. sometimes you gotta rattle the tree to get the nuts to fall off.
8 days is huge. Keep it up!!! We are here for you!
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Starting on the hardest part of my quit. 6 hours in the car alone. Packed almonds, hard candy and a fresh can of smokey mountain. I promised to stay quit and I will. 'Finger' UST
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You got this man. Way to be prepared. I'm quit with you today.
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Nice job Bleeker! Long car rides are the worst for me!
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I had to do the same thing (long drive last week). Reading the car stuff on that list of 100 benefits to quitting definitely helped:
No more stinky cans in my truck, that spill over when you are in a hurry.
Buy a 20 oz bottle of Pop just to dump it out so you will have a spit cup for the road.
No more throwing in a dip and then discovering that the only spitter you have is the one under your car seat that has been baking in the 100 degree heat for the past month and smells like rotten ass.
No more spilling 1/2 a can in your lap while driving, and driving the rest of the way home with your ass 2" above the seat to keep from staining your pants.
No more putting in a fresh dip while driving then realizing you have no where to spit because your spitter is plugged after it sat upside down over night and froze solid.
Not having a spitter and being such an addicted FUCKTARD that I throw in a fatty anyway and hold it untill I have a Big Gulps worth of spit and open the car door at a light and spit. Then look up and the hottie in the car next to you is looking at you like what a looser?
Dumbing your spit cup out of your car as you are driving and having the spit sauce blow back up on your car
And my own personal addition:
No more nearly crashing while trying to pack a dip in the fast lane because you don't want to wait until the next stop to pack one.
Reading that list I can't imagine why I ever wanted to pack a dip in the car in the first place!
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Made it with no nic 'Finger' UST. Smokey mountain is a gift from the quit gods. Did a couple fake dips and didn't even think about the real stuff, well thats BS but hey whos not thinking about it. Went out to dinner and I think every dude sitting at the bar was chewing, hot blond bartender 'arse' thought it was gross and talked to me the whole time. 'crackup' Guys I appreciate the support, if I had to get through this alone it would suck that much more. Keep the quit real!
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New thought that makes me feel really good, since i quit there are about 14 cans on skoal still sittin on the shelf at the gas station. 'Finger' UST In upstate NY that = $112.00
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Can I tell all you friggin quiters how excited I am to say tomorrow is 10 mother huggin days, double didgets! I feel like i have kicked the world in the ass! 10 Days, 10 days is a lifetime for someone that basically had a chew in his face every awake moment for the last 10 years. And the 16 years before that I chewed in my sleep. 10 Friggin days. I was told that the boys at work all bet against me without me knowing and theres 100 waiting on my desk in rochester. That 100 is getting donated to the local mens shelter as is the first 100 I would have spent on poison. Wonder if I can get UST to donate as well!
With your help, I cant wait to quit tomorrow. Kepp the quit real! !0 Days :D
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Can I tell all you friggin quiters how excited I am to say tomorrow is 10 mother huggin days, double didgets! I feel like i have kicked the world in the ass! 10 Days, 10 days is a lifetime for someone that basically had a chew in his face every awake moment for the last 10 years. And the 16 years before that I chewed in my sleep. 10 Friggin days. I was told that the boys at work all bet against me without me knowing and theres 100 waiting on my desk in rochester. That 100 is getting donated to the local mens shelter as is the first 100 I would have spent on poison. Wonder if I can get UST to donate as well!
With your help, I cant wait to quit tomorrow. Kepp the quit real! !0 Days :D
yes it is very exciting but dont loose track of why this site works my friend. ONE DAY AT A TIME. you never know what will happen between now and tomorrow. i am very proud of you for being strong. enjoy today breath in the freedom.
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Hey Bleek-
Just came across your posts and wanted to add my support as well. I am about 75 days ahead of you and although I have stopped dipping the fake shit at home (for me its Hooch. Spitfire and Wintergreen do the trick), I still keep a fake dip in my lip a good portion of the day. Old oral habits die hard I guess but as long as its not NIC, who the fuck cares? And to answer your first posted question on here, as you probably now know, as long as you post every day, embrace the integrity of your quit and respect your quit brothers, the fake stuff will only help your quit until you don't need it anymore.
Like you, I too was what we call here a "ninja dipper". I dipped for about 13 years and was going through about 2 cans a day of Skoal before I finally quit. My kids knew nothing and I'm pretty sure my wife only knew that I occasionally dipped years ago and then stopped even that. I too was able to dip almost all day at work and then would spend half the night in my home office dipping after the wife and kids went to sleep. Pretty fucked up when you think about how much we have kept from the person who is supposed to be our life partner and how many ways we were willing to alter our lives just to get that time to dip by ourselves. I still haven't told her about my addiction (or my quit) but plan to do so in about 15 days when I make my first 100 day mark.
Long story short, like many of the others here, I know only too well where you have been, what you are going through and what the next few months has in store. The cravings are gone and I'm spendning a lot more time with my wife and kids since I don't have to find excuses to stay away from them or skip activities in order to get that one more dip going.
If you need any support or want a number to text or call just in case, PM me and let me know and congrats on making it through the first 10 days.
Kidb
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Minx - Where do you buy the hooch, the fake stuff is helping. I will stay with it for awhile. Today, day 10 was probably the hardest I have had. I love being quit, but its hard today. I promised and I will again tommorow. Reading here helps, Thank god i'm not alone
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Day 12, I thought you guys said this was easy? Kidding. By far the hardest thing I have done in a long time but I am a nic whore. That bitch has made me do things no one else could even come close to. KTC and the people here are awsome. Posting roll, promising to you and me has keep me clean. I look forward to posting everyday and can understand completely why we see guys here with 1800 + quit days. Is sad but we quit everyday for the day and for me I can see myself posting roll for a very long time.
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I don't know about easy but I bet you'd get alot of head bobbin if you asked if it was worth it, though. If you keep it up, you never have to experience this again.
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You have the right idea Bleeker! It does get easier but there is no better way of ensuring success than coming back tomorrow and making your promise to stay quit! My friend copingwithoutcopen can tell you that, he is a success story!
Keep coming back and keep quitting, that is why we are all here and that is how we are all here! One day at a time.
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Keep drinking the Kool-Aid. The Stuff works. You will make it through this and be a much better man for it.
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You WERE a nic whore. Now you're just an addict that's come to his senses. I love that "aha" moment when the curtains are pulled back and an addict realizes what a BITCH they have been (I was for 27 years, go figure...).
Never again brother. You need anything, or someone to watch your back, let me know.
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That bitch has made me do things no one else could even come close to.
Your not alone in that! I lied to the lady I love for 33 years. Even came up with lies each time she caught me! Damn it feels good to be free from that burden.
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You guys rock! Wanting to be quit is key! Wanting to be quit makes it possible to drive past the gas station.
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Bleecker,
The link for the site where you can find the Hooch is http://hoochsnuff.com/ (http://hoochsnuff.com/)
I think you have to buy it mailorder but I've purchased a few times now and so far it has come fairly quickly and not too expensive if you buy it in blocks of 12 cans at a time. Almost 90 days in now and I'm still turning to Hooch, but less frequently than at first and stopped using it at home altogether. Still good for high trigger times though (like long car rides, long stretches alone without family etc.)
Keep up the good work. I can promise that it will get easier and if you're anything like me, the more time I put behind me without a dip, the more adamant I become about never going back again.
Proud to quit with you!
Kidb
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Day 12, I thought you guys said this was easy? Kidding. By far the hardest thing I have done in a long time but I am a nic whore. That bitch has made me do things no one else could even come close to. KTC and the people here are awsome. Posting roll, promising to you and me has keep me clean. I look forward to posting everyday and can understand completely why we see guys here with 1800 + quit days. Is sad but we quit everyday for the day and for me I can see myself posting roll for a very long time.
Yup.
Ready - Day 1,823.
You have no idea how great things will get.
But I'm not cured. I'm quit. I'm here.
Keeping my word.
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Bleecker,
Good job on your quit-the fake is helping me too.
Man-have you tried the Oregon Mint? I would check it out-it has been my favorite after trying Smokey Mtn, Golden Eagle, then Hooch (sampler pack).
This place is listed on their website as carrying it:
Rochester : 12/12* Lori's Natural Food Center 900 Jefferson Rd. (14623) 585-424-2323
The Oregon is definitely not for everyone, but I have really enjoyed it. I must admit that I was quite underwhelmed with the flavors of the Hooch. Although it's texture and pack, etc. were awesome.
I've been using the Beaver 'winker', then throwing a wintergreen pouch in with it-super flavor, and the best thing is, your breath rocks afterwards.
Quit with you today man. Stay quit.
Gonz
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Day 12, I thought you guys said this was easy? Kidding. By far the hardest thing I have done in a long time but I am a nic whore. That bitch has made me do things no one else could even come close to. KTC and the people here are awsome. Posting roll, promising to you and me has keep me clean. I look forward to posting everyday and can understand completely why we see guys here with 1800 + quit days. Is sad but we quit everyday for the day and for me I can see myself posting roll for a very long time.
Yup.
Ready - Day 1,823.
You have no idea how great things will get.
But I'm not cured. I'm quit. I'm here.
Keeping my word.
Don't worry, you don't have to be here for 1800 days for it to get better. I'm 302 and I honestly can't pinpoint a time that it changed but gradually everything gets better.
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Never said it would be easy, we said it would be worth it. Day 267, although I am a addict, it is no longer a part of my life.
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Never said it would be easy, we said it would be worth it. Day 267, although I am a addict, it is no longer a part of my life.
hey bleeckerdogs, It gets much better, I promise you. We're addicts for life and quit everyday. Like you, I always knew I would be posting roll a long time. What the hell, can't hurt us, can it?
any day that ends in a y is a good day to be quit bleeckerdogs. You'll see amazing things in life now that your brain is getting oxygen. You see, we were not born with this poison in our mouth! But we can live without it everyday, one day at a time.
Cheers brother. at day 249 Life is REAL, nothing fuzzy, nothing foggy, just real life and reality.
The price: post roll daily The benefits: Quit and living real life.
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Guys I appreciate all the support. I know day 15 would have been alot harder to reach had it not been for you and KTC. You both make me want to stay quit when the bitch is wispering in my ear. I take pride in my 15 days and think everyone here is bad ass if they are on day 1 or 1800. I quit 100's of times in the 26 years I chewed, some for days, most for minutes. Today we had someone in the April clan that admitted they fell off, CAVED. Can I tell you, I am excited about the fact that his failing pissed me off. I want everyone here to win. Bottom line is it shows me how pissed off I will be at myself if I cave. Not today! Tommorow AM I will post roll and promise again. I hope everone that caves today comes back tomorrow, sucks up the puches and post roll in the latest group. I'm sorry April lost a bad ass quiter, at the same time I hope he pissed off a bunch of guys and made there quit that much stronger. This shit is HARD!
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Guys I appreciate all the support. I know day 15 would have been alot harder to reach had it not been for you and KTC. You both make me want to stay quit when the bitch is wispering in my ear. I take pride in my 15 days and think everyone here is bad ass if they are on day 1 or 1800. I quit 100's of times in the 26 years I chewed, some for days, most for minutes. Today we had someone in the April clan that admitted they fell off, CAVED. Can I tell you, I am excited about the fact that his failing pissed me off. I want everyone here to win. Bottom line is it shows me how pissed off I will be at myself if I cave. Not today! Tommorow AM I will post roll and promise again. I hope everone that caves today comes back tomorrow, sucks up the puches and post roll in the latest group. I'm sorry April lost a bad ass quiter, at the same time I hope he pissed off a bunch of guys and made there quit that much stronger. This shit is HARD!
The QUIT is Strong in this one!! Loving it!! Keep drinking the Kool-Aid and go forth and tell the world!!! As one Raisin told me when I was about day 7. Your Highs will be Highs and your lows will be low!! But it is still better because you are Quit!! Fuck Yeah!! Be Self Aware that you are an addict and that she is always there to trip you up!!
Quit on QUITTER!!!
J
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As of right now 45 of my brothers and sisters posted roll in the April group. We have a combined quit of 1090 days at 1 can per day thats 218 rolls that US Tobacco aint sold. Here in Rochester at an average of $7 = $7630 'Finger' UST! Way to go my brothers and sisters.
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As of right now 45 of my brothers and sisters posted roll in the April group. We have a combined quit of 1090 days at 1 can per day thats 218 rolls that US Tobacco aint sold. Here in Rochester at an average of $7 = $7630 'Finger' UST! Way to go my brothers and sisters.
I like the way you think.
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As of right now 45 of my brothers and sisters posted roll in the April group. We have a combined quit of 1090 days at 1 can per day thats 218 rolls that US Tobacco aint sold. Here in Rochester at an average of $7 = $7630 'Finger' UST! Way to go my brothers and sisters.
'boob' 'boob' 'boob'
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As of right now 45 of my brothers and sisters posted roll in the April group. We have a combined quit of 1090 days at 1 can per day thats 218 rolls that US Tobacco aint sold. Here in Rochester at an average of $7 = $7630 'Finger' UST! Way to go my brothers and sisters.
'boob' 'boob' 'boob'
Good Stuff. It's also around $7/can here so every 100 days quit I buy myself something nice with the ~$700 I didn't spend on tobacco.
Now that I've hit the 3rd floor that is around $2100 not spent in slavery to nicotine
'party2'
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As of right now 45 of my brothers and sisters posted roll in the April group. We have a combined quit of 1090 days at 1 can per day thats 218 rolls that US Tobacco aint sold. Here in Rochester at an average of $7 = $7630 'Finger' UST! Way to go my brothers and sisters.
'boob' 'boob' 'boob'
Good Stuff. It's also around $7/can here so every 100 days quit I buy myself something nice with the ~$700 I didn't spend on tobacco.
Now that I've hit the 3rd floor that is around $2100 not spent in slavery to nicotine
'party2'
Way to go Kubrick - Buy yourself something nice - Youve earned it!
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Today seems like a great day to be quit. BS - Today IS a great day to be QUIT!
Had the most real dip dream last night ever. Not only did I lie to the wife and kids but I got on line and posted role with a huge dip of skoal packing my whole face. If I recall correctly it was yummy. I woke up choking on the gum that I fell asleep chewing and had to figure out if it was a dream or real. Wow - all day long I felt great about my quit. Shit I only thought about chew probably 75-80 times in the course of the day. To get blindsided by a dream. Hello - My name is Bleeckerdogs and I am an addict!
I woke up feeling like a true ass and was releaved when I figured it all out.
Be real to your quit - I promised today - did you?
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Today seems like a great day to be quit. BS - Today IS a great day to be QUIT!
Had the most real dip dream last night ever. Not only did I lie to the wife and kids but I got on line and posted role with a huge dip of skoal packing my whole face. If I recall correctly it was yummy. I woke up choking on the gum that I fell asleep chewing and had to figure out if it was a dream or real. Wow - all day long I felt great about my quit. Shit I only thought about chew probably 75-80 times in the course of the day. To get blindsided by a dream. Hello - My name is Bleeckerdogs and I am an addict!
I woke up feeling like a true ass and was releaved when I figured it all out.
Be real to your quit - I promised today - did you?
Last week, I dreamt I was sitting at a bar chewing. I thought about the site in the dream, and I thought "Fug' em" and went to find a cigarette. It was very vivid, and I recall caving 4 times. The taste was still in mt mouth when I woke up.
That was in the 570s, and it set my jaw on fire for a few days.
Dip dreams are the worst, but they are normal.
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Today seems like a great day to be quit. BS - Today IS a great day to be QUIT!
Had the most real dip dream last night ever. Not only did I lie to the wife and kids but I got on line and posted role with a huge dip of skoal packing my whole face. If I recall correctly it was yummy. I woke up choking on the gum that I fell asleep chewing and had to figure out if it was a dream or real. Wow - all day long I felt great about my quit. Shit I only thought about chew probably 75-80 times in the course of the day. To get blindsided by a dream. Hello - My name is Bleeckerdogs and I am an addict!
I woke up feeling like a true ass and was releaved when I figured it all out.
Be real to your quit - I promised today - did you?
Woke up one morning and spitting, hacking and gagging because I thought I had fallen asleep with a dip in. (like I had hundreds of times before) If she is attacking you in your sleep.......you are winning!! Kick her ass into submission today!!!! I quit with you today!!
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jhaenel23 - Congrats on the HOF - 102 days is killer - 2nd floor before you know it but don't forget, 1 day at a time. I quit with you today, look forward to doing it again tomorrow.
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I also have bad dip dreams. They mainly consist of my wife finding a hidden tin (under my car seat, real genius I am with my hiding spots) or me with a monster dip in thinking that she somehow can't see it. I always woke up thankful it was just a bad dream. It would have been better if they weren't just dreams and she would have found out.
At least we all have finally woken up now.
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Went to the dentist last night! Yes chew has fucked my mouth up in many ways, but there is no current cancer fears. Current being the word of choice. Yeah
It does feel good to know that the lip is healing and i actually QUIT before it was to late. Today has been probably my toughest day yet, but I am QUIT and I am checking off the hours and drinking the JUICE as some of you say. This shit is not easy, everyday we deserve a hefty pat on the back. You are my brothers in this and I wish you all the best. Have a great weekend. Watch out for the booze. I will be sober and quit. Fuck for that matter I would be just about anything if it makes staying quit easier. GO BUFFALO, oh shit there not playing.
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hey all...smokey mountain has gotten me through 32 days...I have tried all the others and came back to it...this is the longest I have ever quit....working hard one day at a time...good luck to the rest of you
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Howdy. I'm 40 days today, and feeling good about having quit nicotine after 53 years of smoking and chewing. come on ahead, the waters been pretty decent from day 32 to 40. (I feel particularly good when I get an urge to chew, then realize that I quit using tobacco 40 days ago. I am not going to chew. Its not that we are quitting.....it is that we have and are already quit. Its done!
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Bleecker,
Good job on your quit-the fake is helping me too.
Man-have you tried the Oregon Mint? I would check it out-it has been my favorite after trying Smokey Mtn, Golden Eagle, then Hooch (sampler pack).
This place is listed on their website as carrying it:
Rochester : 12/12* Lori's Natural Food Center 900 Jefferson Rd. (14623) 585-424-2323
The Oregon is definitely not for everyone, but I have really enjoyed it. I must admit that I was quite underwhelmed with the flavors of the Hooch. Although it's texture and pack, etc. were awesome.
I've been using the Beaver 'winker', then throwing a wintergreen pouch in with it-super flavor, and the best thing is, your breath rocks afterwards.
Quit with you today man. Stay quit.
Gonz
Whats the Wintergreen Pouch you do?
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Bleecker,
Good job on your quit-the fake is helping me too.
Man-have you tried the Oregon Mint? I would check it out-it has been my favorite after trying Smokey Mtn, Golden Eagle, then Hooch (sampler pack).
This place is listed on their website as carrying it:
Rochester : 12/12* Lori's Natural Food Center 900 Jefferson Rd. (14623) 585-424-2323
The Oregon is definitely not for everyone, but I have really enjoyed it. I must admit that I was quite underwhelmed with the flavors of the Hooch. Although it's texture and pack, etc. were awesome.
I've been using the Beaver 'winker', then throwing a wintergreen pouch in with it-super flavor, and the best thing is, your breath rocks afterwards.
Quit with you today man. Stay quit.
Gonz
Whats the Wintergreen Pouch you do?
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Day 50 Today 1/2 way to the Hall of Fame. Let me tell you I feel like a hero. I have done things in the past 50 days that I didn't think could be enjoyed without chew. I went camping with friends. I watched the Daytona 500. I drove from NY to Florida. Did I have cravings? Everyday. Do I still mark my work calendar and a special spread sheet that I set up? Everyday. I litterly have to fend of cravings daily. Best part is everynight when I go to bed I feel like I am winning. And winning is contaqious (sp). I want to win everyday. I will continue to promise to you all and myself. KTC is hands down the best thing I have found to date on the internet, well lets be honest it rates right up there with PORN! I have been logging in, posting roll, checking email, reading all the success and modivation I need to continue and hopefully helping a few of you along the way. Not once has any from KTC asked for a dollar or anything else other than to stay honest and quit. To all that have helped me hit 50 days THANK YOU! To those that have caved and came back, THANK YOU. Being pissed off at you has helped me. I pray for all of us! I want to see the numbers of people on this site increase 10 fold. You all mean the world to me, I quit with you today! 'Finger' UST.
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Day 50 Today 1/2 way to the Hall of Fame. Let me tell you I feel like a hero. I have done things in the past 50 days that I didn't think could be enjoyed without chew. I went camping with friends. I watched the Daytona 500. I drove from NY to Florida. Did I have cravings? Everyday. Do I still mark my work calendar and a special spread sheet that I set up? Everyday. I litterly have to fend of cravings daily. Best part is everynight when I go to bed I feel like I am winning. And winning is contaqious (sp). I want to win everyday. I will continue to promise to you all and myself. KTC is hands down the best thing I have found to date on the internet, well lets be honest it rates right up there with PORN! I have been logging in, posting roll, checking email, reading all the success and modivation I need to continue and hopefully helping a few of you along the way. Not once has any from KTC asked for a dollar or anything else other than to stay honest and quit. To all that have helped me hit 50 days THANK YOU! To those that have caved and came back, THANK YOU. Being pissed off at you has helped me. I pray for all of us! I want to see the numbers of people on this site increase 10 fold. You all mean the world to me, I quit with you today! 'Finger' UST.
goo shit! great job on 50, proud to quit with you today.
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Day 50 Today 1/2 way to the Hall of Fame. Let me tell you I feel like a hero. I have done things in the past 50 days that I didn't think could be enjoyed without chew. I went camping with friends. I watched the Daytona 500. I drove from NY to Florida. Did I have cravings? Everyday. Do I still mark my work calendar and a special spread sheet that I set up? Everyday. I litterly have to fend of cravings daily. Best part is everynight when I go to bed I feel like I am winning. And winning is contaqious (sp). I want to win everyday. I will continue to promise to you all and myself. KTC is hands down the best thing I have found to date on the internet, well lets be honest it rates right up there with PORN! I have been logging in, posting roll, checking email, reading all the success and modivation I need to continue and hopefully helping a few of you along the way. Not once has any from KTC asked for a dollar or anything else other than to stay honest and quit. To all that have helped me hit 50 days THANK YOU! To those that have caved and came back, THANK YOU. Being pissed off at you has helped me. I pray for all of us! I want to see the numbers of people on this site increase 10 fold. You all mean the world to me, I quit with you today! 'Finger' UST.
goo shit! great job on 50, proud to quit with you today.
Nice work! Especially beating nic on that drive. Here's to you staying quit and for now on always staying just 45 days up on me. Keep it up.
(And I'm thinking it's better than porn).
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Day 50 Today 1/2 way to the Hall of Fame. Let me tell you I feel like a hero. I have done things in the past 50 days that I didn't think could be enjoyed without chew. I went camping with friends. I watched the Daytona 500. I drove from NY to Florida. Did I have cravings? Everyday. Do I still mark my work calendar and a special spread sheet that I set up? Everyday. I litterly have to fend of cravings daily. Best part is everynight when I go to bed I feel like I am winning. And winning is contaqious (sp). I want to win everyday. I will continue to promise to you all and myself. KTC is hands down the best thing I have found to date on the internet, well lets be honest it rates right up there with PORN! I have been logging in, posting roll, checking email, reading all the success and modivation I need to continue and hopefully helping a few of you along the way. Not once has any from KTC asked for a dollar or anything else other than to stay honest and quit. To all that have helped me hit 50 days THANK YOU! To those that have caved and came back, THANK YOU. Being pissed off at you has helped me. I pray for all of us! I want to see the numbers of people on this site increase 10 fold. You all mean the world to me, I quit with you today! 'Finger' UST.
I can't ditto all that enough. Proud and really freaking happy to be at 50 with you. Halfway to the Hall, you damn quitter!! Can't wait to congratulate you about April 25 and every day after.
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Learned a very valuble life lesson yesterday. Unsolisited sales people get very nervous and don't stick around very long when you answer the door naked. Might have something to do with the fact that I weight about 350 and stay very well groomed. Mind you we live in the middle of nowhere and I had a clear view of who was coming to the door. Closest neighbor about a mile down the road warned me that the guy was coming and it was impossible to get him off their porch. He lasted on mine for about 45 seconds. Would never freak out the girl scouts or church going ladies. Doesn't hurt that the wife bet me a 100 that I wouldn't do it. She laughed her ass off just out of sight the whole time. Quiting has made me do some crazy shit but this one takes the cake. Good times... Neighbors loved the story as well, only problem is I don't think they will just drop in anymore. 'crackup' :o :P :D
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Learned a very valuble life lesson yesterday. Unsolisited sales people get very nervous and don't stick around very long when you answer the door naked. Might have something to do with the fact that I weight about 350 and stay very well groomed. Mind you we live in the middle of nowhere and I had a clear view of who was coming to the door. Closest neighbor about a mile down the road warned me that the guy was coming and it was impossible to get him off their porch. He lasted on mine for about 45 seconds. Would never freak out the girl scouts or church going ladies. Doesn't hurt that the wife bet me a 100 that I wouldn't do it. She laughed her ass off just out of sight the whole time. Quiting has made me do some crazy shit but this one takes the cake. Good times... Neighbors loved the story as well, only problem is I don't think they will just drop in anymore. 'crackup' :o :P :D
That was funny stuff. You might have ended they're sales careers with that move. They may quit and choose a different career path.
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I am begining to realize that I am becoming very cinical of new quiters. Almost mean! I want to help but I have a hard time believing that they are serious. I know I am an asshole, hell I have been one for years. I truely believe we need a forum like the intros where quiters can vent. I will be the first peson to help if asked, I will also be the first to tell a guy that caved after three days to wipe his pussy, grow his ball and quit wasting our fucking time. There is nothing that drives me more insane than reading a great intro and then never seeing that asshole post role. I quess I am just a big bitch but it was fun venting.
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I am begining to realize that I am becoming very cinical of new quiters. Almost mean! I want to help but I have a hard time believing that they are serious. I know I am an asshole, hell I have been one for years. I truely believe we need a forum like the intros where quiters can vent. I will be the first peson to help if asked, I will also be the first to tell a guy that caved after three days to wipe his pussy, grow his ball and quit wasting our fucking time. There is nothing that drives me more insane than reading a great intro and then never seeing that asshole post role. I quess I am just a big bitch but it was fun venting.
It hurts to see people fail, part of that for me is that it reminds me of how vulnerable I am! Yep, we are just that stupid addict that's one dip away from a cave. You can't quit for anyone and you certainly can't save them from being stupid. "Stupid is as stupid does".
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I am begining to realize that I am becoming very cinical of new quiters. Almost mean! I want to help but I have a hard time believing that they are serious. I know I am an asshole, hell I have been one for years. I truely believe we need a forum like the intros where quiters can vent. I will be the first peson to help if asked, I will also be the first to tell a guy that caved after three days to wipe his pussy, grow his ball and quit wasting our fucking time. There is nothing that drives me more insane than reading a great intro and then never seeing that asshole post role. I quess I am just a big bitch but it was fun venting.
It hurts to see people fail, part of that for me is that it reminds me of how vulnerable I am! Yep, we are just that stupid addict that's one dip away from a cave. You can't quit for anyone and you certainly can't save them from being stupid. "Stupid is as stupid does".
What WT57 says X 1000!!!
We were dumbass dippers, now we are smartass quitters!! :)
My wife says that I am able to "think outside the can now"!!! LOL
Have a super duper weekend WT and bleeckerdogs!! 'boob'
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I am begining to realize that I am becoming very cinical of new quiters. Almost mean! I want to help but I have a hard time believing that they are serious. I know I am an asshole, hell I have been one for years. I truely believe we need a forum like the intros where quiters can vent. I will be the first peson to help if asked, I will also be the first to tell a guy that caved after three days to wipe his pussy, grow his ball and quit wasting our fucking time. There is nothing that drives me more insane than reading a great intro and then never seeing that asshole post role. I quess I am just a big bitch but it was fun venting.
It hurts to see people fail, part of that for me is that it reminds me of how vulnerable I am! Yep, we are just that stupid addict that's one dip away from a cave. You can't quit for anyone and you certainly can't save them from being stupid. "Stupid is as stupid does".
What WT57 says X 1000!!!
We were dumbass dippers, now we are smartass quitters!! :)
My wife says that I am able to "think outside the can now"!!! LOL
Have a super duper weekend WT and bleeckerdogs!! 'boob'
Becaues it reminds you of how close you are to failure. ONE BAD DECISION.
You will learn to get past that to a point. Yet I still get pissy and offended when someone fails.
Everyone that comes here will not suceed. That is what you must learn to accept.
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Now this has to be one of the most pathetic stories I can tell you. A very good friend quit chewing Cope 15 years ago. The whole time he preached that I need to stop. Shits gona kill you etc. Well like every other addict I brushed it aside and I distanced my self from him. I reached out to let him know about my 70+ days and he told me that hes back to 2 cans a day for a little over a year. Quit cold turkey for 14+ years after a 25 year habit. And now he is as hooked as ever and has no intention to quit. I found the contract last night, sent it to him. He laughed and said fuck it we all die from something. Words spoken by a true addict. I am so glad that I finally took his advice and found the FREEDOM! People don't ever let your guard down, we are addicts, we will always be addicts. There is no such thing as just one KTC and all its members, Thank you. I love having a place to vent and be held accountable. My buddy would have been on our 51st floor when he fell off. Can you fucking imagin!
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Had my toughest yet most rewarding quit moment in 113 days. While cleaning out the gun safe I found a unopened can of skoal long cut wintergreen. I had it in my hand. It felt good, I even packed it. Did it ever look yummy! At no point did I even consider opening it. Instead I set it up on a post in the back yard and tore it a new ass with my brand new Kimber 45. By the way I bought the 45 with money I am saving from not chewing. Fuck you UST. None today! Felt really good. I also found a spitter I must have been hiding from the wife. Shit was all dried up and dead, just like my chewing habbit. Proud to be quit with all you addicts today.
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Had my toughest yet most rewarding quit moment in 113 days. While cleaning out the gun safe I found a unopened can of skoal long cut wintergreen. I had it in my hand. It felt good, I even packed it. Did it ever look yummy! At no point did I even consider opening it. Instead I set it up on a post in the back yard and tore it a new ass with my brand new Kimber 45. By the way I bought the 45 with money I am saving from not chewing. Fuck you UST. None today! Felt really good. I also found a spitter I must have been hiding from the wife. Shit was all dried up and dead, just like my chewing habbit. Proud to be quit with all you addicts today.
Nice work Bleeckerdogs!
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Had my toughest yet most rewarding quit moment in 113 days. While cleaning out the gun safe I found a unopened can of skoal long cut wintergreen. I had it in my hand. It felt good, I even packed it. Did it ever look yummy! At no point did I even consider opening it. Instead I set it up on a post in the back yard and tore it a new ass with my brand new Kimber 45. By the way I bought the 45 with money I am saving from not chewing. Fuck you UST. None today! Felt really good. I also found a spitter I must have been hiding from the wife. Shit was all dried up and dead, just like my chewing habbit. Proud to be quit with all you addicts today.
That my friend is an awesome use for your hidden surprise.
Well done having some fun and keep on keeping on
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One shot one kill. 'Remshot'
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Update - 6/6/2013 - 215 cans left on the shelf to date. AND TODAY I WANT TO BUY ONE IN THE WORST FUCKING WAY EVER! Why am I having such hard craves at Day 143. I have not craved like this since weeks 1 -2. My head feels like it will fucking explode at any minute. SHU26 - I believe I would have caved this morning if I hadn't read about your cave this week. On the other hand the nic bitch keeps telling me he had just one and is quit again, you can do it to.
I am staying quit because its what I want, I'm staying quit becuase I promised to do so. I am staying quit today! All day. Cowgirl, CR4, SHU26 and the fog cutters give me strength! UGGGGGGGH
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Update - 6/6/2013 - 215 cans left on the shelf to date. AND TODAY I WANT TO BUY ONE IN THE WORST FUCKING WAY EVER! Why am I having such hard craves at Day 143. I have not craved like this since weeks 1 -2. My head feels like it will fucking explode at any minute. SHU26 - I believe I would have caved this morning if I hadn't read about your cave this week. On the other hand the nic bitch keeps telling me he had just one and is quit again, you can do it to.
I am staying quit because its what I want, I'm staying quit becuase I promised to do so. I am staying quit today! All day. Cowgirl, CR4, SHU26 and the fog cutters give me strength! UGGGGGGGH
Just hang in there. The craves will pass. Keep doing the same thing you've been doing for the past 215 days.
It's why I still post roll daily.
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Update - 6/6/2013 - 215 cans left on the shelf to date. AND TODAY I WANT TO BUY ONE IN THE WORST FUCKING WAY EVER! Why am I having such hard craves at Day 143. I have not craved like this since weeks 1 -2. My head feels like it will fucking explode at any minute. SHU26 - I believe I would have caved this morning if I hadn't read about your cave this week. On the other hand the nic bitch keeps telling me he had just one and is quit again, you can do it to.
I am staying quit because its what I want, I'm staying quit becuase I promised to do so. I am staying quit today! All day. Cowgirl, CR4, SHU26 and the fog cutters give me strength! UGGGGGGGH
quit on bleeker....i gave a more of newbie then me some advice last night before i signed off..."if you're not married, go get some strange, if you are take the afternoon and go get some from the wife" which by the way, if that is who is in your avatar, nice work
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Update - 6/6/2013 - 215 cans left on the shelf to date. AND TODAY I WANT TO BUY ONE IN THE WORST FUCKING WAY EVER! Why am I having such hard craves at Day 143. I have not craved like this since weeks 1 -2. My head feels like it will fucking explode at any minute. SHU26 - I believe I would have caved this morning if I hadn't read about your cave this week. On the other hand the nic bitch keeps telling me he had just one and is quit again, you can do it to.Â
 I am staying quit because its what I want, I'm staying quit becuase I promised to do so. I am staying quit today! All day. Cowgirl, CR4, SHU26 and the fog cutters give me strength! UGGGGGGGH
quit on bleeker....i gave a more of newbie then me some advice last night before i signed off..."if you're not married, go get some strange, if you are take the afternoon and go get some from the wife" which by the way, if that is who is in your avatar, nice work _ I WISH! Thanks for the reach out.
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Update - 6/6/2013 - 215 cans left on the shelf to date. AND TODAY I WANT TO BUY ONE IN THE WORST FUCKING WAY EVER! Why am I having such hard craves at Day 143. I have not craved like this since weeks 1 -2. My head feels like it will fucking explode at any minute. SHU26 - I believe I would have caved this morning if I hadn't read about your cave this week. On the other hand the nic bitch keeps telling me he had just one and is quit again, you can do it to.
I am staying quit because its what I want, I'm staying quit becuase I promised to do so. I am staying quit today! All day. Cowgirl, CR4, SHU26 and the fog cutters give me strength! UGGGGGGGH
Stay quit for yourself but also for us newbies ... because I want to know that its possible to never back down to stay quit everyday
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So help me God bleecker if you cave on me - I'll come kick your ass right down to texas and then make you stay in this miserable state you hate so damn much!!!!!
You gave me all kinds of hell in the beginning and I ended coming to you to prove myself.......i'm standing here arm and arm linked quit with you, so don't you freakin let go dude! I can help take some of the load off with my support but YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!
Don't let a chic beat you man - i don't want to have more days than you - i don't want to be the "big sis" I want to stay the "little sis"
:wub:
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So help me God bleecker if you cave on me - I'll come kick your ass right down to texas and then make you stay in this miserable state you hate so damn much!!!!!
You gave me all kinds of hell in the beginning and I ended coming to you to prove myself.......i'm standing here arm and arm linked quit with you, so don't you freakin let go dude! I can help take some of the load off with my support but YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!
Don't let a chic beat you man - i don't want to have more days than you - i don't want to be the "big sis" I want to stay the "little sis"
:wub:
you have to listen to racetrack girl!
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Hey - go look up "lean on me" by bill withers on you tube (one of my ALL time favorite songs - and the custom ring tone of one of my support friends here at home).....really really listen to the words - then smile and know that's everyone here at KTC - even the ones you haven't met yet
:wub:
It will give you something to hold on to - i mean something other than your junk :) - remember I'm from "junk free july" hahahahaha!
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You can do this man.
You're awfully quiet. You doing ok?
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Everyone THANKS, venting was good, your support and the fact that I posted roll is enough to keep me going today. I will promise again tomorrow and my buddy Cowgirl is going to post for me this weekend. I will not ask her to lie so my ass will STILL be quit on Monday when I get back. I will be a solid 147 days. Nicotene is a tricky bitch. This near cave at day 143 proves what my Buddy CR4 tells me everyday "I am an Addict". This shit about it getting easier is bullshit, Today was fucking hard and I have no idea why.
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Everyone THANKS, venting was good, your support and the fact that I posted roll is enough to keep me going today. I will promise again tomorrow and my buddy Cowgirl is going to post for me this weekend. I will not ask her to lie so my ass will STILL be quit on Monday when I get back. I will be a solid 147 days. Nicotene is a tricky bitch. This near cave at day 143 proves what my Buddy CR4 tells me everyday "I am an Addict". This shit about it getting easier is bullshit, Today was fucking hard and I have no idea why.
It's because there is a nasty ass funk in the 120s (or thereabouts). You probably haven't run into one in about a month so this one comes at a surprise. Again, look at the spreadsheet. This is when a lot of guys think they're cured and leave (only to return later most of the time) or stumble.
You've been here for 143 days. Use the tools you've always used. I'm not asking you to quit for any longer than today. Fuck tomorrow.
You got my number and I'll gladly stand behind you and help you in any way I can.
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I just said this in an email a few minutes ago and need to share it with whoever is following and supporting me today,
I have told almost everyone that KTC is the reason why I am quit, today I understand that KTC is a website, its nothing more than a connection to the rest of you people. Wanting to be quit and the support that all you provide is why I'm quit. I have had a shit ton of emails and all say the same thing. "How can I help" "heres my number call me" "stay quit". I have had perfect strangers tell me they will kick my ass. Cowgirl - I might have to take you up on it someday. Can we do it in JELLO? You people rock. I promised today! I keep my promises! Thank you all.
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I just said this in an email a few minutes ago and need to share it with whoever is following and supporting me today,
I have told almost everyone that KTC is the reason why I am quit, today I understand that KTC is a website, its nothing more than a connection to the rest of you people. Wanting to be quit and the support that all you provide is why I'm quit. I have had a shit ton of emails and all say the same thing. "How can I help" "heres my number call me" "stay quit". I have had perfect strangers tell me they will kick my ass. Cowgirl - I might have to take you up on it someday. Can we do it in JELLO? You people rock. I promised today! I keep my promises! Thank you all.
Feels DAMN good to have some heavy support, don't it bro?
Quit like MAD!
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I just said this in an email a few minutes ago and need to share it with whoever is following and supporting me today,Â
I have told almost everyone that KTC is the reason why I am quit, today I understand that KTC is a website, its nothing more than a connection to the rest of you people. Wanting to be quit and the support that all you provide is why I'm quit. I have had a shit ton of emails and all say the same thing. "How can I help" "heres my number call me" "stay quit". I have had perfect strangers tell me they will kick my ass. Cowgirl - I might have to take you up on it someday. Can we do it in JELLO? You people rock. I promised today! I keep my promises! Thank you all.
Feels DAMN good to have some heavy support, don't it bro?
Quit like MAD!
Hahaha - hey if all of the previous stuff didn't already help......
if you cave 1) you won't get the $1000 your buddy is going to pay in you in like 8 months and 2 ) I'm going to make you pay the $1,000 you already got for staying quit to me!
'archer' - Gotta love your friends right - they will break it down to the really important stuff - hahaha
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Bleeker.
Are you quit right now?
Do you want to be?
You know what you need to do. Let's get to it, unless you choosing to remain a slave
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Bleeker.
Are you quit right now?
Do you want to be?
You know what you need to do. Let's get to it, unless you choosing to remain a slave
Bleeker, make sure you face the music in April 2014. Show us you will make the time and this is your priority. You know how much of a commitment is needed, and its more than you gave before.
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Bleeker.Â
Are you quit right now?
Do you want to be?
You know what you need to do. Let's get to it, unless you choosing to remain a slave
Bleeker, make sure you face the music in April 2014. Show us you will make the time and this is your priority. You know how much of a commitment is needed, and its more than you gave before.
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Bleeker.Â
Are you quit right now?
Do you want to be?
You know what you need to do. Let's get to it, unless you choosing to remain a slave
Bleeker, make sure you face the music in April 2014. Show us you will make the time and this is your priority. You know how much of a commitment is needed, and its more than you gave before.
I'm with Ron and Ryan on this 100%. I'm glad you have made the decision to come back again but what is different this time? April 14 needs to gain valuable insight as to what and why triggered your cave. We all struggle, we all have bad days and we all have been tempted.
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Bleeker.Â
Are you quit right now?
Do you want to be?
You know what you need to do. Let's get to it, unless you choosing to remain a slave
Bleeker, make sure you face the music in April 2014. Show us you will make the time and this is your priority. You know how much of a commitment is needed, and its more than you gave before.
I'm with Ron and Ryan on this 100%. I'm glad you have made the decision to come back again but what is different this time? April 14 needs to gain valuable insight as to what and why triggered your cave. We all struggle, we all have bad days and we all have been tempted.
Bleeker, go back and read your post from March 30th about the contract to cave. You had some pretty strong convictions at that time. Well strong convictions cannot keep you quit AND neither can pure will power in my opinion. Nope, at least I know they can't keep me quit. Most of us need strategies and tools that breed accountability. We need to be reminded that we are addicts. We need friends to lean on when we are weak and quitting seems hard. We need to be around people that understand what we are going through. We need to be reminded what failure means. We need to keep a healthy fear of nicotine's end game. We need to understand why the battle can only be won one day at a time. Well this place gives me all these things and I am not ashamed to admit that I need them. Does that make me weak? I don't know, and I don't care. It makes me quit and that is what I care about.
I don't know who wrote that contract to cave, but I love it. It has resided in my wallet for about 1 year. It will remain there, right next to a few quotes from skoalmonster. Knowing what I know now, I can never go back to using. I have come to far and I have learned too much.
Please answer the 3 questions for your new April group. They can learn from your mistakes and that is the price of admission. Well that and your daily promise.
1. What happened?
2. Why?
3. What will you do different this time?
Give these things some serious thought. Your answers to these questions will be sure to determine your success or failure this time around.
Best of luck man. Let me know if I can help you in any way. A lot of people here sure helped me out.
Ryan
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I am begining to realize that I am becoming very cinical of new quiters. Almost mean! I want to help but I have a hard time believing that they are serious. I know I am an asshole, hell I have been one for years. I truely believe we need a forum like the intros where quiters can vent. I will be the first peson to help if asked, I will also be the first to tell a guy that caved after three days to wipe his pussy, grow his ball and quit wasting our fucking time. There is nothing that drives me more insane than reading a great intro and then never seeing that asshole post role. I quess I am just a big bitch but it was fun venting.
It hurts to see people fail, part of that for me is that it reminds me of how vulnerable I am! Yep, we are just that stupid addict that's one dip away from a cave. You can't quit for anyone and you certainly can't save them from being stupid. "Stupid is as stupid does".
Man I still hate reading about a cave, I'm pissed that my efforts were wasted on someone. When I joined KTC 650 days ago I had no intentions or desire to hang around here for much past HOF. I figured I'd be "cured" by then. Now I realize I'm forever an addict. I may not need to post daily anymore but I'm not sure I can fight complacency so I'm still here, I won't throw my freedom away. The bigger part of my quit today is reaching out and sharing my quit experience and knowledge. I read your answers and thought what your going to do different weak. I'm not convinced that you get it yet. I hope I'm wrong, please prove me wrong.
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Bleeckerdogs Day 2 "Here you go, questions answers:
What happened/Why did it happen. These two run hand in hand. 1st I stopped coming to KTC, stopped posting roll, stopped promising. I did great for about a month. I stayed true to my word to myself and the I fell into that "I can have just one" Just one turned into a can, a can to a sleeve and just like that a great quit died and Nicotene won. It happened because I stopped thinking that I was an addict. I thought my quit was easy. I figured that just one wouldn't get me. I cant take back what I did, I hate that I did it. I liked myself quit better than I ever liked myself chewing.
What will I do to make sure it doesn't happen again. I will always know what it felt like to fail on my quit. I will come back here everyday and post my promise. I will be honest with myself, you and the ones I love. I will also ask for help from you and others to make sure I don't forget.
I hope this is a better response than yesterdays, I hope that I can count on KTC and all you bad ass quitters. I promise no chew today!"
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Bleeckerdogs Day 2 "Here you go, questions answers:
What happened/Why did it happen. These two run hand in hand. 1st I stopped coming to KTC, stopped posting roll, stopped promising. I did great for about a month. I stayed true to my word to myself and the I fell into that "I can have just one" Just one turned into a can, a can to a sleeve and just like that a great quit died and Nicotene won. It happened because I stopped thinking that I was an addict. I thought my quit was easy. I figured that just one wouldn't get me. I cant take back what I did, I hate that I did it. I liked myself quit better than I ever liked myself chewing.
What will I do to make sure it doesn't happen again. I will always know what it felt like to fail on my quit. I will come back here everyday and post my promise. I will be honest with myself, you and the ones I love. I will also ask for help from you and others to make sure I don't forget.
I hope this is a better response than yesterdays, I hope that I can count on KTC and all you bad ass quitters. I promise no chew today!"
Hey Bleeker,
I hope you dont mind that I posted your answers here on your thread, (ABOVE). I am glad that you found your way back. I am glad that it didnt take years and maybe a cancer diagnosis to bring you back.
My greatest fear is that if I ever failed and threw all this work away I would never return. It took me years to develop the true desire to be done. Well I know that desirecan be fleeting.
Keep us posted man. I would like to see your name in April 13 everyday and April 14 can learn much from you. I suggest that you get involved, take over the spread sheet, help some brothers that struggle. All those things will benefit you.
Like I told you yesterday, I am in your corner. I will send you a pm with my number. Only take it if you are fully committed.
Ryan
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Bleeker
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Well bleeker you are either quit and don't give a shit or you caved again. Which is it? If you caved then get your ass back in here and post day 1. If you haven't caved then start posting roll man. You know how this site works. You need to be leadin the way for the newbies in your group. Not posting 40% of the time.
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What a site!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's good to see you old friend. Remember when you were the biggest asshole i spoke with on here.....well be an asshole and post roll - you've let a little bitch kick your ass and now I expect you to jump back into this rodeo!