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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: ctprice56 on April 13, 2017, 04:05:00 PM
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Day 4 so I guess it is time for my introduction. As I have been surfing around the message board and the KTC website I realize how many of our stories are similar.
I am 38 yrs old and despite a pretty awful memory, I can still recall the first time I tried dip. Skoal Wintergreen pouches in 7th grade down by the pond after school before we had baseball practice. Never imagined that day it would lead to decades of struggle and slowly become a habit that would control my life. If is so hard to see in print, but I have been dipping (off and on) for over 25 years. I have quit multiple times like many of you; after I got married, the birth of our first child, the birth of our second child, so on and so forth. But they were never because I really wanted to quit. They were because I thought I was supposed to quit, thus doomed from the start.
As I titled this topic, this is my final quit. This time feels different. Why? Because this time it is for me. Yes, I am quitting because I dream about the day I get to walk my daughter down the aisle. The day I get to take a cross country trip with my son like I did with my dad after college. Greater intimacy with my wife. All of these things and so much more have led me to this day, but ultimately this time is different because I choose to no longer be selfish. I choose life that is so much greater without tobacco. ODAAT I choose to be free.
Thanks in advance to everyone on here and I look forward to leaning on y'all during this process.
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ctprice56, welcome! Right there with you, brother. One comment... you said, "I choose to no longer be selfish."
Be selfish.
Take back your life from that stupid dead plant in a can. Delight in every hour, every moment that you have to spend because of your decision.
I'm selfish, all right. I want to be there to walk my girls down the aisle, too. I want to be there to see my grandchildren some day. I want to have every possible moment that I can with my wife, I want to steal every possible kiss I can from her before the inevitable day comes when we part.
I want a wonderful life of freedom from this stupid, stupid addiction. One where I can delight in my time with, and spend my attention on, the ones I love.
Be selfish, because that is the way to quit... and quitting is the best way of all to give your wife and daughter what they want - you.
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ctprice56, welcome! Right there with you, brother. One comment... you said, "I choose to no longer be selfish."
Be selfish.
Take back your life from that stupid dead plant in a can. Delight in every hour, every moment that you have to spend because of your decision.
I'm selfish, all right. I want to be there to walk my girls down the aisle, too. I want to be there to see my grandchildren some day. I want to have every possible moment that I can with my wife, I want to steal every possible kiss I can from her before the inevitable day comes when we part.
I want a wonderful life of freedom from this stupid, stupid addiction. One where I can delight in my time with, and spend my attention on, the ones I love.
Be selfish, because that is the way to quit... and quitting is the best way of all to give your wife and daughter what they want - you.
Thanks man. I understand what you mean completely. What I was saying is that I have been selfish for way too long of choosing the can over those that are more important to me. Now I will be choosing freedom from the can. Honestly, I don't want this Quit to be about me. Once it does, the quit itself gains power over me. I want it to be about a new life of full, unadulterated joy! Now that is what I look forward to.
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Welcome and glad to see that you've got Roll figured out!
You've taken on something that a lot of people won't be able to accomplish. I promise you that you can.
There will be times that you want to give up. There will be times where quitting won't feel like such a great decision. Maybe you'll take some aggression out on a family member, maybe you'll struggle at work, maybe you'll start to put on weight. You'll feel like you were nicer/ more productive/ healthier when you were using.
I promise you, it gets way better and you're so much closer to the other side than you realize. Just focus on what's in front of you. Quit one day/ hour/ minute/ moment at a time. Stay active and involved with the folks here. Post your word and keep your promise.
Let me know if I can help.
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Welcome to saving your life - good decision!