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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: sapperred1 on December 16, 2010, 06:18:00 PM
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My name is Mark. I quit on the evening of 14 December 2010. 2 long days so far. I started chew when I was 15. I joined the military at 17 and chew was the thing to do so never even tried to quit or thought of it. Got out of the military in Dec. 1991 and quit all tobacco in 95. 98 joined the National Guard. Was mobilized after 9/11 and started the chew again. It is amazing it was like I never quit, went to same amount a day as before I quit. Powerful stuff. Have tried to quit a few times, never worked because it was not for me. This time it is for me I want to quit.
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Welcome.
Check your (Inbox 1) upper right corner of your screen. That should get you started.
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Thanks the links are helpful. I have been on the site most of the day and read most of them.
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Welcome to the suck. It is the best pain in the world...the feeling of recovery. Find your quit group (march 2010), post roll everyday and repeat. Don't worry about forever, just promise each day to stay nic free. Then keep your word.
If you want to quit bad enough, you will. You are in control now. "yesterday + 1" is your new motto. You've taken the first step, we're here to help you with the rest. Don't let us down...we're counting on you!!!
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Sapp,
I have a similar story myself. If you're still in the Guard it makes it even harder because tobacco is a part of the culture. I'm still in and it is a bitch. Anytime I put on boots it seems like I'm out of uniform without those delicious leaves. Stay strong...stay quit...keep your head down. I'd rather have a glorius death then a hole in my throat. You're a warrior...you can do this. Lets quit again tomorrow.
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My name is Mark. I quit on the evening of 14 December 2010. 2 long days so far. I started chew when I was 15. I joined the military at 17 and chew was the thing to do so never even tried to quit or thought of it. Got out of the military in Dec. 1991 and quit all tobacco in 95. 98 joined the National Guard. Was mobilized after 9/11 and started the chew again. It is amazing it was like I never quit, went to same amount a day as before I quit. Powerful stuff. Have tried to quit a few times, never worked because it was not for me. This time it is for me I want to quit.
Two things .....
1. Thank you for your service.
2. I am very proud to be your brother-in-quit.
Both of the above mean more than I have the words to express.
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Thanks jcook and Buckeye64. Glad to be quit with you guys. quit with guys like you are quit will be strong.
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Sap,
You got this and I'm so proud of you and your quit! Hang in there and call me or text me if you need anything!
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So I am sitting here on day 6, a monday. I made thru the weekend without. Mostly worked and kept myself busy. it was tough I was bouncing off the walls going nuts most of the time. But kept focused. I even tried to help another quitter i felt so strong. Not sure how much I helped but tried. All the way until I went to bed last night was in high gear and no craving. Then I wake up this morning, I got nothing. Zero, zelch, nada. I even tried posting some help for someone and did not change the feeling. Feels like don't care one way or another. Thinking things in my head that make no sense. So I guess this is the part where the mind is screwin with you to start again? Not sure. This is the SUCK that is for sure.
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So I am sitting here on day 6, a monday. I made thru the weekend without. Mostly worked and kept myself busy. it was tough I was bouncing off the walls going nuts most of the time. But kept focused. I even tried to help another quitter i felt so strong. Not sure how much I helped but tried. All the way until I went to bed last night was in high gear and no craving. Then I wake up this morning, I got nothing. Zero, zelch, nada. I even tried posting some help for someone and did not change the feeling. Feels like don't care one way or another. Thinking things in my head that make no sense. So I guess this is the part where the mind is screwin with you to start again? Not sure. This is the SUCK that is for sure.
i remember it well.....and even now, use it as a motivator. I NEVER want to go thru that again. look at the bright side...tomorrow will be 7 "todays" which is a week.......
which fuckin rocks
Get mad....i mean sumpin's gonna bleed mad. Here's a target.....UST who developed and knowingly developes products to create addicts and lifetime (however shortened) customers. Make it your quest and mission in life to never allow them to dictate to you again......at some point...take as many as you can with you.
sing out if i can help you.....congrats on today and i look forward to celebratin your week with you tomorrow.
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So I am sitting here on day 6, a monday. I made thru the weekend without. Mostly worked and kept myself busy. it was tough I was bouncing off the walls going nuts most of the time. But kept focused. I even tried to help another quitter i felt so strong. Not sure how much I helped but tried. All the way until I went to bed last night was in high gear and no craving. Then I wake up this morning, I got nothing. Zero, zelch, nada. I even tried posting some help for someone and did not change the feeling. Feels like don't care one way or another. Thinking things in my head that make no sense. So I guess this is the part where the mind is screwin with you to start again? Not sure. This is the SUCK that is for sure.
i remember it well.....and even now, use it as a motivator. I NEVER want to go thru that again. look at the bright side...tomorrow will be 7 "todays" which is a week.......
which fuckin rocks
Get mad....i mean sumpin's gonna bleed mad. Here's a target.....UST who developed and knowingly developes products to create addicts and lifetime (however shortened) customers. Make it your quest and mission in life to never allow them to dictate to you again......at some point...take as many as you can with you.
sing out if i can help you.....congrats on today and i look forward to celebratin your week with you tomorrow.
Mule is correct. A good hatred for the fuckers that produce and sell the shit will work wonders for your quit.
Somewhere around day 250 I figured out that no matter what else was going on I would not give UST one more penny of my hard earned money. I pledged then, and have done so multiple times since that I will set my money on fire before I give those fucks one cent of it.
Hang in there !! The freedom you will have is worth the fight !!
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Shit sucks right now
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Shit sucks right now
feel the suck!!! Pm if you need anything! You can do this!!!
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Tell yourself that you're going to get through today without putting that shit in your mouth. You're not going to die and leave your family without you. Leaving my loved ones behind is the strongest motivator for me.
Pat
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Mark, you quit one day before me. Remember you are taking back control of your life. No corporation or drug is going to control you.
Push through it for yourself. Hell, a minute at a time if you have to. Don't quit on yourself, Quit the Bitch.
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Shit sucks right now
Embrace the suck and never forget the suck! Each minute, hour or day, what ever it takes, repeat this: "I will never have to go through this again in my life"
You're only quit today, tomorrow is something we worry about then.
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*ole mule has settled his big ass on the porch whittlin waitin on sasparillo...er fricasass....uh...sassyfras...oh hell, you know who you are....to post roll and celebrate #7....in a row...helluva thang that is....deserves some tits if you ask me*
'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob' 'boob'
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Shit sucks right now
Be strong, just get through the next hour to get through the day. I'm a couple days behind you and hoping that I can learn what's coming through you. Stay quit and keep reaching out.
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Shit sucks right now
Be strong, just get through the next hour to get through the day. I'm a couple days behind you and hoping that I can learn what's coming through you. Stay quit and keep reaching out.
I will do my best to keep you informed. We will make it though.
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Shit sucks right now
Be strong, just get through the next hour to get through the day. I'm a couple days behind you and hoping that I can learn what's coming through you. Stay quit and keep reaching out.
I will do my best to keep you informed. We will make it though.
Nice 7
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Shit sucks right now
Be strong, just get through the next hour to get through the day. I'm a couple days behind you and hoping that I can learn what's coming through you. Stay quit and keep reaching out.
I will do my best to keep you informed. We will make it though.
Nice 7
7 is a nice number today.
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Shit sucks right now
Be strong, just get through the next hour to get through the day. I'm a couple days behind you and hoping that I can learn what's coming through you. Stay quit and keep reaching out.
I will do my best to keep you informed. We will make it though.
Nice 7
7 is a nice number today.
A week is HUGE !!
Well done
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The 7th day is almost over. I made it the last 2 days. They were killer. Now it is better(for now). Feel strong again. Not sure I would of made it without you guys. I am sure i would of quit without you guys. So thanks for the support. If nothing else I learned in the last 2 days is that posting and you guys helping me out that I can will do this.
So Mule on day 8 I will be sittin on the porch with ya, whittlin and quitin. whether you remember my name or not :D
AN34 thanks for let me tell you some things it helped alot.
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The 7th day is almost over. I made it the last 2 days. They were killer. Now it is better(for now). Feel strong again. Not sure I would of made it without you guys. I am sure i would of quit without you guys. So thanks for the support. If nothing else I learned in the last 2 days is that posting and you guys helping me out that I can will do this.
So Mule on day 8 I will be sittin on the porch with ya, whittlin and quitin. whether you remember my name or not :D
AN34 thanks for let me tell you some things it helped alot.
Well done brother!
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The 7th day is almost over. I made it the last 2 days. They were killer. Now it is better(for now). Feel strong again. Not sure I would of made it without you guys. I am sure i would of quit without you guys. So thanks for the support. If nothing else I learned in the last 2 days is that posting and you guys helping me out that I can will do this.
So Mule on day 8 I will be sittin on the porch with ya, whittlin and quitin. whether you remember my name or not :D
AN34 thanks for let me tell you some things it helped alot.
Well done brother!
Thanks jcook. Looks like we were suffering the same the last 2 days and have made it thru just fine. Keep it up and I am proud to be on your team of quit
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The 7th day is almost over. I made it the last 2 days. They were killer. Now it is better(for now). Feel strong again. Not sure I would of made it without you guys. I am sure i would of quit without you guys. So thanks for the support. If nothing else I learned in the last 2 days is that posting and you guys helping me out that I can will do this.
So Mule on day 8 I will be sittin on the porch with ya, whittlin and quitin. whether you remember my name or not :D
AN34 thanks for let me tell you some things it helped alot.
Well done brother!
Thanks jcook. Looks like we were suffering the same the last 2 days and have made it thru just fine. Keep it up and I am proud to be on your team of quit
Jcook and Sapperred, you guys are both awesome, keep it up!
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The 7th day is almost over. I made it the last 2 days. They were killer. Now it is better(for now). Feel strong again. Not sure I would of made it without you guys. I am sure i would of quit without you guys. So thanks for the support. If nothing else I learned in the last 2 days is that posting and you guys helping me out that I can will do this.
So Mule on day 8 I will be sittin on the porch with ya, whittlin and quitin. whether you remember my name or not :D
AN34 thanks for let me tell you some things it helped alot.
Well done brother!
Thanks jcook. Looks like we were suffering the same the last 2 days and have made it thru just fine. Keep it up and I am proud to be on your team of quit
Jcook and Sapperred, you guys are both awesome, keep it up!
nice 8 sassparillo.......the porch has a nice view...no?
some days your the hammer......some days your the nail.
you're doing good....
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The 7th day is almost over. I made it the last 2 days. They were killer. Now it is better(for now). Feel strong again. Not sure I would of made it without you guys. I am sure i would of quit without you guys. So thanks for the support. If nothing else I learned in the last 2 days is that posting and you guys helping me out that I can will do this.
So Mule on day 8 I will be sittin on the porch with ya, whittlin and quitin. whether you remember my name or not :D
AN34 thanks for let me tell you some things it helped alot.
Well done brother!
Thanks jcook. Looks like we were suffering the same the last 2 days and have made it thru just fine. Keep it up and I am proud to be on your team of quit
Jcook and Sapperred, you guys are both awesome, keep it up!
nice 8 sassparillo.......the porch has a nice view...no?
some days your the hammer......some days your the nail.
you're doing good....
It is a great view
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So here it is 2 weeks down. Can not say it is any easier but feel stronger every time I post. One of the weird things happening is I love football. I could watch it 24/7. But now that I have quit I can not sit still to watch. Does this get better in time? Will i be able to sit and watch a whole game in time? Just asking.
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So here it is 2 weeks down. Can not say it is any easier but feel stronger every time I post. One of the weird things happening is I love football. I could watch it 24/7. But now that I have quit I can not sit still to watch. Does this get better in time? Will i be able to sit and watch a whole game in time? Just asking.
This will get better. Like everything else, give it time.
One thing that I found out is that I have adult ADD and I had been self medicating myself with nicotine. Other guys here have had the same and have been prescribed medication. I told myself I would give it to day 100 then day 200 before I got serious about getting medication. I am doing fine right now with it at day 362. Laying off the booze helps too.
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So here it is 2 weeks down. Can not say it is any easier but feel stronger every time I post. One of the weird things happening is I love football. I could watch it 24/7. But now that I have quit I can not sit still to watch. Does this get better in time? Will i be able to sit and watch a whole game in time? Just asking.
This will get better. Like everything else, give it time.
One thing that I found out is that I have adult ADD and I had been self medicating myself with nicotine. Other guys here have had the same and have been prescribed medication. I told myself I would give it to day 100 then day 200 before I got serious about getting medication. I am doing fine right now with it at day 362. Laying off the booze helps too.
I have not had any booze since I quit. Do not trust myself yet with the booze. Hope I do not have ADD. They already think I am crazy at work and in the platoon. I will watch that though thanks.
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So here it is 2 weeks down. Can not say it is any easier but feel stronger every time I post. One of the weird things happening is I love football. I could watch it 24/7. But now that I have quit I can not sit still to watch. Does this get better in time? Will i be able to sit and watch a whole game in time? Just asking.
This will get better. Like everything else, give it time.
One thing that I found out is that I have adult ADD and I had been self medicating myself with nicotine. Other guys here have had the same and have been prescribed medication. I told myself I would give it to day 100 then day 200 before I got serious about getting medication. I am doing fine right now with it at day 362. Laying off the booze helps too.
I have not had any booze since I quit. Do not trust myself yet with the booze. Hope I do not have ADD. They already think I am crazy at work and in the platoon. I will watch that though thanks.
I have had the exact same problem. I think it is two issues with me.
1. I was just used to watching football with a dip in my mouth. That was one of my triggers. So I'm trying to re-learn watching football without that dip. I think that part will take a while.
2. I have noticed that I can't sit still as much for things. I think this is part of just my brain re-learning to think without nicotine. I read this somewhere: It is like a car running on pure fuel now as opposed to running on the dirty crap. My brain is now running without the nic crap and it can actually function at full speed now, so concentrating and focus takes time to be re-learned.
It will get better. I am at day 31 and I have already seen some improvement. Still sucks, but not as much.
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Rode my harley yesterday for the first time without some kind of nic in me. It was strange but still felt good. The only problem it was close to freezing outside. Froze my ass off. I can now mark off another thing I can do without nic.
Everyone have a safe newyear and stay quit.
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Today I have to go to drill at noon. We will be taking an APFT then go to the field. It is the first time I will be going to the ARMY quit. Not sure how it will be. I will not be able to post or contact anyone, so this will be a real gut check for me. Just wanted to post this here so I could think back to it during the weekend. Hope to be back Jan 10 with day 27. I will stay strong and stay quit.
Buckeye64 good luck on your weekend drill as well will be looking for you Monday.
Essayons
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Day 30 now. Finished the drill with out chew. It was really tough. Everything I do in the Army I had a chew in. 3/4 of my unit uses. It is like part of the uniform. Anyway I made it. Was a little more cranky then usual though. Yelled a lot. Kept thinking back to the site and the people here and never came close to caving. So if you are new here this site is the single best quit source.
Now today is Thursday. Since Monday maybe has been the worst time of my quit. I do not know if it was because of the win I had over the weekend or not. But man I have been craving bad. I have been bouncing off the walls all week. Then last night back to no sleep. Wow. At no time did I ever think of caving so I guess that means it is getting better. But the mind is still weak I guess. Still staying strong with all of you.
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Day 30 now. Finished the drill with out chew. It was really tough. Everything I do in the Army I had a chew in. 3/4 of my unit uses. It is like part of the uniform. Anyway I made it. Was a little more cranky then usual though. Yelled a lot. Kept thinking back to the site and the people here and never came close to caving. So if you are new here this site is the single best quit source.
Now today is Thursday. Since Monday maybe has been the worst time of my quit. I do not know if it was because of the win I had over the weekend or not. But man I have been craving bad. I have been bouncing off the walls all week. Then last night back to no sleep. Wow. At no time did I ever think of caving so I guess that means it is getting better. But the mind is still weak I guess. Still staying strong with all of you.
Great job my brother! Your mind is stronger than you think it is. You are winning daily. Regardless of the craves, you know that failure is not an option. You are very strong and my quit is stronger because of you. Thank you for your service. I'm honored to be quit with you!
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Day 30 now. Finished the drill with out chew. It was really tough. Everything I do in the Army I had a chew in. 3/4 of my unit uses. It is like part of the uniform. Anyway I made it. Was a little more cranky then usual though. Yelled a lot. Kept thinking back to the site and the people here and never came close to caving. So if you are new here this site is the single best quit source.
Now today is Thursday. Since Monday maybe has been the worst time of my quit. I do not know if it was because of the win I had over the weekend or not. But man I have been craving bad. I have been bouncing off the walls all week. Then last night back to no sleep. Wow. At no time did I ever think of caving so I guess that means it is getting better. But the mind is still weak I guess. Still staying strong with all of you.
Great job my brother! Your mind is stronger than you think it is. You are winning daily. Regardless of the craves, you know that failure is not an option. You are very strong and my quit is stronger because of you. Thank you for your service. I'm honored to be quit with you!
Thanks jcook. I am glad to be quit with you. That Superman cape suits you