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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Rubyred on April 22, 2017, 07:09:00 PM
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I haven't done an intro yet so I'm starting now. I'm about in day 54 right now. It's been over 50 days of fog and dizzy spells so I haven't been able to concentrate or focus until now. My quit has sucked so bad. I had extreme dizzy/fog to where I had to take motion sickness meds so I don't throw up. Laying down was always a task because I felt like I was on a boat. The first three days were the easiest because I could mentally and physically keep busy. But when the fog started I couldn't do a darn thing. I couldn't take care of myself or my kids. And I'm the prime care taker.
The first 50 days I had in the beginning were 2 root canals in a 2 week frame. One a week. They took forever to heal. My mouth felt like I licked a cheese grater. I was so scared. I had head aches and body aches and shakes and chills. I didn't sleep good and at night is when anxiety strikes the highest. Anxiety is my issue. I have anxiety over health and this and that. The whole left side of my face I have had issues with. Neck, jaw, teeth, tongue face you name it. Every pain I felt would give me anxiety. I had infections, seen my gp three times, went to the oral surgeon, dentist multiple times, ENT, OBGYN, even the dermatologist for my quit. I probably need a shrink but no doctor is giving me any drug to help. I have a baby at home that needs me. I try to hard to be strong for him. He's not a baby anymore but he's my baby.
The thought of quitting was easy. I live with someone who dips and love him so much. if he knew I recently quit he would be so upset and hurt. I hope one day to tell him so I can be his support and help him to quit. Unfortunately he has no interest.
My motto for now has been one day at a time. I had a lot of health issues and especially the baby recently being in the er. Life has been so hard and it freaks me out what will happen with things calm down. I'm keeping my intro as a basis for my quit. I'll update it frequently because I don't want to forget my quit or how i feel.
One person that I really need and want to thank from KTC is Samrs. If you are reading this then you know who I am referring to. Sam if you read this. You are my life line here I know that's a lot to take in but you got me to quit. I was on chat one Sunday night and went a whole day with out chew. I was going to pop one in and you said don't. Just talked with me. Distracted me. Got me to join. Sent me an email and we have talked a lot in my first few weeks. Even In the middle of the night during panic attacks you have helped me off the ledge. Because of your inspiration you got me to say no and take my quit seriously. Thank you. Thank you for quitting with me today. There are numerous of other quitters that have helped me along the way and still continue to do so and with out you I couldn't do it alone.
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Ruby - it's been a pleasure and an honor to be there for you. You've been an incredibly strong person through a ton of adversity, and an inspiration to me. I sincerely hope that one day you'll also be an inspiration to many, many others here, and eventually your husband as well.
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I haven't done an intro yet so I'm starting now. I'm about in day 54 right now. It's been over 50 days of fog and dizzy spells so I haven't been able to concentrate or focus until now. My quit has sucked so bad. I had extreme dizzy/fog to where I had to take motion sickness meds so I don't throw up. Laying down was always a task because I felt like I was on a boat. The first three days were the easiest because I could mentally and physically keep busy. But when the fog started I couldn't do a darn thing. I couldn't take care of myself or my kids. And I'm the prime care taker.
The first 50 days I had in the beginning were 2 root canals in a 2 week frame. One a week. They took forever to heal. My mouth felt like I licked a cheese grater. I was so scared. I had head aches and body aches and shakes and chills. I didn't sleep good and at night is when anxiety strikes the highest. Anxiety is my issue. I have anxiety over health and this and that. The whole left side of my face I have had issues with. Neck, jaw, teeth, tongue face you name it. Every pain I felt would give me anxiety. I had infections, seen my gp three times, went to the oral surgeon, dentist multiple times, ENT, OBGYN, even the dermatologist for my quit. I probably need a shrink but no doctor is giving me any drug to help. I have a baby at home that needs me. I try to hard to be strong for him. He's not a baby anymore but he's my baby.
The thought of quitting was easy. I live with someone who dips and love him so much. if he knew I recently quit he would be so upset and hurt. I hope one day to tell him so I can be his support and help him to quit. Unfortunately he has no interest.
My motto for now has been one day at a time. I had a lot of health issues and especially the baby recently being in the er from an allergic reaction. Life has been so hard and it freaks me out what will happen with things calm down. I'm keeping my intro as a basis for my quit. I'll update it frequently because I don't want to forget my quit or how i feel.
One person that I really need and want to thank from KTC is Samrs. If you are reading this then you know who I am referring to. Sam if you read this. You are my life line here I know that's a lot to take in but you got me to quit. I was on chat one Sunday night and went a whole day with out chew. I was going to pop one in and you said don't. Just talked with me. Distracted me. Got me to join. Sent me an email and we have talked a lot in my first few weeks. Even In the middle of the night during panic attacks you have helped me off the ledge. Because of your inspiration you got me to say no and take my quit seriously. Thank you. Thank you for quitting with me today. There are numerous of other quitters that have helped me along the way and still continue to do so and with out you I couldn't do it alone.
Wow your quit sounds like a tough one good on you to keep it up. Im.coming up on day 9 I've had issues with anxiety and all the other normal quit stuff but its improving. Just wanted to let you know your not alone i get it. The family the crazy i have 3 kids and i.think to myself im doing this so i can spend more time with them.
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You've got this, and you have the best possible support system through it. Keep the ODAAT attitude, and you'll be amazed at how fast they pile up.
We're all here for you, keep up the good work
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You've got this, and you have the best possible support system through it. Keep the ODAAT attitude, and you'll be amazed at how fast they pile up.
We're all here for you, keep up the good work
^^^^ QFT, Post roll daily and we will quit together.
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Welcome and glad you're here :) Quitting with another dipper in the house has to be incredibly hard... Many people on here have been in the same boat. I couldn't imagine! But it can be done, as many have shown. We're all here to support you, so quit on!
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Day 61... yesterday on day 60 I went back to the dentist for a tooth annoying me. Looks like I have a cavity with a small crack in the tooth. I don't think I have enjoyed a pain free quit yet. I'm pissed and sad and annoyed all at the same time. I'm wondering what will be next. I actually can't wait to have a cleaning this month so I can see what is going on with the rest of my teeth. But I looked at the positive and figured at least it's not another root canal, at least not today. I wait a week and he will fix that tooth instead of putting on two crowns. I'm getting an irm done.
Today one of my kids woke up not feeling so great. He's got anxiety as well. He seems better now but he's like me with anxiety. He's got a tummy like me and if I eat wrong things or get anxiety I'm done for the day. It felt good focusing on him rather than me this morning. I used to have to tell him to hang on and put a dip in before being their for him. I would have to control my own anxiety with nic before helping others. Now it feels good to be their for him with out having to put crap in my mouth. To deal with stress and other things that give me anxiety I'm going to treat myself with something. I have been neglecting things that give me pleasure and need to give myself something to look forward to. Like a bath or a new pair of shoes. I need me time. I need to heal. I need my mouth to heal and body to heal from stupid nic.
I'm so happy that I quit dip and all forms of nicotine. If I didn't quit I would have more problems and wouldn't be brave enough to go to doctors or dentists. they still give me anxiety but I'm hopeful in time things will start looking up.
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Day 62. Ugh I'm tired angry and full on anxiety just pissed off. Woke up in a sweat in the middle of the night and full on panic mode. Couldn't get back to sleep. Another fucking tooth or gums hurt and I'm going to loose my mind. I can't take this shit anymore. I'm going insane. I'm tired of being in pain and sometimes want to put in a fat dip to numb my mouth and pain or get drunk. I know it won't help or fix anything but it's definitely crossing my mind. I'm in such a funk. I picked a fight with my neighbor because he fucking started a barrel fire near my house and the fucking smoke pouring in my windows and I can't stand that asshole because he sets fireworks outside my window as well in the middle of the night. I wish I could fucking eat I'm damn starving. 6 more days till I go to the dentist and I really hope things get better before then I am not a rich person I'm not even sure how to pay for all this crap I can't believe this shit just keeps happening over and over again.
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Day 62. Ugh I'm tired angry and full on anxiety just pissed off. Woke up in a sweat in the middle of the night and full on panic mode. Couldn't get back to sleep. Another fucking tooth or gums hurt and I'm going to loose my mind. I can't take this shit anymore. I'm going insane. I'm tired of being in pain and sometimes want to put in a fat dip to numb my mouth and pain or get drunk. I know it won't help or fix anything but it's definitely crossing my mind. I'm in such a funk. I picked a fight with my neighbor because he fucking started a barrel fire near my house and the fucking smoke pouring in my windows and I can't stand that asshole because he sets fireworks outside my window as well in the middle of the night. I wish I could fucking eat I'm damn starving. 6 more days till I go to the dentist and I really hope things get better before then I am not a rich person I'm not even sure how to pay for all this crap I can't believe this shit just keeps happening over and over again.
I keep getting hot flashes and sweating this is so weird
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Poof
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Day 62. Ugh I'm tired angry and full on anxiety just pissed off. Woke up in a sweat in the middle of the night and full on panic mode. Couldn't get back to sleep. Another fucking tooth or gums hurt and I'm going to loose my mind. I can't take this shit anymore. I'm going insane. I'm tired of being in pain and sometimes want to put in a fat dip to numb my mouth and pain or get drunk. I know it won't help or fix anything but it's definitely crossing my mind. I'm in such a funk. I picked a fight with my neighbor because he fucking started a barrel fire near my house and the fucking smoke pouring in my windows and I can't stand that asshole because he sets fireworks outside my window as well in the middle of the night. I wish I could fucking eat I'm damn starving. 6 more days till I go to the dentist and I really hope things get better before then I am not a rich person I'm not even sure how to pay for all this crap I can't believe this shit just keeps happening over and over again.
I keep getting hot flashes and sweating this is so weird
Drink some water, go for a walk. You got this. Power through, we got your back
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Today is day 63. Woke up in a great mood. Felt like I had a ton of energy and was really happy. Very different feeling to my low feeling yesterday. I still keep playing with my mouth though I never feel 100% with that yet. I'm hoping in may after more work done and my official cleaning then things will start looking up. But today has been good I love this spring weather. Opening the windows and cleaning the house feel great. Haven't thought about having a dip all day. Today is good I'll take it.
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Today is day 63. Woke up in a great mood. Felt like I had a ton of energy and was really happy. Very different feeling to my low feeling yesterday. I still keep playing with my mouth though I never feel 100% with that yet. I'm hoping in may after more work done and my official cleaning then things will start looking up. But today has been good I love this spring weather. Opening the windows and cleaning the house feel great. Haven't thought about having a dip all day. Today is good I'll take it.
Hey there i had anxiety issues that i had somewhat learned to control before i quit. Extreme anxiety was my biggest fear when i started this quit and because of my past struggles with it. I feel like the more you focus on it and fear it the more strength you give it. Belly breathing and all sorts of meditations have helped me. My hope is at some point not having the nic in the system will. Make anxiety better on it own.
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Irritable as funk today didn't get much sleep. Wondering if sleep is interfering with my mood or it's the pain in my mouth that has been never ending since my quit. Feel like I'm missing out on little things with my kids.
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So I hit the 70's. Today is 74. All of my quit has been either anxiety, mouth pain or fog/dizziness. Well these past few days have been free from the fog. The anxiety comes and goes. Mostly anxiety about dental bull crap. Finally had a cleaning and full set of X-rays. Can't wait to get stuff done and be over it. Pain sucks it's annoying. I think once my mouth is fixed I will be better off and able to relax a little.
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So I hit the 70's. Today is 74. All of my quit has been either anxiety, mouth pain or fog/dizziness. Well these past few days have been free from the fog. The anxiety comes and goes. Mostly anxiety about dental bull crap. Finally had a cleaning and full set of X-rays. Can't wait to get stuff done and be over it. Pain sucks it's annoying. I think once my mouth is fixed I will be better off and able to relax a little.
Don't want to burst your bubble sweetie, but there's more likely than not a funk headed in your direction. Somewhere around day 70-75 they normally hit and it's called the Pre-HOF funk. But don't worry (I'm not)....I've seen you in action and know you know how to handle it. I quit with you today.
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So I hit the 70's. Today is 74. All of my quit has been either anxiety, mouth pain or fog/dizziness. Well these past few days have been free from the fog. The anxiety comes and goes. Mostly anxiety about dental bull crap. Finally had a cleaning and full set of X-rays. Can't wait to get stuff done and be over it. Pain sucks it's annoying. I think once my mouth is fixed I will be better off and able to relax a little.
Don't want to burst your bubble sweetie, but there's more likely than not a funk headed in your direction. Somewhere around day 70-75 they normally hit and it's called the Pre-HOF funk. But don't worry (I'm not)....I've seen you in action and know you know how to handle it. I quit with you today.
Good to hear the Fog finally passed and gave you some relief.
Here's to pain free days ahead!
Like Cav said, don't be surprised or down if the fog returns ever, sometimes those funks sneak up on us.
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So I hit the 70's. Today is 74. All of my quit has been either anxiety, mouth pain or fog/dizziness. Well these past few days have been free from the fog. The anxiety comes and goes. Mostly anxiety about dental bull crap. Finally had a cleaning and full set of X-rays. Can't wait to get stuff done and be over it. Pain sucks it's annoying. I think once my mouth is fixed I will be better off and able to relax a little.
Don't want to burst your bubble sweetie, but there's more likely than not a funk headed in your direction. Somewhere around day 70-75 they normally hit and it's called the Pre-HOF funk. But don't worry (I'm not)....I've seen you in action and know you know how to handle it. I quit with you today.
Good to hear the Fog finally passed and gave you some relief.
Here's to pain free days ahead!
Like Cav said, don't be surprised or down if the fog returns ever, sometimes those funks sneak up on us.
You've got this Ruby - no matter what life throws at you now. I just know it. Just take it all one day at a time! One day you will wake up and so much of the struggle will be in the rear view mirror. And freedom is so good.
Proud to quit with you EDD.
FLLIP
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Damn girl, you inspire me. Just get through today! I'll see you here tomorrow. :wub:
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Day 88. This quitting business is no joke. I swear we quit something so hard and the world tests us and takes us to our limit to see if we will cave. I won't cave. I'm too worried and anxious to cave. Maybe some pre hoh emotions. But mostly I'm just living in fear right now. My tongue feels like the first week of my quit. My little one had to have a blood test done to see if he has cancer as well as count his blood cells. They say everything came back ok. But he's still got some stuff going on that makes me so nervous and concerned. I have never worried so much for a person in my life. I have never loved someone so hard in my life. I have never wanted to trade places with someone before in my life. He's happy. He's ok right now. He will have some more tests done tomorrow which hope for some answers but all I do is worry. My body is starting to take a toll from it. I can't count how many times I have taken him to his doctors. Too many. It's interesting to see how quitting has changed the way I worry. I no longer grab a tin for my anxiety. So sometimes I just feel lost and not sure what to do. Al I can do is focus on the little one. I keep watching and checking him. I am losing my mind with worry. I quit so I can live a life with my kids. I want my kids to be healthy. I just want him better. That's all for now.
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Day 88. This quitting business is no joke. I swear we quit something so hard and the world tests us and takes us to our limit to see if we will cave. I won't cave. I'm too worried and anxious to cave. Maybe some pre hoh emotions. But mostly I'm just living in fear right now. My tongue feels like the first week of my quit. My little one had to have a blood test done to see if he has cancer as well as count his blood cells. They say everything came back ok. But he's still got some stuff going on that makes me so nervous and concerned. I have never worried so much for a person in my life. I have never loved someone so hard in my life. I have never wanted to trade places with someone before in my life. He's happy. He's ok right now. He will have some more tests done tomorrow which hope for some answers but all I do is worry. My body is starting to take a toll from it. I can't count how many times I have taken him to his doctors. Too many. It's interesting to see how quitting has changed the way I worry. I no longer grab a tin for my anxiety. So sometimes I just feel lost and not sure what to do. Al I can do is focus on the little one. I keep watching and checking him. I am losing my mind with worry. I quit so I can live a life with my kids. I want my kids to be healthy. I just want him better. That's all for now.
Ruby...if you are a praying person....send some prayers up . i find that always helps with putting my mind at ease. Hang in there.
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Day 88. This quitting business is no joke. I swear we quit something so hard and the world tests us and takes us to our limit to see if we will cave. I won't cave. I'm too worried and anxious to cave. Maybe some pre hoh emotions. But mostly I'm just living in fear right now. My tongue feels like the first week of my quit. My little one had to have a blood test done to see if he has cancer as well as count his blood cells. They say everything came back ok. But he's still got some stuff going on that makes me so nervous and concerned. I have never worried so much for a person in my life. I have never loved someone so hard in my life. I have never wanted to trade places with someone before in my life. He's happy. He's ok right now. He will have some more tests done tomorrow which hope for some answers but all I do is worry. My body is starting to take a toll from it. I can't count how many times I have taken him to his doctors. Too many. It's interesting to see how quitting has changed the way I worry. I no longer grab a tin for my anxiety. So sometimes I just feel lost and not sure what to do. Al I can do is focus on the little one. I keep watching and checking him. I am losing my mind with worry. I quit so I can live a life with my kids. I want my kids to be healthy. I just want him better. That's all for now.
Ruby...if you are a praying person....send some prayers up . i find that always helps with putting my mind at ease. Hang in there.
You have my prayers floating up for you and your little man!
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Day 88. This quitting business is no joke. I swear we quit something so hard and the world tests us and takes us to our limit to see if we will cave. I won't cave. I'm too worried and anxious to cave. Maybe some pre hoh emotions. But mostly I'm just living in fear right now. My tongue feels like the first week of my quit. My little one had to have a blood test done to see if he has cancer as well as count his blood cells. They say everything came back ok. But he's still got some stuff going on that makes me so nervous and concerned. I have never worried so much for a person in my life. I have never loved someone so hard in my life. I have never wanted to trade places with someone before in my life. He's happy. He's ok right now. He will have some more tests done tomorrow which hope for some answers but all I do is worry. My body is starting to take a toll from it. I can't count how many times I have taken him to his doctors. Too many. It's interesting to see how quitting has changed the way I worry. I no longer grab a tin for my anxiety. So sometimes I just feel lost and not sure what to do. Al I can do is focus on the little one. I keep watching and checking him. I am losing my mind with worry. I quit so I can live a life with my kids. I want my kids to be healthy. I just want him better. That's all for now.
Prayers with you ruby. And your little one. My son spent three weeks in an icu before he was 3 months old, and I've felt some of the stress that can bring. You inspire me by staying as strong as you have in such adversity. God bless and stay strong. -AlterEgo
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95. Wow almost 100. It's been an interesting ride that's for sure. The ups and downs. Right now I feel pretty level. I'm missing sleep again but I feel pretty good. I'm hoping things will start to even out now. I'm really looking forward to this month because it's our hof month. I'm so proud of everyone one in June. I'm proud of myself. I couldn't do it with out ktc. I'm so happy I signed up and post every day. Quitting is hard but the best decision I have ever made. I'm so glad I quit
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Congrats Ruby on your HOF day!
Keep it up.
It's not 1Hun Dun, stay the course, stay connected, stay strong, Quit Hard!
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Congrats Ruby on your HOF day!
Keep it up.
It's not 1Hun Dun, stay the course, stay connected, stay strong, Quit Hard!
What she ^^^ said. Congrats on the HOF, but just remember a hunnert is only a milestone. As addicts, we are NEVER cured and can't ever have "just one". Stay the course. Proud of you!
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Congrats Ruby on your HOF day!
Keep it up.
It's not 1Hun Dun, stay the course, stay connected, stay strong, Quit Hard!
What she ^^^ said. Congrats on the HOF, but just remember a hunnert is only a milestone. As addicts, we are NEVER cured and can't ever have "just one". Stay the course. Proud of you!
What ^^^ these folks said! Proud to be quit with you, Ruby!
'party' Congratulations! 'party'
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Congrats on your day 200!
Keep it up. Quit hard!
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LetÂ’s see day 323 I think. Almost a year. So much to reflect on. I thought quitting would be an easy task I thought I could throw away all tins and think this is it IÂ’m done with you and never look back. I read on here where someone was talking about the fuck itÂ’s. Well lately I feel like I have the fuck itÂ’s. I donÂ’t know how else to explain it. I just want to feel better. I have had 7 root canals in a year time frame. One had to be pulled and 2 of the teeth this guy did are showing infections again. So I need two more. Maybe this guy didnÂ’t do such a great job. So I started going to this other specialist for help. HeÂ’s done a few other teeth and is going to hopefully fix up these other ones. But damn. IÂ’m so tired of this. My neck head jaw teeth all still hurt like day one and sometimes I find myself in a dark hole and I keep thinking about nicotine. If I just do one then all this pain and suffering that I have been experiencing will just go away. I know this isnÂ’t realistic but my addiction side says to just go back to it and that I will feel better. Screw you chew for making me feel this way. The anxiety from quitting and dealing with all this health crap has been immeasurable. My mind races and travels to worst case scenarios. I went to the e r 3 times this year. What the hell is wrong with me. I think the thing that bothered me most of all was having to have a tooth pulled out. Being a female and all I just feel so down and not lady like. IÂ’m just so tired of being in pain every day. I find myself asking why did I quit. Why didnÂ’t I wait until I got fixed up to quit. Why does life suck more when I quit. I thought I was improving. I thought quitting would be the best thing I could do for myself health wise but I just donÂ’t feel healthy. IÂ’m always wondering why do I have to hurt all the time. I thought quitting would bring better things into my life. This is addict talk. IÂ’m writing this down because no matter if I use or not these things in my life would not change. IÂ’m an addict and right now I feel like shit and want to say fuck it. I want to feel good and elated and anything other than this pain but hell no im not caving. IÂ’m stronger than that. Hopefully when IÂ’m at a year quit I will have a more positive attitude and things will start looking up.
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LetÂ’s see day 323 I think. Almost a year. So much to reflect on. I thought quitting would be an easy task I thought I could throw away all tins and think this is it IÂ’m done with you and never look back. I read on here where someone was talking about the fuck itÂ’s. Well lately I feel like I have the fuck itÂ’s. I donÂ’t know how else to explain it. I just want to feel better. I have had 7 root canals in a year time frame. One had to be pulled and 2 of the teeth this guy did are showing infections again. So I need two more. Maybe this guy didnÂ’t do such a great job. So I started going to this other specialist for help. HeÂ’s done a few other teeth and is going to hopefully fix up these other ones. But damn. IÂ’m so tired of this. My neck head jaw teeth all still hurt like day one and sometimes I find myself in a dark hole and I keep thinking about nicotine. If I just do one then all this pain and suffering that I have been experiencing will just go away. I know this isnÂ’t realistic but my addiction side says to just go back to it and that I will feel better. Screw you chew for making me feel this way. The anxiety from quitting and dealing with all this health crap has been immeasurable. My mind races and travels to worst case scenarios. I went to the e r 3 times this year. What the hell is wrong with me. I think the thing that bothered me most of all was having to have a tooth pulled out. Being a female and all I just feel so down and not lady like. IÂ’m just so tired of being in pain every day. I find myself asking why did I quit. Why didnÂ’t I wait until I got fixed up to quit. Why does life suck more when I quit. I thought I was improving. I thought quitting would be the best thing I could do for myself health wise but I just donÂ’t feel healthy. IÂ’m always wondering why do I have to hurt all the time. I thought quitting would bring better things into my life. This is addict talk. IÂ’m writing this down because no matter if I use or not these things in my life would not change. IÂ’m an addict and right now I feel like shit and want to say fuck it. I want to feel good and elated and anything other than this pain but hell no im not caving. IÂ’m stronger than that. Hopefully when IÂ’m at a year quit I will have a more positive attitude and things will start looking up.
Ruby, I feel your pain, I do. But you know that nicotine does not have the power to make anything better. Nothing. It cannot undo any of your teeth issues...it would only make it worse. I think there are a lot of us who have felt like you are feeling.
You are going to probably keep going through some funk periods. Hell, I have been in one lately and I am on day 541. I just hold tight to the hope that the funks will eventually just stop happening at some point. If Wildirish's PAW link is right, it will probably be past the 2 year mark but I suspect everyone is different.
Just hold on, girl, being quit IS the right thing. YOU KNOW THIS, Let's push through this, okay?
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LetÂ’s see day 323 I think. Almost a year. So much to reflect on. I thought quitting would be an easy task I thought I could throw away all tins and think this is it IÂ’m done with you and never look back. I read on here where someone was talking about the fuck itÂ’s. Well lately I feel like I have the fuck itÂ’s. I donÂ’t know how else to explain it. I just want to feel better. I have had 7 root canals in a year time frame. One had to be pulled and 2 of the teeth this guy did are showing infections again. So I need two more. Maybe this guy didnÂ’t do such a great job. So I started going to this other specialist for help. HeÂ’s done a few other teeth and is going to hopefully fix up these other ones. But damn. IÂ’m so tired of this. My neck head jaw teeth all still hurt like day one and sometimes I find myself in a dark hole and I keep thinking about nicotine. If I just do one then all this pain and suffering that I have been experiencing will just go away. I know this isnÂ’t realistic but my addiction side says to just go back to it and that I will feel better. Screw you chew for making me feel this way. The anxiety from quitting and dealing with all this health crap has been immeasurable. My mind races and travels to worst case scenarios. I went to the e r 3 times this year. What the hell is wrong with me. I think the thing that bothered me most of all was having to have a tooth pulled out. Being a female and all I just feel so down and not lady like. IÂ’m just so tired of being in pain every day. I find myself asking why did I quit. Why didnÂ’t I wait until I got fixed up to quit. Why does life suck more when I quit. I thought I was improving. I thought quitting would be the best thing I could do for myself health wise but I just donÂ’t feel healthy. IÂ’m always wondering why do I have to hurt all the time. I thought quitting would bring better things into my life. This is addict talk. IÂ’m writing this down because no matter if I use or not these things in my life would not change. IÂ’m an addict and right now I feel like shit and want to say fuck it. I want to feel good and elated and anything other than this pain but hell no im not caving. IÂ’m stronger than that. Hopefully when IÂ’m at a year quit I will have a more positive attitude and things will start looking up.
Ruby, I feel your pain, I do. But you know that nicotine does not have the power to make anything better. Nothing. It cannot undo any of your teeth issues...it would only make it worse. I think there are a lot of us who have felt like you are feeling.
You are going to probably keep going through some funk periods. Hell, I have been in one lately and I am on day 541. I just hold tight to the hope that the funks will eventually just stop happening at some point. If Wildirish's PAW link is right, it will probably be past the 2 year mark but I suspect everyone is different.
Just hold on, girl, being quit IS the right thing. YOU KNOW THIS, Let's push through this, okay?
Yes that^^^
Quitting is the best thing you did for yourself..the damage done to your health may take longer than you thought to heal. But it will. Have faith. Stay the course..stay strong..quit harder.
IQWYT
(( go read PAWS in Irish's intro. ))
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LetÂ’s see day 323 I think. Almost a year. So much to reflect on. I thought quitting would be an easy task I thought I could throw away all tins and think this is it IÂ’m done with you and never look back. I read on here where someone was talking about the fuck itÂ’s. Well lately I feel like I have the fuck itÂ’s. I donÂ’t know how else to explain it. I just want to feel better. I have had 7 root canals in a year time frame. One had to be pulled and 2 of the teeth this guy did are showing infections again. So I need two more. Maybe this guy didnÂ’t do such a great job. So I started going to this other specialist for help. HeÂ’s done a few other teeth and is going to hopefully fix up these other ones. But damn. IÂ’m so tired of this. My neck head jaw teeth all still hurt like day one and sometimes I find myself in a dark hole and I keep thinking about nicotine. If I just do one then all this pain and suffering that I have been experiencing will just go away. I know this isnÂ’t realistic but my addiction side says to just go back to it and that I will feel better. Screw you chew for making me feel this way. The anxiety from quitting and dealing with all this health crap has been immeasurable. My mind races and travels to worst case scenarios. I went to the e r 3 times this year. What the hell is wrong with me. I think the thing that bothered me most of all was having to have a tooth pulled out. Being a female and all I just feel so down and not lady like. IÂ’m just so tired of being in pain every day. I find myself asking why did I quit. Why didnÂ’t I wait until I got fixed up to quit. Why does life suck more when I quit. I thought I was improving. I thought quitting would be the best thing I could do for myself health wise but I just donÂ’t feel healthy. IÂ’m always wondering why do I have to hurt all the time. I thought quitting would bring better things into my life. This is addict talk. IÂ’m writing this down because no matter if I use or not these things in my life would not change. IÂ’m an addict and right now I feel like shit and want to say fuck it. I want to feel good and elated and anything other than this pain but hell no im not caving. IÂ’m stronger than that. Hopefully when IÂ’m at a year quit I will have a more positive attitude and things will start looking up.
Ruby, I feel your pain, I do. But you know that nicotine does not have the power to make anything better. Nothing. It cannot undo any of your teeth issues...it would only make it worse. I think there are a lot of us who have felt like you are feeling.
You are going to probably keep going through some funk periods. Hell, I have been in one lately and I am on day 541. I just hold tight to the hope that the funks will eventually just stop happening at some point. If Wildirish's PAW link is right, it will probably be past the 2 year mark but I suspect everyone is different.
Just hold on, girl, being quit IS the right thing. YOU KNOW THIS, Let's push through this, okay?
Yes that^^^
Quitting is the best thing you did for yourself..the damage done to your health may take longer than you thought to heal. But it will. Have faith. Stay the course..stay strong..quit harder.
IQWYT
(( go read PAWS in Irish's intro. ))
Ruby sounds like itÂ’s been rough but and this too me is huge, it could be a helluva lot worse. IÂ’ve had a heart cathe and small intestine blockage in the past 2 weeks and I was feeling just like you, why me and then I started thinking it could be a whole lot worse, I could be fighting for my life. Glad IÂ’m able to wipe my own ass. Not being ugly just thankful after all IÂ’ve abuse IÂ’ve put my body through that it could be a lot worse. Hey right now itÂ’s ODAAT! I think the ole nic bitch knows our weaknesses. Hang tough it will get better
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LetÂ’s see day 323 I think. Almost a year. So much to reflect on. I thought quitting would be an easy task I thought I could throw away all tins and think this is it IÂ’m done with you and never look back. I read on here where someone was talking about the fuck itÂ’s. Well lately I feel like I have the fuck itÂ’s. I donÂ’t know how else to explain it. I just want to feel better. I have had 7 root canals in a year time frame. One had to be pulled and 2 of the teeth this guy did are showing infections again. So I need two more. Maybe this guy didnÂ’t do such a great job. So I started going to this other specialist for help. HeÂ’s done a few other teeth and is going to hopefully fix up these other ones. But damn. IÂ’m so tired of this. My neck head jaw teeth all still hurt like day one and sometimes I find myself in a dark hole and I keep thinking about nicotine. If I just do one then all this pain and suffering that I have been experiencing will just go away. I know this isnÂ’t realistic but my addiction side says to just go back to it and that I will feel better. Screw you chew for making me feel this way. The anxiety from quitting and dealing with all this health crap has been immeasurable. My mind races and travels to worst case scenarios. I went to the e r 3 times this year. What the hell is wrong with me. I think the thing that bothered me most of all was having to have a tooth pulled out. Being a female and all I just feel so down and not lady like. IÂ’m just so tired of being in pain every day. I find myself asking why did I quit. Why didnÂ’t I wait until I got fixed up to quit. Why does life suck more when I quit. I thought I was improving. I thought quitting would be the best thing I could do for myself health wise but I just donÂ’t feel healthy. IÂ’m always wondering why do I have to hurt all the time. I thought quitting would bring better things into my life. This is addict talk. IÂ’m writing this down because no matter if I use or not these things in my life would not change. IÂ’m an addict and right now I feel like shit and want to say fuck it. I want to feel good and elated and anything other than this pain but hell no im not caving. IÂ’m stronger than that. Hopefully when IÂ’m at a year quit I will have a more positive attitude and things will start looking up.
Ruby, I feel your pain, I do. But you know that nicotine does not have the power to make anything better. Nothing. It cannot undo any of your teeth issues...it would only make it worse. I think there are a lot of us who have felt like you are feeling.
You are going to probably keep going through some funk periods. Hell, I have been in one lately and I am on day 541. I just hold tight to the hope that the funks will eventually just stop happening at some point. If Wildirish's PAW link is right, it will probably be past the 2 year mark but I suspect everyone is different.
Just hold on, girl, being quit IS the right thing. YOU KNOW THIS, Let's push through this, okay?
Yes that^^^
Quitting is the best thing you did for yourself..the damage done to your health may take longer than you thought to heal. But it will. Have faith. Stay the course..stay strong..quit harder.
IQWYT
(( go read PAWS in Irish's intro. ))
Ruby sounds like itÂ’s been rough but and this too me is huge, it could be a helluva lot worse. IÂ’ve had a heart cathe and small intestine blockage in the past 2 weeks and I was feeling just like you, why me and then I started thinking it could be a whole lot worse, I could be fighting for my life. Glad IÂ’m able to wipe my own ass. Not being ugly just thankful after all IÂ’ve abuse IÂ’ve put my body through that it could be a lot worse. Hey right now itÂ’s ODAAT! I think the ole nic bitch knows our weaknesses. Hang tough it will get better
Thank you for responding. I guess I should be thankful IÂ’m not fighting for my life. I guess IÂ’ve just been down in the dumps being in pain all the time. Hopefully things get better
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Congrats on 1 year quit Ruby!!