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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: jackson51413 on May 21, 2013, 10:15:00 PM
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Hi guys, tomorrow will be my 9th day quit here with the August Badasses, and I am finally posting an intro so you know a little bit about me. My apologies for waiting so long to do this. It is my pleasure to endure with you all, as much of an emotional ride this has been for me quitting has been one of the best decisions of my life (maybe right behind marrying my wife). It is only day 9 of my journey but I feel great inside. It seems like we all share many common parts of our past, and here is a bit of mine:
-I started dipping about 12 years ago in college, it was part of the culture of my chosen profession and I got hooked.
-Only a few people even knew I dipped until I quit day 1, I was a pro ninja dipper.
-My dipping was sporadic, sometime on a stressful day I would do a whole can, other days I would just have one pinch. Since being quit though I realized I have a serious oral fixation addition to this crap, that is what is the toughest for me to get through, but it is getting easier day by day.
-I am convinced that God's grace in answering my desperate prayer to "give me the strength to quit" led me to this site, and to you guys and few girls who are right in the ring with me.
-Knowing that there are others like you fighting a battle that will not allow themselves to lose, praying a lot, and imagining each day I am quit the wonderful future I will have in store with my family.....as a healthy and happy quitter.
-I am here to support the rest of this gang, and my heartfelt thanks for yours. God Bless guys and lets keep kicking ass.
-Jack
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Hi guys, tomorrow will be my 9th day quit here with the August Badasses, and I am finally posting an intro so you know a little bit about me. My apologies for waiting so long to do this. It is my pleasure to endure with you all, as much of an emotional ride this has been for me quitting has been one of the best decisions of my life (maybe right behind marrying my wife). It is only day 9 of my journey but I feel great inside. It seems like we all share many common parts of our past, and here is a bit of mine:
-I started dipping about 12 years ago in college, it was part of the culture of my chosen profession and I got hooked.
-Only a few people even knew I dipped until I quit day 1, I was a pro ninja dipper.
-My dipping was sporadic, sometime on a stressful day I would do a whole can, other days I would just have one pinch. Since being quit though I realized I have a serious oral fixation addition to this crap, that is what is the toughest for me to get through, but it is getting easier day by day.
-I am convinced that God's grace in answering my desperate prayer to "give me the strength to quit" led me to this site, and to you guys and few girls who are right in the ring with me.
-Knowing that there are others like you fighting a battle that will not allow themselves to lose, praying a lot, and imagining each day I am quit the wonderful future I will have in store with my family.....as a healthy and happy quitter.
-I am here to support the rest of this gang, and my heartfelt thanks for yours. God Bless guys and lets keep kicking ass.
-Jack
Keep coming back everyday..Keep stringing those days together and it get's better and better.Embrace the "Suck" and learn all you can,never want to feel this way again.Keep your word and stay quit,post roll everyday,make friends for life. Really it's that simple.QLF with you today.
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Hi guys, tomorrow will be my 9th day quit here with the August Badasses, and I am finally posting an intro so you know a little bit about me. My apologies for waiting so long to do this. It is my pleasure to endure with you all, as much of an emotional ride this has been for me quitting has been one of the best decisions of my life (maybe right behind marrying my wife). It is only day 9 of my journey but I feel great inside. It seems like we all share many common parts of our past, and here is a bit of mine:
-I started dipping about 12 years ago in college, it was part of the culture of my chosen profession and I got hooked.
-Only a few people even knew I dipped until I quit day 1, I was a pro ninja dipper.
-My dipping was sporadic, sometime on a stressful day I would do a whole can, other days I would just have one pinch. Since being quit though I realized I have a serious oral fixation addition to this crap, that is what is the toughest for me to get through, but it is getting easier day by day.Â
-I am convinced that God's grace in answering my desperate prayer to "give me the strength to quit" led me to this site, and to you guys and few girls who are right in the ring with me.
-Knowing that there are others like you fighting a battle that will not allow themselves to lose, praying a lot, and imagining each day I am quit the wonderful future I will have in store with my family.....as a healthy and happy quitter.Â
-I am here to support the rest of this gang, and my heartfelt thanks for yours. God Bless guys and lets keep kicking ass.
-Jack
Keep coming back everyday..Keep stringing those days together and it get's better and better.Embrace the "Suck" and learn all you can,never want to feel this way again.Keep your word and stay quit,post roll everyday,make friends for life. Really it's that simple.QLF with you today.
Jackson-you can do it, one day at a time. Beef jerky snuff helped with the oral fixation. Stay hydrated and embrace each crave and beat it down.
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very good Jack welcome aboard...I like you am an addict I/we will always be. I am not sure how your time through the suck was since you are past physical withdrawal but never forget it embrace it.
Read Read Read everyday especially early on keep the site close to you. The NIC bitch is lurking be prepared this weekend since this is the official opener of summer. BBQ's, booze and dipping friends equal a crave paradise. have a way out or what I did is stay away from everyone for first 2 weeks. Keep us close I like you also believe I would not have found this site if I didnt have some help from god. PM me if you need my number or if you have questions.
Todd
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I'll corner for you any day, bro.
Ninja dippers have a tougher time with it, but wear you quit like a badge. I'm quit before all else, and everybody knows that. Everybody. Spreading a wide path of accountability is the key to winning this battle each day.
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Nice Jack, welcome to KTC and welcome to August. Glad to have you here. Reach out and grab those numbers from other quitters, they will come in handy.
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Quit with you Jack, PMd you the number. Lets stay accountable.
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Jackson,
Your addict mindset just thought that nobody knew you dipped. Ever wondered why people would look away while talking with you? All us addicts thought we were so clever and were hiding our bad habit from everyone. Makes you wonder what else they thought when yoy beamed that tobacco speckled yellowed smile at them after each dip. Most of us did not get a chance to smile due to having a lipper in all day, though.
Be strong, be vigilant, honor your word, and own your Quit!!!!!
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I posted this in August for you Jackson but thought you should have it on your thread as well for the future.
!!!!!!!God damn it!!!!!!! Get your ass in September and quit. Don't fuck them over like you did us! Keep your word man! Jackson your word is all you have as a man, for gods sake why would you take that so lightly. It worked when you called on Saturday, why in Gods name not call today? August I hope you take note of this and let me humor you with Jackson and I's conversation on Saturday
Jackson; hey man I just bought a can and I'm sitting in my car... my day has been so shitty
Erussell; have you used it
Jackson; no
Erussell; throw that shit out right now, bro no matter how shitty your day is your about to make it ten times worse, first if you use it it's going to suck and not be worth it, two your are going to hate yourself after, third you gave us your word today so you can't. the whole time you are dipping it you are going to wish you weren't, true the whole time you aren't you wish you were but at least one choice is healthier. Are you just sitting there?
Jackson; no I'm driving on the way home
Erussell; pull over right now
Jackson; I'm pulling into a station right now your right I don't need this
Erussell; poor it out bro
Jackson I'm just going to leave it sitting here by the trash I don't want to open it
Erussell; whatever just stay quit man
Then a bunch off hoop la between us. Whoo hoo we beat the nic bitch.
What the fuck man, it worked then why not call again? I will give you my heart and soul, but I can't keep the shit out of your mouth! Only you can, You have to make up your mind either your a slave that continually knows he is a bitch to nic and wishes he was free but is too weak to chose to do so, or otherwise you can man the fuck up, post roll, keep your word, and be a free man who wishes he had a dip every now and then but is happy as hell to be free from it. By the way you chose to be week it didn't accidentally crawl into your mouth. You have only two choices involved here, like I keep saying its simple but not easy. I'm going to bed, brain dead, mentally drained, and heart broken.
Make up your mind, life or death, it's that freaking simple, truly it is!
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I want to introduce myself to you guys, and be very open with you. I was a member of both the August and September 2013 quit groups, and I allowed myself to cave, not once but twice. If you are ever to accept my word, you need to know why this happened and that I have thought deeply about it, and how I plan to never allow a cave to happen again. I used my life circumstances as an excuse to open the can and go back on my word, in short, I was acting like a little girl and not a grown man. I had twin daughters born in March of this year, my dad died in april, I had serious marital problems with my wife, and I allowed that stress to allow me to break my promises to myself and to my brothers. Instead of reaching out to guys like you, I reached into the can. I found out I was a "stopper" and not a "quitter".Â
Today, I am sucking it up and posting day 1 after talking with a brother on the site who is on day 216 of his quit. He's a bad ass for sure, and has gone through much of what I did, and held his quit intact and kept his promise to his brothers. He made the question easy to answer: How do I know for sure I will never cave? He drank the Kool-Aid and reached out for help, and freely gave it to others. He honored his promise at ALL cost, I did not. Today that changes.
I join you now as a much more humble but confident man than I was half a year ago. I fully understand the nature of my addiction, and I do envy people who experience "the suck". I dipped primarily at night after my family was asleep, and sometimes days went by without a pinch. Therefore I never had the profound experience of the withdrawl, but my addiction is just as powerful. It is compulsive in nature, and I am addicted to the rush I used to get from the poison. To aid me in my quit, I have committed to sending a text daily to my
quit brother and HOF August ERussell confirming my promise.Â
I'm happy to be in the ring for real with you guys. I quit with you today.
-Jack
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I want to introduce myself to you guys, and be very open with you. I was a member of both the August and September 2013 quit groups, and I allowed myself to cave, not once but twice. If you are ever to accept my word, you need to know why this happened and that I have thought deeply about it, and how I plan to never allow a cave to happen again. I used my life circumstances as an excuse to open the can and go back on my word, in short, I was acting like a little girl and not a grown man. I had twin daughters born in March of this year, my dad died in april, I had serious marital problems with my wife, and I allowed that stress to allow me to break my promises to myself and to my brothers. Instead of reaching out to guys like you, I reached into the can. I found out I was a "stopper" and not a "quitter".Â
Today, I am sucking it up and posting day 1 after talking with a brother on the site who is on day 216 of his quit. He's a bad ass for sure, and has gone through much of what I did, and held his quit intact and kept his promise to his brothers. He made the question easy to answer: How do I know for sure I will never cave? He drank the Kool-Aid and reached out for help, and freely gave it to others. He honored his promise at ALL cost, I did not. Today that changes.
I join you now as a much more humble but confident man than I was half a year ago. I fully understand the nature of my addiction, and I do envy people who experience "the suck". I dipped primarily at night after my family was asleep, and sometimes days went by without a pinch. Therefore I never had the profound experience of the withdrawl, but my addiction is just as powerful. It is compulsive in nature, and I am addicted to the rush I used to get from the poison. To aid me in my quit, I have committed to sending a text daily to my
quit brother and HOF August ERussell confirming my promise.Â
I'm happy to be in the ring for real with you guys. I quit with you today.
-Jack
Let's get it done. You need another quitter phone number, you pm me bro. I'll help...
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I'm only on day 2 of my quit but I'm happy to have you in March Madness Jack. So you fell down a couple times. You sacked up and came back. Welcome aboard.
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I want to introduce myself to you guys, and be very open with you. I was a member of both the August and September 2013 quit groups, and I allowed myself to cave, not once but twice. If you are ever to accept my word, you need to know why this happened and that I have thought deeply about it, and how I plan to never allow a cave to happen again. I used my life circumstances as an excuse to open the can and go back on my word, in short, I was acting like a little girl and not a grown man. I had twin daughters born in March of this year, my dad died in april, I had serious marital problems with my wife, and I allowed that stress to allow me to break my promises to myself and to my brothers. Instead of reaching out to guys like you, I reached into the can. I found out I was a "stopper" and not a "quitter".Â
Today, I am sucking it up and posting day 1 after talking with a brother on the site who is on day 216 of his quit. He's a bad ass for sure, and has gone through much of what I did, and held his quit intact and kept his promise to his brothers. He made the question easy to answer: How do I know for sure I will never cave? He drank the Kool-Aid and reached out for help, and freely gave it to others. He honored his promise at ALL cost, I did not. Today that changes.
I join you now as a much more humble but confident man than I was half a year ago. I fully understand the nature of my addiction, and I do envy people who experience "the suck". I dipped primarily at night after my family was asleep, and sometimes days went by without a pinch. Therefore I never had the profound experience of the withdrawl, but my addiction is just as powerful. It is compulsive in nature, and I am addicted to the rush I used to get from the poison. To aid me in my quit, I have committed to sending a text daily to my
quit brother and HOF August ERussell confirming my promise.Â
I'm happy to be in the ring for real with you guys. I quit with you today.
-Jack
Let's get it done. You need another quitter phone number, you pm me bro. I'll help...
You can not fail if: It is impossible to cave if: You can be a man of your word and post roll every today. All the other advice, tools etc. You should use them but your greatest worth to this working is...ARE YOU A MAN OF YOUR WORD?
You either quit posting, or broke your promise.
This time isn't different. If you think your life is now resolved and its all good, just wait. Something is coming. When it gets tough, Will you be a man of your word?
Piss on the buzz of nicotine. Its all a counterfeit feeling. Quit and discover truly what feeling good is all about.
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I want to introduce myself to you guys, and be very open with you. I was a member of both the August and September 2013 quit groups, and I allowed myself to cave, not once but twice. If you are ever to accept my word, you need to know why this happened and that I have thought deeply about it, and how I plan to never allow a cave to happen again. I used my life circumstances as an excuse to open the can and go back on my word, in short, I was acting like a little girl and not a grown man. I had twin daughters born in March of this year, my dad died in april, I had serious marital problems with my wife, and I allowed that stress to allow me to break my promises to myself and to my brothers. Instead of reaching out to guys like you, I reached into the can. I found out I was a "stopper" and not a "quitter".Â
Today, I am sucking it up and posting day 1 after talking with a brother on the site who is on day 216 of his quit. He's a bad ass for sure, and has gone through much of what I did, and held his quit intact and kept his promise to his brothers. He made the question easy to answer: How do I know for sure I will never cave? He drank the Kool-Aid and reached out for help, and freely gave it to others. He honored his promise at ALL cost, I did not. Today that changes.
I join you now as a much more humble but confident man than I was half a year ago. I fully understand the nature of my addiction, and I do envy people who experience "the suck". I dipped primarily at night after my family was asleep, and sometimes days went by without a pinch. Therefore I never had the profound experience of the withdrawl, but my addiction is just as powerful. It is compulsive in nature, and I am addicted to the rush I used to get from the poison. To aid me in my quit, I have committed to sending a text daily to my
quit brother and HOF August ERussell confirming my promise.Â
I'm happy to be in the ring for real with you guys. I quit with you today.
-Jack
Let's get it done. You need another quitter phone number, you pm me bro. I'll help...
You can not fail if: It is impossible to cave if: You can be a man of your word and post roll every today. All the other advice, tools etc. You should use them but your greatest worth to this working is...ARE YOU A MAN OF YOUR WORD?
You either quit posting, or broke your promise.
This time isn't different. If you think your life is now resolved and its all good, just wait. Something is coming. When it gets tough, Will you be a man of your word?
Piss on the buzz of nicotine. Its all a counterfeit feeling. Quit and discover truly what feeling good is all about.
Well my last post to you in this thread wasn't very nice. This one is just to say you have screwed the pooch on this several times, but you obviously want to be quit, you just have to want it more this time. You can do this, ODAAT, the KTC way, and by keeping your word. Again you have given me your word to text your promise to me daily in addition to posting roll until HOF, so I will come find you if you miss. I am quitting with this guy every minute of every hour, of every f-ing day. Erussell day 219
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Good day guys, I'm Jack from Cleveland OH. It's great to be here as a true bad ass this time and not a phony little girl, like I was 6 months ago. I posted a response to the 3 questions a day ago in case anyone would like to read it, it is very important to me to get that out. I'm 32 years old and was a part-time ninja dipper, for 13 years. I was the guy who could put the can down for days at a time without serious withdrawl, but then pick it up again at the first sign of stress. In layman's terms, a pansy ass.
As a much more humble man I will continue the same life that made me happy before, without the Skoal. I'm a proud father of 8 month old twin girls, I love them more than anything. I am the husband to a beautiful and smart wife who works harder than I do, right at home with my ladies. I am a professional pilot, I love flying but not as much as the aforementioned! It's my pleasure to be here for real this time.
-Jack
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Good day guys, I'm Jack from Cleveland OH. It's great to be here as a true bad ass this time and not a phony little girl, like I was 6 months ago. I posted a response to the 3 questions a day ago in case anyone would like to read it, it is very important to me to get that out. I'm 32 years old and was a part-time ninja dipper, for 13 years. I was the guy who could put the can down for days at a time without serious withdrawl, but then pick it up again at the first sign of stress. In layman's terms, a pansy ass.
As a much more humble man I will continue the same life that made me happy before, without the Skoal. I'm a proud father of 8 month old twin girls, I love them more than anything. I am the husband to a beautiful and smart wife who works harder than I do, right at home with my ladies. I am a professional pilot, I love flying but not as much as the aforementioned! It's my pleasure to be here for real this time.
-Jack
Good job jack. We got to handle our business
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Good day guys, I'm Jack from Cleveland OH. It's great to be here as a true bad ass this time and not a phony little girl, like I was 6 months ago. I posted a response to the 3 questions a day ago in case anyone would like to read it, it is very important to me to get that out. I'm 32 years old and was a part-time ninja dipper, for 13 years. I was the guy who could put the can down for days at a time without serious withdrawl, but then pick it up again at the first sign of stress. In layman's terms, a pansy ass.
As a much more humble man I will continue the same life that made me happy before, without the Skoal. I'm a proud father of 8 month old twin girls, I love them more than anything. I am the husband to a beautiful and smart wife who works harder than I do, right at home with my ladies. I am a professional pilot, I love flying but not as much as the aforementioned! It's my pleasure to be here for real this time.
-Jack
Let's fucking do it this time brother. Strap that seat belt on tight, do this shit daily now. You are starting your new streak of posting and doing more than the minimum. Document the shit out of every little detail with great descriptive detailed notes.
This way you can remember the vivid BS that you body goes through and how much you fucked up last time.
You know how to do this, now step up and help lead the Newbies in March through their shit as well.
P.S. Remember you only get one intro area, a MOD will merge it later.
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Good day guys, I'm Jack from Cleveland OH. It's great to be here as a true bad ass this time and not a phony little girl, like I was 6 months ago. I posted a response to the 3 questions a day ago in case anyone would like to read it, it is very important to me to get that out. I'm 32 years old and was a part-time ninja dipper, for 13 years. I was the guy who could put the can down for days at a time without serious withdrawl, but then pick it up again at the first sign of stress. In layman's terms, a pansy ass.
As a much more humble man I will continue the same life that made me happy before, without the Skoal. I'm a proud father of 8 month old twin girls, I love them more than anything. I am the husband to a beautiful and smart wife who works harder than I do, right at home with my ladies. I am a professional pilot, I love flying but not as much as the aforementioned! It's my pleasure to be here for real this time.
-Jack
Let's fucking do it this time brother. Strap that seat belt on tight, do this shit daily now. You are starting your new streak of posting and doing more than the minimum. Document the shit out of every little detail with great descriptive detailed notes.
This way you can remember the vivid BS that you body goes through and how much you fucked up last time.
You know how to do this, now step up and help lead the Newbies in March through their shit as well.
P.S. Remember you only get one intro area, a MOD will merge it later.
Hi all,
I am 49 years old. Have dipped at least a can a day for 16 years. I actually quit on Nov 22 and am on day 12 now. Wanted to be part of a group as no one in my life understands the real importance of what I am doing. My wife and kids are ecstatic I have quit this long but I don't blame them for being a little skeptical. I am done with this bitch. All she does is lie and keeps on wanting more. I am taking my brain back!
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Good day guys, I'm Jack from Cleveland OH. It's great to be here as a true bad ass this time and not a phony little girl, like I was 6 months ago. I posted a response to the 3 questions a day ago in case anyone would like to read it, it is very important to me to get that out. I'm 32 years old and was a part-time ninja dipper, for 13 years. I was the guy who could put the can down for days at a time without serious withdrawl, but then pick it up again at the first sign of stress. In layman's terms, a pansy ass.
As a much more humble man I will continue the same life that made me happy before, without the Skoal. I'm a proud father of 8 month old twin girls, I love them more than anything. I am the husband to a beautiful and smart wife who works harder than I do, right at home with my ladies. I am a professional pilot, I love flying but not as much as the aforementioned! It's my pleasure to be here for real this time.
-Jack
Let's fucking do it this time brother. Strap that seat belt on tight, do this shit daily now. You are starting your new streak of posting and doing more than the minimum. Document the shit out of every little detail with great descriptive detailed notes.
This way you can remember the vivid BS that you body goes through and how much you fucked up last time.
You know how to do this, now step up and help lead the Newbies in March through their shit as well.
P.S. Remember you only get one intro area, a MOD will merge it later.
Let's see an aggressive plan of attack - start by knocking down all the walls you built around yourself - get on the phone, chat, pm daily and build some quit friends who will hold you accountable every damn day ... and you do the same for them.
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You don't always get a second chance in life. Don't piss it away.
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Fucking pilots. ( see my private message)
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Jackson are you still quit? If not get bak in here and post day one. It's life or death man.