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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Jerk11 on January 05, 2015, 03:09:00 PM
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Hey all, the names Joe. I have decided to quit all forms of nicotine starting today, and will be nicotine free for a full 24 hours by about 5:00 pm CT. I've been dipping for about 6 years now, and am DONE. I am done with having to hide it from certain people and family members, and it's big time chick repellant. As one of my buddies that actually cares for my well-being has explained, not many good looking, normal females my age (I'm 25) want to put up with that for very long, and many of them will avoid me if they see me doing it. That being said, I'm doing this for MYSELF. For my health. So that I don't feel hypocritical in eating healthier and working out 5 times per week, yet incessantly putting poison in my body solely to get my "fix". I'm also on some medication that can interfere with it, making me already moody, irritable, etc.
So far, brain fog has been the biggest symptom at the 21 hour mark as I write this. Yet, nothing worse than what a hangover feels like. Headache, little sluggish, and brain fog. Other than that, I feel fine.
Bottom line is that I genuinely want to quit. I am confident that I can beat this addiction, yet humble enough to know I WILL ABSOLUTELY need help along the way, from those of you that can help me. I'm willing to fight to save my life, as any addict should in an ideal world. No more excuses. No more bullshit negative ruminating thoughts in my head that say I can't do this or I am a loser blah blah. This is my day of reckoning for me against my past self, big tobacco companies, those that think I can't quit, and most importantly... The nic bitch. You can do all the mind trickery in the world nic, but I don't think you realize who you are up against. You will soon.
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Hey all, the names Joe. I have decided to quit all forms of nicotine starting today, and will be nicotine free for a full 24 hours by about 5:00 pm CT. I've been dipping for about 6 years now, and am DONE. I am done with having to hide it from certain people and family members, and it's big time chick repellant. As one of my buddies that actually cares for my well-being has explained, not many good looking, normal females my age (I'm 25) want to put up with that for very long, and many of them will avoid me if they see me doing it. That being said, I'm doing this for MYSELF. For my health. So that I don't feel hypocritical in eating healthier and working out 5 times per week, yet incessantly putting poison in my body solely to get my "fix". I'm also on some medication that can interfere with it, making me already moody, irritable, etc.
So far, brain fog has been the biggest symptom at the 21 hour mark as I write this. Yet, nothing worse than what a hangover feels like. Headache, little sluggish, and brain fog. Other than that, I feel fine.
Bottom line is that I genuinely want to quit. I am confident that I can beat this addiction, yet humble enough to know I WILL ABSOLUTELY need help along the way, from those of you that can help me. I'm willing to fight to save my life, as any addict should in an ideal world. No more excuses. No more bullshit negative ruminating thoughts in my head that say I can't do this or I am a loser blah blah. This is my day of reckoning for me against my past self, big tobacco companies, those that think I can't quit, and most importantly... The nic bitch. You can do all the mind trickery in the world nic, but I don't think you realize who you are up against. You will soon.
Good to see ya quit. Go and post day 1 under the April quit group. This is making your promise to all of us you will not use nicotine today. Post your promise every day and take it one day at a time.
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Hey all, the names Joe. I have decided to quit all forms of nicotine starting today, and will be nicotine free for a full 24 hours by about 5:00 pm CT. I've been dipping for about 6 years now, and am DONE. I am done with having to hide it from certain people and family members, and it's big time chick repellant. As one of my buddies that actually cares for my well-being has explained, not many good looking, normal females my age (I'm 25) want to put up with that for very long, and many of them will avoid me if they see me doing it. That being said, I'm doing this for MYSELF. For my health. So that I don't feel hypocritical in eating healthier and working out 5 times per week, yet incessantly putting poison in my body solely to get my "fix". I'm also on some medication that can interfere with it, making me already moody, irritable, etc.
So far, brain fog has been the biggest symptom at the 21 hour mark as I write this. Yet, nothing worse than what a hangover feels like. Headache, little sluggish, and brain fog. Other than that, I feel fine.
Bottom line is that I genuinely want to quit. I am confident that I can beat this addiction, yet humble enough to know I WILL ABSOLUTELY need help along the way, from those of you that can help me. I'm willing to fight to save my life, as any addict should in an ideal world. No more excuses. No more bullshit negative ruminating thoughts in my head that say I can't do this or I am a loser blah blah. This is my day of reckoning for me against my past self, big tobacco companies, those that think I can't quit, and most importantly... The nic bitch. You can do all the mind trickery in the world nic, but I don't think you realize who you are up against. You will soon.
Good to see ya quit. Go and post day 1 under the April quit group. This is making your promise to all of us you will not use nicotine today. Post your promise every day and take it one day at a time.
Welcome! Osage is a smart dude... Post roll. It is your promise to yourself and all of us that for today, and today only, you will not use nicotine in any form. If you re a man of your word you can do anything for 24 hours. You could make out with Chelsea Clinton for 24 hours if your life depended on it, right? You can do this.
In exchange you get support and a shitton of it. This place works. Nothing else does. Post roll, repeat tomorrow. Be a man of your word. You are young, and a lot of young guys are liars and are dishonorable when it comes to this plan. Your intro has the sounds of a dude that will fight like hell. You have my support. Shoot me a pm if you need a text accountability teammate. This fight is well worth the struggle.
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Hey all, the names Joe. I have decided to quit all forms of nicotine starting today, and will be nicotine free for a full 24 hours by about 5:00 pm CT. I've been dipping for about 6 years now, and am DONE. I am done with having to hide it from certain people and family members, and it's big time chick repellant. As one of my buddies that actually cares for my well-being has explained, not many good looking, normal females my age (I'm 25) want to put up with that for very long, and many of them will avoid me if they see me doing it. That being said, I'm doing this for MYSELF. For my health. So that I don't feel hypocritical in eating healthier and working out 5 times per week, yet incessantly putting poison in my body solely to get my "fix". I'm also on some medication that can interfere with it, making me already moody, irritable, etc.
So far, brain fog has been the biggest symptom at the 21 hour mark as I write this. Yet, nothing worse than what a hangover feels like. Headache, little sluggish, and brain fog. Other than that, I feel fine.
Bottom line is that I genuinely want to quit. I am confident that I can beat this addiction, yet humble enough to know I WILL ABSOLUTELY need help along the way, from those of you that can help me. I'm willing to fight to save my life, as any addict should in an ideal world. No more excuses. No more bullshit negative ruminating thoughts in my head that say I can't do this or I am a loser blah blah. This is my day of reckoning for me against my past self, big tobacco companies, those that think I can't quit, and most importantly... The nic bitch. You can do all the mind trickery in the world nic, but I don't think you realize who you are up against. You will soon.
Good to see ya quit. Go and post day 1 under the April quit group. This is making your promise to all of us you will not use nicotine today. Post your promise every day and take it one day at a time.
Welcome! Osage is a smart dude... Post roll. It is your promise to yourself and all of us that for today, and today only, you will not use nicotine in any form. If you re a man of your word you can do anything for 24 hours. You could make out with Chelsea Clinton for 24 hours if your life depended on it, right? You can do this.
In exchange you get support and a shitton of it. This place works. Nothing else does. Post roll, repeat tomorrow. Be a man of your word. You are young, and a lot of young guys are liars and are dishonorable when it comes to this plan. Your intro has the sounds of a dude that will fight like hell. You have my support. Shoot me a pm if you need a text accountability teammate. This fight is well worth the struggle.
Welcome Joe,
Congrats on getting in here and making the decision to quit, now we need your promise for the day. Go to the April 15 quit group and post a day 1; that's your price of admission here. Post roll EVERY DAY (including holidays and weekends) and post early. Your roll post is your promise to stay quit for 24 hours, that's all we ask.
As worktowin said younger quitters have a hard time with quitting, but there are plenty of badass quitters your age and younger on here, what it comes to is YOU: your attitude, your dedication, your integrity, your honesty. If you are willing to give us your word, we will hold you to it.
topic/10847546/39/?x=50 (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/10847546/39/?x=50) That's your quit group, get in there, post roll, make friends and quit like fuck.
If you need some help PM me.
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I have posted roll for the first time about 20 minutes ago, and have been nicotine free for 72 hours now. I feel so empowered! Lifting weights seems to help subdue cravings. Also, I've been drinking cranberry juice to try and detox a bit. Other than that, staying busy and thinking positively as much as possible. I've told my family to hold me to my promise to myself, and also notified co-workers and the boss. I have the whole day off and the next 3 so this will be my next test, as I have a lot of free time. I strive to utilize this site as much as possible and make as many contacts as possible, in order to strengthen that accountability. Because I am an addict. Nothing more, nothing less. But today I quit. Will you stand beside me in quitting?
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I have posted roll for the first time about 20 minutes ago, and have been nicotine free for 72 hours now. I feel so empowered! Lifting weights seems to help subdue cravings. Also, I've been drinking cranberry juice to try and detox a bit. Other than that, staying busy and thinking positively as much as possible. I've told my family to hold me to my promise to myself, and also notified co-workers and the boss. I have the whole day off and the next 3 so this will be my next test, as I have a lot of free time. I strive to utilize this site as much as possible and make as many contacts as possible, in order to strengthen that accountability. Because I am an addict. Nothing more, nothing less. But today I quit. Will you stand beside me in quitting?
Damn Straight I'll stand with you. The path to freedom feels good doesn't it. I wish I had thought of drinking the detox tea I had when I was in the suck. It should speed things along. I'll pm you my number.
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I have posted roll for the first time about 20 minutes ago, and have been nicotine free for 72 hours now. I feel so empowered! Lifting weights seems to help subdue cravings. Also, I've been drinking cranberry juice to try and detox a bit. Other than that, staying busy and thinking positively as much as possible. I've told my family to hold me to my promise to myself, and also notified co-workers and the boss. I have the whole day off and the next 3 so this will be my next test, as I have a lot of free time. I strive to utilize this site as much as possible and make as many contacts as possible, in order to strengthen that accountability. Because I am an addict. Nothing more, nothing less. But today I quit. Will you stand beside me in quitting?
Damn Straight I'll stand with you. The path to freedom feels good doesn't it. I wish I had thought of drinking the detox tea I had when I was in the suck. It should speed things along. I'll pm you my number.
Glad to see you finally made it on roll. Exercise of any sort will help with cravings, plus it's just good for you. Good job letting everyone know what you're embarking on, helps them understand somewhat of what you're going through. If you need something to help occupy you in your free time may I suggest live chat (up in the right corner) there's some great guys in there that will distract you. Pm me for a contact
MCO, quitting like fuck with you today!
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Welcome, I'm right there with you in terms of time. Good luck in your quit and stay strong.
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Hey all. Day four of my quit. Crossed two rather large bridges last night, and gave a stiff middle finger to the nic bitch on my way to the other side. First, I had to run out to the Nike outlet to take some Xmas stuff back in exchange for a gift card, and this outlet is about a 50 minute drive from my house. A year ago I would've jumped on the opportunity to drive out there even if I had no reason to go, i.e. volunteer to take my lil brother out there for something he needs. Now I looked like a really nice brother for doing that and spending all that gas so he could do his thing, but I know that why I really did it was to put a fat chaw in my mouth and crank up the tunes and coast. Yeah, nice little Karpman Triangle I pulled there-- seemed like the "hero", but really just a naive addict.
So anyways, I successfully made the trip all the way there nicotine-free, plus the way back. Since I had to stop somewhere else on the way back, the trip was probably a total of close to 2 hours driving. Call it a win for me :). I chomped the shit outta my gum and listened to some Stevie Ray Vaughan-- had a great time jamming out by myself. Goes to show you can "Getcha pull" without being enslaved to the nic bitch.
The second bridge I crossed was when I went over to my buddies to throw darts for 2 hours. Him and I have thrown in an astronomical amount of dips in together, whether it be playing video games, golf, darts, poker, or just drinking and talking. But I didn't want to cut him out of my life just because of an addiction, so I went over there and did just fine. I'm trying to be more cognizant of triggers, so I didn't have one sip of alcohol. I know that will be a sidestep to curbing my addiction.. and that's best* case scenario.
Anyways, feeling liberated more and more with my journey as I get through the suck and into the new life this site has afforded me. Just been relaxing at home trying to get over cold symptoms brought on by the weather... I'll live ;) ODAAT. Join me
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Hey all. Day four of my quit. Crossed two rather large bridges last night, and gave a stiff middle finger to the nic bitch on my way to the other side. First, I had to run out to the Nike outlet to take some Xmas stuff back in exchange for a gift card, and this outlet is about a 50 minute drive from my house. A year ago I would've jumped on the opportunity to drive out there even if I had no reason to go, i.e. volunteer to take my lil brother out there for something he needs. Now I looked like a really nice brother for doing that and spending all that gas so he could do his thing, but I know that why I really did it was to put a fat chaw in my mouth and crank up the tunes and coast. Yeah, nice little Karpman Triangle I pulled there-- seemed like the "hero", but really just a naive addict.
So anyways, I successfully made the trip all the way there nicotine-free, plus the way back. Since I had to stop somewhere else on the way back, the trip was probably a total of close to 2 hours driving. Call it a win for me :). I chomped the shit outta my gum and listened to some Stevie Ray Vaughan-- had a great time jamming out by myself. Goes to show you can "Getcha pull" without being enslaved to the nic bitch.
The second bridge I crossed was when I went over to my buddies to throw darts for 2 hours. Him and I have thrown in an astronomical amount of dips in together, whether it be playing video games, golf, darts, poker, or just drinking and talking. But I didn't want to cut him out of my life just because of an addiction, so I went over there and did just fine. I'm trying to be more cognizant of triggers, so I didn't have one sip of alcohol. I know that will be a sidestep to curbing my addiction.. and that's best* case scenario.
Anyways, feeling liberated more and more with my journey as I get through the suck and into the new life this site has afforded me. Just been relaxing at home trying to get over cold symptoms brought on by the weather... I'll live ;) ODAAT. Join me
Nice job. Feels good does it not?
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Hey all. Day four of my quit. Crossed two rather large bridges last night, and gave a stiff middle finger to the nic bitch on my way to the other side. First, I had to run out to the Nike outlet to take some Xmas stuff back in exchange for a gift card, and this outlet is about a 50 minute drive from my house. A year ago I would've jumped on the opportunity to drive out there even if I had no reason to go, i.e. volunteer to take my lil brother out there for something he needs. Now I looked like a really nice brother for doing that and spending all that gas so he could do his thing, but I know that why I really did it was to put a fat chaw in my mouth and crank up the tunes and coast. Yeah, nice little Karpman Triangle I pulled there-- seemed like the "hero", but really just a naive addict.
So anyways, I successfully made the trip all the way there nicotine-free, plus the way back. Since I had to stop somewhere else on the way back, the trip was probably a total of close to 2 hours driving. Call it a win for me :). I chomped the shit outta my gum and listened to some Stevie Ray Vaughan-- had a great time jamming out by myself. Goes to show you can "Getcha pull" without being enslaved to the nic bitch.
The second bridge I crossed was when I went over to my buddies to throw darts for 2 hours. Him and I have thrown in an astronomical amount of dips in together, whether it be playing video games, golf, darts, poker, or just drinking and talking. But I didn't want to cut him out of my life just because of an addiction, so I went over there and did just fine. I'm trying to be more cognizant of triggers, so I didn't have one sip of alcohol. I know that will be a sidestep to curbing my addiction.. and that's best* case scenario.
Anyways, feeling liberated more and more with my journey as I get through the suck and into the new life this site has afforded me. Just been relaxing at home trying to get over cold symptoms brought on by the weather... I'll live ;) ODAAT. Join me
Nice job. Feels good does it not?
Great job! The wins get easier, but the feel just as rewarding. Doesn't it feel great to win at something that you lost at day after day after day for years? Breaking the cycle is really life changing. And you are living it.
Proud to quit with you today!
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Hey all. Day four of my quit. Crossed two rather large bridges last night, and gave a stiff middle finger to the nic bitch on my way to the other side. First, I had to run out to the Nike outlet to take some Xmas stuff back in exchange for a gift card, and this outlet is about a 50 minute drive from my house. A year ago I would've jumped on the opportunity to drive out there even if I had no reason to go, i.e. volunteer to take my lil brother out there for something he needs. Now I looked like a really nice brother for doing that and spending all that gas so he could do his thing, but I know that why I really did it was to put a fat chaw in my mouth and crank up the tunes and coast. Yeah, nice little Karpman Triangle I pulled there-- seemed like the "hero", but really just a naive addict.
So anyways, I successfully made the trip all the way there nicotine-free, plus the way back. Since I had to stop somewhere else on the way back, the trip was probably a total of close to 2 hours driving. Call it a win for me :). I chomped the shit outta my gum and listened to some Stevie Ray Vaughan-- had a great time jamming out by myself. Goes to show you can "Getcha pull" without being enslaved to the nic bitch.
The second bridge I crossed was when I went over to my buddies to throw darts for 2 hours. Him and I have thrown in an astronomical amount of dips in together, whether it be playing video games, golf, darts, poker, or just drinking and talking. But I didn't want to cut him out of my life just because of an addiction, so I went over there and did just fine. I'm trying to be more cognizant of triggers, so I didn't have one sip of alcohol. I know that will be a sidestep to curbing my addiction.. and that's best* case scenario.
Anyways, feeling liberated more and more with my journey as I get through the suck and into the new life this site has afforded me. Just been relaxing at home trying to get over cold symptoms brought on by the weather... I'll live ;) ODAAT. Join me
Nice job. Feels good does it not?
Great job! The wins get easier, but the feel just as rewarding. Doesn't it feel great to win at something that you lost at day after day after day for years? Breaking the cycle is really life changing. And you are living it.
Proud to quit with you today!
Good job Jerk!! There will be many more tests, but if you can beat one crave, you can beat them all. Keep kicking that nic bitch to the curb!!
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To the day 1's and day 2's guys and gals... Read, absorb, make contacts, engorge yourself with this site. A month ago I could not sleep, had anxiety like a mofo, irritable, "the blues" constantly, etc.. Then I got on here and immediately felt better. Took the plunge shortly after and posted roll. And I quit. Every single day. I understand now that I am an addict and can NEVER go back to nicotine. Anyways, my observations of my quit this far in my first 11 days if anyone was curious:
My brain fog comes and goes. You may feel a moment of clarity coming on and then BAM! a grueling day at work where you feel off constantly. Push through it. Inform those in close contact with you that you might seem spacey at times, because it has happens a lot to me. I feel like stress buildup can bring that on.
I haven't really gained weight, but I was already on a pretty good diet plan months back before quitting and have been exercising regularly. This has been a HUGE factor in my quit. If you don't belong to a gym... find a hobby or something that you LOVE to do that doesn't involve nicotine.
Stay busy. I feel much better at night knowing I accomplished something earlier that day or did something important. Fact is, all quitters on this site HAVE done that today. Do something constructive to replace that nasty habit, and you will feel empowered.
My craves peaked around days 7-10. I hope it will get easier from here. I'm confident that it will, and if it gets worse, I'll be transparent on the way I'm feeling to someone that cares of my wellbeing.
You may feel vulnerable from time to time. You know: that mental visualization of a cave. Try to switch gears and go do something, and definitely reach out to someone on here if it becomes overbearing.
Bottom line: You have all been afforded the opportunity to belong to a tight-knit group here at KTC, a community that is proven it's effectiveness in quitting dip and chew. Your trust is earned here. I'm sure I have not earned mine yet, not from everyone at least. It can take 100 days, 1 year, 5 years, etc etc. posting roll on this site before you have any positive reputation at all, and it can be forever tainted in a matter of a few minutes. Think about that and you may start doing things differently.
ODAAT.
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My lips are tried from all that reading. Quit on brother!
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Jerk gets it. This was a great posting. Proud to quit with you today.
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Jerk gets it. This was a great posting. Proud to quit with you today.
Agree with this. Great post jerk. Be careful though. My days 10-20 were good as I felt I finally had a grip on quitting, only to have a real rough days 20 through 40 as the craves wouldn't let up. Keep grinding.
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To the day 1's and day 2's guys and gals... Read, absorb, make contacts, engorge yourself with this site. A month ago I could not sleep, had anxiety like a mofo, irritable, "the blues" constantly, etc.. Then I got on here and immediately felt better. Took the plunge shortly after and posted roll. And I quit. Every single day. I understand now that I am an addict and can NEVER go back to nicotine. Anyways, my observations of my quit this far in my first 11 days if anyone was curious:
My brain fog comes and goes. You may feel a moment of clarity coming on and then BAM! a grueling day at work where you feel off constantly. Push through it. Inform those in close contact with you that you might seem spacey at times, because it has happens a lot to me. I feel like stress buildup can bring that on.
I haven't really gained weight, but I was already on a pretty good diet plan months back before quitting and have been exercising regularly. This has been a HUGE factor in my quit. If you don't belong to a gym... find a hobby or something that you LOVE to do that doesn't involve nicotine.
Stay busy. I feel much better at night knowing I accomplished something earlier that day or did something important. Fact is, all quitters on this site HAVE done that today. Do something constructive to replace that nasty habit, and you will feel empowered.
My craves peaked around days 7-10. I hope it will get easier from here. I'm confident that it will, and if it gets worse, I'll be transparent on the way I'm feeling to someone that cares of my wellbeing.
You may feel vulnerable from time to time. You know: that mental visualization of a cave. Try to switch gears and go do something, and definitely reach out to someone on here if it becomes overbearing.
Bottom line: You have all been afforded the opportunity to belong to a tight-knit group here at KTC, a community that is proven it's effectiveness in quitting dip and chew. Your trust is earned here. I'm sure I have not earned mine yet, not from everyone at least. It can take 100 days, 1 year, 5 years, etc etc. posting roll on this site before you have any positive reputation at all, and it can be forever tainted in a matter of a few minutes. Think about that and you may start doing things differently.
ODAAT.
nice post
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So today is my Day 17 nicotine free. First day of a four day weekend, and I slept for most of it. Dragging ass. I guess that's my own fault for not keeping busy, but I feel like I'm in a funk. Craves have come back strong, and I think some of it is due to boredom. I need to change things up; the gym and my workouts have gotten kind of stale. Here's what my past couple of days have looked like:
Sunday: felt so good that I thought feeling that good should be illegal. Got plenty of rest the night before (hardly happens for me on a Saturday night to get good rest) and I felt mentally strong. Almost got a euphoric sense late in the evening, and that's when I wondered if it would last.
Monday: Tired in the morning (probably 5-5.5 hours sleep night before, which is low for me), then edgy and irritable in afternoon. DOOM AND GLOOM. It was all over a phone call that set me off. This was a good display of addict Joe. Joe that didn't have two perfect days in a row so he immediately throws a pity party (mostly internalized, at least how I remember)... I gotta be able to brush these things off better. Gotta stay focused and not let "Monday's" get to me so easily.
Tuesday: My last day of my workweek, so naturally I was in a better mood.
Today: Tired, unmotivated, irritable at times, flighty, etc.
Plenty of triggers in that span and since I've posted on this thread last. I'm able to beat them down fairly easily so far, but today I put ground coffee in my lip since I am a fiend. That's two days after telling a guy at work "that sounds disgusting and very messy"-- which it was. Not my proudest moment.. FUCK nicotine and what it's turned me into. So glad I'm quit with all of you today.
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Man, what an awesome read to go through all your posts. It sounds like 1) you are fighting this addiction no matter what, and 2) you are feeling at least a little better, which is always good. A couple guys said it but I'll repeat: for very few of us do the craves just totally stop after day 15 or 30 or even 50. They get more tolerable, more manageable and more infrequent; however, they still drop their stupid little heads in every once in a while. So, the most important part is being prepared. I did the coffee grounds thing a couple times, and you're right it's not great. But the important part is that when you felt like you HAD to put something in your lip, you had something on hand and weren't hopping in the car to go to the gas station. I'm not recommending fake, necessarily. Everyone's go their thing. I got some good use out of coffee ground pouches called Grinds (www.getgrinds.com (http://www.getgrinds.com)).
The product or type or method doesn't matter — as long as you are ready to fight back those craves whenever they come. I quit with you today EDD
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Enjoyed darts and a few card games without nicotine last night. Told a friend that I am quit for the past 20 days and he says, "Just wait Joe til we get on the golf course.." Like is that a challenge? Or is he envious of my success in my quit thus far? I can't wait until the day I prove them wrong on the course (mild winter means it could be in a few weeks), but I better take it one day at a time and stick to what has worked. Been 21 days now- 3 weeks- that's quite a feat for myself, but I couldn't have done it without all of you.. It's been a pleasure. I won't let a dumb comment bother me. Stick to my plan. Know my triggers and have a plan ALWAYS. No rash decisions. Most importantly: keep posting roll... and EARLY. Because I know my role (within the Apes). And I'm on a roll. And I don't want to get rolled by those that have fought so hard to keep my addict self quit.
ODAAT.
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So... today fucking sucked. Still experiencing a deep fog, anxiety, moodiness, constipation, worry about Dentist appt on February 12th. But guess what? I was thick skulled enough to try the neurotoxin in a can, so there will be no sympathy. I have had to ask forgiveness from people and also for myself in the way I have acted and what I've come short of doing. Nicotine left me powerless for a good seven years. Kodiak, Grizzly Wintergreen, Grizzly Mint, Red Man, Red Man in a can, Levi Garrett, Skoal Mint Xtra, bummed cigarettes... you name it, I've put it in my mouth. It's time I wake the fuck up and get real on here how I'm feeling. I'm done portraying my quit as some rosey, Disney-Ified epiphany that I had and how I overcame it all. Fact of the matter is that it's Day 22 for me and I am clearly miserable. Does it get better? I feel flatlined. Like I don't really give a shit if it's January or May, and probably wouldn't know had I use my phone/calendar as confirmation. Memory is fucked up beyond all reasonable doubt, especially short term memory. Organization skills clearly compromised. Ambition has dropped. Work productivity is marginalized. Fuck nicotine man! WHY IN THEE FUCK DID I EVER DO THIS TO MYSELF 'bang head'
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So... today fucking sucked. Still experiencing a deep fog, anxiety, moodiness, constipation, worry about Dentist appt on February 12th. But guess what? I was thick skulled enough to try the neurotoxin in a can, so there will be no sympathy. I have had to ask forgiveness from people and also for myself in the way I have acted and what I've come short of doing. Nicotine left me powerless for a good seven years. Kodiak, Grizzly Wintergreen, Grizzly Mint, Red Man, Red Man in a can, Levi Garrett, Skoal Mint Xtra, bummed cigarettes... you name it, I've put it in my mouth. It's time I wake the fuck up and get real on here how I'm feeling. I'm done portraying my quit as some rosey, Disney-Ified epiphany that I had and how I overcame it all. Fact of the matter is that it's Day 22 for me and I am clearly miserable. Does it get better? I feel flatlined. Like I don't really give a shit if it's January or May, and probably wouldn't know had I use my phone/calendar as confirmation. Memory is fucked up beyond all reasonable doubt, especially short term memory. Organization skills clearly compromised. Ambition has dropped. Work productivity is marginalized. Fuck nicotine man! WHY IN THEE FUCK DID I EVER DO THIS TO MYSELF 'bang head'
Lmao brother! Sound just like me! Day 30 for me having same shit but guess what I'm quit today, your quit today =longer life! I quit with you and I know by golly you can stay quit my friend need me pm me for digits
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So... today fucking sucked. Still experiencing a deep fog, anxiety, moodiness, constipation, worry about Dentist appt on February 12th. But guess what? I was thick skulled enough to try the neurotoxin in a can, so there will be no sympathy. I have had to ask forgiveness from people and also for myself in the way I have acted and what I've come short of doing. Nicotine left me powerless for a good seven years. Kodiak, Grizzly Wintergreen, Grizzly Mint, Red Man, Red Man in a can, Levi Garrett, Skoal Mint Xtra, bummed cigarettes... you name it, I've put it in my mouth. It's time I wake the fuck up and get real on here how I'm feeling. I'm done portraying my quit as some rosey, Disney-Ified epiphany that I had and how I overcame it all. Fact of the matter is that it's Day 22 for me and I am clearly miserable. Does it get better? I feel flatlined. Like I don't really give a shit if it's January or May, and probably wouldn't know had I use my phone/calendar as confirmation. Memory is fucked up beyond all reasonable doubt, especially short term memory. Organization skills clearly compromised. Ambition has dropped. Work productivity is marginalized. Fuck nicotine man! WHY IN THEE FUCK DID I EVER DO THIS TO MYSELF 'bang head'
Lmao brother! Sound just like me! Day 30 for me having same shit but guess what I'm quit today, your quit today =longer life! I quit with you and I know by golly you can stay quit my friend need me pm me for digits
Does it get better? Yes much.
You will be so glad you put this in writing dude. Because when the fog clears, and it will, and you see how clear the skies are without the haze of that neurotoxin... And you come back and read what you went through, you are gonna be crazy angry. And anger us sometimes a good motivator.
One day at a time dude - and remember, you'll never have to go through this again.
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So... today fucking sucked. Still experiencing a deep fog, anxiety, moodiness, constipation, worry about Dentist appt on February 12th. But guess what? I was thick skulled enough to try the neurotoxin in a can, so there will be no sympathy. I have had to ask forgiveness from people and also for myself in the way I have acted and what I've come short of doing. Nicotine left me powerless for a good seven years. Kodiak, Grizzly Wintergreen, Grizzly Mint, Red Man, Red Man in a can, Levi Garrett, Skoal Mint Xtra, bummed cigarettes... you name it, I've put it in my mouth. It's time I wake the fuck up and get real on here how I'm feeling. I'm done portraying my quit as some rosey, Disney-Ified epiphany that I had and how I overcame it all. Fact of the matter is that it's Day 22 for me and I am clearly miserable. Does it get better? I feel flatlined. Like I don't really give a shit if it's January or May, and probably wouldn't know had I use my phone/calendar as confirmation. Memory is fucked up beyond all reasonable doubt, especially short term memory. Organization skills clearly compromised. Ambition has dropped. Work productivity is marginalized. Fuck nicotine man! WHY IN THEE FUCK DID I EVER DO THIS TO MYSELF 'bang head'
Lmao brother! Sound just like me! Day 30 for me having same shit but guess what I'm quit today, your quit today =longer life! I quit with you and I know by golly you can stay quit my friend need me pm me for digits
Does it get better? Yes much.
You will be so glad you put this in writing dude. Because when the fog clears, and it will, and you see how clear the skies are without the haze of that neurotoxin... And you come back and read what you went through, you are gonna be crazy angry. And anger us sometimes a good motivator.
One day at a time dude - and remember, you'll never have to go through this again.
For whatever reason days 20-40 are rough. For me I think days 10-20 were great because I felt "I can actually do this!" But when the exhilaration of conquering my quit craves wore off, the craves kept coming and coming and coming. Very frustrating time, but it definitely ends. Unfortunately the power of nicotine is huge, the imprint it left on your brain takes a long time to reset. But it definitely will. Keep grinding.
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Day 32... Nic bitch is an annoying lil fucker isn't it? Almost like the itch you can't quite reach. Got my ass handed to me at work for the majority of the day on Monday and Tuesday. Today I woke up and felt great, eating much healthier, and I lifted. Now I'm noticing the dip rage mounting. It's almost like I can't do enough to subdue the cravings altogether. I don't want to fuck anything up by "going off" on family or anyone else, so I'll come here. I hate nicotine. I hate what it did to me and for what I'm still going through from 6+ years of ABUSE. Then someone... that's NEVER gone through this (outside KTC)... and doesn't understand will say, "Oooh it'll get better".... Yeah I want to punch them in the face and then say, "You were right, I'm feeling fanfuckingtastic! Good day to you!
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Day 32... Nic bitch is an annoying lil fucker isn't it? Almost like the itch you can't quite reach. Got my ass handed to me at work for the majority of the day on Monday and Tuesday. Today I woke up and felt great, eating much healthier, and I lifted. Now I'm noticing the dip rage mounting. It's almost like I can't do enough to subdue the cravings altogether. I don't want to fuck anything up by "going off" on family or anyone else, so I'll come here. I hate nicotine. I hate what it did to me and for what I'm still going through from 6+ years of ABUSE. Then someone... that's NEVER gone through this (outside KTC)... and doesn't understand will say, "Oooh it'll get better".... Yeah I want to punch them in the face and then say, "You were right, I'm feeling fanfuckingtastic! Good day to you!
Quittin' the rest of Today with ^^^^^ Badass!
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Day 32... Nic bitch is an annoying lil fucker isn't it? Almost like the itch you can't quite reach. Got my ass handed to me at work for the majority of the day on Monday and Tuesday. Today I woke up and felt great, eating much healthier, and I lifted. Now I'm noticing the dip rage mounting. It's almost like I can't do enough to subdue the cravings altogether. I don't want to fuck anything up by "going off" on family or anyone else, so I'll come here. I hate nicotine. I hate what it did to me and for what I'm still going through from 6+ years of ABUSE. Then someone... that's NEVER gone through this (outside KTC)... and doesn't understand will say, "Oooh it'll get better".... Yeah I want to punch them in the face and then say, "You were right, I'm feeling fanfuckingtastic! Good day to you!
Quittin' the rest of Today with ^^^^^ Badass!
Ohhh it Will get Better! (as I turn and run the other way) :)
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Day 32... Nic bitch is an annoying lil fucker isn't it? Almost like the itch you can't quite reach. Got my ass handed to me at work for the majority of the day on Monday and Tuesday. Today I woke up and felt great, eating much healthier, and I lifted. Now I'm noticing the dip rage mounting. It's almost like I can't do enough to subdue the cravings altogether. I don't want to fuck anything up by "going off" on family or anyone else, so I'll come here. I hate nicotine. I hate what it did to me and for what I'm still going through from 6+ years of ABUSE. Then someone... that's NEVER gone through this (outside KTC)... and doesn't understand will say, "Oooh it'll get better".... Yeah I want to punch them in the face and then say, "You were right, I'm feeling fanfuckingtastic! Good day to you!
Quittin' the rest of Today with ^^^^^ Badass!
Ohhh it Will get Better! (as I turn and run the other way) :)
Keep fighting Jerk! You are rewiring and trying to learn to deal with life without being on a substance that does nothing for you. It is a bit scary when you first get slammed at work and you don't dip. What do you do???? Running to the can of death used to be how we thought we solved the problem. Right???? Know this. Dipping did not solve anything. You actually created a second problem. The original problem still existed. You don't need dip to live. It just creates another issue.
You should be proud of yourself! You got thru your work problems without it! Feel good about that because you are living life! In time it will get easier, but for today you just need to battle thru it. You are doing great brother! Quit with you today.
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Day 32... Nic bitch is an annoying lil fucker isn't it? Almost like the itch you can't quite reach. Got my ass handed to me at work for the majority of the day on Monday and Tuesday. Today I woke up and felt great, eating much healthier, and I lifted. Now I'm noticing the dip rage mounting. It's almost like I can't do enough to subdue the cravings altogether. I don't want to fuck anything up by "going off" on family or anyone else, so I'll come here. I hate nicotine. I hate what it did to me and for what I'm still going through from 6+ years of ABUSE. Then someone... that's NEVER gone through this (outside KTC)... and doesn't understand will say, "Oooh it'll get better".... Yeah I want to punch them in the face and then say, "You were right, I'm feeling fanfuckingtastic! Good day to you!
Quittin' the rest of Today with ^^^^^ Badass!
Ohhh it Will get Better! (as I turn and run the other way) :)
Keep fighting Jerk! You are rewiring and trying to learn to deal with life without being on a substance that does nothing for you. It is a bit scary when you first get slammed at work and you don't dip. What do you do???? Running to the can of death used to be how we thought we solved the problem. Right???? Know this. Dipping did not solve anything. You actually created a second problem. The original problem still existed. You don't need dip to live. It just creates another issue.
You should be proud of yourself! You got thru your work problems without it! Feel good about that because you are living life! In time it will get easier, but for today you just need to battle thru it. You are doing great brother! Quit with you today.
Hell yes jerk you doing amazing! You could have taken easy way out and fingered the old bitch but instead you kicked her ass to the curb! Kuddos to you my friend takes a big man to walk away from his weakness! I'm on day 40 not an hour goes by the bitch aint licking on my ear but with all this support we can do this! Damn proud to be quit with you!
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Thanks for all the support to those that have reached out to me and helped me through these first 37 days. Feeling good the past couple days. Does anyone know of some informational websites (that are interesting) on the quit process? i.e. you get headaches because of the oxygen to the brain, nicotine mimics acetylcholine receptors, etc. etc. I love to read that stuff while I'm at work.
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Thanks for all the support to those that have reached out to me and helped me through these first 37 days. Feeling good the past couple days. Does anyone know of some informational websites (that are interesting) on the quit process? i.e. you get headaches because of the oxygen to the brain, nicotine mimics acetylcholine receptors, etc. etc. I love to read that stuff while I'm at work.
Here is a book I have read at least 4 times in my first year of quitting.
You can get it free online. It explains everything.
Freedom From Nicotine-The Journey Home, by John R. Polito.
Next to KTC, it helped me the most.
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Thanks for all the support to those that have reached out to me and helped me through these first 37 days. Feeling good the past couple days. Does anyone know of some informational websites (that are interesting) on the quit process? i.e. you get headaches because of the oxygen to the brain, nicotine mimics acetylcholine receptors, etc. etc. I love to read that stuff while I'm at work.
Here is a book I have read at least 4 times in my first year of quitting.
You can get it free online. It explains everything.
Freedom From Nicotine-The Journey Home, by John R. Polito.
Next to KTC, it helped me the most.
Thank you! I'll check it out.
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Day 56. It's been awhile since I've updated my quit log.
Feeling good. Told a buddy of mine that I quit and he didn't believe me. He tempted me with a can of Cope and I told him if he asked me again I would dump it out. He dared me to. I told him again: "Bro, I quit. I will walk outside and dump out the can if you ask me again." He smiled and nodded. So, I walked outside and opened the can and dumped that nasty crap as I waved at him.
I still use my Hooch Mint Rough Cut from time to time, but I don't feel that urge to use it as often since it contains no highly addictive chemicals.
It feels remarkable to be liberated from something so powerful. Something that controlled my life for so long. I honor my word and liberate myself every day from the chain of addiction, and that calls for celebration. I celebrate Day 56 as much as Day1, Day 10, or Day 30. 1 dip is too much and 1,000,000 never enough. I understand that now.
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Day 56. It's been awhile since I've updated my quit log.
Feeling good. Told a buddy of mine that I quit and he didn't believe me. He tempted me with a can of Cope and I told him if he asked me again I would dump it out. He dared me to. I told him again: "Bro, I quit. I will walk outside and dump out the can if you ask me again." He smiled and nodded. So, I walked outside and opened the can and dumped that nasty crap as I waved at him.
I still use my Hooch Mint Rough Cut from time to time, but I don't feel that urge to use it as often since it contains no highly addictive chemicals.
It feels remarkable to be liberated from something so powerful. Something that controlled my life for so long. I honor my word and liberate myself every day from the chain of addiction, and that calls for celebration. I celebrate Day 56 as much as Day1, Day 10, or Day 30. 1 dip is too much and 1,000,000 never enough. I understand that now.
After 595 days I still keep a can of Hooch on me at all times. I seldom if ever use it but I am surrounded by dipping addicts at the jobsite and in lieu of becoming a slave again I choose to be prepared. I absolutely can't stand the smell of Copenhagen anymore and I often tell men on site that their breath smells like a cat shit in their mouth.
Congrats on making it this far through the quit path. You definitely seem to get it.
Quitters like this make me happy because they make me want to quit that much more.
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Day 56. It's been awhile since I've updated my quit log.
Feeling good. Told a buddy of mine that I quit and he didn't believe me. He tempted me with a can of Cope and I told him if he asked me again I would dump it out. He dared me to. I told him again: "Bro, I quit. I will walk outside and dump out the can if you ask me again." He smiled and nodded. So, I walked outside and opened the can and dumped that nasty crap as I waved at him.
I still use my Hooch Mint Rough Cut from time to time, but I don't feel that urge to use it as often since it contains no highly addictive chemicals.
It feels remarkable to be liberated from something so powerful. Something that controlled my life for so long. I honor my word and liberate myself every day from the chain of addiction, and that calls for celebration. I celebrate Day 56 as much as Day1, Day 10, or Day 30. 1 dip is too much and 1,000,000 never enough. I understand that now.
After 595 days I still keep a can of Hooch on me at all times. I seldom if ever use it but I am surrounded by dipping addicts at the jobsite and in lieu of becoming a slave again I choose to be prepared. I absolutely can't stand the smell of Copenhagen anymore and I often tell men on site that their breath smells like a cat shit in their mouth.
Congrats on making it this far through the quit path. You definitely seem to get it.
Quitters like this make me happy because they make me want to quit that much more.
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Dude what a great post. Proud to quit with you today. 8 weeks of freedom!
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Quitting chewing to anyone outside of KTC can look like, well, quitting chewing. But to us and those that really care about us, we know it is so much more than that. It really is a total lifestyle transition. It's about eating healthier, exercising more, and most importantly, trusting our Quit Brothers and Vets that it will someday get better and we will return to the person we really are without the poison.
I'm on Day 63 and my moods have leveled out somewhat. I feel an inner calm that I didn't have before I quit. I seldom think about chewing, and can tell myself with 100% conviction that one chew would do NO good for me, and would be a very "expensive" dip, and I don't mean monetary cost.
Leading up to deciding to quit I really didn't like the way my life was going. I started to withdraw from myself a bit. I had this image of myself walking.... with my hands in my pockets... just walking with my head down towards an ambiguous location, but the location gets darker and darker. Almost like a black mist. F'ed up, right!? This image in my head speaks volumes of what I thought of myself.
Since quitting nicotine and joining KTC, the image in my head is this: Standing tall and proud, with a smug grin on my face. I have the NIC B pinned underneath one of my steel-toed boots as I squeeze the life out of the demon... Pressing down with all of my might. Making it squeal. Making it hiss. I know if I let up my grip on it, it will defeat me. That's why I don't. It's redemption for all of the time I suffered as it's master. But now I am in control. And it feels wonderful. The best part is that I get to experience it every, single day.
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Quitting chewing to anyone outside of KTC can look like, well, quitting chewing. But to us and those that really care about us, we know it is so much more than that. It really is a total lifestyle transition. It's about eating healthier, exercising more, and most importantly, trusting our Quit Brothers and Vets that it will someday get better and we will return to the person we really are without the poison.
I'm on Day 63 and my moods have leveled out somewhat. I feel an inner calm that I didn't have before I quit. I seldom think about chewing, and can tell myself with 100% conviction that one chew would do NO good for me, and would be a very "expensive" dip, and I don't mean monetary cost.
Leading up to deciding to quit I really didn't like the way my life was going. I started to withdraw from myself a bit. I had this image of myself walking.... with my hands in my pockets... just walking with my head down towards an ambiguous location, but the location gets darker and darker. Almost like a black mist. F'ed up, right!? This image in my head speaks volumes of what I thought of myself.
Since quitting nicotine and joining KTC, the image in my head is this: Standing tall and proud, with a smug grin on my face. I have the NIC B pinned underneath one of my steel-toed boots as I squeeze the life out of the demon... Pressing down with all of my might. Making it squeal. Making it hiss. I know if I let up my grip on it, it will defeat me. That's why I don't. It's redemption for all of the time I suffered as it's master. But now I am in control. And it feels wonderful. The best part is that I get to experience it every, single day.
Doing awesome jerk! Not much feels better than defeating a true demon! Thanks for the post my quits stronger today because of you! Damn proud to be quit with you my Ape brother!
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Great post Jerk. I felt like such a pussy telling my best friends I was quitting, only to make it a day or two. I must have done that about 50 times until people pretty much just shrugged when I told them I would try to quit, knowing full well I wouldn't last. I was always ashamed and felt so weak that I had to spend $7 a day on a bullshit drug that could give me cancer. Being able to "stand tall" is one of the greatest benefits of quitting I think. Keep up the good fight.
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Day 100!
Congratulations dude! There is so much upside from here that you won't believe it, but ODAAT you have beaten down some tough days and will never have to relive that misery. Thanks for all that you do - enjoy this first big milestone, and see you at 101.
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Day 100!
Congratulations dude! There is so much upside from here that you won't believe it, but ODAAT you have beaten down some tough days and will never have to relive that misery. Thanks for all that you do - enjoy this first big milestone, and see you at 101.
Yes sir jerk! Congratulations on 100 days! I see you at 200! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
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Day 100!
Congratulations dude! There is so much upside from here that you won't believe it, but ODAAT you have beaten down some tough days and will never have to relive that misery. Thanks for all that you do - enjoy this first big milestone, and see you at 101.
Yes sir jerk! Congratulations on 100 days! I see you at 200! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Thanks, guys! It's actually Day 99 for me but I plan to stay quit tomorrow just like the previous 99 ;)
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Day 100!
Congratulations dude! There is so much upside from here that you won't believe it, but ODAAT you have beaten down some tough days and will never have to relive that misery. Thanks for all that you do - enjoy this first big milestone, and see you at 101.
Yes sir jerk! Congratulations on 100 days! I see you at 200! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Thanks, guys! It's actually Day 99 for me but I plan to stay quit tomorrow just like the previous 99 ;)
HOF brother, congratulations!
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Day 100!
Congratulations dude! There is so much upside from here that you won't believe it, but ODAAT you have beaten down some tough days and will never have to relive that misery. Thanks for all that you do - enjoy this first big milestone, and see you at 101.
Yes sir jerk! Congratulations on 100 days! I see you at 200! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Thanks, guys! It's actually Day 99 for me but I plan to stay quit tomorrow just like the previous 99 ;)
HOF brother, congratulations!
Well done Jerk.
Congrats on HOF, with all those apes.
That's wanting something in my book!
Keep killing it. EDD ODAAT.
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Day 100!
Congratulations dude! There is so much upside from here that you won't believe it, but ODAAT you have beaten down some tough days and will never have to relive that misery. Thanks for all that you do - enjoy this first big milestone, and see you at 101.
Yes sir jerk! Congratulations on 100 days! I see you at 200! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Thanks, guys! It's actually Day 99 for me but I plan to stay quit tomorrow just like the previous 99 ;)
HOF brother, congratulations!
Well done Jerk.
Congrats on HOF, with all those apes.
That's wanting something in my book!
Keep killing it. EDD ODAAT.
Outstanding Jerk! Congrats!
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Day 100!
Congratulations dude! There is so much upside from here that you won't believe it, but ODAAT you have beaten down some tough days and will never have to relive that misery. Thanks for all that you do - enjoy this first big milestone, and see you at 101.
Yes sir jerk! Congratulations on 100 days! I see you at 200! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Thanks, guys! It's actually Day 99 for me but I plan to stay quit tomorrow just like the previous 99 ;)
HOF brother, congratulations!
Well done Jerk.
Congrats on HOF, with all those apes.
That's wanting something in my book!
Keep killing it. EDD ODAAT.
Outstanding Jerk! Congrats!
Congrats Jerk! Keep it up!
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Day 149- Wow, where do I start. Since I posted on this Intro thread last I have hit the HOF and have experienced the entire spectrum of emotions that one can feel. My memory has faded from early in my quit, but I feel like the first 60-80 days of my Quit were invigorating- lots of discussion in my Quit Group (April Apes), everything was fresh and new, and then things started to slow down. Shortly after we were all excited to hit the Hall and that was a very special occasion. I think the 110's-149 has been tough. That's when I've noticed the complacency, blah's, boredom, mild depression, and the frustration and bitterness has yet to leave me for more than a day or two. It was like I was constantly being padded on the back the first couple months, and now I'm just really dwelling on the tremendous accomplishment and life-changing decision to QUIT for good. As guys in our quit group become largely less active while some start to drift from the site completely, I am reminded of working for a corporation with a lot of layoffs. It's like sitting at your desk and seeing this guy get fired, this person take a new job, this guy getting promoted, this one retiring... and you just can't keep up with it all. All the while upper management is constantly changing standard procedures. It can be hard, and all this change has been hard on me. We have lost one of our most vocal Apes, and several others that have been instrumental in my Quit thus far are starting to fade away..
I vow to stick with KTC. I quit for today. I want this post to be a sort of time capsule for coming back and reminiscing about how I was still bitter and frustrated at day 149. Because at this point, I am at the stage where I am learning to cope with everything without a drug. It can all be pretty heavy at times.
Joe: I hope this post serves it's purpose someday when you finally move out of your parents' house. You have furthered your education and gotten that lucrative break to start working in the Finance industry. You are likely married and living high on the hog, and no longer buried and encumbered with student loan debt. Your QUIT is strong as fuck and you take every possible opportunity to preach to others the LIES of NICOTINE and ADDICTION. You are happy and off all psych medication. You made it, and it all started here in this crazy group of dudes that believed I could quit the most addictive substance known to man, and one of the most toxic.
I quit for today for that is all I can control or will worry about.
Jerk11
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And Joe you are a fine young man who when he puts his mind to something he doesn't stop until he accomplished what he started! Damn proud to call you my brother and friend! Remember joe we all started somewhere in life and it all comes down to how bad you want something in life, whatever it is it's possible just takes want to and perseverance! Quit on badass!
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And Joe you are a fine young man who when he puts his mind to something he doesn't stop until he accomplished what he started! Damn proud to call you my brother and friend! Remember joe we all started somewhere in life and it all comes down to how bad you want something in life, whatever it is it's possible just takes want to and perseverance! Quit on badass!
I hear ya Joe. Change can be tough. I worked for a company that must have had 10 layoffs over 8 years and I would always have the same feeling after each one. I always felt a sense of loss and thought that work simply wouldn't be enjoyable moving forward. It would always be a bit depressing for a short while but over time you adapt and you meet new people. Glad you haven't lost sight of the reasons you're here. You're a solid quitter man. Lots of us are here for the long haul and there are plenty of new quitters each day that could use your help! Quit with ya man.
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Congratulations, 200 days man!
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Congratulations, 200 days man!
Congrats... GO Jerk Go!
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Congratulations, 200 days man!
Congrats... GO Jerk Go!
Way to go jerk, got your whole life ahead of you and a helluva better start than most of us here because you're nic free at such a young age! Congrats on 200 brother!
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Congratulations, 200 days man!
Congrats... GO Jerk Go!
Way to go jerk, got your whole life ahead of you and a helluva better start than most of us here because you're nic free at such a young age! Congrats on 200 brother!
Congrats Jerk! your quit is top notch!
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Day 259:
I wanted to share a reflection I had in bed the other night (it's about nicotine/addiction, I promise 'winker' ). I was lying down with the lights off and my mind started to drift as it normally does at this time. Thinking about what it would feel like, at day 259, to pop a real dip in my lip... now before you freak the F out and chastise me for bringing this up, let me finish my thought process...
So there I would be. Lying in the dark by myself. Suppose I mad the incredibly rash, selfish, ignorant, ill-advised decision to have a dip that night before bed. Say I didn't even need to run to the store, but that it was right there in my dresser. How would I feel when I put it in my lip? This is how I best imagined it:
Joe puts dip in lip. Eyelids dilate immediately, get that "rush" feeling for about 10 seconds. After the 10 second high, I become extremely queasy. Like ran a mile and then immediately consumed a Double Quarter Pounder meal with a regular Coke, in less than a total of 20 minutes. At this point.... I am hunched over with what feels like a giant, concentrated hangover.... if hangovers were what it feels when you put poison in your body, poison that your body used to be fed constantly....
Those are just the purely physical effects. What would be going through my mind? Surely, strong thoughts of guilt, shame, and embarrassment would be the overall feeling. Would I see Alvin, Tony, Doug, and Michael and the look of dissappointment on their face? What about all the newbies I helped along the way? What would their expressions look like? I never want to know or have to imagine that again. That's why I posted roll this morning and decided to QUIT for today.
Also, I am amazed at how better I feel at 259 than 149 when I last posted a long reflection such as this.
For anyone on the fence about quitting for good.... POST your Day 1 and flush all that poison. It's the biggest self-inflicting liability. Be done with the lies of addiction. You owe it to yourself. I chose LIFE over a poisonous weed.
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Congrats on day 259 and thank you for the thoughts. I am on day 12 and can't wait to be able to reflect on some large quit milestones. Reading posts like this helped me in ways I can't express to quit and get me through that first week. Thank you again and stay quit strong.
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Excellent post and perspective. You are a great mentor Joe - you get it. Quit with you today.
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Excellent post and perspective. You are a great mentor Joe - you get it. Quit with you today.
Aww what an inspiration to see a Yong man quit and getting it done one day at a time! If I had quit at your age, oh well I didn't but I am thankful I quit see I never seen myself quitting, thanks joe my quit brother! Quit on!
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A little late, congratulations on 3rd floor man!
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A little late, congratulations on 3rd floor man!
Congratulations joe! You are doing great my friend! You have proved to yourself and everyone around you can do anything you put your heart and soul in! Quit on! Damn proud of you!
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A little late, congratulations on 3rd floor man!
Congratulations joe! You are doing great my friend! You have proved to yourself and everyone around you can do anything you put your heart and soul in! Quit on! Damn proud of you!
Congratulations my friend!
30 is where good starts turning to great. One day at a time you are taking life by the horns!!!
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Day 344. Knocking on a full year Nic-free. This year I will actually want to stay longer on Christmas to be able to enjoy that precious time with family. I won't be escaping to my Nissan to get my fix. I played golf on Friday without it and without fake, and there really wasn't a passing thought of even considering either. It's amazing how quickly we adapt to the "new" (or old, depending on how you look at it) us. I owe all of that to KTC and the wonderful people here that have helped me along the way. That support and accountability are invaluable to a lying, cheating, selfish, dirty nicotine addict as myself. Never forget.
For those of you looking in from the outside or early in your quit... this site is everything it is cracked up to be, and much more. If you are recently quit and suffering... stay patient and always ASK FOR HELP IF YOU NEED IT. I'm always amazed at how helpful people are if you share with them how you are feeling or if you experience scary signs from long-term nic abuse. This goes for both KTC and outside KTC.
Give yourself and your family the greatest Xmas gift of your life and Kick the Can to the Curb.
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Day 344. Knocking on a full year Nic-free. This year I will actually want to stay longer on Christmas to be able to enjoy that precious time with family. I won't be escaping to my Nissan to get my fix. I played golf on Friday without it and without fake, and there really wasn't a passing thought of even considering either. It's amazing how quickly we adapt to the "new" (or old, depending on how you look at it) us. I owe all of that to KTC and the wonderful people here that have helped me along the way. That support and accountability are invaluable to a lying, cheating, selfish, dirty nicotine addict as myself. Never forget.
For those of you looking in from the outside or early in your quit... this site is everything it is cracked up to be, and much more. If you are recently quit and suffering... stay patient and always ASK FOR HELP IF YOU NEED IT. I'm always amazed at how helpful people are if you share with them how you are feeling or if you experience scary signs from long-term nic abuse. This goes for both KTC and outside KTC.
Give yourself and your family the greatest Xmas gift of your life and Kick the Can to the Curb.
I hope new quitters read this intro start to finish. You are a different dude than when you started. Nice.
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Day 344. Knocking on a full year Nic-free. This year I will actually want to stay longer on Christmas to be able to enjoy that precious time with family. I won't be escaping to my Nissan to get my fix. I played golf on Friday without it and without fake, and there really wasn't a passing thought of even considering either. It's amazing how quickly we adapt to the "new" (or old, depending on how you look at it) us. I owe all of that to KTC and the wonderful people here that have helped me along the way. That support and accountability are invaluable to a lying, cheating, selfish, dirty nicotine addict as myself. Never forget.
For those of you looking in from the outside or early in your quit... this site is everything it is cracked up to be, and much more. If you are recently quit and suffering... stay patient and always ASK FOR HELP IF YOU NEED IT. I'm always amazed at how helpful people are if you share with them how you are feeling or if you experience scary signs from long-term nic abuse. This goes for both KTC and outside KTC.
Give yourself and your family the greatest Xmas gift of your life and Kick the Can to the Curb.
I hope new quitters read this intro start to finish. You are a different dude than when you started. Nice.
I am a waaaayyy different dude, Michael, and frankly... I don't like it. Since quitting, my anxiety and moodiness that had become a part of being "Joe" is seldom anymore; it's almost nonexistent. I sleep way too well now and am on way too regular of a sleep pattern, and it doesn't sit well with me. My attitude and outlook on life is way too bright, so I had to buy some sunglasses. I made the rash decision to slow down my alcohol consumption after noticing how much I was spending on it and how much weight I had gained. My girlfriend absolutely despises this decision. She said I am way more attractive and appealing when I am hammered at the bar with what looks like a dresser drawer for a bottom lip... At 1:30 in the morning. I'm no longer getting compliments on my breath, especially since I stopped drinking coffee. Oh, coffee. Will I miss spending around $1,000 on you per year. Will I miss your bitter taste and the way you trick me into being in a good mood, instead of truly being happy from within. I will miss those jitters the most, along with the nervousness and again, irregular sleep or lack there of. I want the old Joe back. The one who didn't know who we was. Didn't know what he was made of. Didn't know there is a separate life, one different from chemical slavery and lies.
/Sarcasm. Life is good, and it still keeps getting better in the 300's+. Never again for any reason.
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Day 344. Knocking on a full year Nic-free. This year I will actually want to stay longer on Christmas to be able to enjoy that precious time with family. I won't be escaping to my Nissan to get my fix. I played golf on Friday without it and without fake, and there really wasn't a passing thought of even considering either. It's amazing how quickly we adapt to the "new" (or old, depending on how you look at it) us. I owe all of that to KTC and the wonderful people here that have helped me along the way. That support and accountability are invaluable to a lying, cheating, selfish, dirty nicotine addict as myself. Never forget.
For those of you looking in from the outside or early in your quit... this site is everything it is cracked up to be, and much more. If you are recently quit and suffering... stay patient and always ASK FOR HELP IF YOU NEED IT. I'm always amazed at how helpful people are if you share with them how you are feeling or if you experience scary signs from long-term nic abuse. This goes for both KTC and outside KTC.
Give yourself and your family the greatest Xmas gift of your life and Kick the Can to the Curb.
I hope new quitters read this intro start to finish. You are a different dude than when you started. Nice.
I am a waaaayyy different dude, Michael, and frankly... I don't like it. Since quitting, my anxiety and moodiness that had become a part of being "Joe" is seldom anymore; it's almost nonexistent. I sleep way too well now and am on way too regular of a sleep pattern, and it doesn't sit well with me. My attitude and outlook on life is way too bright, so I had to buy some sunglasses. I made the rash decision to slow down my alcohol consumption after noticing how much I was spending on it and how much weight I had gained. My girlfriend absolutely despises this decision. She said I am way more attractive and appealing when I am hammered at the bar with what looks like a dresser drawer for a bottom lip... At 1:30 in the morning. I'm no longer getting compliments on my breath, especially since I stopped drinking coffee. Oh, coffee. Will I miss spending around $1,000 on you per year. Will I miss your bitter taste and the way you trick me into being in a good mood, instead of truly being happy from within. I will miss those jitters the most, along with the nervousness and again, irregular sleep or lack there of. I want the old Joe back. The one who didn't know who we was. Didn't know what he was made of. Didn't know there is a separate life, one different from chemical slavery and lies.
/Sarcasm. Life is good, and it still keeps getting better in the 300's+. Never again for any reason.
^^^^ This is what none of us expected to happen when we quit. We all thought we were losing a friend, a companion, something that did something positive for us. It takes time to get to the revelation that you typed out - and in the beginning just making it through a day is a goddamn miracle - but the freedoms and positive life changes that quitting the KTC way brings to us is truly a blessing. Thanks for typing out another addendum to a great introduction.
As always, it is an honor to quit with you today. For the record... I'm a lil ahead of you in terms of quit days, and I'll tell you... it keeps getting better!
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Congratulations on 365 bad ass days of winning every damn day, Joe!
Proud to quit with you today!
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4th floor man! BAQ right there!
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4th floor man! BAQ right there!
Congrats on 4th floor!
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Congrats on 500 days man!!!
The quit is good bro!
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Congrats on 500 days man!!!
The quit is good bro!
Congratulations Joe! Getting our lives in order sure feels good huh? Damn proud of you!
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Congrats on 500 days man!!!
The quit is good bro!
Congratulations Joe! Getting our lives in order sure feels good huh? Damn proud of you!
Awesome! Huge milestone brother!
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Congrats on 500 days man!!!
The quit is good bro!
Congratulations Joe! Getting our lives in order sure feels good huh? Damn proud of you!
Awesome! Huge milestone brother!
CONGRATS You Jerk!
Keep pushing the big peddle on the right..
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Congrats on 500 days man!!!
The quit is good bro!
Congratulations Joe! Getting our lives in order sure feels good huh? Damn proud of you!
Awesome! Huge milestone brother!
CONGRATS You Jerk!
Keep pushing the big peddle on the right..
Congrats on 2 laps Joe!
Quit wit you EDD!
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Congrats on 500 days man!!!
The quit is good bro!
Congratulations Joe! Getting our lives in order sure feels good huh? Damn proud of you!
Awesome! Huge milestone brother!
CONGRATS You Jerk!
Keep pushing the big peddle on the right..
Congrats on 2 laps Joe!
Quit wit you EDD!
2 years Joe! Have fun celebrating on the slopes!
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Happy Honeymoon dude 'boob' and congrats on 9th floor!!
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Happy Honeymoon dude 'boob' and congrats on 9th floor!!
Congratulation Joe!
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Happy Honeymoon dude 'boob' and congrats on 9th floor!!
Congratulation Joe!
Honeymoon all dedicated to sex and no dip ! Damn that's awesome congratulations
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Congratulations on 1,000 days of greatness! Freedom is a wonderful thing!!