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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: AMFH on January 03, 2015, 04:03:00 PM
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Hi all! I'm Ash and I recently made the decision to quit my favorite bad habit that I've kept around for about 8 years now. Not "quit" - like I had before, to hush up friends, family, and rude strangers about my little addiction - but to actually quit. For me this time. I'm tired of having to take certain times of the day to have a "time out" (dip time). I'm tired of having to make sure that I swing by a gas station when I start to run too low. I'm tired of hiding the habit from as many people as I can for fear of being judged - and I'm tired of their reactions of horror when they do find out. I'm tired of making sure that I don't have any stuck in my teeth before I get out of the car to go into work, the store, wherever. I'm just tired of the whole thing - I don't like being a slave to a little can. So last week, I decided that as soon as I finished with the roll that I had just bought, I was finished - done. For good this time. Around 4:30 in the afternoon on New Year's Eve, I had my last dip. Day one wasn't bad. Day two wasn't terrible. And day three has been pretty awful. Headache, foggy, sore throat, all those fun things. In a way, it strengthens my decision. Why would I want to continue a habit that can make me feel like this?
About me... I'm 24. I love spending time outdoors - fishing, hiking, camping, you name it. As long as I'm outside, I'm happy. I work in accounting on the civilian side, have been in the National Guard for close to four years now, and am on my town's fire department as a volunteer FF/EMT.
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Hi all! I'm Ash and I recently made the decision to quit my favorite bad habit that I've kept around for about 8 years now. Not "quit" - like I had before, to hush up friends, family, and rude strangers about my little addiction - but to actually quit. For me this time. I'm tired of having to take certain times of the day to have a "time out" (dip time). I'm tired of having to make sure that I swing by a gas station when I start to run too low. I'm tired of hiding the habit from as many people as I can for fear of being judged - and I'm tired of their reactions of horror when they do find out. I'm tired of making sure that I don't have any stuck in my teeth before I get out of the car to go into work, the store, wherever. I'm just tired of the whole thing - I don't like being a slave to a little can. So last week, I decided that as soon as I finished with the roll that I had just bought, I was finished - done. For good this time. Around 4:30 in the afternoon on New Year's Eve, I had my last dip. Day one wasn't bad. Day two wasn't terrible. And day three has been pretty awful. Headache, foggy, sore throat, all those fun things. In a way, it strengthens my decision. Why would I want to continue a habit that can make me feel like this?
About me... I'm 24. I love spending time outdoors - fishing, hiking, camping, you name it. As long as I'm outside, I'm happy. I work in accounting on the civilian side, have been in the National Guard for close to four years now, and am on my town's fire department as a volunteer FF/EMT.
Congrats Ash on making a great decision. Do a lot of reading on this site there is tons of great info to help you quit. First head to the welcome center and then make your way to the April '15 quit group and post roll. Roll is your promise to yourself and to us that you will not use nic today. There are some links you can check out at the top of the April roll. Congrats and welcome.
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Welcome, but lose the word "habit", and embrace the word addiction. It is hard, but we are all addicts here. Also, please visit the Welcome Center and post roll.
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Welcome, but lose the word "habit", and embrace the word addiction. It is hard, but we are all addicts here. Also, please visit the Welcome Center and post roll.
Congrats on deciding to take back your freedom.
Head on over to the welcome center (http://forum.killthecan.org/forum/55560/) to see how to post roll. It is our promise to not use nicotine and we make that promise each day. you'll be a part of april 2015 group and there are several other people in there who are going through the same "suck" as you.
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Hi all! I'm Ash and I recently made the decision to quit my favorite bad habit that I've kept around for about 8 years now. Not "quit" - like I had before, to hush up friends, family, and rude strangers about my little addiction - but to actually quit. For me this time. I'm tired of having to take certain times of the day to have a "time out" (dip time). I'm tired of having to make sure that I swing by a gas station when I start to run too low. I'm tired of hiding the habit from as many people as I can for fear of being judged - and I'm tired of their reactions of horror when they do find out. I'm tired of making sure that I don't have any stuck in my teeth before I get out of the car to go into work, the store, wherever. I'm just tired of the whole thing - I don't like being a slave to a little can. So last week, I decided that as soon as I finished with the roll that I had just bought, I was finished - done. For good this time. Around 4:30 in the afternoon on New Year's Eve, I had my last dip. Day one wasn't bad. Day two wasn't terrible. And day three has been pretty awful. Headache, foggy, sore throat, all those fun things. In a way, it strengthens my decision. Why would I want to continue a habit that can make me feel like this?
About me... I'm 24. I love spending time outdoors - fishing, hiking, camping, you name it. As long as I'm outside, I'm happy. I work in accounting on the civilian side, have been in the National Guard for close to four years now, and am on my town's fire department as a volunteer FF/EMT.
On day 3 as well. Riding the suck coaster with you right now. Glad to be quit with you today.
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Get this quit. Go Army beat Navy.
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Hey Ash. Female quitter here. I wish I would have quit when I was 24! Instead, I kept on going, can after can after can. 22 years later, I found this place. I have tried to quit several times before. Not until I found a place like this, that provided accountability with others that really truly got this whole thing, did it click and make sense for me.
You do not have a habit. You are a nicotine addict. The very fact that you waited to use the entire roll is proof of the strong hold it has on you. I am so very glad that you quit!
Now, how do you stay quit?
1- post roll. You need to make a promise to yourself and to those who support you here that today, 24 hours, all day long, you will not use nicotine in any form. No patch, no gum, no cigar, no puff on an e-cigg. Nothing.
2- get involved and listen. You will be getting some numbers of other quitters and they are extending to you, a life line. This is where you reach out when you are having the worst cravings, when you feel depressed, when you are about to do anything for that pinch - you dial a number. You can't get these life lines by just hanging out. Visit chat, read other intros, read the endless amount of help in these walls.
3 - Keep that shit out of your mouth. Sounds so simple right? It is! Use gum, seeds, toothpicks, fake, bite all your nails off, whatever. Just don't put that shit in your mouth. You made a promise - you are involved and armed with numbers - USE THEM!
So, I am going to quit with you today. There is nothing more I love than quitting like a girl!
Let's go lady!
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Thank you all for the welcome! It's already been really helpful to be able to read stories from others about their quitting experiences. I figured out how to post roll and will be doing that. Any other tips you guys have are definitely welcome. Thanks again!
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Hi Ash, welcome to KTC and glad you're here. Good idea to pay at the pump instead of going inside to grab a coffee or whatever. I had to change my daily behavior at first because everything in my world had revolved around a green can since I was in high school. Just read everything you can (Words of Wisdom, HOF speeches, WildCard,etc) and drink a lot of water. Hope the guys at the firehouse are cool with your quit. You don't need another obstacle right now. Again, welcome.
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Thank you all for the welcome! It's already been really helpful to be able to read stories from others about their quitting experiences. I figured out how to post roll and will be doing that. Any other tips you guys have are definitely welcome. Thanks again!
Way to nail your first roll post. As everyone here has said read everything you can! Quit with you today. See ya tomorrow for another day freedom!
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Welcome! The others have obviously provided great information about quitting.
As a 22 year old, I can see how lucky we are to quit at such a young age. Sounds like you're off to a great start.
Feel free to PM me if you need a fellow young quitter to reach out to.
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Hi Ash. Welcome to the suck. You'll find this place offers everything you need to rid yourself of the nic bitch. I don't know you but I'm proud of you. Making the decision to save someone else's live is easy. Making the decision to save your own takes courage.
That said... and, forgive me, I don't want to ruin your first day.... but you're going to see a lot of shit here that's going to be harsh and unforgiving. You're here to do a job. That job is going to save your life. We're you're colleagues and we're here to help you do that job. But sometimes you won't like us. Don't take it personally. It will help to understand "why are we dicks?" (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=2177323&t=1007130)
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Welcome to the club!
Best one I've joined in awhile. I PM'd you my number and feel free to reach out if you need it. Quit on!
TxTaco1 Out!
(Jason)
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Thanks all! No worries - I definitely understand about being a little harsh sometimes, I'm not the type who gets her feelings hurt too easily.
Today was Day 4 -- still with the headache feeling a little foggy, but not nearly as bad as yesterday. Tomorrow, I'm taking the money I'd normally spend on Copenhagen and opening a gym membership, which I think will help. Thank you all for the words of encouragement, you guys rock and have already helped out a ton!
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Thanks all! No worries - I definitely understand about being a little harsh sometimes, I'm not the type who gets her feelings hurt too easily.
Today was Day 4 -- still with the headache feeling a little foggy, but not nearly as bad as yesterday. Tomorrow, I'm taking the money I'd normally spend on Copenhagen and opening a gym membership, which I think will help. Thank you all for the words of encouragement, you guys rock and have already helped out a ton!
Hi Ash,
Welcome to the best decision you've ever made. I know it sucks right now but it will get better. There are ups and downs but as you stay quit the ups get higher and the downs fewer.
Read all you can as knowledge is your best weapon against nic. Embrace your craves and own them. Focus on them and breath deep. As you conquer one after another you will become empowered.
Your mind set must be never again for any reason will you put that shit in your mouth. The success rate for quitters as young as you is low, but I have a good feeling about you. Use the resources here, drink the KoolAid and you will succeed. Send me a PM if you need some more accountability.
Quit with you today. Tomorrow we will repeat.
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I recently made the decision to quit my favorite bad habit that I've kept around for about 8 years now.
You've been quit for a few days now, you've posted roll, and it sounds like you're drinking the kool-aid around here. With that said, can you re-read this blurb from your first sentence. Sound kind of out of place? I'm not talking about the "habit" word, my friends have already opened your eyes to the word "addiction." I'm actually stuck on the "favorite" part. Everything I've read on your thread from the last 24-36 hours has all the makings of a successful quitter, so I just wanted to give you one additional way of thinking as you embark upon your quit. You need to hate nicotine, with every ounce of your body. All those things your tired of, like being a slave to that can, are reasons to hate nicotine.
Nicotine is pure evil and you must fight fire with fire. Hate it more than the hold it has on you. Keep it up AM
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Thanks all! No worries - I definitely understand about being a little harsh sometimes, I'm not the type who gets her feelings hurt too easily.
Today was Day 4 -- still with the headache feeling a little foggy, but not nearly as bad as yesterday. Tomorrow, I'm taking the money I'd normally spend on Copenhagen and opening a gym membership, which I think will help. Thank you all for the words of encouragement, you guys rock and have already helped out a ton!
Hi Ash,
Welcome and stay strong. One day at a time, the people on this site are unreal. I'm on day 18. Leverage the shit out of the site, make your commitment and post roll first thing, get digits and let it be your turn to dominate the nic bitch.
Cheers,
Pelly
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Thanks all! No worries - I definitely understand about being a little harsh sometimes, I'm not the type who gets her feelings hurt too easily.
Today was Day 4 -- still with the headache feeling a little foggy, but not nearly as bad as yesterday. Tomorrow, I'm taking the money I'd normally spend on Copenhagen and opening a gym membership, which I think will help. Thank you all for the words of encouragement, you guys rock and have already helped out a ton!
Hi Ash,
Welcome and stay strong. One day at a time, the people on this site are unreal. I'm on day 18. Leverage the shit out of the site, make your commitment and post roll first thing, get digits and let it be your turn to dominate the nic bitch.
Cheers,
Pelly
Way to be Ash on a great start to your quit journey. Connect with Ginet. Get her number and make her a cornerstone if your support. She knows how to quit like a girl! Welcome Sis! You can do this.
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Hang in there Ash!
I will repeat what others have said - I wish I could have quit nicotine in my 20s! I smoked disgusting cigarettes for 20 years before attempting to quit. I then began using nicotine pouches to aid that quit. I used both Skoal Bandits and then Skoal Extra Pouches for seven years before finding this website.
I honestly thought that quitting the pouches would be easy, once I got over cigs - NOT. I actually did quit pouches three years ago, for about three months, but without the help from this website, and the supporters here, it was extremely easy to go back to the addiction again. I thought I could get by only using while at my 9-5 job, and hide it from my husband - NOT.
I, like you, tried to hide this addiction from many people. Using pouches made that much easier, since I just had to slip a pouch between by upper gum and cheek. No one knew I was using, if they didn't see me remove it or install it. The pouches were small enough that they didn't leave a bump on my cheek. But my husband eventually caught be using again. We have been together many years in our happy marriage, and spend a lot of time together. I used to keep a tin of fresh pouches in one pocket of my purse, and a tin of used pouches in another pocket. The gross part was while driving, or just focusing on something else, and accidently grabbing a used pouch - yuck!
You have made the right decision. This is the best place for support, and growing new friends within your team, and with your supporters. Please, feel free to PM me if you need a hand, or have any questions. I will gladly share my number with you, or meet up with you in chat (if I'm not driving at the time). Speaking of Chat - the chat room is an excellent place for support, or just when you would like someone to talk to. I used the chat room frequently during my first couple of months after quitting. The guys in there are excellent, and everyone knows exactly what you are going through.
There is an App for the chat room, to make it easier to use and easier to read on your smart phone. It is called 123FlashChat. Download that app and when it asks for a chat ID (chat room), use the number 198. That will get you into the KTC chat room, with fellow quitters. Again, if you would like to meet up with me in chat, just PM me. We can exchange numbers, if you're comfortable with that, and then when you need a hand you can text me, since a PM on the site doesn't notify me until I log on to KTC.
Sorry for the long-winded post, but I want all women, who are attempting to quit, to be stronger than the men here. We can make it!! You can make it! Together, with each other, and all of the other supporters here, we can build a strong quit and never touch this shit again!!!
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Thank you all for the words of encouragement. I know that I keep saying that, but it truly means a lot to me. I can't say thank you enough. The first few days were rough - and this is only day 5. The lows aren't as low as they were at day 3, and I'm taking that as a step in the right direction. I'm still cranky as hell, but that's somewhat normal for a Monday! 'no'. Tomorrow morning is day 1 at the gym that I joined - I set a 0430 wakeup time, so I probably won't make it to post roll until tomorrow evening when I get home from work (so don't you all go thinking that I've gone missing!). Once my schedule evens out, I'll have a more regular time that I'll be able to post every day. Within the last couple of weeks, my whole schedule has changed, so I'm still trying to get back into a normal routine. The lack of a normal routine is a good thing in this circumstance though, because I'm not too set in my ways. I'll be able to set a new routine!
m5shelly - thank you for the long response. I actually began dipping when I was 17. A boyfriend at the time got me started on it (small town/country living at its finest haha). I hid it for almost 8 years, and even now, only a handful of people know about my nicotine addiction. For awhile I was Grizzly wintergreen longcut, then Cope Straight, then Skoal Wintergreen, then back to Grizzly WG because it was cheap - then I found Grizzly pouches. That was my chosen poison (literally) for years. I spent most of 2014 in a desert overseas and pouches weren't available, so I switched to Copenhagen Wintergreen. When I came home, I traded in the car I had had for years for a newer, much nicer car and it really bothered me to find little pieces of dip that escaped from the can on the light colored carpet, and I really opened my eyes to just how disgusting of a habit I had found myself addicted to. Then I realized that if it was something that was good for me, I wouldn't need to hide it from my family and friends, and the last few weeks I realized that this is not something that I want to continue doing and hiding, so here I am.
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Thank you all for the words of encouragement. I know that I keep saying that, but it truly means a lot to me. I can't say thank you enough. The first few days were rough - and this is only day 5. The lows aren't as low as they were at day 3, and I'm taking that as a step in the right direction. I'm still cranky as hell, but that's somewhat normal for a Monday! 'no'. Tomorrow morning is day 1 at the gym that I joined - I set a 0430 wakeup time, so I probably won't make it to post roll until tomorrow evening when I get home from work (so don't you all go thinking that I've gone missing!). Once my schedule evens out, I'll have a more regular time that I'll be able to post every day. Within the last couple of weeks, my whole schedule has changed, so I'm still trying to get back into a normal routine. The lack of a normal routine is a good thing in this circumstance though, because I'm not too set in my ways. I'll be able to set a new routine!
m5shelly - thank you for the long response. I actually began dipping when I was 17. A boyfriend at the time got me started on it (small town/country living at its finest haha). I hid it for almost 8 years, and even now, only a handful of people know about my nicotine addiction. For awhile I was Grizzly wintergreen longcut, then Cope Straight, then Skoal Wintergreen, then back to Grizzly WG because it was cheap - then I found Grizzly pouches. That was my chosen poison (literally) for years. I spent most of 2014 in a desert overseas and pouches weren't available, so I switched to Copenhagen Wintergreen. When I came home, I traded in the car I had had for years for a newer, much nicer car and it really bothered me to find little pieces of dip that escaped from the can on the light colored carpet, and I really opened my eyes to just how disgusting of a habit I had found myself addicted to. Then I realized that if it was something that was good for me, I wouldn't need to hide it from my family and friends, and the last few weeks I realized that this is not something that I want to continue doing and hiding, so here I am.
If you have someone's number, text them in the morning and they will post roll for you. Once you get situated, you can take over roll yourself. The people that put KTC together know what's best. Being accountable first thing is a mental trigger to help get you through the day; you promised a bunch of people you would not use. It's more than symbolic.
Glad to see you are starting to heal. It will only get better. By the weekend you should really feel good.
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Thank you all for the words of encouragement. I know that I keep saying that, but it truly means a lot to me. I can't say thank you enough. The first few days were rough - and this is only day 5. The lows aren't as low as they were at day 3, and I'm taking that as a step in the right direction. I'm still cranky as hell, but that's somewhat normal for a Monday! 'no'. Tomorrow morning is day 1 at the gym that I joined - I set a 0430 wakeup time, so I probably won't make it to post roll until tomorrow evening when I get home from work (so don't you all go thinking that I've gone missing!). Once my schedule evens out, I'll have a more regular time that I'll be able to post every day. Within the last couple of weeks, my whole schedule has changed, so I'm still trying to get back into a normal routine. The lack of a normal routine is a good thing in this circumstance though, because I'm not too set in my ways. I'll be able to set a new routine!
m5shelly - thank you for the long response. I actually began dipping when I was 17. A boyfriend at the time got me started on it (small town/country living at its finest haha). I hid it for almost 8 years, and even now, only a handful of people know about my nicotine addiction. For awhile I was Grizzly wintergreen longcut, then Cope Straight, then Skoal Wintergreen, then back to Grizzly WG because it was cheap - then I found Grizzly pouches. That was my chosen poison (literally) for years. I spent most of 2014 in a desert overseas and pouches weren't available, so I switched to Copenhagen Wintergreen. When I came home, I traded in the car I had had for years for a newer, much nicer car and it really bothered me to find little pieces of dip that escaped from the can on the light colored carpet, and I really opened my eyes to just how disgusting of a habit I had found myself addicted to. Then I realized that if it was something that was good for me, I wouldn't need to hide it from my family and friends, and the last few weeks I realized that this is not something that I want to continue doing and hiding, so here I am.
Well. You are awesome! I know if you can spend months overseas in the desert, you can kick this nic bitch in the balls! And I know the comments from the guys on here won't bother you.
Give it a couple days and the fog will lift, and a couple weeks and you will stop thinking of the crap constantly.
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Feeling pretty great today - the physical symptoms have mostly faded, and it's all the mental game now, which is a lot easier for me to know how to handle. Staying busy is the best thing to keep my mind off of it - I woke up at 0430 this morning and put in a good workout - over an hour! Ate healthy, drank tons of water, I'm even noticing that I have more time to do random small tasks on breaks and when I get a few extra minutes during the day! Oh... and I'm going through shit tons of Trident's "Perfectly Peppermint" gum! lmao!
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Feeling pretty great today - the physical symptoms have mostly faded, and it's all the mental game now, which is a lot easier for me to know how to handle. Staying busy is the best thing to keep my mind off of it - I woke up at 0430 this morning and put in a good workout - over an hour! Ate healthy, drank tons of water, I'm even noticing that I have more time to do random small tasks on breaks and when I get a few extra minutes during the day! Oh... and I'm going through shit tons of Trident's "Perfectly Peppermint" gum! lmao!
Now that some quittin' right there!
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Feeling pretty great today - the physical symptoms have mostly faded, and it's all the mental game now, which is a lot easier for me to know how to handle. Staying busy is the best thing to keep my mind off of it - I woke up at 0430 this morning and put in a good workout - over an hour! Ate healthy, drank tons of water, I'm even noticing that I have more time to do random small tasks on breaks and when I get a few extra minutes during the day! Oh... and I'm going through shit tons of Trident's "Perfectly Peppermint" gum! lmao!
Now that some quittin' right there!
That's awesome Ash! I love seeing quitters turn the corner and find the good things in quitting. The slow improvements are what kept me going in the beginning. You are doing great. Just keep going!