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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: markr on April 21, 2009, 12:34:00 PM
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Hi I quit April 1,2009 I waited to join you guys until the 6th. I have tried this quit thing many time before but I think I will win this time. I have used tobacco for over 40 years Skoal for at least 35 of those. I have only been married 24 years so the Skoal thing is hard to give up. Both my girls are involved with anti drug and anti tobacco clubs. I want to suport them you have a website that is a no BS tell it like it is that is what I wanted.
Thanks for your support.
Day 21 life is getting better!
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Hi I quit April 1,2009 I waited to join you guys until the 6th. I have tried this quit thing many time before but I think I will win this time. I have used tobacco for over 40 years Skoal for at least 35 of those. I have only been married 24 years so the Skoal thing is hard to give up. Both my girls are involved with anti drug and anti tobacco clubs. I want to suport them you have a website that is a no BS tell it like it is that is what I wanted.
Thanks for your support.
Day 21 life is getting better!
Rock on my friend! Nice work on the 21 days.
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Welcome markr. Yes it can be done. I abused tobacco for over 35 years myself. Get into the July quit group if you are not already and post day 21. This website is your lifeline. USE it and you will conquer the Bitch!!! Life is better without dip!!! PM me if you need anything.
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Hi I quit April 1,2009 I waited to join you guys until the 6th. I have tried this quit thing many time before but I think I will win this time. I have used tobacco for over 40 years Skoal for at least 35 of those. I have only been married 24 years so the Skoal thing is hard to give up. Both my girls are involved with anti drug and anti tobacco clubs. I want to support them you have a website that is a no BS tell it like it is that is what I wanted.
Thanks for your support.
Day 21 life is getting better!
Day 27
I had a couple guys that answered roll call for me this past weekend. My wife could not believe that some one I have never met would do that for me and wanted to make sure I did not cave over the weekend.
This site is full of guys helping others get through this quit we all have one goal.
Thanks to the guys that backed me up!!!
Mark
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Day 30 whoo!!! Life is getting back to normal I still notice that my fuse is shorter than I remember it being. If you have not read Deans post Thinking and Thoughts in this section you must he has a great story sorry nothing that good here. I am starting to not eat as much as I did in the first 2 weeks. I am even starting to lose a little wieght. That is good because the first 21 days I gained about 14 lbs.
Thanks to everyone for thier suport.
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Mark: I'm really rooting for you, pal. Congrats on 30....it's a good, big number. I need you to hang in there and hit the HOF with me in July.
So let it be written; so let it be done.
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Mark: I'm really rooting for you, pal. Congrats on 30....it's a good, big number. I need you to hang in there and hit the HOF with me in July.
So let it be written; so let it be done.
Thanks Dean. Great story in your post I can imagine that happening here. The only difference we are all guys so things like that would be posted on the board like a badge of honor :D
So let it be written and so let it be done!!
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Day 34 This past weekend was tough I love being in the woods or out fishing. These are huge triggers for me so I have been doing these things a little at a time to get used to doing things without dip. Friday my daughter called home and told my wife her new camera quit working no big deal right. Well on Saturday my wife and daughter want the videos off the card. That is when I find out that the camera was knocked off a stool or whatever. I use a computer but am by no means a tech with them. After working for 2 hours I finally got the dang card uploaded to the computer and was pretty pissed off then they told that all they wanted was the 3 vids that where there not the rest it would not have taken so long if I would have just uploaded the movies. If you remember from my earlier post my fuse has gotten shorter so now I am pissed big time and then the craving starts. After watching the video that the camera was broken my daughters friend that broke it laughed all the way through whacking off whatever it was sitting on. 'bang head' Now the craving is getting real bad I just got up grabbed the rifle and got on the quad and went out in the woods for awhile. I started calming down and the craves go away then here comes 3 trespassers mushroom hunting I get the same crap every time that someone gave them permission to be there I explain that I pay the Taxes and the bank for the land they are on and to get the h**l off or the sheriff will be called. Guess what the freakin craves are back. If they would have had any mushrooms I would have really blown my stack.
I guess I am finding out that getting mad makes me crave the forbidden stuff so I am trying to find ways to avoid getting mad.
Writing this let me vent and I do feel better so take it for what its worth this site and the guys here are helping me.
Thanks I will make this quit stick.
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After reading a couple other threads it looks like what I am going through is normal. My quit buddies are all feeling the strain as I am. We must get through this stage. Caving is not an option.
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Day 35 yesterday was a tiring day for me and my group. One posted he is fed up with this shit, one sent a message he was going home to get away from people, I texted one to see if he was going to post roll and I have been pissed at the world for the past 3-4 days. Several others in the 30 -40 day range seem to be feeling this also it sucks.
I woke up today bound to be happy and try not to let things get to me. That was not to be. One of my quit group the one I prodded to post roll yesterday caved last night. This really sucks I feel maybe I could have done something to keep KK going.
Damn it KK that is all I can think about he was at 35 days. He stated he had a few beers and lost it. When you read the cave post they don't connect because you have not had contact with them but when they text you and you form a quit group it hits home.
Sorry for the ramble but this is my sounding board now.
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I feel your frustration! I felt like I had to wrestle pretty hard yesterday. I did go home, logged onto the chat room and talked it out a little. Took some advice; went and laid in the bed watching TV until I fell asleep. Had a little nap and woke up in alot better mood.
I really don't review the roll call post before I post so I never caught that "KK" had posted DAY 1. I guess that I'll have to review the post before posting myself just to make sure that I don't state that all the "CAN SMASHERS" are accounted for and look like an idiot for not knowing that one of my can smashers isn't any longer. I don't know why he didn't reach out to one of us. Kinda makes me feel like an ass for not knowing ...... just dealing with my own struggle.
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I feel your frustration! I felt like I had to wrestle pretty hard yesterday. I did go home, logged onto the chat room and talked it out a little. Took some advice; went and laid in the bed watching TV until I fell asleep. Had a little nap and woke up in alot better mood.
I really don't review the roll call post before I post so I never caught that "KK" had posted DAY 1. I guess that I'll have to review the post before posting myself just to make sure that I don't state that all the "CAN SMASHERS" are accounted for and look like an idiot for not knowing that one of my can smashers isn't any longer. I don't know why he didn't reach out to one of us. Kinda makes me feel like an ass for not knowing ...... just dealing with my own struggle.
Wayne bo you posted right though KK was accounted for he just had caved. I talked with him on the phone yesterday at lunch he was pretty down but I think he will be fine. It sucks that he caved but I will give he the chance to redeem himself in the August group and will still support him there.
I am pretty upbeat today I have had a real short fuse lately unfortunately my family has taken a few hits from me they understand but it is still hard for all of us.
The reason I checked in with you yesterday was because of KK caving I just wanted to make sure you were OK.
I also changed me signature yesterday and added (Caving is not an option) so every post make that statement from me. I am done with the tobacco for good no turning back now. KK caving made me stronger and I hope that you pull strength from it also.
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We can finish this thing out together; you, me and FTK, as well as the others in July. We can finish strong and keep each other headed in the right direction. We all have each others contact info and we can keep busting each others balls until were quit for good. This is why we came here .... for the support and accountablility.
I feel your frustration! I felt like I had to wrestle pretty hard yesterday. I did go home, logged onto the chat room and talked it out a little. Took some advice; went and laid in the bed watching TV until I fell asleep. Had a little nap and woke up in alot better mood.
I really don't review the roll call post before I post so I never caught that "KK" had posted DAY 1. I guess that I'll have to review the post before posting myself just to make sure that I don't state that all the "CAN SMASHERS" are accounted for and look like an idiot for not knowing that one of my can smashers isn't any longer. I don't know why he didn't reach out to one of us. Kinda makes me feel like an ass for not knowing ...... just dealing with my own struggle.
Wayne bo you posted right though KK was accounted for he just had caved. I talked with him on the phone yesterday at lunch he was pretty down but I think he will be fine. It sucks that he caved but I will give he the chance to redeem himself in the August group and will still support him there.
I am pretty upbeat today I have had a real short fuse lately unfortunately my family has taken a few hits from me they understand but it is still hard for all of us.
The reason I checked in with you yesterday was because of KK caving I just wanted to make sure you were OK.
I also changed me signature yesterday and added (Caving is not an option) so every post make that statement from me. I am done with the tobacco for good no turning back now. KK caving made me stronger and I hope that you pull strength from it also.
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Today is day 42 I have gotten past the fog and really don't crave dip anymore. The biggest thing for me the past couple weeks is I get mad fast. I posted this a week or so ago and got a PM from someone that told me it would pass and to think will I still be mad about this next Tuesday? Well I have tried to apply that the past week it seem to work pretty well. however the kids are pushing the launch button daily now sometimes multiple pushes. Last night was one of those nights They made a huge mess in one room and I walked off then found onther mess in another room and found homework was not done then the chores where not done you get the picture. I came unglued they look at me like they had done nothing wrong I dole out a punishment then Mom over rode My punishment guess what I unloaded on her. I really hope this phase gets done I have tried very hard not to get mad at my family during this quit but lately that has not worked. Stress at work busy schedule and no time for myself has me on edge I have usally got to go fishing but the weather has sucked and that has not happened yet the freakin grass is growing like crazy so I get home and two days a week I ride the tractor for a few hours. I will get through this without chew it would not make it any better and I have realized that. I do feel better and am not eating like a horse anymore. Still have the dry mouth a couple days a week when I wake up. If I can get over this being pissed stage I will have it made.
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Today is day 42 I have gotten past the fog and really don't crave dip anymore. The biggest thing for me the past couple weeks is I get mad fast. I posted this a week or so ago and got a PM from someone that told me it would pass and to think will I still be mad about this next Tuesday? Well I have tried to apply that the past week it seem to work pretty well. however the kids are pushing the launch button daily now sometimes multiple pushes. Last night was one of those nights They made a huge mess in one room and I walked off then found onther mess in another room and found homework was not done then the chores where not done you get the picture. I came unglued they look at me like they had done nothing wrong I dole out a punishment then Mom over rode My punishment guess what I unloaded on her. I really hope this phase gets done I have tried very hard not to get mad at my family during this quit but lately that has not worked. Stress at work busy schedule and no time for myself has me on edge I have usally got to go fishing but the weather has sucked and that has not happened yet the freakin grass is growing like crazy so I get home and two days a week I ride the tractor for a few hours. I will get through this without chew it would not make it any better and I have realized that. I do feel better and am not eating like a horse anymore. Still have the dry mouth a couple days a week when I wake up. If I can get over this being pissed stage I will have it made.
Brother, I feel your pain. I just unloaded on the ol lady because she went shopping for food to feed herself with for the week (I am out of town working) and she didnt buy things for us to eat on the weekend. :unsure: Why I was mad about this I do not know...
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Me too..I blew up at my wife last night over dinner. Why I let that bother me is just crazy. Its like a full body mad rush of anger. I dont like it and feel like an asshole after I calm down.
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Well day 50 is here 1/2 way to the hall!!!! I have been through quite a bit on my journey I have met a few good people here and have been so sick that I don't remember the day. I have had cravings so intense that the only comparison was being held underwater and wanting to breath but couldn't. The two week fog that was like the zombie zone nothing was real clear. Then the fog lifted and the get mad at everything stage kicked in. Wow that was the worst the others targeted me the mad phase caused me to do and say things that I would not normally do or say. I upset some of the closest people to me and for that I am truly sorry they have been supporting me and I feel that I let them down for getting mad at things they said or did. It will all work out in the end for the best.
The past week I have actually felt good I am sleeping most nights and in general just feel better. I am glad that I made the decision to quit and I am glad that there are very supportive people on this site that want to help me with my goal.
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Well day 50 is here 1/2 way to the hall!!!! I have been through quite a bit on my journey I have met a few good people here and have been so sick that I don't remember the day. I have had cravings so intense that the only comparison was being held underwater and wanting to breath but couldn't. The two week fog that was like the zombie zone nothing was real clear. Then the fog lifted and the get mad at everything stage kicked in. Wow that was the worst the others targeted me the mad phase caused me to do and say things that I would not normally do or say. I upset some of the closest people to me and for that I am truly sorry they have been supporting me and I feel that I let them down for getting mad at things they said or did. It will all work out in the end for the best.
The past week I have actually felt good I am sleeping most nights and in general just feel better. I am glad that I made the decision to quit and I am glad that there are very supportive people on this site that want to help me with my goal.
The fact that you have stated you made it through the "rage stage" gives me hope for the future.
I blew up at the kids last night because they kept asking me if they could slide down their slide while I was affixing the last bolt. I unleashed to the point that my four year old daughter was in tears and my two year old son was apologizing to me. Talk about making someone feel like a big pile of shit! My two year old apologized to me......my little princess was in tears because daddy yelled at her. Real great parenting!
I hope these fits of rage go away before I really blow a gasket.....it was a simple question from them. I was just pissed because the stupid bolt had rusted and wouldn't go back in the hole!
Keep moving forward.....thanks for sharing your trials and tribulations!
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Well day 50 is here 1/2 way to the hall!!!! I have been through quite a bit on my journey I have met a few good people here and have been so sick that I don't remember the day. I have had cravings so intense that the only comparison was being held underwater and wanting to breath but couldn't. The two week fog that was like the zombie zone nothing was real clear. Then the fog lifted and the get mad at everything stage kicked in. Wow that was the worst the others targeted me the mad phase caused me to do and say things that I would not normally do or say. I upset some of the closest people to me and for that I am truly sorry they have been supporting me and I feel that I let them down for getting mad at things they said or did. It will all work out in the end for the best.
The past week I have actually felt good I am sleeping most nights and in general just feel better. I am glad that I made the decision to quit and I am glad that there are very supportive people on this site that want to help me with my goal.
The fact that you have stated you made it through the "rage stage" gives me hope for the future.
I blew up at the kids last night because they kept asking me if they could slide down their slide while I was affixing the last bolt. I unleashed to the point that my four year old daughter was in tears and my two year old son was apologizing to me. Talk about making someone feel like a big pile of shit! My two year old apologized to me......my little princess was in tears because daddy yelled at her. Real great parenting!
I hope these fits of rage go away before I really blow a gasket.....it was a simple question from them. I was just pissed because the stupid bolt had rusted and wouldn't go back in the hole!
Keep moving forward.....thanks for sharing your trials and tribulations!
Stretch buddy it is not you it is the nic bitch coming out. Tell them you are quitting something that could hurt you and that you did not mean to get mad at them. I feel for you my 12 yr old daughter loves to hunt fish and shoot with me but I have upset her so much the past few weeks she just avoids me. Things are on the mend now but it still makes you feel like dirt. Your kids are younger and they really don't understand whats going on. Hang tough it will get better.
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Day 59 I have felt great since day 50. I have gone fishin about every day shot a few round of trap life is getting back to normal just without the worry of that Skoal can in my pocket. You know I have a bunch of new shirts that I can wear now I finally figured out I don't need a pocket anymore.
Here is the Dream
Well last night was the first night I had a dip dream if that is what you want to call it. I went to the gas station to fill up and there was a guy out in front with a 4X4 and a Triton bass boat. It was adorned with the Skoal logo on both the truck and boat. I thought they are probably doing something to promote that crap. I didn't want any but I did want to check out the boat so I went to take a closer look. The guy called me by name he said your straying from the brotherhood. I commented back but I am in a brotherhood now and they treat me great. He said all you got to do is buy a roll and this is all yours. I said would you put that in writing he said sure. So I get that contract read it over and sure enough if I buy a roll of Skoal I get the boat and truck. So I went in bought a roll of Skoal wow this shit is high $7.00 a can any how I part with $75 go out hand the guy the roll of Skoal and say I am her to claim my prize. He looked at me signed every thing over and said one more thing you must take a dip for a photo. I started to open a can I was pumped up here I am I'm getting a boat and a truck wow. Then out of the blue I get a text it is from Glenn it says WTF are you doing!!! Then another text comes in from KK Don't do it you'll be sorry. Then from Waynebo and Rooster the same thing. I am thinking how in the world do these guys know whats going on. I tell the guy hey I will be right back I got to go to the bathroom. he said I will be here waiting but you must dip. I go inside I Felt like it was day 1 again the crave was real bad then the light bulb went off the fake stuff. I got a can of fake stuff dumped the skoal washed the can out refilled it with the fake stuff I though I will try this. I go back out take a big dip of the fake stuff the guy said welcome back to the brotherhood here is you prize. I can't believe this I just was handed a prize that I would love but it is not right it has the can on the side of both. I look in the boat there is a case of dip I take it to the dumpster and start to toss it in that is when a kid came up and asked if I fished for Skoal I said no but I won this boat he said I want to win a boat by chewing also give me some and I will start now. I put the stuff back in the truck My buddy was there so we head out. I start feeling really sick about what that kid had said. I started when I was real young and it hit home. On the way home I stopped at a local place that sells thing on ebay. I pulled in stopped and told the guy get rid of this for me.
My buddy could not believe What I just did he said if you want to get rid of it give it to me.I looked right at him and said that rig is the devil and must go. We had not got home when my phone rang. The store said it had sold to someone with cash and I could come get my money.
When I got there there was $75 and a note that said stay true to the brotherhood. and it had the name of everyone and our supporters from roll call.
This just goes to show how much influence this place has had on me.
Thanks guys
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This is to let you know the HOF is not the end of the line. Today is day 108 I have not had a crave for some time now until lunch today. I had a burger for lunch and afterwards I had a crave for dip. I mean a kick yourself hard I want it bad crave. It lasted about 15 minutes I needed gas in the truck but decided not to go to the gas station and get that close to the dip counter. It has been a couple hours now and the crave has passed but just because you hit the hall on fame doesn't mean the game is over.
The crave I had today was just as intense today as it was the first few weeks I quit.
Keep your gaurd up.
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I am done at the golden arches for awhile. We went there last night on the way to the fair. same crap as lunch.I can't belive this almost 2 months with no craves and 2 in a row the one last night was worst than the one at lunch. The only thing I can come up with is this past week at work has sucked jus no a good week period. Taking a dip would not make anything better. It would only add insult to injury at this point. I have felt much better without dipping so caving is not an option but it still sucks a bad week then craves on top of that. I feel Like I should post day 5 instead of 109. Something else that hit Wednesday this week the freakin rage stage came back. I am having to watch myself I started to blow up at the store the other day. As I sit here writing this I am craving a dip. I am going to the woods for a walk.
Stay quit whatever it takes!!!
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Remember your motto "caving is not a option" you will power through I have no doubt. Sorry to hear that the nic bitch still knows your name. She's hateful eh? I to share your addiction. I actually had a pretty good week and had'nt even thought much about dip. Then last night I was going through my plans in my head that I want to accomplish this weekend and wham nic bitch shows up. Shook it off last night with a few beers and woke up this morning craving the crap! WTF. I am day 65 and have been doing fairly decent. I will make it I am not worried just pisses me off that I still want the shit. I just try to fill my head with how good my belly and throat feel and read and re-read stories about fellows that have had big C issues or scares. Sorry for the ramble, just wanted to let you know that you are not alone Bro. Hang tough this weekend, just remember that nic bitch is not bigger than KTC and together we will overcome. Congrats again on the HOF!
Livin
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I have been at the fair the last couple of days all my old buddies in the barns with the big wedge and the smell of the barns that could be the trigger. Who knows your right caving is not an option I got a guy at work quitting and tring to get him to join the site but we are keeping tabs on each other so I will be ok. I posted this to let people know that just because you hit that 100 day mark it aint over. I had not really had any problems for several weeks then wham they show up.
Stay quit
Caving Is not an option!!
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Ok I am 1/2 way to the second floor the first 30 days after the HOF just sucked. They were filled with intense craves a desire to go get a can and get the old habit back 'bang head' I was thinking great I made it 100 day now I am going to get to start over. I have seen some vets showing up in some of the groups and that made me even more determined I was not going to be one of them.
Today is day 150 what a few weeks can do I have not had a crave for a few weeks and feel great. I have an addition to Tobacco always will. I know I can not take 1 dip because it will lead to many more and I do not want to go back there again.
This is to let you know that just because we have hit the hall and are a "vet" we still struggle with the nic bitch also. We have learned to use the tools here to keep our quit we own our quit you will also. So hang in there quit for the day and enjoy life.
Remember CAVING IS NOT AN OPTION.
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Well said, comrade. And you know that I agree completely. My struggles are documented.
But goddamn it, I will make it through today, and do it again tomorrow. Someday, I'm going to feel truly good, all the time.
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Well said, comrade. And you know that I agree completely. My struggles are documented.
But goddamn it, I will make it through today, and do it again tomorrow. Someday, I'm going to feel truly good, all the time.
Dean,
For what its worth, i struggled with the funk, the fog , the craves, clear up to the 2nd floor. My hof speech was dedicated to it does get better an it does. I still have craves on a daily basis but they are so managable. at 240 it like flickin a misquito off your arm no big deal.
Hang in bro were here for ya
Trap
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Tough day yesterday my friend lost his son to cancer after a long battle. JD was 13 yrs old. He was friends with my daughter and loved the outdoors 4 wheelers whatever he could do outside. There is a couple benefits scheduled for today in our town and they were scheduled before he went into the hospital for the last time. JD pulled this community together to help him. How much power can a kid have? It seems in his case allot yesterday was were blue for JD day it was unbelievable how many blue shirts that I saw. I will leave a link in my signature to his blog for awhile for anyone that would like to visit.
Godspeed JD you are in a pain free place now.
Markr-186 My quit today is dedicated to JD Taylor and his family. JD lost his battle with cancer yesterday and will be missed by all that he had touched. http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/jdtay ... ogspot.com (http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/jdtaylor2/journal/themcgfamily.blogspot.com)
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Well I made the second floor. 200 days without Skoal that in its self is a miracle for me! I have received allot of support here over the past 200 days. I have seen people start then just disappear only to resurface on day 1 again. I have had quit brothers fight for there quit. Some of you are still struggling. For the past 50 or 60 days my quit has been uneventful, no big craves nothing. I did loose a family friend some of you followed the JD Taylor story he is at peace now a 13 year old kid that was tough as nails and a angel all at the same time. That got me thinking that JD turned our town around one person can make a difference no matter how small.
So here is what I would like for you to do. If you are not already mentor someone here. Just pick a quitter behind you make contact and support them. It will help you and it will help them. Post support for them and drop them an PM every now and then. What is the worst that can happen you get a new friend out of the deal?
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Well I made the second floor. 200 days without Skoal that in its self is a miracle for me! I have received allot of support here over the past 200 days. I have seen people start then just disappear only to resurface on day 1 again. I have had quit brothers fight for there quit. Some of you are still struggling. For the past 50 or 60 days my quit has been uneventful, no big craves nothing. I did loose a family friend some of you followed the JD Taylor story he is at peace now a 13 year old kid that was tough as nails and a angel all at the same time. That got me thinking that JD turned our town around one person can make a difference no matter how small.
So here is what I would like for you to do. If you are not already, mentor someone here. Just pick a quitter behind you make contact with them and support them till they hit the HOF. It will help you and it will help them. Post support for them and drop them an PM every now and then. What is the worst that can happen you get a new friend out of the deal?
So make the difference today support a quitter!
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Well I made the second floor. 200 days without Skoal that in its self is a miracle for me! I have received allot of support here over the past 200 days. I have seen people start then just disappear only to resurface on day 1 again. I have had quit brothers fight for there quit. Some of you are still struggling. For the past 50 or 60 days my quit has been uneventful, no big craves nothing. I did loose a family friend some of you followed the JD Taylor story he is at peace now a 13 year old kid that was tough as nails and a angel all at the same time. That got me thinking that JD turned our town around one person can make a difference no matter how small.
So here is what I would like for you to do. If you are not already, mentor someone here. Just pick a quitter behind you make contact with them and support them till they hit the HOF. It will help you and it will help them. Post support for them and drop them an PM every now and then. What is the worst that can happen you get a new friend out of the deal?
So make the difference today support a quitter!
Mark, congrats on reaching the 2nd floor!
I completely agree with you. Mentoring a new quitter is a great way to keep yourself engaged. I also find that investing yourself in a quit(s) other than your own also strengthens your quit......you can't fail if someone is depending on you. Paying it forward in this manner is the least we can do.
Good stuff Mark.
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200 DAYS! I should have known. You had just reached 100 days on the day we met. In chat, I think?
This is so awesome! On to the next step already... together reaching 300, and 200. :)
It is awesome that I am one of the people you randomly picked to support. And I thought I wasn't a lucky person. Never can say that again.
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Day 237
I have not been real close to the site for a couple weeks now. I have been hunting hard with my daughter and she is playing AAU Basketball also so basically I am at work in the tree stand at ball practice / game or in bed. I have not had a crave for some time now and I feel confident in my quit at this point. Friday I got home from work my daughter said lets go to the woods. we change clothes and went up in the woods. We live in the woods where we hunt. We are seated in our stands by 4:15 5 rolls around no deer. 5:30 I see a nice buck walking towards my daughters stand I can see her and the deer but she is looking the other way. The buck stops and looks at her stand she is looking through the binoculars about 90 degrees from where the deer is standing. He must not have made her out because he continued down the lane he is now in front of her. Dad is going nuts watching this from 75 yrd away. All at once she spots the buck she make some quick moves and the Buck picked up on them and looks right at her. I am thinking game over and decide to try to use a grunt call. I hit the call and the buck looked at me allowing her to get in position to make her shot. She shot the buck dropped in its tracks. I can not express how proud I am of her she is 14 yrs old and this is her 4th deer. But the first with dad out of the stand. The first thing I did was call her on the radio and tell her great job, the next thing I did was reach in my pocket for the can that has not been there for over 200 days. It is amazing that I still reach for the can there was no crave just a reflex to grab the can.
Below are the deer pics if you want to see them. The antlers scored 125 green and she is 14.
http://i592.photobucket.com/albums/tt4/ ... 2009-3.jpg (http://i592.photobucket.com/albums/tt4/markr_photo/Heather2009-3.jpg)
http://i592.photobucket.com/albums/tt4/ ... 2009-2.jpg (http://i592.photobucket.com/albums/tt4/markr_photo/Heather2009-2.jpg)
I am so proud of her and both of my girls ask me at least once a week " What day you on today Dad" I could never face them and tell them I failed them and was on day 1 or get caught with a dip. I am still fighting my weight I have always been heavy but I loose a few and gain them back. I have decided to give up until at least after Thanksgiving. It has been awhile since I have wrote here so I thought I would leave a note. This has been a sounding board and sometimes just posting what happed can make the difference.
With the stress of the Holidays upon us it could be easy to just let your guard down. We are all addicts just remember that let your guard down and the addiction will seize the opportunity.
Stay Quit and happy holidays.
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Day 237
I have not been real close to the site for a couple weeks now. I have been hunting hard with my daughter and she is playing AAU Basketball also so basically I am at work in the tree stand at ball practice / game or in bed. I have not had a crave for some time now and I feel confident in my quit at this point. Friday I got home from work my daughter said lets go to the woods. we change clothes and went up in the woods. We live in the woods where we hunt. We are seated in our stands by 4:15 5 rolls around no deer. 5:30 I see a nice buck walking towards my daughters stand I can see her and the deer but she is looking the other way. The buck stops and looks at her stand she is looking through the binoculars about 90 degrees from where the deer is standing. He must not have made her out because he continued down the lane he is now in front of her. Dad is going nuts watching this from 75 yrd away. All at once she spots the buck she make some quick moves and the Buck picked up on them and looks right at her. I am thinking game over and decide to try to use a grunt call. I hit the call and the buck looked at me allowing her to get in position to make her shot. She shot the buck dropped in its tracks. I can not express how proud I am of her she is 14 yrs old and this is her 4th deer. But the first with dad out of the stand. The first thing I did was call her on the radio and tell her great job, the next thing I did was reach in my pocket for the can that has not been there for over 200 days. It is amazing that I still reach for the can there was no crave just a reflex to grab the can.
Below are the deer pics if you want to see them. The antlers scored 125 green and she is 14.
http://i592.photobucket.com/albums/tt4/ ... 2009-3.jpg (http://i592.photobucket.com/albums/tt4/markr_photo/Heather2009-3.jpg)
http://i592.photobucket.com/albums/tt4/ ... 2009-2.jpg (http://i592.photobucket.com/albums/tt4/markr_photo/Heather2009-2.jpg)
I am so proud of her and both of my girls ask me at least once a week " What day you on today Dad" I could never face them and tell them I failed them and was on day 1 or get caught with a dip. I am still fighting my weight I have always been heavy but I loose a few and gain them back. I have decided to give up until at least after Thanksgiving. It has been awhile since I have wrote here so I thought I would leave a note. This has been a sounding board and sometimes just posting what happed can make the difference.
With the stress of the Holidays upon us it could be easy to just let your guard down. We are all addicts just remember that let your guard down and the addiction will seize the opportunity.
Stay Quit and happy holidays.
Life is good friend. Thanks for posting this.
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Day 237
I have not been real close to the site for a couple weeks now. I have been hunting hard with my daughter and she is playing AAU Basketball also so basically I am at work in the tree stand at ball practice / game or in bed. I have not had a crave for some time now and I feel confident in my quit at this point. Friday I got home from work my daughter said lets go to the woods. we change clothes and went up in the woods. We live in the woods where we hunt. We are seated in our stands by 4:15 5 rolls around no deer. 5:30 I see a nice buck walking towards my daughters stand I can see her and the deer but she is looking the other way. The buck stops and looks at her stand she is looking through the binoculars about 90 degrees from where the deer is standing. He must not have made her out because he continued down the lane he is now in front of her. Dad is going nuts watching this from 75 yrd away. All at once she spots the buck she make some quick moves and the Buck picked up on them and looks right at her. I am thinking game over and decide to try to use a grunt call. I hit the call and the buck looked at me allowing her to get in position to make her shot. She shot the buck dropped in its tracks. I can not express how proud I am of her she is 14 yrs old and this is her 4th deer. But the first with dad out of the stand. The first thing I did was call her on the radio and tell her great job, the next thing I did was reach in my pocket for the can that has not been there for over 200 days. It is amazing that I still reach for the can there was no crave just a reflex to grab the can.
Below are the deer pics if you want to see them. The antlers scored 125 green and she is 14.
http://i592.photobucket.com/albums/tt4/ ... 2009-3.jpg (http://i592.photobucket.com/albums/tt4/markr_photo/Heather2009-3.jpg)
http://i592.photobucket.com/albums/tt4/ ... 2009-2.jpg (http://i592.photobucket.com/albums/tt4/markr_photo/Heather2009-2.jpg)
I am so proud of her and both of my girls ask me at least once a week " What day you on today Dad" I could never face them and tell them I failed them and was on day 1 or get caught with a dip. I am still fighting my weight I have always been heavy but I loose a few and gain them back. I have decided to give up until at least after Thanksgiving. It has been awhile since I have wrote here so I thought I would leave a note. This has been a sounding board and sometimes just posting what happed can make the difference.
With the stress of the Holidays upon us it could be easy to just let your guard down. We are all addicts just remember that let your guard down and the addiction will seize the opportunity.
Stay Quit and happy holidays.
Very good stuff, Markr! That's a great buck she brought in, and a great story. Thanks man.
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Day 237
I have not been real close to the site for a couple weeks now. I have been hunting hard with my daughter and she is playing AAU Basketball also so basically I am at work in the tree stand at ball practice / game or in bed. I have not had a crave for some time now and I feel confident in my quit at this point. Friday I got home from work my daughter said lets go to the woods. we change clothes and went up in the woods. We live in the woods where we hunt. We are seated in our stands by 4:15 5 rolls around no deer. 5:30 I see a nice buck walking towards my daughters stand I can see her and the deer but she is looking the other way. The buck stops and looks at her stand she is looking through the binoculars about 90 degrees from where the deer is standing. He must not have made her out because he continued down the lane he is now in front of her. Dad is going nuts watching this from 75 yrd away. All at once she spots the buck she make some quick moves and the Buck picked up on them and looks right at her. I am thinking game over and decide to try to use a grunt call. I hit the call and the buck looked at me allowing her to get in position to make her shot. She shot the buck dropped in its tracks. I can not express how proud I am of her she is 14 yrs old and this is her 4th deer. But the first with dad out of the stand. The first thing I did was call her on the radio and tell her great job, the next thing I did was reach in my pocket for the can that has not been there for over 200 days. It is amazing that I still reach for the can there was no crave just a reflex to grab the can.
Below are the deer pics if you want to see them. The antlers scored 125 green and she is 14.
http://i592.photobucket.com/albums/tt4/ ... 2009-3.jpg (http://i592.photobucket.com/albums/tt4/markr_photo/Heather2009-3.jpg)
http://i592.photobucket.com/albums/tt4/ ... 2009-2.jpg (http://i592.photobucket.com/albums/tt4/markr_photo/Heather2009-2.jpg)
I am so proud of her and both of my girls ask me at least once a week " What day you on today Dad" I could never face them and tell them I failed them and was on day 1 or get caught with a dip. I am still fighting my weight I have always been heavy but I loose a few and gain them back. I have decided to give up until at least after Thanksgiving. It has been awhile since I have wrote here so I thought I would leave a note. This has been a sounding board and sometimes just posting what happed can make the difference.
With the stress of the Holidays upon us it could be easy to just let your guard down. We are all addicts just remember that let your guard down and the addiction will seize the opportunity.
Stay Quit and happy holidays.
4th deer! You got a real killer on your hands dad! Big congrats to her! Nice job teaching the ways!
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Day 255
More ramblings Thanksgiving is past now and the Christmas shopping season is in full swing and my quit has never been better. This Thanksgiving was full of great joy this year. The family comes to my house and the garage becomes a food court for a day. Everyone was in great sprits and this was a first for me no dip. That is the first Thanksgiving in over 35 yrs with no chew. I cook the turkey sometimes I smoke it and sometimes I fry it this year it was fried dip has always been part of that tradition. Did I miss it? No. After the big meal dip was always part of that too. We go out and shoot on my range did I miss the dip? No. We sat around telling stories about events from the past year and I told about my daughters hunt and my nephew asked what I was digging for in my pocket. Damn I went for that can again. I did not realize that I was doing it, I had no craving just a freaking reaction.
Since that time I have asked a few of my friends and my family to let me know if they catch me digging in my pocket. It appears that I “go for the can” when I am real happy or excited about something. This is a habit I may never break. I noticed for the first time since I quit that UST dropped the price of Skoal. My wife asked why I was looking at the cans and I said I was just checking the price nothing more.
Last night I saw a young kid that reminded me of myself when I was his age. He was maybe 17 he had a monster dip in and was trying to get someone to buy him some dip. I over heard him ask a couple people that he knew and one agreed. I went on about my shopping and on my way out the boy was there with a couple buddies. I donÂ’t know what got into me but I stopped and told him he should give up the chew. He looked at me like I was crazy. I told him I started when I was 8 and it took me almost 40 yrs to quit. A few days ago I printed the Kerns story out and put it in my wallet along with the caving contract. I wrote down the website and gave them the 2 pieces of paper. I asked that they read it before they throw it out. If you are reading this and are the one I talked to the other night PM me I will give you my number and back you up. I was just like you when I was your age a farm kid that liked to work on trucks and play hard. DonÂ’t wait 40 yrs to quit.
I guess quitting with all of you makes a bond a brotherhood if you will that makes you reach out to others to offer help. I would have never approached that young man even 100 days ago. I just think being free from the addition is great. I really hope the young man will contact me. I am sorry for the rambling but it is part of my closure with the habit I had for almost 40 years. From day 1 of my quit I have had a new day every day. I don't remember not dipping so every day is one more in the books for me.
Stay Quit!!!
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Day 255
More ramblings Thanksgiving is past now and the Christmas shopping season is in full swing and my quit has never been better. This Thanksgiving was full of great joy this year. The family comes to my house and the garage becomes a food court for a day. Everyone was in great sprits and this was a first for me no dip. That is the first Thanksgiving in over 35 yrs with no chew. I cook the turkey sometimes I smoke it and sometimes I fry it this year it was fried dip has always been part of that tradition. Did I miss it? No. After the big meal dip was always part of that too. We go out and shoot on my range did I miss the dip? No. We sat around telling stories about events from the past year and I told about my daughters hunt and my nephew asked what I was digging for in my pocket. Damn I went for that can again. I did not realize that I was doing it, I had no craving just a freaking reaction.
Since that time I have asked a few of my friends and my family to let me know if they catch me digging in my pocket. It appears that I “go for the can” when I am real happy or excited about something. This is a habit I may never break. I noticed for the first time since I quit that UST dropped the price of Skoal. My wife asked why I was looking at the cans and I said I was just checking the price nothing more.
Last night I saw a young kid that reminded me of myself when I was his age. He was maybe 17 he had a monster dip in and was trying to get someone to buy him some dip. I over heard him ask a couple people that he knew and one agreed. I went on about my shopping and on my way out the boy was there with a couple buddies. I donÂ’t know what got into me but I stopped and told him he should give up the chew. He looked at me like I was crazy. I told him I started when I was 8 and it took me almost 40 yrs to quit. A few days ago I printed the Kerns story out and put it in my wallet along with the caving contract. I wrote down the website and gave them the 2 pieces of paper. I asked that they read it before they throw it out. If you are reading this and are the one I talked to the other night PM me I will give you my number and back you up. I was just like you when I was your age a farm kid that liked to work on trucks and play hard. DonÂ’t wait 40 yrs to quit.
I guess quitting with all of you makes a bond a brotherhood if you will that makes you reach out to others to offer help. I would have never approached that young man even 100 days ago. I just think being free from the addition is great. I really hope the young man will contact me. I am sorry for the rambling but it is part of my closure with the habit I had for almost 40 years. From day 1 of my quit I have had a new day every day. I don't remember not dipping so every day is one more in the books for me.
Stay Quit!!!
It's called "Paying it Forward" Mark!!!! And it feels awesome!!!!! :) I enjoyed your story about Thanksgiving! It was a year ago last Thanksgiving that I was on the fence about whether I should quit, could I really quit, etc.... I was literally scared to death to part with my copenhagen! This Thanksgiving was great because I was celebrating a year quit and I didn't have to worry about spilling my spit cup in my inlaws house!
A year ago I could not have imagined talking to a stranger about quitting, now it seems to come natural! A year ago I don't think I felt worthy enough to talk to someone else about their quit, because honestly, I still wasn't sure if mine was for real or not! I don't know of anyone who I have talked to that has actually joined QSX but hopefully it has planted a thought in their mind and they will eventually act on it!
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Day 255
More ramblings Thanksgiving is past now and the Christmas shopping season is in full swing and my quit has never been better. This Thanksgiving was full of great joy this year. The family comes to my house and the garage becomes a food court for a day. Everyone was in great sprits and this was a first for me no dip. That is the first Thanksgiving in over 35 yrs with no chew. I cook the turkey sometimes I smoke it and sometimes I fry it this year it was fried dip has always been part of that tradition. Did I miss it? No. After the big meal dip was always part of that too. We go out and shoot on my range did I miss the dip? No. We sat around telling stories about events from the past year and I told about my daughters hunt and my nephew asked what I was digging for in my pocket. Damn I went for that can again. I did not realize that I was doing it, I had no craving just a freaking reaction.
Since that time I have asked a few of my friends and my family to let me know if they catch me digging in my pocket. It appears that I “go for the can” when I am real happy or excited about something. This is a habit I may never break. I noticed for the first time since I quit that UST dropped the price of Skoal. My wife asked why I was looking at the cans and I said I was just checking the price nothing more.
Last night I saw a young kid that reminded me of myself when I was his age. He was maybe 17 he had a monster dip in and was trying to get someone to buy him some dip. I over heard him ask a couple people that he knew and one agreed. I went on about my shopping and on my way out the boy was there with a couple buddies. I donÂ’t know what got into me but I stopped and told him he should give up the chew. He looked at me like I was crazy. I told him I started when I was 8 and it took me almost 40 yrs to quit. A few days ago I printed the Kerns story out and put it in my wallet along with the caving contract. I wrote down the website and gave them the 2 pieces of paper. I asked that they read it before they throw it out. If you are reading this and are the one I talked to the other night PM me I will give you my number and back you up. I was just like you when I was your age a farm kid that liked to work on trucks and play hard. DonÂ’t wait 40 yrs to quit.
I guess quitting with all of you makes a bond a brotherhood if you will that makes you reach out to others to offer help. I would have never approached that young man even 100 days ago. I just think being free from the addition is great. I really hope the young man will contact me. I am sorry for the rambling but it is part of my closure with the habit I had for almost 40 years. From day 1 of my quit I have had a new day every day. I don't remember not dipping so every day is one more in the books for me.
Stay Quit!!!
It's called "Paying it Forward" Mark!!!! And it feels awesome!!!!! :) I enjoyed your story about Thanksgiving! It was a year ago last Thanksgiving that I was on the fence about whether I should quit, could I really quit, etc.... I was literally scared to death to part with my copenhagen! This Thanksgiving was great because I was celebrating a year quit and I didn't have to worry about spilling my spit cup in my inlaws house!
A year ago I could not have imagined talking to a stranger about quitting, now it seems to come natural! A year ago I don't think I felt worthy enough to talk to someone else about their quit, because honestly, I still wasn't sure if mine was for real or not! I don't know of anyone who I have talked to that has actually joined QSX but hopefully it has planted a thought in their mind and they will eventually act on it!
I guess as You gain more confidence in your self you start to project the image that I did this you can too.
Still it is one thing to hide behind a keyboard and quite another to walk up to someone at Wal-Mart!
110 days to 1 year and believe me I am looking forward to that day as much as the train coming to get me at 100 days :D :D
Thanks for your support Curt!!!
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Day 259
Alright thing are starting to get crazy now. Christmas is closing in fast and time is running out for shopping. I know this weekend will be a doozy we have Christmas on Saturday and Sunday and need to travel. There is nothing relaxing about the holidays. My grandma lost her battle with cancer 2 years ago Christmas was her favorite time of year. She could always make sense of the chaos as long as everything went her way :D Anyhow I have been feeling down the past couple days. Today I stumbled across a website that had the Christmas Guest by Grandpa Jones on it. This was always one of my favorite things to hear. It reminds us no matter how disappointed we are things may not always be as we see them. It gave me a big boost today so I thought I would share it with you.
Here is the link to the site enjoy the story if you have never heard it. Play it again if you have.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7iyYix9umek (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7iyYix9umek)
Merry Christmas and keep your quit.
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Day 353
Closing in on a year now! April 1st 2009 thatÂ’s the day for me that changed my life the day I said I will not let Skoal run my life anymore!!! I have had some great times here I have been pissed off here I have laughed cried and everything in between. 1 year wow when I started 1 week was great 1 month well that was awesome. Making it to the HOF hell that was a dream. 1 year that was a goal that seemed unattainable. You guys and gals here make this quitting stuff fun. Do I still crave some OH YEA but I own my quit now. You all have taught me to use the tools here. Will I cave HELL NO! CAVING IS NOT AN OPTION. That was taught to me by Ready very early in my quit. A great big THANK YOU goes out to you Ready for that. It would seem that after so many days the fight would be over and the battle won. I am finding out the main battle was fought and won but there are still little up risings that come up. This place is like no other place I have been. It is full of people that have been through the same experience some do better than others and no two quits are the same. When I started I struggled I was sick and felt like I was being turned inside out. The cravings were so intense that I compared them to being held under water wanting to gasp air. But by the second week they passed I still had craves but they were not that intense ever again.
I have watched my quit group dwindle to just a few of the original guys. We have been boosted up by others so our group doesnÂ’t look so small and for that I am truly grateful. Everyone here seems to watch everyoneÂ’s back we go out and try to check on members that we have not heard from for awhile. The brotherhood that is in the logo is real here we are bound by a common cause. It is working when one of us fails we ask why then support them again. It makes no difference here whether you are on day 1 or day 3000 you are an important part of this site and you have an influence on someone here. I have taken things from guys with less days than me and more days than me so just because you are on day 1 or 2 does not make you less important than someone else. You will find out if you are here for very long a lot of us have a lot in common. We have a common goal that is to stay Nicotine free but others like the same things we have the same problems and so on.
I have used my into as a sounding board through out my quit. I want to share my feelings and thought so that someone may want to quit or continue to stay quit. Because you have had a bad day or something didnÂ’t go right today taking a dip will not make it better, dip will kill you. I look back at my life I had a freaking dip in all the time what a waste. I am lucky so far I dipped for 38 years and have not got cancer yet. My gums have receded and I have dental problems but no cancer yet. Lucky? Maybe check back in a few years.
If you are reading this you are using one of the tools here. You will hear the term Paying it Forward that is what this is intended to do. To let you know even at the 1 year mark some of us still struggle every now and then. Thanks for letting me babble and run on.
To all my quit brothers in July 2009 Thanks for being there! To all of you that have supported me through the past year Thank You!!!
Stay Quit
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Day 353
Closing in on a year now! April 1st 2009 thatÂ’s the day for me that changed my life the day I said I will not let Skoal run my life anymore!!! I have had some great times here I have been pissed off here I have laughed cried and everything in between. 1 year wow when I started 1 week was great 1 month well that was awesome. Making it to the HOF hell that was a dream. 1 year that was a goal that seemed unattainable. You guys and gals here make this quitting stuff fun. Do I still crave some OH YEA but I own my quit now. You all have taught me to use the tools here. Will I cave HELL NO! CAVING IS NOT AN OPTION. That was taught to me by Ready very early in my quit. A great big THANK YOU goes out to you Ready for that. It would seem that after so many days the fight would be over and the battle won. I am finding out the main battle was fought and won but there are still little up risings that come up. This place is like no other place I have been. It is full of people that have been through the same experience some do better than others and no two quits are the same. When I started I struggled I was sick and felt like I was being turned inside out. The cravings were so intense that I compared them to being held under water wanting to gasp air. But by the second week they passed I still had craves but they were not that intense ever again.
I have watched my quit group dwindle to just a few of the original guys. We have been boosted up by others so our group doesnÂ’t look so small and for that I am truly grateful. Everyone here seems to watch everyoneÂ’s back we go out and try to check on members that we have not heard from for awhile. The brotherhood that is in the logo is real here we are bound by a common cause. It is working when one of us fails we ask why then support them again. It makes no difference here whether you are on day 1 or day 3000 you are an important part of this site and you have an influence on someone here. I have taken things from guys with less days than me and more days than me so just because you are on day 1 or 2 does not make you less important than someone else. You will find out if you are here for very long a lot of us have a lot in common. We have a common goal that is to stay Nicotine free but others like the same things we have the same problems and so on.
I have used my into as a sounding board through out my quit. I want to share my feelings and thought so that someone may want to quit or continue to stay quit. Because you have had a bad day or something didnÂ’t go right today taking a dip will not make it better, dip will kill you. I look back at my life I had a freaking dip in all the time what a waste. I am lucky so far I dipped for 38 years and have not got cancer yet. My gums have receded and I have dental problems but no cancer yet. Lucky? Maybe check back in a few years.
If you are reading this you are using one of the tools here. You will hear the term Paying it Forward that is what this is intended to do. To let you know even at the 1 year mark some of us still struggle every now and then. Thanks for letting me babble and run on.
To all my quit brothers in July 2009 Thanks for being there! To all of you that have supported me through the past year Thank You!!!
Stay Quit
I am proud of you Brudda. You are one bad ass quitter.
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Day 372
Today sucked! I wanted to take a dip today 'bang head' I was craving it I could taste it I wanted it bad. I made my promise this morning I did not do the unthinkable. However to be honest even while I am writing this I am still thinking about a can of Skoal.
Damn that crap is hard to give up even after a year I can't belive it!
Thanks for your support guys!!! I could not let you down today just the thought of you all here helped me get through the day.
THANKS!!!
Stay Quit!!
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Day 372
Today sucked! I wanted to take a dip today 'bang head'Â I was craving it I could taste it I wanted it bad. I made my promise this morning I did not do the unthinkable. However to be honest even while I am writing this I am still thinking about a can of Skoal.
Damn that crap is hard to give up even after a year I can't belive it!
Thanks for your support guys!!! I could not let you down today just the thought of you all here helped me get through the day.
THANKS!!!
Stay Quit!!
Are you serious? I'm on day three. I strive to be where you are and you want a frickin' DIP!!?? Have you lost your mind??
What, you want to push that cancer mush back in your face when I'm still trying to free its grasp for a third g-- d--- day!?
Go back to the pictures and see that dude that has his face sliced open. Stare at that bare jaw bone. That's what made me sign up here and I think about it every time I hear the friggin word 'Skoal'.
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Day 372
Today sucked! I wanted to take a dip today 'bang head'Â I was craving it I could taste it I wanted it bad. I made my promise this morning I did not do the unthinkable. However to be honest even while I am writing this I am still thinking about a can of Skoal.
Damn that crap is hard to give up even after a year I can't belive it!
Thanks for your support guys!!! I could not let you down today just the thought of you all here helped me get through the day.
THANKS!!!
Stay Quit!!
Are you serious? I'm on day three. I strive to be where you are and you want a frickin' DIP!!?? Have you lost your mind??
What, you want to push that cancer mush back in your face when I'm still trying to free its grasp for a third g-- d--- day!?
Go back to the pictures and see that dude that has his face sliced open. Stare at that bare jaw bone. That's what me sign up here and I think about it every time I hear the friggin word 'Skoal'.
Instigator, Mark is a fine quitter.
However, being quit for a year does not magically make him immune to craves.
Do you understand what separates Mark from the other caving vagins around here?
First and foremost, he is a man of his WORD. Secondly, he has a PLAN for days like today, and he is smart enough to USE HIS PLAN.
just the thought of you all here helped me get through the day.
I'm guessing that part of Mark's plan to keep quit involves reflecting on the brotherhood and bonds he has formed here at KTC.
Are you starting to understand why Mark isn't what you are implying him to be? He is actually a great example of how you stay the fuck quit.
Thank you Mark, for being a fine example for all of us to follow. Stay strong brother, you know the craves will pass. You know a cave would not be worth it.
Instigator, grab your nuts and hang on. Addiction is fucked up, and it's the real deal. You will not be "cured" after some amount of days. You need to get over that concept. Just worry about today, and don't look ahead. Great job on being quit for 3 days, that is huge! Stay strong, and reach out if you need to.
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Day 372
Today sucked! I wanted to take a dip today 'bang head'Â Â I was craving it I could taste it I wanted it bad. I made my promise this morning I did not do the unthinkable. However to be honest even while I am writing this I am still thinking about a can of Skoal.
Damn that crap is hard to give up even after a year I can't belive it!
Thanks for your support guys!!! I could not let you down today just the thought of you all here helped me get through the day.
THANKS!!!
Stay Quit!!
Are you serious? I'm on day three. I strive to be where you are and you want a frickin' DIP!!?? Have you lost your mind??
What, you want to push that cancer mush back in your face when I'm still trying to free its grasp for a third g-- d--- day!?
Go back to the pictures and see that dude that has his face sliced open. Stare at that bare jaw bone. That's what me sign up here and I think about it every time I hear the friggin word 'Skoal'.
Instigator, Mark is a fine quitter.
However, being quit for a year does not magically make him immune to craves.
Do you understand what separates Mark from the other caving vagins around here?
First and foremost, he is a man of his WORD. Secondly, he has a PLAN for days like today, and he is smart enough to USE HIS PLAN.
just the thought of you all here helped me get through the day.
I'm guessing that part of Mark's plan to keep quit involves reflecting on the brotherhood and bonds he has formed here at KTC.
Are you starting to understand why Mark isn't what you are implying him to be? He is actually a great example of how you stay the fuck quit.
Thank you Mark, for being a fine example for all of us to follow. Stay strong brother, you know the craves will pass. You know a cave would not be worth it.
Instigator, grab your nuts and hang on. Addiction is fucked up, and it's the real deal. You will not be "cured" after some amount of days. You need to get over that concept. Just worry about today, and don't look ahead. Great job on being quit for 3 days, that is huge! Stay strong, and reach out if you need to.
Instigator congrats on your 3 days. Trust me I have seen those pictures I dipped for 38 years I am still not out of the woods yet. One year does not mean you walk away and forget it forever. I am addicted to nicotine and always will be. The only thing that separates me from going back is 1 dip. That's right 1 freekin dip so I come in here and sound off. If you read this whole thread you will see my whole quit outlined. Read me speech it is on my signature line. This crap has hurt me and my family so if me spilling my guts helped you stay quit for even 5 minutes it was worth it.
This is my sounding board it is part of my quit. These guys here have helped me for the past year. Yea today sucked out of the blue I craved the crap. I would not have used there is a big difference between craving and Caving! I commend you on your quit Thank LA for the support. You are right I gave my word and plan to do so tomorrow.
I encourage everyone to sound off it helps get it out of your system.
Caving is not an option!
Stay quit!!
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Thanks for being a excellent example of strength, your quit strengthens my quit.
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Thanks for being a excellent example of strength, your quit strengthens my quit.
Sensei That is how it works the more guys you have watching your back the better. I had a bad day today but I feel better now I vented and now it is behind me hopefully I don't have any more days like today in the near future.
Sorry gals didn't mean to leave you out :D
Go Samcat!!
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Thanks for being a excellent example of strength, your quit strengthens my quit.
Sensei That is how it works the more guys you have watching your back the better. I had a bad day today but I feel better now I vented and now it is behind me hopefully I don't have any more days like today in the near future.
Sorry gals didn't mean to leave you out :D
Go Samcat!!
Just remember Mark, no matter how bad you wanted it, you will feel that much better when the little funk passes. Im cruising along right now, but if you remember a few weeks ago I had it bad. Just keep fighting and Ill keep riding your coattails to the next day.
You are one fine quitter. Feel free to sound off whenever you feel like it.
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Day 372
Today sucked! I wanted to take a dip today 'bang head'Â Â I was craving it I could taste it I wanted it bad. I made my promise this morning I did not do the unthinkable. However to be honest even while I am writing this I am still thinking about a can of Skoal.
Damn that crap is hard to give up even after a year I can't believe it!
Thanks for your support guys!!! I could not let you down today just the thought of you all here helped me get through the day.
THANKS!!!
Stay Quit!!
Are you serious? I'm on day three. I strive to be where you are and you want a frickin' DIP!!?? Have you lost your mind??
What, you want to push that cancer mush back in your face when I'm still trying to free its grasp for a third g-- d--- day!?
Go back to the pictures and see that dude that has his face sliced open. Stare at that bare jaw bone. That's what me sign up here and I think about it every time I hear the friggin word 'Skoal'.
Instigator, Mark is a fine quitter.
However, being quit for a year does not magically make him immune to craves.
Do you understand what separates Mark from the other caving vagins around here?
First and foremost, he is a man of his WORD. Secondly, he has a PLAN for days like today, and he is smart enough to USE HIS PLAN.
just the thought of you all here helped me get through the day.
I'm guessing that part of Mark's plan to keep quit involves reflecting on the brotherhood and bonds he has formed here at KTC.
Are you starting to understand why Mark isn't what you are implying him to be? He is actually a great example of how you stay the fuck quit.
Thank you Mark, for being a fine example for all of us to follow. Stay strong brother, you know the craves will pass. You know a cave would not be worth it.
Instigator, grab your nuts and hang on. Addiction is fucked up, and it's the real deal. You will not be "cured" after some amount of days. You need to get over that concept. Just worry about today, and don't look ahead. Great job on being quit for 3 days, that is huge! Stay strong, and reach out if you need to.
Instigator congrats on your 3 days. Trust me I have seen those pictures I dipped for 38 years I am still not out of the woods yet. One year does not mean you walk away and forget it forever. I am addicted to nicotine and always will be. The only thing that separates me from going back is 1 dip. That's right 1 freekin dip so I come in here and sound off. If you read this whole thread you will see my whole quit outlined. Read me speech it is on my signature line. This crap has hurt me and my family so if me spilling my guts helped you stay quit for even 5 minutes it was worth it.
This is my sounding board it is part of my quit. These guys here have helped me for the past year. Yea today sucked out of the blue I craved the crap. I would not have used there is a big difference between craving and Caving! I commend you on your quit Thank LA for the support. You are right I gave my word and plan to do so tomorrow.
I encourage everyone to sound off it helps get it out of your system.
Caving is not an option!
Stay quit!!
Instigator I went and posted support for you. I will be watching you it looks as if you had a couple in your group that could learn from this thread. So game on you can't cave and neither can I. We are in this together.
Stay quit!
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Day 372
Today sucked! I wanted to take a dip today 'bang head'Â Â I was craving it I could taste it I wanted it bad. I made my promise this morning I did not do the unthinkable. However to be honest even while I am writing this I am still thinking about a can of Skoal.
Damn that crap is hard to give up even after a year I can't believe it!
Thanks for your support guys!!! I could not let you down today just the thought of you all here helped me get through the day.
THANKS!!!
Stay Quit!!
Are you serious? I'm on day three. I strive to be where you are and you want a frickin' DIP!!?? Have you lost your mind??
What, you want to push that cancer mush back in your face when I'm still trying to free its grasp for a third g-- d--- day!?
Go back to the pictures and see that dude that has his face sliced open. Stare at that bare jaw bone. That's what me sign up here and I think about it every time I hear the friggin word 'Skoal'.
Instigator, Mark is a fine quitter.
However, being quit for a year does not magically make him immune to craves.
Do you understand what separates Mark from the other caving vagins around here?
First and foremost, he is a man of his WORD. Secondly, he has a PLAN for days like today, and he is smart enough to USE HIS PLAN.
just the thought of you all here helped me get through the day.
I'm guessing that part of Mark's plan to keep quit involves reflecting on the brotherhood and bonds he has formed here at KTC.
Are you starting to understand why Mark isn't what you are implying him to be? He is actually a great example of how you stay the fuck quit.
Thank you Mark, for being a fine example for all of us to follow. Stay strong brother, you know the craves will pass. You know a cave would not be worth it.
Instigator, grab your nuts and hang on. Addiction is fucked up, and it's the real deal. You will not be "cured" after some amount of days. You need to get over that concept. Just worry about today, and don't look ahead. Great job on being quit for 3 days, that is huge! Stay strong, and reach out if you need to.
Instigator congrats on your 3 days. Trust me I have seen those pictures I dipped for 38 years I am still not out of the woods yet. One year does not mean you walk away and forget it forever. I am addicted to nicotine and always will be. The only thing that separates me from going back is 1 dip. That's right 1 freekin dip so I come in here and sound off. If you read this whole thread you will see my whole quit outlined. Read me speech it is on my signature line. This crap has hurt me and my family so if me spilling my guts helped you stay quit for even 5 minutes it was worth it.
This is my sounding board it is part of my quit. These guys here have helped me for the past year. Yea today sucked out of the blue I craved the crap. I would not have used there is a big difference between craving and Caving! I commend you on your quit Thank LA for the support. You are right I gave my word and plan to do so tomorrow.
I encourage everyone to sound off it helps get it out of your system.
Caving is not an option!
Stay quit!!
Instigator I went and posted support for you. I will be watching you it looks as if you had a couple in your group that could learn from this thread. So game on you can't cave and neither can I. We are in this together.
Stay quit!
And buddy, I certainly wasn't commenting on you in any negative way. I salute a year clean after so many years slaving to the can. I expect someone like you to sound off to work through a crave just like I will also sound off. I was only trying to help motivate in the best way I knew with so few miles on my journey.
I look at anyone with that much time down as an inspiration and if you get the crave and I can say something stupid to help you get through it, I'm your man!
:D
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Day 372
Today sucked! I wanted to take a dip today 'bang head'Â Â I was craving it I could taste it I wanted it bad. I made my promise this morning I did not do the unthinkable. However to be honest even while I am writing this I am still thinking about a can of Skoal.
Damn that crap is hard to give up even after a year I can't believe it!
Thanks for your support guys!!! I could not let you down today just the thought of you all here helped me get through the day.
THANKS!!!
Stay Quit!!
Are you serious? I'm on day three. I strive to be where you are and you want a frickin' DIP!!?? Have you lost your mind??
What, you want to push that cancer mush back in your face when I'm still trying to free its grasp for a third g-- d--- day!?
Go back to the pictures and see that dude that has his face sliced open. Stare at that bare jaw bone. That's what me sign up here and I think about it every time I hear the friggin word 'Skoal'.
Instigator, Mark is a fine quitter.
However, being quit for a year does not magically make him immune to craves.
Do you understand what separates Mark from the other caving vagins around here?
First and foremost, he is a man of his WORD. Secondly, he has a PLAN for days like today, and he is smart enough to USE HIS PLAN.
just the thought of you all here helped me get through the day.
I'm guessing that part of Mark's plan to keep quit involves reflecting on the brotherhood and bonds he has formed here at KTC.
Are you starting to understand why Mark isn't what you are implying him to be? He is actually a great example of how you stay the fuck quit.
Thank you Mark, for being a fine example for all of us to follow. Stay strong brother, you know the craves will pass. You know a cave would not be worth it.
Instigator, grab your nuts and hang on. Addiction is fucked up, and it's the real deal. You will not be "cured" after some amount of days. You need to get over that concept. Just worry about today, and don't look ahead. Great job on being quit for 3 days, that is huge! Stay strong, and reach out if you need to.
Instigator congrats on your 3 days. Trust me I have seen those pictures I dipped for 38 years I am still not out of the woods yet. One year does not mean you walk away and forget it forever. I am addicted to nicotine and always will be. The only thing that separates me from going back is 1 dip. That's right 1 freekin dip so I come in here and sound off. If you read this whole thread you will see my whole quit outlined. Read me speech it is on my signature line. This crap has hurt me and my family so if me spilling my guts helped you stay quit for even 5 minutes it was worth it.
This is my sounding board it is part of my quit. These guys here have helped me for the past year. Yea today sucked out of the blue I craved the crap. I would not have used there is a big difference between craving and Caving! I commend you on your quit Thank LA for the support. You are right I gave my word and plan to do so tomorrow.
I encourage everyone to sound off it helps get it out of your system.
Caving is not an option!
Stay quit!!
Instigator I went and posted support for you. I will be watching you it looks as if you had a couple in your group that could learn from this thread. So game on you can't cave and neither can I. We are in this together.
Stay quit!
And buddy, I certainly wasn't commenting on you in any negative way. I salute a year clean after so many years slaving to the can. I expect someone like you to sound off to work through a crave just like I will also sound off. I was only trying to help motivate in the best way I knew with so few miles on my journey.
I look at anyone with that much time down as an inspiration and if you get the crave and I can say something stupid to help you get through it, I'm your man!
:D
Good enough stay quit and look for a PM
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Day 373
What a difference 24hrs makes. Today no craves at all never even a thought. There is no easy way to do this 1 day at a time. I quit today and will quit tomorrow with all of you. Thanks for the support you gave me yesterday. If you are new take note day 1 or 372 you must deal with the crave the same way. Fight through it as Ready says "Caving is not an option do something else."
I come here to vent you must find your "something else" also it may be venting here or whatever. But do find something else to do.
Stay Quit!!
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Day 404
I was going to post last week here. It was a very stressful week. It started on Friday my daughter was in a pretty bad accident. she hit someone that pulled out in front of her. Both her and the other driver went to the hospital and both are OK. Still when that call comes it is scary. I was in the Fire service for 25 years and I know what the outcome could have been. So after you get past everyone is OK then you must deal with how to move everyone around to where they need to be without a 3rd driver.
Then dealing with the insurance company. I know they have procedures but one tells you there will be a settlement on a certain day and it does not come. Needless to say it was frustrating dealing with all of that.
Mid week we lost a close family friend. He was a great man and had touched many lives in his years. He served the nation in the Navy then he served this town as a police officer and he and his wife ran a daycare center that touched thousands of children in this community. You talk about a hero he was one of those guys. If anyone needed help he was there he was an awful carpenter and knew it but when I built on he came out just to help hold or move board so that I didn't have to. He was a life long smoker he quit about 10 years ago but it was not soon enough he has had health issues for the past 8 or nine years. 5 years ago they told him you will only have 6 months to live. He accepted his fate and the only thing he wanted to do was go to Hawaii and see the Arizona before he died. My parents took them over there and he just stood there and cried that was all he wanted was to pay his respects to his fallen brothers. He lived through the first time he had to live then he got Mersa the doctors said he will not be able to fight it off as well as the cancer. Wrong again 2 years ago he got pneumonia the doctors braced the family again not to be. He had battled pneumonia again this past winter and won again. He was getting frail the hero was running out of fight he went to the hospital on Sunday and went home on Wednesday. He supported me in my quit he told me he wished he had quit along time ago.
Trust me this week could have been different it would have been easy for me to say just one won't hurt. I dipped for 38 year when the stress piled up so did the empty cans. I have learned I can deal with things without it. Do I still think about it? Yes if I didn't would I still be here? Who knows.
I have used my intro as a sounding board. It is part of my quit read it if you want ignore it if you want just stay quit.
Thank a Vet today because of them we have the freedom to have a site like this.
To all our Hero's THANK YOU!
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Day 404
I was going to post last week here. It was a very stressful week. It started on Friday my daughter was in a pretty bad accident. she hit someone that pulled out in front of her. Both her and the other driver went to the hospital and both are OK. Still when that call comes it is scary. I was in the Fire service for 25 years and I know what the outcome could have been. So after you get past everyone is OK then you must deal with how to move everyone around to where they need to be without a 3rd driver.
Then dealing with the insurance company. I know they have procedures but one tells you there will be a settlement on a certain day and it does not come. Needless to say it was frustrating dealing with all of that.
Mid week we lost a close family friend. He was a great man and had touched many lives in his years. He served the nation in the Navy then he served this town as a police officer and he and his wife ran a daycare center that touched thousands of children in this community. You talk about a hero he was one of those guys. If anyone needed help he was there he was an awful carpenter and knew it but when I built on he came out just to help hold or move board so that I didn't have to. He was a life long smoker he quit about 10 years ago but it was not soon enough he has had health issues for the past 8 or nine years. 5 years ago they told him you will only have 6 months to live. He accepted his fate and the only thing he wanted to do was go to Hawaii and see the Arizona before he died. My parents took them over there and he just stood there and cried that was all he wanted was to pay his respects to his fallen brothers. He lived through the first time he had to live then he got Mersa the doctors said he will not be able to fight it off as well as the cancer. Wrong again 2 years ago he got pneumonia the doctors braced the family again not to be. He had battled pneumonia again this past winter and won again. He was getting frail the hero was running out of fight he went to the hospital on Sunday and went home on Wednesday. He supported me in my quit he told me he wished he had quit along time ago.
Trust me this week could have been different it would have been easy for me to say just one won't hurt. I dipped for 38 year when the stress piled up so did the empty cans. I have learned I can deal with things without it. Do I still think about it? Yes if I didn't would I still be here? Who knows.
I have used my intro as a sounding board. It is part of my quit read it if you want ignore it if you want just stay quit.
Thank a Vet today because of them we have the freedom to have a site like this.
To all our Hero's THANK YOU!
Markr.. am Proud to follow in your foots steps. You continue to inspire me and show me that no matter what life throws at you...that "just one" can not happen..but you do show me that staying Quit can happen!!!
I am certainly glad your daughter is safe...and im soo sooo sorry for your loss!!! Stay Strong Bro!!!
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Day 404
I was going to post last week here. It was a very stressful week. It started on Friday my daughter was in a pretty bad accident. she hit someone that pulled out in front of her. Both her and the other driver went to the hospital and both are OK. Still when that call comes it is scary. I was in the Fire service for 25 years and I know what the outcome could have been. So after you get past everyone is OK then you must deal with how to move everyone around to where they need to be without a 3rd driver.
Then dealing with the insurance company. I know they have procedures but one tells you there will be a settlement on a certain day and it does not come. Needless to say it was frustrating dealing with all of that.
Mid week we lost a close family friend. He was a great man and had touched many lives in his years. He served the nation in the Navy then he served this town as a police officer and he and his wife ran a daycare center that touched thousands of children in this community. You talk about a hero he was one of those guys. If anyone needed help he was there he was an awful carpenter and knew it but when I built on he came out just to help hold or move board so that I didn't have to. He was a life long smoker he quit about 10 years ago but it was not soon enough he has had health issues for the past 8 or nine years. 5 years ago they told him you will only have 6 months to live. He accepted his fate and the only thing he wanted to do was go to Hawaii and see the Arizona before he died. My parents took them over there and he just stood there and cried that was all he wanted was to pay his respects to his fallen brothers. He lived through the first time he had to live then he got Mersa the doctors said he will not be able to fight it off as well as the cancer. Wrong again 2 years ago he got pneumonia the doctors braced the family again not to be. He had battled pneumonia again this past winter and won again. He was getting frail the hero was running out of fight he went to the hospital on Sunday and went home on Wednesday. He supported me in my quit he told me he wished he had quit along time ago.
Trust me this week could have been different it would have been easy for me to say just one won't hurt. I dipped for 38 year when the stress piled up so did the empty cans. I have learned I can deal with things without it. Do I still think about it? Yes if I didn't would I still be here? Who knows.
I have used my intro as a sounding board. It is part of my quit read it if you want ignore it if you want just stay quit.
Thank a Vet today because of them we have the freedom to have a site like this.
To all our Hero's THANK YOU!
Markr.. am Proud to follow in your foots steps. You continue to inspire me and show me that no matter what life throws at you...that "just one" can not happen..but you do show me that staying Quit can happen!!!
I am certainly glad your daughter is safe...and im soo sooo sorry for your loss!!! Stay Strong Bro!!!
Sorry to hear about your week. Glad your daughter is going to be OK. Way to hang tough through it all.
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Day 404
I was going to post last week here. It was a very stressful week. It started on Friday my daughter was in a pretty bad accident. she hit someone that pulled out in front of her. Both her and the other driver went to the hospital and both are OK. Still when that call comes it is scary. I was in the Fire service for 25 years and I know what the outcome could have been. So after you get past everyone is OK then you must deal with how to move everyone around to where they need to be without a 3rd driver.
Then dealing with the insurance company. I know they have procedures but one tells you there will be a settlement on a certain day and it does not come. Needless to say it was frustrating dealing with all of that.
Mid week we lost a close family friend. He was a great man and had touched many lives in his years. He served the nation in the Navy then he served this town as a police officer and he and his wife ran a daycare center that touched thousands of children in this community. You talk about a hero he was one of those guys. If anyone needed help he was there he was an awful carpenter and knew it but when I built on he came out just to help hold or move board so that I didn't have to. He was a life long smoker he quit about 10 years ago but it was not soon enough he has had health issues for the past 8 or nine years. 5 years ago they told him you will only have 6 months to live. He accepted his fate and the only thing he wanted to do was go to Hawaii and see the Arizona before he died. My parents took them over there and he just stood there and cried that was all he wanted was to pay his respects to his fallen brothers. He lived through the first time he had to live then he got Mersa the doctors said he will not be able to fight it off as well as the cancer. Wrong again 2 years ago he got pneumonia the doctors braced the family again not to be. He had battled pneumonia again this past winter and won again. He was getting frail the hero was running out of fight he went to the hospital on Sunday and went home on Wednesday. He supported me in my quit he told me he wished he had quit along time ago.
Trust me this week could have been different it would have been easy for me to say just one won't hurt. I dipped for 38 year when the stress piled up so did the empty cans. I have learned I can deal with things without it. Do I still think about it? Yes if I didn't would I still be here? Who knows.
I have used my intro as a sounding board. It is part of my quit read it if you want ignore it if you want just stay quit.
Thank a Vet today because of them we have the freedom to have a site like this.
To all our Hero's THANK YOU!
Markr.. am Proud to follow in your foots steps. You continue to inspire me and show me that no matter what life throws at you...that "just one" can not happen..but you do show me that staying Quit can happen!!!
I am certainly glad your daughter is safe...and im soo sooo sorry for your loss!!! Stay Strong Bro!!!
Sorry to hear about your week. Glad your daughter is going to be OK. Way to hang tough through it all.
Keep posting. I for one certainly read what you say.
Sorry you had a shitty week, however you proved it can be done without dip.
Glad to hear your daughter is fine. Keep fighting brother !!
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Day 404
I was going to post last week here. It was a very stressful week. It started on Friday my daughter was in a pretty bad accident. she hit someone that pulled out in front of her. Both her and the other driver went to the hospital and both are OK. Still when that call comes it is scary. I was in the Fire service for 25 years and I know what the outcome could have been. So after you get past everyone is OK then you must deal with how to move everyone around to where they need to be without a 3rd driver.
Then dealing with the insurance company. I know they have procedures but one tells you there will be a settlement on a certain day and it does not come. Needless to say it was frustrating dealing with all of that.
Mid week we lost a close family friend. He was a great man and had touched many lives in his years. He served the nation in the Navy then he served this town as a police officer and he and his wife ran a daycare center that touched thousands of children in this community. You talk about a hero he was one of those guys. If anyone needed help he was there he was an awful carpenter and knew it but when I built on he came out just to help hold or move board so that I didn't have to. He was a life long smoker he quit about 10 years ago but it was not soon enough he has had health issues for the past 8 or nine years. 5 years ago they told him you will only have 6 months to live. He accepted his fate and the only thing he wanted to do was go to Hawaii and see the Arizona before he died. My parents took them over there and he just stood there and cried that was all he wanted was to pay his respects to his fallen brothers. He lived through the first time he had to live then he got Mersa the doctors said he will not be able to fight it off as well as the cancer. Wrong again 2 years ago he got pneumonia the doctors braced the family again not to be. He had battled pneumonia again this past winter and won again. He was getting frail the hero was running out of fight he went to the hospital on Sunday and went home on Wednesday. He supported me in my quit he told me he wished he had quit along time ago.
Trust me this week could have been different it would have been easy for me to say just one won't hurt. I dipped for 38 year when the stress piled up so did the empty cans. I have learned I can deal with things without it. Do I still think about it? Yes if I didn't would I still be here? Who knows.
I have used my intro as a sounding board. It is part of my quit read it if you want ignore it if you want just stay quit.
Thank a Vet today because of them we have the freedom to have a site like this.
To all our Hero's THANK YOU!
Markr.. am Proud to follow in your foots steps. You continue to inspire me and show me that no matter what life throws at you...that "just one" can not happen..but you do show me that staying Quit can happen!!!
I am certainly glad your daughter is safe...and im soo sooo sorry for your loss!!! Stay Strong Bro!!!
Sorry to hear about your week. Glad your daughter is going to be OK. Way to hang tough through it all.
Keep posting. I for one certainly read what you say.
Sorry you had a shitty week, however you proved it can be done without dip.
Glad to hear your daughter is fine. Keep fighting brother !!
Thanks for posting this mark.
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Day 404
I was going to post last week here. It was a very stressful week. It started on Friday my daughter was in a pretty bad accident. she hit someone that pulled out in front of her. Both her and the other driver went to the hospital and both are OK. Still when that call comes it is scary. I was in the Fire service for 25 years and I know what the outcome could have been. So after you get past everyone is OK then you must deal with how to move everyone around to where they need to be without a 3rd driver.
Then dealing with the insurance company. I know they have procedures but one tells you there will be a settlement on a certain day and it does not come. Needless to say it was frustrating dealing with all of that.
Mid week we lost a close family friend. He was a great man and had touched many lives in his years. He served the nation in the Navy then he served this town as a police officer and he and his wife ran a daycare center that touched thousands of children in this community. You talk about a hero he was one of those guys. If anyone needed help he was there he was an awful carpenter and knew it but when I built on he came out just to help hold or move board so that I didn't have to. He was a life long smoker he quit about 10 years ago but it was not soon enough he has had health issues for the past 8 or nine years. 5 years ago they told him you will only have 6 months to live. He accepted his fate and the only thing he wanted to do was go to Hawaii and see the Arizona before he died. My parents took them over there and he just stood there and cried that was all he wanted was to pay his respects to his fallen brothers. He lived through the first time he had to live then he got Mersa the doctors said he will not be able to fight it off as well as the cancer. Wrong again 2 years ago he got pneumonia the doctors braced the family again not to be. He had battled pneumonia again this past winter and won again. He was getting frail the hero was running out of fight he went to the hospital on Sunday and went home on Wednesday. He supported me in my quit he told me he wished he had quit along time ago.
Trust me this week could have been different it would have been easy for me to say just one won't hurt. I dipped for 38 year when the stress piled up so did the empty cans. I have learned I can deal with things without it. Do I still think about it? Yes if I didn't would I still be here? Who knows.
I have used my intro as a sounding board. It is part of my quit read it if you want ignore it if you want just stay quit.
Thank a Vet today because of them we have the freedom to have a site like this.
To all our Hero's THANK YOU!
Markr.. am Proud to follow in your foots steps. You continue to inspire me and show me that no matter what life throws at you...that "just one" can not happen..but you do show me that staying Quit can happen!!!
I am certainly glad your daughter is safe...and im soo sooo sorry for your loss!!! Stay Strong Bro!!!
Sorry to hear about your week. Glad your daughter is going to be OK. Way to hang tough through it all.
Keep posting. I for one certainly read what you say.
Sorry you had a shitty week, however you proved it can be done without dip.
Glad to hear your daughter is fine. Keep fighting brother !!
Thanks for posting this mark.
My quit is stronger from reading that, thank you.
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Day 404
I was going to post last week here. It was a very stressful week. It started on Friday my daughter was in a pretty bad accident. she hit someone that pulled out in front of her. Both her and the other driver went to the hospital and both are OK. Still when that call comes it is scary. I was in the Fire service for 25 years and I know what the outcome could have been. So after you get past everyone is OK then you must deal with how to move everyone around to where they need to be without a 3rd driver.
Then dealing with the insurance company. I know they have procedures but one tells you there will be a settlement on a certain day and it does not come. Needless to say it was frustrating dealing with all of that.
Mid week we lost a close family friend. He was a great man and had touched many lives in his years. He served the nation in the Navy then he served this town as a police officer and he and his wife ran a daycare center that touched thousands of children in this community. You talk about a hero he was one of those guys. If anyone needed help he was there he was an awful carpenter and knew it but when I built on he came out just to help hold or move board so that I didn't have to. He was a life long smoker he quit about 10 years ago but it was not soon enough he has had health issues for the past 8 or nine years. 5 years ago they told him you will only have 6 months to live. He accepted his fate and the only thing he wanted to do was go to Hawaii and see the Arizona before he died. My parents took them over there and he just stood there and cried that was all he wanted was to pay his respects to his fallen brothers. He lived through the first time he had to live then he got Mersa the doctors said he will not be able to fight it off as well as the cancer. Wrong again 2 years ago he got pneumonia the doctors braced the family again not to be. He had battled pneumonia again this past winter and won again. He was getting frail the hero was running out of fight he went to the hospital on Sunday and went home on Wednesday. He supported me in my quit he told me he wished he had quit along time ago.
Trust me this week could have been different it would have been easy for me to say just one won't hurt. I dipped for 38 year when the stress piled up so did the empty cans. I have learned I can deal with things without it. Do I still think about it? Yes if I didn't would I still be here? Who knows.
I have used my intro as a sounding board. It is part of my quit read it if you want ignore it if you want just stay quit.
Thank a Vet today because of them we have the freedom to have a site like this.
To all our Hero's THANK YOU!
Markr.. am Proud to follow in your foots steps. You continue to inspire me and show me that no matter what life throws at you...that "just one" can not happen..but you do show me that staying Quit can happen!!!
I am certainly glad your daughter is safe...and im soo sooo sorry for your loss!!! Stay Strong Bro!!!
Sorry to hear about your week. Glad your daughter is going to be OK. Way to hang tough through it all.
Keep posting. I for one certainly read what you say.
Sorry you had a shitty week, however you proved it can be done without dip.
Glad to hear your daughter is fine. Keep fighting brother !!
Thanks for posting this mark.
My quit is stronger from reading that, thank you.
Thank you all for the kind words. I could post this on the bulletin board at work or at Wal-Mart or ..... it would not have much meaning to most people. But all of the people here understand and feel the same as I do. They have been lead by an evil addition that spares no one. My good buddy that lost his battle this past week shows that you can be the best of the best and she will show no mercy on you.
I have taken something from just about everyone that I have had contact with here. I have learned from the ones before me and the ones riding my shirttail. I always remember I am only 1 dip away from DAY1.
Ready taught me the most important lesson very early in my quit and my signature as well as his still bears that lesson.
CAVING IS NOT AN OPTION!!!
Thanks again and STAY QUIT!!!
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Day 416
I met a guy today at the parts store. He was an older guy and had a strange accent. He kept talking to the guy at the counter then he politely told the guy I want someone else to wait on me please. He then turned around and was shaking his head. He looked at me and said that guy is chewing tobacco it took part of my face I will not deal with someone that chews. I told him that I had quit about a year ago and he said that was great. But then he asked me how many people had to look at me and small that dip in the time that I chewed. He then asked if I had every spit in a trash can that I did not have to empty. I told him that I had quit again He said that's good but think about all the people I had had contact with did I every apologize to them. He said it took loosing part of his face to cancer to make him see what tobacco had done. He lost his job for awhile so he lived on welfare and hand outs while he recovered. He said it is a social epidemic and it needs to stop now. He said he will not deal with anyone that smokes or chews. He said if everyone would do that then there is a chance that the use of tobacco would stop. I had no words to say I felt very uncomfortable I quit I thought that was good but in his eyes I still shopped at a place that let the countermen chew and that was unacceptable. I finally just walked out and went back to the truck to wait on him to leave. He got in a old truck that didn't look like it would make it across the road with out of state plates on it. He saw me sitting in the truck and stopped then he got out and came over to my truck. He said boy I want to tell you quitting is good but think about the damage you have done to others around you and try to make that right also. I just sat there speechless what the hell could I say I had no smart ass remark nothing just a big lump in my throat. He got in his truck and left I went in and the guys were making jokes about him. They asked why I left I said I really didn't know.
I just thought I would share this with you I still don't know what to tell that old guy if I ever meet him again.
Stay quit
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Day 416
I met a guy today at the parts store. He was an older guy and had a strange accent. He kept talking to the guy at the counter then he politely told the guy I want someone else to wait on me please. He then turned around and was shaking his head. He looked at me and said that guy is chewing tobacco it took part of my face I will not deal with someone that chews. I told him that I had quit about a year ago and he said that was great. But then he asked me how many people had to look at me and small that dip in the time that I chewed. He then asked if I had every spit in a trash can that I did not have to empty. I told him that I had quit again He said that's good but think about all the people I had had contact with did I every apologize to them. He said it took loosing part of his face to cancer to make him see what tobacco had done. He lost his job for awhile so he lived on welfare and hand outs while he recovered. He said it is a social epidemic and it needs to stop now. He said he will not deal with anyone that smokes or chews. He said if everyone would do that then there is a chance that the use of tobacco would stop. I had no words to say I felt very uncomfortable I quit I thought that was good but in his eyes I still shopped at a place that let the countermen chew and that was unacceptable. I finally just walked out and went back to the truck to wait on him to leave. He got in a old truck that didn't look like it would make it across the road with out of state plates on it. He saw me sitting in the truck and stopped then he got out and came over to my truck. He said boy I want to tell you quitting is good but think about the damage you have done to others around you and try to make that right also. I just sat there speechless what the hell could I say I had no smart ass remark nothing just a big lump in my throat. He got in his truck and left I went in and the guys were making jokes about him. They asked why I left I said I really didn't know.
I just thought I would share this with you I still don't know what to tell that old guy if I ever meet him again.
Stay quit
I'm not sure there is anything you could say that would make a difference to him.
This is a person who has not taken responsibility for causing his cancer. Instead he is blaming tobacco companies and anyone who uses or is associated with tobacco with his suffering.
In his mind, he is making a difference, but really he is still living with cancer, only now the cancer is in his mind.
The best thing you can possibly do is stay quit, be an example and let people like that drink their own poison, never drink it yourself.
Keep truckin'
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Day 416
I met a guy today at the parts store. He was an older guy and had a strange accent. He kept talking to the guy at the counter then he politely told the guy I want someone else to wait on me please. He then turned around and was shaking his head. He looked at me and said that guy is chewing tobacco it took part of my face I will not deal with someone that chews. I told him that I had quit about a year ago and he said that was great. But then he asked me how many people had to look at me and small that dip in the time that I chewed. He then asked if I had every spit in a trash can that I did not have to empty. I told him that I had quit again He said that's good but think about all the people I had had contact with did I every apologize to them. He said it took loosing part of his face to cancer to make him see what tobacco had done. He lost his job for awhile so he lived on welfare and hand outs while he recovered. He said it is a social epidemic and it needs to stop now. He said he will not deal with anyone that smokes or chews. He said if everyone would do that then there is a chance that the use of tobacco would stop. I had no words to say I felt very uncomfortable I quit I thought that was good but in his eyes I still shopped at a place that let the countermen chew and that was unacceptable. I finally just walked out and went back to the truck to wait on him to leave. He got in a old truck that didn't look like it would make it across the road with out of state plates on it. He saw me sitting in the truck and stopped then he got out and came over to my truck. He said boy I want to tell you quitting is good but think about the damage you have done to others around you and try to make that right also. I just sat there speechless what the hell could I say I had no smart ass remark nothing just a big lump in my throat. He got in his truck and left I went in and the guys were making jokes about him. They asked why I left I said I really didn't know.
I just thought I would share this with you I still don't know what to tell that old guy if I ever meet him again.
Stay quit
I'm not sure there is anything you could say that would make a difference to him.
This is a person who has not taken responsibility for causing his cancer. Instead he is blaming tobacco companies and anyone who uses or is associated with tobacco with his suffering.
In his mind, he is making a difference, but really he is still living with cancer, only now the cancer is in his mind.
The best thing you can possibly do is stay quit, be an example and let people like that drink their own poison, never drink it yourself.
Keep truckin'
Damn. Yeah man, that guy needs to take a long damn look in the mirror. I used to blame my dad for smoking in the car when I was a kid. I blamed my friends who chewed and smoked. I blamed Big Tobacco for putting such an addictive product on the market. I blamed the government for not making it illegal. I was a victim.
It was a huge turning point in my quit when I took full responsibility for all of my actions. All of my choices. Staying quit is my choice. Caving is my choice. No external factor can affect my quit. This is all me.
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Day 416
I met a guy today at the parts store. He was an older guy and had a strange accent. He kept talking to the guy at the counter then he politely told the guy I want someone else to wait on me please. He then turned around and was shaking his head. He looked at me and said that guy is chewing tobacco it took part of my face I will not deal with someone that chews. I told him that I had quit about a year ago and he said that was great. But then he asked me how many people had to look at me and small that dip in the time that I chewed. He then asked if I had every spit in a trash can that I did not have to empty. I told him that I had quit again He said that's good but think about all the people I had had contact with did I every apologize to them. He said it took loosing part of his face to cancer to make him see what tobacco had done. He lost his job for awhile so he lived on welfare and hand outs while he recovered. He said it is a social epidemic and it needs to stop now. He said he will not deal with anyone that smokes or chews. He said if everyone would do that then there is a chance that the use of tobacco would stop. I had no words to say I felt very uncomfortable I quit I thought that was good but in his eyes I still shopped at a place that let the countermen chew and that was unacceptable. I finally just walked out and went back to the truck to wait on him to leave. He got in a old truck that didn't look like it would make it across the road with out of state plates on it. He saw me sitting in the truck and stopped then he got out and came over to my truck. He said boy I want to tell you quitting is good but think about the damage you have done to others around you and try to make that right also. I just sat there speechless what the hell could I say I had no smart ass remark nothing just a big lump in my throat. He got in his truck and left I went in and the guys were making jokes about him. They asked why I left I said I really didn't know.
I just thought I would share this with you I still don't know what to tell that old guy if I ever meet him again.
Stay quit
I'm not sure there is anything you could say that would make a difference to him.
This is a person who has not taken responsibility for causing his cancer. Instead he is blaming tobacco companies and anyone who uses or is associated with tobacco with his suffering.
In his mind, he is making a difference, but really he is still living with cancer, only now the cancer is in his mind.
The best thing you can possibly do is stay quit, be an example and let people like that drink their own poison, never drink it yourself.
Keep truckin'
Damn. Yeah man, that guy needs to take a long damn look in the mirror. I used to blame my dad for smoking in the car when I was a kid. I blamed my friends who chewed and smoked. I blamed Big Tobacco for putting such an addictive product on the market. I blamed the government for not making it illegal. I was a victim.
It was a huge turning point in my quit when I took full responsibility for all of my actions. All of my choices. Staying quit is my choice. Caving is my choice. No external factor can affect my quit. This is all me.
Damn, I am glad I stumbled in here tonight. Good stuff guys. This little conversation has made my quit stronger. Carry on and have a good dip free weekend.
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Day 416
I met a guy today at the parts store. He was an older guy and had a strange accent. He kept talking to the guy at the counter then he politely told the guy I want someone else to wait on me please. He then turned around and was shaking his head. He looked at me and said that guy is chewing tobacco it took part of my face I will not deal with someone that chews. I told him that I had quit about a year ago and he said that was great. But then he asked me how many people had to look at me and small that dip in the time that I chewed. He then asked if I had every spit in a trash can that I did not have to empty. I told him that I had quit again He said that's good but think about all the people I had had contact with did I every apologize to them. He said it took loosing part of his face to cancer to make him see what tobacco had done. He lost his job for awhile so he lived on welfare and hand outs while he recovered. He said it is a social epidemic and it needs to stop now. He said he will not deal with anyone that smokes or chews. He said if everyone would do that then there is a chance that the use of tobacco would stop. I had no words to say I felt very uncomfortable I quit I thought that was good but in his eyes I still shopped at a place that let the countermen chew and that was unacceptable. I finally just walked out and went back to the truck to wait on him to leave. He got in a old truck that didn't look like it would make it across the road with out of state plates on it. He saw me sitting in the truck and stopped then he got out and came over to my truck. He said boy I want to tell you quitting is good but think about the damage you have done to others around you and try to make that right also. I just sat there speechless what the hell could I say I had no smart ass remark nothing just a big lump in my throat. He got in his truck and left I went in and the guys were making jokes about him. They asked why I left I said I really didn't know.
I just thought I would share this with you I still don't know what to tell that old guy if I ever meet him again.
Stay quit
I'm not sure there is anything you could say that would make a difference to him.
This is a person who has not taken responsibility for causing his cancer. Instead he is blaming tobacco companies and anyone who uses or is associated with tobacco with his suffering.
In his mind, he is making a difference, but really he is still living with cancer, only now the cancer is in his mind.
The best thing you can possibly do is stay quit, be an example and let people like that drink their own poison, never drink it yourself.
Keep truckin'
Damn. Yeah man, that guy needs to take a long damn look in the mirror. I used to blame my dad for smoking in the car when I was a kid. I blamed my friends who chewed and smoked. I blamed Big Tobacco for putting such an addictive product on the market. I blamed the government for not making it illegal. I was a victim.
It was a huge turning point in my quit when I took full responsibility for all of my actions. All of my choices. Staying quit is my choice. Caving is my choice. No external factor can affect my quit. This is all me.
Damn, I am glad I stumbled in here tonight. Good stuff guys. This little conversation has made my quit stronger. Carry on and have a good dip free weekend.
To be honest the guy scared the hell out of me!! I look at it like most of you it was my choice no one pushed me or held me down. It was my choice and I decide to quit. The best thing is I decided to quit here with all you!
PS If you see an old Ford F250 red hood black doors green bed with a guy that looks like he is about 70 white hair and scruffy beard.
Turn around and run like hell :D
Thanks for the support guys!!
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Day 416
I met a guy today at the parts store. He was an older guy and had a strange accent. He kept talking to the guy at the counter then he politely told the guy I want someone else to wait on me please. He then turned around and was shaking his head. He looked at me and said that guy is chewing tobacco it took part of my face I will not deal with someone that chews. I told him that I had quit about a year ago and he said that was great. But then he asked me how many people had to look at me and small that dip in the time that I chewed. He then asked if I had every spit in a trash can that I did not have to empty. I told him that I had quit again He said that's good but think about all the people I had had contact with did I every apologize to them. He said it took loosing part of his face to cancer to make him see what tobacco had done. He lost his job for awhile so he lived on welfare and hand outs while he recovered. He said it is a social epidemic and it needs to stop now. He said he will not deal with anyone that smokes or chews. He said if everyone would do that then there is a chance that the use of tobacco would stop. I had no words to say I felt very uncomfortable I quit I thought that was good but in his eyes I still shopped at a place that let the countermen chew and that was unacceptable. I finally just walked out and went back to the truck to wait on him to leave. He got in a old truck that didn't look like it would make it across the road with out of state plates on it. He saw me sitting in the truck and stopped then he got out and came over to my truck. He said boy I want to tell you quitting is good but think about the damage you have done to others around you and try to make that right also. I just sat there speechless what the hell could I say I had no smart ass remark nothing just a big lump in my throat. He got in his truck and left I went in and the guys were making jokes about him. They asked why I left I said I really didn't know.
I just thought I would share this with you I still don't know what to tell that old guy if I ever meet him again.
Stay quit
I'm not sure there is anything you could say that would make a difference to him.
This is a person who has not taken responsibility for causing his cancer. Instead he is blaming tobacco companies and anyone who uses or is associated with tobacco with his suffering.
In his mind, he is making a difference, but really he is still living with cancer, only now the cancer is in his mind.
The best thing you can possibly do is stay quit, be an example and let people like that drink their own poison, never drink it yourself.
Keep truckin'
Damn. Yeah man, that guy needs to take a long damn look in the mirror. I used to blame my dad for smoking in the car when I was a kid. I blamed my friends who chewed and smoked. I blamed Big Tobacco for putting such an addictive product on the market. I blamed the government for not making it illegal. I was a victim.
It was a huge turning point in my quit when I took full responsibility for all of my actions. All of my choices. Staying quit is my choice. Caving is my choice. No external factor can affect my quit. This is all me.
Damn, I am glad I stumbled in here tonight. Good stuff guys. This little conversation has made my quit stronger. Carry on and have a good dip free weekend.
To be honest the guy scared the hell out of me!! I look at it like most of you it was my choice no one pushed me or held me down. It was my choice and I decide to quit. The best thing is I decided to quit here with all you!
PS If you see an old Ford F250 red hood black doors green bed with a guy that looks like he is about 70 white hair and scruffy beard.
Turn around and run like hell :D
Thanks for the support guys!!
You tell a guy like that to fuck off, or in some form or fashion, mention that you fucked his wife and the bitch wont stop calling.
I'm an asshole and I approve this message.
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Day 434
My quit is solid no problems for awhile now. I could leave this site and probably be OK. I will admit I am burnt out on quitting. About the only time I think about dip is when I am on this site. Will I be leaving? No but I may not be as active as I was. I really commend some of these guys here they are some fine examples of quitters. They are here giving support every day to everyone me included. You vets know who you are I don't see how you keep the stamina up. Someone will come along and post a smart ass comment on this and that is part of the reason I have slowed down on posting. I still visit chat every now and then and I have made a promise to a couple brothers and will continue that support.
I am here to tell you if you are reading this and have not quit this place will help you quit. The people here will back you up they will give you their phone number if you have problems they expect you to call. If you fail and don't call they will want an explanation why you did not call. This place is for quitters it is not for the one that is undecided you are either in or out no in between. Don't come here if you want pampered this is not the place. It is the place to quit it is the home of Bad Ass Quitters serious about what they believe in.
Caving is not an option....... Quitting is the only option here. If your ready join up and get ready for the fight for your life.
I want to thank all of you who have helped me along the road.
Still quit
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Mark,
I have been watching you post for awhile and have learned from you. I can understand needing a break. I would suggest a once a week post or something so we all know you are still good.
STAY QUIT !
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Mark,
I have been watching you post for awhile and have learned from you. I can understand needing a break. I would suggest a once a week post or something so we all know you are still good.
STAY QUIT !
I will be posting roll every day in my group.
Just backing off on some of the other things. You guys can't get rid of me that easy :D
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Day 441
OK so I am back sooner than I thought. We had a tractor show this weekend and I was around allot of people some dipping and some smoking. I felt an urge all weekend to partake in tobacco. Why I did not you ask? Because I have learned that this addiction will haunt me forever not just the first 100 days or 1 year FOREVER. There is a guy I am supporting he went 9 years THAT'S RIGHT 9 FREEKING YEARS AND CAVED. So 441 is a good start I still have bad days if I told you I never crave I would be lying to you and I won't lie to you. This site is a place of your word so to me lying is not an option either. I want you to look back at the group you are in or just look through the intro section see how many have not kept their word. Don't be one of those guys. I used to say I was done forever that I have found not to be true. I quit for the day and tomorrow I will quit again one day at a time one decision at a time.
I am here to tell you that you are in a battle for your life the Nic Bitch has many ways to get to you. If you read these the post on this site you will see for yourself how she works. She will wait on you to have a weak moment and BANG she owns you again. Don't be one of those guys that can't keep your word. Post roll make your promise suck it up and do it every day.
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Day 455
So your quit. So you think you have won and beat the Nic Bitch right?
I read something this morning on this site a hardcore quitter that I looked up to is struggling to keep their quit. They supported me in my start and it really hit home I could not reply because I was at work and could not use this site there. My thoughts have been with them all day and I hope that they made the decision to stay quit. I have felt this way before and it is hard to describe thee feeling you just want to give up the fight. Every time I feel that way I think back to all the people I have met here they are just everyday guys and gals. We are bonded by the fact we are all nicotine addicts and always will be. I just thought I would post here tonight it looks like they got plenty of help today but my thoughts are still with them.
I think it is funny you get a bond with someone you have never met. They could be sitting next to you and you might not know them but they are still like family and you care about what happens to them.
Stay Quit!!!
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Day 455
So your quit. So you think you have won and beat the Nic Bitch right?
I read something this morning on this site a hardcore quitter that I looked up to is struggling to keep their quit. They supported me in my start and it really hit home I could not reply because I was at work and could not use this site there. My thoughts have been with them all day and I hope that they made the decision to stay quit. I have felt this way before and it is hard to describe thee feeling you just want to give up the fight. Every time I feel that way I think back to all the people I have met here they are just everyday guys and gals. We are bonded by the fact we are all nicotine addicts and always will be. I just thought I would post here tonight it looks like they got plenty of help today but my thoughts are still with them.
I think it is funny you get a bond with someone you have never met. They could be sitting next to you and you might not know them but they are still like family and you care about what happens to them.
Stay Quit!!!
I will Brudda, I will. :ph43r:
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Day 455
So your quit. So you think you have won and beat the Nic Bitch right?
I read something this morning on this site a hardcore quitter that I looked up to is struggling to keep their quit. They supported me in my start and it really hit home I could not reply because I was at work and could not use this site there. My thoughts have been with them all day and I hope that they made the decision to stay quit. I have felt this way before and it is hard to describe thee feeling you just want to give up the fight. Every time I feel that way I think back to all the people I have met here they are just everyday guys and gals. We are bonded by the fact we are all nicotine addicts and always will be. I just thought I would post here tonight it looks like they got plenty of help today but my thoughts are still with them.
I think it is funny you get a bond with someone you have never met. They could be sitting next to you and you might not know them but they are still like family and you care about what happens to them.Â
Stay Quit!!!
I will Brudda, I will. :ph43r:
Also Quit :ph43r:
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Day 502
Still solid in the quit and enjoying a healthier life. It's been really hot lately so I have not been out in the shop anymore than I have to be. The other day I stumbled across a old can of Skoal. Some of you may remember when they made commemorative lids on the cans, anyhow this is one that I had saved. It had the picture of a Firefighter on it. I was a volunteer Firefighter for about 25 years. Most of the guys on the department either chewed or smoked. I find it funny that those who know the risk of tobacco are some of the highest users. You make runs and see what cancer does to the body yet you ignore it you think it will never happen to you. The can lid said Americas hero's with a picture of a Firefighter facing a big blaze and it was on the lid of a can of poison. That lid had meaning to me back then now it is just a Skoal can lid with a picture on it. Yea we were hero's OK saving everyone but slowly killing ourselves. I remember going to schools to give programs in between classes we went out to pack our lips. Then tell all those kids not to use drugs. Looking back I am ashamed to have done what I did. How can someone like that be a hero? I just want you to stop and think for a minute who's HERO are you? Trust me someone looks up to you do you want to be the one that says don't do it and then turn around and do just the opposite?
I say it is time for the hero's here to stand tall and proud!!
Don't put nicotine back in your body make whoever is watching you proud to have you as their HERO!!!
Stay Quit!!
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Great post !! Reflection is one of the hardest parts of my quit so far. I think about what I did, how I acted and I am ashamed. My son smokes and I feel responsible for that. He was created by NIC soaked DNA so that had to play a part in him starting.
I know quitting is the best thing I have ever done. We are all setting an example and others will follow whether we know it or not. We are all making an impact in someones life, I know I actively talk to people about quitting. I left some business cards at two dentists close to my house so I am trying to pay back for my past sins. I have been talking to my son about quitting for almost 3 months, I hope he decides to toss the bitch out of his life too.
Stay active and help the newbs, that makes us heros in my book.
STAY QUIT
Greg
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Day 544
This Really got to me One of my friend had this on his Facebook post today the more I thought about it the more I wanted to spread the word. God Bless our troops!!!!!
LindsayLohan, 24, is all over the news because she's a celebrity drug addict. While Justin Allen 23, Brett Linley 29, Matthew Weikert 29, Justus Bartett 27, Dave Santos 21, Chase Stanley 21, Jesse Reed 26, Matthew Johnson 21, Zachary Fisher 24, Brandon King 23, Christopher Goeke 23, ...and Sheldon Tate 27 are all Marines that gave their lives this week, no media mention. Honor THEM by reposting this!!
Stay Quit Brothers and drop a prayer for our service men and women keeping us free.
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Day 594
Been real solid in my quit still crave but I know how to deal with that now. It is deer season a big trigger for me actually anything to do with the outdoors is a trigger for me. I have been hunting this year a lot with my daughter. She is 14 and is an accomplished deer hunter with several bucks and a few does to show for her time out in the woods. This year was her first year with a bow she worked hard getting conditioned to pull the bow back and worked hard to be accurate with it as well. We had a great bow season she missed a 140 inch 9 point but had a great time hunting and sorting through all the bucks this year. Anyhow this brings me to my point today.
I was a volunteer firefighter and EMT for 25 years I gave up many nights sleep to go help others for no pay other than a thank you. I decided 2 years ago that I wanted to step down from the Fire Department to spend more time with my family they are growing up fast. Today on my way to town The car in front of me dropped the right wheels off the road and the driver over corrected. The car hit a driveway causing it to get airborne and slid sideways into a mini van. We were traveling at about 50 mph so it was basically a 50 mph head on collision. I was able to stop fast enough that I was not involved but the 2 vehicles involved were in real bad shape. I called 911 gave the location as I went to the minivan. The engine was pushed into the drivers compartment the older woman driving was saved by the airbag. She complained of chest pains but was OK. I then heard the scream of a baby. looking over at the car is was almost inverted in the ditch the only thing keeping it from rolling on over was the minivan it had hit. I looked through the window and there was not one but two infants in the car. The child seat belts had broken on the one and I could see that the child was already black and blue in the face and neck area. I still don't know how but I opened the back door and bent it forward. I had to cut the seat belts to get the car seats out of the car the kids were hanging in the broken belts in their seats. I helped the mother out of the car and she was just worried about here babies. She was busted up pretty bad but refused treatment so she could ride in with her kids.
Let me tell you it doesn't matter how many times you have seen a baby strapped to a backboard it will haunt you for awhile. I hope that all from this accident fair well.
I know now why I stepped down I have seen this way too much in my life when I got in my truck after everything was over if I had a can I would have probably taken a dip. Life can change in the blink of an eye we are fighting an addiction and I will fight it for many more days and years to come.
I had to vent today the urge to dip was really strong for a few minutes. My kids told me they were proud of me for quitting I would have a hard time telling them that I failed but you all understand that.
Stay Quit and let your family know you love them life can change in the blink of an eye.
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Day 594
Been real solid in my quit still crave but I know how to deal with that now. It is deer season a big trigger for me actually anything to do with the outdoors is a trigger for me. I have been hunting this year a lot with my daughter. She is 14 and is an accomplished deer hunter with several bucks and a few does to show for her time out in the woods. This year was her first year with a bow she worked hard getting conditioned to pull the bow back and worked hard to be accurate with it as well. We had a great bow season she missed a 140 inch 9 point but had a great time hunting and sorting through all the bucks this year. Anyhow this brings me to my point today.
I was a volunteer firefighter and EMT for 25 years I gave up many nights sleep to go help others for no pay other than a thank you. I decided 2 years ago that I wanted to step down from the Fire Department to spend more time with my family they are growing up fast. Today on my way to town The car in front of me dropped the right wheels off the road and the driver over corrected. The car hit a driveway causing it to get airborne and slid sideways into a mini van. We were traveling at about 50 mph so it was basically a 50 mph head on collision. I was able to stop fast enough that I was not involved but the 2 vehicles involved were in real bad shape. I called 911 gave the location as I went to the minivan. The engine was pushed into the drivers compartment the older woman driving was saved by the airbag. She complained of chest pains but was OK. I then heard the scream of a baby. looking over at the car is was almost inverted in the ditch the only thing keeping it from rolling on over was the minivan it had hit. I looked through the window and there was not one but two infants in the car. The child seat belts had broken on the one and I could see that the child was already black and blue in the face and neck area. I still don't know how but I opened the back door and bent it forward. I had to cut the seat belts to get the car seats out of the car the kids were hanging in the broken belts in their seats. I helped the mother out of the car and she was just worried about here babies. She was busted up pretty bad but refused treatment so she could ride in with her kids.
Let me tell you it doesn't matter how many times you have seen a baby strapped to a backboard it will haunt you for awhile. I hope that all from this accident fair well.
I know now why I stepped down I have seen this way too much in my life when I got in my truck after everything was over if I had a can I would have probably taken a dip. Life can change in the blink of an eye we are fighting an addiction and I will fight it for many more days and years to come.
I had to vent today the urge to dip was really strong for a few minutes. My kids told me they were proud of me for quitting I would have a hard time telling them that I failed but you all understand that.
Stay Quit and let your family know you love them life can change in the blink of an eye.
Good looking out for others Mark. And as far as the having a can goes, you do know that you would have to get my permission first.
Nuff said.
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Day 594
Been real solid in my quit still crave but I know how to deal with that now. It is deer season a big trigger for me actually anything to do with the outdoors is a trigger for me. I have been hunting this year a lot with my daughter. She is 14 and is an accomplished deer hunter with several bucks and a few does to show for her time out in the woods. This year was her first year with a bow she worked hard getting conditioned to pull the bow back and worked hard to be accurate with it as well. We had a great bow season she missed a 140 inch 9 point but had a great time hunting and sorting through all the bucks this year. Anyhow this brings me to my point today.
I was a volunteer firefighter and EMT for 25 years I gave up many nights sleep to go help others for no pay other than a thank you. I decided 2 years ago that I wanted to step down from the Fire Department to spend more time with my family they are growing up fast. Today on my way to town The car in front of me dropped the right wheels off the road and the driver over corrected. The car hit a driveway causing it to get airborne and slid sideways into a mini van. We were traveling at about 50 mph so it was basically a 50 mph head on collision. I was able to stop fast enough that I was not involved but the 2 vehicles involved were in real bad shape. I called 911 gave the location as I went to the minivan. The engine was pushed into the drivers compartment the older woman driving was saved by the airbag. She complained of chest pains but was OK. I then heard the scream of a baby. looking over at the car is was almost inverted in the ditch the only thing keeping it from rolling on over was the minivan it had hit. I looked through the window and there was not one but two infants in the car. The child seat belts had broken on the one and I could see that the child was already black and blue in the face and neck area. I still don't know how but I opened the back door and bent it forward. I had to cut the seat belts to get the car seats out of the car the kids were hanging in the broken belts in their seats. I helped the mother out of the car and she was just worried about here babies. She was busted up pretty bad but refused treatment so she could ride in with her kids.
Let me tell you it doesn't matter how many times you have seen a baby strapped to a backboard it will haunt you for awhile. I hope that all from this accident fair well.
I know now why I stepped down I have seen this way too much in my life when I got in my truck after everything was over if I had a can I would have probably taken a dip. Life can change in the blink of an eye we are fighting an addiction and I will fight it for many more days and years to come.
I had to vent today the urge to dip was really strong for a few minutes. My kids told me they were proud of me for quitting I would have a hard time telling them that I failed but you all understand that.Â
Stay Quit and let your family know you love them life can change in the blink of an eye.
Good looking out for others Mark. And as far as the having a can goes, you do know that you would have to get my permission first.
Nuff said.
Thanks Ready just kinda got me down today .
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Day 594
Been real solid in my quit still crave but I know how to deal with that now. It is deer season a big trigger for me actually anything to do with the outdoors is a trigger for me. I have been hunting this year a lot with my daughter. She is 14 and is an accomplished deer hunter with several bucks and a few does to show for her time out in the woods. This year was her first year with a bow she worked hard getting conditioned to pull the bow back and worked hard to be accurate with it as well. We had a great bow season she missed a 140 inch 9 point but had a great time hunting and sorting through all the bucks this year. Anyhow this brings me to my point today.
I was a volunteer firefighter and EMT for 25 years I gave up many nights sleep to go help others for no pay other than a thank you. I decided 2 years ago that I wanted to step down from the Fire Department to spend more time with my family they are growing up fast. Today on my way to town The car in front of me dropped the right wheels off the road and the driver over corrected. The car hit a driveway causing it to get airborne and slid sideways into a mini van. We were traveling at about 50 mph so it was basically a 50 mph head on collision. I was able to stop fast enough that I was not involved but the 2 vehicles involved were in real bad shape. I called 911 gave the location as I went to the minivan. The engine was pushed into the drivers compartment the older woman driving was saved by the airbag. She complained of chest pains but was OK. I then heard the scream of a baby. looking over at the car is was almost inverted in the ditch the only thing keeping it from rolling on over was the minivan it had hit. I looked through the window and there was not one but two infants in the car. The child seat belts had broken on the one and I could see that the child was already black and blue in the face and neck area. I still don't know how but I opened the back door and bent it forward. I had to cut the seat belts to get the car seats out of the car the kids were hanging in the broken belts in their seats. I helped the mother out of the car and she was just worried about here babies. She was busted up pretty bad but refused treatment so she could ride in with her kids.
Let me tell you it doesn't matter how many times you have seen a baby strapped to a backboard it will haunt you for awhile. I hope that all from this accident fair well.
I know now why I stepped down I have seen this way too much in my life when I got in my truck after everything was over if I had a can I would have probably taken a dip. Life can change in the blink of an eye we are fighting an addiction and I will fight it for many more days and years to come.
I had to vent today the urge to dip was really strong for a few minutes. My kids told me they were proud of me for quitting I would have a hard time telling them that I failed but you all understand that.Â
Stay Quit and let your family know you love them life can change in the blink of an eye.
Good looking out for others Mark. And as far as the having a can goes, you do know that you would have to get my permission first.
Nuff said.
Thanks Ready just kinda got me down today .
You're a good man Mark. And a hell of a quitter. This is a good reminder that we must be vigilant. The addict in all of us is always looking for an excuse. But today, the QUITTER inside of you won another battle.
I hope your daughter has the chance to tag a nice buck this season. Enjoy your time with her.
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Day 867
I have not posted here in the intro section for quite some time. This weekend was a big weekend for me. We moved my oldest daughter into college and we had to make a trip back because she forgot some things. When we left it was getting ready to storm. Living in Indiana storms are a way of life we were wanting the rain as it has been really dry here. About 1/2 way there the storm unleashed it was pretty bad high wind and driving rain. When we got home we found out that there had been a tragedy at the state fair. The storm we had fought had claimed some lives. I have been a vol Fire fighter for several years and decided a couple years ago to step down. After hearing the stage collapse at the fair I felt not only for the victims but for the rescuers at the scene. It is a very helpless feeling to not be able to save a life. I reached in my empty pocket for the can that rode on many runs with me. It was not there but the trigger was.
Stay strong and Stay Quit.
Thoughts and prayers go out to all involved at the Indiana State Fair stage collapse.
http://www.tmz.com/2011/08/13/sugarland ... tate-fair/ (http://www.tmz.com/2011/08/13/sugarland-stage-collapse-indiana-state-fair/)
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It's the Christmas season again. We all have our own battles going on and for the new quitters here you are struggling to get through the day. I lost my Grandma to cancer a few years ago and she always loved the Christmas season. I learned from her that sometimes what we see as a disappointment really is a blessing. I am always reminded of that by the Christmas Guest from Grandpa Jones.
Have a great holiday season I have included a link to the Christmas Guest enjoy.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7iyYix9u ... re=related (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7iyYix9umek&feature=related)
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Merry Christmas ya'll!!!
I will be on day 1000 tomorrow I want to thank everyone that I have met along this journey. I have some old friend and some new ones as well. I have had days when dip never crosses my mind and days that I have thought ah just one won't hurt. I know that I am only one dip away from being back at day one again. I would hate to let you all down.
If you are thinking about quitting today is as good as any to start if you have quit congrats whether you are on day 1 or 10 years we all win this fight one day at a time.
Thanks to all that have helped me and those are not always one with more days than me you may be a new quitter and still inspire someone.
God bless our troops and the work that they are doing.
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Merry Christmas ya'll!!!
I will be on day 1000 tomorrow I want to thank everyone that I have met along this journey. I have some old friend and some new ones as well. I have had days when dip never crosses my mind and days that I have thought ah just one won't hurt. I know that I am only one dip away from being back at day one again. I would hate to let you all down.
If you are thinking about quitting today is as good as any to start if you have quit congrats whether you are on day 1 or 10 years we all win this fight one day at a time.
Thanks to all that have helped me and those are not always one with more days than me you may be a new quitter and still inspire someone.
God bless our troops and the work that they are doing.
It's an Honor to quit with you Mark.
Merry Christmas.
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Mark, you are still my first contact I must get permission from to dip...or eat a cigar in its wrapper. :D
Proud to see this comma day with you tomorrow. You're a good friend and a great quitter we can all look up to.
Gator (Greg)
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Day 372
Today sucked! I wanted to take a dip today 'bang head'Â Â I was craving it I could taste it I wanted it bad. I made my promise this morning I did not do the unthinkable. However to be honest even while I am writing this I am still thinking about a can of Skoal.
Damn that crap is hard to give up even after a year I can't belive it!
Thanks for your support guys!!! I could not let you down today just the thought of you all here helped me get through the day.
THANKS!!!
Stay Quit!!
Are you serious? I'm on day three. I strive to be where you are and you want a frickin' DIP!!?? Have you lost your mind??
What, you want to push that cancer mush back in your face when I'm still trying to free its grasp for a third g-- d--- day!?
Go back to the pictures and see that dude that has his face sliced open. Stare at that bare jaw bone. That's what me sign up here and I think about it every time I hear the friggin word 'Skoal'.
Instigator, Mark is a fine quitter.
However, being quit for a year does not magically make him immune to craves.
Do you understand what separates Mark from the other caving vagins around here?
First and foremost, he is a man of his WORD. Secondly, he has a PLAN for days like today, and he is smart enough to USE HIS PLAN.
just the thought of you all here helped me get through the day.
I'm guessing that part of Mark's plan to keep quit involves reflecting on the brotherhood and bonds he has formed here at KTC.
Are you starting to understand why Mark isn't what you are implying him to be? He is actually a great example of how you stay the fuck quit.
Thank you Mark, for being a fine example for all of us to follow. Stay strong brother, you know the craves will pass. You know a cave would not be worth it.
Instigator, grab your nuts and hang on. Addiction is fucked up, and it's the real deal. You will not be "cured" after some amount of days. You need to get over that concept. Just worry about today, and don't look ahead. Great job on being quit for 3 days, that is huge! Stay strong, and reach out if you need to.
Instigator congrats on your 3 days. Trust me I have seen those pictures I dipped for 38 years I am still not out of the woods yet. One year does not mean you walk away and forget it forever. I am addicted to nicotine and always will be. The only thing that separates me from going back is 1 dip. That's right 1 freekin dip so I come in here and sound off. If you read this whole thread you will see my whole quit outlined. Read me speech it is on my signature line. This crap has hurt me and my family so if me spilling my guts helped you stay quit for even 5 minutes it was worth it.
This is my sounding board it is part of my quit. These guys here have helped me for the past year. Yea today sucked out of the blue I craved the crap. I would not have used there is a big difference between craving and Caving! I commend you on your quit Thank LA for the support. You are right I gave my word and plan to do so tomorrow.
I encourage everyone to sound off it helps get it out of your system.
Caving is not an option!
Stay quit!!
And in honor of Mark's comma, gator bumps the first encounter between he and Mark, featuring a really nice day three rage that Mark calmly pimp-slaps, forging a great relationship for well over 600 days now.
gator tears up
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All I can say is this is what this site is about!! Thanks Ready and Gator for the kind words like I said some ahead and some behind we all work like spokes in a wheel!
God bless you all it has been a honor to quit with all you guys!!!
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Awesome job on the comma, Mark. Been great getting to know you these last few months
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This is good stuff. When I quit on my own last year, I caved after 13months. I now truely understand Once an addict, always an addict. I hope everyone else is smarter than I am and believes that BEFORE caving.
1,000 days free. It's guys like you that show me what I need to do....NEVER FORGET I'm an addict. How can I forget, if I post call every day? I know what's worked for the last 36 days, why would I want to stop?
WTG man. Thank you for leading by example for us Newbs.
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Congrats on the comma markr!
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Congrats Mark! Good on you, sir!
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1,006 days quit and a new year!!! OK I know there are going to be a flood of new quitters coming on board you are making a resolution to quit chewing or smoking or whatever. You are here for a reason you will read that around here this is not a place for a part time quitter we are serious about quitting. The guys and gals here will help you down the road of your quit but you must do the quitting nobody can quit for you. Will it be easy NO it will be one of the hardest thing you ever do. There will be days that you ease through and think this is easy then the next day you will fight for every minute. You must keep your word we make a promise to our quit group and anyone here that we will not use that day we don't worry about tomorrow just today you may have to worry about staying quit for the next 30 seconds I know some days I fought for every minute to stay quit.
Alright so you look through the pages here and you see guys like me that have 1,000 days behind us and you think why is this guy still here. I and everyone here is a ADDICT that is why we are still here. I have seen guys leave this place with a couple hundred days behind them and they come back posting day 1 some have been quit for longer than me and have come back to start over. So don't think that you will be cured when you hit that 100 day mark. In the words of gunny "sorry cupcake it just don't work that way." You made a choice to use this stuff now you must make a choice to stop using this stuff.
I welcome you to the site now like you will hear many times around here "It is time for you to MAN UP AND QUIT'
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1,006 days quit and a new year!!! OK I know there are going to be a flood of new quitters coming on board you are making a resolution to quit chewing or smoking or whatever. You are here for a reason you will read that around here this is not a place for a part time quitter we are serious about quitting. The guys and gals here will help you down the road of your quit but you must do the quitting nobody can quit for you. Will it be easy NO it will be one of the hardest thing you ever do. There will be days that you ease through and think this is easy then the next day you will fight for every minute. You must keep your word we make a promise to our quit group and anyone here that we will not use that day we don't worry about tomorrow just today you may have to worry about staying quit for the next 30 seconds I know some days I fought for every minute to stay quit.
Alright so you look through the pages here and you see guys like me that have 1,000 days behind us and you think why is this guy still here. I and everyone here is a ADDICT that is why we are still here. I have seen guys leave this place with a couple hundred days behind them and they come back posting day 1 some have been quit for longer than me and have come back to start over. So don't think that you will be cured when you hit that 100 day mark. In the words of gunny "sorry cupcake it just don't work that way." You made a choice to use this stuff now you must make a choice to stop using this stuff.
I welcome you to the site now like you will hear many times around here "It is time for you to MAN UP AND QUIT'
damn straight mark. new years's quitters let's get the show on the road. it aint gonna be easy. but i grantee it will be one of the best things you have ever done.
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Day 372
Today sucked! I wanted to take a dip today 'bang head'Â Â I was craving it I could taste it I wanted it bad. I made my promise this morning I did not do the unthinkable. However to be honest even while I am writing this I am still thinking about a can of Skoal.
Damn that crap is hard to give up even after a year I can't belive it!
Thanks for your support guys!!! I could not let you down today just the thought of you all here helped me get through the day.
THANKS!!!
Stay Quit!!
Are you serious? I'm on day three. I strive to be where you are and you want a frickin' DIP!!?? Have you lost your mind??
What, you want to push that cancer mush back in your face when I'm still trying to free its grasp for a third g-- d--- day!?
Go back to the pictures and see that dude that has his face sliced open. Stare at that bare jaw bone. That's what me sign up here and I think about it every time I hear the friggin word 'Skoal'.
Instigator, Mark is a fine quitter.
However, being quit for a year does not magically make him immune to craves.
Do you understand what separates Mark from the other caving vagins around here?
First and foremost, he is a man of his WORD. Secondly, he has a PLAN for days like today, and he is smart enough to USE HIS PLAN.
just the thought of you all here helped me get through the day.
I'm guessing that part of Mark's plan to keep quit involves reflecting on the brotherhood and bonds he has formed here at KTC.
Are you starting to understand why Mark isn't what you are implying him to be? He is actually a great example of how you stay the fuck quit.
Thank you Mark, for being a fine example for all of us to follow. Stay strong brother, you know the craves will pass. You know a cave would not be worth it.
Instigator, grab your nuts and hang on. Addiction is fucked up, and it's the real deal. You will not be "cured" after some amount of days. You need to get over that concept. Just worry about today, and don't look ahead. Great job on being quit for 3 days, that is huge! Stay strong, and reach out if you need to.
Instigator congrats on your 3 days. Trust me I have seen those pictures I dipped for 38 years I am still not out of the woods yet. One year does not mean you walk away and forget it forever. I am addicted to nicotine and always will be. The only thing that separates me from going back is 1 dip. That's right 1 freekin dip so I come in here and sound off. If you read this whole thread you will see my whole quit outlined. Read me speech it is on my signature line. This crap has hurt me and my family so if me spilling my guts helped you stay quit for even 5 minutes it was worth it.
This is my sounding board it is part of my quit. These guys here have helped me for the past year. Yea today sucked out of the blue I craved the crap. I would not have used there is a big difference between craving and Caving! I commend you on your quit Thank LA for the support. You are right I gave my word and plan to do so tomorrow.
I encourage everyone to sound off it helps get it out of your system.
Caving is not an option!
Stay quit!!
And in honor of Mark's comma, gator bumps the first encounter between he and Mark, featuring a really nice day three rage that Mark calmly pimp-slaps, forging a great relationship for well over 600 days now.
gator tears up
tarp hands gator a tissue and pats him on the arse
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Day 1,014 Still here removed BS sorry
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Day 1625
Today is Sept 11 2013, 12 years ago there were some cowards that attacked our country. They killed thousands of innocent people. They killed 343 fellow Firefighters that day I will never forget that. Late that afternoon on 9/11/01 I received a phone call and was put on standby to go to New York to help with the rescue effort. I was teaching a CPR class that day in another town about 50 miles away. I will never forget that day. On the way home every exit on the interstate was packed with vehicles trying to get fuel. The 4 lane around Indianapolis looked like a ghost town. When I pasted the airport and saw armed guards at the exit it really hit me this was a huge deal. My cell phone rang and it was my fire chief letting me know that several of us that had been certified in heavy rescue had been put on a standby list to go to NY. I didn't really want to go but would have left to go in a heart beat. I was never called to go help but my thoughts and prayers were with those who did.
I decided to post today in my intro because fire runs were always a big trigger for me. I have been quit for over 4 years now and 99% of the days pass by with no thought of a dip. But the thought came to me today so I posted here to let you know that even after 4 years you ain't cure totally.
Take time today to thank your local Fire and Police departments those guys are out there every day trying to help and protect you and they will make the ultimate sacrifice to help you. Thank all the troops past and present that fight to protect this great country.
Stay Quit
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Day 1625
Today is Sept 11 2013, 12 years ago there were some cowards that attacked our country. They killed thousands of innocent people. They killed 343 fellow Firefighters that day I will never forget that. Late that afternoon on 9/11/01 I received a phone call and was put on standby to go to New York to help with the rescue effort. I was teaching a CPR class that day in another town about 50 miles away. I will never forget that day. On the way home every exit on the interstate was packed with vehicles trying to get fuel. The 4 lane around Indianapolis looked like a ghost town. When I pasted the airport and saw armed guards at the exit it really hit me this was a huge deal. My cell phone rang and it was my fire chief letting me know that several of us that had been certified in heavy rescue had been put on a standby list to go to NY. I didn't really want to go but would have left to go in a heart beat. I was never called to go help but my thoughts and prayers were with those who did.
I decided to post today in my intro because fire runs were always a big trigger for me. I have been quit for over 4 years now and 99% of the days pass by with no thought of a dip. But the thought came to me today so I posted here to let you know that even after 4 years you ain't cure totally.
Take time today to thank your local Fire and Police departments those guys are out there every day trying to help and protect you and they will make the ultimate sacrifice to help you. Thank all the troops past and present that fight to protect this great country.
Stay Quit
Mark,
Very well recalled and stated. Thank you for everything you have done, continue to do and for being a great example on here.
Pinched
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Day 1625
Today is Sept 11 2013, 12 years ago there were some cowards that attacked our country. They killed thousands of innocent people. They killed 343 fellow Firefighters that day I will never forget that. Late that afternoon on 9/11/01 I received a phone call and was put on standby to go to New York to help with the rescue effort. I was teaching a CPR class that day in another town about 50 miles away. I will never forget that day. On the way home every exit on the interstate was packed with vehicles trying to get fuel. The 4 lane around Indianapolis looked like a ghost town. When I pasted the airport and saw armed guards at the exit it really hit me this was a huge deal. My cell phone rang and it was my fire chief letting me know that several of us that had been certified in heavy rescue had been put on a standby list to go to NY. I didn't really want to go but would have left to go in a heart beat. I was never called to go help but my thoughts and prayers were with those who did.
I decided to post today in my intro because fire runs were always a big trigger for me. I have been quit for over 4 years now and 99% of the days pass by with no thought of a dip. But the thought came to me today so I posted here to let you know that even after 4 years you ain't cure totally.
Take time today to thank your local Fire and Police departments those guys are out there every day trying to help and protect you and they will make the ultimate sacrifice to help you. Thank all the troops past and present that fight to protect this great country.
Stay Quit
Mark,
Very well recalled and stated. Thank you for everything you have done, continue to do and for being a great example on here.
Pinched
Good for us all to remember that day. I have been watching the memories all morning. Thanks for the post and what you did that day...
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Mark,
5 years is awesome no doubt! But, facing the tough work schedule you have had lately and still making 5 years is inspirational. I am proud to quit with you each day.
P
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7 years and counting, that is impressive!
Live Chat buddy at times, July Brother and all around solid quitter.
Thanks Mark !