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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: mtvanz on February 01, 2015, 01:50:00 AM
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Hey guys, my name is Marc, I'm a 19 year old from Connecticut, and as of Wednesday, January 28th, 2015, I decided I was going to kick this disgusting habit. I'm new here and I would assume that I am one of the younger people on here, but here's my story.
I was 14 and a freshman in high school and I was hanging out with two of my best friends who were "weekend dippers" and we were having a couple cold ones by a bonfire in this my friend's backyard. So up until that night I was 100% against tobacco because my sister was a smoker and I wanted to play college football at the time and I didn't want to throw my life away. So my buddy pulls out a tin of Skoal Berry, and they both throw in a lip. They started annoying me just to try it and that the buzz is cool and I told them no for probably 40 minutes and finally I asked if they would shut up if I did it, and they said yes. So my buddy hands me the tin and I put it in and was focusing on not swallowing it and I was looking at the ground. About 5 minutes later I said fuck this shit, this sucks and it tastes bad, so I took it out... and then I looked up from the ground and the buzz hit me and I turned to my buddy and I said let me get another. The next day I was hooked, and within my freshman year I was chewing 3 times a day, then my sophomore year came and I was chewing 5 times a day. and then my junior came and I was chewing 7 times a day and finally my senior year of high school I was chewing 8-12(bout a can and a half) times a day every single day until college.
When I started to chew I basically quit doing schoolwork in high school and my heart was no longer in football even though I kept playing it, and I lost my lifelong best friend since I was 3 because he didn't wanna hang out with me because I was dipping.
So 3 days ago I decided that I was done with it and kicked the can for two days and then today I bummed a lip off of a kid and here I am trying to get through these first 3 days again.
I haven't known life without chewing since I finished 8th grade.
A little tin has controlled me for so many years and I had seen this site a few years back but now I'm serious and I wanna be a part of this. I'm 19, the same age as Sean Marsee was when he died of his horrific cancer. And the funny part is I can remember watching the Sean Marsee video when I was 15 thinking that I wouldn't be dipping then, and here we are 4 years later.
Sorry this is a really fucking long introduction, but I'm here and I'm quitting.
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I'm 22 and going through the same thing. I'm on day 1 and will not romanticize with suicide. You can do this. I walking through the flame right with you. If you want my number pm me.
Join the live chat and they will help set you up with posting roll.
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I'm 22 and going through the same thing. I'm on day 1 and will not romanticize with suicide. You can do this. I walking through the flame right with you. If you want my number pm me.
Join the live chat and they will help set you up with posting roll.
Thanks man, I just read yours, shit is just crazy - but fuck it we're in this together bud.
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I'm 22 and going through the same thing. I'm on day 1 and will not romanticize with suicide. You can do this. I walking through the flame right with you. If you want my number pm me.
Join the live chat and they will help set you up with posting roll.
Thanks man, I just read yours, shit is just crazy - but fuck it we're in this together bud.
Welcome MT, in the same class, been doing this shit for 20+ yrs, it ain't no joke trying to quit. You have to commit and participate to KTC. It does work, believe me at day 10 I have had struggles and craves, but I think bout my fellow quitters. Spend time here and read, read and read. Quit on!
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I'm 22 and going through the same thing. I'm on day 1 and will not romanticize with suicide. You can do this. I walking through the flame right with you. If you want my number pm me.
Join the live chat and they will help set you up with posting roll.
Thanks man, I just read yours, shit is just crazy - but fuck it we're in this together bud.
Welcome MT, in the same class, been doing this shit for 20+ yrs, it ain't no joke trying to quit. You have to commit and participate to KTC. It does work, believe me at day 10 I have had struggles and craves, but I think bout my fellow quitters. Spend time here and read, read and read. Quit on!
We are all in this together. Trust me do it now for good. Or you will blink and be me. 44 and doing three cans a day. And three dips per can!
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I'm 22 and going through the same thing. I'm on day 1 and will not romanticize with suicide. You can do this. I walking through the flame right with you. If you want my number pm me.
Join the live chat and they will help set you up with posting roll.
Thanks man, I just read yours, shit is just crazy - but fuck it we're in this together bud.
Welcome MT, in the same class, been doing this shit for 20+ yrs, it ain't no joke trying to quit. You have to commit and participate to KTC. It does work, believe me at day 10 I have had struggles and craves, but I think bout my fellow quitters. Spend time here and read, read and read. Quit on!
We are all in this together. Trust me do it now for good. Or you will blink and be me. 44 and doing three cans a day. And three dips per can!
Damn right! Way to jump in there and help a young May quitter that's frigging awesome guy's! Hang in there be a team, help each other, feed off each other, get you a close vet friend here he will walk you the right way through! Been dipping 38 years fellows I'm an addict just like you guys. I learned a long time ago 2 years, 10,20,30 or more years your not gonna quit this shit and stay quit without help! Post roll EDD! Listen, read all you can! Quit ODAAT! Quit on you badass may quitters you guys are doing it right! Pm me brothers you ever need anything!