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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: kevinranders on January 14, 2013, 08:12:00 AM
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Good morning folks - Took the (much needed) step today, several hours ago actually. It is already harder and already more rewarding than I fathomed it could be. Granted my real test(s) will come during my car rides or working at the computer. I have had today planned for quite some time. I picked the date, wrote it on the calendar and spent the last week mentally preparing myself for the quit.
I started dipping in undergraduate school and have dipped for about 14 years. I am anxious as all fuck about quitting but am motivated.
I am am eager to continue reading the site - I did post roll call.
Not sure if proper place (I did do a search) - but does anyone know of a place to purchase the Herbal Snuff products in Charlotte, NC? Even google searches yielded no results for me.
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Welcome Kevin! Nice job posting roll and taking the first step in achieving freedom from the can.
This (http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/alternatives.asp) link will help with finding the fake stuff. Take some time and look at the welcome center. If you still have questions just shout. Lots of water, exercise, trident gum and sunflower seeds helped me keep the craves at bay.
Your promise is your word. When you shed all the stuff and the things, it's all we have left. Honor it and you'll honor us, yourself and earn the freedom you seek. Thanks for stepping up.
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Way to step up and face the problem, Kevin. As others have said, find something to help with the oral fixation - seeds, gum, candy, fake stuff, etc. The next 3 days will be hard but after that you've got the nicotine out of your system. Next will be dealing with the mindgames, the fog and your body screaming for something it has had for 14 years. Just hang in, it gets better. Especially when you can look at your loved ones with the pride of knowing you have kicked the can and it's nasty contents to the side. Make sure to post roll everyday. If your experience is like mine, you'll find that posting roll is what will get you thru the day. During this time, your quitgroup and all the supporters are your biggest and best weapon. They'll celebrate the highs with you and keep you picked up thru the lows. They'll also turn nastier than a Mississippi leg hound if you don't keep your word and cave in to niccotine.
I don't know if you've read the front page, but please do. It was a help for me, not only during the first of my quit, but I still find myself going back and reading it. Here's a link
http://www.killthecan.org/ (http://www.killthecan.org/)
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Outstanding shit my friend. Welcome to freedom. Something about knowing you call the shots that's liberating.
Settle in for the ride. Stick close to this site. Read and reach out. There is a ton of help here. Anyone of these stone cold steel balled fuckers would offer you a hand, a word of encouragement or a kick to the nuts as deemed necessary.
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Thanks for the welcome(s) dudes.
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Welcome Brother! Quit kicks ass. It's way better on the other side. How do I know?? Because I was a slave to Kodiak for 25 years.
You're not alone. Stay quit one minute at a time. Pickle seeds and strawberry gum is what I lean on. I don't like the fake shit...(though it has saved many others)
You can do it. KC Bronco
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Welcome fellow quit badass! This is the place with the formula that helped me quit after 32 years of putting that crap in my lip. Post every day, repeat. These quitters will hold you accountable and for the last 228 days the nic bitch has been squashed in my life. It's a great feeling. Hang in and embrace the suck, you will be glad you did.
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Welcome to the rest of your life. Post every day and make your quit the most important thing in your life, and you will succeed. I just made two years quit after dipping for 30 years. If my addict ass can beat tobacco so can you. PM me if you need anything.
As for the herbal dip, your best bet may be to order some. Unfortunately the only place I was ever able to find it was in tobacco stores. Go figure.
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Kevin, I extend my hand of support. I as an addict understand your struggle and withdrawal pain but you and I are far from alone, thousands of us are quitting everyday and winning! Many quitters grabbed my hand 289 days ago and helped guide me through my early days of quit. Now as I'm more secure I can do the same for you. Pm me if I can help.
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Thanks all. Already this site kicks ass, what a community. So far today (has been 8 hours since I officially became a quitter). I have gone through two bags of sunflower seeds, half a bag of spearmint life savers, a CLIF bar and did find some nicotine free/herbal alternative shit called "Smokey Mountain Herbal Snuff"....oddly enough I found it at a tobacco shop around the corner from my building.
One minute at a time is great advice as currently I want to put my head through a window.
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Hang in there Kevin. These first few days suck but it is sooooooo worth it friend. I quit with you today brother. It is a daily battle for all of us, even the 1,000 day quitter.
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Thanks all. Already this site kicks ass, what a community. So far today (has been 8 hours since I officially became a quitter). I have gone through two bags of sunflower seeds, half a bag of spearmint life savers, a CLIF bar and did find some nicotine free/herbal alternative shit called "Smokey Mountain Herbal Snuff"....oddly enough I found it at a tobacco shop around the corner from my building.
One minute at a time is great advice as currently I want to put my head through a window.
man im gonna reckamend you go back buy as much as you think you need then stay the fuck out a that place like its the house of anthrax. never walk thru that door agin. ever.
on one a my many failed quit attemps afore findin this place i got my fake shit in a tabacco shop. then one day they dint have it. i bot cope insted.
get what you need and then start byin on the internets.
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Welcome Aboard!!!! I am with Syndrome!! Stay out of there. I use Smokey Mountain and you can get it online if need be.
1. This site is amazing and so are the people if you reach out.
2. You have to basically screw yourself. Tell everyone you care about that you are quitting. Get numbers from all of us so we will hold you accountable and be there if you need to text or talk.
3. Embrace the Suck. That statement didnt make any sense to me until I was about 15 days in. Then it was a defining statement! The first 3 days need to suck so bad that you will never want to do this to yourself ever again!!
And if none of that is working, I will quote what many HOF's have told me. " Open up a desk drawer, insert balls and close"
PM me if you need me!! Stay Quit!!
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I know it sucks right now but you are making the best decision of your life. Read, grind, reach out, get numbers, rage, ask questions, chew seeds, chew fake, eat fire balls, play with your balls, hell play with you're neighbors balls. Just do whatever it takes to keep that cancerous shit out your mouth. Every day you do you're confidence will grow and things will get easier. I promise. We are here for YOU. Use us.
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welcome kevin you made the right choice, just like the guys say it is one of the hardest thing you'll probably ever do but so worth it, i know cause im on day 3 of my quit so its fresh in my head. If you need anything just shout out.
ohh and jolly ranchers seem to be my saving grace.
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Coming up (towards) the end of my first day. Exercise helped a ton, as did taking my dogs on a long walk.
Agreed - I hope to never return to that tobacco shop. I bought many cans of the smokey to hold me over...but if I need more I will order them for sure.
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Coming up (towards) the end of my first day. Exercise helped a ton, as did taking my dogs on a long walk.
Agreed - I hope to never return to that tobacco shop. I bought many cans of the smokey to hold me over...but if I need more I will order them for sure.
Know thy Enemy (http://whyquit.com/whyquit/linksaaddiction.html). Great job on the first day! Tomorrow, we do it again.
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Tonight has def. been rough - headache, dizzy "feeling", general feeling of discomfort.
I will stay strong though. I do not say what I do not mean and today I said I quit!
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Good morning Day 2.....last night was rough - why the fuck would I want to go through that shit again...ever again. I quit again today and will sustain that quit each hours, each moment, step by step until day 3 begins and then day 4 and 5 and 100.
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Hang tough. The first 3 days were physically the worst for me. Take asprin, sleep meds, chew seeds, water, water, water, workout. Do whatever it takes to fight through the suck. You got this.
PM me if you have any questions.
EMBRACE THE SUCK !!!!
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Good morning Day 2.....last night was rough - why the fuck would I want to go through that shit again...ever again. I quit again today and will sustain that quit each hours, each moment, step by step until day 3 begins and then day 4 and 5 and 100.
Stay strong brother. Just get through today, hour by hour or minute by minute, meal by meal.... Whatever it takes. let tomorrow and the days after take care of themselves. Today is all we need to concern ourselves with. PM me if you need another number.
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Good morning Day 2.....last night was rough - why the fuck would I want to go through that shit again...ever again. I quit again today and will sustain that quit each hours, each moment, step by step until day 3 begins and then day 4 and 5 and 100.
The good news is that you've made it thru to day 2. Just take care of today, minute by minute. If you're feeling frustrated, angry or any one of many emotions you may be going thru, post on here and get it out. Whatever happens, don't take it out on your family. Just keep doing what got you thru day 1. And like others said, stay out of that tobacco store. To this day, everytime I walk by the tobacco aisle in WalMart, I still start sweating and going into convulsions. But I've learned how to fight it with the help of this site.
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Good morning Day 2.....last night was rough - why the fuck would I want to go through that shit again...ever again. I quit again today and will sustain that quit each hours, each moment, step by step until day 3 begins and then day 4 and 5 and 100.
Keep fighting the good fight!! Get on here!! Read intro's, HOF Speeches, Online Chat! Whatever you need to do to get thru today! The Post and Repeat!! Keep on Quitter!!!
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Day 2 is almost at an end. Good moment and bad moments all mixed together today. Staying Quit!
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I'm with WT. I'll be here fir whatever you need. PM me if you want my digits.
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Tonight had gradually became worse. I feel like everything has this "urgency" that I can only assume is an anxiety related withdrawal symptom. Lots of anxiety, headaches, irritability, lack of focus/concentration.....but not once have I even thought about going to the store for a can of death...
Thanks to you bad ass quitters, I will stay quit.
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Well done Kevin. Keep fighting the good fight. You shut the door on that shit, it is no longer an option. You dont need it!! It is like an anchor around your neck. I quit with you man. See you in the April group. PM if you need anything, I am right there with you.
Ryan (ItsGot2Happen
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Looks like you beat me quitting by a day, but I think we have the NC thing in common. You said in your intro post that you were looking for herbal stuff in Charlotte. I'm near Raleigh. Congrats on day 2.
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Morning of day 3 - couldn't sleep worth jack shit. Don't care though, it is all worth it. Embracing this shit and am fully cognizant of never wanting to go through this again.
I quit again today. Nic no longer has power over me.
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Morning of day 3 - couldn't sleep worth jack shit. Don't care though, it is all worth it. Embracing this shit and am fully cognizant of never wanting to go through this again.
I quit again today. Nic no longer has power over me.
After today the nic will be out of your system. One day at a time.. first month is crucial.. be sure and drink lots of water, and exercise as much as possible.. It'll clear your head, and make you tired so you'll sleep good. Be involved and read as much as possible. We'll show you the way... I'm at 165 and I'm a different person now.. Physically mentally.. it's all worth it..quit with you..
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Morning of day 3 - couldn't sleep worth jack shit. Don't care though, it is all worth it. Embracing this shit and am fully cognizant of never wanting to go through this again.
I quit again today. Nic no longer has power over me.
After today the nic will be out of your system. One day at a time.. first month is crucial.. be sure and drink lots of water, and exercise as much as possible.. It'll clear your head, and make you tired so you'll sleep good. Be involved and read as much as possible. We'll show you the way... I'm at 165 and I'm a different person now.. Physically mentally.. it's all worth it..quit with you..
If you can dodge a wrench, you can dodge a ball.
This is the roughest, roughest part of your quit physically. Your body is dependent on the poison, and thinks you are killing it. In reality, you are saving it.
Imagine yourself as driving 24,000 miles everyday to the same destination (We'll call it Point B.) for the last 40 years. There are oodles and oodles of roads to take to Point B. Some are more direct than others. Some are more scenic. Some have better places to stop for food along the way.
Now, imagine that a few years ago, you got a GPS in your car. This GPS got you through the drive pretty easily, but it only wants you to go one route. This route sucks. The road is shitty. It tears up your tires. There's some weird chemical stains on the paint of your car from passing under some bridge that is always under construction. The hookers are men.
But the GPS keeps sending you this route because it is the most efficient route that the GPS knows, and because it is more advantageous for the maker of the GPS. You see, there is a special store there that sells this GPS. The GPS leads you there so you may update it every day. If you don't update, your car may shut down or you might get lost. It's guaranteed money, and while you think you're just out for a drive, this company has you enslaved to it.
If you wander off course, the GPS will bring you back.
Sounds pretty shitty, huh?
Here at the KTC, we fucking plot our own course.
We take out a map each morning, and we avoid that horrible route our GPS was taking everyday. We tossed that thing out, and we don't ever plan on using it again. We have so many options on the route we take, but only we can and should decide. Once we decide how we're getting there, we just fucking drive. It's that simple.
Sometimes the route sucks. Sometimes it's beautiful.
But it's our path.
Proud of you man.
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Morning of day 3 - couldn't sleep worth jack shit.  Don't care though, it is all worth it. Embracing this shit and am fully cognizant of never wanting to go through this again.
I quit again today.  Nic no longer has power over me.
After today the nic will be out of your system. One day at a time.. first month is crucial.. be sure and drink lots of water, and exercise as much as possible.. It'll clear your head, and make you tired so you'll sleep good. Be involved and read as much as possible. We'll show you the way... I'm at 165 and I'm a different person now.. Physically mentally.. it's all worth it..quit with you..
If you can dodge a wrench, you can dodge a ball.
This is the roughest, roughest part of your quit physically. Your body is dependent on the poison, and thinks you are killing it. In reality, you are saving it.
Imagine yourself as driving 24,000 miles everyday to the same destination (We'll call it Point B.) for the last 40 years. There are oodles and oodles of roads to take to Point B. Some are more direct than others. Some are more scenic. Some have better places to stop for food along the way.
Now, imagine that a few years ago, you got a GPS in your car. This GPS got you through the drive pretty easily, but it only wants you to go one route. This route sucks. The road is shitty. It tears up your tires. There's some weird chemical stains on the paint of your car from passing under some bridge that is always under construction. The hookers are men.
But the GPS keeps sending you this route because it is the most efficient route that the GPS knows, and because it is more advantageous for the maker of the GPS. You see, there is a special store there that sells this GPS. The GPS leads you there so you may update it every day. If you don't update, your car may shut down or you might get lost. It's guaranteed money, and while you think you're just out for a drive, this company has you enslaved to it.
If you wander off course, the GPS will bring you back.
Sounds pretty shitty, huh?
Here at the KTC, we fucking plot our own course.
We take out a map each morning, and we avoid that horrible route our GPS was taking everyday. We tossed that thing out, and we don't ever plan on using it again. We have so many options on the route we take, but only we can and should decide. Once we decide how we're getting there, we just fucking drive. It's that simple.
Sometimes the route sucks. Sometimes it's beautiful.
But it's our path.
Proud of you man.
Good stuff Waste!!! 'Finger' the poison route!
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Good job, kevin. Just keep doing what you're doing. Day by Day you're getting there. Just keep in mind what you're going thru and remember it. I kept a journal of my quit and I would like back at it from time to time just to remember what I felt like and what was going on. Just a constant reminder of why I stay quit.
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Today went pretty well. Day 2 (yesterday) has been the worst thus far. Lots of water and lots of exercise (helps to have two dogs with very high activity requirements). My mouth is already feeling better and my fingers are not stained!
Feels good to not have that stupid spit bottle in my ride as well.
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Today went pretty well. Day 2 (yesterday) has been the worst thus far. Lots of water and lots of exercise (helps to have two dogs with very high activity requirements). My mouth is already feeling better and my fingers are not stained!
Feels good to not have that stupid spit bottle in my ride as well.
Way to go man! One day at a time, we got this!
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Good morning Day 4. I feel a little bit serene this morning. Def. feel much better than the last two days. I know enough to underestimate the amount of re-programming my brain must due. I will stay quit.
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Good morning Day 4. I feel a little bit serene this morning. Def. feel much better than the last two days. I know enough to underestimate the amount of re-programming my brain must due. I will stay quit.
Dont try and out think it. Just stay active physically and mentally! Keep drinking that water and do whatever you can to stay quit today!! I quit with you bud!!
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Day 4 - The nic is gone out of your body. Now starts the cycle of your screaming for what it is missing. Stay busy, stay occupied. Get on here and post. Everytime you think about dip, picture Barbara Bush in a g-string bikini. Anything it takes not for you to put that in your mouth. You're doing it. Don't let nic lie to you and tell you're not. I'll quit with you today.
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Good morning Day 4. I feel a little bit serene this morning. Def. feel much better than the last two days. I know enough to underestimate the amount of re-programming my brain must due. I will stay quit.
Dont try and out think it. Just stay active physically and mentally! Keep drinking that water and do whatever you can to stay quit today!! I quit with you bud!!
just remember man, you dipped for 14 years and now for what may be the first time your body does not have the nicotene in it. It is not a quick fix now as your mind will start to re-wire itself for the good. It will take time and during this time there will be many of games that it will play on you to try and get you back to feeding it that poison.
yes the nic bitch is patient, she is sneaky. Don't get complacent. Always be on guard. That is not to say that you should not enjoy when you are feeling good, cause you should, but beware for the times when you are not feeling 100%.
I give you my word today that I am quit. I see yours has been given too....Well Done.
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Good morning Day 4. I feel a little bit serene this morning. Def. feel much better than the last two days. I know enough to underestimate the amount of re-programming my brain must due. I will stay quit.
Dont try and out think it. Just stay active physically and mentally! Keep drinking that water and do whatever you can to stay quit today!! I quit with you bud!!
It's a sneaky bastard. Don't let your guard down. Glad you're feeling good. Hold onto it, as you will need it. Don't let your head fuck with you too much. The nicotine is out. The other chemicals are fading. You're getting healthy. Post, hang out, ask for help. You're not quite through the tough yet, but you've made a hell of a dent.
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Good Morning Day 5: I will stay quit today!
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Good Morning Day 5: I will stay quit today!
Good job. That's the way - day by day. Glad to be quit with you today.
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Good morning Day 7. Staying quit today.
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Good morning Day 7. Staying quit today.
Noticed you here and am glad you are part of April quitters. I am too. This group is right here with us. I quit with you today.
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Day 9 - getting easier but I won't be fooled. I am an addict and will always be an addict. One day at a time. Thanks for all the support.
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You did not post roll yesterday. You quit quitting?
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Def. still quit. Was in a backwoods area of NC for a work thing - no internet :-)
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Def. still quit. Was in a backwoods area of NC for a work thing - no internet :-)
You got any numbers? You can always text someone your quit and they can post for you.
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Def. still quit. Was in a backwoods area of NC for a work thing - no internet :-)
You got any numbers? You can always text someone your quit and they can post for you.
Text your quit to someone in your group.
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Yes - that is a great idea that didn't dawn on me until I received a text from Coach Steve earlier today. Although, I think that would have even causes a slight issue as my cellular reception was spotty at best, where I was. Who would have thought that a place named Bat Cave, North Carolina would have shitty reception? .
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Congratulations on two weeks Kevin, that's huge!