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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: michaelw on May 09, 2013, 11:41:00 PM
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Hi Everyone, today is the day. I just found this site and it is exactly what I needed.
My name is Michael and I am 23 years old and have been dipping since I was 16. I am engaged to a beautiful young lady and will be getting married in December. This is for her (and me of course).
I live in Indianapolis and am a Web Developer/Software Engineer. I look forward to spending time with everyone on this forum.
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Hi Everyone, today is the day. I just found this site and it is exactly what I needed.
My name is Michael and I am 23 years old and have been dipping since I was 16. I am engaged to a beautiful young lady and will be getting married in December. This is for her (and me of course).
I live in Indianapolis and am a Web Developer/Software Engineer. I look forward to spending time with everyone on this forum.
Man this is your chance. I am newly quit 10 days. You are lucky you found this site. Go to the welcome center figure out how to post roll. Do it. Then we will quit together from here.
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Hi Everyone, today is the day. I just found this site and it is exactly what I needed.
My name is Michael and I am 23 years old and have been dipping since I was 16. I am engaged to a beautiful young lady and will be getting married in December. This is for her (and me of course).
I live in Indianapolis and am a Web Developer/Software Engineer. I look forward to spending time with everyone on this forum.
Glad to have you Michael. Go to top left and read everything in welcome center. Learn how to post roll. That's where we Make a promise to ourselves and each other that we are not going to use for the day. Your group will be August.
I sure wish i would have quit when I was your age... Make this count. Don't waste your life as a slave to nicotine.
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Man, I have to 2nd what srans said... I wish I could go back in time and smack my 23 year old self upside the head! You are doing the right thing... You've come to the right place... We are the right people. Get yourself moving here by learning to post roll and joining your August quit group. You've got some great company and some badass quitters in your group. Time to take your life back from the nic bitch bro! Would be happy to help in any way I can. Message me for numbers bro.
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Michaelw...all the tools you need to KTC are at your fingertips. Access them everyday. The secret to your quit will be your choice. Each day choose honor and brotherhood over nicotine. Promise these men you will not ingest nicotine in any form for the day. Don't look ahead, and don't look behind. Choose to stay quit today. Post up with August 13. One day at a time.
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Great choice, Michael. You've gotten great advice so far. Post roll, keep your word and read everything you can on this site.
YOU CAN DO THIS, brother!
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Welcome to KTC, I quit with you today. I can fall in line with the others, I wish I would have been smart enough to tackle this at 23. Go get your quit on!
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Hey Michael, I'm a fellow hoosier from the greater lafayette area. More importantly i am a fellow quitter with you today. It is going to suck, suck balls! But it will be worth it!
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Michael,
I envy you due to making this decision at 23. If only I had been that smart. Brilliant, just brilliant!!!!!
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Michael,
I envy you due to making this decision at 23. If only I had been that smart. Brilliant, just brilliant!!!!!
Michael,, I noticed your roll post, that is great!! I'm so glad to see someone at such a young age quit. I figure I spent well over 20,000 dollars from your age until mine. It was probably more than that,, I just can't bare to figure any higher. It hurts to bad!! All that money was spent on something that wanted nothing but my freedom, time, and dignity.
All I can do is hope that I stopped in time to save my life.
All the while it gave nothing in return. Remember that when the craves come, nicotine does nothing for you but take, take, take. I'm glad to be quit with you.
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Michael,
Its good to have you with us in the August group. Today we all quit together! If you need anything dont be afraid to shoot me a message.
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Hey man make rue you post roll in the am. If ou have a problem pm me and I will Walk you through it. Roll is important. And u need to do it first thing to reming you that you have promised. Erussell quits with you bro!
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Well, 2 days down. I don't know what to say other than that. There have been times where it has been pretty bad, and times where it is hardly noticeable. The fog is the worst thing for me by far. I look back at my last two days of work and think about what I got done... and it is literally nothing. I'm hoping by next Monday some of the fog will have lifted so I can return to being a somewhat productive member of my team.
I have stepped up the coffee intake to try and clear away some of the fog -- never seemed to work.
Oh well. I'm quit. 'nuff said. Keep up the good work erussell, jayd41, applejack, kkljinc. Thanks for the support everyone.
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Well, 2 days down. I don't know what to say other than that. There have been times where it has been pretty bad, and times where it is hardly noticeable. The fog is the worst thing for me by far. I look back at my last two days of work and think about what I got done... and it is literally nothing. I'm hoping by next Monday some of the fog will have lifted so I can return to being a somewhat productive member of my team.Â
I have stepped up the coffee intake to try and clear away some of the fog -- never seemed to work.Â
Oh well. I'm quit. 'nuff said. Keep up the good work erussell, jayd41, applejack, kkljinc. Thanks for the support everyone.
Michael actually try limiting the caffeine intake some and drink lots and lots of water.It helps to flush the toxins out of your system quicker. Begins the healing process, your body is going through enough shit right now it doesn't need any help with another stimulant.Exercise,walk around keep your mind busy.It is gonna take time you have been poisoning your body and brain for a lot of years.Proud of you,keep up the good fight.
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I feel you Mikey. And I know right where you are at this moment. Every quitter on here has been through the suck. Took me at least a week to feel like I could function at work. First 4 days I hardly remember. Could barely work a door knob let alone run a meeting.
The good news is, that it gets better. Keep up the great work man. Time to roll your sleeves up and beat this bitch. It's worth it bro, this shit is life or death. What do you choose?
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I feel you Mikey. And I know right where you are at this moment. Every quitter on here has been through the suck. Took me at least a week to feel like I could function at work. First 4 days I hardly remember. Could barely work a door knob let alone run a meeting.
The good news is, that it gets better. Keep up the great work man. Time to roll your sleeves up and beat this bitch. It's worth it bro, this shit is life or death. What do you choose?
Michael, whatever you do today, do not chew. Commit to yourself that under no physical, emotional, or mental circumstances will you stick your fingers in. You can do it.
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Thanks everyone for the support.
Things have already started to get better. Today will be my fourth day anad I feel like the haze is starting to lift. By no means do I believe I'm in the clear, but things are feeling better. My throat is crazy sore today... I think I remember reading that this is a normal withdrawal sympton.
Anyways, keep it up August.
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Thanks everyone for the support.
Things have already started to get better. Today will be my fourth day anad I feel like the haze is starting to lift. By no means do I believe I'm in the clear, but things are feeling better. My throat is crazy sore today... I think I remember reading that this is a normal withdrawal sympton.
Anyways, keep it up August.
Many of us experienced sore throats and/or sores in our mouths initially. Some of it is your body finally getting a chance to heal itself vs being continually assaulted by cancer causing toxin. Some of it is due to sunflower seeds etc...
I remember a lot of my April 12 brothers having similar issues, myself included. Although that was a time long, long ago when we would post things like this in our actual groups vs just our intro. There always seemed to be others experiencing the same thing, and was great to get involvement in our house. It always helped to keep our minds off of this poison. Hell, this was so long ago that we used to only have ....1.....HOF conductor :blink:
Vadge 485. shocker
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Well, shit just got real. I had been feeling relatively good for the last couple of days. Yea the fog was kind of bad, sore throat today, but over all I felt pretty decent. I just got back to my apartment (I was with my fiancé all weekend) and I just hit a wall. I mean... damn... I don't even know what to say.
I'm still quit... don't worry about that.
It was like a ton of anxiety, hit me all of a sudden, being here by myself and I donno. Going to put some seeds in and watch some tv. Take it easy everyone.
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Well, shit just got real. I had been feeling relatively good for the last couple of days. Yea the fog was kind of bad, sore throat today, but over all I felt pretty decent. I just got back to my apartment (I was with my fiancé all weekend) and I just hit a wall. I mean... damn... I don't even know what to say.
I'm still quit... don't worry about that.
It was like a ton of anxiety, hit me all of a sudden, being here by myself and I donno. Going to put some seeds in and watch some tv. Take it easy everyone.
Hang in there Micheal. This sucks but remember we are quiters! From your post I can see you are in misery but still remain determined to stay quit awesome! Your a badass man! I guit with you tonight.
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Bro, you got this. You have made it far enough already to know you can handle this quit. Make it till tom. That's your only goal tonight. Then we will post roll tom together.
I sent you a p.m. let us know if you need anything!
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From one Michael w to another, you've got this. The fog memories are one of the greatest parts of the quit experience - as there is no way I would ever want to subject myself to that again. So smart of you to document a lot of this so you can look back and see what it was like. Many of us did the same in our intros and it really helps in the memory of what a suck addiction this is. You will soon be in that mindset, and you are well on your way with the one day at a time mentality. My intro started out somewhat like yours... The fog will lift. The throat will heal. The fiancé will continue to be proud. And you have made the best decision of your like by making your daily pledge. There are a lot of us on the sidelines cheering you on right now - reach out if we can help.
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Thanks everyone for the support.
Things have already started to get better. Today will be my fourth day anad I feel like the haze is starting to lift. By no means do I believe I'm in the clear, but things are feeling better. My throat is crazy sore today... I think I remember reading that this is a normal withdrawal sympton.
Anyways, keep it up August.
I feel you bro. I'm on day 7 and the sore throat and mouth soars are totally kicking my ass today. I'm glad to see another young quitter, I'm 25 myself so it's nice to see a young person taking some responsibility and regaining control of their life. The feeling of being quit gets better every day and each time you post roll it will only make you more proud bro. Keep fightin' the good fight, man!
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Well, shit just got real. I had been feeling relatively good for the last couple of days. Yea the fog was kind of bad, sore throat today, but over all I felt pretty decent. I just got back to my apartment (I was with my fiancé all weekend) and I just hit a wall. I mean... damn... I don't even know what to say.
I'm still quit... don't worry about that.
It was like a ton of anxiety, hit me all of a sudden, being here by myself and I donno. Going to put some seeds in and watch some tv. Take it easy everyone.
The wall is real. It's snuck up and knocked me on my ass more times than I care to remember.
My advice...
Every time you hit that wall and get knocked down, you stay on the ground for a sec, don't try and jump right up. Sit there with a small bit of humility, stare up at the wall and say under your breath, "fucking wall" then slowly get to your feet, brush yourself off and keep walking.
Continue to walk like you have a 10" cock but every time the wall gets you (and it will, especially early on) just get up and keep walking. That fucker will put your dick in the dirt a bunch, but it won't kill you.
Eventually, you will be able to see that big ass wall coming at you and you can juke that fucker, avoiding it all together.
It will take time, patience , persistience, and toughness.
Dont think of that wall as a scary thing, think of it as a training tool.
You got this shit bro.
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Well, shit just got real. I had been feeling relatively good for the last couple of days. Yea the fog was kind of bad, sore throat today, but over all I felt pretty decent. I just got back to my apartment (I was with my fiancé all weekend) and I just hit a wall. I mean... damn... I don't even know what to say.
I'm still quit... don't worry about that.
It was like a ton of anxiety, hit me all of a sudden, being here by myself and I donno. Going to put some seeds in and watch some tv. Take it easy everyone.
The wall is real. It's snuck up and knocked me on my ass more times than I care to remember.
My advice...
Every time you hit that wall and get knocked down, you stay on the ground for a sec, don't try and jump right up. Sit there with a small bit of humility, stare up at the wall and say under your breath, "fucking wall" then slowly get to your feet, brush yourself off and keep walking.
Continue to walk like you have a 10" cock but every time the wall gets you (and it will, especially early on) just get up and keep walking. That fucker will put your dick in the dirt a bunch, but it won't kill you.
Eventually, you will be able to see that big ass wall coming at you and you can juke that fucker, avoiding it all together.
It will take time, patience , persistience, and toughness.
Dont think of that wall as a scary thing, think of it as a training tool.
You got this shit bro.
I hear you brother. There is a point when you realize it's for real. I think at first everything is new and exciting. Shortly after the newness wares,,, bam! This is where quitters Make it or fail. How bad do you want it Michael? All i can tell you is it gets so much easier. It's also so worth it. I wouldn't give my quit up for nothing. Read what diesel wrote every time it's tough. You can do this. I quit with you today.
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Well, shit just got real. I had been feeling relatively good for the last couple of days. Yea the fog was kind of bad, sore throat today, but over all I felt pretty decent. I just got back to my apartment (I was with my fiancé all weekend) and I just hit a wall. I mean... damn... I don't even know what to say.
I'm still quit... don't worry about that.
It was like a ton of anxiety, hit me all of a sudden, being here by myself and I donno. Going to put some seeds in and watch some tv. Take it easy everyone.
The wall is real. It's snuck up and knocked me on my ass more times than I care to remember.
My advice...
Every time you hit that wall and get knocked down, you stay on the ground for a sec, don't try and jump right up. Sit there with a small bit of humility, stare up at the wall and say under your breath, "fucking wall" then slowly get to your feet, brush yourself off and keep walking.
Continue to walk like you have a 10" cock but every time the wall gets you (and it will, especially early on) just get up and keep walking. That fucker will put your dick in the dirt a bunch, but it won't kill you.
Eventually, you will be able to see that big ass wall coming at you and you can juke that fucker, avoiding it all together.
It will take time, patience , persistience, and toughness.
Dont think of that wall as a scary thing, think of it as a training tool.
You got this shit bro.
I hear you brother. There is a point when you realize it's for real. I think at first everything is new and exciting. Shortly after the newness wares,,, bam! This is where quitters Make it or fail. How bad do you want it Michael? All i can tell you is it gets so much easier. It's also so worth it. I wouldn't give my quit up for nothing. Read what diesel wrote every time it's tough. You can do this. I quit with you today.
Well that wall can be a bitch but look around you, your surrounded by quitters that are on the other side of that wall and we are there to give you a hand. Go over or around the wall with the help of those of us that have made it securely on the other side.
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Well, shit just got real. I had been feeling relatively good for the last couple of days. Yea the fog was kind of bad, sore throat today, but over all I felt pretty decent. I just got back to my apartment (I was with my fiancé all weekend) and I just hit a wall. I mean... damn... I don't even know what to say.
I'm still quit... don't worry about that.
It was like a ton of anxiety, hit me all of a sudden, being here by myself and I donno. Going to put some seeds in and watch some tv. Take it easy everyone.
The wall is real. It's snuck up and knocked me on my ass more times than I care to remember.
My advice...
Every time you hit that wall and get knocked down, you stay on the ground for a sec, don't try and jump right up. Sit there with a small bit of humility, stare up at the wall and say under your breath, "fucking wall" then slowly get to your feet, brush yourself off and keep walking.
Continue to walk like you have a 10" cock but every time the wall gets you (and it will, especially early on) just get up and keep walking. That fucker will put your dick in the dirt a bunch, but it won't kill you.
Eventually, you will be able to see that big ass wall coming at you and you can juke that fucker, avoiding it all together.
It will take time, patience , persistience, and toughness.
Dont think of that wall as a scary thing, think of it as a training tool.
You got this shit bro.
I hear you brother. There is a point when you realize it's for real. I think at first everything is new and exciting. Shortly after the newness wares,,, bam! This is where quitters Make it or fail. How bad do you want it Michael? All i can tell you is it gets so much easier. It's also so worth it. I wouldn't give my quit up for nothing. Read what diesel wrote every time it's tough. You can do this. I quit with you today.
Well that wall can be a bitch but look around you, your surrounded by quitters that are on the other side of that wall and we are there to give you a hand. Go over or around the wall with the help of those of us that have made it securely on the other side.
Great post. Keep posting this stuff. The bottom line, you did not cave. When the nic bitch comes at you with all her force and you win, it makes you stronger.
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That wall gave me a lickin' yesterday. Today is a different story. I'm sure it'll get me again, but I actually managed to get some work done today :) that feels like a win.
I am just tired and I'm not sure why. I feel like I have been sleeping well. I am one of those guys who doesn't get much sleep. I've always ran on 5-6 hours just fine. I think I am realizing that I wasn't actually good on that amount of sleep, I was just relying on a stimulant to get me through the day. Now that stimulant is gone, I will have to make a conscious effort to go to bed earlier.
take it easy everyone. stay strong.
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That wall gave me a lickin' yesterday. Today is a different story. I'm sure it'll get me again, but I actually managed to get some work done today :) that feels like a win.
I am just tired and I'm not sure why. I feel like I have been sleeping well. I am one of those guys who doesn't get much sleep. I've always ran on 5-6 hours just fine. I think I am realizing that I wasn't actually good on that amount of sleep, I was just relying on a stimulant to get me through the day. Now that stimulant is gone, I will have to make a conscious effort to go to bed earlier.
take it easy everyone. stay strong.
Atta Boy!! Good day when you can actually focus on something other than the ground right in front of your feet!! Dont let your guard down!! Even at 200+ days I still get the urge......The nic bitch has little or no chance but you still think about it!! Tackle every crave head on. A just keep adding those +1's to your win column. So Far, 4-0 good guys!! Keep on Quitter!!!
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That wall gave me a lickin' yesterday. Today is a different story. I'm sure it'll get me again, but I actually managed to get some work done today :) that feels like a win.
I am just tired and I'm not sure why. I feel like I have been sleeping well. I am one of those guys who doesn't get much sleep. I've always ran on 5-6 hours just fine. I think I am realizing that I wasn't actually good on that amount of sleep, I was just relying on a stimulant to get me through the day. Now that stimulant is gone, I will have to make a conscious effort to go to bed earlier.
take it easy everyone. stay strong.
Man you got it going just stay strong man! we got this. Glad to be quitting with a quiter like you.
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Well.. second day in a row with no "Oh shit" moments ha. I was pretty nervous about today, I went fishing with a buddy of mine and our typical evening fishing adventures usually consist of demolishing a can of griz or cope. He knew I had quit and was very respectful. As expected, I had the initial "A dip sounds really good right now thoughts." Then I told the nic bitch to get off my back because I made a promise to my brothers on here.
Lets be real though. It wasn't that easy. The days haven't been that easy. Shits been rough, but its better than it was 4 days ago. Its getting easier to plop a lifesaver in and be content with that. Its getting easier to eat something and not immediately crave a dip.
Its getting easier, but it is by no means easy.
Stay strong, stay busy, and you will win.
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Well.. second day in a row with no "Oh shit" moments ha. I was pretty nervous about today, I went fishing with a buddy of mine and our typical evening fishing adventures usually consist of demolishing a can of griz or cope. He knew I had quit and was very respectful. As expected, I had the initial "A dip sounds really good right now thoughts." Then I told the nic bitch to get off my back because I made a promise to my brothers on here.
Lets be real though. It wasn't that easy. The days haven't been that easy. Shits been rough, but its better than it was 4 days ago. Its getting easier to plop a lifesaver in and be content with that. Its getting easier to eat something and not immediately crave a dip.
Its getting easier, but it is by no means easy.
Stay strong, stay busy, and you will win.
I am proud to be quit with you man. What a bad ass quiter you are bro! We got this.
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Its getting easier, but it is by no means easy.Â
Great words from a fresh quitter. Keep it up man and remember that each new day of quit is better than the last.
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Nothing new to report here. Just another day in paradise. I just want to shout out to the rest of the August quitters. Keep up the work everyone. We got this.
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There's a lot of quit in this thread and I approve 'winker' :P :D
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There's a lot of quit in this thread and I approve 'winker' :P :D
I agree Big...you are rockin the quit, Michael.
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Nothing new to report here. Just another day in paradise. I just want to shout out to the rest of the August quitters. Keep up the work everyone. We got this.
I think we have a real quitter here folks.
Keep your guard up micheal.. She is not done with you yet. She will pounce you when you are at your weakest. Use the tools, be ready. You got numbers?
Great win the other day on the fishing trip. You will be enjoying many firsts without the shackles. Dont ever go back, this shit is life or death man.
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Hi everyone. I owe you all an apology, but first off, no I did not cave. I am still quit and I continue to smack the nic bitch in the face everyday.
Now to explain my missed rolls the last couple of days. I moved apartments and me being the dumbass I am forgot to call ATT till the day of. So they just now got my Internet hooked back so have been sitting around watching DVDs for the last couple of days.
Keep up the good work everyone.
Sorry for my absence!!
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Hi everyone. I owe you all an apology, but first off, no I did not cave. I am still quit and I continue to smack the nic bitch in the face everyday.
Now to explain my missed rolls the last couple of days. I moved apartments and me being the dumbass I am forgot to call ATT till the day of. So they just now got my Internet hooked back so have been sitting around watching DVDs for the last couple of days.
Keep up the good work everyone.
Sorry for my absence!!
you should have digits for people in your group. If you can't post text someone to post for you. Any day you don't post you lost your safety net.. not smart early on.. pm me if you need digits. post, post, post, it'll save your life.
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Hi everyone. I owe you all an apology, but first off, no I did not cave. I am still quit and I continue to smack the nic bitch in the face everyday.
Now to explain my missed rolls the last couple of days. I moved apartments and me being the dumbass I am forgot to call ATT till the day of. So they just now got my Internet hooked back so have been sitting around watching DVDs for the last couple of days.
Keep up the good work everyone.
Sorry for my absence!!
Just keep quitting. Glad to see you back. Make sure you have numbers and lifelines. You can have anyone post roll for you. So let a member of the group know, and they can post on your behalf. I know that I dont want to miss a day or a promise.
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Hi everyone. I owe you all an apology, but first off, no I did not cave. I am still quit and I continue to smack the nic bitch in the face everyday.
Now to explain my missed rolls the last couple of days. I moved apartments and me being the dumbass I am forgot to call ATT till the day of. So they just now got my Internet hooked back so have been sitting around watching DVDs for the last couple of days.
Keep up the good work everyone.
Sorry for my absence!!
you should have digits for people in your group. If you can't post text someone to post for you. Any day you don't post you lost your safety net.. not smart early on.. pm me if you need digits. post, post, post, it'll save your life.
What Kana says X 1000!!!
Don't play with fire....Post like your life depends on it, cause it does.
I can't imagine missing roll. It would kill me!!!
Quit on Men!! 'bang head'
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Have em in my phone now. They were in my PM on here. I'm good to go now.