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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: jmiah on July 15, 2011, 08:57:00 PM
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Hello everyone! My name is Jeremy and I'm 29 years old and I've been in the grasp of nicotine since I was 15. I used it all through high school and during college. Despite the misgivings of many girlfriends, I kept using it through early adulthood and I can't say that I love it like many might. I hate it. I finally got out if its grasp in 2003 when I was deployed to Iraq and simply ran out. I used Nicorette for a period and then stopped all nicotine for about three to four years before picking it back up. Dumb, huh? I found out I had cancer (not chew related) around 2007 and decided if I was going to die I was going to die doing something I enjoyed. Great rationalization. I have a form of cancer that is very slow and non-aggressive. I might have many years before I need any treatment but there is no cure, it's mine for good. Dealing with that stress at the time was too much and I sadly turned to something that could kill me even quicker. I was pissed that I went to war for my country and came home to find out I have some illness that could get in my way. I decided since the cancer did not pose any immediate threats to my health I would carry on as if I did not have it. I finished a Master's Degree in Social Work in 2009 and I have been a specialist in the field of addiction and mental health for quite a few years. Ironic right? Here I am working with people to get them back on track and all the while struggling with my own addiction. Sure, it's not heroin or cocaine, but we all know the power too well. I feel very lucky to have found this forum some 6 months ago and finally decided to quit without using nicotine gum. Using that stuff only gave me an excuse and a way out when I wanted it. It's time to suck up the three days of hell and deal with the fog right away. Sorry this is so long, I hope some people can relate to this story. I'm proud to say that before I turn 30 at the end of this month I have decided to toss the spitters, stop worrying about how I can get away with chewing at work, and stop disappointing my wife. Remember how I had a dip hiatus? Well, that is when I got married, so imagine my wife's anger when I started dipping "out of the blue." This shit is hell on my relationship with my wife, my health, and my mental well-being. So long and goodnight.
Jeremy
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...This shit is hell on my relationship with my wife, my health, and my mental well-being...
Jeremy,
Welcome...glad you are here. Seems like you've done some reading already...fantastic! You've posted roll already (looks good BTW) so you've got step one out of the way. You've promised yourself and all of us that you will not use nicotine today. It is like a verbal "handshake", the integrity of your word.
All you have to do is remain nic free today, keep your promise and honor your word.
Stay quit for today...worry about tomorrow, tomorrow. Quit for today. Live for today.
You can do this.
Thank you for your service to this country...it is admirable and appreciated!
I'm proud to be QUIT with you...you seem to have your head on straight, stay that way. Looks like you have some mending to do, but that's how you take control back from that evil drug. Awesome! PM me if you need anything!
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Wow Jeremy, I'm glad you're here and that you're quit today. And welcome to freedom
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Thank you all for your support. It really means a lot. I posted my 4th ID patch as my avatar as a little personal pick me up. Best to all.
Jeremy
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I'm with you, bro. Just quit yesterday. Let's do this thing.
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Welcome to the site.
What is a 4th id badge?
It ain't a prestige emblem from Black Ops. LOOT knows black ops :ph43r:
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Welcome to the site.
What is a 4th id badge?
It ain't a prestige emblem from Black Ops. LOOT knows black ops :ph43r:
Gelas was a World of Warcraft fanatic. See how wthat turned out. Just saying. Welcome jmiah.
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The 4th ID stands for Fourth Infantry Division. I served with them in Iraq in 2003. Thanks for the welcome. Too early to know how bad day two is going to be. Good morning everyone.
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Hey Jeremy - just wondering how your day 2 turned out? Sucked? Don't forget it, this is the foundation of your freedom. You're building it one day at a time, hell my second day was one hour at a time. Don't forget this, ever. Thank you for your service and I'm proud to be quit with you today.
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DennyX
Posted on Jul 16, 2011, 5:20 pm
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Hey Jeremy - just wondering how your day 2 turned out? Sucked? Don't forget it, this is the foundation of your freedom. You're building it one day at a time, hell my second day was one hour at a time. Don't forget this, ever. Thank you for your service and I'm proud to be quit with you today.
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Yep. It has sucked but I'm getting through this about one hour at a time. My wife went to a birthday party and didn't want to take me because of my poor attitude. I'm having some moments. Thank you for checking up on me, Denny.
Jeremy
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Yep. It has sucked but I'm getting through this about one hour at a time. My wife went to a birthday party and didn't want to take me because of my poor attitude. I'm having some moments. Thank you for checking up on me, Denny.
Jeremy
Ha. Mine gave me a piece this morning. Remember you are probably an ass hole right now but that will go a way in time. Either that or she will get used to it (not!))
Keep Quit. You got my numbers. Use them as needed, before it is too late.
Proud to be quit with you.
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Yep. It has sucked but I'm getting through this about one hour at a time. My wife went to a birthday party and didn't want to take me because of my poor attitude. I'm having some moments. Thank you for checking up on me, Denny.
Jeremy
Ha. Mine gave me a piece this morning. Remember you are probably an ass hole right now but that will go a way in time. Either that or she will get used to it (not!))
Keep Quit. You got my numbers. Use them as needed, before it is too late.
Proud to be quit with you.
Will do man. Holding strong so far. I've already saved over 6 dollars in two days at a can a day over three dollars per. Thanks for the encouragement. I wish you the best as well.
Jmiah
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Yep. It has sucked but I'm getting through this about one hour at a time. My wife went to a birthday party and didn't want to take me because of my poor attitude. I'm having some moments. Thank you for checking up on me, Denny.
Jeremy
Ha. Mine gave me a piece this morning. Remember you are probably an ass hole right now but that will go a way in time. Either that or she will get used to it (not!))
Keep Quit. You got my numbers. Use them as needed, before it is too late.
Proud to be quit with you.
Will do man. Holding strong so far. I've already saved over 6 dollars in two days at a can a day over three dollars per. Thanks for the encouragement. I wish you the best as well.
Jmiah
Nice! Granted, my wife didn't know I was quitting (or that I chewed, more on that later), but my first two days were at home alone with an angry baby and high maintenance 4 year old. Don't know how I made it...stay strong brothers!
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Well, I'm sitting here thinking about the fact that I turn 30 tomorrow and the fact that I will not be dipping on that day. It brings me back to my 18th birthday when I was glad to be turning 18 so I could buy my own dip. I remember how excited I was to go to the store and wait for them to card me so I could say, ha, fuckers I'm legal! Looking back on the 12 years since then, I really wish I would have been wise enough to realize how much of a assbag I was for being so excited to legally kill myself. I can say that as I turn 30 I am glad that dip is out of my life and I am glad for the support of all of you as I have started this quit journey. It is a marathon and not a sprint, however marathons are completed by focusing on one foot in front of the other or mile by mile. The task is too daunting if we look at it as a whole. We have to stay focused on what we can control and that my friends, is today. So today I'm quit and I'm glad for that despite how hard it may be. Tomorrow I plan to make the same commitment as today and I can't think of anything better for my birthday than freedom. Here's to life and freedom, and a big 'Finger' to nicotine.
jmiah
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Congrats brother. Happy Birthday as well. Thanks for the support and words you throw around here bro. You bring the quit.
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Hello everyone! My name is Jeremy and I'm 29 years old and I've been in the grasp of nicotine since I was 15 ....
Jeremy
You have a powerful story. I'm glad you're here.
You've proven it's not a problem for you to stop. The problem was you hadn't yet quit. You needed a plan. Everybody here is familiar with that problem. We have a plan. Welcome.
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I got to thinking today about quitting and came up with this:
Quitting is not a destination to which we can arrive, but a journey that doesnÂ’t stop until we are either dead or we cave. So, while 100, 200 days, etc is nice, I strive to be quit today because IÂ’m happier that wayÂ…truly. I want to thank each and every one of you for taking this journey with me because I cannot do it alone and I am starting to think that I wouldnÂ’t even want to try. Thank you, KTC for your help and I hope my quit, which has been difficult yet rewarding thus far, can help others as your quit has inspired me.
KTC is our roadmap and we would be remiss to embark on this dangerous journey without a map. So I say againÂ… Quitting is not a destination to which we can arrive, but a journey that doesnÂ’t stop until we are either dead or we cave. What will you choose today? In the throes of addiction, we lack a choice because we are controlled by an evil substance. We now have a choice to maintain our freedom and enjoy life without being chained down. IÂ’m just very grateful for that today and wanted to share that with as many people as possible. Â IÂ’m not saying that you canÂ’t get to where you need to go without a map, but itÂ’s much harder to do with a greater chance of getting lost. When the stakes are this high, why try when itÂ’s not that hard to just take the map along? IÂ’ve got mine, what about you?
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-Jmiah out
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I got to thinking today about quitting and came up with this:
Quitting is not a destination to which we can arrive, but a journey that doesn�t stop until we are either dead or we cave. So, while 100, 200 days, etc is nice, I strive to be quit today because I�m happier that way�truly. I want to thank each and every one of you for taking this journey with me because I cannot do it alone and I am starting to think that I wouldn�t even want to try. Thank you, KTC for your help and I hope my quit, which has been difficult yet rewarding thus far, can help others as your quit has inspired me.
KTC is our roadmap and we would be remiss to embark on this dangerous journey without a map. So I say again� Quitting is not a destination to which we can arrive, but a journey that doesn�t stop until we are either dead or we cave. What will you choose today? In the throes of addiction, we lack a choice because we are controlled by an evil substance. We now have a choice to maintain our freedom and enjoy life without being chained down. I�m just very grateful for that today and wanted to share that with as many people as possible. �I�m not saying that you can�t get to where you need to go without a map, but it�s much harder to do with a greater chance of getting lost. When the stakes are this high, why try when it�s not that hard to just take the map along? I�ve got mine, what about you?
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-Jmiah out
Well done sir! You "get it".
Your post reminded me quite a bit of this blog post that I wrote a while back...
http://quit4today.com/blog/2011/10/thou ... 9th-floor/ (http://quit4today.com/blog/2011/10/thoughts-from-the-19th-floor/)
It's definitely a "journey" that we're on. Happy to be quit with you today.
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I got to thinking today about quitting and came up with this:
Quitting is not a destination to which we can arrive, but a journey that doesnÂ’t stop until we are either dead or we cave. So, while 100, 200 days, etc is nice, I strive to be quit today because IÂ’m happier that wayÂ…truly. I want to thank each and every one of you for taking this journey with me because I cannot do it alone and I am starting to think that I wouldnÂ’t even want to try. Thank you, KTC for your help and I hope my quit, which has been difficult yet rewarding thus far, can help others as your quit has inspired me.
KTC is our roadmap and we would be remiss to embark on this dangerous journey without a map. So I say againÂ… Quitting is not a destination to which we can arrive, but a journey that doesnÂ’t stop until we are either dead or we cave. What will you choose today? In the throes of addiction, we lack a choice because we are controlled by an evil substance. We now have a choice to maintain our freedom and enjoy life without being chained down. IÂ’m just very grateful for that today and wanted to share that with as many people as possible. Â IÂ’m not saying that you canÂ’t get to where you need to go without a map, but itÂ’s much harder to do with a greater chance of getting lost. When the stakes are this high, why try when itÂ’s not that hard to just take the map along? IÂ’ve got mine, what about you?
Â
-Jmiah out
Jmiah! My quit brother from another mother! Great post, I am glad we see this fight the same way because I have relied on your support for the last 182 days, and I have been damn proud to be able to support you as we have fought side by side. As I said last week myself, I can't do this alone either, so I am not gonna bother trying. Great quitters like you and the whole community here at KTC have got me through the tough times. I tend to ramble, but to anyone reading this that has a single little doubt about how this place works and the importance of posting roll and being involved? Toss that doubt away, take a big swig of the koolaid and listen to what Jmiah has to say, trust me he knows what he is talking about.
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I got to thinking today about quitting and came up with this:
Quitting is not a destination to which we can arrive, but a journey that doesnÂ’t stop until we are either dead or we cave. So, while 100, 200 days, etc is nice, I strive to be quit today because IÂ’m happier that wayÂ…truly. I want to thank each and every one of you for taking this journey with me because I cannot do it alone and I am starting to think that I wouldnÂ’t even want to try. Thank you, KTC for your help and I hope my quit, which has been difficult yet rewarding thus far, can help others as your quit has inspired me.
KTC is our roadmap and we would be remiss to embark on this dangerous journey without a map. So I say againÂ… Quitting is not a destination to which we can arrive, but a journey that doesnÂ’t stop until we are either dead or we cave. What will you choose today? In the throes of addiction, we lack a choice because we are controlled by an evil substance. We now have a choice to maintain our freedom and enjoy life without being chained down. IÂ’m just very grateful for that today and wanted to share that with as many people as possible. Â IÂ’m not saying that you canÂ’t get to where you need to go without a map, but itÂ’s much harder to do with a greater chance of getting lost. When the stakes are this high, why try when itÂ’s not that hard to just take the map along? IÂ’ve got mine, what about you?
Â
-Jmiah out
Jmiah! My quit brother from another mother! Great post, I am glad we see this fight the same way because I have relied on your support for the last 182 days, and I have been damn proud to be able to support you as we have fought side by side. As I said last week myself, I can't do this alone either, so I am not gonna bother trying. Great quitters like you and the whole community here at KTC have got me through the tough times. I tend to ramble, but to anyone reading this that has a single little doubt about how this place works and the importance of posting roll and being involved? Toss that doubt away, take a big swig of the koolaid and listen to what Jmiah has to say, trust me he knows what he is talking about.
AWESOME!!! You just made me quit for today. Thank you!
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I got to thinking today about quitting and came up with this:
Quitting is not a destination to which we can arrive, but a journey that doesnÂ’t stop until we are either dead or we cave. So, while 100, 200 days, etc is nice, I strive to be quit today because IÂ’m happier that wayÂ…truly. I want to thank each and every one of you for taking this journey with me because I cannot do it alone and I am starting to think that I wouldnÂ’t even want to try. Thank you, KTC for your help and I hope my quit, which has been difficult yet rewarding thus far, can help others as your quit has inspired me.
KTC is our roadmap and we would be remiss to embark on this dangerous journey without a map. So I say againÂ… Quitting is not a destination to which we can arrive, but a journey that doesnÂ’t stop until we are either dead or we cave. What will you choose today? In the throes of addiction, we lack a choice because we are controlled by an evil substance. We now have a choice to maintain our freedom and enjoy life without being chained down. IÂ’m just very grateful for that today and wanted to share that with as many people as possible. Â IÂ’m not saying that you canÂ’t get to where you need to go without a map, but itÂ’s much harder to do with a greater chance of getting lost. When the stakes are this high, why try when itÂ’s not that hard to just take the map along? IÂ’ve got mine, what about you?
Â
-Jmiah out
Jmiah! My quit brother from another mother! Great post, I am glad we see this fight the same way because I have relied on your support for the last 182 days, and I have been damn proud to be able to support you as we have fought side by side. As I said last week myself, I can't do this alone either, so I am not gonna bother trying. Great quitters like you and the whole community here at KTC have got me through the tough times. I tend to ramble, but to anyone reading this that has a single little doubt about how this place works and the importance of posting roll and being involved? Toss that doubt away, take a big swig of the koolaid and listen to what Jmiah has to say, trust me he knows what he is talking about.
AWESOME!!! You just made me quit for today. Thank you!
I got my map. I went so long without one. I was lost. Thanks Jmiah. This is some good quit shit.