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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: pcket5s on August 07, 2012, 10:31:00 PM
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My story begins back in September 2004, a scared, naive 18 year old kid, who was away from home for the first time. Never drank, never smoked, never did anything, other than play ball and live straightedged. I was sitting in the bullpen and my roomate whom I barely new offered me a dip for the first time. I hated it...I would give anything to go back to that time and swear it off, but it wasn't the case. Over the course of the fall practice season it became a bonding thing for the pitchers. We would run, do our workouts, and go hang out in the bullpen afterwards and throw a chaw in and bs. By the end of my freshman season I was dipping regularly, and I loved it...
Over the course of college, I hid it from my girlfriend, and my family. I got caught and told them I would never do it again. To this day, they still (they may know but its unbeknownst to me) think I kicked dip. I never dipped at my house, only when I'm away from my family or my girlfriend. I dipped at work, on the golf course with buddies, basically any chance I got when I was alone.
Recently I've come to the realization that I do not need the nicotine bitch in my life. I want to live without dependence of the nicotine bitch. I'm tired of going to work and looking forward to the times when I can work in my cube and chew. I'm tired of my gums hurting, and the thoughts that maybe I have done permanent damage and have developed cancer. I'm tired of lying to my girlfriend and family that I do not dip anymore. I'm tired of being a slave to nicotine.
For those reasons, I vow to you all here that I will never put that shit into my mouth again. I will need your help along the way, as I've tried to quit unsuccessfully multiple times over the years, and ask that you push me through the cravings and to a healthier, more prosperous life. As a man, the only thing that anybody can never take away from you is your word, and I give you my word that I will never dip again. Today is Day 1 of the rest of my life, please help me along my journey as an addict to battle the nicotine bitch for the rest of my life.
Today, I quit on my sister's 28 birthday as a present to her...
Bob
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My story begins back in September 2004, a scared, naive 18 year old kid, who was away from home for the first time. Never drank, never smoked, never did anything, other than play ball and live straightedged. I was sitting in the bullpen and my roomate whom I barely new offered me a dip for the first time. I hated it...I would give anything to go back to that time and swear it off, but it wasn't the case. Over the course of the fall practice season it became a bonding thing for the pitchers. We would run, do our workouts, and go hang out in the bullpen afterwards and throw a chaw in and bs. By the end of my freshman season I was dipping regularly, and I loved it...
Over the course of college, I hid it from my girlfriend, and my family. I got caught and told them I would never do it again. To this day, they still (they may know but its unbeknownst to me) think I kicked dip. I never dipped at my house, only when I'm away from my family or my girlfriend. I dipped at work, on the golf course with buddies, basically any chance I got when I was alone.
Recently I've come to the realization that I do not need the nicotine bitch in my life. I want to live without dependence of the nicotine bitch. I'm tired of going to work and looking forward to the times when I can work in my cube and chew. I'm tired of my gums hurting, and the thoughts that maybe I have done permanent damage and have developed cancer. I'm tired of lying to my girlfriend and family that I do not dip anymore. I'm tired of being a slave to nicotine.
For those reasons, I vow to you all here that I will never put that shit into my mouth again. I will need your help along the way, as I've tried to quit unsuccessfully multiple times over the years, and ask that you push me through the cravings and to a healthier, more prosperous life. As a man, the only thing that anybody can never take away from you is your word, and I give you my word that I will never dip again. Today is Day 1 of the rest of my life, please help me along my journey as an addict to battle the nicotine bitch for the rest of my life.
Today, I quit on my sister's 28 birthday as a present to her...
Bob
Welcome to November quit group! Im 13 days quit and feel better then ever and worrying about being caught is completely gone! I use to hide dipping from my family too. I hope to see you post roll everyday!
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My story begins back in September 2004, a scared, naive 18 year old kid, who was away from home for the first time. Never drank, never smoked, never did anything, other than play ball and live straightedged. I was sitting in the bullpen and my roomate whom I barely new offered me a dip for the first time. I hated it...I would give anything to go back to that time and swear it off, but it wasn't the case. Over the course of the fall practice season it became a bonding thing for the pitchers. We would run, do our workouts, and go hang out in the bullpen afterwards and throw a chaw in and bs. By the end of my freshman season I was dipping regularly, and I loved it...
Over the course of college, I hid it from my girlfriend, and my family. I got caught and told them I would never do it again. To this day, they still (they may know but its unbeknownst to me) think I kicked dip. I never dipped at my house, only when I'm away from my family or my girlfriend. I dipped at work, on the golf course with buddies, basically any chance I got when I was alone.
Recently I've come to the realization that I do not need the nicotine bitch in my life. I want to live without dependence of the nicotine bitch. I'm tired of going to work and looking forward to the times when I can work in my cube and chew. I'm tired of my gums hurting, and the thoughts that maybe I have done permanent damage and have developed cancer. I'm tired of lying to my girlfriend and family that I do not dip anymore. I'm tired of being a slave to nicotine.
For those reasons, I vow to you all here that I will never put that shit into my mouth again. I will need your help along the way, as I've tried to quit unsuccessfully multiple times over the years, and ask that you push me through the cravings and to a healthier, more prosperous life. As a man, the only thing that anybody can never take away from you is your word, and I give you my word that I will never dip again. Today is Day 1 of the rest of my life, please help me along my journey as an addict to battle the nicotine bitch for the rest of my life.
Today, I quit on my sister's 28 birthday as a present to her...
Bob
I like you're attitude. Wish I saw things that way earlier in my life. Check your inbox (1).
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My story begins back in September 2004, a scared, naive 18 year old kid, who was away from home for the first time. Never drank, never smoked, never did anything, other than play ball and live straightedged. I was sitting in the bullpen and my roomate whom I barely new offered me a dip for the first time. I hated it...I would give anything to go back to that time and swear it off, but it wasn't the case. Over the course of the fall practice season it became a bonding thing for the pitchers. We would run, do our workouts, and go hang out in the bullpen afterwards and throw a chaw in and bs. By the end of my freshman season I was dipping regularly, and I loved it...
Over the course of college, I hid it from my girlfriend, and my family. I got caught and told them I would never do it again. To this day, they still (they may know but its unbeknownst to me) think I kicked dip. I never dipped at my house, only when I'm away from my family or my girlfriend. I dipped at work, on the golf course with buddies, basically any chance I got when I was alone.
Recently I've come to the realization that I do not need the nicotine bitch in my life. I want to live without dependence of the nicotine bitch. I'm tired of going to work and looking forward to the times when I can work in my cube and chew. I'm tired of my gums hurting, and the thoughts that maybe I have done permanent damage and have developed cancer. I'm tired of lying to my girlfriend and family that I do not dip anymore. I'm tired of being a slave to nicotine.Â
For those reasons, I vow to you all here that I will never put that shit into my mouth again. I will need your help along the way, as I've tried to quit unsuccessfully multiple times over the years, and ask that you push me through the cravings and to a healthier, more prosperous life. As a man, the only thing that anybody can never take away from you is your word, and I give you my word that I will never dip again. Today is Day 1 of the rest of my life, please help me along my journey as an addict to battle the nicotine bitch for the rest of my life.
Today, I quit on my sister's 28 birthday as a present to her...
Bob
Welcome to November quit group! Im 13 days quit and feel better then ever and worrying about being caught is completely gone! I use to hide dipping from my family too. I hope to see you post roll everyday!
Welcome Bob. This is a good time to point you to a good article in Words of Wisdom. (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=6891)
Read everything in the Welcome Center, and know that you are making a great decision. Also know that it will be both the easiest, and the toughest things you'll do. But you can do it.
I'll be looking for your post in November, but I'd like to leave you for now with this:
I vow to you all here that I will never put that shit into my mouth again.
Don't worry AT ALL about making any vows other than the one vow we ALL make here - to quit TODAY. Just today. You have enough on your plate thinking about that vow. Quitting TODAY is a vow you can keep. I hope you will repeat this vow again tomorrow, but I really don't give a shit. You give your word today and I'll expect you to keep it. TODAY I do give a shit about. We'll worry about quitting again tomorrow . . .well, tomorrow.
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I feel weak today... The initial adrenaline of making the plunge has wore off, and I am left with the realization this is a lifetime battle and its not going to be easy.
I'm craving bad, put I posted roll today and will not go against that. I'm worried about the weekend, I have 36 holes of golf to play and have not, not dipped on the course since 2005. My girlfriend is also out of town this weekend, so I have the house to myself, which used to equate to a blissful weekend of sitting around dipping. Not this time though. I will continue the fight.
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I feel weak today... The initial adrenaline of making the plunge has wore off, and I am left with the realization this is a lifetime battle and its not going to be easy.
I'm craving bad, put I posted roll today and will not go against that. I'm worried about the weekend, I have 36 holes of golf to play and have not, not dipped on the course since 2005. My girlfriend is also out of town this weekend, so I have the house to myself, which used to equate to a blissful weekend of sitting around dipping. Not this time though. I will continue the fight.
This is a battle today, worry about nothing else. You need to get through today, looking ahead will begin to become unbearable and weaken the quit. You promised you would quit today, worry about tomorrow when it gets here.
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I feel weak today... The initial adrenaline of making the plunge has wore off, and I am left with the realization this is a lifetime battle and its not going to be easy.
I'm craving bad, put I posted roll today and will not go against that. I'm worried about the weekend, I have 36 holes of golf to play and have not, not dipped on the course since 2005. My girlfriend is also out of town this weekend, so I have the house to myself, which used to equate to a blissful weekend of sitting around dipping. Not this time though. I will continue the fight.
The weakness will soon wear off, but the craving will not. You have got to find yourself a quit brother if you don't already have one, and when you get a craving either text or call them. Stay close to these guys and they will keep you going strong. Post roll every morning and keep your word that you won't use nicotine. Its that simple. One day at a time.......
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My story begins back in September 2004, a scared, naive 18 year old kid, who was away from home for the first time. Never drank, never smoked, never did anything, other than play ball and live straightedged. I was sitting in the bullpen and my roomate whom I barely new offered me a dip for the first time. I hated it...I would give anything to go back to that time and swear it off, but it wasn't the case. Over the course of the fall practice season it became a bonding thing for the pitchers. We would run, do our workouts, and go hang out in the bullpen afterwards and throw a chaw in and bs. By the end of my freshman season I was dipping regularly, and I loved it...
Over the course of college, I hid it from my girlfriend, and my family. I got caught and told them I would never do it again. To this day, they still (they may know but its unbeknownst to me) think I kicked dip. I never dipped at my house, only when I'm away from my family or my girlfriend. I dipped at work, on the golf course with buddies, basically any chance I got when I was alone.
Recently I've come to the realization that I do not need the nicotine bitch in my life. I want to live without dependence of the nicotine bitch. I'm tired of going to work and looking forward to the times when I can work in my cube and chew. I'm tired of my gums hurting, and the thoughts that maybe I have done permanent damage and have developed cancer. I'm tired of lying to my girlfriend and family that I do not dip anymore. I'm tired of being a slave to nicotine.Â
For those reasons, I vow to you all here that I will never put that shit into my mouth again. I will need your help along the way, as I've tried to quit unsuccessfully multiple times over the years, and ask that you push me through the cravings and to a healthier, more prosperous life. As a man, the only thing that anybody can never take away from you is your word, and I give you my word that I will never dip again. Today is Day 1 of the rest of my life, please help me along my journey as an addict to battle the nicotine bitch for the rest of my life.
Today, I quit on my sister's 28 birthday as a present to her...
Bob
Welcome to the group. I'm Tom. I am part of the October quit group. I have been quit for 22 days now. It is still hard sometimes but it gets better. I'm sure you have read about it but the first few days are the hardest. It was hard but fight through it. Once they are over it is a lot easier to fight off the urges. I'm here ffor you if you need someone to talk to. You can PM me if you want my number. You have the best support here, now you have to have the will to quit.
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I feel weak today... The initial adrenaline of making the plunge has wore off, and I am left with the realization this is a lifetime battle and its not going to be easy.
I'm craving bad, put I posted roll today and will not go against that. I'm worried about the weekend, I have 36 holes of golf to play and have not, not dipped on the course since 2005. My girlfriend is also out of town this weekend, so I have the house to myself, which used to equate to a blissful weekend of sitting around dipping. Not this time though. I will continue the fight.
You are going to have more weak days, they get better I am only ten days in from twenty years as a user and they are already getting better. As far as the weekend worry about that when it happens, BUT have a plan in place. Get a mentor and get their numbers. My advice having just gone through my first weekend and my wife was away for an entire day of that weekend, just STAY AWAY from places that sell it. If you take the convenience factor out it will make it easier to not give in to the crave and cave. As far as golfing I would try seeds, they help with the habit portion of this addiction.
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Straight up, this weekend WILL NOT be easy for you...especially so early in your quit. But you have to think of it as a challenge. If you can make it through dip free, what a shot of confidence it will be for you and proof you can live life nicotine free. Golf without dip is possible, thousands do it daily. Hiding your dip from your girl is a coward move...I did the same thing for 15 years. Lets see if you can man up and make it through a weekend without terding up your lip while you girls out of town.
I actually smell a cave coming from you this weekend. You sound weak as hell already and are laying out excuses. Hope you prove me wrong. You got my digits, use em if you need them.
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Klark, kstampfly, Navy Tom, jpsmitty, and diesel thank you for the replies. I managed to hold true to my promise today. Work was tough, I was feeling weak, I was craving, I wanted to chew and say screw it I can start quit again tomorrow, but I didn't I posted roll and I held myself to it, with the encouragement from you guys and others than pm'd me....... I lay here in bed satisfied. Tomorrow I will post roll again..
Diesel I like the way you push me. I quit for me and only for me. I could give two shits if you think I'm weak, but as I told you I'm a proud guy. If I can use spite to my advantage to say f you, I held my promise, to give me that little extra edge over the craves that will be surely out there this weekend I will. I appreciate the motivation. But I will not be alone tomorrow, I will not be golfing, so I choose to focus on tomorrow rather than this weekend. I will post roll tomorrow...
I have your's and flyingfree's digits in my phone to talk me down if I need be and I appreciate it. Tomorrow is another day, another 24 hours, another 1440 minutes, I will be nic free...
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Good stuff. 1 day at a time. This is the key. 2 days, 20 days, 200 days, 2 years. :ph43r: on today.
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Klark, kstampfly, Navy Tom, jpsmitty, and diesel thank you for the replies. I managed to hold true to my promise today. Work was tough, I was feeling weak, I was craving, I wanted to chew and say screw it I can start quit again tomorrow, but I didn't I posted roll and I held myself to it, with the encouragement from you guys and others than pm'd me....... I lay here in bed satisfied. Tomorrow I will post roll again..
Diesel I like the way you push me. I quit for me and only for me. I could give two shits if you think I'm weak, but as I told you I'm a proud guy. If I can use spite to my advantage to say f you, I held my promise, to give me that little extra edge over the craves that will be surely out there this weekend I will. I appreciate the motivation. But I will not be alone tomorrow, I will not be golfing, so I choose to focus on tomorrow rather than this weekend. I will post roll tomorrow...
I have your's and flyingfree's digits in my phone to talk me down if I need be and I appreciate it. Tomorrow is another day, another 24 hours, another 1440 minutes, I will be nic free...
Walk the walk.
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Klark, kstampfly, Navy Tom, jpsmitty, and diesel thank you for the replies. I managed to hold true to my promise today. Work was tough, I was feeling weak, I was craving, I wanted to chew and say screw it I can start quit again tomorrow, but I didn't I posted roll and I held myself to it, with the encouragement from you guys and others than pm'd me....... I lay here in bed satisfied. Tomorrow I will post roll again..
Diesel I like the way you push me. I quit for me and only for me. I could give two shits if you think I'm weak, but as I told you I'm a proud guy. If I can use spite to my advantage to say f you, I held my promise, to give me that little extra edge over the craves that will be surely out there this weekend I will. I appreciate the motivation. But I will not be alone tomorrow, I will not be golfing, so I choose to focus on tomorrow rather than this weekend. I will post roll tomorrow...
I have your's and flyingfree's digits in my phone to talk me down if I need be and I appreciate it. Tomorrow is another day, another 24 hours, another 1440 minutes, I will be nic free...
Walk the walk.
get more numbers, one is not enough as that one may not be available when you need the most.
as you go through this make sure you remember it all, as you never want to go though it again (unless you are really sick).
so post, stay strong for the day and repeat. and don't let others, hell don't let yourself down.
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Klark, kstampfly, Navy Tom, jpsmitty, and diesel thank you for the replies. I managed to hold true to my promise today. Work was tough, I was feeling weak, I was craving, I wanted to chew and say screw it I can start quit again tomorrow, but I didn't I posted roll and I held myself to it, with the encouragement from you guys and others than pm'd me....... I lay here in bed satisfied. Tomorrow I will post roll again..
Diesel I like the way you push me. I quit for me and only for me. I could give two shits if you think I'm weak, but as I told you I'm a proud guy. If I can use spite to my advantage to say f you, I held my promise, to give me that little extra edge over the craves that will be surely out there this weekend I will. I appreciate the motivation. But I will not be alone tomorrow, I will not be golfing, so I choose to focus on tomorrow rather than this weekend. I will post roll tomorrow...
I have your's and flyingfree's digits in my phone to talk me down if I need be and I appreciate it. Tomorrow is another day, another 24 hours, another 1440 minutes, I will be nic free...
Walk the walk.
One thing to HAVE digits, its another to use them. Doesn't work without both things. Make sure you get a plan for the weekend. A good one starts with posting roll before breakfast.
Also you didn't "manage" to quit yesterday. You fucking quit. Don't you dare put yourself down for struggling. Own that part, embrace the suck. Because in the end, you quit one day at a time. So your quit yesterday was equal to everyone else's on this site. I'd like to see you tell these vets that they "managed" to quit. So don't think like that.
Quit with you.