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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: nomoresnus on April 25, 2016, 02:42:00 PM
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I am forcing myself to post this. I have quit before for maybe 2 years or so, and started back up when my kid was born, and have been using tobacco for almost 2 and a half-years straight since then. I went from part of a can, to 2 cans a day. I have a hundred different excuses not to quit, and everyday there are reasons I tell myself why today is not a good day. To be honest, no day ever seems like it is a good day. Well, I am starting to realize this can of crap doesn't do anything for me. It doesn't help with stress and anxiety, probably makes it worse. My biggest challenge is that I have to drive a lot and I feel incapable of driving without a pouch of tobacco. The second challenge for me is that I have a hard time concentrating on my studies without it, and while I did fine without it before, my concentration gets messed up during withdrawal. Finally, everything in my life seems to be a trigger to want to put another, drippy, disgusting pouch in, whether it is my kid acting up (which seems to be all the time), or any other stress or worry. To make that worse I put a pouch in for everything I do, sitting on the computer, before a meal, after a meal, sometimes half-way through a meal- even though it kills my appetite and I have less energy from eating less throughout the day. It seems like a pouch goes in for everything, even if everything is going good I use a pouch when I am happy, or feel good, or when I am unhappy, or just cause. There is a damn pouch in my lip every moment I am awake.
All of that being said, I have many good reasons to quit which I can't ignore even though I try. One, the cost is too much. Over 8 dollars a day is money that I need to put for rent, bills and food. Secondly, my blood pressure is high when I am using the can, but it is normal and healthy when I am not. Additionally, my dad died of kidney cancer recently, and I don't want to suffer a similar fate. I do not want to do that to my family. One other major reason for wanting to quit is that the tobacco messes up my mood (according to my wife), I am shorter tempered and nasty to be around. Also, I feel like the can takes away from life, I notice so much more in life, things seem more real, more detailed, I am calmer and more introspective- without it. I am tired of this bleak existence on the can, I feel like I keep going for it because I feel burnt out, but at the same time the can is what is really burning me out. I am tired of lying to myself.
I want to quit.
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I am forcing myself to post this. I have quit before for maybe 2 years or so, and started back up when my kid was born, and have been using tobacco for almost 2 and a half-years straight since then. I went from part of a can, to 2 cans a day. I have a hundred different excuses not to quit, and everyday there are reasons I tell myself why today is not a good day. To be honest, no day ever seems like it is a good day. Well, I am starting to realize this can of crap doesn't do anything for me. It doesn't help with stress and anxiety, probably makes it worse. My biggest challenge is that I have to drive a lot and I feel incapable of driving without a pouch of tobacco. The second challenge for me is that I have a hard time concentrating on my studies without it, and while I did fine without it before, my concentration gets messed up during withdrawal. Finally, everything in my life seems to be a trigger to want to put another, drippy, disgusting pouch in, whether it is my kid acting up (which seems to be all the time), or any other stress or worry. To make that worse I put a pouch in for everything I do, sitting on the computer, before a meal, after a meal, sometimes half-way through a meal- even though it kills my appetite and I have less energy from eating less throughout the day. It seems like a pouch goes in for everything, even if everything is going good I use a pouch when I am happy, or feel good, or when I am unhappy, or just cause. There is a damn pouch in my lip every moment I am awake.
All of that being said, I have many good reasons to quit which I can't ignore even though I try. One, the cost is too much. Over 8 dollars a day is money that I need to put for rent, bills and food. Secondly, my blood pressure is high when I am using the can, but it is normal and healthy when I am not. Additionally, my dad died of kidney cancer recently, and I don't want to suffer a similar fate. I do not want to do that to my family. One other major reason for wanting to quit is that the tobacco messes up my mood (according to my wife), I am shorter tempered and nasty to be around. Also, I feel like the can takes away from life, I notice so much more in life, things seem more real, more detailed, I am calmer and more introspective- without it. I am tired of this bleak existence on the can, I feel like I keep going for it because I feel burnt out, but at the same time the can is what is really burning me out. I am tired of lying to myself.
I want to quit.
Let's get it straight right off the bat. Here, we don't try. We quit hardcore every damn day. To do anything less, to leave any crack in your armor, will lead to yet another fail. Nicotine is a good for nothing drug. I used for over 20 years and was up to 2 cans a day. I'm in my car all day. I get it. Nicotine is associated with almost everything in our lives, but make no mistake, it is good for absolutely NONE of them. I urge you to go all in with us and leave the life of slavery in the dust. Make your way over to the August 2016 Pre-HOF Group (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11604982/6/#new) and change your life Today.
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I am forcing myself to post this. I have quit before for maybe 2 years or so, and started back up when my kid was born, and have been using tobacco for almost 2 and a half-years straight since then. I went from part of a can, to 2 cans a day. I have a hundred different excuses not to quit, and everyday there are reasons I tell myself why today is not a good day. To be honest, no day ever seems like it is a good day. Well, I am starting to realize this can of crap doesn't do anything for me. It doesn't help with stress and anxiety, probably makes it worse. My biggest challenge is that I have to drive a lot and I feel incapable of driving without a pouch of tobacco. The second challenge for me is that I have a hard time concentrating on my studies without it, and while I did fine without it before, my concentration gets messed up during withdrawal. Finally, everything in my life seems to be a trigger to want to put another, drippy, disgusting pouch in, whether it is my kid acting up (which seems to be all the time), or any other stress or worry. To make that worse I put a pouch in for everything I do, sitting on the computer, before a meal, after a meal, sometimes half-way through a meal- even though it kills my appetite and I have less energy from eating less throughout the day. It seems like a pouch goes in for everything, even if everything is going good I use a pouch when I am happy, or feel good, or when I am unhappy, or just cause. There is a damn pouch in my lip every moment I am awake.
All of that being said, I have many good reasons to quit which I can't ignore even though I try. One, the cost is too much. Over 8 dollars a day is money that I need to put for rent, bills and food. Secondly, my blood pressure is high when I am using the can, but it is normal and healthy when I am not. Additionally, my dad died of kidney cancer recently, and I don't want to suffer a similar fate. I do not want to do that to my family. One other major reason for wanting to quit is that the tobacco messes up my mood (according to my wife), I am shorter tempered and nasty to be around. Also, I feel like the can takes away from life, I notice so much more in life, things seem more real, more detailed, I am calmer and more introspective- without it. I am tired of this bleak existence on the can, I feel like I keep going for it because I feel burnt out, but at the same time the can is what is really burning me out. I am tired of lying to myself.
I want to quit.
You can do it, try to use one of the Herbal dips. This worked great for me. After day 3 I feel like I am home free actually. I am sure it will sneak up on my at minute though.
My goal was to stop the herbal stuff after a few weeks. But I am not hurting anything i think.
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Welcome aboard nomoresnus! The secret sauce here is that if you post your promise one day at a time and keep your word one day at a time you will be quit. I'd recommend that you drink lots and lots of water to help flush the poison out quicker, stock up on your preferred way to deal with the oral fixation (seeds/candy/gum/fake). The more involved you are with your quit group the easier it will be, for you and them.
I was a 30 year, 1-2 can a day user. If I was awake I had a cat turd in. Sometimes I managed to fall asleep with it in. You can do this and I'm proud to quit with you today.
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I'm 95 days in to my quit after using for almost 25 years.
I'm still doing stuff for the first time without a dip. Every time a do something for the first time, it's a brand new trigger.
You are stronger than the nicotine.
What will make you even stronger is coming here every single day, and posting roll as early in the day as you can.
One day at a time. One trigger event at a time.
Stay quit.
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I feel like the can takes away from life
You're right, it does. In fact, it might even take the whole thing before all is said and done. There is only one thing you can do about it. Quit. Right now. Throw your stash out and get to taking your life back. This is in your hands. You make the choice to make all those b.s. excuses and flirt with your poison, or you make the choice to take your life back, start to steer your own ship again, and kick nicotine in the teeth. I made the second choice and nearly 300 days later, I can tell you I waited too long. No regrets, just freedom.
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I am forcing myself to post this. I have quit before for maybe 2 years or so, and started back up when my kid was born, and have been using tobacco for almost 2 and a half-years straight since then. I went from part of a can, to 2 cans a day. I have a hundred different excuses not to quit, and everyday there are reasons I tell myself why today is not a good day. To be honest, no day ever seems like it is a good day. Well, I am starting to realize this can of crap doesn't do anything for me. It doesn't help with stress and anxiety, probably makes it worse. My biggest challenge is that I have to drive a lot and I feel incapable of driving without a pouch of tobacco. The second challenge for me is that I have a hard time concentrating on my studies without it, and while I did fine without it before, my concentration gets messed up during withdrawal. Finally, everything in my life seems to be a trigger to want to put another, drippy, disgusting pouch in, whether it is my kid acting up (which seems to be all the time), or any other stress or worry. To make that worse I put a pouch in for everything I do, sitting on the computer, before a meal, after a meal, sometimes half-way through a meal- even though it kills my appetite and I have less energy from eating less throughout the day. It seems like a pouch goes in for everything, even if everything is going good I use a pouch when I am happy, or feel good, or when I am unhappy, or just cause. There is a damn pouch in my lip every moment I am awake.
All of that being said, I have many good reasons to quit which I can't ignore even though I try. One, the cost is too much. Over 8 dollars a day is money that I need to put for rent, bills and food. Secondly, my blood pressure is high when I am using the can, but it is normal and healthy when I am not. Additionally, my dad died of kidney cancer recently, and I don't want to suffer a similar fate. I do not want to do that to my family. One other major reason for wanting to quit is that the tobacco messes up my mood (according to my wife), I am shorter tempered and nasty to be around. Also, I feel like the can takes away from life, I notice so much more in life, things seem more real, more detailed, I am calmer and more introspective- without it. I am tired of this bleak existence on the can, I feel like I keep going for it because I feel burnt out, but at the same time the can is what is really burning me out. I am tired of lying to myself.
I want to quit.
Let's get it straight right off the bat. Here, we don't try. We quit hardcore every damn day. To do anything less, to leave any crack in your armor, will lead to yet another fail. Nicotine is a good for nothing drug. I used for over 20 years and was up to 2 cans a day. I'm in my car all day. I get it. Nicotine is associated with almost everything in our lives, but make no mistake, it is good for absolutely NONE of them. I urge you to go all in with us and leave the life of slavery in the dust. Make your way over to the August 2016 Pre-HOF Group (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11604982/6/#new) and change your life Today.
Post roll like Dano showed you. You posted a good intro that made me think you are serious. Prove it by posting roll. EVERYDAY!!!
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Guess we were too hardcore for him? Okay. Dude, if you come back. It is either get in and go hardcore or it is wuss out and keep using....or better said.....she (nicotine) use you.
If you are ready to quit you post daily. It is our promise to ourselves and others that we will not use Nic that day. next, get yourself several gallons of water and fruit juice. Drink it up. This will flush the crap out of your system. Be prepared for lots of pain and fog and headaches. We call it The Suck.