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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: CheekBiter on February 20, 2014, 06:25:00 PM
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Hey everyone I'm new here (obviously) and I just wanted to say hi. Unfortunately this isn't my first quit. 'bang head' I've tried a few times in the past and failed, probably because I didn't educate myself on how to quit. Well that was then this is now. I have a plan, support, tools, and knowledge to make this my FINAL QUIT. In conclusion 'Finger' tobacco!
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Hey everyone I'm new here (obviously) and I just wanted to say hi. Unfortunately this isn't my first quit. 'bang head' I've tried a few times in the past and failed, probably because I didn't educate myself on how to quit. Well that was then this is now. I have a plan, support, tools, and knowledge to make this my FINAL QUIT. In conclusion 'Finger' tobacco!
Don't hold out on us Cheeks, what is the plan ?
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Hey everyone I'm new here (obviously) and I just wanted to say hi. Unfortunately this isn't my first quit. 'bang head' I've tried a few times in the past and failed, probably because I didn't educate myself on how to quit. Well that was then this is now. I have a plan, support, tools, and knowledge to make this my FINAL QUIT. In conclusion  'Finger' tobacco!
Don't hold out on us Cheeks, what is the plan ?
Ya, educate us.
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Well honestly I'm just learning that Nicotine Replacement Regimens aren't looked well upon in the quitting community. My plan started by being open with my wife about quitting. With my past quits I never really had anyone to hold me accountable aside from her and when i would cave I would just hide it and lie. (yeah dick move I know) Coming clean with her and asking for her help was #1. Next I did some research American Cancer Society (http://www.cancer.org/acs/groups/cid/documents/webcontent/acspc-035551-pdf.pdf) I decided that I would quit primarily with a non-tobacco dip alternative (Jake's Mint Chew) and Nicotine Lozenges as a secondary support. I'm not a fan of using nicotine to kick nicotine but it has helped me a lot with withdraw symptoms. I talked to my wife about the lozenges and told her that I have to be careful not to become dependant on them and that I need to kick them as quick as I can without comprising my quit. Its still not easy but I really feel that this is it. Opinions may vary on my quit date since I'm using Lozenges ( not much really IÂ’ve used 2 today during my peak craving times) but for me today is day 8. I am not using tobacco and that is a quit for me. The Jakes Mint Chew is awesome and helps a ton. So from here my plan is to be off the lozenges in not more than 2 days and I have told all my friends and family to help hold me accountable. Other than that I plan to get through each day and keep communication open with my wife about my quit. Its when I try to do this alone that I fail.
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Well honestly I'm just learning that Nicotine Replacement Regimens aren't looked well upon in the quitting community. My plan started by being open with my wife about quitting. With my past quits I never really had anyone to hold me accountable aside from her and when i would cave I would just hide it and lie. (yeah dick move I know) Coming clean with her and asking for her help was #1. Next I did some research American Cancer Society (http://www.cancer.org/acs/groups/cid/documents/webcontent/acspc-035551-pdf.pdf) I decided that I would quit primarily with a non-tobacco dip alternative (Jake's Mint Chew) and Nicotine Lozenges as a secondary support. I'm not a fan of using nicotine to kick nicotine but it has helped me a lot with withdraw symptoms. I talked to my wife about the lozenges and told her that I have to be careful not to become dependant on them and that I need to kick them as quick as I can without comprising my quit. Its still not easy but I really feel that this is it. Opinions may vary on my quit date since I'm using Lozenges ( not much really IÂ’ve used 2 today during my peak craving times) but for me today is day 8. I am not using tobacco and that is a quit for me. The Jakes Mint Chew is awesome and helps a ton. So from here my plan is to be off the lozenges in not more than 2 days and I have told all my friends and family to help hold me accountable. Other than that I plan to get through each day and keep communication open with my wife about my quit. Its when I try to do this alone that I fail.
This a NO NICOTINE site. End of discussion. Why this Site Works (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=4709)
drop the lozenges down the toilet then go post roll promising not to use nicotine in any shape fashion or form.
Embrace the suck of quitting and be accountable to yourself and us
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I started my "quit" by chewing on Nicorette Gum. Going from chew to nicotine replacement makes quitting twice as hard. Learn from my mistake. Cut the cord, sack up, dump everything with nicotine in it and post a Day 1. We all know how hard it is, use the resources available to you. We may call each other names, but we all want each other to be successfull quitters. Get ready for some tough love.
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Well honestly I'm just learning that Nicotine Replacement Regimens aren't looked well upon in the quitting community. My plan started by being open with my wife about quitting. With my past quits I never really had anyone to hold me accountable aside from her and when i would cave I would just hide it and lie. (yeah dick move I know) Coming clean with her and asking for her help was #1. Next I did some research American Cancer Society (http://www.cancer.org/acs/groups/cid/documents/webcontent/acspc-035551-pdf.pdf) I decided that I would quit primarily with a non-tobacco dip alternative (Jake's Mint Chew) and Nicotine Lozenges as a secondary support. I'm not a fan of using nicotine to kick nicotine but it has helped me a lot with withdraw symptoms. I talked to my wife about the lozenges and told her that I have to be careful not to become dependant on them and that I need to kick them as quick as I can without comprising my quit. Its still not easy but I really feel that this is it. Opinions may vary on my quit date since I'm using Lozenges ( not much really IÂ’ve used 2 today during my peak craving times) but for me today is day 8. I am not using tobacco and that is a quit for me. The Jakes Mint Chew is awesome and helps a ton. So from here my plan is to be off the lozenges in not more than 2 days and I have told all my friends and family to help hold me accountable. Other than that I plan to get through each day and keep communication open with my wife about my quit. Its when I try to do this alone that I fail.
This a NO NICOTINE site. End of discussion. Why this Site Works (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=4709)
drop the lozenges down the toilet then go post roll promising not to use nicotine in any shape fashion or form.
Embrace the suck of quitting and be accountable to yourself and us
Ya, that's what I was afraid of. Listen Cheeks, there are thousands of us here waiting to help and support you. We all quit. No Plan, no nic replacement. Just quit. Throw in all in the toilet and start this off. You cannot believe what awaits you if you really want this. We are waiting.
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Well honestly I'm just learning that Nicotine Replacement Regimens aren't looked well upon in the quitting community. My plan started by being open with my wife about quitting. With my past quits I never really had anyone to hold me accountable aside from her and when i would cave I would just hide it and lie. (yeah dick move I know) Coming clean with her and asking for her help was #1. Next I did some research American Cancer Society (http://www.cancer.org/acs/groups/cid/documents/webcontent/acspc-035551-pdf.pdf) I decided that I would quit primarily with a non-tobacco dip alternative (Jake's Mint Chew) and Nicotine Lozenges as a secondary support. I'm not a fan of using nicotine to kick nicotine but it has helped me a lot with withdraw symptoms. I talked to my wife about the lozenges and told her that I have to be careful not to become dependant on them and that I need to kick them as quick as I can without comprising my quit. Its still not easy but I really feel that this is it. Opinions may vary on my quit date since I'm using Lozenges ( not much really IÂ’ve used 2 today during my peak craving times) but for me today is day 8. I am not using tobacco and that is a quit for me. The Jakes Mint Chew is awesome and helps a ton. So from here my plan is to be off the lozenges in not more than 2 days and I have told all my friends and family to help hold me accountable. Other than that I plan to get through each day and keep communication open with my wife about my quit. Its when I try to do this alone that I fail.
This a NO NICOTINE site. End of discussion. Why this Site Works (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=4709)
drop the lozenges down the toilet then go post roll promising not to use nicotine in any shape fashion or form.
Embrace the suck of quitting and be accountable to yourself and us
Doo the Dooo. Nicotine is a drug. This is a NO NICOTINE site. The nic bitch is just playing your punk ass. Man up drop the nic bitch in the toilet and post roll that you are free from nicotine. I know you can do it, I just dont think that you know it..
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You guys are right. Day 1 starts now. 8 days ago I quit tobacco today I quit nicotine all together. Thanks. I flushed my lozenges (pic) (https://www.dropbox.com/lightbox/home/Public)
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You guys are right. Day 1 starts now. 8 days ago I quit tobacco today I quit nicotine all together. Thanks. I flushed my lozenges (pic) (https://www.dropbox.com/lightbox/home/Public)
good job, over the next three days the nicotine is leaving your system, its going to fight you, let us help you fight back
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You guys are right. Day 1 starts now. 8 days ago I quit tobacco today I quit nicotine all together. Thanks. I flushed my lozenges (pic) (https://www.dropbox.com/lightbox/home/Public)
good job, over the next three days the nicotine is leaving your system, its going to fight you, let us help you fight back
Great man!!! I quit with you today... ODAAT NAFAR.
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Do this, today. index.php?showtopic=50 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
Read everything in the WELCOME CENTER, hang out in Live Chat. Read, read, read!
Lots of water and exercise. First 4 days suck, then it doesn't so much. You will do this!
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Day two, and I'm feeling okay. Talked to my wife about the difference between quitting tobacco and being nicotine free last night. Told her that I love this site and think that You guys will definitely be there if I need a kick in the pants. Only using my Jakes Mint Chew today, I'm pretty happy but easily irritated so I hope that goes over well today at work. Also has anyone else ever felt like their brain just doesnÂ’t work as well after quitting? Well here goes day 2 of telling Nicotine to 'Finger'
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Day two, and I'm feeling okay. Talked to my wife about the difference between quitting tobacco and being nicotine free last night. Told her that I love this site and think that You guys will definitely be there if I need a kick in the pants. Only using my Jakes Mint Chew today, I'm pretty happy but easily irritated so I hope that goes over well today at work. Also has anyone else ever felt like their brain just doesnÂ’t work as well after quitting? Well here goes day 2 of telling Nicotine to 'Finger'
Way to go Cheekbiter on making it through day 1! You are in the right place. You are experiencing what is known here as "The Fog". You can read about what to expect in the welcome center. Brain not working is one of the symptoms. Time dilation will mess with you too. It gets better after 3-5 days but I'm at day 52 and it still hits me periodically. Keep it going one day at a time, post roll and I'll quit with you today!
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Day two, and I'm feeling okay. Talked to my wife about the difference between quitting tobacco and being nicotine free last night. Told her that I love this site and think that You guys will definitely be there if I need a kick in the pants. Only using my Jakes Mint Chew today, I'm pretty happy but easily irritated so I hope that goes over well today at work. Also has anyone else ever felt like their brain just doesn’t work as well after quitting? Well here goes day 2 of telling Nicotine to 'Finger'
Way to go Cheekbiter on making it through day 1! You are in the right place. You are experiencing what is known here as "The Fog". You can read about what to expect in the welcome center. Brain not working is one of the symptoms. Time dilation will mess with you too. It gets better after 3-5 days but I'm at day 52 and it still hits me periodically. Keep it going one day at a time, post roll and I'll quit with you today!
Cheekbiter,
If you haven't already seen or done this you can chose to share this link with or print and give this to your wife Spousal Support (http://www.killthecan.org/community/spousal-support/).
It will help her understand a bit more what you are going through and what she may be able to do to help or even tolerate you at times.
P
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Day two, and I'm feeling okay. Talked to my wife about the difference between quitting tobacco and being nicotine free last night. Told her that I love this site and think that You guys will definitely be there if I need a kick in the pants. Only using my Jakes Mint Chew today, I'm pretty happy but easily irritated so I hope that goes over well today at work. Also has anyone else ever felt like their brain just doesn’t work as well after quitting? Well here goes day 2 of telling Nicotine to 'Finger'
Way to go Cheekbiter on making it through day 1! You are in the right place. You are experiencing what is known here as "The Fog". You can read about what to expect in the welcome center. Brain not working is one of the symptoms. Time dilation will mess with you too. It gets better after 3-5 days but I'm at day 52 and it still hits me periodically. Keep it going one day at a time, post roll and I'll quit with you today!
Cheekbiter,
If you haven't already seen or done this you can chose to share this link with or print and give this to your wife Spousal Support (http://www.killthecan.org/community/spousal-support/).
It will help her understand a bit more what you are going through and what she may be able to do to help or even tolerate you at times.
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Day 2. Nice Cbiter!
The fog is a part of quitting. I walked around at work in a fog for some time. Don't worry about being in the fog. It will clear.
Make quitting your #1 priority today. Nothing else is as important today.
Quit with you today!
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Day two, and I'm feeling okay. Talked to my wife about the difference between quitting tobacco and being nicotine free last night. Told her that I love this site and think that You guys will definitely be there if I need a kick in the pants. Only using my Jakes Mint Chew today, I'm pretty happy but easily irritated so I hope that goes over well today at work. Also has anyone else ever felt like their brain just doesn’t work as well after quitting? Well here goes day 2 of telling Nicotine to 'Finger'
Way to go Cheekbiter on making it through day 1! You are in the right place. You are experiencing what is known here as "The Fog". You can read about what to expect in the welcome center. Brain not working is one of the symptoms. Time dilation will mess with you too. It gets better after 3-5 days but I'm at day 52 and it still hits me periodically. Keep it going one day at a time, post roll and I'll quit with you today!
Cheekbiter,
If you haven't already seen or done this you can chose to share this link with or print and give this to your wife Spousal Support (http://www.killthecan.org/community/spousal-support/).
It will help her understand a bit more what you are going through and what she may be able to do to help or even tolerate you at times.
P
Welcome. There is a lot of information on this site. Highly recommend you begin reading everything you can on nicotine/addiction Learn your enemy, it knows you.
YOU screwed your brain for however many years. YOU deprived it of oxygen and gave it contaminated blood by introducing the poison. YOU drove your blood pressure up and caused your brain to rewire. Now your dependent on the poison and your brain is not use to the oxygen it is receiving. Welcome to the suck!
Now, you are finally letting it BEGIN the process of healing. You are finally giving it the oxygen it was suppose to be getting since birth. It if finally receiving the uncontaminated blood it has wanted for years.
Yea, I would say your brain is going to be messed up for a little bit. It will take 3 to 4 weeks for it to begin working right,, i say again,,, BEGIN. One day at a time and you can have back a lot of what the poison has stolen. Never again for any reason and you can keep it. Quit with you today.
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Day two, and I'm feeling okay. Talked to my wife about the difference between quitting tobacco and being nicotine free last night. Told her that I love this site and think that You guys will definitely be there if I need a kick in the pants. Only using my Jakes Mint Chew today, I'm pretty happy but easily irritated so I hope that goes over well today at work. Also has anyone else ever felt like their brain just doesn’t work as well after quitting? Well here goes day 2 of telling Nicotine to 'Finger'
Way to go Cheekbiter on making it through day 1! You are in the right place. You are experiencing what is known here as "The Fog". You can read about what to expect in the welcome center. Brain not working is one of the symptoms. Time dilation will mess with you too. It gets better after 3-5 days but I'm at day 52 and it still hits me periodically. Keep it going one day at a time, post roll and I'll quit with you today!
Cheekbiter,
If you haven't already seen or done this you can chose to share this link with or print and give this to your wife Spousal Support (http://www.killthecan.org/community/spousal-support/).
It will help her understand a bit more what you are going through and what she may be able to do to help or even tolerate you at times.
P
Welcome. There is a lot of information on this site. Highly recommend you begin reading everything you can on nicotine/addiction Learn your enemy, it knows you.
YOU screwed your brain for however many years. YOU deprived it of oxygen and gave it contaminated blood by introducing the poison. YOU drove your blood pressure up and caused your brain to rewire. Now your dependent on the poison and your brain is not use to the oxygen it is receiving. Welcome to the suck!
Now, you are finally letting it BEGIN the process of healing. You are finally giving it the oxygen it was suppose to be getting since birth. It if finally receiving the uncontaminated blood it has wanted for years.
Yea, I would say your brain is going to be messed up for a little bit. It will take 3 to 4 weeks for it to begin working right,, i say again,,, BEGIN. One day at a time and you can have back a lot of what the poison has stolen. Never again for any reason and you can keep it. Quit with you today.
Awesome work getting through day 1! Now you know you can get through day 2. Soak up the knowledge here and fight. So worth the struggle. PM me if you need anything or have questions.
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Day two, and I'm feeling okay. Talked to my wife about the difference between quitting tobacco and being nicotine free last night. Told her that I love this site and think that You guys will definitely be there if I need a kick in the pants. Only using my Jakes Mint Chew today, I'm pretty happy but easily irritated so I hope that goes over well today at work. Also has anyone else ever felt like their brain just doesn’t work as well after quitting? Well here goes day 2 of telling Nicotine to 'Finger'
Way to go Cheekbiter on making it through day 1! You are in the right place. You are experiencing what is known here as "The Fog". You can read about what to expect in the welcome center. Brain not working is one of the symptoms. Time dilation will mess with you too. It gets better after 3-5 days but I'm at day 52 and it still hits me periodically. Keep it going one day at a time, post roll and I'll quit with you today!
Cheekbiter,
If you haven't already seen or done this you can chose to share this link with or print and give this to your wife Spousal Support (http://www.killthecan.org/community/spousal-support/).
It will help her understand a bit more what you are going through and what she may be able to do to help or even tolerate you at times.
P
Welcome. There is a lot of information on this site. Highly recommend you begin reading everything you can on nicotine/addiction Learn your enemy, it knows you.
YOU screwed your brain for however many years. YOU deprived it of oxygen and gave it contaminated blood by introducing the poison. YOU drove your blood pressure up and caused your brain to rewire. Now your dependent on the poison and your brain is not use to the oxygen it is receiving. Welcome to the suck!
Now, you are finally letting it BEGIN the process of healing. You are finally giving it the oxygen it was suppose to be getting since birth. It if finally receiving the uncontaminated blood it has wanted for years.
Yea, I would say your brain is going to be messed up for a little bit. It will take 3 to 4 weeks for it to begin working right,, i say again,,, BEGIN. One day at a time and you can have back a lot of what the poison has stolen. Never again for any reason and you can keep it. Quit with you today.
Awesome work getting through day 1! Now you know you can get through day 2. Soak up the knowledge here and fight. So worth the struggle. PM me if you need anything or have questions.
In my opinion having your spouse know all about KTC (posting roll, intros, info, etc) is a HUGE step in the right direction. It appears that you are serious about this!!!
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Day 3 guys thanks for all the support. I will def print out that info for my wife. I decided early on that I was going to be 100% open about my addiction and my quit and own it. I've told friends and family that didnt even know I dipped that I quit. I even showed my wife the HOF/milestone coins and told her im dedicated to posting roll and getting mine. My JMC is helping other than that im staying hydrated and staying busy as much as possible. Today and everyday I quit for life and I quit with all of you!
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Get through today and your body is clear of nicotine. It's just mind games after that. Stay strong, stay engaged on this website as much as you need too. Scream, cuss, whatever it takes. Do it here, we understand.
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Keep up the great work !
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Great job cheek !
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Day 3 guys thanks for all the support. I will def print out that info for my wife. I decided early on that I was going to be 100% open about my addiction and my quit and own it. I've told friends and family that didnt even know I dipped that I quit. I even showed my wife the HOF/milestone coins and told her im dedicated to posting roll and getting mine. My JMC is helping other than that im staying hydrated and staying busy as much as possible. Today and everyday I quit for life and I quit with all of you!
This quitter has committed. I'll quit with you all damn and every damn day!
Good work, CB!
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Day 3 guys thanks for all the support. I will def print out that info for my wife. I decided early on that I was going to be 100% open about my addiction and my quit and own it. I've told friends and family that didnt even know I dipped that I quit. I even showed my wife the HOF/milestone coins and told her im dedicated to posting roll and getting mine. My JMC is helping other than that im staying hydrated and staying busy as much as possible. Today and everyday I quit for life and I quit with all of you!
This quitter has committed. I'll quit with you all damn and every damn day!
Good work, CB!
Way to take ownership of your quit, CB -- refreshing to see guys with the courage of their convictions and realization of their limitations get on board. Quit with you today, amd great ton have you in Mayhem!
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Day 3 guys thanks for all the support. I will def print out that info for my wife. I decided early on that I was going to be 100% open about my addiction and my quit and own it. I've told friends and family that didnt even know I dipped that I quit. I even showed my wife the HOF/milestone coins and told her im dedicated to posting roll and getting mine. My JMC is helping other than that im staying hydrated and staying busy as much as possible. Today and everyday I quit for life and I quit with all of you!
This quitter has committed. I'll quit with you all damn and every damn day!
Good work, CB!
Way to take ownership of your quit, CB -- refreshing to see guys with the courage of their convictions and realization of their limitations get on board. Quit with you today, amd great ton have you in Mayhem!
You have a great attitude.
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Today is day 4. Been having trouble sleeping and I feel like a zombie. Everything seems to be on schedule.
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Today is day 4. Been having trouble sleeping and I feel like a zombie. Everything seems to be on schedule.
Good job on the 4 days. I had a rough time sleeping the first couple weeks. It gets better quick, just don't feel like it. After dealing with sleep deprivation I had a stint where I wanted to sleep to much. Just part of it brother.
Take some naps when you can. Some people use medication to help with the sleep. I just toughed it out.
Keep this in mind. Your worth the struggles of quitting. Your worth the insomnia. Your worth the withdraws. Your worth whatever you got to go through to remain quit today. If you made it 3 you can damn sure make it 4. Quit with you my friend.
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Today is day 4. Been having trouble sleeping and I feel like a zombie. Everything seems to be on schedule.
Good job on the 4 days. I had a rough time sleeping the first couple weeks. It gets better quick, just don't feel like it. After dealing with sleep deprivation I had a stint where I wanted to sleep to much. Just part of it brother.
Take some naps when you can. Some people use medication to help with the sleep. I just toughed it out.
Keep this in mind. Your worth the struggles of quitting. Your worth the insomnia. Your worth the withdraws. Your worth whatever you got to go through to remain quit today. If you made it 3 you can damn sure make it 4. Quit with you my friend.
The bad news you just have to drill through the suck. The good news is that the poison is almost out of your system and your brain is re-wiring itself back to normalcy. Remember these days so you're never doomed to repeat them. Stay strong, put your head down and embrace the suck.
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Day 5 guys. I'm not too worried about nicotine today, which is a surprise. My wife was supposed to wake me up when she got up so I could study and I head off to class. (RN School) I should have set an alarm and I usually do, I donÂ’t know why I didnÂ’t this time, sure enough she forgot to wake me up (before she go go) and I missed class today. I'm super pissed and usually that would send me into a nic fit, but not today. I honestly feel like I couldn't care less about tobacco. I hope that this strength isn't a fleeting thing because I feel so empowered right now. High stress situation and nic isn't even in my thoughts aside from remembering to post roll and update my intro?! I think thatÂ’s progress.
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Day 5 guys. I'm not too worried about nicotine today, which is a surprise. My wife was supposed to wake me up when she got up so I could study and I head off to class. (RN School) I should have set an alarm and I usually do, I donÂ’t know why I didnÂ’t this time, sure enough she forgot to wake me up (before she go go) and I missed class today. I'm super pissed and usually that would send me into a nic fit, but not today. I honestly feel like I couldn't care less about tobacco. I hope that this strength isn't a fleeting thing because I feel so empowered right now. High stress situation and nic isn't even in my thoughts aside from remembering to post roll and update my intro?! I think thatÂ’s progress.
It's exciting isn't it! You'll have more and more of these moments. They don't get old, at least they haven't yet for me.
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Day 5 guys. I'm not too worried about nicotine today, which is a surprise. My wife was supposed to wake me up when she got up so I could study and I head off to class. (RN School) I should have set an alarm and I usually do, I donÂ’t know why I didnÂ’t this time, sure enough she forgot to wake me up (before she go go) and I missed class today. I'm super pissed and usually that would send me into a nic fit, but not today. I honestly feel like I couldn't care less about tobacco. I hope that this strength isn't a fleeting thing because I feel so empowered right now. High stress situation and nic isn't even in my thoughts aside from remembering to post roll and update my intro?! I think thatÂ’s progress.
It's exciting isn't it! You'll have more and more of these moments. They don't get old, at least they haven't yet for me.
For real! As pissed off as I am about missing class (pretty big deal) I'm just so damn amused that I'm not cramming poison in my face to cope with it. (no pun intended) For an addict like me, feeling in control will never feel like anything less than a miracle.
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Day 5 guys. I'm not too worried about nicotine today, which is a surprise. My wife was supposed to wake me up when she got up so I could study and I head off to class. (RN School) I should have set an alarm and I usually do, I donÂ’t know why I didnÂ’t this time, sure enough she forgot to wake me up (before she go go) and I missed class today. I'm super pissed and usually that would send me into a nic fit, but not today. I honestly feel like I couldn't care less about tobacco. I hope that this strength isn't a fleeting thing because I feel so empowered right now. High stress situation and nic isn't even in my thoughts aside from remembering to post roll and update my intro?! I think thatÂ’s progress.
It's exciting isn't it! You'll have more and more of these moments. They don't get old, at least they haven't yet for me.
For real! As pissed off as I am about missing class (pretty big deal) I'm just so damn amused that I'm not cramming poison in my face to cope with it. (no pun intended) For an addict like me, feeling in control will never feel like anything less than a miracle.
Great Job and welcome to freedom....you will have to wake each day ready for a fight. It is so worth it!! It gets better...post roll, hit the chat room , use the tools here!
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Day 5 guys. I'm not too worried about nicotine today, which is a surprise. My wife was supposed to wake me up when she got up so I could study and I head off to class. (RN School) I should have set an alarm and I usually do, I donÂ’t know why I didnÂ’t this time, sure enough she forgot to wake me up (before she go go) and I missed class today. I'm super pissed and usually that would send me into a nic fit, but not today. I honestly feel like I couldn't care less about tobacco. I hope that this strength isn't a fleeting thing because I feel so empowered right now. High stress situation and nic isn't even in my thoughts aside from remembering to post roll and update my intro?! I think thatÂ’s progress.
It's exciting isn't it! You'll have more and more of these moments. They don't get old, at least they haven't yet for me.
For real! As pissed off as I am about missing class (pretty big deal) I'm just so damn amused that I'm not cramming poison in my face to cope with it. (no pun intended) For an addict like me, feeling in control will never feel like anything less than a miracle.
Great Job and welcome to freedom....you will have to wake each day ready for a fight. It is so worth it!! It gets better...post roll, hit the chat room , use the tools here!
Celebrate every victory, big and small...but don't let your guard down, the nic bitch is very cunning!
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Didnt post yesterday in this thread just posted roll. Got a lot of shit happening right now. Its day 7 today and I am proud to say I have stayed quit and posted roll 100%. I had a couple good craves yesterday. Getting ready to do some lawn work and organize my garage. These kinds of projects are something I associate with dipping. Everytime I go to the gas station I stare down my weakness and I feel just how easy it would be to cave. A few weak words and a shameful swipe of my debit card, one moment of weakness is all it takes. If I let my guard down for a minute I become my own saboteur. Thats fine, I will own my weaknesses and in doing so I find a strength even greater. I dont like the feeling of not trusting myself, its a terrible feeling. All us addicts have a duality inside. The rational and the irrational, light/dark, whatever you label it as it is there. For years the rational part of myself lived as a slave to the whims of the irrational. That rational part of myself was beat down and became submissive to the irrational. I gave into addictions that I knew were terrible, I lied to people I never thought I would lie to, and I felt I had lost control. I was wrong. I might had given up my I was always in control. I see that now and it pisses me off. I poisoned myself, I allowed chemicals to overthrow my intellect. NO MORE!! I see things clearly now and I refuse to be a slave, my intellect is the only thing that makes me human, if I give that up I might as well be an animal. Nicotine isnt the first addiction I have fought but it has taught me the most about myself. Nicotine is but one battle in by quest to conquer myself and thanks to this site I have been able to hold myself accountable, learn from others, and reflect and gain insight about myself. When I look back at my past without the fog of addiction im disgusted by what I see. Its that anger that will fuel my strength. I am done being a slave to addiction, but its not that simple. As strong as I am today I cannot speak for tomorrow. Thats the trap. Today I feel like I will never use again and I am 100% certain of that, but im not foolish enough to let that take my guard down. I have to decide what I do tomorrow when it comes, and everyday that I quit the rational side of me gets stronger and keeps the irrational in check. It will get easier I am sure but it will never be over. Today is the end of week one. "It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell." - Siddhartha Gautama (Buddha)
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Didnt post yesterday in this thread just posted roll. Got a lot of shit happening right now. Its day 7 today and I am proud to say I have stayed quit and posted roll 100%. I had a couple good craves yesterday. Getting ready to do some lawn work and organize my garage. These kinds of projects are something I associate with dipping. Everytime I go to the gas station I stare down my weakness and I feel just how easy it would be to cave. A few weak words and a shameful swipe of my debit card, one moment of weakness is all it takes. If I let my guard down for a minute I become my own saboteur. Thats fine, I will own my weaknesses and in doing so I find a strength even greater. I dont like the feeling of not trusting myself, its a terrible feeling. All us addicts have a duality inside. The rational and the irrational, light/dark, whatever you label it as it is there. For years the rational part of myself lived as a slave to the whims of the irrational. That rational part of myself was beat down and became submissive to the irrational. I gave into addictions that I knew were terrible, I lied to people I never thought I would lie to, and I felt I had lost control. I was wrong. I might had given up my I was always in control. I see that now and it pisses me off. I poisoned myself, I allowed chemicals to overthrow my intellect. NO MORE!! I see things clearly now and I refuse to be a slave, my intellect is the only thing that makes me human, if I give that up I might as well be an animal. Nicotine isnt the first addiction I have fought but it has taught me the most about myself. Nicotine is but one battle in by quest to conquer myself and thanks to this site I have been able to hold myself accountable, learn from others, and reflect and gain insight about myself. When I look back at my past without the fog of addiction im disgusted by what I see. Its that anger that will fuel my strength. I am done being a slave to addiction, but its not that simple. As strong as I am today I cannot speak for tomorrow. Thats the trap. Today I feel like I will never use again and I am 100% certain of that, but im not foolish enough to let that take my guard down. I have to decide what I do tomorrow when it comes, and everyday that I quit the rational side of me gets stronger and keeps the irrational in check. It will get easier I am sure but it will never be over. Today is the end of week one. "It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell." - Siddhartha Gautama (Buddha)
welcome to freedom brother! It's in your hands.
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Didnt post yesterday in this thread just posted roll. Got a lot of shit happening right now. Its day 7 today and I am proud to say I have stayed quit and posted roll 100%. I had a couple good craves yesterday. Getting ready to do some lawn work and organize my garage. These kinds of projects are something I associate with dipping. Everytime I go to the gas station I stare down my weakness and I feel just how easy it would be to cave. A few weak words and a shameful swipe of my debit card, one moment of weakness is all it takes. If I let my guard down for a minute I become my own saboteur. Thats fine, I will own my weaknesses and in doing so I find a strength even greater. I dont like the feeling of not trusting myself, its a terrible feeling. All us addicts have a duality inside. The rational and the irrational, light/dark, whatever you label it as it is there. For years the rational part of myself lived as a slave to the whims of the irrational. That rational part of myself was beat down and became submissive to the irrational. I gave into addictions that I knew were terrible, I lied to people I never thought I would lie to, and I felt I had lost control. I was wrong. I might had given up my I was always in control. I see that now and it pisses me off. I poisoned myself, I allowed chemicals to overthrow my intellect. NO MORE!! I see things clearly now and I refuse to be a slave, my intellect is the only thing that makes me human, if I give that up I might as well be an animal. Nicotine isnt the first addiction I have fought but it has taught me the most about myself. Nicotine is but one battle in by quest to conquer myself and thanks to this site I have been able to hold myself accountable, learn from others, and reflect and gain insight about myself. When I look back at my past without the fog of addiction im disgusted by what I see. Its that anger that will fuel my strength. I am done being a slave to addiction, but its not that simple. As strong as I am today I cannot speak for tomorrow. Thats the trap. Today I feel like I will never use again and I am 100% certain of that, but im not foolish enough to let that take my guard down. I have to decide what I do tomorrow when it comes, and everyday that IÂ quit the rational side of me gets stronger and keeps the irrational in check. It will get easier I am sure but it will never be over. Today is the end of week one. "It is better to conquer yourself than to win a thousand battles. Then the victory is yours. It cannot be taken from you not by angels or by demons, heaven or hell." - Siddhartha Gautama (Buddha)
welcome to freedom brother! It's in your hands.
You are waking up from " the fog". Now you will begin to see all the damage that evil weed did to you. Get mad, don't forget what the first 10 days were like, and be ready to fight! Keep those roll posts at 100%!! I'll quit with you today!!