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Title: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: Alex2508 on June 17, 2016, 10:42:00 PM
Hey everyone, I am happy I have found this support family. I have been reading about this group all day and felt this is exactly what I am looking for. I have been chewing grizzly wintergreen for the past 14 years. I am married now and am going to be a first time father this August. Yesterday I found out a great friend of mine, during a physical for work, found a mass in his mandible. A biopsy was done and it is an advance form of cancer. He never used tobacco products in his life. With all this happening, I am scared. I want to be around for my little girl and my wife. I want to experience life and as I have read on here, I want to stop slowly committing suicide and I want to break away once and for all from the nicotine. I promise to stay focused and quit with you all, one day at a time.

Alex2508
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: pab1964 on June 17, 2016, 11:00:00 PM
Welcome aboard Alex! Great job posting! One thing you must remember, you are quitting for you and all the rest around you will benefit. It's gonna suck till it don't but you can do this. I dipped 38 years every damn day! I'm 538 days free and have never lived a normal life until now. I started at age 12. But I can tell you it's awesome. You will probably feel like shit but that's normal. Get numbers from people in your group. Main thing post Early! EDD! ODAAT!
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: Blackout on June 18, 2016, 07:34:00 AM
Welcome Alex! I'm only on day 7 but I already feel better and you will too! Get through those tough cravings and make no excuse for buying a can no matter what is happening that day.
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: JB65 on June 18, 2016, 09:16:00 AM
OK Alex, lets do this. You CAN do it. Nothing is easy, and this wont be either. 20+ year dipper here. Still an addict, but no longer a slave to the can.

Post roll call in your September quit group. Get to know some of the folks in there, exchange numbers.

We were ALL just like you at one point and we have ALL made it by doing it one day at a time. Post your daily promise early, and quit with us will you?
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: Steakbomb18 on June 18, 2016, 08:03:00 PM
Fear...the great motivator, as it was for me. Desperation, ...that was also a huge driver, much in part because I was desperate to quit, for myself. I wanted nothing more than to quit being a slave, and moreover, quit being a liar. Man, did I lie about so many things...just to protect my addiction. Today, however, I may still be an addict, but I am not a liar and I am not a slave.

Freedom, my friend, is pure bliss. I'm only 2 and 1/2 years quit, but that feeling of freedom continues to get better and stronger each day. That's because I've built a quit foundation of bad ass quitters and friends who do this with me every day and every step of the way. If this sounds like something you crave, then go after it. Heed Pab's advice; post roll every day. Make it your saving grace.
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: Rawls on June 18, 2016, 11:40:00 PM
Welcome Alex.
You got some great heavy hitters on your team early. Use them.
It's like a game of Tug-a-War.
She has a long history of help on her side.
You.... Can't handle the rope alone.
Just turn your head back...and ask for help.......
We can out pull the B@#h together.
And like I said... These men here in your intro are ankers.
Professional Ankers!
I quit with you.
Make a daily promise.
We will be here to make sure you never get pulled over that line again.
Rawls 579
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: CavMan83 on June 19, 2016, 09:24:00 AM
Morning Alex, glad to see you here and on roll. Remember this system works, but you have to work the system. Wake up, piss, post roll, and HONOR your post. The site depends on integrity and trust between members to function properly. The process of quitting is simple; the act of quitting not so much. Read as much as you can on this site about nicotine addiction and how it effs your brain up pretty good; that will give you some idea why folks have such a bitch of a time breaking free from the addiction. BUT....it is possible. Post daily....hell post as many times as you want. Get through today, and let tomorrow worry about itself. You can do this; we want to see you do this!
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: PMILS on September 24, 2016, 10:03:00 PM
Congratulations buddy on reaching HOF! Super proud to be quit with you, let's keep fighting EDD!
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: pab1964 on September 24, 2016, 10:38:00 PM
Quote from: PMILS
Congratulations buddy on reaching HOF! Super proud to be quit with you, let's keep fighting EDD!
Congratulations on reaching the 1st floor! Your journey has just begun.
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: Mike1966 on September 28, 2016, 07:41:00 AM
Quote from: Alex2508
Last week, after constant sore throats, I went to my primary care doctor. A small "grape size mass was found at the base of my tongue. It was removed and biopsied. Results came back benign for the most part, but unusual cells on the membrane were detected and sent in to the Mayo Clinic. I still yet have not heard anything. I stay positive with my new growing family, learning to live nicotine free and healthier. I am happy to say no matter the results, KTC saved my life.
Our thoughts and prayers are with you Alex. Praying for positive results on your tests.
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: Grandpa on September 28, 2016, 07:47:00 AM
Alex,
I pray for your health. Hang in there!
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: Alex2508 on September 28, 2016, 12:47:00 PM
Hey Everyone, First I want to say WOW. I knew this was a brotherhood, a family but the outpouring of support is amazing. Thank you. I have posted in September (my quit group) but I wanted to update everyone else who may not see it. Doctor called this morning and everything is negative. He states that this is a rare thing (can't remember the name he gave it) but mine is nothing to be concerned with at this time. He says breath easy and enjoy life. He explained to be that these are known to be cancerous at times, but mine was not. He wants to get a endoscopy (camera down the throat to look for abnormalities) and a PET scan. Just as a baseline. We will have a scheduled time line of rechecks to make sure it doesn't come back and doesn't develop anything worse.

He explained to me that anyone can get cancer, not just chewers, dippers and smokers. He reminded me of innocent children who get cancer and haven't ever lived life yet or touched tobacco. It can happen to anyone and not live in fear. You can't enjoy life living in fear. So with my new outlook on life after a hell of a scare and emotional roller coaster, My daily roll call will not just stand for my promise to you all and myself to not sue nicotine and tobacco, but will also serve as my daily promise to live life to the fullest and enjoy every second I have with my friends and family!

Quit on my KTC family! Today I quit and live life to the fullest with you all!!!

Alex2508
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: Jpete328 on September 28, 2016, 01:31:00 PM
Great news bro!!! So happy for you!!! What a relief you must be feeling. Glad to hear such good news. I'm proud to be quit today with you!!
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: Sooner87 on September 28, 2016, 07:09:00 PM
Proud to be quit with you Brother!!! ODAAT! Congratulations on your 100 day HOF!
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: FLLipOut on September 28, 2016, 11:30:00 PM
Praise the Lord! Great news, Alex!
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: DWEIRICK on September 30, 2016, 04:37:00 AM
Congratulations on the first floor!!
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: Alex2508 on October 23, 2016, 05:29:00 PM
So a little update:

I continue to struggle with illness and several admissions to the hospital since having a small mass removed from my tongue. In the last few weeks, I have been in and out of the hospital a few more times. I have a extremely swollen lymph node to my right tonsillar node, severe tongue pain and jaw/throat pain. I lost my appetite last week and struggle to keep food and liquids down. I am currently down 30 pounds since August. I continue my quit journey everyday, spending every second I can with my wife and daughter. As of now there is no new news on what is the culprit. I go back for further test and scans on Thursday. I guess no news is good news. We stay positive and enjoy life everyday.

Stay Quit!!!

Alex2508
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: MikeK on October 23, 2016, 05:42:00 PM
I am sorry to hear about your health issues Alex . My thoughts and prayers are with you brother.
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: pab1964 on October 23, 2016, 06:33:00 PM
Alex my friend, you have a great attitude and no matter what every second of life is special so continue to cherish every moment of time with loved ones. We're not promised tomorrow but we damn sure can look forward to it. Some people give up at the least little disturbing or troubling news and that is not what good Lord put us here to do. God bless you and yours, prayers to you.
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: Mike1966 on October 25, 2016, 09:34:00 AM
Quote from: pab1964
Alex my friend, you have a great attitude and no matter what every second of life is special so continue to cherish every moment of time with loved ones. We're not promised tomorrow but we damn sure can look forward to it. Some people give up at the least little disturbing or troubling news and that is not what good Lord put us here to do. God bless you and yours, prayers to you.
Hang in the Alex, you're in our thoughts and prayers
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: brettlees on October 25, 2016, 01:21:00 PM
Quote from: Mike1966
Quote from: pab1964
Alex my friend, you have a great attitude and no matter what every second of life is special so continue to cherish every moment of time with loved ones. We're not promised tomorrow but we damn sure can look forward to it. Some people give up at the least little disturbing or troubling news and that is not what good Lord put us here to do. God bless you and yours, prayers to you.
Hang in the Alex, you're in our thoughts and prayers
Same here Alex. Prayers for you and your speedy recovery and more comfort in the meantime! you deserve it!
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: Alex2508 on November 23, 2016, 09:19:00 PM
Hey everyone, so I figured I would update everyone on what has been going on with my health. After a long time with no answers we have determined that the cause of everything was an infection from the tongue mass that ended up causing it to spread to my blood stream. I have not had pain for 21 days now, appetite is back and I am feeling like myself again. My anxiety is a little more intense since this scare of a lifetime but I am on some good medications to help with that. Despite the sickness, the hospital stays (and bills) and pain, I continued to get my occasional visit from the Nic Bitch. Its crazy, despite everything, the cravings were still there. I am an addict and will always face temptation, but I have my game plan, my support, my family, this site and my STDs of September 2016 to help me through it. Happy Holidays everyone and happy quits!

Alex2508
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: ChickDip on November 23, 2016, 10:46:00 PM
Quote from: Alex2508
Hey everyone, so I figured I would update everyone on what has been going on with my health. After a long time with no answers we have determined that the cause of everything was an infection from the tongue mass that ended up causing it to spread to my blood stream. I have not had pain for 21 days now, appetite is back and I am feeling like myself again. My anxiety is a little more intense since this scare of a lifetime but I am on some good medications to help with that. Despite the sickness, the hospital stays (and bills) and pain, I continued to get my occasional visit from the Nic Bitch. Its crazy, despite everything, the cravings were still there. I am an addict and will always face temptation, but I have my game plan, my support, my family, this site and my STDs of September 2016 to help me through it. Happy Holidays everyone and happy quits!

Alex2508
I pray for your continued healing , strength and peace.
So glad you have this support. It's key to stay connected.
Quit with you.
Title: Re: The time for my quit is now!
Post by: Mike1966 on January 02, 2017, 10:47:00 AM
Congrats on 200 days quit Alex! Proud to quit with you everyday!