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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: pokerleader on September 27, 2011, 01:43:00 PM
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Stating today!!! I know it will be a up hill battle. Been dipping for almost thirty years. Today is the day to quit!!!
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Nice. I am glad you posted roll. You send me a personal message if you need anything. Welcome. Damn fine choice.
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We've all been there brother. Hang in there, read everything you can on this site. This is the place to do your moaning, groaning and bitching, not at home. Own your quit, post roll everyday and make a promise that you will not let nicotine enter your body for that day only. One day at a time! We can do this.
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Thanks. I just know i have a long way to go. I have tried to quit many many times. I just continue to cave.Not THIS time!!!!
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Make sure you write down everything you are feeling for this first week. That way, you will never ever want to feel this way again. It will get better, I promise. Everyday your body will heal a little bit more. Stay on the course, and reach out when you hit a weak patch. We all have those days, and when you beat that crave, you strengthen your quit just that much more.
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Thanks wo1. I will do that
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Dont think of it as a uphill battle. True the first 3 days are a bitch. Tough it out, do what ever you have to just keep the shit out of your mouth. But honestly after that all nicotine is out of your body, then it is just a mental game. Everyday does get a little easier, more like a downhill slope...
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well its day 2!! The drive to work sucked, but i made it!! I am glad that this is here to keep me going! All you guys rock!! Thanks for the help so far
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well its day 2!! The drive to work sucked, but i made it!! I am glad that this is here to keep me going! All you guys rock!! Thanks for the help so far
1 day at a time. You will break her if you beat her 1 day at a time. We did it, you can to!
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Take it from Scowick. He's a true quitter. Hell, just look at that pretty face! His avatar really is him.
Seriously, day at a time. It's the only way. Thirty years is a long time. But, does not mean you are more of an addict than someone who dipped for less time.
I'm proud to be quit with you today.
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I have to agree with you whsii. Thirty years is a long time. But so is two weeks. I would have to say an addict is an addict no matter how long it has been.I have now come down to chewing on straws. Not very attractive but it helps easy everything.
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I have to agree with you whsii. Thirty years is a long time. But so is two weeks. I would have to say an addict is an addict no matter how long it has been.I have now come down to chewing on straws. Not very attractive but it helps easy everything.
Well its day 3. What hell its been but i quit!! i have found out that chewing on coffee stir straws help me. I have great support from my fiancee (kmm125). Thank all my brothers who have been giving her advice.
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Thanks. I just know i have a long way to go. I have tried to quit many many times. I just continue to cave.Not THIS time!!!!
That's the spirit!
Your best bet to really own this quit is admit this:
You are and addict!
I am an addict!
Once an addict always and addict so if things get tough there is no such thing as "one last dip"........if you go down that road one dip turns into one can into one more week and I'll really try next time! I know.....I went down that road a few times before finding this site!
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Funny thing is i never thought of it as being a addict. I know now that i am an addict. I will not let being an addict run my life any longer. I own this quit!!!
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Funny thing is i never thought of it as being a addict. I know now that i am an addict. I will not let being an addict run my life any longer. I own this quit!!!
You have realized something very important.
The day I admitted I was addicted to nicotine was the day I controlled nicotine instead of nicotine controlling me. It does not make quitting easy, it just means I call the shots.
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Thanks for all the help. I can tell you one thing, if not for KTC and everyone on here i dont think icould of done this. Oh yea good grief Johnny i better thank my fiancee kmm125. I can tell you it is a great help to have a good support system at home.I was the one who thought i could just stop everyday. I know now any one can stop, but everyone needs to QUIT!!!
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Glad to hear you figured out the most important step! Keep it up!
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So yesterday was my fiancees sons homecoming. I went to the dry cleaner for her to pick up homecoming clothes. We were driving a Hummer3 from my dealership so her son would have a cool car. It was raining when we got there and a man was coming out of the dry cleaner so I just pulled up to the door to let her out and give the man room to back out. The parking is really tight in this parking lot. so while she is in there the man starts yelling at me. i rolled down my window and said can i help you sir. He said you mother fucker and he started screaming at me about how us guys dont know how to park these things. He kept on and I tried to keep my cool. that lasted for a little bit more of his yelling at me but with 5 days with no nicotine he really didnt want to fuck with me. so i got out and called him an old bastard and few other things. he got in his car and i told him to get out. he asked me if I would hit an old man. Well at this point I was ready to rip his head off. Luckily he decided to leave and I thought he was gonna run me over. What I realized was that I do really good at first but if i continue to be provoked then i just cant take anymore. then I chewed the hell out of my coffee straw!!!!!
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So yesterday was my fiancees sons homecoming. I went to the dry cleaner for her to pick up homecoming clothes. We were driving a Hummer3 from my dealership so her son would have a cool car. It was raining when we got there and a man was coming out of the dry cleaner so I just pulled up to the door to let her out and give the man room to back out. The parking is really tight in this parking lot. so while she is in there the man starts yelling at me. i rolled down my window and said can i help you sir. He said you mother fucker and he started screaming at me about how us guys dont know how to park these things. He kept on and I tried to keep my cool. that lasted for a little bit more of his yelling at me but with 5 days with no nicotine he really didnt want to fuck with me. so i got out and called him an old bastard and few other things. he got in his car and i told him to get out. he asked me if I would hit an old man. Well at this point I was ready to rip his head off. Luckily he decided to leave and I thought he was gonna run me over. What I realized was that I do really good at first but if i continue to be provoked then i just cant take anymore. then I chewed the hell out of my coffee straw!!!!!
You are not alone! Did not take much to set me off when I was in my first week. I now at 52 days and have to say I have never felt calmer in my life! I'm running again.....doc says my blood pressure is outstanding....I'm starting another class towrd my masters this week (I have delayed that for a year)! Life is good! Pokerleader this is what you have to look forward too! Freedom from the nic bitch and a life of better health! Keep it up and keep the straws handy......you are almost through the worst part though!
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So yesterday was my fiancees sons homecoming. I went to the dry cleaner for her to pick up homecoming clothes. We were driving a Hummer3 from my dealership so her son would have a cool car. It was raining when we got there and a man was coming out of the dry cleaner so I just pulled up to the door to let her out and give the man room to back out. The parking is really tight in this parking lot. so while she is in there the man starts yelling at me. i rolled down my window and said can i help you sir. He said you mother fucker and he started screaming at me about how us guys dont know how to park these things. He kept on and I tried to keep my cool. that lasted for a little bit more of his yelling at me but with 5 days with no nicotine he really didnt want to fuck with me. so i got out and called him an old bastard and few other things. he got in his car and i told him to get out. he asked me if I would hit an old man. Well at this point I was ready to rip his head off. Luckily he decided to leave and I thought he was gonna run me over. What I realized was that I do really good at first but if i continue to be provoked then i just cant take anymore. then I chewed the hell out of my coffee straw!!!!!
So I'm walking outside of the hospital the other day after getting done with the cases that I had to do for the day, and some old man decides to spit while walking on the sidewalk. Oh and it was on my foot after taking my sneakers off and putting some sandals on. It took everything I had to not go off on him. I tell him thats exactly why you don't spit on sidewalks old man. He looks flustered so I point to my foot and he sees this dirty ass spit. So I tell him now you apologize to me and I will walk away.
At least it was a better than when I wanted to throw a safety deposit box at the bank tellers head my first week.
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So yesterday was my fiancees sons homecoming. I went to the dry cleaner for her to pick up homecoming clothes. We were driving a Hummer3 from my dealership so her son would have a cool car. It was raining when we got there and a man was coming out of the dry cleaner so I just pulled up to the door to let her out and give the man room to back out. The parking is really tight in this parking lot. so while she is in there the man starts yelling at me. i rolled down my window and said can i help you sir. He said you mother fucker and he started screaming at me about how us guys dont know how to park these things. He kept on and I tried to keep my cool. that lasted for a little bit more of his yelling at me but with 5 days with no nicotine he really didnt want to fuck with me. so i got out and called him an old bastard and few other things. he got in his car and i told him to get out. he asked me if I would hit an old man. Well at this point I was ready to rip his head off. Luckily he decided to leave and I thought he was gonna run me over. What I realized was that I do really good at first but if i continue to be provoked then i just cant take anymore. then I chewed the hell out of my coffee straw!!!!!
So I'm walking outside of the hospital the other day after getting done with the cases that I had to do for the day, and some old man decides to spit while walking on the sidewalk. Oh and it was on my foot after taking my sneakers off and putting some sandals on. It took everything I had to not go off on him. I tell him thats exactly why you don't spit on sidewalks old man. He looks flustered so I point to my foot and he sees this dirty ass spit. So I tell him now you apologize to me and I will walk away.
At least it was a better than when I wanted to throw a safety deposit box at the bank tellers head my first week.
Next time, I believe roshambo (http://www.badmovierealm.com/reviews/space_mutiny/sproshambo.html) is the appropriate means of determining side walk rights.
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So yesterday was my fiancees sons homecoming. I went to the dry cleaner for her to pick up homecoming clothes. We were driving a Hummer3 from my dealership so her son would have a cool car. It was raining when we got there and a man was coming out of the dry cleaner so I just pulled up to the door to let her out and give the man room to back out. The parking is really tight in this parking lot. so while she is in there the man starts yelling at me. i rolled down my window and said can i help you sir. He said you mother fucker and he started screaming at me about how us guys dont know how to park these things. He kept on and I tried to keep my cool. that lasted for a little bit more of his yelling at me but with 5 days with no nicotine he really didnt want to fuck with me. so i got out and called him an old bastard and few other things. he got in his car and i told him to get out. he asked me if I would hit an old man. Well at this point I was ready to rip his head off. Luckily he decided to leave and I thought he was gonna run me over. What I realized was that I do really good at first but if i continue to be provoked then i just cant take anymore. then I chewed the hell out of my coffee straw!!!!!
So I'm walking outside of the hospital the other day after getting done with the cases that I had to do for the day, and some old man decides to spit while walking on the sidewalk. Oh and it was on my foot after taking my sneakers off and putting some sandals on. It took everything I had to not go off on him. I tell him thats exactly why you don't spit on sidewalks old man. He looks flustered so I point to my foot and he sees this dirty ass spit. So I tell him now you apologize to me and I will walk away.
At least it was a better than when I wanted to throw a safety deposit box at the bank tellers head my first week.
Next time, I believe roshambo (http://www.badmovierealm.com/reviews/space_mutiny/sproshambo.html) is the appropriate means of determining side walk rights.
Ha, I only play if I can go first.
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So me and pokerleader were at the fair today and his brother in law told him his coloring in his face even looks healthier!!!!!!! So proud of him :) and he is losing weight! So nice to see him getting healthy!
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Well day 7 is not very easy either. At work we have a tent set up at the fair grounds for our car dealership. Well needless to say i got to see everyone and their brother dipping today. Talk about a nervous break down. That nic bitch would not leave me alone. I tried everything that i have been doing to get her off my back, no help. I just finally told the guy i was with that i have to go back to the office. Got back here and got on the site and just started reading. I am just happy there are people out there in the same boat as me. Again Thanks to every one on this site. I will stay QUIT!!!! one day at a time
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Well day 7 is not very easy either. At work we have a tent set up at the fair grounds for our car dealership. Well needless to say i got to see everyone and their brother dipping today. Talk about a nervous break down. That nic bitch would not leave me alone. I tried everything that i have been doing to get her off my back, no help. I just finally told the guy i was with that i have to go back to the office. Got back here and got on the site and just started reading. I am just happy there are people out there in the same boat as me. Again Thanks to every one on this site. I will stay QUIT!!!! one day at a time
Here is a little secret. All nic users are slaves to it and to one extent or another hate that they use. The deeper you get into your quit, the more jealous they will be of your quit. Watch. It will slowly evolve. They may choose to continue using but they will admire you. It is kinda cool.
Keep it up.
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Thanks I will continue to stay QUIT!!!!
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Well day 7 is not very easy either. At work we have a tent set up at the fair grounds for our car dealership. Well needless to say i got to see everyone and their brother dipping today. Talk about a nervous break down. That nic bitch would not leave me alone. I tried everything that i have been doing to get her off my back, no help. I just finally told the guy i was with that i have to go back to the office. Got back here and got on the site and just started reading. I am just happy there are people out there in the same boat as me. Again Thanks to every one on this site. I will stay QUIT!!!! one day at a time
Here is a little secret. All nic users are slaves to it and to one extent or another hate that they use. The deeper you get into your quit, the more jealous they will be of your quit. Watch. It will slowly evolve. They may choose to continue using but they will admire you. It is kinda cool.
Keep it up.
What Sco says is VERY true. I have a conference on some cases with this opposing attorney about every 2 weeks. He is a dipper so over the last couple of months that I've been quit I brag about being done with the shit and encourage him to toss it aside. Today was our scheduled conference and he informed me that I motivated him to quit, today being his 7th day. He said he has checked out KTC but hasn't joined....regardless, I'm glad to see him quit. Doing that strengthens your own quit - give it a shot with those who currently fill their faces with the cancer causing weed.
Aside from that, nice job on the week! It seems like just yesterday when I was celebrating that first week....today I posted up 68 days....the days fly by AND it gets much easier. Shout if you need anything.
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Well day 7 is not very easy either. At work we have a tent set up at the fair grounds for our car dealership. Well needless to say i got to see everyone and their brother dipping today. Talk about a nervous break down. That nic bitch would not leave me alone. I tried everything that i have been doing to get her off my back, no help. I just finally told the guy i was with that i have to go back to the office. Got back here and got on the site and just started reading. I am just happy there are people out there in the same boat as me. Again Thanks to every one on this site. I will stay QUIT!!!! one day at a time
Here is a little secret. All nic users are slaves to it and to one extent or another hate that they use. The deeper you get into your quit, the more jealous they will be of your quit. Watch. It will slowly evolve. They may choose to continue using but they will admire you. It is kinda cool.
Keep it up.
What Sco says is VERY true. I have a conference on some cases with this opposing attorney about every 2 weeks. He is a dipper so over the last couple of months that I've been quit I brag about being done with the shit and encourage him to toss it aside. Today was our scheduled conference and he informed me that I motivated him to quit, today being his 7th day. He said he has checked out KTC but hasn't joined....regardless, I'm glad to see him quit. Doing that strengthens your own quit - give it a shot with those who currently fill their faces with the cancer causing weed.
Aside from that, nice job on the week! It seems like just yesterday when I was celebrating that first week....today I posted up 68 days....the days fly by AND it gets much easier. Shout if you need anything.
Outfuckingstanding AG. Nice work.
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OK I am on day nine and today is the first time i really wanted to put that bitch back in my mouth. I have fought her off so far today but she is really bugging me today. I will continue with my QUIT!!! but man she is really nagging me today. Bitch get off my back!!!!!!!!!!!
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OK I am on day nine and today is the first time i really wanted to put that bitch back in my mouth. I have fought her off so far today but she is really bugging me today. I will continue with my QUIT!!! but man she is really nagging me today. Bitch get off my back!!!!!!!!!!!
She has made a realization. She knows you are serious about your quit and boy is she pissed. She wants here slave back. Tell her to 'Finger' .
Read something.
Help someone.
Count to 180 seconds. What ever. 1 day at a time. No nicotine today. Read this. Pretty sage advice. index.php?showtopic=5098 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5098)
Soon enough, she will be less aggressive. It will be a whisper. Usually in a time of need or stress. She is a liar.
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OK I am on day nine and today is the first time i really wanted to put that bitch back in my mouth. I have fought her off so far today but she is really bugging me today. I will continue with my QUIT!!! but man she is really nagging me today. Bitch get off my back!!!!!!!!!!!
You can do it PL!! The nic bitch really isn't a bitch at all. Its a hairy naked fat guy with sweaty balls waiting to tea bag your face. You don't what that do you?!!!
You are quit! Stay quit! I'm quit with you today.
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Thanks guys for all the encouragement today. I was craving but I didn't cave!!!! I am still QUIT!!!
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On day 27 today!!!!!!! YAY But let me tell you this it is not a bed of roses. But for the first time yesterday i had some one question me about my QUIT!!! I did not take kindly to it. Now looking back on it i know she was just asking me about it. She is my best friend and the love of my life, but that didnt stop me from getting pissed at her. I had no reason to be mad at her. She knows i am an addict. So i gues i am just trying to tell evryone one PLEASE dont take it out on your loved ones. They are there for you. Come here and bitch.
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On day 27 today!!!!!!! YAY But let me tell you this it is not a bed of roses. But for the first time yesterday i had some one question me about my QUIT!!! I did not take kindly to it. Now looking back on it i know she was just asking me about it. She is my best friend and the love of my life, but that didnt stop me from getting pissed at her. I had no reason to be mad at her. She knows i am an addict. So i gues i am just trying to tell evryone one PLEASE dont take it out on your loved ones. They are there for you. Come here and bitch.
Bingo.
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On day 27 today!!!!!!! YAY But let me tell you this it is not a bed of roses. But for the first time yesterday i had some one question me about my QUIT!!! I did not take kindly to it. Now looking back on it i know she was just asking me about it. She is my best friend and the love of my life, but that didnt stop me from getting pissed at her. I had no reason to be mad at her. She knows i am an addict. So i gues i am just trying to tell evryone one PLEASE dont take it out on your loved ones. They are there for you. Come here and bitch.
Bingo.
Well done, well done. Yeah, in my first couple of weeks or so I was in such a shitty mood my wife almost went out and bought me a can. Ok, not really but she did tell me I was on the rag like a little bitch.
Good job and keep that shit up.
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Yup, gotta remember that your wife didn't stuff that shit in your face, your wife didn't repeat said action time and time again, your wife didn't train your brain to "need" the NIC bitch.
Bitch away, in here bro.
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Yeah don't take that shit out on the innocents.
I'm always looking for a good cuss session. So get on here and let it ring brother.
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Word. My wife deserves a medal of honor. She has been a huge factor in my quit.
I have added significantly to my library of explatives since I've been here. Nic withdrawal is a great source of obscene creativity. Rage on, quitters.....
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On day 27 today!!!!!!! YAY But let me tell you this it is not a bed of roses. But for the first time yesterday i had some one question me about my QUIT!!! I did not take kindly to it. Now looking back on it i know she was just asking me about it. She is my best friend and the love of my life, but that didnt stop me from getting pissed at her. I had no reason to be mad at her. She knows i am an addict. So i gues i am just trying to tell evryone one PLEASE dont take it out on your loved ones. They are there for you. Come here and bitch.
Dude, you didn't crap on the KTC cheerleader did you? Come on man, you gotta know she is something special around here. Not even a quitter and made "Words of Wisdom". Yes, next time you are getting yanked by the NIc bitch please come here and vent. Thanks for posting this it is a good reminder for all of us to keep our heads on straight.
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Dude, you didn't crap on the KTC cheerleader did you? Come on man, you gotta know she is something special around here. Not even a quitter and made "Words of Wisdom". Yes, next time you are getting yanked by the NIc bitch please come here and vent. Thanks for posting this it is a good reminder for all of us to keep our heads on straight.
Notdeadyet,
Yes i did shit all over the KTC cheerleader. Just glad she understand that it was not me it was the nic bitch!!! This site i mus say has its shit together because ithas everything from Quitting to spouses help!!! That is what makes this site so great!! Keep up the good work Guys!! Kmm125 is not only the cheerleader here she is also thebest friend anyone could have!!
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This is not my HOF speech, I just wanted to tell you what a caring, understanding and wonderful lady that kmm125 is. While I was at work today, 100 carnations and a congrats balloon got delivered to me. I was in awe of that itself. Then, tonight when I got home from bowling she had a drink and a piece of cake with a gold HOF coin stuck in the middle. The coin is awesome and I will keep it with me always. Now, how lucky of a guy am I???
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This is not my HOF speech, I just wanted to tell you what a caring, understanding and wonderful lady that kmm125 is. While I was at work today, 100 carnations and a congrats balloon got delivered to me. I was in awe of that itself. Then, tonight when I got home from bowling she had a drink and a piece of cake with a gold HOF coin stuck in the middle. The coin is awesome and I will keep it with me always. Now, how lucky of a guy am I???
Good for you.
There's nothing that miss quitting easier than great home support.
Never forget what you have on all counts.
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Congrats to my pokerleader on 100 days! You are my Quit hero! Couldnt be any prouder of you! I know that this has been the hardest, but most wonderful accomplishment for you! So excited for 101 :)
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Nice effort. Keep going, 1 day at a time.
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Nice work bro. Sprint through that 100 days and pull a Gump...just keep on running.
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'wave' 'clap' 'wave'
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CONGRATS!!!
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I know how cool it is to have a dessert with a HOF coin (see my avitar) made by your special lady. Congratulations!
Unfortunately I didn't get any cake for any of the other coins. It's fine though. Every day is a milestone. One more day of victory. . .of freedom.
Keep on hanging up those +1s.
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You do have a special lady there Poker! Congrats on the hundy, it is the first milestone of many to come!
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Congrats--It is awesome to have that home support. One Day at a time HOFer