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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: wollywilson4 on June 25, 2013, 11:45:00 AM
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Day 4 of my quit. I am 28 years old, wife and 2 girls. Been dipping since I was 18..."stopped" dipping a couple times over the years, but now I quit. Woke up this past Saturday and had enough....couldn't stand being a slave any longer. Today has been difficult, foggy and can't concentrate on my job. Chugging water, have smokey mountain pouch in my lip which is helping. I will not dip!! This fuckin sucks!
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Hey-
Day 4 of my quit. I am 28 years old, wife and 2 girls. Been dipping since I was 18..."stopped" dipping a couple times over the years, but now I quit. Woke up this past Saturday and had enough....couldn't stand being a slave any longer. Today has been difficult, foggy and can't concentrate on my job. Chugging water, have smokey mountain pouch in my lip which is helping. I will not dip!! This fuckin sucks!
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Wolly, you posted your into twice you foggy fugger! I am sure the Mods, will get that fixed. In the mean time post roll if you have not done so. Sounds like you have your tools ready, fake chew, water, or gum or seeds or whatever gets you past it. At day 4 your over the nic, now it's the oral fixation. I was foggy for a few weeks, but I promise you it does get better. Get on the site and read. Success here is easy, post roll every day, quit for 24 hours, and do it again tomorrow. Be accountable and get into your group. Glad to have you here, PM me if you need anything.
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Hey-
Day 4 of my quit. I am 28 years old, wife and 2 girls. Been dipping since I was 18..."stopped" dipping a couple times over the years, but now I quit. Woke up this past Saturday and had enough....couldn't stand being a slave any longer. Today has been difficult, foggy and can't concentrate on my job. Chugging water, have smokey mountain pouch in my lip which is helping. I will not dip!! This fuckin sucks!
I see you got your roll posted...good job...
You are in what is called the suck...embrace it remember how you are feeling right now and promise yourself that you dont want to do it again. Listen learn read read read is my advice to you.
PM me if you need help.
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Hey-
Day 4 of my quit. I am 28 years old, wife and 2 girls. Been dipping since I was 18..."stopped" dipping a couple times over the years, but now I quit. Woke up this past Saturday and had enough....couldn't stand being a slave any longer. Today has been difficult, foggy and can't concentrate on my job. Chugging water, have smokey mountain pouch in my lip which is helping. I will not dip!! This fuckin sucks!
Good job bro. I can tell you've done a little reading about the sight. Now one more thing you need to read up on. Top left you'll see welcome center. Read on why and how we post roll. Why is the most important. You will be in the August group if your on day 4. Your quit started the day you began taking your freedom back. Give me a pm if you need anything. Your inbox is at the top right.
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Foggy EFFer indeed. Welcome Wolly. You're right, quitting sucks. If it was fun or easy everybody would be doing it. Stay close to the site, read everything, start gathering numbers, and jump into Live Chat if you need.
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Still learning the site...and yes, being foggy is not helping figure this shit out! Thanks for the immediate support everyone...much needed and appreciated! So am I in the SEP or AUG group....my first day of freedom began Saturday, 6/22...last dip was 6/21.
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Still learning the site...and yes, being foggy is not helping figure this shit out! Thanks for the immediate support everyone...much needed and appreciated! So am I in the SEP or AUG group....my first day of freedom began Saturday, 6/22...last dip was 6/21.
Good catch. You're in September.
Looks like you're not the only foggy fugger this morning!
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Wolly you are in SEP that makes you a SLUTember groupy
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Damn...and I thought I was foggy. Is today almost over, this is fuckin horrible. I might take the rest of the day off and go relax with my wife and kids...I can't concentrate for shit right now.
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Fog boy OG...here is what Bean put on my intro page it really helped me read it and then read it over because you are a foggy FUgger....
"Remember to turn the tables on the Nic Bitch. Conciously decide that you will enjoy the withdrawal symptoms...they are the feeling of healing. When you get a particularly strong crave, or you're about the rip the head off someone for saying something horrible to you like, "Good morning, Trauma." Just smile and casually ask the Nic Bitch, "Is that the best you got?"
There are no short-cuts and nobody can do this for you. It is just you, earning your freedom one day at a time. But we have your back every step of the way. The mindfucks will be plentiful...dip dreams, triggers you never new of, constipation, sleeplessness, lack of concentration, etc. Make sure to notice it, actually experience it...and remember it. 6 days (7 now) is a strong start. You may be through the worst of it, maybe not...it doesn't matter. Just take what the Nic Bitch throws your way in stride, post roll, stay strong.
You're free, brother. Stay strong and stay free."
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Thanks for the support. KTC has already proved to more helpful than any other available resource. Today has been the most difficult thus far....but will not cave.
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Wolly, just think how big a Hero you are in the eye's of your little girls for suceeding in your Quit! Own your Quit and honor your word everyday!!
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Man, I feel you. I am recently through the fog and I promise, it does get better! You got this. The best advice out there is just to embrace it. Make it an experience that you owned.
My fog was just like you described - can't concentrate - especially at work. It was damn near impossible just to write an e-mail correctly. Don't worry, it will pass. You will be through it in no time.
Another pleasant part of the fog is sleeplessness. I still fight a little bit with this even after 40 days quit. Mine was so acute, I woke up at 2:00 and 4:00 am, every day, on the dot... you can set your watch by it. My mind was messing with me all the time.
But, somewhere as the days added up, the fog cleared up. The cravings really subsided and life got much better.
You got this... trust me, if I can make it through the fog - you can to. Just embrace the ride - don't forget how much it sucks and remember there are a bunch of people walking in your shoes right now. There are a bunch more who have been there.
This site has really been a big help to me. Stay on it - YOU GOT THIS NAILED MAN.
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Thanks Jayhawk. I have "stopped" before....but never remember the fog being this bad! I have been sitting at my desk since 8am...and have maybe done 2 hours worth of work.
I will not experience this again. I can't. It is too much to repeat.
No problems sleeping yet...going to bed earlier than before. But sleeping through the night(except when my 7 month old dauther cries cause she is lonely and wants comfort).
The fog seems to have decreased since this morning....but still damn near impossible to concentrate on anything. I have read hundreds of posts on here, but even that has been difficult. Eyes are heavy, slight head ache, tension in the jaw. Fake pouches are helping a bit to take the edge off.
How long did your fog last?
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Thanks Jayhawk. I have "stopped" before....but never remember the fog being this bad! I have been sitting at my desk since 8am...and have maybe done 2 hours worth of work.
I will not experience this again. I can't. It is too much to repeat.
No problems sleeping yet...going to bed earlier than before. But sleeping through the night(except when my 7 month old dauther cries cause she is lonely and wants comfort).
The fog seems to have decreased since this morning....but still damn near impossible to concentrate on anything. I have read hundreds of posts on here, but even that has been difficult. Eyes are heavy, slight head ache, tension in the jaw. Fake pouches are helping a bit to take the edge off.
How long did your fog last?
Not to get you down, but just to be straight up with you - I was as worthless as tits on a bull for the first couple hundred days.
My speach was dicked up.
My vision was dicked up.
My thought process was dicked up.
I mean worthless. Sleep sucked, work sucked, I sucked!
And then it got better.
A LOT fucking better.
You poisoned yourself for however many years man, the recover takes time. It's different for everyone; however, it is so very, very, very worth it!
It's better on our side, bro. Trust me, you WANT to be where we are standing, and you CAN do it!
Don't be weak.
Don't cave.
-Nolaq - Day 1,198 - If I can, you can.
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Thanks Jayhawk. I have "stopped" before....but never remember the fog being this bad! I have been sitting at my desk since 8am...and have maybe done 2 hours worth of work.
I will not experience this again. I can't. It is too much to repeat.
No problems sleeping yet...going to bed earlier than before. But sleeping through the night(except when my 7 month old dauther cries cause she is lonely and wants comfort).
The fog seems to have decreased since this morning....but still damn near impossible to concentrate on anything. I have read hundreds of posts on here, but even that has been difficult. Eyes are heavy, slight head ache, tension in the jaw. Fake pouches are helping a bit to take the edge off.
How long did your fog last?
Not to get you down, but just to be straight up with you - I was as worthless as tits on a bull for the first couple hundred days.
My speach was dicked up.
My vision was dicked up.
My thought process was dicked up.
I mean worthless. Sleep sucked, work sucked, I sucked!
And then it got better.
A LOT fucking better.
You poisoned yourself for however many years man, the recover takes time. It's different for everyone; however, it is so very, very, very worth it!
It's better on our side, bro. Trust me, you WANT to be where we are standing, and you CAN do it!
Don't be weak.
Don't cave.
-Nolaq - Day 1,198 - If I can, you can.
WW. Your getting there just try not to focus in how long till your better, truth is none of us can answer specifically how long you will be in this state of suck. It took Nolaq a few hundred days, as he states. I am almost 60 days and have shitty moments of fog still. My first two weeks I was stupid, I couldn't add two plus two bro. For some three or four days and their head clears up. Again focus on every day as an accomplishment and remember it is one day at a time. I am quitting with you.
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Thanks Jayhawk. I have "stopped" before....but never remember the fog being this bad! I have been sitting at my desk since 8am...and have maybe done 2 hours worth of work.
I will not experience this again. I can't. It is too much to repeat.
No problems sleeping yet...going to bed earlier than before. But sleeping through the night(except when my 7 month old dauther cries cause she is lonely and wants comfort).
The fog seems to have decreased since this morning....but still damn near impossible to concentrate on anything. I have read hundreds of posts on here, but even that has been difficult. Eyes are heavy, slight head ache, tension in the jaw. Fake pouches are helping a bit to take the edge off.
How long did your fog last?
Not to get you down, but just to be straight up with you - I was as worthless as tits on a bull for the first couple hundred days.
My speach was dicked up.
My vision was dicked up.
My thought process was dicked up.
I mean worthless. Sleep sucked, work sucked, I sucked!
And then it got better.
A LOT fucking better.
You poisoned yourself for however many years man, the recover takes time. It's different for everyone; however, it is so very, very, very worth it!
It's better on our side, bro. Trust me, you WANT to be where we are standing, and you CAN do it!
Don't be weak.
Don't cave.
-Nolaq - Day 1,198 - If I can, you can.
WW. Your getting there just try not to focus in how long till your better, truth is none of us can answer specifically how long you will be in this state of suck. It took Nolaq a few hundred days, as he states. I am almost 60 days and have shitty moments of fog still. My first two weeks I was stupid, I couldn't add two plus two bro. For some three or four days and their head clears up. Again focus on every day as an accomplishment and remember it is one day at a time. I am quitting with you.
What brother Nolaq said...X 100 :)
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Fog has subsided the last few hours since I decided to stop work for the day...my biggest trigger is my job because I work alone from my home and car....no co-workers or boss watching me so I USED to dip all the time while working. As soon as I step away from my computers or just stop working...I am less foggy and can think a bit more clearly. Good news...I have a 2 week vacation starting next Friday....so the job trigger will be gone for a bit. The advice I have received over the past few hours on this site has given me all the encouragement I need to quit tomorrow....and each day after, cause I sure as hell do not want to relive these past few days over and over again...I am done.
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Fog has subsided the last few hours since I decided to stop work for the day...my biggest trigger is my job because I work alone from my home and car....no co-workers or boss watching me so I USED to dip all the time while working. As soon as I step away from my computers or just stop working...I am less foggy and can think a bit more clearly. Good news...I have a 2 week vacation starting next Friday....so the job trigger will be gone for a bit. The advice I have received over the past few hours on this site has given me all the encouragement I need to quit tomorrow....and each day after, cause I sure as hell do not want to relive these past few days over and over again...I am done.
Like many others have said before me. Soak all of this "suck" up. Remember it and use it as motivation to never go back to a can. It does get better brother. Buckle up your seatbelt and ride this bitch out. You got this man. I am quit with you today.
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Don't know if you were in the Military, or not but I was. Basic training with Drill Instructors was a kick in the balls. So is the fog - one long kick in the balls. But you know what? I made it through basic and I am making it through the fog - each day gets better! SUCK IT UP DRIVE ON!
Keep going even if it is one minute at a time!
Here is the best part - the way I see it, going through this fog makes you part of a brotherhood of guys like me who dealt with it... just like brothers who went through the military together. We know something about ourselves, our resolve, will and ability to make it through the most shitty things life throws at us. And we do it all without dip!
You got this bro. I'm quitting with you.
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The fog will pass. And when it does you won't believe how clear everything will be. It is astounding. Keep posting first thing, and then be a man of your word. I don't remember Christmas 2012. Or New Years. And I am so glad... What a great way to end my 25 year affair with nicotine - with the bitch stealing some great memories and experiences. Makes me damn mad to think about it!!
Try to keep your goal to today. One day at a time will get you to the winners circle. You are doing great... Only those of us that have walked in similar shoes understand. And you have earned our respect. Keep it up.
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Wow! What is my point? Look at all the quit Sherpas that show up tp help. You can't by this. Count me in if you need assistance. PM me if you ever need help or want my number. This site is amazing. You have stumbled upon a place you were meant to find. Glad you are here.
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Okay, if I was in a fog or funk. I would have read, "worthless as tits on a bull" and just 'crackup'
Especially with that avatar because that's the voice I hear when I read NOLAQ posts.
My darkest days in this were overcome because theses smart bastards knew that if they could get just a grin out of me, I would make it another day. Smile, this is the road to recovery your just dicked up. 'na na'
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Thanks everyone. Day 5...quit. I will not cave. Less of a fog today...taking the day off to be with wife and kids. Staying strong!
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hey you lil half foggy lil fugger...keep hydrated and take your kit along with you today the kit with gum seeds fireballs tooth picks sack full of ass holes to pack in your cake hole while you are out and about today. Remember if you get to Jonesing call or text someone to keep you straight. Proud of you WW.
pm me if you need another number.
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Thanks everyone. Day 5...quit. I will not cave. Less of a fog today...taking the day off to be with wife and kids. Staying strong!
You're damn right you will not cave!! The fog gets better and better with each passing day my friend.
Enjoy your day with the wife and kids. Remember how amazing these moments are with them instead of with that ugly side bitch nic! 'zombie'
I quit with you today brother.
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hey you lil half foggy lil fugger...keep hydrated and take your kit along with you today the kit with gum seeds fireballs tooth picks sack full of ass holes to pack in your cake hole while you are out and about today. Remember if you get to Jonesing call or text someone to keep you straight. Proud of you WW.
pm me if you need another number.
^^^^^ what this asshole says is correct. It will make your day more enjoyable, knowing you have all of the tools to deal with "it" plus your less apt to have an itchy trigger finger against wife and kids
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hey you lil half foggy lil fugger...keep hydrated and take your kit along with you today the kit with gum seeds fireballs tooth picks sack full of ass holes to pack in your cake hole while you are out and about today. Remember if you get to Jonesing call or text someone to keep you straight. Proud of you WW.
pm me if you need another number.
^^^^^ what this asshole says is correct. It will make your day more enjoyable, knowing you have all of the tools to deal with "it" plus your less apt to have an itchy trigger finger against wife and kids
^^^^^ Listen to both these guys, they know how to quit ^^^^^.
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Day 6 of freedom. I will not dip today! Fog has subsided but comes back during cravings...gum and lots of water is keeping me in check. 'fireman'
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Day 6 of freedom. I will not dip today! Fog has subsided but comes back during cravings...gum and lots of water is keeping me in check. 'fireman'
Freedom brother, that's right. Smell it, taste it, feel it. When your an addict freedom ain't cheap. It's going to cost you a few sleepless nights and a crave or two.
Went through your intro. Driving, that was my big worry. I drive for a living also. Your going to have to fight them big triggers, but when it's all said and done the triggers that happen on a daily basis will be the easiest to beat.
When you start driving that car, ask yourself how the poison helped you. Your probably going to come up with a few bad answers, so let me answer it correctly for you.
The poison didn't help with crap. It didn't help you drive, stay awake, brake, stair, go fast or slow. The last time I checked the vehicle didn't have anyplace to put a can of poison under the hood. The only thing the poison did was keep your addiction fed while stripping you of your freedom, money, health and dignity.
Every trigger should be dealt with like above. If your honest you won't find one thing the poison helped you with. If you have any trouble and think the poison helped come here and we will fix your ignorance. Quit with you all day brother.
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I find myself constantly thinking of dip. Referring to each aspect of my life I associated dip with....which is everything. I can focus for a few minutes at a time without thinking of dip but then my focus is gone for the next few minutes until I remind myself just how much of a slave I was and just how much control dip/nic had on me. Already during my 6 day quit, I am more confident in my mental capactity to overcome adversity and better myself. I love being free.....which is why I say; fuck you nic, you will not win this time!
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I find myself constantly thinking of dip. Referring to each aspect of my life I associated dip with....which is everything. I can focus for a few minutes at a time without thinking of dip but then my focus is gone for the next few minutes until I remind myself just how much of a slave I was and just how much control dip/nic had on me. Already during my 6 day quit, I am more confident in my mental capactity to overcome adversity and better myself. I love being free.....which is why I say; fuck you nic, you will not win this time!
Damn right my brother, we have all been in a relationship with nicotine for quite sometime and for some it's the longest relationship they have ever had. Just like breaking up with a girl or divorcing a wife it takes time to learn how to live without it. Take up some new hobby or just work harder at the ones you have. Stay busy, rely on this site and your brothers and you will be fine. Really get into your group, keep tabs on people, start your own messaging group using text or a mobile application, you probably have a lot in common with the others in your group. Post roll every day first thing and stay true to your promise.
Bill
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I find myself constantly thinking of dip. Referring to each aspect of my life I associated dip with....which is everything. I can focus for a few minutes at a time without thinking of dip but then my focus is gone for the next few minutes until I remind myself just how much of a slave I was and just how much control dip/nic had on me. Already during my 6 day quit, I am more confident in my mental capactity to overcome adversity and better myself. I love being free.....which is why I say; fuck you nic, you will not win this time!
Embrace the worst of the SUCK, and remember it so you/we don't have repeat performances.
It does get better.. Hang on.
Fog can take a while to lift.
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I find myself constantly thinking of dip. Referring to each aspect of my life I associated dip with....which is everything. I can focus for a few minutes at a time without thinking of dip but then my focus is gone for the next few minutes until I remind myself just how much of a slave I was and just how much control dip/nic had on me. Already during my 6 day quit, I am more confident in my mental capactity to overcome adversity and better myself. I love being free.....which is why I say; fuck you nic, you will not win this time!
Embrace the worst of the SUCK, and remember it so you/we don't have repeat performances.
It does get better.. Hang on.
Fog can take a while to lift.
The value of that freedom is so much greater than you realize. After 1,613 days of quit I still marvel at how good it feels not to be held hostage.
It's gonna suck until it doesn't , and then it won't . Ride it out.
sM
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Hey bro, hope you are hanging in there. Probably not sleeping very well, don't really feel engaged in what you are doing, maybe even dizzy! It's weird but, you are healing from all the shit nic has done to you. I have been there and been through it. Just keep going, once you are through it life is much better.
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Hey bro, hope you are hanging in there. Probably not sleeping very well, don't really feel engaged in what you are doing, maybe even dizzy! It's weird but, you are healing from all the shit nic has done to you. I have been there and been through it. Just keep going, once you are through it life is much better.
This is day 2 for me, and I just want to be active on here. I'm not sure if I'm posting correctly, and to be honest I'm finding the website a bit confusing. I think everything is a bit frustrating today. I'm doing my best to not be a total ass to my wife, I just want to quit for good. I've said this before, but this time I really want it. I'm willing to go through the suck of it all to get the freedom of a dip less life. I just need help, how do I be a loving husband while feeling physically and somewhat mentally like a piece of crap?
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Hey bro, hope you are hanging in there. Probably not sleeping very well, don't really feel engaged in what you are doing, maybe even dizzy! It's weird but, you are healing from all the shit nic has done to you. I have been there and been through it. Just keep going, once you are through it life is much better.
This is day 2 for me, and I just want to be active on here. I'm not sure if I'm posting correctly, and to be honest I'm finding the website a bit confusing. I think everything is a bit frustrating today. I'm doing my best to not be a total ass to my wife, I just want to quit for good. I've said this before, but this time I really want it. I'm willing to go through the suck of it all to get the freedom of a dip less life. I just need help, how do I be a loving husband while feeling physically and somewhat mentally like a piece of crap?
It's the fog gents, welcome to the SUCK! Three days and nicotine is physically removed from your system. That's it, 3 days, after this, the psychological warfare continues but there will be no more physical cravings of the shit! Post up, get in chat, get some digits of fellow quitters in your group and others! Stay busy and go do something, anything, but cave!
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Hey bro, hope you are hanging in there. Probably not sleeping very well, don't really feel engaged in what you are doing, maybe even dizzy! It's weird but, you are healing from all the shit nic has done to you. I have been there and been through it. Just keep going, once you are through it life is much better.
This is day 2 for me, and I just want to be active on here. I'm not sure if I'm posting correctly, and to be honest I'm finding the website a bit confusing. I think everything is a bit frustrating today. I'm doing my best to not be a total ass to my wife, I just want to quit for good. I've said this before, but this time I really want it. I'm willing to go through the suck of it all to get the freedom of a dip less life. I just need help, how do I be a loving husband while feeling physically and somewhat mentally like a piece of crap?
It's the fog gents, welcome to the SUCK! Three days and nicotine is physically removed from your system. That's it, 3 days, after this, the psychological warfare continues but there will be no more physical cravings of the shit! Post up, get in chat, get some digits of fellow quitters in your group and others! Stay busy and go do something, anything, but cave!
Who's intro is this anyway? Just to funny! Ahh,, the memories.
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Hey everyone- Have not been able to access internet while on vacatio so I haven't posted roll since Thursday or Friday. And still can't post roll from my phone for some reason so hoping this post goes through.
I am still quit....day 18! Fog has almost completely subsided but still happens maybe once a day. A couple of the guys on vacation smoked cigars but I refused....I looked the nic bitch directly in the face and slapped the shit out of her...then spit on her. No nic for me.
I will post as often as I can...2 week vacation ends 7/21 so after that I will once again post daily.
Staying quit with everyone,
Jason
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Hey everyone- Have not been able to access internet while on vacatio so I haven't posted roll since Thursday or Friday. And still can't post roll from my phone for some reason so hoping this post goes through.
I am still quit....day 18! Fog has almost completely subsided but still happens maybe once a day. A couple of the guys on vacation smoked cigars but I refused....I looked the nic bitch directly in the face and slapped the shit out of her...then spit on her. No nic for me.
I will post as often as I can...2 week vacation ends 7/21 so after that I will once again post daily.
Staying quit with everyone,
Jason
Got it. You have my number text me every day. I will add today to the roll.
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Hey everyone- Have not been able to access internet while on vacatio so I haven't posted roll since Thursday or Friday. And still can't post roll from my phone for some reason so hoping this post goes through.
I am still quit....day 18! Fog has almost completely subsided but still happens maybe once a day. A couple of the guys on vacation smoked cigars but I refused....I looked the nic bitch directly in the face and slapped the shit out of her...then spit on her. No nic for me.
I will post as often as I can...2 week vacation ends 7/21 so after that I will once again post daily.
Staying quit with everyone,
Jason
Got it. You have my number text me every day. I will add today to the roll.
Hang tough Wolly. Stay quit while you are ahead. I had my first dentist appointment today in about 4 years, and everything went well except for the root canal I have to have. I can tell you I was scared to death. You are a young buck, hang in there, and stay quit.