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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Mr. Cope on April 27, 2015, 03:54:00 PM
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'Finger' This is the worst! Day 3 and I feel like my mind is on drugs. I can't read I cant type very well, nothing. I don't want a chew, I really don't which is surprising as hell.
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This is the worst! Day 3 and I feel like my mind is on drugs. I can't read I cant type very well, nothing. I don't want a chew, I really don't which is surprising as hell.
Mr. C - Welcome to your quit. Your level of success depends on how committed to this you are. Day 3 is good, you're almost out of the suck. Keep grinding. Your next step is the fog where you will continue to not be able to type full sentences or thoughts. How I stayed employed I'll never understand. Fake it till you make it.
We post roll here daily, it's the foundation of this place. You will post in th month where you hit 100 days which is Aug 2015. (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11112756/3/?x=90#new)
You're already quit so post your day 3 with pride now. We'll see you there.
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This is the worst! Day 3 and I feel like my mind is on drugs. I can't read I cant type very well, nothing. I don't want a chew, I really don't which is surprising as hell.
Mr. C - Welcome to your quit. Your level of success depends on how committed to this you are. Day 3 is good, you're almost out of the suck. Keep grinding. Your next step is the fog where you will continue to not be able to type full sentences or thoughts. How I stayed employed I'll never understand. Fake it till you make it.
We post roll here daily, it's the foundation of this place. You will post in th month where you hit 100 days which is Aug 2015. (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11112756/3/?x=90#new)
You're already quit so post your day 3 with pride now. We'll see you there.
Done is right...fake it 'till you make it. But let's think about this whole "Day 3 sucks" thing...
Day 3 is the worst day? Really? Day 3 might suck donkey balls. But does it suck as much as the day the dentist says, "let's have someone look at that spot?" Could it suck as much as the first day of chemo? Or how about the day they remove your teeth, tongue and jaw and install a feeding tube? I bet it doesn't suck as much as the day you have to say good bye to those who love you the most before you pass away. In fact, I'm fairly certain those days suck so bad that Day 3 is WONDERFUL by comparison.
You are probably dealing with Day 3 headaches, anxiety, constipation, sleeplessness, raging like an asshole around your house and general irritability (so you're probably not laughing at my sarcasm). Everything is relative. Day 3 might suck...I'll give you that. But it also might be fucking spectacular when you think about it, huh?
Read the Tom and Jenny Kern story...and their Caring Bridge entry. Read the part where Jenny describes Tom's daughter at his feet pleading, "Daddy, don't go" as he takes his last breath. I'll bet Tom would have given just about anything to get to have just one more cancer-free day. I bet Tom would love Day 3, huh?
Quitting is all about your attitude. Decide that you will enjoy every minute of it. Embrace the suck. Take note of your success. I mean really experience how weirdly awesome it is to live nic-free. Quitting is a privilege reserved to those who have the guts to do it. When YOU decide to quit, you GET to feel shitty. That shitty feeling is fucking awesome...a reminder that you are kicking nic's ass one day at a time. You are in control. And you should be pumped about that. I am. I'm pumped that you are here and you are making it happen ONE DAY AT A TIME.
YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
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This is the worst! Day 3 and I feel like my mind is on drugs. I can't read I cant type very well, nothing. I don't want a chew, I really don't which is surprising as hell.
Mr. C - Welcome to your quit. Your level of success depends on how committed to this you are. Day 3 is good, you're almost out of the suck. Keep grinding. Your next step is the fog where you will continue to not be able to type full sentences or thoughts. How I stayed employed I'll never understand. Fake it till you make it.
We post roll here daily, it's the foundation of this place. You will post in th month where you hit 100 days which is Aug 2015. (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11112756/3/?x=90#new)
You're already quit so post your day 3 with pride now. We'll see you there.
Done is right...fake it 'till you make it. But let's think about this whole "Day 3 sucks" thing...
Day 3 is the worst day? Really? Day 3 might suck donkey balls. But does it suck as much as the day the dentist says, "let's have someone look at that spot?" Could it suck as much as the first day of chemo? Or how about the day they remove your teeth, tongue and jaw and install a feeding tube? I bet it doesn't suck as much as the day you have to say good bye to those who love you the most before you pass away. In fact, I'm fairly certain those days suck so bad that Day 3 is WONDERFUL by comparison.
You are probably dealing with Day 3 headaches, anxiety, constipation, sleeplessness, raging like an asshole around your house and general irritability (so you're probably not laughing at my sarcasm). Everything is relative. Day 3 might suck...I'll give you that. But it also might be fucking spectacular when you think about it, huh?
Read the Tom and Jenny Kern story...and their Caring Bridge entry. Read the part where Jenny describes Tom's daughter at his feet pleading, "Daddy, don't go" as he takes his last breath. I'll bet Tom would have given just about anything to get to have just one more cancer-free day. I bet Tom would love Day 3, huh?
Quitting is all about your attitude. Decide that you will enjoy every minute of it. Embrace the suck. Take note of your success. I mean really experience how weirdly awesome it is to live nic-free. Quitting is a privilege reserved to those who have the guts to do it. When YOU decide to quit, you GET to feel shitty. That shitty feeling is fucking awesome...a reminder that you are kicking nic's ass one day at a time. You are in control. And you should be pumped about that. I am. I'm pumped that you are here and you are making it happen ONE DAY AT A TIME.
YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
Wow Bean. That was really great. My quit is re-fueled.
Mr Cope you should be pumped up to quit now too! So go find August 15 and get you name on roll dammit.
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This is the worst! Day 3 and I feel like my mind is on drugs. I can't read I cant type very well, nothing. I don't want a chew, I really don't which is surprising as hell.
Mr. C - Welcome to your quit. Your level of success depends on how committed to this you are. Day 3 is good, you're almost out of the suck. Keep grinding. Your next step is the fog where you will continue to not be able to type full sentences or thoughts. How I stayed employed I'll never understand. Fake it till you make it.
We post roll here daily, it's the foundation of this place. You will post in th month where you hit 100 days which is Aug 2015. (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11112756/3/?x=90#new)
You're already quit so post your day 3 with pride now. We'll see you there.
Done is right...fake it 'till you make it. But let's think about this whole "Day 3 sucks" thing...
Day 3 is the worst day? Really? Day 3 might suck donkey balls. But does it suck as much as the day the dentist says, "let's have someone look at that spot?" Could it suck as much as the first day of chemo? Or how about the day they remove your teeth, tongue and jaw and install a feeding tube? I bet it doesn't suck as much as the day you have to say good bye to those who love you the most before you pass away. In fact, I'm fairly certain those days suck so bad that Day 3 is WONDERFUL by comparison.
You are probably dealing with Day 3 headaches, anxiety, constipation, sleeplessness, raging like an asshole around your house and general irritability (so you're probably not laughing at my sarcasm). Everything is relative. Day 3 might suck...I'll give you that. But it also might be fucking spectacular when you think about it, huh?
Read the Tom and Jenny Kern story...and their Caring Bridge entry. Read the part where Jenny describes Tom's daughter at his feet pleading, "Daddy, don't go" as he takes his last breath. I'll bet Tom would have given just about anything to get to have just one more cancer-free day. I bet Tom would love Day 3, huh?
Quitting is all about your attitude. Decide that you will enjoy every minute of it. Embrace the suck. Take note of your success. I mean really experience how weirdly awesome it is to live nic-free. Quitting is a privilege reserved to those who have the guts to do it. When YOU decide to quit, you GET to feel shitty. That shitty feeling is fucking awesome...a reminder that you are kicking nic's ass one day at a time. You are in control. And you should be pumped about that. I am. I'm pumped that you are here and you are making it happen ONE DAY AT A TIME.
YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
Wow Bean. That was really great. My quit is re-fueled.
Mr Cope you should be pumped up to quit now too! So go find August 15 and get you name on roll dammit.
Man, Bean - I'm ready to run laps on that one. What a great adrenaline maker of a speech! I was happy about my quit but now I'm ecstatic! Mr. C - Take charge of your quit my brother!! Happy to be quit with you today!
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Welcome to the fight, brother. I experienced a big difference between days 3 and 4; the fog lifted the morning of day 4, so good morning and welcome to a better, healthier day. You're now beyond the worst of it.
I see you haven't posted roll yet - you've got a PM and email from me with instructions to do so. I hope to see you post roll this morning with your August group. You'll be one of the first newbies in the group, and you'll have the opportunity to see your quit group grow over the month. Your group is empty right now, but you aren't alone - quitters will come flying in from every corner get your back.
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Yes, Day 3 is horrible, Day 4 not much better. How about posting roll and getting some support? A text here and there can get you through some rough times.
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Well Mother Fucker I guess you are correct! DAY 3 is a fucking walk in the park compared to a shit ton of would or could be other alternative days or situations. Thanks for setting me straight. Day 4 was not a bad and day 5 ehhhhhhhh we will see. I am doing this shit one day at a time and NO I do not rage around the house, I get up and go walk, chop wood, punch the side of the tree etc... It is not my wife or my kids fault, I am not quitting for them. I am quitting for my self and because I feel extremely FUCKING stupid to have wasted every fucking day of every fucking month of every fucking year since 1984/85 on this canned bull shit!
Thank you all who are supportive and we will be and stay QUIT
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Well Mother Fucker I guess you are correct! DAY 3 is a fucking walk in the park compared to a shit ton of would or could be other alternative days or situations. Thanks for setting me straight. Day 4 was not a bad and day 5 ehhhhhhhh we will see. I am doing this shit one day at a time and NO I do not rage around the house, I get up and go walk, chop wood, punch the side of the tree etc... It is not my wife or my kids fault, I am not quitting for them. I am quitting for my self and because I feel extremely FUCKING stupid to have wasted every fucking day of every fucking month of every fucking year since 1984/85 on this canned bull shit!
Thank you all who are supportive and we will be and stay QUIT
PM me if you need a number to text. Rage is a sign of healing, and I do promise it gets better.
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Well Mother Fucker I guess you are correct! DAY 3 is a fucking walk in the park compared to a shit ton of would or could be other alternative days or situations. Thanks for setting me straight. Day 4 was not a bad and day 5 ehhhhhhhh we will see. I am doing this shit one day at a time and NO I do not rage around the house, I get up and go walk, chop wood, punch the side of the tree etc... It is not my wife or my kids fault, I am not quitting for them. I am quitting for my self and because I feel extremely FUCKING stupid to have wasted every fucking day of every fucking month of every fucking year since 1984/85 on this canned bull shit!
Thank you all who are supportive and we will be and stay QUIT
PM me if you need a number to text. Rage is a sign of healing, and I do promise it gets better.
Mr . Cope, sounds like a lot of nic rage going on! You are handling it just right! It sucks my friend but worth every damn second of it! Hang in there, it gets so much better. When the rage hits bring your ass in here , bitch , raise hell, whatever, we're here to listen and help! Grab your sac and hang on it's a tough ride. Damn proud to be quit with you today my brother!
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Well Mother Fucker I guess you are correct! DAY 3 is a fucking walk in the park compared to a shit ton of would or could be other alternative days or situations. Thanks for setting me straight. Day 4 was not a bad and day 5 ehhhhhhhh we will see. I am doing this shit one day at a time and NO I do not rage around the house, I get up and go walk, chop wood, punch the side of the tree etc... It is not my wife or my kids fault, I am not quitting for them. I am quitting for my self and because I feel extremely FUCKING stupid to have wasted every fucking day of every fucking month of every fucking year since 1984/85 on this canned bull shit!
Thank you all who are supportive and we will be and stay QUIT
PM me if you need a number to text. Rage is a sign of healing, and I do promise it gets better.
Mr . Cope, sounds like a lot of nic rage going on! You are handling it just right! It sucks my friend but worth every damn second of it! Hang in there, it gets so much better. When the rage hits bring your ass in here , bitch , raise hell, whatever, we're here to listen and help! Grab your sac and hang on it's a tough ride. Damn proud to be quit with you today my brother!
Well Day 5 was easy. This is morning of Day 6 and it isn't so bad. I am starting to think this is just a mind fuck! I feel pretty good, although I need to be drinking more H2O. My ass won't work right and I feel like I need to lay a turd the size of a bus, but other than that not bad.
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Took some time today to read the Tom and Jenny Kern story. All I can say is Damn. I was in tears sometime during the first posting back in 2004. Very sad Jenny and the kids had to watch Tom go down the road he did. I can't even imagine doing that to my family. Gives me more reason to stay quit.
Why do any of us ever pick that shit up in the first place? GOD DAMN we all have been a bunch of fucked minded pussies to put that shit in our bodies.
I am so glad I stumbled on to KTC, not only is there a great deal of info to help but the support from other dumb fucks who have made the decision to become better people.
I am finding my self drawn more and more to this site and forum each day, I would like to thank each and every member for their contributions and support as without them the site would not exists and many of us would be is worse shape than we can imagine.
Stay quit
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Day 11. Or the morning of. Last night I did not sleep much at all. Went to be at 10:30 - 11:00 tossed and turned, woke up at 3 AM. Wide ass awake with no ability to fall back asleep. Now at work it is 11 AM and I cant focus or stay awake. I am beginning to worry about keeping my job.
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Day 11. Or the morning of. Last night I did not sleep much at all. Went to be at 10:30 - 11:00 tossed and turned, woke up at 3 AM. Wide ass awake with no ability to fall back asleep. Now at work it is 11 AM and I cant focus or stay awake. I am beginning to worry about keeping my job.
I hear ya. I had to leave work during my first couple of days because the symptoms were so severe. You got this, bud. Fake it until you make it. You probably think you are performing worse than you actually are. That is the nic whore trying to trick you. Don't fall for that siren's song.
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Day 11. Or the morning of. Last night I did not sleep much at all. Went to be at 10:30 - 11:00 tossed and turned, woke up at 3 AM. Wide ass awake with no ability to fall back asleep. Now at work it is 11 AM and I cant focus or stay awake. I am beginning to worry about keeping my job.
I hear ya. I had to leave work during my first couple of days because the symptoms were so severe. You got this, bud. Fake it until you make it. You probably think you are performing worse than you actually are. That is the nic whore trying to trick you. Don't fall for that siren's song.
^^^^ YES ^^^^ You ARE doing better than you think. Take stock of your SUCCESS!!! Give yourself credit for what you are doing. This is heroic, bad-ass stuff going on here. We aren't fucking around and this isn't supposed to be fun.
As for sleeplessness...probably the worst part of quitting for me. Of course, I had two small kids at the time. So we weren't doing a lot of sleeping through the night anyway. But I would go out and sit in my truck and scream, "Freedom" like in Braveheart...as hard and loud as I could. I could have sworn the neighbors would hear me. Yes, it was a little overly-dramatic. But he was just acting. I was actually saving a life...my own. And I had nobody to celebrate/commiserate with...nobody to compare experiences with. So that was what I did. I'm no crybaby, but there were tears...sometimes. (little embarrassed to admit that).
I stumbled around solo for 9 days before I found this site. It was about 3 or 4 in the morning when I did. I posted my promise to be quit and, to my astonishment, someone almost immediately replied with an "atta boy" or something. And the clouds began to clear...just as I prayed they would.
What makes the suck worse is not realizing that things will get better. They will. I promise. I don't know how long it will take. But it will get better. The suck will suck until it doesn't. So, take note of your success. Congratulate yourself. You're doing some heroic shit right now and you don't even realize it. Just make it one more day. Just one more day.
CONGRATS, BROTHER!!! YOU GOT THIS!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
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Day 11. Or the morning of. Last night I did not sleep much at all. Went to be at 10:30 - 11:00 tossed and turned, woke up at 3 AM. Wide ass awake with no ability to fall back asleep. Now at work it is 11 AM and I cant focus or stay awake. I am beginning to worry about keeping my job.
I hear ya. I had to leave work during my first couple of days because the symptoms were so severe. You got this, bud. Fake it until you make it. You probably think you are performing worse than you actually are. That is the nic whore trying to trick you. Don't fall for that siren's song.
^^^^ YES ^^^^ You ARE doing better than you think. Take stock of your SUCCESS!!! Give yourself credit for what you are doing. This is heroic, bad-ass stuff going on here. We aren't fucking around and this isn't supposed to be fun.
As for sleeplessness...probably the worst part of quitting for me. Of course, I had two small kids at the time. So we weren't doing a lot of sleeping through the night anyway. But I would go out and sit in my truck and scream, "Freedom" like in Braveheart...as hard and loud as I could. I could have sworn the neighbors would hear me. Yes, it was a little overly-dramatic. But he was just acting. I was actually saving a life...my own. And I had nobody to celebrate/commiserate with...nobody to compare experiences with. So that was what I did. I'm no crybaby, but there were tears...sometimes. (little embarrassed to admit that).
I stumbled around solo for 9 days before I found this site. It was about 3 or 4 in the morning when I did. I posted my promise to be quit and, to my astonishment, someone almost immediately replied with an "atta boy" or something. And the clouds began to clear...just as I prayed they would.
What makes the suck worse is not realizing that things will get better. They will. I promise. I don't know how long it will take. But it will get better. The suck will suck until it doesn't. So, take note of your success. Congratulate yourself. You're doing some heroic shit right now and you don't even realize it. Just make it one more day. Just one more day.
CONGRATS, BROTHER!!! YOU GOT THIS!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
You are all my brothers and I thank you. It does suck but I have to say it doesn't suck as bad as actually paying good cash money for some shit that is killing you and me with every pinch. Thanks for the encouragement and support. Rock on and EVERYBODY stay QUIT!
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Day 11. Or the morning of. Last night I did not sleep much at all. Went to be at 10:30 - 11:00 tossed and turned, woke up at 3 AM. Wide ass awake with no ability to fall back asleep. Now at work it is 11 AM and I cant focus or stay awake. I am beginning to worry about keeping my job.
I hear ya. I had to leave work during my first couple of days because the symptoms were so severe. You got this, bud. Fake it until you make it. You probably think you are performing worse than you actually are. That is the nic whore trying to trick you. Don't fall for that siren's song.
^^^^ YES ^^^^ You ARE doing better than you think. Take stock of your SUCCESS!!! Give yourself credit for what you are doing. This is heroic, bad-ass stuff going on here. We aren't fucking around and this isn't supposed to be fun.
As for sleeplessness...probably the worst part of quitting for me. Of course, I had two small kids at the time. So we weren't doing a lot of sleeping through the night anyway. But I would go out and sit in my truck and scream, "Freedom" like in Braveheart...as hard and loud as I could. I could have sworn the neighbors would hear me. Yes, it was a little overly-dramatic. But he was just acting. I was actually saving a life...my own. And I had nobody to celebrate/commiserate with...nobody to compare experiences with. So that was what I did. I'm no crybaby, but there were tears...sometimes. (little embarrassed to admit that).
I stumbled around solo for 9 days before I found this site. It was about 3 or 4 in the morning when I did. I posted my promise to be quit and, to my astonishment, someone almost immediately replied with an "atta boy" or something. And the clouds began to clear...just as I prayed they would.
What makes the suck worse is not realizing that things will get better. They will. I promise. I don't know how long it will take. But it will get better. The suck will suck until it doesn't. So, take note of your success. Congratulate yourself. You're doing some heroic shit right now and you don't even realize it. Just make it one more day. Just one more day.
CONGRATS, BROTHER!!! YOU GOT THIS!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
You are all my brothers and I thank you. It does suck but I have to say it doesn't suck as bad as actually paying good cash money for some shit that is killing you and me with every pinch. Thanks for the encouragement and support. Rock on and EVERYBODY stay QUIT!
Cope my friend, you are doing great! Stay one step ahead of this nic bitch because she is waiting on you to stumble! You have a lot of brothers and sisters on here that will come running to help you, so remember that and ask for it! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
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Day 11. Or the morning of. Last night I did not sleep much at all. Went to be at 10:30 - 11:00 tossed and turned, woke up at 3 AM. Wide ass awake with no ability to fall back asleep. Now at work it is 11 AM and I cant focus or stay awake. I am beginning to worry about keeping my job.
I hear ya. I had to leave work during my first couple of days because the symptoms were so severe. You got this, bud. Fake it until you make it. You probably think you are performing worse than you actually are. That is the nic whore trying to trick you. Don't fall for that siren's song.
^^^^ YES ^^^^ You ARE doing better than you think. Take stock of your SUCCESS!!! Give yourself credit for what you are doing. This is heroic, bad-ass stuff going on here. We aren't fucking around and this isn't supposed to be fun.
As for sleeplessness...probably the worst part of quitting for me. Of course, I had two small kids at the time. So we weren't doing a lot of sleeping through the night anyway. But I would go out and sit in my truck and scream, "Freedom" like in Braveheart...as hard and loud as I could. I could have sworn the neighbors would hear me. Yes, it was a little overly-dramatic. But he was just acting. I was actually saving a life...my own. And I had nobody to celebrate/commiserate with...nobody to compare experiences with. So that was what I did. I'm no crybaby, but there were tears...sometimes. (little embarrassed to admit that).
I stumbled around solo for 9 days before I found this site. It was about 3 or 4 in the morning when I did. I posted my promise to be quit and, to my astonishment, someone almost immediately replied with an "atta boy" or something. And the clouds began to clear...just as I prayed they would.
What makes the suck worse is not realizing that things will get better. They will. I promise. I don't know how long it will take. But it will get better. The suck will suck until it doesn't. So, take note of your success. Congratulate yourself. You're doing some heroic shit right now and you don't even realize it. Just make it one more day. Just one more day.
CONGRATS, BROTHER!!! YOU GOT THIS!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
You are all my brothers and I thank you. It does suck but I have to say it doesn't suck as bad as actually paying good cash money for some shit that is killing you and me with every pinch. Thanks for the encouragement and support. Rock on and EVERYBODY stay QUIT!
Cope my friend, you are doing great! Stay one step ahead of this nic bitch because she is waiting on you to stumble! You have a lot of brothers and sisters on here that will come running to help you, so remember that and ask for it! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Day 14 today..... That is two fucking weeks without a substance I used for over 35 years every day. I can not thank KTC and all its members, my quit brothers enough for the support it has provided to date. I feel so much better.
;Ironman:
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Day 11. Or the morning of. Last night I did not sleep much at all. Went to be at 10:30 - 11:00 tossed and turned, woke up at 3 AM. Wide ass awake with no ability to fall back asleep. Now at work it is 11 AM and I cant focus or stay awake. I am beginning to worry about keeping my job.
I hear ya. I had to leave work during my first couple of days because the symptoms were so severe. You got this, bud. Fake it until you make it. You probably think you are performing worse than you actually are. That is the nic whore trying to trick you. Don't fall for that siren's song.
^^^^ YES ^^^^ You ARE doing better than you think. Take stock of your SUCCESS!!! Give yourself credit for what you are doing. This is heroic, bad-ass stuff going on here. We aren't fucking around and this isn't supposed to be fun.
As for sleeplessness...probably the worst part of quitting for me. Of course, I had two small kids at the time. So we weren't doing a lot of sleeping through the night anyway. But I would go out and sit in my truck and scream, "Freedom" like in Braveheart...as hard and loud as I could. I could have sworn the neighbors would hear me. Yes, it was a little overly-dramatic. But he was just acting. I was actually saving a life...my own. And I had nobody to celebrate/commiserate with...nobody to compare experiences with. So that was what I did. I'm no crybaby, but there were tears...sometimes. (little embarrassed to admit that).
I stumbled around solo for 9 days before I found this site. It was about 3 or 4 in the morning when I did. I posted my promise to be quit and, to my astonishment, someone almost immediately replied with an "atta boy" or something. And the clouds began to clear...just as I prayed they would.
What makes the suck worse is not realizing that things will get better. They will. I promise. I don't know how long it will take. But it will get better. The suck will suck until it doesn't. So, take note of your success. Congratulate yourself. You're doing some heroic shit right now and you don't even realize it. Just make it one more day. Just one more day.
CONGRATS, BROTHER!!! YOU GOT THIS!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
You are all my brothers and I thank you. It does suck but I have to say it doesn't suck as bad as actually paying good cash money for some shit that is killing you and me with every pinch. Thanks for the encouragement and support. Rock on and EVERYBODY stay QUIT!
Cope my friend, you are doing great! Stay one step ahead of this nic bitch because she is waiting on you to stumble! You have a lot of brothers and sisters on here that will come running to help you, so remember that and ask for it! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Day 14 today..... That is two fucking weeks without a substance I used for over 35 years every day. I can not thank KTC and all its members, my quit brothers enough for the support it has provided to date. I feel so much better.
;Ironman:
2 weeks is bad ass Mr. Cope! Keep doing what you are doing!
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Day 11. Or the morning of. Last night I did not sleep much at all. Went to be at 10:30 - 11:00 tossed and turned, woke up at 3 AM. Wide ass awake with no ability to fall back asleep. Now at work it is 11 AM and I cant focus or stay awake. I am beginning to worry about keeping my job.
I hear ya. I had to leave work during my first couple of days because the symptoms were so severe. You got this, bud. Fake it until you make it. You probably think you are performing worse than you actually are. That is the nic whore trying to trick you. Don't fall for that siren's song.
^^^^ YES ^^^^ You ARE doing better than you think. Take stock of your SUCCESS!!! Give yourself credit for what you are doing. This is heroic, bad-ass stuff going on here. We aren't fucking around and this isn't supposed to be fun.
As for sleeplessness...probably the worst part of quitting for me. Of course, I had two small kids at the time. So we weren't doing a lot of sleeping through the night anyway. But I would go out and sit in my truck and scream, "Freedom" like in Braveheart...as hard and loud as I could. I could have sworn the neighbors would hear me. Yes, it was a little overly-dramatic. But he was just acting. I was actually saving a life...my own. And I had nobody to celebrate/commiserate with...nobody to compare experiences with. So that was what I did. I'm no crybaby, but there were tears...sometimes. (little embarrassed to admit that).
I stumbled around solo for 9 days before I found this site. It was about 3 or 4 in the morning when I did. I posted my promise to be quit and, to my astonishment, someone almost immediately replied with an "atta boy" or something. And the clouds began to clear...just as I prayed they would.
What makes the suck worse is not realizing that things will get better. They will. I promise. I don't know how long it will take. But it will get better. The suck will suck until it doesn't. So, take note of your success. Congratulate yourself. You're doing some heroic shit right now and you don't even realize it. Just make it one more day. Just one more day.
CONGRATS, BROTHER!!! YOU GOT THIS!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
You are all my brothers and I thank you. It does suck but I have to say it doesn't suck as bad as actually paying good cash money for some shit that is killing you and me with every pinch. Thanks for the encouragement and support. Rock on and EVERYBODY stay QUIT!
Cope my friend, you are doing great! Stay one step ahead of this nic bitch because she is waiting on you to stumble! You have a lot of brothers and sisters on here that will come running to help you, so remember that and ask for it! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Day 14 today..... That is two fucking weeks without a substance I used for over 35 years every day. I can not thank KTC and all its members, my quit brothers enough for the support it has provided to date. I feel so much better.
;Ironman:
2 weeks is bad ass Mr. Cope! Keep doing what you are doing!
What this guy ^^^^ said! Nice work man!
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Day 11. Or the morning of. Last night I did not sleep much at all. Went to be at 10:30 - 11:00 tossed and turned, woke up at 3 AM. Wide ass awake with no ability to fall back asleep. Now at work it is 11 AM and I cant focus or stay awake. I am beginning to worry about keeping my job.
I hear ya. I had to leave work during my first couple of days because the symptoms were so severe. You got this, bud. Fake it until you make it. You probably think you are performing worse than you actually are. That is the nic whore trying to trick you. Don't fall for that siren's song.
^^^^ YES ^^^^ You ARE doing better than you think. Take stock of your SUCCESS!!! Give yourself credit for what you are doing. This is heroic, bad-ass stuff going on here. We aren't fucking around and this isn't supposed to be fun.
As for sleeplessness...probably the worst part of quitting for me. Of course, I had two small kids at the time. So we weren't doing a lot of sleeping through the night anyway. But I would go out and sit in my truck and scream, "Freedom" like in Braveheart...as hard and loud as I could. I could have sworn the neighbors would hear me. Yes, it was a little overly-dramatic. But he was just acting. I was actually saving a life...my own. And I had nobody to celebrate/commiserate with...nobody to compare experiences with. So that was what I did. I'm no crybaby, but there were tears...sometimes. (little embarrassed to admit that).
I stumbled around solo for 9 days before I found this site. It was about 3 or 4 in the morning when I did. I posted my promise to be quit and, to my astonishment, someone almost immediately replied with an "atta boy" or something. And the clouds began to clear...just as I prayed they would.
What makes the suck worse is not realizing that things will get better. They will. I promise. I don't know how long it will take. But it will get better. The suck will suck until it doesn't. So, take note of your success. Congratulate yourself. You're doing some heroic shit right now and you don't even realize it. Just make it one more day. Just one more day.
CONGRATS, BROTHER!!! YOU GOT THIS!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
You are all my brothers and I thank you. It does suck but I have to say it doesn't suck as bad as actually paying good cash money for some shit that is killing you and me with every pinch. Thanks for the encouragement and support. Rock on and EVERYBODY stay QUIT!
Cope my friend, you are doing great! Stay one step ahead of this nic bitch because she is waiting on you to stumble! You have a lot of brothers and sisters on here that will come running to help you, so remember that and ask for it! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Day 14 today..... That is two fucking weeks without a substance I used for over 35 years every day. I can not thank KTC and all its members, my quit brothers enough for the support it has provided to date. I feel so much better.
;Ironman:
2 weeks is bad ass Mr. Cope! Keep doing what you are doing!
What this guy ^^^^ said! Nice work man!
Glad to be quit together. Being a girl it is easier to admit crying and praying for God to take the crave away. He didn't have too, I had to get clean on my own and face the devil myself. With ktc we aren't facing the devil alone and we can be free with hard fucking work and embracing the suck, even though is sucks. Enlightening words, huh.
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Day 11. Or the morning of. Last night I did not sleep much at all. Went to be at 10:30 - 11:00 tossed and turned, woke up at 3 AM. Wide ass awake with no ability to fall back asleep. Now at work it is 11 AM and I cant focus or stay awake. I am beginning to worry about keeping my job.
I hear ya. I had to leave work during my first couple of days because the symptoms were so severe. You got this, bud. Fake it until you make it. You probably think you are performing worse than you actually are. That is the nic whore trying to trick you. Don't fall for that siren's song.
^^^^ YES ^^^^ You ARE doing better than you think. Take stock of your SUCCESS!!! Give yourself credit for what you are doing. This is heroic, bad-ass stuff going on here. We aren't fucking around and this isn't supposed to be fun.
As for sleeplessness...probably the worst part of quitting for me. Of course, I had two small kids at the time. So we weren't doing a lot of sleeping through the night anyway. But I would go out and sit in my truck and scream, "Freedom" like in Braveheart...as hard and loud as I could. I could have sworn the neighbors would hear me. Yes, it was a little overly-dramatic. But he was just acting. I was actually saving a life...my own. And I had nobody to celebrate/commiserate with...nobody to compare experiences with. So that was what I did. I'm no crybaby, but there were tears...sometimes. (little embarrassed to admit that).
I stumbled around solo for 9 days before I found this site. It was about 3 or 4 in the morning when I did. I posted my promise to be quit and, to my astonishment, someone almost immediately replied with an "atta boy" or something. And the clouds began to clear...just as I prayed they would.
What makes the suck worse is not realizing that things will get better. They will. I promise. I don't know how long it will take. But it will get better. The suck will suck until it doesn't. So, take note of your success. Congratulate yourself. You're doing some heroic shit right now and you don't even realize it. Just make it one more day. Just one more day.
CONGRATS, BROTHER!!! YOU GOT THIS!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
You are all my brothers and I thank you. It does suck but I have to say it doesn't suck as bad as actually paying good cash money for some shit that is killing you and me with every pinch. Thanks for the encouragement and support. Rock on and EVERYBODY stay QUIT!
Cope my friend, you are doing great! Stay one step ahead of this nic bitch because she is waiting on you to stumble! You have a lot of brothers and sisters on here that will come running to help you, so remember that and ask for it! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Day 14 today..... That is two fucking weeks without a substance I used for over 35 years every day. I can not thank KTC and all its members, my quit brothers enough for the support it has provided to date. I feel so much better.
;Ironman:
2 weeks is bad ass Mr. Cope! Keep doing what you are doing!
What this guy ^^^^ said! Nice work man!
Glad to be quit together. Being a girl it is easier to admit crying and praying for God to take the crave away. He didn't have too, I had to get clean on my own and face the devil myself. With ktc we aren't facing the devil alone and we can be free with hard fucking work and embracing the suck, even though is sucks. Enlightening words, huh.
Great shit in this thread. More story time....
I failed in my prior attempts because I didn't believe in myself. I really didn't think I could do it. I used to look up the statistics and hope I'd be the one who lives a "normal" life. WTF?!!! Hope?!!! I knew I was an idiot. But the addict in me convinced myself that I was just one of those "folks who can't quit"...like I was a sub-set of humanity who "couldn't not put that shit in my mouth." Again, WTF?!! (rationalizing one more was my specialty, btw).
Everything changed when I decided that I would "give it a try" one more time. I managed to make it 9 days solo before I found this site. I STILL didn't believe in myself. But I started reading...and reading...and reading. I read all night. I wasn't sleeping anyway, right? I just kept reading.
Then, I decided to post an intro. I still hadn't fully bought in. I didn't really believe that a stupid website could help me. But I posted anyway. And the support started pouring in.
The support was from people who understood exactly where I was...the self-deception, the insecurity, self-doubt, anxiety...etc. They knew me. And I was them. THEY took time out of their lives to help me...and without charging one thin dime. I couldn't believe there wasn't a catch?!!
I learned about Posting Roll, not trying to quit forever, just ONE DAY AT A TIME. I learned about addiction, the power of self-deception, the fog, the suck...and I began to believe in myself. I began to believe I could quit. Triggers and craves were still going to show up at times...still do, in fact...but more as reminders of the idiot I was than an actual temptation. Who knows...I might cave some time in the future? But not today. I gave my word that I quit today and I can guaran-fucking-tee you I will keep my word today.
Take that into the weekend with you. Today is all that matters. Stay strong and stay quit. You really can do this...even if you don't think so yet. You can.
All of my prior attempts were just me...solo. I made every mistake imaginable...trying to "cut-down"...Nicorette gum...setting quit dates...you name it. I tried and failed every which way.
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That shit ^^^^^ should give all you some quit wood! Well almost all of you.
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Nice quit going on here. Make sure you get some phone numbers of some quitters and do some texting. It's important and will solidify your quit.
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Yeee Mother Fucking Hawwwwwww! Day 17, made it through a weekend on the lake, on the boat, drinking beer and water skiing, I was worried about it last Friday but to be honest it was so much easier that I thought it may be. Sure there were moments here and there when I either instinctively reached for a can (like getting back in the boat) or letting my mind wonder and the thought of having a DIP sounded good.
But shake my head real hard, call myself a dumb ass, look at my wife and kids and FUCK IT IT AINT HAPPENEN,,,,,,,,,,,
Thanks to all my brothers and sisters who are quit along with me, without this site and all of you I am not sure it would have been possible to go 17 days without a little COPE.
To those who are newer to this site than I am, all I can say is you all are some seriously TOUGH sons a bitches! The first step, deciding to quit is the hardest, the rest is just a decision you have to make daily to stay quit. It does get easier as the days go by, but realize there will always be moments when you feel the need/desire, when those moments come I pray we all have the courage and strength to reach out and SLAP the SHIT out of that NIC BITCH! It feels great when you do!
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Outstanding Mr cope! Keep up the great fight! Excellent victory with beer, skiing and outdoors. Damn proud to be quit with you today!
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Way to go Cope! I just hit Day 8 today! This last weekend was a bit rough - sister called and decided to be a bitch...
But i managed through it and am still rockin my quit!
Damn proud to be quit with you today!
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'Remshot' Haha. day 20 today and feel good. I still think about Cope from time to time but it is getting easier to shake my head and call myself a dumb ass and get about my day. Thanks to all for the support as you all are my rock.
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'Remshot' Haha. day 20 today and feel good. I still think about Cope from time to time but it is getting easier to shake my head and call myself a dumb ass and get about my day. Thanks to all for the support as you all are my rock.
This is an awesome thread / quit. Starting off my day right reading this. And honestly, I think this is the best description of how I still feel time to time. I never forget that I smoked and dipped, and sometimes I think I want one. But it's gotten so much easier to step back, say "what the hell is wrong with you? Would you really sacrifice almost a year of quit to shove some dirt in your lip or take a drag off a cancer stick?" And then the thoughts go away. So keep quitting brother, and congratulations on the progress you've made so far!
Wake up every day and QUIT, One Day At A time.
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'Remshot' Haha. day 20 today and feel good. I still think about Cope from time to time but it is getting easier to shake my head and call myself a dumb ass and get about my day. Thanks to all for the support as you all are my rock.
This is an awesome thread / quit. Starting off my day right reading this. And honestly, I think this is the best description of how I still feel time to time. I never forget that I smoked and dipped, and sometimes I think I want one. But it's gotten so much easier to step back, say "what the hell is wrong with you? Would you really sacrifice almost a year of quit to shove some dirt in your lip or take a drag off a cancer stick?" And then the thoughts go away. So keep quitting brother, and congratulations on the progress you've made so far!
Wake up every day and QUIT, One Day At A time.
Quit today....
How I feel:
and how i will feel tomorrow
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Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for I am the baddest motherfucker in the goddamn valley.
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'Remshot' Haha. day 20 today and feel good. I still think about Cope from time to time but it is getting easier to shake my head and call myself a dumb ass and get about my day. Thanks to all for the support as you all are my rock.
This is an awesome thread / quit. Starting off my day right reading this. And honestly, I think this is the best description of how I still feel time to time. I never forget that I smoked and dipped, and sometimes I think I want one. But it's gotten so much easier to step back, say "what the hell is wrong with you? Would you really sacrifice almost a year of quit to shove some dirt in your lip or take a drag off a cancer stick?" And then the thoughts go away. So keep quitting brother, and congratulations on the progress you've made so far!
Wake up every day and QUIT, One Day At A time.
Quit today....
How I feel:
and how i will feel tomorrow
:
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for I am the baddest motherfucker in the goddamn valley.
Today is Day 21 - 3 full weeks of quit! Feels damn good.
My wife is amazing. We were at the store yesterday, she offers to let me walk around as she checks out because she doesn't want me tempted by the little round cans behind the counter. LOL
I looked at her and said my life and that enjoyment of my family mean much more than any pleasure that little round can can provide, I grabbed my sack and walked on up to the counter. The dude behind the register just about lost it! My wife cracked up and started laughing hysterically. I paid for our shit and we left!
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'Remshot' Haha. day 20 today and feel good. I still think about Cope from time to time but it is getting easier to shake my head and call myself a dumb ass and get about my day. Thanks to all for the support as you all are my rock.
This is an awesome thread / quit. Starting off my day right reading this. And honestly, I think this is the best description of how I still feel time to time. I never forget that I smoked and dipped, and sometimes I think I want one. But it's gotten so much easier to step back, say "what the hell is wrong with you? Would you really sacrifice almost a year of quit to shove some dirt in your lip or take a drag off a cancer stick?" And then the thoughts go away. So keep quitting brother, and congratulations on the progress you've made so far!
Wake up every day and QUIT, One Day At A time.
Quit today....
How I feel:
and how i will feel tomorrow
:
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for I am the baddest motherfucker in the goddamn valley.
Today is Day 21 - 3 full weeks of quit! Feels damn good.
My wife is amazing. We were at the store yesterday, she offers to let me walk around as she checks out because she doesn't want me tempted by the little round cans behind the counter. LOL
I looked at her and said my life and that enjoyment of my family mean much more than any pleasure that little round can can provide, I grabbed my sack and walked on up to the counter. The dude behind the register just about lost it! My wife cracked up and started laughing hysterically. I paid for our shit and we left!
Very nice! My fiancee does the same sort of stuff and I'm on day 305. Stay strong out there. I enjoy using the tobacco checkout at Wal-mart just so I can prove to myself that I'm done. It's amazing!
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'Remshot' Haha. day 20 today and feel good. I still think about Cope from time to time but it is getting easier to shake my head and call myself a dumb ass and get about my day. Thanks to all for the support as you all are my rock.
This is an awesome thread / quit. Starting off my day right reading this. And honestly, I think this is the best description of how I still feel time to time. I never forget that I smoked and dipped, and sometimes I think I want one. But it's gotten so much easier to step back, say "what the hell is wrong with you? Would you really sacrifice almost a year of quit to shove some dirt in your lip or take a drag off a cancer stick?" And then the thoughts go away. So keep quitting brother, and congratulations on the progress you've made so far!
Wake up every day and QUIT, One Day At A time.
Quit today....
How I feel:
and how i will feel tomorrow
:
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for I am the baddest motherfucker in the goddamn valley.
Today is Day 21 - 3 full weeks of quit! Feels damn good.
My wife is amazing. We were at the store yesterday, she offers to let me walk around as she checks out because she doesn't want me tempted by the little round cans behind the counter. LOL
I looked at her and said my life and that enjoyment of my family mean much more than any pleasure that little round can can provide, I grabbed my sack and walked on up to the counter. The dude behind the register just about lost it! My wife cracked up and started laughing hysterically. I paid for our shit and we left!
Very nice! My fiancee does the same sort of stuff and I'm on day 305. Stay strong out there. I enjoy using the tobacco checkout at Wal-mart just so I can prove to myself that I'm done. It's amazing!
Congrats on 3 weeks!
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Monday Monday Monday!!! Oh how I hate Mondays. Day 24 in my quit. Thanks to all who have supported and continue to support my quit. I owe you all my life!
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awesome stuff in here. I'm sneaking up on a week. proud to be quit with you
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Argggggggg,,,, MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!! DAY 25 Not a good day!!!!! But Yet I will NOT fucking CAVE! You fucking here me? I will NOT fucking Cave!!!!
'bang head'
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Argggggggg,,,, MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!! DAY 25 Not a good day!!!!! But Yet I will NOT fucking CAVE! You fucking here me? I will NOT fucking Cave!!!!
'bang head'
That's fucking right you will NOT. You posted your promise in your group and one other today. There will be some shitty days bro. But they gradually get further and further apart. Good job.
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Argggggggg,,,, MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!! DAY 25 Not a good day!!!!! But Yet I will NOT fucking CAVE! You fucking here me? I will NOT fucking Cave!!!!
'bang head'
That's fucking right you will NOT. You posted your promise in your group and one other today. There will be some shitty days bro. But they gradually get further and further apart. Good job.
Mr cope! Grab your sac and man up! This shits not easy but you are a helluva lot bigger than that tin. If you have to slam your nuts in the door, more than likely take your mind off the whore! C'mon dude you gave me your word today you would not dip. Be a man of your word and get through this. Damn proud to be quit with you! Zero's are for pussies! Man or mouse?
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DAY - 32 - That's right you Bad Ass! You made it through, over, under and around somehow for 30+ days of quit!
Thanks to all the other quitters here who have stayed strong and supported me though it all.
'dance'
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DAY - 32 - That's right you Bad Ass! You made it through, over, under and around somehow for 30+ days of quit!
Thanks to all the other quitters here who have stayed strong and supported me though it all.
'dance'
Mr. Cope remember the good day's! There will be a lot more if you keep posting edd! There also gonna be bad one's, just manage them day by day, second by second, just get it done! Damn proud to be quit with you today my brother!
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Day 34... Dip dream last night, WTF????? Woke up almost in tears bro! I quit today.. ODAAT
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Day 38.... Feeling good.
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Day 38.... Feeling good.
Keep killing it every day Mr.C.
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Well done Mr. Cope. You're making my Quit hard by example. I'm 38 year dipper on Day 5. About a month behind you. Thanks for paving the trail.
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Day - 42 of my quit. Some interesting facts:
1. I feel pretty good most all the time.
2. I am not sleeping very well at all.
3. I have gain, of I don't know, 30 fucking pounds.
4. I do not even care to have a dip. I have been around a few friends and they are dipping and it is actually disgusting.
5. Food is tasting amazingly better than I ever remember it tasting.
The only real issue I am having is the lack of sleep. I would have thought by now I would be sleeping normally but I can tell you all I do is toss and turn. I may get 4, maybe 5 hours a night. Starting to wear on me.
Rock on fellow Quitters. I am quit today with each and every one of you.
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Day - 42 of my quit. Some interesting facts:
1. I feel pretty good most all the time.
2. I am not sleeping very well at all.
3. I have gain, of I don't know, 30 fucking pounds.
4. I do not even care to have a dip. I have been around a few friends and they are dipping and it is actually disgusting.
5. Food is tasting amazingly better than I ever remember it tasting.
The only real issue I am having is the lack of sleep. I would have thought by now I would be sleeping normally but I can tell you all I do is toss and turn. I may get 4, maybe 5 hours a night. Starting to wear on me.
Rock on fellow Quitters. I am quit today with each and every one of you.
Sleeplessness was probably the worst thing for me after the first few days early on.
About the time somebody told me to "embrace it." I didn't really understand what that meant at first. I thought I did. But now I really did. Turn the tables on the Nic Bitch. Rejoice in your withdrawal symptoms. It all goes back to your attitude. I would lay awake and get frustrated about laying awake being frustrated. Focusing on negative shit just breeds more negative shit. So...what can you do?
Embrace it. Take note of your success. Choose to see every nic free moment of every day/night as cause for celebration. Yes, sleeplessness sucks, but jaw removal, chemo and feeding tubes probably suck worse. Turn something that sucks (sleeplessness) into a reminder that things are GREAT! FOCUS on the positives, instead of the frustration. Make yourself think, I GET to feel this shitty because I CHOSE to be free. And I am going the WELCOME all the shit the Nic Bitch can come up with because that's the price of FREEDOM.
I recommend that you actually get out of bed and walk around. I used to creep into my kids rooms and watch/listen to them sleep. I also knew what time our paper was delivered. I'd make coffee and enjoy my quiet time in the house while my family slept. And I would remind myself what I was doing.
You will return to normal sleep. I can't recall how long it took. I sucked until it didn't. But that sucky feeling was actually the best thing in the world. The sleeplessness was just time I had to appreciate all of the great shit I was doing. I was FREE for the first time in years!!!
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Day 55
No excuses here just facts. I have no excuse for not posting roll the past week.
I have been having a numbness feeling in my right arm for some time now and an awful pain in my neck and upper back on the right side so I decided to go to the doctor to see what the issue may be.
Doctor advised I needed to see a neurosurgeon to get my nerves tested (which I did) and the neurosurgeon said I needed an MRI. I met again with my doctor to start a bunch of blood tests and to get the MRI scheduled. I get the results of the blood tests next Tuesday and the MRI is scheduled for the 29th of June.
All that being said, I have been somewhat freaking out and I have to admit I did consider stopping and grabbing a can of Cope. I have NOT thankfully and continue to stay strong in my quit. I am nervous and scared shitless about what they may find but that is probably more in my head than in reality.
I would like to say a HUGE thank you to Basshaug and Lumberjack Tim for not giving up on me and for continuously pinging my phone until I replied.
We all have our battles and we all fight those battles in different ways, for what it is worth I apologize to my fellow bad ass motherfucking quitters if my disappearing act caused any bad thoughts and/or feelings.
Still quit like FUCK – Mr. Cope
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Mr. Cope,
Hey anything with the neck/back and numbness can be scary. Just remember cope will not fix your pain. It will not heal your neck, and it will not make the results of your MRI BETTER! On the prognosis the good news is all your symptoms are all on one side which means it is more likely nerve root impingement than spinal cord issue. Most of the issues that you could have will only require physical therapy but it doesn't change the frustration you can have not knowing what is going on or waiting for results/treatment. I have worked in sports medicine my whole career and have seen symptoms like this numerous times. Unless you were in and accident or have osteoporosis the outlook is good. I hope the tests go well and you get good news after the MRI. You have over come a lot in your personal journey, do not let it be in vain,Stay quit! From the glorious recommendations of Van Wilder just remember worrying is like a rocking chair, it might give you something to do but you won't get anywhere. I quit with you today!
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Day 55
No excuses here just facts. I have no excuse for not posting roll the past week.
I have been having a numbness feeling in my right arm for some time now and an awful pain in my neck and upper back on the right side so I decided to go to the doctor to see what the issue may be.
Doctor advised I needed to see a neurosurgeon to get my nerves tested (which I did) and the neurosurgeon said I needed an MRI. I met again with my doctor to start a bunch of blood tests and to get the MRI scheduled. I get the results of the blood tests next Tuesday and the MRI is scheduled for the 29th of June.
All that being said, I have been somewhat freaking out and I have to admit I did consider stopping and grabbing a can of Cope. I have NOT thankfully and continue to stay strong in my quit. I am nervous and scared shitless about what they may find but that is probably more in my head than in reality.
I would like to say a HUGE thank you to Basshaug and Lumberjack Tim for not giving up on me and for continuously pinging my phone until I replied.
We all have our battles and we all fight those battles in different ways, for what it is worth I apologize to my fellow bad ass motherfucking quitters if my disappearing act caused any bad thoughts and/or feelings.
Still quit like FUCK – Mr. Cope
Hey August Brother -
I replied to your post in the August thread and I know those can get lost pretty easily. Anyways ... I don't know if this will help whatsoever, or give you some hope, but this is what I wrote ... ********************
I certainly ain't no doctor (although I stayed in a Holiday Inn Express once), but I had the same symptoms you mentioned about a couple years ago. After the MRI, they found severe stenosis on a couple of levels in my upper back (C-5 C-6) I believe. I also have significant lower back issues ... a whole other story. Anyways, intense physical therapy relieved the pain in my upper back/neck and returned feeling to all but my fingertips in my right hand. Still can fully function though.
The reason I mention this, however, is there was one CONSTANT message I heard from all types of doctors. This is consistent whether it is a recommendation to have lower back surgery to physical therapy for stenosis to recovery of and prior to minor surgery to remove potentially cancerous skin cells.
That message was DO NOT USE NICOTINE as it is harmful to the healing and recovery process whether it is blood related or bone related.
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Having the symptoms you described are not easy to go through without knowledge of what may be occurring. Point is ... nicotine will not help. I noticed you didn't post roll again today. I sent you a PM and am asking you to reach out if I can be of any assistance. Stay strong!!!!
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Day 55
No excuses here just facts. I have no excuse for not posting roll the past week.
I have been having a numbness feeling in my right arm for some time now and an awful pain in my neck and upper back on the right side so I decided to go to the doctor to see what the issue may be.
Doctor advised I needed to see a neurosurgeon to get my nerves tested (which I did) and the neurosurgeon said I needed an MRI. I met again with my doctor to start a bunch of blood tests and to get the MRI scheduled. I get the results of the blood tests next Tuesday and the MRI is scheduled for the 29th of June.
All that being said, I have been somewhat freaking out and I have to admit I did consider stopping and grabbing a can of Cope. I have NOT thankfully and continue to stay strong in my quit. I am nervous and scared shitless about what they may find but that is probably more in my head than in reality.
I would like to say a HUGE thank you to Basshaug and Lumberjack Tim for not giving up on me and for continuously pinging my phone until I replied.
We all have our battles and we all fight those battles in different ways, for what it is worth I apologize to my fellow bad ass motherfucking quitters if my disappearing act caused any bad thoughts and/or feelings.
Still quit like FUCK – Mr. Cope
Hey August Brother -
I replied to your post in the August thread and I know those can get lost pretty easily. Anyways ... I don't know if this will help whatsoever, or give you some hope, but this is what I wrote ... ********************
I certainly ain't no doctor (although I stayed in a Holiday Inn Express once), but I had the same symptoms you mentioned about a couple years ago. After the MRI, they found severe stenosis on a couple of levels in my upper back (C-5 C-6) I believe. I also have significant lower back issues ... a whole other story. Anyways, intense physical therapy relieved the pain in my upper back/neck and returned feeling to all but my fingertips in my right hand. Still can fully function though.
The reason I mention this, however, is there was one CONSTANT message I heard from all types of doctors. This is consistent whether it is a recommendation to have lower back surgery to physical therapy for stenosis to recovery of and prior to minor surgery to remove potentially cancerous skin cells.
That message was DO NOT USE NICOTINE as it is harmful to the healing and recovery process whether it is blood related or bone related.
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Having the symptoms you described are not easy to go through without knowledge of what may be occurring. Point is ... nicotine will not help. I noticed you didn't post roll again today. I sent you a PM and am asking you to reach out if I can be of any assistance. Stay strong!!!!
Day 77 today.
Sure as fuck thought I would feel better by now. Not going to lie, I have thought about my old friend more and more lately.
Have had my MRI scheduled 3 times and all three times it has been rescheduled. Although this last time is all my fault as I actually was put into the machine and guess what! I am fucking claustrophobic apparently. No I have to go back under a sedative.
I am starting to think all this shit is just in my head and I am just fine. Well except for the fact I still have numbness and pain in my right arm and my neck hurts like hell.
Still quit but seems the dip dreams have come roaring back, and with a vengeance! I can not begin to express how real it all seems only to wake up in the AM and realize it wasn't real at all. Really FUCKS with my head!
One day I can look back at these post I am writing and laugh. At least that is my hope.
Take care and stay quit!
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Day 55
No excuses here just facts. I have no excuse for not posting roll the past week.
I have been having a numbness feeling in my right arm for some time now and an awful pain in my neck and upper back on the right side so I decided to go to the doctor to see what the issue may be.
Doctor advised I needed to see a neurosurgeon to get my nerves tested (which I did) and the neurosurgeon said I needed an MRI. I met again with my doctor to start a bunch of blood tests and to get the MRI scheduled. I get the results of the blood tests next Tuesday and the MRI is scheduled for the 29th of June.
All that being said, I have been somewhat freaking out and I have to admit I did consider stopping and grabbing a can of Cope. I have NOT thankfully and continue to stay strong in my quit. I am nervous and scared shitless about what they may find but that is probably more in my head than in reality.
I would like to say a HUGE thank you to Basshaug and Lumberjack Tim for not giving up on me and for continuously pinging my phone until I replied.
We all have our battles and we all fight those battles in different ways, for what it is worth I apologize to my fellow bad ass motherfucking quitters if my disappearing act caused any bad thoughts and/or feelings.
Still quit like FUCK – Mr. Cope
Hey August Brother -
I replied to your post in the August thread and I know those can get lost pretty easily. Anyways ... I don't know if this will help whatsoever, or give you some hope, but this is what I wrote ... ********************
I certainly ain't no doctor (although I stayed in a Holiday Inn Express once), but I had the same symptoms you mentioned about a couple years ago. After the MRI, they found severe stenosis on a couple of levels in my upper back (C-5 C-6) I believe. I also have significant lower back issues ... a whole other story. Anyways, intense physical therapy relieved the pain in my upper back/neck and returned feeling to all but my fingertips in my right hand. Still can fully function though.
The reason I mention this, however, is there was one CONSTANT message I heard from all types of doctors. This is consistent whether it is a recommendation to have lower back surgery to physical therapy for stenosis to recovery of and prior to minor surgery to remove potentially cancerous skin cells.
That message was DO NOT USE NICOTINE as it is harmful to the healing and recovery process whether it is blood related or bone related.
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Having the symptoms you described are not easy to go through without knowledge of what may be occurring. Point is ... nicotine will not help. I noticed you didn't post roll again today. I sent you a PM and am asking you to reach out if I can be of any assistance. Stay strong!!!!
Day 77 today.
Sure as fuck thought I would feel better by now. Not going to lie, I have thought about my old friend more and more lately.
Have had my MRI scheduled 3 times and all three times it has been rescheduled. Although this last time is all my fault as I actually was put into the machine and guess what! I am fucking claustrophobic apparently. No I have to go back under a sedative.
I am starting to think all this shit is just in my head and I am just fine. Well except for the fact I still have numbness and pain in my right arm and my neck hurts like hell.
Still quit but seems the dip dreams have come roaring back, and with a vengeance! I can not begin to express how real it all seems only to wake up in the AM and realize it wasn't real at all. Really FUCKS with my head!
One day I can look back at these post I am writing and laugh. At least that is my hope.
Take care and stay quit!
70's and 80's have a bad funk sometimes, I know I had NIC rages in that time frame. But you are quit as fuck, so no worries man.
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Day 55
No excuses here just facts. I have no excuse for not posting roll the past week.
I have been having a numbness feeling in my right arm for some time now and an awful pain in my neck and upper back on the right side so I decided to go to the doctor to see what the issue may be.
Doctor advised I needed to see a neurosurgeon to get my nerves tested (which I did) and the neurosurgeon said I needed an MRI. I met again with my doctor to start a bunch of blood tests and to get the MRI scheduled. I get the results of the blood tests next Tuesday and the MRI is scheduled for the 29th of June.
All that being said, I have been somewhat freaking out and I have to admit I did consider stopping and grabbing a can of Cope. I have NOT thankfully and continue to stay strong in my quit. I am nervous and scared shitless about what they may find but that is probably more in my head than in reality.
I would like to say a HUGE thank you to Basshaug and Lumberjack Tim for not giving up on me and for continuously pinging my phone until I replied.
We all have our battles and we all fight those battles in different ways, for what it is worth I apologize to my fellow bad ass motherfucking quitters if my disappearing act caused any bad thoughts and/or feelings.
Still quit like FUCK – Mr. Cope
Hey August Brother -
I replied to your post in the August thread and I know those can get lost pretty easily. Anyways ... I don't know if this will help whatsoever, or give you some hope, but this is what I wrote ... ********************
I certainly ain't no doctor (although I stayed in a Holiday Inn Express once), but I had the same symptoms you mentioned about a couple years ago. After the MRI, they found severe stenosis on a couple of levels in my upper back (C-5 C-6) I believe. I also have significant lower back issues ... a whole other story. Anyways, intense physical therapy relieved the pain in my upper back/neck and returned feeling to all but my fingertips in my right hand. Still can fully function though.
The reason I mention this, however, is there was one CONSTANT message I heard from all types of doctors. This is consistent whether it is a recommendation to have lower back surgery to physical therapy for stenosis to recovery of and prior to minor surgery to remove potentially cancerous skin cells.
That message was DO NOT USE NICOTINE as it is harmful to the healing and recovery process whether it is blood related or bone related.
****************************
Having the symptoms you described are not easy to go through without knowledge of what may be occurring. Point is ... nicotine will not help. I noticed you didn't post roll again today. I sent you a PM and am asking you to reach out if I can be of any assistance. Stay strong!!!!
Day 77 today.
Sure as fuck thought I would feel better by now. Not going to lie, I have thought about my old friend more and more lately.
Have had my MRI scheduled 3 times and all three times it has been rescheduled. Although this last time is all my fault as I actually was put into the machine and guess what! I am fucking claustrophobic apparently. No I have to go back under a sedative.
I am starting to think all this shit is just in my head and I am just fine. Well except for the fact I still have numbness and pain in my right arm and my neck hurts like hell.
Still quit but seems the dip dreams have come roaring back, and with a vengeance! I can not begin to express how real it all seems only to wake up in the AM and realize it wasn't real at all. Really FUCKS with my head!
One day I can look back at these post I am writing and laugh. At least that is my hope.
Take care and stay quit!
70's and 80's have a bad funk sometimes, I know I had NIC rages in that time frame. But you are quit as fuck, so no worries man.
I second that. My hardest time quitting was in the 70's. Had a bad funk. Bad thoughts a lot. You have to just put one foot in front of the other so-to-speak. Do what you did that first week...minute-by-minute. You will get through it. It's frustrating but not half as frustrating as starting at another day one. This is one of the hardest addictions to quit for a reason.
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Day 55
No excuses here just facts. I have no excuse for not posting roll the past week.
I have been having a numbness feeling in my right arm for some time now and an awful pain in my neck and upper back on the right side so I decided to go to the doctor to see what the issue may be.
Doctor advised I needed to see a neurosurgeon to get my nerves tested (which I did) and the neurosurgeon said I needed an MRI. I met again with my doctor to start a bunch of blood tests and to get the MRI scheduled. I get the results of the blood tests next Tuesday and the MRI is scheduled for the 29th of June.
All that being said, I have been somewhat freaking out and I have to admit I did consider stopping and grabbing a can of Cope. I have NOT thankfully and continue to stay strong in my quit. I am nervous and scared shitless about what they may find but that is probably more in my head than in reality.
I would like to say a HUGE thank you to Basshaug and Lumberjack Tim for not giving up on me and for continuously pinging my phone until I replied.
We all have our battles and we all fight those battles in different ways, for what it is worth I apologize to my fellow bad ass motherfucking quitters if my disappearing act caused any bad thoughts and/or feelings.
Still quit like FUCK – Mr. Cope
Hey August Brother -
I replied to your post in the August thread and I know those can get lost pretty easily. Anyways ... I don't know if this will help whatsoever, or give you some hope, but this is what I wrote ... ********************
I certainly ain't no doctor (although I stayed in a Holiday Inn Express once), but I had the same symptoms you mentioned about a couple years ago. After the MRI, they found severe stenosis on a couple of levels in my upper back (C-5 C-6) I believe. I also have significant lower back issues ... a whole other story. Anyways, intense physical therapy relieved the pain in my upper back/neck and returned feeling to all but my fingertips in my right hand. Still can fully function though.
The reason I mention this, however, is there was one CONSTANT message I heard from all types of doctors. This is consistent whether it is a recommendation to have lower back surgery to physical therapy for stenosis to recovery of and prior to minor surgery to remove potentially cancerous skin cells.
That message was DO NOT USE NICOTINE as it is harmful to the healing and recovery process whether it is blood related or bone related.
****************************
Having the symptoms you described are not easy to go through without knowledge of what may be occurring. Point is ... nicotine will not help. I noticed you didn't post roll again today. I sent you a PM and am asking you to reach out if I can be of any assistance. Stay strong!!!!
Day 77 today.
Sure as fuck thought I would feel better by now. Not going to lie, I have thought about my old friend more and more lately.
Have had my MRI scheduled 3 times and all three times it has been rescheduled. Although this last time is all my fault as I actually was put into the machine and guess what! I am fucking claustrophobic apparently. No I have to go back under a sedative.
I am starting to think all this shit is just in my head and I am just fine. Well except for the fact I still have numbness and pain in my right arm and my neck hurts like hell.
Still quit but seems the dip dreams have come roaring back, and with a vengeance! I can not begin to express how real it all seems only to wake up in the AM and realize it wasn't real at all. Really FUCKS with my head!
One day I can look back at these post I am writing and laugh. At least that is my hope.
Take care and stay quit!
70's and 80's have a bad funk sometimes, I know I had NIC rages in that time frame. But you are quit as fuck, so no worries man.
I second that. My hardest time quitting was in the 70's. Had a bad funk. Bad thoughts a lot. You have to just put one foot in front of the other so-to-speak. Do what you did that first week...minute-by-minute. You will get through it. It's frustrating but not half as frustrating as starting at another day one. This is one of the hardest addictions to quit for a reason.
Yeah brother, sounds like a bit of life stress helping the nic bitch out.
On the neck thing -- I have similar symptoms although left arm shoulder (own set of scary right there). Pinched nerve was mentioned as a possibility and a new pillow helped a shitload. I can only hope your issue is as easily fixed.
Stay quit, PM me some digits if you need, get through this.
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I was cleaning out my truck this morning. Found an un-opened can dated April 7 2015. I wish I could say if it was still fresh but I will never know as I didn't even open it rather just tossed it into the trash. Feeling good about that decision. 'oh yeah'
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Chalk up another victory my brother! Keep adding them up all we can do is fight and keep winning, congrats! Damn proud to be quit with you today my brother!
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I was cleaning out my truck this morning. Found an un-opened can dated April 7 2015. I wish I could say if it was still fresh but I will never know as I didn't even open it rather just tossed it into the trash. Feeling good about that decision. 'oh yeah'
Smart man. That's a big win.
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Day 94 today:
Almost there to HOF! It has bee difficult but I can honestly say it has been more rewarding. My kids say my breath doesn't smell like a goats ass any longer! My wife and I can actually kiss anytime we like without having to brush and mouth wash every time! I am very much looking forward to days 200, 300, 400, 1000 etc. But until then I will take it 1 day at a time!
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'Finger' This is the worst! Day 3 and I feel like my mind is on drugs. I can't read I cant type very well, nothing. I don't want a chew, I really don't which is surprising as hell.
What you think? How much better is it? Keep it going cope! Quit with you every day!
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Day 94 today:
Almost there to HOF! It has bee difficult but I can honestly say it has been more rewarding. My kids say my breath doesn't smell like a goats ass any longer! My wife and I can actually kiss anytime we like without having to brush and mouth wash every time! I am very much looking forward to days 200, 300, 400, 1000 etc. But until then I will take it 1 day at a time!
That, my friend, is a couple of big WINS! And it keeps getting better and better, believe me, there will be days that you say to yourself, "F this shit, I'll never feel better".... and some where you feel unstoppable! Continue to post roll early, drink the kool-aid, stay active, avoid complacency, and keep reminding yourself how great LIFE is QUIT!
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'Finger' This is the worst! Day 3 and I feel like my mind is on drugs. I can't read I cant type very well, nothing. I don't want a chew, I really don't which is surprising as hell.
What you think? How much better is it? Keep it going cope! Quit with you every day!
Oh it is so much better. I never plan to go back, is NOT worth it!
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Day 96.
Getting nervous about writing an HOF.... Should I be? I thought it would be easy, I thought I would know exactly what to say. I thought by now I would not EVER think about Copenhagen again, like it would be a distant memory, a closed chapter in my life. Holy shit was I ever wrong. I have had a few days between 75 and 95 where the temptation to just go buy a can and have 1 (one) single pinch and throw the rest out would be all I would need. That NIC Bitch is a strong one! Much stronger than I ever realized. So far it is Mr.Cope 96, NIC Bitch 0. 'Remshot'
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You are a bad ass mother fucker!!! Keep it up my man, you are an inspiration to all of us wanna be HOFers.
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You are a bad ass mother fucker!!! Keep it up my man, you are an inspiration to all of us wanna be HOFers.
Mr.cope you're not alone. Probably 95 percent have the same brain fart hit them. I know it has me. You will do fine with your Hof , just write from the heart! Quit on!
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You are a bad ass mother fucker!!! Keep it up my man, you are an inspiration to all of us wanna be HOFers.
Mr.cope you're not alone. Probably 95 percent have the same brain fart hit them. I know it has me. You will do fine with your Hof , just write from the heart! Quit on!
Yeah Pab... I swear some days I feel like I am back in the FOG... It only last for a day or even for just an hour or two, but damn. I am just so ready to feel 100%.
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You are a bad ass mother fucker!!! Keep it up my man, you are an inspiration to all of us wanna be HOFers.
Mr.cope you're not alone. Probably 95 percent have the same brain fart hit them. I know it has me. You will do fine with your Hof , just write from the heart! Quit on!
Yeah Pab... I swear some days I feel like I am back in the FOG... It only last for a day or even for just an hour or two, but damn. I am just so ready to feel 100%.
Don't sweat making it all fancy. Just write from the heart. If you need to sit on it for a while... Than do so. QUIT on!
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You are a bad ass mother fucker!!! Keep it up my man, you are an inspiration to all of us wanna be HOFers.
Mr.cope you're not alone. Probably 95 percent have the same brain fart hit them. I know it has me. You will do fine with your Hof , just write from the heart! Quit on!
Yeah Pab... I swear some days I feel like I am back in the FOG... It only last for a day or even for just an hour or two, but damn. I am just so ready to feel 100%.
Don't sweat making it all fancy. Just write from the heart. If you need to sit on it for a while... Than do so. QUIT on!
Keep up the bad ass quitting mrC.
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2 days. That is all until 100. I feel as if 100 is the magic gate to freedom! Don't get me wrong, I know I will still be an addict and will continue to struggle from time to time and will need the support of this site and all the bad ass quitters here but at least for me there is something which seems magical about going 100 days without something I did daily for 30 some odd years. Its like that point where in my mind I know there is no fucking reason what so ever to ever go back! I have made it! Maybe it is the thought of starting over and having to go back through all the hell one goes through to get through the first 100, I do not know but I am damn thankful for everything and everyone to this point as that is the real reason my quit has stayed on track!
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Made it to HOF! Feel damn good about that! Day 101 today.
Note to self:
You fuck this shit up and have to repeat the first 100 Days and your future self will play WHACK - A - MOLE with your NUTTS
'tough'
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Made it to HOF! Feel damn good about that! Day 101 today.
Note to self:
You fuck this shit up and have to repeat the first 100 Days and your future self will play WHACK - A - MOLE with your NUTTS
'tough'
Congratulations on your Hof! Damn proud of you! Don't change anything. Quit on my friend!