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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Move Forward on March 09, 2009, 10:20:00 AM
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Found this site today and immediately joined.
I have been dipping for 25 years and there comes a time when enough is enough. Sure, I've quit before and told myself that "this is my last can." I'd need a calculator to add up all the "last cans" I've accumulated throughout the years. Then, within a day or so, I'd forget all about that supposed "last can" and continue dipping.
To be honest, I need help. This is one thing in my life that seems like I can't control. I thought I could but this shit ain't easy to overcome. It's addicting as hell and has grabbed me by the throat and won't let go.
That's why I joined here, to man up and to finally grab this beast by the horns, kick it in the backside and get on with a normal life. I'm tired of this addiction having such control over me, I'm taking control now but will need assistance in doing so.
I could babble on and on about my story but it could get rather lengthy so I'll refrain for now.
I've been a SKOAL brother long enough!
Move Forward
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Found this site today and immediately joined.
I have been dipping for 25 years and there comes a time when enough is enough. Sure, I've quit before and told myself that "this is my last can." I'd need a calculator to add up all the "last cans" I've accumulated throughout the years. Then, within a day or so, I'd forget all about that supposed "last can" and continue dipping.
To be honest, I need help. This is one thing in my life that seems like I can't control. I thought I could but this shit ain't easy to overcome. It's addicting as hell and has grabbed me by the throat and won't let go.
That's why I joined here, to man up and to finally grab this beast by the horns, kick it in the backside and get on with a normal life. I'm tired of this addiction having such control over me, I'm taking control now but will need assistance in doing so.
I could babble on and on about my story but it could get rather lengthy so I'll refrain for now.
I've been a SKOAL brother long enough!
Move Forward
You've made a wise choice my friend. There is a ton of support and education available through this site - utilize both. You've got some "rough" days ahead of you with the withdrawl, there's no denying it. It gets better, trust me. Much, much better. Get through the first few days and you'll see what I mean. I hate to even talk in terms of "getting through the first few days." Truthfully, you need to focus on each day one at a time. Get up in the morning, post roll and make that commitment to your quit brothers that you'll have no nicotine for that day. Worry about tomorrow when it gets here. There are a boatload of folks here who will bend over backwards to support you through this. We got your back. You can do this!
Gooch
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Found this site today and immediately joined.Â
I have been dipping for 25 years and there comes a time when enough is enough. Sure, I've quit before and told myself that "this is my last can." I'd need a calculator to add up all the "last cans" I've accumulated throughout the years. Then, within a day or so, I'd forget all about that supposed "last can" and continue dipping.Â
To be honest, I need help. This is one thing in my life that seems like I can't control. I thought I could but this shit ain't easy to overcome. It's addicting as hell and has grabbed me by the throat and won't let go.Â
That's why I joined here, to man up and to finally grab this beast by the horns, kick it in the backside and get on with a normal life. I'm tired of this addiction having such control over me, I'm taking control now but will need assistance in doing so.
I could babble on and on about my story but it could get rather lengthy so I'll refrain for now.
I've been a SKOAL brother long enough!
Move Forward
You've made a wise choice my friend. There is a ton of support and education available through this site - utilize both. You've got some "rough" days ahead of you with the withdrawl, there's no denying it. It gets better, trust me. Much, much better. Get through the first few days and you'll see what I mean. I hate to even talk in terms of "getting through the first few days." Truthfully, you need to focus on each day one at a time. Get up in the morning, post roll and make that commitment to your quit brothers that you'll have no nicotine for that day. Worry about tomorrow when it gets here. There are a boatload of folks here who will bend over backwards to support you through this. We got your back. You can do this!
Gooch
Get after it move forward. Every morning look in the mirror and tell yourself...out loud if you have to...I will NOT use nicotine today. Then everytime you crave...everytime it hurts...everytime you drive by your favorite "convenience store" say to your self...or out loud...NO, that decision has been made today. Worry about tomorrow when it gets here. Worry about this afternoon at 3:00 when it gets here. Just know that for right now there is no reason to discuss it because that decision has been made! That has gotten me through 21 days...after 33 years of slavery to the crap. Use us...that's what we are here for!
Brian
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The cravings hit me hard last night after dinner but I didn't cave. It was like I had 2 voices in my head or something, my irrational voice and my rational voice. I really was craving that dip bad, but held firm.
Now this morning, I wake up at 3:30 in the morning to got to the restroom and Mr. Craving really hits hard again. Oh it's driving me crazy the way this craving is messing with my head. Trying to catch me off guard and get me to break. The chew monster will always be there tempting me to come back, but I won this battle.
Screw the chew!
Move Forward
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hey man you guys every time i see this thred i think some one is tryin to get my attenshun. but any way keep fitin the good fite. dont give in to the nic bitch!
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The cravings hit me hard last night after dinner but I didn't cave. It was like I had 2 voices in my head or something, my irrational voice and my rational voice. I really was craving that dip bad, but held firm.
Now this morning, I wake up at 3:30 in the morning to got to the restroom and Mr. Craving really hits hard again. Oh it's driving me crazy the way this craving is messing with my head. Trying to catch me off guard and get me to break. The chew monster will always be there tempting me to come back, but I won this battle.
Screw the chew!
Move Forward
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Good job holding steady. It will get better I promise you. 1st few days are by far the worst. Take it day by day and soon enough those days will add up to a week and you'll be loving life. Chew gum, eat sunflower seeds, drink green tea, whatever it takes brother. You can do this!
Gooch
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Well, it's day 3 for me today! I thought I'd add to this every day, sort of my own personal journal, to keep myself accountable and to record any experiences I'm having. I'm thankful to everyone whose helped me up to this point.
Yesterday was hell, the nic bitch called on me all day yesterday, she came close to sweet talking me into caving but I bitch slapped her ass back to reality. Then for a good part of the day I was in a fog, seemed like 1/2 the time I was in La La land.
Went to Lowes yesterday to price some fencing...seemed like a simple enough thing to do. As I was pricing the various types, this strange feeling came over me. I just felt weird, as if I was hypnotized by some strange force or something. It felt as if I were there staring at this one particular fence for what seemed like hours. I remember an older gentleman walking past me a few times. I didn't look at him because I was entranced by this fence...for whatever reason, but I did see him non the less. I can just imagine what was going through his mind as he watched me stare down this fence...he probably thought I was just released from the loony farm or something.
Anyway, that happened a few other times yesterday as well, just kind of off in my own little world for periods of time. That is some weird shit, how I can just daze away like that....that nic really is a bitch, ain't she? Can hardly wait to see what's in store for the days that follow. Whoopee!
Screw that chew!
MF
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lol i read that and couldnt help but laugh. I was at mcdonalds around day 3 zoned out in line dreaming of chew. The cashier suddenly asked me what i wanted to eat, for a very long second i had absolutly no idea where i was. I looked around and was so fogged, dizy and disoriented i just wanted to climb in a hole and cry. So i naturally panicked screamed out #2 (having no idea what i ordered just thankful it wasnt the filet o fish) and threw my money on the table. When i received my meal i ran out as quickly as i could and came straight to this website and im sure if it werent for KTC i would have gone straight to the gas station and filled my mouth with chew but not this time
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Day 4 today
Not too bad of a day today. Had a couple of craves today, but they fizzled out without much of a fuss. I did have the fog quite a bit today. Matter of fact, as I'm composing this, I'm a little foggy. Most of the day I was spent cooped up inside a room...my mind wondered all over the place. I am not sure what they call those things they put on horses during a race, (those side shield things) but it felt like I had those on all day today. Felt like I had a major case of tunnel vision for the majority of the day.
Had a couple of small craves after lunch and dinner, but for the most part, they weren't as strong as previous days cravings. I get on this site as much as I can when I feel an urge to chew, and for me, that helps to control my urge.
When the nic bitch calls, she's getting busy signals....she's nothing more than a telemarketer to me now...just a huge pain in the ass and I'm not giving in to what she's selling.
I'm digging the chew rings in my jeans...they're a reminder of the toughest thing I've overcome and I wear it proudly, just waiting for someone to ask me for a dip...and when they do I hope they're prepared for what I'm about to unleash on em'.
God help the chewer, for they know not what they do.
STAY QUIT!
MF
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Blinders...I think they are called blinders. And yes, you most definately had them on.
Nicely done!
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Day 5
Pretty uneventful day. Still battling the fog...I feel like a zombie today, hope this phase goes away soon!
Found an empty tin today. Took the lid off and took a whiff. The scent took me on a rollercoaster of emotions and feelings, none of which I can attest that I miss very much. Amazing how such a small round object can have such control over my entire livelihood. I am so glad I am quit.
Screw that chew!
MF
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Day 6
Seems like my craves are fading, I still get a crave now and then, however they aren't nearly as strong as they were earlier this week. Still fighting the fogginess a little bit and I tend to zone out on occasion. I stopped at a green light today and it took a few moments for me to realize that green meant "go"... well, that and the car behind me honking at me quickly snapped me out of the fog I was in.
Really not one to remember my dreams, but for some reason I had a crazy dream last night that I could remember bits and pieces of this morning. Dreamt that I was smoking weed all night long and was coughing my ass off. When I awoke, I was coughing a little bit. Have no idea why I had that dream or even remembered it for that matter. Maybe that was some sign that the nic bitch is leaving my system or something.
Appreciate all the help I've received thus far, it has definitely helped with my quit.
Well, I'm off to enjoy me some of this weekend quit, I'll be the one outside slapping the nic bitch around.
Have a great weekend quitters!
MF
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Day 6
Seems like my craves are fading, I still get a crave now and then, however they aren't nearly as strong as they were earlier this week. Still fighting the fogginess a little bit and I tend to zone out on occasion. I stopped at a green light today and it took a few moments for me to realize that green meant "go"... well, that and the car behind me honking at me quickly snapped me out of the fog I was in.Â
Really not one to remember my dreams, but for some reason I had a crazy dream last night that I could remember bits and pieces of this morning. Dreamt that I was smoking weed all night long and was coughing my ass off. When I awoke, I was coughing a little bit. Have no idea why I had that dream or even remembered it for that matter. Maybe that was some sign that the nic bitch is leaving my system or something.Â
Appreciate all the help I've received thus far, it has definitely helped with my quit.
Well, I'm off to enjoy me some of this weekend quit, I'll be the one outside slapping the nic bitch around.
Have a great weekend quitters!
MF
Smack that bitch for me once too...will ya? GO!
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Day 7
Getting my first week in, first 3 days were hell, with my day #2 being the worst-the craves hit me bad that day. The last few days I've been in the fog, however today it seems to be fading and the craves are slowly creeping back in. The nic bitch is up to her same old tricks but I'm not having any of it...I'm quit! I'm choking that bitch off, not giving her a chance to get back in my head...I know it's only been 7 days but they're my 7 days and I'm damn proud of em'!
My nic bitch needs to pack her shit and get out of dodge, just like that Mr. Mucus on the Mucinex commercials, cause she's not welcome any longer.
Keep the nic bitch at bay---STAY QUIT!
MF
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Day 8
Made it through the weekend and am still quit! Was tested by a buddy of mine, he put in a big ol' fatty-I caught a whiff of it, it smelled just like I remembered...I stood firm and didn't cave. Thanks to all who have helped me, that is how I stayed strong and didn't give in to the crave.
I thought the nic bitch was on her way out the door until I woke up in the middle of the night last night thinking a giant tin was after me. Oh yea, biggest friggin' tin I'd ever seen, rollin' right towards me...woke my ass up out of a sound sleep. Damn u nic bitch-just for that I'm kicking your ass again today!
Stay Strong-Stay Quit Brothers and Sisters!
MF
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When you guit,things like that will test you.But stay the course.
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Day 9
Happy St. Patrick's day to all you quitters out there!
Very uneventful day, nothing really to report with the exception of feeling really tired today. I read somewhere on here that sleepiness would be one of the symptoms, so I'm assuming that's why I'm tired.
Still in a little bit of the fog, staring off into space at times. Really is a weird feeling when you get in that "twilight zone" because to me, it feels like I'm in that zone for quite some time. Can't wait until this phase passes, it sure has been a doozy for me.
Anything beats putting a big ol' fatty in though and being a slave to the nic bitch. Have to train the mind to think otherwise, placing positive stimuli where the nicotine used to be.
That's why I'm here and that's why I'm assuming that everyone else is here, to overcome our addiction and to have a place to interact with others with the same addiction. Positive actions produce positive reactions and that's what we're all after.
This isn't easy and we're up against a pretty tough opponent. Sometimes this opponent plays tricks on us that will try and get us to fail. However, there is strength in numbers and our numbers here provide a lot of strength, strength that can overpower our opponent. We are one united front, rolling up our sleeves, helping our fellow man or woman achieve success in one of the toughest battles we've ever faced.
We my friends can do this! We've got each others backs. We are winners!
Stay Quit!
MF
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Day 10
Double digits today, holy shit has it been 10 days already? Time is flying right by and I'm feeling very good about my decision to quit. Best decision I've made, quitting that nasty habit and beating that nic bitch into submission.
Hasn't been too bad today, the fog just won't leave me totally, however it's lifting and I'm regaining some of my sanity. I can feel myself a little on the edgy side now, my temper is a little shorter than I'd like, however with time I'm sure it will subside as well. I'm finding out that this site is a great place to vent those frustrations, or short tempers...must be a full moon out or something because a lot of people were venting today.
Overall, a good day, every day is good that I've beaten the nic bitch.
Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
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Overall, a good day, every day is good that I've beaten the nic bitch.
Damn straight. It gets better. I have not had a serious crave in a very very long time.
The quit is good.
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Day 11
Did a lot of traveling today, the craves came a calling a couple of times but chewing on some Orbit gum did the trick for me. Driving long distances gives my mind time to wonder and allow the craves to creep in. I hate the craves because it makes me feel as if I'm weak, or not trying hard enough. However I know this isn't true because it is the nicotine and it's effect it has had for many years on my brain and the way that I think and perceive things. I'm not weak at all, it's that nic bitch playing head games with me again.
Having made it 11 days gives me great pride in knowing that I can do this, I will do this and that I will stay quit! It is the power in ones self that true believers are made.
For those that have shown us the way, Thank You, for if it weren't for you, we would be blind.
For those of us following in their footsteps, be strong, for we are the next generation.
For those of you sitting on the fence, you know in your heart what is right, join us and leave the nic bitch behind!
Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
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Day 12
One dozen days down today. Craves hit me a couple of times today, but thatÂ’s as far as it got. Just when I think that my craves are easing up, wham! I get hit with a couple of doozies. Just shows that no matter how well youÂ’re doing with your quit, that crave can hit you at any time. Being strong and believing in myself helped me overcome those craves. There is no way IÂ’m going to let myself, my mentors or my group down! Not on this or any other day.
Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
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Day 15
Gone all weekend and didn't get a chance to update my post. Was quit all weekend and only had 1 small crave, which I quickly dismissed and went on about my weekend.
Starting on 2nd week and am beginning to notice that my behavior has changed. I am beginning to get agitated very easily now and with very little provocation. Things that would have never bothered me in the past are now really irritating me. It is the little things, things that don't really matter that are pissing me off. It's frustrating because I know they are petty things, however, they still get under my skin for whatever reason. Hell I'm starting to get a little agitated as I am writing this because I know it shouldn't bother me, yet it is! This is the frustrating part, knowing that I'm agitated but not being able to suppress the emotional side of my feelings. I hate being this way and hope that this phase passes soon.
The fog isn't as bad as it was, however it still hasn't completely faded away. Still get moments where I feel like I'm in another place or something, however it doesn't last as long and as often as it did previously. For the most part, I only get 1 or 2 episodes of fogginess a day now as apposed to 5-10 or more per day previously.
To be honest, going through all of these changes and riding these emotional roller coasters has proven to me how bad chewing this shit really is. I put my system and my health at risk for many years, thinking I could quit at the drop of a dime. What kind of ass lets some round tin control all of their emotions and actions. That ass was me. I thank my lucky stars for this site because I've been quit for 15 glorious days now and without this site, I'm sure that I'd be sportin' a fatty right now. I'm proud of myself and all of my brothers and sisters throughout this site that have stood up to the nic bitch, slapped her across the face and never looked back. Right on Quitters, right on! You are the strongest bunch of MOFOS I've come across and I'm proud to be associated with you.
If you're reading this and you're on the fence about quitting, get some stones. Don't wait till tomorrow what you could do today. You're letting that tin be in charge and having control over you. I challenge you to take control of yourself and your life by tossing that tin, manning up and joining a quit group. It could just be the best thing that's ever happened to you and it may well end up saving your life.
Get off the fence!
Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
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Good words MF. Despite all the headaches involved with this, it appears you have some clarity with the whole quit. I can relate to what you're going through. Thanks for sharing.
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Good words MF. Despite all the headaches involved with this, it appears you have some clarity with the whole quit. I can relate to what you're going through. Thanks for sharing.
Keep up the great work MF, the next 15 days will be better than the first ones you have now gone through. Hang tough
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Day 15
Gone all weekend and didn't get a chance to update my post. Was quit all weekend and only had 1 small crave, which I quickly dismissed and went on about my weekend.
Starting on 2nd week and am beginning to notice that my behavior has changed. I am beginning to get agitated very easily now and with very little provocation. Things that would have never bothered me in the past are now really irritating me. It is the little things, things that don't really matter that are pissing me off. It's frustrating because I know they are petty things, however, they still get under my skin for whatever reason. Hell I'm starting to get a little agitated as I am writing this because I know it shouldn't bother me, yet it is! This is the frustrating part, knowing that I'm agitated but not being able to suppress the emotional side of my feelings. I hate being this way and hope that this phase passes soon.
The fog isn't as bad as it was, however it still hasn't completely faded away. Still get moments where I feel like I'm in another place or something, however it doesn't last as long and as often as it did previously. For the most part, I only get 1 or 2 episodes of fogginess a day now as apposed to 5-10 or more per day previously.
To be honest, going through all of these changes and riding these emotional roller coasters has proven to me how bad chewing this shit really is. I put my system and my health at risk for many years, thinking I could quit at the drop of a dime. What kind of ass lets some round tin control all of their emotions and actions. That ass was me. I thank my lucky stars for this site because I've been quit for 15 glorious days now and without this site, I'm sure that I'd be sportin' a fatty right now. I'm proud of myself and all of my brothers and sisters throughout this site that have stood up to the nic bitch, slapped her across the face and never looked back. Right on Quitters, right on! You are the strongest bunch of MOFOS I've come across and I'm proud to be associated with you.
If you're reading this and you're on the fence about quitting, get some stones. Don't wait till tomorrow what you could do today. You're letting that tin be in charge and having control over you. I challenge you to take control of yourself and your life by tossing that tin, manning up and joining a quit group. It could just be the best thing that's ever happened to you and it may well end up saving your life.
Get off the fence!
Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
MF-
I had an extremely similar experience as you explained. Found myself getting pissed at total strangers over petty shit. I'm day 36 today and looking back, I'd say it's been roughly the last 7 to 10 days that things have improved in that regard.
Let me share these words of wisdom with you. One of my favorite quotes by honest Abe, "Most people are about as happy as they make their minds up to be." Not saying you're choosing to be an asshole or pissy MF, just saying keep things in perspective. You are in the midst of one of the toughest endeavors you'll likely encounter in life. The upside is your winning. Not only are you winning but you're kicking ass and you deserve all the credit for that. Yes, we've supported you along the way. You've returned that support to me and others, but as far as your quit goes nobody can do that for you. Great job, keep up the good work!!
Gooch
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Day 16
Over half a month gone by now. Time is zipping right by and it's hard to believe I haven't had a chew in 16 days. If you'd have told me I would be dip free for 16 days, I would probably have laughed and said: "yeah, right!" Minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, pretty soon, those days start adding up and you're well on your way.
It's an awesome feeling to be quit. Being a quitter doesn't take any special skills, it doesn't require a college degree or special knowledge, it just takes belief. Belief in yourself, belief that you can do what you set your mind to and go out and achieve it.
When I first thought about quitting, every can of chew I bought was "My Last Can". I kept telling myself that over and over, but didn't believe I could do it. I failed over and over again because I really didn't take it seriously. Then I found QSX. This site gave me the belief in myself and the support system to go with it. Now I'm a believer, I'm posting roll, staying accountable and trying to do my part in helping others.
The site works folks, use it to your advantage. Knowledge is power and with that knowledge we can change ourselves for the better.
Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
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Day 20
Entering another weekend of quit. Looking forward to 3 weeks of quit tomorrow.
Craves hit me hard, very hard yesterday. Just when I thought things were smoothly sailing along, WHAM-I get hit with one hell of a crave! This crave reminded me of my craves when I first quit, that's how strong the crave was. I came on here, went into the chat room and got some help. Thank goodness for this site, if it wasn't for me knowing that I had somewhere to turn, I could have very easily caved yesterday.
This site gives more than just support, it gives confidence and belief in ones self. At first, when I first joined, it seemed a little weird. Here's a site that actually keeps you accountable for staying nic free. Very different concept, very good results. Just scroll through the HOF speeches and there's the proof that this site works.
Quitting will test your will, your strength, your desire. It will test every fiber of our being. We will be tested every day for the rest of our lives. I take it one day at a time, never looking too far ahead, remembering where I've been and where I want to go. I will pass this test with all of you and will stand by your side as we take this journey together.
Stay Strong Quitters!
MF
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Dear Move Forward,
You are an inspiration to us all. Period. Thanks brother.
Mike
p.s. another fine day of skiing with no dip for me.....I swear I had more energy today (I know I had more energy without dragging the nic-bitch around).
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Day 22
Not posting every day here like I had originally thought I would. Still posting roll every day, still holding myself accountable. Hard to come up with something new every day. Thought I'd start this as sort of a journal, with intentions of posting every day and my emotions each day, etc... For whatever reason, I haven't been able to post as often as I would like.
Every day is a new day, I'm learning more and more each day. I learn something from the older groups and am inspired by the newer groups. I truly enjoy coming to this site each day, reading what ever it is-is on someone's mind, and understanding where they are coming from.
Every person that posts is posting from the heart, they are posting from what they feel at that time. To me, that is truly inspirational, to be able to speak your mind and to help a fellow human being. For whatever reasons, we are here. We all have been brought here to help one another.
Our addiction brought us to this point, our fellowship will help us get past it. I've made a lot of friends here. We all have our friends that have helped us through tough times. Thank that friend today, let them know you care enough to thank them for saving your life.
Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
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Day 22
Not posting every day here like I had originally thought I would. Still posting roll every day, still holding myself accountable. Hard to come up with something new every day. Thought I'd start this as sort of a journal, with intentions of posting every day and my emotions each day, etc... For whatever reason, I haven't been able to post as often as I would like.
Every day is a new day, I'm learning more and more each day. I learn something from the older groups and am inspired by the newer groups. I truly enjoy coming to this site each day, reading what ever it is-is on someone's mind, and understanding where they are coming from.
Every person that posts is posting from the heart, they are posting from what they feel at that time. To me, that is truly inspirational, to be able to speak your mind and to help a fellow human being. For whatever reasons, we are here. We all have been brought here to help one another.
Our addiction brought us to this point, our fellowship will help us get past it. I've made a lot of friends here. We all have our friends that have helped us through tough times. Thank that friend today, let them know you care enough to thank them for saving your life.
Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
MF-
You sir are one hell of a quitter. Great job on the continued quit, day by day. Your journal is a great idea and I guess I wouldn't have much to say on a daily basis either so don't feel bad. I know I don't have to tell you this but if you need anything let me know.
I'll try to get in on a "chat" with you fellas one evening soon, been super busy. Day 45 for me today. Damn it feels good don't it?
Gooch
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Day 24
Been feeling pretty good about the quit, damn good actually. Closing in on my first month and feel proud of what I've achieved. My will to stay quit seems to grow stronger every day. I know there will be trying times ahead, not every day will be sunny and roses, but for now, my determination and will are very strong.
For the brothers and sisters in my June 09' quit group, I look forward to posting roll with you every day and crossing that HOF line with ALL OF YOU! It is by no means a finish line but a meaningful line none the less. It is our line, a line that points to our future and reminds us of where we've come from and where we need to get to.
For the brothers and sisters before me and that are leading the way for those of us that will follow in your footsteps: THANK YOU for supporting all of us! It has been by your guiding hands that we've made it this far and have been successful in our daily battles. Without all of you, none of this would be possible.
For the brothers and sisters just joining in this wonderful journey, do not waver, stay true to yourself, stay strong and have faith, it gets better every day. The life you save without a dip may very well be your own! You are worth every bit of daily quit you put into it!
I promise to be a good steward, to pay everything forward and to do it to the best of my abilities. It has been done before me and shall be done after me as well.
The Nic Bitch cometh and WE shall taketh her ass away!
Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
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Day 29
Days going by faster faster it seems, amazing how the days add up. Taking it one day at a time the days just fly by. The craves come and go but they are really not bad at all for me right now. Doesn't matter what I'm doing or going to do, I will always have my guard up.
Put on a few LBS. since I've quit and am ready to start dealing with that. I'd rather put on a few pounds than have to worry about my next nic fix. So glad to have that shit out of my system...
Think I'll go spar with the nic bitch...got 25 years of frustration I'm ready to unleash on her ass! Ding-Ding!
Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
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Day 37
Today is tax day and typically today would be a very heavy dip day for me. I'd be crunching numbers, sweating bullets and putting one dip in right after another worrying if I was going to be the recipient of some cold hard cash or if I was going to have to fork over some jack. However, today is day 37 for me and I'm nic free, plus I don't have to fret about getting dip juice all over everything, that's a bonus in itself.
Have had a few craves the past few days but easily able to squash em'. Returned to work this week and the triggers there weren't as bad as what I had anticipated, this site being the main reason to prepare me for any situation I may face.
Have had a couple of foggy moments as well, I guess those kind of come and go, they aren't as strong as in the past. Still is a funny feeling at times because you know you're in a fog, yet kind of enjoy it because it's almost surreal. I'll take the fog over a lip turd any day, plus the fog can make for some funny ass stories at times as well.
If you're new, welcome aboard! This site is a tool, use this tool in your quit and put it in your arsenal of weapons that combat the nic bitch. She's a sneaky bitch and can blind side you if you aren't prepared. Stay true to yourself and your group, post roll everyday and hold yourself accountable. The site works if you put in the effort. Put in the effort and make it work for you, the results will come one day at a time.
There is more to life than having a round tin as a best friend. That's one friend I can certainly do without!
Here's to you and your quit! 'Cheers'
Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
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I used to complain to my wife how I must never get enough sleep. I would try everything, gradually bumping up my bedtime, cutting out caffeine, etc. But I would still wake up feeling like a zomby for fifteen minutes to a half hour, stumbling out of bed, directly to brush my teeth, immediately followed by a dip while I shave and shower. It was like I was in lala land autopilot.
It wasn't until the quit that I realized that these symptoms aren't due to any sort of sleeping disorder. It was the fog, withdrawl from going 6 to 8 hours without nicotine. Now, I wake up refreshed most mornings. For that, I am thankful.
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I used to complain to my wife how I must never get enough sleep. I would try everything, gradually bumping up my bedtime, cutting out caffeine, etc. But I would still wake up feeling like a zomby for fifteen minutes to a half hour, stumbling out of bed, directly to brush my teeth, immediately followed by a dip while I shave and shower. It was like I was in lala land autopilot.
It wasn't until the quit that I realized that these symptoms aren't due to any sort of sleeping disorder. It was the fog, withdrawl from going 6 to 8 hours without nicotine. Now, I wake up refreshed most mornings. For that, I am thankful.
That's the truth.
I'm wondering what your "time until you think of dip" is these days. Tomorrow is day 50 for me. Yesterday, I think I went 2 full hours before I thought of it ... probably when I posted roll. Today though .... IMMEDIATELY!!.
Can't wait for that to change.
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I used to complain to my wife how I must never get enough sleep. I would try everything, gradually bumping up my bedtime, cutting out caffeine, etc. But I would still wake up feeling like a zomby for fifteen minutes to a half hour, stumbling out of bed, directly to brush my teeth, immediately followed by a dip while I shave and shower. It was like I was in lala land autopilot.
It wasn't until the quit that I realized that these symptoms aren't due to any sort of sleeping disorder. It was the fog, withdrawl from going 6 to 8 hours without nicotine. Now, I wake up refreshed most mornings. For that, I am thankful.
That's the truth.
I'm wondering what your "time until you think of dip" is these days. Tomorrow is day 50 for me. Yesterday, I think I went 2 full hours before I thought of it ... probably when I posted roll. Today though .... IMMEDIATELY!!.
Can't wait for that to change.
I still think about it nearly first thing in the morning. Even if I am not in the morning fog, which I usually am not, I'm still thinking as I brush my teeth, "Sheesh, 25 days ago I would have thrown a dip in right after I put my toothbrush away." Sometimes the thought does tip off a crave. I usually then put in some Smokey Mountain, though.
One thing that does distract me first thing in the morning, though, is recalling crazy ass dreams I keep having. I haven't had the cave dreams people keep talking about, but I've dreamt of people killing people, people raping babies, crazy shit. Last night I dreamt I was disarming this guy who had a gun, but he also had a knife, and he stabbed me twice in the thigh. I didn't get shot, though...
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Day 53
Haven't posted here in a while and figured I'd post a little something. Quit is going fantastic, chewing the shit out of seeds when at work, that was always a trigger for me - my work, along with about a thousand other triggers!
Still eating like a buffalo with 2 assholes, I'm hoping at some point the appetite will diminish before my midsection explodes. Right now, food is tasting great and my new addiction to the fork is something that is on my next "to do" list.
Been getting a lot of sleep, more than I ever did when I was dipping. The pillow and I are spending a lot more time together and my body is appreciating that, it's catching up on some much needed rest.
Joined the KTC blog (http://blog.killthecan.org/) and will probably post on occasion over there. Check it out, it's in it's infancy stages but it's worth the read.
Till next time: Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
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Day 69
Been a while since last post but quit is going a lot better than I expected. Have had one serious crave that was back in my mid 50 quit days but overcame that. I know that other craves are lurking in the shadows but having this site and the chat really help me stay quit and true to self.
Was out of town all of last week, had Kid post roll for me...Kid, if you read this, Thanks for posting for me.
Was around a lot of people that dipped last week and am so fortunate I'm quit, those guys looked fucking ignorant with those big fatties in their lips and breath that smelled like old gym socks. I had a spit cup but it was full of sunflower seeds from the big David sunflower seeds I was chewing on all week.
Something great about this site that I would like to share is the accountability with each of our quits. As I mentioned, I was away from home all of last week and my only way of posting was for me to text a quit buddy from my cell phone, which I did every day. Here's the neat thing, Bhfive, being the great quitter that he is, became concerned about me and shot me a quick text checking up on me and making sure I was doing alright. Talk about making you feel good, that's some awesome shit right there. Having a fellow quitter thinking enough about you to check in and make sure you're alright is an awesome feeling. Bhfive, thank you bro, you're one hell of a quit brother in my book!
To those of you that are just getting started, find yourself a quit buddy, get their number, post for one another if there's a time you won't be able to post. It may sound a little silly to you right now, but when you utilize it, the feeling and satisfaction you get from it will be well worth it. Staying quit isn't a game and using all the tools from this site will make your quit much more attainable. Having a quit buddy or multiple quit buddies is well worth it and it only takes a few seconds to send a text, invest in one another and you will reap the rewards.
Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
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Day 69
Been a while since last post but quit is going a lot better than I expected. Have had one serious crave that was back in my mid 50 quit days but overcame that. I know that other craves are lurking in the shadows but having this site and the chat really help me stay quit and true to self.
Was out of town all of last week, had Kid post roll for me...Kid, if you read this, Thanks for posting for me.
Was around a lot of people that dipped last week and am so fortunate I'm quit, those guys looked fucking ignorant with those big fatties in their lips and breath that smelled like old gym socks. I had a spit cup but it was full of sunflower seeds from the big David sunflower seeds I was chewing on all week.
Something great about this site that I would like to share is the accountability with each of our quits. As I mentioned, I was away from home all of last week and my only way of posting was for me to text a quit buddy from my cell phone, which I did every day. Here's the neat thing, Bhfive, being the great quitter that he is, became concerned about me and shot me a quick text checking up on me and making sure I was doing alright. Talk about making you feel good, that's some awesome shit right there. Having a fellow quitter thinking enough about you to check in and make sure you're alright is an awesome feeling. Bhfive, thank you bro, you're one hell of a quit brother in my book!
To those of you that are just getting started, find yourself a quit buddy, get their number, post for one another if there's a time you won't be able to post. It may sound a little silly to you right now, but when you utilize it, the feeling and satisfaction you get from it will be well worth it. Staying quit isn't a game and using all the tools from this site will make your quit much more attainable. Having a quit buddy or multiple quit buddies is well worth it and it only takes a few seconds to send a text, invest in one another and you will reap the rewards.
Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
And you returned the favor Saturday while I was watching my baby and could not get to computer as early as usual. I think it makes my quit a lot more fun haveing brothers to keep an eye on.
Great quit MF!
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Day 69
Been a while since last post but quit is going a lot better than I expected. Have had one serious crave that was back in my mid 50 quit days but overcame that. I know that other craves are lurking in the shadows but having this site and the chat really help me stay quit and true to self.
Was out of town all of last week, had Kid post roll for me...Kid, if you read this, Thanks for posting for me.
Was around a lot of people that dipped last week and am so fortunate I'm quit, those guys looked fucking ignorant with those big fatties in their lips and breath that smelled like old gym socks. I had a spit cup but it was full of sunflower seeds from the big David sunflower seeds I was chewing on all week.Â
Something great about this site that I would like to share is the accountability with each of our quits. As I mentioned, I was away from home all of last week and my only way of posting was for me to text a quit buddy from my cell phone, which I did every day. Here's the neat thing, Bhfive, being the great quitter that he is, became concerned about me and shot me a quick text checking up on me and making sure I was doing alright. Talk about making you feel good, that's some awesome shit right there. Having a fellow quitter thinking enough about you to check in and make sure you're alright is an awesome feeling. Bhfive, thank you bro, you're one hell of a quit brother in my book!
To those of you that are just getting started, find yourself a quit buddy, get their number, post for one another if there's a time you won't be able to post. It may sound a little silly to you right now, but when you utilize it, the feeling and satisfaction you get from it will be well worth it. Staying quit isn't a game and using all the tools from this site will make your quit much more attainable. Having a quit buddy or multiple quit buddies is well worth it and it only takes a few seconds to send a text, invest in one another and you will reap the rewards.Â
Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
And you returned the favor Saturday while I was watching my baby and could not get to computer as early as usual. I think it makes my quit a lot more fun haveing brothers to keep an eye on.
Great quit MF!
No problem bro...you're my quit brother and I got your back just like you've got mine.
It makes the quit that much more meaningful when you have others to answer to...just like posting roll...don't let your quit brother/sister down and you won't let yourself down.
See you at roll tomorrow you quitter!
MF
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Day 87
Eighty seven...can't even fathom that just yet...all I know is that is a shit-load of days without dip.
Yay for me...yay for you...yay for all of us that do not chew!
Took the lid off an old Skoal can yesterday, Nic Bitch tried to get me to play her game, I kicked her in the taint and kept on going.
Fuck that bitch!
MF
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Day 87
Eighty seven...can't even fathom that just yet...all I know is that is a shit-load of days without dip.
Yay for me...yay for you...yay for all of us that do not chew!
Took the lid off an old Skoal can yesterday, Nic Bitch tried to get me to play her game, I kicked her in the taint and kept on going.
Fuck that bitch!
MF
You got that bitch under control MF.
I found one can around day 10. That was rough - had to open the lid, smell it and stare at it for a couple minutes. I think I did that routine maybe 3 times and finally said fuck you and dumped it in the grass. I found another can in my truck around day 45-50. Opened it up, smelled it again and wouldn't you know it my wife and daughter come out of the house. Immediately, I'm freaked thinking my Bra'Ho is going to suspect I'm caving. I stuff that can in my pants go to the garage, dump that shit out and gave a big fuck you to the nic bitch. Keep on keeping on bro
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Dan, that would have been the worst way to get busted by the old lady,,, dunno her but who the fuck would believe that excuse, after all the shit ive pulled i could never sell that on,, close call......
fuckyoukodiak!!
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Dan, that would have been the worst way to get busted by the old lady,,, dunno her but who the fuck would believe that excuse, after all the shit ive pulled i could never sell that on,, close call......
fuckyoukodiak!!
No shit!!! No way my ninja ass would have convinced her of that.
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Day 102
Just awaking from the alcohol induced coma from the HOF train that ran through here a couple days ago. What a ride that was!
Was gone for a few days with work and didn't get a chance to post but kept in contact via texts so I had my bases covered. Didn't even get to post my Day 100 so I had Kid post for me. I couldn't think of a more logical choice than for the one person that was so instrumental in my quit from Day 1.
Got the HOF speech (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=2544) written and posted. I left a shitload of people out that I wanted to thank and that sucks because if it weren't for all of them as a whole, I wouldn't be as quit as I am.
I'm proof this site works, along with a boatload of others. I don't know how many times I tried to quit, I don't have that many fingers and toes but what I do know is that I owe every single day of my quit to this site and to all of the other dippers turned quitters!
If you can read, you can quit! If you want to quit, please read all that you can. It helped me and can help you as well. My journey is far from over, but the experiences along that journey are what make the trip worthwhile.
Thank you to all of you that have been a part of my quit, I am forever grateful. Those that are new, ask for help if you need it. We're here for you and we want you to succeed as much as possible. PM (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?act=Msg&CODE=4&MID=6763) me and I'll be in your corner, offering encouragement and support. Don't be afraid to ask, this is a help driven site and we want to help you quit! You can do this!
Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
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Congrats
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:ph43r:
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Day 119
Being 100+ days in feels good, it really does...however it's just a beginning. I've had some serious cravings since day 100 so don't think for a minute that just because you reach a certain milestone in your quit that things will become easier. Yes the nicotine is out of my system, yes I am quit and am strong in my diligence against the bitch, yes, I can do without her, and absolutely yes, I can and will be quit for today!
This bitch is always in hiding, waiting for a weak moment in our life. She's ready to pounce on a seconds notice, ready to enslave us once again to her meaningless ways. She has not one iota of feeling for us, for she prays on our weaknesses and it is at that moment that we second guess ourselves. Don't let that bitch back in, send her packing, you deserve it, you've come too far, we are far too strong for her to come calling and deceive us once again! When the thought of her crosses our minds, we must take appropriate actions. When our quit is tested, we strengthen our resolve by confiding in others. We are Quitters, we are strong and no one can take that from us.
You are an awesome quitter, that shit that used to be in your lip is long gone. It may be difficult to deal with at first, however, it is for the best and you know it! Quitting isn't easy but it is very rewarding, stick with it and reap the rewards. I like the statistics of a non dipper and I think I'll stay on this side of the fence.
Stay here, stay strong and stay Quit!
Good luck to you and your quit, you can do this.
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Just wondering. What ever happened to this dude?
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Just wondering. What ever happened to this dude?
I tried texting him the other day, no response. He is from my home town and we kept in touch a little here and there. Last activity was July 11th, I previously talked to him like July 6th....not good.
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Just wondering. What ever happened to this dude?
I tried texting him the other day, no response. He is from my home town and we kept in touch a little here and there. Last activity was July 11th, I previously talked to him like July 6th....not good.
Hmmm.
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I'd stake out. Your local ghandi mart.. And dole out some ktc.com justice ala pipe wrench style
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No pipe wrenches needed, not stake outs...
Been out of state for a long time with work. Living out of a suitcase and in hotels isn't much fun if you have a family, which is how I've been living for the past 2 1/2 months or so. Got a laptop about a week ago so I'm going to make a valiant effort to stay current and active on here again.
A few may have thought that I caved because of my absence but I am proud to say that I did not. Was tempted and tested a lot of times, but because of this site, I'm proud to say that I'm still quit! May sound corny and mushy and shit but if it weren't for this site, I would have caved a long time ago. People are here for a reason: IT WORKS...I can attest to that!
I owe a ton to my quit group, the June Bugs of 09', if it weren't for them, I'd be a helpless, dippin' idiot still. They probably don't know how much they've helped me, even to this day, and for that I will be forever thankful to them.
Take stock in yourself, your quit and your group, people do care!
Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
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No pipe wrenches needed, not stake outs...
Been out of state for a long time with work. Living out of a suitcase and in hotels isn't much fun if you have a family, which is how I've been living for the past 2 1/2 months or so. Got a laptop about a week ago so I'm going to make a valiant effort to stay current and active on here again.
A few may have thought that I caved because of my absence but I am proud to say that I did not. Was tempted and tested a lot of times, but because of this site, I'm proud to say that I'm still quit! May sound corny and mushy and shit but if it weren't for this site, I would have caved a long time ago. People are here for a reason: IT WORKS...I can attest to that!
I owe a ton to my quit group, the June Bugs of 09', if it weren't for them, I'd be a helpless, dippin' idiot still. They probably don't know how much they've helped me, even to this day, and for that I will be forever thankful to them.
Take stock in yourself, your quit and your group, people do care!
Stay Strong-Stay Quit!
MF
Glad to have you back "little green monster"!! And even more glad that you are still quit!!! :D