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Quit Day 05/29/2013-
I figured today would be one of the hardest days. It is. I am also away from home which makes caving easier since I wont have to make up some lame ass excuse to go out for something. I am not going to give in today though, I am going to enjoy my sunflower seeds, jolly ranchers, and spearmint gum.
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Quit Day 05/29/2013-
I figured today would be one of the hardest days. It is. I am also away from home which makes caving easier since I wont have to make up some lame ass excuse to go out for something. I am not going to give in today though, I am going to enjoy my sunflower seeds, jolly ranchers, and spearmint gum.
I smell something.
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Quit Day 05/29/2013-
I figured today would be one of the hardest days. It is. I am also away from home which makes caving easier since I wont have to make up some lame ass excuse to go out for something. I am not going to give in today though, I am going to enjoy my sunflower seeds, jolly ranchers, and spearmint gum.
I smell something.
I just finished reading Tom and Jenny's story; I am positive that I wont be caving today. All I could think of was my wife, my daughter, and my sons having to go through the same thing. One day at time.
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Quit Day 05/29/2013-
I figured today would be one of the hardest days. It is. I am also away from home which makes caving easier since I wont have to make up some lame ass excuse to go out for something. I am not going to give in today though, I am going to enjoy my sunflower seeds, jolly ranchers, and spearmint gum.
I smell something.
I just finished reading Tom and Jenny's story; I am positive that I wont be caving today. All I could think of was my wife, my daughter, and my sons having to go through the same thing. One day at time.
Hmmmm. Keep reading. I suggest starting with the Welcome Center then posting roll if you are serious.
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Quit Day 05/29/2013-
I figured today would be one of the hardest days. It is. I am also away from home which makes caving easier since I wont have to make up some lame ass excuse to go out for something. I am not going to give in today though, I am going to enjoy my sunflower seeds, jolly ranchers, and spearmint gum.
I smell something.
I just finished reading Tom and Jenny's story; I am positive that I wont be caving today. All I could think of was my wife, my daughter, and my sons having to go through the same thing. One day at time.
Hmmmm. Keep reading. I suggest starting with the Welcome Center then posting roll if you are serious.
I posted roll- naturally I did it wrong! GO ME!
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Quit Day 05/29/2013-
I figured today would be one of the hardest days. It is. I am also away from home which makes caving easier since I wont have to make up some lame ass excuse to go out for something. I am not going to give in today though, I am going to enjoy my sunflower seeds, jolly ranchers, and spearmint gum.
I smell something.
I just finished reading Tom and Jenny's story; I am positive that I wont be caving today. All I could think of was my wife, my daughter, and my sons having to go through the same thing. One day at time.
Hmmmm. Keep reading. I suggest starting with the Welcome Center then posting roll if you are serious.
I posted roll- naturally I did it wrong! GO ME!
Ya got your Day 3 posted Dougie...way to go. Keep on reading and use this site to your advantage....
Shouldn't your Day be Day 6 though? When was yer quit date?
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Quit Day 05/29/2013-
I figured today would be one of the hardest days. It is. I am also away from home which makes caving easier since I wont have to make up some lame ass excuse to go out for something. I am not going to give in today though, I am going to enjoy my sunflower seeds, jolly ranchers, and spearmint gum.
I smell something.
I just finished reading Tom and Jenny's story; I am positive that I wont be caving today. All I could think of was my wife, my daughter, and my sons having to go through the same thing. One day at time.
Hmmmm. Keep reading. I suggest starting with the Welcome Center then posting roll if you are serious.
I posted roll- naturally I did it wrong! GO ME!
Ya got your Day 3 posted Dougie...way to go. Keep on reading and use this site to your advantage....
Shouldn't your Day be Day 6 though? When was yer quit date?
Sharksy is one ciphering mo-fo. Yep, if the last time you had ANY form of nicotine in your body was 5.29.13, then yea, welcome to day 6. FYI, everyone is different as to what is the "hardest" day(s). I had 24 or so very hard hours that added up to one day, but they were spread over about two months. Most of the time I dealt with the situation by texting obscenities to quit brothers, or posting psychotic rants in my quit group. Fake dip and frequent masturbation helped, also.
The good news is that you will never have to go through a day like this again, unless you choose to cave. Congrats on day 6 brother. keep the faith.
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Quit Day 05/29/2013-
I figured today would be one of the hardest days. It is. I am also away from home which makes caving easier since I wont have to make up some lame ass excuse to go out for something. I am not going to give in today though, I am going to enjoy my sunflower seeds, jolly ranchers, and spearmint gum.
I smell something.
I just finished reading Tom and Jenny's story; I am positive that I wont be caving today. All I could think of was my wife, my daughter, and my sons having to go through the same thing. One day at time.
Hmmmm. Keep reading. I suggest starting with the Welcome Center then posting roll if you are serious.
I posted roll- naturally I did it wrong! GO ME!
Ya got your Day 3 posted Dougie...way to go. Keep on reading and use this site to your advantage....
Shouldn't your Day be Day 6 though? When was yer quit date?
Sharksy is one ciphering mo-fo. Yep, if the last time you had ANY form of nicotine in your body was 5.29.13, then yea, welcome to day 6. FYI, everyone is different as to what is the "hardest" day(s). I had 24 or so very hard hours that added up to one day, but they were spread over about two months. Most of the time I dealt with the situation by texting obscenities to quit brothers, or posting psychotic rants in my quit group. Fake dip and frequent masturbation helped, also.
The good news is that you will never have to go through a day like this again, unless you choose to cave. Congrats on day 6 brother. keep the faith.
When I looked at the calendar on MS Outlook; to see what the date was Saturday I looked at the bottom which would actually be the last weekend of June. So my Actual QUIT day is June 1st!
Guess I am feeling a little foggy right now!
Thanks All!
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stay quit dude.. i realized at somepoint i was not going to give the Can one more fucking minute off my time. it made all the difference.
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Quit Day 05/29/2013-
I figured today would be one of the hardest days. It is. I am also away from home which makes caving easier since I wont have to make up some lame ass excuse to go out for something. I am not going to give in today though, I am going to enjoy my sunflower seeds, jolly ranchers, and spearmint gum.
I smell something.
I just finished reading Tom and Jenny's story; I am positive that I wont be caving today. All I could think of was my wife, my daughter, and my sons having to go through the same thing. One day at time.
Hmmmm. Keep reading. I suggest starting with the Welcome Center then posting roll if you are serious.
I posted roll- naturally I did it wrong! GO ME!
Ya got your Day 3 posted Dougie...way to go. Keep on reading and use this site to your advantage....
Shouldn't your Day be Day 6 though? When was yer quit date?
Sharksy is one ciphering mo-fo. Yep, if the last time you had ANY form of nicotine in your body was 5.29.13, then yea, welcome to day 6. FYI, everyone is different as to what is the "hardest" day(s). I had 24 or so very hard hours that added up to one day, but they were spread over about two months. Most of the time I dealt with the situation by texting obscenities to quit brothers, or posting psychotic rants in my quit group. Fake dip and frequent masturbation helped, also.
The good news is that you will never have to go through a day like this again, unless you choose to cave. Congrats on day 6 brother. keep the faith.
When I looked at the calendar on MS Outlook; to see what the date was Saturday I looked at the bottom which would actually be the last weekend of June. So my Actual QUIT day is June 1st!
Guess I am feeling a little foggy right now!
Thanks All!
That is awesome!!! Congrats...and don't worry, you'll regain the ability to read calendars before you know it.
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This is my official QUIT thread. I plan on posting daily thoughts and whatever other random shit drops out of my head.
I am also going to keep this link here
http://classic.caringbridge.org/mn/tomkern/ (http://classic.caringbridge.org/mn/tomkern/)
I pictured my family going through this pain when I was reading it; I will read it everyday. I will read it every time that selfish self-destructive voice comes on telling me all of my wonderful lies that I love to tell myself.
I am pretty sure that I didnt do a work related thing at all today! I guess there is always tomorrow for that shit; today I quit.
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This is my official QUIT thread. I plan on posting daily thoughts and whatever other random shit drops out of my head.
I am also going to keep this link here
http://classic.caringbridge.org/mn/tomkern/ (http://classic.caringbridge.org/mn/tomkern/)
I pictured my family going through this pain when I was reading it; I will read it everyday. I will read it every time that selfish self-destructive voice comes on telling me all of my wonderful lies that I love to tell myself.
I am pretty sure that I didnt do a work related thing at all today! I guess there is always tomorrow for that shit; today I quit.
Yeah bro. If you ever get an urge to dip read that story. I quit with you today.
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Dougie I saw you posted that you plan to be on this site a lot in a fellow quitters thread, first awesome advice, second bad ass decision that will fortify your quit. I quit with you.
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I woke up feeling more determined than I felt yesterday. I had a major craving on my drive into work so a grabbed an Atomic Fireball. It helped get me through it. Once I got to work I logged into KTC, Posted Roll, and came to my thread. I never really believed much in outside support so I was really amazed by my reaction reading the posts made to me from fellow quitters.
You guys are awesome! Thank you for quitting with me today. I quit with all of you quitters today.
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Wow- today is suck. Having a hard time distracting my thoughts from the shit. I am fidgity; I am going to go out for a run at lunch time; running has always been my moment of Zen- the time where I am "in the present". I really need that mental dump right now.
This fucking conference call is killing me! It was supposed to be an hour and here I am 1 hour and 50 minutes later with no end in sight!
Stay Quit!
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Wow- today is suck. Having a hard time distracting my thoughts from the shit. I am fidgity; I am going to go out for a run at lunch time; running has always been my moment of Zen- the time where I am "in the present". I really need that mental dump right now.
This fucking conference call is killing me! It was supposed to be an hour and here I am 1 hour and 50 minutes later with no end in sight!
Stay Quit!
maintain son...you'll get through it.
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Wow- today is suck. Having a hard time distracting my thoughts from the shit. I am fidgity; I am going to go out for a run at lunch time; running has always been my moment of Zen- the time where I am "in the present". I really need that mental dump right now.
This fucking conference call is killing me! It was supposed to be an hour and here I am 1 hour and 50 minutes later with no end in sight!
Stay Quit!
Exercising always takes the edge for me as well. Keep it up bro! Nobody needs Nic...
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Sonsabitches!
So as I was leaving the driveway to hit the streets for a nice lunchtime run I look down and I see a busted up can of Skoal Cherry on the road. The lid was a few inches from the can and I can see chew inside the body of the can. I thought that was pretty awesome. So I went out on my run and decided that the only course of action that I can take it to make sure that I disperse this shit by kicking it around the road.
I know that I am capable of doing some pretty weak shit in order to get a nic fix. I am pretty sure that I am not going to go out and lick the fucking road though; but to be safe I knocked that shit all over the place...
I QUIT TODAY.
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Good job Dougie,
you can never be too safe around her.... I have dug cans of chew out of the trash before on crave or looked in the trash for an old pouch or found a can with an old pouch still left in it trying to breath life back into the nic whore with saliva. Yep you can never be too safe... protect your quit at all costs.
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Sonsabitches!
So as I was leaving the driveway to hit the streets for a nice lunchtime run I look down and I see a busted up can of Skoal Cherry on the road. The lid was a few inches from the can and I can see chew inside the body of the can. I thought that was pretty awesome. So I went out on my run and decided that the only course of action that I can take it to make sure that I disperse this shit by kicking it around the road.
I know that I am capable of doing some pretty weak shit in order to get a nic fix. I am pretty sure that I am not going to go out and lick the fucking road though; but to be safe I knocked that shit all over the place...
I QUIT TODAY.
I would go and piss on it too... dont worry indecent exposure tickets are cheap.
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Sonsabitches!
So as I was leaving the driveway to hit the streets for a nice lunchtime run I look down and I see a busted up can of Skoal Cherry on the road. The lid was a few inches from the can and I can see chew inside the body of the can. I thought that was pretty awesome. So I went out on my run and decided that the only course of action that I can take it to make sure that I disperse this shit by kicking it around the road.
I know that I am capable of doing some pretty weak shit in order to get a nic fix. I am pretty sure that I am not going to go out and lick the fucking road though; but to be safe I knocked that shit all over the place...
I QUIT TODAY.
I would go and piss on it too... dont worry indecent exposure tickets are cheap.
Thanks for posting in my thread! I could watch your avatar all day!
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Sonsabitches!
So as I was leaving the driveway to hit the streets for a nice lunchtime run I look down and I see a busted up can of Skoal Cherry on the road. The lid was a few inches from the can and I can see chew inside the body of the can. I thought that was pretty awesome. So I went out on my run and decided that the only course of action that I can take it to make sure that I disperse this shit by kicking it around the road.
I know that I am capable of doing some pretty weak shit in order to get a nic fix. I am pretty sure that I am not going to go out and lick the fucking road though; but to be safe I knocked that shit all over the place...
I QUIT TODAY.
I would go and piss on it too... dont worry indecent exposure tickets are cheap.
Thanks for posting in my thread! I could watch your avatar all day!
There is a lot of caving going around. No telling what some of them might do. Licking it up off the street may be something to think about. Here's something to think about. What if it was the last can? There would be some schmuck who would try and lick it up. Just sayen!! I quit with you today.
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Sonsabitches!
So as I was leaving the driveway to hit the streets for a nice lunchtime run I look down and I see a busted up can of Skoal Cherry on the road. The lid was a few inches from the can and I can see chew inside the body of the can. I thought that was pretty awesome. So I went out on my run and decided that the only course of action that I can take it to make sure that I disperse this shit by kicking it around the road.
I know that I am capable of doing some pretty weak shit in order to get a nic fix. I am pretty sure that I am not going to go out and lick the fucking road though; but to be safe I knocked that shit all over the place...
I QUIT TODAY.
I would go and piss on it too... dont worry indecent exposure tickets are cheap.
Thanks for posting in my thread! I could watch your avatar all day!
She is pretty popular....stay quit. Ill keep posting her.
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I have to attend a training thing today for work from 0800 - 1400 so I wont be posting and reading through much today.
Had a hard time sleeping last night but I still feel better than I did 5 days ago. I feel better and stronger than I did yesterday. I made the pledge to my wife this morning that I would be nicotine free today; it felt good to pledge that to her it actually made me pretty emotional. I keep the Tom and Jenny Kern story at the front of my mind and in my heart; it makes this difficult journey seem much easier.
Stay Quit!
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DAY 6-
Didn't sleep worth a fuck last night- woke up this morning really thinking about the nicotine but it seemed to pass pretty easily.
Heading out for family vacation tomorrow; driving 22 hours with 3 kids and wife is going to be pretty brutal on the ole nervous system! I got my Sunflower seeds though so I get this shit locked up!
Doubt that I will be posting much between 06/07 and 06/16-
Quitting has never felt so good!
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DAY 6-
Didn't sleep worth a fuck last night- woke up this morning really thinking about the nicotine but it seemed to pass pretty easily.
Heading out for family vacation tomorrow; driving 22 hours with 3 kids and wife is going to be pretty brutal on the ole nervous system! I got my Sunflower seeds though so I get this shit locked up!
Doubt that I will be posting much between 06/07 and 06/16-
Quitting has never felt so good!
Post roll and grab some numbers man.
You got some numbers?
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DAY 6-
Didn't sleep worth a fuck last night- woke up this morning really thinking about the nicotine but it seemed to pass pretty easily.
Heading out for family vacation tomorrow; driving 22 hours with 3 kids and wife is going to be pretty brutal on the ole nervous system! I got my Sunflower seeds though so I get this shit locked up!
Doubt that I will be posting much between 06/07 and 06/16-
Quitting has never felt so good!
Post roll and grab some numbers man.
You got some numbers?
I posted roll at 0530- probably got bumped again! I have one number that I texted back to a couple days ago.
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Sonsabitches!
So as I was leaving the driveway to hit the streets for a nice lunchtime run I look down and I see a busted up can of Skoal Cherry on the road. The lid was a few inches from the can and I can see chew inside the body of the can. I thought that was pretty awesome. So I went out on my run and decided that the only course of action that I can take it to make sure that I disperse this shit by kicking it around the road.
I know that I am capable of doing some pretty weak shit in order to get a nic fix. I am pretty sure that I am not going to go out and lick the fucking road though; but to be safe I knocked that shit all over the place...
I QUIT TODAY.
Love it! Kick that shit all over the fucking roadway and then piss on it and jump on that sombich till its just a fucking red smear of stinkin piss covered plastic bits on the road! Arrrghhhhh! Fucking nic bitch! Take that you skanky piece of shit...
BTW I am in your quit group I will send you a PM with my number so you can txt me if you cannot get online to post roll.
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Its weird how little things can really fucking set you off! I thought today that I was going to breeze right through it all and then BAM!
I have a 14 and 11 yr old at home this summer and I told them that I dont want hem riding my mountain bike around town, I dont want them on their mom's either but it isnt mine so she can do what she wants. Well Mom told them that they could ride them yesterday without my consent- I came home and noticed that my bike had a lot of mud on it and was pissed so I put a lock on it. Just fucking respect my wishes people- I dont want them on my bike because they dont take care of shit and I would like to keep my shit nice.
Wife emails me today and calls me a douche bag for locking my bike- that made me so unbelievably fucking mad- raging- I stood up and thought fuck it go grab a can she doesn't respect you so why should you respect her?
So, I grabbed a handful of seeds and logged on to KTC to vent. How fucked up is that? Such stupid shit sets off such fucked up thoughts. Anyway I am calming down now and the massive crave bullshit has subsided. FUCK.
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CHILL relax lean back....breath... OK I dont like people riding my mountain bike either...thats why I have bought them their own to tear up. ok so toss wifey the credit card tell her to go to walmart buy two cheap bikes for the kids to wreck and you some smokey mountain.
ok are we getting off the ledge yet I dont care what you put in your mouth but DO NOT DO NOT put dip in it a sack full of assholes first but no dip.
PM me if you need my number bounce texts off eachother...I am traveling this weekend too
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Its weird how little things can really fucking set you off! I thought today that I was going to breeze right through it all and then BAM!
I have a 14 and 11 yr old at home this summer and I told them that I dont want hem riding my mountain bike around town, I dont want them on their mom's either but it isnt mine so she can do what she wants. Well Mom told them that they could ride them yesterday without my consent- I came home and noticed that my bike had a lot of mud on it and was pissed so I put a lock on it. Just fucking respect my wishes people- I dont want them on my bike because they dont take care of shit and I would like to keep my shit nice.
Wife emails me today and calls me a douche bag for locking my bike- that made me so unbelievably fucking mad- raging- I stood up and thought fuck it go grab a can she doesn't respect you so why should you respect her?
So, I grabbed a handful of seeds and logged on to KTC to vent. How fucked up is that? Such stupid shit sets off such fucked up thoughts. Anyway I am calming down now and the massive crave bullshit has subsided. FUCK.
Hey man, that is the sole reason why the quit must be for yourself and no body else.
well done getting in here and venting, and the seeds gets an A+.
And totally know about 14 and 12 year olds (for me both boys). They will keep you busy and drive you nuts at the same time.
Keep the strength as you can do this.
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The venting was all I needed- and some yummy sunflower seeds- hence the avatar!
The thing about the bikes- they have bikes; nice Diamondbacks when I bought them but they tear shit up so they aren't as nice- so fuck em!
I only quit for me. I fucking hate feeling like a cheat/liar/scumbag scrounging around for a leaf. I hated always worrying about how much I had or how I was going to sneak the shit with me to a weekend getaway and all of that stuff that was poisoning my marriage- my life. I decided last Friday that I was taking it back- I have remained nicotine free since I went to bed that night and I will remain nicotine free all fucking day long- no matter what insignificant shit happens today-
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Today the suck runs hard and deep. I feel like I have a hangover the fog is thick. I keep getting these jolts of nervous energy or something when I talk to people I get chills up the back of my head or it feels like my eyes are welling up with tears.
The more this sucks the more determined I am going to be to beat this everyday for the rest of my life.
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Today the suck runs hard and deep. I feel like I have a hangover the fog is thick. I keep getting these jolts of nervous energy or something when I talk to people I get chills up the back of my head or it feels like my eyes are welling up with tears.
The more this sucks the more determined I am going to be to beat this everyday for the rest of my life.
Fuck that. Let's do this this afternoon.
What ya got going on today? What do you plan on doing to stay quit now? How far are you willing to go to stay quit?
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Today the suck runs hard and deep. I feel like I have a hangover the fog is thick. I keep getting these jolts of nervous energy or something when I talk to people I get chills up the back of my head or it feels like my eyes are welling up with tears.
The more this sucks the more determined I am going to be to beat this everyday for the rest of my life.
Fuck that. Let's do this this afternoon.
What ya got going on today? What do you plan on doing to stay quit now? How far are you willing to go to stay quit?
12 year old's baseball game right after work. After baseball I planned on frying up the fish that the boys caught with their grandpa yesterday. Then I plan on loading up the car for the 22 hour drive to Florida for family vacation.
Not only do I come here every morning for roll call but I have started pledging the same thing to my wife, eye to eye. It is a very emotional time for me- I guess that I dont have a "plan" - this is what I do when I get a craving a grab seeds, fireballs, gum, whatever, then I log on to KTC and vent or read other vents whatever it takes to take my mind off of the current crave. I am not going to give in to this I am going to battle with everything that I have and if I feel like I am getting my ass kicked in then I have a few numbers to call, this thread to vent in, a wife to lean on.
This is the first quit that I didn't "plan" I just did. It is also the longest I have gone without nicotine in 23 years. I am winning today.
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Today the suck runs hard and deep. I feel like I have a hangover the fog is thick. I keep getting these jolts of nervous energy or something when I talk to people I get chills up the back of my head or it feels like my eyes are welling up with tears.
The more this sucks the more determined I am going to be to beat this everyday for the rest of my life.
Fuck that. Let's do this this afternoon.
What ya got going on today? What do you plan on doing to stay quit now? How far are you willing to go to stay quit?
12 year old's baseball game right after work. After baseball I planned on frying up the fish that the boys caught with their grandpa yesterday. Then I plan on loading up the car for the 22 hour drive to Florida for family vacation.
Not only do I come here every morning for roll call but I have started pledging the same thing to my wife, eye to eye. It is a very emotional time for me- I guess that I dont have a "plan" - this is what I do when I get a craving a grab seeds, fireballs, gum, whatever, then I log on to KTC and vent or read other vents whatever it takes to take my mind off of the current crave. I am not going to give in to this I am going to battle with everything that I have and if I feel like I am getting my ass kicked in then I have a few numbers to call, this thread to vent in, a wife to lean on.
This is the first quit that I didn't "plan" I just did. It is also the longest I have gone without nicotine in 23 years. I am winning today.
And my friend, stay with what you are doing as you will win this battle. If I could do it so can you.
yell if you need anything
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Today the suck runs hard and deep. I feel like I have a hangover the fog is thick. I keep getting these jolts of nervous energy or something when I talk to people I get chills up the back of my head or it feels like my eyes are welling up with tears.
The more this sucks the more determined I am going to be to beat this everyday for the rest of my life.
Fuck that. Let's do this this afternoon.
What ya got going on today? What do you plan on doing to stay quit now? How far are you willing to go to stay quit?
12 year old's baseball game right after work. After baseball I planned on frying up the fish that the boys caught with their grandpa yesterday. Then I plan on loading up the car for the 22 hour drive to Florida for family vacation.
Not only do I come here every morning for roll call but I have started pledging the same thing to my wife, eye to eye. It is a very emotional time for me- I guess that I dont have a "plan" - this is what I do when I get a craving a grab seeds, fireballs, gum, whatever, then I log on to KTC and vent or read other vents whatever it takes to take my mind off of the current crave. I am not going to give in to this I am going to battle with everything that I have and if I feel like I am getting my ass kicked in then I have a few numbers to call, this thread to vent in, a wife to lean on.
This is the first quit that I didn't "plan" I just did. It is also the longest I have gone without nicotine in 23 years. I am winning today.
And my friend, stay with what you are doing as you will win this battle. If I could do it so can you.
yell if you need anything
What he said.
You got any numbers?
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Today the suck runs hard and deep. I feel like I have a hangover the fog is thick. I keep getting these jolts of nervous energy or something when I talk to people I get chills up the back of my head or it feels like my eyes are welling up with tears.
The more this sucks the more determined I am going to be to beat this everyday for the rest of my life.
Fuck that. Let's do this this afternoon.
What ya got going on today? What do you plan on doing to stay quit now? How far are you willing to go to stay quit?
12 year old's baseball game right after work. After baseball I planned on frying up the fish that the boys caught with their grandpa yesterday. Then I plan on loading up the car for the 22 hour drive to Florida for family vacation.
Not only do I come here every morning for roll call but I have started pledging the same thing to my wife, eye to eye. It is a very emotional time for me- I guess that I dont have a "plan" - this is what I do when I get a craving a grab seeds, fireballs, gum, whatever, then I log on to KTC and vent or read other vents whatever it takes to take my mind off of the current crave. I am not going to give in to this I am going to battle with everything that I have and if I feel like I am getting my ass kicked in then I have a few numbers to call, this thread to vent in, a wife to lean on.
This is the first quit that I didn't "plan" I just did. It is also the longest I have gone without nicotine in 23 years. I am winning today.
And my friend, stay with what you are doing as you will win this battle. If I could do it so can you.
yell if you need anything
What he said.
You got any numbers?
thank you guys for the support and thank you to all the KTC people- I do have some numbers and I have given mine out. I know that I would not be 6 days deep without this place.
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Today the suck runs hard and deep. I feel like I have a hangover the fog is thick. I keep getting these jolts of nervous energy or something when I talk to people I get chills up the back of my head or it feels like my eyes are welling up with tears.
The more this sucks the more determined I am going to be to beat this everyday for the rest of my life.
Fuck that. Let's do this this afternoon.
What ya got going on today? What do you plan on doing to stay quit now? How far are you willing to go to stay quit?
12 year old's baseball game right after work. After baseball I planned on frying up the fish that the boys caught with their grandpa yesterday. Then I plan on loading up the car for the 22 hour drive to Florida for family vacation.
Not only do I come here every morning for roll call but I have started pledging the same thing to my wife, eye to eye. It is a very emotional time for me- I guess that I dont have a "plan" - this is what I do when I get a craving a grab seeds, fireballs, gum, whatever, then I log on to KTC and vent or read other vents whatever it takes to take my mind off of the current crave. I am not going to give in to this I am going to battle with everything that I have and if I feel like I am getting my ass kicked in then I have a few numbers to call, this thread to vent in, a wife to lean on.
This is the first quit that I didn't "plan" I just did. It is also the longest I have gone without nicotine in 23 years. I am winning today.
And my friend, stay with what you are doing as you will win this battle. If I could do it so can you.
yell if you need anything
What he said.
You got any numbers?
thank you guys for the support and thank you to all the KTC people- I do have some numbers and I have given mine out. I know that I would not be 6 days deep without this place.
Never take for granted that "wife to lean on." If she's not your biggest quit fan, make it a priority. The quit is yours, but you have to look her in the eye every damn day. And don't be afraid of the tears early on or ever. Many of us felt like we were losing a friend when we quit. It feels like that early on (and later on,) but we HAVE to let that friend go. I have shed many a tear over the last 143 days, but the basis for every tear was how important MY quit was to me first and everybody else second. Quit on, brother.
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Back from vacation!
What a relief it was to go away somewhere and not have to smuggle chew around like the dirt bag I was 17 days ago! I didnt have too many cravings while gone- the sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs did the job as well as posting up daily and talking to my wife about it.
I thought I found a new oral device in my war against nicotine until a moment ago when I was reading the label... Ricola sugar free drops! They have a nice herbaceous flavor but I just noticed that "excessive use may have a laxative effect" well fuck I dont need to shit my pants so I better figure out what "excessive use" is; could be the aspartame.
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Back from vacation!
What a relief it was to go away somewhere and not have to smuggle chew around like the dirt bag I was 17 days ago! I didnt have too many cravings while gone- the sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs did the job as well as posting up daily and talking to my wife about it.
I thought I found a new oral device in my war against nicotine until a moment ago when I was reading the label... Ricola sugar free drops! They have a nice herbaceous flavor but I just noticed that "excessive use may have a laxative effect" well fuck I dont need to shit my pants so I better figure out what "excessive use" is; could be the aspartame.
Uuuuummmmm, yeah. Been there. Not fun.
Dip is a laxative, and some quitters have documented in full detail their tales of constipation once they quit. (go to the last page of this guy's (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=2366&st=345) intro for some hilarity) Most sugarless hard candy can have a laxitive effect if eaten in mass quantities. So, in this regard the sugarless candy may keep you "regular".
Weight gain is a common side affact of quitting, and many quitters accept it. Shove anything into your face that doesn't contain Nic, and address the weight gain later when your oral fixations lessen. If you are really worried about that now, again, sugarless candy may be for you.
However, if you are like me, and find yourself in your car a lot for work and have a major phobia of bathrooms, accept the extra calories of sugar-ladden candy and avoid those side effects. Your khakis will thank you.
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I farted today and pooped my pants a little bit. I pushed too hard. I pulled over at a gas station and threw my drawers out. Free balled it for the rest of the day. Felt kinda nice.
That is all. Quit on people.
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I farted today and pooped my pants a little bit. I pushed too hard. I pulled over at a gas station and threw my drawers out. Free balled it for the rest of the day. Felt kinda nice.
That is all. Quit on people.
Proud to SHART with you today.
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I farted today and pooped my pants a little bit. I pushed too hard. I pulled over at a gas station and threw my drawers out. Free balled it for the rest of the day. Felt kinda nice.Â
That is all. Quit on people.
Proud to SHART with you today.
Shat happens 'hurry'
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I farted today and pooped my pants a little bit. I pushed too hard. I pulled over at a gas station and threw my drawers out. Free balled it for the rest of the day. Felt kinda nice.Â
That is all. Quit on people.
Proud to SHART with you today.
Add me to the list of Proud to Schardt with you!!!
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I normally only shit myself when I am out running- I was actually hoping that quitting chew would help stop that- I have been known to shit up to 6 times on a 5 mile run when I go out in the morning. So far I am still shitting regularly.
Irritated as fuck today- and feeling foggy-
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I normally only shit myself when I am out running- I was actually hoping that quitting chew would help stop that- I have been known to shit up to 6 times on a 5 mile run when I go out in the morning. So far I am still shitting regularly.
Irritated as fuck today- and feeling foggy-
Been quit 380? (I lose track) days and I'm irritable today as well. Too many stupid people out here. No fog though, thankfully.
Ill quit and shit with you today.
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So today the fog has lifted a bit; I know it will be back but I am enjoying being able to read again and being able to do some of my job!
I feel like today I have spent more time thinking about the poison. I have some serious oral fixation issues; I had a dip in my mouth from bed-up to bed-down so it isn't too surprising that I constantly need something in my mouth. I wonder what my coworkers think?? That dude is constantly eating sunflower seeds or shoveling atomic fireballs in his mouth!
I wasn't a spitter before and my ninja skills were quite remarkable- plus I would keep the same dip for 3+ hours so the odor would be gone or masked by coffee.
Anyway- none of that shit matters. I am so fucking happy to be 19 days nicotine free.
ODAAT - NAFAR
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So today the fog has lifted a bit; I know it will be back but I am enjoying being able to read again and being able to do some of my job!
I feel like today I have spent more time thinking about the poison. I have some serious oral fixation issues; I had a dip in my mouth from bed-up to bed-down so it isn't too surprising that I constantly need something in my mouth. I wonder what my coworkers think?? That dude is constantly eating sunflower seeds or shoveling atomic fireballs in his mouth!
I wasn't a spitter before and my ninja skills were quite remarkable- plus I would keep the same dip for 3+ hours so the odor would be gone or masked by coffee.
Anyway- none of that shit matters. I am so fucking happy to be 19 days nicotine free.
ODAAT - NAFAR
Keep up the good work bro! 'clap'
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So today the fog has lifted a bit; I know it will be back but I am enjoying being able to read again and being able to do some of my job!
I feel like today I have spent more time thinking about the poison. I have some serious oral fixation issues; I had a dip in my mouth from bed-up to bed-down so it isn't too surprising that I constantly need something in my mouth. I wonder what my coworkers think?? That dude is constantly eating sunflower seeds or shoveling atomic fireballs in his mouth!
I wasn't a spitter before and my ninja skills were quite remarkable- plus I would keep the same dip for 3+ hours so the odor would be gone or masked by coffee.
Anyway- none of that shit matters. I am so fucking happy to be 19 days nicotine free.
ODAAT - NAFAR
Keep up the good work bro! 'clap'
Thanks man! This site has been a godsend; not really a religious fellow but I cant think of a better description.
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So today the fog has lifted a bit; I know it will be back but I am enjoying being able to read again and being able to do some of my job!
I feel like today I have spent more time thinking about the poison. I have some serious oral fixation issues; I had a dip in my mouth from bed-up to bed-down so it isn't too surprising that I constantly need something in my mouth. I wonder what my coworkers think?? That dude is constantly eating sunflower seeds or shoveling atomic fireballs in his mouth!
I wasn't a spitter before and my ninja skills were quite remarkable- plus I would keep the same dip for 3+ hours so the odor would be gone or masked by coffee.
Anyway- none of that shit matters. I am so fucking happy to be 19 days nicotine free.
ODAAT - NAFAR
Keep up the good work bro! 'clap'
Thanks man! This site has been a godsend; not really a religious fellow but I cant think of a better description.
Nice Dougie,
I hear ya I am not a thumper by any means but finding this site was a devine intervention of some sort...Proud of you man glad the fog is lifting at OHARE...lol anyway now that you feel your fog is lifting read back over your early posts and see if you can see the clarity you have now versus then.
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The thing I feared most happened yesterday- the long forgotten stash-- I was digging out some fishing line for my son when I happened across an old half can- armed with my new tools I acted quickly by taking it in the house and washing it down the sink- I made sure to completely wash the can as well; to prevent me from licking it clean! I feel really good today. Today is a great day to be quit-
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The thing I feared most happened yesterday- the long forgotten stash-- I was digging out some fishing line for my son when I happened across an old half can- armed with my new tools I acted quickly by taking it in the house and washing it down the sink- I made sure to completely wash the can as well; to prevent me from licking it clean! I feel really good today. Today is a great day to be quit-
Nice, there is no having "just one" just one is all it takes to be back to full lip of shit. proud of you Doug
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The thing I feared most happened yesterday- the long forgotten stash-- I was digging out some fishing line for my son when I happened across an old half can- armed with my new tools I acted quickly by taking it in the house and washing it down the sink- I made sure to completely wash the can as well; to prevent me from licking it clean! I feel really good today. Today is a great day to be quit-
That was a good win dougie. I think I would have been more creative though. Just dumping it and washing the can is something you do on the first day. I might have went through more of a ritual. Something with car, stomping, pissing, burning and ocean. AAAhhhhh, maybe it doesn't deserve that much thought. You done good brother! I quit with you today.
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The thing I feared most happened yesterday- the long forgotten stash-- I was digging out some fishing line for my son when I happened across an old half can- armed with my new tools I acted quickly by taking it in the house and washing it down the sink- I made sure to completely wash the can as well; to prevent me from licking it clean! I feel really good today. Today is a great day to be quit-
Awesome man! A forgotten stash derailed my best attempt at quitting many years ago. Way to recognize the danger and donkey punch nic back down! I got quit wood reading about it!
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Things seem to be going pretty well, too well in fact. I am at a point where I am worrying about this quit being too easy. I know the first week sucked but I made it out. It seems like this weekend the only craves I had were after running- they were pretty intense but I refuse to let my addict brain dwell on it for more that a few seconds.
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Things seem to be going pretty well, too well in fact. I am at a point where I am worrying about this quit being too easy. I know the first week sucked but I made it out. It seems like this weekend the only craves I had were after running- they were pretty intense but I refuse to let my addict brain dwell on it for more that a few seconds.
Keep it close Doug, she, knows exactly what she is doing. I quit with you today.
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Things seem to be going pretty well, too well in fact. I am at a point where I am worrying about this quit being too easy. I know the first week sucked but I made it out. It seems like this weekend the only craves I had were after running- they were pretty intense but I refuse to let my addict brain dwell on it for more that a few seconds.
Keep it close Doug, she, knows exactly what she is doing. I quit with you today.
One day at a time, man.
If today is easy...enjoy it. Know that there might be storms brewing, but enjoy it. That's why we quit, and that's why I still post here after nearly 2 years. Physically and mentally, I am quit. But, if I stop pursuing my quit, my tools may rust when I need them one day.
When times are good, we practice for the bad (posting roll, and taking what we need from the site here).
When times are bad, we lean on what we've practiced.
Quitting isn't easy, but it's not torture. There's a reason we do it: It gets better.
Proud of you man.
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Things seem to be going pretty well, too well in fact. I am at a point where I am worrying about this quit being too easy. I know the first week sucked but I made it out. It seems like this weekend the only craves I had were after running- they were pretty intense but I refuse to let my addict brain dwell on it for more that a few seconds.
Keep it close Doug, she, knows exactly what she is doing. I quit with you today.
One day at a time, man.
If today is easy...enjoy it. Know that there might be storms brewing, but enjoy it. That's why we quit, and that's why I still post here after nearly 2 years. Physically and mentally, I am quit. But, if I stop pursuing my quit, my tools may rust when I need them one day.
When times are good, we practice for the bad (posting roll, and taking what we need from the site here).
When times are bad, we lean on what we've practiced.
Quitting isn't easy, but it's not torture. There's a reason we do it: It gets better.
Proud of you man.
I have a few "quit heros" on this site. You're one of them WP.
My quit is pretty "easy" too Dougie. I just happen to know from experience how dangerous that is. So I come here everyday to guard it. And whenever temptation shows up, it doesn't stand a chance against what I've built against it.
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Things seem to be going pretty well, too well in fact. I am at a point where I am worrying about this quit being too easy. I know the first week sucked but I made it out. It seems like this weekend the only craves I had were after running- they were pretty intense but I refuse to let my addict brain dwell on it for more that a few seconds.
Keep it close Doug, she, knows exactly what she is doing. I quit with you today.
One day at a time, man.
If today is easy...enjoy it. Know that there might be storms brewing, but enjoy it. That's why we quit, and that's why I still post here after nearly 2 years. Physically and mentally, I am quit. But, if I stop pursuing my quit, my tools may rust when I need them one day.
When times are good, we practice for the bad (posting roll, and taking what we need from the site here).
When times are bad, we lean on what we've practiced.
Quitting isn't easy, but it's not torture. There's a reason we do it: It gets better.
Proud of you man.
I have a few "quit heros" on this site. You're one of them WP.
My quit is pretty "easy" too Dougie. I just happen to know from experience how dangerous that is. So I come here everyday to guard it. And whenever temptation shows up, it doesn't stand a chance against what I've built against it.
Listen to WP there Dougie,
we all have mentioned that this ride of quit you are on will have its ups and downs, just like the law of gravity or heck in anything if you are a yin and yang, that you cannot have the one without the other.
So if you are feeling good enjoy it, as you are earning it each and every day. It is while we feel good that we still need to learn, and ingrain those lessons so that when the time comes where we need them , we will know what to do.
So enjoy as it is here, and be aware that like the weather, it may change without notice.
we will be right there beside you when it does.
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Things seem to be going pretty well, too well in fact. I am at a point where I am worrying about this quit being too easy. I know the first week sucked but I made it out. It seems like this weekend the only craves I had were after running- they were pretty intense but I refuse to let my addict brain dwell on it for more that a few seconds.
Keep it close Doug, she, knows exactly what she is doing. I quit with you today.
One day at a time, man.
If today is easy...enjoy it. Know that there might be storms brewing, but enjoy it. That's why we quit, and that's why I still post here after nearly 2 years. Physically and mentally, I am quit. But, if I stop pursuing my quit, my tools may rust when I need them one day.
When times are good, we practice for the bad (posting roll, and taking what we need from the site here).
When times are bad, we lean on what we've practiced.
Quitting isn't easy, but it's not torture. There's a reason we do it: It gets better.
Proud of you man.
I have a few "quit heros" on this site. You're one of them WP.
My quit is pretty "easy" too Dougie. I just happen to know from experience how dangerous that is. So I come here everyday to guard it. And whenever temptation shows up, it doesn't stand a chance against what I've built against it.
Listen to WP there Dougie,
we all have mentioned that this ride of quit you are on will have its ups and downs, just like the law of gravity or heck in anything if you are a yin and yang, that you cannot have the one without the other.
So if you are feeling good enjoy it, as you are earning it each and every day. It is while we feel good that we still need to learn, and ingrain those lessons so that when the time comes where we need them , we will know what to do.
So enjoy as it is here, and be aware that like the weather, it may change without notice.
we will be right there beside you when it does.
I was right where you are 10 days ago. 1st week hellish, second week a breeze, and I was waiting for the worm to turn. Third week brought a couple of rough days, but totaly managable, and way easier than day 1. It helped me to realize that if I was not a nicotine addict, then I would still have rough days in my future. The nic bitch could suck wind from my kiester 'cause I wasn't wasteing time worrying about. You have the tools to handle it just keep doing what is working...
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So, good thing two days ago was all super great and "look at me I got this shit." Today sucks; I have a partial fog going on and I am irritable as a motherfucker. I had a dip dream last night; I think it was my first not sure though.
yup- the fog is back- no nicotine today
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So, good thing two days ago was all super great and "look at me I got this shit." Today sucks; I have a partial fog going on and I am irritable as a motherfucker. I had a dip dream last night; I think it was my first not sure though.
yup- the fog is back- no nicotine today
Grind. The path of quit is not a straight line. Their are more ups and downs than a porn movie.
Eventually though the line gets smoother and smoother with less bumps. Like my tightly groomed nether regions.
'puking'
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So, good thing two days ago was all super great and "look at me I got this shit." Today sucks; I have a partial fog going on and I am irritable as a motherfucker. I had a dip dream last night; I think it was my first not sure though.
yup- the fog is back- no nicotine today
Grind. The path of quit is not a straight line. Their are more ups and downs than a porn movie.
Eventually though the line gets smoother and smoother with less bumps. Like my tightly groomed nether regions.
'puking'
Same thing I said a few days ago Doug....KEEP IT CLOSE
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So, good thing two days ago was all super great and "look at me I got this shit." Today sucks; I have a partial fog going on and I am irritable as a motherfucker. I had a dip dream last night; I think it was my first not sure though.
yup- the fog is back- no nicotine today
Grind. The path of quit is not a straight line. Their are more ups and downs than a porn movie.
Eventually though the line gets smoother and smoother with less bumps. Like my tightly groomed nether regions.
'puking'
Same thing I said a few days ago Doug....KEEP IT CLOSE
Thanks guys- I am keeping it close and I will beat this motherfucker to the ground today-
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NAFAR Nic! ODAAT! You got this! The suck means you are winning. Piss off nic bitch your lies are all B.S..
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100th Post- Day 27
I feel better than I did yesterday- I guess that's what anxiety feels like, who knew! That's why it be One Day At A Time--- never know whats waiting for you around the corner!
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31 days nicotine free!
I have gained 10 lbs this month! My wife suggested that perhaps I switch to gum instead of sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs- guess she is feeling the extra weight too!- I told her no- I have a funky wisdom tooth that occasionally snags my cheek and I end up biting the piss out of it plus my jaw gets tired.
I like to use a line that I read somewhere on here: "its a lot easier to lose the fat than it is to lose cancer"- very true. I am starting to get back to regular running- My biggest trigger- a chew right after running- I wont go into detail about it -no romancing the chew in this thread-
This weekend was pretty interesting- I am having fewer cravings but some of them are the most intense ones that I have had outside of the first couple of days. I still feel mentally fogged most days plus there is some whacky pollen that causes my throat to feel like it is swelling shut.
Today I had a work lunch thing and the female next to me was picking onions out of her salad and sucking her finger clean after each one--- I wanted to shove her head into her salad and tell her to eat her fucking onions or use the fork to pick them out! lots of rage there for a few moments... good times. I managed to keep it together through the lunch and had a couple tic tacs to celebrate afterwards!
I am a very happy quitter today-
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31 days nicotine free!
I have gained 10 lbs this month! My wife suggested that perhaps I switch to gum instead of sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs- guess she is feeling the extra weight too!- I told her no- I have a funky wisdom tooth that occasionally snags my cheek and I end up biting the piss out of it plus my jaw gets tired.
I like to use a line that I read somewhere on here: "its a lot easier to lose the fat than it is to lose cancer"- very true. I am starting to get back to regular running- My biggest trigger- a chew right after running- I wont go into detail about it -no romancing the chew in this thread-
This weekend was pretty interesting- I am having fewer cravings but some of them are the most intense ones that I have had outside of the first couple of days. I still feel mentally fogged most days plus there is some whacky pollen that causes my throat to feel like it is swelling shut.
Today I had a work lunch thing and the female next to me was picking onions out of her salad and sucking her finger clean after each one--- I wanted to shove her head into her salad and tell her to eat her fucking onions or use the fork to pick them out! lots of rage there for a few moments... good times. I managed to keep it together through the lunch and had a couple tic tacs to celebrate afterwards!
I am a very happy quitter today-
I loved this post. Glad to know about your funky wisdom tooth.
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31 days nicotine free!
I have gained 10 lbs this month! My wife suggested that perhaps I switch to gum instead of sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs- guess she is feeling the extra weight too!- I told her no- I have a funky wisdom tooth that occasionally snags my cheek and I end up biting the piss out of it plus my jaw gets tired.
I like to use a line that I read somewhere on here: "its a lot easier to lose the fat than it is to lose cancer"- very true. I am starting to get back to regular running- My biggest trigger- a chew right after running- I wont go into detail about it -no romancing the chew in this thread-
This weekend was pretty interesting- I am having fewer cravings but some of them are the most intense ones that I have had outside of the first couple of days. I still feel mentally fogged most days plus there is some whacky pollen that causes my throat to feel like it is swelling shut.
Today I had a work lunch thing and the female next to me was picking onions out of her salad and sucking her finger clean after each one--- I wanted to shove her head into her salad and tell her to eat her fucking onions or use the fork to pick them out! lots of rage there for a few moments... good times. I managed to keep it together through the lunch and had a couple tic tacs to celebrate afterwards!
I am a very happy quitter today-
I loved this post. Glad to know about your funky wisdom tooth.
Good read Dougie, stay the course. Everything continues to get better. Please refrain from ruining a good salad. That would be good for your weight issue. 'crackup'. Glad to be quit with you.
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31 days nicotine free!
I have gained 10 lbs this month! My wife suggested that perhaps I switch to gum instead of sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs- guess she is feeling the extra weight too!- I told her no- I have a funky wisdom tooth that occasionally snags my cheek and I end up biting the piss out of it plus my jaw gets tired.
I like to use a line that I read somewhere on here: "its a lot easier to lose the fat than it is to lose cancer"- very true. I am starting to get back to regular running- My biggest trigger- a chew right after running- I wont go into detail about it -no romancing the chew in this thread-
This weekend was pretty interesting- I am having fewer cravings but some of them are the most intense ones that I have had outside of the first couple of days. I still feel mentally fogged most days plus there is some whacky pollen that causes my throat to feel like it is swelling shut.
Today I had a work lunch thing and the female next to me was picking onions out of her salad and sucking her finger clean after each one--- I wanted to shove her head into her salad and tell her to eat her fucking onions or use the fork to pick them out! lots of rage there for a few moments... good times. I managed to keep it together through the lunch and had a couple tic tacs to celebrate afterwards!
I am a very happy quitter today-
I loved this post. Glad to know about your funky wisdom tooth.
Good read Dougie, stay the course. Everything continues to get better. Please refrain from ruining a good salad. That would be good for your weight issue. 'crackup'. Glad to be quit with you.
'crackup' LOL love it! congratulations on one month quit! Proud to be quit with you every day. Keep pushing on as crave free days are in your future.
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31 days nicotine free!
I have gained 10 lbs this month! My wife suggested that perhaps I switch to gum instead of sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs- guess she is feeling the extra weight too!- I told her no- I have a funky wisdom tooth that occasionally snags my cheek and I end up biting the piss out of it plus my jaw gets tired.
I like to use a line that I read somewhere on here: "its a lot easier to lose the fat than it is to lose cancer"- very true. I am starting to get back to regular running- My biggest trigger- a chew right after running- I wont go into detail about it -no romancing the chew in this thread-
This weekend was pretty interesting- I am having fewer cravings but some of them are the most intense ones that I have had outside of the first couple of days. I still feel mentally fogged most days plus there is some whacky pollen that causes my throat to feel like it is swelling shut.
Today I had a work lunch thing and the female next to me was picking onions out of her salad and sucking her finger clean after each one--- I wanted to shove her head into her salad and tell her to eat her fucking onions or use the fork to pick them out! lots of rage there for a few moments... good times. I managed to keep it together through the lunch and had a couple tic tacs to celebrate afterwards!
I am a very happy quitter today-
I loved this post. Glad to know about your funky wisdom tooth.
Good read Dougie, stay the course. Everything continues to get better. Please refrain from ruining a good salad. That would be good for your weight issue. 'crackup'. Glad to be quit with you.
'crackup' LOL love it! congratulations on one month quit! Proud to be quit with you every day. Keep pushing on as crave free days are in your future.
Keep on kicking ass Dougie...it does get easier. Enjoy the rage too...it keeps you sane.
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31 days nicotine free!
I have gained 10 lbs this month! My wife suggested that perhaps I switch to gum instead of sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs- guess she is feeling the extra weight too!- I told her no- I have a funky wisdom tooth that occasionally snags my cheek and I end up biting the piss out of it plus my jaw gets tired.
I like to use a line that I read somewhere on here: "its a lot easier to lose the fat than it is to lose cancer"- very true. I am starting to get back to regular running- My biggest trigger- a chew right after running- I wont go into detail about it -no romancing the chew in this thread-
This weekend was pretty interesting- I am having fewer cravings but some of them are the most intense ones that I have had outside of the first couple of days. I still feel mentally fogged most days plus there is some whacky pollen that causes my throat to feel like it is swelling shut.
Today I had a work lunch thing and the female next to me was picking onions out of her salad and sucking her finger clean after each one--- I wanted to shove her head into her salad and tell her to eat her fucking onions or use the fork to pick them out! lots of rage there for a few moments... good times. I managed to keep it together through the lunch and had a couple tic tacs to celebrate afterwards!
I am a very happy quitter today-
LOL! Excellent post. Congrats on 1 month.
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31 days nicotine free!
I have gained 10 lbs this month! My wife suggested that perhaps I switch to gum instead of sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs- guess she is feeling the extra weight too!- I told her no- I have a funky wisdom tooth that occasionally snags my cheek and I end up biting the piss out of it plus my jaw gets tired.
I like to use a line that I read somewhere on here: "its a lot easier to lose the fat than it is to lose cancer"- very true. I am starting to get back to regular running- My biggest trigger- a chew right after running- I wont go into detail about it -no romancing the chew in this thread-
This weekend was pretty interesting- I am having fewer cravings but some of them are the most intense ones that I have had outside of the first couple of days. I still feel mentally fogged most days plus there is some whacky pollen that causes my throat to feel like it is swelling shut.
Today I had a work lunch thing and the female next to me was picking onions out of her salad and sucking her finger clean after each one--- I wanted to shove her head into her salad and tell her to eat her fucking onions or use the fork to pick them out! lots of rage there for a few moments... good times. I managed to keep it together through the lunch and had a couple tic tacs to celebrate afterwards!
I am a very happy quitter today-
I like you a lot.
Not because you're a chubby little snaggle-tooth, but because you're taking great pride in your quit. You're celebrating your milestones. You're talking about things, and you're getting involved with this community.
These are just a few of the elements that are doing to make you a success.
Two others - the most important ones - are RESOLVE and BALLS.
It takes resolve to see your way through anything that's uncomfortable. (And quitting nicotine is probably one of the most uncomfortable things imaginable.) It takes balls to stare down a monster craving and own it.
It will take enormous amounts of balls and resolve to stay quit, my man. You need an endless fucking supply. You'll need a hearty mound of it on Day 105, Day 400, Day 788, on and on and on.
Because nicotine is the Antichrist, and it does not Let Go.
Just be ready. Stay in it. Stay HERE. Never, ever leave this community. You'll know when the time comes when it's OK to not post for a day, or a week, or a month. (It's nowhere NEAR that time yet, though ;) ) But always find your way back here.
That's how you'll get this done.
You chubby little dreamboat you.
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31 days nicotine free!
I have gained 10 lbs this month! My wife suggested that perhaps I switch to gum instead of sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs- guess she is feeling the extra weight too!- I told her no- I have a funky wisdom tooth that occasionally snags my cheek and I end up biting the piss out of it plus my jaw gets tired.
I like to use a line that I read somewhere on here: "its a lot easier to lose the fat than it is to lose cancer"- very true. I am starting to get back to regular running- My biggest trigger- a chew right after running- I wont go into detail about it -no romancing the chew in this thread-
This weekend was pretty interesting- I am having fewer cravings but some of them are the most intense ones that I have had outside of the first couple of days. I still feel mentally fogged most days plus there is some whacky pollen that causes my throat to feel like it is swelling shut.
Today I had a work lunch thing and the female next to me was picking onions out of her salad and sucking her finger clean after each one--- I wanted to shove her head into her salad and tell her to eat her fucking onions or use the fork to pick them out! lots of rage there for a few moments... good times. I managed to keep it together through the lunch and had a couple tic tacs to celebrate afterwards!
I am a very happy quitter today-
I like you a lot.
Not because you're a chubby little snaggle-tooth, but because you're taking great pride in your quit. You're celebrating your milestones. You're talking about things, and you're getting involved with this community.
These are just a few of the elements that are doing to make you a success.
Two others - the most important ones - are RESOLVE and BALLS.
It takes resolve to see your way through anything that's uncomfortable. (And quitting nicotine is probably one of the most uncomfortable things imaginable.) It takes balls to stare down a monster craving and own it.
It will take enormous amounts of balls and resolve to stay quit, my man. You need an endless fucking supply. You'll need a hearty mound of it on Day 105, Day 400, Day 788, on and on and on.
Because nicotine is the Antichrist, and it does not Let Go.
Just be ready. Stay in it. Stay HERE. Never, ever leave this community. You'll know when the time comes when it's OK to not post for a day, or a week, or a month. (It's nowhere NEAR that time yet, though ;) ) But always find your way back here.
That's how you'll get this done.
You chubby little dreamboat you.
I love Dean... he gives me a "special" kinda feeling 'crackup'
Dougie... That was GOOD stuff! Pay attention to every word of it. I will too. Quit on m'man!
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31 days nicotine free!
I have gained 10 lbs this month! My wife suggested that perhaps I switch to gum instead of sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs- guess she is feeling the extra weight too!- I told her no- I have a funky wisdom tooth that occasionally snags my cheek and I end up biting the piss out of it plus my jaw gets tired.
I like to use a line that I read somewhere on here: "its a lot easier to lose the fat than it is to lose cancer"- very true. I am starting to get back to regular running- My biggest trigger- a chew right after running- I wont go into detail about it -no romancing the chew in this thread-
This weekend was pretty interesting- I am having fewer cravings but some of them are the most intense ones that I have had outside of the first couple of days. I still feel mentally fogged most days plus there is some whacky pollen that causes my throat to feel like it is swelling shut.
Today I had a work lunch thing and the female next to me was picking onions out of her salad and sucking her finger clean after each one--- I wanted to shove her head into her salad and tell her to eat her fucking onions or use the fork to pick them out! lots of rage there for a few moments... good times. I managed to keep it together through the lunch and had a couple tic tacs to celebrate afterwards!
I am a very happy quitter today-
I like you a lot.
Not because you're a chubby little snaggle-tooth, but because you're taking great pride in your quit. You're celebrating your milestones. You're talking about things, and you're getting involved with this community.
These are just a few of the elements that are doing to make you a success.
Two others - the most important ones - are RESOLVE and BALLS.
It takes resolve to see your way through anything that's uncomfortable. (And quitting nicotine is probably one of the most uncomfortable things imaginable.) It takes balls to stare down a monster craving and own it.
It will take enormous amounts of balls and resolve to stay quit, my man. You need an endless fucking supply. You'll need a hearty mound of it on Day 105, Day 400, Day 788, on and on and on.
Because nicotine is the Antichrist, and it does not Let Go.
Just be ready. Stay in it. Stay HERE. Never, ever leave this community. You'll know when the time comes when it's OK to not post for a day, or a week, or a month. (It's nowhere NEAR that time yet, though ;) ) But always find your way back here.
That's how you'll get this done.
You chubby little dreamboat you.
I love Dean... he gives me a "special" kinda feeling 'crackup'
Dougie... That was GOOD stuff! Pay attention to every word of it. I will too. Quit on m'man!
Wow.
I didn't really expect these reactions to my post but it is Amazing how the positive reactions of others lifts you up and makes you feel awesome!
Dean- I am taking great pride in my quit. I love it I feel like the chains have been broken and I can do anything now. I also know that this shit is sneaky and I plan on staying in these here halls forever only one day at a time. I will never look back at my days as an active addict and have fond memories. Forward looking only.
This is a great community- baddest ass quitters - people of integrity and honor- I am proud to be part of this community and I want to help others with their quit.
My thread is awesome- full of advice from some of the best quitters out there- I love looking at Per034's response though... pretty sure he thought I was a troll! I am thinking of taking a page out of Applejacks thread and posting a proper Intro around day 50- for now I just want to say:
I love you all / no homo-
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31 days nicotine free!
I have gained 10 lbs this month! My wife suggested that perhaps I switch to gum instead of sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs- guess she is feeling the extra weight too!- I told her no- I have a funky wisdom tooth that occasionally snags my cheek and I end up biting the piss out of it plus my jaw gets tired.
I like to use a line that I read somewhere on here: "its a lot easier to lose the fat than it is to lose cancer"- very true. I am starting to get back to regular running- My biggest trigger- a chew right after running- I wont go into detail about it -no romancing the chew in this thread-
This weekend was pretty interesting- I am having fewer cravings but some of them are the most intense ones that I have had outside of the first couple of days. I still feel mentally fogged most days plus there is some whacky pollen that causes my throat to feel like it is swelling shut.
Today I had a work lunch thing and the female next to me was picking onions out of her salad and sucking her finger clean after each one--- I wanted to shove her head into her salad and tell her to eat her fucking onions or use the fork to pick them out! lots of rage there for a few moments... good times. I managed to keep it together through the lunch and had a couple tic tacs to celebrate afterwards!
I am a very happy quitter today-
I like you a lot.
Not because you're a chubby little snaggle-tooth, but because you're taking great pride in your quit. You're celebrating your milestones. You're talking about things, and you're getting involved with this community.
These are just a few of the elements that are doing to make you a success.
Two others - the most important ones - are RESOLVE and BALLS.
It takes resolve to see your way through anything that's uncomfortable. (And quitting nicotine is probably one of the most uncomfortable things imaginable.) It takes balls to stare down a monster craving and own it.
It will take enormous amounts of balls and resolve to stay quit, my man. You need an endless fucking supply. You'll need a hearty mound of it on Day 105, Day 400, Day 788, on and on and on.
Because nicotine is the Antichrist, and it does not Let Go.
Just be ready. Stay in it. Stay HERE. Never, ever leave this community. You'll know when the time comes when it's OK to not post for a day, or a week, or a month. (It's nowhere NEAR that time yet, though ;) ) But always find your way back here.
That's how you'll get this done.
You chubby little dreamboat you.
I love Dean... he gives me a "special" kinda feeling 'crackup'
Dougie... That was GOOD stuff! Pay attention to every word of it. I will too. Quit on m'man!
Wow.
I didn't really expect these reactions to my post but it is Amazing how the positive reactions of others lifts you up and makes you feel awesome!
Dean- I am taking great pride in my quit. I love it I feel like the chains have been broken and I can do anything now. I also know that this shit is sneaky and I plan on staying in these here halls forever only one day at a time. I will never look back at my days as an active addict and have fond memories. Forward looking only.
This is a great community- baddest ass quitters - people of integrity and honor- I am proud to be part of this community and I want to help others with their quit.
My thread is awesome- full of advice from some of the best quitters out there- I love looking at Per034's response though... pretty sure he thought I was a troll! I am thinking of taking a page out of Applejacks thread and posting a proper Intro around day 50- for now I just want to say:
I love you all / no homo-
Homo is okay with Dean.
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31 days nicotine free!
I have gained 10 lbs this month! My wife suggested that perhaps I switch to gum instead of sunflower seeds and atomic fireballs- guess she is feeling the extra weight too!- I told her no- I have a funky wisdom tooth that occasionally snags my cheek and I end up biting the piss out of it plus my jaw gets tired.
I like to use a line that I read somewhere on here: "its a lot easier to lose the fat than it is to lose cancer"- very true. I am starting to get back to regular running- My biggest trigger- a chew right after running- I wont go into detail about it -no romancing the chew in this thread-
This weekend was pretty interesting- I am having fewer cravings but some of them are the most intense ones that I have had outside of the first couple of days. I still feel mentally fogged most days plus there is some whacky pollen that causes my throat to feel like it is swelling shut.
Today I had a work lunch thing and the female next to me was picking onions out of her salad and sucking her finger clean after each one--- I wanted to shove her head into her salad and tell her to eat her fucking onions or use the fork to pick them out! lots of rage there for a few moments... good times. I managed to keep it together through the lunch and had a couple tic tacs to celebrate afterwards!
I am a very happy quitter today-
I like you a lot.
Not because you're a chubby little snaggle-tooth, but because you're taking great pride in your quit. You're celebrating your milestones. You're talking about things, and you're getting involved with this community.
These are just a few of the elements that are doing to make you a success.
Two others - the most important ones - are RESOLVE and BALLS.
It takes resolve to see your way through anything that's uncomfortable. (And quitting nicotine is probably one of the most uncomfortable things imaginable.) It takes balls to stare down a monster craving and own it.
It will take enormous amounts of balls and resolve to stay quit, my man. You need an endless fucking supply. You'll need a hearty mound of it on Day 105, Day 400, Day 788, on and on and on.
Because nicotine is the Antichrist, and it does not Let Go.
Just be ready. Stay in it. Stay HERE. Never, ever leave this community. You'll know when the time comes when it's OK to not post for a day, or a week, or a month. (It's nowhere NEAR that time yet, though ;) ) But always find your way back here.
That's how you'll get this done.
You chubby little dreamboat you.
I love Dean... he gives me a "special" kinda feeling 'crackup'
Dougie... That was GOOD stuff! Pay attention to every word of it. I will too. Quit on m'man!
Wow.
I didn't really expect these reactions to my post but it is Amazing how the positive reactions of others lifts you up and makes you feel awesome!
Dean- I am taking great pride in my quit. I love it I feel like the chains have been broken and I can do anything now. I also know that this shit is sneaky and I plan on staying in these here halls forever only one day at a time. I will never look back at my days as an active addict and have fond memories. Forward looking only.
This is a great community- baddest ass quitters - people of integrity and honor- I am proud to be part of this community and I want to help others with their quit.
My thread is awesome- full of advice from some of the best quitters out there- I love looking at Per034's response though... pretty sure he thought I was a troll! I am thinking of taking a page out of Applejacks thread and posting a proper Intro around day 50- for now I just want to say:
I love you all / no homo-
Homo is okay with Dean.
'getaroom'
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The last few days have come and gone a few cravings here and there but nothing too bad. They were mostly just a run my tongue to where the wad of shit used to sit and I would think" hey I better grab a...oh never mind" type of thing. I have started doing two-a-days where I run in the morning and bike at lunch so that should help burn off the cherub physique I've been sportin'.
anyway just wanted to drop myself a note at 40 days to remind myself later on that today was a fucking great day to be quit-
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Today I had a work lunch thing and the female next to me was picking onions out of her salad and sucking her finger clean after each one--- I wanted to shove her head into her salad and tell her to eat her fucking onions or use the fork to pick them out! lots of rage there for a few moments... good times. I managed to keep it together through the lunch and had a couple tic tacs to celebrate afterwards!
This is freaking hilarious! I have wanted to do this to various people, at various times, in various situations since day one. BAM SMACKTHUDPOW SHUT UP YOU F*(*R annoying ass! 'bang head'
Thanks for the laugh Dougie
We need to laugh at the RAGE! 'crackup'
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So I am sitting here watching the History Channel- Unearthing America and some dudes in Oklahoma found a rock...
The host of the show is there and bammo I spot a can of chew in the front pocket of one of the rock finders- awesome dude! Sorry that you are a slave to that shit. Me, I am 42 days free.
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So I am sitting here watching the History Channel- Unearthing America and some dudes in Oklahoma found a rock...
The host of the show is there and bammo I spot a can of chew in the front pocket of one of the rock finders- awesome dude! Sorry that you are a slave to that shit. Me, I am 42 days free.
Free-Dom (scream in William Wallace voice). Wait til the future when they dig our civilization up and have to explain us jackasses that carried little cans of poison around and would put it in our mouths as a sign of virility.
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The 40's can go fuck themselves.
I feel that I am having cravings similar to the first week more often the last few days. The little voice trying to justify why I should return to slavery keeps creeping in- I am squashing it day by day sometimes hour by hour whatever it takes.
Makes it easy to see why you need to own your quit every day-
Never again, not for any reason.
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The 40's can go fuck themselves.
I feel that I am having cravings similar to the first week more often the last few days. The little voice trying to justify why I should return to slavery keeps creeping in- I am squashing it day by day sometimes hour by hour whatever it takes.
Makes it easy to see why you need to own your quit every day-
Never again, not for any reason.
Yep. It has to be work for me. I came to work pissed.
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Better still, what are the 5 indicators that a quitter is beginning to plan their own cave... we all know that this planning stage does happen, and vets sure as hell can see it coming if they pay attention.
Ooohhh, this could be a lively discussion. I'll throw in my two cents, but we need a dollar.
I don't believe in a planned cave. I have strung together 100+ days in the past and I have caved on an absolute whim. So, I will tell you how I came to buy a 25 cent special Grizzly Long Cut Straight from a 7-11 clerk after he couldn't give me directions to a swimming pool located less than two blocks from his store....
1) I distanced myself from my support network. My nicotine cessation group had a one month "hoorah for us" Chinese dinner celebration. It was great. We all exchanged contact information and I intentionally gave the wrong phone number because I was ready to do this thing on my own. I was one of only two people who hadn't caved during the first 30 days in class.
2) I did not have a forum to vent my frustrations. I often found myself blaming my wife (then girlfriend) for things that stemmed from my own behavior. I had no fuse with my students. My rage was pent up and growing.
3) I grew extremely complacent with my quit. I had a little 30 day calendar and 30 stickers that I could place for every day I remained quit. I hung that on my fridge with the same pride JpCrew pinned up his 2.3 miracle semester Junior year in HS. After that, I stopped keeping track with stickers. After two months, I lost track in my head and soon after I just stopped thinking about my quit altogether. Why think about it if you are quit, right? I owned that shit.
4) When my wife asked me how my quit was going, I would start to feel a bit irritated. What does it have to do with her? I came to resent her probing into my personal struggle and eventually convinced myself that she was why I had quit. I forgot the personal moment when I declared, "I choose to control my future" as I tossed my last tin the garbage in front of my quit group. My addiction took over and changed that to "My wife chooses to control my future".
5) The big shabang. Intense moment of stress piled on top of a craving right in front of a 25 cent special rack and I had no support, tons of pent up frustrations, no pride in my own quit, and a girlfriend constantly telling me what to do. One won't hurt?
CAVING IS NOT AN OPTION! You can never have just one.
Told this story before but I think it's worth repeating...I quit once for 27 days. This was maybe 13 years ago. My close friends were blown away that I had quit and admitted to me that they had been wrong. I am the chupracabra. The Kid. I rule.
Monday. Had to teach a class in San Diego. I'm not a big fan of public speaking - kinda stresses me out. As I drove down from Ventura I ran out of the fake mint snuff. No big deal, when I got to San Diego I just went to a 7-11 to get some more. They were out. So was the next one. I didn't know the area. Random convenience stores didn't carry it. The clock was ticking. One more 7-11. No mint snuff? I'll take the Copenhagen.
It wasn't that I planned to cave. It's that I failed to plan, then caved.
For those that do plan to cave, it's my belief that the #1 reason is that they forgot why they quit. My reasons are written down in back and white right by the coffee maker.
i started when i was 14 and 'tried' a quit once about 3 years ago and faked a quit two years ago to please the wife. in the failed quit, i tried using nrp and it was useless, simply used the gum more than i did tobacco because my wife let me use the gum in front of her, i think at that time i used more nic in a day than ever before in my addiction. after about 3 weeks i quit spending the money on the gum and went back to the dip, i actually justified it by saying at least i'm not sending anymore money to big pharm. the second was my stealth quit, i figured if i ninjaed(yep, new word in my personal unabridged dictionary volume 3) better the wife would think i was quit and would leave me alone. i guess the details of how that went are just filled with screaming, accusations, and the idea that somehow my wife just didn't get me. then came the summer of 2009. my boys and i drove to florida and the wife flew down to meet us(not on her broom). wpw, i was in dipping heaven....BUTthat's a big but, i found myself dipping more and more. i was cold busted cans everywhere, spitters everywhere, when the wife got there, she was one pissed spouse but didn't say anything. well, vacation ended, she flew home, i drove the boys. sitting in the car sucking on a fatty my 10 year old say to me "dad, you are really being a bad influence on me." hell i've heard that about a million times but some how it stuck. we got home i bought what became my last roll. on july 17, i cracked the third can of the day, had started the day with an open can, do the math; fourth can of the day, at around 11:00 pm, looked in the bathroom mirror and said to myself, "Self, this is bullshit." dumped the can, flushed it, and went to bed. the next day i found this site, actually had to email chewie to sign up, computer problem, and haven't looked back. i will no longer be a liar to my wife and kids. i will be the role model my kids deserve. i will be my quit and will never look back.
Somebody once told me that it's not enough to not go looking for trouble, you have to actively avoid it. I planned alot of caves. Before I found KTC I had a fairly serious quit a few years ago. I used NRT's (improperly) and didn't chew or Smoke for 6 months. All well and good but I caved out at the duck club during hunting season. I then rationalized my cave with I can control my use. I just would smoke one cig a night after work. That worked for about a week. Then it was two then 20, then I was smoking like a crack head so I decided I better start dipping again because all those cigs couldn't be good. So I quit again to gain control, I would only chew on a rigid schedule and cut down slowly. Good plan? nope. I started by not dipping for an hour after I woke up, then two then three etc etc. After awhile I would go all day and then start dipping at 6 or so. I would then proceed to chew a can in 6 or 7 hours, staying up late to keep dipping. Hmmmn this planned out cessation program wasn't working so I changed it again. The new plan was to go a day then two then three etc and after each successful abstinence program I would reward myself with a big fat wedge. That worked for a little while too, I got up to a week before I would gobble down a can or two and then start over. Can you imagine? I made myself go thru the three day withdrawl over and over again. Needless to say I was a dick during this period. I pissed off everybody, or they pissed off me. I rationalized this as I must have chewed to help me not want to kill people. Thing was it was the dip that made me so hostile, or the withdrawls rather. I am still amazed I didn't get a divorce due to my chronic assholism.
Every quit had some rule where I could chew or smoke if I quit for such and such a time period. The cave was my reward for quitting. Duh no wonder I could never get it under control. That pattern was so ingrained in my pea brain that I actually considered having a dip to celebrate my HOF. I earned it right? FUCK ME RUNNING I am a naughty little addict. I still plan my caves, but the difference is I recognize what Im doing.
5 Steps to a planned cave, I dunno, prob different for everybody.
On this site I should say it starts with an excuse to not post, My internet, grandma, car, house, bike, girdle, vagina, airconditioning broke so I won't be around for a few days. Second is a lack of vigilence due to leaving the site. Very easy to forget your addiction when your not forced to confront it everyday thru KTC. 3rd you become over confident in your self control. You don't post and you hardly ever think about dip so you must be a beacon of self control right? WRONG.
At this point your primed for a cave, planned or not. I guess step five is to stuff that cancer causing dirt flavored puke inducing worm shit into your yap.
SM
Damn! I thought MY logic was toxic back when I was a dipper. Skoalmonster puts me to shame. I mean Da---yuuuum.
I think most caves spring from one of two different falacies:
THE RECOVERY FALACY: The notion that once we've stopped nic usage for some period of time, that we're somehow "cured" of our addiction. Hell, President Obama hisownself said just a couple months ago, regarding his cigarette addiction, "I'm about 95% cured at this point." Right. If you think you can handle occasional nic use, you're done. Put a fork in ya.
The successful lifetime quitter is the one who KNOWS, deep down in his bones, that he's an incurable nicotice addict. He looks in the mirror every morning and sees a junkie. A healthy junkie, but a junkie just the same.
THE STRESS FALACY: The notion that we'll be able to cope with some bad turn of events more easily if we are using tobacco.
Of course, the only thing that nicotine does for us mentally is reduce the nicotine withdrawals that come from not using nicotine. You want to see a situation go from bad to worse? Throw all the guilt and shame of a ruined quit right on top of your real-life problems and see how that feels. Better? Well...ummm...no. Worse.
Bottom line...what's the best 'leading indicator' for a cave? It's when you start believing the lies the nic bitch tells you. You know how to tell when she's lying? When her lips are moving.
This shit is brilliant... well done fellas.
I caved in 2003 after about 14 months of quit. It wasn't planned from what I recall. But I certainly wasn't prepared. I had absolutely no understanding of what it meant to be an addict.
I am a deer hunter. October 1, 2003 rolled around. It just wasn't going to feel right in the woods without tobacco in my mouth. On the way to the camp, I foolishly told myself "You can dip just one can, just for opening weekend..." The plan was to go back home after a weekend of hunting and continue being quit.
It was May 2, 2009 before I mustered up the balls to quit again. "One can" turned into nearly 6 more years of being a slave to the can.
The lesson I learned: I am an addict, and that fact will never change. There is absolutely no such thing as "just one". Not "one dip", not "one can", not "one cigarette". I can NEVER use tobacco again, not once. And I won't. Failure is not an option. May 2 was the last time I will ever have started the process of nicotine withdrawal.
You quit on May 2nd? kewl now I know what I'll get every year for my birthday LAQuitter one more year quit. ;) Never knew you cared so much :wub:
All for you bubblehed! Happy damn birthday Aggie! :D
Bumping this up to the front so the lazy quitters that I am going to direct to this thread will read this shit and hopefully learn.
I decided I want this in my intro thread- this is some serious quit- again I feel that I need to profess my man crush for smokeyg :wub:
I need to keep going to his thread and following the links- I chose not to do that while at work I am sure that I chose wisely. Today was a great day to be quit.
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I am proud to be quitting with you man. Damn proud!
Erussell
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I am proud to be quitting with you man. Damn proud!
Erussell
That means a lot to me considering what a bad ass quit you have. Take care and if you ever need anything give me a shout-
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Man... you got your head around this! You, my friend, are sporting a badass insight and attitude about your quit. Proud to quit with you dude...
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Man... you got your head around this! You, my friend, are sporting a badass insight and attitude about your quit. Proud to quit with you dude...
Yeah, Dougie . . . I like your use of the KTC library card A LOT. That's what it's for. Keep it up!
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Man... you got your head around this! You, my friend, are sporting a badass insight and attitude about your quit. Proud to quit with you dude...
Yeah, Dougie . . . I like your use of the KTC library card A LOT. That's what it's for. Keep it up!
Good job dougie but what is the girl saying in OIB avatar. Dammit please do something about this great mystery.
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Man... you got your head around this! You, my friend, are sporting a badass insight and attitude about your quit. Proud to quit with you dude...
Yeah, Dougie . . . I like your use of the KTC library card A LOT. That's what it's for. Keep it up!
Good job dougie but what is the girl saying in OIB avatar. Dammit please do something about this great mystery.
she is talking???? she has a head???
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Man... you got your head around this! You, my friend, are sporting a badass insight and attitude about your quit. Proud to quit with you dude...
Yeah, Dougie . . . I like your use of the KTC library card A LOT. That's what it's for. Keep it up!
Good job dougie but what is the girl saying in OIB avatar. Dammit please do something about this great mystery.
she is talking???? she has a head???
I PMd OIB and he didn't even know she was talking. This has confused the hell out of me. She had something to say and I am concerned.
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Man... you got your head around this! You, my friend, are sporting a badass insight and attitude about your quit. Proud to quit with you dude...
Yeah, Dougie . . . I like your use of the KTC library card A LOT. That's what it's for. Keep it up!
Good job dougie but what is the girl saying in OIB avatar. Dammit please do something about this great mystery.
she is talking???? she has a head???
I PMd OIB and he didn't even know she was talking. This has confused the hell out of me. She had something to say and I am concerned.
She's saying "eat Spam." It's an effing Spam commercial.
Thanks for posting the cave thread dougie. There's a lot to be learned and tons of great insights from this group of addicts.
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Man... you got your head around this! You, my friend, are sporting a badass insight and attitude about your quit. Proud to quit with you dude...
Yeah, Dougie . . . I like your use of the KTC library card A LOT. That's what it's for. Keep it up!
Good job dougie but what is the girl saying in OIB avatar. Dammit please do something about this great mystery.
she is talking???? she has a head???
I PMd OIB and he didn't even know she was talking. This has confused the hell out of me. She had something to say and I am concerned.
She's saying "eat Spam." It's an effing Spam commercial.
Thanks for posting the cave thread dougie. There's a lot to be learned and tons of great insights from this group of addicts.
Alight . . . I did some research. http://www.egotastic.com/2012/06/kate-u ... oot-video/ (http://www.egotastic.com/2012/06/kate-upton-barely-containing-bikini-behind-the-scenes-of-beach-bunny-photoshoot-video/) at 1:32
"That's a wrap!"
I feel like a tiny bit of magic has left the world.
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Man... you got your head around this! You, my friend, are sporting a badass insight and attitude about your quit. Proud to quit with you dude...
Yeah, Dougie . . . I like your use of the KTC library card A LOT. That's what it's for. Keep it up!
Good job dougie but what is the girl saying in OIB avatar. Dammit please do something about this great mystery.
she is talking???? she has a head???
I PMd OIB and he didn't even know she was talking. This has confused the hell out of me. She had something to say and I am concerned.
She's saying "eat Spam." It's an effing Spam commercial.
Thanks for posting the cave thread dougie. There's a lot to be learned and tons of great insights from this group of addicts.
Alight . . . I did some research. http://www.egotastic.com/2012/06/kate-u ... oot-video/ (http://www.egotastic.com/2012/06/kate-upton-barely-containing-bikini-behind-the-scenes-of-beach-bunny-photoshoot-video/) at 1:32
"That's a wrap!"
I feel like a tiny bit of magic has left the world.
I feel like the Tooth Fairy was just killed in my thread...
I always imagined she was saying sumpin bout suckin sumpin...
Anyway thanks for your support guys! I am approaching bed time so tomorrow when I wake up I get to post up for five-o. I love being quit despite the random urges and other shit that pops up being free from tobacco is super awesome!
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Man... you got your head around this! You, my friend, are sporting a badass insight and attitude about your quit. Proud to quit with you dude...
Yeah, Dougie . . . I like your use of the KTC library card A LOT. That's what it's for. Keep it up!
Good job dougie but what is the girl saying in OIB avatar. Dammit please do something about this great mystery.
she is talking???? she has a head???
I PMd OIB and he didn't even know she was talking. This has confused the hell out of me. She had something to say and I am concerned.
She's saying "eat Spam." It's an effing Spam commercial.
Thanks for posting the cave thread dougie. There's a lot to be learned and tons of great insights from this group of addicts.
Alight . . . I did some research. http://www.egotastic.com/2012/06/kate-u ... oot-video/ (http://www.egotastic.com/2012/06/kate-upton-barely-containing-bikini-behind-the-scenes-of-beach-bunny-photoshoot-video/) at 1:32
"That's a wrap!"
I feel like a tiny bit of magic has left the world.
I feel like the Tooth Fairy was just killed in my thread...
I always imagined she was saying sumpin bout suckin sumpin...
Anyway thanks for your support guys! I am approaching bed time so tomorrow when I wake up I get to post up for five-o. I love being quit despite the random urges and other shit that pops up being free from tobacco is super awesome!
Strong 50, Dougie.
If you look closely at that video, I think she actually says "boooo - bieees!" At least that's what I see
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50 Days of Living Free.
This is the first time I have ever really tried to quit. I mean I gave some weak ass attempts in college where I lasted a day or two. I also tried the gum and lozenges but I didn’t follow the plan I just used them whenever until I talked myself into buying the “good stuff.” I knew all along that the only way to quit was to go cold turkey but I didn’t want to go through it, I thought it would be too hard and I thought it wouldn’t be worth it. The past few years I have really struggled with the thought of quitting, I was planning it out and waiting for the perfect time but you know what? That perfect time just never came- there was always an excuse, a noble reason, a lie.
On May 30, 2013- I had a few beers and was getting ready to go to bed. I went to the kitchen sink to wash my dip down the drain but the sink was full of dishes. I opted to throw it in the garbage but when I did that I reached all the way down and didn’t have anything to bury it in- I thought to myself “self you should throw this away somewhere else or you going to get caught” but I was tired and slightly drunk so I thought fuck it. Well that morning 05/31/2013 the wife found it and asked me what I thought it was… And I fucking tried to lie about it!!! WOW. I spent that day at home and made the decision that I needed to get my priorities straight- ruin my life or set myself free. I went through the entire house and purged every hidden can that I could find- they were empty but I knew that I would lick em clean if given the chance- I have ran out before and didn’t have a good reason to leave the house so I was pretty good at making sure I left a few cans with a little in it to help me get through those times. I made it through the weekend and found this place on the following Monday. I know that I would not be looking at 50 days quit without this site. I also know that I would not be looking at this without the support of my wife. I quit this addiction everyday by promising you my brothers and by promising to my wife that I will not use nicotine. I have learned by reading other peoples adventures through this that I will have to continue to make this promise for the rest of my life. Sure, as time goes by I won’t have to log in and post roll or tell my wife the same thing but I will have to keep it close and know that the bitch is there waiting for me to come back.
What else have I learned along the way??
I apparently suffer some sort of social anxiety- whenever I am in a group and I have to say something personal I feel like my heart is beating a thousand times per second and my face is on fire. While it isnÂ’t new it is much more intense than what I remember.
I went fishing sometime around the 20 day mark and ran across a garter snake- I don’t like snakes but I seriously fucking freaked out when I saw it- I thought I was “having the big one” I trudged on to the hole I wanted to get to but then on my return I was filled with so much anxiety about seeing that fucking snake again. I have never felt like that and now I understand how debilitating that can be. I had to talk myself all the way back. It was mostly calling myself a pussy and things of that nature but wow what a horrible feeling.
Going places with the family is much less stressful for me. I no longer have to figure out a way to smuggle enough with me to keep a dip in my mouth at all times. Or have to worry that my stash might be found if it is an overnighter or longer. I used to think that it would be harder without that shit now I see what a lie I told myself-
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50 Days of Living Free.
This is the first time I have ever really tried to quit. I mean I gave some weak ass attempts in college where I lasted a day or two. I also tried the gum and lozenges but I didn’t follow the plan I just used them whenever until I talked myself into buying the “good stuff.” I knew all along that the only way to quit was to go cold turkey but I didn’t want to go through it, I thought it would be too hard and I thought it wouldn’t be worth it. The past few years I have really struggled with the thought of quitting, I was planning it out and waiting for the perfect time but you know what? That perfect time just never came- there was always an excuse, a noble reason, a lie.
On May 30, 2013- I had a few beers and was getting ready to go to bed. I went to the kitchen sink to wash my dip down the drain but the sink was full of dishes. I opted to throw it in the garbage but when I did that I reached all the way down and didn’t have anything to bury it in- I thought to myself “self you should throw this away somewhere else or you going to get caught” but I was tired and slightly drunk so I thought fuck it. Well that morning 05/31/2013 the wife found it and asked me what I thought it was… And I fucking tried to lie about it!!! WOW. I spent that day at home and made the decision that I needed to get my priorities straight- ruin my life or set myself free. I went through the entire house and purged every hidden can that I could find- they were empty but I knew that I would lick em clean if given the chance- I have ran out before and didn’t have a good reason to leave the house so I was pretty good at making sure I left a few cans with a little in it to help me get through those times. I made it through the weekend and found this place on the following Monday. I know that I would not be looking at 50 days quit without this site. I also know that I would not be looking at this without the support of my wife. I quit this addiction everyday by promising you my brothers and by promising to my wife that I will not use nicotine. I have learned by reading other peoples adventures through this that I will have to continue to make this promise for the rest of my life. Sure, as time goes by I won’t have to log in and post roll or tell my wife the same thing but I will have to keep it close and know that the bitch is there waiting for me to come back.
What else have I learned along the way??
I apparently suffer some sort of social anxiety- whenever I am in a group and I have to say something personal I feel like my heart is beating a thousand times per second and my face is on fire. While it isnÂ’t new it is much more intense than what I remember.
I went fishing sometime around the 20 day mark and ran across a garter snake- I don’t like snakes but I seriously fucking freaked out when I saw it- I thought I was “having the big one” I trudged on to the hole I wanted to get to but then on my return I was filled with so much anxiety about seeing that fucking snake again. I have never felt like that and now I understand how debilitating that can be. I had to talk myself all the way back. It was mostly calling myself a pussy and things of that nature but wow what a horrible feeling.
Going places with the family is much less stressful for me. I no longer have to figure out a way to smuggle enough with me to keep a dip in my mouth at all times. Or have to worry that my stash might be found if it is an overnighter or longer. I used to think that it would be harder without that shit now I see what a lie I told myself-
50 days......way to go man and thanks for the insight into your quit it is inspiring. Keep that anxiety under control, maybe go see your doc. I had a full blown anxiety attack not too long ago and it was terrifying, and I didn't even see a snake lol. I went to the doc and he gave me some just in case meds. It's not just a man up and cowboy thru issue. If you need some help reach out to us. I quit with you!
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50 Days of Living Free.
This is the first time I have ever really tried to quit. I mean I gave some weak ass attempts in college where I lasted a day or two. I also tried the gum and lozenges but I didn’t follow the plan I just used them whenever until I talked myself into buying the “good stuff.” I knew all along that the only way to quit was to go cold turkey but I didn’t want to go through it, I thought it would be too hard and I thought it wouldn’t be worth it. The past few years I have really struggled with the thought of quitting, I was planning it out and waiting for the perfect time but you know what? That perfect time just never came- there was always an excuse, a noble reason, a lie.
On May 30, 2013- I had a few beers and was getting ready to go to bed. I went to the kitchen sink to wash my dip down the drain but the sink was full of dishes. I opted to throw it in the garbage but when I did that I reached all the way down and didn’t have anything to bury it in- I thought to myself “self you should throw this away somewhere else or you going to get caught” but I was tired and slightly drunk so I thought fuck it. Well that morning 05/31/2013 the wife found it and asked me what I thought it was… And I fucking tried to lie about it!!! WOW. I spent that day at home and made the decision that I needed to get my priorities straight- ruin my life or set myself free. I went through the entire house and purged every hidden can that I could find- they were empty but I knew that I would lick em clean if given the chance- I have ran out before and didn’t have a good reason to leave the house so I was pretty good at making sure I left a few cans with a little in it to help me get through those times. I made it through the weekend and found this place on the following Monday. I know that I would not be looking at 50 days quit without this site. I also know that I would not be looking at this without the support of my wife. I quit this addiction everyday by promising you my brothers and by promising to my wife that I will not use nicotine. I have learned by reading other peoples adventures through this that I will have to continue to make this promise for the rest of my life. Sure, as time goes by I won’t have to log in and post roll or tell my wife the same thing but I will have to keep it close and know that the bitch is there waiting for me to come back.
What else have I learned along the way??
I apparently suffer some sort of social anxiety- whenever I am in a group and I have to say something personal I feel like my heart is beating a thousand times per second and my face is on fire. While it isnÂ’t new it is much more intense than what I remember.
I went fishing sometime around the 20 day mark and ran across a garter snake- I don’t like snakes but I seriously fucking freaked out when I saw it- I thought I was “having the big one” I trudged on to the hole I wanted to get to but then on my return I was filled with so much anxiety about seeing that fucking snake again. I have never felt like that and now I understand how debilitating that can be. I had to talk myself all the way back. It was mostly calling myself a pussy and things of that nature but wow what a horrible feeling.
Going places with the family is much less stressful for me. I no longer have to figure out a way to smuggle enough with me to keep a dip in my mouth at all times. Or have to worry that my stash might be found if it is an overnighter or longer. I used to think that it would be harder without that shit now I see what a lie I told myself-
50 days......way to go man and thanks for the insight into your quit it is inspiring. Keep that anxiety under control, maybe go see your doc. I had a full blown anxiety attack not too long ago and it was terrifying, and I didn't even see a snake lol. I went to the doc and he gave me some just in case meds. It's not just a man up and cowboy thru issue. If you need some help reach out to us. I quit with you!
Good advice ^^ here dougie. You are still real early in your quit. I'm on day 155 and the difference in 155 and 50 is night and day. You stated that you've always had social anxiety . On day 50 I was having horrible issues with anxiety. Remember, everything is still new to you my friend. You've been dealing with all of life desensitized by our old fix. I have a job that gets pretty stressful at times and those stressful situations have been getting easier and easier to deal with. Give it some more time dougie. Your not done finding you yet my friend.
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50 Days of Living Free.
This is the first time I have ever really tried to quit. I mean I gave some weak ass attempts in college where I lasted a day or two. I also tried the gum and lozenges but I didn’t follow the plan I just used them whenever until I talked myself into buying the “good stuff.” I knew all along that the only way to quit was to go cold turkey but I didn’t want to go through it, I thought it would be too hard and I thought it wouldn’t be worth it. The past few years I have really struggled with the thought of quitting, I was planning it out and waiting for the perfect time but you know what? That perfect time just never came- there was always an excuse, a noble reason, a lie.
On May 30, 2013- I had a few beers and was getting ready to go to bed. I went to the kitchen sink to wash my dip down the drain but the sink was full of dishes. I opted to throw it in the garbage but when I did that I reached all the way down and didn’t have anything to bury it in- I thought to myself “self you should throw this away somewhere else or you going to get caught” but I was tired and slightly drunk so I thought fuck it. Well that morning 05/31/2013 the wife found it and asked me what I thought it was… And I fucking tried to lie about it!!! WOW. I spent that day at home and made the decision that I needed to get my priorities straight- ruin my life or set myself free. I went through the entire house and purged every hidden can that I could find- they were empty but I knew that I would lick em clean if given the chance- I have ran out before and didn’t have a good reason to leave the house so I was pretty good at making sure I left a few cans with a little in it to help me get through those times. I made it through the weekend and found this place on the following Monday. I know that I would not be looking at 50 days quit without this site. I also know that I would not be looking at this without the support of my wife. I quit this addiction everyday by promising you my brothers and by promising to my wife that I will not use nicotine. I have learned by reading other peoples adventures through this that I will have to continue to make this promise for the rest of my life. Sure, as time goes by I won’t have to log in and post roll or tell my wife the same thing but I will have to keep it close and know that the bitch is there waiting for me to come back.
What else have I learned along the way??
I apparently suffer some sort of social anxiety- whenever I am in a group and I have to say something personal I feel like my heart is beating a thousand times per second and my face is on fire. While it isnÂ’t new it is much more intense than what I remember.
I went fishing sometime around the 20 day mark and ran across a garter snake- I don’t like snakes but I seriously fucking freaked out when I saw it- I thought I was “having the big one” I trudged on to the hole I wanted to get to but then on my return I was filled with so much anxiety about seeing that fucking snake again. I have never felt like that and now I understand how debilitating that can be. I had to talk myself all the way back. It was mostly calling myself a pussy and things of that nature but wow what a horrible feeling.
Going places with the family is much less stressful for me. I no longer have to figure out a way to smuggle enough with me to keep a dip in my mouth at all times. Or have to worry that my stash might be found if it is an overnighter or longer. I used to think that it would be harder without that shit now I see what a lie I told myself-
50 days......way to go man and thanks for the insight into your quit it is inspiring. Keep that anxiety under control, maybe go see your doc. I had a full blown anxiety attack not too long ago and it was terrifying, and I didn't even see a snake lol. I went to the doc and he gave me some just in case meds. It's not just a man up and cowboy thru issue. If you need some help reach out to us. I quit with you!
Good advice ^^ here dougie. You are still real early in your quit. I'm on day 155 and the difference in 155 and 50 is night and day. You stated that you've always had social anxiety . On day 50 I was having horrible issues with anxiety. Remember, everything is still new to you my friend. You've been dealing with all of life desensitized by our old fix. I have a job that gets pretty stressful at times and those stressful situations have been getting easier and easier to deal with. Give it some more time dougie. Your not done finding you yet my friend.
I've been looking for HOF speeches as they come out, and here's HOF quality if I ever saw it! Thanks for the inspiration, I'm a few days behind you and a quest for day #100 and beyond.
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50 Days of Living Free.
This is the first time I have ever really tried to quit. I mean I gave some weak ass attempts in college where I lasted a day or two. I also tried the gum and lozenges but I didn’t follow the plan I just used them whenever until I talked myself into buying the “good stuff.” I knew all along that the only way to quit was to go cold turkey but I didn’t want to go through it, I thought it would be too hard and I thought it wouldn’t be worth it. The past few years I have really struggled with the thought of quitting, I was planning it out and waiting for the perfect time but you know what? That perfect time just never came- there was always an excuse, a noble reason, a lie.
On May 30, 2013- I had a few beers and was getting ready to go to bed. I went to the kitchen sink to wash my dip down the drain but the sink was full of dishes. I opted to throw it in the garbage but when I did that I reached all the way down and didn’t have anything to bury it in- I thought to myself “self you should throw this away somewhere else or you going to get caught” but I was tired and slightly drunk so I thought fuck it. Well that morning 05/31/2013 the wife found it and asked me what I thought it was… And I fucking tried to lie about it!!! WOW. I spent that day at home and made the decision that I needed to get my priorities straight- ruin my life or set myself free. I went through the entire house and purged every hidden can that I could find- they were empty but I knew that I would lick em clean if given the chance- I have ran out before and didn’t have a good reason to leave the house so I was pretty good at making sure I left a few cans with a little in it to help me get through those times. I made it through the weekend and found this place on the following Monday. I know that I would not be looking at 50 days quit without this site. I also know that I would not be looking at this without the support of my wife. I quit this addiction everyday by promising you my brothers and by promising to my wife that I will not use nicotine. I have learned by reading other peoples adventures through this that I will have to continue to make this promise for the rest of my life. Sure, as time goes by I won’t have to log in and post roll or tell my wife the same thing but I will have to keep it close and know that the bitch is there waiting for me to come back.
What else have I learned along the way??
I apparently suffer some sort of social anxiety- whenever I am in a group and I have to say something personal I feel like my heart is beating a thousand times per second and my face is on fire. While it isnÂ’t new it is much more intense than what I remember.
I went fishing sometime around the 20 day mark and ran across a garter snake- I don’t like snakes but I seriously fucking freaked out when I saw it- I thought I was “having the big one” I trudged on to the hole I wanted to get to but then on my return I was filled with so much anxiety about seeing that fucking snake again. I have never felt like that and now I understand how debilitating that can be. I had to talk myself all the way back. It was mostly calling myself a pussy and things of that nature but wow what a horrible feeling.
Going places with the family is much less stressful for me. I no longer have to figure out a way to smuggle enough with me to keep a dip in my mouth at all times. Or have to worry that my stash might be found if it is an overnighter or longer. I used to think that it would be harder without that shit now I see what a lie I told myself-
50 days......way to go man and thanks for the insight into your quit it is inspiring. Keep that anxiety under control, maybe go see your doc. I had a full blown anxiety attack not too long ago and it was terrifying, and I didn't even see a snake lol. I went to the doc and he gave me some just in case meds. It's not just a man up and cowboy thru issue. If you need some help reach out to us. I quit with you!
Good advice ^^ here dougie. You are still real early in your quit. I'm on day 155 and the difference in 155 and 50 is night and day. You stated that you've always had social anxiety . On day 50 I was having horrible issues with anxiety. Remember, everything is still new to you my friend. You've been dealing with all of life desensitized by our old fix. I have a job that gets pretty stressful at times and those stressful situations have been getting easier and easier to deal with. Give it some more time dougie. Your not done finding you yet my friend.
I've been looking for HOF speeches as they come out, and here's HOF quality if I ever saw it! Thanks for the inspiration, I'm a few days behind you and a quest for day #100 and beyond.
50 days is huge, congrats. Way to be active on the site too, I hope you see how much that helps not only you but all the rest of us reading around too! Keep it up.
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Just wanted to thank everyone that has supported me so far.
I have this shit on an intellectual basis. It is the emotional side of the addiction that needs work. We all understand it but fuck when you "feel" it then it really becomes part of you. I have that now. I feel my nic free life and I love it.
I plan on paying it forward everyday. this site wouldnt work without guys helping out. I dont want to name anyone because there are too many and I dont want to offend. I have received some great support both in public and private form. This is what makes this site work. Soak it up newbs. You are not special. nicotine sucks. being a bitch sucks more.
I haven't read everyone's intro thread but if anyone can get smokeyg to post a story in my thread that would be super awesome cause he a quit hero. I lost my shit reading that thread. Good stuff.
I am going to be here for a long time. Get used to my sunflower.
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Just wanted to thank everyone that has supported me so far.
I have this shit on an intellectual basis. It is the emotional side of the addiction that needs work. We all understand it but fuck when you "feel" it then it really becomes part of you. I have that now. I feel my nic free life and I love it.
I plan on paying it forward everyday. this site wouldnt work without guys helping out. I dont want to name anyone because there are too many and I dont want to offend. I have received some great support both in public and private form. This is what makes this site work. Soak it up newbs. You are not special. nicotine sucks. being a bitch sucks more.
I haven't read everyone's intro thread but if anyone can get smokeyg to post a story in my thread that would be super awesome cause he a quit hero. I lost my shit reading that thread. Good stuff.
I am going to be here for a long time. Get used to my sunflower.
Proud to be a quit brother of yours. Look forward to many more days, months, years posting together. :wub:
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Just wanted to thank everyone that has supported me so far.
I have this shit on an intellectual basis. It is the emotional side of the addiction that needs work. We all understand it but fuck when you "feel" it then it really becomes part of you. I have that now. I feel my nic free life and I love it.
I plan on paying it forward everyday. this site wouldnt work without guys helping out. I dont want to name anyone because there are too many and I dont want to offend. I have received some great support both in public and private form. This is what makes this site work. Soak it up newbs. You are not special. nicotine sucks. being a bitch sucks more.
I haven't read everyone's intro thread but if anyone can get smokeyg to post a story in my thread that would be super awesome cause he a quit hero. I lost my shit reading that thread. Good stuff.
I am going to be here for a long time. Get used to my sunflower.
Proud to be a quit brother of yours. Look forward to many more days, months, years posting together. :wub:
Hell yeah Dougie! Well said.
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Just wanted to thank everyone that has supported me so far.
I have this shit on an intellectual basis. It is the emotional side of the addiction that needs work. We all understand it but fuck when you "feel" it then it really becomes part of you. I have that now. I feel my nic free life and I love it.
I plan on paying it forward everyday. this site wouldnt work without guys helping out. I dont want to name anyone because there are too many and I dont want to offend. I have received some great support both in public and private form. This is what makes this site work. Soak it up newbs. You are not special. nicotine sucks. being a bitch sucks more.
I haven't read everyone's intro thread but if anyone can get smokeyg to post a story in my thread that would be super awesome cause he a quit hero. I lost my shit reading that thread. Good stuff.
I am going to be here for a long time. Get used to my sunflower.
Proud to be a quit brother of yours. Look forward to many more days, months, years posting together. :wub:
Hell yeah Dougie! Well said.
Newbies, pay attention. This is how you'll succeed.
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I think sometimes too much of a good thing is too much.
Yesterday I spent hours reading over this site, drinking the kool-aide, and pouring a few glasses where I could. Last night my dreams were wicked shit- I swear I could taste copenhagen which is funny because I never liked that shit when I was a dumb fuck dipper.
I guess I need to take all things in moderation!
Day 53- still a little funky- I am still dealing with the habitual parts of my addiction. I used to keep my can in the garage and every night after dinner I would walk outside and grab a dip- I find myself heading for the door after I eat, occasionally, I get outside and wonder what the fuck am I doing out here??
I QUIT LIKE FUCK TODAY!
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I think sometimes too much of a good thing is too much.
Yesterday I spent hours reading over this site, drinking the kool-aide, and pouring a few glasses where I could. Last night my dreams were wicked shit- I swear I could taste copenhagen which is funny because I never liked that shit when I was a dumb fuck dipper.
I guess I need to take all things in moderation!
Day 53- still a little funky- I am still dealing with the habitual parts of my addiction. I used to keep my can in the garage and every night after dinner I would walk outside and grab a dip- I find myself heading for the door after I eat, occasionally, I get outside and wonder what the fuck am I doing out here??
I QUIT LIKE FUCK TODAY!
I had a glass of what u poured yesterday. Tasted pretty good man. Not sure you can quit in moderation. You are either fully in or you are fully out. You are clearly all in and I am glad to be quit with you! Bump at will.
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I think sometimes too much of a good thing is too much.
Yesterday I spent hours reading over this site, drinking the kool-aide, and pouring a few glasses where I could. Last night my dreams were wicked shit- I swear I could taste copenhagen which is funny because I never liked that shit when I was a dumb fuck dipper.
I guess I need to take all things in moderation!
Day 53- still a little funky- I am still dealing with the habitual parts of my addiction. I used to keep my can in the garage and every night after dinner I would walk outside and grab a dip- I find myself heading for the door after I eat, occasionally, I get outside and wonder what the fuck am I doing out here??
I QUIT LIKE FUCK TODAY!
I had a glass of what u poured yesterday. Tasted pretty good man. Not sure you can quit in moderation. You are either fully in or you are fully out. You are clearly all in and I am glad to be quit with you! Bump at will.
Good catch- I QUIT LIKE FUCK- no moderation there.
Thanks Derk40- its great to be quit with you
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I think sometimes too much of a good thing is too much.
Yesterday I spent hours reading over this site, drinking the kool-aide, and pouring a few glasses where I could. Last night my dreams were wicked shit- I swear I could taste copenhagen which is funny because I never liked that shit when I was a dumb fuck dipper.
I guess I need to take all things in moderation!
Day 53- still a little funky- I am still dealing with the habitual parts of my addiction. I used to keep my can in the garage and every night after dinner I would walk outside and grab a dip- I find myself heading for the door after I eat, occasionally, I get outside and wonder what the fuck am I doing out here??
I QUIT LIKE FUCK TODAY!
I had a glass of what u poured yesterday. Tasted pretty good man. Not sure you can quit in moderation. You are either fully in or you are fully out. You are clearly all in and I am glad to be quit with you! Bump at will.
Good catch- I QUIT LIKE FUCK- no moderation there.
Thanks Derk40- its great to be quit with you
Dougie you just scared the hell out of the nic bitch with all your kool-aide chugging and dispensing, and she felt she had to try harder... No moderation in quit!
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Day 60-
I am still an asshole. Maybe that is just part of who I am? I have a more intense angerÂ… thatÂ’s not quite right but it is hard to explain- I get pissed off much quicker about inconsequential things- I also tend to rage about things that previously only pissed me offÂ… maybe.
I am still fat. I have increased my activity level considerably since I noticed that I gained 12 lbs but it hasnÂ’t seemed to make much of a difference. I just started tracking my calories on a daily basis and realized that I consumed at least 420 calories in lifesavers alone. I started chewing gum, paying special attention not to bite the inside of my cheek, more regularly, with less intensive chewing.
I need to remember that it is most likely me that is making the “situation” stressful which puts me into a state of extreme mad. I know that this will pass or least I will drop back down to a level of tolerable asshole.
I need to continue exercising and posting up in the OSX thread (great group of quitters in there btw). Food log- great tool in identifying why you are a fattie if you didnÂ’t already know; most people grossly underestimate how much they consume (food and drink).
Still have craves/urges- varying degrees of intensity but all manageable.
KTC Kool-aide quenches the quit thirst!
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Day 60-
I am still an asshole. Maybe that is just part of who I am? I have a more intense angerÂ… thatÂ’s not quite right but it is hard to explain- I get pissed off much quicker about inconsequential things- I also tend to rage about things that previously only pissed me offÂ… maybe.
I am still fat. I have increased my activity level considerably since I noticed that I gained 12 lbs but it hasnÂ’t seemed to make much of a difference. I just started tracking my calories on a daily basis and realized that I consumed at least 420 calories in lifesavers alone. I started chewing gum, paying special attention not to bite the inside of my cheek, more regularly, with less intensive chewing.
I need to remember that it is most likely me that is making the “situation” stressful which puts me into a state of extreme mad. I know that this will pass or least I will drop back down to a level of tolerable asshole.
I need to continue exercising and posting up in the OSX thread (great group of quitters in there btw). Food log- great tool in identifying why you are a fattie if you didnÂ’t already know; most people grossly underestimate how much they consume (food and drink).
Still have craves/urges- varying degrees of intensity but all manageable.
KTC Kool-aide quenches the quit thirst!
A sunflower can't be too much of an asshole. I too have been irritable for the past weeks. I think it is all part of the rewire, and like you said it will get down to manageable levels. The main thing is noticing and recognizing it, like you have, then you can adjust it, or react to it accordingly.
You are a stud of a quitter, one whose advice I know will get me to Mainstreet of Quitsville.
Thanks, Proud to be quit with you today.
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Day 60-
I am still an asshole. Maybe that is just part of who I am? I have a more intense angerÂ… thatÂ’s not quite right but it is hard to explain- I get pissed off much quicker about inconsequential things- I also tend to rage about things that previously only pissed me offÂ… maybe.
I am still fat. I have increased my activity level considerably since I noticed that I gained 12 lbs but it hasnÂ’t seemed to make much of a difference. I just started tracking my calories on a daily basis and realized that I consumed at least 420 calories in lifesavers alone. I started chewing gum, paying special attention not to bite the inside of my cheek, more regularly, with less intensive chewing.
I need to remember that it is most likely me that is making the “situation” stressful which puts me into a state of extreme mad. I know that this will pass or least I will drop back down to a level of tolerable asshole.
I need to continue exercising and posting up in the OSX thread (great group of quitters in there btw). Food log- great tool in identifying why you are a fattie if you didnÂ’t already know; most people grossly underestimate how much they consume (food and drink).
Still have craves/urges- varying degrees of intensity but all manageable.
KTC Kool-aide quenches the quit thirst!
A sunflower can't be too much of an asshole. I too have been irritable for the past weeks. I think it is all part of the rewire, and like you said it will get down to manageable levels. The main thing is noticing and recognizing it, like you have, then you can adjust it, or react to it accordingly.
You are a stud of a quitter, one whose advice I know will get me to Mainstreet of Quitsville.
Thanks, Proud to be quit with you today.
Guys... This is good stuff! Changing "dip mode" takes awhile. Be patient and take pride in the fact that you're moving this direction! Step outside yourself for a minute... You quit. You're done. Spend your time doing new things and enjoying the fact you have nothing to tether you. Dlee said this awhile ago... "Quitting is fun you pussies!" You are the Masters here. The tobacco weed and his bitch Nicotine are nothing compared to you. Rock it...
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Here's what you need to do..
Do you have a cold stone... They serve the best ice cream known to man. If there is not one near you just pick the best ice cream parlor you can. Take yourself And family there as soon as you can. Cold stone sales this one strawberry and banana ice cream and its to die for.
Buy yourself and your family one of these and you'll be amazed at how fast the ass hole is forgotten. Screw the 10 or 20 pounds. Cold stone,,,, brother, do it!!!
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Here's what you need to do..
Do you have a cold stone... They serve the best ice cream known to man. If there is not one near you just pick the best ice cream parlor you can. Take yourself And family there as soon as you can. Cold stone sales this one strawberry and banana ice cream and its to die for.
Buy yourself and your family one of these and you'll be amazed at how fast the ass hole is forgotten. Screw the 10 or 20 pounds. Cold stone,,,, brother, do it!!!
'crackup'
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Day 62-
Overall I would say I am in good spirits- at least this afternoon!
Went for a run during lunch and spotted a can of death on the side of the road- not a temptation- I let it lie where it was just so I didn't raise any temptations- My run starts and ends near a cemetery so that should be a pretty powerful reminder of the joys of tobacco.
I spent a fair amount of time waxing philosophically about quitting and running- Effort put into something being directly proportional to achievement of one's goals.
Trust me; it was some good shit out there on the country roads of North Iowa. I had it all worked up in the mind but can't seem to find it now so I can recreate it for my thread-o-quit.
I figured out the whole asshole thing- I need to fucking relax dude all my frustrations are focused on my family and the kids not doing what I tell them to... why do I really care so much if they leave their bikes out or some other petty, insignificant thing???
I just remembered what I need to do to get back into laid back Dougie-ness
Jack Kerouac- Dharma Bums; I love this book. I think it inspired me to drop out of graduate school- looking back this may not have been the best decision but that book is all awesome slackerness. Henry Morley has my favorite quote in it... I dont recall it well enough to post it right now but it has something to do with A tennis party being shirtless and the sun kicking a girls ass right back at you with boxes of oranges thrown in...
Running the gamut of emotions these days! Ups-downs-sideways and in-between-
One more good thing- Even 62 days later every time my wife yells my name (not in the bedroom) I panic- did she find my can?? Did she see the wad of death I tossed into the yard??? what lies do I need to tell???
I FUCKING DON'T MISS THAT SHIT- NOT ONE BIT
See you fuckers tomorrow for day 63 of QLF- Thanks CoachSteve!
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Day 62-
Overall I would say I am in good spirits- at least this afternoon!
Went for a run during lunch and spotted a can of death on the side of the road- not a temptation- I let it lie where it was just so I didn't raise any temptations- My run starts and ends near a cemetery so that should be a pretty powerful reminder of the joys of tobacco.
I spent a fair amount of time waxing philosophically about quitting and running- Effort put into something being directly proportional to achievement of one's goals.
Trust me; it was some good shit out there on the country roads of North Iowa. I had it all worked up in the mind but can't seem to find it now so I can recreate it for my thread-o-quit.
I figured out the whole asshole thing- I need to fucking relax dude all my frustrations are focused on my family and the kids not doing what I tell them to... why do I really care so much if they leave their bikes out or some other petty, insignificant thing???
I just remembered what I need to do to get back into laid back Dougie-ness
Jack Kerouac- Dharma Bums; I love this book. I think it inspired me to drop out of graduate school- looking back this may not have been the best decision but that book is all awesome slackerness. Henry Morley has my favorite quote in it... I dont recall it well enough to post it right now but it has something to do with A tennis party being shirtless and the sun kicking a girls ass right back at you with boxes of oranges thrown in...
Running the gamut of emotions these days! Ups-downs-sideways and in-between-
One more good thing- Even 62 days later every time my wife yells my name (not in the bedroom) I panic- did she find my can?? Did she see the wad of death I tossed into the yard??? what lies do I need to tell???
I FUCKING DON'T MISS THAT SHIT- NOT ONE BIT
See you fuckers tomorrow for day 63 of QLF- Thanks CoachSteve!
'clap'
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Getting close to HOF. I haven't been posting much in any intro threads for the last 3-4 weeks. I bought myself a Surly Moonlander; 4.8" tires and the fucker can go anywhere I want it to! It's a tank, weighing somewhere around 34 lbs I have been riding the shit out of it and soaking up whatever fatbike knowledge I can from the interwebs.
That's what I do. I get interested in something and I read everything I can so I can be somewhat educated in it; I like to have a clue ya know! That is what I did 97 days ago (well 94 I guess I quit a few days before landing here). I got in here and I just soaked it all in. Reading as much as I could, drinking the kool-aid.
So, it seems this past week I have been getting more urges. I have had a couple dip dreams and a few times my thoughts wander to the bitch. My dream last night was odd... I made my mind up that I was going to get a fucking can; drove to the store, walked in, and then just turned around and got back into the car and went home. No purchase. I dont know what to make of it; other than I still own this quit and the bitch better recognize that I am quit and I will be quit again tomorrow.
So, that's about it.
I fucking hate chew. I fucking hate that I still think about the shit. I hate knowing that I will have to deal with this addiction for the rest of my life.
I fucking Love my new Freedom. I fucking Love knowing that I dont have to balance my life around getting a nic fix. I fucking love knowing that I CAN remain nicotine free the rest of my life by dealing with it ODAAT.
I dont know that I will be giving a HOF speech anytime soon; I am going to wait for the urges that have been pounding me lately to go the fuck away. I guess I dont feel that I have this fucker beat yet and I dont want to go out celebrating some victory that isn't really there. I guess I celebrate it daily by posting roll call and seeing my brothers post roll call with me.
That's all for today.
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Getting close to HOF. I haven't been posting much in any intro threads for the last 3-4 weeks. I bought myself a Surly Moonlander; 4.8" tires and the fucker can go anywhere I want it to! It's a tank, weighing somewhere around 34 lbs I have been riding the shit out of it and soaking up whatever fatbike knowledge I can from the interwebs.
That's what I do. I get interested in something and I read everything I can so I can be somewhat educated in it; I like to have a clue ya know! That is what I did 97 days ago (well 94 I guess I quit a few days before landing here). I got in here and I just soaked it all in. Reading as much as I could, drinking the kool-aid.
So, it seems this past week I have been getting more urges. I have had a couple dip dreams and a few times my thoughts wander to the bitch. My dream last night was odd... I made my mind up that I was going to get a fucking can; drove to the store, walked in, and then just turned around and got back into the car and went home. No purchase. I dont know what to make of it; other than I still own this quit and the bitch better recognize that I am quit and I will be quit again tomorrow.
So, that's about it.
I fucking hate chew. I fucking hate that I still think about the shit. I hate knowing that I will have to deal with this addiction for the rest of my life.
I fucking Love my new Freedom. I fucking Love knowing that I dont have to balance my life around getting a nic fix. I fucking love knowing that I CAN remain nicotine free the rest of my life by dealing with it ODAAT.
I dont know that I will be giving a HOF speech anytime soon; I am going to wait for the urges that have been pounding me lately to go the fuck away. I guess I dont feel that I have this fucker beat yet and I dont want to go out celebrating some victory that isn't really there. I guess I celebrate it daily by posting roll call and seeing my brothers post roll call with me.
That's all for today.
Brother you are a bad ass quitter! Those urges don't make you less of a quitter. If anything they make you more of a quitter. If we didn't get urges we wouldn't be addicts, and we wouldn't need to fight like hell to quit. I am enjoying more and more days of quit where I don't even think about the poison, but then again I still have days when I need to fight for my freedom. I imagine that as we keep +1ing those good days keep getting more frequent than the hard days, but as an addict I accept that there will always be days when the nic bitch tries to rally, and I am glad for this. It thankfully gets harder to remember day 1, but these urges remind us that we are still addicts, quit addicts to be sure, but still addicts. We must never let our guards down because one more will make us slaves. Hard to get complacent when you have a day where the craves are coming all day long. None of us bad assed quitters ever have this thing beat. Nic addiction is like a regenerating monster that can never be destroyed forever; it is why one day at a time is so powerful for us. We can never beat this thing for good and that reality can be daunting, but you know for sure you can beat this thing today, and you know you will sign up to beat it again tomorrow. Applejack posted last week on his intro about sitting on ones porch after finishing a big job that one throws all they have into it for a period of time, and just enjoying the fuits of ones labors. Don't sweat pulling back your KTC time a bit. Sit on your porch and enjoy what you have accomplished! You are kicking nics ass EDD! Have fun off-roading.
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Well done Dougie. I quit with you Erussell.
We are headed to the land of cornfields and sunflowers nowÂ…. Yes this means we are picking up our boy DOUGIE! He is a September BADDASS who just hit 100 days of freedom from the biggest bitch he has ever known. He started chewing when he was 14 years old (seems like the average age around here). He is a process engineer from Charles city Iowa. Not sure what that entails but I am sure it means he has more student loans then I doÂ….. The craziest thing he has ever done was to jump off a bridge into a flooded river, where he then got stuck under a log and almost drowned until he somehow mustered his super human strength and freed himself. He says he enjoys ALL kinds of inappropriate behavior! I think that means he likes to play doctor with the Amish girls in the country where he livesÂ… His favorite avatar is his ownÂ…. A sunflower. I used to think it was kind of girly but he explained to me that it represents how sunflower seeds saved him from his addiction and helped him gain his freedom. IÂ’m relieved to know the reason behind the avatar! Just saying! The only thing I can say bad about DougieÂ…. He drives a Nissan Titan! Really? Bro! Upgrade to a Chevy! Have some pride!
His advice to others… “Knowledge is power; I spent the first half of my quit reading everything I could on this site. It helped more than I could have imagined”.
He is inspired by many people here but would like to recognize a couple in particular…. “Smokeyg's humor helped a ton and his insight was very much spot on. Erussell's strength through what had to be a miserable experience was very humbling and put my petty troubles into perspective. There are a lot of real men on this site that each added a unique insight into my quit; which is why I believe that reading all you can on this site is the best way to quit”.
DOUGIE! You are a BADASS who truly deserves his place on this train! Welcome aboard! We are glad to have you! See you at 200Â….Jake Frawley
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Well done Dougie. I quit with you Erussell.
We are headed to the land of cornfields and sunflowers nowÂ…. Yes this means we are picking up our boy DOUGIE! He is a September BADDASS who just hit 100 days of freedom from the biggest bitch he has ever known. He started chewing when he was 14 years old (seems like the average age around here). He is a process engineer from Charles city Iowa. Not sure what that entails but I am sure it means he has more student loans then I doÂ….. The craziest thing he has ever done was to jump off a bridge into a flooded river, where he then got stuck under a log and almost drowned until he somehow mustered his super human strength and freed himself. He says he enjoys ALL kinds of inappropriate behavior! I think that means he likes to play doctor with the Amish girls in the country where he livesÂ… His favorite avatar is his ownÂ…. A sunflower. I used to think it was kind of girly but he explained to me that it represents how sunflower seeds saved him from his addiction and helped him gain his freedom. IÂ’m relieved to know the reason behind the avatar! Just saying! The only thing I can say bad about DougieÂ…. He drives a Nissan Titan! Really? Bro! Upgrade to a Chevy! Have some pride!
His advice to others… “Knowledge is power; I spent the first half of my quit reading everything I could on this site. It helped more than I could have imagined”.
He is inspired by many people here but would like to recognize a couple in particular…. “Smokeyg's humor helped a ton and his insight was very much spot on. Erussell's strength through what had to be a miserable experience was very humbling and put my petty troubles into perspective. There are a lot of real men on this site that each added a unique insight into my quit; which is why I believe that reading all you can on this site is the best way to quit”.
DOUGIE! You are a BADASS who truly deserves his place on this train! Welcome aboard! We are glad to have you! See you at 200Â….Jake Frawley
YEAH DOUGIE!
You never blinked and have been an influence on me from day 1. Congrats. +1 with you.
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Congrats on HOF!!
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150 Days-
It gets better! Holy balls it gets better!
Don't get too comfy though because the addict is still there waiting for you to drop your guard and "just have one" the mental BS is still lingering. I have been travelling the last 2 out of 3 weeks for work and both times the temptress has whispered- it seriously pisses me off that after 150 days my addict still thinks it can get a fix-
My apologies Addict-Self, you are not getting any nicotine today. I will arise early tomorrow and and make the same pledge. I know that one day these urges will go away. I know this because these 150 days have been pretty much the same as every other Quitter's 150 days- ups and downs but overall up with each new day of freedom.
These funks have all been foretold- those that drink the KTC kool-aide and read everything this site has to offer know these simple truths. It gives me strength during rough patches to know that thousands of KTC brothers and sisters have walked this path and they made it through nicotine free. So this stupid 150 day funk can go fuck itself.
This funk right here is why it is so important for me to stay connected and to keep posting my word.
In a few days my role as October Duck Fips conductor will come to a close- I had a great time doing that and want to thank everyone involved! I also made some new KTC friends- especially Duathman that got me involved with some other KTC'ers on KIK.
This is how a quit is done- One Day At Time I Quit Like Fuck.
I feel better already!
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150 Days-
It gets better! Holy balls it gets better!
Actually it get exponetially better! You lose almost all of the craves but retain all the badass pride you felt when you first learned you could be free.
Rock on Sept brother! 'oh yeah'
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178 Days-
I have observed a lot of caves lately; one in particular had me a bit pissed off but then I remembered that I can't make anyone want to quit nor I cant make anyone want to stay quit. I can help them get through a rough time and offer support but ultimately it is up to the individual to make it work.
I want to quit. I have wanted it since Day 1 and have wanted it every damn day since.
I found this site at 3 days in and spent the first 60 days reading and commenting and really drinking in the kool-aide. I think the most helpful thing for my quit was understanding what to expect in each stage of the quit.
I am pretty sure that I have had an urge every day. Not allowing myself to dwell on an urge has been my best defense. I will not allow myself to think about it- this is where a lot of quitters become cavers; it is too easy to talk yourself into taking the easy way out.
I want to quit. I want to stay quit. I will work my quit every damn day.
This weekend was a great reminder to me to keep working.
First I was super excited that I didnt have to plan out how to hide my chew from my wife for our overnight trip- I used to make foil packs and hide them in my socks and stupid shit like that- plus I would need to make a waterproof one for carrying with me on the race so I could stuff my face with one after the race. Huge relief not having to plan that and not having to worry about getting caught and ruining both of our weekends.
Life is so much easier when it is HONEST- and my relationship with my wife is great as a result.
Second reminder of why I have to keep working- as soon as the race was finished I had a pretty intense crave right after the race- 1st race since I quit.
The key to getting through that was to not dwell on it and to think about how much my life has improved since quitting.
Things are only going to get better as I keep adding the +1's.
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178 Days-
I have observed a lot of caves lately; one in particular had me a bit pissed off but then I remembered that I can't make anyone want to quit nor I cant make anyone want to stay quit. I can help them get through a rough time and offer support but ultimately it is up to the individual to make it work.
I want to quit. I have wanted it since Day 1 and have wanted it every damn day since.
I found this site at 3 days in and spent the first 60 days reading and commenting and really drinking in the kool-aide. I think the most helpful thing for my quit was understanding what to expect in each stage of the quit.
I am pretty sure that I have had an urge every day. Not allowing myself to dwell on an urge has been my best defense. I will not allow myself to think about it- this is where a lot of quitters become cavers; it is too easy to talk yourself into taking the easy way out.
I want to quit. I want to stay quit. I will work my quit every damn day.
This weekend was a great reminder to me to keep working.
First I was super excited that I didnt have to plan out how to hide my chew from my wife for our overnight trip- I used to make foil packs and hide them in my socks and stupid shit like that- plus I would need to make a waterproof one for carrying with me on the race so I could stuff my face with one after the race. Huge relief not having to plan that and not having to worry about getting caught and ruining both of our weekends.
Life is so much easier when it is HONEST- and my relationship with my wife is great as a result.
Second reminder of why I have to keep working- as soon as the race was finished I had a pretty intense crave right after the race- 1st race since I quit.
The key to getting through that was to not dwell on it and to think about how much my life has improved since quitting.
Things are only going to get better as I keep adding the +1's.
You're are so spot on brother Dougie. Spot on!!!
Life only gets richer, smoother, easier to navigate and appreciate without the nic bitch on our backs!
Cheers.
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178 Days-
I have observed a lot of caves lately; one in particular had me a bit pissed off but then I remembered that I can't make anyone want to quit nor I cant make anyone want to stay quit. I can help them get through a rough time and offer support but ultimately it is up to the individual to make it work.
I want to quit. I have wanted it since Day 1 and have wanted it every damn day since.
I found this site at 3 days in and spent the first 60 days reading and commenting and really drinking in the kool-aide. I think the most helpful thing for my quit was understanding what to expect in each stage of the quit.
I am pretty sure that I have had an urge every day. Not allowing myself to dwell on an urge has been my best defense. I will not allow myself to think about it- this is where a lot of quitters become cavers; it is too easy to talk yourself into taking the easy way out.
I want to quit. I want to stay quit. I will work my quit every damn day.
This weekend was a great reminder to me to keep working.
First I was super excited that I didnt have to plan out how to hide my chew from my wife for our overnight trip- I used to make foil packs and hide them in my socks and stupid shit like that- plus I would need to make a waterproof one for carrying with me on the race so I could stuff my face with one after the race. Huge relief not having to plan that and not having to worry about getting caught and ruining both of our weekends.
Life is so much easier when it is HONEST- and my relationship with my wife is great as a result.
Second reminder of why I have to keep working- as soon as the race was finished I had a pretty intense crave right after the race- 1st race since I quit.
The key to getting through that was to not dwell on it and to think about how much my life has improved since quitting.
Things are only going to get better as I keep adding the +1's.
You're are so spot on brother Dougie. Spot on!!!
Life only gets richer, smoother, easier to navigate and appreciate without the nic bitch on our backs!
Cheers.
Hell. Yes.
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178 Days-
I have observed a lot of caves lately; one in particular had me a bit pissed off but then I remembered that I can't make anyone want to quit nor I cant make anyone want to stay quit. I can help them get through a rough time and offer support but ultimately it is up to the individual to make it work.
I want to quit. I have wanted it since Day 1 and have wanted it every damn day since.
I found this site at 3 days in and spent the first 60 days reading and commenting and really drinking in the kool-aide. I think the most helpful thing for my quit was understanding what to expect in each stage of the quit.
I am pretty sure that I have had an urge every day. Not allowing myself to dwell on an urge has been my best defense. I will not allow myself to think about it- this is where a lot of quitters become cavers; it is too easy to talk yourself into taking the easy way out.
I want to quit. I want to stay quit. I will work my quit every damn day.
This weekend was a great reminder to me to keep working.
First I was super excited that I didnt have to plan out how to hide my chew from my wife for our overnight trip- I used to make foil packs and hide them in my socks and stupid shit like that- plus I would need to make a waterproof one for carrying with me on the race so I could stuff my face with one after the race. Huge relief not having to plan that and not having to worry about getting caught and ruining both of our weekends.
Life is so much easier when it is HONEST- and my relationship with my wife is great as a result.
Second reminder of why I have to keep working- as soon as the race was finished I had a pretty intense crave right after the race- 1st race since I quit.
The key to getting through that was to not dwell on it and to think about how much my life has improved since quitting.
Things are only going to get better as I keep adding the +1's.
You're are so spot on brother Dougie. Spot on!!!
Life only gets richer, smoother, easier to navigate and appreciate without the nic bitch on our backs!
Cheers.
Hell. Yes.
I need to spend more time reading posts like this! Seems like lots of caves last few weeks, and that BS is getting me mad. Reading this is much better. You get it Dougie. We all go through the same symptoms as nic addicts; we all have urges and craves, but the way we choose to deal with them is the difference between being a weak BS caver and a BAD-ASSED quitter. Quit on.
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178 Days-
I have observed a lot of caves lately; one in particular had me a bit pissed off but then I remembered that I can't make anyone want to quit nor I cant make anyone want to stay quit. I can help them get through a rough time and offer support but ultimately it is up to the individual to make it work.
I want to quit. I have wanted it since Day 1 and have wanted it every damn day since.
I found this site at 3 days in and spent the first 60 days reading and commenting and really drinking in the kool-aide. I think the most helpful thing for my quit was understanding what to expect in each stage of the quit.
I am pretty sure that I have had an urge every day. Not allowing myself to dwell on an urge has been my best defense. I will not allow myself to think about it- this is where a lot of quitters become cavers; it is too easy to talk yourself into taking the easy way out.
I want to quit. I want to stay quit. I will work my quit every damn day.
This weekend was a great reminder to me to keep working.
First I was super excited that I didnt have to plan out how to hide my chew from my wife for our overnight trip- I used to make foil packs and hide them in my socks and stupid shit like that- plus I would need to make a waterproof one for carrying with me on the race so I could stuff my face with one after the race. Huge relief not having to plan that and not having to worry about getting caught and ruining both of our weekends.
Life is so much easier when it is HONEST- and my relationship with my wife is great as a result.
Second reminder of why I have to keep working- as soon as the race was finished I had a pretty intense crave right after the race- 1st race since I quit.
The key to getting through that was to not dwell on it and to think about how much my life has improved since quitting.
Things are only going to get better as I keep adding the +1's.
You're are so spot on brother Dougie. Spot on!!!
Life only gets richer, smoother, easier to navigate and appreciate without the nic bitch on our backs!
Cheers.
Hell. Yes.
I need to spend more time reading posts like this! Seems like lots of caves last few weeks, and that BS is getting me mad. Reading this is much better. You get it Dougie. We all go through the same symptoms as nic addicts; we all have urges and craves, but the way we choose to deal with them is the difference between being a weak BS caver and a BAD-ASSED quitter. Quit on.
'oh yeah'
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Yesterday I was driving to my son's wrestling meet and I was met with a sudden and fierce urge to stop and pick up a can of death. Urges of this intensity are so rare these days that it made me stop and think, "where the fuck did this come from?" In retrospect driving to the wrestling meet brought me back to when I was wrestling and thought my best cutting tool was dip. It wasn't, my mental toughness was my best tool for cutting those last few ounces before going to bed to sleep off that final quarter.
My mental toughness is also my best tool in quitting. I really believe that one of the best things I learned was refusing to allow myself to dwell on an urge/crave. Refusing to look back at the times when I dipped and to think "happy thoughts" about using.
My wife told me a few days ago that she figured I would be too weak to actually quit. I dont blame her for thinking that given our history of me lying to her about quitting. In her eyes I had quit many times only to fail- I actually only got better at hiding it from her. All that hiding and lying takes a toll on a person. I was getting to the point where I really didn't like myself and couldn't see why anyone else would. Things were grim.
And then... I quit.
I am sitting at 196 days today. I dont have the same self image that I once did. I am at peace with myself and I feel like I have something to offer my family.
So, Mr Douglas whenever those urges strike you just remember that you used to hide empty cans on top of the cold air return in your basement because you were too big of a pussy to come clean with your wife and tell her you were owned by UST. Just remember the lying and the toll it took.
Better yet- look into your daughter's eyes and tell her that she isn't worth you keeping your word today.
Today I am a man with integrity and self-worth and I will crush nicotine.
I embrace my quit. It defines me.
I've rambled enough.
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Yesterday I was driving to my son's wrestling meet and I was met with a sudden and fierce urge to stop and pick up a can of death. Urges of this intensity are so rare these days that it made me stop and think, "where the fuck did this come from?" In retrospect driving to the wrestling meet brought me back to when I was wrestling and thought my best cutting tool was dip. It wasn't, my mental toughness was my best tool for cutting those last few ounces before going to bed to sleep off that final quarter.
My mental toughness is also my best tool in quitting. I really believe that one of the best things I learned was refusing to allow myself to dwell on an urge/crave. Refusing to look back at the times when I dipped and to think "happy thoughts" about using.
My wife told me a few days ago that she figured I would be too weak to actually quit. I dont blame her for thinking that given our history of me lying to her about quitting. In her eyes I had quit many times only to fail- I actually only got better at hiding it from her. All that hiding and lying takes a toll on a person. I was getting to the point where I really didn't like myself and couldn't see why anyone else would. Things were grim.
And then... I quit.
I am sitting at 196 days today. I dont have the same self image that I once did. I am at peace with myself and I feel like I have something to offer my family.
So, Mr Douglas whenever those urges strike you just remember that you used to hide empty cans on top of the cold air return in your basement because you were too big of a pussy to come clean with your wife and tell her you were owned by UST. Just remember the lying and the toll it took.
Better yet- look into your daughter's eyes and tell her that she isn't worth you keeping your word today.
Today I am a man with integrity and self-worth and I will crush nicotine.
I embrace my quit. It defines me.
I've rambled enough.
Today your a bad ass! I quit with you.
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Yesterday I was driving to my son's wrestling meet and I was met with a sudden and fierce urge to stop and pick up a can of death. Urges of this intensity are so rare these days that it made me stop and think, "where the fuck did this come from?" In retrospect driving to the wrestling meet brought me back to when I was wrestling and thought my best cutting tool was dip. It wasn't, my mental toughness was my best tool for cutting those last few ounces before going to bed to sleep off that final quarter.
My mental toughness is also my best tool in quitting. I really believe that one of the best things I learned was refusing to allow myself to dwell on an urge/crave. Refusing to look back at the times when I dipped and to think "happy thoughts" about using.
My wife told me a few days ago that she figured I would be too weak to actually quit. I dont blame her for thinking that given our history of me lying to her about quitting. In her eyes I had quit many times only to fail- I actually only got better at hiding it from her. All that hiding and lying takes a toll on a person. I was getting to the point where I really didn't like myself and couldn't see why anyone else would. Things were grim.
And then... I quit.
I am sitting at 196 days today. I dont have the same self image that I once did. I am at peace with myself and I feel like I have something to offer my family.
So, Mr Douglas whenever those urges strike you just remember that you used to hide empty cans on top of the cold air return in your basement because you were too big of a pussy to come clean with your wife and tell her you were owned by UST. Just remember the lying and the toll it took.
Better yet- look into your daughter's eyes and tell her that she isn't worth you keeping your word today.
Today I am a man with integrity and self-worth and I will crush nicotine.
I embrace my quit. It defines me.
I've rambled enough.
Today your a bad ass! I quit with you.
Sign me up for another round of the Kool-Aid fellas! Quit with you Dougie!
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Yesterday I was driving to my son's wrestling meet and I was met with a sudden and fierce urge to stop and pick up a can of death. Urges of this intensity are so rare these days that it made me stop and think, "where the fuck did this come from?" In retrospect driving to the wrestling meet brought me back to when I was wrestling and thought my best cutting tool was dip. It wasn't, my mental toughness was my best tool for cutting those last few ounces before going to bed to sleep off that final quarter.
My mental toughness is also my best tool in quitting. I really believe that one of the best things I learned was refusing to allow myself to dwell on an urge/crave. Refusing to look back at the times when I dipped and to think "happy thoughts" about using.
My wife told me a few days ago that she figured I would be too weak to actually quit. I dont blame her for thinking that given our history of me lying to her about quitting. In her eyes I had quit many times only to fail- I actually only got better at hiding it from her. All that hiding and lying takes a toll on a person. I was getting to the point where I really didn't like myself and couldn't see why anyone else would. Things were grim.
And then... I quit.
I am sitting at 196 days today. I dont have the same self image that I once did. I am at peace with myself and I feel like I have something to offer my family.
So, Mr Douglas whenever those urges strike you just remember that you used to hide empty cans on top of the cold air return in your basement because you were too big of a pussy to come clean with your wife and tell her you were owned by UST. Just remember the lying and the toll it took.
Better yet- look into your daughter's eyes and tell her that she isn't worth you keeping your word today.
Today I am a man with integrity and self-worth and I will crush nicotine.
I embrace my quit. It defines me.
I've rambled enough.
Today your a bad ass! I quit with you.
Sign me up for another round of the Kool-Aid fellas! Quit with you Dougie!
Nice! I like the part that your wife is impressed. We make ourselves and others proud of our actions when we become 100% responsible for them. Well done!
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Yesterday I was driving to my son's wrestling meet and I was met with a sudden and fierce urge to stop and pick up a can of death. Urges of this intensity are so rare these days that it made me stop and think, "where the fuck did this come from?" In retrospect driving to the wrestling meet brought me back to when I was wrestling and thought my best cutting tool was dip. It wasn't, my mental toughness was my best tool for cutting those last few ounces before going to bed to sleep off that final quarter.
My mental toughness is also my best tool in quitting. I really believe that one of the best things I learned was refusing to allow myself to dwell on an urge/crave. Refusing to look back at the times when I dipped and to think "happy thoughts" about using.
My wife told me a few days ago that she figured I would be too weak to actually quit. I dont blame her for thinking that given our history of me lying to her about quitting. In her eyes I had quit many times only to fail- I actually only got better at hiding it from her. All that hiding and lying takes a toll on a person. I was getting to the point where I really didn't like myself and couldn't see why anyone else would. Things were grim.
And then... I quit.
I am sitting at 196 days today. I dont have the same self image that I once did. I am at peace with myself and I feel like I have something to offer my family.
So, Mr Douglas whenever those urges strike you just remember that you used to hide empty cans on top of the cold air return in your basement because you were too big of a pussy to come clean with your wife and tell her you were owned by UST. Just remember the lying and the toll it took.
Better yet- look into your daughter's eyes and tell her that she isn't worth you keeping your word today.
Today I am a man with integrity and self-worth and I will crush nicotine.
I embrace my quit. It defines me.
I've rambled enough.
Today your a bad ass! I quit with you.
Sign me up for another round of the Kool-Aid fellas! Quit with you Dougie!
Nice! I like the part that your wife is impressed. We make ourselves and others proud of our actions when we become 100% responsible for them. Well done!
That's some good stuff right there. And you are dead on, this addiction not only robs our health, it robs our self confidence. To be ruled for years and to not be able to cast off those chains simply takes a till on us. And our families. But every day of quit is a day if confidence added to our self esteem and our Quit. Your doing a damn fine job and are certainly being a role model to other quitters. Proud to be quit with you.
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'Grats on 200 bro!
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'Grats on 200 bro!
congrats on 200 my friend
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'Grats on 200 bro!
congrats on 200 my friend
yes, congrats and thanks for what you've made of it! your posts are some of the most helpful!
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'Grats on 200 bro!
congrats on 200 my friend
yes, congrats and thanks for what you've made of it! your posts are some of the most helpful!
Nice Job Dougie. 200 is no joke. You have been leading us Sluts the whole way.
Now... BRING BACK THE SUNFLOWER
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'Grats on 200 bro!
congrats on 200 my friend
yes, congrats and thanks for what you've made of it! your posts are some of the most helpful!
Nice Job Dougie. 200 is no joke. You have been leading us Sluts the whole way.
Now... BRING BACK THE SUNFLOWER
I agree with CS... The sunflower was awesome!
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'Grats on 200 bro!
congrats on 200 my friend
yes, congrats and thanks for what you've made of it! your posts are some of the most helpful!
Nice Job Dougie. 200 is no joke. You have been leading us Sluts the whole way.
Now... BRING BACK THE SUNFLOWER
I agree with CS... The sunflower was awesome!
Congrats on 2 hundred.
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'Grats on 200 bro!
congrats on 200 my friend
yes, congrats and thanks for what you've made of it! your posts are some of the most helpful!
Nice Job Dougie. 200 is no joke. You have been leading us Sluts the whole way.
Now... BRING BACK THE SUNFLOWER
I agree with CS... The sunflower was awesome!
Congrats on 2 hundred.
Nice Dougie!! 200 days is great. Keep her going!
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'Grats on 200 bro!
congrats on 200 my friend
yes, congrats and thanks for what you've made of it! your posts are some of the most helpful!
Nice Job Dougie. 200 is no joke. You have been leading us Sluts the whole way.
Now... BRING BACK THE SUNFLOWER
I agree with CS... The sunflower was awesome!
Congrats on 2 hundred.
Nice Dougie!! 200 days is great. Keep her going!
Thanks everyone! I wouldnt be here with out KTC and this amazing community of quitters.
I have a new sunflower...
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'Grats on 200 bro!
congrats on 200 my friend
yes, congrats and thanks for what you've made of it! your posts are some of the most helpful!
Nice Job Dougie. 200 is no joke. You have been leading us Sluts the whole way.
Now... BRING BACK THE SUNFLOWER
I agree with CS... The sunflower was awesome!
Congrats on 2 hundred.
Nice Dougie!! 200 days is great. Keep her going!
Thanks everyone! I wouldnt be here with out KTC and this amazing community of quitters.
I have a new sunflower...
I see you and your sunflower are maturing keep up the work Dougie great job on 200
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'Grats on 200 bro!
congrats on 200 my friend
yes, congrats and thanks for what you've made of it! your posts are some of the most helpful!
Nice Job Dougie. 200 is no joke. You have been leading us Sluts the whole way.
Now... BRING BACK THE SUNFLOWER
I agree with CS... The sunflower was awesome!
Congrats on 2 hundred.
Nice Dougie!! 200 days is great. Keep her going!
Thanks everyone! I wouldnt be here with out KTC and this amazing community of quitters.
I have a new sunflower...
I see you and your sunflower are maturing keep up the work Dougie great job on 200
My brother my brother!!! Nice 200 days
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'Grats on 200 bro!
congrats on 200 my friend
yes, congrats and thanks for what you've made of it! your posts are some of the most helpful!
Nice Job Dougie. 200 is no joke. You have been leading us Sluts the whole way.
Now... BRING BACK THE SUNFLOWER
I agree with CS... The sunflower was awesome!
Congrats on 2 hundred.
Nice Dougie!! 200 days is great. Keep her going!
Thanks everyone! I wouldnt be here with out KTC and this amazing community of quitters.
I have a new sunflower...
I see you and your sunflower are maturing keep up the work Dougie great job on 200
My brother my brother!!! Nice 200 days
Way to go brother! I will quit with you EDD!
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I was going to say somehow I stumbled into green smoothies and then I remembered how. I was reading Skoal Monster's intro thread and there was some chatter about weight and someone posted a link to the movie Fat, Sick, and Almost Dead. I thought "I have an hour and a half left at work, I'll watch that!" (I'm a really good employee). So I got all amped up about juicers and shit.
Wednesday night I pulled out the cheapo Black and Decker blender I bought 100 years ago when I was a protein shake drinker and stuffed it full of kale leaves, parley, ginger root, celery, turnip greens, beet slices, carrots, green apple, and mushrooms. Blended it up with some water and choked it down. Its a brownish greenish color (red and green mixed) it looks like shit literally and figuratively.
I had two of those yesterday (lunch and dinner).
I am drinkchewing one now.
I need a better blender to make it smoother.
I am going to drink at least one of these everyday for a month (after this weekend because I will be OOT and I am not packing up a blender and a grocery store). I have a feeling that I will drop a couple lbs (not the main goal) but I am going to feel fucking wicked awesome- Veggie Power!
I am not eating one of these fuckers tonight though.
I am going to get some steaks and grill em. Probably go with some ribeyes not sure though- the ole' lady likes filets- I dont like the price of them nor do I think they are as tasty.
Yes I live in North Iowa, it will be cold, it will be dark, I may be slightly inebriated (only one glass of wine). I am going to get some sort of veggie too- I think roasted brussel sprouts with hot chiles and garlic sound mighty tasty.
I wont eat pork anymore (BACON DOES NOT COUNT) the last few times my pork shoulders and loins have smelled like hog confinements- disgusting. I live in the largest pork producing state- I feel like a traitor but that shit is fucking gross. Plus I just recently learned that pigs dont have a lymphatic system- all of their disease just festers in them and then we eat them and their diseased asses. Fuck pigs.
Sunflowers are still good. I dont really eat them anymore but I have a giant sack of them in my office.
Ramble Done.
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I was going to say somehow I stumbled into green smoothies and then I remembered how. I was reading Skoal Monster's intro thread and there was some chatter about weight and someone posted a link to the movie Fat, Sick, and Almost Dead. I thought "I have an hour and a half left at work, I'll watch that!" (I'm a really good employee). So I got all amped up about juicers and shit.
Wednesday night I pulled out the cheapo Black and Decker blender I bought 100 years ago when I was a protein shake drinker and stuffed it full of kale leaves, parley, ginger root, celery, turnip greens, beet slices, carrots, green apple, and mushrooms. Blended it up with some water and choked it down. Its a brownish greenish color (red and green mixed) it looks like shit literally and figuratively.
I had two of those yesterday (lunch and dinner).
I am drinkchewing one now.
I need a better blender to make it smoother.
I am going to drink at least one of these everyday for a month (after this weekend because I will be OOT and I am not packing up a blender and a grocery store). I have a feeling that I will drop a couple lbs (not the main goal) but I am going to feel fucking wicked awesome- Veggie Power!
I am not eating one of these fuckers tonight though.
I am going to get some steaks and grill em. Probably go with some ribeyes not sure though- the ole' lady likes filets- I dont like the price of them nor do I think they are as tasty.
Yes I live in North Iowa, it will be cold, it will be dark, I may be slightly inebriated (only one glass of wine). I am going to get some sort of veggie too- I think roasted brussel sprouts with hot chiles and garlic sound mighty tasty.
I wont eat pork anymore (BACON DOES NOT COUNT) the last few times my pork shoulders and loins have smelled like hog confinements- disgusting. I live in the largest pork producing state- I feel like a traitor but that shit is fucking gross. Plus I just recently learned that pigs dont have a lymphatic system- all of their disease just festers in them and then we eat them and their diseased asses. Fuck pigs.
Sunflowers are still good. I dont really eat them anymore but I have a giant sack of them in my office.
Ramble Done.
You're trying to ruin bbq pork sandwiches for me. Not good. I will continue eating pork. Ribs are yummy!!! Pigs are yummy!!!!
Good job on your diet though. Way to go!
And good job on quitting the nicotine of course.
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it looks like shit literally and figuratively.
I got a shiny nickle that says it tastes like it too.
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it looks like shit literally and figuratively.
I got a shiny nickle that says it tastes like it too.
Anybody that will drink that shit does not deserve to eat pork.
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it looks like shit literally and figuratively.
I got a shiny nickle that says it tastes like it too.
Anybody that will drink that shit does not deserve to eat pork.
Totally unrelated to any portion of this topic... Your new sunflower avi is hot.
I feel dirty
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it looks like shit literally and figuratively.
I got a shiny nickle that says it tastes like it too.
it tastes fine- spicy like raw ginger and grassy like my lawn--- sort of confusing. better than hog shit though...
I love(d) pork until I got some really bad stuff...several times in a row. Fuck em. Just pulled my ribeyes off the grill.....yummy cow!
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I was going to say somehow I stumbled into green smoothies and then I remembered how. I was reading Skoal Monster's intro thread and there was some chatter about weight and someone posted a link to the movie Fat, Sick, and Almost Dead. I thought "I have an hour and a half left at work, I'll watch that!" (I'm a really good employee). So I got all amped up about juicers and shit.
Wednesday night I pulled out the cheapo Black and Decker blender I bought 100 years ago when I was a protein shake drinker and stuffed it full of kale leaves, parley, ginger root, celery, turnip greens, beet slices, carrots, green apple, and mushrooms. Blended it up with some water and choked it down. Its a brownish greenish color (red and green mixed) it looks like shit literally and figuratively.
I had two of those yesterday (lunch and dinner).
I am drinkchewing one now.
I need a better blender to make it smoother.
I am going to drink at least one of these everyday for a month (after this weekend because I will be OOT and I am not packing up a blender and a grocery store). I have a feeling that I will drop a couple lbs (not the main goal) but I am going to feel fucking wicked awesome- Veggie Power!
I am not eating one of these fuckers tonight though.
I am going to get some steaks and grill em. Probably go with some ribeyes not sure though- the ole' lady likes filets- I dont like the price of them nor do I think they are as tasty.
Yes I live in North Iowa, it will be cold, it will be dark, I may be slightly inebriated (only one glass of wine). I am going to get some sort of veggie too- I think roasted brussel sprouts with hot chiles and garlic sound mighty tasty.
I wont eat pork anymore (BACON DOES NOT COUNT) the last few times my pork shoulders and loins have smelled like hog confinements- disgusting. I live in the largest pork producing state- I feel like a traitor but that shit is fucking gross. Plus I just recently learned that pigs dont have a lymphatic system- all of their disease just festers in them and then we eat them and their diseased asses. Fuck pigs.
Sunflowers are still good. I dont really eat them anymore but I have a giant sack of them in my office.
Ramble Done.
Love it! Get yourself an immersion blender; that way you blend stuff right in your goblet and you can get all aggressive on that kale! Pigs are yummy and I do not advise quitting that. If need be wrap all your pig meat in bacon before you cook it and eat it. Prime rib of pig is a good reintroduction to pork. I make a mean stuffed loin of pork with apples, and cranberries...
Also, saw a sign today: "Wine: how classy people get wasted!".
Quit on Dougie.
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Saweet 300 days!!! Keep posting ODAAT. See you on roll tomorrow
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Saweet 300 days!!! Keep posting ODAAT. See you on roll tomorrow
Well done Dougie! 300 days quit. You da man. Quit on!
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Saweet 300 days!!! Keep posting ODAAT. See you on roll tomorrow
Well done Dougie! 300 days quit. You da man. Quit on!
No one can rock a big titted sunflower av like you!!!! enjoy your day
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Saweet 300 days!!! Keep posting ODAAT. See you on roll tomorrow
Well done Dougie! 300 days quit. You da man. Quit on!
No one can rock a big titted sunflower av like you!!!! enjoy your day
Niiice Job!
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Saweet 300 days!!! Keep posting ODAAT. See you on roll tomorrow
Well done Dougie! 300 days quit. You da man. Quit on!
No one can rock a big titted sunflower av like you!!!! enjoy your day
Niiice Job!
Congrats on 3 Hundo brother!
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Saweet 300 days!!! Keep posting ODAAT. See you on roll tomorrow
Well done Dougie! 300 days quit. You da man. Quit on!
No one can rock a big titted sunflower av like you!!!! enjoy your day
Niiice Job!
Congrats on 3 Hundo brother!
Nice brudda!
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Saweet 300 days!!! Keep posting ODAAT. See you on roll tomorrow
Well done Dougie! 300 days quit. You da man. Quit on!
No one can rock a big titted sunflower av like you!!!! enjoy your day
Niiice Job!
Congrats on 3 Hundo brother!
Nice brudda!
I love you guys!
See you tomorrow!
KTC- Quittin' Made Easy-
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Saweet 300 days!!! Keep posting ODAAT. See you on roll tomorrow
Well done Dougie! 300 days quit. You da man. Quit on!
No one can rock a big titted sunflower av like you!!!! enjoy your day
Niiice Job!
Congrats on 3 Hundo brother!
Nice brudda!
I love you guys!
See you tomorrow!
KTC- Quittin' Made Easy-
Well done sunflower. You may be a sunflower but still a bad ass in my book. Congrats.
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Saweet 300 days!!! Keep posting ODAAT. See you on roll tomorrow
Well done Dougie! 300 days quit. You da man. Quit on!
No one can rock a big titted sunflower av like you!!!! enjoy your day
Niiice Job!
Congrats on 3 Hundo brother!
Nice brudda!
I love you guys!
See you tomorrow!
KTC- Quittin' Made Easy-
Well done sunflower. You may be a sunflower but still a bad ass in my book. Congrats.
Great job Dougie!
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Saweet 300 days!!! Keep posting ODAAT. See you on roll tomorrow
Well done Dougie! 300 days quit. You da man. Quit on!
No one can rock a big titted sunflower av like you!!!! enjoy your day
Niiice Job!
Congrats on 3 Hundo brother!
Nice brudda!
I love you guys!
See you tomorrow!
KTC- Quittin' Made Easy-
Well done sunflower. You may be a sunflower but still a bad ass in my book. Congrats.
Great job Dougie!
Welcome to the 3rd floor! You are a bad ass! cowboy
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First things first... I am still nicotine free and I plan to stay that way EVERY DAMN DAY!
Well. I left the site late May. I wanted to see if I could escape the random but sometimes constant thoughts of my addiction. It turns out I have that regardless of my activity on KTC. I have remained nicotine free throughout this because of the tools that I got from this site. This site is made up of the very finest quitters and the very finest people that have helped many people change their lives.
I felt like my tools were starting to dull. I noticed that I was allowing myself to dwell on thoughts of nicotine. The dip dreams were coming back and feeling so real but I lacked the feeling of guilt and shame.
I am back to resharpen my tools, to strengthen my quit, and to help other quitters along the way.
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First things first... I am still nicotine free and I plan to stay that way EVERY DAMN DAY!
Well. I left the site late May. I wanted to see if I could escape the random but sometimes constant thoughts of my addiction. It turns out I have that regardless of my activity on KTC. I have remained nicotine free throughout this because of the tools that I got from this site. This site is made up of the very finest quitters and the very finest people that have helped many people change their lives.
I felt like my tools were starting to dull. I noticed that I was allowing myself to dwell on thoughts of nicotine. The dip dreams were coming back and feeling so real but I lacked the feeling of guilt and shame.
I am back to resharpen my tools, to strengthen my quit, and to help other quitters along the way.
Hot damn! Glad to have you back and I hope that others whom may not have the resolve you have will learn by example and stay close. Would love to see more of that Dougie advice in the introductions.
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First things first... I am still nicotine free and I plan to stay that way EVERY DAMN DAY!
Well. I left the site late May. I wanted to see if I could escape the random but sometimes constant thoughts of my addiction. It turns out I have that regardless of my activity on KTC. I have remained nicotine free throughout this because of the tools that I got from this site. This site is made up of the very finest quitters and the very finest people that have helped many people change their lives.
I felt like my tools were starting to dull. I noticed that I was allowing myself to dwell on thoughts of nicotine. The dip dreams were coming back and feeling so real but I lacked the feeling of guilt and shame.
I am back to resharpen my tools, to strengthen my quit, and to help other quitters along the way.
Hot damn! Glad to have you back and I hope that others whom may not have the resolve you have will learn by example and stay close. Would love to see more of that Dougie advice in the introductions.
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Good call.
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First things first... I am still nicotine free and I plan to stay that way EVERY DAMN DAY!
Well. I left the site late May. I wanted to see if I could escape the random but sometimes constant thoughts of my addiction. It turns out I have that regardless of my activity on KTC. I have remained nicotine free throughout this because of the tools that I got from this site. This site is made up of the very finest quitters and the very finest people that have helped many people change their lives.
I felt like my tools were starting to dull. I noticed that I was allowing myself to dwell on thoughts of nicotine. The dip dreams were coming back and feeling so real but I lacked the feeling of guilt and shame.
I am back to resharpen my tools, to strengthen my quit, and to help other quitters along the way.
Hot damn! Glad to have you back and I hope that others whom may not have the resolve you have will learn by example and stay close. Would love to see more of that Dougie advice in the introductions.
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Good call.
New guys like me heed and need the wisdom of vets like you, Dougie. Thanks for coming back.
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First things first... I am still nicotine free and I plan to stay that way EVERY DAMN DAY!
Well. I left the site late May. I wanted to see if I could escape the random but sometimes constant thoughts of my addiction. It turns out I have that regardless of my activity on KTC. I have remained nicotine free throughout this because of the tools that I got from this site. This site is made up of the very finest quitters and the very finest people that have helped many people change their lives.
I felt like my tools were starting to dull. I noticed that I was allowing myself to dwell on thoughts of nicotine. The dip dreams were coming back and feeling so real but I lacked the feeling of guilt and shame.
I am back to resharpen my tools, to strengthen my quit, and to help other quitters along the way.
Hot damn! Glad to have you back and I hope that others whom may not have the resolve you have will learn by example and stay close. Would love to see more of that Dougie advice in the introductions.
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Good call.
New guys like me heed and need the wisdom of vets like you, Dougie. Thanks for coming back.
A great example to us all in coming back to tone that quit up! Glad to see you here!
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First things first... I am still nicotine free and I plan to stay that way EVERY DAMN DAY!
Well. I left the site late May. I wanted to see if I could escape the random but sometimes constant thoughts of my addiction. It turns out I have that regardless of my activity on KTC. I have remained nicotine free throughout this because of the tools that I got from this site. This site is made up of the very finest quitters and the very finest people that have helped many people change their lives.
I felt like my tools were starting to dull. I noticed that I was allowing myself to dwell on thoughts of nicotine. The dip dreams were coming back and feeling so real but I lacked the feeling of guilt and shame.
I am back to resharpen my tools, to strengthen my quit, and to help other quitters along the way.
Hot damn! Glad to have you back and I hope that others whom may not have the resolve you have will learn by example and stay close. Would love to see more of that Dougie advice in the introductions.
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Good call.
New guys like me heed and need the wisdom of vets like you, Dougie. Thanks for coming back.
A great example to us all in coming back to tone that quit up! Glad to see you here!
Funny to see this Dougie. A few days ago I was going through my own intro thread and saw you laid a couple of thoughts on me at the beginning of my quit and I was wondering where you went....Glad you're back.
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First things first... I am still nicotine free and I plan to stay that way EVERY DAMN DAY!
Well. I left the site late May. I wanted to see if I could escape the random but sometimes constant thoughts of my addiction. It turns out I have that regardless of my activity on KTC. I have remained nicotine free throughout this because of the tools that I got from this site. This site is made up of the very finest quitters and the very finest people that have helped many people change their lives.
I felt like my tools were starting to dull. I noticed that I was allowing myself to dwell on thoughts of nicotine. The dip dreams were coming back and feeling so real but I lacked the feeling of guilt and shame.
I am back to resharpen my tools, to strengthen my quit, and to help other quitters along the way.
Hot damn! Glad to have you back and I hope that others whom may not have the resolve you have will learn by example and stay close. Would love to see more of that Dougie advice in the introductions.
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Good call.
New guys like me heed and need the wisdom of vets like you, Dougie. Thanks for coming back.
A great example to us all in coming back to tone that quit up! Glad to see you here!
Funny to see this Dougie. A few days ago I was going through my own intro thread and saw you laid a couple of thoughts on me at the beginning of my quit and I was wondering where you went....Glad you're back.
This is the kind of story we like to hear. Good call coming back. Welcome home.