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Title: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on September 23, 2010, 04:30:00 PM
I was thinking that too, when I cruised into the chatroom yesterday. Met Radtech4 and gator and started chatting with them. I felt like a giant puss talking to them about quitting, with a big fat one in my lip. These two had a couple months of fatty free days and I'm bullshitting with them about quitting. What a clam....So I said I'm not gonna puss out anymore, tired of all the bullshit..I quit.

Why wait til tomorrow, the next day or the next. Hop on the ride and be nic free, it'll suck but you've got lots of brothers (and sisters) in this community to get you through.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: RWM on September 23, 2010, 04:34:00 PM
Quote from: tarpon17
I was thinking that too, when I cruised into the chatroom yesterday. Met Radtech4 and gator and started chatting with them. I felt like a giant puss talking to them about quitting, with a big fat one in my lip. These two had a couple months of fatty free days and I'm bullshitting with them about quitting. What a clam....So I said I'm not gonna puss out anymore, tired of all the bullshit..I quit.

Why wait til tomorrow, the next day or the next. Hop on the ride and be nic free, it'll suck but you've got lots of brothers (and sisters) in this community to get you through.
welcome to the fog and the quit - sounds like you are already getting connected. Post everyday and keep your word. You can do it.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Crick on September 23, 2010, 10:36:00 PM
Yep. It sucks. It doesn't matter if it is today or tomorrow. It is going to suck no matter when you quit. Might as well make it today so that you are one day closer to getting out of the suck. Then you are also one day ahead of being quit. We welcome you in.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on October 16, 2010, 10:11:00 AM
Here I am appraoching day 25 of my third and most succesful quit. This is finally the quit I've been looking for and I thank all my buds in Dec 2010 and everyone else that has helped me thus far. I have #'s, I have plans for several occassions, and I can't believe how good I feel abou this quit. I have plans for a thorough description of month # 1, but I've had something on my mind for a lot of years and since I've finally started fighting the nic bitch, I felt it was time to come clean on somethin else.

I firmly believe that all things happen for a reason. Even in the fact that I've killed myself for 20+ years by putting carcinogens in my mouth. I don't know right now what this reason is, but I'm sure I'll come across it some day.

For years I've thought about a transgression or series of transgressions that I committed a long time ago. It's not huge by any means, but to me very uncharacteristic. I dated a girl in college and we dated a long time, nearly 5 yrs. I "strayed" a couple of times for whatever stupid reason that was going through my hormonal body. After each one, I sad to myself, dude you're a fuckup, look what you have, you're throwing it away. She took me back each time, why I don't know, but for whatever reason this girl loved me. We had a nice long stretch, and I came to the realization that I loved this girl too, knew it for a long time and thought it was time to make the big decision. It seemed easy at the time, she was just about done with her first degree, I was well into grad school. Well after a little bit, i got scared. Called it off. Called it all off, her included. gotta go. We moved on, occassionally we'd talk. She was the first person I called when I got my girlfriend pregnant in 1994. Holy shit, talk about scared. I still don't know why she even talked to me.

We drifted more and I havent spoke with her since that time I told her about the baby. As I mentioned I believe that things happen for a reason and I know there's a reason why she and I didn't work out. My life right now is as rich as I could ever imagine. I have two beautiful daughters, a beautiful wife, etc, etc. The trials and tribulations I've gone through have lead me to where I am and made me who I am. I'm not pining for my lost love or wishing to see her one last time. My issue is that I have never treated anyone like that in my life. Blame it on being young, immature, growing up, part of life. Sure I can buy that, but for some reason I've thought about this for a long time. In life you should regret very, very few things. My strongest regret was that I never said that I was sorry.

This may or may not be related to the nic bitch. I think by kicking her ass for 25 days, my mind has had the clarity to really get these thoughts together and organized, so I thought I'd write them down and put it to rest. I feel better that I've said my peace.

Stay quit bros
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on October 16, 2010, 03:13:00 PM
Just some rambly banter...

Brain-Control center. Was once conditioned to crave nic. The quitter made the conscious decision to rewire the brain so it functions properly. A new you, it may have been 20 years since you've had a thought that wasn't influenced by nicotene. Who knows how this will change your life.

Eyes-They eyes see what the quitter can do without nic. The list is overwhelmingly long. The quitters eyes also see protruding lips and cirlce rings in garments. Converses with the brain- losers, man we're glad we're quit. That looks so damn gay. I think that is gay too, they say.

Nose-The nose no longer smells the shit on your fingers and rank ass spitters.

Mouth-Ground zero for the addiction. The quitter can now smile without the worry of having some shit in their teeth (at least nic). The quitter has put a stop to the ongoing battle to the teeth and gums. Not saying there's gonna be issues later, but at least the contribution has stopped.

Heart-The quitters heart is huge. Quitting the addiction to nicotene is hard, look at the constant commercials on TV, people want to quit, but they must have the heart to do it.

Hands-Hands are free to hold their babies again, hold their wives/husbands hands, instead of tins and spitters.

Stomach/digestive tract-I can't imagine what these organs look like to a quitter who gutted, let alone the occasional gut. Similar to the mouth, the contribution has ceased and this organ is now happy.

Sexual organs-Ever think, maybe not that I'm quit, I'll get more action? Maybe so, I do remember lots of disdainful looks when I spit in the plants or nearest trashcan or on the sidewalk. Chicks don't dig it.

Legs/feet-What do the legs and feet have to contribute to the quitter? This is where the culmination of all the above get together in certain circumstances. A tailgate, bar hopping, camping, fishing trip with comrades who dip. The legs/feet can get signals from the rest of the gang....


and walk away.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: FLORIDA LUKE on October 24, 2010, 01:01:00 AM
Love the post tarpon and your quit is very strong. I am glad we are in the GUARD together. I looked back at my first posts I sounded so stupid dam nic bitch lurking around the corner.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Greg5280 on October 24, 2010, 09:43:00 AM
Quote from: tarpon17
Here I am appraoching day 25 of my third and most succesful quit. This is finally the quit I've been looking for and I thank all my buds in Dec 2010 and everyone else that has helped me thus far. I have #'s, I have plans for several occassions, and I can't believe how good I feel abou this quit. I have plans for a thorough description of month # 1, but I've had something on my mind for a lot of years and since I've finally started fighting the nic bitch, I felt it was time to come clean on somethin else.

I firmly believe that all things happen for a reason. Even in the fact that I've killed myself for 20+ years by putting carcinogens in my mouth. I don't know right now what this reason is, but I'm sure I'll come across it some day.

For years I've thought about a transgression or series of transgressions that I committed a long time ago. It's not huge by any means, but to me very uncharacteristic. I dated a girl in college and we dated a long time, nearly 5 yrs. I "strayed" a couple of times for whatever stupid reason that was going through my hormonal body. After each one, I sad to myself, dude you're a fuckup, look what you have, you're throwing it away. She took me back each time, why I don't know, but for whatever reason this girl loved me. We had a nice long stretch, and I came to the realization that I loved this girl too, knew it for a long time and thought it was time to make the big decision. It seemed easy at the time, she was just about done with her first degree, I was well into grad school. Well after a little bit, i got scared. Called it off. Called it all off, her included. gotta go. We moved on, occassionally we'd talk. She was the first person I called when I got my girlfriend pregnant in 1994. Holy shit, talk about scared. I still don't know why she even talked to me.

We drifted more and I havent spoke with her since that time I told her about the baby. As I mentioned I believe that things happen for a reason and I know there's a reason why she and I didn't work out. My life right now is as rich as I could ever imagine. I have two beautiful daughters, a beautiful wife, etc, etc. The trials and tribulations I've gone through have lead me to where I am and made me who I am. I'm not pining for my lost love or wishing to see her one last time. My issue is that I have never treated anyone like that in my life. Blame it on being young, immature, growing up, part of life. Sure I can buy that, but for some reason I've thought about this for a long time. In life you should regret very, very few things. My strongest regret was that I never said that I was sorry.

This may or may not be related to the nic bitch. I think by kicking her ass for 25 days, my mind has had the clarity to really get these thoughts together and organized, so I thought I'd write them down and put it to rest. I feel better that I've said my peace.

Stay quit bros
One of the best things of my quit so far has been the ability to re-invent who I was/am. Like you there were many things I had just put away and tried to forget. Getting my mind clear of Nic has allowed me to correct some of my past sins and I am working to be the Father, Husband, Friend I always should have been.

Freedom brings many rewards !! Great post !

STAY QUIT
Greg
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Baitbanjo on October 27, 2010, 08:18:00 PM
Tarp, like you, I've learned a lot about my self during my quit. I'm glad you shared this with us. You're a good man and a good quit bro. I'm proud to be quit with you.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Bean on October 27, 2010, 09:21:00 PM
I've had similar thoughts. At Day 43, my thoughts are along these lines...with the help of this dite, I've cleaned up the hardest, dirtiest, most obviously bad area of my life. Now, if I can do that, what else can I work on?

I'm still working on what I'm going to do to give back. For the time being, I'm going to encourage our quit group and others to get to the HOF. It sounds corny, but more and more ideas come to mind as the fog lifts and I get farther from nic. Maybe I'm just now realizing how preoccupied I was on my next fix?!

I'm going to keep thinking on this. I feel like the luckiest SOB in the world...the decision to quit combined with stumbling on this site at 3:00 a.m....pure luck. I too think everything happens for a reason. I was given a chance at recovery and y'all helped get me here. I will repay the favor.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Greg5280 on October 27, 2010, 10:56:00 PM
Quote from: Bean
I've had similar thoughts. At Day 43, my thoughts are along these lines...with the help of this dite, I've cleaned up the hardest, dirtiest, most obviously bad area of my life. Now, if I can do that, what else can I work on?

I'm still working on what I'm going to do to give back. For the time being, I'm going to encourage our quit group and others to get to the HOF. It sounds corny, but more and more ideas come to mind as the fog lifts and I get farther from nic. Maybe I'm just now realizing how preoccupied I was on my next fix?!

I'm going to keep thinking on this. I feel like the luckiest SOB in the world...the decision to quit combined with stumbling on this site at 3:00 a.m....pure luck. I too think everything happens for a reason. I was given a chance at recovery and y'all helped get me here. I will repay the favor.
Helping others strengthens your quit more than you can imagine.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: brianl on October 28, 2010, 06:03:00 AM
Quote from: Greg5280
Quote from: Bean
I've had similar thoughts.  At Day 43, my thoughts are along these lines...with the help of this dite, I've cleaned up the hardest, dirtiest, most obviously bad area of my life.  Now, if I can do that, what else can I work on? 

I'm still working on what I'm going to do to give back.  For the time being, I'm going to encourage our quit group and others to get to the HOF.  It sounds corny, but more and more ideas come to mind as the fog lifts and I get farther from nic.  Maybe I'm just now realizing how preoccupied I was on my next fix?!

I'm going to keep thinking on this.  I feel like the luckiest SOB in the world...the decision to quit combined with stumbling on this site at 3:00 a.m....pure luck.  I too think everything happens for a reason.  I was given a chance at recovery and y'all helped get me here.  I will repay the favor.
Helping others strengthens your quit more than you can imagine.
Good stuff Bean.

And Greg that is so true... I enjoy being quit and I get great satisfaction throwing in my 2 cents to the new quitters. That is what brought me back to the site when I first arrived. Knowing that these people give a fuck.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on November 04, 2010, 10:58:00 AM
Day 44-
The last two days have been bliss. NO FOG at work! Fabulous, this is what quitting is all about!

Carry on MOFO's!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on November 05, 2010, 11:07:00 AM
day 45
last night i had the most vivid dip dream. I was walkin on the beach in Puerto Rico and someone gave me a can of cope. I remember going back and forth, shit i can't do this.....next thing I know i have one in my lip. Holy shit! I realize this and start to panic, FUCK I just caved! What is KTC gonna do to me!? What have I done! Then I wake up and realize it was a dream.....felt guilty as hell, but glad, so very glad to not have really caved.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: CrazyHorse on November 05, 2010, 04:52:00 PM
haha, dang, I haven't had my first dip dream yet. They sound intense. I think it comes from the anxiety of getting torn a new one by everyone on KTC in the event of caving. It would suck. Just like getting your girlfriend pregnant or going to school naked, two other very common nightmares.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on November 18, 2010, 02:00:00 PM
Day 58
Was at a conference for three days, away from home and not knowing a whole lot of folks. Spent all three days thinking, no one will know, have a dip. Glad I kept my shit together.

but it still sucked
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: MikeA on November 18, 2010, 02:15:00 PM
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 58
Was at a conference for three days, away from home and not knowing a whole lot of folks. Spent all three days thinking, no one will know, have a dip. Glad I kept my shit together.

but it still sucked
Perfect example of why we quit for ourselves. You would have known.
Great job!!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: FlyGuy91 on November 18, 2010, 03:45:00 PM
hey man im proud of you! keep it up dude, and good to know that even if you lie to others, you can bullshit your self.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: DeezNutzz on November 18, 2010, 03:56:00 PM
Quote from: FlyGuy91
hey man im proud of you! keep it up dude, and good to know that even if you lie to others, you can bullshit your self.
I think you mean Cant BS yourself. On 2nd thought maybe not, I think I bulshitted myself that Dip would not hurt or damage my lip for over 20 years!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on November 19, 2010, 11:23:00 PM
Day 59
not sure why the folks are caving. Well the vets that have caved have detracted themselves from the site. Mistake. Accountability gone. Brotherhood gone. Support gone. But WTF newbies. Get a plan. Get numbers. How many times have you heard it? Numbers. They aren't just something to plug in your phone, write on a sticky and toss it on the desk to be covered by shit.

I've given mine out. I don't know to how many and I'm not looking for a pat on the back. If you are struggling I want you to call me. Night, day, work or play. I'll get you immediately as I can. There is no I'm afraid to bother you with my problems, you have your own. Man this quit is real and the foe is totally 100% poisonous and will eat your fucking lunch. Have lots of numbers. I'd be surprised that if you had 10 numbers and needed some help and you tried all 10, you'd get a brother and he would help you back on your feet. I hope I'm in your phone, I know if you call I'm there as I'm 100% sure you're there for me.

Don't stop the accountability. Keep your plan. Use your numbers. Day by day. Keep your word
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Greg5280 on November 20, 2010, 05:48:00 AM
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 59
not sure why the folks are caving. Well the vets that have caved have detracted themselves from the site. Mistake. Accountability gone. Brotherhood gone. Support gone. But WTF newbies. Get a plan. Get numbers. How many times have you heard it? Numbers. They aren't just something to plug in your phone, write on a sticky and toss it on the desk to be covered by shit.

I've given mine out. I don't know to how many and I'm not looking for a pat on the back. If you are struggling I want you to call me. Night, day, work or play. I'll get you immediately as I can. There is no I'm afraid to bother you with my problems, you have your own. Man this quit is real and the foe is totally 100% poisonous and will eat your fucking lunch. Have lots of numbers. I'd be surprised that if you had 10 numbers and needed some help and you tried all 10, you'd get a brother and he would help you back on your feet. I hope I'm in your phone, I know if you call I'm there as I'm 100% sure you're there for me.

Don't stop the accountability. Keep your plan. Use your numbers. Day by day. Keep your word
Great Post !! This site is amazing and the support here is beyond words. Reach your hand out and 30 people will be knocking each other over to assist you. I am not sure how many numbers I have either, but knowing they are in my phone and I can call ANY of them at ANY time strengthens my quit.

This place and you bad ass quitters are AMAZING !!

Stay Quit
Greg
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on January 04, 2011, 03:13:00 PM
wow, haven't posted here in a while.

Just got to the HOF, I'm on day 105. The quit is strong, no looking back now.

My buddy has a wife that has not smoked or dipped and is dying from liver and intestinal cancer. She's 35 or so.

Us fags have paid anywhere from $3-$25 a can to do that to ourselves intentionally. Life is fucked up sometimes.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: brianl on January 05, 2011, 06:37:00 AM
Quote from: tarpon17
wow, haven't posted here in a while.

Just got to the HOF, I'm on day 105. The quit is strong, no looking back now.

My buddy has a wife that has not smoked or dipped and is dying from liver and intestinal cancer. She's 35 or so.

Us fags have paid anywhere from $3-$25 a can to do that to ourselves intentionally. Life is fucked up sometimes.
That sucks.
Nothing we can do about our past though, just control our future.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on January 06, 2011, 03:16:00 PM
Day 107

The day I caved.

The day Sarah Palin became President

The day NYC fell into Long Island Sound

The day any sports franchise in Seattle wins a championship

The day I shaved my testicle hairs

The day I turned down nooky of any kind

The day that will never happen!!!!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Smokeyg on January 06, 2011, 08:11:00 PM
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 107

The day I caved.

The day Sarah Palin became President

The day NYC fell into Long Island Sound

The day any sports franchise in Seattle wins a championship

The day I shaved my testicle hairs

The day I turned down nooky of any kind

The day that will never happen!!!!
Fucked up (http://i765.photobucket.com/albums/xx299/KW9891/Storm3.jpg) on that (http://www.concacaf.com/page/CL/NewsDetail/0,,12813~2176075,00.html) one. (http://www.seattlepi.com/dayart/20090602/6213.JPG)

Never give yourself an out. Ignorance = caver. See you on day one.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Nolaq on January 06, 2011, 08:19:00 PM
Quote from: Smokeyg
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 107

The day I caved.

The day Sarah Palin became President

The day NYC fell into Long Island Sound

The day any sports franchise in Seattle wins a championship

The day I shaved my testicle hairs

The day I turned down nooky of any kind

The day that will never happen!!!!
Fucked up (http://i765.photobucket.com/albums/xx299/KW9891/Storm3.jpg) on that (http://www.concacaf.com/page/CL/NewsDetail/0,,12813~2176075,00.html) one. (http://www.seattlepi.com/dayart/20090602/6213.JPG)

Never give yourself an out. Ignorance = caver. See you on day one.
...it's over the line Smokey!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Smokeyg on January 06, 2011, 09:17:00 PM
Quote from: noonelikesaquitter
Quote from: Smokeyg
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 107

The day I caved.

The day Sarah Palin became President

The day NYC fell into Long Island Sound

The day any sports franchise in Seattle wins a championship

The day I shaved my testicle hairs

The day I turned down nooky of any kind

The day that will never happen!!!!
Fucked up (http://i765.photobucket.com/albums/xx299/KW9891/Storm3.jpg) on that (http://www.concacaf.com/page/CL/NewsDetail/0,,12813~2176075,00.html) one. (http://www.seattlepi.com/dayart/20090602/6213.JPG)

Never give yourself an out. Ignorance = caver. See you on day one.
...it's over the line Smokey!
All right, mainstream Seattle sports are a fucking zero. Are you happy, you crazy fuck?
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on January 07, 2011, 10:04:00 AM
Quote from: Smokeyg
Quote from: noonelikesaquitter
Quote from: Smokeyg
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 107

The day I caved.

The day Sarah Palin became President

The day NYC fell into Long Island Sound

The day any sports franchise in Seattle wins a championship

The day I shaved my testicle hairs

The day I turned down nooky of any kind

The day that will never happen!!!!
Fucked up (http://i765.photobucket.com/albums/xx299/KW9891/Storm3.jpg) on that (http://www.concacaf.com/page/CL/NewsDetail/0,,12813~2176075,00.html) one. (http://www.seattlepi.com/dayart/20090602/6213.JPG)

Never give yourself an out. Ignorance = caver. See you on day one.
...it's over the line Smokey!
All right, mainstream Seattle sports are a fucking zero. Are you happy, you crazy fuck?
thanks for the help NOLAQ. When I think Seattle sports I think of Shawn Kemp and the Bone, Jay Buehner (sp?). Maybe they would get better followings if they recruited some of those hot ass asian chicks I see at the SEA-TAC airport? Fuck man, the asian voice on the airport train almost makes me spew in my jeans every time.....
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on January 07, 2011, 10:14:00 AM
Day 108

Guys that are badass:

*Inspector Clouseau from Pink Panther series (Peter Sellers)
*Cato from same (bad mofo!)
*Patrick Swayze (not for those pansy ass romance flicks. For his leading role in Road House, he fucks up a lot of doods).
*Ted Nugent
*Jacques Cousteau (the only guy that looks cool in a tuke)
*Any of the funny mofo's from Monty Python

thats it for today
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Smokeyg on January 07, 2011, 10:21:00 AM
Quote from: tarpon17
Quote from: Smokeyg
Quote from: noonelikesaquitter
Quote from: Smokeyg
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 107

The day I caved.

The day Sarah Palin became President

The day NYC fell into Long Island Sound

The day any sports franchise in Seattle wins a championship

The day I shaved my testicle hairs

The day I turned down nooky of any kind

The day that will never happen!!!!
Fucked up (http://i765.photobucket.com/albums/xx299/KW9891/Storm3.jpg) on that (http://www.concacaf.com/page/CL/NewsDetail/0,,12813~2176075,00.html) one. (http://www.seattlepi.com/dayart/20090602/6213.JPG)

Never give yourself an out. Ignorance = caver. See you on day one.
...it's over the line Smokey!
All right, mainstream Seattle sports are a fucking zero. Are you happy, you crazy fuck?
thanks for the help NOLAQ. When I think Seattle sports I think of Shawn Kemp and the Bone, Jay Buehner (sp?). Maybe they would get better followings if they recruited some of those hot ass asian chicks I see at the SEA-TAC airport? Fuck man, the asian voice on the airport train almost makes me spew in my jeans every time.....
You know what Pacific Northwest Asian chicks really love?

A hard to get man with a shorn scrotum. You're out.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Seth on January 07, 2011, 10:42:00 AM
Quote from: Smokeyg
Quote from: tarpon17
Quote from: Smokeyg
Quote from: noonelikesaquitter
Quote from: Smokeyg
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 107

The day I caved.

The day Sarah Palin became President

The day NYC fell into Long Island Sound

The day any sports franchise in Seattle wins a championship

The day I shaved my testicle hairs

The day I turned down nooky of any kind

The day that will never happen!!!!
Fucked up (http://i765.photobucket.com/albums/xx299/KW9891/Storm3.jpg) on that (http://www.concacaf.com/page/CL/NewsDetail/0,,12813~2176075,00.html) one. (http://www.seattlepi.com/dayart/20090602/6213.JPG)

Never give yourself an out. Ignorance = caver. See you on day one.
...it's over the line Smokey!
All right, mainstream Seattle sports are a fucking zero. Are you happy, you crazy fuck?
thanks for the help NOLAQ. When I think Seattle sports I think of Shawn Kemp and the Bone, Jay Buehner (sp?). Maybe they would get better followings if they recruited some of those hot ass asian chicks I see at the SEA-TAC airport? Fuck man, the asian voice on the airport train almost makes me spew in my jeans every time.....
You know what Pacific Northwest Asian chicks really love?

A hard to get man with a shorn scrotum. You're out.
How about the Supersonics in '77?
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Nolaq on January 07, 2011, 11:57:00 AM
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 108

Guys that are badass:

*Inspector Clouseau from Pink Panther series (Peter Sellers)
*Cato from same (bad mofo!)
*Patrick Swayze (not for those pansy ass romance flicks. For his leading role in Road House, he fucks up a lot of doods).
*Ted Nugent
*Jacques Cousteau (the only guy that looks cool in a tuke)
*Any of the funny mofo's from Monty Python

thats it for today
WHOA! You forgot:

*ME

and

*Chuck Norris.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Fort on January 07, 2011, 12:41:00 PM
Quote from: noonelikesaquitter
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 108

Guys that are badass:

*Inspector Clouseau from Pink Panther series (Peter Sellers)
*Cato from same (bad mofo!)
*Patrick Swayze (not for those pansy ass romance flicks.  For his leading role in Road House, he fucks up a lot of doods).
*Ted Nugent
*Jacques Cousteau (the only guy that looks cool in a tuke)
*Any of the funny mofo's from Monty Python

thats it for today
WHOA! You forgot:

*ME

and

*Chuck Norris.
no, Chuck Norris is all of those guys. He just doesnt want you to know.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on January 07, 2011, 12:52:00 PM
Quote from: Seth
Quote from: Smokeyg
Quote from: tarpon17
Quote from: Smokeyg
Quote from: noonelikesaquitter
Quote from: Smokeyg
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 107

The day I caved.

The day Sarah Palin became President

The day NYC fell into Long Island Sound

The day any sports franchise in Seattle wins a championship

The day I shaved my testicle hairs

The day I turned down nooky of any kind

The day that will never happen!!!!
Fucked up (http://i765.photobucket.com/albums/xx299/KW9891/Storm3.jpg) on that (http://www.concacaf.com/page/CL/NewsDetail/0,,12813~2176075,00.html) one. (http://www.seattlepi.com/dayart/20090602/6213.JPG)

Never give yourself an out. Ignorance = caver. See you on day one.
...it's over the line Smokey!
All right, mainstream Seattle sports are a fucking zero. Are you happy, you crazy fuck?
thanks for the help NOLAQ. When I think Seattle sports I think of Shawn Kemp and the Bone, Jay Buehner (sp?). Maybe they would get better followings if they recruited some of those hot ass asian chicks I see at the SEA-TAC airport? Fuck man, the asian voice on the airport train almost makes me spew in my jeans every time.....
You know what Pacific Northwest Asian chicks really love?

A hard to get man with a shorn scrotum. You're out.
How about the Supersonics in '77?
I believe you mean '78? In that case, they lost to the team formerly known as the Bullets
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on January 07, 2011, 12:54:00 PM
Quote from: Fort
Quote from: noonelikesaquitter
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 108

Guys that are badass:

*Inspector Clouseau from Pink Panther series (Peter Sellers)
*Cato from same (bad mofo!)
*Patrick Swayze (not for those pansy ass romance flicks.  For his leading role in Road House, he fucks up a lot of doods).
*Ted Nugent
*Jacques Cousteau (the only guy that looks cool in a tuke)
*Any of the funny mofo's from Monty Python

thats it for today
WHOA! You forgot:

*ME

and

*Chuck Norris.
no, Chuck Norris is all of those guys. He just doesnt want you to know.
Chuck Norris is gay. He did all those commercials with Christy Brinkley and never ever did he have a raging boner. Nor did she ever show up pregnant. You know if he banged her she'd be preggo, his sperm can not be contained.

CN=Gay
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on January 07, 2011, 01:09:00 PM
Mr Nic User

I've started to notice something. Not sure how long this has been going on, but know I have him in my sights.

I sit on the ground floor, window faces west to a nice courtyard where people sit and eat lunch. They also congregate to suck on cancer sticks. Whatever I don't give a fuck, except for that one hottie with the big tits, boy would I like to free dive into those bad boys. I digress.

Mr Nic as I call him comes by in the morning usually between 10 and 11 and stuffs a fat stogy in his piehole.

This guy looks like a total douchenozzle. He's no taller than 5'6" and about that wide. His fuckin flabby belly hangs over his belt by a good 10 inches, fat fuck. Too many goddamn donuts (no offense to any cops).

Today he's wearing this god awful shirt that is a flag. Stars on the left, srips and shit on the right, what a fuckin homo! Not that I don't find that patriotic, but maybe it is the american way to kill yourself with US tobacco products. Legal in all 50 states!!

I wanna go out there and slam my testicles down his throat.

Ok, I'm timing his ass, how long will he sit out there. He is wsting your tax paying dollars to do this shit. Oh wait, I'm wasting tax payer dollars typing this rant. Oh well, don't regard that point. If you have a problem with it, you're gay.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Dr. Bruce Banner on January 07, 2011, 01:47:00 PM
Quote from: tarpon17
Mr Nic User

I've started to notice something. Not sure how long this has been going on, but know I have him in my sights.

I sit on the ground floor, window faces west to a nice courtyard where people sit and eat lunch. They also congregate to suck on cancer sticks. Whatever I don't give a fuck, except for that one hottie with the big tits, boy would I like to free dive into those bad boys. I digress.

Mr Nic as I call him comes by in the morning usually between 10 and 11 and stuffs a fat stogy in his piehole.

This guy looks like a total douchenozzle. He's no taller than 5'6" and about that wide. His fuckin flabby belly hangs over his belt by a good 10 inches, fat fuck. Too many goddamn donuts (no offense to any cops).

Today he's wearing this god awful shirt that is a flag. Stars on the left, srips and shit on the right, what a fuckin homo! Not that I don't find that patriotic, but maybe it is the american way to kill yourself with US tobacco products. Legal in all 50 states!!

I wanna go out there and slam my testicles down his throat.

Ok, I'm timing his ass, how long will he sit out there. He is wsting your tax paying dollars to do this shit. Oh wait, I'm wasting tax payer dollars typing this rant. Oh well, don't regard that point. If you have a problem with it, you're gay.
you start out with " a hottie with big boobs" and end with shoving your testicles down another guys throat? ? ? ? :huh: I must be gay! :rolleyes:
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Smokeyg on January 08, 2011, 08:06:00 PM
Quote from: tarpon17
Quote from: Seth
Quote from: Smokeyg
Quote from: tarpon17
Quote from: Smokeyg
Quote from: noonelikesaquitter
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Quote from: tarpon17
Day 107

The day I caved.

The day Sarah Palin became President

The day NYC fell into Long Island Sound

The day any sports franchise in Seattle wins a championship

The day I shaved my testicle hairs

The day I turned down nooky of any kind

The day that will never happen!!!!
Fucked up (http://i765.photobucket.com/albums/xx299/KW9891/Storm3.jpg) on that (http://www.concacaf.com/page/CL/NewsDetail/0,,12813~2176075,00.html) one. (http://www.seattlepi.com/dayart/20090602/6213.JPG)

Never give yourself an out. Ignorance = caver. See you on day one.
...it's over the line Smokey!
All right, mainstream Seattle sports are a fucking zero. Are you happy, you crazy fuck?
thanks for the help NOLAQ. When I think Seattle sports I think of Shawn Kemp and the Bone, Jay Buehner (sp?). Maybe they would get better followings if they recruited some of those hot ass asian chicks I see at the SEA-TAC airport? Fuck man, the asian voice on the airport train almost makes me spew in my jeans every time.....
You know what Pacific Northwest Asian chicks really love?

A hard to get man with a shorn scrotum. You're out.
How about the Supersonics in '77?
I believe you mean '78? In that case, they lost to the team formerly known as the Bullets
Yeah, Go Oklahoma Thunder! And it was actually 1979 (see the attached picture featuring Lenny Wilkins). Come to think of it, the Seattle Pilots were a pretty strong ball club back in the day too.

When the Seahawks win the Super Bowl three games from now, they will finish the season with a winning record and you will be on day one. Again tarpon, never put your quit in the hands of others. Be humble and keep it in your grasp.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on March 21, 2011, 10:02:00 AM
180 degrees

My addiction was taking me in a direction I didn't want to go. I knew I needed to quit, but I couldn't. I had 5.3 billion reasons to keep going. My health was good. I can afford $120-150 a month on the shit. The list goes on. However, dipping was starting to get on my nerves. Damn, I need to spit somewhere. If I swallow, I'm gonna heartburn like a mofo......Got additional life insurance. Mrs tarp non-nic user, 20$ a month or so. Me, $200 a month! WTF. This shit is dragging me down.

I just reached 180 days of nicotene free living. Man, thats the best 180 days I can remember. I was contemplating what this really meant in the big scheme of things and how things have changed since I quit. I thought reaching the HOF was a big milestone. It is, but its not the end. Your/My addiction does not just throw in towel and walk away. But it starts getting much easier to control and deal with.

I was out kayaking and had my compass out to figure out the wind direction. I was paddling about northeast, 45 degrees on the compass. Hmmm, my quit reminds me of half of this compass. At 0 I was killing myself. Day 1, I'm quit and I'm not heading in the direction of 0 anymore. I can feel 0 pulling me that direction, but with support (KTC  Mrs Tarp) I will not go that way. Day 2, same thing, but I feel good without Nic. Days 3-7 hard to remember, the fog was thick but I kept going. My support system was pulling me away from 0. Eventually I made it to the right angle of 0. 45 degrees. I guess I could head back to 0, hell I just proved I can stop dipping whenever I want, whispers the addiction. The days continue to go by, more good days than bad.

90 degrees. Whats so good about that? The sun comes up in the east. New day. New Quit. I'm in control of my life today. Let's keep moving. 100 days. Hall of Fame. This is the second step in the making of a bad ass quitter. The first being the day you made the decision to put the compass in your hand.

Now that I'm past 90 degrees, the pull from 0 is less. Not gone, but weaker. Some days I don't feel it all. Some days, it tugs at my sack with a vengance, but I roll on.

I just hit day 180. I'm exactly opposite day 0. I like the sound of that. I'm gonna post day 180+1 from now on. I want to head the exact opposite direction of myself at 0 degrees. I will keep my compass in my hand, always cautious that the needle doesn't stray past the 180 mark.

Feel like you are losing your way or going in the wrong direction? Here, take my compass. It will lead you the way.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Scowick65 on March 21, 2011, 10:10:00 AM
Quote from: tarpon17
180 degrees

My addiction was taking me in a direction I didn't want to go. I knew I needed to quit, but I couldn't. I had 5.3 billion reasons to keep going. My health was good. I can afford $120-150 a month on the shit. The list goes on. However, dipping was starting to get on my nerves. Damn, I need to spit somewhere. If I swallow, I'm gonna heartburn like a mofo......Got additional life insurance. Mrs tarp non-nic user, 20$ a month or so. Me, $200 a month! WTF. This shit is dragging me down.

I just reached 180 days of nicotene free living. Man, thats the best 180 days I can remember. I was contemplating what this really meant in the big scheme of things and how things have changed since I quit. I thought reaching the HOF was a big milestone. It is, but its not the end. Your/My addiction does not just throw in towel and walk away. But it starts getting much easier to control and deal with.

I was out kayaking and had my compass out to figure out the wind direction. I was paddling about northeast, 45 degrees on the compass. Hmmm, my quit reminds me of half of this compass. At 0 I was killing myself. Day 1, I'm quit and I'm not heading in the direction of 0 anymore. I can feel 0 pulling me that direction, but with support (KTC  Mrs Tarp) I will not go that way. Day 2, same thing, but I feel good without Nic. Days 3-7 hard to remember, the fog was thick but I kept going. My support system was pulling me away from 0. Eventually I made it to the right angle of 0. 45 degrees. I guess I could head back to 0, hell I just proved I can stop dipping whenever I want, whispers the addiction. The days continue to go by, more good days than bad.

90 degrees. Whats so good about that? The sun comes up in the east. New day. New Quit. I'm in control of my life today. Let's keep moving. 100 days. Hall of Fame. This is the second step in the making of a bad ass quitter. The first being the day you made the decision to put the compass in your hand.

Now that I'm past 90 degrees, the pull from 0 is less. Not gone, but weaker. Some days I don't feel it all. Some days, it tugs at my sack with a vengance, but I roll on.

I just hit day 180. I'm exactly opposite day 0. I like the sound of that. I'm gonna post day 180+1 from now on. I want to head the exact opposite direction of myself at 0 degrees. I will keep my compass in my hand, always cautious that the needle doesn't stray past the 180 mark.

Feel like you are losing your way or going in the wrong direction? Here, take my compass. It will lead you the way.
Yes, moving forward. Well said. I might just jump in the kayak with you. I like the destination you are paddling toward.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on March 21, 2011, 10:20:00 AM
Quote from: Scowick65
Quote from: tarpon17
180 degrees

My addiction was taking me in a direction I didn't want to go.  I knew I needed to quit, but I couldn't.  I had 5.3 billion reasons to keep going.  My health was good.  I can afford $120-150 a month on the shit.  The list goes on.  However, dipping was starting to get on my nerves.  Damn, I need to spit somewhere.  If I swallow, I'm gonna heartburn like a mofo......Got additional life insurance.  Mrs tarp non-nic user, 20$ a month or so.  Me, $200 a month!  WTF.  This shit is dragging me down.

I just reached 180 days of nicotene free living.  Man, thats the best 180 days I can remember.  I was contemplating what this really meant in the big scheme of things and how things have changed since I quit.  I thought reaching the HOF was a big milestone.  It is, but its not the end.  Your/My addiction does not just throw in towel and walk away.  But it starts getting much easier to control and deal with. 

I was out kayaking and had my compass out to figure out the wind direction.  I was paddling about northeast, 45 degrees on the compass.  Hmmm, my quit reminds me of half of this compass.  At 0 I was killing myself.  Day 1, I'm quit and I'm not heading in the direction of 0 anymore.  I can feel 0 pulling me that direction, but with support (KTC  Mrs Tarp) I will not go that way.  Day 2, same thing, but I feel good without Nic.  Days 3-7 hard to remember, the fog was thick but I kept going.  My support system was pulling me away from 0.  Eventually I made it to the right angle of 0.  45 degrees.  I guess I could head back to 0, hell I just proved I can stop dipping whenever I want, whispers the addiction.  The days continue to go by, more good days than bad.

90 degrees.  Whats so good about that?  The sun comes up in the east.  New day.  New Quit.  I'm in control of my life today.  Let's keep moving.  100 days.  Hall of Fame.  This is the second step in the making of a bad ass quitter.  The first being the day you made the decision to put the compass in your hand. 

Now that I'm past 90 degrees, the pull from 0 is less.  Not gone, but weaker.  Some days I don't feel it all.  Some days, it tugs at my sack with a vengance, but I roll on. 

I just hit day 180.  I'm exactly opposite day 0.  I like the sound of that.  I'm gonna post day 180+1 from now on.  I want to head the exact opposite direction of myself at 0 degrees.  I will keep my compass in my  hand, always cautious that the needle doesn't stray past the 180 mark.

Feel like you are losing your way or going in the wrong direction?  Here, take my compass.  It will lead you the way.
Yes, moving forward. Well said. I might just jump in the kayak with you. I like the destination you are paddling toward.
It's only a one seater, you're gonna have to sit in my lap :wub:
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Scowick65 on March 21, 2011, 10:24:00 AM
Quote from: tarpon17
Quote from: Scowick65
Quote from: tarpon17
180 degrees

My addiction was taking me in a direction I didn't want to go.  I knew I needed to quit, but I couldn't.  I had 5.3 billion reasons to keep going.  My health was good.  I can afford $120-150 a month on the shit.  The list goes on.  However, dipping was starting to get on my nerves.  Damn, I need to spit somewhere.  If I swallow, I'm gonna heartburn like a mofo......Got additional life insurance.  Mrs tarp non-nic user, 20$ a month or so.  Me, $200 a month!  WTF.  This shit is dragging me down.

I just reached 180 days of nicotene free living.  Man, thats the best 180 days I can remember.  I was contemplating what this really meant in the big scheme of things and how things have changed since I quit.  I thought reaching the HOF was a big milestone.  It is, but its not the end.  Your/My addiction does not just throw in towel and walk away.  But it starts getting much easier to control and deal with. 

I was out kayaking and had my compass out to figure out the wind direction.  I was paddling about northeast, 45 degrees on the compass.  Hmmm, my quit reminds me of half of this compass.  At 0 I was killing myself.  Day 1, I'm quit and I'm not heading in the direction of 0 anymore.  I can feel 0 pulling me that direction, but with support (KTC  Mrs Tarp) I will not go that way.  Day 2, same thing, but I feel good without Nic.  Days 3-7 hard to remember, the fog was thick but I kept going.  My support system was pulling me away from 0.  Eventually I made it to the right angle of 0.  45 degrees.  I guess I could head back to 0, hell I just proved I can stop dipping whenever I want, whispers the addiction.  The days continue to go by, more good days than bad.

90 degrees.  Whats so good about that?  The sun comes up in the east.  New day.  New Quit.  I'm in control of my life today.  Let's keep moving.  100 days.  Hall of Fame.  This is the second step in the making of a bad ass quitter.  The first being the day you made the decision to put the compass in your hand. 

Now that I'm past 90 degrees, the pull from 0 is less.  Not gone, but weaker.  Some days I don't feel it all.  Some days, it tugs at my sack with a vengance, but I roll on. 

I just hit day 180.  I'm exactly opposite day 0.  I like the sound of that.  I'm gonna post day 180+1 from now on.  I want to head the exact opposite direction of myself at 0 degrees.  I will keep my compass in my  hand, always cautious that the needle doesn't stray past the 180 mark.

Feel like you are losing your way or going in the wrong direction?  Here, take my compass.  It will lead you the way.
Yes, moving forward. Well said. I might just jump in the kayak with you. I like the destination you are paddling toward.
It's only a one seater, you're gonna have to sit in my lap :wub:
hmmm. Might just grab another kayak.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: ODAAT on March 21, 2011, 10:44:00 AM
Quote from: tarpon17
180 degrees

My addiction was taking me in a direction I didn't want to go. I knew I needed to quit, but I couldn't. I had 5.3 billion reasons to keep going. My health was good. I can afford $120-150 a month on the shit. The list goes on. However, dipping was starting to get on my nerves. Damn, I need to spit somewhere. If I swallow, I'm gonna heartburn like a mofo......Got additional life insurance. Mrs tarp non-nic user, 20$ a month or so. Me, $200 a month! WTF. This shit is dragging me down.

I just reached 180 days of nicotene free living. Man, thats the best 180 days I can remember. I was contemplating what this really meant in the big scheme of things and how things have changed since I quit. I thought reaching the HOF was a big milestone. It is, but its not the end. Your/My addiction does not just throw in towel and walk away. But it starts getting much easier to control and deal with.

I was out kayaking and had my compass out to figure out the wind direction. I was paddling about northeast, 45 degrees on the compass. Hmmm, my quit reminds me of half of this compass. At 0 I was killing myself. Day 1, I'm quit and I'm not heading in the direction of 0 anymore. I can feel 0 pulling me that direction, but with support (KTC  Mrs Tarp) I will not go that way. Day 2, same thing, but I feel good without Nic. Days 3-7 hard to remember, the fog was thick but I kept going. My support system was pulling me away from 0. Eventually I made it to the right angle of 0. 45 degrees. I guess I could head back to 0, hell I just proved I can stop dipping whenever I want, whispers the addiction. The days continue to go by, more good days than bad.

90 degrees. Whats so good about that? The sun comes up in the east. New day. New Quit. I'm in control of my life today. Let's keep moving. 100 days. Hall of Fame. This is the second step in the making of a bad ass quitter. The first being the day you made the decision to put the compass in your hand.

Now that I'm past 90 degrees, the pull from 0 is less. Not gone, but weaker. Some days I don't feel it all. Some days, it tugs at my sack with a vengance, but I roll on.

I just hit day 180. I'm exactly opposite day 0. I like the sound of that. I'm gonna post day 180+1 from now on. I want to head the exact opposite direction of myself at 0 degrees. I will keep my compass in my hand, always cautious that the needle doesn't stray past the 180 mark.

Feel like you are losing your way or going in the wrong direction? Here, take my compass. It will lead you the way.
'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap' 'clap'

That's some goooooood stuff right there tarp...
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on April 09, 2011, 09:55:00 PM
Mrs. Tarp here... On his 200th day quit I am writing to tell my hubby how proud I am of him. Quitting is tough for even the strongest folks, and his determination, will and strength have blown me away as he has made reaching the 200th day look easy. There have been difficult times when his temper flares or his mind is somewhere else, probably contemplating how to get through the next few hours. And, there have been funny moments when the jitters and his new found quit-energy make him very chatty and fidgety (an unusual characteristic for someone who I've always known to be quiet and laid back). But, mostly the past 200 days have been filled with joy as I have been reminded of one of biggest the reasons I fell in love with him - his dedication to his health and his loved ones.

It has also been inspiring to watch him transform over 200 days from a new quitter to a mentor to others. His dedication to quitting now extends to helping those in the early, fragile days. I love watching him reach out to others just as his mentors reached out to him. You all have a good thing going via this group. Keep up the good work, and keep inspiring others to achieve what seems impossible!

And by the way, he is definitely NOT ghey... ;)
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: G on April 09, 2011, 10:55:00 PM
Quote from: tarpon17
Mrs. Tarp here... On his 200th day quit I am writing to tell my hubby how proud I am of him. Quitting is tough for even the strongest folks, and his determination, will and strength have blown me away as he has made reaching the 200th day look easy. There have been difficult times when his temper flares or his mind is somewhere else, probably contemplating how to get through the next few hours. And, there have been funny moments when the jitters and his new found quit-energy make him very chatty and fidgety (an unusual characteristic for someone who I've always known to be quiet and laid back). But, mostly the past 200 days have been filled with joy as I have been reminded of one of biggest the reasons I fell in love with him - his dedication to his health and his loved ones.

It has also been inspiring to watch him transform over 200 days from a new quitter to a mentor to others. His dedication to quitting now extends to helping those in the early, fragile days. I love watching him reach out to others just as his mentors reached out to him. You all have a good thing going via this group. Keep up the good work, and keep inspiring others to achieve what seems impossible!

And by the way, he is definitely NOT ghey... ;)
Congrats to Tarp. Nice post, Mrs. Tarp.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: ODAAT on April 10, 2011, 10:08:00 AM
Quote from: tarpon17
Mrs. Tarp here... On his 200th day quit I am writing to tell my hubby how proud I am of him. Quitting is tough for even the strongest folks, and his determination, will and strength have blown me away as he has made reaching the 200th day look easy. There have been difficult times when his temper flares or his mind is somewhere else, probably contemplating how to get through the next few hours. And, there have been funny moments when the jitters and his new found quit-energy make him very chatty and fidgety (an unusual characteristic for someone who I've always known to be quiet and laid back). But, mostly the past 200 days have been filled with joy as I have been reminded of one of biggest the reasons I fell in love with him - his dedication to his health and his loved ones.

It has also been inspiring to watch him transform over 200 days from a new quitter to a mentor to others. His dedication to quitting now extends to helping those in the early, fragile days. I love watching him reach out to others just as his mentors reached out to him. You all have a good thing going via this group. Keep up the good work, and keep inspiring others to achieve what seems impossible!

And by the way, he is definitely NOT ghey... ;)
Love it, Tarp is one of my all time favorite people on this site. But he really is ghey....
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: radtech04 on April 11, 2011, 09:20:00 AM
Quote from: tarpon17
Mrs. Tarp here... On his 200th day quit I am writing to tell my hubby how proud I am of him. Quitting is tough for even the strongest folks, and his determination, will and strength have blown me away as he has made reaching the 200th day look easy. There have been difficult times when his temper flares or his mind is somewhere else, probably contemplating how to get through the next few hours. And, there have been funny moments when the jitters and his new found quit-energy make him very chatty and fidgety (an unusual characteristic for someone who I've always known to be quiet and laid back). But, mostly the past 200 days have been filled with joy as I have been reminded of one of biggest the reasons I fell in love with him - his dedication to his health and his loved ones.

It has also been inspiring to watch him transform over 200 days from a new quitter to a mentor to others.  His dedication to quitting now extends to helping those in the early, fragile days. I love watching him reach out to others just as his mentors reached out to him. You all have a good thing going via this group. Keep up the good work, and keep inspiring others to achieve what seems impossible! 

And by the way, he is definitely NOT ghey...  ;)
Tarp- congrats on 200 bro! It is a BIG milestone! Mrs Tarp, thanks for being so supportive of this site! Even though Tarp is a bad ass quitter, he still is thooper ghey! :wub: RT(4)
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Greg5280 on April 11, 2011, 01:29:00 PM
Quote from: tarpon17
Mrs. Tarp here... On his 200th day quit I am writing to tell my hubby how proud I am of him. Quitting is tough for even the strongest folks, and his determination, will and strength have blown me away as he has made reaching the 200th day look easy. There have been difficult times when his temper flares or his mind is somewhere else, probably contemplating how to get through the next few hours. And, there have been funny moments when the jitters and his new found quit-energy make him very chatty and fidgety (an unusual characteristic for someone who I've always known to be quiet and laid back). But, mostly the past 200 days have been filled with joy as I have been reminded of one of biggest the reasons I fell in love with him - his dedication to his health and his loved ones.

It has also been inspiring to watch him transform over 200 days from a new quitter to a mentor to others. His dedication to quitting now extends to helping those in the early, fragile days. I love watching him reach out to others just as his mentors reached out to him. You all have a good thing going via this group. Keep up the good work, and keep inspiring others to achieve what seems impossible!

And by the way, he is definitely NOT ghey... ;)
Goo shit right here !!

Tarp Congrats man... you are certainly paying it forward. Proud to be quit with you.

And please let Mrs. Tarp know we have a strict don't ask don't tell policy on the site... just sayin. 'finger point'

'loot01' 'loot02'

'crackup'
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: southtexasman on April 11, 2011, 04:36:00 PM
Quote from: tarpon17
Mrs. Tarp here... On his 200th day quit I am writing to tell my hubby how proud I am of him. Quitting is tough for even the strongest folks, and his determination, will and strength have blown me away as he has made reaching the 200th day look easy. There have been difficult times when his temper flares or his mind is somewhere else, probably contemplating how to get through the next few hours. And, there have been funny moments when the jitters and his new found quit-energy make him very chatty and fidgety (an unusual characteristic for someone who I've always known to be quiet and laid back). But, mostly the past 200 days have been filled with joy as I have been reminded of one of biggest the reasons I fell in love with him - his dedication to his health and his loved ones.

It has also been inspiring to watch him transform over 200 days from a new quitter to a mentor to others. His dedication to quitting now extends to helping those in the early, fragile days. I love watching him reach out to others just as his mentors reached out to him. You all have a good thing going via this group. Keep up the good work, and keep inspiring others to achieve what seems impossible!

And by the way, he is definitely NOT ghey... ;)
I will not be fooled by that last sentence. There is not Mrs. Tarp, this was composed by Tarp to smokescreen his gheyness.

In all seriousness though. 1. Congrats on the double century mark. 2. Thanks for your support in my quit.

Later
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on June 16, 2011, 09:39:00 AM
Day 268

I don't remember my last shitty day. But I don't let that get to my head. I know all it takes is one what the fuck moment and I'll be fingerbanging again. So I still post roll. Why not? It's been keeping me quit for almost 9 months. That is unprecedented.

I was thinking last night about my journey. One of the most important things that helped me quit was the chat room. After 100 days, that shit saved me. Once I reached the HOF, I thought now what? I'm not a newbie anymore, I don't have a bunch of badass quitters supporting me at the bottom of my page. I needed chat to get me through the next 100 days. Just hanging and talking ghey shit or helping out newbs was pure therapy.

I don't hang in chat much anymore these days, I do miss it, but I'm busy as hell and can get easily sucked into the gheyness. But trust me, the chat room served as part of my trinity: Post roll; chat; numbers. Thats how I got to here.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: G on June 16, 2011, 10:13:00 AM
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 268

I don't remember my last shitty day. But I don't let that get to my head. I know all it takes is one what the fuck moment and I'll be fingerbanging again. So I still post roll. Why not? It's been keeping me quit for almost 9 months. That is unprecedented.

I was thinking last night about my journey. One of the most important things that helped me quit was the chat room. After 100 days, that shit saved me. Once I reached the HOF, I thought now what? I'm not a newbie anymore, I don't have a bunch of badass quitters supporting me at the bottom of my page. I needed chat to get me through the next 100 days. Just hanging and talking ghey shit or helping out newbs was pure therapy.

I don't hang in chat much anymore these days, I do miss it, but I'm busy as hell and can get easily sucked into the gheyness. But trust me, the chat room served as part of my trinity: Post roll; chat; numbers. Thats how I got to here.
Ghey chatting can ease the craves, fo' sho'. So can meeting other quitters. Meeting you put another link in my quit chain. (no homo)
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Scowick65 on June 16, 2011, 10:30:00 AM
Quote from: gmann
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 268

I don't remember my last shitty day.  But I don't let that get to my head.  I know all it takes is one what the fuck moment and I'll be fingerbanging again.  So I still post roll.  Why not?  It's been keeping me quit for almost 9 months.  That is unprecedented.

I was thinking last night about my journey.  One of the most important things that helped me quit was the chat room.  After 100 days, that shit saved me.  Once I reached the HOF, I thought now what?  I'm not a newbie anymore, I don't have a bunch of badass quitters supporting me at the bottom of my page.  I needed chat to get me through the next 100 days.  Just hanging and talking ghey shit or helping out newbs was pure therapy.

I don't hang in chat much anymore these days, I do miss it, but I'm busy as hell and can get easily sucked into the gheyness.  But trust me, the chat room served as part of my trinity:  Post roll; chat; numbers.  Thats how I got to here.
Ghey chatting can ease the craves, fo' sho'. So can meeting other quitters. Meeting you put another link in my quit chain. (no homo)
Nice quit brother. :)
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on June 21, 2011, 09:34:00 AM
Quote from: gmann
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 268

I don't remember my last shitty day.  But I don't let that get to my head.  I know all it takes is one what the fuck moment and I'll be fingerbanging again.  So I still post roll.  Why not?  It's been keeping me quit for almost 9 months.  That is unprecedented.

I was thinking last night about my journey.  One of the most important things that helped me quit was the chat room.  After 100 days, that shit saved me.  Once I reached the HOF, I thought now what?  I'm not a newbie anymore, I don't have a bunch of badass quitters supporting me at the bottom of my page.  I needed chat to get me through the next 100 days.  Just hanging and talking ghey shit or helping out newbs was pure therapy.

I don't hang in chat much anymore these days, I do miss it, but I'm busy as hell and can get easily sucked into the gheyness.  But trust me, the chat room served as part of my trinity:  Post roll; chat; numbers.  Thats how I got to here.
Ghey chatting can ease the craves, fo' sho'. So can meeting other quitters. Meeting you put another link in my quit chain. (no homo)
Same here bro, funny how a non-ghey meeting with another quitter can add a few links to the chain. I highly recommend it.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Cancrusher on June 21, 2011, 09:54:00 AM
Quote from: tarpon17
Quote from: gmann
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 268

I don't remember my last shitty day.  But I don't let that get to my head.  I know all it takes is one what the fuck moment and I'll be fingerbanging again.  So I still post roll.  Why not?  It's been keeping me quit for almost 9 months.  That is unprecedented.

I was thinking last night about my journey.  One of the most important things that helped me quit was the chat room.  After 100 days, that shit saved me.  Once I reached the HOF, I thought now what?  I'm not a newbie anymore, I don't have a bunch of badass quitters supporting me at the bottom of my page.  I needed chat to get me through the next 100 days.  Just hanging and talking ghey shit or helping out newbs was pure therapy.

I don't hang in chat much anymore these days, I do miss it, but I'm busy as hell and can get easily sucked into the gheyness.  But trust me, the chat room served as part of my trinity:  Post roll; chat; numbers.  Thats how I got to here.
Ghey chatting can ease the craves, fo' sho'. So can meeting other quitters. Meeting you put another link in my quit chain. (no homo)
Same here bro, funny how a non-ghey meeting with another quitter can add a few links to the chain. I highly recommend it.
I miss you....:) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IOa27hsFxUA)
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on August 23, 2011, 04:42:00 PM
Thoughts of freedom
Day 336 here and sitting on a ship 100 miles from land. No nic in site except for the few asswipes who smoke. Smoking is for pure assholes (sorry mom) but I never could do that stuff.

Can't believe that leading up to leaving the dock I thought about running to the c-store, grabbing a can that I could fondle for a week. Who'd know? I'm working with 40 people that never knew I dipped. Never knew I quit. I could ninja around the ship all I want.

But fuck that.

Why would I give up all that I have done up to this point. Why? There is not one single good reason. I feel like I'm in training for a marathon. Gotta run (post) every day, keep the training going. Each day a success in my training program.

Why become the slave to the master when I've done so well mastering the slave now? I will not because I know I can do it. No matter what.

I will give back, because I know how hard it is and that a word of encouragement is sometimes all it takes to get someone off the ledge.

I will not give in to Nic today at any point. You can make me think about it, but you have my word that I will not partake.

Newbs, roll with it. The craves you feel now suck, but remember you make the final decision. There's only two choices. And it should be pretty obvious which one to make.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on August 23, 2011, 05:01:00 PM
A song to say goodbye to the can:

its marked on the calendar
the last time I lied
43 year old boy
with nothing to hide
that was the day
that a part of me died
I kissed it on the head
and I said my goodbye

the pallbearers came
to lay it away
I was in the crowd
gathered round the grave
a trumpet sounded in the back
and some people say
my face lit up like the sun
as I spit on the grave

when the roll's called up yonder
what a day of rejoicing that will be
when we all see jesus
we'll sing and claim Victory
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on October 04, 2011, 10:03:00 AM
Quitters I've Met

GMANN

FLORIDALUKE

Aglawyer

Kdip

Bubblehead
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: G on October 04, 2011, 10:23:00 AM
don't cheat on me again.

bitch.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on December 17, 2011, 11:02:00 PM
Twas the night before Quitmas and all through the site
not a quitter was craving not even a newbyte

The stockings were hung by the chimney with ease
We used to get logs, now we get seeds

Gmann and bradleyguy all snug in their beds
visions of gheyness pirouetted in their heads

Mrs Tarp in her leather and I in my g-string
had just settled in for a pre-holiday fling

When out in the chatroom there arose such a clatter
a troll had come in raising a lather

Away to the computer I zoomed past the shitter
This troll must be booted he's scaring the new quitters

the hue of red on the list of quitters was null
this troll had total access and things were out of control

When out of the silence the trumpets did blare
klark had logged on and I began to stare

at the venom and vileness aimed at this poor soul
klark has no patience for the unprepared troll

soon more mods came they had heard the call
even LOOT came in drag from the LadyBoys Ball

In came NOLAQ, Gmann, mikeA and gator
also kdip, redtrain, chewie and hater

to the mute, to the kick, to the ban button all!
banish the poor troll he certainly has gall

He should know not to mess with a quitter who's ailing
he'll get his nuts chomped and thrown over the railing

With the troll being booted I started to feel reminisce
the first day i entered this chatroom of bliss

I met several guys whom I knew not at all
they wanted me to quit, there was no coddling of balls

wtf so says I, I've been ready for years
so i started the journey of blood sweat and tears

the first few days sucked, as did the next thirty
i was such an ass, the rage in me dirty

but I look back on those days i was starting to cleanse
posting roll, honoring my word to my friends

I know this stopped following the rhymes of mr moore
but shit that poem sucks, what a bore!

I end with words that all should adhere
hell we should all get it tatooed on our rear

As the holiday nears, keep in mind my ghey bretheren
WE CANNOT HAVE ONE, NEVER EVER AGAIN
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: redtrain14 on December 18, 2011, 07:08:00 AM
Mrs. Tarp in her leather.....

More about this please, thx.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Frazzled on December 18, 2011, 07:18:00 AM
Quote from: redtrain14
You in your g-string.....

More about this please, thx.
Fixed...
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: redtrain14 on December 18, 2011, 01:08:00 PM
Quote from: Frazzled
Quote from: redtrain14
You in your g-string.....

More about this please, thx.
Fixed...
Either way, I'm good with it.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Greg5280 on December 18, 2011, 01:12:00 PM
Quote from: redtrain14
Quote from: Frazzled
Quote from: redtrain14
You in your g-string.....

More about this please, thx.
Fixed...
Either way, I'm good with it.
:blink:
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: AtomicDiesel on December 19, 2011, 06:04:00 AM
Willie Shakespeare or Charlie Daniels Dickens, would the real Tarpon please step forward?!?!?!?!

Gstring.....you? I did NOT need that mental picture.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on February 03, 2012, 12:29:00 PM
Day 500 and a day of contemplation 500 days ago i was stuffing my face full of nicotene at the rate of a can a day. Now after I've gone this long without it, i'm starting to feel the freedom. Its awesome, I hope you feel it too someday.

But always remember, we are all one dip away from losing that freedom. I'm reminded today that some didn't even have a choice and they lost. Today I find out that my buddies wife has lost her battle with cancer, she was 35. She never used nic. She was just unlucky. Seems unfair doesn't it. But the images I am constantly seeing today are her two kids ages 8 and 6. It tears my heart out to see them staring into the coffin, trying to say goodbye. She didn't have a choice. We do.

Next time you think about having just one, think about your kids staring into YOUR coffin. Hell they might not be able to because your coffin is closed, because they had to remove parts of your face. Think of how hard that would be for them, I can see it so vividly right now I cant' stand it. I will never contribute to my own demise again. I don't want them thinking that I did that to myself and to them.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Keddy on February 03, 2012, 12:31:00 PM
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 500 and a day of contemplation 500 days ago i was stuffing my face full of nicotene at the rate of a can a day. Now after I've gone this long without it, i'm starting to feel the freedom. Its awesome, I hope you feel it too someday.

But always remember, we are all one dip away from losing that freedom. I'm reminded today that some didn't even have a choice and they lost. Today I find out that my buddies wife has lost her battle with cancer, she was 35. She never used nic. She was just unlucky. Seems unfair doesn't it. But the images I am constantly seeing today are her two kids ages 8 and 6. It tears my heart out to see them staring into the coffin, trying to say goodbye. She didn't have a choice. We do.

Next time you think about having just one, think about your kids staring into YOUR coffin. Hell they might not be able to because your coffin is closed, because they had to remove parts of your face. Think of how hard that would be for them, I can see it so vividly right now I cant' stand it. I will never contribute to my own demise again. I don't want them thinking that I did that to myself and to them.
'clap' 'clap'
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Kdip on February 03, 2012, 03:39:00 PM
Quote from: Keddy
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 500 and a day of contemplation  500 days ago i was stuffing my face full of nicotene at the rate of a can a day.  Now after I've gone this long without it, i'm starting to feel the freedom.  Its awesome, I hope you feel it too someday.

But always remember, we are all one dip away from losing that freedom.  I'm reminded today that some didn't even have a choice and they lost.  Today I find out that my buddies wife has lost her battle with cancer, she was 35.  She never used nic.  She was just unlucky.  Seems unfair doesn't it.  But the images I am constantly seeing today are her two kids ages 8 and 6.  It tears my heart out to see them staring into the coffin, trying to say goodbye.  She didn't have a choice.  We do.

Next time you think about having just one, think about your kids staring into YOUR coffin.  Hell they might not be able to because your coffin is closed, because they had to remove parts of your face.  Think of how hard that would be for them, I can see it so vividly right now I cant' stand it.  I will never contribute to my own demise again.  I don't want them thinking that I did that to myself and to them.
'clap' 'clap'
'Have a beer' :rustaf1: :D Nice work Randy!!! Enjoy your freedom everyday!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Bean on February 03, 2012, 05:39:00 PM
Tarpon is exactly right. Well said. An addict's choice to use nicotine is an extremely selfish choice. It kills the addict, but it hurts the addict's loved ones, friends and family.

The world is tough enough without your kids having to fend for themselves because you chose the Nic Bithch over them. (read the Kern family story now if you haven't already). They ought to print a link to the Kern family story on the side of the can instead of that simple little warning. That warning never made me think twice. Now, I can't get the Kern story out of my head...and I love it.

Earning my freedom one day at a time with Tarpon! Congrats!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Cornholio on February 03, 2012, 09:36:00 PM
Quote from: kdip
Quote from: Keddy
Quote from: tarpon17
Day 500 and a day of contemplation  500 days ago i was stuffing my face full of nicotene at the rate of a can a day.  Now after I've gone this long without it, i'm starting to feel the freedom.  Its awesome, I hope you feel it too someday.

But always remember, we are all one dip away from losing that freedom.  I'm reminded today that some didn't even have a choice and they lost.  Today I find out that my buddies wife has lost her battle with cancer, she was 35.  She never used nic.  She was just unlucky.  Seems unfair doesn't it.  But the images I am constantly seeing today are her two kids ages 8 and 6.  It tears my heart out to see them staring into the coffin, trying to say goodbye.  She didn't have a choice.  We do.

Next time you think about having just one, think about your kids staring into YOUR coffin.  Hell they might not be able to because your coffin is closed, because they had to remove parts of your face.  Think of how hard that would be for them, I can see it so vividly right now I cant' stand it.  I will never contribute to my own demise again.  I don't want them thinking that I did that to myself and to them.
'clap' 'clap'
'Have a beer' :rustaf1: :D Nice work Randy!!! Enjoy your freedom everyday!
Thank you, thank you, thank you. For the thought that will carry my quit longer, for the reminder that I have a choice, and for the knowledge that freedom IS nearby.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: bluebonnetman on February 04, 2012, 10:47:00 AM
Quote from: Bean
[Tarpon is exactly right.  Well said.  An addict's choice to use nicotine is an extremely selfish choice.  It kills the addict, but it hurts the addict's loved ones, friends and family.

The world is tough enough without your kids having to fend for themselves because you chose the Nic Bithch over them.  (read the Kern family story now if you haven't already).  They ought to print a link to the Kern family story on the side of the can instead of that simple little warning.  That warning never made me think twice.  Now, I can't get the Kern story out of my head...and I love it. 

Earning my freedom one day at a time with Tarpon!  Congrats!
thanks for this. amen. sobering, quit-reinforcing.
i am grateful in my soul for this community and for my own resolve. no more.
i still have the fear, the spectre over my head, that it's too late, that i put that shit into my body, my face, for so many years and there's nothing i can do about it now; it's in there.
but then i think of all the times i wanted to quit but didn't have the awareness, the balls, the support. i didn't SEEK those things. i wasn't ready. when i WAS ready, by god, i found it. there is nothing i can do about what i did to my body all those years of using the nic bitch - except change it, one nic-free day at a time.
i'm 39 quit today. that's a start.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on July 23, 2013, 04:14:00 PM
A flower never blooms a thousand days - ancient chinese proverb.

Ok, I might agree with that. A quit can be classified into many things. If I just look at overall quit days, then hell yes, this quit has bloomed a thousand days and then some. If we look at the quality of those days.....then there were some non-bloomers for sure. Some where I thought the damn plant was dead. But as we've all learned, one day, one hour at a time. Those are tangible.

A thousand days is an exclusive club here at KTC and I sure am proud to be part of it. I had no intentions of writing about it, but let me share with you some thoughts I had a few months ago.

I was planning to cave.

Not strategically, not deceptively, not even consciously. But I was. Excuses: Busy, my quit is solid, I got this. I was posting maybe once every couple of weeks or less. The bitch had been talking to me and I was listening. I was telling her to fuck off, but there was something inside slowly whittling away. Knowing the comma was coming, I was pretty confident I could go back someday.

One fine day, on the same day, i got a text from Radman (Guard Dec 2010) and Cbird (April 2012). Both asking where I was and if everything was ok. To me, this is the epitome of how KTC works. Work your web of accountability, someone is paying attention. Rad and Cbird saw it.

Reality check. I didn't have "it". I was heading for a cave. Not in a day, or a week, but in the near future. I thought about their question for a couple of hours and like a kick in the sack...I realized I was fucking up.

I'll be honest with you. I don't remember how bad it feels to put in a chew with your gums so tore up it makes your eyes tear up. Or the incessant heartburn. I recollect them, but the pain of them is long gone. I barely remember the pain of the fog and rage from early quit. I go back and read some old posts and it comes back, but it doesn't hit home.

But you know what. I know better and in fact, the web of accountability that I weaved for myself, came through in the end. I planned it that way. Holy fuck I'm brilliant. I got tons of numbers, plenty of buds in KTC. I knew eventually someone would come calling. And they did.

I consider myself one of the lucky ones. Some don't answer the call. They continue down the road. They may or may not cave. We don't know what happens to them when they leave.

How stupid of me. I have preached untiringly about leaving the site. Why stop doing something that obviously works? And works well! What a dumbass and I was slowly headed that way.

Thanks Rad and Cbird. My quit candle is burning again.

Advice: Don't leave yourself any outs. Make your presence (accountability) noticeable. Trust me, someone is watching and someone will call you on your shit.

Its up to you to make the decision.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: 30isEnuff on July 23, 2013, 04:27:00 PM
Quote from: tarpon17
A flower never blooms a thousand days - ancient chinese proverb.

Ok, I might agree with that. A quit can be classified into many things. If I just look at overall quit days, then hell yes, this quit has bloomed a thousand days and then some. If we look at the quality of those days.....then there were some non-bloomers for sure. Some where I thought the damn plant was dead. But as we've all learned, one day, one hour at a time. Those are tangible.

A thousand days is an exclusive club here at KTC and I sure am proud to be part of it. I had no intentions of writing about it, but let me share with you some thoughts I had a few months ago.

I was planning to cave.

Not strategically, not deceptively, not even consciously. But I was. Excuses: Busy, my quit is solid, I got this. I was posting maybe once every couple of weeks or less. The bitch had been talking to me and I was listening. I was telling her to fuck off, but there was something inside slowly whittling away. Knowing the comma was coming, I was pretty confident I could go back someday.

One fine day, on the same day, i got a text from Radman (Guard Dec 2010) and Cbird (April 2012). Both asking where I was and if everything was ok. To me, this is the epitome of how KTC works. Work your web of accountability, someone is paying attention. Rad and Cbird saw it.

Reality check. I didn't have "it". I was heading for a cave. Not in a day, or a week, but in the near future. I thought about their question for a couple of hours and like a kick in the sack...I realized I was fucking up.

I'll be honest with you. I don't remember how bad it feels to put in a chew with your gums so tore up it makes your eyes tear up. Or the incessant heartburn. I recollect them, but the pain of them is long gone. I barely remember the pain of the fog and rage from early quit. I go back and read some old posts and it comes back, but it doesn't hit home.

But you know what. I know better and in fact, the web of accountability that I weaved for myself, came through in the end. I planned it that way. Holy fuck I'm brilliant. I got tons of numbers, plenty of buds in KTC. I knew eventually someone would come calling. And they did.

I consider myself one of the lucky ones. Some don't answer the call. They continue down the road. They may or may not cave. We don't know what happens to them when they leave.

How stupid of me. I have preached untiringly about leaving the site. Why stop doing something that obviously works? And works well! What a dumbass and I was slowly headed that way.

Thanks Rad and Cbird. My quit candle is burning again.

Advice: Don't leave yourself any outs. Make your presence (accountability) noticeable. Trust me, someone is watching and someone will call you on your shit.

Its up to you to make the decision.
Thank You Tarp for sharing.
It means A LOT!!
Thank you for being here.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Dougie on July 23, 2013, 04:28:00 PM
Quote from: tarpon17
A flower never blooms a thousand days - ancient chinese proverb.

Ok, I might agree with that. A quit can be classified into many things. If I just look at overall quit days, then hell yes, this quit has bloomed a thousand days and then some. If we look at the quality of those days.....then there were some non-bloomers for sure. Some where I thought the damn plant was dead. But as we've all learned, one day, one hour at a time. Those are tangible.

A thousand days is an exclusive club here at KTC and I sure am proud to be part of it. I had no intentions of writing about it, but let me share with you some thoughts I had a few months ago.

I was planning to cave.

Not strategically, not deceptively, not even consciously. But I was. Excuses: Busy, my quit is solid, I got this. I was posting maybe once every couple of weeks or less. The bitch had been talking to me and I was listening. I was telling her to fuck off, but there was something inside slowly whittling away. Knowing the comma was coming, I was pretty confident I could go back someday.

One fine day, on the same day, i got a text from Radman (Guard Dec 2010) and Cbird (April 2012). Both asking where I was and if everything was ok. To me, this is the epitome of how KTC works. Work your web of accountability, someone is paying attention. Rad and Cbird saw it.

Reality check. I didn't have "it". I was heading for a cave. Not in a day, or a week, but in the near future. I thought about their question for a couple of hours and like a kick in the sack...I realized I was fucking up.

I'll be honest with you. I don't remember how bad it feels to put in a chew with your gums so tore up it makes your eyes tear up. Or the incessant heartburn. I recollect them, but the pain of them is long gone. I barely remember the pain of the fog and rage from early quit. I go back and read some old posts and it comes back, but it doesn't hit home.

But you know what. I know better and in fact, the web of accountability that I weaved for myself, came through in the end. I planned it that way. Holy fuck I'm brilliant. I got tons of numbers, plenty of buds in KTC. I knew eventually someone would come calling. And they did.

I consider myself one of the lucky ones. Some don't answer the call. They continue down the road. They may or may not cave. We don't know what happens to them when they leave.

How stupid of me. I have preached untiringly about leaving the site. Why stop doing something that obviously works? And works well! What a dumbass and I was slowly headed that way.

Thanks Rad and Cbird. My quit candle is burning again.

Advice: Don't leave yourself any outs. Make your presence (accountability) noticeable. Trust me, someone is watching and someone will call you on your shit.

Its up to you to make the decision.
Taking your own advice and reading your day 500 post should be more than enough to carry you another 1000 days. Congrats on your comma and even more on building your web of accountability to keep you here.

Thank you for posting this. This addiction isn't cured in 100 days, it is "cured" one day at a time.

Proud to be quit with you.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: RAZD611 on July 23, 2013, 06:29:00 PM
Quote from: tarpon17
A flower never blooms a thousand days - ancient chinese proverb.

Ok, I might agree with that. A quit can be classified into many things. If I just look at overall quit days, then hell yes, this quit has bloomed a thousand days and then some. If we look at the quality of those days.....then there were some non-bloomers for sure. Some where I thought the damn plant was dead. But as we've all learned, one day, one hour at a time. Those are tangible.

A thousand days is an exclusive club here at KTC and I sure am proud to be part of it. I had no intentions of writing about it, but let me share with you some thoughts I had a few months ago.

I was planning to cave.

Not strategically, not deceptively, not even consciously. But I was. Excuses: Busy, my quit is solid, I got this. I was posting maybe once every couple of weeks or less. The bitch had been talking to me and I was listening. I was telling her to fuck off, but there was something inside slowly whittling away. Knowing the comma was coming, I was pretty confident I could go back someday.

One fine day, on the same day, i got a text from Radman (Guard Dec 2010) and Cbird (April 2012). Both asking where I was and if everything was ok. To me, this is the epitome of how KTC works. Work your web of accountability, someone is paying attention. Rad and Cbird saw it.

Reality check. I didn't have "it". I was heading for a cave. Not in a day, or a week, but in the near future. I thought about their question for a couple of hours and like a kick in the sack...I realized I was fucking up.

I'll be honest with you. I don't remember how bad it feels to put in a chew with your gums so tore up it makes your eyes tear up. Or the incessant heartburn. I recollect them, but the pain of them is long gone. I barely remember the pain of the fog and rage from early quit. I go back and read some old posts and it comes back, but it doesn't hit home.

But you know what. I know better and in fact, the web of accountability that I weaved for myself, came through in the end. I planned it that way. Holy fuck I'm brilliant. I got tons of numbers, plenty of buds in KTC. I knew eventually someone would come calling. And they did.

I consider myself one of the lucky ones. Some don't answer the call. They continue down the road. They may or may not cave. We don't know what happens to them when they leave.

How stupid of me. I have preached untiringly about leaving the site. Why stop doing something that obviously works? And works well! What a dumbass and I was slowly headed that way.

Thanks Rad and Cbird. My quit candle is burning again.

Advice: Don't leave yourself any outs. Make your presence (accountability) noticeable. Trust me, someone is watching and someone will call you on your shit.

Its up to you to make the decision.
Glad you got your carnial rectal inversion straightened out.

When you forget history you allow it to repeat itself.

Keep moving forward!!!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: tarpon17 on January 24, 2014, 10:40:00 AM
Been reading through some intros lately, good stuff. Totally awesome to see folks drink the kool aid right out of the gate. One thing that hit me as I was reading this morning and it reminded me of a post I made a few months ago (See below). Time. Quitting is a full time job. Sort of like breathing, if you stop you die. But unlike breathing we can make a conscious decision to stop quitting. The excuses are millionfold, we see them constantly in the intros or in the chat room.

How does one make quitting a full time endeavor? For me its pretty simple, I post roll, i think about quitting all the time, I look for cans in guys pockets, I look for turds in the parking lot, i look for spitters in the trash (well not like a dumpster diver but cans I can see into). I read on the site, there's always something new here, check out the chat room, keep track of some newbs, see how they are doing, provide some advice or not. Let em know that quitting is not easy but a fight worth fighting.

My quit started moving to part time. By that I mean I stopped posting roll, stopped thinking about my quit. Its easy to stay engaged and you really don't have to alter a busy lifestyle. I got two little kids under 4 and a busy job, there's little free time. But I use all the above ways to keep the quit in the foreground instead of the background.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Bean on January 24, 2014, 11:53:00 AM
Quote from: tarpon17
Been reading through some intros lately, good stuff.  Totally awesome to see folks drink the kool aid right out of the gate.  One thing that hit me as I was reading this morning and it reminded me of a post I made a few months ago (See below).  Time.  Quitting is a full time job.  Sort of like breathing, if you stop you die.  But unlike breathing we can make a conscious decision to stop quitting.  The excuses are millionfold, we see them constantly in the intros or in the chat room. 

How does one make quitting a full time endeavor?  For me its pretty simple, I post roll, i think about quitting all the time, I look for cans in guys pockets, I look for turds in the parking lot, i look for spitters in the trash (well not like a dumpster diver but cans I can see into). I read on the site, there's always something new here, check out the chat room, keep track of some newbs, see how they are doing, provide some advice or not.  Let em know that quitting is not easy but a fight worth fighting. 

My quit started moving to part time.  By that I mean I stopped posting roll, stopped thinking about my quit.  Its easy to stay engaged and you really don't have to alter a busy lifestyle.  I got two little kids under 4 and a busy job, there's little free time.  But I use all the above ways to keep the quit in the foreground instead of the background.
Totally agree with everything Tarp said...as usual. My quit started with a "see how long I can go" mentality...I seriously doubted I could do this. I had failed so many times before. But Roll Call enabled me to do what I didn't think could be done...control my addiction.

I get lazy. I've got two kids under 6 and a wife (who acts like it...HAHAHA...just kidding, she's great). I'm busy...just like everyone else. And, I'm a good excuse-maker...actually, GREAT excuse-maker. So here's my new fear...complacency.

Quitting has become old hat. Quitting is easy now. So easy, that I forget to post roll. Holy shit, right?!!! Forgetting to do the thing that saved my life. Unbelievable, right?

So, here's what I do to fight complacency. I have become arrogant about my quit...just in my own mind. I don't actually act like an a-hole to someone who uses. But I mentally congratulate myself when I see a can, a spitter, a turd by the entrace to a store, etc. That WAS me, but now I'm free.

The other thing I do is troll the Introduction section. I try to offer a word of encouragement to at least one new quitter a couple of times a week...even if it is almost word for word the same as what someone told me, and that I have told others. I'll risk the accusation of plagiarism if it helps a new quitter with the ONLY thing that matters...getting through TODAY day nic free.

Thanks for being here and taking the time, Tarp!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Pinched on July 22, 2014, 09:43:00 AM
I thought I would knock the dust off of this intro and say congrats on 1,400 days of freedom!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: basshaug on July 22, 2014, 09:44:00 AM
Quote from: Pinched
I thought I would knock the dust off of this intro and say congrats on 1,400 days of freedom!
Congrats on the 14th floor. That is truly bad ass.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: RAZD611 on July 22, 2014, 09:59:00 AM
Quote from: basshaug
Quote from: Pinched
I thought I would knock the dust off of this intro and say congrats on 1,400 days of freedom!
Congrats on the 14th floor. That is truly bad ass.
Well Done Sir!!!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Nolaq on July 22, 2014, 10:38:00 AM
Quote from: razd611
Quote from: basshaug
Quote from: Pinched
I thought I would knock the dust off of this intro and say congrats on 1,400 days of freedom!
Congrats on the 14th floor. That is truly bad ass.
Well Done Sir!!!
Nice job fishboy!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: wastepanel on July 22, 2014, 10:42:00 AM
Quote from: Nolaq
Quote from: razd611
Quote from: basshaug
Quote from: Pinched
I thought I would knock the dust off of this intro and say congrats on 1,400 days of freedom!
Congrats on the 14th floor. That is truly bad ass.
Well Done Sir!!!
Nice job fishboy!
'boob'
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: slug.go on July 22, 2014, 10:52:00 AM
Quote from: wastepanel
Quote from: Nolaq
Quote from: razd611
Quote from: basshaug
Quote from: Pinched
I thought I would knock the dust off of this intro and say congrats on 1,400 days of freedom!
Congrats on the 14th floor. That is truly bad ass.
Well Done Sir!!!
Nice job fishboy!
'boob'
1400 days of fapdom!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Thumblewort on July 22, 2014, 11:00:00 AM
Quote from: slug.go
Quote from: wastepanel
Quote from: Nolaq
Quote from: razd611
Quote from: basshaug
Quote from: Pinched
I thought I would knock the dust off of this intro and say congrats on 1,400 days of freedom!
Congrats on the 14th floor. That is truly bad ass.
Well Done Sir!!!
Nice job fishboy!
'boob'
1400 days of fapdom!
Way to go Strapon!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: SAM83 on July 22, 2014, 11:46:00 AM
Quote from: Thumblewort
Quote from: slug.go
Quote from: wastepanel
Quote from: Nolaq
Quote from: razd611
Quote from: basshaug
Quote from: Pinched
I thought I would knock the dust off of this intro and say congrats on 1,400 days of freedom!
Congrats on the 14th floor. That is truly bad ass.
Well Done Sir!!!
Nice job fishboy!
'boob'
1400 days of fapdom!
Way to go Strapon!
1400! Congrats, stay ghey!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Grizzlyhasclaws on July 22, 2014, 12:28:00 PM
Quote from: SAM83
Quote from: Thumblewort
Quote from: slug.go
Quote from: wastepanel
Quote from: Nolaq
Quote from: razd611
Quote from: basshaug
Quote from: Pinched
I thought I would knock the dust off of this intro and say congrats on 1,400 days of freedom!
Congrats on the 14th floor. That is truly bad ass.
Well Done Sir!!!
Nice job fishboy!
'boob'
1400 days of fapdom!
Way to go Strapon!
1400! Congrats, stay ghey!
Fappin' for 1400 straight days!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Dagranger on July 22, 2014, 03:58:00 PM
Quote from: grizzlyhasclaws
Quote from: SAM83
Quote from: Thumblewort
Quote from: slug.go
Quote from: wastepanel
Quote from: Nolaq
Quote from: razd611
Quote from: basshaug
Quote from: Pinched
I thought I would knock the dust off of this intro and say congrats on 1,400 days of freedom!
Congrats on the 14th floor. That is truly bad ass.
Well Done Sir!!!
Nice job fishboy!
'boob'
1400 days of fapdom!
Way to go Strapon!
1400! Congrats, stay ghey!
Fappin' for 1400 straight days!
Wow 1400 I don't know if I can count that high!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: zam on July 22, 2014, 04:12:00 PM
Quote from: Dagranger
Quote from: grizzlyhasclaws
Quote from: SAM83
Quote from: Thumblewort
Quote from: slug.go
Quote from: wastepanel
Quote from: Nolaq
Quote from: razd611
Quote from: basshaug
Quote from: Pinched
I thought I would knock the dust off of this intro and say congrats on 1,400 days of freedom!
Congrats on the 14th floor. That is truly bad ass.
Well Done Sir!!!
Nice job fishboy!
'boob'
1400 days of fapdom!
Way to go Strapon!
1400! Congrats, stay ghey!
Fappin' for 1400 straight days!
Wow 1400 I don't know if I can count that high!
congrats. BTW, 1400 is my cumulative SAT score.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: 30yraddict on September 21, 2014, 02:30:00 PM
Thanks for showing us how it is done with 4 years of badass quit. Congrats!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: SAM83 on September 21, 2014, 03:08:00 PM
Quote from: 30yrAddict
Thanks for showing us how it is done with 4 years of badass quit. Congrats!
Awesome Tarp!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: cbird65 on September 21, 2014, 03:27:00 PM
Quote from: SAM83
Quote from: 30yrAddict
Thanks for showing us how it is done with 4 years of badass quit. Congrats!
Awesome Tarp!
some badassery of quit right here!
'oh yeah'
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: schaef418 on October 30, 2014, 05:00:00 PM
Congrats on 15th floor, Tarp! Awesome job...15 hundred days of quit....im-fucking-pressive.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: sixercountry on October 30, 2014, 07:38:00 PM
Congrats bro
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Done4Me on October 30, 2014, 07:54:00 PM
Yep, noticed today on roll. For a relative newbie, that is stratosphere material. Congrats.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: 30isEnuff on October 31, 2014, 02:34:00 PM
Quote from: CBird65
Quote from: SAM83
Quote from: 30yrAddict
Thanks for showing us how it is done with 4 years of badass quit. Congrats!
Awesome Tarp!
some badassery of quit right here!
'oh yeah'
I wanna be like Tarp. He's a serious quitter.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: traumagnet on October 31, 2014, 04:33:00 PM
Quote from: 30isEnuff
Quote from: CBird65
Quote from: SAM83
Quote from: 30yrAddict
Thanks for showing us how it is done with 4 years of badass quit. Congrats!
Awesome Tarp!
some badassery of quit right here!
'oh yeah'
I wanna be like Tarp. He's a serious quitter.
BAD ASS! 'oh yeah'
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Doc Chewfree on October 31, 2014, 10:23:00 PM
Quote from: traumagnet
Quote from: 30isEnuff
Quote from: CBird65
Quote from: SAM83
Quote from: 30yrAddict
Thanks for showing us how it is done with 4 years of badass quit. Congrats!
Awesome Tarp!
some badassery of quit right here!
'oh yeah'
I wanna be like Tarp. He's a serious quitter.
BAD ASS! 'oh yeah'
Gratz, strapon!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: CavMan83 on November 01, 2014, 06:52:00 AM
Quote from: Doc
Quote from: traumagnet
Quote from: 30isEnuff
Quote from: CBird65
Quote from: SAM83
Quote from: 30yrAddict
Thanks for showing us how it is done with 4 years of badass quit. Congrats!
Awesome Tarp!
some badassery of quit right here!
'oh yeah'
I wanna be like Tarp. He's a serious quitter.
BAD ASS! 'oh yeah'
Gratz, strapon!
What Doc Chewfree said! EXACTLY what he said!!! :D
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Bignate76 on November 03, 2014, 10:35:00 AM
Woot!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: ChickDip on March 13, 2016, 03:48:00 AM
Strapon, congrats on your 2,000 days!!
B)B
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: DWEIRICK on March 14, 2016, 11:26:00 AM
2k congratulations!
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: Candoit on March 14, 2016, 05:48:00 PM
Quote from: DWEIRICK
2k congratulations!
Hells yeah 2,000 days of kwitty goodness.
Title: Re: quit tomorrow.....
Post by: ChickDip on January 17, 2017, 02:56:00 AM
'Birthday' strapon!!

Seriously. Tarp...thanks for being here!
Hope you have a great birthday.