Just like you did today - hit "add reply" and write away :)Quote from: SamrsDavid - great job posting roll and getting involved! You might want to consider using your intro topic as a place to write about what you're going through. I wish I had done something like that, so I would have a record of the initial stages of my quit.Samrs, That's a great idea. But I don't see a way to change my intro topic now. or do you mean just continuing to poste updates or editing the intro post altogether?
Whew! Crazy Saturday. Have been with the missus all day. Been out of house since 9:30. Not a big fan of fake dipping around her as I never dipped the nasty s*** around her. By 12:00 I started experiencing (for the first time honestly) what I can only assume was what you guys refer to as the fog. Massive headache that subsided and returned in 10-15 minute intervals, small fits of short temperedness, etc. It was unbelievable. By 2:30 I finally put in a fake dip though still with wife. Obviously she'd rather that than crazy Dave or cavy Dave. Important thing is I didn't cave, and I'm good now but man. I have to be honest. I was starting to think you guys were exaggerating a little about the fog...but today was for real. Happy to remain quit with you all. And thanks again for listening, encouraging, responding, etc. ODAATWUPPEDDGreat victory Dave. Now you really have a taste of victory over nic!! Even though it is just one victory, they will continue to pile up. Keep your head on a swivel and it will get even easier. Makes you feel great to beat it one day at a time doesn't it? Wait until you have a conversation and forget what the hell you were saying right in the middle of it and start another. Now that is crazy!!! Great job brother!! Proud to be quit with you
Well guys. Just to share a small something....Wife and I came home from vacation a little earlier than planned. No problems...just mutual decision. But we both had today off too so we got a lot done. Now let me just interject....the old David. The not so discreet, ninja wanna be, worm turd craving nasty David that existed pre 5/1, would have been running so many errands alone...so he could "ninja dip" and if I was at home, I'd be taking an hour long, "I'm constipated", bathroom break just so I could suck on those worm turds. But what did I do today? We went to Lowes and bought EVERYTHING we needed to start an herb garden in a metal planter. Then came home and worked together on it for 2 hours. Literally just minutes ago did I stop to think about it and realize what a victory it is. On top of not putting essentially arsenic in my lip, I spent quality time on a project with my wife (folks it's probably been years). Just another major benefit of quitting this disgusting addiction we're cursed with.It just gets better... Great work.
A continuation of yesterdays' story --It really does take our brains a long time to adjust to life without nicotine and the delivery system(s) that we used. I'm almost 2 years quit and sometimes my brain still tries to tell me that I need some sort of fix. For me the daily promise here is crucial to maintain my quit.
so today (fully stocked on Smokey Mountain) I've been trying to withhold my urges for a fake dip. at 9:30 I almost put one in...pretty much every 30-45 minutes I've thought about taking one, etc...funny thing is...I keep forgetting to. Like I'll be in the back office, thought crosses, can is up in my office, and then I forgot....now, 53 days ago, I would have jumped out the window of a 2 story building without a parachute or a safety net if that was the only possible way I could have got a dip....so I count this as a victory within a victory...victory#1 because I'm quit as hell on this Day 52 and victory#2 I'm thinking I'm not as dependent on the SM as I thought I was....
Wanted to share an addict experience this AM. I'll preface by saying at no time was I considering caving or anything else. Also, I need to let you know that my #1 tool is Smokey Mountain wintergreen. I know there are mixed feelings on using fake etc. but I do. Anyway, I realize around 9:30 this AM that I was "dipping" my last Smokey Mountain that I had. Panic set in...Suddenly, job/tasks weren't important, all that mattered was that I find some Smokey Mountain. being that Walmart is the only store near me (that I know of) that carries it, I went to the one near my office (leaving work to run this errand and this errand only)...that walmart was out of wintergreen...I lost it...I flew to the walmart across town (10 minutes or so) calling them while on the way asking if they had it IN STOCK -- all they would tell me is that they carry it....I already knew that. So I pull in and go to the tobacco counter because they're where they sell the SM, and she said "we only have classic....then she reached further back, oh, here's a whole box (10 cans) -- I'll take the whole box please. Walking out there was immediate relaxation knowing that "major problem" had been solved. It hit me like a ton of bricks as I was walking out the door....I even texted FF at this time...this is addiction..it was a vivid flashback to when I dipped tobacco/nicotine and that's EXACTLY how I'd react if I ran out at an inconvenient time. I probably would have driven 30+ miles if needed to find smokey mountain if I had to. In hindsight, it worries me that I may be creating a dependency of sorts on SM but I still think that's better than the real cat poo. I'll just try to minimize consumption and hope that, like others, the need/desire for it just goes away one day.Hi David,
This addiction never ceases to blow my mind by how damn consuming it was/is.Quote from: DavidWanted to share an addict experience this AM. I'll preface by saying at no time was I considering caving or anything else. Also, I need to let you know that my #1 tool is Smokey Mountain wintergreen. I know there are mixed feelings on using fake etc. but I do. Anyway, I realize around 9:30 this AM that I was "dipping" my last Smokey Mountain that I had. Panic set in...Suddenly, job/tasks weren't important, all that mattered was that I find some Smokey Mountain. being that Walmart is the only store near me (that I know of) that carries it, I went to the one near my office (leaving work to run this errand and this errand only)...that walmart was out of wintergreen...I lost it...I flew to the walmart across town (10 minutes or so) calling them while on the way asking if they had it IN STOCK -- all they would tell me is that they carry it....I already knew that. So I pull in and go to the tobacco counter because they're where they sell the SM, and she said "we only have classic....then she reached further back, oh, here's a whole box (10 cans) -- I'll take the whole box please. Walking out there was immediate relaxation knowing that "major problem" had been solved. It hit me like a ton of bricks as I was walking out the door....I even texted FF at this time...this is addiction..it was a vivid flashback to when I dipped tobacco/nicotine and that's EXACTLY how I'd react if I ran out at an inconvenient time. I probably would have driven 30+ miles if needed to find smokey mountain if I had to. In hindsight, it worries me that I may be creating a dependency of sorts on SM but I still think that's better than the real cat poo. I'll just try to minimize consumption and hope that, like others, the need/desire for it just goes away one day.Hi David,
Once again I find remarkable similarity in your story. I too used Smokey mountain. I had a particular fondness for peach. In my journal I dedicate a post in the beginning, exactly as you wrote, to the joy of smokey mountain and the freedom it brings. Later I realize that it's a crutch and I lament ever using it.
There's only one right answer here and you touched on it in your post. It doesn't matter how you stay clean and free of nicotine...just that you stay free of it.
It will require you to at some point to let go if the crutch. It just doesn't go away on its own in my experience. You kind of have to decide to let it go. It's somewhat like the analogy of ripping the bandage off all at once or slowly peeling it away. At some point it's got to cone off. The important thing is that your quit of nicotine. The rest will happen on its own.
Stay strong brother. Just stay quit.
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Name | Commit to 200 | Day's Quit Promise---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
| Tyrsman | Yes. Leading the charge to 200 | |
| Nate1974 | Yes. Always motivated to quit. | |
| MikeNT | Like I'd back out now haha. Yes I'll commit | |
| JohnKewley | ||
| Buccobro | abso buc'n lutely | |
| TME | yes | |
| Redrock | ||
| NoDipDan | ||
| LarryA | Will not stop | |
| HotRodRacer | Yeah, I do. | |
| David S | Without Hesitation | |
| Addi | Easy life! | |
| Gooseman1 | ||
| Phill | I'm committed | |
| gottadoit | Yeppers | |
| Steve_KTC | yes to 200! | |
| Robbie | 2nd floor on my way | |
| AaronB5 | with y'all to 200 | |
| Gregor | 200 sounds good to me. | |
| LetsGo14 | ||
| CWALL | 200 days with no dip, yep | |
| Casus belli | All in | |
| Crypto137 | I'm in | |
| Mroll | ||
| Sambo74 | ||
| Alterego | yup | |
| Don-AZ | 200... here I come! | |
| JPK91 | On board for 200. | |
| RobiinPA | I am in for 200 | |
| 1matthew8 | ||
| paul_s | ||
| M.H | ||
| Ariana5866 | right around the corner | |
| Big Red 77 | I love pretty rainbows!!!! | |
| FishFlorida | working on a half dangle | |
| Frazzled | Been There, Done That, T-Shirt Has Holes in it and is all pitted out | |
| Pab1964 | [/b][/color] |
Had my second nic dream last night. Weirdly enough, both have been cigarettes and I just never was much of a smoker. Here's how my most recent dream went. I was riding in my car with my brother and he was smoking (he used to smoke in real life but quit several years ago) and he just handed it to me mid conversation (who shares cigarettes in real life???) and I took one puff, handed it back to him and it hit me IN my dream. It was literally like I had forgotten that I was quit when I puffed and immediately realized it too late. And I swear I was running the scenarios in my head how to lie on the board and not own up to the cave. This was all happening IN my dream. Now THAT was weird.I've had some very similar ones and it is truly creepy. Takes a few minutes after waking up to realize that you hadn't caved.
Well....we adopted a baby. The precious baby boy was born 11/29 and we had to live in the state where he was born for 2 weeks for the state governments there and my own cleared him to return with us (It's called ICPC and is a pain in the rear but I realize in today's climate with the whackos out there, a certain level of security is necessary for children's safety). Unfortunately, less than 12 hours after we returned home, we had to rush him to a hospital for RSV with bronchiolitis that was affecting his ability to breathe. He was transferred to a children's hospital and has been in ICU for 3 days. I know that's not a terribly long time but for us in this situation after being away from home and family for 2 weeks it was an absolute nightmare. Doc thinks we'll be able to take him home this weekend so we'll see. Can't wait to bring him home...ESPECIALLY to a nicotine free zone. Will try to keep this intro updated.Great on you and your wife for the adoption. Prayers to the little man. We often wonder why me, but IÂ’m a firm believer that all things happen for a reason. God bless my friend
Good on your for adopting. Both my sister and I are adopted. I don't think my non-birth parents had to go through what you did, but you certainly stuck it out to make it happen.Quote from: DavidWell....we adopted a baby. The precious baby boy was born 11/29 and we had to live in the state where he was born for 2 weeks for the state governments there and my own cleared him to return with us (It's called ICPC and is a pain in the rear but I realize in today's climate with the whackos out there, a certain level of security is necessary for children's safety). Unfortunately, less than 12 hours after we returned home, we had to rush him to a hospital for RSV with bronchiolitis that was affecting his ability to breathe. He was transferred to a children's hospital and has been in ICU for 3 days. I know that's not a terribly long time but for us in this situation after being away from home and family for 2 weeks it was an absolute nightmare. Doc thinks we'll be able to take him home this weekend so we'll see. Can't wait to bring him home...ESPECIALLY to a nicotine free zone. Will try to keep this intro updated.Great on you and your wife for the adoption. Prayers to the little man. We often wonder why me, but IÂ’m a firm believer that all things happen for a reason. God bless my friend
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| Quitters and their Promises | ||
Name | Commit to 300 | -----------------Day's Quit Promise----------------- |
| Tyrsman | 'wave' | |
| Nate1974 | 'wave' | |
| MikeNT | 'wave' | |
| JohnKewley | 'wave' | |
| Buccobro | 'wave' | |
| TME | 'wave' | |
| LarryA | 'wave' | |
| HotRodRacer | 'wave' | |
| David S | 'wave' | |
| Addi | ||
| Phill | I'm still committed | |
| gottadoit | Yeppers again. Sign me up for more quit!! | |
| Steve_KTC | Yes. Can't stop won't stop | |
| AaronB5 | ||
| Gregor | yes 300 | |
| LetsGo14 | ||
| Casus belli | 300 will be our bitch | |
| Alterego | indubitably | |
| Don-AZ | onward and upward... | |
| JPK91 | ||
| 1matthew8 | in for 300 | |
| paul_s | Commit to 300 | |
| FishFlorida | to 700! | |
| Pab1964 | ||
| Samrs | [/b][/b][/b] |
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Name | Commit to 300 | -----------------Day's Quit Promise----------------- |
| Tyrsman | 'wave' | |
| Nate1974 | 'wave' | |
| MikeNT | 'wave' | |
| JohnKewley | 'wave' | |
| Buccobro | 'wave' | |
| TME | 'wave' | |
| LarryA | 'wave' | |
| HotRodRacer | 'wave' | |
| David S | 'wave' | |
| Addi | ||
| Phill | I'm still committed | |
| gottadoit | Yeppers again. Sign me up for more quit!! | |
| Steve_KTC | Yes. Can't stop won't stop | |
| AaronB5 | ||
| Gregor | yes 300 | |
| LetsGo14 | ||
| Casus belli | 300 will be our bitch | |
| Alterego | indubitably | |
| Don-AZ | onward and upward... | |
| JPK91 | ||
| 1matthew8 | in for 300 | |
| paul_s | Commit to 300 | |
| FishFlorida | to 700! | |
| Pab1964 | ||
| Samrs | [/b][/b][/b] |
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Quitters and their Promises Tyrsman 'wave' Nate1974 'wave' MikeNT 'wave' JohnKewley 'wave' Buccobro 'wave' TME 'wave' LarryA 'wave' HotRodRacer 'wave' David S 'wave' Addi 'wave' Phill 'wave' gottadoit 'wave' Steve_KTC 'wave' AaronB5 Gregor yes 300 LetsGo14 Casus belli 300 will be our bitch Alterego indubitably Don-AZ onward and upward... JPK91 1matthew8 in for 300 paul_s Commit to 300 FishFlorida to 700! BigRed Pab1964 Samrs [/b][/b][/b]
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Name | Commit to 300 | -----------------Day's Quit Promise----------------- |
| Tyrsman | 'wave' | |
| Nate1974 | 'wave' | |
| MikeNT | 'wave' | |
| JohnKewley | 'wave' | |
| Buccobro | 'wave' | |
| TME | 'wave' | |
| LarryA | 'wave' | |
| HotRodRacer | 'wave' | |
| David S | 'wave' | |
| Addi | 'wave' | |
| Phill | 'wave' | |
| gottadoit | 'wave' | |
| Steve_KTC | 'wave' | |
| AaronB5 | ||
| Gregor | yes 300 | |
| LetsGo14 | ||
| Casus belli | 300 will be our bitch | |
| Alterego | indubitably | |
| Don-AZ | onward and upward... | |
| JPK91 | ||
| 1matthew8 | in for 300 | |
| paul_s | Commit to 300 | |
| FishFlorida | to 700! | |
| BigRed | ||
| Pab1964 | ||
| Samrs | [/b][/b][/b] |
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Name | Commit to 365 | -----------------Day's Quit Promise----------------- |
| Tyrsman | ||
| Nate1974 | letÂ’s do 365! | |
| MikeNT | ||
| JohnKewley | cheah | |
| Buccobro | ||
| TME | ||
| LarryA | Year, shmear. IÂ’m going to 400! | |
| HotRodRacer | 365 here I come | |
| David S | In for a year | |
| Addi | ||
| Phill | ||
| gottadoit | 1 year | |
| Steve_KTC | ||
| AaronB5 | ||
| Gregor | ||
| LetsGo14 | ||
| Casus belli | of course 365... duh | |
| Alterego | ||
| Don-AZ | ||
| JPK91 | ||
| 1matthew8 | ||
| paul_s | ||
| FishFlorida | ||
| BigRed | ||
| Pab1964 | ||
| Samrs | [/b][/b][/b] |
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Name | Commit to 365 | -----------------Day's Quit Promise----------------- |
| Tyrsman | ||
| Nate1974 | letÂ’s do 365! | |
| MikeNT | ||
| JohnKewley | cheah | |
| Buccobro | ||
| TME | ||
| LarryA | Year, shmear. IÂ’m going to 400! | |
| HotRodRacer | 365 here I come | |
| David S | In for a year | |
| Addi | ||
| Phill | ||
| gottadoit | 1 year | |
| Steve_KTC | ||
| AaronB5 | ||
| Gregor | ||
| LetsGo14 | ||
| Casus belli | of course 365... duh | |
| Alterego | ||
| Don-AZ | ||
| JPK91 | ||
| 1matthew8 | ||
| paul_s | ||
| FishFlorida | quit with Davids on his intro page because it's where the cool folks hang out | |
| BigRed | ||
| Pab1964 | ||
| Samrs | [/b][/b][/b] |
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| Quitters and their Promises | ||
Name | Commit to 365 | -----------------Day's Quit Promise----------------- |
| Tyrsman | 365 | |
| Nate1974 | letÂ’s do 365! | |
| MikeNT | I'm in | |
| JohnKewley | cheah | |
| Buccobro | 1 year, comin up | |
| TME | a trip around the sun | |
| LarryA | Year, shmear. IÂ’m going to 400! | |
| HotRodRacer | 365 here I come | |
| David S | In for a year | |
| Addi | 365 days | |
| Phill | 365 | |
| gottadoit | 1 year | |
| Steve_KTC | 1 year | |
| AaronB5 | 1 year | |
| Gregor | one year around the sun with hopefully many more to come | 329 no nicotine today |
| LetsGo14 | ||
| Casus belli | of course 365... duh | |
| Alterego | En route to 1 year | |
| Don-AZ | A year... hell yeah | |
| JPK91 | ||
| 1matthew8 | 365 days with Paul⤠| |
| paul_s | 365 days with Matthew⤠| |
| FishFlorida | Commit to 800 | |
| BigRed | ||
| Pab1964 | ||
| Samrs | [/b][/b][/b] |