KillTheCan.org Accountability Forum
Community => Introductions => Topic started by: BigHeadDogTheMonster on January 14, 2015, 05:09:00 PM
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Howdy Kill the Can!
I'm on day three of my quit, and have been a lurker here for a few days; decided to sign up just today. 35 years old, been chewing for 10 years (who starts when they are 25?!?!?!?!). At the end, I was putting 2 pouches in my upper lip of Mint General, from the moment I woke up, until the time I went to sleep. I would sometimes even wake up in the middle of the night and throw one in.
My addiction was bad, and exacerbated by the fact that my girlfriend left me in October, so for the past couple of months, I could use as much and whenever I wanted.
The first night of my quit was awful. I mean, really bad. I woke up at midnight in a full on panic attack, and did not fall asleep until 5 AM. I was thinking about work, and finances, and my ex-girlfriend. The timing couldn't have been worse as I had to get up at 6 AM for a huge meeting regarding some potential business for our company. I made it through the day okay because I was engrossed in the meeting, but immediately when I got home, my panic attack started again. I kept thinking, "What the hell is going on?" I took some ambien after a soothing bath, and I slept decently the second (last) night. Today is much better, but there is that background anxiety I can't shake. Tonight I'm going to see the Hobbit with my cousin, and that will be a nice three hour break, but I'm afraid that when I get home that my anxiety will amp up.
I know it's still early in the process, but I've found that staying away from your smartphone or the Internet is a HUGE help for me when my anxiety is amping up. The exception to that rule, of course, is KillTheCan. This site has been so amazing so far. Beyond KTC, I stay away from email (work and personal), social media, or news outlets that will get me fired up.
I know I am doing this for myself, and everything I've read on this site says that's who you have to do it for if you want to be successful. Thank you in advance for all your support! I'm sure I'm going to need it.
BiPolar
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Who starts when they are 25??? Shit, I started when I was almost 30 and just turned 44. Glad you are a lot smarter than me and quitting now. Get you ass on roll with the April Apes and get some digits, post every day and survive minute by minute if you have to. Day 3 for me is when the shit was hitting the fan, I also had the anxiety. Day 14 now and I know everyone's quit is different but there is a HUGE difference between day 3 and 14. You can get there.
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Thanks WS (and go Giants!).
I appreciate the words of wisdom. Seriously, these last few days have been so miserable with the anxiety. I know my body is resetting itself, but that doesn't make it any easier. I look forward to getting past this.
It's so weird. I, like many other people I've read about on this site, felt like I was in control. I believed a could quit at any time. That's why for my entire 10 years of chewing, I only once bought more than 1 can. Every can was my last. But, the thing that has been gnawing at me and I think put me over the edge was a few weeks ago when my little niece said to me, "Your breath stinks." I have not been able to forget that.
Anyway, thanks WS. I'll go right now and figure out how to do roll call!
BP
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What's going on bipolar? Sucks so bad it will let up but its gonna take a while. I'm on day 18 my anxiety has calmed way down. Craves kicking my ass but I got it. You will get craves man up kick its ass! Stress was always my excuse for the old fay lip! My stress levels are way down the nic bitch lies to you! You will have some stomach issues but your a big boy they will go away! I quit with you brother! Post roll,read all you can on this site,lisyen to ehat guys have to say some been quit 3,4,5 even more years!
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Roll Call, Roll Call, Roll Call
Hey brother, I'm glad you're here and I'm quit with you today. But dude, all that shtuff you posted up there? That's life, man. Work is hard (which is why they call it work). People let us down, piss us off, or die, or are born, or look at us funny. Disasters occur and are narrowly averted. Epic good times come along. And a million stressors come along at us all throughout the dash. It's just life.
But we have this insidious little bitch sitting there on our shoulder telling us that we can't get through any of it without her. Don't you believe it. There is a whole community of Bad Ass Quitters here that prove the lie and support each other every day. I'll shoot you a PM with my number. In the meantime, in case I forgot to mention it,
ROLL CALL!!!
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Bipolar
you have come to the right spot. this is your mechanism to keep your quit strong. your quit will only be as successful as you want it to be. in order to do that (in addition to following the fine advice given above your fellow strong supporters) is to get involved. Post roll is great and a must - do not miss a day (as one missed day leads to 2, 3, 7 and then a cave). This should be like brushing your teeth or taking a shit - you do it every day - post roll.
secondly - get digits (cell phone) from fellow quitters. text them, call them if your are felling a potential cave coming on. get numbers from your group and from some vets - and reach out to them if you are in need (or even if you are not - just to say hello). you will develop many great friendships on this site - many of whom you may never meet in person. they are all here for the same reason - to beat down the nic bitch.
the more involved you are the stronger your quit. when may 2015 begins - support the new guys - adopt a quitter and help them through.
you got to want this - this is not a part time thing - it is a full in commit. I have PM'd you my contact info - reach out at any time and send me yours so I can keep track of your success
quit with you every damn day
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Way to grow a pair and beat this bitch. I know your life will be 100 times better. Get some numbers for the anxiety that you have described so you can call a buddy or text and have them help you rather than take the can for it. Come on here and go to the live chat for help. I quit with you today and the next day and the next day.
-flaw 198
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HOF man, congratulations!
Lets go another 100!
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HOF man, congratulations!
Lets go another 100!
Congratulations!
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HOF man, congratulations!
Lets go another 100!
Congratulations on 100! See you at 200!
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HOF man, congratulations!
Lets go another 100!
Congratulations on 100! See you at 200!
Congrats BHDTM! Nicely done bro!
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HOF man, congratulations!
Lets go another 100!
Congratulations on 100! See you at 200!
Congrats BHDTM! Nicely done bro!
NICE HUNDO! HERES TO THE NEXT HUNDRED
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HOF man, congratulations!
Lets go another 100!
Congratulations on 100! See you at 200!
Congrats BHDTM! Nicely done bro!
NICE HUNDO! HERES TO THE NEXT HUNDRED
Stay involved. Want to lock in your quit? Help a couple of newbies out. Not only will it help them but the extra accountability will help you as well. Congrats are definitely in order, but make this inning two not inning nine.
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200 done, congrats man!
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200 done, congrats man!
Great job on 200 you olé big headed rascal!
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3rd floor man! Congratulations!
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3rd floor man! Congratulations!
Congratulations my brother! 300 is badass!
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400 days man! Congratulations!