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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Adigg on February 11, 2013, 12:20:00 AM
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I have been meaning to do this for a long time and I thought what better time than now, just about a week away from the hall of fame. Let's get one thing straight, I would not be this far along in my quit without this site, the February Bosses and the vets so dedicated to helping others, so basically I plan on sticking around for a while and want something to reflect back on (i.e. my own thread).
I was a ninja dipper who took my last dip hiding like a pussy in my parents bathroom during my Grandma's memorial service. This was November 11th, 2012 the most embarrassing yet eye opening day of my life. Through some sort of divine intervention, I believe my Grandma led my wife to my hidden can. I was mortified, eight years I was able to hide my Skoal Mint Long Cut. Well, that day I vowed to quit. Five days later I found this site. It opened my eyes. It made me realize so many things about myself and my addiction. I drank the Kool-Aid and am all in on this quit. One day at a time.
Things have been getting better. Still been having huge craves and feeling funkish, but overall life is so much better not having to plan around my addiction. I want to be able to see my daughter grow up, I want to walk her down the aisle someday. Throwing cat shit in my mouth was making that chance slimmer and slimmer. So grateful for this site and everyone here.
Quit Like a Mother Fucker, one GD day at a time!
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It's about time you posted an into, Adigg. 7 days till the HOF train goes to your town to get you. Now, go answer you PM that I sent so that I can write a proper HOF Intro for you.
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Thank you for sharing your intro Adigg, learning the background and stories of other addicts really helps remind us we are not alone and that our stories are similar. Keep fighting 1 day at a time and watch that post HOF funk.
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I am damn proud of you. I QUIT LIKE FUCK with you my friend.
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Proud to share HOF date with you Feb brother. Just keep on keepin' on...
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Proud to share HOF date with you Feb brother. Just keep on keepin' on...
We're the fucking bash brothers. Super roided out quit...hittin' dingers all day.
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Day 110
Today I drove by the same c-store that I bought my first ever can of dip (skoal apple to be exact). This was the first time driving by it in years actually and I used to live right next to it in college. I never gave it much thought, but that first can was the start of a terrible addiction. No more bumming dips every few weeks off friends, this was my addiction and I can start buying cans myself and dipping whenever I wanted.
But anyway, I digress. Driving by the store gave me an overwhelming feeling that I can never go back in that particular c-store ever again. Trust me there are many other c-stores that I have purchased thousands of more dollars worth of cans that I have been back to and wasn't bothered. I was particularly bothered by this one though. Not sure if anyone else had this sort of experience, but I thought I'd share it anyway...quit on.
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Day 110
Today I drove by the same c-store that I bought my first ever can of dip (skoal apple to be exact). This was the first time driving by it in years actually and I used to live right next to it in college. I never gave it much thought, but that first can was the start of a terrible addiction. No more bumming dips every few weeks off friends, this was my addiction and I can start buying cans myself and dipping whenever I wanted.
But anyway, I digress. Driving by the store gave me an overwhelming feeling that I can never go back in that particular c-store ever again. Trust me there are many other c-stores that I have purchased thousands of more dollars worth of cans that I have been back to and wasn't bothered. I was particularly bothered by this one though. Not sure if anyone else had this sort of experience, but I thought I'd share it anyway...quit on.
You should walk into that store, plop your sack on the counter, shout "FUCK YOU SKOAL APPLE!!!", zip up your pants, and walk out.
I know that's easy for me to say and totally unrealistic, but you beat that store, you OWN that store. That's where it all started...maybe that's where it should end? That store shouldn't have that kind of power over you.. fuck that store.
Either way. Quit on.
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Day 110
Today I drove by the same c-store that I bought my first ever can of dip (skoal apple to be exact). This was the first time driving by it in years actually and I used to live right next to it in college. I never gave it much thought, but that first can was the start of a terrible addiction. No more bumming dips every few weeks off friends, this was my addiction and I can start buying cans myself and dipping whenever I wanted.
But anyway, I digress. Driving by the store gave me an overwhelming feeling that I can never go back in that particular c-store ever again. Trust me there are many other c-stores that I have purchased thousands of more dollars worth of cans that I have been back to and wasn't bothered. I was particularly bothered by this one though. Not sure if anyone else had this sort of experience, but I thought I'd share it anyway...quit on.
You should walk into that store, plop your sack on the counter, shout "FUCK YOU SKOAL APPLE!!!", zip up your pants, and walk out.
I know that's easy for me to say and totally unrealistic, but you beat that store, you OWN that store. That's where it all started...maybe that's where it should end? That store shouldn't have that kind of power over you.. fuck that store.
Either way. Quit on.
That's the way to OWN IT, brother!! It's your quit, and you own that shit. If that's your gauntlet, then you are winning as long as you know it. You may eventually be able to close that door. Don't even remember where I bought my first can, but I stayed away from my primary store for a long time when I quit. No pay-at-the-pump, so I didn't even get gas there. Drove way the hell out of the way to fuel up. I eventualy went back in there, and the first time...... the first time in several months, the main clerk put two Stoker's wintergreens on the counter. I just stared at her, didn't even have any words. I was flooded with emotions and couldn't really sort them out. I wish I had blurted out something cool so I could brag about here, but I didn't. Finally shook my head, paid for my gas, and walked out. Hasn't really bothered me since. Actually stopped there this morning to pick up some orange juice on the way to work.
I quit with you today.
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Day 110
Today I drove by the same c-store that I bought my first ever can of dip (skoal apple to be exact). This was the first time driving by it in years actually and I used to live right next to it in college. I never gave it much thought, but that first can was the start of a terrible addiction. No more bumming dips every few weeks off friends, this was my addiction and I can start buying cans myself and dipping whenever I wanted.
But anyway, I digress. Driving by the store gave me an overwhelming feeling that I can never go back in that particular c-store ever again. Trust me there are many other c-stores that I have purchased thousands of more dollars worth of cans that I have been back to and wasn't bothered. I was particularly bothered by this one though. Not sure if anyone else had this sort of experience, but I thought I'd share it anyway...quit on.
You should walk into that store, plop your sack on the counter, shout "FUCK YOU SKOAL APPLE!!!", zip up your pants, and walk out.
I know that's easy for me to say and totally unrealistic, but you beat that store, you OWN that store. That's where it all started...maybe that's where it should end? That store shouldn't have that kind of power over you.. fuck that store.
Either way. Quit on.
That's the way to OWN IT, brother!! It's your quit, and you own that shit. If that's your gauntlet, then you are winning as long as you know it. You may eventually be able to close that door. Don't even remember where I bought my first can, but I stayed away from my primary store for a long time when I quit. No pay-at-the-pump, so I didn't even get gas there. Drove way the hell out of the way to fuel up. I eventualy went back in there, and the first time...... the first time in several months, the main clerk put two Stoker's wintergreens on the counter. I just stared at her, didn't even have any words. I was flooded with emotions and couldn't really sort them out. I wish I had blurted out something cool so I could brag about here, but I didn't. Finally shook my head, paid for my gas, and walked out. Hasn't really bothered me since. Actually stopped there this morning to pick up some orange juice on the way to work.
I quit with you today.
I can definitely relate. If I enter a particular store down the road from me, there will be no questions. The clerk will just put a can on the counter and expect 4:25. Good job on 110. I hope that someday I can be like you.
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So it's day 226 for me and my bowels feel like they do the first few weeks quitting. Damn you chipotle! The good news is if I want to remember what the worst side effect for me was, all I have to do is eat a chipotle burrito instead of dipping again.
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So it's day 226 for me and my bowels feel like they do the first few weeks quitting. Damn you chipotle! The good news is if I want to remember what the worst side effect for me was, all I have to do is eat a chipotle burrito instead of dipping again.
116 days since your last check in and you share you have fountain ass.
Nice.
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So it's day 226 for me and my bowels feel like they do the first few weeks quitting. Damn you chipotle! The good news is if I want to remember what the worst side effect for me was, all I have to do is eat a chipotle burrito instead of dipping again.
116 days since your last check in and you share you have fountain ass.
Nice.
Fountain ass? FOUNTAIN ASS?! Where do you come up with these things?? :lol:
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So it's day 226 for me and my bowels feel like they do the first few weeks quitting. Damn you chipotle! The good news is if I want to remember what the worst side effect for me was, all I have to do is eat a chipotle burrito instead of dipping again.
116 days since your last check in and you share you have fountain ass.
Nice.
Hey deez, this was for informational purposes. Quitters, beware of chipotle, especially those of European decent. Our ancestors digestive systems never evolved to pass jalapeños.
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So it's day 226 for me and my bowels feel like they do the first few weeks quitting. Damn you chipotle! The good news is if I want to remember what the worst side effect for me was, all I have to do is eat a chipotle burrito instead of dipping again.
116 days since your last check in and you share you have fountain ass.
Nice.
Hey deez, this was for informational purposes. Quitters, beware of chipotle, especially those of European decent. Our ancestors digestive systems never evolved to pass jalapeños.
Don't be such a stranger bro.
I ate at Chipolte once...ONCE.
LHG, I think that's where I coined the phrase "fountain ass".
I like to make funny names and phrases using the word ass.
Don't judge please.
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“Addiction is a chronic condition that requires daily management. If you are not doing your daily regular routine for treatment, just like insulin for a diabetic, it’s not good.” -Dr. Drew
Dr. Drew for those who donÂ’t know is a Board Certified Physician and Addiction Specialist. I heard this on one of his podcasts the other night and it really resonated with me. Not that I needed buy in about how we quit at KTC, but it confirmed that we have the recipe right. Post Roll. Keep your word. Repeat tomorrow. I have, without fail, done that for the last 278 days and it has helped build this freight train of quit.
adigg - 278
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“Addiction is a chronic condition that requires daily management. If you are not doing your daily regular routine for treatment, just like insulin for a diabetic, it’s not good.” -Dr. Drew
Dr. Drew for those who donÂ’t know is a Board Certified Physician and Addiction Specialist. I heard this on one of his podcasts the other night and it really resonated with me. Not that I needed buy in about how we quit at KTC, but it confirmed that we have the recipe right. Post Roll. Keep your word. Repeat tomorrow. I have, without fail, done that for the last 278 days and it has helped build this freight train of quit.
adigg - 278
Adigg, you really ought to post in your intro more often. This is great stuff.