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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: sdh23 on October 29, 2012, 05:36:00 PM
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I have been chewing tobacco for the past 18 years (I'm 36) and today, I have decided that I quit. I do not want to chew tobacco anymore because it controls my life in ways that I do not like and I'm sick of it. I am ending this non-sense.
Let me say that I am happy that I found this site. This is something that was missing in previous feeble attempts.
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Welcome. Why do you want to quit? What will be different this time? What will you do when you just cant take it anymore? What do you have to live for? What is your plan?
MOA
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Welcome. Why do you want to quit? What will be different this time? What will you do when you just cant take it anymore? What do you have to live for? What is your plan?
MOA
I want to quit b/c it seems that it is always on my mind. I am always making sure that I have it with me. If I'm in a long meeting, I am counting the seconds until I get out so I can put in a dip. Everything around me is controlled by the urge to feed the addiction.
I feel this time is different b/c after researching addiction, I can fully say that I am addicted. I'm sure that sounds crazy after 18 years of it, but I guess I never really accepted it.
What to do when I just can't take it and what is the plan. My family is aware of my intentions so I have some support there. The plan is to stay busy over the next couple weeks. I have put more structure to my day and will be devoting more time to exercise in the morning, which was when I had the biggest cravings. From a work standpoint, I can only chew what I bring in, so the trick here is not going into a gas station/C-store. Just buy gas at the pump. I have also put a sticky on the inside of my wallet that says "quit".
With a wife, daughter, son, family, friends, and a golf game that is in dire need of help....there is a lot to live for.
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Welcome. Why do you want to quit? What will be different this time? What will you do when you just cant take it anymore? What do you have to live for? What is your plan?
MOA
I want to quit b/c it seems that it is always on my mind. I am always making sure that I have it with me. If I'm in a long meeting, I am counting the seconds until I get out so I can put in a dip. Everything around me is controlled by the urge to feed the addiction.
I feel this time is different b/c after researching addiction, I can fully say that I am addicted. I'm sure that sounds crazy after 18 years of it, but I guess I never really accepted it.
What to do when I just can't take it and what is the plan. My family is aware of my intentions so I have some support there. The plan is to stay busy over the next couple weeks. I have put more structure to my day and will be devoting more time to exercise in the morning, which was when I had the biggest cravings. From a work standpoint, I can only chew what I bring in, so the trick here is not going into a gas station/C-store. Just buy gas at the pump. I have also put a sticky on the inside of my wallet that says "quit".
With a wife, daughter, son, family, friends, and a golf game that is in dire need of help....there is a lot to live for.
If you haven't yet, please take some time and read the welcome center (Pink link up top) if that doesn't show you what this site is about pm me or anyone here with questions.
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Welcome. Why do you want to quit? What will be different this time? What will you do when you just cant take it anymore? What do you have to live for? What is your plan?
MOA
I want to quit b/c it seems that it is always on my mind. I am always making sure that I have it with me. If I'm in a long meeting, I am counting the seconds until I get out so I can put in a dip. Everything around me is controlled by the urge to feed the addiction.
I feel this time is different b/c after researching addiction, I can fully say that I am addicted. I'm sure that sounds crazy after 18 years of it, but I guess I never really accepted it.
What to do when I just can't take it and what is the plan. My family is aware of my intentions so I have some support there. The plan is to stay busy over the next couple weeks. I have put more structure to my day and will be devoting more time to exercise in the morning, which was when I had the biggest cravings. From a work standpoint, I can only chew what I bring in, so the trick here is not going into a gas station/C-store. Just buy gas at the pump. I have also put a sticky on the inside of my wallet that says "quit".
With a wife, daughter, son, family, friends, and a golf game that is in dire need of help....there is a lot to live for.
Then fucking do it. I didn't even want to quit, literally thought I was gonna die when I quit not even joking when I say that either. I thought I was the one in a million guy who could not live without nicotine. Of course I was wrong as I am about most things in life and here I am 148 days later feeling better then any one day I chewed that SHIT.
I was a PUSSY when I quit. I fucking CRIED DAILY. I fucking left KTC for a few weeks because I was a scared little BITCH. I had no faith in MYSELF and believed that failure was not a matter of IF but WHEN.
BUT...I remained quit...I came back to this site...I got support up the ass....I grew some balls...I started to HATE chew...I FINALLY REALY WANTED TO QUIT...AND DID/AM!!!!
This shit ain't easy, I got no magic words, tricks, or pills for you. Time, patience and desire is what you need. Problem is you will rarely have all 3 working together...especially in the beginning. That's when you need big balls and to lean on the cats here for support. If you have that then I guarantee in 100 days you will agree with me. If you don't you wont last a month.
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Being that it's Day 4 and I have hit my first milestone (72 hours), I thought I'd write a little note to myself.
Over the past 72 hours, you have had headaches, a little bout of the shitz, inability to concentrate for an extended period of time and just a general feeling of not knowing where you are or what you should be doing.
When you woke up on Day 4, you no longer had any nicotine in your system. It's gone. Those 72 hours went by pretty fast and today you woke up as if it was Game Day. You were ready to tackle anything b/c of the progress you have made so far. No way are you going back to that. Nothing is going to get in the way of you meeting your goals. For as bad as you thought those last 72 hours would be, it was nothing compare to the shit you went thru for the past 18 years, much less the shit you and everybody else would go thru if you kept doing it. Keep reminding yourself that the days without a dip beats the best day with a dip.
There's no fuckin way you will ever go back to that. Treat every day as if it's Game Day and be proud that you are strong enough to beat an 18 year addiction.
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keep up the great work, just remember to go day by day
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Just wanted to drop a little nugget for anybody young in their quit. I am currently on Day 17. For the past day and a half, I have been stuck in a demo of a telecommunications billing system. In other words, lots of time to think to yourself aka a trigger. Throughout the course of that day and a half, I had 2/3 thoughts of putting a fake in my lip, but it was nothing close to what is used to be. Normally, I would be finding ways to sneak out for a bit to put a ninja in. This week, I was content with just nothing or chewing gum. There was no need to satisfy a withdrawal symptom. The point? I can smell freedom at Day 17 and it just keeps getting stronger.
Quit every day. Post every day. The days add up quick.
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Great job!
Jumping hurdles like a fucking track star is what it is all about! DO NOT LET YOUR GUARD DOWN _the enemy is ALWAYS waiting and watching for an opening.
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Nice job on the 500 today sdh! A 100% poster thru and thru. Living proof that pledging your quit daily actually works.
If you are new to this site, try and be like this guy here folks...sdh23 (aka The Silent Assassin :ph43r:)