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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: KillinTheKodiak on May 30, 2013, 04:37:00 PM
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Just found this site today, and I must say it helped me finalize my decision to quit in the morning. Cold turkey, no questions asked. I know I can do it.
That being said, I'm having a little trouble navigating the site, and understanding what and where I'm supposed to post. I haven't quit yet, but I am hellbent on sticking to my word and throwing out this can if there is anything in it when I wake up tomorrow.
I have been dipping for 5 years now and I know it will be a long hard road. Just looking for some friendly advice, and wanted to get it out there that I am here, ready for support, and to hit that 100 day mark.
Any advice is appreciated, and Im actually looking forward to quitting. Although I'm sure that will change in the morning.
Thanks in advance, and I am looking forward to becoming a quit member of the community.
-Shane
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Shane,
I'm sure it will change in the morning too. That's why there's no better time to quit than right now! Doesn't that sound nice, fun and easy? No you say??? And what makes you think it will be any better in the morning - all that does is gives you time to figure out a reason to dalay - I've seen it, so have a ton of other guys here - dump your shit in the john and flush it then call the number i'm going to pm you and I'll walk you through posting.
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Shane,
I'm sure it will change in the morning too. That's why there's no better time to quit than right now! Doesn't that sound nice, fun and easy? No you say??? And what makes you think it will be any better in the morning - all that does is gives you time to figure out a reason to dalay - I've seen it, so have a ton of other guys here - dump your shit in the john and flush it then call the number i'm going to pm you and I'll walk you through posting.
Just wanted to add: if it's just too damn strange to call someone you don't know (it was for me early on) jump into live chat - hit the link in the upper right corner- someone there will be happy to chat and help you too.
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Shane,
I'm sure it will change in the morning too. That's why there's no better time to quit than right now! Doesn't that sound nice, fun and easy? No you say??? And what makes you think it will be any better in the morning - all that does is gives you time to figure out a reason to dalay - I've seen it, so have a ton of other guys here - dump your shit in the john and flush it then call the number i'm going to pm you and I'll walk you through posting.
Couldnt say it better myself! Dump it out now. In the morning when you wake up you wont have the resolve you have now. W don't think clearly in the A.M. Quit this minute! Pm Me if you need help.
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You're right. No better time than the present. I took the plunge and flushed the rest of my tin. Im actually giddy at the thought of it. For the time being at least. Even took a picture to commemorate it, although I won't post it because it looks like a big flaky turd.
So, the start is upon me. I'm ready.
A big part of what I meant by don't know how to navigate the site is that the posting seems backwards. Other forums I have been on, the first post is at the top, then subsequent posts are under it.
Already feeling the suck as my buddy just stopped by to go for a motorcycle ride, and I usually chew when I ride.
Embracing the suck though.
Thanks again in advance.
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Shane,
I'm sure it will change in the morning too. That's why there's no better time to quit than right now! Doesn't that sound nice, fun and easy? No you say??? And what makes you think it will be any better in the morning - all that does is gives you time to figure out a reason to dalay - I've seen it, so have a ton of other guys here - dump your shit in the john and flush it then call the number i'm going to pm you and I'll walk you through posting.
The cage door has been opened KTK. Its a little scary not looking at the world behind the bars of addiction. Take our hands and Take the first step. Dump your cancer weed in the toilet. Post roll. And welcome in the Suck.
Vadge 502
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Going for a little ride, then I will be back and figure all this out. I really wanna post roll, as that seems like a huge step, besides what I've already done. I'm still riding the coat tails of my last dip at the moment, but Im sure I will be craving when I get back.
Gotta stay occupied. Gonna help my friend install some lighting on his bike after we go for a ride, but I will keep the site up and keep posting!
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Going for a little ride, then I will be back and figure all this out. I really wanna post roll, as that seems like a huge step, besides what I've already done. I'm still riding the coat tails of my last dip at the moment, but Im sure I will be craving when I get back.
Gotta stay occupied. Gonna help my friend install some lighting on his bike after we go for a ride, but I will keep the site up and keep posting!
KTK,
On my quit day, I was on my drive home and threw out a fresh can of Griz LC, and a can of Oliver Twist plugs. Quit is doing not thinking about doing.
Come hell or high water, don't pick up the 1st one. it's not the end of the can that get's you it's breaking the fucking seal.
You got the shit, pitch it. Post Roll Call and just quit. I'd been dipping for 10 of that I thought about quitting the last 8. Don't think, do.
Quit like fuck. Embrace the Suck..
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Going for a little ride, then I will be back and figure all this out. I really wanna post roll, as that seems like a huge step, besides what I've already done. I'm still riding the coat tails of my last dip at the moment, but Im sure I will be craving when I get back.
Gotta stay occupied. Gonna help my friend install some lighting on his bike after we go for a ride, but I will keep the site up and keep posting!
Good Job!! Posting Roll is explained HERE (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50)
Get on there and make your Pledge to all of us that you will not use nicotine for the rest of the day! Keep your word! Wake up tomorrow and repeat! It is that easy!!
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I think I posted roll in the correct place..let me know if I'm wrong!
Ill be back after my ride!
Buddy is more agitated than me because I am on here and haven't went for our ride yet..lol.
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I think I posted roll in the correct place..let me know if I'm wrong!
Ill be back after my ride!
Buddy is more agitated than me because I am on here and haven't went for our ride yet..lol.
Perfect my man!! I quit with you today!! PM me if you need anything!!
J
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I think I posted roll in the correct place..let me know if I'm wrong!
Ill be back after my ride!
Buddy is more agitated than me because I am on here and haven't went for our ride yet..lol.
Perfect my man!! I quit with you today!! PM me if you need anything!!
J
Nice job on the post - do it again first thing in the morning with a day 2! Until then read- start with the welcome center if you haven't hit it yet then... the HOF speeches are good, words of wisdom are good, live chat is good, intros are good, reading through your group is good and so is reading through another group that is post HOF. In short - reading here is better than stuffing your face with cancer...
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I like your screen name. Killinthekodiac. It was killing you for umpteen years, but no more my friend. Now you are killin it!! It is not going to be easy, but it will be worth it. The grass is so much greener on the other side. All you have to do is stack up days without that kodiac to find out how green it gets.
As mich stated,, read, read and read. Get to know your enemy. The battle is easier when you know what's coming and how to deal with it. One day at a time and you can have your life back. I quit with you today.
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you can bet it will suck, as i was told the pain and suffering is the healing process.
I QUIT with you, roll call in am , c u there
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I cannot express how grateful I am to have found this site, and to have all of this support! It is a great feeling!
After dinner kicked my ass. I wanted a dip about 3/4 of the way through my meal, but I am staying strong. These first couple of days are going to SUCK!! 'bang head'
Especially my trip to New Orleans this weekend...but I'm sure my girlfriend will appreciate me not spitting anymore....she tolerated it but never liked it. I know being on Bourbon street, etc is going to be a challenge, but I WILL do it. I wont have my computer, but I will have my phone and possibly iPad or girlfriends computer, so I will find a way to roll call.
I love roll call. It helps knowing that I made a promise to yall that I will not use nicotine today. And then tomorrow I will promise again...and so on and so forth.
Thanks again for all of the quick comments, and making me feel welcome!
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I cannot express how grateful I am to have found this site, and to have all of this support! It is a great feeling!
After dinner kicked my ass. I wanted a dip about 3/4 of the way through my meal, but I am staying strong. These first couple of days are going to SUCK!! 'bang head'
Especially my trip to New Orleans this weekend...but I'm sure my girlfriend will appreciate me not spitting anymore....she tolerated it but never liked it. I know being on Bourbon street, etc is going to be a challenge, but I WILL do it. I wont have my computer, but I will have my phone and possibly iPad or girlfriends computer, so I will find a way to roll call.Â
I love roll call. It helps knowing that I made a promise to yall that I will not use nicotine today. And then tomorrow I will promise again...and so on and so forth.
Thanks again for all of the quick comments, and making me feel welcome!
Congrats and great job! New Orleans sounds like a blast but protect your quit and consider staying away from alcohol. I can promise you... You will be so proud of yourself and all the more strengthened by that decision.
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I cannot express how grateful I am to have found this site, and to have all of this support! It is a great feeling!
After dinner kicked my ass. I wanted a dip about 3/4 of the way through my meal, but I am staying strong. These first couple of days are going to SUCK!! 'bang head'
Especially my trip to New Orleans this weekend...but I'm sure my girlfriend will appreciate me not spitting anymore....she tolerated it but never liked it. I know being on Bourbon street, etc is going to be a challenge, but I WILL do it. I wont have my computer, but I will have my phone and possibly iPad or girlfriends computer, so I will find a way to roll call.Â
I love roll call. It helps knowing that I made a promise to yall that I will not use nicotine today. And then tomorrow I will promise again...and so on and so forth.
Thanks again for all of the quick comments, and making me feel welcome!
Congrats and great job! New Orleans sounds like a blast but protect your quit and consider staying away from alcohol. I can promise you... You will be so proud of yourself and all the more strengthened by that decision.
Listen to lhg,, she knows what she's talking about. Stay away from alcohol. Early in your quit you will not have the mental fortitude to say no. There is a lot of triggers you will face, one of the hardest will be alcohol, if you drink.
By all means, have fun though. You don't need any of that mind altering stuff to have fun anyways,, NEVER DID!! I quit with you today.
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I cannot express how grateful I am to have found this site, and to have all of this support! It is a great feeling!
After dinner kicked my ass. I wanted a dip about 3/4 of the way through my meal, but I am staying strong. These first couple of days are going to SUCK!! 'bang head'
Especially my trip to New Orleans this weekend...but I'm sure my girlfriend will appreciate me not spitting anymore....she tolerated it but never liked it. I know being on Bourbon street, etc is going to be a challenge, but I WILL do it. I wont have my computer, but I will have my phone and possibly iPad or girlfriends computer, so I will find a way to roll call.Â
I love roll call. It helps knowing that I made a promise to yall that I will not use nicotine today. And then tomorrow I will promise again...and so on and so forth.
Thanks again for all of the quick comments, and making me feel welcome!
Congrats and great job! New Orleans sounds like a blast but protect your quit and consider staying away from alcohol. I can promise you... You will be so proud of yourself and all the more strengthened by that decision.
Listen to lhg,, she knows what she's talking about. Stay away from alcohol. Early in your quit you will not have the mental fortitude to say no. There is a lot of triggers you will face, one of the hardest will be alcohol, if you drink.
By all means, have fun though. You don't need any of that mind altering stuff to have fun anyways,, NEVER DID!! I quit with you today.
You have my number and there are a ton more that are yours for the asking - text your quit in when you can't get online. Lionhartedgirl is right on with keeping away from the booze. It is solid advice, anyone who has been on the site long enough to look around has seen failure due to booze. If this is important to you why wouldn't you do everything you can to quit? That is not to say you can't have a beer but a lot of guys have 2 or 3 or more once that first one is gone, easy to say "fuck it" at that point... just a little more food for thought.
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I cannot express how grateful I am to have found this site, and to have all of this support! It is a great feeling!
After dinner kicked my ass. I wanted a dip about 3/4 of the way through my meal, but I am staying strong. These first couple of days are going to SUCK!! 'bang head'
Especially my trip to New Orleans this weekend...but I'm sure my girlfriend will appreciate me not spitting anymore....she tolerated it but never liked it. I know being on Bourbon street, etc is going to be a challenge, but I WILL do it. I wont have my computer, but I will have my phone and possibly iPad or girlfriends computer, so I will find a way to roll call.
I love roll call. It helps knowing that I made a promise to yall that I will not use nicotine today. And then tomorrow I will promise again...and so on and so forth.
Thanks again for all of the quick comments, and making me feel welcome!
Welcome to KTC, Get some numbers from your quit brothers or sisters. They can post roll for you. Everyday, no excuses.
I quit with your bad ass today.
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I cannot express how grateful I am to have found this site, and to have all of this support! It is a great feeling!
After dinner kicked my ass. I wanted a dip about 3/4 of the way through my meal, but I am staying strong. These first couple of days are going to SUCK!! 'bang head'
Especially my trip to New Orleans this weekend...but I'm sure my girlfriend will appreciate me not spitting anymore....she tolerated it but never liked it. I know being on Bourbon street, etc is going to be a challenge, but I WILL do it. I wont have my computer, but I will have my phone and possibly iPad or girlfriends computer, so I will find a way to roll call.Â
I love roll call. It helps knowing that I made a promise to yall that I will not use nicotine today. And then tomorrow I will promise again...and so on and so forth.
Thanks again for all of the quick comments, and making me feel welcome!
Welcome to KTC, Get some numbers from your quit brothers or sisters. They can post roll for you. Everyday, no excuses.
I quit with your bad ass today.
You got me thinking ktk. You stated you got a crave about half way through eating. You know why? You might! If not, i'm going to tell you why.
The same part of you that tells you that you'r hungry is the same part of you that was hijacked by the poison. Think about it. The same part of you that tells you that if you don't eat, or drink something your going to die. That part of the brain is telling you that if you don't have some poison you will not have a good life. It's telling you that your life sucks without it. IT'S TELLING YOU THAT YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT IT!
I got news for you IT'S A LIE!!!!!! I quit with you today.
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Thank you all for the continued support! I love this site! Day two...well...it sucks ass. But my mind is so set on this quit. I will not give in, I will not cave.
Definitely have that "foggy" feeling. Besides that, IS MY WHOLE FUCKING BODY SUPPOSED TO HURT!? Not my whole body, but my joints really. My neck, and tops? of my elbows (whatever those are called) are the worst.
Oh well.....in the words of Gary Allen...."I just get off on the pain"
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I appreciate the insight srans. It just occured to me that KTK is me...this whole time I thought people meant the website...but thats KTC...lol. Damn my head is fucked up.
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I appreciate the insight srans. It just occured to me that KTK is me...this whole time I thought people meant the website...but thats KTC...lol. Damn my head is fucked up.
Lol,,Enjoy the suck. The mind will not be right for a minute. It will be out to lunch. It gets better fast. I quit with you.
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I appreciate the insight srans. It just occured to me that KTK is me...this whole time I thought people meant the website...but thats KTC...lol. Damn my head is fucked up.
Lol,,Enjoy the suck. The mind will not be right for a minute. It will be out to lunch. It gets better fast. I quit with you.
You are the website as is every other quitter. Enjoy the suck, it sucks. You will go deeper into the fog before you come out. Stick close.
What is your plan for the first weekend quit?
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My plan this weekend is to keep occupied, and just enjoy being free from the nic bitch with my girlfriend. She never liked me dipping, but she tolerated it. I know she is really happy and supportive of my decision.
That being said, we are going to Bourbon street this weekend with a group of her friends. I know there will be triggers and temptations, but I will stay strong. Im not sure how umm "fun" I'm going to be, as I know the fog will set in pretty heavy this weekend.....I will overcome that as well though.
As for those who say to stay off the booze...well I had a few beers last night, and I think it actually helped me a little. I know that was day 1.....but it eased my mind and seemed to help me cope with craving. I by no means intend to get trashed, as I do not know what the heck will happen then, even with my mindset.
I am determined to do this. I WILL stay quit no matter what. Cannot wait for this fog to lift...but for now...its here....im having trouble concentrating on what to pack for the weekend...holy shit.
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My plan this weekend is to keep occupied, and just enjoy being free from the nic bitch with my girlfriend. She never liked me dipping, but she tolerated it. I know she is really happy and supportive of my decision.
That being said, we are going to Bourbon street this weekend with a group of her friends. I know there will be triggers and temptations, but I will stay strong. Im not sure how umm "fun" I'm going to be, as I know the fog will set in pretty heavy this weekend.....I will overcome that as well though.
As for those who say to stay off the booze...well I had a few beers last night, and I think it actually helped me a little. I know that was day 1.....but it eased my mind and seemed to help me cope with craving. I by no means intend to get trashed, as I do not know what the heck will happen then, even with my mindset.
I am determined to do this. I WILL stay quit no matter what. Cannot wait for this fog to lift...but for now...its here....im having trouble concentrating on what to pack for the weekend...holy shit.
You're a grown up. Just post roll first thing in the morning and then keep your word.
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My plan this weekend is to keep occupied, and just enjoy being free from the nic bitch with my girlfriend. She never liked me dipping, but she tolerated it. I know she is really happy and supportive of my decision.
That being said, we are going to Bourbon street this weekend with a group of her friends. I know there will be triggers and temptations, but I will stay strong. Im not sure how umm "fun" I'm going to be, as I know the fog will set in pretty heavy this weekend.....I will overcome that as well though.
As for those who say to stay off the booze...well I had a few beers last night, and I think it actually helped me a little. I know that was day 1.....but it eased my mind and seemed to help me cope with craving. I by no means intend to get trashed, as I do not know what the heck will happen then, even with my mindset.
I am determined to do this. I WILL stay quit no matter what. Cannot wait for this fog to lift...but for now...its here....im having trouble concentrating on what to pack for the weekend...holy shit.
You're a grown up. Just post roll first thing in the morning and then keep your word.
Damn lionheartedgirl catches on quick. Remember it really is that simple. Easy no, simple yes. Just be prepared KTK, you gotta be 100% committed to this. 99% leaves the door open for a cave. Lowering your inhibitions with drinking just makes this so much more difficult. Not saying it cant be done, just saying this shit is hard enough. Be careful.
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I didn't mean for that to sound like I was bashing your input, although it kind of reads like that. All support and comments are accepted with open arms!
Just wanted to give my two cents about alcohol and my quit. I never liked to drink and dip. When I dipped, I dipped...when I drank...it was just alcohol. I could gut chew spit, but I like my beer to much to alter the taste with that shit! lol!
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Got2Happen, I am 200% committed to my quit. No if's, and's or butt's.
There is NOTHING and I mean NOTHING that is going to get that shit back in my mouth. EVER.
Even though I am in the fog...I feel good about myself. Good about my quit, about sticking to it. I already feel like a better man. I cannot wait for how I will feel when I reach my HOF day.
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I didn't mean for that to sound like I was bashing your input, although it kind of reads like that. All support and comments are accepted with open arms!
Just wanted to give my two cents about alcohol and my quit. I never liked to drink and dip. When I dipped, I dipped...when I drank...it was just alcohol. I could gut chew spit, but I like my beer to much to alter the taste with that shit! lol!
VERY few people can drink while starting a quit! I drink a couple every night, but only when I'm home with my wife. Drinking is only a trigger for me when I'm with the boys. But be VERY careful. Alcohol can weaken your resolve! I Have to be conscious of what I am doing. So do you! It's a dangerous game. That's the advice your getting. Don't lose the battle because of a drink. It's not worth it. A few days ago I drank too much and felt a strong urge to chew. I dumped out the beer I was drinking and called a quit brother. If you don't have to walk that line, though don't do it.
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I didn't mean for that to sound like I was bashing your input, although it kind of reads like that. All support and comments are accepted with open arms!
Just wanted to give my two cents about alcohol and my quit. I never liked to drink and dip. When I dipped, I dipped...when I drank...it was just alcohol. I could gut chew spit, but I like my beer to much to alter the taste with that shit! lol!
VERY few people can drink while starting a quit! I drink a couple every night, but only when I'm home with my wife. Drinking is only a trigger for me when I'm with the boys. But be VERY careful. Alcohol can weaken your resolve! I Have to be conscious of what I am doing. So do you! It's a dangerous game. That's the advice your getting. Don't lose the battle because of a drink. It's not worth it. A few days ago I drank too much and felt a strong urge to chew. I dumped out the beer I was drinking and called a quit brother. If you don't have to walk that line, though don't do it.
Hof is something to look forward to, but we are all 5 min away from the corner store. 5 dollars and it don't matter what day your on. Lets just quit today my friend,, I don't like thinking to far ahead. It gives me a head ache.
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My plan this weekend is to keep occupied, and just enjoy being free from the nic bitch with my girlfriend. She never liked me dipping, but she tolerated it. I know she is really happy and supportive of my decision.
That being said, we are going to Bourbon street this weekend with a group of her friends. I know there will be triggers and temptations, but I will stay strong. Im not sure how umm "fun" I'm going to be, as I know the fog will set in pretty heavy this weekend.....I will overcome that as well though.
As for those who say to stay off the booze...well I had a few beers last night, and I think it actually helped me a little. I know that was day 1.....but it eased my mind and seemed to help me cope with craving. I by no means intend to get trashed, as I do not know what the heck will happen then, even with my mindset.
I am determined to do this. I WILL stay quit no matter what. Cannot wait for this fog to lift...but for now...its here....im having trouble concentrating on what to pack for the weekend...holy shit.
You're a grown up. Just post roll first thing in the morning and then keep your word.
Damn lionheartedgirl catches on quick. Remember it really is that simple. Easy no, simple yes. Just be prepared KTK, you gotta be 100% committed to this. 99% leaves the door open for a cave. Lowering your inhibitions with drinking just makes this so much more difficult. Not saying it cant be done, just saying this shit is hard enough. Be careful.
I agree, no where in your plan does it mention post roll call first thing. That is the most important part of any plan.
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I didn't mean for that to sound like I was bashing your input, although it kind of reads like that. All support and comments are accepted with open arms!
Just wanted to give my two cents about alcohol and my quit. I never liked to drink and dip. When I dipped, I dipped...when I drank...it was just alcohol. I could gut chew spit, but I like my beer to much to alter the taste with that shit! lol!
VERY few people can drink while starting a quit! I drink a couple every night, but only when I'm home with my wife. Drinking is only a trigger for me when I'm with the boys. But be VERY careful. Alcohol can weaken your resolve! I Have to be conscious of what I am doing. So do you! It's a dangerous game. That's the advice your getting. Don't lose the battle because of a drink. It's not worth it. A few days ago I drank too much and felt a strong urge to chew. I dumped out the beer I was drinking and called a quit brother. If you don't have to walk that line, though don't do it.
Hof is something to look forward to, but we are all 5 min away from the corner store. 5 dollars and it don't matter what day your on. Lets just quit today my friend,, I don't like thinking to far ahead. It gives me a head ache.
True words of wisdom!
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My plan this weekend is to keep occupied, and just enjoy being free from the nic bitch with my girlfriend. She never liked me dipping, but she tolerated it. I know she is really happy and supportive of my decision.
That being said, we are going to Bourbon street this weekend with a group of her friends. I know there will be triggers and temptations, but I will stay strong. Im not sure how umm "fun" I'm going to be, as I know the fog will set in pretty heavy this weekend.....I will overcome that as well though.
As for those who say to stay off the booze...well I had a few beers last night, and I think it actually helped me a little. I know that was day 1.....but it eased my mind and seemed to help me cope with craving. I by no means intend to get trashed, as I do not know what the heck will happen then, even with my mindset.
I am determined to do this. I WILL stay quit no matter what. Cannot wait for this fog to lift...but for now...its here....im having trouble concentrating on what to pack for the weekend...holy shit.
You're a grown up. Just post roll first thing in the morning and then keep your word.
Damn lionheartedgirl catches on quick. Remember it really is that simple. Easy no, simple yes. Just be prepared KTK, you gotta be 100% committed to this. 99% leaves the door open for a cave. Lowering your inhibitions with drinking just makes this so much more difficult. Not saying it cant be done, just saying this shit is hard enough. Be careful.
I agree, no where in your plan does it mention post roll call first thing. That is the most important part of any plan.
Great point MikeA, I remember a post I made at 60 something days and it seemed fitting to share here. At day 150 I still feel the way about roll.
Here's my take. In the beginning I was like, "yeah whatever". Had no plans to do it. I played along for a few days, then I decided to just keep doing it even if I really didnÂ’t agree or didn't think I needed to. After all, some of these bastards dipped a decade longer than me and somehow they were quit for good. Some of them for YEARS. Maybe they knew a little something about quitting that I didn't. Over time here are a few things I realized about roll posting.
1. Making an affirmation and a promise each morning is very powerful. Can the promise be made just to yourself. Sure it can, but is it as powerful? In my opinion it most certainly IS NOT.
2. Post rolling = accountability. I am assuming that you have accepted that fact that you are an addict.
FACT: An addict WITHOUT accountability is (or will become) A USER.
3. Are we making a promise to strangers or random avatars? HELL NO! ThatÂ’s what I thought 61 days ago. Now I realize that these are people, just like you and I. They are people that you and I have alot in common with. We really understand each other and the impact that addiction has on our lives. I have gotten to know many of these people and they have played an enormous role in my quit. I never would have guessed it, but that's the truth.
4. KTC is a great informational website. But if that is all you are using it for you are not taking full advantage of it. In fact you are missing out on the greatest and most powerful part. THE BROTHERHOOD!!!!!!! Posting roll is a promise not to use for that day. You make a promise, and your brothers help you keep it. If you don't make a promise, how the hell can anyone help you keep it. Perhaps you don't need the help??
Final point. If you don't need help, more power to you man. But for me, this is my life, and I will take all the help I can get. The method is tried and true, why mess around. Personally I have tried to quit 100 times, and ALWAYS failed. Something was always missing. I came here and found out what it was, THE BROTHERHOOD.
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First thing I will do each morning is post roll. It is very important to me, and gets me through the day knowing that I made a PROMISE to yall that I will not use that day. It has made these first two days tolerable. I dont go back on my word, and giving it to yall each morning, actually writing it out and saying it is a powerful thing.
I see everyone here as a person, not a forum name, or an avatar. That is why I try to close my opinions with my name, because there is a person behind every keyboard.
I have the deepest respect for all of you, and excuse me if I do leave some things out or seem absent minded at the moment....I am in the midst of the fog and am told it will only get worse.
I was thinking "roll first thing" in my plan for the weekend, but I didnt type it out. There is a lot more I would have liked to type, but my mind isnt working quit right. I do have the best intentions though.
Thanks again for all of the support, I will take all of the help I can get. Everything I read here goes to heart, and I am not here just to be here. I am here because I want that support group, that brotherhood. This is a great place, and I am so happy to be here.
- Shane
P.S. Day 2 SUCKS 'Crazy'
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First thing I will do each morning is post roll. It is very important to me, and gets me through the day knowing that I made a PROMISE to yall that I will not use that day. It has made these first two days tolerable. I dont go back on my word, and giving it to yall each morning, actually writing it out and saying it is a powerful thing.
I see everyone here as a person, not a forum name, or an avatar. That is why I try to close my opinions with my name, because there is a person behind every keyboard.
I have the deepest respect for all of you, and excuse me if I do leave some things out or seem absent minded at the moment....I am in the midst of the fog and am told it will only get worse.
I was thinking "roll first thing" in my plan for the weekend, but I didnt type it out. There is a lot more I would have liked to type, but my mind isnt working quit right. I do have the best intentions though.
Thanks again for all of the support, I will take all of the help I can get. Everything I read here goes to heart, and I am not here just to be here. I am here because I want that support group, that brotherhood. This is a great place, and I am so happy to be here.
- Shane
P.S. Day 2 SUCKS 'Crazy'
I like this attitude! Quit on! My first few days were so bad................
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Figured I would revive this, and give yall my background, as thats what these intro threads are supposed to do, and I dont wanna start another one!
I am 23 years old, and had been dipping since I was 18. Got up to almost a can a day. Started out with Grizzly straight, then onto Grizzly wintergreen, and then onto Kodiak wintergreen for the last 4 or so years.
I grew up thinking chew was the coolest thing since sliced bread. I envied guys who chewed, I wanted that big bulge in my cheek, and to spit all the time. Oh how COOL that must be I thought! Boy was I wrong...I bought into the hype...all it did was give me an addiction and bad breath. I also thought...oh I can quit when I want, I wont do this forever.
After reading and reading and reading some more on KTC, the first few days of my quit I started to think "man, im not THAT bad" or "Some guys do 2 cans a day?! Im fine!" Then I started to think about it the right way and thought "man, im so young, ive got so much to live for, I'm going to be a way better person for stopping while im ahead"....and here I am at day 5 feeling like a million bucks...like a 23 year old should....
Ive struggled with marijuana problems in the past, was hooked quite heavily on that for a while as well as dip. I have been clean from pot for months and months now, and now I am 5 days free from nicotine. I haven't felt this good since I was 18.
I feel like someone I can actually be proud of now, It is an indescribable feeling. And its due in large part to all of you. If I hadnt found this site, and been given all the advice I have, I dont know where I would be. Im so glad everyone just told me "START NOW, FLUSH YOUR TIN". That was the start of a new life for me.
Bottom line is....I feel great. And this is day 5. I am bigger than any addiction, and am never looking back. Theres not enough money in the world that could put that shit back in my lip...
On another note, I was in New Orleans this weekend with my girlfriend and some of her friends. I drank heavily, and didnt cave or even think of caving. I was around a lot of cigarette smoke, cigars, etc and all I could think was "you poor bastards" or "GROSS!" One of her friends smokes cigarettes, and It amazed me at his way of thinking and his rationalizations. It was true addict talk. I asked him why he smoked cigarettes, (after telling him I had conquered my addiction of course 'na na') and he replied with "oh I don't, I only smoke when I drink". Yeah right. I had just watched him burn one down at 12pm on the front porch...SOBER. He said "oh I didnt need to smoke that one, I just felt like it" and then he said "I can quit whenever I want, I go 2+ days sometimes without smoking"
I tried to explain to him how ridiculous this sounded, but he wasnt hearing much of it, and I had just met him so I didnt want to push any major buttons, but HOLY CRAP, that talk is crazy!!! I used to say the same shit, but I finally wised up. Its crazy the things our minds think to justify our actions....
Sorry for the long post, and I got a little off topic. But hopefully everyone knows me a little better, and Im happy to answer any questions or comments!!
Thanks again to everyone here...I am truly grateful...
- Shane
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Figured I would revive this, and give yall my background, as thats what these intro threads are supposed to do, and I dont wanna start another one!
I am 23 years old, and had been dipping since I was 18. Got up to almost a can a day. Started out with Grizzly straight, then onto Grizzly wintergreen, and then onto Kodiak wintergreen for the last 4 or so years.
I grew up thinking chew was the coolest thing since sliced bread. I envied guys who chewed, I wanted that big bulge in my cheek, and to spit all the time. Oh how COOL that must be I thought! Boy was I wrong...I bought into the hype...all it did was give me an addiction and bad breath. I also thought...oh I can quit when I want, I wont do this forever.
After reading and reading and reading some more on KTC, the first few days of my quit I started to think "man, im not THAT bad" or "Some guys do 2 cans a day?! Im fine!" Then I started to think about it the right way and thought "man, im so young, ive got so much to live for, I'm going to be a way better person for stopping while im ahead"....and here I am at day 5 feeling like a million bucks...like a 23 year old should....
Ive struggled with marijuana problems in the past, was hooked quite heavily on that for a while as well as dip. I have been clean from pot for months and months now, and now I am 5 days free from nicotine. I haven't felt this good since I was 18.
I feel like someone I can actually be proud of now, It is an indescribable feeling. And its due in large part to all of you. If I hadnt found this site, and been given all the advice I have, I dont know where I would be. Im so glad everyone just told me "START NOW, FLUSH YOUR TIN". That was the start of a new life for me.
Bottom line is....I feel great. And this is day 5. I am bigger than any addiction, and am never looking back. Theres not enough money in the world that could put that shit back in my lip...
On another note, I was in New Orleans this weekend with my girlfriend and some of her friends. I drank heavily, and didnt cave or even think of caving. I was around a lot of cigarette smoke, cigars, etc and all I could think was "you poor bastards" or "GROSS!" One of her friends smokes cigarettes, and It amazed me at his way of thinking and his rationalizations. It was true addict talk. I asked him why he smoked cigarettes, (after telling him I had conquered my addiction of course 'na na') and he replied with "oh I don't, I only smoke when I drink". Yeah right. I had just watched him burn one down at 12pm on the front porch...SOBER. He said "oh I didnt need to smoke that one, I just felt like it" and then he said "I can quit whenever I want, I go 2+ days sometimes without smoking"
I tried to explain to him how ridiculous this sounded, but he wasnt hearing much of it, and I had just met him so I didnt want to push any major buttons, but HOLY CRAP, that talk is crazy!!! I used to say the same shit, but I finally wised up. Its crazy the things our minds think to justify our actions....
Sorry for the long post, and I got a little off topic. But hopefully everyone knows me a little better, and Im happy to answer any questions or comments!!
Thanks again to everyone here...I am truly grateful...
- Shane
Day 5 is awesome, but 5 days is a drop in the bucket compared to all those days that you used. Please do not get too cocky and think that you can regularly tempt fate like that. What plan did you have in case you did feel weak?
You haven't conquered anything until you die quit.
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Glad to see you made it through the first weekend Shane, nice work man. Listen to WP - he's been there done that and is one of many quitters who put time and effort into helping new quitters make it. You have a ton of ups and downs to go - trench in and get ready to beat that tin, it's not a skirmish and done. It is a war. If you forget that and think you've "got this" that's the start of the end of a quit. Protect your quit! Nice day 5 man.