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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: TThomas on April 02, 2014, 10:30:00 AM
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After 20 years I quit on Monday March 31st at 4:00pm....Monday evening and night were fine, yesterday and last night were pure hell. I seriously want to rip someone apart! I have no focus and seriously set at me computer doing nothing for most of the afternoon yesterday. Last night was like a freaking nightmare, I think I fell asleep for about 30 minutes all night. This morning my mouth feels raw from eating so many damn sunflower seeds! My lovely wife went to 2 Walmarts and 2 Gas Stations yesterday to find me some fake stuff and of course no one has any!!! If I survive this no way in hell will I ever put myself through this misery again!
Tyler
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After 20 years I quit on Monday March 31st at 4:00pm....Monday evening and night were fine, yesterday and last night were pure hell. I seriously want to rip someone apart! I have no focus and seriously set at me computer doing nothing for most of the afternoon yesterday. Last night was like a freaking nightmare, I think I fell asleep for about 30 minutes all night. This morning my mouth feels raw from eating so many damn sunflower seeds! My lovely wife went to 2 Walmarts and 2 Gas Stations yesterday to find me some fake stuff and of course no one has any!!! If I survive this no way in hell will I ever put myself through this misery again!
Tyler
DId you post roll call yet? Red link top of screen "welcome center"! Read how to post and what it is all about. You're about half way through the worst part of the suck! Remember how bad you feel.......embrace it.......if you start to think about caving later remember that you don't want to go through this again.
You can do it!
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After 20 years I quit on Monday March 31st at 4:00pm....Monday evening and night were fine, yesterday and last night were pure hell. I seriously want to rip someone apart! I have no focus and seriously set at me computer doing nothing for most of the afternoon yesterday. Last night was like a freaking nightmare, I think I fell asleep for about 30 minutes all night. This morning my mouth feels raw from eating so many damn sunflower seeds! My lovely wife went to 2 Walmarts and 2 Gas Stations yesterday to find me some fake stuff and of course no one has any!!! If I survive this no way in hell will I ever put myself through this misery again!
Tyler
Dig on the misery of this bro. This is the price you pay for freedom... real freedom. It sucks... hard. We know. We went through it too. The good news is that it DOES get better. It really does. When? That's hard to say because everyone is different. I will tell you, right now, own it. Own the fact that you're quit. You're not trying. You're not in the process... you're quit. Get on up to the Welcome Center link at the top of the page and get to know this place. Get to know how and why we do things around here. You will be a part of the new July group... I'm a July alumn from last year. If I can do this... YOU can do this!
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After 20 years I quit on Monday March 31st at 4:00pm....Monday evening and night were fine, yesterday and last night were pure hell. I seriously want to rip someone apart! I have no focus and seriously set at me computer doing nothing for most of the afternoon yesterday. Last night was like a freaking nightmare, I think I fell asleep for about 30 minutes all night. This morning my mouth feels raw from eating so many damn sunflower seeds! My lovely wife went to 2 Walmarts and 2 Gas Stations yesterday to find me some fake stuff and of course no one has any!!! If I survive this no way in hell will I ever put myself through this misery again!
Tyler
If?
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After 20 years I quit on Monday March 31st at 4:00pm....Monday evening and night were fine, yesterday and last night were pure hell. I seriously want to rip someone apart! I have no focus and seriously set at me computer doing nothing for most of the afternoon yesterday. Last night was like a freaking nightmare, I think I fell asleep for about 30 minutes all night. This morning my mouth feels raw from eating so many damn sunflower seeds! My lovely wife went to 2 Walmarts and 2 Gas Stations yesterday to find me some fake stuff and of course no one has any!!! If I survive this no way in hell will I ever put myself through this misery again!
Tyler
If?
yeah good catch diesel...if your aunt had balls she'd be your uncle...
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After 20 years I quit on Monday March 31st at 4:00pm....Monday evening and night were fine, yesterday and last night were pure hell. I seriously want to rip someone apart! I have no focus and seriously set at me computer doing nothing for most of the afternoon yesterday. Last night was like a freaking nightmare, I think I fell asleep for about 30 minutes all night. This morning my mouth feels raw from eating so many damn sunflower seeds! My lovely wife went to 2 Walmarts and 2 Gas Stations yesterday to find me some fake stuff and of course no one has any!!! If I survive this no way in hell will I ever put myself through this misery again!
Tyler
If?
How bad do you want this? I am not a smart man but I do know that you cannot die from quitting dip.
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After 20 years I quit on Monday March 31st at 4:00pm....Monday evening and night were fine, yesterday and last night were pure hell. I seriously want to rip someone apart! I have no focus and seriously set at me computer doing nothing for most of the afternoon yesterday. Last night was like a freaking nightmare, I think I fell asleep for about 30 minutes all night. This morning my mouth feels raw from eating so many damn sunflower seeds! My lovely wife went to 2 Walmarts and 2 Gas Stations yesterday to find me some fake stuff and of course no one has any!!! If I survive this no way in hell will I ever put myself through this misery again!
Tyler
If?
How bad do you want this? I am not a smart man but I do know that you cannot die from quitting dip.
You'll survive if you quit every day. You will die if you go back to the can.
I quit with you.
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After 20 years I quit on Monday March 31st at 4:00pm....Monday evening and night were fine, yesterday and last night were pure hell. I seriously want to rip someone apart! I have no focus and seriously set at me computer doing nothing for most of the afternoon yesterday. Last night was like a freaking nightmare, I think I fell asleep for about 30 minutes all night. This morning my mouth feels raw from eating so many damn sunflower seeds! My lovely wife went to 2 Walmarts and 2 Gas Stations yesterday to find me some fake stuff and of course no one has any!!! If I survive this no way in hell will I ever put myself through this misery again!
Tyler
If?
How bad do you want this? I am not a smart man but I do know that you cannot die from quitting dip.
You'll survive if you quit every day. You will die if you go back to the can.
I quit with you.
I see you posted your day 2, that's great. Now, as diesel pointed out, IF? That is addiction talk. That is leaving the door open for a way out, a cave. We don't do that here, we slam every door, TIGHT! I suggest reading all you can, words of wisdom, HOF speeches and intros. (Diesels intro is a good start if you want to see where and what determination can get you through. I'm not gonna wish you luck because luck doesn't have a role in quitting, pure determination does.
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Thank you for the support. Good catch there on that "if"...never meant for it that way. I will never feel this way again! I figured out the role call, just did it a bit backwards, but I know how to do it right for tomorrow. I'm trying to read as much as possible, but haven't came across one of my questions yet...what are the different floors and comma thing everyone seems to refer to? Thanks again for the support, it's nice to know others give a damn.
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Thank you for the support. Good catch there on that "if"...never meant for it that way. I will never feel this way again! I figured out the role call, just did it a bit backwards, but I know how to do it right for tomorrow. I'm trying to read as much as possible, but haven't came across one of my questions yet...what are the different floors and comma thing everyone seems to refer to? Thanks again for the support, it's nice to know others give a damn.
Each floor is 100 days quit. The comma is 1,000 days or 10 floors. We will see each other there one day. But TODAY is the only day that matters.
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Floors are every 100 days.
200 days = 2nd floor.
1,000 days = 10th floor and a comma in 1,000.
Remember this suffering time and stay strong. Post roll daily and get to know the guys you're quitting with. They will help you and you will help them. Every day you post roll many people see it and gain strength from it, as you will from everyone else.
It's going to be hard at first but anything worth doing it. It's worth it!
Best wishes,
DeskJockey - Day 332
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You'll look back on these days as hard, but it is not the worst day/night of your life...don't confuse hard with a bad day. Look back 20 years ago and remember what made you a slave to nicotine...that was probably a nice day, low stress, easy, but you became an addict that day...that my friend is one of your worst days...as was my first day of becoming an addict...looking back...that is one of my worst days
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Hi TT, be strong and stay quit! It's hard, but anything this worthwhile is not going to be easy. Post roll and quit one day at a time. I'm 45 days quit, so I know what your going thru and I chewed for 33 years.
mb289
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Hi TT, be strong and stay quit! It's hard, but anything this worthwhile is not going to be easy. Post roll and quit one day at a time. I'm 45 days quit, so I know what your going thru and I chewed for 33 years.
mb289
And now it's been an entire year!! Awesome job getting to this point!
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TT , I can't wait for me to be at 1 year!