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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: fight the urge on October 17, 2011, 10:10:00 AM
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Name is Mike. Be around and around with this battle before without success measuring longer than 6 months. Cope addict for somewhere around 26 yrs. Trying on my own alot lately...not really trying just cutting back enough to justify to my wife and my ego "See I can quit"..Anyways I'm really sick of it and without a doubt know this addiction is a MF and it can kill me. This coming from a smoker who quit maybe 5-7 yrs years ago can't even remember now. I also used to have a major drinking problem for 28 yrs that will occasionally sneak up but I've had success beating that too and now live a fairly unaddicted life EXCEPT for snuff. I keep planning the quit, examing the strategies, trying to find a cool screen name etc etc etc etc etc etc etc etc etc etc.
I am sick and I want out. I've been reading about Nuero Linguistic Programminng lately and this morning I had a visualization of me putting a choke hold on my can and squeezing it smaller and smaller until it was the size of a marble then throwing it out the window. All the time with me fighting the urge....walla my new screen name and the determination to make myself known and now be accountable to my quit group...Oh yeah I've been trolling the site for sometime too!
It's on! Thanks for what you guys stand for.
Mike
married 20 yrs with 3 beautiful daughters who all need me
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Mike, you can DO this!!! It won't be easy but if you use the tools we have here you will quit and you won't look back!!! Embrace the SUCK and let's get on with it!!! I dipped and/or smoked for over 30 years and I am 3 years quit!!!! Get yourself into the January 2011 group and post your roll and tell us a little about yourself. Read everything on this site and get to know your fellow quit brothers. The support you will get from this group is nothing ahort of amazing. Read everything on this site including HOf speeches, the Kern story, and take the time to read through an old quit group from start to finish to know what to expect. You can DO this one day at a time!!! PM me if you need anything. Quitting is the BEST DECISION will you ever make!
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I see you posted roll. This is key. If you will join us everyday and post roll and quit 1 day at a time quitting will be easier. I won't be easy, just easier. You will find all of the support you need to make this one stick. 1 day at a time. PM me if you need help.
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Remember how dipping makes you feel. Disgusted, groggy, nasty, filthy and dirty. Remember that feeling because the nic bitch will tempt you by making you remember that first "ah" moment. Remember that you quit because it's nasty and it will kill you. Hold on to the memory of your LAST dip...not your FIRST.
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Remember how dipping makes you feel. Disgusted, groggy, nasty, filthy and dirty. Remember that feeling because the nic bitch will tempt you by making you remember that first "ah" moment. Remember that you quit because it's nasty and it will kill you. Hold on to the memory of your LAST dip...not your FIRST.
That's some good advice.. I would be lying if I said I didn't have a couple of those "remember how satisfying I once was" whispers in my head. Its definantly good to remember the duress you've felt after dropping a month old spitter onto the carpet.
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Dear Daddy-
I wish you could have been there today to see me in my Ballet Recital, I felt like a princess. But your addiction was too strong for you to deny.
I wish you were here to hold me and tell me there was no “Boogie man” under my bed. But you put your addiction first.
I wish you were here to teach me to drive a car. But tobacco would not let you.
I wish you could have seen my high school graduation today, I sure missed you. But you chose to continue to use tobacco over your family.
I wish you could have been here tonight and met my prom date, I think I am in love. But your resolve to quit dip was not strong enough.
I wish you were here to help me move into my dorm room at college, I think I will like it here. But you chose to continue to use tobacco.
I wish you could have been around to give me words of encouragement on my wedding day and walk me down the aisle, it would have meant the world to me. But you were not strong enough to put down snuff once and for all.
I wish you were here today to hold your first grandchild, you know he has your eyes. But tobacco was too important to you.
I wish you had never used tobacco daddy, my life would have been much happier.
I love you and miss you,
Your daughter
I am quit today and tomorrow....MOA
I wrote this back some time ago. It really hits home for me and I still "get something in my eye" when I read it!You say that you have 3 beautiful daughters? Take this as a belly punch then and sack up and keep on quittin.
MOA
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Son of a bitch, that is good stuff!!! Exactly what I thought, too. I quit 9/11/10. Watching a TV show about a family of "survivors" of the terror attacks. As I stood there was the struggling widow and her little boy describe life without daddy, I was torn apart. Then I realized I had a fucking cancer wad in my mouth!!! WTF?!!!
I spit it out right then and there after dipping for 20 years for exactly the reasons you wrote. O don't know what will happen to me, but I sure as shit am not taking myself out for nicotine. I found this site 9 days later...desperate for help at 3:00 AM. I met the GUARD, posted roll and the rest is 402 days of nic-free history.
Stay strong, stay quit.
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Welcome aboard Mike! Wise decision you made to quit being a slave to the nic bitch, I sucked that tittie for 18 years before I realized I preferred my freedom over addiction! Proud to be quit with you. nico
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I. Wont even go into the number of caves and half asses attempts I've made over the years. Sores in the mouth, swollen lymph nodes, chest pains, high blood pressure, high chloresterol etc etc NONE OF IT CONVINCED ME TO STAY QUIT. I keep asking myself why will this time be different and I don't have a logical reason other than it HAS to be. 25+ years of dipping should be enoughfor me to know a
I am an. Addict. I quit drinking, quit smoking but my best friend nix I could never let go of...well I'm sick of it. I worry EVERY DIP if the pain this time will lead to my death and leave my wife and 3 daughters to make it alone. What a selfish bastard I am. I want this quit soooo bad and I really need help on this one. I been lurking the site and reading tonight. Just tossed all my full cans, half cans, dip cups and nicotine gum. Tom I will post roll call and hope I find the support I need to make it stick this time. When I stop and think thru it usually after I've satisfied the monster it becomes clear this dip is the dumbest thing I've ever done next to continuing to do it, then comes the next crave and I run to the store or plop in a dip at 2am and fall asleep. FUCKING STUPID. Thanks for letting me back and please tell me how to get numbers. I'm in Plano near Dallas and would like to know there's a quitter out this way. Thanks for this site and all the vets that help us newbies. See y'all at my first roll call. My first goal is to make it through the night. I may go get some nyquill and red hots. Let's roll.
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First and foremost, go post roll right now. No sense in waiting.
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Second,
You have obviously been around a while with your join date and posts. If you have not been in a quit group and posted roll previously, welcome. If you haven't, don't read below.
I'm guessing you are reading this because you know the drill....If you were part of a quit group and posted roll before, what is going to keep you here for good? How can this September quit group trust you and your promise? What exactly do you plan to do to keep your quit? Specifically, what's your quit plan? You mentioned exchanging numbers...I have given my number out to at least 30, maybe 40, people here....why should I give you my number and support? Its not something I take lightly. I back people who want this bad. People who are going to demand accountability like me.
Spill it.
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Use this for reference Mike. What's gonna chage?
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I. Wont even go into the number of caves and half asses attempts I've made over the years. Sores in the mouth, swollen lymph nodes, chest pains, high blood pressure, high chloresterol etc etc NONE OF IT CONVINCED ME TO STAY QUIT. I keep asking myself why will this time be different and I don't have a logical reason other than it HAS to be. 25+ years of dipping should be enoughfor me to know a
I am an. Addict. I quit drinking, quit smoking but my best friend nix I could never let go of...well I'm sick of it. I worry EVERY DIP if the pain this time will lead to my death and leave my wife and 3 daughters to make it alone. What a selfish bastard I am. I want this quit soooo bad and I really need help on this one. I been lurking the site and reading tonight. Just tossed all my full cans, half cans, dip cups and nicotine gum. Tom I will post roll call and hope I find the support I need to make it stick this time. When I stop and think thru it usually after I've satisfied the monster it becomes clear this dip is the dumbest thing I've ever done next to continuing to do it, then comes the next crave and I run to the store or plop in a dip at 2am and fall asleep. FUCKING STUPID. Thanks for letting me back and please tell me how to get numbers. I'm in Plano near Dallas and would like to know there's a quitter out this way. Thanks for this site and all the vets that help us newbies. See y'all at my first roll call. My first goal is to make it through the night. I may go get some nyquill and red hots. Let's roll.
Hey man just throw that shit away and never go back to it. We are in the same quit group and WE are going to make it. Living in fear and living a lie are two things I damn sure don't want to go back to. Let's quit like fuck today!!
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Since it's 2:15PM in Plano and he hasn't posted roll in September yet, I don't think he made it through the night.
You want to know what it takes to make it through the first few days? Pure will power. Yes the folks on this site can help talk you through craves, but you have to really, really want it. It going to suck, but you will live and be better off.
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Since it's 2:15PM in Plano and he hasn't posted roll in September yet, I don't think he made it through the night.
You want to know what it takes to make it through the first few days? Pure will power. Yes the folks on this site can help talk you through craves, but you have to really, really want it. It going to suck, but you will live and be better off.
amen brother
will never forget my first 3 days.....
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Since it's 2:15PM in Plano and he hasn't posted roll in September yet, I don't think he made it through the night.
You want to know what it takes to make it through the first few days? Pure will power. Yes the folks on this site can help talk you through craves, but you have to really, really want it. It going to suck, but you will live and be better off.
Spot on. Post up. Quitting is about admitting you are addicted to nic and POSTING one day at a time. Did I mention 1 day at a time? Days add up when you focus on one day at a time.
FTU, give me your promise. Now.
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Since it's 2:15PM in Plano and he hasn't posted roll in September yet, I don't think he made it through the night.
You want to know what it takes to make it through the first few days? Pure will power. Yes the folks on this site can help talk you through craves, but you have to really, really want it. It going to suck, but you will live and be better off.
Spot on. Post up. Quitting is about admitting you are addicted to nic and POSTING one day at a time. Did I mention 1 day at a time? Days add up when you focus on one day at a time.
FTU, give me your promise. Now.
any news to report here?
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Since it's 2:15PM in Plano and he hasn't posted roll in September yet, I don't think he made it through the night.
You want to know what it takes to make it through the first few days? Pure will power. Yes the folks on this site can help talk you through craves, but you have to really, really want it. It going to suck, but you will live and be better off.
Spot on. Post up. Quitting is about admitting you are addicted to nic and POSTING one day at a time. Did I mention 1 day at a time? Days add up when you focus on one day at a time.
FTU, give me your promise. Now.
any news to report here?
Since he hasn't posted since June 1, I'm going to guess he's still stuffing his face with chew because it's too "hard" to deal with the cravings.
He didn't want to quit in 2011 and he doesn't want to quit now. If he wanted to quit, he would be posted up and nicotine free.
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Way to keep stuffing that shit in your face you pansy. Man the hell up if you dare.
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Way to keep stuffing that shit in your face you pansy. Man the hell up if you dare.
I just dont think everyone who signs up for this site has the stones to quit.......
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Way to keep stuffing that shit in your face you pansy. Man the hell up if you dare.
I just dont think everyone who signs up for this site has the stones to quit.......
I guess you could say....... 'archer' he couldn't fight the urge.
Yeahhhhhhhhhh!
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Way to keep stuffing that shit in your face you pansy. Man the hell up if you dare.
I just dont think everyone who signs up for this site has the stones to quit.......
I guess you could say....... 'archer' he couldn't fight the urge.
Yeahhhhhhhhhh!
Well played B) 'clap' 'clap'
'crackup' 'crackup' 'crackup'