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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: lhelms12 on May 15, 2012, 12:22:00 AM
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Hey KTC! I am so glad that found you guys. It is so nice to be able to read about others that are going through what I am and to be able to realize the horrible life I was living and now I am leaving it in the past. I feel like I have been living a secret life of using Grizzly Wintergreen since I was 17 years old. I am currently 23 years old and have been fearful of leaving that crap for a long time now. I am in school to be a pharmacist and I have always felt hypocritical recommending products for smoking cessation. I have always felt that I needed dip to help me study. I am quitting now so that I can have the summer to recover and I plan on never going back! I am now on day 3 and still feel like I am in a haze.
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Hey KTC! I am so glad that found you guys. It is so nice to be able to read about others that are going through what I am and to be able to realize the horrible life I was living and now I am leaving it in the past. I feel like I have been living a secret life of using Grizzly Wintergreen since I was 17 years old. I am currently 23 years old and have been fearful of leaving that crap for a long time now. I am in school to be a pharmacist and I have always felt hypocritical recommending products for smoking cessation. I have always felt that I needed dip to help me study. I am quitting now so that I can have the summer to recover and I plan on never going back! I am now on day 3 and still feel like I am in a haze.
Welcome to kTC. Just to be sure. You are 100 percent nic free. Right? No patches, gum, cigars, cigarettes. No nic in your lungs, mouth, skin or rectum? If that is the case, have you posted roll in the August group?
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Mthomas... Yes nicotine free for almost three full days now! Only using Smokey Mountain sparingly for the urges and cravings. BTW I have posted to roll for the last two days!
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Mthomas... Yes nicotine free for almost three full days now! Only using Smokey Mountain sparingly for the urges and cravings. BTW I have posted to roll for the last two days!
Cool. Listen and take all the advice the vets give you. Look at Roadblock in Aug, WT in July, Suck-it in June and watch all those in May that are pulling into the HOF station.
You have people here that are serious quitters and what you experience, one of them has already felt it so they can be a support and back up on your journey. Don't walk it alone when it is a blast to walk with this army of quitters!
I told the evil monster to take a hike on March 14th. Today is my 63rd day in a row that I promised not to partake!
You hear that nic? 63 to 0! KTC works. Follow the rules with exactness and laugh often. This site is better than reality TV.
I went through hell, now it isn't that bad and I thank the lord that I am quit. Tobacco is such a crock of shit!
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lhelms - Congrats on a great choice. You're at 3 days which means that nic will soon be completely out of your body...but it will still be on your mind. That's where KTC brothers/sisters come in. We're here to help you with the mind games the nic bitch will play.
You're still in the fog right now. No worries...you're in the right place. But I do want to suggest something based on your first post...don't think about quitting for "the summer." We quit one day at time around here. Quitting for 3 months is hard...hell, even a week is hard. But we're not asking anyone to do that. We just quit for one. And anyone can go one effing day, right?
Then, we wake up and do it all again. Stay strong, stay quit brother!!! Holler if you need anything
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You guys are great and very inspirational! I have spent countless hours reading HOF stories and reading about everyone else that is going through the same thing. I would never quit for the "summer." I quit for today, and then plan on doing the same thing tomorrow. I was just saying that there are a lot less stressors over the summer. I have won the last three days and plan on winning tomorrow!
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You guys are great and very inspirational! I have spent countless hours reading HOF stories and reading about everyone else that is going through the same thing. I would never quit for the "summer." I quit for today, and then plan on doing the same thing tomorrow. I was just saying that there are a lot less stressors over the summer. I have won the last three days and plan on winning tomorrow!
Term number one: Embrace the Suck. You will hear this often. Enjoy it and don't define it yet. One day you will understand why it is so important to embrace the difficult journey you chose.
On your intro. Here, use this as a journal to record you walk and journey of being nic free. Your quit friends and brotherhood will get to know and relate to your experience. Please share it so we can be a better support.
Term number two: Never quit past today.
My worst day was day 28. All the promise of it getting better, all the hope to feel free. I didn't on day 28. I was finished. I wanted to cave but I also didn't want to go back on my word. So I planned to fight through day 28 but not post roll on 29. No promise no problem. I won't go back on my word.
However, I also promised to PM my support and ask for permission. I knew what they were going to say before I PM'd. They would talk me out of it and I didn't want to be talked out of it. I am so glad for keeping my word I PM'd and yes they talked me though it.
I almost lost because I looked ahead a year from now and thought, there is no way I am going to go the rest of my life feeling like this and not cave.
Simple and effective: Never, EVER think in long terms of quitting. Rewire you mind to only worry about today.
Third Term Continual Resistance produces greater quit strength! On day 30 I woke up. I wasn't exhausted of the fight any more. I felt a fresh, great excitement and strength. I was more resolved and committed!
Final Term: HATE Tobacco and addiction is not human. It impacts human life. You don't need to hate the addict but you must have a pure hatred for the tobacco industry and people who glamorize, or empathize with the promotion of addictions. Christian belief is to always love and forgive. Remember that is good with human relationships but addiction is not human. Addiction is evil and you have my permission to hate it!
If you don't hate right now....You will. Just read. Read about the dangers, read about the addictions, read about the politics of it. READ and you will be ready to go to war with this nic bitch for life.
What has kept me quit.
1) Posting Roll: I have never missed a day posting. It is my privelage and keeps me alert and protecting my quit vow.
2) Listen and follow the advise of Vets. Don't waste you time fighting with them, just follow. They are tried and true. They don't get paid so the only motivation and payment they get it the feeling of helping a brother quit. Drink the kool aid and when you are done with that glass. Take the glass that some dumb ass wouldn't drink.
3) Keep your word. If alcohol lowers your decision making and commitments, don't drink. 63 days no nic and alcohol for me. I am alive and thriving. You'll live with out both, I promise.
4) Every morning you wake, like brushing your teeth, rinse and repeat you quit plan.
Simple, Safe and 100% effective!
KTC Works...I am 63 quits and 0 caves since joining. I am all in with this program. IT WORKS and it is for everyone that truly is quitting because they want to.
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Today is day 4 and I really felt amazing today. I wish I could have quit earlier! It is ok I know that I am quit TODAY! It was a little difficult today at the golf course seeing buddies put in a fatty, but I had my Smokey Mountain there for insurance and didn't even have to use it!
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Today is day 4 and I really felt amazing today. I wish I could have quit earlier! It is ok I know that I am quit TODAY! It was a little difficult today at the golf course seeing buddies put in a fatty, but I had my Smokey Mountain there for insurance and didn't even have to use it!
Day 4. So past the 72 hours of quit. Its all a mental game they say. I think there is still some physical that you should expect. However, it is mostly a mind war now. The angel and devil on opposite sides coaxing you. You can quit or cave. No one makes you but influences will clear and cloud your thinking. Avoid the cloudy influences.
Stay close.
Quitting is such a mind game. I thought I was punished more at times. Comments like
God Hates me
God is testing my faith
The devil is tempting me.
You know what. Once your mind is made up, does it matter what you put in front of the reason for your challenge? I don't know if any of those are even real. I do know that the coaxing is simply caused by being an addict. But if it crosses your mind that God Hates you, is testing you or Satan is tempting you. What does it matter if you stay quit?
Keep your word and you are free.
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One of the things that I was scared of the most was talking myself into stopping the quit, but I think through the support of others and reading hours on end I have been free of these thoughts. Never at any point since my quit have I even considered going back. I think that really shows the power of the KTC website!
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One of the things that I was scared of the most was talking myself into stopping the quit, but I think through the support of others and reading hours on end I have been free of these thoughts. Never at any point since my quit have I even considered going back. I think that really shows the power of the KTC website!
Yes, the force is strong here.
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You guys are great and very inspirational! I have spent countless hours reading HOF stories and reading about everyone else that is going through the same thing. I would never quit for the "summer." I quit for today, and then plan on doing the same thing tomorrow. I was just saying that there are a lot less stressors over the summer. I have won the last three days and plan on winning tomorrow!
Term number one: Embrace the Suck. You will hear this often. Enjoy it and don't define it yet. One day you will understand why it is so important to embrace the difficult journey you chose.
On your intro. Here, use this as a journal to record you walk and journey of being nic free. Your quit friends and brotherhood will get to know and relate to your experience. Please share it so we can be a better support.
Term number two: Never quit past today.
My worst day was day 28. All the promise of it getting better, all the hope to feel free. I didn't on day 28. I was finished. I wanted to cave but I also didn't want to go back on my word. So I planned to fight through day 28 but not post roll on 29. No promise no problem. I won't go back on my word.
However, I also promised to PM my support and ask for permission. I knew what they were going to say before I PM'd. They would talk me out of it and I didn't want to be talked out of it. I am so glad for keeping my word I PM'd and yes they talked me though it.
I almost lost because I looked ahead a year from now and thought, there is no way I am going to go the rest of my life feeling like this and not cave.
Simple and effective: Never, EVER think in long terms of quitting. Rewire you mind to only worry about today.
Third Term Continual Resistance produces greater quit strength! On day 30 I woke up. I wasn't exhausted of the fight any more. I felt a fresh, great excitement and strength. I was more resolved and committed!
Final Term: HATE Tobacco and addiction is not human. It impacts human life. You don't need to hate the addict but you must have a pure hatred for the tobacco industry and people who glamorize, or empathize with the promotion of addictions. Christian belief is to always love and forgive. Remember that is good with human relationships but addiction is not human. Addiction is evil and you have my permission to hate it!
If you don't hate right now....You will. Just read. Read about the dangers, read about the addictions, read about the politics of it. READ and you will be ready to go to war with this nic bitch for life.
What has kept me quit.
1) Posting Roll: I have never missed a day posting. It is my privelage and keeps me alert and protecting my quit vow.
2) Listen and follow the advise of Vets. Don't waste you time fighting with them, just follow. They are tried and true. They don't get paid so the only motivation and payment they get it the feeling of helping a brother quit. Drink the kool aid and when you are done with that glass. Take the glass that some dumb ass wouldn't drink.
3) Keep your word. If alcohol lowers your decision making and commitments, don't drink. 63 days no nic and alcohol for me. I am alive and thriving. You'll live with out both, I promise.
4) Every morning you wake, like brushing your teeth, rinse and repeat you quit plan.
Simple, Safe and 100% effective!
KTC Works...I am 63 quits and 0 caves since joining. I am all in with this program. IT WORKS and it is for everyone that truly is quitting because they want to.
This is a great read for us fucking new guys! Bump to the top!
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At 5:30pm (about 5 hours ago now) I began my 30th day of quit, and I must say it feels amazing. The only regret that I have in this whole process is that I didn't start it earlier. I quit for a number of reasons, but I really started to notice what the drug was doing to my body after only 7 years of use. The physical signs of gum erosion were obvious, but I also became anxious and I feel that nicotine began affecting my memory as well (I'm only 24!). Since quitting tobacco, I am no longer anxious and man is that a great feeling. There are so many things that I am grateful for now! No more worrying about having a dip for the morning and running out to the convenient store late at night to pick up a new can. No more worrying about someone important seeing me buy a can or having a dip in, in public. No more missing out on time spent with my beautiful girlfriend or family because my selfish ass needs to have a dip in only after 6 hours of doing anything. The first week sucked ass... I can't lie, but each day gets better. Golf no longer requires a dip! Seriously! You wouldn't believe it, but you don't have to have a dip in to go fishing! For the kicker... you can still take a shit without a dip! I never knew I was capable of doing anything without a dip in! Life is so much easier and enjoyable now. I know I am an addict and will be the rest of my life.... but there is life without nicotine. If you are reading this right now and considering quitting, or you are in your early stages of quitting, please reach out! Shoot me a message! I will do anything possible to help a fellow quitter.
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At 5:30pm (about 5 hours ago now) I began my 30th day of quit, and I must say it feels amazing. The only regret that I have in this whole process is that I didn't start it earlier. I quit for a number of reasons, but I really started to notice what the drug was doing to my body after only 7 years of use. The physical signs of gum erosion were obvious, but I also became anxious and I feel that nicotine began affecting my memory as well (I'm only 24!). Since quitting tobacco, I am no longer anxious and man is that a great feeling. There are so many things that I am grateful for now! No more worrying about having a dip for the morning and running out to the convenient store late at night to pick up a new can. No more worrying about someone important seeing me buy a can or having a dip in, in public. No more missing out on time spent with my beautiful girlfriend or family because my selfish ass needs to have a dip in only after 6 hours of doing anything. The first week sucked ass... I can't lie, but each day gets better. Golf no longer requires a dip! Seriously! You wouldn't believe it, but you don't have to have a dip in to go fishing! For the kicker... you can still take a shit without a dip! I never knew I was capable of doing anything without a dip in! Life is so much easier and enjoyable now. I know I am an addict and will be the rest of my life.... but there is life without nicotine. If you are reading this right now and considering quitting, or you are in your early stages of quitting, please reach out! Shoot me a message! I will do anything possible to help a fellow quitter.
We quit within 24 hours however you have me beat significantly. While 7 years seems long you are making such a good decision to rewire your brain now rather than waiting another 20 years like so many of us. Keep it up and if you ever need some support pm me.
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At 5:30pm (about 5 hours ago now) I began my 30th day of quit, and I must say it feels amazing. The only regret that I have in this whole process is that I didn't start it earlier. I quit for a number of reasons, but I really started to notice what the drug was doing to my body after only 7 years of use. The physical signs of gum erosion were obvious, but I also became anxious and I feel that nicotine began affecting my memory as well (I'm only 24!). Since quitting tobacco, I am no longer anxious and man is that a great feeling. There are so many things that I am grateful for now! No more worrying about having a dip for the morning and running out to the convenient store late at night to pick up a new can. No more worrying about someone important seeing me buy a can or having a dip in, in public. No more missing out on time spent with my beautiful girlfriend or family because my selfish ass needs to have a dip in only after 6 hours of doing anything. The first week sucked ass... I can't lie, but each day gets better. Golf no longer requires a dip! Seriously! You wouldn't believe it, but you don't have to have a dip in to go fishing! For the kicker... you can still take a shit without a dip! I never knew I was capable of doing anything without a dip in! Life is so much easier and enjoyable now. I know I am an addict and will be the rest of my life.... but there is life without nicotine. If you are reading this right now and considering quitting, or you are in your early stages of quitting, please reach out! Shoot me a message! I will do anything possible to help a fellow quitter.
Congrats man! I know what you mean about fishing and golfing too. I am only 9 days into my quit, and I have done both, without a dip. I didn't realize it was possible.
I thought when you bought bait, you bought beer/chew too. And 18 rounds of golf without chew, who the fuck does that. Oh yeah, I do! Sunflower seeds are the rockstar of the golf course.
You inspire others man! Keep at it!
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Guys its Day 48...
I figured it would be a good time to reflect... especially after seeing so many vets cave as of recent. Just want to put this in here for all of the quitters that are on Day 1 or Day 430, we are all addicts and here on KTC there is one for sure way to stay quit. That is get up every morning and post roll. If you can keep your word, then how could to not succeed in quitting? The last two nights I have had dip dreams... and until two days ago I was never really sure what they were other than just hearing people talk about them. It really freaks you out when you wake up because you feel like you have let so many people down, but then you realize it was just a dream. I think they make me stronger and pull me closer to my quit brothers. For those that are new and wonder how close we brothers here are on this site, I will give you an example. The other day I had just got back from vacationing in Denver, CO and slept in until around noon. Guess who sends me a text message to make sure my quit was still strong? If your guess was wedgie, you were correct. That dude will check in on your ass like no other. That man is awesome and a true brother.
To talk about how my quit is going... I would say it is going very well, but that doesn't mean it is time to stray away from the website. We are all addicts. I went for a spell that I was chewing a lot of sunflower seeds, but I really don't even think about them anymore. Occasionally, I will have triggers come up or see someone dipping, but I think about the site and all the guys/gals and for some reason feel the power of everyone backing me up. I really appreciate it, especially to everyone before me that helped me out during those first few days.
Helms
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Day 52....
All was going pretty well other than a couple dip dreams the past couple weeks, but yesterday was a fucking day from hell. I mean I woke up craving like hell, and that bitch didn't give up until I put my head on the pillow. But you know what Nic Bitch, bring it the fuck on because I want to always remember you and every moment that I think I have you beat, please come knocking on the door. Today was better, but very stressful at work. In the old days, the nic was my crutch, but now I can tolerate the stress and don't really even think about a dip. Enjoy the fourth fellas
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Day 52....
All was going pretty well other than a couple dip dreams the past couple weeks, but yesterday was a fucking day from hell. I mean I woke up craving like hell, and that bitch didn't give up until I put my head on the pillow. But you know what Nic Bitch, bring it the fuck on because I want to always remember you and every moment that I think I have you beat, please come knocking on the door. Today was better, but very stressful at work. In the old days, the nic was my crutch, but now I can tolerate the stress and don't really even think about a dip. Enjoy the fourth fellas
She knows you are serious and now she has to bring her A game. Keep kicking her ass and she soon will ebb.
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Day 52....
All was going pretty well other than a couple dip dreams the past couple weeks, but yesterday was a fucking day from hell. I mean I woke up craving like hell, and that bitch didn't give up until I put my head on the pillow. But you know what Nic Bitch, bring it the fuck on because I want to always remember you and every moment that I think I have you beat, please come knocking on the door. Today was better, but very stressful at work. In the old days, the nic was my crutch, but now I can tolerate the stress and don't really even think about a dip. Enjoy the fourth fellas
Love it and inspirational! The nic bitch is an imposter. So glad you see it. If she shows up at your door, have me come over. That tranny is scared shittless when we have numbers!
Keep your kTC brothers involved. You can lead the charge but I want my chance to throw some punches.
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Day 52....
All was going pretty well other than a couple dip dreams the past couple weeks, but yesterday was a fucking day from hell. I mean I woke up craving like hell, and that bitch didn't give up until I put my head on the pillow. But you know what Nic Bitch, bring it the fuck on because I want to always remember you and every moment that I think I have you beat, please come knocking on the door. Today was better, but very stressful at work. In the old days, the nic was my crutch, but now I can tolerate the stress and don't really even think about a dip. Enjoy the fourth fellas
Good Job buddy - was my crutch at work too - didnt think I could make it thru long days without it..
Smack that ASS!!!
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Outstanding. Make her your puppet. You own today. You make the fucking rules.
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Day 52....
All was going pretty well other than a couple dip dreams the past couple weeks, but yesterday was a fucking day from hell. I mean I woke up craving like hell, and that bitch didn't give up until I put my head on the pillow. But you know what Nic Bitch, bring it the fuck on because I want to always remember you and every moment that I think I have you beat, please come knocking on the door. Today was better, but very stressful at work. In the old days, the nic was my crutch, but now I can tolerate the stress and don't really even think about a dip. Enjoy the fourth fellas
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You know that was day 22 23! Day 24 today.. no so bad! no one craving so far! comes and goes.. stay in the middle post up! I personally am not going to invite the Nic Bitch back! you got more balls then me.. I seriously do not want to fuck with her and I do not want her to fuck with me.. I just want us to stay the fuck out of each others way... peace and quiet! that's all I want! freedom! I have that today! Thanks Gooch[/quote]