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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: chipblue on July 29, 2013, 09:47:00 PM
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Just passed the 48hr mark the longest without nic in 6 yrs.
I quit previously for about 10yrs, Went through a divorce and thought I wanted my old lifestyle back. This little nicbitch moved right in and wouldn't leave.
For years my daughters would ask me to quit and tell me how bad it is for my health. I always told them I will "soon". Everytime I went to "my store" I hid the tin so they wouldn't see it, but they knew why I was there. It felt like I was telling them that I cared more for my shit than I did for them. I would without a question give my life for them; so why didn't I quit?
Broke my foot 2 weeks ago hurts like hell, off work for 6 to 8 weeks laid up.
I go through at least a can a day. first weak a buddy dropped my stash off.
He came over today and asked if I needed anything I told him no. He said I picked a hell of a time to try and quit.
I am ready, the pain in my foot keeps the cravings at bay. and the cravings keep the pain at bay. OR maybe I am a sucker for punishment. Either way I QUIT!
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Just passed the 48hr mark the longest without nic in 6 yrs.
I quit previously for about 10yrs, Went through a divorce and thought I wanted my old lifestyle back. This little nicbitch moved right in and wouldn't leave.
For years my daughters would ask me to quit and tell me how bad it is for my health. I always told them I will "soon". Everytime I went to "my store" I hid the tin so they wouldn't see it, but they knew why I was there. It felt like I was telling them that I cared more for my shit than I did for them. I would without a question give my life for them; so why didn't I quit?
Broke my foot 2 weeks ago hurts like hell, off work for 6 to 8 weeks laid up.
I go through at least a can a day. first weak a buddy dropped my stash off.
He came over today and asked if I needed anything I told him no. He said I picked a hell of a time to try and quit.
I am ready, the pain in my foot keeps the cravings at bay. and the cravings keep the pain at bay. OR maybe I am a sucker for punishment. Either way I QUIT!
Hey brother, you picked exactly the right time to quit. Right now is the time. Congratulations on your quit.
Now, this site is about your quit. You. You post roll, you give your word, you do what it takes to live up to your word. Then you do it again tomorrow.
I saw you posted roll, that's how you do it.
You are quit. Quit right now, it's the perfect time. You previously didn't quit, by the way. Quit means quit, you can't shake that shit!
I quit with you!
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Just passed the 48hr mark the longest without nic in 6 yrs.
I quit previously for about 10yrs, Went through a divorce and thought I wanted my old lifestyle back. This little nicbitch moved right in and wouldn't leave.
For years my daughters would ask me to quit and tell me how bad it is for my health. I always told them I will "soon". Everytime I went to "my store" I hid the tin so they wouldn't see it, but they knew why I was there. It felt like I was telling them that I cared more for my shit than I did for them. I would without a question give my life for them; so why didn't I quit?
Broke my foot 2 weeks ago hurts like hell, off work for 6 to 8 weeks laid up.
I go through at least a can a day. first weak a buddy dropped my stash off.
He came over today and asked if I needed anything I told him no. He said I picked a hell of a time to try and quit.
I am ready, the pain in my foot keeps the cravings at bay. and the cravings keep the pain at bay. OR maybe I am a sucker for punishment. Either way I QUIT!
Hey brother, you picked exactly the right time to quit. Right now is the time. Congratulations on your quit.
Now, this site is about your quit. You. You post roll, you give your word, you do what it takes to live up to your word. Then you do it again tomorrow.
I saw you posted roll, that's how you do it.
You are quit. Quit right now, it's the perfect time. You previously didn't quit, by the way. Quit means quit, you can't shake that shit!
I quit with you!
Tell your buddy next time to drop you off some seeds, jerky, candy, gum or whatever tool you might think you need to help you wit any craves. Post roll and repeat, I quit wit you One Day At A Time.
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Go to the Welcome Center link above. Click and read. Post roll and take it one day at a time. You can do this, brother!
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Go to the Welcome Center link above. Click and read. Post roll and take it one day at a time. You can do this, brother!
I did what Mr. Bean (below) said 432 days ago.
It works for me and all the brotherhood here.
If I can do this, you can too.
Cheers and welcome to getting your life back.
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Thanks guys,
Still going strong, but today was the hardest day yet. I thought at 72hrs things would taper down. the fog is really bad, my teeth ach, my head hurts, heart feels like it is pounding out of my chest.
but I don't want to have to start all over. I will beat this
It does get better right?
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Thanks guys,
Still going strong, but today was the hardest day yet. I thought at 72hrs things would taper down. the fog is really bad, my teeth ach, my head hurts, heart feels like it is pounding out of my chest.
but I don't want to have to start all over. I will beat this
It does get better right?
You are at a really tough time as your body is draining the nic out of your system. It does get better. It really sucks right now for you - remember this feeling and never don't forget how bad it sucks. Keep fighting. You can do it! Quit with you!
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Thanks guys,
Still going strong, but today was the hardest day yet. I thought at 72hrs things would taper down. the fog is really bad, my teeth ach, my head hurts, heart feels like it is pounding out of my chest.
but I don't want to have to start all over. I will beat this
It does get better right?
It does. It takes time. The physical pain will end soon. Unfortunately, that's not necessarily the bad part. The mind will continue to tell you that you need it, almost constantly, for about three weeks. That will pass. Still not the toughest part. For three months she'll try the ol sneak attack at your weakest moments. You gotta win every time. One lapse and the whole damn thing starts over.
Buuuuutttttt, you can win. We do. Every day.
Go post roll in your group. That is your promise not to use today. You're a man of your word, right? You can keep your promise for one measley day. Good. Tomorrow we'll repeat the process. Next thing you know, you'll be in here telling newbies how great freedom is. It'll go by faster than you think.
Yota 1478 days, and freedom is great.
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Thanks guys,
Still going strong, but today was the hardest day yet. I thought at 72hrs things would taper down. the fog is really bad, my teeth ach, my head hurts, heart feels like it is pounding out of my chest.
but I don't want to have to start all over. I will beat this
It does get better right?
It does. It takes time. The physical pain will end soon. Unfortunately, that's not necessarily the bad part. The mind will continue to tell you that you need it, almost constantly, for about three weeks. That will pass. Still not the toughest part. For three months she'll try the ol sneak attack at your weakest moments. You gotta win every time. One lapse and the whole damn thing starts over.
Buuuuutttttt, you can win. We do. Every day.
Go post roll in your group. That is your promise not to use today. You're a man of your word, right? You can keep your promise for one measley day. Good. Tomorrow we'll repeat the process. Next thing you know, you'll be in here telling newbies how great freedom is. It'll go by faster than you think.
Yota 1478 days, and freedom is great.
Indeed.
You have no idea how great things will get.
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"I am ready, the pain in my foot keeps the cravings at bay. and the cravings keep the pain at bay. OR maybe I am a sucker for punishment. Either way I QUIT!"
This may be the best thing I have ever read! I almost want to break my foot and see how well this works. Like my man said earlier, NOW is the best time to quit! And if the pain helps then you are in a double win! It does suck today, But it DOES get better! You are at the beginning of a long road that gives you back your freedom and dignity! I am glad to see you here. It shows that you want to live free! Thousands have gone before us, So I know that we can do it as well! Read all that you can and you will learn the way! Post roll and give your word! It is a one day at a time affair! Surely you can do it for a day right?
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Thanks guys,
Still going strong, but today was the hardest day yet. I thought at 72hrs things would taper down. the fog is really bad, my teeth ach, my head hurts, heart feels like it is pounding out of my chest.
but I don't want to have to start all over. I will beat this
It does get better right?
It does. It takes time. The physical pain will end soon. Unfortunately, that's not necessarily the bad part. The mind will continue to tell you that you need it, almost constantly, for about three weeks. That will pass. Still not the toughest part. For three months she'll try the ol sneak attack at your weakest moments. You gotta win every time. One lapse and the whole damn thing starts over.
Buuuuutttttt, you can win. We do. Every day.
Go post roll in your group. That is your promise not to use today. You're a man of your word, right? You can keep your promise for one measley day. Good. Tomorrow we'll repeat the process. Next thing you know, you'll be in here telling newbies how great freedom is. It'll go by faster than you think.
Yota 1478 days, and freedom is great.
Indeed.
You have no idea how great things will get.
Dude, Welcome to the ride of your life! You can "be quit" for good....ODAAT just like all of us here.
Follow the advice given..to the letter...don't think there is a "shortcut" to being quit. This koolaid works wonders and I wouldn't drink anything else...
I am on my first and last quit of 433 days after dipping for 30 yrs 24/7.....Thanks to KTC and the brotherhood.
You found the place now learn the tools...your life depends on it, ya know.
Wait to long and you may regret it.
1 problem + nicotine = 2 problems.
Cheers and Welcome to the real world.
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Thanks guys,
Still going strong, but today was the hardest day yet. I thought at 72hrs things would taper down. the fog is really bad, my teeth ach, my head hurts, heart feels like it is pounding out of my chest.
but I don't want to have to start all over. I will beat this
It does get better right?
I guarantee you it gets better. But don't ever forget this period of your quit because who would want to go through it again?
Welcome to freedom my friend!
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Thanks guys,
Still going strong, but today was the hardest day yet. I thought at 72hrs things would taper down. the fog is really bad, my teeth ach, my head hurts, heart feels like it is pounding out of my chest.
but I don't want to have to start all over. I will beat this
It does get better right?
I guarantee you it gets better. But don't ever forget this period of your quit because who would want to go through it again?
Welcome to freedom my friend!
Congrats, Chipblue and hang in there. No more lies.
I don't have anything else to add... but I am looking for an emoticon equivalent to start a slow clap for Kubrick's avatar...
'clap'
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Just hit 40 days quit; still have some cravings and some weak moments at times. At about 30 days that nicbitch told me good job you made it this far you deserve a dip today as a reward; WTF! I went to the live chat and got some backup, and kicked that nicbitch in the face.
I still have a cast on my foot and it is hard to get around. Last night I asked my 12yr old daughter to bring me my drink on the kitchen counter. She said the only cup she sees has spit in it. I told her it was tea and reminded her that I haven't chewed tobacco in over a month. She looked proud of me and asked me to never start again. I promised her I wouldn't.
That made me realize how much this nicbitch not only affected my life, but also the lives of my daughters. They will probably never be able to pick up a cup or bottle without looking to see if there is spit in it. I wonder how much in other ways it has negatively affected them; I feel ashamed.
If there is one thing on this earth I will not tolerate is something hurting my kids. SO LISTEN THE FUCK UP NICBITCH YOU FUCKED WITH MY KIDS THERE IS NO FUCKING CHANCE OF YOU EVER COMING BACK AGAIN, NOW FUCK OFF!!
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Awesome work congrats on 40 days CB!
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WOW Congrats on the 40 day mark chipblue. That's absolutely awesome!! 'clap'
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Just hit 40 days quit; still have some cravings and some weak moments at times. At about 30 days that nicbitch told me good job you made it this far you deserve a dip today as a reward; WTF! I went to the live chat and got some backup, and kicked that nicbitch in the face.
I still have a cast on my foot and it is hard to get around. Last night I asked my 12yr old daughter to bring me my drink on the kitchen counter. She said the only cup she sees has spit in it. I told her it was tea and reminded her that I haven't chewed tobacco in over a month. She looked proud of me and asked me to never start again. I promised her I wouldn't.
That made me realize how much this nicbitch not only affected my life, but also the lives of my daughters. They will probably never be able to pick up a cup or bottle without looking to see if there is spit in it. I wonder how much in other ways it has negatively affected them; I feel ashamed.
If there is one thing on this earth I will not tolerate is something hurting my kids. SO LISTEN THE FUCK UP NICBITCH YOU FUCKED WITH MY KIDS THERE IS NO FUCKING CHANCE OF YOU EVER COMING BACK AGAIN, NOW FUCK OFF!!
One day at a time brother. Soon your daughters will forget what daddy used to do. I have a daughter and she knows I have quit for over 100 days now. We all make mistakes dude. But your kids will remember how much of a badass you were when you quit. Overtime they will forget daddy dipped. Just keep pushing through man. You got this and I quit with you brother.
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Just hit 40 days quit; still have some cravings and some weak moments at times. At about 30 days that nicbitch told me good job you made it this far you deserve a dip today as a reward; WTF! I went to the live chat and got some backup, and kicked that nicbitch in the face.
I still have a cast on my foot and it is hard to get around. Last night I asked my 12yr old daughter to bring me my drink on the kitchen counter. She said the only cup she sees has spit in it. I told her it was tea and reminded her that I haven't chewed tobacco in over a month. She looked proud of me and asked me to never start again. I promised her I wouldn't.
That made me realize how much this nicbitch not only affected my life, but also the lives of my daughters. They will probably never be able to pick up a cup or bottle without looking to see if there is spit in it. I wonder how much in other ways it has negatively affected them; I feel ashamed.
If there is one thing on this earth I will not tolerate is something hurting my kids. SO LISTEN THE FUCK UP NICBITCH YOU FUCKED WITH MY KIDS THERE IS NO FUCKING CHANCE OF YOU EVER COMING BACK AGAIN, NOW FUCK OFF!!
One day at a time brother. Soon your daughters will forget what daddy used to do. I have a daughter and she knows I have quit for over 100 days now. We all make mistakes dude. But your kids will remember how much of a badass you were when you quit. Overtime they will forget daddy dipped. Just keep pushing through man. You got this and I quit with you brother.
on a road trip my wifey drank (I mean swallowed from my spitter) I had to pull over and she hurled. My son was old enough to know what happened. That memory has will haunt me for years... But now it's a tool in my box. ammo if you will, to remind me that there's absolutely no way in hell i will put a dip in my mouth today. Tomorrow I'll say the same thing. At my worst moments in this journey, exercise probably did the most for me.. If I was feeling down, the exercise would always clear my mind, and I actually got in shape to boot.
pm if you need anything.. peace
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My name is Mike, I'm an Elevator Mechanic in Toledo Oh. I have 2 daughters. I started dipping at 15 but stopped for 10 years while I was married, went through a divorce in 2007 and that nic bitch climbed back in my bed a week after the ex moved out. While here I have learned that I will never be "cured" because I am addicted, but each day I will make the promise that I will stay quit for today ODAAT. 1 problem + NIC = 2 problems is another tool that KTC has taught me. Erussels intro was the most inspiring for me. Dabean helped me out in live chat one night, he's someone I wouldn't want on my ass. Favorite quote is from Mike Tyson "Everybody has a plan until they get punched in the mouth." Seems so appropriate here.
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Nice milestone bro! See you for a + 1 tomorrow...
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My name is Mike, I'm an Elevator Mechanic in Toledo Oh. I have 2 daughters. I started dipping at 15 but stopped for 10 years while I was married, went through a divorce in 2007 and that nic bitch climbed back in my bed a week after the ex moved out. While here I have learned that I will never be "cured" because I am addicted, but each day I will make the promise that I will stay quit for today ODAAT. 1 problem + NIC = 2 problems is another tool that KTC has taught me. Erussels intro was the most inspiring for me. Dabean helped me out in live chat one night, he's someone I wouldn't want on my ass. Favorite quote is from Mike Tyson "Everybody has a plan until they get punched in the mouth." Seems so appropriate here.
Wooo Hooooooo ChipBlue!!!! Great job brother. I'm so freaking proud to have you here brother.