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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Stonemac on June 06, 2016, 10:17:00 PM
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I'm really nervous about quitting. I'm afraid that my willpower is not strong enough. Every time I try and quit it lasts about 10 min and then the little demon voice inside my head says screw it. Im scared of being miserable. Even though I already am, I scared of being more miserable and shitty to be around. Something has to give because it is running my life and making me a shitty person. I've been addicted to other things and quit , but this can is my last and only friend left, and I'm terrified of how I'm going to get through life without it. Nicotine has been a part of me for 20 years now and over the past couple of years I have succumbed to its intense power and am a full blown slave to it. Please, I need some guidance. :(
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I'm really nervous about quitting. I'm afraid that my willpower is not strong enough. Every time I try and quit it lasts about 10 min and then the little demon voice inside my head says screw it. Im scared of being miserable. Even though I already am, I scared of being more miserable and shitty to be around. Something has to give because it is running my life and making me a shitty person. I've been addicted to other things and quit , but this can is my last and only friend left, and I'm terrified of how I'm going to get through life without it. Nicotine has been a part of me for 20 years now and over the past couple of years I have succumbed to its intense power and am a full blown slave to it. Please, I need some guidance. :(
Hey stone guess what you're an addict! Just like the rest of us here. When you're ready to admit it you want be lusting over the very thing that could eventually kill you. Until you learn to hate the shit and I'm not saying it's gonna happen over night, bit if you give it a chance it will happen. Don't waste your time until you decide you can make it more than 10 min. But if you can post roll and be a man of your word, you will have all kinds of accountability! Because here we don't worry about next week or tomorrow only today, this very next minute. I dipped 38 year's and have now been quit for 527 days! Only and I do mean only because of ktc! So get your big boy drawers on and let's do this, I will say it's gonna suck but everyone here will know exactly what you're going through. I've said enough, I will be waiting to see if you are the man and post roll! I quit with you!
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I'm really nervous about quitting. I'm afraid that my willpower is not strong enough. Every time I try and quit it lasts about 10 min and then the little demon voice inside my head says screw it. Im scared of being miserable. Even though I already am, I scared of being more miserable and shitty to be around. Something has to give because it is running my life and making me a shitty person. I've been addicted to other things and quit , but this can is my last and only friend left, and I'm terrified of how I'm going to get through life without it. Nicotine has been a part of me for 20 years now and over the past couple of years I have succumbed to its intense power and am a full blown slave to it. Please, I need some guidance. :(
Sir stone,
Nic was part of my life for 32 years. I have been nic free for 14 days. They have been hard. They have not been fun. A couple of them were downright miserable! But the one thing that I can say is that I have not had nic for 14 days. Like you, I was able to quit for about 10 minutes. The brotherhood and accountability of KTC has gotten me this far. Man, stick to the plan and post roll. You can do this. All of us here have gone through ( and going through) what you are.
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Stone,
That is why we are here, we can't do it alone. Let us support you and in turn you support us, win, win.
Jump in and don't look back!
Idaho Spuds
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25 year dipper, been clean for 138 days. 10 minutes was about my limit before that, too.
Quitting sucks really bad in the beginning. But once you're free, it's unbelievable.
Post roll. Keep your word. Quit one day at a time. Stay quit for the day. Not easy, but simple.
If you're ready, you'll be a member of the September quit group.
I promise you this - it won't be easier to start your quit tomorrow.
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Stone,
We feel your pain...we have ALL lived through it (some of us more than once). Work the system, embrace the suck that will be your life until you get through it, and you'll be free. You'll always be an addict, but you'll be an addict who has learned how to beat your addiction daily. We're here with you, because we know that this system....honor, accountability, brotherhood/sisterhood....works to keep us clean from that insidious weed.... Quit with you today.
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I'm really nervous about quitting. I'm afraid that my willpower is not strong enough. Every time I try and quit it lasts about 10 min and then the little demon voice inside my head says screw it. Im scared of being miserable. Even though I already am, I scared of being more miserable and shitty to be around. Something has to give because it is running my life and making me a shitty person. I've been addicted to other things and quit , but this can is my last and only friend left, and I'm terrified of how I'm going to get through life without it. Nicotine has been a part of me for 20 years now and over the past couple of years I have succumbed to its intense power and am a full blown slave to it. Please, I need some guidance. :(
Stone...
This first step you're making is huge, and scary. I've been exactly where you are and now I'm 142 days quit and it's the absolute best decision I could have made. It will suck at first and it's a fight you'll have to fight every day, but do it one day at a time. Don't worry about getting through the rest of your life without this shit. Worry about today.
This quote from you is the most disturbing - "but this can is my last and only friend left, and I'm terrified of how I'm going to get through life without it."
The can is not your friend. Read this immediately and really think about what it says. My Best Friend? (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/11505226/) You need to get pissed off and brace yourself for a fight with this thing that is trying to fucking kill you. You'll find a ton of friends here that will support you every step of the way.
Start getting your mind wrapped around the fact that you absolutely can do this, that no can of shit can make you a slave and start kicking its ass one day at a time.
Get in with the September 2016 group now and start posting your promise every day. YOU CAN DO THIS!
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My advice is to flush every can you have, post roll, buckle up, and quit.
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Come on Stonemac, I see you were here today............you quit or what?
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I got a PM back from Stone last night and today should be his Day 1. I sent links to welcome center and how to post roll as well as links to Sept group. He has my digits and an open invitation to text or call me for help getting started. I encouraged him to go to Sept. group, announce he is quit and joining and attempt roll - but just go post and start now. Hoping he shows and follows through!
Stone - we're all here for you and will get you going... YOU CAN DO THIS!
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I'm here. I quit. today is day 1
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I'm here. I quit. today is day 1
I know how you feel from your original post. I also see you posted roll. Just get through today man--you'd better, you promised. Once you do, you'll know you can do it a second. And third, and so on.
Lots of us have done it. It sucked, for sure. But it's worth it.
Welcome.
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Good job posting roll today, even if you caused a major bump :) Always make sure to go to the very last page, hit F5 a lot and make sure you are working from the absolute most current version of the roll post so you don't cut off names of others that posted before - you can also check the bottom of the screen to see who else is viewing the page and if anyone is currently posting so you don't post over the top of them...
You'll get the hang of it and even if you bump every day, the group has your back - the most important thing is that you make your promise and that you stay quit that day!
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Quit with you today Stone.
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I'm here. I quit. today is day 1
How are you doing? Still with us?
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Stone, today I quit with you.