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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Yodal on February 27, 2017, 02:29:00 PM
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Hi all,
First of all, I put tomorrow as my quit because I packed my last lip this morning with my coffee.
I originally was planning on Mar. 1st. But I milked the last can as long as I could.
So fuck it...
I've been a Nicotine whore sense I was 12 years old. I am now 53...
Started smoking, then the patch then the gum then the can.
Sometimes all at the same time.
It's a fucked up drug.
Anyway, I've been reading the shit out of this site for about 2 weeks while I throttled back on dipping.
Now is the time....
It's kind of freaking me out...
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Hi all,
First of all, I put tomorrow as my quit because I packed my last lip this morning with my coffee.
I originally was planning on Mar. 1st. But I milked the last can as long as I could.
So fuck it...
I've been a Nicotine whore sense I was 12 years old. I am now 53...
Started smoking, then the patch then the gum then the can.
Sometimes all at the same time.
It's a fucked up drug.
Anyway, I've been reading the shit out of this site for about 2 weeks while I throttled back on dipping.
Now is the time....
It's kind of freaking me out...
Make Today your Day 1! Don't put anything else into your lip today (aside from food and liquids that are nicotine free) and then do it again tomorrow. Day 1 is the last day you had dip/nicotine. Are you done today? If so, post up in June your Day 1.
This place works one day at a time. We quit one day at a time and do it everyday early. Do it! You will be so excited that you did when you realize how awesome it is to be quit from this vial drug!
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Today is absolutely your quit day 1. We have a lot of guys here that have used as long as you have. I'm sure you're scared as hell, but if they can do it, I know you can (some of them are real douchers, and you definitely don't seem like one . . . yet). Go and post roll young man, and keep your promise not to use today. You keep this day 1 and turn tomorrow into day 2. That's what we do here, over and over. I'm going to post support over in June now. I better see you there.
Jack
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Bottom line is this....if you are not quitting for YOURSELF then you may as well run to store, buy a new can, and stuff your face. This site only works when you make it work.
There IS no easy way out of the hole you have dug for yourself, you must buckle down and get ready to fight like hell each and every day. NEVER look ahead and NEVER look back.
You CAN break the addiction. It its 95% mental and you must retrain your brain to think differently.
Always remember that this IS a life and death choice, if not today, then tomorrow , or the next but sooner or later dip WILL KILL YOU!!
Post roll and read as much as possible from the site. If you need my digits HMU. I know its cliché as hell but I swear if I can quit then you can too! over 24 years I stuff my faced with a can of rat poison per day, trust me I know exactly what you're going through! Stay strong and be strong
Remember only you can quit for you!
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Don't freak out bud you got this! Post roll and take it one day at a time. hell take it one hour at a time if you need to. Drink that water and don't fixate on chewing, I would suggest some fake stuff for now, seeds or gum whatever. If you been reading on here a couple weeks you probably know the tools that are there to fight this addiction, it works, Guzzle all the Kool-aid you can, because its your life on the line. Quit Strong!
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Glad to see you post day 2. Take tobacco off the table. Never Again For Any Reason!
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Glad to see you post day 2. Take tobacco off the table. Never Again For Any Reason!
Well, I'm pretty far into day 3. I posted roll this morning.
I've been eating sunflower seeds like I have stock in the company.
I still feel this FUCKING RAGE sometimes!
And sorry to say, it's mostly pointed at my wife!!
And it isn't her fault!
Thank god it's been nice outside...
I've been taking walks and splitting wood to try and ease that shit back.
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Glad to see you post day 2. Take tobacco off the table. Never Again For Any Reason!
Well, I'm pretty far into day 3. I posted roll this morning.
I've been eating sunflower seeds like I have stock in the company.
I still feel this FUCKING RAGE sometimes!
And sorry to say, it's mostly pointed at my wife!!
And it isn't her fault!
Thank god it's been nice outside...
I've been taking walks and splitting wood to try and ease that shit back.
STOP pointing your rage at your wife. That is why this place exists. Come in here and freak out at people. Just pick someone and go bananas on them. We all know what is it like to quit and the rage and we all felt and sometimes still feel. THIS is the place for that. Not her...not anyone else (friends, family, kids, pets, etc.). WE are the ones you need to rage on. Go crazy on me...I can take it. Pick a fight with me...I'll receive it and then I'll keep coming back here each day supporting you.
Use this place as a resource for your quit each day every day. You got it...it is here for you to use. Do it!
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Glad to see you post day 2. Take tobacco off the table. Never Again For Any Reason!
Well, I'm pretty far into day 3. I posted roll this morning.
I've been eating sunflower seeds like I have stock in the company.
I still feel this FUCKING RAGE sometimes!
And sorry to say, it's mostly pointed at my wife!!
And it isn't her fault!
Thank god it's been nice outside...
I've been taking walks and splitting wood to try and ease that shit back.
STOP pointing your rage at your wife. That is why this place exists. Come in here and freak out at people. Just pick someone and go bananas on them. We all know what is it like to quit and the rage and we all felt and sometimes still feel. THIS is the place for that. Not her...not anyone else (friends, family, kids, pets, etc.). WE are the ones you need to rage on. Go crazy on me...I can take it. Pick a fight with me...I'll receive it and then I'll keep coming back here each day supporting you.
Use this place as a resource for your quit each day every day. You got it...it is here for you to use. Do it!
'Crazy'
OK Man!!
You asked for it!!
Thanks!
Maybe I should apologize in advance...
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Glad to see you post day 2. Take tobacco off the table. Never Again For Any Reason!
Well, I'm pretty far into day 3. I posted roll this morning.
I've been eating sunflower seeds like I have stock in the company.
I still feel this FUCKING RAGE sometimes!
And sorry to say, it's mostly pointed at my wife!!
And it isn't her fault!
Thank god it's been nice outside...
I've been taking walks and splitting wood to try and ease that shit back.
STOP pointing your rage at your wife. That is why this place exists. Come in here and freak out at people. Just pick someone and go bananas on them. We all know what is it like to quit and the rage and we all felt and sometimes still feel. THIS is the place for that. Not her...not anyone else (friends, family, kids, pets, etc.). WE are the ones you need to rage on. Go crazy on me...I can take it. Pick a fight with me...I'll receive it and then I'll keep coming back here each day supporting you.
Use this place as a resource for your quit each day every day. You got it...it is here for you to use. Do it!
'Crazy'
OK Man!!
You asked for it!!
Thanks!
Maybe I should apologize in advance...
Nah... let 'er rip.
It's more fun that way.
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Glad to see you post day 2. Take tobacco off the table. Never Again For Any Reason!
Well, I'm pretty far into day 3. I posted roll this morning.
I've been eating sunflower seeds like I have stock in the company.
I still feel this FUCKING RAGE sometimes!
And sorry to say, it's mostly pointed at my wife!!
And it isn't her fault!
Thank god it's been nice outside...
I've been taking walks and splitting wood to try and ease that shit back.
STOP pointing your rage at your wife. That is why this place exists. Come in here and freak out at people. Just pick someone and go bananas on them. We all know what is it like to quit and the rage and we all felt and sometimes still feel. THIS is the place for that. Not her...not anyone else (friends, family, kids, pets, etc.). WE are the ones you need to rage on. Go crazy on me...I can take it. Pick a fight with me...I'll receive it and then I'll keep coming back here each day supporting you.
Use this place as a resource for your quit each day every day. You got it...it is here for you to use. Do it!
'Crazy'
OK Man!!
You asked for it!!
Thanks!
Maybe I should apologize in advance...
Nah... let 'er rip.
It's more fun that way.
Hey Yodal. I too take my rage, boredom or what ever out on my woodpile. Nothing like splitting a half cord of wood by hand to take away a crave. Hang in there buddy, you will get through this and life will be much better. This is life or death and you gotta get this done!
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So I posted roll this morning and when I went to see who else was there,
my name was gone...
Do I need to do it again?
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So I posted roll this morning and when I went to see who else was there,
my name was gone...
Do I need to do it again?
That is called a BUMP...it is when someone posts a prior roll of yours OR is posting at the same time as you. Just post it again and point it out that you got bumped. This happens in every new group for two reasons:
1. You all are in the fog and are not seeing straight so others get bumped or you bump others or you get bumped off roll.
2. All of you newbies are learning the forum and don't quite know it yet...in due time you all will figure it out and then bumps will be almost obsolete.
Just post again...I know you posted and I can also see in your post history that you did. You will all learn soon enough.
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So I posted roll this morning and when I went to see who else was there,
my name was gone...
Do I need to do it again?
That is called a BUMP...it is when someone posts a prior roll of yours OR is posting at the same time as you. Just post it again and point it out that you got bumped. This happens in every new group for two reasons:
1. You all are in the fog and are not seeing straight so others get bumped or you bump others or you get bumped off roll.
2. All of you newbies are learning the forum and don't quite know it yet...in due time you all will figure it out and then bumps will be almost obsolete.
Just post again...I know you posted and I can also see in your post history that you did. You will all learn soon enough.
Ok.
Thanks...
I don't want to miss roll. For some reason that shit feels important!
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So I posted roll this morning and when I went to see who else was there,
my name was gone...
Do I need to do it again?
That is called a BUMP...it is when someone posts a prior roll of yours OR is posting at the same time as you. Just post it again and point it out that you got bumped. This happens in every new group for two reasons:
1. You all are in the fog and are not seeing straight so others get bumped or you bump others or you get bumped off roll.
2. All of you newbies are learning the forum and don't quite know it yet...in due time you all will figure it out and then bumps will be almost obsolete.
Just post again...I know you posted and I can also see in your post history that you did. You will all learn soon enough.
Ok.
Thanks...
I don't want to miss roll. For some reason that shit feels important!
Good! It is important! You didn't miss roll as I can see you posted at 8:51AM this morning. You just got bumped off. What I like is that if you are pissed you are bumped off, that means you are invested in your quit! That is fantastic! Bumps will happen...they just will...just keep it up each day!
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Welcome Yodal. You've been dipping for a long time. I had been dipping a long time as well. I've been quit for a year. I turn 57 in a couple of weeks. If I can do this, so can you.
Check out the links in my signature. Start with My Intro. I've shared a lot this past year.
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FUCK!!!
Fuck you! Fuck this shit!!!
Fuck the gas station that I drive by EVERY FUCKING DAY!!!
THAT SELLS THAT SHIT IN A CAN THAT IS PISSING ME THE FUCK OFF!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!
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FUCK!!!
Fuck you! Fuck this shit!!!
Fuck the gas station that I drive by EVERY FUCKING DAY!!!
THAT SELLS THAT SHIT IN A CAN THAT IS PISSING ME THE FUCK OFF!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!
Yep. ^^^^^ It's like that, and don't ever forget it. Also your promise is in for the day so there's no turning back. Proud to quit with you today
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FUCK!!!
Fuck you! Fuck this shit!!!
Fuck the gas station that I drive by EVERY FUCKING DAY!!!
THAT SELLS THAT SHIT IN A CAN THAT IS PISSING ME THE FUCK OFF!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!
Yep. ^^^^^ It's like that, and don't ever forget it. Also your promise is in for the day so there's no turning back. Proud to quit with you today
Indeed
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FUCK!!!
Fuck you! Fuck this shit!!!
Fuck the gas station that I drive by EVERY FUCKING DAY!!!
THAT SELLS THAT SHIT IN A CAN THAT IS PISSING ME THE FUCK OFF!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!
Yep. ^^^^^ It's like that, and don't ever forget it. Also your promise is in for the day so there's no turning back. Proud to quit with you today
Indeed
There I go again. That last post was just not helpful at all.
I understand your sentiment. Everyone here does as well. You are most certainly not alone.
You can do this. You can.
It will get so much better. But first you must pay the price. The price is worth it. It is.
NAFAR!
P.S. Once you get through this part, you won't have to do it again. I haven't had to post what you just posted in over 6 or 7 years. Read that part again, 6 or 7 YEARS! Not days, YEARS! It gets that good.
You hear me?
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FUCK!!!
Fuck you! Fuck this shit!!!
Fuck the gas station that I drive by EVERY FUCKING DAY!!!
THAT SELLS THAT SHIT IN A CAN THAT IS PISSING ME THE FUCK OFF!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!
Yep. ^^^^^ It's like that, and don't ever forget it. Also your promise is in for the day so there's no turning back. Proud to quit with you today
Indeed
There I go again. That last post was just not helpful at all.
I understand your sentiment. Everyone here does as well. You are most certainly not alone.
You can do this. You can.
It will get so much better. But first you must pay the price. The price is worth it. It is.
NAFAR!
P.S. Once you get through this part, you won't have to do it again. I haven't had to post what you just posted in over 6 or 7 years. Read that part again, 6 or 7 YEARS! Not days, YEARS! It gets that good.
You hear me?
I'm better now....
I thought after 3 days the nic was out of my system, and I'd be fine.
Driving by the gas station this morning was kind of fucked up!
Then it pissed me off... :)
I'm finding that the morning is the hardest....
Thanks for responding to a raving junkie!
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FUCK!!!
Fuck you! Fuck this shit!!!
Fuck the gas station that I drive by EVERY FUCKING DAY!!!
THAT SELLS THAT SHIT IN A CAN THAT IS PISSING ME THE FUCK OFF!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!
Yep. ^^^^^ It's like that, and don't ever forget it. Also your promise is in for the day so there's no turning back. Proud to quit with you today
Indeed
There I go again. That last post was just not helpful at all.
I understand your sentiment. Everyone here does as well. You are most certainly not alone.
You can do this. You can.
It will get so much better. But first you must pay the price. The price is worth it. It is.
NAFAR!
P.S. Once you get through this part, you won't have to do it again. I haven't had to post what you just posted in over 6 or 7 years. Read that part again, 6 or 7 YEARS! Not days, YEARS! It gets that good.
You hear me?
I'm better now....
I thought after 3 days the nic was out of my system, and I'd be fine.
Driving by the gas station this morning was kind of fucked up!
Then it pissed me off... :)
I'm finding that the morning is the hardest....
Thanks for responding to a raving junkie!
No worries. You are not alone.
Click on this link to see what to expect in the first 100 days (https://www.killthecan.org/your-quit/what-to-expect-when-you-quit-dipping/)
Everyone is different but the expectations are pretty accurate in a general way.
NAFAR!
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Well.....
I survived my first weekend without having any nicotine.
It feels kind of anti-climatic. It's been 8 days now, and I feel just kind of blaaa.
I figured I'd be a little more excited about this!
But really I just feel.... 'Finger'
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Well.....
I survived my first weekend without having any nicotine.
It feels kind of anti-climatic. It's been 8 days now, and I feel just kind of blaaa.
I figured I'd be a little more excited about this!
But really I just feel.... 'Finger'
Trust me. The freedom gets so much sweeter when your addict mind stops f...ing around with you. at 540 days nic free is sweet. You are doing great!
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Well.....
I survived my first weekend without having any nicotine.
It feels kind of anti-climatic. It's been 8 days now, and I feel just kind of blaaa.
I figured I'd be a little more excited about this!
But really I just feel.... 'Finger'
Trust me. The freedom gets so much sweeter when your addict mind stops f...ing around with you. at 540 days nic free is sweet. You are doing great!
Yodal,
I hate to break it to you, bubba, but the physical withdrawal is actually the EASY part. The MENTAL mind-f#ck you're about to go through is far worse, and lasts much longer. But take heart, I have searched EXTENSIVELY across the world-wide-web and cannot find a single instance where nicotine withdrawal actually killed anyone....it just feels like it sometimes. Keep coming back here and unleashing the rage.....sooner or later (most likely the latter) it will subside. And then it gets so much better. Solidly in your corner bubba. I was a Copenhagen freak for nearly four decades. Been free for a THOUSAND days now. And I'm still not cured. I have the addiction under control, but I will never be cured.
Let's do this; I'll do it with you!
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Well.....
I survived my first weekend without having any nicotine.
It feels kind of anti-climatic. It's been 8 days now, and I feel just kind of blaaa.
I figured I'd be a little more excited about this!
But really I just feel.... 'Finger'
Same boat.
Same age.
Same story.
Same style.
You can do this Yodal.
Lean on your support.
Your support is the TRUTH.
And the Truth sets us free.
Nicotine is a lie.
I quit with you today.
Rawls 841
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Have you ever just wanted to run away from everything and everyone?
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Have you ever just wanted to run away from everything and everyone?
Yes, I have seven kids?
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So here it is, 53 days of fairly easy quit... (except for the first few days)
But! For the last 3 days I've been hankerin a cigar or a cigarette or a fat cheek full!
I know what the trigger is, It's because my relationship is ending and it's a stressful time.
So I've been eating seeds until it feels like mike tongue is bleeding or throw in a little Jakes, and ride it out.
But it's starting to scare me a little!
The crave usually goes away! But it's been lingering. And it gets to to thinking.
What the fuck?
Who the fuck REALLY cares if I smoke, chew or do any other fucking thing!
Anyway...
I'm just pissed off and feeling like I needed to vent..
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So here it is, 53 days of fairly easy quit... (except for the first few days)
But! For the last 3 days I've been hankerin a cigar or a cigarette or a fat cheek full!
I know what the trigger is, It's because my relationship is ending and it's a stressful time.
So I've been eating seeds until it feels like mike tongue is bleeding or throw in a little Jakes, and ride it out.
But it's starting to scare me a little!
The crave usually goes away! But it's been lingering. And it gets to to thinking.
What the fuck?
Who the fuck REALLY cares if I smoke, chew or do any other fucking thing!
Anyway...
I'm just pissed off and feeling like I needed to vent..
You need to quit for yourself. Who cares? Well I do. And a bunch of other strangers that you can ask for the shit you need to stay quit.
But who is really the one that cares? YOU
Drink more water, get some exercise and realize you are going through a rough part of your quit.
I quit with you today.... good luck with the relationship